#reblog this when you’re overwhelmed by other people’s opinions

[mythical-ross]

I’m getting angry at strangers on the internet but there’s no point in engaging so let’s just say… you’re all dumb idiots. Except for those of you who aren’t and made a valid point. I’m not going to change my opinion because I’m correct, except in those cases where you made a good case and made me rethink everything.

[hatsunemiku-official]

ABOUT ME-KU

(+ FAQ / VOCALOID-OFFICIAL MASTERPOST)

hi! im miku and welcome to Internet! you can do lots of fun things here. like look at my blog! ok im gonna hand the mic over to the omnipotent being that watches my every move

thanks miku. here are some things to remember before you send an ask:

- I am not associated with crypton, sega, or the official miku twitter! im just a guy making funny post

- miku lives in a computer. i probably won’t answer anything referring to her doing things in the real world, since saying “I am in a computer what are you talking about” is only funny the first five times

- I use my askbox as a jumping off point for jokes! if I don’t answer your ask it’s not because I didn’t like it, I just probably couldn’t think of anything funny to respond with

- I love receiving art!!!!!!! please send me your miku art!!!!!!! you can even send me a link to your art posted on your own blog and I’ll reblog it so you still get the notes!!!! I LOVE ART!!!!!! (also the ai training toggle has been turned off for this blog so. you’re safe here.)

- there are some things you should speak to a mental health professional about ( ie “i just can’t go on” “my life is terrible” ect) and you should not send these things to hatsune miku. i understand and empathize with you but I cannot help you and it’s very upsetting to receive things like this !

- anything written in parentheses for the most part is an ooc comment from the person running this blog (that’s me!). I don’t like doing this very often though, so if you have a question that can only really be answered ooc then please ask it off anon so I can respond privately!

- please remember I am just one person and sometimes I make mistakes! im a pretty busy person and also disabled so sometimes things slip through the cracks when im low energy. I do my best though so please let me know if you think i’ve made a mistake and i’ll do my best to fix it :]

- sometimes I like to reblog miku art from other people! please be respectful in these artists notes. I know this is a silly jokes blog but these people have not necessarily signed up to be goofed at on their posts. please be kind and keep the clowning to a minimum on posts that aren’t made by me!

- no TERFS allowed. hatsune miku loves trans women

FAQ

Q: can I make a vocaloid-official blog too???

A: yes!!!! anybody can!! please let me know if you do so I can add you to the masterpost and interact with you! I would check the masterpost first though to make sure there hasn’t already been a blog made for that character :]

Q: do you also run [insert other vocaloid-official blog]?

A: no! I can barely think of funny things to say here do you really think I could manage being funny on two blogs at once. I am friends with the people who run the teto, luka and una blogs so if our posts seem coordinated it’s because I asked them really nicely

Q: who runs this account?

A: secret

Q: miku what’s your opinion on [insert queer identity]

A: I don’t like answering these because I don’t want to open myself up to shitty comments and I can’t think of anything funny to say that wouldn’t just sound like “ally twitch streamer smiling at the camera and saying trans rights”. this blog is run by a queer person and miku is whatever you want her to be, if that helps.

Q: i made a vocaloid-official blog! how do I get added to the masterpost?

A: adding people to the masterpost has gotten really overwhelming for me so I won’t be doing it anymore. sorry! feel free to still make a vocaloid-official blog and interact with me if you want, I just won’t be updating the masterpost anymore. the current list will stay up as it is as sort of like. a memento or something.

Q: you posted about something that I don’t understand!!! why!!!!!

A: sometimes i like to post about my personal interests that don’t really have anything to do with hatsune miku because i cannot contain the mental illness. you will see the occasional post about bands or video games you do not and will not ever give a shit about. sorry. I can’t stop it. it has to happen.

Q: do you know anything about PJSK???

A: no <3

OFFICIAL VOCALOID-OFFICIAL MASTERPOST

these are my Official Friends! go say hi to them!!

🥖 @kasaneteto-official

🐟 @megurineluka-official

🐙 @otomachi-una-official

🍷 @hanakomeiko-official

💛 @neruakita-official

🍌 @kagaminelen-official

🍊 @kagaminerin-official

🍦@kaitoshinon-offical

🐢 @ryuto-official (RESURRECTED)

💜 @vflower-official

🥕 @gumi-official

🖤 @zatsunemiku-official

🍡 @tohokuzunko-official

🩹 @fukase-official

🔌 @utatanepiko-official

🐰 @yukari-official

🩵 @ringsuzune-official

⚓️ @oliverv3-official

🌷 @nekomurairoha-official

🥢 @vocaloidcul-official

☕️ @rukoyokune-official

🥂 @meiko-offical

👑 @galaco-official

🐱 @seeu-official

🌸 @meikahime-official

🪻 @meikamikoto-official

🍆 @gakupo-official

🎀 @utanekoe-official

🌹 @sakinemeiko-official

🔪 @mayuofficial

🛰️ @moonbase-alpha-tts-official

🍺 @yowane-haku-official

🪐 @ia-official

🎹 @namineritsu-official

☁️ @tone-rion-official

🎤 @maika-official

🌈 @kawaiine-official

🍏 @macnenana-official

🌻 @dex-official

💗 @garnetvocaloid-official

💿 @yohioloid-official

🌺 @zhizidongfang-official

🤍 @kokone-official

🐸 @vocaloidrana-official

🌟 @xingchen-official

🍎 @yuki-official

🌿 @fionetheutau-official

💫 @sfa2miki-official

[multiplicity-positivity]

hey so we get pretty stressed out by hearin/talking about syscourse do to past trauma conected to it do you have any tips on how we can work on being less scared/stressed by it (like we have multiple alters that are just staight up scared and end up crying when reading and us getting syscourse ask do to the trauma) - night it/xe/star

our response is going under a cut due to the potentially triggering topic.

hey, night… we’re really sorry that seeing syscourse can be so triggering and painful for your system. rest assured you’re not alone in this. what should be a space for civil, respectful discussion with a diverse group of people is more often than not filled with folks hating and lashing out at each other for holding differing beliefs.

honestly, we believe that no one should feel obligated to take part in syscourse if they don’t want to. if viewing and participating in syscourse is a trigger for your system, it may be best to limit your exposure to it. we’d suggest using tumblr’s filtering system to block both the tag “#syscourse” and the word “syscourse” - you can also do this with “#anti endo” and “anti endo” as well, depending on your system’s views.

on the off-chance that you do happen to see some syscourse, here are some things you can do:

if you get a syscourse-related ask, block the user (which you can do by hitting the three dots at the top of the ask, then “block user.” this will work even if they send an ask anonymously) and then delete the ask.

if some syscourse is reblogged onto your dash, unfollow the person who put it there, ask them to tag the post properly so it can be filtered, or go to the original poster and block them.

if you’ve been put in a difficult emotional state due to seeing syscourse, try to step away from the situation and calm down a bit. we love the r.e.s.t. acronym for this, which is a dbt skill. we’ll include a post we’ve written in the past where we explained this strategy:

and here’s a few other things which might help y’all feel a bit less stressed about syscourse overall:

- other people’s opinions of you do not matter. regardless of your origins, someone ranting angrily about how certain systems are invalid for whatever reason is ultimately their problem, not yours. try to work on internal validation and self confidence, and understand that other people do not know you or your system better than y’all know yourselves.

- understand that everyone who participates in syscourse is a human being. many participants are traumatized, hurt, frustrated, and confused. sometimes when people are making heated statements, their words are coming from a place of heightened emotions and not rational thinking. so it’s never beneficial to take another syscourser’s remarks too personally.

- educate yourself about dissociative disorders, endogenic plurality, or other subjects that often become topics in syscourse. if you can build up your own solid foundation of knowledge, it may help you feel less helpless or attacked by seeing others have these discussions online.

we really hope that something here will be useful for you. we genuinely do believe that no one should have to engage in syscourse if they don’t want to, and especially if they have trauma relating to syscourse, it may be best to stay away from it. but we know everyone’s different and some folks really want to continue participating despite it having negative effects on their system. so hopefully, whether or not y’all choose to engage with it in the future, something here can at least help you feel a bit more equipped to make the right decisions for your system.

good luck with everything, night. we’re wishing your system rest and healing in the future :)

[valentinemailbox]

full offense but i hate every post on this site that’s all like “if you just like posts but don’t reblog anything you’re the reason why this site is dying and i hate you” or “if you’re just an empty blog i’m blocking you also you should be ashamed of yourself for not using this site the way i do”

like aside from the fact that they’re always incredibly hostile and condescending (esp to someone like me who’s been on this site for almost seven years now like i do not appreciate being told what to do on this website)… it literally does not matter. nobody on the internet owes you shit. nobody uses tumblr the same way you do. nobody cares about this shit as much as you do. of course there’s some nuance when it comes to the discussion of online engagement especially when you’re an artist or writer or any other creator. like i totally get wanting reblogs over likes on a piece you worked really hard on and i think online creators need all the support they can get. but like… if you’re making a big stink about someone voting in your shitposty poll but not actually liking the post… you need to step back from the internet from a bit.

being on the internet today is especially scary because everyone’s so… hypervisible. when you go on this site, you’re being exposed to so many opinions and hot takes a day (often against your own will)… and it’s overwhelming! it’s exhausting! and so many people get pressured to give their own “hot take” as a result and if they’re particularly unlucky they get dogpiled and ridiculed by literal strangers on this site if they say something that’s a little bit wrong or otherwise just “cringey”. there’s a lot of nuance when it comes to stuff like this and online arguments in general but ig what i wanna say is that being expected to participate in the internet can be very exhausting

the expectation of having something to say and constantly using social media is not healthy for anyone. constantly caring about every single move that you make on social media and the moves that other people make on social media is not healthy. at the end of the day, none of this shit matters. sometimes people just wanna vibe. sometimes people just wanna log on, like a few posts, and then log off… and that’s okay! it’s understandable, given how unnecessarily hostile a lot of people on social media can be.

anyway this kind of went off topic but if you use tumblr to just lurk and maybe like a few posts it literally does not matter. you do not need to use this site the same way as other people. you do not need to say anything on here and you do not owe anyone on this website shit. use this site however you’d like and curate your online experience however you like. it literally does not matter.

