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29-04-2024

Dzień dobry, pamiętniczku. Uczcijmy minutą ciszy mój raz-do-roku-manikjur. Ciiii~~~~~~sza. Wczoraj bezwiednie, tworząc projekt, odgryzłam całą emalię z paznokci (z jednego całkiem, z kilku częściowo). Ech. Ale na wakacjach miałam piękne pazy i czułam się jak dorosła, zadbana kobieta. xD

Dziś źle spałam - chyba jednak, cóż, jestem chora. Zanim dostanę leki na ten pęcherz mam czekać na wyniki posiewu - w lepszym scenariuszu będą dziś wieczorem, w gorszym jutro wieczorem. Ech. Jadę na lekach przeciwbólowych, clotrimazolum i akceptacji zbyt częstych wizyt w WC (a przez to słabego snu).

Wczoraj byłam tak przebodźcowana, że nie uszyłam tego projektu. Ech. Wpadałam z jednej króliczej nory w drugą, rozkojarzenie maksymalne, ale o tym zaraz.

Wczoraj na zajęciach, przez te 8h, mieliśmy zarazem pierwsze i przedostatnie spotkanie z prowadzącą jeden z przedmiotów. MEGA babeczka. Imponuje widzą, imponuje doświadczeniem, budzi zaufanie tym, że w życiu od 20 lat zarabia na tym czego nas naucza (kolejna nauczycielka, która zaczyna znajomość z grupą od "drodzy państwo, jestem wciąż szkolącym się praktykiem." i to tak bardzo czuć, tak bardzo różnią się te zajęcia praktyków od pracowników stricte akademickich, ech, bardzo mnie to cieszy, bo czuję vibe w jakim ona na co dzień pracuje, jaki sama znam z pracy czy z rozmów z pracującymi znajomymi). Imponuje również sposobem przekazywania wiedzy i takim brakiem nadęcia: totalnie bez problemu odzyskuje naszą pełną uwagę, gdy ma coś ważnego do powiedzenia, ale też z przyjemnością pozwala nam na burze mózgów do której się włącza z humorem, podrzucając pomysły, zadając trudne pytania czy pozwalając na dygresje. I z tych dygresji też potrafi wyciągnąć wnioski i włączyć je jako przykłady do prezentowanego tematu. Mi imponuje jeszcze jedną rzeczą: to był nasz pierwszy 8h blok ćwiczeniowy i zarazem przedostatni (za miesiąc kolejne 8h), bo zbierając zgody na indywidualny tryb nauczania itp dowiedziałam się, że ta Pani poza byciem znakomitą profesjonalistką w swojej dziedzinie i mamą (jej dwa główne zawody, szacun, że tak fajnie o tym mówi <3) jest również nomadką. Od stycznia do teraz jej bazą była południowa Azja (dlatego miałam problem, by się z nią złapać :P). OMG marzę o takim żyćku i podziwiam osoby, którym się udaje tak żyć. Jednak fakt, że pani NIC nam o tym nie powiedziała prezentując się też dał mi ogląd na jej profesjonalizm w temacie. Świetna babeczka.

Jednak mimo wszystko intensywna dawka wiedzy, praca kreatywna, przez 8h, z trzema przerwami dała się we znaki. Byłam bardzo zmęczona. Ale - co fajne - znowu uparłam się, żeby wynieść z tych zajęć jak najwięcej się da, czynnie uczestniczyłam w burzy mózgów i to znowu się opłaciło. Po zajęciach pani prowadząca powiedziała, że tym kilku aktywnie uczestniczącym w zajęciach osobą daje 5. Dostałam 5! I jeszcze przegadałam z nią kwestię zaliczenia przedmiotu - nie muszę zaliczać sama, mogę skorzystać z tego co wypracowałyśmy na zajęciach w grupach maksymalnie 3 osobowych. Rzecz w tym, aby to później merytorycznie zaprezentować - jeżeli będę mogła to będę prezentować, a jeżeli nie będzie mnie to biorę na siebie graficzne sklejanie prezentacji. I na razie to tyle, ale na pewno wrócę do tematu tego przedmiotu, bo widzę go bardzo "moim", czuję to, to Project Management, ale też dotykamy bardzo nowego, dopiero od 2 lat akademicko nauczanego, badanego i wyodrębniającego się zagadnienia Employer branding.

Ciekawi mnie to. Zobaczymy jak to zagadnienie (i badania nad nim, kierunek w jakim pójdzie eksploracja tematu) będzie stało za 2 lata, ale póki co przykleiłam sobie do notatnika jarzeniowo-żółtą karteczkę w miejscu tych zajęć. Na kartce napisałam "Pomysł na pracę dyplomową: EB + AI" - zobaczymy, brzmi spoko, wymaga skonsultowania i sprawdzenia czy za te 2 lata temat nie umrze, a mi zajaranie nie zwietrzeje.

To zaskakujące jak inaczej jest studiować mając te 30 lat na karku i wiedząc co się lubi, gdzie są mocne strony itp. Wszędzie widzę dla siebie szanse, albo dość szybko rezygnuje z tematów, które wiem, że mnie nie jarają. Gdybym miała taką samoświadomość i wiedzę, doświadczenie mając 19 lat... Kurde, tyle nerwów bym zaoszczędziła!

ANYWAY - na ćwiczeniach pracowałyśmy w grupie nad Case Study. Mogła to być firma (mała, duża, średnia; istniejąca, upadła albo taka, którą chcemy założyć; o zasięgu międzynarodowym lub krajowym itp), organizacja pozarządowa (NIC o mechanizmach takich organizacji nie wiem, więc nawet nie wiedziałabym od czego zacząć, jak szukać plusów i minusów - ten temat wymagałaby researchu w tym obszarze od absolutnych podstawowych definicji i konstrukcji) albo inne przedsięwzięcie... i tu mi wskoczył pomysł, zapytałam na forum "A czy może to być event?" - za pytanie dostałam pochwalę i propozycję by ze swoim projektem iść w tę stronę, bo takich projektów jeszcze nie było na tej uczelni na zaliczenie tego przedmiotu (i oczywiście temat podłapało kilka osób z grupy, więc mamy kilka grup, każda opowiada o evencie).

Ech. Potem był etap eliminacji tematu, który chcemy omawiać (ja miałam dwa pomysły na eventy, potem doszedł trzeci, ale wolałabym, abyśmy zadecydowali demokratycznie w grupie i zrobiły burzę mózgów). Trochę to trwało. W końcu doszłyśmy do zgody, omawiamy jeden, coroczny festiwal i jego problem. Podzieliłyśmy się pracą, ale co godzinę zajęciową okazywało się, że prowadząca wprowadza nowe zagadnienie, nowy aspekt względem którego oczekuje, że poddamy analizie naszą wybraną firmę/organizację/event. I znowu trzeba było dzielić się pracą i szukać.

Ech. Szukanie było spoko. Rozmowy o projekcie były spoko, tylko ten szum, głośność i wiele rozmów przy wielu stolikach doprowadził mnie do bólu głowy. No i do tego nasza grupowe koło wzajemnej adoracji "cool kids" z ostatniej ławki (bo ze mną studiują bardzo młodzi ludzie, a niektórzy z nich nie ogarniają, że studia to nie liceum i próbują przemycić szkolne standardy np: siadanie w ostatniej ławce by się kitrać przed facetkom i gadać wtedy, gdy facetka "nie zauważy" czyli wtedy, kiedy sama zaczyna coś mówić - to cholernie przeszkadza, takie buczenie z pogłosem, a na pytania "drodzy państwo, coś chcieliście dodać? Przeszkadzacie mi w prowadzeniu zajęć, a nie wiem czy czekacie, aż oddam wam głos czy po prostu chcecie wyjść, omówić coś prywatnego? Czy robimy przerwę?" - oni też tego nie kminią, nie widzą w tym partnerskiej, uczciwej propozycji, a jedynie reprymendę. Zachowują się jak przyłapani szkolniacy, prostują się w krzesłach, ręce chowają pod blatem stołu i wypalają "my nic nie mamy dodania, nic się takiego nie dzieje", ech i za raz buczą dalej, gówniarzerskie to strasznie).

