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The lengths of my simping has led me to character themed candles, and I'm so glad it did. Shoutout to Planeshift Candles, the Shadowheart and Karlach candles smell great!

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Welcome to the Garden (Sanctuary AU)

The Garden. A pocket dimension that sits on the line between life and death. This little world is designed to house and heal broken souls. Those who have died under tragic circumstances, or have many regrets are called to this realm. Once they let go of their trauma and regrets, the soul can pass on to its next life. That is the role of The Garden.

Gold (Chapter 13)

When Dandi and Gold got back to the house, everyone seemed to be in a panic. Dandi and Gold looked at each other with concern.

“How much you wanna bet they're looking for you?” Dandi joked. Gold giggled and she held Dandi’s hand. The two then walked into the house. The first one to meet them at the door was Razzberry. She looked slightly frazzled.

“Dandi! Thank goodness you're here!! We can't find Gold anywhere! Everyone is looking for her but we can't find her anywhere! Oh hey Goldie how ya doing? Anyway-Please help us find her!!” Razz rambled. Gold stared at Razz dumbfounded. Did they not realize that they just said hello to her?

“Ok, Razz, say that again but slower.” Dandi said, her free hand on her hip. Razz blinked and thought about what she said.

“Oooooooohhhhhhhh. OH!! OOOHHHHH!!!” Razz suddenly turned her back on Dandi and Gold.

“GUYS!!! DANDI FOUND HER!!! IT’S OK!!!” Razz suddenly shouted, causing Gold to release Dandi’s hand and place her hands over her ears. Dandi facepalmed and laughed. Everyone suddenly came running, swarming Gold with their affection. Telling her how worried they were and to never run off like that ever again.

“Ok ok! I won't run off again! I promise!” Gold laughed as she was smothered by hugs. Dandi chuckled as she watched everyone smother Gold.

“Ah, she’s lucky to have so many people care about her.” Dandi glanced to her left, seeing Rico standing with his arms crossed. She chuckled and placed her hands on her hips.

“Well, that kid’s gonna need all the support she can get.”

**********

“So where exactly did you run off to Gold?” Scarlet asked as the children lounged around in Gold’s room.

“I went looking for Aster. When I didn't find him in the house, I went to look for him in the forest.” Gold explained as she laid upside down on her bed.

“Why would Aster be in the forest?” Ember asked, sitting on the floor next to Gold’s head. Gold simply shrugged.

“I dunno. I first met Aster outside. So I thought he would be outside.”

“Well, Dandi, Razz, Momo, Bel, Rico, and Aster normally live on the fifth floor. So you could have just gone up there.” Sage pointed out.

“Well no one told me that.” Gold huffed. “Like you guys not telling me what you meant when Sage was leaving.”

The room was suddenly tense. The other four seemed to be avoiding talking about anything that had to do with “leaving”. Gold sighed and turned onto her stomach. She propped her head up with her hands, looking at everyone in the room.

“Well I know what it is now. Dandi explained it to me.” Gold said. Everyone could no longer look at each other. Gold huffed and sat up.

“You know, Dandi also said something else to me. Something I think is important.” Gold stood up on her bed and placed her hands on her hips, taking on a powerful stance.

“Change cannot be stopped! And sometimes we need to accept that it’s happening! And, um, yeah! We have to accept it with open arms!” Gold said as she jumped off her bed. The kids watched as Gold darted full speed at Sage.

“Gold-Hey-ACK!”  Gold suddenly tackled Sage into a hug, almost knocking the older boy off his feet. “Hey! What gives?”

“You may be leaving soon! But it doesn't mean we have to sit around and be sad! Let's go do something fun! And then no one has to be sad!” Gold begged, looking at Sage with large hopeful eyes. Sage stared down at the ten year old. Sage then began to shake. Gold hugged the boy tighter.

“Please don’t cry Sage! I-” Sage suddenly started laughing. Gold’s eyes widened as she turned to look at everyone else. They all seemed to be just as bewildered as she. Sage suddenly wrapped his arms around Gold and spun her around, earning a surprised squeak from the girl. Once Sage stopped spinning, he hugged Gold tightly.

“You're right! Dandi’s right!” Sage laughed, holding Gold close. Gold couldn't look up to see Sage’s face, but she could feel the older boy’s tears falling onto her hand.

“S-sage…?” Iris stuttered, unsure if she needed to comfort him or step away. Sage then released Gold and looked at all his friends. He had a big smile on his face as tears streamed from his eyes.

“Gold is right guys! Every time someone left, we sat around moping till they were gone! And we weren't even there to say goodbye to them! So now’s the time we fix that!!” Sage said boldly, even as his body shook with sobs, he continued to give a motivational speech.

“It’s time we change things up! Let's have fun and celebrate that I'll move on to a happier life instead of mourning my leave! Today, we party, tomorrow, we party! And even when I'm gone, please, still party for me.” Sage suddenly grabbed Gold and placed her on his shoulders.

“Whoa! Sage!” Gold laughed as he hoisted her up.

“Let's have fun!!!” Sage declared as he ran out of the room. The others followed cheering and laughing happily. As the small group of kids ran down the hall and onto the first floor, the whole house seemed to light up with joy. The childrens’ laughter could be heard across the garden, making the whole land lush with life. When they finally made their way outside, they had a small following of joyous spirits. The garden was full of laughter and glee, it truly was a party, just as Sage had said it would be. There was no sadness in the air. There was only happiness and love. Sticks of all kinds came out of their shells, dancing and singing, laughing and playing, it was paradise. By the end of the day, Sage’s flower had fully bloomed. Just as dusk set in, Sage’s chest began to glow.

“Whoa…” Sage gasped as he lit up the darkening sky. The crowd cheered as the gates at the end of the pathway Gold originally entered opened up, revealing a bright light. Dandi suddenly stepped into view.

“Good evening everyone! Let's give a round of applause for our youngest members!” Dandi loudly announced. The whole garden erupted into cheers for the five children that stood before Dandi.

“Thank you all for being here as we say goodbye to Sage, our oldest child. He has been through rough times, but he has made it to the other side! Once a poor servant to the royal family, now the warrior to the land of the dead. Sage, our wonderful child, we love you, and wish you luck in your next life.”  The crowd cheered, tears filling their eyes and smiles on their faces. Dandi then rested her hands on Sage’s shoulders.

“Any parting words for us Sage?” She asked. Sage sniffled before taking in a breath.

