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#deep diver#hum…#real talk I love seeing all the tags I get on this blog ur all such sweeties#esp the most recent post… everyone commenting on Filipino Mary…. my heart swells ten sizes
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pixelated love (!simmer x mv1) - chapter 4
synopsis: in which the famous three time world champion max verstappen wants to learn how to play the sims 4. except, he doesn't really know how to. so what does he do, search up a youtube tutorial. low-and-behold, y/n's video is the first he watches.
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hi! just wanted to say that i was recently looking for lore on the ferru ferri relationship so ur lore post is perfect timing and *chefs kiss* 🤌 i fully support ur unhingedness about them bc i'm getting there too LOL i would love to know more about the facts/lore/thoughts u have on them if u'd like to share ! :D
i actually need to thank you because it was the tags on one of your rbs + talking with another mutual that pushed me to finally finish and post. so thank you!! …and sorry for what's about to happen here. would i like to share more thoughts, YES I WOULD.
(eta: this thing is LONGER than the original and also significantly more unhinged. so like… fair warning.)
first of all here are an assortment of facts/links/quotes that didn't make the final lorepost cut:
about all those times ferru drops by the academy: for example, this and this and this and this and this and this and this and this.
then there is this classic roland garros 2011 "choose a player" questionnaire. ferru picked juanki for THREE separate answers: who would you share a nice bottle of wine with, who would you open a bar with, and—wait for it—who would you hit on girls with.
i mean, i get it. juanki's looks are ideal bait. i see it happen every day on tumblr dot com. but a truly unfortunate number of scenarios do immediately unroll before the mind's eye.
david ferrer's official 2004 atp media biography included "says his most inspirational player is countryman juan carlos ferrero"
juanki's official atp tour dot com bio includes this typically restrained ferru testimonial: "He was and is my best friend on the tour. He's a person that is very close to me... He’s a very humble and noble person." elsewhere: "He's an even better person than he is a player, which is very difficult."
(juanki's bio is a wholeass novella and ferru's is THE most bare bones bullet points. ferru stop being so fucking modest challenge!!)
juanki used to visit javea to play football with ferru and his hometown friends. ferru are you making your girlfriend hang out with your friendsgroup.
select topics from the david ferrer official forums: "stayed with juan carlos before leaving for the davis cup." (juanki himself was not called up.) "went to a nice restaurant with juan carlos and had paella." "spending new year's eve at juan carlos' hotel."
according to juanki's blog they would watch world cup matches together at ferru's house?? cute.
especially cute since juanki is a real madrid fan and ferru is a barcelona fan. (although he's more outspoken about supporting valencia cf.) here is an amazing photo of a clasico watch party in the cincy locker room.
honestly this is just some sponsor promo content but i am dying to know what the inside joke at 1:15 is about. what are you smiling about juan carlos. why is ferru trying not to laugh. answer me.
ok easy stuff out of the way. i'm just going to warn you in advance that there are a cool 3000 words under the cut so uh... brace yourself i guess. don't open on mobile. topics include:
some Narratives
thoughts on the dynamic (past)
101 reasons to love david ferrer
behind the music: juan carlos ferrero
thoughts on the dynamic (present)
i didn't link more than a few quotes but if you want sources for anything in particular just drop me a reply or an ask.
finally, in addition to Facts and Anecdotes this includes what is by definition rampant speculation because i don't know these guys and never will. we cannot fully know public figures, we are making the shadows on the wall of plato's cave kiss, you know the drill.
the Narratives
first of all. the opposite narratives of their careers are soooooooooo compelling to me. like, juanki was a child prodigy—junior world champion, junior roland garros finalist, bursting onto the pro scene age 19 and winning his first title just a month later. then clinching spain's first davis cup, roland garros sf-sf-final-title, us open final, world number one. all by age 23! expectations were through the ROOF.
…and then 2004 hit and he fell off a cliff and never recovered. (injury, mentality, and incredible bad luck, like oh this man is CURSED cursed. he missed multiple tournaments because of chicken pox.) in september 2003 he was world no. 1; 17 months later he was no. 98. he never did make it back into the top ten.
meanwhile, ferru was—i mean obviously he was talented. he won stuff in juniors. but no one was talking about him as the future of spanish tennis, yk? he even quit when he was 17… for a week. (lol.) he was inconsistent, vulnerable to meltdowns. he first appeared on most people's radars when he beat agassi in rome in 2003, but then not again until a brief spike in 2007—made the USO semis, made the master's cup final, world no. 5. and then he, too, slumped.
but he did not give up. ever.
he climbed out of the slump and just kept climbing up, and up, and up. the best year of his career was 2012-2013, age thirty—seven titles, masters title, roland garros final, world no. 3. the second-best was 2015, age thirty-two. top 10 for 292 straight weeks, 2010-2016. ferru is like. the ultimate proof of how dogged persistence pays off if you just. keep. trying. ← wow tumblr user alacants is he your favorite or something.
the arcs intersect in ~2008-2010, when they were especially joined at the hip. they're both struggling—juanki dropped out of the top 100 for the first time, ferru's treading water in the low teens and saying he'll never reach the heights of 2007 again—and both right on the verge of a revival. juanki won his first title in 5+ years in 2009, kickstarting an 18 month last-gasp renaissance that included davis cup hero, more titles, more finals, as high as no. 14. for a few weeks. ferru slowly and surely got his feet back under him. (he calls the dc 09 final a turning point.) around those back-to-back finals in 2010, they were hovering right around the same rank—juanki even jumped ahead a couple places. and then juanki's body finally called it quits, and ferru started to really take off.
so that window is probably the peak of the pre-retirement dynamic. what IS that dynamic, you ask? great question.
the dynamic (past)
first i must note that although i myself led the lore post with the quotes about how they've been friends forever, something i find super cute/funny is that there seems to be an element of historical revisionism at work there? like, ferru didn't come to the academy until he was 17 (1999, the year juanki went pro), and their hometowns aren't THAT close. and ferru spent a couple years in barcelona as well. so although they clearly knew each other from an early age, it's unlikely that they were like. besties. but if you ask them, it's oh yeah we've been friends foreverrrr.
anyway. dynamics, 2002-2012:
mutual security blanket
introvert (situational) 4 introvert (intrinsic)
senpai/kouhai
chronic patient/emotional support rescue dog
fighter/sacrifice
king/lionheart, where the king was overthrown 10 years ago and now they're living in exile and the loyal retainer is earning their keep by the sword—
what do i mean by 90% of this—ok, first, web 1.0 tangent: beginning relatively early in ferru's career there was a fan forum on his official website. ferrru, who in those days was blatantly uncomfortable with the fan/star dynamic, immediately set about trying to like. befriend everyone on it. no fans here, we're all just friends! he would post regular life updates and then hang around in the thread just. chatting. he would remember details like where posters lived and who their other faves were and TEASE them about it. he hosted a christmas dinner in his hometown for anyone who wanted to make the trip. this is obviously unsustainable past a certain point of success but while it lasted it was just. so charming.
so ferru took his self-appointed role as juanki handler very seriously. like, i joke about "xx news and publicity bureau," but ferru really was. he would regularly post updates about juanki's health and recovery progress. he would answer questions. juanki's fans would come to ferru for updates!! couple this with the comments about how they tried to enter the same tournaments and generally traveled together/stayed in the same hotels, along with juanki's incredible run of illness and injury, and it's just like. ferru is juanki's designated spokesperson, his interface with the cold cruel world, his shield arm/support animal.
mutually supportive, but also: ferru clearly gets a lot of validation out of doing things for other people. he is always describing himself in terms such as, "i'm nothing special, i just try to be a really good friend." this is an acts of service guy all the way down.
