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I can't take "Kim is rude to wait staff" "Kim treats the bodyguards like shit" "Kim is awful to strangers and has to learn basic manners"
Because it's fucking canon that in the middle of a fight for chays life, a fight he already knows is going to cause some damage, a fight he's outnumbered for and no one even knows he's there, he still keeps yok from losing an entire shelf and mirrors and alcohol. He knows she is a small business probably knows her entire Financials what with him being Mr. Mcsnoopy face.
#kim theerapanyakul#kpts#kinnporsche#ive always viewed him as the most thoughtful of his position in the family#viewed in context of his privileges#kinn is all about politeness and consideration but not equality#khun is all about superiority and people knowing their placee#but kim is more of an equalizer#(this nextbit is meta and headcanon more than anything)#but while he can be haughty and wear the crown so to speak#he prefers working shoulder to shoulder or working alone#rather than ordering people around#and so as the one who has lived alone and rejected the family (to whatever extent is debateable)#hes very aware of the damage his family has done#and actively works in a different way than kinn#kinn minimizes and redirects the damage#kim prevents the damage
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John Seed is a comfort character for some people. Folks like to ship him with their deputies or craft redemption arcs for him.
There's nothing wrong with that, obviously.
But I just can't wrap my head around it.
There's nothing comforting about the way John Seed treated Joey Hudson. I don't understand why the ordeal she went through doesn't seem to matter to fans of his.
She was bait for the rookie deputy and nothing more, because she wasn't going to give in and join the cult.
He terrorized Joey and the rest of Fall's End, stooping to the lowest, most inhumane levels to get his way. Some even theorize that he hurt the "sinners" in his care just because he wanted to, for malicious, sadistic reasons that didn't have anything to do with the cult. At worst, some people go as far as to speculate that he raped Joey.
It's easy to see why someone might come to that conclusion. The way he acts is deplorable and he makes everything feel extremely personal, sometimes in ways that can be interpreted as sexually charged. He'll do anything in order to get his way because "no" is antithetical to him. He regularly flies off the handle, so much so that Joseph is threatening to cast him out. All the touching and getting right up in the player's face is so uncomfortable and obsessive (which is the point, but I digress).
So why does he get to be redeemed and venerated by fans? Don't his actions warrant consequences?
Are people willing to let him off the hook because he's attractive? Because he had a horrible, abusive childhood? Obviously he's got a lot more lore than most of the cast. Is that something people are interested in exploring for him over other characters?
I'm not trying to come after anyone personally. There's nothing wrong with liking villains and Jacob, Faith, and Joseph have also done terrible things to innocent people.
Which is like, fine. It's a video game.
And I know that John, like Joey, is a victim of Ubisoft's choppy, inconsistent writing and storytelling. Things got changed and swapped and cut during development that got us to where we are, with the story we have. Flaws and all, not like it was ever going to be perfect.
But in my opinion, I feel like the adoration for John does a huge disservice to Joey. People make thirsty edits of him while she's literally tied up behind him. It's tasteless and makes the optics of her situation look even creepier.
Her pain has largely been ignored for as long as the game has existed. I can't for the life of me figure out why.
