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Seeing his grin amused her immensely. Laurel just felt relief all around, especially when each moment they had spent together felt fleeting, feeling like she could lose it from one moment to the next. Still, even if it turned out to be short-lived, she was willing to enjoy it to the fullest. Each smile, laughter, the way his eyes seemed to pierced her soul - greedily, she craved it all.
She caught that glimpse of surprise in his features, and for a second, she feared she had been too honest. But, the satisfaction that followed was much more familiar to her and Laurel couldn't help the smile full of relief that adorned her lips. "Back at the dock, what a smart ship," she mused out loud, wondering if she could take that to mean that he also had not moved on. Even after all this time. It was a second of mirrored satisfaction, followed by that immense guilt that wouldn't leave her alone. All these years, after ruining his life, and he still hadn't moved on? She couldn't help the pang of guilt that struck her. "I would be pleasantly surprised to find our ship back somewhere on that dock."
Even with the semi-hopeful conversation happening, her situation wasn't lost on her. He may have turned a new leaf and his life may look very different than it had all those years ago, but Laurel knew he was still close to his family, thinking back to his cousin stopping by his place and that dinner he went to with his dad. And on her side? Well, her mom still held some influence in her life - something she'd been unable to kick. Laurel's need for her mother's approval still dictated her life to this day. "Well, I was never really good with small talk," she teased, following his lead and taking another drink from her glass. Though, it was much larger than just a sip. Liquid courage? Maybe. Setting the glass back down on the table, Laurel willed herself to look back up at him, meeting those blue eyes she loved so much. Looking at him once more, she reiterated to herself that, yes she was willing to try again. Go all in for him. If her gaze was not communicating that, then one more sip of her drink, and Laurel was ready to say it out loud. Unable to continue dancing around what she wanted.
"You're glad?" she breathed out in surprise. Her realistic tendencies held her down, though a sliver of hope threatened to take over. "New territory is right, yet it feels very familiar. I just can't pinpoint why." Laurel hung to every word, his smile mesmerizing her like it had so many years ago. It felt like a turning point for them - an adult conversation between two people who hadn't seen each other since their teenage years. It was definitely something. Inevitably, a smile broke out on her lips. Pure joy in her features, and that hope from earlier burst through her chest. "Really?" she said breathlessly, unable to contain herself as she stood up from her chair and closed the distance between them, cupping his face in her hands and pulling him in for a kiss.
A laugh pulled from her lips, shaking her head. "Okay sorry, I got carried away. Yes, me too. Well, I had already said that. But, honestly...no pressure. I'm not expecting us to just immediately go back to what we had. More so, I just wanted you to know that I'm still here and I still...feel things for you. So yes, expecting things from each other, I can work with that. We can just take it slow, right?" She felt like she was reaching rambling territory, her nerves were in full display and leaning on being chill and nonchalant to not completely freak him out. "Don't worry, I won't request any girlfriend titles or anything of the sort."
Pat couldn't help the grin that curled his lips at the way her demeanor lightened when he agreed and assured her he would stay another night. It was impossible not to look forward to another night with Laurel, not to bask in every single moment he could with her. It was impossible not to appreciate the flush that came to her cheeks, just like it used to when they were younger and he would wink at her, although this time it wasn't unaccompanied with a roll of her big beautiful eyes.
The dirty blonde was sure surprise crossed over his features, though it was quickly replaced with a sense of satisfaction and relief. She hadn't moved on? A part of him felt guilty for that, but the other part, the larger part, was glad that was the case, because he certainly hadn't moved on from her. His hand came up to run through his hair as he let out a slow sigh. "I don't know about our ship sailing, maybe its back at the dock or something." he offered with a half-hearted chuckle. Despite the fact that years had passed, they were both still in scarily similar situations to the moment he'd been placed behind bars. He was still dangerously entwined with his family and his father's family business, and Laurel was even closer to the law then ever before. Not to mention, her mother would never come around to the idea of her daughter dating Patrick O'Morhan; especially now that the word felon followed his already tainted last name.
Pat's brows rose slightly at her next words, followed by a soft chuckle when she mentioned how it wasn't good dinner conversation. "Better than pointless small talk I guess." he offered with a shrug before he took another sip from his glass and let his light eyes find her darker ones across the table. What did she mean when she said she wouldn't mind if he expected things from her? Was she willing to try again, even with everything seemingly stacked against them? And how did he even go about asking that?