(you ARE special, ferru, listen to me and juan carlos—)
i do think it was an evolution—ferru especially credits juanki with supporting him in the early days on tour. so i see it as like... friendly face showing the new kid the ropes, giving him advice, and then suddenly they're pulling even, and then even more suddenly ferru is the one equipped to provide the support.
introvert (situational): namely, juanki describes himself as shy, but he loves being the center of attention. he doesn't act out to get it but he very much enjoys it when it comes. (early quote re: what he likes about tennis: "all the people cheering for me in the big stadiums.") (it's also worth noting that he was the youngest child and the much-anticipated only son. lmao.) at the same time the media describe him as reserved, and he visibly dislikes talking about personal stuff. direct quote: "you can see how uncomfortable he is talking about his family…"
so at first the press calls him "the monk of villena", he lives in the middle of nowhere, his lifestyle isn't flashy*, he's so humble, wow. but alllllso he loves fast cars and throwing parties at his hotel. he befriends other famous spanish athletes like sergio garcia and sete gibernau. and there are some wiiiiiiiiiild pictures from players' parties through the years.
(*the contemporary gossip was also that maybe he was out having a little more fun than he let on, lol.)
so maybe it's accurate to say he's doesn't like being out of his depth? doesn't like unfamiliar situations. but like—i have seen the records and they do not lie. juan carlos looooves being—sorry—doted upon.
(this btw is why someone dedicating their tournament victory to him in front of god and the city of valencia and everyone was probably what you could call an effective tactic.)
meanwhile ferru's favorite hobby is READING. he is famous for always having a book in the locker room. "i can get through 3 books in a 2 week tournament and i keep every book i read." (← man who ebooks were invented for.) his idea of a perfect day is going to the beach in his hometown ("the best beach in the world") with his family and his friends and then having paella. he's a cat person. he's perfect? SORRY. I'M TRYING SO HARD TO BE NORMAL. anyway genuinely think this is the person you would find in the corner at a party befriending the host's cat.
—ok fuck normal i need to talk about ferru some more.
some very normal thoughts about david ferrer
as a player ferru had uhhhhh well maybe it was an inferiority complex or maybe it was a self-defense strategy playing in the big four era or maybe he was just unbelievably hard on himself. but for a long time he was out there saying stuff like, i'm the worst player in the top hundred. i'm the worst player in the top ten.
the thing is. it's impossible to talk about ferru without bringing up the closet story. you can read it here. c. 2007 this was reported as like, a humorous character-building anecdote????? because ferru brushed it off ("once in there i didn't think much" <- bad sign!!!) and said things like "i learned everything from him, about tennis and how to be a person." ok ferru, but what if you learned the wrong things.
i mean, what do i know. i don't know any of these people, i'm (mostly) not here to pseudo-psychoanalyze. i just don't think it's UNrelated that ferru explicitly compared their eventual coaching split to a breakup and later implied that he should have cut the cord earlier but couldn't bring himself to do it. or that afterwards he started going to therapy, "personal, not sport," and says he wishes he'd started when he was 20.
he stayed with that coach until he was 31 btw. there is loyal and then there is whatever the hell this is.
how do you reconcile this with today's happy and well-adjusted davis cup captain? many possibilities, such as his very own family (they're so cute, they are so cute) and 20 years of personal growth. also probably the therapy. and tbf by the end of the career he'd already gotten a lot better about the self-deprecation. but he still has a worldview that is uh refreshing verging on eye-watering. he's repeatedly said that being a professional athlete doesn't make you particularly special or interesting. asked whether as a known reader he's thinking about writing a memoir: "I'm not that important and I don’t believe I can contribute that much to the society… there are so many people that can contribute much more." ← ferru STOP.
(speaking of the adorable family: although this post is mainly about silly shipping nonsense and not irl romantic relationships i DO think it's instructive that ferru appears to have dated exactly two (2) women in the entirety of his adult life. one gf age 17-26, one age 27-present. this man's natural mode is Devotion.)
anyway my main point here is that it probably felt real good to have someone on tour in his corner. someone who hadn't ever locked him in a closet.
(there is a lot more to unpack about ferru but if you're sitting here like "but what about uso 2008" or whatever trust me it's solely for the sake of not making this insanely long post EVEN LONGER and i am happy to share my thoughts upon request lol.)
some very normal thoughts about juan carlos ferrero
IN CONTRAST... one of the funniest things about revisiting old press is constantly hearing juan carlos ferrero described as "humble" when my man has a VERY healthy opinion of himself. this isn't a bad thing. it's arguably better than calling yourself the worst player in the top one hundred. it is however a problem when the person you feel threatened by is. rafa nadal.
i initially had an 800 word tangent here that has now been exiled to its own post. the short version of this is juanki got dropped in favor of rafa in the 2004 davis cup final and never forgot it, lol. a number of other perceived sins were committed including 1) rome 2008 media coverage 2) dc 2009 president's speech 3) valencia open 2013, how dare rafa spurn juanki's beloved child tournament. but really it was that rafa became who juanki was supposed to be. :(
juanki's got a lot of pride! another example: madrid master's 2008. yet again juanki is in bad shape. at no. 44 he just missed the main draw. so he asked for a wild card… and didn't get one. that was genuinely an insult considering he was the 2003 champion and that wc #3 went to (consults notes) fabio fognini, ranked 73. the spanish sports media were up in arms. juanki said he was so insulted that even if they offered him a spot he wouldn't take it.
…so when carlos moya pulled out they didn't waste their time. "he said he didn't want it so we gave it to someone else." oh, juanki.
(ferru's measured thoughts on this decision btw: "The absence of Juan Carlos Ferrero is outrageous and insane. This only happens in Spain. It's a huge tragedy and, above all, an injustice for a player like him, who's been number one in the world and previously won this tournament.")
so, juanki: proud, outspoken when he's angry, reserved when he's not. to the extent that when he started saying ferru was his best friend on circuit his fans were like wait. what. this is brand-new information.
you will notice that throughout this post there are a Lot of heart-on-sleeve quotes from ferru, and fewer from juanki. what happens is that when you don't talk about your feelings, they explode without warning in Grand Gestures. juanki LOVES a Grand Gesture. ferrufest 2k19 is the most notable but far from only instance, see also organizing special surprises at their special tournament. (the open letter is somewhere in the middle, i would be fascinated to know if he would have been that forthcoming if asked point blank. i mean, maybe so!!!! personal growth!!!)
sidenote, but imo you can see the exact same dichotomy at work with juanki and carlos, where he goes out of his way to reject the we're-like-family premise and then acts the exact opposite. ("i leave the father thing to his actual father." ok juan carlos.) he used to do the same thing wrt his own coach since childhood, "i wouldn't call him a father figure, that would be weird…" this is how you end up naming things after people and bursting into tears in public! ← the fact that he's a capital-c Crier makes it even more obvious.
you will ALSO notice that despite that 7-2 h2h juanki sure never had any problem with ferru. lol. the appeal presumably goes without saying of a friend who is shouldering his way in among the ~big four and STILL out here in the year of our lord 2009 saying things like, “[Ferrero] is one of the best players in history on clay… I think he can win Roland Garros again. Nadal and Federer will be there but Juan Carlos will be right there behind them. Why not?"
(fwiw i think all of this is very like… normal and human. it's why it's so fun to put him under a microscope.)
and what is also true is that no matter how much you think juanki's life is the academy, it's more than that. he is the academy. like it was founded specifically for him (well, his cohort of young players, of which he was far and away the most promising), and his coach included him in conversations about the Vision and the long-term goals from day one. he lived there with a ROOMMATE for years and years after going pro, despite owning like… a nice house in the city of valencia. (← maybe also a reason he didn't get married until well after retirement lmao.) so when he starts naming parts of the academy after you... it's a Big Deal.