#i'm gonna save my extra personal interpretations for the notes#genuinely I'm not trying to come after anyone#I just can't wrap my head around it#same goes for Jacob but I feel like he at least has the capacity for some change#cause he has doubts about the cult and stuff#the jury is out on Faith and how much autonomy she really has#though I believe it's more than some people think#and Joseph well... some medication is in order at least#but John had all that money and not a single cent went to a therapist so he could sort out his issues#John never got proper help and he has some very fucked up interpretations of the events that happened to him#he is so stuck in his ways and regularly acts extremely selfishly#in canon that's even considered to be part of why he dies#he's too stubborn and selfish to change#would rather everyone experience the pain that he felt than accept what happened to him#he absolutely had the means to better himself and never did#and Joey and all the other innocent people in his bunker were hurt no matter how you slice it#which if we're talking about John#I guess that's no pun intended#far cry 5#john seed#joey hudson#deputy hudson#fandom opinions#rape mention
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bath is such a tourist trap 😭😭 the roman baths were neat but that’s literally all there is
#stream#skip sally lunn’s house unless u want to sit around for 15 minutes waiting to have ur drink order taken only to sit around for an hour to#have to go out and FIND THE WAITER bc we been sittin for an HOUR waitin for the damn FOOD TO SHOW UP#man didn’t show up once 🙄#literally i’m still so annoyed that im going to leave a review like bro what the fuck we were the ONLY people in the entire ROOM & we were#just ??? looking around ???? like what the fuck#i hate all non american restaurants unless they’re like#UPPITY UPPITY restaurants or like a PUB#anything in between is trash & i would rather kill myself than go to them#either give me bugs in my drink or a Real Server that’s IT !!!!!#😭😭😭😭😭#i wouldn’t have been dramatic if i wasn’t just drinking fucking BLACK TEA on an EMPTY STOMACH like BRO i was going to VOMIT#i got so annoyed i was like i’m just going into the kitchen bc what the fuck is this like guess i gotta cook this trash myself ?#then they just comped the drinks like … lol#omar covered bc i was going to argue bc the ORHER SERVER SAID SHES COMPING EVERUTHING BC AN HOUR IS BULLSHIT#THATS AN H O U R#FOR FUCKING 2 SLICES OF HAM W MUSTARD ON A BUN#I’m soooooo ANNOYED#like what pisses me off the most is slow service#be RUDE just don’t be fuckin SLOW#IF UR TABLE IS BORED UR DOING A BAD JOB
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Another contract au thing
At first when Beetlejuice is allowed back into the house, the Maitlands avoid Beetlejuice. Charles backs them up and orders Beetlejuice to stay out of the attic. Eventually they start willingly spending time around him, communicating that they won’t order him around, but they expect him to respect their boundaries. After a bit they even revoke Charles’ order and let him come into the attic, though they expect him to ask permission.
The Maitlands are the safest people in the house for Beetlejuice to be around. They don’t give him orders, and will revoke orders upon request if they don’t think they’re going to step on anyone’s toes by doing so.
Beetlejuice does his best to comply for a while, but eventually the stress of his whole situation starts to wear on him and he starts to feel irritated about the Maitlands, too.
The Maitlands, he thinks, want to avoid the guilt of ordering him around directly while still reaping the benefits. What’s the difference between their requests and everyone else’s orders if he has to obey them all the same?
Angry about their hypocrisy (and maybe they really are being hypocritical, I’m not really sure yet. At the very least they’re complicit), he reverts to his behavior from the musical and then some. He goes out of his way to harass them and make them uncomfortable, giving them as little peace as he possibly can. When they ask him to stop, he tells them to make him.
Eventually Barbara has had enough and does, finally, order him to stop harassing them, and tells him to stay out of the attic for a while so they can have some space.
Finally, Beetlejuice is satisfied. Once again, he got the perfect Maitlands to snap.
He goes to the roof and feels sick, gnashes his teeth and curls into a ball and wants to claw at his skin, but he doesn’t cry. He hasn’t felt capable of crying for a long, long time.
#i look at Beetlejuice and see a giant glowing arrow pointing at him#it says I SABOTAGE MY RELATIONSHIPS#the description of how beetleman handles his emotions brought to you by all the times I wanted to cry#but could only feel miserable and anxious and vaguely sick#contract au#beetlejuice#I want to be clear that while the Maitlands are complicit in BJ’s situation in this AU#Beetlejuice tries his absolute hardest to give them no choice but to order him to stop#a classic case of wanting to get the pain over with rather than live in fear of it#the Maitlands ordering him to do something feels like a betrayal#but it’s a betrayal he was sure was inevitable#so he decided to force it to happen on his own terms#he could also never truly feel like he had free will around them#because even if they didn’t order him around#other people might not hesitate to do so to protect the Maitlands#contract au musings
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i also don’t think ‘security in your masculinity’ functions as a cure for violence against women. in fact, the cure is (put simply) compassion and empathy for women, the recognition that women are human beings, which is something masculinity is explicitly constructed against. because masculinity isn’t a biological reality, it’s a social construct defined against a feminine ‘other’ and associated with power. traits/behaviours/embodiment that one culture and time period associates with masculinity are associated with femininity in another. In that context ‘security in your masculinity’ means... security that you don’t have to behave like [insert racialised/class-prejudiced portrayal of stereotypes male violence here] to preserve the privileges you expect to be surrounded by as a member of the dominant gender class. the irony in the ‘secure in my masculinity’ brag is that it makes the men with genuine cause to fear for their place in masculine hegemony (disabled men, gay men, trans men, men of colour, jewish men, immigrant men, working class men, etc) more of a threat than the men who are most secure within it. and now, under this framework, striving for inclusion within the privileged class, fighting to maintain its definitions, and subscribing to its values, is... feminist praxis? and of course, in all of this, men’s experiences are centralised in the conversation of violence against women. violence against women becomes a tribal issue between groups of men, a.k.a 'feminist’ men are taking fundamentally the same perspective as the 3750 year old code of hammurabi.