[itsyourchoicedevotionals]

Core Convictions

“But when you ask him, be sure that your faith is in God alone. Do not waver, for a person with divided loyalty is as unsettled as a wave of the sea that is blown and tossed by the wind.” James 1:6NLT

Question: What are your core convictions concerning Eternity? My prayer is— this question will gnaw on your mind night and day, until you have a one hundred percent conviction regarding the truth about God, Jesus, and Holy Spirit in your life.

I’m not asking you— what do you believe? You might believe your mom was Pocahontas and your dad wrote the US Constitution. Your diagnosis would be schizophrenic, insane.

Scriptures say: James 2:19NIV “You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe that—and shudder.” Did you ever consider demons believe Christ is God’s Son? Their disobedient rebellion cast them out of heaven for eternity. Do “You believe that there is one God”? Is your belief a core conviction or simple mental assent like demons have?

My grandson, (getting his Master’s Degree in Divinity,) explained Core Convictions. His explanation taught me soul-searching, why am I convinced Christ is who the Bible says He is? Am I just giving mental assent to Christ in my life, or living out core convictions I’d die for?

Core conviction goes deeper than belief. When using the word ‘conviction’ in legal terms— this points to finding someone guilty of a crime. A guilty ruling must be based upon irrefutable evidence for a conviction. Judges and lawyers don’t ask a witness, ‘do you ‘think’ this person ‘might be’ guilty?’ Witnesses can’t add personal opinion— aka ‘belief’— that’s considered heresy. The jury’s ‘guilty’ decision is a ‘finding’ based upon evidence.

Just as evidence brings a ‘conviction,’ in a court, evidence has to be present to obtain a core—‘verdict’— or ‘conviction.’ Thus convictions cannot be changed, or tossed “around by the wind.” People live and die by their convictions. Persecution quickly reveals spiritual core convictions

In order to have faith, we have to answer the question. What are our core convictions? Has God’s Word proved itself true in life? Is your core conviction— there’s only One God and Jesus is His only Son? If you’re being persecuted, tortured, killed— can you still maintain the core conviction, God loves you?

We must search deeply for our core convictions to find stability in our world, our church, our life, our family and our faith. I cannot begin to count the number of times my world has crashed. At that moment, doubt and fear wanted to overwhelm me back into a pity party. Always, I go back to the night God awakened me to tell me,—“My name is faithful and true.” He was yelling His name by the time my feet hit the stairs. Then He directed me to five scriptures proving His name, starting with Revelation 19:11. With my core convictions assured once again of His name, I wasn’t tossed about with the crashing around me.

Can you tell me your core convictions and what you base them on? The entire church world is stymied on this point of core convictions. Much of the church believes nothing, because individually, there are no core convictions. When the church awakens to her core convictions, she will dramatically change overnight into the Bride of Christ. She’ll know— WE WIN WITH CHRIST!

Are you blown around like waves, with divided loyalties? Can you accept a challenge to search deep within yourself to discover your core convictions? If you’re sick and tired of the status quo, you will search until you know. It’s your choice. You choose.

LET’S PRAY: Almighty God, I ask You to help us to totally seriously take our core convictions as primary. Help us to dig deep and find what we would live and die for, in the name of Jesus Christ I pray.

by Debbie Veilleux Copyright 2022 You have my permission to reblog this devotional for others. Please keep my name with this devotional, as author. Thank you.

[achilios]

eli’s masterlist of hp fic rec masterlists

decided to make a masterlist of various HP (mainly H/D) fic masterlists + reccers i usually refer back to when looking for both specific and random fics !

this list will be updated as regularly as possible, scroll to the bottom for updates

PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF YOU WOULD LIKE ME TO REMOVE YOUR TAG/MASTERLIST FROM THIS LIST (i will do it asap, let me know either by replying to this post or through a PM)

feel free to reblog/reply/PM me if you have any other masterlists you think i should add to this! they don’t have to be H/D recs, they can be any HP fic recs!

MASTERLISTS

lists (often sorted by themes, tropes, etc) that you can turn to to find any type of fic you’re looking for. they will be labeled as Extensive (E), Detailed (D) and Brief (B)

(in order of which are most to least detailed. pls note that this is based on both my opinion and the length of these lists, and does not determine how good a masterlist is. Brief masterlists can be just as good as Extensive ones.)

@capiturecs ‘s H/D masterlist

(D) great list with plenty of different themes and tropes to choose from. it is located on LiveJournal. make sure to check out their other masterlists, 'A Simpler Masterlist' (D) and 'Themed Recs' (E)

@sitp-recs ‘s Drarry recs

(E) this is probably the one i turn to the most, simply because i find it super accessible and easy to use! i also absolutely adore Liv’s taste in fics, which is alway a bonus when searching for new fics to read. check out the other rec lists (can be found in the pinned post) on this account as well, which are just as great!

@drarryspecificrecs ‘s Thematic Recs masterlist

(E) this one is sooo detailed, which is great, i love it! i also absolutely adore the way their recs work, that is, instead of only reccing fics (which they do as well), they also provide links to rec lists (for specific themes/tropes) by other accounts, as well as links to AO3 tags that may be useful to find a specific type of fic! they also have links to fest lists in their bio, which i recommend checking out as well

@ferretlovesscarhead ‘s Taglist

(E) so many possible tags to choose from! this is so well organized, and a great tool for finding fics. but make sure to open the link on desktop, if you can! while it is usable on mobile, i find it to be much more accessible on desktop. this account also has what seems to be a masterlist of every fic they’ve recced on this account (in alphabetical order). i have yet to use that masterlist, but it looks detailed, despite not being organized by theme!

@drarryruinedme7 ‘s Rec Masterlist

(B) despite how brief it is, this masterlist is absolutely lovely. it’s so straightforward and easy to use, definitely a great place to start if you are feeling overwhelmed by the longer lists!

@dragontamerdame ‘s Masterlist

(E) oh how i love this masterlist! the way it is organized is absolutely lovely, and i looove all the options they have for careers for draco and harry. they also link other fic rec lists they have made on this post, which is great! make sure to check out their AO3 bookmarks for more recs (linked in their pinned post)

@krystalliumm ‘s Masterlist: Recs

(B) yet another masterlist i love turning to when i’m looking for something easy to navigate! and oh my, Khrys’s recs are great! i love the 'soft draco + protective harry' list!

@gracerene09’s Recs Masterlist

(D) so, this is something a bit different. this is actually a masterlist of various other masterlists this person has made, for several fandoms. there are currently four HP lists, including H/D Recs, Non-H/D HP Recs, FBWTFT Recs, and Art Recs!

other masterlists mentioned include the following fandoms: Teen Wolf, AFTG, Avengers, Check Please!, Criminal Minds, Dresden Files, Heroes, The Hobbit, Hunger Games, Inception, James Bond, Kingsman, LOTR, Merlin, 1D, Percy Jackson, The Raven Cycle, TMI, Sherlock, Smallville and Song of Ice and Fire. make sure to check those out as well if you’re looking for recs in those fandoms!

@justdrarryme ‘s Drarry Fic Rec Masterlist

(D) i’ve recently discovered this masterlist and can’t wait to use it! it’s organized in two categories: length and trope. make sure to click 'Keep Reading' to see the full masterlist!

@thedrarrylibrarian ‘s Card Catalog

(D) such a great masterlist! i use it often, and love browsing the different tags this masterlist offers. the librarian has a lovely 'new to drarry' rec list that i recommend checking out!

@themalfoymanner ‘s Drarry Fics Recs Masterlist

(D) another one i’ve only recently discovered! though Emily is no longer reccing fics, they still have several of their masterlists available, including her Scorbus Masterlist.

@snowgall ‘s #fanfiction recs and Masterlist For This Blog

(none) i unfortunately do not know how to link a specific tag and make it so that it only shows the results for one account, but fortunately, you can easily access this tag in their bio, under the link 'fandom and fic recs'. be aware that this seems to included non-HP fics as well, though you can find drarry-specific posts by clicking on the 'drarry' link.

EDIT: (E) their "Masterlist For This Blog" on LiveJournal is very extensive and has plenty of subcategories, definitely recommend giving it a look!

@potter-loves-malfoy ‘s Rec Lists

(D) a masterlist that makes every single one of their 3+ fic rec lists since 2017 super accessible!

@wistfulrat ‘s Another Drarry FicRec List Thrillers, Drama, Soft Bois, Wankbanks

(D) this collection of ficrec lists is so so good, filled with absolutely amazing fics. i go back to the 'drama' one all the time

@hogwartsfirebolt ‘s Netfic Recs

(D) such a creative way of reccing fics, i love it! make sure to check out their other rec lists as well :)

@somegymnast ‘s Masterlist

(B) recently reblogged on sitp’s account! i only just discovered it today so i haven’t had a chance to fully check it out yet, but it seems like a lovely masterlist!

