#reasons and excuses

[lilistayskz]

In two days (Oct 23) it will be the two year anniversary of the first ever chapter of Yongbok and Noona's story, What It Is To Burn. As of this moment, there are 179,282 words written across 3 'books'. We've listened to 62 songs together, each one an ode to the desperate high of young love.

In two days, I will post the next chapter of These Things I've Done to celebrate, and then I will take a little vacation. I will be on hiatus until New Years, which coincidentally is where we will leave Bokbok on Wednesday night :)

Thank you to everyone who has read and appreciated what I was trying to do with this story. It wasn't always well-received due to the subject matter, but I do plan to continue on with Bokkie and Noona.

Please wait for our return <3

[puppppppppy]

abogagos……..

[batfam-stuff-posts-0]

Bruce: Tim and Damian did what?

Jason: Well, Alfred said they weren't allowed to see Dick because he was still recovering from last night, and the only way they could stay was if they were injured.

Bruce: And?

Jason: So they punched each other in the face and told him they were injured.

Bruce:

Jason

Steph: I gotta admire their dedication

[pinkflames]

"The first-" no bish 😭

[lilistayskz]

My brother, God bless him, hasn’t left my side since Sunday morning, despite me refusing to speak for days. Every time I opened my mouth, my heart fought to claw up and out of my throat, resulting in nothing but strangled sobbing. He kind of guessed on his own what had transpired outside - at his wits end Sunday night, Sungie tried to call our sister and I threw his phone across the room in a fit of panic, cracking the screen. Alarmed, he cradled it in his hands and gave me an ultimatum - call Noona, or call Chan. 

“Are you really not going to tell her?” Channie asks quietly. Our oldest friend has posted himself up in my bedroom, turning this week into an extended sleepover. He’s been sleeping on a pallet on my floor, taking diligent notes in the classes we share, and splitting my homework between himself and Minho, who thinks I have the flu. To pass the time, he and Jisung have been working on music for the Romeo and Juliet production, playing around with different melodies and making small talk in the background as they waited for the schism in my brain to heal.

I’m finally ready to talk.

O Serpent Heart - Chapter 6

I can’t do it anymore, fr I‘m so tired

[gideonisms]

I'm coming out as a new year's enjoyer. "Oh you will never stick to these goals" "nothing is really different between one day and the next" "why celebrate the bad years" because I want to!!! Because I love endings and beginnings and making lists!! I love the concept of starting the year by partying I love the drama of kissing someone at midnight I love the one time of the year when it is cold I love starting a new calendar and I love cheering for no reason

[lilistayskz]

The loathsome time has come. We stand at the front door, our arms around one another, me and my precious Noona.

“Don’t get yourself into any trouble tonight, Yongbokkie,” Noona lectures, her sweet, strawberry hair intoxicating. I bury my face in it angrily. “Don’t talk to strangers and don’t go off on your own. Stay with Jisungie. Lord knows he needs a chaperone. And keep your phone with you. I’ll text you when I get home –”

Her sisterly words are nothing but a soft buzz in my ear. If I let go of her now - if she gets in her car and drives off without me - I’m going lose my mind tonight.

I can feel it.

These Things I've Done - Chapter 12

Part 3 of 4 of Changbin and Felix's weird night. This chapter was so hard to write (and rewrite, and rewrite) but I'm finally happy with it. The next chapter is about halfway written and turning out to be a lot sweeter than I initially envisioned lol. See you in about two weeks!

[arttsuka]

People need to stop blaming 'parasocial relationships' when it's revealed to the public that a famous person has done something controversial (or even a crime) and the public is upset. 'I can't believe xxx did that!' doesn't always mean that the person who said it has a parasocial relationship with xxx. Usually it's just our faith in humanity, we want to believe that everyone has some basic human decency (especially someone we might admire) and it's only natural to be disappointed when we learn they're a bad person.

[wtfforged]

my campaign hiatus has gone on for too long so to cope ive combined my interests at their maximum potency and had some dnd-strawhats thoughts

thoughts in depth under read more... :)!

this is SO self indulgent. their designs literally did not change. but i am a firm believer that dnd doesnt have to be european high fantasy. and also one piece literally IS fantasy. no changes are necessary to fit into dnd. ive already imagined plenty of campaign/oneshot ideas inspired by one piece. so this was basically just an exercise of trying to replicate their canon abilities in dnd 5e as much as possible without totally homebrewing everything. well. aside from luffy. you just cant take away or change his stretching.

