#raymond reddington x daughter

[thekirbishow]

GVF is in my city tonight and I’m so sad I can’t go.

[moazhao]

she asks,  how can you live with that?  and he answers,  by saving your life.

[piketrickfeet]

She was incandescent. I'd come out of the mountains, blinded by rage, flown 2,300 miles, absolutely certain that you must die. And then I saw Elizabeth.

Raymond Reddington

[theladyofmanyfandomsfanfiction]

A Case They’ll Like

Characters: Raymond Reddington x Reader (platonic)

Warnings: None.

Summary: You and Reddington drop by the ‘Post Office’ to deliver a delicious case to the team...

Reddington looked around the Post Office and chuckled at the various personnel wandering about doing their jobs. He hadn’t paid a physical visit in so long that he almost forgot how much they reminded him of worker ants.

He leaned over to you, ready to repeat his thoughts when you spoke first. 

“Don’t compare them to worker ants today.” You advised with a small shake of the head.

Reddington couldn’t help but roll his eyes at the comment and bite his tongue as you both approached your favourite team of agents.

“A house-call?” Ressler smirked. “To what do we owe this displeasure?”

His sarcasm was noted by the criminal and Ressler found himself pinned under a very unamused glare.

“Donald, if you want to continue this partnership then I’d suggest toning it down.”

Noticing the way that the agents smile dropped slightly, you shot Ressler a quick wink before tapping your hands on the table and drew attention to yourself.

“I know you’re wondering why we’re here, but I think you’ll really like this one.”

Reddington clapped his hands, rubbing them together and laughed. “Oh, boy - I recently learned that the Great Star of Africa was being transported back to England. I had organised a heist to lift it at the docks before it reached its destination but when my people got there, the shipment was missing.”

There was the sound of speed typing from behind Aram’s computer and the large screen lit up to display a large tear-drop shaped diamond beside the Crown Jewels.

“You want us to help you steal that?” Elizabeth scoffed and Reddington shook his head.

“Good heavens, no. My sources say that the lucrative Prism Brothers have a hand to play in this so I’m meeting with a contact at the Como Shambhala Estate in Ubud to get their location.” He explained and reached into his coat pocket, pulling out two rectangular pieces of paper. “And as it so happens...”

You smiled brightly, eyes glimmering with anticipation. “Here it comes.”

“I was kind enough to pick up two extra passes - so which of you want to take a spa day?” Reddington asked as he gently waved the tickets. The man then quickly added that it had all been approved by the director in case they had any qualms in regard to their jobs over the next two days.

Elizabeth smiled at how excited Reddington was but then sighed, “As much as I’d love to join you on this little ‘retreat’ in Bali - I can’t leave Agnes without a nanny.” She replied, reminding everyone that her duty to her daughter came first.

Turning to the woman, Reddington gasped as if he had forgotten something. “Ah yes, I have a solution for that.” He gestured to his side and you sent a small wave to Elizabeth. “Y/n’s staying grounded while I’m away and, from what I hear, Anges adores Y/n.”

“I can’t just expect them to drop everything and...” Elizabeth began to argue but you stepped forward.

“Honestly Liz, I was going to order in and watch movies until Red got back. Staying with Agnes is a much better plan and besides, you deserve a small break.”

Elizabeth went quiet as she considered her response. She trusted her daughter with you more than Reddington so she knew that Agnes would be kept safe. Plus, two days away would help her focus on a strategy to find Ilya Koslov.

“Okay, I’ll come along.” The agent finally replied. 

Reddington chuckled and looked around at the others.

“Excellent. Who else?” He wondered aloud, eyes landing on Ressler.

The blonde-haired agent realised and quickly shook his head. “Parks and I have a lot of paperwork to get through after your last Blacklister. Why don’t you take Aram? He could do with a spa day.”

The man behind the computer swallowed nervously as all eyes turned on him.

“Well, I do enjoy the occasional sauna.”

Reddington was grinning now that this has been sorted. “Wonderful, I’ll have Dembe pick you all up tomorrow morning so pack light.”

Masterlist here

[thetwistedargent]

[ So, this is a fic that is weird and 100% out of my comfort zone. It’s a Liz x Dembe fix with Redarina. Need I say more? Slightly NSFW. ]

Dembe always had a soft spot for Liz, so Red supposed he really shouldn’t have been surprised at the sight he walked into. The two of them sprawled out on the hardwood floor with Dembe’s large, dark hands encircling his sweet Lizzie’s porcelain skin around her waist. Dembe’s treacherous head buried between her thighs. His dark t-shirt lay discarded somewhere, and his pants were already unzipped.

Lizzie was under Dembe, wearing very little. Just a black bra and what looked like a slip of thin material beneath Dembe’s head.

Dembe was too engrossed in the task at hand to realize that Red had walked in, gun in hand. Liz’s moans had drowned out the sounds of the rest of the world, and her own eyes snapped shut as Dembe’s tongue teased her over her panties.

“Dembe!” Red said with a harsh, animalistic growl.

The anger was steadily building inside Red. He had expected to find his oldest, most trusted friend consorting with the woman who had nearly gotten him executed. A wound so fresh that it still bled. And here was Dembe, sticking another knife into his back and twisting it. The two of them together, against him.

Dembe’s head popped up in shock and horror. He looked straight ahead to see Raymond standing there with a gun aimed towards his head and look of rage and betrayal like he’d never seen before. He barely recognized the man in front of him.

Liz wrapped her legs protectively around Dembe, pulling his body in closer towards her, partly to protect Dembe and partly to give herself a little more cover. She would be eternally grateful that Dembe liked to tease her slowly.

“Red, it-“ Lizzie said in a cautious tone.

“I’ll get back to you in a minute, Elizabeth.” Red spat at her, cutting off her words in an instant, scolding her like she was a child.

He’d never been so harsh to her. Never. Not even when she confessed to him what she had done. She could see the anger in his face then, but it was eclipsed by betrayal and sadness. Her heart hammered in her chest. A wave of fear coursed through her body. She was utterly terrified of the look on his face. He almost didn’t even look human. He looked like some kind of monster.

“Raymond, please.” Dembe said, his words desperate, pleading, and tinged with fear.

“Of all the betrayals I have endured, nothing compares to this.” Red snarled. “How could you, Dembe?”

“It’s not what you think, Raymond.”

Red’s jaw twitched.

“My oldest friend. My brother. Like a son to me. The one person I trusted with everything, and you go and do this to me behind my back? With my child, my own flesh and blood. My entire reason for existing.”

Liz’s gasp broke the silence that has filled the room and was sucking all the air out of room.

“What did you just say?” Liz practically cried out.

Her chest was heaving up and down. Her heart was beating faster than humanly possibly. Her entire body already shaking from adrenaline.

The only sound she could hear was the beating of her own heart. It was making her dizzy.

She sat up and twisted her body until she was kneeling, looking up at Reddington. Her entire body was shaking.

Dembe’s arm wrapped around Liz’s waist protectively to steady her.

Reddington was white like a ghost. All the color had drained from his face. His arms dropped to his side as the realization of what he’d said finally hit him. His gun dropped to the ground as his fingers uncurled on their own. He was in shock. His entire body had stopped working. His mouth. His muscles. All of them were frozen.

“What did you mean when you said that I was your daughter?” Liz questioned.

Red swallowed, but said nothing. He barely even moved.

“You’re not my father. You can’t be my father. He’s dead.”

Red’s jaw twitched. His brain was firing as fast as it could, desperately trying to fix the stupid thing he had just done. Wondering if maybe there was a way to just undo the damage.

Liz’s anger was rising.

“Answer me!” She yelled.

Again, Red said absolutely nothing.

And then all of sudden, Liz lurched forward towards the gun.

It all happened too fast. Before either Red or Dembe could stop it, Liz was standing in front of Red, gun aimed at his chest. A look of shear determination was splayed across her face.

“Elizabeth, you can’t do this.” Dembe said calmly as he reached for Lizzie.

She flinched away, gun still aimed at Red.

“Give me the truth, Reddington, or so help me I will shoot you!”

Dembe took a step forward. “Elizabeth, my love, look at me.”

She turned her head slightly towards Dembe, but kept Red in her sights.

“Please, just give me the gun.” He said reaching out towards her, slowly.

“I can’t, Dembe.” She said, desperation filling her voice. “I need to know the truth.”

Dembe nodded. “I know and I promise you will get it.”

His hands wrapped around hers.

