#remus screams in joy

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Prompt 14 - Scream

@wolfstarmicrofic October 14, word count 224

“BOO!!!” Sirius yelled, jumping out from behind a suit of armour. Remus just continued walking, not even flinching at the sudden appearance of his boyfriend. “Damn it, Remus,” Sirius grumbled as he made the latest attempt to make Remus scream failed. He’d never heard him make more than a shocked huff. He had no idea why he needed to hear this sound, but he’d become obsessed with the idea, and poor Remus had so far endured about twenty attempts to make him scream, including Sirius throwing a transformed Peter into Remus’s lap in Arithmancy. But Remus had simply picked up the trembling rat and placed him safely in his pocket while he finished off his equation.

It took him a while to realise that scaring Remus wasn’t the way to go; he was a werewolf for Merlin’s sake, and of course, he wouldn’t scare easily. So Sirius did the one thing he knew would get a reaction: he bought Remus a book. But not just any book. The first edition of his favourite book, including illustrations by the author themselves. He left it on Remus’s pillow, neatly wrapped and waited. 

An excited scream carried down the stairs into the common room where Sirius was waiting. He smiled, yep an excited scream from Remus Lupin was way better than a shocked one could ever be.  

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portrait - October 22 - wolfstar - @taylorswiftmicrofic - word count: 332

"Remus, can you come with me for a moment?"

He gazed down at Sirius, who, so often now, just seemed lost and downtrodden. He was a shell of his teenage self, still healing from his time in Azkaban, and now he had to deal with being back in his childhood home. It killed Remus to see him like this.

But for the first time in a long time, there was a true glimmer of mischief in his eyes, a flash of the Sirius that Remus remembered from school. "Sure," Remus murmured, heart racing and grabbing his hand, following as he was led into the front hall of Grimmauld Place.

At first, he tried to be quiet. But it was clear that Sirius was intending on getting his mother's attention, as he wrenched open the curtain over her mildewy portrait himself, sending a well-aimed silencing charm before saying happily, "Mother! I know you always dreamed of me marrying a proper pureblood girl."

Walburga Black, even in painted form, looked furious and deranged, blinking down at them with a terrifying expression.

"Well, I wanted you to meet," Sirius continued, a truly thrilled smile on his face, "my half-blood, werewolf, husband." He gestured to Remus like he was the grand prize in a game show, pure joy lighting up his sunken face.

The silencing charm instantly broke from the power of Walburga's truly anguished screams and wails, and both of them ran laughing from the room, not bothering to shut her up again. It felt like the times at Hogwarts when they'd run from professors after a silly prank, and Remus felt the urge to pull Sirius into the closest broom closest and snog him senseless, just like they used to.

"I think she took that well," Sirius laughed, pulling Remus in for a soft kiss. "Much better than sixteen-year-old me ever expected, honestly.

Chuckling, Remus just pulled him in closer and kissed him back. Perhaps they could be just like they used to be.

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For the new years prompts- sirius and the friend kissing one except maybe throw some good old jealousy angst in there? Like maybe reader comes to the party either with someone or with the hopes of convincing a specific someone to be their new years kiss- only for that plan to backfire and maybe that person either isn't interested or they're with a date or something- so sirius swoops in and is like you know what you really wanted this so let's just do it for fun (but in reality he's head over heels for reader and is screaming in joy on the inside)

Hehehehe I did some cute lil fluff with a hint of jealousy angst. Thank you for the request ❤︎ ❤︎

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A midnight kiss

Sirius Black x Fem!!reader

1.4k words

cw: fluff, two (2) swears, smoking

The Marauders’ New Year’s Eve party is already in full swing by the time you arrive. You know you’re late, and not in the fashionable sense. From outside, you can hear the music pulsing. It only gets louder as you open the door, entering a living room that’s packed with familiar faces. You immediately see your friends and head over to them.

“You made it!” Lily exclaims loudly to be heard over the music. 

She pulls you into a tight hug.

“Is… he here?” you say into her ear. 

You would’ve whispered it but decided against it, given the volume of the room and the smell of alcohol on her breath. She pulls back, nodding eagerly. She spins you around, leaning on your for support, and spots across the room. 

Amos Diggory is attempting to talk to a girl you recognized but didn’t know the name of. You don’t like how she keeps leaning in closer to him. Out of nowhere, his arm is around her shoulders as he leans in closer to her face. You turn away before you can see too much.

“Did they come together?” you ask Lily.

“No. He came in with a few other guys.”

You nod and scan the rest of the room. You decide you need a little bit of liquid courage if you’re going to try to pull Amos away from the girl as it got closer to midnight. You give Lily a smile and squeeze her shoulder before going to find the drink table.

You don’t notice Marlene disappear from Lily’s side as you walk away. Marlene made her way to the back patio, where Sirius was smoking his way through a pack of cigarettes. 

“She was just late, you git,” she says, leaning her head out the door. 

Sirius turns his head briefly. He had jumped through several hoops to absolutely ensure that you would be at their party. You were friends with Lily, Marlene and the rest of the girls, but you had other friends. Sirius had talked to James and Remus, who in turn carefully asked the girls about your plans, if you had any. With a little bit of finessing, the boys convinced the girls to get you to the party. So when you hadn’t shown up, Sirius’ heart sank.

“She’s here? Like now?” 

His hand rests near his leg. He’d drop his cigarette the moment Marlene confirmed your presence. 

“Yeah,” Marlene says with an annoyed breath. “That’s what I said, innit?” 

The cigarette falls from his hand and he squashes it under his boot. He immediately goes for the door, but Marlene is still standing in his way.

“You should know, ah, don’t shoot the messenger, but she’s hoping to kiss Diggory at midnight.”

The hopeful smile that had been on his face moments earlier is gone. He had gone through all that work to get you here and you had your eyes on a different guest? He shakes his head in disbelief. 

“What could she possibly see in that bastard?” 

Marlene shrugs as she moves out of the way to let Sirius back into the house. He feels that he needs to find you. He needs to get you under his arm for the countdown to midnight. He weaves through all the people in James’ house. He finds Lily first, but she lost sight of you when you went to get a drink and now she’s looking for James. You’re not at the drink table when Sirius gets there. He regrets not asking Marlene what you were wearing, at least that would’ve made it semi-easier to spot you. 

You aren’t trying to avoid Sirius. You don’t even know that he’s looking for you. Clutching your drink tight to your chest in between sips, you mill around the party. You never stand in one spot for too long. You know you know people at the party, but there’s no one to dance with and without Lily, Marlene or even Mary in sight, you have no one to talk to. So you keep walking and nursing your drink. You don’t even realize you finished it until you go to take a sip and come away with nothing. You circle back to the drink table and you’re suddenly not thirsty any more.

Amos is busy shoving his tongue down the girl’s throat just a few steps away. 

“Get a fucking room,” you mumble to yourself as you turn away.

You feel your face burning, but you don’t care. No one’s watching you. You push through the crowd. There’s nothing you want more right now than a little bit of space and maybe some quiet. You end up in the kitchen, taking deep breaths and leaning over the island with your head in your hands.

“Hey, you okay?” 

You’d know that voice anywhere. Sirius. 

“Yeah. Fine. Just need a breather.” 

He doesn’t believe you. He had finally spotted you when you returned for your drink, and then he saw what you saw. He would be lying if he said there was a part of him that was happy Amos was already kissing someone else. Sirius leans over the island from the other side, hoping you’ll look up at him.

“I’d have to be daft to believe that you’re fine. What’s wrong, pretty girl?” 

You do look up at Sirius. It’s more for the pet name than his concern. You don’t think you’re close enough with him to warrant being called ‘pretty girl.’ You sigh. The look of concern on his face feels genuine and what would it hurt?

You wave toward the kitchen door that separated you two from the rest of the party.

“Just saw the guy I was hoping would be my midnight kiss necking with someone. No biggie.”

“You’re with a bloke and he’s snogging someone else?” Sirius asks with a raised eyebrow, feigning ignorance. He knew you weren’t dating Amos. 

You chuckle at the question. 

“No, Black. We’re not, me and the guy, we’re not together. I’m just a hopeful. … Thought it’d be fun or something… I don’t know.”

“Nothing wrong with being hopeful,” Sirius says. 

If there was, he’d be in deep trouble, he thinks.

“Do you want someone to kiss? At midnight?” Sirius asks.

“Would it be bad if I did?” you say with a laugh as you bite the inside of your lip. “Always thought it’d be romantic or something. Ring in the new year right…”

“I know I’m not whoever you were hoping for, but I don’t have anyone to kiss. So if you want, we could. For fun, or something, you know?” 