EDITED: @dictacontrion ‘s Masterlist

(E) such a lovely rec list! not only is it a masterlist of their own works, but it’s also a masterlist of their recs. they also have a 'recommended rec lists' link at the bottom, for even more recs by several different people! I’ll also link their Tumblr Recs, which aren’t part of a masterlist but still are a great place to find new fics.

honorable mentions:

@sturm-und-drarry

(none) this isn’t exactly a masterlist, but this account is basically an archive for plenty of amazing angst and dark H/D fics and art

@gameofdrarry

(none) a fic fest account that also happens to be a great place to find fics!

EDITED: @dictacontrion 's List of HP and H/D Bogs

(none) this isn’t a fic rec masterlist, but rather a list of other HP accounts, including fic reccers !

that’s it for today! (updated july 27, 2021). i’ll update this asap with more masterlists/places to find recs!

[juminsmysticmc]

Since requests are open, may I submit an MC x Jihyun or MC x Jumin request for an MC who's stressed over her parents health and are on the verge of passing out due to helping their family full time so they're incredibly tired? So they buy her a present or attempt to give her money to help but she panics and refuses because she's not used to people buying or giving her things. She accepts it after them insisting it isn't a big deal, but she's pretty embarrassed or shy about it.

Jumin x Mc & Jihyun x Mc who's stressed over her families health

Hey! So this was actually pretty nice to write about it and so I decided to write both as a pretty short One Shot ( I love Jumin with my everything but sometimes I don’t want to always choose him…? ) Hope you guys are all okay and liked the story! Please give feedback, like and reblog.

Jumin

Everything happened so quickly. It felt like one day your parents were at your wedding and the other day they were sick.

Not too many weeks later, you and Jumin finally decided to have family together and enjoy your love. Your parents got very sick, making you feel worry and fear whenever you woke up.

You took care of them. Just like they did when you were just a kid, you did the same with them.

Unfortunately, none of your siblings did the same.

No one ever took your mother to the doctor for her monthly check up and no one ever took your father to take some fresh air.

No one even dared to call them or you, who took their tasks.

No one cared and your heart and mind felt like falling apart day after day.

Thank God you had Jumin by your side.

You didn’t want him to take care of your family since it wasn’t his job in your opinion, but he made sure that at least the doctor came to your parents house so that you didn’t have to worry about going out with her even though you were busy.

Even if it wasn’t much, Jumin made sure that everything they needed was there so that you had less things to do.

You didn’t have to cook daily as he ordered a chef to cook for them, you didn’t have to take care of the insurance, the wheelchair, or the bed which was specially ordered for your father.

You didn’t have to worry about so many things thanks to him, but still you felt tired, emotionally and physically.

The pain of seeing your parents sick like that and taking care of them alone was driving you crazy.

It was so bad until one day Jumin decided to make you stop and instead breathe for a second. ,,You’re overworking yourself. Let’s call your sister or brothers. It’s their mother too and they also have a father,’’ he mumbled, but you didn’t agree. ,,They won’t care. I know it,’’ you whined.

,,If you don’t know… besides, my wife, there is something I would like to give you’’ he began and took out his phone.

,,I made sure that if someone else taking care of your sick parents, you don’t have to overwork yourself anymore,’’ he mumbled.

However, it didn’t go like he expected.

The two of you began to argue about the fact that as a daughter, you should take care of them and not leave it to someone else, but Jumin managed to make you feel better about getting some help. ,,It’s not just destroying you emotionally, but also physically. Do you think that that’s what your parents would like to have for your future, Mc?’’ he asked you. ,,Let me help you,’’ he begged and took your hand. ,,There are things that you can’t handle either…’’ he whispered.

And that’s when you broke down.

The stress, the overwhelming helping hand of your husband, everything made you just break down in tears and Jumin once again noticed that his actions were the right thing to do in order to keep you healthy…

Jihyun

,,Bye bye, Lucy, bye Jihyun. Please don’t forget that she still has to do her math homework and promised to clean up her room, okay? I will hopefully be home in three hours,’’ you said, kind of in a rush, your jacket over your shoulders as you searched for your keys in your purse.

,,You were already at your parent’s house yesterday. Are you sure that you have to go there today too? Shouldn’t you rest up a bit?’’ he asked you, trying to grab your hand.

,,No… I don’t know. She was so puzzled yesterday. I need to make sure that mom is clean and that she didn’t fall…’’ you told him, walking towards the door to put on your shoes.

Jihyun sighed as he watched you go out of the big door and leave him and Lucy behind.

Not that he was annoyed by you taking care of your mother, not at all, it was the opposite. Jihyun was happy and proud that you were that kind of a daughter who really took care of her parents, but sometimes he wished that you would have taken some time for yourself. He was scared that you would crumble from the pressure and stress.

He knew that you weren’t as strong as you always acted, but he also didn’t know how to help you or to get you to ask him for his help without making you feel bad about it.

,,Daddy… I think we should give mommy a present so that her mood will lighten up,’’ Lucy said out of the blue to her father, who suddenly came up with the right solution.

,,I don’t think that you should sleep on the cold floor,’’ Jihyun commented late in the evening when you finally came back home much later than you told him earlier.

,,I can’t handle it anymore…’’ you sobbed. ,,It’s so hard… I don’t want to do this anymore,’’ you said as your feelings took over and before you could control it, you began to cry on the floor of the doorway.

,,Mc… please, let’s first shower and rest in the bed… let’s talk…’’ he begged.

A bit later you laid on your cozy bed, the pillow soaked in your tears as Jihyun rubbed your back, trying to make you feel better.

,,I… I’m scared. She doesn’t remember me and just makes trouble and I am scared that something could happen while I’m not by her side or even worse, something could happen while I’m right next to her,’’ you told him.

,,You… you need help to take care of her. I thought of a nursing home,’’ Jihyun said.

You looked up. ,,I did too, even though I would feel as if I left her somewhere, but I can’t pay the rent of such a home,’’ you told him, teary, red and swollen eyes watching him. ,,But together we can,’’ he whispered and suddenly you became all nervous. ,,Jihyun, I know how much you would like to help and I really appreciate it, but… I can’t make you pay all that,’’ you said, still crying but firmly.

,,Mc, we’re married. I love you with everything,’’ he began and took your hands. ,,Together. We need to get through this together. Not just for your mental health and physical health, but also for our family. Let me take care of you, please,’’ he whispered and gave you a kiss on your cold, wet cheek.

,,Jihyun… I don’t know… I… I’m so overwhelmed,’’ you confessed.

The two of you agreed on waiting a bit before deciding on something, but the next day when you found your mother injured when you went to her home, you knew that the nursing home would be the best decision.

The whole preparation took some time, but to your surprise it went quicker than you thought and it really helped you and your family.

ᗰᗩᔕTEᖇᒪIᔕT

26.12.2021 // 00:14 MEST

[vacantgodling]

maybe i’m just the only person that feels this, but i feel like in light of everything that just happened with racism and homophobia on this island of the internet it needs to be addressed.

note: i am speaking as (1) queer black dude. my opinion is my own all that shit; don’t take my words here as the words for every poc. without further ado:

i seriously don’t want your charity follows

when shit like this happens there’s always an influx of people who start to say hey! we need to boost poc’s content to show our support! we see it happen time and time again following a tragedy (like george floyd, like anti-asian discrimination etc) or someone being very -ist (the dave chapelle transphobic bs for instance). good, and well intentioned people always flock to poc/queer creators in a wave of showing support for them and their work. to say, hey i’m not a bad person, i support poc/queer people! to show other people, especially poc, that you are not one of the enemy, you are fighting against them and standing up for the marginalized and mistreated.

however

i’ve seen time and time again that these intentions, like a lot of shallow activism, fall hella flat. you follow the creator and… that’s it. you don’t interact with their work, you don’t seek to engage yourself with it, you just hit one button and feel like you’ve been absolved, you’re not a bad person. it’s like when people claim they have one black friend— i have 3 poc artists that i follow!!

but specifically on websites like tumblr, how people talk about time and time again, interaction is the real way to show your support. reblogs, likes, comments, questions or asks. tangible, real ways to show that you value that creators voice and space in the community. but so many people do not do that, at least not in my personal experience.

which brings me back to my original point.

i’m not really interested in people who follow me just because i am a queer poc creator. i’m not interested in being your obligatory diversity check. i’m not interested in you following me to feel better about where you stand on issues like these. because you can very well support poc voices without following every single one that crosses your dash. i want people to follow me for the stories i am trying to tell. i want people to be invested; to acknowledge my work in the world and how much of myself and my soul i put into it.

and before anyone says it, i get people are busy (trust me, i am too). i’m not begging y’all for likes, reblogs or interactions. all i’m saying is think about it: on my last blog i had almost 300 followers. three. hundred. people. following that account. and how many notes did any of my writing get? 0-4, on a good day without self reblogs. it feels extremely empty when you get a wave of new followers—that hope of engagement and recognition begins to bloom in your chest—only for it to trickle down into nothing when you realize that, for the most part, these people only followed you for their own conscious. not because they genuinely care about what you do or the things you create, but because of your race, your sexuality, your gender. it feels like being reduced to WHAT i am instead of WHO i am.

i used to follow-for-follow quite often on my first blog, and ngl it made me very overwhelmed. there was so many people and so many wips to keep up with that i found it difficult to prioritize my own energy, my own stories, and to engage with media that i was genuinely interested in. i want people to give my stories respect so i want to do the same for others and something i told myself when i remade this blog is that i would not fall back into that habit. i won’t follow for follow because i don’t want to be an empty follower if i can avoid it. i want to learn and interact and engage deeply with works that i am truly fascinated by.

i ask for the same in return.

so, no, i don’t really want your charity follows. i don’t want heaps and hoops of followers that are empty numbers that don’t interact with me. i want people who want to engage with my work in a meaningful way to find my page. i want to show off these characters and ideas that i love to people who want to listen. i want to be an individual. i already get reduced enough to just my skin, let alone my queerness.

like i said tho, i don’t speak to everyone. i’m just speaking for myself and this isn’t a call to action or a whine for attention, but a mirror. to ask people to ask themselves why they’re following a poc creator or queer creator. is it because it makes you feel better about yourself? or is it because you like what they bring to the table?