“Just give him a chance to explain.”

He lowered Liz’s hand.

“If not, I will tell you everything.” He said as he finally unwrapped her fingers from the gun and took the weapon into his own hand.

Liz fell into Dembe’s arms, and he wrapped his arms around her protectively for a while as she calmed down before she pulled away and turned her attention back to Red once again.

She gripped Dembe’s hand as she looked Red over, waiting for the truth.

Red looked towards Dembe. Dembe gave him an encouraging nod.

Dembe meant what he told Elizabeth. If Raymond didn’t tell her the truth tonight, he would, regardless of the consequences. She deserved to know. This had gone on for far too long.

“I’m not your father.” Red said softly.

“You just said that I’m your flesh and blood!”

“Yes, I did, and that’s the truth.”

“So then you are my father?! I am your daughter?”

“You are my daughter, but I am not your father.”

“What does that even mean?!“

Red was silent, and looked utterly vulnerable standing there in front of her without his armor. The truth was out in the open. All she has to do was accept it.

Dembe squeezed her hand as he waited for it to hit her.

And then all of a sudden, like a tsunami crashing onto land, everything hit her all at once.

“Oh….”She breathed out. “Oh….Ooooh!” Her words got louder.

Liz whipped her head back and forth between Red and Dembe in almost disbelief.

After a minute, she turned to Dembe, her eyes pleading for something— a confirmation, a denial, a laugh that this was just some cruel joke.

“It’s true, Elizabeth.” Dembe confirmed.

She turned back to Red. Her eyes had softened, but his entire body was still rigid almost as if he was preparing to take some massive hit.

She looked at Red with a harsh concentration, and for the first time, she really saw him for what he was. She saw the sacrifices. The heartbreak. She finally understood why he did the things he did. It was for her. It was always about his love for his. His love for his daughter.

Tears streamed down her face. She let go of Dembe’s hand and took a few steps closer to Red.

“You could have told me.” She said as she placed a soft hand on his cheek. “I’m your daughter, if anybody would understand, it’s me.” Her voice was soft, almost child-like.

He let out a sigh that he hadn’t realized he’d been holding in. His entire body relaxed into her touch. His eyes fluttered closed for just a second as he absorbed the moment.

“Lizzie…” He breathed.

“I spent my entire life wondering if you cared about me or if I ever even crossed your mind. Wondered if one day you would I come looking for me, but now I know the truth. You were there all along.”

[meganwritesfanfics]

Don’t Take the Girl Part 4 (Raymond Reddington x Reader)

Part 4 of ?

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 

While undercover with the infamous, Raymond Reddington, the reader and Red run into trouble. A mobster who has it out for Red. And when he finds the soft spot Red holds for the reader, the simple uncover operation turns deadly, and the reader is about to find out how much she truly means to Red, and the lengths he is willing to go to protect her.

Reddington x Reader (platonic)

The room was silent for a moment as everyone took in what Red had just said. 

“What,” Y/N gasped. 

“Your daughter,” Phillip said smiling wickedly. He then quickly pulled Y/N off of the ground slamming her into the pillar next to Red. “This beautiful young creature is your daughter.” He wrapped his hands tightly around her throat. “And by her reaction, she didn’t know.” Phillip laughed as Y/N struggled trying to breathe. 

“I will give you whatever you want Phillip, just let her go. Please.” Red begged. 

Y/N was looking at Red tears in her eyes. She tried to fight Phillip off with her good arm, but he just tightened his grip on her throat. 

“You know Red, I really enjoy watching you squirm.” Phillip sneered.

“Please, let her go.” 

“But now that I know you are a rat, I think all of your clients and enemies will follow me much easier once they know I killed you.” 

“No,” Y/N tried to cry, but she could already feel herself losing consciousness. 

“Fine, kill me, but let her go.” Red said as he just stared at Y/N watching the light starting to leave her eyes. 

“Now, why would I do that when I know that watching her die will be more painful to you than any torture I could inflict.” 

“No, no, let her go!” Red screamed as he struggled. 

Y/N arm had dropped and her body weight was only being supported by Phillip holding her neck. Looking over at Red, with the last bit of strength she had left she mouthed I love you. 

“Y/N, no please, Y/N.” Red cried. 

Suddenly gunshots rang out down the hallway. 

Phillip quickly dropped Y/N and she gasped and coughed struggling to catch her breath. 

Red let out a stifled gasp as tears spilled down onto his face. 

“What is happening!” Phillip screamed loudly into his phone 

“The FBI they…” The man on the phone yelled when more gunshots rang out. 

“Shit!” Phillip screamed as he quickly ran over to Y/N pulling her off the floor. “It looks like we have to go, but I expect to be seeing you soon Red.” Then he began to drag Y/N out of the room. 

“No! Phillip!” Red screamed as both Dembe and Ressler burst into the room. 

“Raymond, are you alright?” Dembe said as he unlocked the handcuffs. 

“He has Y/N,” Red said as Dembe handed him a gun. 

“Red, I can handle this, you and Dembe need to get out of here…” Ressler started.

“I’m not leaving without her.” He snapped as they all took off down the hall. 

“Help!” Y/N screamed in the distance.

“Phillip! If you kill her, so help me God I will not stop until I have destroyed you!” Red screamed. 

They made their way through the halls the more that they could hear Y/N, the faster they sped up.

“I don’t care what happens to Phillip, we just need to get Y/N back.” Red said to Dembe. 

As they turned one final corner, the hallway opened up to a large room. There was a walkway about ten feet up and that’s where they saw her. She had broken away from Phillip and was trying to limp her way across the walkway. That's when she saw them.

“Red!” She screamed as Philip caught up to her. “No!” She struggled trying to fight him as he roughly slammed her into the metal bars. 

“Y/N!” Red screamed as Dembe made his way around to find a staircase to get up to her. Both Ressler and Red froze guns up, waiting for a moment when they had a clear shot. “Shoot him,” He sneered. 

“I can’t, I might hit Y/N.” Ressler snapped back. 

They watched as Phillip slammed Y/N into the railing again as he began to try to push her over. 

“Don’t!” Red called desperately hoping that Dembe would appear and rescue Y/N.

“Red!” Y/N screamed. She tried to push Phillip off. But with one strong push Phillip pushed her over the rail. 

“No!” Red screamed, dropping his gun. He watched as Y/N fell hitting the concrete with a sickening crack. 

Red froze as he stared at Y/N’s unmoving body.  

“Y/N,” He gasped as he heard a gunshot, but he didn’t even look. His eyes just stayed fixed on Y\N

“Oh my god,” Red heard Ressler gasp. Slowly Red started to walk to Y/N, then the walk turned into a run as he quickly rushed to her side

“Please, please, Y/N. Don’t leave me like this.” Red said as he knelt down next to her. 

Y/N lay on her back, eyes closed and her shoulder she landed on was bent at a weird unnatural angle. 

“Sweetheart please.” Red cracked as his shaking hand reached out to feel for her pulse. “I can’t lose you, please.” At this point Ressler had made his way up to them. And he stared sadly at the woman he considered to be his friend lying motionless. Red gasped as he felt a weak pulse. “She’s alive!” He said as he ran his fingers through her hair. Quickly he leaned forward, kissing her forehead as he quickly scooped her up into his arms.

“Raymond, we have to leave.” Dembe said, placing his hand on Red’s shoulder. 

“Red I will take care of her, you need to go there are other people on the way who can’t see you.” Ressler said. 

“I’m not leaving her.” Red snapped. 

“I care about her too, I’ve got her, you go.” He held out his arms to grab her. 

Red hesitated for a moment, before he leaned forward kissing Y/N’s forehead again. “You will be ok.” He whispered as he leaned his forehead against hers. Then he carefully handed her over to Ressler. “I will meet you at the hospital.” Red took one final look at Y/N before he and Dembe began to make their way out of the building. 

As they ran to the car, Red couldn’t help feeling like it was a mistake that he left Y/N. He could feel his chest tightening and tears forming in his eyes as he grabbed onto the door handle of the car. He stopped placing one hand on the top of the car as he lowered his head, gasping. He couldn’t stop seeing her broken body lying on the floor, and he knew none of this would have happened if it hadn’t been for him. The whole reason he had left her in the first place was to keep her safe. And yet by involving himself in her life again, he had put her in immense danger, and he could have gotten her killed. 

Red felt a hand on his back. 