Ech. U "cool kids" co zjazd od jakiegoś czasu dzieje się coś, co łatwo wyczuć, bo napięcie furkocze pod sufitem. Jest to czytelnie nie tylko dla mnie, ale już słyszałam o tym od innych osób. Więc chyba tak, jak mi się wydawało, oglądamy coś bardzo młodzieńczego, co dla kogoś może mieć finał piękny, a dla kogoś innego tragiczny. Otóż dwie laski rywalizują o względy jednego chłopaka - tego, który podczas pierwszego zjazdu spontanicznie usiadł ze mną w ławce (przede wszystkim jest BARDZO przystojny, a tamtego dnia dał się poznać jako bardzo miły, pomocny, czarujący, chociaż też bez skrępowania arogancki i pyszny - miałam flashbacki do swojego pierwszego dnia studiów architektury, gdy NAGLE wybrał mnie z tłumu najpiękniejszy chłopak na roku, siedział ze mną, z nikim innym nie rozmawiał poza mną, a budził zainteresowanie absolutnie wszystkich... no i skończyło się to bardzo skomplikowaną i ostatecznie niezbyt miłą relacją, która jednak miała na moje życie olbrzymi wypływ). Pomyślałam wtedy, że luz, podobny schemat, ale inni ludzie, inny czas, nowe rozdanie, nie ma co się nastawiać źle. Ale jeszcze tego samego dnia, po 10h zajęć, podczas ostatniego bloku ćwiczeniowego, chłopak potem mi nieco podpadł (stereotypowe myślenie o ambicjach i rolach płci w społeczeństwie min. kobieta nie powinna zarabiać, ani marnować czasu na naukę, ani w ogóle nie powinna robić nic co "niemoralne", lepiej, aby dbała o dom, porządek, gotowanie i wychowanie dzieci - OŁ NOŁ, weszłam z nim w polemikę na forum grupy, bo to były jego wnioski na temat wspólnie oglądanego na zajęciach filmu. Zupełnie inne wnioski wyciągnęłam z prezentowanego na ekranie życia bohaterki, która najpierw pracowała ponad siły w domu publicznym, która została pobita i wyrzucona z pracy za zajście w ciążę z klientem, a która znalazła dla siebie i dziecka bezpieczne miejsce do życia, pracę, wsparcie; która zarabiała codziennie na utrzymanie siebie i dziecka swoim talentem, która miała frajdę z wykonywanej pracy, która była wspierana przez patchworkową rodzinę i która dawała innym członkom tej rodziny wsparcie min. podczas jednej sceny rozlewając zupę do misek - a podczas wielu innych scen widzieliśmy ją podczas tańca, który dawał jej frajdę) i który - zaskoczenie - ostatecznie chyba będzie moim współpracownikiem (Chyba o tym pisałam, 2 tygodnie temu wstępnie weszłam z nim w negocjacje względem biznesu, który planuję rozkręcić, bo okazał się być bardzo kompetentny w obszarze, którego ja nie czuję; Oddzwonił do mnie, uprzejmie odpowiedział na masę pytań, tak zawodowo i pracowo zdaje się być bardzo dobrym współpracownikiem - nie wiem w sumie jakie jest jego stanowisko wobec mnie i czy o tym co ze mną omówił w ogóle powiedział swojej grupce przyjaciół? Wcześniej nad tym nie rozmyślałam, nie wiem jak jest, teraz o tym pomyślałam... ale w sumie jeżeli te dziewczyny wiedzą o naszych ustaleniach, to może to poniekąd tłumaczyć ich zachowanie wobec mnie. Takie trochę wrogie? Takie z rezerwą? A może po prostu tu już jest ta przepaść wieku odczuwalna i zwyczajnie mnie nie lubią, tak charakterologicznie? Nie wiem. Trudne to mimo wszystko jest dostawać ostracyzmem w grupie, ech, a od nich to czuję...).

No więc są dwie dziewczyny i ten chłopak. Chłopak piękny i kompetentny. Do tego markowo i modnie ubrany zawsze. Każda z dziewczyn ma inny styl ubioru, inny typ sylwetki (skrajnie różne), inny vibe i inne kompetencje. Jedna jest na tych studiach, bo w sumie nie wie co chce studiować i czy chce studiować. Skończyła szkołę średnią i poszła jak resztą rówieśników na studia do dużego miasta. Dla niej ważniejsze niż wiedza jest możliwość spotkania rówieśników (wiem, bo o tym mówiła na zajęciach). Druga dziewczyna jest troszkę starsza (i bardzo lubi o tym przypominać), to jej drugie studia, bardzo ambitna i bardzo wygadana. Dobrze zarabia, pracuje na odpowiedzialnym stanowisku w korpo. WIE po co przyszła na te studia.

Miałam okazję współpracować w poprzednik semestrze z każdą z nich. Pierwszej trzeba było wyjaśniać jak pracować, streszczać jeszcze raz clue tematu zajęć, wyjaśniać o czym dotąd były zajęcia, dokładnie wyjaśniać czego się od niej oczekuje, a z drugą robota szła jak burza. Migiem. Porozumiewałyśmy się hasłami, celnie realizując zagadnienia. Naprawdę czułam, że ona akurat zarządza sobą i ludźmi w grupie świetnie. Do tego zupełnie nie ma tremy przed wystąpieniami publicznymi, błyskotliwie myśli, pytania wykładowców traktuje jak zaproszenie do dyskusji, nie traktuje ich jak nagan (jak ta pierwsza - ta pierwsza to taki przestraszony króliczek, który nie rozumie co robi, po co to robi, czego ktoś od niej chce. Też się z nią utożsamiam, bo pamiętam jak taka byłam podczas pierwszego roku studiów ever). Proponowałam nawet, żeby została starościną, bo moim zdaniem ma wszystkie kompetencje ku temu, ale... ech. Ona nie chce. I nadal xD nie mamy starosty/starościny, hahaha, anarchiczna grupa na uczelni.

O ile przez pierwszy semestr jeszcze ludki wybadywały grunt i ludzi, każdy był niepewny i bardziej zajmował się swoim interesem, o tyle teraz już wjechał aspekt akceptacji w grupie, przez to ta błyskotliwa dziewczyna jakby... straciła błyskotliwość. Dostosowała się do tej pierwszej. Przedtem na głos dyskutowała (min. ze mną) pomysły, dawała hipotezy, wysuwała bardzo celne wnioski. A teraz dostosowała się do cichego szeptania z "cool kids" podczas ćwiczeń w ostatnich ławkach. Teraz nie wyciąga już wniosków, tylko prostuje się gwałtownie na krześle z dłońmi na udach i daje durne wymówki jak wykładowca zwróci uwagę, że gada.

Trochę to przykre...?

Trochę szkoda?

Bo to trochę tłamszenie własnego potencjału...

Bo kolejna sprawa - właśnie ten chłopak. ZAWSZE te dwie dziewczyny siedzą po jego dwóch stronach i trajkoczą szeptem. Do niego. xD Go nigdy nie słyszę, ale one napieprzają na zmianę jak najęte, a ten ich szept jest coraz bardziej wysoki i nerwowy. Zabawne (i wkurzające też) jest to, że on ledwo co mówi. A wywołany do odpowiedzi jest tak cholernie kulturalny, grzeczny, czarujący i grający na zwłokę (ale dzięki temu zawsze wyratowuje się z sytuacji), że od kilku zjazdów, kiedy tylko gość się odzywa zauważyłam, że inne osoby, spoza grupy "cool kids" przewracają oczami. xD Serio, on otwiera budzie mówiąc jak bardzo powoli i bardzo grzeczne, bardzo okrągło, bardzo wręcz książkowo, jak jakiś Pan Darcy z czasów regencji "Rozumiem, że chce pani, abym zreferował w podpunktach zagadnienie XXX? Jak najbardziej mogę to zrobić. Zacznę, jeżeli pani pozwoli, od aspektu, który najbardziej przykuł moją uwagę i który wymaga głębszego zastanowienia według mnie..." - a połowa sali wywraca oczami, albo ledwie powstrzymuje uśmiech. Wydaje mi się, że to nie jest mimo wszystko szydera, że to bardziej taki próg zwalniający tej naszej dyskusji. Coś takiego, że wszyscy wiedzą, że coś jest INACZEJ. Robi się nagle poważniej, przesadnie grzecznie i wolniej, a napięcie rośnie, bo chodziło przecież o kilka haseł, jedno zdanie, a dostajemy ich w nadmiarze. Niemniej, biorąc pod uwagę moją ostatnią rozmowę telefoniczną z nim (merytoryczną i naprawdę w porządku) mam teraz wobec niego o wiele więcej ciepłych uczuć - może jest po prostu na spectrum Aspergera? Bo to jak on mówi to na 100% nie jest fałsz, ani trolling. To jego styl wypowiedzi. Potrafi szybciej i mniej "w stylu okresu regencji", ale tak naprawdę trudno mieć do kogoś pretensje, że używa poprawnej polszczyzny i mówi pełnymi zdaniami.

Jestem na chłopaka bardziej otwarta teraz - okaże się jak ta znajomość się potoczy.

Anyway - wydaje się, że chłopak jest bardziej zainteresowany tą "błyskotliwą", można powiedzieć, że wczoraj widzieliśmy, że obydwoje są zainteresowani tą relacją. Chichranie, spojrzenia itp. Ale czuć przez to jeszcze mocniej napięcie i wzmarza się buczenie ze strony ten pierwszej dziewczyny i zaangażowanie w imbienie całego grona "cool kids".

[Jak zaproponowałam tą błyskotliwą na stanowisko Starościny, ona od razu wyznała, że mogłaby być zastępcą, że lepiej, aby Starostą został ten "przystojny" chłopak... i być może koleś ma kompetencje, nie wiem niestety, nie miałam okazji z nim współpracować, po prostu nie wykazał się do tej pory ani inicjatywą, ani działaniem w obszarze kontaktu z wykładowcami czy dziekanatem. On sam nie odpowiedział nic na tę wysuniętą kandydaturę, potem na niego głosowała cała grupka "cool kids" i tyle...]

To taka grupka, co patrzy na resztę z wyższością, daje znać, że dużo fajnych rzeczy wspólnie robi po zajęciach i wokół której skupia się reszta trochę biernie obserwując ich animusz. Ech. Czuć taką szkolność.