[zorkaya-moved]

KNOWING YOUR PARTNER WELL CAN POTENTIALLY MAKE WRITING TOGETHER A LOT EASIER. REPOST DO NOT REBLOG !!

NAME:    renata, ren, rena. 

PRONOUNS: she / they

PREFERENCE OF COMMUNICATION:   with new people, tumblr im. otherwise, discord. i usually give my discord in ims because i’m not comfortable sharing my discord in public. i’m still very damn slow there too so my bad. 

NAME OF MUSE(S):  uhh, zarina sokolova, elysia, mobius, agatha belobogova, aponia, raiden mei, kevin kaslana… 

RP EXPERIENCE/HOW LONG (MONTHS / YEARS?):  probably like 8-9 (?) years on tumblr and 10+ in general since I wrote on russian websides before tumblr. 

BEST EXPERIENCE:    there is no unanimous best experience. the best experience always lies in finding people who you can bond with, talk with, share opinions with, and not be assholes to each other or use each other for stupid reasons like clout or etc. basically, just finding friends and fun people to talk to, to engage with, to have fun with! so there are a lot of best experiences for me here! because i have a lot of amazing people i call my friends and a lot of wonderful, creative, talented writers i learn from!

RP PET PEEVES/DEALBREAKERS:   lying, proshipping/comshipping, acting like you’re above another person, vague posting, stalking, force shipping, guilt tripping, general hate, doxxing. 

FLUFF, ANGST OR SMUT:   all three tbh. it really depends on my mood. it’s usually angst or smut with zarina knowing her as a person. fluff with her isn’t really THAT hard but it is harder to instgate because she doesn’t care for many people. 

PLOTS OR MEMES:   HIGHLY prefer memes. I suck at plotting, I suck at talking, I get overwhelmed easily and I just sit there, stuck in my head and I don’t know what to propose and what to think. I always feel like I have to carry the conversation even when I don’t need to, but tumblr rpc traumatized me like that esp as a female oc :’) so, yes, I prefer memes over plotting. 

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES:  long. i’m re-learning how to write short replies to not take 6707867567 years :”D

BEST TIME TO WRITE: depends on my mood. usually, it’s evening/night. 

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S):   absolutely fucking not when it comes to zarina aside from treasure our family, but i’m not likeher at all. we’re very opposite in like 99% of things. but I think I am like my other muses elysia and agatha! i try to love other people and i try to see the best in them (which leads to some bad moments knowing tumblr), plus i’m a nerd too like agatha. :’3

tagged by.   @jiingweii ( thank you sophie!! )  tagging.  @veqva , @vakinari , @spxrosae , @remunporium , @redimp , @nulltune , @goldnautilus , @amaurct , @jaxxmulti , @paskl​ , @unshackle​ , @syou​ , @phantasmaw​ , @softmortem​ , @avaere​ and everyone who wants to try this out! 

[admirableadmiranda]

hiii sangsang! how are you? 💜💞 as a newbie to mdzs, my fandom experience has been so stressful considering the amount of toxic (not even productive) debate, fanon as canon and hate on the main couple esp LWJ. I'm trying to embody the whole ship butet ship, but it's irritating seeing the way people bring down LWJ. I think I'm gonna step back altogether, but I was wondering if you have any tips? I always end up sucked back in bc of fanart or a random fic. I don't know what to do

Hello anon! I am not doing my best today I’ll admit, I’m up about three hours later than I should be, but when I saw your ask arrive I couldn’t wait till morning to answer you.

I’m sorry your time in Modaozushi has been difficult. Unfortunately it’s a difficult fandom to be in for the reasons you name. Nonsense runs rampant and it’s hard to enjoy yourself when it feels like everywhere you turn you’re being bombarded with more of it. If you choose to leave and just enjoy the book as is, I won’t blame you.

But if you are wanting to try and stick it out, here are some tips I can offer.

A: Whenever you run into a take you hate, block the person immediately. If someone keeps reblogging it onto your dashboard, unfollow them. This is a pretty big active fandom, you don’t need all of that showing up constantly. The more people you have blocked, the easier it gets to manage. You can do a similar thing with Ao3. If I’m searching through posted fics (which is rare, but it happens), I have a bunch of tags I immediately filter out. I don’t need to see that and while not everything is tagged, having the most common fanon ones dealt with helps a lot.

B: I don’t go into the main tags. I have found my people I trust with good takes and two art blogs that don’t post so much fanon I can’t scroll past it with a weary smile and that’s enough. I don’t need to be in the center, I can be here in the corner with my anons and my bunnies and we’ll all have a good time.

C: if you’re wanting help finding more good fics in canon style, try @pocketfulofrecs the runners have been a little busy lately, but they have excellent taste and checking out the authors from their featured authors will definitely give you plenty of good fics to enjoy. In addition most of the people I reblog and rec are a wonderful beacon of sanity in this fandom, so if you want some warmer takes based off of MDZS, I highly recommend @rynne and @glitteringmoonlight or for amusing salt, excellent metas and fun things to know, @jiangwanyinscatmom (don’t be fooled by the username she’s a delight to know and the one good JC fan I’ve found in this fandom) @vrishchikawrites @whiteflowercrimsonparasol / @justdoityoufucker @karmiya / @fannish-karmiya @fondofeveryprickle @righteousinadversity and many others who are not coming to mind at this late hour, but you’ll see me interact with them regularly. While we don’t always agree on everything, we all respect and understand each other’s opinions and I am very happy to know them.

I hope this helps anon. And remember while this fandom may seem overwhelmed with bad takes, it is vast. There are many, many people in it. And I’m sure you can find your own little circle to have fun in.

And you are always welcome to stop by again! My inbox is always open.

[ladymochamagic]

For those who are following me for the reblogs and random posts of CRK and those who are also slightly into the Koopaling fandom, hear me out when I mention this specifically in terms of one of my favorite canon Koopaling characters that I enjoy learning about in terms of characteristics behaviors and how this character can achieve themselves to having multiple personalities from multiple characters in one.

So, for some who have followed me for a while, you know that my favorite koopaling is the one and only pompous, Ludwig Von Koopa. And the CRK fandom, I currently still simp for the Espresso and Madeleine content that Tumblr is still blessing me over with. Now, I bet you’re going to ask, “What do these characters have to do with this specific post?” Or “How are these characters related to each other and why?”

I’m am literally going to spill out a bunch of silly nonsense that will definitely have you question me and my universe as to why I randomly thought of this at 12am, trying to explain this the ‘cohesive’ way and elaborate as to why I think Ludwig definitely fits the multiple personality between a ‘himbo’ and a ‘smug’ like Espresso and Madeleine. I never used to write a lot of headcanons for Ludwig, judging by his in-game appearances and ‘anti-showy’ personality, I was able to understand him from a visual pov rather than excessively trying to research through Wiki and other relentless sources just give a lot of false crap, which is why being in one or multiple fandoms of a significant character you like can just be extremely overwhelming and people choose to be sensitive in that way, just because they think they know the character by default and assume from ‘point a’ and ‘point b’ that it is 100% accurate to the franchise or even just assuming that this character is “30” according to Wikipedia sources. ANYONE CAN REVISE AND EDIT THE WIKIPEDIA SITE THAT IS MISLEADING TO THE FRANCHISE. IMO, headcanons do differ from that, but not when it’s meant to be criticized or judge in the most misleading way. Especially when having desired opinions for their favorite characters, which is why we don’t need to go into a huge political debate about it.

Now without further ado, here are my headcanons related to the relationships and similarities between Ludwig and the cookies, Espresso and Madeleine…

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LUDWIG HEADCANONS: MULTI-PERSONALITIES / TRAITS THROUGH ESPRESSO COOKIE AND MADELEINE COOKIE

ESPRESSO:

I genuinely believe that there is some huge similarities between these two!! For one, they both share the ‘sumg’ trait, while Espresso is more entitled to himself and his coffee magic, Ludwig desires the same attributes as being obnoxiously stubborn about himself, praising his own victories and how he is a leader to his siblings. While these two can be much of a jerk, yet, they are tedious when it comes to showing their soft side and sympathy for others. In fact, you have to prove to them that you are worthy enough to show how capable you can be when it comes to ‘true power’ and ‘raw strength’ Their dull personalities is what makes them say, “Suck it up, will ya? It’s not the end of the world.” Of course, they are very blunt, but they expect you to be ‘straight-to-the-point’ when grasping for their attention, even if it’s majorly serious.