“Th-thank you all for taking care of me! I'm truly grateful for all of your support. But I’m most grateful for these four standing here with me tonight. They have been with me through thick and thin. They have supported me as I have supported them. Scarlet fed me when I couldn't eat, Iris cheered me up when I was sad, Ember always kept me in line when I got a little too out of hand, and Gold.” Sage turned to Gold and held her hand. Gold’s eyes widened, looking at Sage’s hand and then up into his eyes.

“You are the reason we’re here now.” Sage said softly.

“Gold is the reason we are here to party now! Without her, we would be sitting around, moping and just waiting for the time to pass. So let's give Gold a big thank you for turning our lives around!!!” Sage said as he and Scarlet lifted the ten year old girl onto their shoulders. The crowd cheered for Gold as she sat on the oldest two’s shoulders. Gold was slightly embarrassed, but she smiled, knowing that she changed everyone’s outlook on this purgatory life they lived. When Sage and Scarlet placed Gold down, Dandi placed Sage’s glowing flower on his chest.

“It’s time to go babes.” Dandi said as she held out her hand to him. Sage nodded and looked back at his friends who were standing around him. Sage then ran to them, hugging them all and thanking them for everything.

“Thank you… Thank you all. I'm gonna miss you guys so much…” Sage sobbed.

“Oh shut up! Don't make this harder than it needs to be.” Scarlet huffed.

“We’re gonna miss you too Sage!” Ember cried.

“We’ll never forget you!!” Iris tearily promised.

“We love you Sage.” Gold said, being the last to let go. Sage nodded and went back to Dandi. He took her hand and looked back at everyone.

“Good bye everyone!!!”  Sage called as he and Dandi walked into the light. The whole crowd bid their farewells as the duo disappeared into the light. The light faded away and the party continued on. But the four remaining children still stood under the archway, waving at the gates of the garden.

“I miss him already.” Iris said, trying to stop the tears in her eyes. Gold chuckled and side hugged the lavender girl.

“It’s ok Iris, You still have us.” 

**********

The next few days were a little rough for the little group. Sage, their leader, being gone was something they all needed to get used to. Gold did her best to keep everyone’s spirits high. From baking cookies with Orchid and Jean to camping with Aster and Razz. Today, the four kids were going to help Clover and Momo pick some fruits and veggies for that night’s dinner. Ajax, and Five decided to tag along, in case they needed more people to carry the baskets of produce. Ember stuck close to Scarlet’s side, never looking in Ajax’s direction. Gold and Iris still didn't understand why Ember hated Ajax so much. But they had no time to think about it as they got to the produce patches.

“Alight. Who’s ready to help out?” Momo asked as she held out baskets.

“We are!!!” The kids cheered. They each took their own basket and lined up. Momo then assigned each child to an adult.

“Alright, Clover, you and Iris can go get lettuce, tomatoes and onions. Five, you and gold can get strawberries, raspberries, and kiwi. Scarlet, I'm gonna need you to help me with the watermelon and honeydew. And Ember can go with-”

“Miss Momo Ember can’t go with Ajax!” Scarlet suddenly spoke up. Everyone looked at Scarlet with confused looks.

“Why’s that?” Momo inquired. Scarlet opened her mouth to speak, but she quickly closed it again. Scarlet looked down at Ember, who had a silent pleading look on their face. Scarlet cleared her throat.

“B-because Ember feels uncomfortable without me. So they need to stay with me.” Scarlet said. Momo looked up at Ajax who hugged himself and looked away.

“I-it’s fine. I can do whatever you need me to on my own.” Ajax said, trying to shake off the kind of shame in his aura. Momo sighed and placed a hand on Ajax’s shoulder.

“Are you sure?”

“Yeah. How hard can getting apples be?” Ajax said with a shrug.

“If you're sure. Just be careful about the river. The current is very strong and it can quite literally sweep you away.” Momo said as she turned back to the rest of the group.

“Alright everyone. You’ve all been assigned your jobs. Meet back here in about 30 minutes.” Gold took hold of Five’s hand, following them as they went over to the fruit bushes.

“Hey Gold?” 

“What?’

“Do you know why Ember doesn't like Ajax?”

“No. I think Scarlet does though. She's been really mean whenever Ajax tries to get close to her or Ember. But every time we asked why, they never told us.” Gold said as she and Five made it to the raspberry bushes.

“That’s weird. I wonder what they're hiding.” Five murmured as they started to pick raspberries off the bushes. Five and Gold continued to chat casually as they picked fruits. When they moved onto the kiwis, there was suddenly screaming. Five and Gold looked at each other with wide eyes. They dropped the baskets and ran towards the source of the screaming. When they got there, they saw Clover and Scarlet running along the fenced off riverbank. They quickly joined the pair running.

“What’s happening?!” Five asked between breaths.

“Ember fell into the river!!! They’re being swept out by the current!!” Clover shouted. Looking ahead, Gold could see Ember’s small form splashing in the water, getting farther and farther down. Her heart was pounding in her ears as her brain screamed at her to do something. But Gold didnt know how to swim! Her jumping in would make the situation all the more dangerous.

“Where’s Momo and Iris?!” Five asked as they noticed the two weren’t there.

“Those two ran ahead to try and catch Ember down the-IS THAT AJAX?!?!?!” Everyone stopped running as they saw Ajax suddenly jump over the fence and into the water below.

“AJAX!!” Five shouted as they looked over the edge to see Ajax, using his bandana to hold onto a tree root.

“Ember!!” Ajax shouted, reaching out to the child. Gold could only watch with wide eyes as Ember tried to make their way towards Ajax. The red hollow head reached as far as he could to reach the distressed stick. Ember tried reaching out to him, but the water was too strong, it was pulling them away. So Ajax did the next possible thing, he let go of the bandana and went after the child. The moment was tense as both Ajax and Ember disappeared under the waves. No one moved, no one breathed. There was suddenly a loud splash. Ajax emerged from the water’s surface, Ember in hand. He coughed as he held onto another tree root.

“We gotta help them!”  Scarlet cried, beginning to climb the fence. Both Clover and Five grabbed Scarlet and pulled her away.

“We don't need you getting caught in the current as well!” Clover shouted.

“But-Ember!!!” Scarlet cried out. Another splash was heard, causing the small group to look. Iris had jumped into the water with a vine around her body. On the other end of the vine was Momo holding it tight. Iris landed next to Ajax, holding out some excess vine.

“Hold on tight!” Iris said as Ajax took hold of the vine. Ajax wrapped it around his hand and wrist tightly and nodded.

“Pull us up!!” Iris shouted. Momo then immediately began hoisting the three up and out of the water. The remaining four quickly went to help Momo pull them out of the water and back onto the ledge. Once on dry land, Ajax laid Ember down on their back.