#its so lazyyyyy#and when people are like im secure enough in my masculinity to paint my nails or whatever the whole thing really falls apart#like masculinity is a social construct#either youre saying 'im secure enough in my adherence to this social construct to occasionally divert from it' (thus legitimising the#construct) or you're just subscribing to a bioessentialist notion of some fundamental masculinity#that still protects you even when you aren't performing masculinity#like. stfu#i really dont know where these (almost invariably straight) guys think gnc people fit into this. chances are they dont think at all lol#and i love how he draws attention in that article to how often the implied 'insecure man' is working class and/or not white#because it's like yeah you're a threat in your struggle to secure power (and ofc marginalised men often DO hurt women around them in order#to do this) BUT the men who don't have to do this because..their power is already ultimate...are framed as the good guys#rather than. the even worse guys.#anyway as always compare butch masculinity with men's masculinity and you'll find masculinity is not just a neutral set of traits that#just randomly happen to be associated with men for no reason#okay anyway im done i dont care any more im breathing into a paper bag
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Where does your power lie?
The Lungs
breathe, just breathe. whether it's to calm yourself or raise your voice, your control has always been your strength. in, out. you feel, you observe, you hold it in, and you release that which you cannot use. and you sing. and you sing.
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#&&. Honestly after a plot recently#&&. this fits#&&. Cat was overwhelmed in a crowd and due to her senses being everywhere#&&. She didn't notice an obsessive fan of scott's coming out of thin air to punch her because how dare she steal him#&&. He saw it though#&&. but rather than attack back#&&. He was calm / grabbed Cat to pull her back / and then took the hit like a wall#&&. using defensive methods Cat taught him#&&. Yet he never swung a punch or hurt the fan#&&. he just pushed them back slightly to let security handle the rest but#&&. he had to be calm in order to not cause a scene with so many people around#&&. answered ( memes)
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actually i feel like a whole essay could be written about "Random Humor" and how it did not really go away so much as get rebranded and change its presentation somewhat. tumblr especially loves its absurdist non-sequiturs but it is afraid to call it as it is (random humor) and quite frankly some of the posts on this site WISH they could be as funny as a ytp from 2009. i havent the braincells right now (or maybe ever idk) to write such an essay though
#error 0#that being said i do think some part of it has to do with what stock phrases and topics are in vogue#a lot of old school random humor memes were based around like... food and unusual but charming animals#late 2010s was idk. teeth? convoluted death threats?#and right now wizard jokes are pretty big#my point being i guess that like. when a meme is Big you can get caught in the hype and find it funny just because its a meme#but in order to have staying power outside of that a non-sequitur needs to TRULY be a non-sequitur or do something interesting w the topic#we look back fondly on spadinner now but there's a reason people grew so tired of it back then#and i cant remember the last time an ''artsy'' unprovoked death threat crossed my dash except to complain about it#wizards... that's a topic with a lot of room to explore and make a large variety of jokes. but i wonder if it will last#maybe in 5 years we'll be looking back like ''i miss the wizardbloggers'' or maybe we will be like ''ugh remember all the wizard jokes?''#i hope not the latter i actually rather like the wizards#but i digress the main point i was trying to make here was that a lot of ''random'' humor is not truly non-sequitur#both now AND back then#which is why its easy to pretend theres REALLY a difference between “ZOMG ZOMBIE TACOS?!?!” and “horse plinko eeby deeby”#and. oh my god i just went and wrote an essay in the tags instead of the main post. goddammit#oh well. hopesfuly this oversimplified rambling makes sense to someone else on this earth other than me
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going through my dream daddy saves and when i first played i did the routes in order of which i thought would be my least to most favorite
