#random thoughts at 3am because this just happened AGAIN

[muldj0rd]

You drew stars around my scars || Lestappen

Summary: “Charles, I’m fine” Max sighed when he saw Charles wrapped in a blanket because he was cold “You can close the windows and the door”

“No. You’re sweating” Charles shivered slightly, hugging the blanket closer

“Not anymore” Max hummed

Warnings: Anal, anal fingering, top Charles, bottom max, talk of self harm, angst

Masterlist || AO3

Charles seemed like the only one to notice that Max had started to wear a long sleeve under his team t-shirt

He didn’t think much of it, or he wouldn’t have thought about it if it wasn’t warmer than the Sahara Desert in the paddock

Max was sweating a lot, everybody noticed. Some people said it was a ‘strategy’ to lose last minute weight

“What’s with the shirt?” Charles asked softly as he walked up to Max in the paddock

“Nothing. Just… I don’t know” Max shrugged, his fingers playing the end of his sleeve

“You’re sweating an awful lot. It‘s not healthy, Max” Charles sighed, pushing some of Max’s hair out of his face- drenched with sweat

“‘M fine” Max shrugged, pushing Charles’s hand away

“Okay” Charles hummed, nodding softly

---

Charles had invited Max over to his apartment to hang out. They decided to watch a movie and some snacks

He had opened some windows and the door to the balcony when he saw Max was sweating, offering him some cold to drink as well

“Charles, I’m fine” Max sighed when he saw Charles wrapped in a blanket because he was cold “You can close the windows and the door”

“No. You’re sweating” Charles shivered slightly, hugging the blanket closer

“Not anymore” Max hummed

“Yeah, but if I close them, you’ll sweat again, and then I have to open them again. Better leave them open” Charles explained with a chuckle

Max sighed, standing up to close the door and the windows, sitting back down, pulling Charles close to try and warm him up again

“You’re comfy” Charles sighed, closing his eyes softly. His arm landed softly on Max’s forearm, desperate to keep him close

Max hissed quietly at the touch, almost retrieving his arm out of instinct. Charles removed his hand immediately, looking up at Max with an apologetic look

“It’s okay. My fault. I’m sorry” Max said softly

“What happened?” Charles asked quietly, his hand hovering in the air

“Nothing” He hummed, his other arm still softly around Charles’s body

“Max” Charles said softly, his hand laying on Max’s, his fingers inching closer to the Dutchman’s wrist

Max’s breath hitched slightly, his eyes closed and head turned away. Max didn’t pull away, so Charles slowly kept going

He used both hands to roll Max’s sleeve up, a soft gasp leaving his lips, Max squeezing his eyes tighter

Charles didn’t think before he wrapped his arms around Max’s neck, holding him in a tight hug

Max hugged back as Charles started talking “You don’t have to talk about it. I’ll stop asking, but I want you to know you can always come and talk to me if you want” Max hugged a little extra tight

---

Charles had said always, but he didn’t imagine Max would show up at his apartment at 3am on a random Tuesday

“Max..?” Charles yawned, seeing a tear stained Max in front of him as he opened the door “You okay?” He asked, making space so Charles could walk further in

“I’m sorry it’s late” Max’s voice was hoarse and quivering “I can come back if-“

“Max. I said always, not 9-5” Charles chuckled softly, getting one out of Max as well “You want to stay?” Max had never done so before, but if he needed it, Charles was happy to let him

“If you don’t mind” He mumbled, playing with the hem of his long-sleeved shirt

“Anytime” He smiled softly “You want to borrow a t-shirt and some sweats?” Charles asked softly, referring to Max’s jeans and long-sleeved

Max nodded softly, feeling Charles wipe his cheeks with his hands

Charles got Max a t-shirt and a pair of sweats, telling him he could change in the bathroom

“Thank you, Charles” Max whispered, Charles’s arms wrapped around his torso

“Anytime, Max” Charles smiled softly

It was quiet for a while, but neither of them fell asleep. Charles turned around, taking a sharpie from the nightstand

“What are you doing?” Max asked confused when Charles popped the cap of the sharpie off

Charles didn’t answer, but he softly drew stars around the healed scars “You’re a star… And I like stars”

Max blushed heavily, trying to hide his face in the pillow, hoping Charles didn’t notice

Charles did notice, making him chuckle softly. He hesitantly placed a soft kiss in between Max’s shoulder blades, putting the cap of sharpie on again

Max turned around in Charles’s arms, their faces inches apart

Charles took Max’s arm, kissing his wrist softly, looking into his eyes as he did

“Y-you got sharpie on your lip” Max whispered, his thumb coming up to wipe the black ink off of Charles lip

“Max-“ “Just shut up” Charles didn’t get to react before Max was kissing him. He kissed back, no hesitation

As soon as the kiss deepened, Max started to grind his hips against Charles’s thigh, the Dutchman quickly becoming a needy mess

“Please- Charles. Need more” Max panted into Charles’s mouth

“You realise we have to talk about this in the morning then, right?” Charles panted slightly as well, his hand on Max’s waist

“Tomorrow’s problem. Need more now” Max whined, biting his bottom lip and looked up at Charles with hooded eyes

“Okay, okay” Charles sighed, kissing Max again, turning him to lay on his back, Charles’s body hovering over him

Charles leaned back, his hands finding the hem of the shirt Max was wearing, pulling it over his head, throwing it to the floor

“You’re so beautiful” Charles breathed out, leaning down to kiss down Max’s torso, his hands exploring him as well

Max’s breath hitched as Charles slowly pulled the sweats down, revealing his boxers and… More scars on his thighs. Some new, some old

Charles briefly looked up at Max before he looked back down, starting to mouth at the scars, making sure to avoid new ones that would hurt him

Max whined and whimpered, his arousal growing as Charles’s mouth kept working carefully on his sensitive skin

Max didn’t get to complain before Charles slowly pulled his briefs down as well, his mouth on his hip bone, mouthing at it as well

Max’s hips were bucking furiously, getting desperate for Charles. Charles chuckled softly, leaning back to get the lube from the nightstand

“You’re pretty when you’re desperate” Charles chuckled, warming the lube up on his fingers

“Shut up” Max’s grumble was quickly shut up by a moan when Charles softly circled his hole, spreading the lube around

A whine escaped Max’s lips when Charles slowly pushed a finger inside him, giving the Dutchman the time to adjust before slowly moving his finger in and out

“Plea-please” Max moaned softly, his hips rolling against Charles’s hand, seeking for further pleasure

“You’re going so good” Charles praised, pushing a second finger into Max when he was loose enough, drawing a high-pitched whine from him

Charles eventually managed to get Max stretched around three fingers, curling them up to hit his prostate, loud moans flowing from his lips

Max whined needy when Charles pulled his fingers out, carefully wiping them on his pale thigh