“Kid! Kid! Wake up!” He said, trying to shake the silent child awake. Scarlet froze in her place. She was horrified, the youngest member of the group was laying cold and still. Scarlet was close to fainting when Ember suddenly coughed back to “life”, spitting up the water and gasping for air.

“Oh thank creators!!!” Ajax gasped as he held Ember close to him. Ember continued to cough, accepting Ajax’s help and comfort as he patted their back. Everyone let out breaths of relief as Ember cried out with life.

“I-Im ok! Th-thank you!!” Ember cried, jumping up and hugging Ajax tightly. Ajax laughed as tears of joy ran down his face.

“H-Hey, it’s nothing, kid. I'm just glad you're ok.” Ajax said as he hugged the child as well. 

“Whoa…” Everyone turned to look at Iris. Her chest was glowing, revealing that it was her time to go.

“Wh-what?! You're going now?!” Gold gasped, walking up to Iris.

“I-I guess I am…” Iris mumbled as she looked at everyone. Scarlet and Ember looked at each other sadly. Making Iris feel a little sad herself. Gold then took Iris’ hands and held them.

“This is great! Now you can go be with Sage again!!!” Gold said happily. Iris’ eyes lit up as gold said that.

“You really think so?!” Iris asked, bouncing on her toes.

“Once souls become connected, they are destined to meet again.” Momo said, helping Five hoist Ajax to his feet. Iris smiled and gripped Gold’s hands tightly. The thought of seeing Sage again made her heart feel full.

“Let's go then.”

**********

When the group made it back to the house, they saw all the other sticks standing near the bush arch. Iris felt nervous about leaving. She didn't know what to expect on the other side, but all she knew was that her new mission was to find Sage.

”Iris,” Dandi said with a bow. Iris bowed as well.

“Miss Dandi.” Iris said. Dandi smiled softly and placed a hand on her head.

“It’s rare to have two souls leave so close together. But we’re happy to know that you've made it to the next step in the cycle.” Dandi said, leading Iris to the arch.

“Friends, it seems that we have another child leaving. So let's please give a loving goodbye to our little ray of sunshine, Iris.” The crowd cheered, shouting how they all loved Iris and how they were all going to miss her.

“Thank you everyone! I’m really going to miss you all too. I hope that one day, when you guys move onto your next lives, we can meet in the land of the living and all be friends again!!!” Iris said with a big smile. The crowd cheered as Dandi placed the flower in Iris’s hair.

“You look beautiful, Iris. Are you ready to go?”

“One more thing.” Iris suddenly turned and hugged her friends tightly.

“I'm gonna miss you guys! Make sure you guys never forget me alright? Or else I'm gonna hunt all of you down and kick your butts!” Iris said. The remaining three children laughed as Iris said that.

“Of course. But you better not forget us as well!” Ember said, looking up at Iris hopefully. Iris giggled and ruffled Ember’s damp hair.

“Like heck I'll forget you guys.” Iris said as she took a few steps back.

“See you around.” Iris said before cartwheeling back over to Dandi. The three children laughed as Iris happily took Dandi’s hand. And together, they happily walked away into the light.

**********

Ever since Ajax saved Ember from the river, Ember had been more open to the hollow head. Maybe even a little happier to see him. Of course, Scarlet was still quite wary of him, but even she was less aggressive than she was before. Gold liked that her two remaining friends were getting along with Ajax. Even Ajax seemed happier now that they weren't as negative around him. Today, Ajax was showing off his strength to the kids by doing push ups with them on his back. The three kids cheered him on as he began to reach the 80s.

“Keep going Ajax!!” Gold shouted as Ajax kept going.

“Im going im going!” He laughed. Aster then walked into the room.

“Whoa. What’s happening here?” The purple stick chuckled as he leaned against the doorframe.

“Mr Ajax is showing us how strong he is!!” Ember said excitedly. The kids laughed as Ajax kept going.

“How many have you done at this point?” Aster asked with a laugh.

“Ah about 93.” Ajax said as he went on. Suddenly, Razz poked her head into the room.

“Guys, it’s time for, What’s going on in here?” She chuckled as she watched.

“Proof of strength.” Aster simply explained. Razz scoffed and playfully rolled her eyes.

“Well, we’re having burgers for dinner. So if you guys don't come down now, I don't think there’ll be anymore left.” Razz said.

“No!! We wanna eat!!” Gold and Ember shouted. They were about to hop off of Ajax’s back when Ajax suddenly stood up, holding all three kids on his back. The three shouted and laughed as they held onto each other.

“To the dining room we go!!!” Ajax shouted. But before he could take a step out of the room, Razz put her hand up.

“Hold your horses Muscle Head. You gotta put a shirt on at least.” Razz said, holding her arm over the door. Ajax sighed and kneeled, letting Gold, Ember, and Scarlet off of his back.

“Alright alright fine. I’ll put a shirt on.” He said as he went over to his closet. As Ajax walked away, Gold and Scarlet were about to go ahead, but Scarlet stopped when she noticed that the youngest stick wasn't coming with.

“You coming Ember?” Scarlet asked, taking Ember’s hand. Ember shook their head and pulled their hand away.

“I’m gonna wait for Mr Ajax.” Ember said with a smile. Scarlet paused, looking down at Ember.

“Uh, yeah. Alright, we’ll save you a seat.” Scarlet said as she slowly walked away. Gold watched Scarlet’s change curiously. It was strange to see Scarlet so quiet with her fiery personality. Gold decided she had to get to the bottom of it and quickly caught up to Scarlet.

“Scarlet, is something wrong?”  Gold asked as she matched Scarlet’s speed. Scarlet simply glanced down at Gold before looking straight ahead once more.

“It’s nothing.” Scarlet nonchalantly said. But Gold didn't believe that it was “nothing”.

“Are you sure? Ever since we've been spending a lot of time with Mr Ajax, you've been kinda cold.” Gold pointed out. Starlet sighed and paused. She looked at Gold with sad eyes.

“When Ember came to the Garden, I was the first person they ever spoke to. I was the only one they were comfortable with. They always needed me. But now that they are spending so much time with Ajax, it feels like Ember doesn't need me anymore. Like they forgot that they were my friend first…” Scarlet said, playing with her hair. Gold had learned to pick up on that. Scarlet was scared. Gold hugged Scarlet, trying to make her feel better.

“W-well, it’s like Sage and Iris leaving. Just because they’re somewhere else doesn't mean that they stop being our friends. Right?” Gold said, looking into Scarlet’s eyes. A small smile came to Scarlet’s face. Scarlet chuckled and ruffled Gold’s hair.

“Yeah you're right. Ember will come back eventually. She always does.” Scarlet said as she continued walking. Gold smiled as Scarlet felt better. Both girls then made their way down to the first floor for dinner.