#random thoughts#dream daddy#so it goes damien hugo mat craig brian joseph robert#i'd order them differently now in some ways but mostly yeah that. that tracks.#hugo and mat are both my least favorite routes because they both lack any character growth and i feel like their characters are the weakest#hugo is definitely the better out of the two of them though#then brian. wish he was better. and fatter. generally wish there was more body diversity ig#EVERYONE HAS THE SAME JAW SHAPE WHAT'S THE DEAL#anyway i've gone into why i don't like brian's route before so i wont get into it too much#his route is based around the avatar's character flaws rather than his own and the romance is rushed on brian's part#why is brian into the avatar if he's been nothing but fucking mean to him????#and then damien#not much to say about damien#very forgettable. not much done wrong but not much done right either. solid 5/10.#and now for my top three!!!#number 3: craig. craig is probably my favorite character just because of how well he bounces off others#he's such a fucking people pleaser it's so fun#his arc about learning to not sacrifice his own happiness for his children is SO GOOD#wish there was more of an underlying basis to the relationship between the avatar and craig but that's difficult to do in a dating sim so eh#like he'd be THE GUY to mention the mc's dead spouse right. wouldn't they have known each other.#like obviously the reason they haven't talked since college is because life and kids getting in the way#but i feel like they could have ruminated on that a bit more#fucking hate the baby toy search in the park. only part of the game where i gave up and looked shit up#aside from the trivia game but that doesn't count#anyway craig 7/10 on the basis everyone else was worse#number two! JOSEPH MY MAIN FUCKER HOW ARE YOU DOING YOU BASTARD#fucking love joseph. his dynamic with his wife and kids and ROBERT oh my god wtf happened between them#he's such a strong character. fucking hate his ass wish i could have swam away from that boat#number one!!!! the man the myth the legendary ghost hunter ROBERT!!!!!!!#again another strong character who has great dynamics with other characters fucking bounces off other people so well
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one day when i am not busy dying on the inside and out i will write an honest-to-god essay about how people are, for the lack of a better descriptor but simultaneously for the lack of a more perfect one, too edgy about five.
#like yeah five is an edgy game and the darkest in the series and gloomier than all of its predecessors but. i lack the words for it now but#there are important little moments in five where light shines through the carpet haphazardly thrown over a pile of garbage that oft get#ignored in favor of pushing the agenda that everyone in five is filth down to the core and that's just not true#i just- deeeeeeep sigh. people are so shallow sometimes man#this is how we get those characters that do not resemble the original in the slightest that either take one trait of the given character an#then bloat and exagerrate it until the character is a caricature of themselves OR projections of what the people would like these character#to BE in order to... be able to wrap their heads around them and their motivations more easily‚ i guess??#i don't know it feels to me like people just don't want to bother with the intricacies of complex characters and that's how the wood plank#versions of characters get created and then passed around ad infinitum#sweet grouchy baby boy who never did anything wrong ever. man who is either an innocent little big guy or satan himself. guy who is#objectively one of the most flawed individuals in the series being worshipped as a hero (griffith syndrome). guy who is either depicted as#an obnoxious playboy who only cares about getting laid and having as much skin exposed as possible at all times or the most vile man on#planet earth while being neither. the fucking. masochist cyborg thing. i'm gonna explode#oh and if you point out that there needs to be depth to any analysis of these characters if you are to do them justice you end up with a#gaggle of people saying oh yeah of course everyone in here is awful and they all have pig hearts#and i'm just wondering why this is the default conclusion most come to and not‚ you know‚ the thought that complexity does not inherently#imply rottenness but rather that even in the most horrible of situations you can find something good#i'm not the happiest or the most fortunate of individuals but i still refuse to believe in the idea of inherent evil that's being sold for#cheaper than a copy paper pack these days#but that has nothing to do with this my point is if you're trying to do media analysis you've got to look beyond... i don't have a word for#this... i guess you could call them fanmade stereotypes? no that's not it‚ my point is that people need to open their eyes to how complex#motivations and circumstances and human connection are and face that complexity head on instead of rubbing the story with sandpaper until#it's satisfiable to them#logs