You take his expression in. There’s a smirk on his face in the most classic Sirius fashion. Frankly, you’re surprised that he didn’t have anyone lined up, although you suppose he might be the kind to usually just grab whoever is nearest. You nod slowly.

“Yeah. That’d be… nice. Thanks, Sirius.”

The smirk shifts into a wide smile. 

“Don’t go far then.”

You and Sirius both turn to leave the kitchen when the count down chant begins. For a reason you can’t explain, you stay in the kitchen, not trying to join the rest of the party. Sirius wraps his arm around your waist and you stare up into his grey eyes. The numbers seem to echo distantly. They still register in your brain though. 

When the voices from outside yell ‘Happy New Year!,’ Sirius crashes his lips to yours. You know full well that a New Year’s kiss is usually only a moment. A singular second of lips pressed together to celebrate the beginning of a year. But as soon as you felt his lips on yours, you wrapped your arms around his neck, pulling him closer to you. You don’t pull back. You let your lips move against his. His grip on your waist tightens as he realizes that you’re not pulling back. You think you could’ve stayed like that for a while

But the sound of cheering and yelling from the party roars back to life and the music is playing louder than before. When Sirius pulls away, his eyes search your face for some kind of reaction. While he is more than pleased with how this turned out, he needs to know what you thought.

His features relax when he sees your smile. 

“I think that’s the best way to ring in the new year, yeah?” you breathe. 

“I’d have to agree.”

You gently run a hand down the side of his face. Maybe you’d find yourself next to Sirius more often this year.

[sheloveshp]

A helping hand| James Potter x Reader

summary: you almost miss the hogwarts express but thankfully your “friend” james is always there when you need him

cute, fluff, being friends with the marauders, start of sixth year, legal characters, pining, obv in love, req.

Every damn year is the same. Every year you almost miss the damn train to Hogwarts but you were never this close to actually doing so.

Taking your luggage and your cat you run into the wall bracing for impact. You arrive at the plattfom and hear the man blowing into his whistle.

„Oh no…“

The man started to get onto the train and close the doors. The train started to move and so did you. There was no way you were going to run with your three suitcases and try throw them onto a moving magical train. Magical. Wait you’re a witch you thought.

Taking your wand you cast a spell and the suitcases are flying following your direction. Quick on your feet you start running towards the last waggon where your friends said they would be sitting. Lily and Sirius and Remus are sitting in the little cabin.

Being a sophomore at Hogwarts this year you are already a very skilled and talented senior witch but managing three suitcases and running at the same time to find an opening to jump on a moving train isn’t really an easy thing not even in this world.

You move closer and closer to the last door of the last wagon. Yes this is Plattform 9 3/4 but that doesn’t mean that the train station is also endless. This is not going to end well you think to yourself.

But, there was one man you could always trust. James Potter.

A dear friend of yours belonging to your little friend group you found in the first year of arriving at Hogwarts.

Knowing he probably stood at that door already you called out his name.

“James!!!” It took one scream of his name for him to notice you and look out the door.

“Y/n?! What the hell are you doing? Get on the train.” He yelled back looking confused.

James Potter really is one heck of a man. Hair slightly parted and looking clean. No Glasses on this year apparently but a fine robe already.

“James what the Hell do you think I am doing?”

He looked up and saw your Luggage floating above you. “Darling do you know how dangerous that is? I mean your Luggage on top of your h-“

“Help me get on the damn train Potter!” “Oh yes, thats right.”

The skilled sorcerer he was he took out his wand and manoeuvred the flying luggage onto the train along with your cat.

Since you got that off your shoulders now you pick up your pace. Now running directly next to the door as James holds out his hand to you

Obviously James could’ve just used a spell to get you on the train just as he did earlier with the luggage but…where’s the fun in that. James Potter would never miss out on an Opportunity to get a hold of your touch.

“Y/n take my hand.” You do as he says and he grabs you. Damn, he really is strong you think to yourself. This isn’t really the moment to think about how fine James Potter is.

Finally you jump onto the train and as strong as james was moving onto a moving express isn’t really the most steady situation.

With a loud squeak and luggage falling down you do aswell. On top of James. Onto his chest thats seems to have gotten much more muscular over the Summer. His Face and yours are also quite close to eachother and no one seemed to move.

“Hi.” He grins cutely looking at your face. Both of you are now 18 and it has been a long summer. Being busy with your pureblood family meetings or whatever it was they called it and him being on the other side of london, you didn’t have any time to meet up.

“Hi.” You grin back. He is studying your face, from your hair down to your eyes finishing at your lips. He missed seeing you every day in class and he is beaming with joy internally, knowing he is reunited with you again this year.

“I missed you, Love.” He is always saying stuff like this so easily but also so full of love that it’s very difficult to distinguish between James the friend talking or James the boy thats in love with you. Obviously you don’t know that he is in love with you…and he doesn’t know that you are. Since first year.

“Aww, Charming as always James.” You tried to hide the growing blush on your cheeks. “I missed you aswell Darling but maybe we should stand up from the floor, yeah?”

Just now he realised that you guys were still laying on the floor with you on top of him.

“Oh, what a beautiful sight.” He thought to himself.

Under other Circumstances you wouldn’t be laying on the floor together but maybe on a bed. Not in a dirty way but rather in a sweet innocent way. light kisses being shared and sweet gazes under the morning sun.

He knew he had to be yours. There was no way he could live without being by your side after graduation. The Summer vacations every year are already like torture. Heck, the two weeks of winter break where your parents force you to come home every time while he is left at hogwarts feels like a part of his soul is missing.

How would he continue life after hogwarts without you.

Same as him these thoughts also often crossed your mind. As sixth year students, graduation is coming closer and closer so these thoughts are frequenting your mind even more.

He took your hand to get up and stands tall next to you, almost towering over you. The way he looks down at you made you go crazy. It is certain now. There was no way you’re going to leave school without trying to make a move on him.

“Shall we go meet the others then?” Still not letting go of his hand you ask him to lead you to your friends. You smile and keep a soft but also certain grip on his arm now, making sure he knows you’re comfortable with it.

“If we must, but I was quite enjoying having you all to myself.” As confident as you were, you are definitely burning up now.

“Charming as always, James? Let’s not be to greedy, yeah?” You laugh with him as he leads you down the train.

You reach the little cabin your friends were seated in and stop almost infront of it, out of their sight still.

He chuckles “How can one not be greedy when what he desires the most is standing right infront of him like this.”

“oh, James…” You say with a low whisper looking up at him through your lashes and he could swear he saw an angel.

As bold as you are you stand on your toes and give him a peck on his cheek.

James himself is quite cheeky but even he freezes for a moment before a soft smile spreads across his face. The smile you love so much and the one that seemed to be particularly reserved for you.

You step back, and your heart was racing. You turn away with a quiet laugh and enter the Cabin.

“Come on, James” you say pretending to be unaffected by your bold little statement.

The moment lingers in the air and so does his hand on the cheek you just kissed.

The rest of the time spent on the train there was this different and unspoken new feeling surrounding you and James. Something undeniably romantic that was bound to flourish into something beautiful

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King Of My Heart (Body And Soul)~ R. Lupin.

Chapter 2 -  Expectations

Ootp! Remus Lupin x Sirius's sister!Reader

Synopsis: When James and Lily died, and your brother was sent to Azkaban, Remus was the only person you have left. Until he left too. What happens when he returns after the events of Sirius's escape, only to find out you have a son? A son that's his.

WC: 1.4k

Warnings: lots of italics, probably grammatical mistakes, might be ooc idk, child (?), fem reader, italics are flashbacks ( idk), love (ew), Sirius is back, [ look at series masterlist for all content warnings]

A/n: This is more of the backstory and how they came to be, along with lots of awkwardness from both ends, I promise there's more remus in the next chapter <3 oh and reunion with Sirius and thanks to @lixzey for making me wanna push the awkwardness~ :) If you enjoyed this please reblog and comment :)

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You and Remus were in love, you had been in love for 6 years.

Everyone knew you'd be endgame, and your brother hated it, to an extent.

Sirius loved that his little sister was happy, that she had joy in her life after the roughness of their family life. But he was scared, scared because he knew how much Remus would push people away, push himself away.

He didn’t want you hurt. But you were.

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You found out in October, two weeks before Halloween.

You had been talking with Lily through letters back and forth, discussing your recent morning nausea and sickness.

She had asked when was the last time you and Remus had slept together, strange you considered that question, you replied a week ago at most.

Her letter came back with the words "you might be pregnant, dear...why don't you take this potion i sent along?"

And along with it there was a potion in a small vial with a piece of parchment guiding you through the process.

All you had to do was drink half of the potion and wait for the other half to shift hues.

And sure enough, the once rust coloured potion soon turned blue, signalling your current state.