“Raymond, she is going to be alright.” Dembe said, trying to console his friend. 

Red was silent for a moment, before he took a deep breath and nodded, clearing his throat as he got into the car. 

“I need to grab something back at the house before we head to the hospital.” He said as Dembe got in the driver's seat and started off.

[glowstar826]

Actually seeing Raymond Reddington kiss someone he loves and me not feeling surprised in the least is probably better than Red and Liz doing a happy father-daughter dance.

I need some Red x Katarina fanart.

NOW.

[donaldresslerfanfic]

It’s Over?

Rating: M

Warnings: Strong Language, Sexual Content.

Word Count: 2192

Donald Ressler X OC Maggie Waters.

Chapter: Eighty-Three

Chapter Index

Story on Wattpad

Maggie.

It never got easier. It never got easier for Don to see friends and loved ones be hurt, and it never got easier for me to see him like that.

I stared at him for a full minute, watching him talk to Cooper, feeling so defeated about Samar and not being able to help her. I knew he was trying hard but couldn't contain his tears to fill up on his eyes. When Cooper walked away, I resumed my walk to him, leading my hand to grab his before he repaired on my presence.

"Hey" I said quietly, not wanting to look in the room, because I knew I wasn't going to be able to hold my own tears "how are you?"

He didn't say anything, just leaned in to hug me, I held him by the shoulders and sighed, feeling him tense on my arms.

"You know how I get" he said in a little voice.

"I know" I replied, rubbing his back.

I think that the situation with Samar was different for him than how it was with Liz when she got hospitalized. Samar had been his partner for a while, they'd fought together and eachother, she came with Aram once a month at the house for dinner, we were all good friends. And now he didn't have the excuse of blaming Tom Keen for what had happened with Liz. Samar's accident had been under their watch, I knew it was going to be harder for him and for Aram to shake the guilt out of this one.

I pulled back and held him by the shoulders. He cleared his throat and rubbed his eyes, clearly wanting to look though.

"What do you know?" I asked, finally looking in. Samar looked half normal, the other half being her on a ventilator. Aram was just being Aram, painfully optimistic, or at least trying to be.

"Nothing good. She's on a ventilator but they don't know for how long. And we will find out about her state if and when she wakes up"

I bit my bottom lip and tore my eyes off the window, I sighed and looked at my watch.

"I have to go to work but" I placed my hand on his forearm "call me later okay?"

"I'm going home" he said with a shake of his head "I'll see you tonight."

I leaned in to give him a short kiss, then headed to work.

Samar was luckily not in a ventilator or in a coma for long, but after she woke up, things with Don and the cases slowed down a bit, so he got to spend a few weeks at home.

I was checking on some prints I had to review before the weekend, and sometimes hours at work weren't enough to get everything that I needed to do cleared, so I often took work home.

"Mags" I heard the door knock behind me, I turned around on the chair when I heard the door open "are you busy?" Don's head peaked in.

"Hey, this'll take me-" I took a look around and through my papers "an hour maybe. Why?"

"Just checking" he said from the door, opening it a bit more.

"And Alma? You tired of hanging out with her?" I said moving my eyes to my papers again, getting ready to return to work.

"If I have to hear that frozen song one more time-" he said, entering the room and dragging a chair to sit down next to me. I gave him a chuckle.

"I have nightmares with that song"

"There's a second one coming up"

"Oh Jesus" I said with fake annoyance. I obviously loved to see my daughter act out the movie and sing and dress herself like Elsa.

I gave him a look after he sat next to me.

"Any chance they'll tell you when they're going to want you back?" He gave me a pout with a shrug of his shoulder.

"Another week maybe. Samar is having a wellness check next week to see if she's cleared for duty"

"Mm" I hummed and returned to the papers.

"Why is that whole text in French?" He said looking at the computer, I gave the screen a quick look before I continued.

"It's from a French client obviously"

"And why don't you translate it?"

I lifted my eyes to his with a cocked eyebrow.

"Because I know French"

He laughed, shaking his head. "Since when?"

"Since two years ago, when I was finishing the casino project and still pregnant with Alma the firm gave out French courses and I took them because I couldn't go to work. I got my certificate last month"

"I don't believe you. Say something"

I don't know why, it was like a spell when someone asked me to say something in another language, I instantly forgot everything I knew.

"Tu est le plus bel homme que j'ai vu dans ma vie entière" I said.

"That doesn't sound nice" I let my mouth fall agape and chuckled.

"I said you're the most beautiful man I've ever seen"

"That's a lie"

"Yeah, there's also Chris Hemsworth" I joked, that made him laugh. I laughed as well, shaking my head and looking back at the papers. I felt his hand on my shoulder, giving it a squeeze.

"I love you, you know" I tore my eyes from the papers again, giving him a smile and taking his hand in mine.

"I love you too Don" he pressed his lips in a thin line, rubbing my hand with his thumb.

"You know, things have been happening at the taskforce, and with Samar in the hospital, I've been holding onto hope that nothing was going to happen to me, or you"

I took his hand between both of mine and leaned to him.

"Nothing is going to happen to me" I assured "and I'm sure whatever has been happening at the taskforce, you'll be smart enough to avoid being involved"

"It's something about Reddington" he confided.

"It's always something about him. And I know you'll want answers." I patted his hand "just be careful"

He nodded, leaning in to grab my face and give me a kiss.

"I'll let you finish here" he said, finally standing from the chair and walking out of the office.

After Samar came back, Don still didn't tell me what was the thing that had him so eager to get answers. I didn't expect him to walk in the house angry one of those days, because he never got angry enough to drag it all the way home.

It started when the door of the garage banged shut, and Alma jumped a little startled, we were in the living room, I was finishing something on the computer and she was down with a coloring book in the mat in front of me.

Don walked in, taking out his badge and throwing it on the kitchen island behind us.

"Don?" I asked, looking over my shoulder, he walked across the kitchen towards the living room "what happened?"

"I had a suspect ran away from me after he shot up a person" he said taking the remote and turning on the TV.

"-most wanted fugitive Raymond Reddington, was arrested in New York this afternoon, after police officers responded to an anonymous tip"

"And then that" he said throwing the control on the couch. I shut down the laptop and left it on my side.

"So what... It's over?"

"Yeah, pretty much, we can't get him out of the system, and the taskforce is concealed from public knowledge. Do you know what's worst? Keen though I did it." He let out a dry chuckle "I know I hate the guy, but why should I wait more than six years before I decided to bring him in. Why would I do it on the first place?"

"I understand why you're upset" I said with a nod, he walked around the couch and sat next to me

"And she said that she knows I'm not sad about it. I am not sad about it, but I don't prefer it. I don't want the taskforce to shut down" he said, looking into his pocket with his hand. He looked at the phone and sighed, rubbing a hand on his hair. "Ressler" he replied. "yeah, I saw." He continued talking, sitting back on the couch with a defeated sigh "of course I'm happy. I'm just not the one who caught him" he save me a look, then muttered that it was James.

He has probably watched the news and called Don to tell him the good news. As far as James knew, Don had been in the Reddington taskforce, that information wasn't concealed from his record, and James must've probably checked that out long ago when they first met.

They continued talking, Don pretended to not be mad, and agreed to have some celebratory beers in a few days. When he hung up, he threw the phone in the couch and sighed angry again.

Alma was definitely not used to seeing Don angry, hell, I wasn't used to seeing Don angry. So she just sat there looking between him and me, not daring to do anything, just holding her hands together in discomfort.

"She's never seen you angry" I whispered to him. He looked at me questioningly, then down at Alma.

"Hey cupcake" he leaned and motioned at Alma with his hand "come here"

Alma stood up, then carefully walked to him. Don took her in his arms and sat her down at his lap.

"Daddy anwy"

"Dad is a little angry" Don confirmed "but I'm fine now"

"Ine?" She asked.

"Yes, I'm fine cupcake" he said caressing her cheek. Alma shrugged off of his lap and walked a few steps to her toys, getting busy again.

Don continued working with the taskforce, as far as I knew Raymond could still give him cases. He followed up with them for a while. He never really said what was happening with Raymond, how he was doing in jail, if they were going to be able to help him.

He came home one of those days, I was getting a snack ready for Alma when he walked into the kitchen.

"Hey love" I saluted. He gave me a smile, then grabbed me by the neck and kissed me, I smiled over his lips and kissed him more, placing my hands on top of his.

"Hi" he saluted as he pulled back, moving his hands to my waist and pulling me in.