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More Fun Comics (1935) #59
#so now Inza has a way to contact Dr. Fate#her role here is alerting him that there is an issue#and then he takes her with him on the mission but she doesn’t assist physically in any way#he’s just carrying her around#but she is talking#I’ll note that one part where he goes to investigate the enemies’ ship while they’re away from it#and she protests that the people on the liner- which is where the enemies are- are all going to be killed#but he says he needs to learn about them in order to defeat them#other than that I don’t think she’s really saying anything of consequence#she’s provided a person for Dr. Fate to talk to and explain things rather than having him just talk to himself#at this point we don’t know how their relationship formed#it does seem a bit that she’s providing a sort of moral compass but that may just be reading too much into it#what seems more clear is her role as a connection to the world as Dr. Fate is confined to his tower and disconnected from society#but we don’t know at this point why that is either#dc#kent nelson#inza nelson#my posts#comic panels
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still wrestling with don giovanni event left 25719 injured
#if anything after mulling it over... dg makes so much sense#he's taking technically correct catholicism and screwing it to fit what he wants#because it's easier to do that than to change himself to be better#its like. of course divine mercy is open to all. even if we dont believe they deserve it. which dg would agree with#but in order to get it you need to choose it. and that's where dg disagrees because he's after «libertà»#he'd much rather pay lip service to an eternally merciful God than do the work that puts him in a position to choose mercy#he's all about 'oh i'll fix it (the horrendous way i treat the people around me) later. i want freedom now'#but when he's given the choice to actually change he turns it down! and that's what denies him divine mercy in the end#anyway idk im still thinking abt it
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Ye... it doesn't surprise me some are already starting to celebrate Palestine's Genocide, which they were no matter who won, but Losing gives them good credence to feel good in dropping the mask that they always were Pro-Genocide since it now allows them to feel completely justified in alienating voters permanently out of entirely cultish inspired spite.
Look, ya'll gotta quit dividing your wide umbrella, easiest way is drawing the line at Genocide which is Right By Your Foot.
Regardless, "i told you so" Yeah-huh, and so did I, it was tight, you needed the votes, ya pushed them away because it looked bad for Dear Leader to...listen to our demands for better...
Anyways,
glad we're past "It's not a genocide bro" and finally can talk about it like Functional Adult Human Beings- starting at:
Genocide Bad No Matter Who
#palestine#third party#democrats#leftists#kamala harris#ya'll gotta understand those that decided not to vote saw an election that did not represent them or their morals#that if genocide was on the table and you'd be so willing. Why bother joining that? Ya'll're scared of a genocide here#with dump and suddenly Now it's a problem? Get real bro. Dem Politicians said they view some as beneath them#and god damn if you pay any attention. You lose total respect and confidence in the system#so when people normally willing to Listen To Common Sense decide to be Republican about shit like bro#Idunno what to tell ya'll. As someone who voted Kamala and supported her. It's rather mind numbing#Genocide Bad No Matter Who#I did more than I've seen from any dem to garner the lost vote from Democrat's decisions#it's kinda sad#ya convince some of em and ya'll push em' right the fuck baxk#Seriously understand ya got nazi-ism coursing through that ideology and once that pill was swallowed...#well ya lost motivation and confidence. Especially with the do-nothing dem politicians this cycle#should've been bernie#every single time it should've been him#a genuinely happier life exists with him#Hilariously they're also proving in order to make progress they gotta force them to come to terms with what it is#and then those around them Will Notice The Betrayal Of Trust and Change In Character and leave em to be good people again
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its really funny changing the events of WoW for my OCs version of things because im just mangling the entire thing into something completely nonsensical just to be like. yeah i like that :]
