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Out of lamotrigine but the pharmacy seem to be taking their sweet as fuck time getting it to me. Like you do know that you're actively putting my health and my life in danger right
#focal seizures like crazy#I've managed to ration out my last three 25mgs but thats just a third of my prescribed dose and they STILL haven't gotten it to me#I just used my last one so now it's none at all until it gets here
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There is an ocean of difference between institutional/systemic poverty and situational poverty, and I never ever want to conflate the two. But I am gonna say it- situational poverty still sucks and the financial exploitation of graduate students needs to end. It should not be an expectation that you'll be living in functional poverty for several years to get an advanced degree. But it is. It absolutely is, ask anyone who's been through it- people treat it like some rite of passage. But no one ever seems to question it. We do so much work and receive so little compensation for it, if any at all, and especially with the economy being what it is right now? It's fucking criminal.
Graduate students should receive a stipend that covers the average cost of living in the area of their school and that should be the bare fucking minimum.
#tired of rationing food between paychecks because I can't afford groceries#this month has been especially bad like I'm gonna need to start taking my antacid every other day#because I have five doses left but kinda can't afford to top it off before my next paycheck#which isn't for another ten days#shit like that is getting old#and I realize I will not be in this situation much longer#but it still isn't fun right now and damnit I'm allowed to complain about it#these paychecks come from a part time job btw which I absolutely need but SHOULDN'T#given how much work I do for the university
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maybe if I get high i will remember how to write
#haven’t been properly high in like two weeks? or whenever I had my breakdown. I got extremely catastrophically high after that#maybe that affected my tolerance in some manner? or maybe these gummies are a lower dose than usual?#so when I’ve tried to get high it’s not really worked or only lasted like half an hour.#oh you know what. I bet it’s because I’m rationing my meds.#my anxiety/migraine meds make weed affect me more but I’m taking it only once a day instead of twice#to make it last until the refill. I bet that’s it actually
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okay so I think my antidepressants help a looooot with the mania but it is NOT doing anything to help with the sorrows.
#I mean. the sorrows are great and unrelenting so I guess I shouldn’t be TOO surprised it doesn’t just eliminate them but still…#mac rambles#still have to up the dose one more time to get back to where I was before I had to start rationing so maybe that’ll do it
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feeling a little better today (got to take my meds)
#ive been rationing them to fucking hell while i wait to get on insurance#literally splitting my normal 40mg dose into 3 bc less is better than none when it comes to paxil#worst withdrawals i have ever experienced in my fucking life. literally worse than my migraines#it’s like a migraine but with added anger so huge you cannot control it#so naturally ive been terrified to run out before i get insurance bc i cannot afford the shit out of pocket#tried to just skip a couple days to prolong the time i have and uh yeah. big mistake i think#but i’m okay now. for today
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it's fine it's totally fine that I'm having this much trouble getting my t refilled it's fine
#I'm down to my last dose and I've been rationing it#because I'm in-between doctors and they won't answer my calls or the pharmacys calls!!!!!!!#i just!!!!!!!! AUUUUGHGHGHADGGFJ#the pharmacy said they've been calling and emailing and faxing for the last month and gotten nothing back#what Really sucks is that t has helped my chronic pain and my overall health issues#and now that I'm really running low i feel sick all the time and my body is in So Much Pain#i still have another two weeks until i can finally meet my new doctor who i had to schedule like six months in advance#and at this point I'm just desperate!!!! for anything!!!!#just PLEASE let me have my t. please i want to be able to walk with minimal pain
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Two hours. I got two hours of sleep. I’m so frustrated with myself.