“N-need you” Max panted quietly, watching as Charles stood up, discarding of his own clothes, getting himself naked and back between Max’s legs

“I got you, amour” Charles said, giving himself a few strokes to smear the lube onto himself

Both of them moaned softly when Charles slowly pushed into Max, feeling the Dutchman’s nail’s dig into his biceps

“M-move” Max panted out as he felt himself adjust to Charles’s size enough for him to move

“Fuck, you’re so adorably pretty” Charles chuckled softly when Max blushed through his whole body

“Should’ve made a move long time ago if this was how it’d end up” Charles groaned as he sped up slightly, angling his hips to thrusts against Max’s prostate, pulling loud moans out of him

“And you sound so good as well” Charles moaned softly as he felt Max clench down around him

“Charles… Please” Max moaned, his nails sure to be leaving marks in Charles’s back “‘M close”

“You feel so good” Charles moaned out, his hand wrapped around Max’s cock, stroking him to the same speed as his hips

It didn’t take long for Max to be coming onto his stomach, coating his slain as well as some of Charles, his hole clenching down around then Monegasque

A few more sloppy, uncoordinated thrusts from Charles, and he was coming too, his hips pressed against Max’s ass, both panting heavily

Charles laid on top of Max, none of them speaking. The only sounds were their breathing and Leo’s snoring from the living room

Charles slowly pulled out- much to Max’s allowance, seeing he was trying to keep him close

“We need to talk in the morning” Charles said as he moved into the bathroom, getting a wash cloth to clean them both off

“Mhm. I know. Jus’… Need to sleep” Max whimpered when Charles dragged the cloth over his sensitive hole

“Of course” Charles kissed Max on the forehead as he pulled him close

[thebunnednun]

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An updated schedule will be as follows:

Mundane Monday: The beginning of the week is always dreadful so let's make it fun with some crack fics. Memes, Memes, MEMES galore!

Tearful Tuesdays: Angst posts will be the main thing on here. I'm thinking of some hurt and comfort fics. I'm already working on a Buggy fic for this. I'm not opposed to happy endings but in general, think of an onion cutting itself for these. They don't all have to be romantic and I'm creating something for Trafalgar Law here.

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*Enchanted meeting (Buggy The Clown x Straw-hat reader)

*Shadows of the Blade (Dracule Mihawk x Assassin reader)

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*Please Don't Hate Me! (Juan Ruiz x Imperfect reader

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[maochira]

idk if you’ve done this already but bllk dads staying up with their kid because reader has insomnia :)

Writing this rn because I know I’m gonna pull an all-nighter tonight 🏃‍♀️ (going on an 8 hour car ride to Italy at 3am(around the time when this posts))

Characters: Ego, Noa, Lavinho

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Tags: gn!reader, reader is a teenager, reader has insomnia

Ego

-does this guy ever sleep in the first place? No (I know he does. He has the type of sleep schedule where he sleeps for 4 hours, gets up, sleeps for 2 hours again, gets up again and sleeps for 2 hours another time

-but anyways the point is, even without your insomnia he’d be awake most of the night

-Ego lets you stay in his office and rewatches recordings of Blue Lock matches with you. They’re either exciting and entertain you when you can’t fall asleep, or they’re so boring you fall asleep in your chair after one or two hours. No in-between

-surprisingly, your father has enough strength in his body to carry you to your room so you can safely sleep in your bed instead of on the uncomfortable desk chair

-if you still can’t fall asleep, you and Ego also spend a lot of time talking about anything that’s on your mind. Sometimes it’s thousands of thoughts running through your head that won’t let you fall asleep, so Ego let’s you talk about what’s on your mind

-it’s also very good bonding time for the both of you. It may not be under the most optimal circumstances but hey, at least you get to spend time with your father

Noa

-he may be tired and just wants to get to bed on most nights, but he always stays awake as long as he can with you. He knows you feel lonely late at night and that can cause bad thoughts to come up in your head when you can’t fall asleep. And to prevent that, your father stays awake with you

-most nights like this are spent sitting in the living room with a random movie on the TV while you and Noa just talk and talk until you get tired

-he always makes your favourite tea, hot choccy, warm milk, or whatever other (non-caffeinated) warm beverage you’re craving

-occasionally, Noa falls asleep on the couch and you always wonder if you should wake him up or let him continue sleeping. Usually you don’t wake him up because you know how tired your father is most of the time

-but sometimes, he wakes up by himself after like 10 minutes and he keeps apologizing. He feels guilty because he doesn’t like leaving you alone when he knows negative thoughts could flood your brain at any moment

-that’s why he also made you promise to immediately wake him up whenever that happens

Lavinho

-he doesn’t mind staying up longer at all. This guy could get 5 minutes of sleep and would be as energized as he always is

-when you can’t sleep, you and your dad play video games together!! Usually competitive ones like Mario Kart but sometimes ones for which you have work together like Stardew Valley

-it’s also the perfect chance to catch up and talk about stuff when you have busy weeks during which you barely see each other during daytime

-but because of your insomnia Lavinho does forbid you to drink anything that has caffeine in it. Cola, energy drinks and coffee are completely banned from the house. Yes, he doesn’t drink it anymore either because if you can’t, he won’t either

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[shinyflareon]

I had a random 3am thought last night about something that I don't think ever really gets brought up again, but:

Endwalker's Elpis storyline confirms quite clearly that time travel follows the rules of a stable time loop. If you are able to time travel, the past cannot be changed, because it already happened; your actions in the past cannot change the future, because you were always there. Right?

G'raha Tia time traveled when he went to the First.

Now, I'm willing to concede that, as Shadowbringers came first, either the rules of time travel weren't well established at that point or even simply that Endwalker changed the rules. That's the simple Doyalist answer.

BUT

Garlond Ironworks accomplished an unprecedented, seemingly impossible feat in trying to prevent the 8th Umbral Calamity they were living through from ever coming to pass - to erase their own timeline in the hopes that the new one could avoid their terrible fate.

They did this with the help of G'raha Tia, freshly awoken into not the utopia he'd hoped for, but a world in turmoil on the brink of collapse. The Crystal Tower is an incredible well of aether and repository of technological knowledge, after all.

But if time is a stable loop, did it matter?

After at least 100 years, G'raha Tia eventually succeeded in bringing the Scions and the WoL to the First, where they succeeded in stopping the shard from being utterly consumed by Light and triggering the Rejoining Emet-Selch and the other Ascians were working so hard to achieve. But did we really stop it for good, or did we just delay the inevitable?

Does the WoL still die in the 8th Umbral Calamity, except that the Calamity happened 100 years from now, triggered by a different Shard becoming consumed? Or even Light reawakening and finishing its consumption of the First, without us or Ryne around to stop it?

At some point in the future, is G'raha Tia going to have to go back to sleep in the tower and start the whole loop over again, for all eternity?