You were carrying Remus's child, a child you hadn't talked about, a child you were sure you weren't ready for.

~

It was now hallows eve, the day you thought you had worked up the courage to tell Remus.

Children around town had just finished trick or treating and your husband was bringing back the basket with remaining candy.

He came into the bedroom with you and went straight to the shower, promising to return in a bit.

Your eyes heavy with sleep, you sit down on the edge of the bed, waiting for Remus to come out of the bathroom.

He sees them on your trousers before in your eyes, your tears. His brows furrowed in concern and pity as he looked at your face, eyes dull with sorrow and fear, so uncharacteristic of your usual glimmer and joy.

"What's the matter, dove?" He asks, voice slightly hoarse from the drowsiness in the back of his mind.

You don't answer, only look at him like you're out of words. You're thinking, thinking what a little Remus would look like, how they’d have the same nose, probably his same freckles dusting their face, and the same sandy locks of hair with deep roots.

You wonder if he'd want this, a kid, if this could be the one thing Remus would give up the world for.

"Come here, darling" he says and takes your body into his, nuzzling your face in the warmth of his polyester sweater. He understands, he always does.

That's how you sleep that night, unaware of the chaos that was soon to follow.

~

Remus rushed out of bed the moment  the potter's deer patronus knocked on the window.

The white buck stopped at the foot of his bed and let out a call of help, soon disintegrating to mist after.

That night Remus lost three friends, you lost a brother to azkaban and you lost Remus.

He left the morning after. With your heart shattered to pieces, you let him go.

Your mind screamed at you to tell him. Tell him and maybe he'd stay. Tell him and maybe he'd reconsider. But your heart, ever the kind one, ever the selfless one, let him go. In hopes that one day you'd see him again.

Remus was half expecting you to slam the door in his face. To make a face of absolute disgust and just lock him out. But of course the other half of him was longing to hold you, see you after so long. So it came as a welcome surprise when you widened the door and let him inside.

 "Uhm...come in, please, we were expecting you" You said,  trying not to let your voice waver.

Remus felt so awkward. His hands were clammy, his posture was stiff and his jaw was clenched. He felt like he couldn't move, no more than if he had been hit with the petrificus curse.

You weren't in a much better predicament yourself. You could feel your eyes pricking with tears at the mere sight of him. The same man who left you. The man you let go. The man you still loved.

As he made his way inside the house you let your eyes roam across his figure. His hands were littered in large scars, far bigger than those you'd seen before. His face was shrunken, eyes hollower than you remembered. His smile lines were far more prominent now and his sandy brown hair had a few streaks of grey littered throughout.

"Where is the rest of the order? Where's sirius?" Why did you leave? Why are you back? How are you? You had so many questions but the rest were best kept to yourself.

 "They're on the way, I was just...early" I wanted to see you. 

Remus hated himself for leaving you. He wanted to tell you that. He regretted each night, even more so on full moons. After leaving the realisation of what he had done dawned on him, it was already  too late.

Alas, by the time he had worked up the courage to talk, You were already making your way across the hall to embrace your brother who had just arrived.

When did he get there? How consumed in his thoughts was Remus?

You greeted Sirius with a hug and a look-over of his whole figure. His posture was shrunken, eyes even hollower than Remus's and instead of his signature smirk, only a ghost of a smile was left on his face.

A feeling of guilt consumed you. Your brother was back after azkaban. Innocent. And your mind was all consumed by Remus.

You ushered the rest of the order inside and told Regulus to pack up his things and clear out the living room. The confused and curious glances you got from everyone did little to ease your nerves.

Sirius pulled you aside. You prepared yourself for the conversation you knew was to follow.

“Who’s that?” 

It was a valid question, Sirius was well aware that Remus had left that night. After their teary reunion, the werewolf had gotten an earful from the oldest Black. He was shocked and thought that  you had found someone new, unlike Remus, Sirius was quick to notice the similarities between the small boy and you. He deduced that he was your son.

“Uhm- He’s my son.”

You were staring at your feet, and your hands were fidgety.

There was a long pause. The silence was so loud you could hear the clock ticking.

“I…I have a nephew?” His words came out uncertain. Cautious and slow.

With a hum you replied “His name is Regulus. Regulus Jace.” You left out the last name. Legally he was a lupin. And so were you. But it wasn’t that hard to conceal that at hogwarts.

At the mention of his little brother, Sirius seemed to grimace. But he put a smile on.

“You named him after Reggie?-” He asked. And continued as you opened your mouth to answer.

“Who’s..who’s the father?” He didn’t want to assume the worst. He was happy, truely he was. After that “bastard” (as he put it) left you it was only fair. No matter how much he ached to see the two of you together again.

“It is Remus.” You replied, vulnerability lacing your voice.

His face seemed to light up, eyes widening, both in shock and delight. Before he would alert the whole house, however, you let him know one more thing.

“He doesn’t know. Neither of them do. I haven’t told them.” 

Your chest felt heavy, and your throat seemed to close up. It was hard for you to talk about. Despite being married you and Remus had never talked about kids, let alone with your friends. The feelings of contempt and guilt surrounded you.

Next thing you know, Sirius is pulling you in for a hug, securely wrapping his arms around you and trying to soothe your worries. His right hand wraps around your back as his left brushes against your hair in a calming manner.

It all comes crashing down. The weight of the lies, the guilt, the fear, the hatred. You cannot hold back the tears that rush down your face. A sob rakes though your body. You feel so much, everything, all at once, joy, relief, contempt, familiarity of an embrace.

But most of all...love. Love you haven’t felt in fourteen years.

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Bonfire - October 3 - word count: 455 - @wolfstarmicrofic

Remus stood alone in the small clearing, the moon barely visible through the scattered clouds. 

It was Halloween- a year to the day since Lily and James had died, since his world had crumbled.

The flickering bonfire before him cast long shadows, dancing in the dark.

In his hand, he held a photograph- one of the last remaining images of the Marauders, taken during their final year at Hogwarts. Lily had snapped it, insisting that the four of them look “at least somewhat civilized” for once. 

Sirius was grinning, his arm slung lazily around Remus’s shoulders, James was holding up a Snitch he’d stolen from practice, and Peter smiled widely, watching the little golden ball flutter around.

Remus's gaze lingered on Sirius’s face. The Sirius he’d loved so fiercely, who had stood by him during every full moon, who had shared in every laugh, every secret was now a man in Azkaban. 

A traitor. 

A murderer.

He was the reason Lily and James were dead. The reason Harry was now an orphan. The reason Peter was gone.

Remus dropped the photo onto the ground beside the fire, kneeling to open the old box that sat at his feet. 

It had been gathering dust in the back of his flat since that awful night a year ago, but he had finally mustered the courage to pull it out, to face what it contained.

Inside were more pictures, old letters, notes passed during class, memories of a time when they were whole. Back when it had all seemed so simple. 

Back when they had been invincible.

Remus took out another photo, this one from a Gryffindor party. 

The image was of them swaying drunkenly as they belted out a loud, off-key rendition of All The Young Dudes. He could still hear the laughter, the joy that had filled the common room that night.

He threw it into the fire.

The flames crackled and roared as the photo was consumed, Sirius’s face vanishing into the heat, the memory curling and turning to ash. 

He reached for more, sifting through them, one by one, until they were all consumed by the flames. 

The last to go was a photo of Sirius, just Sirius, laughing as he leaned against his motorbike, the wind tousling his hair. 

Remus had taken the picture after a long ride through the countryside. It had been one of those rare, perfect days, with the sun shining, the air fresh, and Sirius looking so alive.

Remus hesitated, his fingers brushing over Sirius’s face, a dull ache spreading through his chest.

Why did you do it? he wanted to scream. Why did you throw it all away?

Another photograph. Another memory. 

It, too, went into the fire.

[jamespottersdaisy]

It's blue, the feeling I've got

Remus Lupin x fem!reader

Is it really worth it to run from the hurt if running hurts you all the same?

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thank you @tendous-pretty-hair for the prompt!

author's note- kinda like grumps x sunshine except remus is the sunshine here, trust issues?

You grimace at the filthiness on the floor, your eyes scanning for the target.

Your quill.

You are not in a comfortable position, your torso stooping while you support yourself with a tight grip on the desk. One more inch forward, and you are certain you will fall, and yet the quill is nowhere to be found.

It’s not hard to feel the annoyance building up. It’s merely a feather, for God’s sake, how far can you possibly drop it? But again, it is a feather; what keeps it from floating out of the window?

You hear your name and straighten yourself. You can feel the blood circulation visiting your fingertips from the change of positions.

You turn your head and stare at Remus with a frown, who, in turn, has a tiny smile on his face. His smile wouldn’t be noticeable if you weren’t used to heeding every detail about him.