"I'm glad you asked." he settled on, a slight smile taking his lips. "I know it's kind of new territory for both of us, I mean, I never expected you to even still live here." he admitted with a small shrug. "But I," he paused, swallowing the growing lump in his throat that made itself apparent whenever he was attempting to be vulnerable. "I'm open to..." he paused, unsure how to word it. "Expecting thing from each other." he finished with a half laugh.
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this is a long shot, but if you were a lesbian in red flannel at the marianas trench show in silver spring, dm me! we met in the parking garage and chatted about stuff as we walked over together with my sibling and your girlfriend(?), and I noticed you two are in the background of some of my concert vids! and I could send those to you! but I couldn't find you after the show to let you know
#marianas trench#using my powers for good xD#realistically this will not lead to anything#but still. just in case!
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dear season
#dear season#dear#wait why are ppl reblogging this djfhsjfg#i just wanted to post this over here for myself#its a good metaphor for the internal struggle of a monster hunter in love with a werewolf!!!!#there are two wolves (aggression and fear)#but its not enough to control the deer (nonviolent feelings like empathy and guilt)#those aren’t inherently bad or anything but in excess will lead to harm#combine that with the external pressure to please the ranchers#they want the deer *and* the wolves gone ideally#even though thats more unnatural than anything else and just not realistic#its a good metaphor!!!! to meeeeeee!!#i didnt even tag this as anything#literally just my oc tags
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might sound weird to say as a person with a couple ocs who have Big Horrible Event(s) in their backstories or as a person who has like 3 ocs total bc he sucks at writing and as a person who hopes their ocs arent too Boring with [the thing im about to mention] but the thing about writing [characters] and [people] is that like.
any little thing a person experiences can take up their whole existence... its actually something "fun" to experience as i meet new ppl and do more things. My friend had something happen that she'll be talking about forever. I had several things happen last year that ill never stop talking about, some of which other ppl think werent that bad actually. In the same way I'll forever remember about the way my sister accidentally insulted me almost 10 years ago, it's really interesting and Fun to find and assign smaller things like that to characters...its really Real. some people's dealbreakers are other people's solvable problems etc etc
#(as well as the opposite: Big Event that maybe shocks everyone around em but they genuinely werent shaken by)#though this one is more common and leads to those ''ohh i didnt know that was normal oops'' moments#talkys#inspired by recent me and friend events#and also recent events where i told sum ppl more stuff about Thing and they responded as if it wasnt a big deal. but it was to me.#and also how i thought a part of al's childhood backstory was kind of maybe dumb and not realistically as impactful as id expect#but i saw someone on reddit almost word for word write that as their experience and how its shaped em as a person#and thats it like... the small things are boring and hard to keep track of sometimes#its not like you'll include every single little event your oc was shaped by in their bio#but idk. its like Fun to piece together for fun. to mold a human being#ykwim? wld be silly to tell everyone ''oh my oc struggles with self image due to many instances like... when their sister called em ugly''#or write it anywhere but it is fun to Know and have in your head. and its real !#just like if a friend told you about something that happened to em#long post#delete later#sorry i keep saying stupid obvious shit lately ive always been bad at oc making AND socializing so im learning everything late#but anyway yes. idk even as i keep making ocs that are ''similar'' its like. every person so different#people can react to anything in any way for any reason. i love people#this is why i struggle a bit with keeping ocs to archetypes i guess bc like. what is ooc for an oc. people contain contradictions all the#time. you can change yourself at any time.#ok nobody will read this far so ill go to the real insane rambling#part of this has been a part of my chats with talon while trying to get him to share more info#like. yeah ok you're 400+ years old the things that happened to you were such a comparatively small part of your life#but humans dont live as long and think about small things until they die. i dont think time would heal all wounds actually. not all of em#some thoughts just always come to gnaw at your brain. its ok to not be over things. i feel ill never be over some things#and also complainerism can be fun but thats something else entirely wee hee ^_^
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I think the idea of Leo seeing rytlock's pupils dialate when he looked at him would drive him crazy, anything to make worlds most reluctant piner insane
#i gotta draw this...#but also this idea is sooooo cute 2 me#theres so much rytleo lore like Leo mightve found him physically attractive from the start but rytlock falls for leo first unexpectedly#and theres a lot of things revolving Rytlock being both bad at communication but also having a inherent small fear of fucking things up#after he fucked up all his other important relationships while also having priorities that exist outside his personal wqnts#“why is leo reluctant” bc he knows the culture he was born in hes not a stranger to one night stands but the idea of like#hoping for a long term relationship (leo wants so badly to be part of a world where this is a norm for his society) is realistically going#to end with him getting hurt bc thats not something that usually happens so he makes it a point to avoid anything that could lead to it#oh god im rambling in the tags thats enough of that
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why are we going into korok forest with vah medoh.