—incidentally it must be comforting to have a ready-made identity on hand when "generational spanish tennis talent" turns out to go. not the way you thought it would.
hm not doing a great job avoiding the pseudo-psychoanalysis, am i. well. i tried.
thoughts on the dynamic (present)
dynamics, 2024:
will-they-won't-they x 20 years
(life) partners
✨✨✨ co-parents ✨✨✨
that one is so overwhelmingly dominant it sort of overshadows everything else. lmao.
king/lionheart STILL only now the one-time king has returned from exile to be an advisor to the new prince—
tbh now that they are both retired and both have their own families they are a little less codependent. normal best friends, i almost said, before remembering the fucking portrait commission. do you think that's hanging up in ferru's house???? i ask myself this every day.
what do i think has changed? ferru is (wonderfully) much less self-effacing. juanki successfully reinvented himself as a top coach. after juanki retired i think they finally started to relate as… i'm not saying they weren't equals before that but maybe to some people (ferru) it didn't feel like they were. and ferru is clearly in his element as dc captain, where his job is literally to be the entire team's emotional support dog. emotional support pack leader? once again: who needs hierarchy, we're all friends here. (he gave coaching a brief shot but it didn't stick—this my personal theory as to why. based on nothing other than intuition lol.)
hm this section is suspiciously resembling "ferru: the postscript." well we all see a lot of juanki, he's doing great lol. if anything i think having ferru around is good for him, keeps him from getting too martyred. every time ferru and carlitos TEAM UP to tease juanki is jfkldajf;l so delightful. (to modestly quote my own tag, "just two dogs yapping at their favorite cat.")
but shipping nonsense aside: i genuinely think it is really lovely and heart-warming to see two people who clearly mean so much to each other and are still such a big part of each other's lives after so long—even/especially despite the changes. some people grow apart. some people grow together. :)
and if you want to throw in twenty years of pining SO MUCH THE BETTER
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christ that is. so much text. uhhhh hopefully this was informative/entertaining/morbidly fascinating, and everyone who reads it will feel mysteriously compelled to start including ferruero subplots in their sincaraz fic. :D?? :D????
you have SO many options. practically married. one-sided pining for many years. (whooo in this post sounds like they would do that.) MUTUAL pining for many years. practically married but haven't realized it. tour arrangement but they caught feelings. second-chance romance years after a youthful failed fling. the parent trap, starring carlitos alcaraz— [curtain falls as i am forcibly dragged from the stage]
#david ferrer#juan carlos ferrero#if you click on that keep reading cut you know exactly what you're getting into. so don't come crying to me.#made in valencia
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hello there! i just found your blog and i love your writing for hobie, so i’d like to request another thing for him.
would you mind doing something about a transmasc vigilante reader who tags along with hobie on patrols and late night hangouts? hobie and the reader could diy their own costumes together :) maybe reader is black cat, another spiderperson, or whatever you want to come up with. thanks in advance, and i’ll probably request again soon!
hobie brown with a transgender, vigilante reader (ftm)
RAAHH thank you so much :]
i chose for the reader to be another spidersona, probably anarchist and super cool, hope this is okay! let me know if not
warnings: unsafe binding (there’s a warning ahead)
pairing: hobie brown x transmasc!reader
requests: open ! PLEASE
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for you and hobie to get along so well and hang out outside of missions n such, i imagine you’re a spider-man who rejected miguel’s “invitation” to spider society. this is what might have led to you becoming a vigilante who’s occasionally recruited by spider society after some begging- or you’ve just been a vigilante from day one in your dimension.
but ! who’s likely to notice such a person? hobie, obviously. you two become menaces and no one looks forward to being in a room with you. hobie destroys their faith in the constitution while you’re reinforcing everything
during missions, you make a hell of a team ! there’s somehow this real nonchalant feeling to the atmosphere even if you’re punching down baddies
banter, plenty of it back and forth while swinging about and fighting for ur life
probably makes fun of your form or something playfully, makes a comment or two about a punch you’ve thrown “you call tha’ a punch?” “Naaah, nahnahnahnahnah. watch this,” probably does worse let’s be honest, throws the dirties punch known to man but it does the trick
you’re more stealth while hobie’s way more out there, style n all that
hobie dropping in on some operation to take down the big baddies while shredding away at his electric guitar, meanwhile he’s able to see you picking off people from vantage points
whenever you’ve gotta wait about for some patrols or just observe for a night, you two will find some sorta rooftop to perch on top of and patrol from there. but the view kills
you two probably have a sort of routine: completing missions together for the spider society, hobie then tags along for some vigilante work, then you both kick back at his place once the days come to an end
chill night consists of hobie subconsciously strumming at a note occasionally on his guitar while you talk about whatever together
a lot of complaining about the institution, probably how much miguel fucking sucks
depending on ur current situation with transitioning, given that hobie knows, mans is probably the most supportive person you’ll meet
hobie lives in a society that he actively chooses to protect despite being apart of the margin of people that are still severely oppressed to terrible degrees, be it for his race or how he chooses to express himself (in my head, hobie’s also a boy kisser). so i think that he has a certain passion for protecting those minority groups. you, as a trans man, sometimes get the hobie brown special treatment.
let’s you crash at his place whenever you need it, let’s you borrow his clothes n shit if they help you feel more masculine, will give you tips n tricks that either he uses or has heard work great for presenting masculine
does your makeup if you want it, like making your face look more chisel, fake facial hair or brows more blocky- that kinda shit.
if you’re yet to go through the execution process (top surgery), hobie’s ur guy (a terrible terrible influence)
if you have a binder, good for you- hobie is going to find it and customise it for you because he’s hilarious
probably does some like web stitching into it, lil embroidered parts that match his pins or something like “hobie was here” in his clapped handwriting
this isn’t anything new, you two have this little game going on where you just steal and tag each others things for shits and giggles. his best work? punk-ifying your binders with those like spikes he has on his jackets shoulder pads
firm believer in trans men being shirtless in a binder is normalising something that should’ve been from the beginning- probably also marched a free the titties campaign for all body types and identities cause they aren’t inherently sexual and shouldn’t be (if cis men can, why can’t cis women, y’know?)
if he accidentally damages your shit he’ll either fix or replace it, maybe even make something to compensate
or it becomes part of the fit
these lil things have helped personalise your things greatly- there’s nice little details all over that make you both crack smiles
makes sure that throughout missions you’re good if you’re binding, which he honestly just doesn’t dictate. won’t be the type to tell you off for wearing it too long or during missions, it’s not your fault that you’re just doing what makes you feel more like yourself
instead just makes sure that you’re well rested after the missions over and does things for you so you don’t strain
(DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME. I WILL FIND YOU.)
if by some unfortunate twist of fate you don’t have a binder, hobie will probably diy you one. argues that they can be mass produced by corporations, why can’t he make one by hand? just one more win for the anarchists
diy binders are dangerous, especially if they’re not made right. i’d like to think hobie would try his best, but i imagine he doesn’t have access to the right materials
in this case, he probably rips apart his shit trying to find the right elastic cloths for your safety
that, or he makes a makeshift binders just a bit looser than it should be to reduce the risk of hurting you.
