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deckyshep · 10 months ago
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when other people are manic, they go out and have fun or drink or whatever. but when im manic, i publish poetry books
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you can buy your paperback copy here!!!
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deckyshep · 11 months ago
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fractured, 2 jan 2024
poem by @deckyshep
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it is beyond me to know who lives in this brain
i have tried countless times to commune with
the dead, only to find that i am not dead
who am i? it should be an easy answer
but it has never been simple enough
i am an amalgam of everyone i have ever been
everyone i have ever met
everyone i have ever tried to be
and everyone who has died beside me
a party of personalities
but more somber, like a wake
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there is a young girl here, who sings quietly
to her stuffed animals and plays with her dolls
she is easily spooked, do not raise your voice
keep your distance, she trusts too easily
remind her she is good and true but
she must use her own voice
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there is a teenage girl here, maybe seventeen
who paints her face in wild colors and has chopped
her hair short. she is quiet, but inside her is a
deep, pulsing rage — do not raise your voice
or she will throw it back at you threefold
remind her that she is not her emotions, that
she is not her father
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there is a young man here, twenty or so
he writes like there is no tomorrow, a hundred
pages a day. he is impulsive, he is scared
he clings to what is familiar. do not raise your
voice — he is a child at heart and begs for love
remind him what he is worth, what he is capable
of, and what he deserves, before he sinks
—r.d.s.
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deckyshep · 2 years ago
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just in case / 20 december 2022
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deckyshep · 2 years ago
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ode to HRT
original poem
written 26 november 2022
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deckyshep · 2 years ago
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cold snap / 20 december 2022
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deckyshep · 2 years ago
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happy 46th birthday
original poem, written 2 september 2022
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“dad:
just a reminder…
my love
goes everywhere
you go!”
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you kept that card
in your wallet
with my black
straight bangs
and
my beaming
seven-year-old
toothy smile.
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did that kid’s face flash
before your eyes
when you died with a
tube down your throat
and an ICU full of
a hundred people
begging you
to hold on?
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i know you wanted
to go to heaven.
did my love
follow you there?
did the almighty lord
see my love trailing
just behind you,
trying to keep up?
did he let my love
pass through the
pearly gates
at your side
as your soul
walked out of
the mortal plane
and into heaven?
do you still have
my love in your wallet?
and do you still open
it occasionally to
remind yourself
that my love is there?
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we’re taught that heaven
is the epitome of
love and joy
in the embrace of
god himself.
but that single embrace
must get lonely,
right?
yes, you have the lord’s love.
but what about your wife’s love?
what about your son’s love?
what about your siblings’ love?
because everyone’s love
is different,
but it’s always love.
and sometimes you need
a specific kind of love—
the kind that only
a big brute of a dad
can give with his
incredible bear hugs,
the kind that i can
barely remember
but still cry about
eight years later.
—r.d.s.
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deckyshep · 2 years ago
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too much, never enough
poem by @deckyshep
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deckyshep · 11 months ago
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people pleaser, 10 jan 2024
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deckyshep · 2 years ago
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heavy expectations written 20 september 2022 by r.d. shepard
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deckyshep · 3 years ago
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my love is sacred
written 10 april 2022
my love is sacred,
but then again,
there is no love
that isn't.
my love contains
endless energy,
bursting with
anecdotes of excitement
and passion
and exploration
for my boundless
want to know you.
☀️
it surpasses
my intense insecurities,
the anxieties that
plague my mind—
because when i
hold your hands,
your warmth simply
banishes them.
my love is sacred—
it can withstand
panic, and rage,
and melancholy,
and jealousy,
and many a vice
that infects
the human condition.
☀️
and when i die,
i'd like to think
these words i write
will survive somewhere,
proving that
my love can even
live beyond me.
my love is sacred,
because energy is
not created nor destroyed—
it's merely transferred,
and one day,
centuries from now,
my love will still live on
in the life of another.
☀️
perhaps my love
will power
a generator
to keep a family warm.
perhaps my love
will thrive through
a computer's circuits
as a quiet author
types a love story.
perhaps my love
will join burning stars
or be swallowed
into black holes
or even rocket humans
across the galaxy.
the power my love has
is infinite.
☀️
know that
as i place a gentle kiss
upon your neck,
as i slide my fingers
through your hair,
as i whisper the words
"i love you,"
my love is sacred.
—r.d.s.
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deckyshep · 2 years ago
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[more poetry here]
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deckyshep · 2 years ago
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dead end, by r.d.s.
written 29 october 2022
more poetry here
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deckyshep · 2 years ago
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crisis — original poem
written 16 october 2022 by r.d. shepard
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deckyshep · 2 years ago
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BOY CRAZY BOY: A Queer Poetry Collection (written by me, R.D. Shepard) is now available on Amazon Kindle!
please support my career as a writer & poet by buying it here!
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deckyshep · 2 years ago
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GAME OVER: A Trauma-Filled Poetry Collection is my trauma baby. i've got poems in this collection from as early as my first few weeks of transition, nearly four years ago. mental illness isn't a joke, but we can find some joy in the pain we feel. writing has been my solace through the years, expressing pain and discomfort and agony and anger and sadness and everything else that wrecks my shop. these poems have followed me everywhere, been through a lot of the bullshit that destroyed and rebuilt me — and i hope it can do the same for you.
find the ebook & (eventually) paperback here!
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deckyshep · 2 years ago
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both the e-book and paperback versions of my poetry book, BOY CRAZY BOY: A Queer Poetry Collection, are now available for purchase!!!!!!
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