Ja zostaję więc outcasterem, mam swoje sympatyczne koleżanki. On też nie czują się zaimponowane opowieściami kto i ile wypił czego, a jedna - ta moja ulubiona gotka <3 - sama z siebie zauważyła, że kurcze, nie rozumie dlaczego ta "bystra" dziewczyna z nimi trzyma, że przecież taka fajna była, takie ma doświadczenie, tak była odważna (gotka ją za tą odwagę i szybkie, merytoryczne riposty podziwiała - sama jest posrana z tremy jak ma się odezwać) a teraz jakby cofnęła się w rozwoju, jakby stłamsiła swoje najlepsze cechy.

No. Jak wczoraj opowiedziałam mojemu chłopakowi, że na zajęciach było głośno, ale ciekawie, to tylko się uśmiechnął "Niech zgadnę, fan club tego chłopaka?". xD No, chyba jednak narzekałam na ich buczenie podczas zjazdów częściej niż myślałam.

Poza tym... Wracając.

Nie mieliśmy z kim zostawić pieska na weekend. Też dłuższa historia - miała być u moich rodziców do dziś. Ale moja siostra potrzebowała opieki nad swoim pieskiem, bo robili test górski: zabrali swojego 8-mio miesięcznego synka na pierwszą wyprawę w góry by sprawdzić czy w ogóle planowanie wyjść/tęsknienie za górami w najbliższym czasie ma sens. Bardzo za tym tęsknili obydwoje (od jakiegoś czasu to ich wielka pasja). Oczywiście marzyli o tym, żeby zabierać misia na szlak, ale wiadomo, nic na siłe, rzeczywistość zweryfikuje czy to możliwe. Bo dotąd młody sypiał i im dawał spać tylko w domu. Kiedy wyjeżdżali do dziadków (ze strony Szwagra) noce były nieprzespane dla całej trójki. A dziecko w ciągu dnia było bardziej nerwowe, wymagało więcej uwagi, co budziło więcej stresu i tak dalej. Więc po co sobie i młodemu fundować stres? Ech. Dlatego chcieli sprawdzić jak im wyjdzie... I dla tego zakładali najgorszy scenariusz: młody ryczy, wierci się, trzeba się zmieniać w noszeniu go, oni zmęczeni w opór i do tego piesek ciągnie i wymaga uwagi. Dlatego potrzebowali oddać pieska moim rodzicom pod opiekę. A moi rodzice sami z dwoma psami na spacerku to zły pomysł, nie mówiąc o tym, że pieski mogą zacząć walczyć o dominację itp. Ech... Postanowili, że jadą w góry, opłacili hotel, wszystko zaplanowali, rodziców poinformowali, że jadą i że ich piesek zostaje u bapsi i psiadka na weekend... Nie mówiąc tego nam - myśleli, że wrócimy z wakacji i weźmiemy psa, bo oni ciągle jakoś nie przyswajają, że nasze studia zaoczne to najczęściej 12h i 12h w dwa jedyne wolne dni, często na uczelni stacjonarnie (w tym semestrze). Że nasza sunia po prostu nie ma z kim wtedy wyjść na spacer i z tęsknoty może zacząć szczekać, co może odpalić znowu sąsiada z dołu... i zgotować nam więcej problemów do zmartwień, stresu i zburzenia poczucia bezpieczeństwa.

Eh... No ale kminię. Rozumiem, że oni też potrzebują tego wypadu w naturę - inaczej zwariują, dla nich góry to paliwo do żyćka, rozumiem to. Dlatego w piątek jechałam po psa do rodziców (a nie jak planowałam przed wyjazdem na urlop - odebrać ją dziś, w poniedziałek, po zjazdowym weekendzie, po pracy). Tęskniłam za małą - to fakt, wykochałam ją bardzo, cudowna kruszynka <3 (w ogóle zobaczenie jej po tylu tygodniach i takie trzeźwe spojrzenie na tego malucha było ciekawe: jest większa niż mi się wydaje być, a jej futerko jest znacznie bardziej mięciutkie niż można zkładać - wydaje się mieć bardziej szorstką sierść, a wciąż jest puszysta i aksamitnie gładka), fanie było się spotkać z rodzicami, ale wróciłam też zmęczona...

Nie udało się nam załatwić opieki żadnego chętnego psio-wujka czy psioci na weekend, więc nasza sunia cały weekend była z nami na uczelni. xD To wymagało zaskakująco sporo Tetrisa. Było trudno, ale daliśmy radę. Niestety to też było stresujące dla pieska... A to najgorsze, mam nadzieję, że takie sytuacje awaryjne nie wypadną już. Fajnie, że dało się jednak wszystko rozwiązać kompromisem i że władze uczelni nie miały z tym problemu.

ALE co fajniejsze: siostra cały weekend relacjonowała mi ich wypad w Karkonosze - młody czuł się wspaniale, miał warunki jak pączuś w maśle. Pogoda dopisała. Dzieciak całą drogę na szczyt przespał wtulony w tatusia (xD kwiczałam xD siostra też - co za sytuacja, najcięższa część podróży przespana), a w drodze na dół sobie słodko, dziecięco gadał. Po prostu coś tam "ga-ga-ga-ga!" z różną intonacją patrząc to na tatę, to na mamę i się chichrając, marszcząc, oburzając, zachwycając i w ogóle przeżywając. Nie wiadomo co przeżywał, może to, że jest wytrzęsiony, może, że fajne widoki, albo inne powietrze. Wszystkich nas cieszył jego gawędziarski entuzjazm (siostra przesyłała mi filmiki: Szwagier pyta "Co jeszcze powiesz mamie?", a młody patrzy w obiektyw telefonu siostry i "gagagaga-GA!" xD no urocze to, trudno się nie uśmiechnąć, tym bardziej, że zachęcany "no co ty, na prawdę?" robił miny i gaworzył jakieś pełne oburzenia potwierdzenie xD). Wiadomo było, że wygadany był, chętny do interakcji i zupełnie niezainteresowany płakaniem ze zmęczenia czy stresu. Nockę też przespał. Pierwszy szczyt i pieczątka ze schroniska zaliczona. Można skrzata zabierać w górki! Sis i Szwagier w niebo wzięci ze szczęścia, głowy wywietrzone, tęsknoty częściowo zaspokojone.

Jedyna wykończona osoba z ich rodzinki po tym weekendzie to Szwagier, który nie chciał się zamieniać z żoną nosidełkiem, tym bardziej podczas tej drogi na szczyt, gdy młody spał wtulony w tatusia. No i tatuś opłacił to kolejnego dnia poczuciem zmordowania i bólem (pleców, barków, bioder, nóg - wszystkiego). Więc wrócili trochę wcześniej niż planowali, aby tatuś mógł się położyć wcześniej we własnym łóżku.

No, ale wracając, bo ja to piszę po to, by napisać to co pisać będę dopiero teraz! O matko, jak dużo się dzieje, a doba jest zbyt krótka!

Zadeklarowałam, że zrobię opracowanie graficzne case study - tej pracy na zaliczenie tych zajęć wczorajszych. Część mamy już odwalone na ćwiczeniach i chciałam to prędziutko spisać, póki jestem na świeżo, póki pamiętam cały poczyniony research. No i przepadłam. Serio - przepadłam. Im głębiej w temat tym więcej niuansów. No i tej event, który opracowujemy, jego strona tegoroczna... miałam tylko pozapisywać informację, ale przepadłam czytając program...

Będzie 1 - koncert ulubionego zespołu mojego chłopaka (z Polski), 2 - będzie spotkanie autorskie z ulubionym pisarzem mojego chłopaka (takim ever-ulubionym, takim, którego czyta, kupuje wszystko co wyszło spod ręki tego typa - a wyszły rzeczy w różnych dziedzinach i kategoriach; taki typ, którego twórczość mój chłopak wspiera na patronite i który czasem pisze z nim, albo pisze ze mną xD o moim partnerze - SERIO, zaskakująco zabawny, fajny i nienapuszony typ, chociaż ma powody by unosić się dumą, ale tego wybiera nie robić), 3 - zajęcia prowadzone przez typów robiących rzeczy, które mój chłopak studiuje, które dają u frajdę i których się uczy.

No i gdzie ja znajdę inną imprezę, która ma JEDNOCZEŚNIE te wszystkie trzy rzeczy, które jarają mojego faceta? No gdzie? Koncert, warsztaty i spotkanie autorskie? Ech. Skończyłam na planowaniu budżetu by kupić bilety xD - ALE tego dnia mamy weekend zjazdowy, stacjonarnie, więc nic z tego, nie wyjdzie.

I co? I nic wczoraj nie zrobiłam, nie przygotowałam prezentacji i zarazem jestem do tyłu o wykonanie pracy z zajęć z których się urwałam.

Ech...

Jak wydłużyć dobę?

JEstem taka zmęczona...

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vapnvibes · 1 year ago

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Which is your pick?

Actual “fun” fact BC/EB Create IS actually ELF BAR! There’s just been legal/red tape issues. They’re slowly fazing out the brand name ELF BAR! BC/EB now is falling under that umbrella so if those are your favs. I’d grab them while you can!

#vapelife #vaping #tumblr polls #pick one #motivation #vape brands

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a-z0-9-i-n-gram-completionist · 11 months ago

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nudity isn't inherently sexual but when the nudity is sexual BARK BARK BARK BARK you know?