These two plan out consistent plans for toggling battle strategies. They always try to find perfect decoys for major distractions and lead them into their trap, whereas Espresso uses his signature coffee whirlpool to lure enemies into his trap and Ludwig using his scepter to duplicate himself as a distraction. However, recovering is important. So Ludwig and Espresso definitely care about this precisely when taking aid of their teammates. As using all of their power drains their stamina, their dexterity in healing is outstanding! So, even with the helping hand of a ‘support’, they will be there to help you recover from immense damage. Therefore, they are the most intelligent when asking for ways to help you build more power along the way. They also expect you to use you power and strength accurately, otherwise consider yourself done…

These two also share some similar quotes that fit between the two such as:

LUDWIG:

"But you did show up a little, uh, earlier than I anticipated, so we had to cut production a bit…short."

"Whatever. I’m not impressed! Time for a real leader to step to the plate!"

"Incoherent insect!! Idiotic imbecile! You and everyone you care for will pay dearly for making a fool of me!!"

"Shut your stupid mouth before I shut it for you!!" (THIS WILL BE LOWKEY ESPRESSO TELLING THIS TO MADELEINE, JUST LIKE HOW IGGY LAUGHS MANICALLY AT LUDWIG)

"And, naturally, the more like units you have, the stronger the group attack will be."

"And despite his miserable attitude, everything is going according to plan. Now, let’s hurry along into battle. Actions speak louder than words."

"Happy now? You’ve been looking for me, right? Come on, you have to admit it was a good disguise."

"But enough talk. It’s time to face the music, lady. And my piano’s all tuned up."

"Fine, do your own thing." (negotiating)

"The deal is off. Good day!" (negotiation failed)

ESPRESSO:

“Yes, I'm here. What now?”

“You require my expertise?”

“I take my leave.”

“I'm honored to be of service.”

“Quite a conundrum we have here.”

“I am already the greatest wielder of Coffee Magic.”

“You have the right to think what you want.”

All in all, I can just see some resemblance from here. Sure, they may act like the assholes they are, but they definitely put a lot of dedication towards their accomplishments. Although, just imagine these two teaching each other their magic. I’m pretty sure Ludwig will definitely be interested in learning ‘coffee magic’, especially ‘dark magic’ since Espresso theoretically used to be a member of Dark Enchantress Cookie, who learned a few dark magic spells form here and there.

MADELEINE:

So here me out. Ludwig can be a huge himbo in his game appearances. Aside from his intelligence, his is a very conceiting male. The most attractive male koopaling out of the whole bunch, based on popularity. Despite the fact that performing airborne moves in his kart and bike just shows and personifies his ‘showy anti-hero’ personality. Also, in Mario and Sonic at the 2020 Tokyo Olympic Games in story mode, Ludwig is placed under the Fencing relay as a boss. A lot of people in the fandom, more so on Instagram who have fangirl in the past over this particular gameplay/mode is because they saw him as his “shining knight and armor” as a headcanon or to put in their role plays. Yet, HE DEFINITELY FITS THAT ROLE. Similar to Madeleine, he acts as a leader to his family and the Devine, making him the Commander and Knight of light magic. Even though, Madeleine’s class is being part of the ‘defensive’ role, optimistically, Ludwig is also known to fit in both positions of being the offense and defense, knowing to using his scepter and shoot fire balls and can use his shell to defend himself, spinning rapidly to stun his target as a good mechanism and like a shield. Yes, when I mean ‘shield’, This blue-haired Beethoven wannabe is the real deal. I think these two would definitely learn from one another.

Even though, his relationship between Espresso’s is diligent with battle strategies. Sometimes, using a extra defense mechanism wouldn’t hurt to protect their teammates from amplifying more damage. When two handsome gentlemen decide to become the ‘center of attention’ of the ring, leave them be. Madeleine activating his light magic while Ludwig can either use his scepter to create a bigger shield and/or lunge at their opponents to act as if his wand is a sword as well.

These two also share some similar quotes that fit between the two such as:

LUDWIG:

"You put up quite a fight, but I'm afraid I must bid you adieu. Here comes my final attack... Meteor Missile Storm!"

"No. If anything, we're a republic... Wait, what am I saying? WHO CARES? GET MARIO!"

"I...I’ve been dethroned…"

"You’ve got a lot of nerve to ignore the great Ludwig!" (OR THE GREAT COMMANDER, MADELEINE)

"Heh…not bad yourself. I could tell it wasn’t your first pose-off." (imagine Madeleine also partaking in this.. THIS WOULD BE INTERESTING DJSNJSNSS)

"Whahahaha! You’re an odd one, but I like your flair. I’ll fence with you. But hear me and let it be known! It is I who will win the gold medal!"

MADELEINE:

I don't know defeat!

My presence guaranteed victory!

I... lost... Impossible!

No... This can’t be right!

Perfect, if I say so myself, ha!

Hmm? Do you want an autograph? (THIS WOULF DEF BE LUDWIG AS WELL)

The future of my republic rests on these shoulders!

Our victory is inevitable!

Ludwig would definitely have a split personality disorder. The fact that he can be a two-sided character just explains the fact that everyone relies to him as a leader, marching his army, listening to his classical music and giving personal feedback. While it may be certain that trauma may have effected his past life, living with different siblings with different personalities had made him realize that being a stubborn one but also desires for others in need, just like towards his siblings, he would definitely share a bond with Espresso and Madeleine. Ludwig tends to hide his past and pretend that it never occurred to him. That’s why when Bowser made him leader, he wanted to be capable of how that would turn out and I think it had knock some smack into him as well just by brushing off the remaining debris of the memories that he once have said “What a wasted life it turned out to be. I enjoy the perfection that has kept me stable now.”

**((ALL SOURCES, QUOTES ARE ORIGINALLY FROM THE NINTENDO AND COOKIE RUN KINGDOM WIKI SITES. ALL CHARACTERS OWNED, SUCH AS LUDWIG VON KOOPA IS OWNED BY NINTENDO. ESPRESSO COOKIE, MADELEINE COOKIE ARE OWNED BY DEVSISTERS. QUOTES WERE ALL USED FROM COOKIE RUN KINGDOM, MARIO AND LUIGI: SUPERSTAR SAGA + BOWSER’S MINIONS, PAPER JAM AND THE TOKYO OLYMPIC GAMES. THESE ARE JUST HEADCANONS AND NOT CANON TO BE EXACT. HATE AND DISCRIMINATION WILL BE BLOCKED))

[sexlapis]

I posted 711 times in 2022

That's 152 more posts than 2021!

52 posts created (7%)

659 posts reblogged (93%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@shigarakitomura

@dejwrites

@princesslily

@sexlapis

@letstalkaboutfandomsbaby

I tagged 445 of my posts in 2022

Only 37% of my posts had no tags

#sexlapis reblogs.🪷 - 85 posts

#nanami x reader - 28 posts

#moodboards! - 24 posts

#sexlapis loves art - 24 posts

#🎨.jjk - 20 posts

#☁️.nanami - 20 posts

#toji x reader - 16 posts

#sexlapis laughs - 14 posts

#criminal minds - 13 posts

#sexlapis loves women - 13 posts

Longest Tag: 117 characters

#because you know full well that your opinions are the norm ans you want to feel superior to all the “progressives😡😡

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

drabble, nsfw

u and nanami havin sex but he’s being so soft and gentle with his thrusts n u so desperately want him to go faster and harder :( ur literally cryin and holding ur legs up higher, begging him to faster. “please please ken, go harder pleaseeeee” and nanami does nothing other than shush u, pressing a kiss to ur cheek, sayin “you’ll take what i give you angel” before only slightly picking up the pace, leaving u writhing in ur torment and pleasure simultaneously n cockdrunk :(

842 notes - Posted May 16, 2022

#4

a tip for fanfic writers.

if you’re going to write a fic more than 1k words, please put “:readmore:” to split the fic so people can choose to read the rest or not. because sometimes i’m scrolling through a tag and a 5k word fic just pops up and i’m forced to scroll though the entire thing!

so again, add “:readmore:” (without the quotation marks) to split up your fic <3 i ain’t tryna read ur 100k fic when i’m just looking for a 600 word mikasa fluff, godbless.

987 notes - Posted March 2, 2022

#3

riding toji for the first time

❀ : toji x female reader

cw : ns4w, riding, a short fic!, actually rlly fluffy, toji referring to himself in 3rd person😵‍💫, big dick toji :)

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you’re on the couch, straddling toji’s thick legs as his calloused fingers run gently along the length of your wet folds. moaning softly, sweaty palms gripping on to his hard shoulders, his hot mouth closed around your perked dark nipples, biting them with the scrape of his teeth. your mouth finds home on his neck, purples marks litter toji’s tan skin.

“fuck.” toji rasps out and one of his hands grab a hold of his hard length, stroking himself slowly. “okay baby, i think you’re ready now.”

you bit your lip and nod vigorously. toji had been playing with your little pussy for ages now, leaving the in between of your thighs and his fingers wet with your sweet mess. your thighs tremble as you straddle him. taking his length in your hand, you position yourself over him, rubbing your velvet folds against him and before you know it you’re sinking down on his thick cock. too overwhelmed to make any noise, your mouth falls open as you bottom out.

it was unlike anything you’ve ever felt. this position had toji feel so deep within you and it made you mind blank. toji brings you back to reality by stroking the side of your face gently, looking at your pretty face.