“Here,” he says and stretches out his hand to you with a quill in it. It’s not yours, but it will suffice. 

Your countenance doesn’t soften even though your heart flutters at his widening smile. You should offer him a smile or at least relax your brows or something to let him know your gratitude. 

But you just mumble a quick thanks before turning. 

He doesn’t seem to mind. He never seems to mind your rudeness somehow. 

“Don’t look at me like you want to commit a murder,” he says, his eyes not leaving the paper before you. Your paper. Your ripped paper. 

“I’m thinking about it,” you scowl. 

“I’ll fix it, don't worry,” Remus smiles. You wouldn’t mind a ripped parchment if you hadn’t already written three thousand words on it. 

“Not like you have any other options.”

He finally looks at you, and you expect a bitter expression at your words. But his eyes are still tender, and his smile still bright. 

“I’ll even bring you pudding afterwards as an apology.”

Sometimes you would come across as rude, not because you intended to, but because your lips work faster than your mind. 

“Remus made your cake!” Lily says and looks at you with emerald eyes filled with joy. She looks beautiful in her green dress that you’re sure she bought specifically for your surprise birthday party.

“Why?” you ask because you don’t understand why he would bother when he could’ve just bought it.

Everyone looks at you like you just screamed in a library. You should’ve probably said thanks instead of blurting the first thing that crossed your mind. Remus doesn’t seem to care, though.

“Because it is your birthday,” he says and pushes you by the shoulders to sit on the sofa. He takes the cake and kneels before you. “Make a wish.”

You look at his eyes, and his hair and his lips. You notice how they look…a bit too perfect.  You realise it’s been more than a few seconds, and no one makes a wish this long. 

You blow out the candles. 

Other times, it would be because you don’t know what to do exactly.

You raise your head when a sandwich enters your eyesight.

“You haven’t eaten today,” Remus says and sits beside you. You watch him open his book and shuffle through the pages.

“How did you know?”

“We’ve been studying since morning,” he raises an eyebrow at you. “It’s nighttime.”

You hum and say nothing more. You didn’t know he was paying attention to that detail. 

You open the sandwich and take a bite, satisfying your hunger. You want to thank him and talk to him, engage in some friendly conversation. But your mouth is full, and you don’t know what to talk about. You don’t want to speak while chewing, and you don’t know how other people manage to talk with someone so easily.

You feel bad that you never treat him with the same kindness he has for you.

By the time you grasp an opportunity to open your mouth, he’s already asking about your favourite drink.

That’s why you have a strange infatuation with Remus. Not like the way you care for James or Lily. It’s a bit different. 

You never catch yourself staring at James’s lips when he’s talking. You never want to play with Lily’s hair. And you surely never think about your other friends before bed. 

Anyhow, you’re too busy to dwell on those feelings or act on them.

At the end of the class, you want to return Remus his quill. You walk up to him, and he sends his friends away. You offer him the quill ashe smiles. 

“Keep it,” he says and starts walking with you. 

You think so hard about what to ask him, how to hear his voice, how to make him smile at you. Maybe you should ask him what he thinks of cats. But what if he doesn’t like cats? You should go a bit simpler, then. However, before you decide to ask him about his day, he’s already voicing some words.

“What?”

"I said you seem tired," he speaks softly, glancing at you while letting you leave the class first.

You are tired. You were up all night, studying.

"I didn't sleep well," you shrug. "Homework."

"Did you finish it?"

You nod with an accompanied 'uh-huh'. 

"Would you mind helping me?"

You are sure he is already done with his homework. 

"Didn't you, like, finish it two days ago?"

"I did mine, yes. But," he inhales deeply, and you know he's about to ask a favour from his stiffened shoulders. "You know how I help other students in the library sometimes?"

Oh, no.

"Yes?" you crunch your brows.

"I was hoping you could help me out a bit today."

"Why?"

"Because I need your help."

"That's what I'm asking. Why?"

He stares at you before you two start climbing the stairs. You'll later realise that wasn't the best thing to ask at that moment and scold yourself for it.

"I'm having a hard time handling all of them by myself."

"You can always just stop holding study sessions," you point out. "But I'll help you."

He smiles. "Thank you–"

"Only for today."

Remus nods several times, his hair tousling. "Only for today."

You don’t enjoy the company of too many people, mainly because of your awkwardness. Albeit you love helping people, you’d rather do it not in front of dozens. 

Only for today.

Besides, you love spending time with Remus.

“How about Mistletoe Berry?”

“Yeah, you should use it–”

“Why not Silverweed?”

“It doesn’t mix well with the berry,” you say, trying to help all five of the students at once. Somehow, your regard for the teachers is changing a bit because of all this. 

“Can you check my essay?” a boy asks, and you nod. 

The moment you take the parchment in your hand, a girl decides to challenge you with some complicated questions that you won’t be able to reply to without focusing on her. 

“Just a moment–”

“Yeah, sure, can you check my essay too afterwards?”

Why the hell does Remus do this?

He doesn’t even get paid for this headache.

You glance at him, seeing that he’s doing much better than you are. At least he has a smile on his face indicating that he actually enjoys holding these study sessions. 

You take in his unfairly beautiful looks, trying your best not to get lost in his smile. You fail when he looks at you. 

He laughs at your frown, mouthing something that you don't quite catch. You frown a bit more, and he moves his lips again. In the end, you give up and roll your eyes before averting them back to the parchment.

You don't see his smile lingering on your frame. 

Remus doesn't notice that he's staring. You don't notice, either. The students do, though.

They see how his eyes soften when they are on you, just like your frown melts into a somewhat smile when you talk to him. They see how he's much more patient with you and how less grumpy you are with him. 

"I don't think she enjoys being here," a boy with raven hair and tanned skin speaks to Remus, pulling him back into the moment. 

Remus shakes his head, his lips still curled up. He lowers his head to the books before him. 

"She just doesn't like people, Charlie," he says, eyes scanning the essays and looking for any mistakes. 

Charlie doesn’t seem convinced. 

"She likes you, doesn't she?"

"Well,” Remus hesitates for a moment. He thinks of the right thing to say, “That's different."

It is different, and Remus knows this too well. It would be an insult to his intelligence to think that he has never noticed small things. 

You dither what to say to him, take your time with your words, and your faltering smile blooms flowers in his heart. Remus is smart enough to take heed of your soft demeanour when he is near. You don’t sulk when he walks with you around the castle, and you don’t frown when he is making lame jokes. 

Sometimes he would even notice you staring at him adorningly when you think he is not aware. The way your eyes caress every blemish on his face would make him want to crash his lips onto yours to quench the fire in his core. But he would withhold. 

Seeing a reserved one like you crack a smile, sing a laugh, and gift a loving glance just for him could not not do things to him. How could your soft spot for Remus in your heart not emerge gardens for you in his soul?

It was impossible. However, he would never act on any feeling that stormed in him. Not because he was too proud but because he wanted you to acknowledge them first. He wanted you to drop your high walls a bit, open up to him and show him that you are indeed willing to embrace your emotions. 

He never pushes you, but sometimes he would wish that he did. Moments like this, knowing that you could do something you are not entirely comfortable with just on his request, would urge him to voice words that he knows for a fact would scare you off. 

So he keeps silent for now. 

“How is it going?” he asks, walking up to you. He has never seen you this uncomfortable in an environment before. Dozens of students nagging and shoving papers on the table, carelessly shuffling everything. 

You immediately look up to him and push some parchments to his chest. 

“Great,” you say, “Do me a favour and read these, yeah? I am a bit busy with…”

You stare at the five essays before you and sigh. “...these.”

Soft tunes of Remus’s chuckle greet your soul, and while you are more than happy to listen to it forever, you arch a brow at him. 

“In my defence, you look funny,” he holds his hands in the air.

“You don’t get to laugh at me after putting me into this position,” you mutter, albeit your lips fracture into a subtle smile. 

“I didn’t force you, did I? You agreed to help,” Remus starts tidying the table for you. 

“Damn my helpful nature then.”

“Hang on, it’s almost nine,” he glances at the clock in the library. “You’ll be free to go in five.”

“Who’s gonna clean the whole mess?”

“I am,” he sits next to you and points out the mistakes of the essay to its writers. 

You look at him for a moment before focusing back on the ink on the paper. You have no intention of leaving him alone to clean after those guys without you, but you don’t say that to him. Mainly because you don’t see any need to. But also because you don’t want others to think that something is…different with Remus.

It is none of their business, after all. At least, that’s what you always tell yourself. 

Not that you are too scared to let your feelings surface, you despise being vulnerable, or you lock up your weaknesses because you are afraid of being hurt. It’s just not their business. 