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08 MARCH - NOVOSIBIRSK, RU @ EXPOCENTRE

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Дошла инфа, что в Новосибирске распускают слухи, об отмене концерта. Не подгоняйтесь - концерт состоится в любом случае! Активисты, моралисты просто хотят на этом заработать себе имя. Мы действуем в рамках закона, готовим большое шоу и его должен увидеть мой родной город. При любых раскладах 8-го марта я с вами, а значит будет разъёб!

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levis-coffeecup · 3 years ago

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Chapter 15 | All that is lost

WC-9.9 k

Content/Warnings

canon- compliant, canon-typical violence, descriptions of PTSD, grief, depression, heavy angst and themes, strong language.

Author's note:

Brace yourself for this really really long chapter, because some it's almost 10k words long and idk how.

There are 2 scenes in this one, and the first one takes place a month after chapter 14, where Levi and Mae kinda confront each other. And the second scene is a month after that. (So basically, 2 months covered in this one chapter)

Also I'm sorry, there's been quite a delay on my side. Its 1:26 in the morning which does mean that I'm almost 1 and a half our late and Sunday has already ended. But also the fact that I had been posting in the afternoon the past weeks. (I was in my hostel and we don't have good internet there at night, so I was posting the chapters early, but now I'm back home for a week, so I took my time🤡)

So in short, i'm really sorry if someone was waiting and i showed up 12 hours later lol.

The song for this chapter is lost on you - by LP. I hope you guys like it!

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Cold air blows in Mae’s face, as she wipes the tear that rolls down her cheek. The river streams below the rock she sits on. And the moon is out, crescent shaped today. Shining its light on the clearing in the forest.

She takes in a deep breath as she looks down at the ebbing river. And even though she doesn’t see her reddened face in all the darkness, she doesn’t need sight to know that her face is swollen from all the crying.

She’s doing well as a doctor. The bar is good as well, no man has gawked at her ever since the Levi incident. And she’s not alone, she has Hange and Raz.

Things are fine, and there is no blatant reason to be upset. But she is still crying.

It feels like there is so much sadness trapped inside of her. And she doesn’t know why it's here or how it got here. But she carries it everywhere… And it comes out at random times, in the form of the quaking of her shoulders and the glossy film that covers her eyes.

Her tears feel cold against the blowing wind. The sound of the flowing river fills her ears. And the stars in the sky blur out due to the moisture laced in her eyes.

It's been so long since she’s been here. To her spot, to the place that used to offer her so much solace.

But today, as she sits here and feels the sturdy rock beneath her body, she is reminded of the time when she first met Levi. Days spent sitting under a cedar tree, on the outskirts of the clearing. Giving a mere stranger some space because to her he looked upset.

And now he stands behind the same tree where she once sat. Staring at her instead as she cries on the rock. The tables have turned and life has drastically changed. And there seems no way for things to get back to how they once were. So naive yet spiteful.

September is about to end in a week, And it's almost been 2 months since that day when Levi beat up that creepy customer and created a scene. And since then he’s been coming to the bar daily, he hasn’t missed a single day.

He stays at the bar for her entire shift. From 8 to 12. Glaring at anyone who even looks at her. And it's not just that.

He follows her back to her house as well, and he only leaves when he sees her shut the door and blow the candles off. Resting safely inside her home.

And oh! How hard she has tried to get rid of him.

She left his table uncleaned. Told Raz to ignore him and not serve him anything. She even added salt in his tea some days, and yet he drank it without filing a single complaint to the manager. Without even making a face.

And she’s failing again. History is repeating itself. In the most ironic way. Just like 2 years back, when she was trying to get him out of her spot.

And yes his presence does make the bar a much safer place. Raz feels more comfortable as well. But Mae doesn’t want her stupid heart to throb for him once again.

She wants to forget about him. She left her job, she left everything she had, for this, and now he comes chasing after her. Acting like her bodyguard.

Acting like the man she fell in love with.

Her mind feels heavy with thoughts. And her thoughts are crashing inside her like a hurricane. Messing up everything that stands its way. Her head throbs and she clutches it with both of her hands. Her fingers dig into her scalp and she lets out a frustrated groan.

It's all the same, just like all those days back then. She isn’t able to get him out of her spot and she isn’t even able to get him out of her heart.

And Mae doesn’t understand how Levi is even managing everything? Have his duties as a captain magically reduced? Or does he not need any sleep anymore?

Her mind flashes back to the day after, when she lashed out on him. Weak and miserable, begging for him to cooperate.

It was raining, so hard that Mae thought a storm would come in.

The bar was jam packed, filled with customers and people taking shelter from the rain.

And words couldn’t describe the disappointment on her face, when she found Levi sitting at the same cornered table, with that same damned cloak on. As if she never begged him to get away from, just a day prior.

The rain stalled for a minute. And her feet moved on a will of their own, ignoring all the customers who were waiting for her to come to their table.

She pinched the fabric of his cloak, and dragged him outside the noisy bar.

The streets were quiet and water filled up all the crevices in the cobblestone path. There was hardly anyone in sight, and to Mae this filthy, mud covered street seemed like the perfect place to confront Levi.

Or maybe it was her desperation, her mind that was begging her heart to forget him. And her heart, that was poorly failing. Trying everything in hand to not think about him,

And yet he was here at the bar, acting as if nothing wrong ever happened between them. Acting like she still was his friend, and he still cared.

Mae pivoted around, hand still clenching on to the fabric on Levi’s shoulder. And her face was filled with venom as she sneered. “Why are you here when all I want from you is to not be in my life anymore?”

But Levi was quiet as usual, head facing down and body so still, as if she wasn't even saying anything . It reminded Mae of the day she confessed to him.

And anger seeped into her system, at his lack of response. “LEVI! I’M A MARRIED WOMAN, YOU NEED TO STOP PLAYING THESE GAMES WITH ME.”

Levi remained quiet again. His cloak covered half of his face. And Mae couldn’t see the expressions on his face, but she knew the man in front of her wasn’t the indifferent, cold man who never breaks out of his demeanor.

It was something else, maybe a part of him that he had caged deep within him.

Thunder cackled through the clouds, and it was only at that moment that Levi looked up. Reaching his hand forward towards Mae, that he knows, shudders at the sound of thunder.

And it was true. She had shriveled up, hands hugging herself and eyes wide in a moment of fear.

Her heart was beating faster, and she didn’t know whether it's for the thunder that scared her, or for Levi’s hand hovering over her shoulder.

She never told him that she’s afraid of thunder… it must have been something he observed. And just like always he knew her like the back of his hand. Every fear, every desire and every thought.

It felt like time had frozen. They looked at each other, eyes filled with unspoken words and buried emotions.

One contemplating whether it was wrong of her heart to still beat for him, when she had long decided that she needed to forget him. And the other contemplating whether he was allowed to touch her anymore.

The silence was broken by thunder once again. The rain picked up, even stronger this time. Drenching the both of them whole in a matter of seconds.

But they stood still, lost in time and in the downpour of their emotions.

Mae heaved out a sigh as she pulled her eyes away from him.

She hated herself. She hated herself so much for being weak. For still feeling for a man who had hurt her so many times. Who’s thoughts still made her cry every night.

She turned to his hand that hovered over her shoulder, and forced a grimace on her face. And Levi withdrew his arm back, as his eyes fell back to the ground once again.

“Mae… “ His voice cracked and he took in a breath to compose himself. “Yesterday you told me that it’s a person’s will that’s the strongest… And you were right, because I can only break their bones and dislocate their shoulders, but they still have the choice to not surrender, even if they are in a… horrible condition.”

He looked up at her and a fire reflected in his eyes. “Your life is your own, and at the end you can do whatever with it. You can choose anything from the options in front of you, even if the options are shitty… And I have chosen for myself to stay here. Because I’m not leaving you to work all alone at night…That’s my will. Do whatever you want. I’m not going to let anyone harm you here… and I’m not going to leave.”

His resolve was evident in his voice and Mae’s lips quivered as she took in a shaky exhale.

Why was he here acting like the man she fell for, when all she wanted to do was forget him? Couldn’t he just continue being an asshole and make things easier for her?

Why was he here with his decision to stay, when all she wanted was for him to be gone from her life and her heart?

The rain pattered against her frame, and she was grateful, because it hid her tears so well.

But this was Levi we are talking about. The man who knows her as well as the back of his hand.

She turned around, wanting to be as far away from him as she could. But Levi’s hand was quick to grab on to her wrist. He didn’t want her to leave with a sullen expression like that.

He’s wanted her happy, he’s always wanted her happy.

Her head swiveled, and she looked back at him. Face blank and eyes cold.

“M-Mae, I’ll never hurt you,” his voice cracked.

A painful expression took over Mae’s face. ‘You've already hurt me Levi,’ it said. And Levi’s eyes widened as it told him exactly what she was thinking./ everything about the thought in her head.

“.... physically.” He muttered out, to save himself from the weight of his own actions.

His hand was still latched onto her wrist. It was cold and Levi’s body was always the first to lose its warmth when the weather dropped.

And he was sodden in the rainwater… he could catch a cold.

But Mae wasn’t supposed to care about him anymore.