"How are you?" I ran my hand in his neck and caressed his cheek.

"Mm, someone told me today I'm pushing forty with no prospects" he flashed his eyebrows and leaned in for another short kiss "she obviously forgot that I have you" I smiled, he left my waist and walked around me towards the fridge.

"Why would someone tell you that?"

"Mm" he hummed after taking a carton of milk and taking a glass from the cupboard "Keen and I were talking about a wedding I have to go to-"

"A wedding?"

"And she told me about this girl I could take, as if I wouldn't take you instead"

"Whose wedding?" I pushed. He gave me a dismissing wave of his hand as he poured milk in the glass.

"Some cousin I have, she hates cops though, so I'm not going"

"That's stupid, if she gave you an invitation-"

"We're not going" I pouted, he gave me a chuckle and stored away the milk.

A few days later, after we had finished with our day and I was done brushing my teeth and exited the bathroom when I saw him, sitting at the side of the bed with just his boxers on. What a sight indeed.

"Why aren't you in bed?" I asked walking to the bed.

"I was waiting for you to bring that" he motioned at me as he set his phone in the nightstand charging.

"Bring what?" I said looking at him with a playfully frown.

"That body of yours that drives me crazy" he leaned to grab me by the shirt and pulled my to him, his hands instantly landed on my sides as he pushed me to the bed. I giggled as he ran his hands on my sides and pulled off my shirt, leaving me with just a thong in front of him.

"If I'd known you were waiting I would've taken a lot less" I said when he leaned in to kiss me, he chuckled and trapped my lips in his, bitting on them playfully.

He grabbed my hands and pinned them up over my head, and I knew then I was in for a good one, because I absolutely loved when he pinned me under him and had his way with me.

"I'm onto something" he said over my lips after he was done kissing them, I felt them tingle and sore up, along with every part of my body that was getting ready for him.

"For my sake I hope you keep at it"

[roominthecastle]

post--“620″ ramblings about stuff & things

so 620 picks up one week after the succulent goose incident. Despite those 7 days, our Red remains as angry and hurt as he was before (if not more), which is our first key point. “I can neither kill... nor trust... nor forgive.” It’s quite an unsettling thing to hear, to say the least, and Liz, unsettled, immediately counters w/ “You forgave Dembe.” This Liz vs Dembe thread that’s been earnestly pulled on since 618 gives us the second key. It reaches all the way back to the first episode of this season where it gets established why such a comparison is not working as an argument: “That’s different.”

In both 620 and 601 we have a moment where Liz and Red try to drag poor Dembe in between them as an “example” to deflect pressure, but each immediately rejects this stunt bc they both know that the nature of their relationship is different. The forgiveness of a parent (figure) is not forthcoming for Liz bc Red’s feelings for her are not really those of a parent. This exact issue emerged after her faked death, too, and Bokenkamp touched upon Red’s point of view already, i.e. how the parent figure would have to forgive but the romantic partner is, in fact, conflicted [x]. But I’ve already written a longer piece on this duality, so I won’t get into it here.

And Red’s been struggling. He is heartbroken again and not as a parent. A parent’s heartbreak is equated to “being impaled by a unicorn” and -- still barred from being in her life -- it’s little Agnes whom Red watches riding a unicorn on the carousel. :)

With Liz, Red is suffering through something else that 100% parallels what Liz went through w/ Tom re, love, betrayal, and forgiveness. She was in limbo where she couldn’t kill, she couldn’t trust, she couldn’t forgive. She lost control and cold fury was the only way to get some of it back. And then she gave in to hope and “forgave every lie and believed every promise” only to get betrayed again. Red describes his predicament the same way: she “has lied and deceived me and I've forgiven her every time” and “I knew but I let my hopes convince me that she wouldn’t betray me.” This ties straight back to the idea of being in love == being rendered powerless, which is part of a larger quote from James about self-deception vs true romantic love. Part of this had a cameo in S2 and another is echoed at the end of this episode (the greeting card bit).

The topic of appearance vs truth is the third key that slides neatly into the broader question of Red’s identity. We have two important scenes that poke this issue:

one w/ Ressler when he questions Dom’s story and Liz’s willingness to gloss over the holes to preserve a neat surface appearance: “But is it the truth? Does it make sense that this is the answer?”

and the other is w/ torture master Teddy who points out how Red lives a charade: “The code's like the suit and the hat. You feel good wearing it. Look good, too. Million bucks. But, and I gotta think deep down you know this, it's like lipstick on a pig. It can cover a lotta sins. End of the day, it's still trayf.”

and all this nicely echoes Dom’s words from the previous episode (the “architect of this charade” who’s “stepping into the lie”) and the way Red kicks off the whole show in 101: “Everything about me is a lie.”

Red wears a disguise, is the point. “Raymond Reddington” is a lie he’s been inhabiting for a yet to be fully uncovered purpose. But ever since he met Liz, he’s been longing to break from this. It’s clearly expressed in all those emotional moments he shares w/ her, e.g.:

“I haven't been home in years. But if anyone can give me a second chance, it's you.”

“Sailors have been navigating by the stars for thousands of years. Odysseus spent a decade at war. But his biggest battle was finding his way home. That's Polaris, the North Star. That's how sailors used to find their way home. When I look at you, that's what I see. I see my way home.”

“It may be hard for you to imagine, but I once had a relatively normal life... bills to pay, play dates, family, some friends, people to care about. Lost all that. // Lost how? // In Mexico, there are these fish that have colonized the freshwater caves along Sierra del Abra. They were lost. They found themselves living in complete darkness. But they didn't die. Instead, they thrived. They adapted. They lost their pigmentation, their sight, eventually even their eyes. With survival, they became... hideous. I've rarely thought about what I once... was. But I wonder...if a ray of light were to make it into the cave, would I be able to see it? Or feel it? Would I gravitate to its warmth? And if I did, would I become... less hideous?”

When Red looks at Liz and Agnes, the deep longing for that past self w/ a wife and daughter stirs in him. It surfaces when she tells him her simple yet distant dream of walking in the park w/ her husband and daughter. They want the exact same thing. This is consistent throughout the seasons. He’s been gently signaling this to her and she’s been fleeing from it bc he is just... too much and the idea of him in that role in her life is an attractive yet scary image (see her steamy dream of him in S2 that blends sensuality and dread as Red, having murdered her husband, stalks up to her bed asking what she really wants).

Red’s anger as a way to reestablish a semblance of soothing control and Liz’s refusal to face the truth to protect herself are what we have in that last scene in 620. “father figure” is a buffer zone, always has been, it’s part of the charade Red lives while wearing Reddington’s identity. Despite having pushed for the truth, she is now trying to lock him into this lie, telling him that that’s what he will always be. And if you keep in mind those quotes above that show how Red longs for a past life around her, then you can see how her words likely inflict more pain.

This brings another quote from Red to mind:

“You said something before. The truth doesn’t matter, that the only thing in this world that matters is just the appearance of truth. I fear you might be right about that. Lately I find that the truth has become… so elusive. Often imaginary. But in the end, it’s all that we’re left with, isn’t it? What is real, what you can taste and touch and feel. The words that pass between us as we look each other in the eye are… all we have to hold on to. The truth. I hold it dear.”

In their first scene where Liz talks about finally having the opportunity to be completely honest w/ each other, they sit face to face. And then promptly dance back from it all, esp Red. Then she soon admits to Ressler that she might be closing her eyes to the whole truth to keep things simple, safe and "sweet”. And so in their last scene, there is no eye contact at all as she tells Red that it doesn’t matter who he once was (never mind that months ago she was willing to put him in jail to find out) bc this fake identity is who he is and who he will always be, which apparently dictates that he must play father and grandfather.

The sheer arrogance and presumptuousness of this statement are already begging for a strong rebuttal but it also nicely reflects Liz’s tendency to make things about herself while brushing aside how others might feel or think. She did this w/ Tom when she refused to see who he really was and tried to convince herself he’d changed. And she does this to Ressler, too, when she tells him she knows he did everything bc he thought it was what was best for her, never mind that that was not Ressler’s motivation at all and he, in fact, said that to her already. Her last scene w/ Red has this vibe to it.