LUFFY: (human monk. drunken master subclass. outlander)

the only plain human of the crew to balance out with the fact that he still has rubber powers. obviously a monk. but drunken master subclass specifically because i think the flavor(not the fact that its about being a drunkard) and abilities both fit him really well. this line in the subclass' flavortext especially fits him: "A drunken master often enjoys playing the fool to bring gladness to the despondent or to demonstrate humility to the arrogant, but when battle is joined, the drunken master can be a maddening, masterful foe."

ZORO: (tiefling fighter. samurai subclass. bounty hunter)

a fighter with the samurai subclass is so very incredibly obvious... but i actually had a lot of fun geeking out while comparing the abilities to what he can do in canon; Fighting Spirit, Rapid Strike, and Strength Before Death especially! tiefling is also pretty on the nose for his demon pirate hunter shtick and asura form, but i thought he'd be really human-passing for a tiefling and theorized about his tail getting cut off at some point or another before joining the strawhats. initially wasnt gonna give him a feat, but i gave sanji a feat so i thought itd be unfair to not give him one as well, so sentinel fits the bill pretty well i think!

NAMI: (tabaxi rogue. arcane trickster subclass. criminal)

cat burglar -> full grown literal humanoid cat. this one is INCREDIBLY self indulgent... i love... cats... theres nothing deeper to this and no other reasoning. i took cat burglar and ran with it. can you tell that i love izutsumi dungeon meshi? rogue for the aforementioned burglar-ing as well, and the arcane trickster subclass for when she picks up climatact! the mage hand will be very useful for her pickpocketing. in the future as she levels up with timeskip, i can totally see her multiclassing into wizard as well! weather wizard!

USOPP: (lightfoot halfling artificer. artillerist subclass. urchin)

I HAD SO MUCH FUN THINKING ABOUT HIS CHARACTER SHEET. halfling's Naturally Stealthy ability lets him hide behind his crewmates since theyre (almost) all bigger than him, so its perfect for hiding behind zoro or sanji all the time. Lucky is also perfect for him, and I think Brave fits pretty well too when he puts on the sogeking mask. artillerist artificer is also very fun! tinkering and making magic items for his crew, and i think Eldritch Canon or Arcane Firearm could both be easily reflavored as kabuto or any of his inventions. for emphasizing his sniper-ness, the spell sniper feat was also necessary. i think hes my favorite of all the concepts. big ears and long nose combo is so cute to me.

SANJI: (half-elf monk. drunken master subclass. guild artisan (cook!))

race was mostly based on vibes i wont lie. squints. and that vinsmoke balogna or whatever too ig. but mostly vibes. along with the idea that i think a dwarf zeff raising him would be really funny and cute. monk is also obvious, and same subclass as luffy for mostly the same reasons. though the flavor fits him much less, i think the abilities still fit him perfectly, and this blurb specifically; "Your martial arts technique mixes combat training with the precision of a dancer." i really wanted to give him a different subclass from luffy, but i dislike all the other monk subclasses a lot and i found none of them fit him as well anyways, so to try and give them SOME differences, i gave him the crusher feat.

CHOPPER: (awakened deer(shifter statblock) cleric. life subclass. hermit)

this ones definitely a mouthful im sorry. awakened deer for obvious reasons, but due to magic instead of devil fruit stuff. when i was struggling with his race, i looked a lot at shifter because of his forms, but it occurred to me that itd be super cool if he could shift between all of the different shifter options instead of being stuck with just one to replicate his rumble balls. something like heavy point/guard point=beasthide, horn point/arm point(?maybe?)=longtooth, walk point/jumping point=swiftstride, and brain point=wildhunt. hed definitely need some kind of nerf though to balance out that homebrew... and cleric for class. duh.

ROBIN: (high elf wizard. order of scribes subclass. criminal)

robin is definitely the one i struggled the most with just because of her class. elf came pretty easily- shes very elegant and i think shed look cute with super long ears- and i landed on high elf instead of wood elf for the int-based abilities. i was really on the fence between sorcerer and wizard for her because i knew shed be a full spellcaster, but i didnt feel that any of the subclasses really fit her. i ended up going with wizard for order of the scribes since it focuses on texts and knowing everything. but also because robin with a flying talking sentient book would be crazy cool. it could also be similar to how she spawns mouths and eyes places to talk to or watch people. my "fuck it, why not. this would be rad. its my house" mindset kicked in with her i will admit. also the One with the Word ability made me cackle out loud when i read it. thats the funniest ability ever. anyways, i cant really think of a way to replicate her powers, but maybe we could just reflavor a bunch of spells to be her limbs or clutch; hold person, maximillian's earthen grasp, or evard's black tentacles. thatd probably work okay, and theres a handful of spells to replicate her ability to spawn eyes or mouths. unrelated, but i imagine nico olvia to be a drow. why? her hair is white. i am a simple man!