So she shaked her hand out of his grasp. And walked back into the bar with heavy steps.

Levi has always been a violent man. This clearing itself stands a testament to it.

The first day she went to him, he tackled her to the ground. And the other day in the market, he beat someone up just because they were looking at him?

But there is more to it, Levi doesn't just beat up people for looking at him. If that was the case, then she would have been long dead by now.

Hange says Levi gets violent when he’s angry, annoyed or overwhelmed, sometimes even when he’s stressed. Or when he needs to prove a point.

In a way violence is how he expresses himself. He doesn’t crack under the pressure, he explodes loud enough that everyone feels his rage.

It has something to do with his past, Hange said. He has had it very harsh, they said.

And Mae can’t help but think how brutal Levi’s past must have been, if he believes in philosophies like ‘strength is all I need to survive’?

She lets out a defeated sigh, as another tear slips down her eye.

Why he did what he didn’t doesn’t matter. It shouldn’t matter.

The point is that Levi is a violent man, and she’s known that ever since the day she met him.

So why did her heart manage to discard the things she already knew about him? How did she be so blind in her love for him?

Levi never told her much about himself. Yeah, she knows about all his likes and dislikes, and all his small quirks. But she doesn’t know about his past, she doesn’t know about his parents. Heck, she doesn’t even know his surname.

And the irony is that she doesn’t know him well. But right now it feels like she doesn’t know herself as well.

She looks into the mirror and she doesn’t know the woman who blinks back at her.

Because the woman she thought she was, was cautious. Never a risk taker. Always walking meters away from any danger.

And even though she has always been quite sentimental, a part of her was always rational. Able to decipher the truth between all her emotions.

She knew that the evacuees would be abandoned one day. She knew that she wouldn’t be able to save her parents. Because the odds were against it. And it was the bitter truth that her heart learned to accept the first month after the announcement of the mission itself.

And no smart person offers food to a cat that bites back.

Then why is her heart so hell bent on playing with fire? Why is a part of her so adamant on understanding why Levi did things the way he did?

It's only now that she sees the way she’s latched on to him. The death of her loved ones left a void in her heart and Levi was the quick relief that took all her pain away. And she was so distracted by the rush of her heart that she hardly paid any attention to the void that weakened her from the inside.

He was something she relied on, instead of strengthening her own will. And it's been 4 months since the day he held her up by the collar, but imagining a life without him still feels hard.

It's cold, so cold. Her teeth clatter, and her body shivers. She crosses her arms and places her hands on her shoulders. Trying to warm her body by rubbing her palms.

But the sound of footsteps comes to her notice. They are silent and fast, like Levi’s. And she knows they are coming towards her because of the fallen leaves that they crush on their path.

The footsteps are coming closer but she is reluctant to turn around. For once she wants to be lost in her own world, without any reminder of reality. For once she wants to be left alone.

A coat falls onto her lap . It's the Survey Corps cloak. And the hands that keep it next to her are pale and calloused.

“You’ll catch a cold.” Levi’s voice is gentle. And she doesn’t need to cast a glance to know he’s wearing a thin white cotton shirt himself. Because she’s seen him throughout her entire shift plenty of times already.

Levi stays there for a moment, standing next to her, and staring at the river ahead.

He follows Mae back everyday. And he sees the house she’s now living in. It's despicable, just a single room, with a metal shed on top, in the poorest section of the city.

She’s working as a waitress. Living in a house, smaller than the dorms in the Headquarters.Working at a cheap clinic in the slums.

And all he wants to do is to beat that damned Ivan. He wants to steal all his money and get her settled in Sina. This isn’t the life he wanted for her. This isn’t the life that he distanced himself from her, for.

But he holds it all inside of him. She wants him out of her life and he doesn’t have the right to barge into her life anymore. Not when he himself kicked her out of his.

And he blames himself for the situation she’s in. He should have interrogated that fucking husband of hers personally, and he should have spoken to Mae as well.

He should have taken her thoughts into consideration, before assuming what's best for her.

And he’s so ashamed of himself, that he doesn’t even find the courage to look at her. He failed her, he hurt her. The one person who’s cared for him selflessly. The one person who’s been gentle with him.

But if he did take a chance and meet her eyes, then he would see the sadness trapped in her insides.

Mae shifts her position, so her back faces Levi and he doesn’t see her cry.

There goes her heart beating faster again at the gesture. And there goes Levi, toying with her feelings once again.

At this point she’ll never get over him.

And Levi grimaces, as Mae keeps his cloak on the spot next to her instead of wearing it. An exhausted sigh escapes his mouth, and then he turns around and walks back to the cedar tree.

But he lets the cloak be, on the rock, just beside Mae. Just in case it gets too cold and she changes her mind.

His footsteps fade away and Mae shudders as another tear escapes her eye.

Every time Levi comes to her, the same question surfaces in her mind.

What about her bandaging his hand out of sheer concern made him feel cornered and pushed him into a state of violence?

What about her just trying to be a good friend and looking out for him, got on his nerves?

Was she being too annoying back then? Did he need more space? And did she fail in giving him that?

Because it's so annoying now, when he follows her back to her house everyday. Yeah, his intentions are good and he’s just protecting her, but she doesn’t want him here. She wants to stay away from him.

And she can’t help but think that maybe Levi felt the same way back then as well.

Her father always told her that it's in the toughest times that teach you the most.

And the past months have been so painful, if nothing she wants to learn something from it. She wants to come out a better person.

Nothing in her control is in her life anymore. She’s making money but it's not enough. She has a job but its not stable enough. And the one thing she was sure of that she would do, was forgetting Levi.

And even that seems impossible now that he’s always in front of her.

But the hate she has for him, is a poison in her own heart. And she doesn’t remember the last time she truly felt happy

Her face turns into distaste every time she sees him. And it's sad that she still has so much power over her. Enough to ruin her mood at the mere sight of him.

It's only now that Mae realizes that ever since her parents died she only found happiness in Levi. And he became the source of all her joy.

And it's time she takes control of her happiness. It's time she learns to make herself happy.

Maybe they were never meant to be, but one thing's for sure. Levi’s care wasn’t a pretense. It wasn’t an act he put up just to earn her favor. And maybe Hange was right all along. Maybe he does like her.

But the moment is long gone, and things have forever changed.

No feelings can undo what happened between them.

And she’ll learn to forgive him, but she’ll not let him in her life until he gives her a valid explanation for his actions that day. Not until he proves to her that violence isn’t something he goes to whenever he gets angry. That his violence isn’t a beast that he can’t tame.

The unknown is unfolding.

She doesn’t know where she’s headed, she doesn’t know where she’ll be a few months from now. And she doesn’t know what’s going to happen between her and Levi.

But the stars are twinkling brightly above her, and it reminds her of the words she told Levi on that starry night.

“There will always be so many things that are out of my control, but I just want to keep doing all that I can. I want to stand tall amidst all the chaos and I want to make the most of the limited time I have…”

The things that are happening are out of her control again. And she is trying her best. Once again it's time to make peace with it. It's time to heal.

And she’ll learn to be patient with the heart that she’s hated for so long. And maybe she’ll stumble on the path, make a mistake and flop down. But she’ll get up.

She has to get up.

The water gushes below her, moving through every obstacle its way.

And just like the water, she’ll learn to persevere.

She’ll learn to let go, and be carefree. She’ll learn to be light and to not take everything so seriously.

And she’ll adapt to every situation and find happiness no matter what.

And just like the ebbing water, she’ll go where the wind takes her. She’ll change, she’ll learn and she will have the faith that good things are coming for her.

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OCT 846

The sound of clinking glasses echoes through the illuminated halls of Tipsy Titan Hours. And the once cramped bar, mellows down as the moon rises higher and higher.

Raz glances back, her head whirling and eyes lagging, as she scans across the empty seats and tables for the millionth time. And once again her eyes are quick to land on the quiet table in the corner. ”My vision is hazy, but I'm ssure he's still starin' at ya.”

"...It doesn’t matter anymore.” Mae hisses as the cool metal of the jug meets her sodden lips. The golden beverage promptly washes down her throat, and a burning sensation now covers its trail.

She slams her jug on the desk, and rolls her head back in contentment, "my head hurt-sh... but 'tis feels good, to just forget for some time."

Glasses clink, and in a matter of seconds they are empty as well. Raz pushes herself up again. Hands propping against the stale table as she gets up to bring another beer bottle.

It's around 12. Working hours are close to an end, and perched on the center table are the waitresses, wasted.

Today has been a hectic day. A celebration marking the one year anniversary of Tipsy Titan Hours. Free drinks were served to everyone, and the bar was jam-packed for hours.

But now that roaring crowd has finally dulled, and the workers are free to have whatever they want as well. After all, it's their hard work that has also contributed to the success.

And so, Mae has been spending the past hour drinking. It's not something she would have done a few months back. But she is changing, and what is life if you don’t open yourself to new experiences?

Levi sighs with distaste, as he looks at her empty another mug down. The table she sits on is filled with blotches of alcohol. Fuck that, the entire tavern is so damn dirty, usually it just stinks of booze but today it stinks of sweat as well. Because of all the people who have danced here in their drunken state today.

And instead of cleaning all the shit up, the waitresses lay wasted. Gulping bottle after bottle themselves. Every inch of Levi’s body is telling him to leave and it's taking every ounce of resolve left in him to stay put in place.