**********

When Ajax and Ember came down for dinner, Gold waved them over.

“Over there Mr Ajax!” Ember said, pointing at Gold’s waving hand. Ajax chuckled and grabbed a plate.

“We gotta get food first kid. Ajax said as he started grabbing things for Ember. Scarlet watched intensely as Ajax took her usual job of doing things for Ember. It irritated her. But she couldn't let that show on her face. When Ember and Ajax did eventually come to sit down, Ajax dropped Ember off by Scarlet and went to join his brother on the other side of the table. Ember hopped into the seat in between Gold and Scarlet, beaming with joy.

“Mr Ajax is so cool! I can't believe that I thought that he was a bad guy!” Ember giggled as they took a bite of their burger. Gold looked over at them with a confused look.

“A bad guy? Why did you think that?” Gold asked, looking up at Ajax, watching him laugh with Five on his right and Clover on his left.

“Well, I thought that he was the guy who killed me.” Ember quietly admitted. Gold coked on her food, coughing as she forced it down her throat.

“WHAT?!” Gold gasped.

“Shhh!!” Both Ember and Scarlet shushed Gold, they looked to see if the adults were listening, fortunately, the adults didn't seem to mind Gold’s little outburst. The two of them sighed and put their attention back on Gold.

“That’s why we weren’t too fond of the guy. He looked like… The dark lord.” Scarlet whispered that last bit. Gold tilted her head in curiosity, not really understanding what the two were talking about.

“Who’s the dark lord?” Gold whispered back.

“He was a really bad guy. He and another stick called “The Chosen One” traveled around the internet destroying places just because they could.” Scarlet quietly explained. Ember nodded vigorously.

“Yeah!  They attacked my home and killed me. It was really scary.”  Ember said as she looked down at their burger.

“Many sticks here were killed by those two. So that’s why not everyone was excited to see Ajax when he first appeared.” Scarlet explained, rubbing Ember’s back comfortingly. Gold hummed as she took on that information.

“That actually explains a lot about everything that’s happened so far.” Gold said with a shrug. “But why did you hide it? Not even Sage or Iris knew about it.”

“I… wasn't comfortable telling them… I wanted to tell them. But I just wasn't ready… And then they left… I wish that I told them about it while they were still here. But they're gone now…” Ember sniffled and wiped a stray tear away.

“It’s ok Ember. At least You told Gold right?” Scarlet pointed out. Ember nodded.

“Yeah, at least you know.” Ember said as they smiled up at Gold. Gold smiled as well as the three of them continued eating.

**********

“Ember! Let's go get breakfast!” Gold heard down the hall. Curious, Gold followed the voice, seeing Scarlet standing at Ember’s door.

“Don’t tell me you're still asleep! Come on kid!”

“They went downstairs already.” Scarlet jumped and turned to face Gold.

“Ah, Gold. What do you mean they went downstairs? Scarlet asked as she regained her composure.

“Ember woke up early and went downstairs. They were in the bathroom before I was. They said that they were going to help the adults with something.” Gold explained to the older girl. Scarlet stared at Gold hard and long. It made Gold squirm in her place.

“A-are you ok Scarlet? You've been acting weird since Ember fell into the river.” Scarlet shook her head and sighed.

“N-no, I'm fine Goldie. I just can't believe Ember woke up on their own…” Scarlet stuttered. Gold shrugged her shoulders.

“Well, I guess that means Ember’s getting used to being by themself. I think that's a good thing. That means they don't have to worry all the time!’ Gold said enthusiastically. Scarlet suddenly pushed past Gold, taking the ten year old by surprise.

“Whoa! S-scarlet?” Gold quickly turned on her heel and went to follow the older girl.

“Did I say something wrong? Why are you so angry?” Gold asked as she followed scarlet to her room. “Scarlet-”

“Leave me alone Gold,” Scarlet said coldly, entering her room and locking the door behind her. Gold stood there dumbfounded for a bit. She had never seen this side of Scarlet before. It was so different from her bright smile and confident personality.

“This isn't good.”

**********

Gold ran downstairs, calling Ember’s name.

“Ember! Ember!! Something’s wrong with Scarlet!!” Gold cried as she ran into the kitchen. Gold looked around to only see adults. Ember was nowhere to be seen.

“Wh-where’s Ember?” Gold asked.

“Ember? Oh they went with Ajax to the Flower Forest.” Jean said casually.

“What do you mean something’s wrong with Scarlet? Is she sick?” Orchid asked with concern.

“No? I mean, Scarlet went to wake Ember like she always does. But when I told her that Ember went downstairs earlier, she got really mad and locked herself in her room.” Gold explained to the pink mother. Orchid looked up at Momo and Momo nodded.

“I’ll try talking to Scarlet. Aqua, can you take Gold to the Flower Forest?” Momo asked as she put the tray she was holding down.

“Yeah, I can do that.” Aqua said as he removed the apron.

“Let’s go kid.” Aqua said as he took Gold’s hand. The duo quickly exited the house and sped walked their way to the flower forest. As they approached the forest, they could see Ajax walking out with Ember on his shoulders.

“Ajax!” Aqua called out, jogging up to the pair.

“Oh, Aqua, Gold. What are you two doing here?” Ajax asked as the two approached.

“We need Ember. It’s a bit of an emergency.” Aqua said.

“Emergency? What happened?” Gold then explained everything that happened earlier. Ember processed what Gold had said, looking at the ten year old with concern.

“Why would Scarlet be upset that I woke up early for once? I only wanted to do something nice for her.” Ember muttered as they gripped the flower crown in their hands.

“I dunno. But we gotta get to the bottom of this. And only Ember can help.”

“Let's go then.” Ajax said as he shifted Ember into his arms and took off running. Aqua picked Gold up and started running as well. Then they got back to the house, Ajax took Gold from Aqua and dashed up the stairs. When he got there, he could see Dandi and her helpers all standing at Scarlet’s door, trying to coax the tween out of her room.

“W-we’re here.” Ajax said as he put the two children down. The six of them looked over at the pair.

“Good thing too. There are loud thuds and crashes coming from inside. We need to get in before Scarlet hurts herself.” Razz said. Ember nodded once and walked up to the door. Dandi and her gang backed away, giving them space. Ember stood at the door, taking a breath as their shaky hand knocked on the door.

“Leave me alone!!” Scarlet screamed, making Ember flinch.

“S-scarlet…?” Ember quietly said. It was quiet for a bit, Ember continued to speak.

