#really hope i worded this correctly

[bite-back-in-anger]

Sometimes I can't help but to think (and BELIEVE ME, I try not to) about how up in arms media was about the memes and mockery of amber's lies during the trial. How they all wrote article after article about how it was setting a dangerous precedent for victims. How, it was unfair and would set women back...and then, I can't help thinking about no one, not ONE of them having the same concerns when it was revealed that Jussie Smollett lied about being the victim of a hate crime. How actual late night shows were making fun of him and were rightfully outraged over how he duped everyone by lying about something as serious about being attacked for being a black, gay man. These same outlets weren't worried about the jokes being dangerous for the LGBTQ+ and black community. They weren't worried that real victims of hate crimes would be detoured to come forward.

Now, I wonder... what could the difference be between these two individuals who lied about very serious crimes. It's qwhite interesting, don't you think? 🤔 How, it was perfectly fine to make fun of a black, gay man who lied about being attacked for being marginalized, but the moment a white woman was rightfully called out for basically doing the same thing, even using the fact that she's a bisexual woman, suddenly everyone became concerned about victims... I don't know, just find that interesting, no?

Just goes to show, no matter how much performative activism they share on social media, the delicate feelings of pretty white women, will always be more important than the feelings of marginalized communities.

[jedimitsopolis]

[ID: Art of Amanda Young putting a hand to the bullet wound in her neck. It’s dripping down her shirt and arm. She looks determined. The background is the same red as the blood. End ID.]

[hoshiina]

pairing: hoshina soushirou x gn!reader (no prns)

request: Hii im the anon who ask for the wips and i saw the blurbs you have. IM VERY MUCH HOOKED with the third ones where hoshina loves reader's smile🥹 relating to that maybe i would like to add(if you want, but feel free to do seperate if you want) soft moments with hoshina x reader who felt like she being the most pessimistic person regarding love(not anti but just felt like she doesn't deserve it) so she is on denial when hoshina make a move on her

notes: reader is usually rather energetic, talkative reader, hoshina thinks you are "beautiful" at some point, TYSM FOR THE REQ!! sorry it took so long omg

wc: 1300

Something was wrong— terribly wrong. There was no way someone would want you, let alone your vice-captain who could have anyone in the world. Not your vice-captain who did everything with such care and looked after everyone so preciously. And definitely never your vice-captain you were terribly in love with.

There must be some mistake. Or else he wouldn’t have just said what you thought he said.

“Pardon me?” you asked.

He looked a little flustered and you had never seen such an expression on him, confusing you further. “I love you,” he said again, softly. “I’d love to know if you’re in a relationship.”

The way he spoke so carefully added to how nervous it made you feel— it was so different from how he usually talked to you. Now, you were lost to say the least, because you couldn’t think of one reason why he would like you, let alone romantically. Under normal circumstances, you’d assume you were being played with or that this was a silly prank or dare, but you knew that Hoshina wasn’t one to do something so horrible. So what was happening?

“I am not…” you said, still confused, but the visible relief in his eyes made your heart tighten. Oh gosh, is he serious?

“I’m… thrilled,” he said, and he wished you goodnight and left. While you were terribly flustered to know he liked you back, there was a voice in your head that wouldn’t stop making you feel anxious. Something felt so odd to you— to be loved back. To be loved back by him. You enjoyed talking to people so you talked to him often, but never had you thought he'd think of you like that. Having a naturally talkative personality, it was true that both of you had fun talking to each other, but you had accepted that your love was unrequited ages ago. When would he have possibly fallen in love with you? The more you thought about it the more impossible it sounded. As thoughts of him circled your head, it’d be morning before you knew it.

It'd be hard for him to point out exactly when he fell in love with you, because he was in love before he knew it. Before he knew it, he'd catch himself following you with his eyes. He adored watching you work, because you made everything look exciting. Of course, he saw how you groaned at the paperwork you had to do, but he'd see how the little things would put a smile on your face.

He liked the work he did, he liked all of it quite frankly. From neutralizing kaiju all the way down to the research he had to do— rarely did he think something was a chore to do, but if you were around to laugh at something silly he found or mutter about the binders and binders of files that the 3rd division just doesn't have space for anymore, he'd start looking forward to these moments.

While he knew you were like this with everyone, he hoped that you were happiest with him. It would mean everything to him if you looked forward to doing seemingly mundane work with him too.