Tch, if he knew that his life would end up like this, then he wouldn’t leave the underground in the first place.

He takes his eyes off the musty tavern and looks at the window next to him. Staring at the streets of Jinae, which are empty and quaintly silent.

He just hopes that Mae knows what she’s doing, and she isn’t wasting her life away.

Thoughts of her fill his head again, and he turns his head to watch that silly, drunken lady who captures all his heart.

But he only pots Raz. Mae’s seat is empty and he doesn’t see her around the other tables as well.

Levi's face contorts into a frown as worry swells up in his heart, and in an instant he gets up and marches towards Raz. "Where is she?"

"Uhm... to my left." Raz speaks blankly, and she swivels her head to the left. Only to be met with an empty seat again. "To my right then.”

“Your drunk as fuck," Levi jabs as he turns around and wanders through the dimly lit interior.

And Mae’s name tumbles out of his lips as soon as he spots her through the partly open bathroom door.

She’s on the floor, body hunched over the toilet seat, as violent fits make her lurch forward and empty the contents of her stomach out.

In a breath, he’s beside her, holding her soiled hair back as he stares at her face, flushed and sticky with sweat.

The bathroom is the filthiest of them all, and the stench of the washroom and alcohol, makes his nose crinkle in utter distaste. But more than that, it's Mae.

She reeks. Of sweat, ale, and vomit. And a dark crease runs along Levi’s forehead as his eyes hover over her face. It's a pity to see her in a condition like this.

Her brows are pulled close, and numerous lines of tension are forged between them. And her eyes are shut tight as soft pants leave her smeared, red lips.

And as filthy as she looks, she also looks like she is in pain. And so, his free hand finds its way to her back, rubbing long strokes, in an attempt to soothe her.

Mae looks at him solemnly. And Levi doesn't miss the slight downturn of her lips and how instantaneously her hand grips the wall for support as she tries to stand up.

Only to fall into his grasp once again.

"You can't even hold yourself upright,” he comments.

She throws a wary look his way and tries to free herself from his clutches. But Levi holds her upper arm in an iron grip. ”Don’t act so reckless, you’ll fall to the ground and hurt yourself”

But obviously she doesn’t listen and continues to struggle to take her arm out of his. “Levi,” she squirms as her brows scrunch up in frustration.

And Levi freezes, eyes wide and lips parted in fright. Shit, did he mess up again, was that way too harsh? Did he hurt her… again?

In an instant, he takes his hand away from her and staggers back, caught off guard by the thought and the horrible feeling it brings along.

Mae wobbles away from him, out of the bathroom. Towards Raz, who has dozed off on the sodden table itself. And Levi watches her figure slowly fade away. Because these days, all that he can seem to do is to watch her slip away from him, again and again.

"RAAZ-" Mae extols, raising her arms up excitedly and shaking it side to side, with much vigor. But her loud call hardly seems to rouse the other waitress from slumber.

Her speed increases, and her heel lands on a wet patch on the floor. Her foot slips due to her hasty pace. And Mae doesn't know what surprises her more, her embarrassing fall or the hands that instantly catch her entire frame.

Levi is beside her again, one arm around her waist and one around her shoulder, as he helps her up. And he’s glad that the crowd has completely simmered down, and now it's just him, Mae, Raz and the cashier.

It will save Mae from all the embarrassment she’ll have to deal with tomorrow, when she comes back to her senses.

“Mae, let's go home.” Levi’s voice is soft and imploring.

But she ignores him and continues moving forward. Pace still as fast as before. And it's only his support that’s holding her upright and not letting her topple to the floor. “Mae, you’re going to hurt yourself this way… please… let me take you home,” he continues.

“Leviii,” she drones out, “do you have to be so damn stubborn and persistent all the time… I wanna have fun.” she pouts. And Levi sighs defeatedly as he helps her sit on the tall bar stool.

Raz is asleep right beside her, and Mae's entire attention shifts to her. She pokes and prods at her colleague. Whining like a little child, asking for her to wake up and have another shot with her.

And Levi looks at her softly.

“Raz is fast asleep, how about you sleep as well?” He says as he slides the beer bottles to his side of the table.

All he wants for now is to keep her away from alcohol. She’s vomited once, and if she keeps having alcohol after that then it will just lead to her stomach getting worse. And it might also lead to alcohol poisoning or blackouts.

“You know you come in my dreams sometimes… and how do I know I’m not already asleep and you aren’t dream’ Levi?” Mae’s words slur as slowly turns her head towards him.

Levi‘s posture stiffens and warmth gathers to his cheek. His perpetual shyness floods back to him, and it's been so long since he has felt this way. His lips quirk up a little, reminiscing such moments that would happen so often in the past. And at the fact that she dreams of him…

And well he thinks of her too. She’s stuck in his mind and seated in the chambers of his heart. Like a guest who’s way too comfortable. Who’s found his place and will never go back home.

And just like he can’t tear his heart away from her, he can’t take his eyes off her as well.

Every part of Mae’s face is tinted red. Her eyes are red, her cheeks are red. And Levi is so dazed by the situation that he can’t even make out whether the reducing distance between them is just a stupid imagining of his heart. Or whether Mae is actually so drunk that she is leaning forward… to kiss him or something.

Then he feels her breath graze the slant of his nose. And he freezes, eyes wide and any intake of breath, halted.

“I’m gonna be wild tonight,” she says as she looks into his eyes. Face extremely close to his and her hand reaching out towards the beer bottles that he has stacked at the other end.

"W-what?" Levi almost topples off his chair, his ears flushing red as inappropriate scenarios fill his head. And god bless his quick instincts and his fingers, that clutch on to the table and help him balance himself.

"I am gonna drink till 1, and then I'm gonna dance till 2, which is why I can't go home now… you need to understand." She pleads with seriousness as she drags a bottle from his side to hers. And the sound of glass screeching against the wood, brings Levi back to his senses.

“Oi,” he warns as he snatches the bottle away from her and shakes his head.

“But Levi… I want more.” She pouts and he sighs to himself. She’s going to be in a horrible state tomorrow morning. Probably regretting everything and down with a nasty headache.

But she’s made her decision, even though in a shitty state. And he has crossed his boundaries once, but he’s not going to do that again. He has no right to tell her how to live her life, when he himself kicked her out of his.

And so he’ll protect her from the sidelines, he won’t impose his choices on her anymore. Because that is what caused all the mess in the first place.

So Levi watches, as she ruins herself. And he’s beside her, filling her glass with water whenever she reaches out for some beer. And he’s beside her, holding her hair back whenever she’s in the bathroom, vomiting. Even when it hurts to see her like this.

It's a little against his judgment, but he isn’t going to stop her from doing what she wants. As long as she is safe, he’s fine with it. And as long as he’s here, he’ll let nothing happen to her.

And as much as he’d say she’s in a pitiful and defenseless position right now, she’s smiling. And it's been so long since he has seen her like this. So lively and untroubled.

And so he’s beside her, ready to catch her whenever she gets up to dance.

He scans the tavern once more, checking for any dangerous objects that Mae might hurt herself with. And his eyes land on the cashier, who’s busy watching the both of them, instead of reading the damned novel in her hand. A string of curses fly out of his mouth at her prying eyes and her callous attitude, and he flashes her a disdainful look.

But then his eyes land back on Mae and they soften once again. She’s prancing around the tavern, halting at a chair, or speaking to a flower vase placed in a corner. Like a child, so bright and carefree. And it's been so long since he has seen her like this. Without any worry or a tear rolling down her cheek.

He would see this side of hers so often. In the days when she would share without thinking about how much she’s receiving in return. And when she would put hours of effort just to make him some pie to appreciate the small wins of his life.

It was the part of her that loved selflessly, that cared limitlessly. Without taking into account the cruel realities of the world… and of people. And he hurt her… He hurt the inner child that she so courageously showed him.

And even though it's completely his fault, he’s tired of seeing her hurting.

She smiles at everyone, but it never meets her eyes. And even though no one else might be able to tell the difference, Levi can see the sadness brimming inside her.

Even now, her cover of sadness is only broken due to temporary the haze of the alcohol.

But he’s glad nevertheless. He’s glad she can have a single moment of rest and he can have a moment of reprieve as well.

Mae reaches to his usual table, and lifts the tote bag he always carries around up. And Levi throws her a thumbs up in return, indicating she can do whatever she wants with it.

And she takes a red book out of it. The same red one that made him realize his feelings for her. The Fable of the Fallen Apple.

She shuffles towards him, and takes a seat on the bar stool next to him. And then she starts reading the story to him, just like the good old times.

It reminds him of the days when she used to tutor him, except she’s holding the book in the opposite direction.

And he looks at her, chin resting on his palm and fingers drumming against his cheek. Eyes as soft as possible.

He decides he likes it. Even though her words are slurring and things just hardly make sense.

It's been so long since she has been like this with him. Having a normal conversation and not caring what anyone else thinks,

And very soon this will also fade. The contempt in her eyes will be back, and her voice will be quelled with sadness again. And he’ll go back to watching her walk away from him. Again and again.

And so he stays in the moment today. Savoring every word she says and every breath she takes, so it doesn’t hurt as much when she’s gone.