Went to the ER. Everyone was very nice. They gave me an IV bag of fluids (I was dehydrated! Sad cactus!) and a little ativan (teeny dose), which was nice at the time! Just a little amount, but the (mostly) quiet room, fluids, and meds managed to relax me a lot. Could have fallen asleep if the bed was actually comfortable. Then they packed me up, gave me another little Ativan to take home for tonight, and said they’d contact my primary. Cool cool. Got some much needed food on the way home, then took the pill and got comfy. Again, smallest dosage they make, so no feeling too good. Managed to muscle past my anxiety to fall asleep, and… 2 hours. Woke up. Tried to go back to sleep. Too frustrated and anxious and I feel like crap. What should I do? Just eat a whole gummy and hope that knocks me out? For me, that feels like playing roulette. Could work, yeah. Could make me sleepy and pliable. Could also backfire and make me feel sick and extra anxious for another 5 or 6 hours. What do I do? Roll back up to the ER? “Hewwo, I woke up and I need more benzos 👉👈🥺” haha funny, but I’ve seriously been thinking about it 😑
God, I’m miserable. Been sitting outside on the porch for a bit. Not quite an hour. Needed to get out of the apartment, but tbh, nearly 4am outside isn’t doing much for me. I just feel alone. It wouldn’t help with sleeping, per se, but just someone, I dunno, hugging or holding me for a few minutes would honestly save me a little. What a mess. Oh yeah, and apparently my kidneys are going 👎👎👎 down. Bad meat. Not great test results. Not what I’m focusing on tonight. I’m a mess. Anyway, this was my update. Sorry for all the walls of text. Suppose this is mainly for me to look back on in the future, but can’t pretend it’s not at least a little validating to put this all out into the world and knowing that maybe one or two people read this and I didn’t suffer completely without recognition. Yeah…
#this is a lot of text#not really a casual read#ok ok… I can’t sit outside forever#gonna go back inside and I dunno make a hot chocolatey drink. grab some snacks#TRY to feel good even though I don’t#YES will probably get a little high#hoping that the combo of sugar. salt. and thc will give me the sleepy tools to just pass out for awhile#just a few more hours! please!#omg I was so pissed when I woke up and thought I’d slept for awhile but realized I hadn’t#’ what do you mean the last text I sent was only two hours ago? ‘#seriously. I thought I fell asleep around 11 pm but it was closer to 1am.#stupid sexy ativan. messing with my sense of time#it really wasn’t that big of a dose! I was basically a little buzzed for an hour or so each time#but the doctor was nice and straightforward with me. I just dunno tho. I’m a big guy with a history of anxiety. .5mg is weaksauce#god I’m getting anxious just sitting here thinking about trying to sleep again#it’s feeding on itself. I’m trying to rationalize this but it’s just this feedback loop.#is this my life now? I’m outside. I feel so alone. I feel like I could die any moment. in a sword of Damocles way. it’s there and waiting.#ok sitting outside isn’t helping#after 4am and yes I see cars driving by. I hear the occasional siren. but I still feel alone in the world#please tell me life goes on? please tell me we’re not really at the end here.#I always feel like I’m staring at our final days. that we’re all barely here. fucking ghost planet. waiting to die.#there’s war and hate and everything is expensive and I can’t.. I’m not a part of this world. I’m too poor and sickly and so it all seems…#like we’re on our last leg. like the final days of a fire sale. this body feels fit for the grave. this world is the grave.#I’m scared#ok like I said sitting out here isn’t helping. Ian. please stop.#yes. yes. ok. snacks and drinks and distracting tv. let’s try this again.#sorry this is a lot#I spent the last 20 minutes writing these tags and getting progressively more anxious 😬#you can ignore this#text
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i would like to be medicated
i'm TIRED
#trying to ration my backup stock by taking one (1) adderall IR per day#and the dose is too low#so i get like. 4 hours of being half awake daily. yay.#gay piracy
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that's it. im writing a suicide note on linkedin
#bheart talks#suicide tw#this is a joke but indicative of how much im GOING THROUGH IT#been making an effort not to talk about personal stuff online anymore but FUCK dude#whats the point of meds and therapy if im still broke as shit#these meds wont help me pay the bills man fuck all of this i have to wait 2 weeks#to adjust the doses every time and something happens in thsoe two weeks#that sends me off the rails spiraling with a hundred new problems#i can only see my therapist for one hour once every two weeks and i just#cant say everything and honestly idk what im even supposed to be DOING there#she just says nice things to me and i waste time talking so much and then time runs out#and i walk away with basically nothjng#and i just realized they o ly prescribed me 30 pills of ritalin instead of 60#so now i have to ration these until i can get more#meanwhile i cant get hired anywhere and my job has cut my hours so bad i only got %7#i only got $70 for my paycheck#im not going to fucking make it this month#i have no car insurance no food in the house no gas in the car and no hours to work#i applied for unemployment but it's taking forever to figure out#im hemorrhaged#im doing bad im doing bad im doing bsd#literally bg3 is the only thread im hanging by this is literally the only thing keeping me together#unsure where id be without it. definitely somewhere worse thats for sure.