That’s why you try to suffice with the glances, jokes, and smiles when it comes to Remus. That’s why you never entertain the thought of his arms around your waist or your head against his shoulder or even his lips against yours. You never think about if they would feel soft or chapped when he kisses you, if he would place his hands on your hips or your cheek, if he would crash into you before pushing you against a wall or be gentle by caressing your face and slowly leaning in. You never think about if his kiss would lead to something more as he sinks lower to your neck–

“Stop staring into space and read it,” Remus calls without looking at you. 

“I was reading it,” you scowl, feeling a fire in your core. You don’t look at him; you are sure it won’t help with the fire. His chestnut hair and shaped jawline have never helped with anything except fueling the yearning for him in you. 

Remus simply mouths a satirical hum.

After long minutes of tortuous readings, students were thanking you as they got ready to leave. You simply put on a smile– which Remus was sure of being forced– and said that ‘it was totally okay’. 

“Was it?” he whispers to you, lowering his head to match your ear. You move your head to look him in the eye, only to almost bump into his nose. You take a step back.

“Was it what?”

“Totally okay?” he grins, and you are not sure if it is because of your reluctance to be so close to him. 

“It was indeed,” you turn your back to him and start tidying the place. 

“You don’t have to–”

“I want to,” you cut him off, knowing what he’s gonna say. You don’t have to help him clean. You just want to be near him…for some reason.

“On your charitable day, eh?”

“That makes you a charity case.”

He laughs before you can overthink your words. You don’t feel a smile creeping up on your lips, but Remus feels his heart warm up at the sight. 

He places himself next to you, hands stretching out to grab the useless papers. Your arms are crashing, but you don’t complain like you would if it was someone else. 

“Thank you,” he says, and you look at him. Your smile widens, and Remus can swear he saw your eyes twinkling. 

“Anytime,” you nod but shake your head right after. “Not anytime. It was tiring. But whenever it’s a life or death situation.”

“If I didn’t know you, I would say you’re a bad person.”

“Good thing you know me, then.”

��Remus forces himself to focus on the task at hand. That’s what happens when you offer him a tiny smile or a joyful laugh. It’s distracting. It makes him want to do and say bold things that he knows are not the right time.

Still, he manages to keep his attention on the litter and not your velvety smile. 

You are running with a deep frown on your face, your eyes looking for the best spot to shield yourself from the roaring gas back in the classroom. İt is as ugly looking as it smells disgusting. 

And you know damn well who is responsible for that spectacle. 

It’s not like you could somehow protect yourself from the side effects of their pranks. No matter how close of a friend you are to the Marauders, you are never immune to their misbehaving.

Thus, there you are, sprinting out of the room with the hopes of escaping the wrath of…

You didn’t know what it was, to be exact, but it surely made you gag.

Your eyes are scanning the surroundings, estimating the best route of escape for you, when you feel yanked by your arm. 

Before you know it, you are in a room filled with barrels, brooms and weird-looking skulls on the shelves. 

“What the–”

“Hi.”

Your frown deepens, and you are sure you will have wrinkles around your forehead when you are old. 

“Remus?”

He smiles sheepishly. “How you doing?”

“What are you doing?”

“Saving your ass from stinking,” he shrugs as you take in the room. It smells of wood, and the dust makes you sneeze. “Bless you.”

“Why are you here?” you ask, sniffling. 

“To save your ass from stinking,” he repeats, and you ogle at him. 

“Attaboy then,” you murmur, walking around the Artefact Room. 

You don’t see it, but Remus’s eyes travel in the room with you. They take in your every movement, especially when you raise your hand to touch the skulls. 

"Aren't they dirty?" he asks, and you pull your hand away.

"You are the one who chose this room."

"Weird way to say thanks, but you're welcome," he steps forward a bit awkwardly.

You roll your eyes at him and realise that you don't beat yourself up for your inept interactions with him anymore. They feel natural, enjoyable even. The feeling almost makes you smile.

"Thanks," you say to him, knowing that you are thanking him for an entirely different reason than he thinks. 

He waves his hand and turns away. He points to a blackboard, dirty with dust, fading away.

"Did you know you can draw anything in your mind by touching this board?"

"I can?" you step up, eyes on Remus.

"No, of course not," he laughs, "It's just a blackboard."

You stop in your tracks and give him a look that makes him chuckle.

"Sorry," he smiles, "Just wanted to hear your voice. Not my fault that you don't talk much."

Your heart takes a leap at his words, your mind suggesting too many claims that you can not keep up. You don't stay stuck with them, not right now. You let his words lead you on.

"You're the only person I talk to too much," you say, and Remus takes another step towards you.

"That's a confession," he raises his eyebrows. 

His heart is hammering in his chest, but he's too focused on your lips to mind it. He's been waiting for this. For a moment that you would let him see a glimpse of the person behind the frown.

"I can confess much more," you murmur mindlessly, regretting it on the spot. 

You shouldn't have said that. It's more than what you've allowed yourself. It's a crack in your walls. 

You're hoping that he's going to smile and nod and move on. You're hoping so hard that he's not going to dwell on it.

"Like what?"

Of course, he is going to dwell on it. He's going to dig and make sure to leave no brick on your walls.

You won't let him, though. You can't. 

You gaze at his brown eyes, taking in the intense hope and desire. You can't let those orbs bury you, it's too early to give in to their affection. You're struggling to get to the surface, saving yourself from his infatuating arms.

"Like how I can fall asleep anywhere," you blurt out the first thing that comes to mind, wishing for it to be enough to move the topic.

Remus shakes his head, and the next thing you know, his hands are on your wrists, his face close to yours. You refuse to raise your head and look him in the eye, insisting on staring at his shoulders.

"Don't do that," he whispers.

He can feel the nerves in every inch of his skin stretch out, urging him to act recklessly. He has already seen the glimpse of light between the crack of your walls; there's no turning back for him. He wants your light to ignite his soul, and he's ready to fight for it.

"What?" you ask, this time resting your eyes on his. They are darker, or maybe you're just confused because of the suffocating distance.

"Don't close yourself off," his one hand slowly glides up across your skin, taking your chin between his thumb and forefinger. "It's not fair."

Your heart is in your stomach, storms raging in your core, ready to rain with his one movement. 

You are fighting with your shadow, struggling to grant the boy the well-deserved light.

"Remus, what–"

"It's not fair, dove. Stop torturing us," he cuts you off, and you hold your breath when he leans in. 

His actions are painfully slow as if he's testing your limits. By the time you can feel his hot breath on your lips, your whole body is screaming his name, ready to melt under his touch.

It's what you've always wanted; you know that. To know how his lips would feel, where his hands would rest, and what he would whisper to you before taking your breath away.

The answer to all your questions lies only an inch away, and your skin is aflame with expectations.

You close your eyes when he brushes his lips against yours, breaths mingling, hands intertwining, and bodies begging to be held.

Just a second more and you'll finally rest;just a moment more and your walls will crumble, and just an inch more and his rain will take care of your garden.

"I won’t kiss you until you let me in," he whispers, and you frown.

Before you can register his words in your mind, the door of the room is being put to the test. Remus takes a few large steps back, his darkened eyes still gazing into yours.

The next thing you hear is James begging Remus to teach him the spell that will 'get rid of the stench'.

The next few days were nothing but a headache for you. The biggest battle you’ve ever fought has been torturing your mind, your heart and head clashing brutally. 

Your heart is begging you to smile at the love that’s waiting for you, rooting for you, ready to embrace you. Your mind is reminding you of each and every bitter memory that made you who you are right now, that built up your walls and cast a shadow on your smile.

It’s not an easy fight, especially when you're fighting it alone. Silent and peaceful nights are the worst. Your mind replaying the memory like a film to remind you what you’re losing, but also lurking behind to whisper all of your dreadful doubts to your ear. 

You will get hurt again. You know you will. That’s what it is to trust someone, to love someone, to let yourself be vulnerable before them. You can’t love Remus without accepting the risk of getting hurt. You know it all too well.

You just can’t accept the risk.

You are not ready for your heart to shatter again, for your tears to cry a river, and for your soul to suffer through many times. It's not fair. It’s not fair that you can’t be happy without being hurt. 

You are too tired of being hurt. 

The strength in you can not handle another knife in the heart. 

It’s not fair. 

That was what Remus said. 

You groan and push your head to your hands. 

It is not fair to offer him a smile when you know you want to hide behind a frown. It’s not fair to let him brush his lips against yours when you know you want to put distance between your bodies. It is not fair to find his frame in every room when you know you should let him down slowly instead of letting your eyes feast on his smile. 

You can’t seem to let him go, and it’s frustrating.

He is looking into your eyes from across the room, and you are sure somewhere in your heart, there is a sting that bleeds. 