The fact that Agnes is part of this park scene is no coincidence, imo. Red is not comfortable w/ playing Liz’s dad. If he were, he wouldn’t have denied being her dad when she asked him in S1 (since wearing Reddington’s identity provides the wiggle room here), he wouldn’t have winced and cringed every time she referred to him as “father” in S5, and he wouldn’t have had the same reaction at the end of 620, either. He doesn’t embrace it, he doesn’t like it, he just endures it. There was a (sadly discarded) line back in S1/S2 about how he would be willing to play any role she wanted him to play but I believe something has changed since then. Even back in 102, he enthusiastically offers her the role of girlfriend and when she refuses, he flatly tells her that she can play daughter then. The preference on his part seems consistent but it will always be up to Liz to give the green light. Or the red one.

He wants to be a father to Agnes and he’s already confessed it in 319 (“I would give anything to be a part of that child's life... hold her... watch her grow.”). And the only time during the park scene when we can see the cold tension melt off him is when he sees the little girl. And when he hears Liz’s decision to bring Agnes home, his stony demeanor crumbles completely.

This is also where another part of that quote from James mentioned above seeps into the dialog: when Red remarks that Liz’s code is not a code but a greeting card -- confused, self-deceiving bullshit (just like Teddy called his code part of a charade designed to hide the scary truth). They are still not being honest w/ each other, they don’t look each other in the eye, they are still dancing around the actual truth at the core of their relationship. Red is deeply hurt, all his hopes seemingly dashed, which drives him to clam up even more and detach to mitigate the pain. He can’t kill but he can try and kill his true feelings for her, I suppose. And Liz is still afraid to face what it is exactly that fuels his intimate commitment to her, so she draws a line in the sand, declaring it permanent. But...

“You know the problem with drawing lines in the sand? With a breath of air, they disappear.”

James stated -- while talking about TBL -- that he’s not interested in material that doesn’t have a romantic/sexual aspect to explore. He also said that he is fascinated by Red and Liz’s relationship, that Red’s feelings for her are strong, complex, and complicated, and that neither is sure of the true nature of their relationship.

so bottom line (to quote Ressler who’s fast becoming the only voice of reason now that Dembe left): Red locked in the surrogate parent role just bc he wears Reddington’s identity for a different, still mostly unknown purpose -- is it the truth? does it make sense that this is the answer?

nope.

And I think it’s interesting that Cooper was designated as a “spokesperson” when he is in the dark about what happened between Red and Liz: the one who is mostly in the dark speaks about a family bond but his assessment (of love, faith, commitment) could easily pass for a wedding vow, too. It’s nothing but fitting, imo.

This latest fallout created a huge fracture in the Red/Liz relationship and I don’t expect them to repair it in the 2 episodes we have left this season. But Agnes is back and I think she will be the glue for these two idiots in the long run, allowing them to slip into a family rhythm that could potentially coax some buried feelings to the surface -- feelings both are trying to ignore at the moment.

[kiss-my-freckle]

“He told you not to trust him.” That’s why they’re name-dropping Tom and Krilov is back in show. This is still about Red vs Tom, despite woman from Paris being their big bad. Because Liz is becoming more like her dead husband than her mother. She’s not a true Rostova right now, but a Keen. Woman from Paris is the Wicked Wolf, Red is the grandmother, Agnes is Little Red. It’s all there, and they currently have two themes going. 

The first, comparison.

good - better - best bad - worse - worst 

This is - who my mother is to me - an aura that surrounds me. For better or for worse, I don’t know. - Liz, 7x1

He’s a much better person than I gave him credit for. - Cooper, 7x4

But this - I have a sinking feeling this thing is gonna get worse before it gets better. And whatever he’s up against - I just don’t want it to end up on our doorstep. - Park, 7x8

Your mother was not as bad as - I understand why you might think she was, but she wasn’t. - Red, 6x21

There’s no shame in hoping for the best, even for the worst of us. - Cooper, 4x15

You know, I’m no worse than your buddy Reddington. - Tom, 2x18

When they throw these dialogue parallels into show and add clues like Little Red Riding Hood, one should question whether Red is the Wicked Wolf or if he’s the Grandmother. They include these dialogues for Tom FOR A REASON. 

He’s not my buddy. And you are worse. - Liz, 2x18

I want to take care of you for the rest of our lives, for better and definitely for worse. - Liz, 3x17

Because woman from Paris runs opposite Tom Keen. She’s preying on Liz’s emotions just as Liz did to Red in S6, and as Tom did to Liz throughout. 

I learned that from you, how to prey on the emotions of those that love you most. - Liz, 5x22

That’s why it’s gonna get worse before it gets better, just as Park said. Because woman is the Wicked Wolf and Agnes isn’t Tom’s daughter. 

This is - who my mother is to me - an aura that surrounds me. For better or for worse, I don’t know. - Liz, 7x1

I want to take care of you for the rest of our lives, for better and definitely for worse. - Liz, 3x17

The second, religion. Heaven - hell (Insert Polaris and Southern Cross)

The sky's north pole has a moderately bright star - the North Star, aka Polaris - approximately marking its location. The sky's south pole has no such bright star. But, if you're in the Southern Hemisphere, you can indeed use the Southern Cross - also known as the constellation Crux - to find celestial south. [x]

That’s why there are stars lit up in Agnes’ princess palace. Tom isn’t her father, and Liz has a home without him. When Cooper spoke at her funeral in 3x20, he was actually talking about Ressler -

Elizabeth followed her heart, and against all odds, it led her back to the man she loved.

She followed what her head told her. Because she had her memory manipulated by Krilov a second time. Those dialogues go back to her pilot introduction. 

What heaven brought you and me cannot be forgotten - 5x8 soundtrack

Who the hell’s Elizabeth Keen? - Ressler, 1x1

This takes us to Keenler’s soundtrack in The Capricorn Killer

It curves in through the weather It's coming from above And it brought us together It guided us to touch

Insert Orion, The Hunter, his arrows and his dogs, and take that back to Dembe, Kate, the Hunter, his arrows, and his dog in S4. Because Agnes is next to get hit. That’s why she ran side-by-side with Kate. Why Kate flat-out told Liz she did this for Agnes. But she didn’t fail Liz. What she and Red did - they did for her. She’s gonna fail Agnes in unearthing the sutcase. 

Angel - devil (Insert Little Red)

I’m expecting a little devil of my own. - Liz, 3x12

She’s an angel. - The woman, 7x3 Blessed - cursed (Insert the Wicked Wolf)

Blessed is he who walks not in the council of the wicked. - Samar, 3x5

Some memories you want to hold onto. Most haunt you like a curse. - Dom, 6x18

Purposeful stuff. Because Liz is still a Keen. She’s just like her husband. She’s just not wearing his face as Katarina does Raymond’s. I think Agnes will be. I think Liz is gonna be taking care of “Thomas” for the rest of her life. Because Agnes has two false grandmothers. It’s of no coincidence that Tom falls into every single dialogue parallel. 

Never knew the best was yet to come 

[uhhhhhhokay]

Shows With Good LGBT+ Rep

Now for starters, I’ll admit that I do not watch Riverdale. I tried it, didn’t like it, that’s basically it. The show does have LGBT rep (but not ace rep), I would never dismiss that, but they make sure to do the bare minimum. Based off the people I follow who are fans, scenes for the characters, more specifically Chonie (Cheryl x Toni), are either constantly deleted or they are nonexistent. 

They have romantic scenes together but not nearly as many as the rest of the leading cast. This matters because one of the girl in the relationship, Cheryl, is advertised as a main, but yet she’s treated as a side character, and Toni is given even less. From what I’ve heard of the show, they dedicate an immense amount of time to the pairings of the main characters, but this focus does not seem to apply to Cheryl and her relationship with Toni. This applies to them as individual characters and as a pairing, as I’ve heard that neither character get much screen time. 

I understand wanting representation and I understand wanting to support representation, but the point that I’m trying to make is that Riverdale is not the show to put your desire and need into because they will never give the proper treatment or storylines that these characters and relationships they deserve. You can still watch but just know that there are shows out there with much better rep. So I’m here today, writing this long essay that no one asked for, to inform you guys of LGBT+ rep that actually gets treated well by their writers and is given the screentime and love they deserve. 

Warning: Some of these shows have been cancelled. If they do not say they’ve been cancelled, then that either means the show is still going or that it ended on it’s own terms.

Also this list does not include shows with the bury your gays trope.

Feel free to add on! This list is mainly comprised of some of my favorites. I tried to very best on the descriptions but I am a tired student with little free time. 