Half an hour passes by and the cashier finally says that it's time to close the tavern now. That working hours are close to an end, and it's time to wind up and clean the place.

Levi gets up as soon as hears the words. And makes his way towards her with some money in his hand.

“Sir you don’t have to pay today,” she responds politely as Levi extends the cash forwards towards her.

“This…,” he throws her a stern look but no one can deny the ever darkening hue on his cheek. It's prominent even in the dim light.”... Is too keep your mouth shut about all that was happening today.”

“… And,” Levi continues. “Make sure she reaches home safe, that redhead who is fast asleep right there.” He points towards Raz, who’s now snoring in her slumber.

Mae rests there as well. Almost mimicking Raz's position as she rests her head on the table. Utterly exhausted with all the prancing she has done in the past hour.

His face softens in an instant.

Today she’s not here. The cautious, caring woman whose father told her to only drink in a safe place, with safe people. And today he’ll be gentle and patient, the man that he failed to be for her.

He walks over to her, and dotingly his hand lands on her shoulder. "Mae, let's go home."

She shifts her head towards him, and the slits of her eyes lazily open for a split second as she glances at him. But she remains quiet and offers him no response.

“The store is closing… we need to go home now.”

But the request garners no response again.

"Mae, please, let me take you to your house."

"B-but… I don't wanna go home. I don’t like it there." She mutters out slowly and he grimaces as the words leave her mouth.

The sound of footsteps coming close feels louder in the silence that settles between Levi and Mae. And the tension in the air only reduces when the cashier steps in, and stands next to Raz.

And Mae tries to get up as well, as she sees Raz being woken up. But she’s had so much alcohol that she can’t even stand on her own feet.

And Levi sees only one solution to the problem.

“We’ll go to the headquarters okay… that works for you?” He speaks out a little softer. He may not have the right to pry into her life anymore and know all her problems. But he’s still here for her, and he’ll still help her whatever way he can.

She hums in agreement, and slowly they make their way out of the musty tavern.

The streets are quiet, the night is dark. The light from the street lamps brings out the texture of that cobblestone path. And Mae’s front is pressed to Levi’s back as he carries her back to the Survey Corps headquarters. Giving her a piggyback ride.

Her calves sway along with every step he takes, and her face is beside his, so close that he can feel her breath in and out. A gush of air hits their face, and he breathes in a sigh of relief.

Finally he’s out of that filthy tavern and fresh air touches his face again.

“This feels awfully familiar doesn’t it Levi.” Mae mutters, voice low and hoarse from all the drinking she’s done with Raz today.

And Levi reminisces a little as he thinks of the day when those thugs attacked him. She stayed with him, begging and yelling that she won’t leave when he was repeatedly telling her he’d be fine on his own.

It is a memory he will cherish forever. “It does, except this time you are stinking.”

Mae falls quiet at his words and then she exhales heavily. “I really despise you sometimes Levi. You play with my heart in the worst ways possible.”

He falls quiet at her statement, and his shoulders wilt a little. A question lingers in the back of his head. One that he has been wanting to ask her forever. Do you hate me?... Because sometimes I hate myself too.

But she beats him to it.

“But I still can’t bring myself to hate you… I don’t think I could ever hate you… You saved me and then you hurt me. But you were you all along. It was me, who’s perception was distorted. It was me who clung to you because I thought I couldn’t do without you. I had low self esteem, I was lonely. And so I was the reason for all my heartache…” She pauses, and then her voice comes out much more sadder. ”I know I messed up and I should learn to find happiness all alone. I should have been more careful, less naive but it just hurts sometimes you know. …I’m never the first choice. Be it with Mr. Mendes, be it with you. I give all that I have in all my relationships. And every time someone else turns out to be more valuable than me…”

She lets out a sigh as she rests her chin on his clavicle and mutters,” I miss my parents so much. My friends as well. I don’t even know why I bothered staying. I should have just worn an olive cloak and offered myself to a titan.’ A sardonic laugh escapes her mouth.

And Levi frowns at the miserable joke. "Shut it, it's not funny. Don’t joke about dying to the titans.”

“I know I shouldn’t…” her voice cracks and somehow it turns more melancholic. “ But it’s so lonely without them, my family, my friends… Everything feels worthless.”

What she is saying right now, is what she feels in the depths of her heart. Things she knows she might be wrong for feeling. And thoughts she knows, that will get her nowhere.

These are the thoughts she doesn’t want to settle with, and the thoughts she’s always fighting against. These are things that she’s admitting in her drunken state.

And Levi wants to cower and hide. He’s never been good at consoling and shit, and he wants to act like she never said all these things. He wants to continue staying invulnerable and never get his feelings out.

But he also knows these feelings all too well. These feelings of loneliness. And he doesn’t want her to suffer all alone with them, just like he does.

“Also I am heartbroken but I’m not dumb. I’m only telling you all this because you are ‘dream’ Levi, and just my imagination…The actual Levi will never touch me in a state like this… I am absolutely filthy.” She starts rambling, and in all her chatter, Levi tries to compose himself.

And he can feel the heat gathering to his cheeks as he tries to force some words out. “L-listen M-Mae.”

It's hard. It doesn’t suit him and he's so unused to speaking out loud about his feelings. But he’s not going to let her feel miserable forever. He’s not going to succumb to his inner demons.

And he is going to comfort her with all the softness that remains in his heart. “You are not all a-alone… y-you might not consider it, b-but I am–.” He pauses again, to collect his thoughts, and calm himself.

The air is heavy. And Levi is fumbling and stuttering with the way he is expressing himself. And much to his relief the moment is broken by sudden taps on his shoulder.

.“Levi, something’s coming up… I can feel it.” Mae speaks with urgency.

And he almost freezes for a second. All thoughts of Mae and her loneliness simmer away, and for the first time in many years, Levi panics.

“NO NO NO,” He gets frantic, eyes wide as he scans every nook and corner. Then he spots a tree, at least 50 meters away and he darts towards it. “You need to control it, hold it in. HOLD IT IN.”

“Levi h-hurry,” her voice is strained, and Levi tries to move as fast as possible, also making sure that his speed doesn’t further dislodge the contents in stomach.

The air feels heavy again, but this is a different kind of heavy. Filled with a different kind of suspense.

The tree is just a few meters away, but alas Levi is too late.

“Le-” an ungraceful, hideous sound pierces through the air. Right out of Mae’s mouth into his ear “-vi.”

And Levi halts in his tracks, eyes wide and eyebrows raised up, taking a moment to process what just happened.

And it’s only after a minute that he comes back to his senses and sneers, “you just BURPED, in my ear.”

Nevertheless, he’s very glad it's just a burp and not vomit.

Mae is still for a moment, and then she slouches again, chest pressing fully against his back as her chin goes back to resting on his collarbone. “‘M sorry… but Hange says why fart and waste it when you can burp and taste it.”

Laughter ripples past his lips. This time it isn't a stifled chuckle or a subtle giggle. But a loud obnoxious cackle. ”You and Hange… “ he speaks in between breaths. “You and Hange will be the death of me.”

And Mae smiles at his words as well. Because Hange is amazing and iconic.

Shops and houses pass by, as Levi resumes walking at his regular pace, and Mae’s eyes remain wide awake. Staring at all the stores, almost searching for something.

And then her eyes light up, when she spots a shop all too familiar. Decorated with creepers and veils climbing along its white walls. “Is the bakery open? Can we go inside it.”

“It's 1 in the morning, obviously they’ll keep it open for you.” Levi retorts with blatant sarcasm.

And she huffs against the crook of his neck in response. “I’ve not had a pastry in so long,” she drones out, and Levi frowns at her words. He vividly remembers how often she would have a pastry. Almost one every week because she's always been a firm believer of celebrating the small moments. And celebrating life in itself without any reason or accomplishment.

But he decides not to dwell on the topic any further, because it might make her upset.

“All that energy is finally depleting hmm? It’ll make you easier to handle… What’s got you so energetic today, anyways?” He asks, as he changes the subject.

“I’m happy! I had a lot of fun with Raz today.” Her voice lights up and even though Levi can’t see her face because of the position they are in. He knows that she is smiling with how sweet her voice sounds.

He smiles a little at that as well.

The rest of the journey passes by in silence. Mae closes her eyes and rests against Levi’s frame, and Levi listens to the thump of her heart against his chest . She’s so close to him, and she still stinks. But he’s glad nevertheless, He’s glad she had fun, and he’s glad he's getting to spend some time with her in so long.

In a way, all of this is wrong. She’s married and if she wasn't drunk she wouldn't let him touch her like that. But it's all going to fade away anyways. It will be ripped away from him just like everything is, and so he’ll stay while everything lasts, even if it's just for a day.

The headquarters come into sight. Time is running out, and a part of him doesn’t want to put her down. He wants to relish in her warmth that he's experiencing after so long.

But she needs rest, and she needs to sleep on a proper bed. So he enters the dim hallways and makes his way to his quarters.

His quarters are covered in darkness, with not a single candle flame flickering. But Levi knows this place as well as the back of his hand.

He places Mae on the couch, and quickly makes his way around to light a few candles.

And if Mae was in her senses she would have noticed that his room isn’t as clean as it used to be. The tea bags are hastily left on the kitchen counter, the bedsheet isn’t creaseless anymore. And what adds to it, is the stacks of paperwork piled both on his desk and even inside a few shelves.