“you okay sweetie?” he chuckles deeply at your already fucked out expression. you had always been so sensitive, so responsive to his touch. it had him feeling a sense of pride that he could make you such a beautiful mess. his beautiful mess.

shyly, you laugh along with him and nod at this question, face feeling hot at the intimacy of the situation.

you breathe out. “yeah toj, ‘m okay.”after reassuring him, you start to grind your hips slowly. even the slightest of movements made you feel him so deeply. you moan quietly as you continue to ride him. toji’s hold on your hips tighten as you bounce on his cock.

“oh- oh fuck.” toji gasps. “shit..making me feel s’fuckin’ good.” he looks at you, admiring your blissed expression before grabbing your chin softly to make you look at him. his silver eyes were kind as they observed you. “am i making you feel good baby?”

part of you wants to run away from his gaze as you feel vulnerable under his loving scrutiny. but you stay and look him in the eyes, grounding yourself.

your soft hands cup his face as you reply, “yes tojiii…you make me feel soso good!”

toji nods with you and cups your ass in his big hands, forcing you to bounce on his dick faster, harder. sounds of slapping of skin against skin fill the room, only getting louder with each passing second. you attempt to smother your loud moans but that idea goes to shit as soon as toji begins to thrust up into you.

“ah! oooooo- toji, toji! oh my god!” you’re almost screaming as toji ravishes your body, tits and stomach jiggling with each of this hard thrusts, chests pressed together and it’s like you’re cockdrunk. head thrown back, eyes behind your head, drool seeping from the corner of your mouth, lips glossy and your face sweaty. to toji, you were a sight to behold.

toji reaches his hand to your head, making you look at him. “eyes on me honey.” he coos.

you whine and shiver at the tone of his voice and look at him once more, foreheads touching. “mmmmm. love you toji.”

toji smiles at the confession, silently swooning and heart beating out of his chest at how sentimental you get during sex.

“i love you too sweetheart.” toji responds softly. he kisses your cheek before leaning back on the couch, smirking at you. “now how’s ‘bout you make toji cum?”

1,045 notes - Posted August 5, 2022

#2

——— DESIRE

♡ : eren jaeger x female! reader

ᨳ  ࣪ . cw : ns4w, dom! eren, sub! reader, eren is a lil mean but not that much :), HEAVY edging -> edging for over a month ♡, squirting, overstimulation, subspace, sex toys, mentions of oral sex, nipple play, spanking, restraints, pussy slapping, ass play & fingering, profanity

ᨳ  ࣪ . wc : 2.9k

. synopsis : you haven’t cum in over a month…but its only what you asked for…

ᨳ  ࣪ . minors & blank blogs DNI

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2,451 notes - Posted September 13, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

eren x female reader, ns4w, very short, coming inside, morning sex

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no bc eren would be so whiny in the morning…he’d be so desperate too. his morning wood would be poking against your thigh while he shakes u gently to wake u up.

“babyy” calling out to you in his deep, tired morning voice. “baby wake up..need you righ’ now..haha..”

and you’re just as desperate, letting him pull down your shorts and spread your legs to play with your wet cunt. then he’s laying you two both on your sides, raising your leg to his hip before easing his thick length into hot pussy.

it’s starts off slow..both of you are still drowsy and weak from sleep but that doesn’t deter either of you. your faces are so close together, breathing against each other’s skin, lips brushing against each other, too far gone to even kiss. eren’s pretty eyes are almost constantly rolling into the back of his head at how good he feels. how good you feel. his body is so sensitive, the feeling of your hole around his cock is making him go fucking crazy.

“awh fuuckkk.” eren’s groaning as his thrust start to speed up just a lil bit…the angle has you feeling him real deep, you’re gasping at every gentle thrust, the slap slap slap of skin reverberating around the room. you feel a warmth spread in ur lil tummy, clit brushing against the pubic hairs at the base of his dick and your mouth drops open and eyes roll back at the feeling.

then erens gripping your ass with both hands and thrusting harder, faster, until you’re gripping the back of his neck with small oh my gods and other senseless profanities. eren rolls you onto your back before folding you into a mating press and going to town on you.

balls slapping against your ass with every thrust, long hair falling and draping around you like a curtain.

“shit..” eren whines, borderline whimpers. “shit…oh fuck..fuck..fuck ‘m g’nna cum. baby ‘m gonna fucking cum…” he’s looking at you, cheeks tinted red and lips wet. “can i cum inside? you’ll lemme come inside right?” his thrusts become frantic and erratic and you’re nodding along to his question. he thrusts at an angle that has you seeing white light, squirting and making a mess of him and the sheets. eren curses, rough fingers finding your clit, running circles over it to prolong your high. your hips twitch against his, rolling and grinding and coming to a stop.

“god, i’m cumming.. i’m cumming ‘m cumming…fuck!” his voice goes high pitched towards the end of his sentence and he’s finished. he pounds into you sporadically as he cums, pumping your soft walls white. he keeps thrusting…he comes soo much. his expression is erotic, eyes rolled back and tongue lolled out.

eren huffs and moans as the last few spurts of cum leave him, all fucked out. he pulls out slowly, looking at his cum drool out of your brown folds and fall below you. pulls you close and massages your shoulders and tells you what you and him are going to do for the day and you fall asleep to the sound of his soothing voice 💭

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2,466 notes - Posted August 9, 2022

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[heystephen]

Hey, I'm sorry but I don't know what's going on right now, what happened and how can I help?

To really explain what’s happening, we’d have to go back to yesterday when Taylor went on the radio and talked about Betty. No big deal, she said James was a boy which obvi contrasts with the running joke/opinion that James is a teenage lesbian girl. We had a laugh about it, jokingly corrected Taylor and that really should’ve been the end of it. BUT the undercurrent of homophobia that exists in this fandom decided to rear its head as cishet fans rejoiced that Taylor had “shaded” all of the lgbt+ fans who interpreted Betty (or any part of folklore) as being ~gay, in particular, wlw were singled out. When we, in turn, said, hey, this is homophobic, we were gaslit and told that we were attacking Taylor. We weren’t. We never were. We never had an issue with Taylor here. A narrative was built out of thin air that the ~predatory wlw~ were angry at Taylor for not letting us lesbo-fy her songs and that we were saying she wasn’t allowed to view her work as she interpreted it. Cishet fans largely ignored this micro aggression and did nothing to be on our side. The issue was then taken several steps further when multiple wlw fans were doxxed and outed to their families. This is a currently ongoing matter and many lgbt+ fans feel wholly unsafe and are going into hiding.

TL;DR homophobic swifties don’t know how to act like normal empathetic people with morals, lgbt+ fans are being outed, people are scared, I’m livid

EDIT: I meant to add that the best way you can help is go to your blog and clear out any swiftlgbtselfies you’ve reblogged just to be safe! There are specific people asking to have their deleted but for the sake of being efficient and making sure everyone is safe, I recommend deleting all of them. If you’re lgbt+, keep yourself safe and remember that if this is overwhelming and upsetting PLEASE step away and let yourself breathe. We all need to be there for each other.

[arcadialedger]

Please note that I am most likely leaving this platform. I am done being abused. But first? We need to have a discussion. A discussion about hate and bullying in fandom.

All online-- I encourage you to read my story below. Reblog and spread awareness. The Dragon Prince fandom especially -- I implore you read my words, every single one of them. The short of it is that I am done. 

This all began with losing and being blocked by a friend because I shared something they disagreed with. I don’t care what you feel about my initial reaction to this (which I’ll explain below) -- I’ve apologized for not handling the situation correctly. But I will not be shamed for speaking my mind and standing up for myself.

Because no human being deserves to go through what I have endured since last summer.

Following the “callout” post made about me by one of, if not the largest blogs in this fandom, I received hundreds of threats, harassment messages, and death threats. Messages and posts telling me to kill myself were also prominent, on a multiple times a week basis for awhile.

Messages from people who were well aware I have struggled with being suicidal. Due to one of their favorite Dragon Prince blogs speaking out against me, they thought it was okay to suicide bait me.

And it worked. I already struggle with hating myself, am already insecure, and being flooded with these comments which, while I made mistakes, did nothing to deserve, drove me to try and take my own life after years of progress in my mental health.  

Mind you, this is like a 200 follower to 4k follower power dynamic. Which yes, plays a role-- because when you have a large following and influence, you have power. Yet the person behind this had the gall to claim Tumblr clout isn’t real.

People blocking and condemning others instantly at your word? Is power. If people read your words and are influenced, or have their minds changed, or buy or don’t buy something, etc.-- you are an influencer. You have power. And when you’re one of the largest blogs in a fandom, you have a LOT of power.

So take responsibility. 

I was hurt because I lost a friend who I had chatted with for months, did a podcast with, and was generally not only one of my favorite blogs but the center of my experience in the Dragon Prince. I may not have been perfect in my words, but when I was asked why I was quiet/ inactive, I explained how I was hurting, anonymously. I was understandably in pain and upset. I had been cut off for just having a different opinion on a matter, for thinking differently. Even though it was within their rights to block and do so, it felt wrong and it weighed on me.

Is that such a crime?

The callout post and previously described abuse followed, lasting for months until later in the year (this began in June, or around then). It also included screenshots of tweets, when this user does not have Tumblr, and they have stated to have screenshots stored up on their computer of my various posts and interactions. This is creepy behavior, and freaked me out. I felt like I was being stalked, “evidence” being filed away for the very purpose of being used against me. 