#my post#just completely throwing away entire things that exist and changing around when other things happened and#i thought the sword in silithus was there for thousands of years. not like. 7. you bet your ass its the first one in my version though#does that make sense? fuck no. dont care!#tell me it doesnt hit hard the idea of being a kid from kalimdor growing up seeing that thing in the distance and wondering what the FUCK#EVEN IS THAT THING. like theres something that looks *created* and its bigger than one can even concieve#and just augh idk yknow. i just like that better#basically the entire thing runs on 'rule of cool' rather than real logic#its freeing actually lol i usually get so bogged in trying to make things work when i make stuff#and its like. fuck you. pandaria happened before the draenei came to azeroth. idc that that doesnt make sense#there were still death knights being made *after* gilneas got worgen'd. dont care that that makes no sense#ysee what i mean. logic has no home here only fun#this is what happens when i learn everything in this game completely out of fucking order like i do#im gonna add this to my wow tag for blog purposes but i fear if other people actually pay attention to this post IM SORRY OTHER WOW PLAYERS#world of warcraft
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Might I inquire as to what, precisely, a Mustain't is? (Aside from a string of letters I hesitate to Google in that order.)
In October 2014 I went on a road-trip to the Dryest Place In America.
I was having a rough year, very depressed from having dropped out of college for the third time. I decided a road trip was in order to re-set my brain and get a little distance. Being that it was October, and therefore all the campgrounds in the American Southwest were filled with people who have the good sense to camp in reasonable temperatures, I elected to take my parent's minivan so I could car-camp anywhere suitably isolated, and looked up some of the southwest's geographic extremes- the highest place I could drive to (Pikes Peak), the lowest place (Badwater Basin), and for fun, the Dryest Place in the continental US, which turned out to be the Pinacate Volcanic field just west of Organ Pipe Cactus National Monument. It gets rain maybe twice a century and has no standing water, despite being less than 100 miles from the gulf of California.
It's a startlingly beautiful and alien place. The ground is a deep chocolate brown to black volcanic sand, and in mid October, the rabbit brush is turning bright yellow as it shifts to autumn, the organ pipe cacti are a dark green and stand, partially concealed in the brush at exactly human height. The air is alive with birds and insects and bats at night. The stargazing is like looking into the eyes of God.
You get there by driving down a little dirt road called "El Camino Del Diablo", or "The Devil's Road".
I drove out about three hours from Glendale, AZ to get there, arriving at sunset, and felt a profound sense of peace. I stargazed, listening to the bats hunt and sing, and slept peacefully for the first time in months.
I stayed out there for three days, sketching and painting the landscape, taking strolls through this almost alien landscape, and enjoying the light and sound and total absence of human intrusion besides myself.
On the fourth night, it was a new moon, and I awoke in the middle of the night. Something was amiss, and it took me a while to realize it was because I could NOT hear the bats. I was sleeping inside the van with the rear windows rolled halfway down rather than trying to set up the tent, so I when I sat up, I looked out of the van's reflective windows to discover what at first appeared to be A Horse.
It was something between pale gray and bright white in the starlight, standing maybe a dozen feet from the van, sniffing curiously. It made sense- I was in the middle of mustang country and there was quite a bit of foliage in the area for it and it did look like a truly wild horse- lumpy where the bones were jutting out, dusty about the hooves and face.
I was instantly seized by the sort of paralytic fear Sleep paralysis is made of. I couldn't move. It wasn't quite looking at me because it couldn't quite see through the windshield into the shadowy into the shadowy interior, but I had the distinct impression that if I looked away, it would know, and get me.
I already had problems with horses. My beloved Aunt Helen's Prize mare tried to kill me on two separate occasions, and the year before I had to carry my sister-in-law backwards out of a slot canyon whilst reciting the Saint Crispin's Day Speech as loudly as possible to keep a mustang from trampling us to death.
This is approximately what it should have looked like:
Instead, it was... off. like trying to draw a horse from memory.
The waist tapered in.
The legs were slightly too long or the torso slightly too short, probably both.