#1: The Bold Type ~ Kat x Adena

Kat Edison, the head of the social media department of Scarlet magazine, meets Adena El-Amin, a proud Muslim lesbian photographer in episode one. The two bond and grow closer and closer, eventually causing the “out and proud hetero” Kat to question her sexuality and acknowledge her romantic feelings for Adena. Adena, as I said earlier, is a lesbian and Kat is bisexual. 

#2: Black Lightning ~ Anissa x Grace

Ah, the first black lesbian superhero! The second season is currently airing on Tuesday’s at 9pm on the CW. Being the daughter of the infamous vigilante Black Lighting has it’s unexpected perks, like having superpowers! The intelligent activist Anissa Pierce discovers her powers of super strength and decides to use them for good and defend her city under the name of Thunder.

Grace Choi was in a few episodes of season one, but her relationship status as girlfriends with Anissa in the comics assures us that she will be coming back and we will see her and Anissa’s relationship develop further.

#3: Doctor Who ~ Bill x Heather

Throughout all of time and space, these two manage to come back to each other. After being split up by an alien in ‘Pilot’, Heather comes back to Bill’s rescue in the season finale, kissing her and making her immortal, leaving the both of them to travel across the universe together. Their journey has sadly come to an end in the series, but it came to a spectacular and happy one!

#4: BBC Class ~ Charlie x Matteusz

Part of the Doctor Who universe comes Class, a teenage sci-fi drama that takes place in Shoreditch. Now, first I should say that this is one of my favorite shows and you don’t need to watch Doctor Who in order to watch it. It is its own separate show.

Charlie Smith, an alien prince from the planet Rhodia, comes to earth to escape the Shadowkin, the monsters that killed his race. Him and the only other survivor of his planet, Miss Quill, come to earth and are instructed by the Doctor to hide themselves as human. Charlie attends Coal Hill Academy while Quill teaches.

Once prom comes around, Charlie asks the Polish boy, Matteusz, to be his date. The prom is hijacked by the Shadowkin and it is revealed to Matteusz that Charlie is an alien, but he doesn’t mind because it does not change the way he feels about him. The two continue to date throughout the series whilst fighting off aliens with four of their friends and Miss Quill

This show has been cancelled, but audios have been made since then to fill in the gaps between episodes and there is a chance there might be more! Also there are three books!

#5: In The Flesh ~ Kieren x Simon

The dead have come back to life! Kieren and Simon are both PDS sufferers, meaning they have partially deceased syndrome, meaning that they died and were brought back to life. Series 1 is centered on Kieren Walker, a 18 year old boy who died back in 2009, who is adjusting to his new zombie life and dealing with the people who want him back in the ground.

In series 2, Simon is introduced as a part of an PDS activist who is fighting for equal treatment for PDS sufferers while trying to find the first risen to bring on the second rising. Connected by a mutual friend, Simon and Kieren are introduced to each other, and the two strike up a relationship which develops into something romantic.

#6: Faking It ~ Multiple Characters

In an attempt to gain popularity, Karma and Amy fake being lesbians, but after a kiss at the school’s prep rally, Amy realizes that she isn’t as straight as she thought she was. In fact, she is head over heels in love with her childhood best friend, Karma. She confides in the out and proud Shane about her feelings for Karma and asks for advice on how to get a girlfriend. This show, while not always perfect, is incredibly diverse. Amy is bisexual, Shane is gay, Lauren is intersex, and in season 3, Shane forms a crush on the new student, Noah, and after their first kiss Noah comes out as trans to Shane. 

The show was unfortunately cancelled after three seasons, leaving much of the story still left unsaid, but the show still has an enjoyable and satisfying ending, even if it wasn’t the ending the creator wanted. The creator’s ideal ending, had he been given the chance to write it, was that Karma would eventually realize that she herself is bisexual too. 

#7: Hit The Floor ~Multiple Characters

Jude x Zero

Junior sports agent Jude Kinkade brings basketball sports star Zero to LA on the promise to be a star. One night in a limo before Zero flies to an away game, Jude, to his surprise, kisses Zero. When Zero comes back, the two begin a friends with benefits relationship that develops into something deeper, and the two fall in love.

Lionel x Eve

Lionel’s sexuality has never been explicitly stated in the show. She had sex with many men and the majority of viewers assumed she was straight. That was until the cunning Eve came in. The two decide after a brief meeting to go and get drinks together which ends up with them having sex. Later, Lionel admits to Jude, that she has slept with many women before Eve. Their relationship is complicated and it’s much different from the other relationships on the show. 

Jude x Noah

Due to the show’s unexpected renewal and switch from VH1 to BET, not all actors returned. Adam Senn (Zero) did not want to return, but never fear, because the show’s creator wasn’t about to let the beautiful Jude Kinkade go to waste!

A year after his break up with Zero, Jude’s best friend Lionel takes him out for drinks in the hopes to find him a hunk and get him laid. Later that night, Jude and Noah meet, hook up, and move on with their lives. Until the next day when Jude sees Noah at the Devils arena and finds out that the two will be working together. 

Hit The Floor has not been renewed or cancelled.

#8: Wynonna Earp ~ Multiple Characters

Waverly x Nicole 

i’m sure many of you have heard of these two, but incase you haven’t, let me introduce you to Waverly and Nicole! Waverly, the younger sister to the Earp heir, and Nicole, a sheriff at the Purgatory police department, strike up a romantic relationship after Waverly ends things with her shitty boyfriend Champ. These two are so cute and are head over heels in love with each other. 

Jeremy x Robin

Jeremy is introduced in season 2 and Robin is introduced in season 3. After discovering a murder tree, Robin goes to the police station in search of help. Directed to Jeremy, Robin explains everything he saw, then the two go on a date to investigate the murder tree, and after that the two become boyfriends.

Warning: The show, while amazing with LGBT characters, does not treat their POC characters well. 

#11: Brooklyn Nine-Nine ~ Holt and Rosa

Raymond Holt is captain of the 99th precinct. He is married to his longtime partner Kevin, who often guest stars on the show, and the two of them are truly iconic. Holt has fought hard for gay rights in the police department since joined the force. As a out gay black man, Holt had to fight and work hard to get to his position as captain. 

Rosa Diaz is bisexual and she is played by a bisexual actress. Rosa is a secretive, hard, ruthless, and a soft bean of a character. She is one of the key characters to the Nine-Nine. She has yet to have a steady girlfriend but here’s to hoping that she will have one next season!

#10: BBC Cuffs ~ Multiple Characters

Jake x Simon

Don’t sleep with the enemy. New PC Officer, Jake Vickers, joins the police force and meets the well known and disliked solicitor, Simon Reddington. Despite the fact that they are on opposing sides that hate each other, the two begin dating. They try to keep their professional life out of their relationship to avoid conflict. But alas, that’s where the sweet angst comes in. 

Donna x Alison 

The time these two start dating it unclear, but when the show begins it is said that they’ve been together for a few years. They’ve been living happily together for quite some time. Donna is part of the main cast as a police officer and is given a lot of screen time in action. Alison is a side character who makes a few appearances throughout the show but her interactions with Donna are sweet, beautiful, and realistic. 

This show has been cancelled.

#11: Shadowhunters ~ Magnus x Alec

Ghaad, these two are the best. A gay shadowhunter and a bisexual warlock fall in love. Malec has good communication. Magnus and Alec have their own storyline and a storyline with each other, making them both equally important and have intimate/emotional scenes. The show also makes sure to tackle harmful bisexual stereotypes. (Thanks to @spicychipsdemon for helping me write this one.)

This show has been cancelled but it’s being given a special to wrap up the story.

#12: Superstore ~ Mateo x Jeff

An employee and district manager meet at the Cloud 9 store during a strike. Mateo is a out gay man and so is Jeff, the thing is that his cannot date the employees at the store so the two of them keep their relationship private from the other coworkers, because they would not be able to keep it a secret from Jeff’s boss. These two are actually really cute and they’re hilarious and underrated to be quite honest.

#15: Orphan Black ~ Multiple Characters

Besides the white girl dreads, these two are nice. They are the sci-fi couple that beat the shit out of the bury your gays trope. A clone and a woman who is assigned to look after that clone, uncoincidentally meet. What starts as an assignment is developed into something much deeper, leading Delphine to realize she’s bisexual. These two are happily living their life making crazy science with each other.

There are more LGBT characters in the show. There is a trans clone but unfortunately he is only in one episode. One of the main clones, Sarah is revealed to be bisexual in s4 and her foster brother Felix, a series regular, is gay. 