I eventually talked things out with the blog per recommendation of my therapist, and thought all would be fine. For a little while, it was. I largely stayed off of Tumblr to heal. Once in awhile I would have a rough, tearful night because something reminded me of what I lost, but I would make it through. Overall, I was making progress.

Then? My Twitter got hacked by one of the people sending me hate. For what had turned out to be much. And after they tweeted some purposefully incriminating and bigoted things to make me look bad, I came home from a weekend in the mountains to a shitstorm.

Twitter has a love hate relationship for me and I barely opened the app unless actively chatting with a friend. So when I saw 700+ notifications, I was surprised. It had never happened before.

I began to scroll through, and when I saw what had happened, I ran to the bathroom and threw up.

I had lost over half of my followers and a solid 60% of previous Twitter mutuals had blocked me. But worst of all, I had hundreds of hate tweets directed at me replying to the hackers tweets. Messages had been sent in DMs and accounts blocked, followed, and unfollowed as well.

If you have never felt that loss of agency-- that sickening feeling of words you never said next to your profile-- be glad. Because it is traumatic. I value my words. I value what I have to say. And having that taken from me was worse than anything I had been through here on Tumblr, outside of the suicide baiting (the most direct attack to me and my emotions/ insecurities throughout this entire ordeal). Further, this hacker had clearly stalked my tweets based on some of their comments. 

Hundreds of tweets bashing me, calling me aphobic slurs (knowing I am asexual mind you, as it was in my bio), making fun of my appearance and targeting all of the insecurities which lead to my first suicide attempt in high school, and taking/ editing images of my face and mocking them. This all culminated in a doxing threat-- a doxing threat which made me feel unsafe on a campus I had already been sexually assaulted on. I was once again, after starting the healing process, thrusted back into the darkest time of my life and spiraled into anxiety and depression. I cried a lot overwhelmed by it all, had difficulty sleeping, and felt sick. I started fall semester and couldn’t concentrate on school. I was a mess.

I had once again been condemned, this time for something I had no part in. I tried to example what happened but nobody listened. I had been hung without trial. People were understandably confused, and my entire reputation on the platform, and my page, became a mess of lies, misunderstandings, and more.

If you don’t know the feeling of already hating yourself and being insecure, and having these beliefs reinforced and spread by hundreds publicly across the internet? Of already feeling lonely and unwanted and having the one space you thought you had taken from you? Consider yourself lucky. 

I had a lot of voice actors and creators following me-- accounts I interacted and greatly cherished my mutual with. A handful of them unfollowed, understandably. This online hate mob was sending messages to people demanding they unfollow me, including some of these creators. They had no idea what to make of this mess or what was real and true and just didn’t want to deal with it. Most of the others just stopped interacting with me. @aaronwaltke (tagging so those who don’t follow already click and do so, because he is absolutely fantastic-- he’s a writer for ToA)  who had followed me on the platform, graciously wished me peace with the entire situation after I checked to make sure he had not been subjected to messages or hate, either from my hacker or other accounts. His was the greatest compassion I got on Twitter, before I ultimately ended up just having to delete.

I lost podcast deals because of this with Adrian Petriw, Aaron Ehasz, and Justin Richmond. I do not blame them one bit and would have done the same in the confusion not wanting to get dragged into anything. 

Only to have one of the friends I lost who helped start this interview these very people on their own podcasts. A slap in the face. A zine I had bought to support them came to my door, with the front page proclaiming to “spread a narrative of love.”

I was never granted that chance. That compassion. I had the vultures sent after me with no mercy. And anyone who has been through online abuse and systemic harassment knows just how much it feels like they’re slowly but surely picking at your flesh ( a metaphor I used in one of my old, since deleted posts discussing the situation, and still find accurate), wearing you down until you have no strength left.

Make no mistake, my story is not a one off situation. Many share the same tale of abuse and being driven off of platforms that once gave them great joy. These attacks are coordinated, systemic, and common hobby for these people-- who largely claim to be loving and accepting of all. They are a cyberbullying phenomenon which has risen with the presence of fandom on the internet. And I want to make clear, with current discussions of “cancel culture”, I mean nothing political in that statement. Some might call my experience cancel culture, but I don’t.

It’s just bullying. It’s just hate. These people get off on ruining people’s lives.

And my life was greatly set back and ruined. I had a stain on my past in fandom I could never be rid of. I had to shut down my podcast, took time off of all social media, and most of what I had built, most of my growth, was taken from me while those who incited and/ or spread hate thrived and continued to grow and find success. That was the greatest sting of all. 

I asked the one previous friend who hadn’t blocked me, but had just stopped interacting with me (which I understood and respected, and also greatly respected her perspective, help, and support though this situation in which she largely unfortunately ended up in the middle) for help after explaining everything, and got nothing. They didn’t seem to care, and just blocked me on all platforms. Once in awhile, I would find I was cut off from yet another old friend, or a blog that I had never interacted with before but clicked into, interested. It hurt being cut off, unable to fully interact with the fandom, but I could move on.

That pain would never go away, but I made clear I did not blame them for the actions of those who abused, harassed, and threatened me. I also made it clear they did not owe me anything, including unblocking. 

I just wanted to move on peacefully, but those with the power to enable that did not wish to help. I slowly, when I felt ready, began to be more active on Tumblr again, and once again the hate started up. 

Sometimes when I was hurting, I expressed my pain and loss to my followers just to reach out, because I was sad. I had no idea how to rebuild from all that had happened. This got me more hate an accusations of emotional manipulation and gaslighting. I had no idea what to do, and got trapped in a cycle of needing to talk about it, and getting hate and backlash, but not knowing where else I could turn. 

My doxer came back into my asks, ultimately making me switch schools, and refueled the drama. Speaking up about this got me more backlash-- mostly accounts reblogging (one with tags saying “fuck you”, despite not knowing the full story, and commenting and then blocking me so I could do nothing to respond or get it off of my page. I deleted all posts of the matter, as requested by these people (who validly pointed out they were in the main fandom tags, which I hadn’t thought of and understood), and hoped to move on.

But it hasn’t stopped. I have been beaten down and emotionally bruised for months. I have had my life and safety threatened, my education and by extension life path altered, and lost work (podcast) opportunities due to this-- alongside the irreversible emotional damage from trauma and abuse. My mental health issues and insecurities-- which I have been very open about to destigmatize the subjects and encourage conversation-- were actively targeted to inflict the most pain possible. 

And I can’t even talk about it, without enduring more hate and accusations of “playing the victim”.

Death threats, suicide baiting, doxing, months of bullying and harassment to the most vile degree, which a lot of these people don’t know about because they don’t even bother to read my words. Yet I’m playing the victim. 

And the accusations of bigotry and being hateful hurt, because it couldn’t be further from what is in my heart. I believing in love and acceptance of all. I don’t know how many are religious here, but I found God after my first suicide attempt and that is what his word has taught me. 

I’ve been through too much in life to tolerate this, for lack of a more eloquent term, bullshit. I know what abuse and victim blaming looks like when I see it. And in my 20 years of life, I have gone through too much: constant ridicule and bullying, suicide attempts, sexual assault, major spinal surgery, to just be stomped over and not stand up for my right to basis human decency. 

I refuse to put up with this, so unless I get an apology and some semblance of justice for everything I have been through, I am leaving. I will not participate in a space run by hate and toxicity. I will never claim to be perfect, and I have apologized for my mistakes and wrongdoings. Now, hold those who did this accountable. If you’re reading this you know very well who it was, and I am not naming them for those who don’t. Because at the end of the day I still send nothing but love and wish no ill will towards them.

But I’ll be damned if I don’t expect accountability of one of the greatest influencers in the fandom for their complacency in abuse, threats, suicide baiting, and and absolute ruining of my life and online experience. They enabled this and were well aware they had the power to stop it-- to ask their followers to stop-- and did nothing. They didn’t care-- about a human’s life and well being. 

@dragonprinceofficial, are you aware that this is what many of the fans of your show, which preaches love and an end to the cycle of vengeance, do to others? That this is happening in your space? If you stand at all by the values you preach, condemn it. @staffTumblr/ @supportTumblr-- shame on you for allowing this abuse to happen and ignoring my reports. Shame on you for permitting these people to operate in your platform and for being okay with hosting hate. People have been driven to suicide on your website-- I am one of the lucky ones. 

If you care at all about humanity and stand against this behavior, reblog and spread awareness. Share my story so I may not happen to anyone else. Tag @dragonprinceofficial until they notice and speak out. 

This is my story, and so many others. Make sure it doesn’t happen ever again. No human being deserves to be treated how I was. Everyone deserves compassion, decency, and respect. And everyone deserves a place in fandom. Do better. If you want to reach out to me DMs are open, as well as my email, which is attached to my account. Until this change happens and I am given the support/ help needed to safely function on this platform, this blog will not be active outside of that. 

Thank you all of the many accounts who have supported me, and I am working on getting back to all who have reached out! Your love means the world. You know who you are, and I don’t want to tag in case people come after you for showing me kindness. I am sorry if this is goodbye, to all that have enjoyed my blog. I enjoyed it for a long time  too. I loved sharing my passion for stories, culture, having a space where I could analyze and discuss my favorite things.  I loved getting to share what I had to offer with the world, having fun and posting jokes with my unique sense of humor. I loved interacting with intelligent people/ fellow fans and discussing my favorite stories, offering each other new insights and growing together. I loved the many, many kind and wonderful people who reached out to me in a variety of ways and provided support and friendship.