“What happened?” Lily asks, and you know she can feel the ice between Remus and you. 

“Nothing,” you say.

That’s what you always say. Never letting yourself find comfort in others, never letting them see the pain surging in you. Lily knows better than that. 

“Do you need me to pester you, or are you going to talk?”

You’re not going to go talk, and she’s going to pester you. She is asking questions until she has all the facts. She is making you talk about every little feeling you have regarding every little thing Remus said. By the time she's done, you feel like you’ve crumbled under the weight of an elephant. 

“And how long do you think you can keep yourself safe like this?” she asks. “You’re going to refuse to trust anyone till what? End of your life?”

You shrug, and she frowns. 

“I’m not gonna tell you what to do,” she stands up, and you remember she has to meet with James. “But is it really worth it to run from hurt if running hurts you all the same?”

“Have fun," you murmur before she leaves. 

That's what echoes in your mind for days. 

‘Is it really worth it to run from hurt if running hurts you all the same?’

At first, you allow yourself longing glances. You don’t break eye contact when he looks over at you across the room. 

Then you slowly offer him a faint smile. You don’t see it, but your eyes light up with your smile. Much to your happiness, he always returns it with a bigger smile. 

With time, you two start talking again. He’s the same person he was weeks ago, you are the one that’s trying to make a change. 

You talk about what makes you happy to him and notice that the next day he has your favourite sweet in his hand.

“You didn’t have to,” you say instead of asking the reason for the gesture. 

“I didn’t intend to,” he chuckles, handing you the sweet you’ve been staring at since it came into view. “But then I remembered that you’ve mentioned liking those.”

“Strong memory.”

“For you.”

 You confide in him about how your day went bad, and he listens for almost an hour.

“You sure there’s nothing I can do?” he asks when you stop talking. 

“Absolutely nothing,” you smile, feeling the burden in your heart vanish.

“I can always put some dog fur on his coat,” Remus offers, his eyes indicating no humour. “I hear he’s allergic.”  

You laugh this time, and his shoulders relax. 

“Where are you going to find the dog fur?”

“I have my ways.”

You even let him hold you sometimes.

“What did you get?” you wonder, eyes filled with genuine curiosity. 

“What do you think?” Remus says, and you falter for a moment. He’s been going on and on about this exam for a long time. Surely he would at least have a grin on his face if it went good, no? But would he be this relaxed if it went bad?

You stare at him a bit long, mouth opening and closing. 

He chortles at your expressions. “Outstanding!” 

You hit him in the arm. “Congratulations, jerk–” and he’s already hugging you. 

You are still frowning and scowling when someone trips on your foot. You still hate Remus’s study sessions in the library, and you still never let James mess with you. 

But you have allowed yourself to open up to Remus, and you know you can do more.

You have been waiting for the right moment to do it. 

You are pacing around the lake. It’s peacefully quiet, and usually, you would appreciate it. Not at this moment, though. Your heartbeats are rapid, your hands a bit sweaty. You rub them together. 

“Do you think we should start with Transfiguration today?” Remus’s voice calls and, you quickly turn around. You scold yourself internally for not noticing that he was approaching. 

“Sure,” you say and sit beside him. 

“You alright?” he narrows his eyes, “You look pale.”

“All good.” 

He nods and starts talking about some stuff that you don’t listen to. Your eyes running around just like your attention. Sometimes they place on Remus’s hands, making you ache for his touch again. The moment is so tense for you that you overthink about his thumb and forefinger that held your chin.

They focus on his neck, too. You are a bit angry at yourself for wanting to put your lips on it. But nothing tops the irritation building up in you when you glance at his hair. You shouldn’t want to run your hands through it, at least not now. You definitely shouldn’t peek at his red lips that urge you to make a mistake. 

“Okay, you are not listening,” he snaps the book closed. “What is wro–”

“I want to kiss you, but I don’t know how,” you say, holding no punches. 

His eyes widen a bit, and his lips part in the look for the right words. He stares into your eyes, making you regret everything and want to get the hell out of there. 

“How about just lean in and–”

“No, you were studying, it would be awkward,” you cut him off, feeling a different type of warmth emerge, sweating your palms.

“I’m not studying now, am I?” he arches a brow, and your breath hitches.

You stay still, taking in everything that’s happening. That’s your cue, it seems. You should take it, you shouldn’t waste it or mess this up–

You swiftly lean in and kiss his lips. 

It’s a quick kiss, one that doesn’t give you a chance to put your hands around him or feel his hold around your body. 

Remus doesn't even have time to react or kiss you back. 

When you pull away, you glance at his face, which is pretty smug. You furrow your brows at him, feeling annoyance paint your expressions. 

“Took you long enough,” he chuckles and places himself closer to you. “Let me.”

You are still frowning when he holds your waist and leans in. You are looking at his eyes with a scowl that makes him imitate you. He mirrors your expression mockingly for a moment before smiling against your lips.

When he kisses you, your face softens, and your eyes close. You feel the cool breeze around your heart that lets you know you made the right choice. Your soul finds peace in that moment, just like your mind that goes quiet for the first time in a long time.

 He deepens the kiss, and you bring your hand to his hair. You can feel the movements getting heated from his tightened grip on your waist and the heavy sigh that comes from you. Just when you bring your hand to stroke his neck, he pulls away, looking at you breathlessly. 

“Just for clarification, this means you like me, right?” 

You roll your eyes as you crash your lips into his, but not before muttering a low ‘yes’.

i don't really know how i feel about this but again i say this about almost everything i write so please let me know what you think <33

thanks for reading!

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[euripidestrousers]

Do you have any underrated wolfstar fics that you would recommend?

Weehee this gives me another chance to talk about Merry Men, one of my favourite wolfstar fics! These are not in order tho

(FYI - some of these are WIPs but I am a 100% believer in reading WIPs, yeah sometimes you have to wait for a chapter but that's part of the joy, screaming at the author all your love and encouragement.)

Merry Men - @copper-dust

It's gorgeously written, I mean every second sentence is poetry, and several I've had to put it down just to think about the masterpiece of a paragraph I've just read. Military AU, with a brutally honest view of the Vietnam war - we've got soft wolfstar amidst gunfire and grief, and sweet new cadet James, and all the incredibly 4D minor characters you could ask for. Deserves so so much more kudos and attention, it's currently <50 kudos and it's absolutely criminal.

When A Star Fell To Earth - EmRoseJori

Sci-fi AU. This was an absolute blast beginning to end. This is like watching a thrilling space-fi movie but with Wolfstar. And Remus is Welsh!!! It pretty much all takes place on earth, but in a futuristic post-apocalyptic setting. 430 kudos isn't minor but I think it deserves a hell of a lot more.

Made of Magic - lurikko

Short and sweet. Somehow combines cute and unnerving, menacing haunting vibes. Remus is hired to essentially exorcise Mr Black's house and there's something strange about the magic in the house. It's spooky and charming - recommend with a blanket and a tea on an overcast day.

The Space Between - @emeryhall

This fic made me laugh and cry (I finished a tissue box). It's a get-together fic where Remus follows Sirius through the veil. So so fresh and creative.

We Of Dust & Shadow - @eurhythmix

A stars crossed, soul mate adjacent AU. Difficult to describe without spoiling the fun, but it was thrilling and emotional and beautiful beginning to end. If you liked the themes of The Fall (minus the rom com), I think you'll like this short fic.

Not Like it Used To Be, But Just As Good @starrysummer-nights

Oh my God, this fic. The ultimate soft porn with feelings. So many feelings and emotions and LOVE between older wolfstar. And the smut is fucking hot, you'll need a fan.

There are many many more in my tbr list, but I spend all my time writing and have neglected the list!

Ty for the ask, please give something from this list a go ☺️☺️

[warpedpuppeteer]

Their expressions are killing me. Rem is like hey there 😏 but Sev is like🤺

My favourite thing is Remus looming over Sev. Against a wall, table, door. Looming over him while Sev is sitting on a chair. Better yet, with both his arms caging him in like YES GIMME MORE OF THAT

[reguluswife28]

Hey can you make a one shot or two parter about regulus and fem reader, arrange marriage trope where regulus is distant due to his past relationship and one day yells at the reader and regrets it? With a happy ending please!! Also I don’t see many RB imagines, so glad you are writing them, okie luv u byeeeee

I love Reg with all heart so im glad you requested this!

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Warnings: angst, fighting(screaming/yelling)

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Unwanted

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I’m married to Regulus Black. Not by choice though. It was arranged by our parents and it wasn’t a happy marriage. Regulus hated me or atleast he was really distant.

I tried my best to get his attention or even do something with him as husband and wife but he never budged. Today I was trying to get him to do something with me since he had the day off.