However, while he loved so much about you, there was one moment specifically that made him realize he wasn't moving on. His heart would be yours forever at this rate. You'd look so horribly tired after all this work, and yet, if someone needed help with anything at all, you'd still smile and ask them what's wrong. You'd find the energy and speak to them so kindly. You might not have the energy you usually had, but you'd be so happy to help. Even if they couldn't tell how exhausted you were, he could. He knew how much you did for everyone in the division, and he thought you were stunning when you did so. You were the most beautiful when you had that lovely smile on your face that seemed to light up his world.

He loved you so dearly.

You loved talking to people, so there always seemed to be something for you to talk about. A new finding you wanted to share or a terribly random thought that popped up in your head. While you naturally talked to most of the people in the division, you looked forward to talking to Hoshina the most. The way he'd always listen so intrigued at your dumbest thoughts and laugh at the smallest things you said meant more to you than one would probably think.

And if you shared your daily happenings with him, he'd share his with you too. To say you loved these moments would truly be an understatement. Nothing could possibly make you happier.

However, you knew he was like this with everyone. His laugh would always manage to keep the morale of the division up and he'd never miss potential problems in the condition of any of his officers. You knew he was a sweet person, but also the best one could ask for in a vice-captain. You weren't special— he was like this to everyone. You knew better than anyone else.

You couldn't imagine anyone falling for you, let alone the kindest person you'd ever meet in your life. Let alone the person you'd probably love for the rest of your life.

Yet, here you were, alone with him this afternoon working away through paperwork and it was quiet. Eerily quiet. He was the first to break the silence.

“I rather dislike the rain,” he said, looking out the window. “It’s been raining all day.”

You paused to look outside as well. “No, you’re right. I don’t mind the rain, but I hate how dark everything is.”

“Yeah,” he said. More silence.

“Sorry, I’m awkwardly nervous now,” he said, eyes fixed on his work. “I didn’t mean to make things… weird.”

You could tell he probably didn’t want you to, but you couldn’t help but look his way. Your eyes widened and your heart filled. You weren’t afraid to say much, but you were afraid to talk about this. However, you thought you’d be able to if you were talking to him.

“I just… can’t imagine that you’re… in love… with me,” you said, looking down at your paperwork. “Sounds too good to be true. I know... sounds unlike me, right?”

Immediately he looked up at you, shocked to say the least. You could tell he probably wanted to ask why, but he thought for a moment more.

“What… would I be able to do to show that I am?” he asked. “You’re the one I love… you always will be.”

Your eyes widened. “I just… don’t know why,” you said honestly. “Why me?”

“Because I love you,” he said. “I love a whole lot about you, but I love being with you. I enjoy spending time with you and watching you enjoy the life around you. Is that too simple?”

It took you a second to reply, but you felt a lot better. “No, not at all,” you said. “Because I feel exactly the same way.”

“You’re kidding”

“Absolutely not”

“I’m going to kill you if you’re lying,” he said.

That made you laugh. “You know I wouldn’t,” you said, and yes, he knew you wouldn’t.

“Hey, Hoshina,” you said, avoiding eye-contact. “If I get worried… will you tell me again?”

“I’d tell you until you get sick of my voice,” he said while getting up to kiss your forehead. “I love you so much.”

[i-may-be-an-emu]

“Do it bad” - heard it before, I’m gonna be upset at the bad job I’m doing, if I’m doing it bad then I won’t be putting effort in (but still good advice and very helpful!!!)

“Do it silly” - new, exiting, and doing something in cosplay, elf ears, or a fun, silly or stupid hat or accessory or outfit or whatever is FUN!!!

Happy your way out of executive dysfunction! Or even better, do it because you’re wearing elf ears and an elf wouldn’t just give up so what choice do you have.