The ears were Triangular.
The head wasn't quite right- Too narrow and the jaw wasn't heavy enough.
The tail was too long and arced unnaturally away from the body.
The neck arched.
The nostrils were too high and close
The mouth too long.
Whatever this is, a Mustang it Ain't.
I watched it from the back seat as it sniffed around the front of the van, curious with about the side mirrors. It moved around the van, nibbling experimentally on the front door handle. It came up to the side windows, sniffing like a dog, and it's breath didn't fog up the glass.
Finally, it came up to the rear window, which was rolled halfway down to let the fall night air in. Not even half a pane of glass and two feet of air between us, and I could clearly see it's bright blue eyes.
Horses have Elongated pupils to give them a wide field of vision, and eyes that rotate sideways in their sockets so the pupil remains parallel to the ground. Rather creepy to watch, especially the ones with blue eyes.
A real horse that was curious about the interior of the van would have come up to the window more or less sideways, and looked at me with something like this:
Instead, the damn thing walked up and faced the back window head on, staring back at me with this:
I'm not sure how long we watched each other like that, eyes locked. My eyes burned. I couldn't blink. My mouth was dry. I couldn't swallow. My throat began to ache. I couldn't make a sound. My skin began to twitch, like I was severely dehydrated. I couldn't move. My lungs burned. I couldn't move. I couldn't move. I couldn't move. I couldn't move.
Something was touching the side of my hand on the seat next to me. It's my water bottle.
The realization must have broken the terrible paralysis in the lower parts of my brain first, because by the time I consciously realized I could move again, I was already flinging my water bottle out the window at it.
The top was open, and splashed out the window at the Mustain't.
I've never heard such a scream out of an animal. Something halfway between the sound of unquenchable rage vibrating in someone's chest and the way rabbits cry out to God when the dogs catch them.
It jumped back, pivoting away from the van, snarling at the water bottle. I don't think you're supposed to be able to see All of a horse's teeth at once, no matter how angry it is.
I watched it run into the night for some distance, it's pale body visible against the black sand and the dark gray shadow of the ancient volcanic cone it was headed for.
When the blood stopped pounding in my ears, I could hear the bats again.
I debated leaving right then, but I didn't want to get out of the van with that thing in the area, nor litter by leaving the water bottle out there. I also had the awful idea that if I left now, it might somehow be able to follow me home. I ended up staying up three hours to watch the sunrise, shaking and trying to figure out if I'd woken up from a vivid dream, if my meds had stopped working, or if that had really happened. I didn't dare move until I actually felt the temperature rise, before stepping out of the van to grab the bottle. I had my camera ready- I was still using a DSLR back then- to take pictures of the hoofprints, to show how close it had gotten to the van.
No hoofprints.
Beetle tracks in the soft sand around the van, and the clear foot-and-wing prints of a bird that had hopped around then taken off. But no hoofprints.
I went over the entire campsite with the tent broom, to make sure I removed every scrap of evidence I had ever been there, including my footprints, grabbed my water bottle, and drove the three hours back back to Glendale, then decided to do seven more hours of driving to Moab, Utah just to put more than 500 miles, the state line and at least nine things that could be considered "running water" between me and the Mustain't.
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I still have that water bottle. It has a dent in the bottom from hitting something, but that could have happened at any time. Strange thing though. I can't drink that bottle dry. I'll have it on me, drink whatever I've put in there- water, juice, iced coffee- and eventually feel like I've drunk the whole think and that it's empty. But I open it up and it's still at least a quarter full. I drink that. I get thirsty. I open it up again. ...and there's always a mouthful left.
Not sure what the side effects of drinking from a bottle cursed by a Mustain't to always have some left are, but it lives in the Emergency Breakdown Kit in my car now, just in case I meet another one.