[tulipsnflowers]

if you don't mind another one:

Nexomon character: Fenrir

tumblr ATE THIS ONE AKSNHRIEKS I didn't get a notification!

Massive Nexomon spoilers ahead

Also I may or may not have missed the mark a lil bit... Whoopsies. Also if these takes are rancid, er, it was written at 3am as my defense

Before I begin, I'd like to say, I have a friend who dislikes(jokingly) Fenrir personally. Our nickname to him is matchstick fire show pony👍 (That's an entirely different story and a lot of my inside jokes are from a play through with this friend)

Fenrir!!!... Fenrir. God. (Runs hand through hair) I never have any sane thoughts about any of Omnicron's children.

So to start off with the basics, Fenrir aka Fona is Omnicron's 3rd child. Undying Fire, and we don't fight him until the actual Nexolord tower(which is a trait he shares with Zetta). Presumably, he hasn't transformed in a while till that point and for some God forsaken reason he isn't in Ignitia.

In n2 he is in Ignitia of course, and yada yada fire powers.

Now to start off with the insanity (clears throat)

He is, more of an introvert than I am and it hurts. (Frick, I should point out, in n2 me and my friend spent like 45 mins chatting in the room because we felt kinda bad leaving)

As a simple why I like him: A) He is in omnicron's family it gives him automatic insanity points, B) He is a very interesting character to me, and a bastard

In n1 we meet him with Ivan and he essentially let's us go to not get his hands dirty, and also, It took me 4 play throughs, but I finally pieced together he was the one who burned that house down. I'm a really quick thinker guys

Then his next interaction is in Royalle(excluding vision), where he WANTED to transform, but Ulzar spooked him off(you can get him Fen cmon), and tried to use his aura on our nexomon (something I need to go into a seperate rant about), didn't work (which.. Deena was either trailing us(my belief), or, Ulzar wasn't the friendliest with his nexomon from the get go)

Then it's in Lateria where he lets us through after we kick his butt, aura not working again and he leaves(coming here later. He, is he suspecting Deena here, is that why he let us go? Or is it because he believed Grunda would use us as toothpicks) , and then Grunda and yada yada

Then it's frozen which is mostly us fighting him and telling Glacia to get lost

So! Out of all of Omnicron's kids, he's the one who let's us go the most. Merida was gonna kick our butt but Zetta fetched her, Zetta had Royalle, Granda tried to eat us, Nadine tried and somehow failed to push us off a tree..

But Fenrir? He had the capacity to keep going at all the times minus Royalle where he was going to transform(📌), but he just kinda let us be, not his problem.

He is also the one who we meet the most, granted, but still.

One could say he just cared about Omnicron, I suppose. So heck, this random child probably won't do much. Maybe. But that then excludes Royalle.

He says in the tower it's been a while since anyone's been worthy of seeing his human form(he beats Remus, Ivan and their teams without it after all!), and thus fight. Warriors, fire, so on.

So then.. I think, a reaction to his aura not fricking working. Which is an issue immediately, because that's how they stayed atop. With that. So he must've thought that if that didn't work, then heck, let's kill the kid and get it over with

Cuz I don't think we're quite worthy of it yet ya know

... Then Ulzar steps in. I don't think he was as scared of Ulzar. Well yes, he may not have been wanting to fight him but it was also an Oh. Well, that bastard is there, and if he's doing it then it's fine. Cuz that's a reason and that's something also not his issue(Hi Ziegler), and that can be dealt with.

.. In Solus( the desert), it happens yet again. And there's no Ulzar this time so there's a real chance he just left you to get eaten by Grunda, or, as I said before Deena. If it was Nara, then that's still an issue, but hey, that one they can at least deal with

Am I missing the subject of the ask? Probably. I can't tell. But it's a ramble and if you didn't come for that then whoops.

Tower time towered, I think that one was pretty clear, then his Nightmare which,

Frick. I genuinely can't remember what he says. One can look it up later. I remember it being with Matthew and I remember what Ogroon says more than I do him. And fire powers, that too.

N2! N:E. Well, there he's convinced by Deena to give us Fire powers because Redemption. (And she is his younger sister I myself am guilty of not being able to say no on a couple occasions)

Epic fight with a cool transformation

Then he gives them to us(and in a dialogue branch says "Go without fear, (). You'll do fine. " or something to those lines which, Fenrir is a great uncle)

.. THEN it's a bit with us at the observatory, then I think that's all of his dialogue..? Minus the revival one.

I realize I missed the mark and just rambled about a bunch of different things but, hey. You're here to watch me go insane not be not insane, so.

I just like Fenrir. He's great. That's it go home everyone

(Also, note here: He genuinely comes off as the most uncaring which, no you're not. I have 3 siblings one of them may not be the most expensive but Frick, ya know they care at the end of the day. He certainly does.)

[quendiviner]

Hi I still love Toby and I got a new question 🙈 again I'm sorry if you have shared this before, but in cynosure, why did Toby leave the project? And why does Toby come back? Did it not trust anyone else? 🤔🤔 Tyyy 💗

HIIIII oughhh thank you so much for asking hehehe i love talking about it and all the others sm so dw abt it hehehe <3

Toby left the original project (that happens ~20 years before Cynosure events) because, well, it kinda got thrown out due to trying to whistleblow the project (and fucking up during that 😭). Basically long story short, some of the corporate bosses decided to use the med tech it was designing for something else instead of what Toby & co were originally thinking. Toby's then-boyfriend (and honestly almost fiance) Jack found it out while looking through steering group reports and finding this one that they forgot to classify and told Toby abt it and it basically started panicking and thinking it's its fault or something.... which is not really what happened but our little butch loves blaming itself for literally anything 🥴 um anyway.

They both decided to contact media to bring this up, and some anonymous guy replied to them that he needs the full report. Well, sure. The problem? It's on a physical data drive in a secured place.

So they plan a small heist with their friends, etc etc, and at first everything was going smoothly, until some guard that wasn't supposed to be there shows up.

Jack ends up shooting the guard and Tobias, instead of escaping with them all, decided to stay and help the guard so they wouldn't die. Jack tries to persuade it to come with them and Tobias tries to persuade him to stay instead, and Jack just ended up leaving :/ Toby stays until more guards and med personnel arrive.

They take it for questioning and ask what the fuck it was thinking and all. Normally Toby's corporation doesn't really react lightly on whistleblowing attempts and honestly its thoughts were basically going "ohhh fuck they're going to kill me" or something the whole time, until some of its bosses pulled some strings and went "hey this guy's kinda important and smart we should keep it alive look at it even saved a guard".