[lucabyte]

monologue

[lilistayskz]

“Do you not want to kiss me?” he asks quietly. He’s got the pillow I hit him with in front of his pelvis, cushioning the space between us safely. I silently thank him.

“I do,” I confess, my eyes tracing the freckles on his cheeks. Little stars in a pale sky. “You know this is a bad idea though, right? You’re underage. I really shouldn’t even be lying here with you like this.”

“We always sleep in the same bed,” he reminds me, “and you always kiss me every night. I just want it to mean something different now.” His big eyes finally turn up to meet mine.

My baby writes the most beautiful poetry with his mouth. I wonder how long he’s been gathering the courage to say that to me. I can see myself reflected in his irises as he leans closer, his lids fluttering shut as he ghosts his bottom lip over mine.

I am going to hell.

I allow him to kiss me chastely, his lips closed and soft on mine. I wonder if he’s ever used his tongue, and the idea of it runs straight to my groin, stirring up a host of sensations. The hand that isn’t holding his head up is clutching my hip tightly, his fingers threaded through my belt loop like he’s hanging on for dear life.

I bring my right hand to his cheek and place my thumb between our mouths, pressing gently on his bottom lip, and he opens up right away with a small sigh. It turns into a breathy moan as I slip my tongue inside his wet mouth, running it along the scars on the inside of his lip and flicking it over the tip of his taste buds. His hips smash the pillow into mine as he whimpers and tries to stop his body from moving.

He can grind into the pillow all he wants, as far as I’m concerned. If he comes in his pajama pants, it won’t be my fault, and I will still get to experience it without having r***d him.

The thought of that word stabs me straight through the heart, and I pull back from kissing him to look at his face. He’s still got baby fat on his cheeks and he’s wearing Spiderman pajamas, for God’s sake. What the fuck am I thinking?

What It Is To Burn - Chapter 4

[plesiosaurys]

getting emotional over footage of an amateur scuba diver interacting with a coelacanth. they are hunted by large deepwater predators, and here comes a large creature bearing the brightest lights it's ever seen, making strange noises, but it does not shy away. it hovers, calmly, as the diver reaches out and trails a hand down its back. im strongly against the anthropomorphizing of real life animals but the stupid emotional part of me loudly insists this is because it recognizes us, the alternating movements of its four paired limbs matching the diver's four paired limbs, & it is thinking, "hello, cousins, we missed you these 66 million years, it's so good to see you again. welcome back, welcome home."

[iliothermia]

[doesephs]

homer was the original multishipper, eurylochus bagged ctieme and an early grave !

[lilistayskz]

Yongbok has latched himself onto my left leg cutely, his big brown eyes gazing up at me from the foot of the bed. “Noona,” he says, rubbing his face on my calf. 

I can’t help but coo down at him. “Yes, baby?” He’s so goddamn adorable. His eyelashes flutter sweetly as he pulls himself up my body until he lays his face on my stomach, leaving tiny kisses on my abdomen. Looks like a fuzzy kitten . I pat his hair. Feels like a fuzzy kitten, too.

“Can we stay together until you leave?” His little hands knead into my hips, like a cat making biscuits. 

“Of course, I won’t go anywhere without you.”

“Not even the bathroom.”

I give his cheek a tiny smack and he laughs into my stomach. “Don’t be ridiculous.” 

What It Is To Burn - Chapter 12

[lilistayskz]

This chapter is a love letter to Yongbok's two 'protectors'; just as Noona is his big sister, Changbin is his big brother, even before he knows it. It didn't feel right to push Bokkie into yet another sexual situation when, all along, the only thing he's ever wanted was Noona. So I hope you can accept this finale for what it is - a big brother coming to terms with his little brother growing up.

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“Hyung… I… I think there’s something wrong with me.”

“Bro, there is something wrong with you.” Dark lashes flutter - pupils the size of Jupiter appear. He turns and glares (creepily) right through my skull, but… at least his eyes are open now. “You’re high as fuck.”

“I mean,” Lix almost whispers, his nails digging deep into the soft fabric of the Persian rug, “inside me. I feel so… angry all the time. I - I don’t know what to do. I try to hold it in, but…”

My brain helpfully replays Felix’s hands around my throat, the shock of his stabbing tongue in my mouth. Maybe it wasn’t so much a kiss as… an attack, a rebellion. I pushed him too far, and I’m not too proud to admit that… I fucked up tonight. Instead of helping my friend, I made the situation worse - not only with the game, but… he could've been raped if the guy that drugged him had chosen to fight back earlier. What if I’d been too late? 

Stellar example of a man, Seo Changbin. 

These Things I've Done - Chapter 13