“Regulus? Can we please go out and do something? We never do!” I said sitting down next to him as he read a book. “No.” Is all Regulus said causing me to look at him confused.

“What?” I asked sounding a little defeated.

“Don’t you get it?” He asked angrily standing up. “I do not love you!” He now yelled and I winced. “This was only a marriage of convenience! I did not want to marry you!” He snapped viciously and I couldn’t help but start crying.

“Now leave me alone.” He told me not yelling now but still annoyed and angry. “As you wish.” I said getting up and going to our shared bedroom.

I owled the only two people I knew who would let me come over to their house. Remus Lupin and Sirius Black.

I couldn’t stand being in the same house as Regulus right now. They’d understand it. As the owl flew off I started packing the absolute necessities.

A few hours later Regulus had not appeared upstairs any and I had not seen him downstairs when I had checked. My owl also reappeared with a letter from Sirius and Remus saying I could come over.

I wrote Regulus a note saying that I was leaving for a few days but not saying where then grabbed my stuff and went to the fireplace.

I grabbed the floo powder and went inside the fireplace. “Lupin-Black house!” I said clearly and dropping the floo powder. As quickly as I did that is as quickly as I appeared in the house.

I stepped out into the living room to be greeted by Remus, Sirius, and shockingly James, Lily, and their baby Harry.

“What did my brother do now?” Sirius asked as they all gave me a quick hug. Lily led me to sit on the couch as I explained. “Your brother doesn’t love me is what he said. Told me to leave him alone when I tried to get him to do something just us.” I muttered as Harry crawled over sitting up in front of me babbling.

I smiled picking him up and holding him in my lap. “My brother has never been one for love. Just a stuck up prick.” Sirius told me and I tried to suppress a laugh.

“You’re just a cute little bundle of joy aren’t you, Harry?” I cooed playing with the child. “That he is.” Said James now sitting next to Lily who was next to me.

“You two are sure I can stay for a few days?” I asked looking between Remus and Sirius. “Yes. We’re sure.” Remus said with a soft smile and I thanked them.

Harry needed a nap so Lily took him and Remus showed me my room I’d be staying in. Once he showed me and left I put my stuff away and decided to lay down and take a nap myself.

As I was drifting off to sleep I layed there wondering what Regulus was doing despite what happened earlier. Soon I was asleep.

Regulus pov

After I had yelled at Y/n I had felt bad which confused me because I never felt bad before. So, I just went out but when I got home half of me expected what I was seeing right now and the other half somehow didn’t.

Y/n had packed her stuff and went away. She didn’t say where and now I was worried. I shouldn’t be, I didn’t love her. Right?

I mean I didn’t want to and was distant because of a past relationship and because our marriage was arranged. I figured that’s what she would want too.

Obviously, it wasn’t and now I regret everything. Some part of me had always admired the girl.

I tried thinking of where she could be. Her parents? No, they would be mad about her running away because they were the ones who arranged the marriage. Her sister? No, she doesn’t exactly like her sister.

My brother. That’s where. She was always friends with him and his friends in school.

Without warning my brother by owl at all I used the floo network to get there. As soon as I got there and got out of the fireplace I was met with the angry eyes of my brother.

“What are you doing here Regulus?” He questioned sternly. “I’m looking for my wife.” I sighed rubbing my forehead tiredly.

“The wife you yelled at and said you didn’t love?” Asked Remus also glaring at me. “The wife you said you never wanted to marry?” Asked James who now stood next to Sirius and Remus. All of them coming to her defense questioning him.

“Yes…” I muttered distaste in my mouth. I then looked at them with some look of determination in my eyes I had hoped. “I regret it. I’ve come to apologize to her.” I said seriously and then a different voice other than them was heard.

“Regulus?” Asked the voice and I stepped beside them in front of the others to see Y/n coming down the steps rubbing her eyes tiredly. “Y/n.” I whispered in relief.

A/n: I'm so sorry this has taken so long! I've had writers block and I've been busy with things. Btw this will have a pt 2!

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Prompt 11 - Home

@jegulus-microfic November 11, Word count 563

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Regulus cringed internally as he followed James, Sirius and Remus down the flight of stairs and out into the pouring rain. He had no idea what had possessed him to suggest the art show, but here he was clambering into the back of James’s car— apparently, Sirius had called eternal shotgun years ago—and on their way to the gallery on the other side of town.

“So when did you get into painting then?” Remus asked pleasantly while James and Sirius argued over what music they would put on. 

“Oh, er, I think I always liked art. Our house was full of dusty old oil paintings, and I was fascinated by how the artists had made it look like the eyes were following you. Took me years to figure out how to paint them.” Regulus answered, going into far more detail than he usually would with someone who was basically a stranger, but something about Remus made him want to spill his guts. He was so calm and sincere that Regulus had a hard time not trusting him. 

“Wait!” Remus gasped excitedly. “You know how to do that?” Regulus nodded. Remus grabbed both of Regulus’s hands in his and earnestly asked, “Can I commission a portrait of myself with the creepy eyes? I want to put it in Sirius’s office to freak him out.” Remus leaned conspiratorially. “He’ll hate it, but he won’t take it down in case he upsets either of us,” Regulus decided there and then that he was going to be very good friends with Remus Lupin. 

“You pay for the supplies, and I’ll do it just for the knowledge that Sirius will wig out every time he sees it.” 

“Deal,” Remus grinned at him mischievously and then grabbed the phone Sirius had plugged into the car’s speakers and put on NSYNC, to which two unhappy moans chorused from the front seats. “They both hate them, and I take great joy in singing the songs word for word as loudly as I can, so I’d cover your ears if I were you,” Remus warned before launching into ‘Bye Bye Bye’. Regulus grinned widely, loving how Remus was torturing his brother, not so much James, but this was just too much fun. He did something he never thought he’d do and he joined in. 

“I know that I can't take no more. It ain't no lie. I want to see you out that door. Baby bye bye bye.”

“Oh gods, there’s two of them,” Sirius complained as he put his hands over his ears. Remus leaned forward and prised Sirius’s fingers away from his head as the last verses started playing and sang loudly into the gap he’d made. 

“Bring it home Regulus!” Remus beamed, still holding Sirius’s hands away from his ears. So, Regulus did what he was told. He shuffled forward and scream-sang. 

“Don't really want to make it tough. I just want to tell you that I've had enough. It might sound crazy, but it ain't no lie. Bye bye.”

“We’re here,” James said as he pulled into the car park and found a parking space. He turned to Regulus with the most dazzling smile. “You have the most beautiful voice, my love, shall we go look at your beautiful art?” Regulus felt the blush coming before the heat even hit his face. James was a total menace.  

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The boys get letters from their parents the day after the sorting and all of them are happy to see them... except Sirius.

James got a letter about his parents being SO PROUD OF HIM! Remus got a letter and couldn't stop the smug look on his face as he saw it. Peter was practically jumping for joy the second the letter landed haphazardly into his breakfast.

Sirius' letter was an angry red color that James recognized the second it landed in his friend's lap. And the second Sirius opened the howler James jumped onto the Gryffindor table and started screaming his fool head off.

The Gryffindors near them could hear bits and pieces of Sirius' letter but the rest of the hall was transfixed on the 11 year old boy who was jumping up and down and screaming as loud as HE FUCKING COULD!

The second the letter shriveled up James stopped screaming and jumped down from the table and that is the story of how he got a detention on the first day of school.

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part 3 of mauraders but this time it’s with my cousins!!

marlene: bro has got luigi on his mind

sirius: sure do

marlene: me too but in a very different way probably

sirius: if you think that luigi mangione is hot… that’s not debatable. that’s a fact

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regulus: indecipherable screaming because ao3 is not loading and crying and banging fists.

sirius: what is wrong with you

narcissa: he’s being dramatic

regulus (literally two seconds later): oh joy it’s up again.

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james (telling a story to the mauraders about when he took padfoot to the gas station): i thought about tying him up outside but then i thought… if they don’t want my dog they don’t want my business

remus and peter: *hysterical laughing*

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Dunes & Waters, part 26

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“We need to go to Lycopolis,” Sirius says, “maybe the British left something there. The Box must have a key, there’s always one somewhere.”

It’s a week until the full moon. Remus already feels it pulling at the edges of him. Wants to cocoon himself in bed with a nest of blankets and warmth, to tell Sirius next week, please, but he can’t. Sirius is already gracious enough not running away screaming. Remus won’t put the setbacks of his conditions on him as well.

Not when he’s already keeping him from his family.

Remus didn’t really consider that, before. Should have, probably, because most people have someone that waits for them. A parent or a brother or a best friend – and Sirius has them all, of course he does, the person he is. (Wonderful, caring, charming.) and he’d told Remus, at the very beginning, he said I miss my family but somehow the meaning of it didn’t really hit.