AND SO they get a deal: Tobias gives all its information on the project it ever had (all the notes, materials and stuff like that, even some 3am random thoughts about the project), and basically helps out with one small thing. The project is closed, with all things related to it saved in an archive. Toby's file is classified in the corporation's database and they basically leave it alone as long as it leaves them along. Everyone is happy (kinda).

Side tracking here but, what happened to Jack, you may ask? Well, Toby asked the same thing from the corporates. The answer? Well, they explained to it that they were shadowing it, trying to find out who commissioned the heist, but when they arrived they only found Jack & co's bodies... Clearly whoever wanted that information didn't want to share the money 😬 (this gets an explanation a few years later when Toby's doing its chemistry master's and its new friend Klara needs some help haha).

UM ANYWAY. CYNOSURE! Like I said in the intro, the two corporations get into a violent fight and to "make it up" decide to work together on some project. Someone somehow managed to find the files of this old project and went "hey look at this we should bring this back". And so they start to look for the lead scientists to work on the team.

Due to connections of academic world, some corporate guy manages to reach Toby's boss and go "hey so u r friends with this guy, right? we have a job for it" and Toby's boss tells that to Toby and it goes "uh. no. nope."

Klara, as someone who works in intercorporational relations of the same organization, gets chosen into this weird admin team of the project and her boss is like "hey we really need ur wife here can u tell it that 🥺" and, well, let's just say that Klara is a very good negotiator. Though let's be honest the only way she managed to get Toby on board was going "hey if something happens i'll protect you" or something. well, technically that happened yeah. a bit too late but yea.

While Klara is the biggest reason it actually considered it, Tobias has been in fact a bit salty that it never got to finish trying out the idea that brought it a pharma phd, so it was also interested in seeing it through 😭 It also thought that maybe going there as someone who's been there before it could maybe do things better and make sure that the corporations won't ruin it again. Plus it loved the idea of getting to take care of a group of chemists and help them 🥰

[silentwillowwhisperer]

Wow, I am overthinking this.

*giggle.* Imagine seeing Keef staring at you at 3am with big yellow glowy eyes and bat ears and fangs. And Lance walks in. And he sees it. And he almost proposes.

This seems to be a common thought that I have. Keith not being able to sleep so he hides in the kitchen?

Like, just think about it for a second. The castle is GIANT, bright, and everything looks the same. Also the walls are metal and completely smooth for probably 20 feet up, so they're unclimbable.

And when it's waaay early in the morning and your brain is fuzzy, people tend to do some weird crap. So Keef's Galra instincts would probably over. Which means kitty instincts. Galra= cat, cat=Galra, the words are synonyms in my head, I can't tell them apart.

SO. Naturally, he would want to go to a place with lots of small places, hiding spots, and climbable surfaces.

Sadly, his room is immediately ruled out. Despite it being a place intended for rest and security/familiarity, the canon images of the paladin rooms show that they are bare and do not have many potential hiding spots. There is a small trunk (?) next to the door, but Keith would keep his limited belongings in there and he seems to be too big to fit inside. Sure, his impulse would tell him to crawl inside, but the potential embarrassment of having to ask someone to pull him out outweighs that. His bed is exposed and there is no other furniture. Get some bookshelves! Please!

Ok the kitchen. NOW. I'm just gonna say, I don't love the design. Like, yes, I get it, for some reasons Alteans just HAD to be posh freaking minimalists and apparently never felt the need for the comfort of an enclosed space. If you're claustrophobic, this might not apply well to you, but I find that large spaces sometimes stress me out and I think better in a little corner or on a spot on the floor.

I think to start, the kitchen island thingy needs to be turned so that the person cooking is across from the door. As it is right now, someone could 100% sneak right in thanks to the door being conveniently placed right BEHIND the cook's line of sight.

Also, would it hurt to have the counter against a wall or something? It would divide the room nicely and make it look a a lot more cohesive and less like the animators were just trying to throw in a background for our characters. This is nice in some situations so that breathtaking backdrops don't take away from the characters, but have you ever noticed that they only appear in the kitchen maybe twice? That happened for a reason. If we had this dividing feature, you could put on a small table or some chairs along the long side of the counter! Why should our lovely Hunk have to cook in solitude? A good 50% of his character is centered around him seeing cooking as a love language and cooking with his loved ones.

Wow sorry I got off topic. Anyway, with these changes and maybe a bit more furniture and cabinets around the room (again, why are the walls so blank?) Keith would be very comfortable here. Maybe even comfortable enough to display Galra features because no one would expect to find him there so he would be well-hidden. Also, if the chairs along the counter were there, they face away from the door, so no one would see his Galra features.

Lets ignore the fact that this is a badly-drawn finger picture. But doesn't the whole room seem more put together? Lets say we take out the table for more space, it's still a much more effective use of this HUGE room that's being wasted by a random counter thrown in the middle.

: )

[jelliclesflirt]

in full transparency , i made this blog with the intent to document my tugger headcanons / 3am thoughts - so , be prepared for random bullshit . i don't know if this one is common / already a thing , but it might be since i was inspired by a tuggoff fanart . anyways , he sits on cats . he'll be in a conversation with bombalurina or mistoffelees and just decide he's gonna sit on them . i especially think know this is canon because he's a maine coon and tugger , so he's probably zoning out then goes plop . he doesn't do this with kittens since the majority of them are basically babies / could actually get hurt if he squished them , but also ones like etcetera could potentially get the wrong impression . i'd say he does it exclusively to cats like misto and bomba , but then again ...

this is a thing that happened , so he probably lets his intrusive thoughts win every once in a while .

[myshredda]

ok all this angst abt red leaving duck and duck knowing it's bound to happen eventually has made me think

(this got much angstier than i thought it would so tw for panic attacks and thoughts abt sh)

it's different now than it was in the healthy episode or even in the transport episode bc now they've grown comfortable w each other. They have a relationship, kids, a life together. Red wouldn't leave all that, would he? Normally duck is pretty confident that he wouldn't but sometimes doubt and horrible memories get the better of him.

Maybe he's up late one night, tossing and turning, head filled with anxiety so he decides to go downstairs and cook. (bc it's a relaxing thing he knows how to do and definitely not bc maybe if he proves he can be useful, Red won't leave him this time.) Turns out cooking just makes everything worse bc of all the horrible memories that he has in that kitchen and now it's dark and he's alone and his mind is a mess. the knives are looking a little too sharp and he's cutting a little too quickly and a little too close to his fingers. It would be so easy to miss and cut the wrong thing...The stove is hot and it would be so easy to just reach out... He's ripping stray feathers out inbetween throwing random things into a bowl and attempting to stir them. He can't fucking breathe, and Red's going to leave him and now he has to protect two small ones instead of one but who's going to protect him??? And he's alone in the kitchen and it's too dark and why can't he fucking breathe??????