“I-I’m sorry for upsetting you. I didn't know that me waking up early would cause you to break your room. Please come out. I didn't-”

“Why don’t you go be with Ajax instead? You seem to like him a lot better than me anyway.”  Scarlet’s muffled voice came from the other side of the door. Ember took a step back, tears filling their eyes. But they shook their fear and placed their hand on the door.

“S-scarlet please! You were my first friend here! No one could ever come above you!” Ember pleaded, falling to their knees. Ember rested their forehead on the door, clutching the flower crown close to their chest.

“I don't know why you're so upset, but I want you to know that you’ll always be my best friend. I just… I want to finally grow up and be like you… I want to be strong and confident like you are!” Ember shouted, clenching her fist on the door.

“I want you to rely on me like I rely on you! I want to be strong so you don't have to be strong by yourself! Sage and Iris aren't here anymore, But we are! Me, and gold, we’re still here! And I want to help you like they did! I don't want to be the one that needs protection all the time!” Ember was crying now. Their whole body shook as they sat on the floor.

“Please come out Scarlet… Please come out, and don’t be sad anymore…” Ember begged. The air was tense as everyone awaited Scarlet’s answer. It felt like hours till the door unlocked. Ember gasped, looking up to see Scarlet’s puffy eyes and cracked face.

“S-scarlet!!!” Ember cried, jumping up and tackling the tween into a tight hug. Scarlet quickly returned the hug, sobbing “Im sorries” and “I love yous” as she held the smaller child.  

“N-No! I’m sorry Scarlet! I never should have left!! I’ll never do that ever again! I-I’ll-”

“No! No! Ember no please, you're your own person! I can't cling to you forever…”Just like you said, you have to grow up as well.” Scarlet said, cupping Ember’s face.

“I can't keep holding you back… It wouldn't be right…” Scarlet cried. Ember sniffled, holding Scarle’s forearms.

“But life wouldn't be right without you either.” Ember laughed through their tears. “You're the best thing that’s ever happened to me.”

“Heh, you are too Ember.” Scarlet said as she embraced Ember once more. As the two kids sat in each other’s arms, the cracks on Scarlet’s face started to repair themselves. Everyone watched in awe as the pair began to glow brightly. They released each other and looked down at their chests.

“I guess it’s time for us to go now.” Ember said with a teary smile. Scarlet sniffled and nodded.

“I guess this is where the curtain calls.” Ember laughed as they and Scarlet rose to their feet.

“What a rare sight.” Momo said as the two held hands, facing the rest of the sticks in the hall.

“You two are deeply connected. You must have met in another life. How wonderful.” Dandi said with a smile.

“Come now, we must bid you all a proper farewell.” As the adults ushered Scarlet and Ember downstairs, Gold stood off to the side. She smiled softly, knowing that her friends would finally be free, and happy. But it also pained her, knowing that she was the last and the only child left in the Garden. Tears began to fall down her face as the realization dawned on her. She had been so caught up in helping her friends that she didn't even notice her own descent into sadness.

“Y-You guys are so lucky.” Gold softly wept.

“I wish I could be happy too.”

Gold stood far away, watching as Scarlet and Ember left the garden, hand in hand with each other. She was happy for them, but she also hated that they had all left her. She tried following Dandi’s advice. “Accept change with open arms” but how could she now? She was all alone, all her friends were gone.

Gold gasped as she felt something creeping up behind her. She whirled around and saw nothing standing behind her. Gold suddenly hated being in this cramped space. She squeezed her way through the crowd, wanting to get out and away. Thoughts scrambled Gold’s brain, causing her to simply walk aimlessly. She felt as if she were sleepwalking. She didn't even know what was happening anymore. All she knew was that she had to get out of there.

Chapter 12-(Chapter 13)-Chapter 14

[razzberry-pie]

i thought yall would enjoy the two dolls I crocheted :)

(pattern information under the cut)

body and dress

overalls

mushroom hat (i used the pattern for the large mushroom cap as a base and added holed for the ears)

all of the patterns were modified slightly to fit my needs, and i couldn’t find the pattern for the heart granny square :/

[doctor-ramen]

i don’t know how to talk to other people so i’m just posting an ask box open doodle and hoping it works

[artseniccatnip]

what does pommy think of children

it is funny .. that you ask this anonymous stranger... because in a server i'm in we kinda joked about pomegranate having kids with @wandersong-brainrot 's character, keeper, and then we were like haha ok but hang on a minute................... so pommy will now have a child canonically in at least one timeline LMAO (i cannot show them yet though)

anyways they'd be a very permissive "let em figure out their life" kinda parent whereas both razzberry and the hero would be like NO....? YOU GOTTA DISCIPLINE THEM... which I actually think would mirror the og trios feelings on children kinda? miriam might open up and let the kid explore themself eventually too but audrey would probably be a strict parent ... ANYWAYS KINDA RAMBLING the point is they'd all be alright with kids, they don't particularly want them but if they had em it'd be like oh ok i guess we're doin this now

[captainshyguy]

ok so i’ve been doing legendary raids and stuff, and zapdos came out on tuesday?? and it’s only around until this monday coming up but??? all the zapdos raids in my area have been rly early, like 9am ish, and i get up at 12??? liek literally there hasn’t been a single zapdos raid past 12pm in my part of the city, and i only have a good 4-5 days to get one, which makes me stressed bc with i got moltres and articuno rly early aaaaaa 

[fioandfriends]

I have some energy again today, so time to post about my first Pokémon OC, and my character in my friend's TTRPG campaign, Robyn!

Robyn is a Kantoian/Alolan hybrid vulpix raised in the Viridian Bastion's town of Little Santalune! Back before the original Bastion was destroyed, Robyn's family ran a razzberry farm, so they carry the surname of LaFrambroise.

Robyn is aesthetically and mechanically inspired by Red Mages from the Final Fantasy series. They wear the typical red robes and fancy hats associated with them!

They also carry a sword that doubles as their casting focus, which was custom forged by a local smith in their hometown! Officially, this sword is designed with the likeness of both forms of ninetales in the hilt design, and was a gift Robyn received when they left Viridian's Academy on an exchange program with the Explorer's Guild of the Seafoam Bastion.

On their new Explorer's team, Wildfire, Robyn has become involved in a race against the clock to prevent a rogue Dialgan clergy member from going back in time and potentially destroying the timeline, which has made Robyn and their teammates leaders of a massive invasion of the pirate haven, the island of Kapu Cove. The party is getting closer and closer to the final confrontation with the big bad, and Robyn has a fire stone on hand to evolve with for the full heal and power boost, if it becomes necessary. Once this is all said and done, though, Robyn may become a full member of the Dialgan clergy (I've not decided 100%, but it's very likely), and will continue their studies from their Viridian Academy days in magic and more importantly psychology to become a therapist. Robyn will also continue one of their other major passtimes - hat collecting. Robyn loves hats, and they hear there is a hat store in town, they will have to take the time to check it out.