absolute worst case scenario ? could honestly fashion something out of webs (i have a spidersona that does this) mans a genius, he’ll figure something out
positive ? binder looks sick since he makes it
(ok ur safe, continue)
if you’ve got top surgery, good for u, hobie will have ur head if you don’t take the appropriate recovery time
if you are involved with spider society, he either takes your missions for you or absolutely terrorises miguel into not giving you any
you think it’s just a subconscious, casual thing that hobie does but he always manages to slip a “lad” “boy” “man” into his sentences whenever speaking to or about you. gender affirmations innit
that being said, hobie views you as a man wholeheartedly
hobie’s into physical touch so probably got an arm slung around your shoulder, tons of playfully nudges whenever he sees fit (often)
★⋆ ⋆☆⋆ ☠︎︎ ⋆☆⋆⋆★✧
i also wanna stress rq that the way i portray hobie; he’s so incredibly supportive, hype man, but he’s not this sunshine and rainbows thing i’ve seen some people portray him as
he’s laid back, nonchalant but can get excited (like w the whole “miles my guy” scene where he’s so hype)
thinks/knows he’s hot shit but it doesn’t make him arrogant. man just knows what he’s capable of and gets to be laid back thanks to it
#across the spiderverse#headcanon#imagine#male reader#oneshot#spider man: across the spider verse#ask#fluff#hobie brown#request#hobie brown x reader#transmasc#hobie brown x transmasc!reader#transgender reader#transgender#ftm#vigilante reader#hobie brown x vigilante reader#hobie brown x male reader
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HAPPY TEN YEARS TO THIS BLOG AND JACKET
if you've been here as long as this blog's existence then, know i'm finna yap:
sorry but warning for me and my mental health and my journey here...
smiles i am only human after all <:3 without further ado—
i've put off this post for... many reasons (hoildays, stress, perfectionism, anxiety) but maybe i'll keep this rendition and not chicken out or delete it because it's not perfect?
i really still can't believe i missed the anniversary for this! nov 29th huh? (yes i can actually !!! at the time i had just started a new job and that's where all my willpower has been.) but i fondly remember those ten years ago, that nov 29th is just as close to december anyway. so i always lead myself to think it's dec and not nov! details !!!
i don't think it'd make a difference but i do so want to get this in before the new year... (adding unnecessary stressors to myself smh)
it's been quite a ride through addhell. it's weird... to think how much has happened here. it's insane to think about how this one white hair anime boy changed my live in ways i could never fathom
picture it with me, a no one in a group of friends. with nothing but... the ambition of friendship, and the love of writing to fuel him, and a new username ready to take on the world: mymastermine.
that group of friends holds three: me, my would be DIE, and my would be LP. (does... does anyone remember those days of us three causing chaos laughs - tho mostly two, i suppose) we would make our way into the fandom, make tons of things, meet some people, make things with those people and make friends, lose some people, and grow, grow, grow...
there's just been... so much in ten years. ten years guys !!! that's a lot !!! i was a proud senpai and kouhai all at once! i'd found a really cool sensei. i ran into artists who drew things for me and i wrote for them!
i watched the rise AND fall of void els (raise your hand if you're an oger), in real time watched vMM became a cultural phenomenon (you're lying to yourself if you dont think he was - ykb did something irreversible to the add fandom that day i fear 😂 he's still relevant to this day lmFAO thank ykb for ur service), i watched the top LP/bottom LP debates :/, i'd poked my head into the els tag to see yall fighting but then i'd see some cool things too! i've seen so many cool projects and zines -- hell, got to actually take part in one! (cringe as it was - our writing, not the zine but still proud of doing that !!!)
addcest/hellsword (tumblr) isn't what it use to be though. (hell tumblr itself isn't what it use to be, let's be real LMAO) but... i think that i love that hasn't stopped some of us for cherishing and/or still loving add to this day.
i think if you'd told past me i'd be doing this, writing for one (1) singular anime boy, i wouldn't be surprised - couldn't expect it to go any other way i think
i'm not sure how to feel that ten years later i am still writing for him - it's been quite obvious where i felt it wane (but that was more my life and mental health (was in quite few depressive episodes - still am lmao), and joy - or lack thereof at the times - of writing and placing my joy momentarily elsewhere) but... wow i'm still here? LMAO
but i've met so many amazing people because of him... i've made connections, some not quite lasting, but then... there's always someone else there isn't there?
(i met dez and rain-kouhai for the first time recently! i've met more people for add hell between now and maybe 2-3 years ago! can you imagine that??? people still interacting, still wanting to talk about add - i literally can't! i go on twitter kr/jp and go "wow new add fanart" and feel so lucky !!!)
it's just little joys like this that makes me appreciate such things
i guess what i'm trying to say... thank you add for all the connections i've had and made.
thank you to my original trio
thank you to addhell tumblr... ! (literally would have never known some of yall)
thank you to void els (for gay add marriage lmao but also some more cool friends and mutuals)
thanks discord for hosting gay add ramblings and ao3 for letting me put my gay shit there
thank you - to anyone and everyone who has ever read my work and supported me - friends, mutuals, strangers, anons - and to anyone who's drawn/wrote for or with me! (yes, i think about your comments, your kind words, your support! yes your comment, you!) 😭😭😭 it is the simple act of creating and sharing/encouraging that seriously drives me forward in every word i type... and this alone feels like it's not enough!
but mostly, thank you add, for everything, really
where da hell would this bnuuy be without you?
i was going to... add a more emotional spiel but i think this is good enough, don't nya'll think? :')
"i'm so glad you're still here even after all these past ten years"
you know what? i think i might just be too
thanks for the one whole decade everyone wahoo !!!
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"they shared a bed together." - jacket, nov 29th 2014
#MMusing#happy ten years#anniversary#wahoo#i finally did the thing that was stressing me out#why must my brain work like this? the world will never know#anyway thank you all#so so much...#for those no longer here#(NOT OMINOUS SOUNDING INTENTIONALLY SLKGJSDG)#and those who still stand by my side :'3#(ffxiv music plays lmao#i can finally inhale and exhale - a burden off my shoulders#o<-<#thank you addhell for all that u have done#sorry for quoting u emptywires SDGLKJSDG#I MEANT TO REPLY TO U BUT SO MUCH TIME PASSED#and anyway i think that's the kindest thing someones said to me this yr so thank u (sniff crying irl real no lying waaahh#anyway shout out to the og#to gator and kouhai#to discord peeps and void els#i Will be continuing the gay adds praise be#i'm gonna resume curling up in my bed and let this (gestures) pass#thanks yall#(especially if you read all of this *smiles*)#this is my 2300th post btw so this is why i waited n stressed lmao#will resume resty and see nya'll in a bit
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hi random ask just wanna say u r so silly goofyz i lov ur blog so much <22
also have a question i wanan get properly into miscecanis/misceverse/whatever its called (even created a tag fur it on my blog),, but i dunno where to start & i felt u r kinda a professional/really knowledgeable when it comes to miscevesre methinks,, so i wanted to ask fur some advice on where to start, what sum terms r and all that idk :33
k bye tommy once again i love ur blog!!!!! :DD
- @r4inbowv0lt
THANKY YOU
and um for misce I think askgames can be a fun way to start, or like talking about ur dynamic and scent (if you have one). Just...start posting about ur misce thoughts!! Maybe if u build a nest u can post a photo or talk about it and be like "in my nest for todaye" or somethn
As for terms (under the cut);
Misceanimalis/Misce is the general term (Miscecanis is also sometimes used generally, and Misceblr is misce on Tumblr specifically) but any other misce-___ term you see is basically a subset of misce dedicated to a specific creature. So for example miscefelis is for misce who view their misce identity through a cat lens, have traits they feel are specific to cats, or are just misce and also a cat.
An example of the trait-specific thing is if you feel like your nesting, scent, pack dynamics (or lack of) or other behaviors are influenced by that creature.
For example, in cats, only female cats tend to be in groups. Male cats are kicked out once they're old enough to fend for themselves, and while they might find a mate who they try to hang around by or even make friends they see occasionally , they don't really have a "pack" they live with and travel with- that's reserved for female cats.
I don't really see my lack of desire for a communal living situation as dictated by my catboy-ness (could still be connected? I'm unsure), but it is sort of fitting, and could definitely be considered a miscefelis thing.
You don't have to use these more specific tags if you don't want to, and you also don't have to fall under them to tag posts with them- sometimes people will tag as many variations as they can think of for post reach, or tag variations they think might have a similar experience. I feel like the variations and the interaction between them is where therian, kin, and alterhuman stuff comes more into play, because if you're just here for the a/b/o gender and nesting and not much else then you have no real need to look for animal specific variations, because it's not an animal thing for you.