#16: Picnic at Hanging Rock ~ Multiple Characters 

Three schoolgirls and their governesses mysteriously disappear on Valentines Day in 1900 at the infamous Hanging Rock. This show, while slow in some areas, transformed the 1967 book written by Joan Lindsay. What was initially about the disappearance of three girls and the attempt to find them was changed into a six part series about the repression of sexuality and expression of young girls. Miranda, Irma, and Marion, are the three young women that go missing, and they are all lesbians. There are two more characters in the story: Mike and Albert. They had a close relationship in the book but the tv show made their relationship canonically romantic. 

The show does suffer in the sense that hetero couples that barely existed in the book get more screen time and make out sessions than they should. I included this show because character wise it’s so drastic from it’s original content and it ends up putting wayyyy more focus on the girls than the book did. It turned a simple plot into a meaningful story about gender roles and sexuality and three girls trying to break free of them and two boys falling in love and running away together. Not a perfect show, but damn if it didn’t do some things right. Still recommend.

This show is a miniseries. Unlike other series, it ends where the book ends.

#17: One Day At A Time ~ Elena x Syd

If you haven’t watched these two then I don’t know wtf you’re doing. This show is precious and they are precious and god just watch it already honestly. Elena is a lesbian and Syd is a non-binary lesbian. Once a criminal breaks loose and the two have to cancel their plans to go to comic con, the two are trapped in their home with the rest of their family. As the evening builds up, Elena finally gets the courage to kiss Syd.

#18: Crashing ~ Sam x Fred

This show and this relationship is f*cking wild and it’s amazing. The show surrounds a group of people who are guardians to an abandoned hospital and they live in it. Sam meets Fred on his birthday when the two are paired up for a scavenger hunt. They relationship is odd at first with Sam constantly flirting with Fred and blatantly ignoring his feelings for him. These feelings rise to the surface and force Sam to confront them when Fred gets a rich bf who wants them to move in together. 

This show has been cancelled. The show does not end with a cliffhanger. The show does end with Sam finally leaning in a kissing Fred. 

#19: Charmed (2018) ~ Mel x Niko

Now this show is only one episode in so who knows where this show and relationship will go but it’s off to a good start with having the Mel and Nico relationship as the only romantic relationship in the show so far. I did not pay attention to the advertising of this show but as far as I know the show kept this relationship under wraps as a happy surprise for it’s premiere. The pilot has it’s flaws but it is cute, and to me personally, it works for me better than the original. These two have been dating for a while. Nico is a detective while Mel is just finding out months after her mothers death that she is a witch. A lot is going on. The pilot was interesting enough to get me to continue. The sisters are amazing and I hope the writers keep this relationship up front. This show not only has a lesbian relationship as it’s main love story right now but the three sisters are all women of color. 

This show and the actresses have been facing a lot of racist backlash so any support to ensure a future seasons be amazing!

#20: The Halcyon ~ Toby x Adil

(Ayyyeeee I got to use my own gif go follow at @tlmedits please)

Honestly f*ck BBC for cancelling so many good shows with LGBT characters. The Halcyon is a tv show that takes place during the 1940′s. Now, unlike many other periodic shows, this one is diverse, including poc and gay characters in the cast and giving them good storylines. The Halycon hotel is own by the Hamilton family, and Toby is the youngest son. Adil is a bartender in the hotel lobby. One night, while Toby is hiding from a woman his mother had set him up with, he runs into Adil who then kisses him. The two the next day begin a relationship. 

As I mentioned before, this show was cancelled.

[immegod]

A, E, and P! :D

A- Ships that you currently like a lot. (They don’t have tobe OTPs because not everyone has OTPs.) Friendships, pairings, threesomes, etc.are allowed.

LIZZINGTON is definitely my top pairing rn if you couldn’t tellhaha. If I could have Liz with anyone else though it would definitely be Samaralthough Aram/ Samar are pretty cute. My fave brotp by far is Dembe and Red I lovethem so much. I also love whenever Red/Ressler and Aram/Dembe get to interactand I would like some more of that.

I’m in a weird point rn where the blacklist is really theonly fandom I’m actively following, but I did just finish watching the Punisherwhere I definitely ship Frank/ Karen. For other Marvel shit I ship the fuck outof Jess and Trish from Jessica Jones and just want everyone to stop hurting myson tony and his son peter so like both of them x happiness.

E - Have you added anything cracky/hilarious to yourfandom? If so, what?

I like to think some of my shitposts are kinda funny? Maybe I’mjust making myself laugh which I’m totally fine with haha. That being said peoplein this fandom are absolutely hilarious and I love reading everyone else’scracks.

P - - Invent a random AU for any fandom (we alwaysneed more ideas).

I love this question!! Not really an AU but I would read theshit out of anyone who wanted to write about the younger life of RaymondReddington (or whoever he really is). ALSO maybe have Red meeting Liz (who’dhave to be aged up to about his age to keep things from being squishy) muchearlier- maybe when he’s just starting to be corrupted by the Cabal if he doesn’thave a wife and daughter and see how that changes the timeline. I’ve just beenreally obsessed with thinking about what made Red the way he was and how much ofwho he is today was how he was born and how much was forced into him by  circumstance.

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The Blacklist: Rewritten & The Reasoning Behind the Changes

In case you haven’t read it, here’s the original post where I rewrote some plot points of The Blacklist to make what I considered improvements to the overall story.

Now, I tried to stay as close to the show's main bad guys and plot points as I could -- such as Liz supposedly dying, a Rostov/a coming back into her life, Berlin gunning after Red for misplaced revenge, Liz "discovering" that Red is actually her father, etc. -- and I tried to introduce them in about the same order and for about the same reasons.

Here are the problems I see within the actual show that I wanted to address in the re-write:

I really like the idea of Tom as a bad guy, or at least, not a good guy, and not a love interest for Liz. The idea that maybe he never loved Liz, but never hated her, and was just freaked out when she blew his cover is the vibe I got after he strapped her to the banister after their fight and told her he wasn't there to hurt her... while pointing a gun at her face. He never seemed like the worst of the worst, but he definitely wasn't her Knight in Shining Armor, which is what the show has turned him into now. I liked him more as a rogue operative, who was out for himself, who switched sides whenever it suited him, and who helped or hurt people based on whether he liked them or not. I remember when S1 ended, I really hoped Tom would come back as a bad guy for Liz to confront, but no -- instead she ended up trying to remarry the guy. Ugh.

Speaking of, I made it so that Liz doesn't go back to Tom AT ALL. Yes, she chains him up on the boat, but she never reignites a relationship with him in my version. Now, I understand that, in the real world, women go back to their abusers all the time, under the impression that he has/will change(d). But, I really think this weakens the narrative, because it prevents Liz from growing as a character. (I mean, she can forgive him for what he did to her, without being in a relationship with him.) It also leaves her open to pursue other love interests, which is something she never really does in our current show. I wanted to leave open the possibility of Liz growing via dating or marrying someone else, and finding real happiness with another guy (or girl???) who didn't once lie to her, beat her up, etc.

Something that always bugged me about Berlin was that, when it was first introduced, it sounded more like an organization than a single guy. The fact that Berlin (the guy) was in a Russian prison and somehow ran a criminal empire from there, but still had to be broken out in the S1 finale doesn't make sense as it was written in the show (IMO). The presence of Mr. X makes it clear that Berlin might've had final say, but Mr. X was moving all the pieces. Also, as both of them were Russian, it's possible they would've had a connection.

Similarly, the ties between Berlin and the Cabal are very weak in the real show, and I wanted to make it more obvious why and how Red and the Task Force should've and did move their focus from Berlin's organization to the Cabal's. It also uses Mr. X (Katarina Rostova) as the overarching Big Bad of the series, something I think this show has really suffered from NOT having, really. The Cabal is kind of the Big Bad in the show, considering it was first introduced in 1x10 with Fitch, but... eh. I was never really impressed by the Cabal's power until the Superbowl episode. This gives Red's fight much higher stakes much more quickly.

I really liked the dynamic between Liz and the Director, so I wanted to explore their animosity and weird connection more so in S3a.