So yeah, that's another installment of my OC ramblings! I'll leave you off with a cute drawing of Robyn so I can plug the artist!

This cute little sketch was done by Tinyumbre on Twitter (I'm not sure if they have a tumblr to promote.)

https://twitter.com/Tinyumbre

Please go check them out!

Okay, everyone! To start things off here, I'll create a master post just giving a brief rundown of the setting most of my characters are written for and a brief intro to each of my characters. I'll update it as I add new characters to my slowly-increasing roster! Most images here will all be photoshops/edits of official Pokemon artwork as a form of crude reference as I have no ability to properly draw or paint, but using various selection tools, color pickers, and different brush options allow you to get surprisingly far. The Setting: So to keep the setting as simple as possible, my friend's setting is a sort of PMD-like society that takes place in parallel to (and frequently in conflict with) human society in the Pokemon setting. Pokemon living in these little pockets of society, known as Bastions, are sentient and live complex lives very similar to their human counterparts. They make art and music, cook gourmet meals, wear clothing for both practical and fashion purposes, have complex political systems and social safety nets and resources to accommodate all different types of pokemon with different modes of locomotion and physiological needs. While they don't have complex technology in the way Human society does (they refuse to use it, mostly), sentient Pokemon are able to use magic to create similar effects (thus "radio" stones, messages stored as holograms, enchanted blankets that heat themselves, etc.). The various Bastions (and cultural towns, in the case of destroyed Bastions) in this world also often take after the same cultural influences of the Pokemon Regions they are from, so Pokemon will have various cultural backgrounds (Azalean/Japanese, Santalune/French, etc.) similar to that of real-world cultures.

Pathwalking

In this setting, there is also a semi-spiritual practice known as Pathwalking, which is a sort of combination spiritual practice, form of self-expression, and method of self-improvement and learning useful skills and abilities. Paths are based on either mono- or dual-type combinations, with each type representing a broad category of different ideas and themes, depending on the specific pairing of types. Paths involve meditation, whose method is specific to each path, and each path teaches different ideals that can be broadly interpreted and applied in different ways that may best fit any given individual. Paths give Pokemon who practice them access to moves, abilities and new skills, some unique to that specific path. When a Pokemon completes a Path, they can choose to permanently add to (if mono-type) or replace (if dual-type) one of their current types with one of the Path's types. Changing types can affect a Pokemon's physiology, which I will get into in a moment. Alternatively, if the Pokemon chooses to not permanently take either of the Path's types, they get the ability to briefly change to the Path's type combo once per day. It is common for Pokemon to walk multiple Paths in their life, though they tend to identify with one of them the most.

Physiology

In the Bastions, Pokemon tend to be exceptionally varied. Typically, Bastion Pokemon will have a primary species, which can be from either parent, taking on the typing, abilities and natural movelist of that species, but take on traits from their other parent's species such as fangs, horns, coloration/pattern changes, scales, feathers, and all sorts of other things. Further, when Pokemon change type via Pathwalking (permanently or temporarily), this can further affect their body. Changing to Grass type will cause them to sprout leaves, vines, or flowers, changing to Rock type will turn their hide to stone, changing to Fire type would increase their base body temperature and maybe they sprout natural flames from their bodies. Okay! That was a bit long-winded but that's all you need to know as a baseline for the setting to fully understand anything I might talk about with my OCs here! I'll be Re-Blogging this once for each character of mine and will try to keep the most up-to-date version of this post pinned on my Blog for easy access!

[vinatintasupernovita]

time to watch girlboss on netflix w a boozy baja blast. Oh i’m gonna cry it’s 3 minutes in and it’s so bad already.

[pyroniite]

I love how like a week after I introduced Razzberry Cookie to everyone, Cookie Run released Raspberry Mousse Cookie skdhskdhsk 🤣

[razzberrydazz]

Listen there is so much isekai-esque potential for the tav in BG3. Take a character from a world where there's even a whiff of mention that there are other worlds beyond theirs. Maybe even a character already technically from another world or aware of the other worlds. Poof! Nautiloid appears through portal in their world and snatches them up! Now they're stuck in faerun with no idea how to get back if they even can, and new companions and things to learn about! Get isekai'd bitch!

[razzberrydazz]

Neurodivergence and mental illness headcanons and analysis with the BG3 cast! All of them have trauma there's no way any of them are totally mentally well (NONE of them are mentally fully well, being an adventurer is traumatic in and of itself).

Shadowheart and Astarion both have Borderline Personality Disorder undoubtedly to me, with Shart also having an extra dose of anxiety and depression on top of that. Being kidnapped and raised in a cult and being held hostage by a vampire lord are more than traumatizing enough to cause that.

Astarion definitely has PTSD from his time with Cazador. Shadowheart, Halsin, and Durge (if the player plays as Dark Urge) definitely also have PTSD.

-My analysis for my Durge is for a different post because there is so much going on there, but know that OCD and BPD and PTSD are all strong contenders for their mental idiosyncrasies-

Gale most definitely has depression and likely comorbid Autism and ADHD.

Lae'Zel is very autistic-coded to me with her directness and perceived low empathy and struggle to understand faerunian customs - many alien type characters are autistic-coded by the nature of their 'fish out of water' character arcs. She also has anger issues galore, and trust issues, she was raised in a militaristic alien cult society there's no way she wouldn't have fucked up emotional development. She's direct and quick to anger, but I don't think she's outright Rude - others may Think she's being rude but she's not, she's being honest and saying what she thinks.

Karlach is Sooooo ADHD coded to me, she also has hella anger issues and I do not blame her one bit, as well as a moderate dose of anxiety. Someone give her a fireproof fidget toy I beg of thee.

Wyll hides his trauma and issues relatively well, but I would not say he's as well-adjusted as many assume him to be. He's self-sacrificing to the point of extreme detriment, possibly a people pleaser, I am certain he has anxiety and depression that he does his best to mask, and he may not have full blown PTSD but he definitely has trauma. I get the impression he has a low opinion of himself due to his pact and often can even be self-depreciating especially when made to look like a devil, definitely has signs of depression in him. He is such a precious man and I want to help him see that he's worth so much more than he thinks 🥺

Minthara, while I don't know her character as well as the others, definitely has trauma from being raised in the toxic cult of lolth-sworn drow society, greatly reduced empathy (but not non-existent) due to said cult society, is definitely a sadist, could have developed Antisocial Personality Disorder due to the way lolthite society molded her (Lolthite society raises people in a way to predispose them to having APD if you ask me, since it's built on manipulation and fear and ladder climbing on the backs of others). Despite possibly having APD due to the trauma of Lolthite society, Minthara is not incapable of love and devotion and can grow to care for tav and other party members over time, perhaps even to a fanatical level if you romance her.