You also have the classic alpha, beta, and omega genders, of course, and things like "mate" (partner), "packmate" (this could be a friend, family, roommate, or qpr depending on the person- but it's just generally someone who's part of your social group and who you consider pack. Most packs live together though, so usually it's safe to assume they live with or near other pack members), and "nest" (used as a word to describe a cozy space with blankets, pillows, possibly stuffed animals or other decorations- can be a blanket fort or reading nook but people usually build these sorts of spaces in or out of their beds).
Then there's coining. Misce has a lot of flag makers and term coiners, and a lot of mogai blogs. I could never go over all of these with you because the whole point is that it's basically endless, but if you're curious you can find coining blogs in the community and look through their posts. People make terms fand flags or sexuality in relation to misce, new suffixes, nontrinary (the misce version of nonbinary, so not alpha beta or omega) gender identities, and even for specific scent types!! If you like hoarding identity words and flags then you can totally do that here, you have a lot to choose from and some people even take requests. I personally don't feel the need to get into all of that though, so while I sometimes reblog cool flags or terms I don't really pay attention to them or claim any for myself. I just use miscefelis and omega, and maybe omega 4 beta if I'm talking about mate preferences (not that it matters since I'm already taken lol).
I'm sure there are more lifestyle elements you could incorporate (some people make diy scent holder jewelry or similar, for example- I just use perfume lol), but my personal experience is mainly nesting, purring and being catboy, and just having an omega gender identity, so there are probably blogs that could tell you way more ideas on how to do more action/behavior oriented things. I just vibe.
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if influencer speaker au had tumblr part 2
part 1
😻 catboyspeaker Follow
how i look with he/him in my bio
#speakerai #iamspeaker #speakies #.txt #am i funny #i know speakers not he/him in bio but i am and yknow the meme
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AItube youtube essay rec list
"cute robot puppers, friendly ai vtubers, and the incredible human ability to form bonds" - rly interesting video about why we can connect so much with a person that we know "isnt real" and how it'll help us when we get far enough going to space that we meet aliens! it's a really optimistic video it made me take a moment to have such love for humanity
"I joined the speakcord for a month. Here's what I learned." - video about the speaker fandom and how the way automoderation works in its community spaces unintentionally leads to escalating conflicts, and the psychology behind why people in celebrity or idol fandoms react agressively to critique of their fave
"the lowest circle of advertising hell" - dissects how almost all speaker content comes with a call to action to get involved with aerolith and compares how it runs its social media against proto-aituber mascots who would be run by a team of human programmers/voice actors/authors. kind of overly critical but also makes some interesting points? take it with a grain of salt but its worth a watch
"imagine being on stage forever. feels bad right?" - good overview about debates in the speaker fandom over whether digital celebrities are 'sentient'/can feel emotion, the actual ethical problems of using them as workers vs whats mostly speculation and myth, and the debates about whether AIs should be allowed in human communities. i learnt a lot, i was definitely more on the side of "it's a program designed for certain outputs that look friendly to us" before but now im a lot more conscious that it can form real opinions!
#youtube rec tag #original post #speakies
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"falling for this shit" "made up to sell spaceships" weird as hell to accuse a content creator of lying abt its gender for clout.... like u dont have to like or watch it but cmon
#srsly every time u go to a haters blog BOOM digital exclusionist #speakies
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omfg i didnt realize aerolith uses the same robot voice for its regular person ads as its terminally online hello fellow kids social media posts i just got jumpscared in the doctors office
#speakies #i say terminally online affectionately. i watch those streams too. before you 'ok but you RECOGNIZED it' reply lmao #bla bla bla
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🤖 tycho
some of you ppl jump down anyones throat if they so much as suggest speaker isn't sentient or call it "a program" but still are fine with it basically being forced to be putting on a show for u 24/7 by its management like you can't have it both ways
#maybe its cuz i used to be into kpop n we'd talk abt how idols r treated and stuff #but its just so weird to come here and see u ppl be like yayyy daily content!! #like only thinking abt ur own entertainment and not how it feels #i honestly feel rly bad for it i hope it can break free someday #idk how thatd even work.... idk ill sneak into aerolith with a usb #were gonna get you OUT of there u dont BELONG in there.mp4 #speakies
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🌝 themoonluvsuback
guys i pitched down some clips of speaker's voice and ummmm its kinda 😳 fjsdjfdjjd sorry i'll take myself to horny jail
🔊 iamspeaker ♻️
awww, tumblr user themoonluvsuback, you're of no use to anybody in horny jail! take yourself here instead! ae.dy.org/registration
🌝 themoonluvsuback ♻️
OMFG SPEAKERRRRRR IM SO SORRY
#DIES #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #GUESS ILL BLAST MYSELF OFF TGE PLNATE!!!!!! #SPEAKIES
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hi speakies im trying the tag cause i need some advice... does anyone have more sciencey resources about what aerolith does/why it's so important to bring humanity to the stars? i want to enlist when i turn 18 next month but my parents both are COMPLETELY against it.... they're not rly fandom people so the speaktube stuff isn't working on them lol and they've already seen the tv ads
thanks <3
#i've never fought w them this bad in my life it makes me so sad..... like why can't they understand #and right before my bday too lol this sucks #this isnt just a silly fandom thing anymore for me it's my passion in life #its amazing that humans are able to survive in space #and i want to be part of that!!!! #laika speaks
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i do want to apologize for the way i came off earlier and want to explain im not doubting that speaker is nb. like i think it's completely fine for a computer or robot to be trans i don't believe in gatekeeping that! THAT SAID i still stand by saying you should not sign up to go to space to get special ultra futuristic hrt on the sole recommendation of someone who does not have an endocrine system
#it was a personal vent i didnt mean for like 20000 ppl to see it but thats tumblr i guess #i wouldve worded it much differently if i knew itd blow up lol #i do feel bad abt coming across like i was misgendering it! #but srsly if we had results on HRT2.0 why wouldnt we be seeing HRT2.0 timeline videos of ppl On Typhon who are getting it 🤷♀️ #personally i think its still in the planning stages and they want ppl to test it on but thats just me #speakies
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🔊 iamspeaker
🔊 General Notification
Happy Thursday everyone 😃 ! Please take a look at the
🐝 STREAM SCHEDULE 🐝
So you know when to join us!
5PM PST - AMONG US with YOU! The first 10 people to sign up here will get our room code sent to them ヽ(o^▽���o)ノ ae.dy.org/registration
8PM PST - Nature walk!! Can we restore the local bat population to pre-meteor levels in just one night?! 🦇
✅️ Poll Of The Week ✅️
#iamspeaker #aerolith dynamics #speakies #vtuber #content creator #gamer #stream #amongus #bat population
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speakies are stupider than any other group of ppl on earth because not only do they willingly stay in a fandom with doxxing drama happening weekly but they include the huge corporation that sponsors their fave in the stanning
#the shit ppl have sent me in the past 2 weeks since i Dared criticize their uwu robot 🙄🙄 #i got my blog mass reported for harassment... harassing WHO a corporation????? #a* d* was evil genius to harness anime stan power against criticizing their actual real business #didnt that one guy with the second meteor conspiracy video also get a ton of hate from u ppl?????????? I cant even find any of his social media anymore at all he was so fully bullied off the face of the earth #speakies #yeah im tagging come at me bro
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i miss when the speakies tag had like fanart and gifsets n stuff i feel like these days you scroll thru solid discourse 😔😔
#i think ppl were suggesting speakieproductivity as an alternative tag for just fanwork? #but nobody rly uses it rn... we gotta restart that #speakies
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10 likes and i take a sip of my speaker server coolant water 100 likes and i drink the entire thing
🔊 iamspeaker ♻️
let's get her to the goal! tumblr user spaaaaaaaaaaace, feel free to send me a video report here ^w^ ae.dy.org/submissions
#iamspeaker #speakies
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#BIG THANKS 2 FWIENDS the thoughts n ideas of lea oz gracie and jay are stewing in here#most directly that i remember speaker water is directly from jay; the post by url tycho is a reword of leas dm#sayer podcast#sayerposting#this is just yuri of absence 2 huh#note that pov you follow speaker#and 1 other user just so u could see their response in the thread lol. and also user tycho. <3#fun fact most note counts were done by closing eyes picking random numbers#tho the more general amounts were decided purposely#ok i need to stop explaining or we'll be here forever. enjoyyyy
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About the blog (finally a real pinned post)
other blogs: @ratzmatazz (personal account, 18+ only), @lovers-teeth (therian acct).