In the end, it just isn’t worth all of this pain and trauma, and I know when to put my foot down. I don’t want pity, I don’t want apologizes, and I’m not a martyr. I just want my story to make a difference-- to spur positive change in fandom culture/ spaces.  I will be tagging all fandoms in which I have seen this kind of abuse present as well, to reach as many as possible. 

Be safe, and be kind.

- The Arcadia Ledger/ Ryn/ Katie, signing off.

[tobi-smp]

Context: [Link]

@maryqueenofmurder said: ok this is so totally nitpicking and probably incredibly irritating to see buuuuuut… “here’s the truth that a lot of dream apologists don’t like acknowledging: it’s Both true that no one deserves to be tortured And that dream’s actions lead him to the position that he’s in now.”

Actually, a lot of us acknowledge it. Being put in prison is a direct response, pretty much, to the things he’s done. But so many people use ‘karma’ and 'it’s his fault he’s in prison’ to excuse/justify the abuse he was/is put through. it leaves a kind of sour taste in my mouth to see it now because it’s usually followed with the sentiments mentioned above.

dream “apologists” are very, very, very rarely people who think what dream did was okay/excusable. Maybe a few see it from a slightly more justifiable perspective.  but most of us are aware that dream has caused harm, and that he did bad things. I don’t know how many dream apologists you’ve heard from, but most of us are aware of the fact that he’s brought a good deal of what’s happening to him down on his own head.

I personally think that even if Quackity was furious over what Dream did to Tommy, he’s still doing something very wrong. And what I’m about to say is going to sound even more irritating than the previous rant but, Practice what you preach. It’s both true that Quackity didn’t deserve a lot of things he got/will get but they’re also the inevitable fallout of his actions.

And if Dream apologists paint Quackity as the villain?  It’s because they’re seeing/writing from Dream’s perspective. I’m not saying Quackity is some one-dimensional villain. I’m saying he’s definitely an antagonist in Dream’s perspective. It’s just that us Dream Apologists don’t talk about his motivations because they’re irrelevant to the story we’re telling. Plenty of other stories/takes are written like that. And if he is OOC or does things that don’t match his motivations in canon?  it’s just a h/c i guess. or he has motivations you just don’t know them. [End Transcription]

So before anything else, I’m gonna have to ask that if you send me a response this long that you don’t put it in the replies. I’ve never had to ask that before but I’ve also never had to choose Not to include screenshots of what I’m responding to for length before. moreover, it’s much harder for me to know when you’ve finished your point if you’re sending 6 replies in a row as opposed to one reblog (for instance, several more replies came after I’d initially seen that you’d responded). if you’re trying to engage in a direct conversation with me that can’t fit in a couple of replies then just reblog or make your own post and @ me in it, anything but this would be better fadsjkljlkfds.

secondly, you’re right ! this wasn’t an appropriate response to the conversation in question and I’m not certain why you sent it to me.

The first post that I wrote was about how ridiculous I found it that people dance around, ignore, or straight up deny that dream designed and commissioned the prison as it is to hold tommy, and how that fact leads into the prison arc (and the thematic significance of that for both characters and the arc in general).

an anon fixated on a line from those posts wherein I point out the fact that the disc war finale was dream’s downfall stemming from his own actions. the anon disagreed, insisting that what’s happening now is only down to quackity’s desire for the revival book and not anything that dream has done. I got annoyed (because I’ve seen this argument in many forms often used to reduce quackity and his motivations down), so I decided to expand on how dream’s actions lead him to this point and influenced quackity’s actions towards him.

that’s the context of the post that you’re responding to, and you almost acknowledge it too. you point out the fact that I Explicitly stated that Nobody Deserves To Be Tortured, and yet you act as if I’ve excused everything that quackity has done by pointing out the reasons that lead him to take those actions. “practice what you preach” you say, while you insist that dream apologists don’t Excuse his actions while in the same breath making the assumption that I Don’t think quackity deserves comeuppance for his actions based solely on the fact that I insisted that he’s a complex character with motivations driven by revenge for him and his friends.

I think if dream fights back against quackity and sam, if he kills them even, when he inevitably escapes then that’ll be in his right to do so. I also think that las nevadas is going to blow up in his face some day, that the people he manipulated into joining him are probably going to play a part in that, that technoblade and phil are probably going to become a problem very shortly, etc etc etc.

my post was not about how quackity is going to eventually face the consequences of his actions (or how he already very much so has), it was about how dream is Already doing that. I Explicitly condemned quackity’s actions Twice, so why do I have to go in more detail now to appease you? why did you react to a criticism of dream’s actions by demanding that I criticize a different character too When I’d Already Done So?

and while I Am bothered by quackity being misrepresented in fanworks, what that post was in response to is the Overwhelming mischaracterization of quackity in the fandom’s consciousness as a whole. not just for Fun but in serious discourse, meta, and character analysis. he is Chronically stripped of his nuance All The Time. which is what gives value to pointing that nuance out. again, you tell me to “practice what you preach” and yet you’re telling me that I should just suck it up when I character I like is misrepresented while you actively identify with and push for the label of a character apologist.

finally, while it’s easier to use shorthand to refer to a general collection of ideas (and people with similar ideas) within a specific space, that shorthand becomes insufficient when you try to apply hard definitions to it. “us dream apologists wouldn’t do that,” no You haven’t done that. there are plenty of people who self identify with the label who Do excuse his actions, who Do vilify other characters and infantilize his character. they’re straight up common, especially on twitter and youtube. but those things (apparently) don’t reflect You or the people that you associate with.

which is fine, but the problem comes in when we drop nuance. I’ve attributed an action to a group that you don’t agree with, therefore this is read as an attack on you and your standing in that group. which just isn’t true. “dream apologists” are not a monolith, they’re people. and while there are trends that can be observed those trends are going to look different depending on what angle you look at them, and individual people are going to Still Be individual people with unique experiences and opinions.

“dream apologist” is not an identity, it’s not a set of beliefs. it’s a vague group of people that enjoy the character dream from the hit minecraft roleplay “dream smp” who are defensive of his character in one way or another. different people are going to have different associations with that term depending on the different people they meet because those people are going to believe and do different things. making assumptions about the people that you’re talking to based on labels Without a solid definition is not conductive to productive conversation.

you don’t have to defend yourself if I criticize behavior that you don’t do, and you Certainly don’t have defend the honor of a subsection of a subsection of a subsection of minecraft youtuber fans.

[sleepyselkiesiren]

About Me

ashbkashdsd @the-pessimistic-cupcake tagged me in a tag game?!?!?!!?! I’m honored!

💎 why did you choose your url?

I assume I had a stroke of genius XD I know at the time I was very into Song of the Sea, and of course I’m always sleepy, so I think it all kinda just... came together.

💎 any side-blogs? if you have them, name them and why you have them.

Several, actually! My newest one is my art blog, @sleepyselkiesketches, which I made so that my art would stop getting lost amidst everything else I post ‘cause tumblr is essentially one of my art back-ups. The first one I made was @apprentice-ebony because I was deep in The Arcana fandom and making so much art of my oc and getting so many art gifts that it kinda just made sense to keep it all in one place. The other two are fandom blogs I made to avoid completely spamming everyone, and those are a secret ;3

💎 how long have you been on tumblr?

Well I was gonna say 2016, but I check my archive and it says 2015! I think I was there for like a day before getting too overwhelmed, and then tried again later in 2017, so either one is probably True

💎 do you have a queue tag?

I... I don’t know what this means

💎 why did you start your blog in the first place?

Pinterest! I noticed that half of the stuff I was reblogging was from tumblr, so I figured why not just go straight to the source! XD So like, essentially the tumblr fandom on pinterest

💎 why did you choose your icon/pfp?

My pfps are basically Always picrews (though when I was younger they were dress up games). My latest icon was sort of just cementing that my tumblr profile is always gonna be some variation of the so-called “pillow girl”

💎 why did you choose your header?

It was the only art I’d made that had the same shade of blue I’d picked for my blog XD I think I just picked it quickly so I didn’t have to think too hard, and now it feels weird to change it

💎 what’s your post with the most notes?

I’m not 100% sure, but this post I made for @thebibliosphere got a solid thousand notes!

💎 how many mutuals do you have?

Uhhh.... How do I figure that out??

💎 how many followers do you have?

190! And I’m reasonably certain most of them aren’t bots XD

💎 how many people do you follow?

1,494. I used to be a bit pickier XD

💎 have you ever made a shitpost?

I suppose that depends on what qualifies? But probably nooooot? Skater Nadia might be the closest thing I’ve got.

💎 how often do you use tumblr each day?

I think at minimum I’m here at least half an hour a day, but on some of my bad days I can be here literally all day.

💎 did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

Not as far as I’m aware! People don’t really seem to have issues with me XD

💎 how do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

Honestly, I feel like I don’t see very many?? So I don’t really know enough to have an opinion.

💎 do you like tag games?

Yeah!!! I don’t always have the energy for them though :P

💎 do you like ask games?

Same as above XD Although suddenly I’m not sure what the difference is

💎 which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

In all honesty I am completely 100% convinced that every single one of my mutuals is tumblr famous and then I’m always shocked when they’re not

💎 do you have a crush on a mutual?

.... ;3 I mean I sure Hope so, since I’m in a relationship with @prince-of-places!

💎 tags?

@void-slip, @for-ghosts-only, @ancientartifacts1010, @intergalactic-bean, @persep-hia, and @thebibliosphere because I already tagged you so you’re probaby gonna see this anyway XD