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im just gonna tmi-medication share in the tags real quick
#tales from diana#i want to preface this with i've been prescribed adderall as-needed for adhd for a fullllll decade now#don't come at me with anti-adderall or anti-adhd-medication bullshit im not here for it!!#but my health problems have been so bad and ive been getting the worst sleep of my life lately no matter WHAT i do#i can do everything right#and btw i do not take adderall every day. which is implied by as-needed but i want to stress again I DONT NEED IT EVERY DAY#only when i do like. work. which ive been doing less and less bc of health problems!#but even though i havent been able to physically work so much i still have been taking half-doses a couple times a week just to like. read.#just to have a brain to do ANYTHING when everything is so awful and my brain is so foggy#ive always *sometimes* cut my doses in half if im not doing so much. just to save it y'know.#and ive always also *occasionally* gotten worse or even a really bad night's sleep after taking adderall#most commonly i'll wake up absurdly early the next morning and not be able to fall back asleep#rationing sleep is always something ive been in the habit of doing anyway as a person w adhd.#sleeping 4-6 hours during the week and 10-12 hours on weekends. just to make up for the deprivation y'know.#but even lately cutting my regular dose in half. it's still too much.#my current dose btw is already half of what it was in high school! i decreased my dose already years ago#but yesterday i finally got the nerve to take. a damn quarter of my own pill#and i took the smaller quarter of the half i cut in half.#i was def taking less than 5mg of my damn medication#and i actually didnt sleep like complete shit! and i was also worried#it might not be so effective.#but it actually worked quite well. i had enough focus to read for several hours#i had energy throughout the day too#i sometimes try to do caffeine on days i cant/dont wanna take adderall but caffeine just does not do the addy things so effectively. iykyk.#i cant believe i have to be so skimpy w my own life-sustaining mental health medications just bc my physical health is so bad#but whatever. whatever!#im gonna take another quarter-dose today and finish pericles prince of tyre. have a great day everyone
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My tramadol finally turned up!!!
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do you think drugs would fix me. not weed real ones. okay not real ones like semi real ones. you know what maybe i'll just eat a really hot pepper and go for a bike ride or something
#I'm running out of zoloft so i've rationed down to a third of my prescribed dose#i think I'm feeling different but I can't pinpoint how. that may also be on account of totaling my car tho#I have the rest of my prescriptions so i'll live till the medicare kicks in#anyway they already decriminalized shrooms here they should start selling them at supplement chain stores already#windbag
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[You know it's a problem when, between Nabooru and Vegeta, Vegeta is the rational one in the argument.]
#.:ooc:.#thats all the context you get for now#and obvs vegeta can be very rational but this is a special kind of#nabs being the one taking the extra steong dose of copium and avoidance instead of him
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People who sell and buy recreational Adderall during these shortages are ableist: discuss.
#please give me my medicine im so so so tired#I went twenty years not knowing why i was like this and now Ive got the meds and theyre ALWAYS OUT OF FUCKING STOCK#so i get to ration them! like by not being able to do much of anything for two days just so I can have a dose for my final!#i dont really care about this debate im just mad at shortages its as always a drug company and drug policy problem
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i ran out of my heart medication back in july because i was too scared to go to the doctor to get a new script but today is my lucky day because i just found 4 pills while cleaning my room 😎
#theyre still in their packet btw#im not eating them off the floor#anyways i gotta figure out how to ration them#and also find out if i can just start taking full dose straight away or if i have to work back up again.......#oughhhhhhhh
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medication should be permanently free and immediately show up on my doorstep 5 days before I run out and if anyone asks me about insurance or coupon codes or renewing prescriptions I am going to start biting people. Thank You
#tempest.txt#part of this is on me. i should have called a little bit earlier to confirm a refill#but also if i ask a pharmacy to transfer all my meds i am going to assume they are going to transfer all my meds#i should not have to ask for each one. individually. i have like 10#ive been rationing my seroquel since sunday and today i am at 1/6th of a dose and i might need to wait until monday#for everything to go through........#if that happens i am going to gently set my phone down and walk in the direction of the sun forever
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