Red hears someone mucking around in the kitchen at 3am and assumes it's one of the small ones but they're both there. Duck's bed is empty tho which sends a shiver of fear through him. he's goes downstairs and walks in on duck crying into a bowl of potatoes, gripping the peeler a little too tightly. He doesn't entirely know what to do but he knows the first thing is to take the peeler away and the second is to get him out of the kitchen. So he scoops him up and sits in his armchair while asking him what's wrong. Duck takes a big gasp of air like he was drowning as soon as they get out of the kitchen doorway and is a lot more present. Red just holds him for a while, while he cries, absolutely terrified bc none of them have had anything as bad as this since the teachers were still here.

Eventually duck explains that he doesn't want red to leave anymore. it starts as him begging him not to go, not to leave them alone anymore, but as he gets it out of his system, it turns into him saying he would prefer if red didn't go but understands if he needs to. they would be ok on their own, duck can handle whatever would happen wo him. He's strong, he's resigned himself to it, no more blubbering like a baby, it was very cowardly and unrespectful.

Red's in tears at this point bc even tho he doesnt know the specifics of what happened when he left the first time, he knows it was bad and both yellow and duck still have nightmares about it from time to time. And it was all his fault for leaving. He apologizes over and over and assures him he's never going to leave like that again, never ever. no matter how many times duck says he believes him and is feeling much better now actually, red still feels like he's not doing enough and needs to make up for it somehow. So then it's his turn to cry like a baby while duck holds him, which secretly makes him feel worse bc duck shouldn't be comforting him, but he just pushes his head deeper into his feathers.

eventually they tire themselves out and fall asleep in the chair. the kids make fun of them in the morning for being old and falling asleep as soon as they sit down somewhere, and it seems like everything's gone back to normal. except now there's less underlaying anxiety between the adults and they seem to be a bit more in love.

May I just start out by saying your fucking asks always send me into a state of hysterics just because of how GOOD they always are like. Your input literally is the backbone of this blog at this point, so thank you for pouring your brain into my askbox and giving me the privilege of vamping off it because it's SO FUN.

that being said this one is deeply evil and you'll be hearing from my therapist. I WISH I COULD WRITE A DUCK BREAKDOWN SO REAL AND SO IN CHARACTER UOGHH

Duck trying to find comfort in the familiar motions of cooking and instead throwing himself head-first into a panic attack over trauma he barely remembers, and now he's starting to spiral, and he's starting to get a bald patch on his hand from the feathers he's missing and he CAN'T THINK and everything is too sharp, too much, and what if Red really leaves him again. It's so different now. Between him and Yellow, and the other one, and the other other one. He loves them now, just as much as he loves Red. He really doesn't know if he'd be strong enough to protect all three now, after all, he couldn't even protect himself. Before, without Red, he was powerless, and it nearly cost him everything. And this time, if he's gone too, whose going to take care of his already traumatized kids?

But this time, thank god- thank fuck, Red stays. Red's here, and he can't really tell whats going on, his mind is fuzzy and black spots are dancing in his eyes, but the next thing he knows is his peeler is gone and he's in Red's chair and Red's there too and Red's face is so close and he sounds so concerned when he's asking him what's wrong and Duck just cries. Cries and cries and cries, the first time he's done it in front of Red, the hardest he's ever done it in his life, and all he can do is tell Red he'd prefer if he stayed now, and he feels so fucking pathetic and weak but it's like he'll die if he doesn't get the words out, it's not exactly the broken-hearted begging he wanted to do, but it's still so unrespectable of him it almost makes him feel worse. Weak, he's too weak to save himself, save his kids, to even say what he means. He's so fucking weak.

And now Red's crying too and it makes Duck feel worse because he's not supposed to make Red feel bad, he's supposed to be the rock, unmoved by fickle emotions, and here he is spilling his guts and making his- his...Making Red cry. But Red just keeps saying he's sorry and he'll never leave again, and it makes Duck's stomach feel weird, and the air in his lungs gets all fluttery, and his head draws itself back up out of his stomach, and its almost too good to be true, but Red just keeps saying it and saying it so it must be true. So he calms down, and Red gets worse, and now he's the one doing the comforting, which is what he's more familiar with, so he does so, and cradles Red's big head in his hands, pulling is forward, hiding it in the curve of his shoulder, and it feels like something that was broken inside him heals a little bit, there, with Red, again, in the dark.

The kids make fun of them in the morning because their kids make fun of everything, it's like its their job or something. Them sleeping in the chair is funny, apparently. But Duck can't find it in him to be too mad at them, he's just glad they feel safe enough to be little buggers. Red just tells them to go kick rocks or some other asinine thing, and it makes them all giggle and then Green's asking about breakfast and Pink wants fun cereal even though it's not the weekend, and Yellow ALSO wants fun cereal and maybe a grapefruit and maybe they could have some potatoes? Yellow likes potatoes, and Duck makes them the best 'cause they have the crispy crunchy bits. So Duck heaves a very long-suffering sigh and agrees to the potatoes but not the fun cereal (Shreddies or nothing, you little hellions) but before he can get up Red grips his hand tight, and Duck looks at him like 'wtf are u doing' and Red stares into his eyes in a Very Meaningful Way and deliberately squeezes his hand once, twice, three times

I. Love. You.

Duck squeezes back, of course he does, and it's so much sweeter now that his soul is light. He can barely feel the scar on his stomach, and his kids are moaning about potatoes and grapefruits and how yogurt isn't a breakfast food unless it's flavored to be, and did you know that plain yogurt is like sour cream's cousin? No it isn't. Yes it is! That's stupid! You're Stupid! Duck sighs again, and adds one more squeeze.

I. Love. You. Too.

[ladydorian05]

A Home for Broken Hearts ~ Chapter 2

Co-written with @made-ofmemories (she also made the header)

What's this!? Two chapters in one day!?

Yup, two chapters in one day!

You can expect one chapter per week, we'll most likely be posting on Saturdays. And last but not least, we'd love to read what you think of this fic! ❤️ Enjoy!! :D

Word count: 2,810

Master Post

AO3

Chapter 2: Of broken hearts and healing ideas

Robin thinks she’s stealthy, sneaking into Steve’s room, but she might just be the clumsiest person in the entire city and she is not as quiet as she thinks she is, creeping around the admittedly cluttered space. He wakes the minute she opens the door. 

“Rise and shine, Stevie!” She sounds far too chipper, ripping the curtains open and sending him burrowing under the covers when the sunlight hits his squinting eyes. 

“Go away, Robin.” His voice is muffled by the comforter bunched up around his face. It’s too early, his head is pounding and he would very much like to go back to sleep. 

“Not until you tell me what happened last night.” 

He must have woken her when he stumbled into the apartment last night. He doesn’t remember much after passing the threshold, but he must have been loud because Robin sleeps like the dead.