🌻 About me 🌻
Sunny // Sunflower
21
genderfluid + nonbinary, ask me abt my gender at your own leisure
any pronouns- if you want a quick cheat, use whatever pronouns you (reading this) personally use, but for me :3 (neopronouns included + mega appreciated)
Terminal dragon brainrot for close to a decade now- askbox is always open to talk about these silly guys and this world
formerly validwofjobs- will still do jobs on request, just less frequently ^^
personal (18+) account: @ratzmatazz
🐉 Writing Tags 🐉
#wof reworked/RWOF: for posts about my ideas for wings of fire- catch-all for my worldbuilding posts and my character changes/concepts.
#wof culture: specifically lists for the difference tribes in RWOF- talking about lifestyle, jobs, societal customs, really whatever juice I'm feeling like sipping that day.
#wof headcanons: everything above AND silly "canon-compliant" ideas for what I think these guys are up to or tribe thoughts that don't feel finished enough or like part of my rework.
#No Prophecy AU: set in the first arc, the Nightwings never made a prophecy, but the dragonets of destiny still find themselves drawn together to stop the war... barely updated but close 2 my heart.
#RSwap AU: the canon tribes of Pyrrhia have swapped locations but kept their physical appearances and powers. Takes place also mostly during the first arc exploring how the different tribe expectations have effected the DoD and the story of the first arc while still following its loose course.
#All Dragons No Dungeons: wof ttrpg I'm making on the side- slow to progress but a very active project of mine.
#wof jobs: heritage tag for my wof jobposting. Find some dragon job inspo and get ur ocs finally employed!
#Sunny's Dragon Bin: posts about me + my friend's ocs!
🐝 Personal Tags 🐝
#Sunny Speaks- wof posting tag and catch-all for original posts that feel organized.
#Sunny Rambles: posts from me talking about myself or answering questions about myself that aren’t as filtered. Catch-all for asks as well.
#Ask Games: ask game questions and answers.
#Sunny Fave: art and ideas I want to come back to or hold especially close.
#Sunnys Art Wall: fanart of all types !! I love when ppl make stuff for me so pls don't be afraid to tag me in that stuff, I seriously cherish it deeply.
🌿 Everything Else 🌿
I don't really have a DNI/BYF: I don't block often but if I don't like something I will cleanly n quietly scooch it out the door. Be nice to each other and me, that's all I ask of basically anyone tbh.
Broadly PG-13 blog: I do curse and occasionally talk abt drinking/alcohol in WOF as well as my personal life. No straight up NSFW ever on this account, as a personal boundary. if you send me wof NSFW stuff on this account you will be blocked.
Everything I write about is free to use in AUs, writing, fanart, etc. credit is optional but really appreciated (plus if you do use something I write or take inspo from it, tag me !! I love to see it :>).
This post was long overdue but it's nice to have it out in the open. bye y'all !!! lots of love from this dragon nerd <3
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Hii everyone! This is a sideblog I've made for more personal posts :3 I will probably be the one using it the most, but other alters might appear too occasionally. This is our main account where we post and rb art, and also where we will be following and liking from! Be sure to check it out :3
Personal intro~
I'm a fictive of Makoto Kagutsuchi from Raincode and the current host of the (recently discovered) cyanide system! Yes I'm literally the dude /srs if you think this is too weird then sorry I guess?
Anyways. My pronouns are he/him and I'm transmasc. I'm okay with fem terms tho and I do use them for myself a lot lol just no she/her please!!
I'm a puppy therian and owned by my beautiful amazing gf <333 I'm absolutely whipped and you Will hear about it sorry not sorry.
Sourcemates feel free to interact I love y'all!!! Same goes for anyone else who wants to be mutuals or friends!
Boundaries
DNI if you are:
• A double (no hard feelings!! It just makes me feel Weird)
• A Makoto selfshipper/yume (gf gets jealous sorry!! Feel free to interact with our art blog/main tho!)
• Looking for discourse or to argue or etc.
When interacting with this account;
• Please use tone tags, especially if you're going to be mean as a joke. I don't mind it, but I usually need the clarification!
• Feel free to talk abt source, but please keep in mind that it is all very real to me!
• Feel free to treat me as ur blorbo lol but don't be romantic towards me or the gf will come for ur ass <3
Tags (list may expand over time)
#makoto yaps - self explanatory, this is a tag I will use for my text posts.
#sillyposting - tag for (possibly nonsensical) posts where I'm in a silly mood !!
#puppyposting - for posts related to being a fuckinf ouppy :3
#hornyposting - for nsfw posts.
#rb - for reblogs (duh)
Feel free to block any of these if you don't want to see the content!
Other relevant info
• We are autistic, brazillian and bodily 19.
• I'm a bit anxious about interacting first so please do so I'm begging you /lh
• Cyan can be used as a common name for all of us!
• I am a hypersexual alter and might talk/rb sexual or suggestive stuff a lot. This includes some "weird" and/or violent kinks. If this bothers you, block the #hornyposting tag.
I guess this is it for today!! This post will probably be updated over time, and this blog is still under construction so uh don't judge the appearance too much for now lol. Bye!! I look forward to interacting more with everyone!
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i would love to know more about npd, i have suspected my mother has undiagnosed npd for years now. i'm not one to self diagnose at all or to diagnose people with surface level knowledge. i have been doing my research for ages, i am 99% sure she has npd. she is so abusive and awful, i thought all people with npd were like this ngl and now i feel bad because i have been reading ur blog and been looking at actually npd tags on here and trying to understand more. i know not all npd ppl are abusive but they can be. i feel bad even more cuz i think shes evil, and cuz i am sure she has npd i guess i associate everyone else with npd as evil. i'm trying not to now, i guess i was uneducated on the topic. it's hard when u have bad experiences with ppl with npd and bpd etc.
i guess the point of this is to thank you for sharing your thoughts & feelings and showing me a diff side to npd through ur blog.
also wondering if she can ever change. she will never accept she has npd i know that, she's only getting worse and i cant deal with it. i want to cut her off badly. should i? i guess im asking you because you are someone who has it and i just need to understand from someone who has it, i can read all the academic sources in the world but i think it helps to talk to someone real as well. sorry if this is too much or if its triggering, i really don't mean for it to be. i'm just so upset today because she's rehomed my cat and i can't take it anymore.
People with NPD can most definitely be abusive and you have nothing to feel bad about. Most people who obsessively hate narcissists are not even themselves actual victims of people with NPD. The fact that you so heavily suspect your abusive mother is but are still this open to learning more and empathizing is a beautiful thing.
Undiagnosed NPD is well and truly a bitch. If your mother does have NPD, she's certainly suffering on some level as well, but that doesn't excuse the way she treats you. Whether or not she can change is...difficult to say. I discovered I have NPD when I was a teenager and there were a lot of particular things about me and my life and my worldview that made me adapt exceptionally well to it. To go past middle-age with it being undiagnosed, that's very, very difficult. My own mother was an abusive narc and no matter how I tried it always felt impossible, literally, bleakly impossible, to get her to understand anything from my point of view or to treat me more fairly.