Halsin has trauma that he often brushes off or downplays, he can be quite self-depreciating at times, and from my viewpoint he is hypersexual as a maladaptive coping mechanism. Definitely has self-image issues and doesn't see himself as worthy of the love and affection and positions of authority he's been placed in. Probably has depression that he works hard to mask in front of others.

Jaheira has a long history of trauma that include the events of the first two games, I would not be surprised if she has PTSD, but overall she is pretty well adjusted all things considered. She has trust issues but I don't blame her, she has justification.

Minsc is hilarious, that man has autism I am convinced, he has trauma but I'm not sure if he realizes his trauma is indeed trauma and not simply a mild inconvenience in his life. Either none of his trauma is processed as such in his brain so he is genuinely that happy-go-lucky, or that jovial attitude is a mask. Boo is...Boo. I do not know the inner machinations of a miniature giant space hamster.

If anyone in the game is a Narcissist, it's Orin the Red (NPD does not make one inherently abusive or evil of course, no personality disorder or mental illness makes anyone inherently bad, Orin just happens to embody many of its traits to the extreme and has the traumatic upbringing to cause it). Her story is so tragic to me, she wants so badly for Bhaal to love her, she wants the admiration and affection of the god of murder so bad and she doesn't care if that means killing the entire world. She's incredibly tragic, she doesn't realize she's as traumatized as she is because it got channeled into her mask of self-importance and lack of empathy extreme sadism and want for admiration from Bhaal specifically. If it was possible to if not redeem her, at least spare her from death and break her out of her cult mindset, I would do it in a heartbeat. I love Orin as a character so much.

Gortash could be APD, but I think he fits Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder more. His want for control, for order, under the tyranny of Bane, to wrench control and revenge for the childhood he was robbed of, it's very fitting. He's distrustful and known for deceit but his ride or dieness with Durge and willingness to Risk It All for Tav is endearing to me, and could be him manipulating or simply be that he does in fact see teaming up with Tav as the best course of action for him to maintain his control. I'm biased I know, I like Gortash too much.

Ketheric is spiteful and traumatized from the death of his wife and daughter and the cult he imbedded himself in yes, but he takes it to an extreme in his lashing out from his grief. I don't think he's antisocial or narcissistic, I mainly think he's depressed and a victim of a sunk-cost fallacy taken way too far. He committed to the bit until the very end.

If anyone else could possibly have APD or NPD, I think it'd be the Emperor, but I also feel the mental quirks of being a mindflayer predispose someone to being manipulative and self-agrandizing. He is a Very sly and effective manipulator, and even though overall he has the common goal as the player and protects them from death and transforming into a mind flayer for the majority of the game, he is ultimately doing it for his own aims. He hid the truth of Orpheus and his own form for most of the game, because he was so distrustful of Tav that he believed they would never trust him otherwise - which he can't actually know as true or not. Unfortunately for him I chose saving Orpheus and helping Lae'Zel over helping him because his history of manipulation and omition of information caught up to him and caused the very distrust he wanted to avoid. He is a great morally grey/dubious character who can be both loved and loathed for his antics.

Dame Aylin and Isobel definitely have trauma if not PTSD, and Aylin probably is autistic.

Listen what I'm saying is autistic people have a surprisingly high level of charisma and they and other neurospicy people congregate together to make some delicious neurospicy food.

Those are all the characters I have thoughts about for the moment, and these are my headcanons more than anything, so don't take this too seriously.

[razzberrydazz]

Wyll, Karlach, Halsin, and Minthara deserve so much more dialogue and content, they shoulda let the game cook longer in the development oven, Karlach deserves a better ending, Wyll deserves more agency, Minthara deserves to not be delegated to evil murder hobo runs, Halsin deserves more than being delegated to the horny druid character. I love BG3 dearly but I can tell many characters were neglected.

[razzberrydazz]

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Call me Razz! He/they, Mid-20s, American, BPD.

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Fandom, personal tag, and OC related miscellany under the cut.

Fandoms/media I enjoy include but are not limited to:

Dragon Age

Baldur's Gate 3

Dishonored

Elder Scrolls (Specifically Skyrim and ESO)

Dungeons and Dragons and other TTRPGs

Legend of Zelda

Splatoon

ATLA and Legend of Korra

Soul Eater

Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood

Black Butler (manga)

Gangsta (manga)

Hatsune Miku (Vocaloid)

Hades (1 & 2) by Supergiant Games

Persona series (specifically Persona 5)

Cyberpunk 2077

The Magnus Archives (podcast)

Wicked (musical)

Sweeney Todd (musical)

Natasha, Pierre & The Great Comet of 1812 (Musical)

Hadestown (musical)

Arcane (TV series)

Hannibal (TV series)

Saw (movie franchise)

DC Comics (Specifically Harley Quinn, Poison Ivy, and Wonder Woman)

My Ao3 (some of it is Explicit🔞)

My Bluesky (also may be Explicit🔞)

My tags

My art - #razz's art, #razzdazz art, #razz draws

My writing - #razz writes, #razz's writing

My rambles - #razz rambles #razz's unsolicited additions

Main OCs (Original Characters)

Tiffany - originally a D&D NPC in my first homebrew campaign (Heart of Atlantis my beloved), then I grew to love her too much to leave her alone.

Tiffany Mereign, ie Tiff, ie Theophania Athaliah Wilhelmina Fen’U-darah Mereign the Third, Queen of Atlantis, formerly Empress of the Atlantean Empire. Sea elf royalty, born on December 27th, took the throne with her father as Regent after the assassination of her mother Larethire II. She fully took the crown and throne in 1139-1140ce after killing her father Elias for his numerous crimes including the discovery that he was responsible for her mother's death.

The D&D campaign Tiff first appeared in took place in 1139-40ce where the player character party helped Tiff revive a dead goddess and use her power to kill the usurper king Elias and end a war that threatened their people. Said goddess cursed Tiff to die a thousand deaths (not by her own hand) before she can finally rest, all because Tiff rejected the offer of ascension to godhood.

Tiff handled her immortality curse... badly, to say the least. At least she met and married her loving supportive wives Cassie and Anya who help her with her chronic pain and substance addictions. Tiff is addicted to a substance known as heartstone, which is magically radioactive, which means Tiff has to wear protective clothing so that she doesn't irradiate everyone around her.