The bed dips as she flops down beside him. He lets out a sigh then rolls over to face her. She’ll drag it out of him one way or another, she always does. Steve had never believed in soulmates, until he met Robin and it was like staring at a part of himself that he hadn’t even known was missing. 

Steve peeks his head out from beneath the blanket and sees Robin’s blue eyes staring back at him expectedly. Laying like this reminds him of the sleepovers they’d have as teenagers, staying up too late talking about everything and nothing. He misses those days, back when all they had to worry about were highschool grades and their shitty part time jobs at the ice cream parlor in the mall where they met.

“I had a date with Heidi. Well, I thought it was a date, turns out she only invited me there to dump me.” He contemplates hiding under the comforter again when he sees the expression on Robin’s face morph into sadness, “Please don’t look at me like that. I’m fine, Robs.”

“Sure you are,” she says, but her tone doesn’t match her words. Damn her and that ability she has to see through every last one of his lies. They do this a lot, Steve pretending he’s unaffected by everything even though they both know he’s got a much bigger heart than he lets on, “So where were you until 3am?”

“Some dive bar downtown.”

“Alone?”

“Alone.”

“How did you get home?” There’s concern creeping into her voice now and he hasn’t even gotten to the best, or maybe worst depending on the point of view, part of his story.

“Some random guy from the bar gave me a ride in his van.” He deadpans.

“What?”

“Yeah, we actually stopped at this- I guess you could call it a construction site?” Steve contemplates without a hint of sarcasm in his voice.

“Please tell me you’re joking.” 

“Will it make you feel better if I say I am?”

“Oh my god. How have you even survived this long?” Robin asks, tangling one of her hands in her hair the way she always does when she’s stressed. She’s taking it better than he expected in all honesty. She’s always been a bit of a worrier. 

“Dumb luck mostly.” He shrugs the shoulder he isn’t lying on, “Now that we’ve established that I’m an idiot, can I please go back to sleep?”

“No. You’re going to drink a glass of water, the biggest one we have. Then we’re going out for lunch and I want to know more about van guy.”

“Lunch? What time is it?” It feels early, too early, not time for lunch. Though that could be down to his pounding headache and the fact he didn’t go to sleep until long after 3am.

“12:30.” He feels the mattress shift again, this time when Robin gets up. She grabs his discarded shirt from the floor and it hits him in the face a second later, “Get dressed I’ll meet you in the kitchen.”

“I hate you,” He says into his pillow, there’s no venom behind it. He looks up just in time to watch her flipping him off as she leaves. 

Robin is sitting on one of the counter tops when he wanders into the kitchen 10 minutes later despite the perfectly good chairs a few feet to her left. She tosses a bottle of tylenol at him, he catches it and mumbles his thanks as he grabs an empty glass from the side of the sink.

Robin’s socked foot pushes into the soft flesh of his side, “That’s not the big one and you know it.” He sets the glass back down and pulls out another from the cupboard, holding it up so she can see it and awaiting her nod of approval before he fills it.

“My car is still at the bar, so you’ll have to drive,” He explains to her, suddenly very thankful for all those driving lessons he gave her over the years. They can pick his car up later, he doesn’t think he’s in any fit state to be driving right now anyway.

“Alright, you ready to go?” She asks once he’s shaken 2 pills from the bottle and swallowed them with a gulp of water.

“Yeah,” He pats the back pocket of his jeans and frowns when he finds it empty, “let me just grab my wallet.” 

He finds his keys on the table by his bedside where he set them after stumbling in earlier that morning, he was sure he’d dumped his wallet there with them but it’s not there. There’s no sign of it after he’s turned the rest of his room upside down either leaving him scratching his head as he sits amidst the pile of laundry he’s dragged out from the basket under the assumption he must have left it in a pocket somewhere. 

“Have you found it yet?” Robin calls. He’d tasked her with searching the couch in case it had somehow ended up wedged between the cushions, it wouldn’t be the first time.

“No.” He sticks his head out of his room to check up on her progress.

“I’m starving,” She whines, “let's just go. I’ll pay. We can tear the place apart looking for it later.” 

“Just, let me check my room once more then we can go I swear.”

There’s a knock at the front door and Steve’s pretty sure that’s the only reason she doesn’t argue with him.

“Make it quick, Harrington!” She calls and he darts back into his room whilst she goes to deal with whoever is knocking at their door on a Saturday afternoon. They hadn’t been expecting company, at least none that he was aware of.

He abandons his laundry theory and turns instead to rifling through his drawers. It’s got to be in here somewhere. He’s onto the second drawer when he hears Robin’s voice ringing through the apartment.

“Hey, Stevie! I found your wallet.” 

She’s holding the front door open, a smirk on her face as she watches him come barreling out of his room then freeze in his tracks when he sees none other than Eddie standing in the doorway holding up what appears to be Steve’s wallet. 

He’s wearing an outfit similar to the one from the previous night, only this time there’s a leather jacket over his t-shirt and there’s a different yet still unfamiliar logo on the front of it. The only major difference in his appearance is his hair, it’s untied today, falling in loose curls down to his shoulders.

“Figured you might be missing this.” He’s smiling as he holds out the Wallet in Steve’s direction, “Found it under the passenger seat this morning.”

“Thanks, man, I appreciate it.” 

He tucks the wallet into his pocket and thinks that’ll be the end of it, but Eddie lingers, twirling one of his rings around his index finger. Steve doesn’t know him well enough to tell whether it’s a nervous habit or just something he does.

“There’s actually something I wanted to show you,” Eddie says, “if you’re not busy.”

“We were just heading out to get lunch.” Steve explains, jabbing his thumb in the direction of Robin.

“Oh Lunch can wait, I want to see this.”

“What happened to ‘I’m starving, Steve, I’m going to waste away if we don’t get lunch within the next 10 seconds, Steve’.” 

It’s a poor imitation of Robin’s voice, one that has her curling her lip at him in disgust. It makes Eddie chuckle though, a sound Steve finds himself really liking, which is maybe a little concerning given the fact they’ve known each other for less than 24hrs. That’s an issue for future Steve to unpack. 

“Come on, what’re you waiting for?!” She throws both of her hands up in frustration, the keys in her hand jangling with the movement. She’s already halfway down the hallway while Steve and Eddie haven’t moved.

Steve and Robin take her car, a modern, bright yellow vw beetle that she had started saving for since before she even knew how to drive, and Eddie leads the way in his van. 

Hellfire looks pretty much the same as Steve’s slightly fuzzy memory of it. There’s a little sunlight streaming through the cracks in some of the window coverings and a lot more people milling around, but it still looks just as much of a construction site. 

“Eddie? Is that you?” It’s a feminine voice, cheery and light. At first Steve can’t determine where it’s coming from until a head of strawberry blonde hair pops up from behind the bar.