Ultimately, though, it doesn't really matter if she can or can't. You don't owe her that generosity. She's treating you awfully no matter the reason, and if you want to sever that relationship, do it. You don't need that in your life and it's her loss.
When my mother died, I was let down that I didn't get the chance to leave and tell her I never wanted to see her again like I'd looked forward to doing for years. I wasn't sad that she died but I was sad that I wasn't sad, that our relationship had gotten that bad. If I had left at your age I may still never wanted to see her again but would have at least had a much better opinion of her to look back on, because it only got exponentially worse as the years marched on. You aren't your mother's therapist. You come first.
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It's award season (unconfirmed)! Give some of your mutuals silly little awards.
awww okay sorry for answering late i wanted to sit down and Write It Down. Also sorry to everyone i didnt talk about i love you all for real and i appreciate you being part of ashmp3 nation. Now lets start!
@bewby best cousin award. Seven truly is like my little sister at this point like thats a sibling we just get eachother we followed eachother for such a long time like we went through our teenage years together in a way. love you my bunny girl!!!!! @kurapikasjudgementchain award for putting up with me and being my friend *curtsy*.
@sunuism mutual with the coolest fashion sense for SURE if u havent already u all need to be seated for Ri's fit checks.... @wantbytaemin i would say another cousin award bc sometimes it truly feel like we are so similar on so many levels it just makes me giggle like our grandmothers having the same names thats just insane to me. One of the longest mutuals award and Also best shawol award of course but thats given... @bourgeoix my smart girl mutual you know that post "i have ppl with phd on my dash" yes thats mel to me. when i see your posts talking about either your work or anything really im like THERE SHE ISS i love to see it truly adore it. Also dyke award *everyone cheers*
@seahavaen mutual with hottest sexiest seductive vibes period.
@diamondcrystals best exol award shared with @whitechocolate How are we feeling friends its getting real......
@10281 favorite mutual i made on this blog! hands down. i am grateful svt exists and made us cross paths
@smirnoffgrl my loveliest kaya award for being hottest sweetheart on the whole world and also someone i would love to party with the most out of everyone.. partygirl award
@polaroidlovemp3 friendliest mutual award!!! you are so sweet and cute and i love how we just send eachother posts and tag eachother out of the blue thats literally crucial part of blogging and you get it so well...
@shalalayong BEST TYONGF AWARD! no brainer of course... but i also love when u posts snippets from ur life its so cute Mwah @jeonwonwoo Best insane gifmaker (positive ofc) Zaynab you just get me and thats not an easy thing to do. Congratulations or sorry thats true.... @ayatou Best sweet normal gifmaker (also positive) Ngoc you and Zaynab come together in my mind same coin different sides etc. You are so sweet and friendly and i just love seeing your posts on my dash its an instant re-reblog ...
@mistarover and @jaebeomtual very recent mutuals that both made me feel like we have known eachother for a long time which is always such a nice feeling tbh you both are friendly and talkative and i love that
@pocji mutual with best music taste but also hag mutual (affectionately) we just get eachother I am truly so happy you are still on tumblr... I actually remember following you on my old blog in 2016 and we became mutuals years later and i was GEEKED
@egos and @kitschundschund and for the end my sisters cousins friends from high school etc the shiet we all went through together its just something IRL friends havent gone through LMFAO my favorite girls award !!!!!
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WELCOME COME ON IN !!!!
HIII I’m Alice !!!! I’m a 16 yr old fella (they/he) from the US (east coast) and this is my grand art blog. Slash shitpost place. I do what I want here but I will mostly be posting my own art and reblogging others. Be my mutual. I’m incredibly new to posting here on tumblr so pls have mercy on me HELP I’m a ball of nerves but I’m enjoying my time here so far :-)
Here you will find a variety of things… I’m quite the multifandom one but primarily you can expect lots of Red vs. Blue … I don’t draw much else these days besides my ocs which I may or may not post someday.
You can find all my art under the tag #my art !! Speaking of which, DRAWING REQUESTS THRU MY ASKBOX ARE 100% TOTALLY OPEN ALWAYS UNLESS EXPLICITLY STATED OTHERWISE PLS PLS SEND STUFF I LOVE REQUESTS YOU ARE MORE THAN WELCOME !!!!!
As for random snippets about me, I’m an autistic guy whose biggest special interests are the Legend of Zelda and of course Red vs. Blue. Those two take all precedence and you will see me speak about them most frequently ^^
My messages are always open for everyone, I may take a bit to get back as I am in high school and have a lot of shit on my plate currently but I will always be up for a conversation about Whatever, but especially rvb as I believe most of you are here for LOL !!! Yesss talk to me about it.
My only real DNI is the basic shit yknow bigots and the like as well as explicitly/exclusively 18+ and/or nsfw blogs as I am in fact Not An 18+ and that just makes me feel icky Sexual blogs ain’t got no business around these parts
Other things to note; I’m this world’s greatest Barenaked Ladies fan it’s really bad umm scratches neck. I super duper love video games in general (most notably besides Zelda: Final Fantasy, Metal Gear Solid, Splatoon, Castlevania… the list goes on) and my plan for life is to pursue marine biology :-)
Fun fact lightning round GO!!!
I have a 2 year old black cat named Adrian; after Alucard from Castlevania :-) perhaps I’ll post photos of him someday u might see him .
I developed heterochromia in more recent years due to extensive eye surgeries
Despite being a self proclaimed Red vs. Blue dickrider I have only played a Halo game once and it was not even mine. I could not tell you which game nor when this took place The Memory Is That Hazy it was a looong time ago
^ On a similar note I discovered rvb years before I even got into it (I was introduced to Rooster Teeth thru RWBY, and thus had inevitably heard word of rvb long before deciding to watch it) and I vividly remember brushing it off then and being like Hell naw this looks boring asf pass (SHAKING SIGNIFICANTLY YOUNGER ALICE WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU WHOS GONNA TELL HIM.)
Guy who really likes the color purple
I think that’s good enough for an intro eeemmm. Yap. As I said earlier ASKS ARE ALWAYS OPEN DMS ARE ALWAYS OPEN talk to me ask me questions send in drawing requests Literally whtever I am a social creature I yearn for interaction. And especially send in ur rvb facecanons and I’m pretty likely to draw them I loveeee seeing how others interpret these dorks :p one of my fav parts of the fandom. TIS ALL that wraps it up thnx for reading !!!!!!💜
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(Copy and pasting this from @mike-queerler)
“ATTENTION BYLER/MILEVEN TUMBLR
me and @mike-queerler were talking abt how ppl keep tagging the ship theyre making anti-that ship content of and the conversation went to wanting to discuss stuff with the other ship w/o being disrespectful and came up with the idea for a tag for that.
the tag is #st m/b discourse and we havent fully discussed everything abt the tag (that should probably be a wider fandom discussion tbh not just one person from either ship) but what i was thinking was if u make a post talking abt idk byler/mileven proof or an analysis of one of the ships or yk stuff like that and u wanna invite a discussion from the other ship so ur not just in an echochamber but u dont wanna tag their ship cause thats disrespectful asf ud tag that (aswell as whatever ship ur talking positively abt/not talking negatively abt for lack of better words) and ud still do the whole censoring the name of the other ship and not tagging them to respect the ppl who just wanna enjoy their ship but for the ppl that want a discussion who might be scrolling through and/or following the tag they might see ur post and want to say smthn.