Rana - Ranarox La'Rouge, originally started as a Haunted One Bard/Rogue in a Curse of Strahd campaign, then got repurposed and fleshed out as my Dark Urge/Durge OC for Baldur's Gate 3. Raised in a circus and wooed by every pretty face they see, Rana does everything in their power to fend off the Red that swirls around their vision that brings the Urge to kill. If their eyes turn red and you are within melee range, it is already too late for you to run away.

Rana's 'canon' storyline has them falling in love with Shadowheart and Lae'Zel, finding a way to spare Minthara despite being tortured by her, rediscovering their past as the leader of the Bhaalist cult, and saving their daughter Mala from being sacrificed by Orin the Red. They found Mala (instead of Yenna) wandering around Rivington. Jaheira recognized her first as she had been acting as Mala's foster mother, since Rana had smuggled Mala away years prior to protect her from the cult (Rana was a victim of familial abuse and SA and Mala is a result of said abuse whom Rana vowed to protect from repeating the cycle of abuse). Rediscovering their progeny put them both in danger as Orin stalked the party and stole that which Rana only just got back.

Rana resorted to killing Orin to protect their child, and renounced Bhaal within the heart of his temple. Bhaal stole back their very blood and life force, disowning them. Rana only lives on because Jergal claimed them as his champion, and while the Red is never fully gone, they finally see clearly for the first time. Before disowning their murder god father, Rana's blood was black deathly ichor of the unholy god, but after Jergal claimed them, their blood became red full of life and vigor.

Ina - (Belongs to my friend Poe, I just happen to be obsessed with her and am the leader of Ina's fanclub) Ina the Kobold is a chaos entity, a zealous oath of glory paladin devoted to a deified Hatsune Miku. She came into existence after my friend rolled up a completely randomized character for a D&D game, and quickly speared her way into my heart with her wacky antics and hilarious zeal for murder.

A little known tidbit about Ina is that she's a sleeper agent, Ina is not her full name. Her true name is Ignition, which is the trigger word to temporarily switch her from chaotic stupid kobold to calculated smart dragonborn. Her Ignition alter ego is scarily competent compared to Ina. She was created in a secret magical experiment and hatched from a magically irradiated dragonborn egg. Ignition voluntarily switches back into Ina the minute whatever mission or danger she was dealing with is complete, as Ina takes far less mental energy to exist.

She is made as a contingency plan for Tiffany, so that in the case she as the queen ever goes off the rails and goes against her own morals, Ina will be there to kill her and bring her back to her senses.

Erinyes - My demonsona as it were, a self insert that morphed kind of into their own entity. They're a cheese-loving fury demon called Erin-yes. I often use them as a chaotic mini-me, and a personification of my silliness and rage. Sometimes I'll shove them into things with varied success. In D&D they'd be a tiefling or cambion as a player character, but as an NPC they've appeared as a literal erinyes devil that tried to sell cheese to the players and tormented them at various points.

Claire - My rage-filled mixed-drow religiously traumatized pyromaniac death cleric. She was raised in a cult to a goddess that stole the name of other gods - Adrestia Andraste, the Lady in White, a homebrew drow goddess of death and war and motherly retribution. Claire's drow mother was the high priestess of the Lady, and in order to become the next high priestess, Claire had to kill her mother in a ritual battle.

Claire walked over enchanted coals, was baptized in holy fire, and slayed a dragon to become the next high priestess of the cult; doing so made her fireproof to everything but her own goddess's flames. On her back they etched an intricate tattoo that brands her as her goddess's chosen, which also allows her goddess to cause her searing pain when she does something she doesn't like. A proverbial shock collar.

Claire is bitter and jaded and tries to escape the cult many times, and eventually discovers the truth of her goddess's identity theft and devotes herself to the goddess's sister Lotte (the victim of the identity theft) instead. Lotte is a drow goddess of fate, death, craftsmanship, and magic, and gives Claire the power to mend and tear the weave of magic itself. Claire is a chosen of both goddesses, one willingly, one unwillingly, and her mission is to break her ties to the Lady in White for good.

Frownless - Ah my favorite eldritch edgelord. Frownless, also called The Frownless or Freddie the Frownless or even Thotarella/Thot by my dnd group (an inside joke), is a shapeshifter known as a shadowless - he doesn't cast a shadow on the ground. Shadowless are akin to eldritch changelings that are descendants of fey celestials exiled to a demiplane. They appear as orange-tinged red haired elven people with four yellow eyes.

Frownless in particular is a notable specimen as he got exiled for killing his cousin in a fit of rage, then made a name for himself as an assassin and overall nuisance. He was hired by Tiff's father to kill her but failed miserably and ended up working for her in a weird toxic relationship instead. He tried dropping a chandelier on her and missed. He loves catfishing people since he's a shapeshifter. I love using him as a punching bag. He ends up Tiff's drug dealer at various points and brings out the worst in her.

OT - My old self insert that morphed into their own entity. This one in particular is tied to their dragon age dalish elf iteration as my main Inquisitor Lavellan. OT is a dalish mage Inquisitor and lover of Josephine Montilyet. Originally named Overtaker as a funny play on Undertaker, and then shortened it to OT for brevity, and even made it stand for different names involving the initials O and T. I even used them the first time I ever played D&D in a oneshot where they ended up dying via magic item enchanted to cast power word kill!

I have a lot of OCs but only a few I routinely use, which as of making this post consist of the above. Other OCs include Lyn, Vrei'Dara, Billie, Domi, Inanna, Dela, Johanna, Jorster, Francis, Lotte, Minaeve, Jamboree, Riff, Kestrel, Grimshaw, Veronica, Atlantea, Styx, Judith, and many others.

Others TBA

[edit 11/13/2024] - {I have streamlined this pinned post slightly, added some stuff, removed a few things}

Anyways enjoy my blog I guess? I'm so wordy at times, I know this is a whole ass wall of text to scroll through. You get an appreciative pat on the shoulder for reading through all this.

[razzberrydazz]

The fact that not one, not two, but FOUR of my IRL friends took one look at Astarion and said I kinned him nigh unprompted is so funny to me. The council communed to label me as mini Astarion, I cried out in protest that it was not that deep an attachment, I am dragged kicking and screaming to the dungeons until I admit that it's true.

[razzberrydazz]

HHHHH I FIGURED OUT THE TATTOO TEXTURES IN BG3 ONLY TOOK ME 5 HOURS it might not be perfect but I fucking DID IT

[razzberrydazz]

Should I remake my tried and true teenaged self insert character OT in BG3 and end up making yet another character that morphs into their own person like my Inquisitor Lavellan did, yes or yes-