“I brought some visitors,” Eddie says to the mystery woman who is making her way over to them, then turns his attention to Steve and Robin again, “This is Chrissy my…”

“Business partner,” She supplies when he struggles to find the words.

“Nice to meet you, I’m Steve.”

“Robin.”

“Chrissy helps me out with just about everything.” He pulls her into a one armed hug and she pushes him away playfully with a smile. It’s clear they’re close, but Steve can’t quite figure out what the story between them is. He is, however, sure there’s more to it than simple business partners, “She’s pretty much the only reason anything gets done around here.”

“Yes, I am, which is why I need to get back to work,” She shares a glance with Eddie that Steve can’t quite decipher, it’s the same type of silent communication he and Robin have perfected through many many years of friendship, “It was lovely meeting you both,” She says, her face morphing back into something more open and friendly when she addresses Steve and Robin.

Chrissy leaves them, navigating through the mess of covered up furniture and construction equipment with so much ease Steve is sure she could do it blindfolded.

“Ok, it’s just over here,” Eddie explains, returning to their original task and the whole reason they’re here in the first place. 

He leads them to the wall where Steve had left the scrunchie last night, but now there’s something beside it, two tickets pinned to the wall with messy handwriting scrawled next to them.

‘James skipped town 3 days

before this concert

and didn’t bother to tell me.’

“Heidi?” Robin questions, ignoring the tickets entirely and looking at Steve’s message from last night, “Steve, did you do this?”

“Yeah,” Steve waves her off, he’ll catch her up on everything over lunch, “but who left those?” 

“Don’t know.” Eddie shrugs, “Found them when I got here this morning. Could’ve been anyone there’s people in and out of this place all the time, construction worker, delivery guy, who knows.”

“Holy shit,” Steve says, running his fingers over the edge of the tickets.

“Yeah, holy shit,” Robin echoes, “Do you know how long I’ve been trying to get him to lose some of the ex memorabilia?” She asks Eddie, “Seriously, you should see his room, it's like a mausoleum in there. He once kept a gum wrapper, with a wad of chewed up gum in it for over a year.”

“Alright, thank you very much for that Robin, but I think that’s enough.” Steve cuts her off with a stern glare.

“A mausoleum for broken hearts,” Eddie muses.

Robin’s face lights up with an idea at Eddie’s words. She grabs the marker from the table they had passed on the way over here, the same pen Steve and presumably whoever left the tickets had used to scrawl on the wall.

‘The broken hearts gallery, leave your heartbreak here’

“There,” She says, stepping back to admire her work, “It could be like a community project, maybe there’s more hoarders like Steve out there who need a place where they can learn to let go.”

“I am not a hoarder,” Steve protests, indignant at the mere suggestion, “It’s a good idea though, maybe it’ll help people.”

“Wait, wait, wait,” Eddie interrupts, waving his hands in front of him as he steps between them, “as much as I’m all for self expression. Maybe a literal construction site isn’t the best place for your little art project?”

“It’s the perfect place,” Robin insists, “I can set up some social media accounts, start spreading the word.”

“We could ask for tips for each donation too,” Steve suggests, “You can put the money back into this place.”

“And Steve can help out with the labor, you guys look busy, an extra pair of hands would be good right?” Steve’s glaring at her again, but she’s unphased, “Oh what? It’s not like you’ve got anything better to do.” 

She’s right, she usually is, it’s annoying.

“It would,” Eddie confirms, taking a moment to consider the offer before he says “alright, deal.”

They agree to meet again on Monday at 8am, Chrissy seems thrilled with the news when Eddie calls her over to let her know about their newest volunteer and they share another one of those silent conversations passed through a series of unreadable expressions. 

Chrissy and Eddie are an unusual pair, it was evident the moment Eddie had introduced her to them, and it continues to be evident now. Chrissy is wearing a pair of light wash jeans and a peach t-shirt with a white ribbon tied into a bow holding up her slicked back ponytail, meanwhile Eddie is all dark denim and leather. They couldn’t look more different if they tried. And for all her caution, Robin seems to have taken to them both rather quickly, so much so that he’s surprised she doesn’t invite them to lunch.

They eat at their usual haunt, a little cafe they frequent so often because Robin insists they sell the best apple pie in the whole city. Steve is just glad to have a good cup of coffee placed down in front of him.

Robin spends most of the time with her nose buried in her phone, occasionally passing it across the table to ask Steve’s approval on whatever social media page she’s setting up now. Should it be the broken heart gallery or the broken hearts gallery? Does he think this picture is better or this one? 

“Sure,” He agrees despite not really knowing what the question was. She frowns at him, wrong answer, “Sorry.” 

“I know I kind of just sprung this on you,” Robin starts, her voice is soft a tone she reserves only for serious conversations, “but we don’t actually have to go through with this whole gallery thing if you’re not into it. I just thought it would be good for you to have something to focus on that isn’t...” She stalls, making a few vague gestures with her hands.

“My failed love life or my non-existent career?” He says and she cracks a smile at his bluntness. 

“Yeah, that.”

“I think it’s a good idea, and you’re right. I can’t just mope around the apartment for the rest of my life.” Oh how he wishes he could. 

“Eddie is kinda hot too.”

“Robin!” He scolds.

“What? I’m gay not blind, Steve.” 

“Alright we are not having this conversation,” Steve decides, hurrying to change the subject. 

It’s not like he hasn’t noticed. Maybe if circumstances were different he’d even consider making a move, but he’s in the midst of yet another failed relationship and the risk of making things awkward with Eddie is too great when the guy is letting them use a space in his property for Robin’s idea free of charge.

She holds up her hands in surrender, “I’m just saying.” 

“Show me those pictures again.” 

She obliges, passing her phone over to show him the two very rough drafts of a logo she has put together. 

“One on the right for sure.” 

“That’s what I thought!” She beams, excitedly taking the phone from him and continuing to tap away at the screen. 

What has he let himself be dragged into?

<Chapter 1 ~ Masterpost ~ Chapter 3>

[bleue-flora]

Okay, so I heard you wanted to answer some questions so...How about 2, 4, 7, 16, 23, 56, and 73?

(Sorry if it's a lot, you don't have to answer them all if you don't want)

2. Do you plan each chapter ahead or write as you go?

Most of the time I write chapters and then determine the order and/or if I have to break it into multiple chapters. Sometimes I play scrapbook with random bits of writing I have and put those into a more cohesive chapter. Frequently, I’ll have a plan for like a set of chapters as far as what I want them to be. So a bit of both I guess.