But the alcohol rests heavy in her system, and her eyelids are shut close in exhaustion. She sighs in relief, finally a soft, comfortable surface to rest upon.

Much to her dismay, she is woken up by the sudden cool feeling that touches her skin. Her eyes open partially and Levi stands in front of her with a wet towel in his hands. “Levi let me sleep, what are you doing?” She calls out in frustration.

“It's not good to sleep with so much product on, not good for your skin… And your dress is stained everywhere, you are not sleeping on my bed with that on.”

But Mae feels so drowsy that she hardly listens to him. Her eyes close midway, heavy with sleep and she sits still on the couch, completely unbothered with whatever Levi is doing.

And Levi stands in front of her, dipping down from his back, as he scans her face. And cupping her jaw as he holds her face straight.

If only she’d open her eyes, she would see how close he is. She would see the red on his cheeks. And if only she wasn’t this sleepy, she would have felt how clammy his hands are, due to nervousness.

He takes in a deep breath and his hands quiver as he roves the towel over her eyelids. With all the gentleness that he can garner in his hardened fingertips. And as the makeup comes off from her skin, he sees the dark circles that now encircle her eyes, and skin that looks so dull and lifeless, filled with acne

And his silver eyes flock with concern as he stares at her a little longer.

She looks battered, like a worn out soldier who’s been strong for too long.

And she’s here, because she didn’t want to go home. She doesn’t like it there. The thought itself fills Levi’s mind with rage and fear.

And all that he knows for sure is that he is going to beat the shit out of her piece of a shit husband.

"Is your husband treating you like shit?" he asks, with his voice drawn taut and jaw clenched.

"What husband?" she mumbles incoherently.

And Levi sighs, as he looks at her and her passed out state. He gets up defeated, and picks the comb he brought along as well. And then he moves behind the couch and positions himself behind Mae’s seated figure. “Straighten up, I’ll comb your hair.”

She gives in thoughtlessly, and it's only when Levi sees the clumps of hair that fall out of her head, does he notice how thin her hair has gotten.

He realizes he hasn't seen her properly in months, and now he sees her on the verge of breaking.

He gets visibly sadder at the thought, and in a mere attempt to distract himself he gets up and stands in front of her again. Wrapping both of his hands around her upper arms as he says, “come I-I’ll help y-you g-get changed.”

Mae’s sleepy eyes open wide at that, and a new found energy grips her voice. “NO, thank you mister, I can change by myself.”

“You can’t even stand.” Levi mutters, as he gets her up to her feet, hands still clutching on to her so that she doesn’t drop to the floor.

“As far as my brain tells me,” she says, tapping her index finger to her temple, “standing and changing clothes are two completely different things.”

And Levi looks at her incredulously, almost taken aback by her stupidity. “Tch, you are so drunk,” he grumbles.

And Mae gets quiet for a moment, before she says. "I'm not drunk, I'm beautiful."

Levi looks up at her as she says those words. Her skin is now clean and fresh, ridden of the smudged makeup that once dawned on her face. And the ponytail she wears, gives him a full view of her tired eyes that burn with boldness and conviction.

Indeed very beautiful.

"My face is not disgusting," she continues, as her eyes bore into his. But Levi doesn’t miss the slight tremor of her lips.

His face falls and his heart sinks into a pit of disgrace.

Those were the words he'd told her, weren't they?

All of a sudden he’s reminded of who he is, and what he’s done. And it's only now that he understands how he has hurt her. With every look and every word.

His throat runs dry and he finds himself unable to speak a word, without disintegrating.

The silence becomes agonizing. And Levi backs away, as he realizes that if he looks at her any longer, then he will break. Into bits and pieces. Because more than her husband, he’s a reason for the condition she’s in as well.

He takes slow steps backwards, unable to take his eyes off the floor and meet hers.

He needs a distraction. He needs to think about something else. And so he darts towards his bedroom, and finds his way to his cupboard. Opening it and absent mindedly pulling out a shirt and a trouser.

And when he stands in front of Mae, he’s back to being aloof. It has always been like this, a moment of defenselessness until he shrouds behind his mask of nonchalance.

"Go change," he places the clothes in her hands and struts away. Giving in to her demands even though she’s probably going to trip and fall. But also, a little too scared to displease her any more than he’s already done.

"Levi, wait," Mae’s hand latches onto his wrist. "I don’t want this…want the gray one… The v neck, it is my faaavourite on you.”

His face softens at the words and that’s all it takes for his mask of indifference to fade, once again.

There's a child in her, and he hopes she can always keep it alive. He hopes it doesn’t wither away in the cruelty of life, like the child in him did.

His cheeks turn pink again as he glances at the shirt she is holding out, because she wants his gray one. And he makes a mental note to buy more in the same color.

As quick as ever, he gives in to her request, and hands her the gray shirt she demands.

At that her eyes squint and she flashes him the same smile that always takes his breath away. The same smile that makes him feel like he’s the reason behind all her joys. His cheeks turn pinker at the thought.

No one’s ever smiled at him the way she does. No one has looked at him with such warmth and affection. And he’s glad that he can see her smile like this one last time.

A part of him doesn’t want to leave. A part of him doesn’t want to go away so that she can change her clothes. A part of him doesn’t want to be apart from her a single second more.

But he’s wronged her a little too much, to still be around her. A little too much to still crave her company.

And so he walks her to his room, lights a candle there as well and ambles away. Because even though his heart gravitates towards Mae, he isn’t a man capable of love.

The office seems silent now that she is cooped up in his room. And Levi lets out a heavy exhale as he walks towards the small kitchenette placed at the adjacent wall.

He brews himself a cup of tea, and takes a seat on his desk. Eyes glazing over the stack of paperwork piled in front of him. Somehow, the familiarity of it all calms his nerves and he takes a sheet out and starts with his paperwork.

And he waits, for the sound of Mae collapsing to the floor, or the gate opening and her wobbly figure leaning on to the doorframe.

He waits, and he waits but she doesn’t come out.

And drunks are so annoying, he prays that he never has to deal with them again.

Time ticks out, curiosity gets the best of him, and he walks to his room.

And when he opens the door, he’s met with the sight of her resting on his bed and the faint sound of her snores.

The candlelight kept on his side table casts dancing shadows across her sleeping figure. Her mouth is slightly parted, and her hair is strewn messily on the pillow. And Levi can’t help but hold a breath in as he stares at the way she looks so relaxed and peaceful;..

Then he pushes her towards the center of the bed, lest she fall and crack her head open. He tucks her in a blanket and places two pillows at her side just for protection. And finally he blows the candle off.

And as he looks back at her, he doesn’t know why he has the sudden desire to touch her.

His motion stutters, and his fingers tremor as they reach towards her head.

His mother would often pat his head when he had difficulty sleeping, but Mae is already asleep. So why does he have the sudden, irrational desire to caress her head?

And Levi doesn’t know indulgence.

But he knows that the sun will rise tomorrow, and he will be blackened by his own regrets. Unable to face her because now he knows that he has probably left her, even unsafer, in an unhappy marriage. Now he knows how much he has hurt her. And now he knows how miserable she really is.

It feels like their last night together. Because tomorrow she'll be gone, back to ignoring him. And he’ll go back to the miserable person who mourns the loss of that love that he himself destroyed. With his own two hands.

Levi doesn’t know indulgence, because everything he cherishes always ends up getting torn apart from him.

But he has lost her already. She has been ripped away already.

And so he rests his hand on her head. And so he roves his palm over her head. Looking at her dotingly, caressing her gently. His heart beats wildly, and for once he lets it win over

She looks peaceful now that she is asleep. Far different from the exhausted face she sports all the time in that filthy bar. And he drinks all of her details in for one last time.

He wants to look at her more, the desire only seems to deepen the more he stares at her face. He wants to be next to her the entire night.

And so Levi shifts his desk into the cramped space of his bedroom. As quietly as possible. And he lights up a candle as he sits down to do his paperwork. Right next to her sleeping figure.

Author's Note:

Okay! So with this we are done with half of the chapters for this fic.

This chapter is kinda bittersweet, I don't know how happy I am with this chapter honestly, because it has gotten too long and it might have some cringe moments, but I just wanted to show how close Mae and Levi are and what there bond was once like.

Also in the first scene, Mae has a realization that she needs to start working towards and in the 2nd scene, a month later she still hasn't been able to implement it completely yet. Its like you know you should love yourself, but you still find it hard to.

And that realization will come to her, but LATER on, not in the recent chapters for sure.

Also the line 'why fart and waste it, when you can burp and taste it' is not something my brain has come up with, i don't have that kind of genius-ness lol🤡. Its taken from a bollywood movie Queen, which I definitely recommend, because its a pretty good watch.

Another thing I want to mention is that its highly likely I'll take a few weeks off again, after I finish this arc, because I don't have enough content written to keep up with my writing schedule. And I don't want to write fast and compromise on the quality of the chapters, because I really want to give my best shot with this fic, and it takes me time to come up with good metaphors and ideas that I can put into the scenes. I'll completely address this situation next week.

Thank you reading! I hope you liked it. As always I appreciate any comments, questions and criticism as well. See you next Sunday

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