#I UNDERSTAND THE MONSTERS. BUT IS THIS REALLY NECESSARY#also more revali content!! wahoo!!#its like. ok i didnt hear the voice acting so based on his tone i cant say anything#but what he does say? mostly????? rightish??#truly why Is link leading this. hes still just some knight#sure hes skilled but youd think itd be zelda or impa#also why does link follow the princess. he has the generic knight armour rather than royal guard#the before starting screen says that link never leaves the princesss side which. firstly ew. secondly Why and How#i truly dont think he realistically has the rank to kind of just. stick around#honestly revali seems. kind of in character so far#though he would Not say that last line i feel like. that was unnecesary especially for his character
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my "cat knocking glass off the table" instincts so strong every time i see someone ask "is it Bad if i like this show?" "is it Bad if i watch this movie?" i just want to say "Yes. youre irredeemable forever. and you know that's binding because a stranger on the internet said it!"
#myaa#please learn the lesson that this is such an unproductive and useless way to approach anything#literally any time someone asks these kinds of leading 'i want reassurance' questions#i just sooo bad want to say 'what if the answer was the fucked up option. what if i DID hate you for liking ten of my posts in a row.'#'what would you do?'#unfortunately people asking these things are often in a very precarious emotional state so it's not a GREAT idea to do this#but i want to. so bad i want to.#'no stupid questions' but there might be useless ones. you know the answer to this already--why treat this anxiety as realistic?
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I got to the Rex/Julia part of the storyline and it kills me everytime.
#weird and striking to come to it last#out of everything in the story#it’s so truthfully …. awful#and all the realistic steps that she takes that lands her in such an awful situation#kind of interesting (to me) how part of what leads her into all this misery is her determination to BE married#like. that’s her goal#not her wish or her hope but her GOAL#something she’s determined to make happen#and that can be your goal but the odds of it leading you to making a happy choice#……. are infinitesimal#and if it HAD to be her goal adhering to the guiderails of religion would have saved her from a lot#because it at least would have given her choices a consistency to them and protected her from the hurt she brings on herself#even before the marriage#like. you don’t have anything to do with a man like Rex. you protect yourself from him. you do not give him access to you#because if you try to take a hold of him he will bludgeon you to death without meaning to#but she’s just stumbling in the dark and trying to make it work#and it’s just all so awful#sorry just rambling#brideshead revisited
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re: that poll i rb'd earlier. i've only ever been in one relationship which really just fizzled out but in hindsight i think that her just fully vanishing for a couple of months without any contact while i saw her constantly upload photos of her new college life with new friends in social media every day Really hurt me, and having to pretend that it didn't and that i could just shrug that off and tell her that it was okay was the thing that definitely killed that feeling in me
#and also in hindsight. i'll never know if she actually did care or if she was just trying to hide for whatever reason#but i think that looking back. we were both teenagers desperate for someone's kindness#which is ultimately a bad loop to find yourself in. because it leads to both of you just bottling things up instead of being real#or just playing A Role which is draining#and as a result now i don't even know the way that she felt either.#so while i considered that to be entirely my fault and kicked myself down for somehow losing that feeling that was once there#thinking about it now. realistically. it happened because of a number of reasons and not limited to her also being at fault on some level#because we were both young and dumb ultimately.#needless to say i ended up running away from her and feeling awful about it for years ✌️ my signature move#but thinking about it now. it was probably ok and not something i should hate myself for.#a learning experience if anything.#but it is kind of funny how like. i would have been completely justified in feeling hurt by her#and i just Did Not Think I Was Allowed To so little old desperate me just took it and pretended everything was good :)#because not doing so would have made me a bad person#and then i still saw myself as a bad person lmao.