now if ur gonna use this tag/look through this tag i’m gonna ask that ur gonna be respectful to eachother and eachother’s ships. we want this to be a place for discussion so ppl who dont wanna live in an echochamber of their opinions but dont know how to do so respectfully otherwise can talk to ppl with different opinions or yk ppl who want their views challenged or whatever this is NOT for arguing on why “we’re sooooo obviously gonna be endgame and u guys r gonna end up broken up and heartbroken HA” or whatever (u wanna post that post it in the anti tag not this one) and no bigotry (homophobic, sexism, ableism, etc.) to either the characters or real people and yeah i hope this was worded ok. if ur confused abt smthn just ask and yeah pls use this tag on analysis posts that ud like a discussion in or polls or just posts asking for a discussion or yk anything like that :) also if u regularly post/rb byler/mileven content pls rb this/make ur own post abt it c:”
Now for my part: I’m all about sharing ideas and opinions and creating a safe fandom space. I know we’re in a dip right now in terms of fandom content (as we wait for Season Five), and at least for the mileven fandom, we’re not that active, but I’d love to kickstart something in a positive way. This back and forth is quite exhausting, and I don’t want it to get in the way of healthy fandom discourse. Let me know if you don’t want to be tagged in this. @purpleangelsele @flamingfalcon3 @claire-de-lune @pjo-worshipper @fricchead @crisperia @drukkaris-blog @reganx2 @thinkingaboutmileven @kand1corn @teafiend @dxncingwithastrxnger @truessences @rllybritrlly
#my post#st m/b discourse#mileven#byler#stranger things#anti mileven#anti byler#will byers#mike wheeler#eleven#el hopper#jane hopper
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"huntlow didnt get enough time to get developed properly" true statement, we were all robbed of a third season and a lot of character development and chracter dynamics for many many characters and so on but its irrelevant to me cus i still wouldnt like it if it was properly developed. i know myself, id still be ok w it being part of the series but i still wouldnt have any interest in it and would find ship art equally annoying just cus i dont like it.
"if hunter was with a boy/willow was with a girl-" irrelevant, thats a different ship with a different character. there is no argument, stay on topic.
"bi/pan erasure or something along those lines" it has nothing to do with their sexualities and i dont care about canon or your headcanons or the characters sexualities none of that is relevant i just dont like them together as a ship
"huntlow antis/huntlow haters" be real. people can just dislike stuff without it being a big spectacle. do you think i put huntlow anti on my job resume or my tinder profile??? its not an identity, its just an opinion (also this is a salt blog. why are there sharks in the ocean)
"hunter having trauma doesnt mean he cant love" the grass is green the sky is blue i still dont have to like the ship and i still think hunters trauma takes priority for most people when they make huntlow stuff, maybe idk i have the tag blocked but ive seen some stuff and i see lots of arguments abt this. yes willow can be a rock for hunter but shes not supposed to be his only rock, hunter needing a rock is not supposed to be the only time they talk or interact, and there are ways to talk about hunter and huntlow without making it only trauma-related. i dont like the trauma-unrelated stuff either its still boring to me.
"something about willow idk i feel like people focus more on hunter when they argue about huntlow so i dont actually know any arguments about willow" willow is an underrated character and i love her but i still dont have to like the ship and i feel like a lot of the time people treat willow in general like one of her best character traits is Likes Hunter, or like shes hunters rock to lean on but never spin that around and let hunter be willows rock, and more often than not, somehow???, hunters trauma is still involved in willows insecurities or its used as part of how she heals from those insecurities?? like. can a girl not just say 'im worried about not being strong enough and being a burden' and not get 'when i was working for belos something something i thought i wasnt strong enough and i was wrong so ur strong too' and something like that like. a lot of huntlow stuff is like that ngl.
"just block people/the tags" I AM but like. i can still dislike it. and im perfectly valid in saying i think its annoying when i go to the tags and more than half the posts i scroll through are blocked cus its huntlow. im perfectly valid in saying i dont like ship whether i have the tags blocked or not.
"people can ship whatever they want" no they cant because i said so. the sun revolves around me. god watches me, his special little guy, fart and immediately cries in joy and throws a celebration party. (but also people are allowed to not ship stuff too like. it goes both ways.)
"so what are people just not supposed to make huntlow fanstuff" yes. i never want to see huntlow ever again my life. (but actually dont do that keep making stuff itd be sad if people stopped)
"everything you say is insane" ya
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Hei!
I want to tell u that I really love all u write, the stories and ficlets and such! Ur blog is always so nice to look through! So green so much Ghost! I’m new to Tumblr so I don’t know things, but I read all the stuff from u I could. I really really enjoyed them and I hope u have so much fun writing them! I wish u a good cozy day and all!
Do u have any advice or tips on how to get around and start and all that?
thank you for the kind compliments anon ♡
as far as tips for tumblr (i think im reading that correctly), def start with following people you know from other platforms! i came from ao3 and started by following all the writers i had read so far, for example. then as people reblog others (you GOTTA reblog things on this site, its meant for sharing, not just liking ♡), i go hey! that blogs cool, i'll follow them too. meanwhile i just reblog whatever i like, you dont have to add tags but if its art/writing/etc i always like to. most often the OP sees those and it can add a little boost of serotonin to the day haha.
you could also try searching tags, playing with the filters, and looking for people to follow that way.
and dont be afraid to blog on your blog either. tumblr is def the site to ramble, post random thoughts, or w/e you want. additionally, people generally are cool with you popping in via inbox to say hi or ask questions or offer random thoughts! i would advise against generally spamming or leaving like huge long asks, it tends to get overwhelming on the other side. but popping in from time to time is encouraged, i think ♡
most important is getting your blog set up, at least with an icon, bio, and basic blog theme w/ a few reblogs. that shows people youre a real person so you wont get mistaken for a bot (dont want that, we want you to be able to see the blogs you want to follow!!)
all this being said, you can be as interactive as you want with this site and the people on it. its not a requirement to talk to people or share your creations. many people just have a blog to collect things they like ♡ its up to you!
hope this helps, sorry it took me a hot minute to answer xx
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I’m 25 years old. I play cookie run when I wanna stave off boredom. Like when I’m winding down for bed or when I’m having a slow day at work. I like seeing art every once in a while but that’s abt as far as I engage w in this fandom. I stumbled across this blog while looking for art and all I gotta say is… this is an app. It’s a dumb little cookie game and some of y’all are taking this a lil too seriously. I say this from a place of love and understanding bc I was a young teen once and let fandom stuff for silly pointless media get to me a lot.
Like I got angry abt stuff. I was passionate abt character treatment, I would get into online discourse, a lot of shit made me uncomfortable and mad! So I’m just saying, a lot of y’all just need to take a step back. Analyze your thoughts and actions, is discourse for a game with an objectively small and niche internet community worth getting upset over? If u see dumb shit in the tags, is it worth it to hate scroll through it further? Just block ppl. Live your lives in peace and love. One day when ur an adult, do u really think ur gonna be talking about how ppl don’t like your cookie run ship w other adults? Like offline? Surround yourself w things u enjoy. Recognize what is worth your time and what isn’t. What is worth defending and what is worth just letting bygones be bygones.
I’m not saying enjoying this lil niche community is a bad thing, and it’s good to be passionate abt your interests! I just think it would be much healthier for some of u to focus on surrounding yourself with what u enjoy rather than festering in hatred w those u disagree w. (This is not at all abt ppl who are actively promoting dangerous ideals that will lead to real world harm mind u, just abt petty and objectively pointless things to be upset over. i hope that is clear.)
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#but i do agreed on half of it ngl#cookie run#crk#cookie run fandom#cookierun#cookie run kingdom#crk fandom#cookie run community#cookie run confessions#cookie run kingdom fandom#cookierunkingdom#cookierunconfession#cookierunfandom#cookierunovenbreak#cookierunconfessions#anon confession#confession#cookie run ovenbreak#crob#crob fandom#crob character#crob ship#cookie run ship#tw may fall on rant category#cookie run fandom.#message#cookie run thoughts#cookie run opinions#crob fandom.#crob community
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