[suave-hogan]

Day 14: It's the Martha March DTIYS Contest

Rules

-Deadline is the 28th and winner will be announced the 29th

-Tag it under the Martha March tag and @ me

-Feel free to add or change some thing

-Prize for the winner is a free full commission

[goosewriting]

hello dear goslings :D i come to you asking a favour, sort of

i really try my best for my reader inserts to be as inclusive as possible, which is why i only write a gender neutral reader, but that also applies to ethnicity/appearance. for example, ever since coming across the fact that people with darker skin don't "blush" like someone with light skin would, i've tried switching the phrase to things like reader getting flustered, feeling heat rising to the face, etc.

now i'm editing a draft and came across the typical phrase of tightening one's grip until the knuckles go white. my question to my you guys is: does that also happen with darker skin tones? because i'm genuinely not sure.

on that note, are there any phrases that you often see in fics that take you out of the story suddenly because it's something that doesn't apply to your appearance or is, for the lack of a better term, "white-coded"? i want to be conscious about these things as i write, so please if any come to mind, leave a comment or send in an ask! i'd really appreciate the help :')

[moonwoodhollow]

Jean's Life - before | next

Jean almost expected her mother to open the door and embrace her with a warm smile, jazz would be playing from the living room and the smell of freshly baked peach pie would be in the air, but no one opened the door and it was unnaturally quiet as if the house already knew that its owner was gone, only from the playground on the other side of the street could she make out the loud laughter of children.

Exhausted and overcome by her emotions, she sat down on the steps in front of the house, they were still warm from the afternoon sun, although a cool evening breeze was already blowing from the west, which carried the smell of autumn and decay. She knew what had to be done, what arrangements had to be made, and yet she couldn't even muster the courage to go to the entrance, unlock the door, and enter the house. Lost in thought, she gazed into the distance and gave free rein to her pain.

[dizzyditzyboy]

Hello hi people, I just need to get something off my chest and rant for a second

I hate hate HATE the "Pearl used to be White Diamonds pearl/is part of White Diamonds court" theory with a fiery passion!!!!

The only evidence towards this theory is that Pearl is the color white and has her gem at her forehead like White has and it drives me absolutely insane

I'll explain why under the cut cause I talk a lot

#1: Color Palletes and Gem Placement

So the main reason for the theory is cause Pearl's gem is on her forehead like White's gem is, and she's the same color as White

And in the show, all the Diamonds pearls also have the same gem placement and the same skin color

But the thing is though, it's not just the gem placement and skin tone that shows they were made to serve that specific diamond

All the pearls made for a specific diamond, also have every part of their form the same or similar color scheme to the diamond they were made for

They have lighter and less bold colors than the diamonds, and theur accessories matches with one of the parts of the diamond' s forms (Yellow Pearl being Yellow Diamond's shoulder pads, and Blue/Pink Pearl being their diamonds skirts)

And it's shown on homeword that if a gem was made for a specific diamond, their entire color pallete is just different shades of the colors their diamond has

For example Topaz and Aquamarine

Since they're both high ranking gems made for Yellow and Blue diamond specifically, they share most of the same colors as their assigned diamond, despite their gems not being in the same placement as them

It's the same for Holy Blue Agate, since she's also a high ranking gem made just to serve under Blue Diamond, her entire body is made up of different shades of blue (mostly), and Sapphires cause they're all rare aristocratic gems

But that's not the case for Pearl, the only part of her body that's similar to the color of white is her skin and even that's not actually the same color as white

Pearl is like slightly off white

White Damond is BLINDING

White Diamond so bright she was hard for Steven to look directly

And it's shown any gem who's under White's control, also becoles the same shade of white she is and shares her exact color pallete cause they are becoming her

If Pearl was made to be part of "White Diamonds Court", which I'll get to why that doesn't make sense in a second, she would have the exact same white, grey, and black colors in her form.

But she doesn't she has the color pallete of every single Diamond, and there's a reason for that too

But if Pearl was actually supposed to belong to White, her color scheme would be totally different (and probably be less friendly looking), and part of her form would resemble part of White's form (most likely her cape), or at the very least their gems would be same same color

I personally think that there are 2 reasons why some gems can have their respectice diamonds colors and some can't, is because high ranking gems having them is like a physical representation of how powerful and important they are during era 1 and 2 of Homeworld, that's why their colors are the exact same shade as their diamond. And for pearls it's because they're seen as "accessories" and not ad living beings, so when one is made for a specific diamond, they're made to have the same colors as them but a bit lighter and less bold because they rank lower than them and are just meant to stand next to them and look pretty. That's just my personal theory though.

Now color-wise that's one of the reason the theory Pearl belonged to White makes no sense, but there are other parts to it that make it makes even less sense

#2: White Diamonds Place On Homeworld

White Diamond has shown time and time again pre-redemptiom, that she is so much more different than any other gem that's been made inculding the other diamonds

It's because she is, or supposed to be, the perfect gem. That's what she was made to be, that is her purpose. It's because of this that she doesn't technically have a colony or a specific type of gem made for her, she's literally the creator of all the gems and IS every gem.