Because the Cabal is so powerful in-show, I wanted to depower them a little bit and switch the focus back more to Mr. X/Katarina. After the real show's S3a finale, the Cabal kind of takes a back seat to the Kirk storyline/Liz's fake death. I know Hitchin's still running around until she dies in the S4 finale, but I always wondered why they never really did more. Yes, Red's part of the Cabal now, in show, but they just stopped??? It just doesn't make sense to me. The idea of the Cabal fracturing, and Hitchin being busy trying to maintain her own power within her little Cabal splinter group gives reason for why she's not gunning after Red and the Task Force like she and her colleagues once were.

As much as I love Agnes, I think giving Liz a baby so early in the show made it feel soap-opera-y. Agnes was constantly getting kidnapped, and every time Liz was running off somewhere for work (and Tom was doing his thing in the Redemption spin-off) I was constantly wondering where the hell Agnes was and who was watching her. Agnes is really a plot device, seemingly -- she's there when it's convenient; she's forgotten when it's inconvenient. So, by instead making it seem like Liz died by Mr. X's hand would give reason for Megan Boone to be off on maternity leave, Red to mourn her in a beautiful Cape May-type episode, and then not have the conflict between them because she faked her death to get away from him. Instead, their relationship is in flux because now her mother's back in the picture.

Speaking of, making Katarina still alive instead of Liz's "father,” Kirk, (who was later revealed to be her stepfather) is WAY more interesting. I've said it time and time again -- Liz has very few female figures in her life, and so when Kirk came back instead of Katarina, it was another eye-rolling fest for me. I realize it kinda lessens the beauty of the Cape May episode if she isn't really dead, but KR being alive makes a lot of sense. I know people can get depressed after their loved ones die, but in the little we've seen of her, Katarina doesn't seem like the type of woman who'd commit suicide by walking into the ocean after her daughter shot and killed her lover/husband/baby daddy/whatever. She's a badass spy. She should be tougher and better than this, right??? Maybe I'm projecting too much of my own values onto this character. It's absolutely possible that the grief would've been too much, and she would've wanted to die. But, what about Liz/Masha? She's just going to kill herself and hope that someone decent would raise Liz? I don't think so. I'd rather KR had been alive, trying to find her daughter, and been pissed at Red this whole time for seemingly taking her daughter away from her, etc. Also, KR being alive plays into the continuing idea of Liz going over the "dark side" and becoming more of a criminal; she can learn how to be a badass spy from KR and slip even further into the shadows.

Expanding on Liz's growth as a criminal, I'd much prefer it if Liz has her own knowledge, skills, resources and assets... and doesn't always have to rely on Red's. The fact that, in my version, she could easily take over KR's criminal empire (once her mom dies) and be on-par with Red is a really cool opening that I purposely wanted to write in, mostly because it'd make a lot of sense. As he wants to grow closer to the 'light,' she grows closer to the 'dark,' and at the very end of the show, they can both walk away and choose whichever side they want, together. If they want to live in a house, raising a family together, living the simple life... great! If they want to run a major-ass criminal empire together... also great!

If you follow me, you know I'm not a big fan of the "Mr. Kaplan was once Liz's nanny" storyline. So, rather than using Mr. Kaplan as a connection to her past, it makes more sense -- considering KR's still alive in my version -- for Liz to use her mom as a connection to her past, since Red refuses to give her any details.

Now, for the Reddington father reveal... as much as I hated it in-show, I figured I'd be fair to the writers and leave it in. As a Lizzington fan, I easily could've written how Liz and Red hook up while they're on the run, but I wanted their relationship to be as vague as the current show has made it. Are they related? Are they more a teacher/student? Are they possible future lovers?? Who knows at this point, either IRL or in my version. But, with KR revealing this information to Liz it leaves open a few possibilities:

The Impostor Theory: Katarina might be telling Liz the truth, straight-up, without clarifying that the man she knows as Raymond Reddington isn't the real Raymond Reddington.

A Complete Lie: Katarina might be lying to Liz. Her dad might be a completely different person, and she's only pinning Liz's paternity onto Red because:

In my version, I feel like Liz would be more pissed at Red than anything. Instead of this 'revelation' drawing them closer together, I think it would really push them farther apart. Liz has her mom; she doesn't necessarily need her dad in her life. She just wanted to know who he was to have closure. If Red has been telling her all this time that her dad was dead, that knowing his identity would put her in grave danger, etc., ... I think Liz would be absolutely furious with him. The way he behaved toward her was like... maybe less than appropriate? Did he know? If so, why did he keep it from her?? So yeah, it's absolutely believable that Liz would -- rather than embracing Red as her dad -- resent him for lying to her, keeping her away from her mom, and all sorts of either real or imagined 'crimes.'

I think it'd also be a smart move on Katarina's part, because making Liz believe that the Red we know is her dad, again, further guarantees that Liz will resent him and choose KR over him. She will push Red out of their lives for good. Maybe Katarina is nervous of Red's undying love for Liz and the possible idea that Lizzington could happen (if Red and Liz aren't biologically related), so she's using the Daddy Card as a way to separate the two and make sure they never get together.

Also, because I'm a Lizzington fan, so indulge me for a second, it would make Red and Liz presumably getting together at the very end of the series much more meaningful, if -- once Liz finds out that either Katarina was lying or Red was lying about his identity -- Liz ultimately chooses to spend her life with him instead of her mother. The fact that Katarina would be set up in opposition to Red who's our protagonist/anti-hero means that, while she might be right about him in some respects, she's ultimately wrong about him when it counts, ie, he's not as bad as she thinks he is.

Finally, having KR as the Big Bad leaves open the idea that Liz could go back to her at any time; or KR could come for Liz / after Red at any point. Mr. X was introduced as the Big Bad, in my version, and I would want the show to stick to that idea, so Katarina could show up again in the show any time for just about any reason.

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Tony x Pepper & Lizzington

tony x pepper is here 

lizzington

who’s the werewolf and who’s the hunter | well that would be werewolf!red and hunter!liz.  liz who’s been hunting werewolves with her dad for her whole life, who thinks they’re an abomination, who thinks they’re nothing but a problem.  until she’s attacked one night by a wolf she’s chasing and is saved by red, the elusive gray wolf she’s been following for years.  her world view is shaken as she spends more time with red and realizes that some wolves aren’t as bad as she thought

who’s the mermaid and who’s the fisherman | mermaid!liz because i’m weak and fisherman!red.  after the death of his love, red becomes a recluse, staying in his drafty cabin near the lighthouse, only venturing into the nearby town for groceries or to visit his one friend, dembe.  he’s content to spend his time alone and lonely until a fierce storm blows a young woman into his path.  she shows up on his doorstep, shivering and weak kneed, covered in the tarp that once covered his lawn furniture.  he’s not sure where she comes from or where she’s going, but a hearty meal and a place by his fire is a place to start.

who’s the witch and who’s the familiar | witch!liz all dark and angry, fire in her eyes and dirt under her nails, hunting down the worst of the worst and backed up with her strong and silent familiar, a wolf with a deep dark red coat.  

who’s the barista and who’s the coffee addict | barista!liz who gets tongue tied and starry eyed by the always impeccably dressed coffee addict!red.  he always seems to know exactly when she’s working, even though her sadistic manager gives her the worst shifts on sporadic days.  it’s like he’s watching her and she can’t help but get a little tingle at the base of her spine when she thinks of his sharp gaze on her in other ~steamier settings.  

who’s the professor and who’s the TA | i wrote this.  professors!red and liz.  red is a [insert language here] professor and liz teaches psychology.  they carry on a secret affair for years until they finally get married and some of the other professors are legitimately confused lol.  

who’s the knight and who’s the prince(ss) | princess liz who has been locked in the castle since birth by king alexander is set free by the king’s hand, sir raymond, who risks everything to help her escape.  

who’s the teacher and who’s the single parent | teacher!red and single parent!liz.  mr. reddington is the english teacher at agnes’ school and after she wins a writing award, liz finally gets to meet the teacher that her daughter can’t stop talking about.  liz isn’t sure what she’s expecting, agnes has never described mr. reddington, just talked how supportive and inspiring the man is.  so when she finally meets the teacher, she’s shocked by how handsome he is, older than she imagined, but mesmerizing.  

who’s the writer and who’s the editor | writer!red and editor!liz.  she loves what he writes, can’t get enough of his historical fiction and the way he weaves the tales.  but sometimes he can be a little wordy, so sitting down with him with edits can sometimes take hours and by the end of it, her shoes are off and her feet are tucked under her and her hair is pulled back and pinned with an extra red pencil and she’s the most beautiful thing he’s ever seen.  

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