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because of my stupid ocd Thing I've been drinking exclusively bottled water (beyond coffee + juice) for like, two months now and I got really low last week and have been very carefully rationing my water since- picked up a 4 liter jug today and I chugged like, two cups of water in one breath and I haven't felt sated like that in a w h i l e
#head in my hands. I fucking hate ocd and I hate how EXPENSIVE it can be#because if I didnt have bottled water I would just straight up not drink anything beyond coffee and juice#its. ughhhhhhh!!!!!!!#I want this to stop! I want this particular Obsession to just fucking go away forever#but it's so hard to tell if I'm being irrational or not because like.#the tap water is. realistically speaking. coming out of pipes older than the fucking titanic#and the build up of pipe scum alone makes me feel nauseous to think about. let alone the likelihood of lead in the pipes#and if the water from the brita jug tastes like mold and bottled water doesnt there's a damn good chance#that there actually is mold in there#but I no longer trust the jug itself#so it's gonna have to be replaced and those are expensive!!!!
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Now that I'm taking part in an actual organised boycott, I'm even more frustrated with those 'campaigns' that are just like 'to boycott this thing just stop buying it and idk maybe fill in this form or something'.
#the bds campaign for example is full of giant companies with a million subsidaries...it's basically a boycott of capitalism itself#as i have said before. And you know wouldn't that be great? but realistically it won't work#it seems to exist to a lot of people as a kind of way of judging others if you see them using certain shops or something#that's not helping#there has to be better ways of putting pressure on Israel than individual consumer choices regarding some of the biggest brands#in the world. I wish at least one act had loudly boycotted Eurovision. Or a whole country even better. :/#fyi not buying from certain brands because of your values is great! Everyone live their values!#it's just in these cases judging others for not doing the specific thing you are will inevitably lead to#the fact that you still are forced by capitalism to buy things made in unethical ways in all facets of life#purity isn't possible and if you worry about it all the time you will never do anything else
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having brothers is nice, man ngl + also since i’m the youngest sibling i always get so spoiled by them it’s insane
#but yeah <3 not a very common thing for me to post abt but i love my kuya’s!!!#the thing i like the most abt them is that they’re rlly good company :’) not just 2 have a good time but lead me in the right path in life 2#they r very optimistic too and i like surrounding myself w those kinds of ppl#the kinds of ppl that see the pros in anything but realistic enough to notice the cons and find a way to solve it TT#AAAAUGSHASU I ASPIRE TO BE LIKE THEM SO BADD#they’re annoying tho 🙄 that’s enough kind words for them from me today 🙄 HDJSBXI
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"Carlos, if you could just pause your experiment for a second--if you could only hear me out, hear my hypothesis! I think once you understand the science of the situation, you--" Carlos opened the door. He was crying. She had never seen him cry. He was overwhelmed and unsure of how to express his emotions, since he usually only did so in carefully worded sentences, not with water from his body. "The science of the situation?" he snarled. "That Otherworld. I was trapped there, Nilanjana. I couldn't see Cecil for ten lonely years. I was kept away from the people I love, in that desolate place where you never get hungry and you never have to drink water and so you never live. It is a place that devours. It is a place that is empty. That is the science of the situation, and I study it so I can fix it. Only I can do that. Only these experiments can do that. I'm sorry, Nilanjana; I'm not going to stop so you can tell me what science is."