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#Family Lore#scary stories to tell in the dark#or out camping#Horses#sort of#The Mustain't#long post#trypophobia#I know these are usually funny but this one is spooky
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Think abt Huffman & Kaeya having a Jean-Mikasa moment when they first met
#☆ ┆ ( .ooc. );#//Prolly Kae walking w Luc to Knights HQ bc Addie was gonna run errands in the city (Kae deffo wanted an excuse to hang out a bit longer)#//And then before he heads back off to go to Addie; they have a little run-in and Huffman damn near clowns himself in the process#//Kae in the moment prolly wanted to skedaddle right out of there bc he had ZERO idea what tf was going on & why he acted like that#//Plus Luc is practically looking like a puffed up owl staring at this dude & the dude's freaking out now; so maybe he should GO-#//In hindsight; Kae thinks it is the silliest cutest fucken thing & prolly teases Huffman abt it Endlessly#//Huffman's silly little crush and the fact that Luc getting all protective spooked him#//Then Huffman brings up what a fucken clown Kae made of himself tryna impress JEAN throughout his knights days & shuts him right up kdkjb#//Huffman's secret Anti-Kaeya-Clowning weapon lmao#//Bringing up the cringfail things only he; Diluc; and a select few other knights still in Mond witnessed during Kaeya's knight days shbfkf#//Never fails to make Kaeya actively sputter and fluster in ways he hasn't since that time; no way to recover so easily like usual#//Since he was last that notably shy &easy to embarrass; before everything went to shit & he had to change his own presentation to what he#has now. Huffman likes seeing him like that bc it's in essence ''Kae's truest self'. The guy Huffman got used to seeing back then#//Diluc and Jean like getting to see Huffman tease Kae for that reason too#//Moments where they see him lose that facade and give him a glimpse of the Kaeya he'd buried deep#//A Kaeya who wasn't SO cagey with his vulnerabilities/emotions & stumbling; who didn't immediately deflect to hide breeches in his guard#//Esp around THEM. People he trusted more than anything to SEE these parts of him; bc he knew they'd never hurt him/take advantage#//Yet now; they can't see anymore bc SMTH happened that fateful Apr30 (Luc carries guilt of that; wondering if he DID kill Kae That Day)#//Bc SMTH happened; & now Kaeya is as closed off as he is to most others (he doesn't blame Luc; emotions ran high that day. But now he's#seen how his 'role'/who he is can HURT those he loves; & until he ensures it won't happen; HAS to stay back for their own good)#//He can't risk getting to close to someone & them feeling betrayed; rejecting him or worse; getting wrapped up in HIS messes#//Bc he is ESP worried that Luc having specific beef w the Abyss Order nowadays has to do with him; not just Mond's safety#//He always had his suspicions abt his family having ties to them; maybe said smth abt it to Luc during their Confrontation#//If Luc started hunting the Abyss Order's traces bc he'd brought up some half-baked assumption; WORSE; one that was Confirmed later...OOF#//If sb like Jean or Huffman were to find out more abt him; & get HURT in the process if they were targeted or tried to help him; he'd be#utterly Devastated. He just CAN'T allow it. WON'T if he could help it. Would rather have to try & cut ties if he can before that happens#//FUCK; why did this spiral to that rant lmao#//I just wanted to shippy HuffKae jbfjg#//H E LP
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man why are people so bad at being anti-israel. why is it so hard to be against palestinian genocide and also not anti-semitic. it is in fact possible to think that the current far-right israeli government is morally repugnant without getting mad at unrelated jewish people in other countries.
#international politics#palestinian genocide#i guess part of the problem might be like. some pro-palestinian people see liberal zionists as insufficiently anti-israel?#im talking about the sort of people that think israel should exist but should stop doing a genocide and let palestine be a state#so they see a two-state solution as the ideal solution#rather than the best practical option#im skeptical that any sort of state defined around jewish identity can avoid being an ethno-state#in the same way that states defined around other ethnic identities have this problem#but i think that liberal zionists are wrong on the order of like. centrist democrats#rather than being full-on fascists#and i think a lot of leftists are bad at thinking of people as like. wrong but not to degrees that require us to fight them with#every inch of our being#sometimes you have to work with people you disagree with#(also ofc even if liberal zionists were as bad as far right zionists you still shouldn't like. be anti-semitic about it)#not all jews are zionists. they're fucking people#fight ideologies not identities#this shouldn't be hard but unfortunately we live in reality
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