It is a fear, a violation, to be found out through the Registry like he was, but can he begrudge the Potters? No. One of their own was off in a foreign country, being kept in that foreign country, even once they got him free. Of course they’d want to know who it was, doing the keeping.

There’s a young bell boy at the hotel they trust not to say anything about Ziggy (because he hasn’t, the many times he’s seen him). Remus gives him payment – or a bribe – to feed the cat the two days they’ll be gone. They pack lightly.

Segin al-Kom is three Apparition jumps north from where they were in Aswan. The very heart of the Nile Delta, it’s surrounded by a shock of green fields cultivated at the sites of the annual flood. It’s a living connection to history – the same land and the same water, cyclically allowing for life to grow, since before Osiris was worshipped here.

They find a small hotel. They arrive early, so the room won’t be ready for a few hours, but the concierge lets them leave their bags there ahead of time so they can travel unburdened.

Sirius takes a look at Remus, and insist they go to eat first. He buys a book of crosswords from the hotel shop (“I need my routine, Remus!”). Seems to be into them more than Remus is by now, and getting better too.

It’s more joy watching him solve them than Remus ever felt doing them alone. (It’s better to smell tea when Sirius drinks it, to see sunlight change shapes with passing time if it falls on his hair, to eat sticky-sweet pastries when Sirius eats them, too.)

The Museum is small, as they tend to be in places the British had stripped of all their historical artefacts. It’s run by muggles, without a Wizarding counterpart. Remus is a bit worried about that – had they had an in, Kingsley could always get them into the back rooms, the storage, the hidden things not presented to the general public. He hopes his Oxford university credentials are enough to get them some leeway.

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James who loved Lily for so long it became as natural as breathing

James who even if his love for Lily was incomparable also falled for anyone telling him he have feelings for him

James who have so much love in him that he thought it was normal to fall for more than one person

James who cried often after his new love broke his heart because they refused to be second behind Lily letting him confused because it was not that, he just loved both there was no order

James who was at the astronomy tower one day and saw Regulus in the beautiful light of the night and realized he was probably the most beautiful person he ever saw

James who started to watch carefully his best friend's brother everyday realizing he was more than Sirius' brother, he was Regulus and he was absolutely incredible

James who felt for Regulus without even knowing when for real

James who started to be intoxicated by his love, dealing with two love so intense it make him struggle to breath but always rejected because they thought he was not serious

James who one day had break, crying all his love out at night when everyone was asleep

James who decided love was just not for him and he should stop hoping to be loved back like he love people

James who became a ghost of himself, refusing to go to dates with everyone and doing less and less pranks

James who one day see again Regulus at the astronomy tower at night and even if he promised himself to stay away he couldn't help but trying comfort the other boy until his tears stop and they both go away without a words after that

James who returned to the tower every night and who saw the Slytherin there most of it

James who always take the time to comfort Regulus even if that mean staying up all night because even if love is not for him and he can't ask for anything he still love the boy deeply, so deeply it make him feel like drowning when he see tears on his cheeks

James who never expected anything from Regulus and who almost cried when one day Regulus asked him why he was doing all that and what he wanted in return

James who tried to put distance again so Regulus would not feel forced to give him anything

James who almost fell in the stairs of surprise when one day he returned to the tower and Regulus asked him in tears why he stopped to be there for him, if he was not deserving his comfort anymore, what kind of shit was that? Regulus deserve the world, of course he deserves comfort!

James who saw the night pass and the comfort became love slowly, night after night

James who felt his heart explode when Regulus kissed him and cried of happiness

James who started to be alive again to everyone surprise and joy but he was not like before too, he was just like back to life

James who kissed Regulus one last time before the summer vacations and when he stepped back saw the wand in his hand

James who felt dizzy for days after the last night at Hogwarts before the vacation without remembering why

James who felt his heart scream and cry when he saw Regulus back in September without knowing why

James who get confused by his feelings and ended up crying in Lily's arms one night after a bad nightmare he couldn't remember

James who felt his love for Lily grow more when they became friends for real after that night but refused to let his feelings ruins everything

James who refused to kiss Lily because she was drunk and never expected her to come kiss him the next day, sober this time

James who started dating Lily but felt like something was missing anyway

James who one more drink a potion thinking it was his pumpkin juice and vaguely heard Remus speaking about the fact it's one making people remember what they want to remember the most

James who drowned in memories of loving night under the stars and cried all the water in his body when he wake up from the experience

James who explained everything to Lily thinking she would hate him but felt even more love for her when she understood and decided to help her to get Regulus out of his family's hands

James who saw Lily cornering Regulus and forcing him to at least speak with them while James could only watch because Regulus refused to even look at him

James who saw Lily and Reg becoming closer after every secret meeting and felt his heart beat like drums about it

James who asked Lily to punch him in the face when she told him she started to maybe live Reg too because it could only be a dream right?

James who loved so much the time he could spend with his flower and star every night when everyone was asleep and hoped for this to never stop

James who promised Regulus they will come get him during the summer vacations so he will can take all his things and not let Walburga burn it like for Sirius

James who prepared everything with Lily under the confused eyes of their friends about their sudden urge to take Sirius' brother away especially when he refused to come when Sirius left

James who felt his heart break when Regulus ended up by refusing to leave and showing his lovers the mark on his arm saying it was too late

James who refused to leave and got forced to when Walburga entered the room as Regulus pushed him in the fireplace and send him back

James who cried with Lily for weeks as they tried again and again to have contact with Regulus

James who hoped that at least at Hogwarts he would see him and maybe fix things again only to see his hope crushed when Regulus kissed Crouch and Rosier in front of him seeming to have heart eyes for them

James who graduated with Lily and left Hogwarts knowing he would probably never see their other love anymore

James who was peacefully cooking when he saw a stag patronus enter the kitchen and screamed to Lily that Regulus needed them

James who again cried when he understood it was too late and Regulus was not here anymore

James who promised he would never lose another of his love and will protect Lily with his life, dying for her would be an honorable death for him

James who ended up having an honorable death as he faced his supposed best friend with loving eyes

[oneluckygoose]

He likes sweaters, the way the envelop him like a soft hug. He likes chocolate, the warmth it brings in contrast to cold rooms and even colder chains. He likes the chairs by the fire, the way it eases the aches in his bones, the way it laps and crackles the wood, fuzzy flames seeming soft to the touch, like the worn fabric underneath him. He likes it when people snuggle up to him and steal the warmth he produces like a furnace, he likes knowing he can do something other than hurt.

He gets mad, he’s angry, he’s in pain. How could he not be? There are rips and tears in his skin that come from claws that are not his own. He wakes up with blood in his mouth, fearing it to be someone else’s. He rages against the cruelty of the world, and there are cold points that bristle from him as a warning. He gets mad when he looks in the mirror, sees sharp scars and even sharper teeth, a painful reminder of his untamable bloodlust, he can’t count how many mirrors he’s broken. He supposes the cuts he gets on his hands are just few added to the many. He wants to scream, he wants to snap, to let the world know his anger, he wants to become something the wolf may fear as much as he fears it.

Remus Lupin likes curling up, book in hand, the pages worn soft from years of use, by the fire. He likes how the paper smoothes against his fingertips, added with the glowing warmth of flame. Remus Lupin likes the soft things, the warm things. He likes how human they make him feel. He likes how it proves to himself that he is something other than the cold, sharp wolf. He likes taking joy in them, he likes how it makes happiness flutter in his chest, in stark contrast to blinding bloodlust that takes him over by force. He likes how he can become everything the wolf isn’t, he likes how he can be better, how he can be the softness: in smiles, in hugs, in tones, in love. He likes how he can be the warmth: in comforting, in touches, in laughter, in love. He likes how he can think of the wolf and be so overwhelmingly angry, and still be a blazing torch of happiness to the cruel world that cursed him. He likes that it’s spite, but he likes even more that it’s love. He likes how it was love that let him like the soft things, the warm things. He likes how it is love he gives the people around him, not the scars that he gives himself. He likes that it’s love that makes soft jumpers rub against old scars and he likes that its love that he feels the jumper instead of the wound. He likes Sirius’ smile when he tells him in the dark night that the wolf’s fur is soft and warm. Remus likes how despite everything, he is the person seek out if they need a hug, or warmth by the fire, or a cozy sweater, or a bite of chocolate, or a good book, or a piece of love. He likes how the wolf took over his life and he found a way to live around it. He likes how he found a way to live and live and live without cold chains, sharp claws, bloody bites. He likes how he’s mad and he likes how he found a way to love.

He likes how that’s the biggest “fuck you” to the wolf, that he is everything it can’t be.