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#Tyto listens to WtNV#spoiler warning I guess for a book that came out a few years ago now#anyway yeah hi I finished the book#the resolutions to the plot and to Nils' character arc were pretty good. nothing to write home about but fun and serviceable#I personally get annoyed whenever a story pulls a ''you thought this romance would end with these two TOGETHER? lol NOPE''#like we get it it's more realistic for whirlwind romances to end in a breakup and sometimes it's better for people to just stay friends#but firstly this isn't real life; it's fiction. with narrative devices and such.#and secondly WtNV of all media does NOT get to preach about realistic relationship trajectories when its lead fell in love at first sight#lmao I'm just saying. I'm not MAD about it or anything it just made me roll my eyes.#ANYWAY. that aside: it was good. and I do genuinely like the friendship Nilanjana builds up with Darrell at the end#but obviously the real star of the show was Carlos and the completely unprecedented character depth that they smothered him in.#not ONLY recontextualizing over a year's worth of the podcast but ALSO saddling him with LAYERS of guilt over the events in this book#he *KILLED* the *GODDAMN* *CENTIPEDE*#after his beautiful little speech about not killing things just because we don't understand them!#he was just SO traumatized by his time in the Otherworld and SO afraid for his family after Janice nearly got Got that he KILLED IT!!!#and THEN!!!! not only do they find out that the centipede wasn't responsible for the destruction!!#but it turns out it was HIS OWN MACHINE THE WHOLE TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#his attempts to keep everyone safe were what actually caused the danger!!!! AUGH HE WAS ONLY TRYING TO HELP#HE'S JUST SCARED AND HE WANTS EVERYONE TO BE SAFE AND NOT EXPERIENCE THE SAME HORRORS HE DID AUGHDUSHGHDH#...anyway yeah back to my regularly scheduled episode listening tomorrow
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just saw a post that was like 'characters who go thru trauma and sitll remain gentle' and someone qrted with 'jgy (ignoring his war crimes)' and 'jc (to an extent)' do i have to even sya anything
#jgy as much as i love him still married his sister killed his own son killed nmj his dad ect ect#that man was anything EXCEPT gentle#even if he truly loved his er ge son and .... sister/wife.... doesnt mean hes gentle#like he put self presevrvation over EVERYTHING#and jc#jc#need i say more#shld i start with the strangling his shixiong or leading a siege against people he KNEW were innocent and helped save his life#gentle my ass#'he raised jl well' he probs didnt raise him that much realistically ?? i actually like jl & jc relationship#but rereading he books jl was just. scared of jc and not in the way we see in fanon unfortunately
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what i love SO much abt stones ability to see the future is that the way theyre written implies that there is No One Future, but that there are hundreds and thousands, but only they know what leads to what, so subsequently, they are the only one that can put bunches of diff possibilities into action
#hfjone#hfjone stone#realistically stone can prob see quite literally infinite futures#but i think they prob focus in on more realistic ones#but like. when theyre tryna take amelias notes? they look like they genuinely think theres a possibility that she may let them have them#but infinite possibilities still has to account for the fact that people can do anything anytime#like. when they run between teams? theyre checking for stuff. and 'i know everything' would mean they have to already know#unless! they are weighing options#focusing their foresight on specific possibilities#maybe this is common knowledge and unremarkable#but i LOVE this kind of seeing the future#and it adds a lot of complexity to stone!#yeah they put MANY events into motion with almost 100% precision#but thats prob WHY they had to be so vague. there were so many ways things couldv gone wrong#so they had to center it on options that made rverything less likely to end horribly#(or as horribly)#i dont think they predicted everything exactly when they wrote the notes. but i think they knew#as they were writing the notes#what possibile outcomes their actions could lead to#and they had to lead liam in the most all encompassing way possible#since they knew it was highly likely that theyd be eliminated before theyd ever be able to fully explain#anyway#hfjone spoilers#fun fact liam and amelia are favorites but also i REALLY really like stone#they dont have much screentime but they have SO much personality
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People need to stop calling every sighthound a borzoi!! That greyhound is Not A Borzoi! That saluki is Not A Borzoi! That silken windhound is Not A Borzoi and that whippet especially is NOT A Borzoi!!!!!!
#sorry i am a dog breed nerd and lose my mind when someone sees any sighthound ever and goes WOW A BORZOI#borzois have a very distinct look!! how do you even see a greyhound and think its a borzoi!! aaaaa!!#also this is just me being dumb but i kind of hate when any dog breed becomes a meme#because it always leads to people who know nothing about dogs wanting a dog of that specific breed#for the love of god do not buy a shiba if you dont know anything about them. theyre not a beginner breed#and for the love of god DONT buy a borzoi thats not an easy breed for beginners either. a big sighthound like that is a disaster if you#dont know anything about it#and DONT BUY WOLFDOGS !!! if you for some reason really need a dog thats like 15 percent wolf please live in an area thats suitable for it#wolfdogs have gotten the reputation of being just cooler looking dogs but those wolf genes do matter a LOT.#theyre cool but i just. wouldnt trust them like youd trust any big dog. sorry.#i visited a wolfdog sanctuary kind of place once and they had wolfdogs that were originally kept in apartments in HELSINKI!!! and then#rescued to live somewhere around Kittilä#grrr please be realistic about what dogs you are capable of keeping#its fine to just get a poodle or a lab or a german shepherd or a shi tzu#theres a reason theyre popular. theyre quite beginner dog owner friendly and very trainable
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