She doesn't have a specific colony because the entirety of homeworld is her court, every gem that's ever been made was made to serve under her. That's why all the other gems are many different colors, cause she's every color of the light. So saying Pearl belongs to White's court the same way that Yellow Pearl or Topaz is part of Yellow's court isn't entirely true.

She's the only gem of their kind who was made to look like that cause she's essentially just a gem god in their eyes pre-Steven Universe, so her having her own color-coded cour like the other diamonds wouldn't make that much sense cause she is the gem, and the only thing that can resemble her likeness is her. That's why any gem that does resemble her likeness just end up being a smaller version of her that she talks through and can command at her will.

Another small theory is that a reason why there's never been a gem that looks super similar to how White Diamond looks is because she is literally their god and having another gem that isn't her even slightly resemble her would be disrespectful cause it's like trying to make a smaller less powerful version of a god (maybe anyways)

I know this specific part of White Diamonds character might now be the most well known, but neither is the next part i'm about to explain

#3: Gems Are Mass Produced

Peridot said this when she was first starting to get reformed that there were hundreds of other pearls being flaunted around on homeworld

And in the show we see dozens of the same exact gem in shown in a group like Amethysts, Rubies, and Rose Quartz's

But they're army gems who are made to fight or gaurd stuff for Homeworld, so of course we get see tons of them together throughout the show

But the biggest thing that shows that gems are basically just mass produced tools made to serve the empire is during the ballroom scene in the "Together Alone" episode

Most of the gems in that ballroom looks almost identical to each other except for the shade of their skin, their hair, and their gem placement

It's a very great way (to me) to show that individuality does not matter on homeworld

Not every gem was made to be special, even the high ranking gems are reduced to cogs in the big machine in the eyes of the Diamonds, all of them are made to serve a specific purpose and follow the rules set in place for them

The only gems that actually matter and are supposed to be unique and one of a kind are the diamonds themselves

But despite that we never see that many pearls in Steven Universe, even after Era 3 started and all the gems were free, there weren't a lot of pearls on screen from what I remember

The only one's we really see are the Yellow, Blue, Pink, and Crystal Gem Pearl

Now pearls are the lowest ranking gems in the entire hierarchy of gem culture, all they're made to do is sing, dance, and look pretty standing next to the gem that they're assigned to

I think the reason we don't see many gems other than the diamonds own a pearl is because they're also a status symbol, a nice trophy you carry around as another way to flaunt how important you are to other gems

That would explain why the diamonds not only get their own pearl automatically, but also get one that matches them, cause they're the most importsnt gems of all

But the thing with Pearl is like I said earlier, she's multi-colored

She has white skin, and her clothes are mostly blue and yellow, and her socks are pink

Since Pearl doesn't have the exact color pattern as one specific, she doesn't belong to a specific diamond or court

She's a back-up", a replacement, a spare they can give to any gem who's lucky enough to be able to have one, or if one of the diamonds specially made pearls get taken away (Which is why she got given to Pink Diamond)

Since pearls are the lowest ranking gem, they probably are one of the most made gems cause they don't need that many resources and material to be made cause they aren't designed to do much

Or maybe cause they're so easy to make they make a few of them to last and store somewhere so they can assign them to whatever gem earns the status to have one

And in the movie, it's shown that the colors pearl has in her form is part of the "default setting" that proves more she can literally belong to any court

It's the same with Rubies, Amethysts, Jaspers, and Peridots

They don't match the colors of any of the diamonds either, they could be assigned to or made for any of the diamonds or any other gem that commands them, like pearls can

I think the lesser ranking of a gem you are, the more of you that's able to be made due to using less resources, and lacking a need to be assigned to a specific diamond cause all of them need you for the same purpose so it doesn't matter anyways who you belong to

Anyways that's my third and last reason why it doesn't make sense that Pearl originally belonged to or was part of White Diamonds court

I hope this made sense, I had a lot of thoughts to try and type out

I've mainly see this theory on tik tok and it makes my blood boil so much oh my god

[zenixromeave]

man i really hope someone on the server talks to fit about some of the stuff he's said ☹️ i'm sorry to any people who might have heard some of his comments and been upset by them

context (general cw for derogatory mental health language (?)): there's been at least two instances of fit joking around with the word "schizo" and other derogatory or incorrect phrases related to mental illness, such as when jaiden asked if he agreed that elquackity is different from quackity, and he replied "Yeah, it's... something is- like, a split personality or schizo or something."

he seems like a nice guy and i don't see anyone else on the server ever using this kind of language so i hope someone on talks to him about the history & connotation of those words, even as someone without schizophrenia or bd or anything it's been pretty disheartening every time i've heard him say stuff like that, especially since he seems so kind most of the time.

[rawliverandgoronspice]

Re: Descant and the rest of that series:

Is there a scene or idea you'd really-really love to include in it but can't, for whatever reason?

;__; I cherish this ask in my little hands like a soft bird, thank you so much for asking!!!

I mean, the answer is existentially horrifying, because: I have a full whole another story that goes into the "Child Timeline" version of the events of Descant (so the one that goes to MM's and Twilight Princess). I am unbelievably giddy about some of the ideas that are in there in terms of character development and just, Moments. It is the main daydream I am cursed with right now.

I have written test scenes and like, monologues and stuff that I just reread yesterday and went "shiiiit that goes haaard", so, pretty into it. It is roughly outlined.

The outline is 5k long.

So, beyond not really thinking it is realistic for me to dive into a 100k epic dark fantasy story about the nature of power and survival and responsability when I *already* have a series of science-fiction that I really love and want to finish going on, my ideas for this story are often incredibly visual, which is pretty rare for me; and so I have a lot of trouble imagining it as anything but a comic or a series, because of the external point of view and everything it allows that internal PoV (even multiple PoVs) can only approximate. Both options are literally ridiculous.

So I am indeed cursed to writhe about this story in my heart and be reasonable and *not* commit to it.

:(((((((

[shanedoesdoodles]

You ever look for a specific word/thing to describe a feeling you're having and think you've found it but as you look more into it it turns out it was a simular concept but very distinct from what you were looking for? And then when you try to be more specific everything that pulls up is still the same close but definitely not the same thing to describe it? I'm a stuck in a bit of a loop at the moment

[goldensunset]

> did the thing i’ve been procrastinating for a year and a half

[nbstevonnie]

only you - good film

[mishkakagehishka]

Shu is just such a specimen to me. He calls Mika, Mika doesn't pick up. He starts thinking ab "well, it's not like he has work today and it's a normal part of the day in Japan, i just wanna ask how it's going, but he didn't pick up immediately yesterday, either. I would call him again, but then he'd get all "oshi-san's worried, ain'cha~" and that'd also be annoying" i'm so in love with him

And then he just goes, and this time i won't be paraphrasing, "... That's right, I'll just go back to Japan." And Mademoiselle complains about it, and he just goes "No, no, i'm not worried, it's just my responsibility as his mentor to make sure he's not slacking off" ...... i just want to dissect him sometimes.

[the-craftsman-and-mover]

↕ - A memory that may or may not have happened.

[The Earthshaker is laying down somewhere, in the middle of the night.]

[A voice rings out. “Running internal diagnostics,” Earthshaker shifts slightly. “Internal diagnostics complete, major damage to storage, two pumps and left intake system.]

[“Turning emergency mode on, shutting major strata until repairs.”]

[tianhai03]

I was okay with the ending to id, because I don't think Leon was scared by the dude, it seemed more like he was just trying to make sure no one else went through the fear he lived as a guy who was barely an adult

I didnt think it was really because of him, but because he wanted to protect people from having to live like he does, constantly on edge and afraid of what could be next

putting this under a cut too since this ended up way longer than I expected (again)

okay that kinda makes sense, but let's think abt it like this. leon doesn't want ppl to live through what he did and know the fear he knew back then, right? that's the reason why he keeps trying to prevent another raccoon city incident from happening again.

but what happened to penamstan literally ended up JUST LIKE the raccoon city incident. bioweapons were used. the government tried to cover that up by bombing an entire area, killing thousands of innocent people. the mad dog unit being the sole survivors of the incident, knowing the FULL TRUTH to what happened but being forced by the government to stay quiet and do dirty work for them in exchange of keeping their own lives. sound familiar to something someone else is still going through till this day?

the difference this time, is the fact that leon had a chip with undeniable evidence that it was all a cover up. he had the ability to give the survivors a different ending than the one he got himself. and he didn't do it. he did nothing about it. and now, we ended up with another raccoon city incident.