4. Where do you find inspiration for new ideas?

Everything?… I mean for starters I have a list that’s made up of words I come across and think I can use later. Sometimes I’ll experience something and it’ll spur a writing section like tasting iron and writing a whole segment on blood. The most random things may inspire me to use as a description or metaphor like watching grass on the side of the road get pushed by the wind. Sometimes quotes from movies I’m watching or elsewhere inspire me. Sometimes an idea comes directly from a person intentionally or unintentionally. Comments can often spark something. Watching old dsmp streams for research is when I’ll sometimes catch a detail I didn’t before. Reading other fics can fuel new ideas. And sometimes I’m just delirious at 3am and decide that Quackity should crucify Dream… XD

7. How do you choose which POV to write from?

It’s usually framed by the story or idea and often because I have specific thoughts I want the character to have.

16. How many fic ideas are you nurturing right now? Share one of them?

Good question, which I answered here. It seems great minds think alike.

23. Best writing advice for other writers?

Not sure I have any business giving advice since I’ve only been writing fanfics for about a year now. But I’ll say this, don’t push yourself into writing if you can’t. Writers block happens and inspiration or creativity aren’t always available, which is ok. Those skills aren’t concrete like being able to pull out your calculator and do math or drive a car or brush your teeth. It’s a process and it comes and goes. I think everyone goes through it in one sense or another, but that doesn’t mean you have to let it beat you. Understand it is inevitable so no need to panic or apologize or give up. Instead, read other people’s works, talk to other writers for ideas, go enjoy life or any of the things I mentioned in 4. Inspiration will come again.

56. What’s something about your writing that you pride yourself on?

I’d say it’s hard for me to pride myself in general. I write because I enjoy it not because I necessarily think it’s good (that requires confidence, which I don’t have XD) I’ve been told that my descriptions are very captivating and help the reader feel and see it in their mind, so probably that. People also tend to appreciate my dialogue which I try to make as real and accurate as possible even if that means lots of stuttering and filler words.

73. What do you think makes your writing stand out from other works?

My insanity?…. Lol I mean, come on who else is writing hopscotch torture or making nutrition labels for their works? XD… For real though, I think my more flowery poetic style of writing isn’t standard. Someone once accused my chapter of being written by AI which I thought was both highly insulting and hilarious, because honestly my writing doesn’t follow the laws of grammar or story telling, like what do you mean you think a robot wrote this nonsense lol. ;)

[thisselflovecamebacktome]

'#it especially makes the tracklist order make more sense to me tbh' I'm sure this is a dumb question, but what do you mean by this? Because the tracklist order still feels a little random to me so I'd love to hear your thoughts

Not a dumb question at all. Like until I listened to the album in full after making the realisation of it being the equivalent of calling your exes and asking why it didn't work, I felt the tracklist order was all over the place and felt off, but it just clicked to me upon that specific listen through. I'm going to go through it track by track below, but yeah I'm gonna put it under a read more because it'll be long lmao.

So in short, while I don't want to go as far as to call the tracklist the equivalent of a mental breakdown because that's dramatic, I do think it highlights the ebbs and flows of what goes through a person's mind when they're in a relationship that they're uncertain about the future for and unsure if they should stay in or not. Like to me the flow between one topic and another just feels more natural in a stream of that kind of mindset. My thoughts on how each track fits this is below.

Lavender Haze: The starting point of the thought process. I've always felt this song was about 2016 (first verse) and 2021 (second verse) with the bridge being a general comment and now I'm more sure than ever of that. By having both, it sets up not only how Taylor perceives fame as the main issue in her life but also why she wants to fight so badly for this relationship. I'm unsure if it's intentional but it's also interesting to have 'haze' be a part of the first song, indicating that she's not seeing clearly, but would rather be in love and not seeing clearly than consider other people's concerns in a moment where the relationship isn't working (tying in The Great War where she felt she was being betrayed by analysing someone else's [the other woman's] disregard to the relationship). With the truth now coming out that Joe was not 'handling [the scrutiny] beautifully', this song acts as somewhat of a mix of Taylor reminding herself of a time where he did and trying to convince herself that he still does and that's worth fighting for.

Maroon: Coming from a place of 'looking back at past relationships to see what didn't work when your current one isn't working', Maroon makes sense to be next because Joe and Jake are the most alike of Taylor's exes. And I mean this personally, both of them could not handle her fame/not being on her level with that being a big reason for the split and both of them being the biggest loves of her life so far. While I'm not going to talk about the order of the 3am tracks here because I don't think there's much to say past the last 3 tracks being deliberate with Dear Reader being a great closer and Glitch clearly being a sequel to High Infidelity, I also have always felt like the lyrical similarities between Maroon and The Great War (including The Great War being later on, making Maroon 'the past', like part of Jake's legacy is how Taylor interacts with lovers sadly) and to a lesser degree Maroon with Lavender Haze stick out to me whenever I listen to this album, making the similarities between the two men all the more noticeable. So yeah, the jump from what happened with Joe to what happened with Jake is the smallest and flows well when considering this angle.

Anti Hero: The spiralling moment of "god maybe I'm the problem" (no pun intended). Like especially with the "Taylor Swift is the problem" movement being at its height at the time Taylor was on again/off again with Jake, again it makes sense for this to be the next step.

Snow On The Beach: The moment of clarity of "yet despite being the problem, Joe still wanted me at my worst and things were good at the beginning when it was just the two of us".

You're On Your Own Kid + Midnight Rain: As an aside note, I've always seen YOYOK as a purely sad song, not bittersweet/happy at the end and I think this is highlighted more here. But yeah these two both acknowledge how multifaceted her feelings of fame are. Because yeah she worked her ass off and achieved all she wanted without anyone's help. No one coming into her life or leaving it can take that away from her. But it also came at a cost and has caused her a lot of pain and has been the downfall of most of her relationships (making it clear that's the fault of the guy for not being able to handle it, but she's still at the stage of blaming the fame itself). It feels natural that something like this would come after Snow On The Beach, a song about someone wanting her despite her being at her worst/things being good when fame wasn't as much of a factor.

Question: Tbh kinda a sense of "Do you know what else fame fucking ruined for me? Any chance I had with Harry", a dude who should have been able to handle it because he was at the same fame level as her. Again, with that being one of the heights of fame interfering with her love life, it makes sense to be in this section and flows well as a "it's not just that Joe isn't as famous, it's that fame is the issue" connector.

Vigilante Shit: What better time than when bitter about all the ways fame fucked you over is there to include a song about the main dude who facilitated the bad press about you and has benefited from it the whole way through? Like this song isn't just about her masters, it's about how he facilitated snakegate, how he has been alleged to have paid for every bad story about her (and Selena) to be written and more. So having Question, a song about one of the periods where the press was at its worse, flow into this makes sense.

Bejeweled, Labyrinth + Karma: The 2016 + consequences/rewards trio. It's not hard to imagine how talking about Scooter would be a small jump to Bejeweled (what was going on while he was orchestrating snakegate) and then Labyrinth was the direct sequel with Karma being the ultimate recognition that without those fallouts, she wouldn't be where she is. Like the chorus and bridge of Karma is in many ways, the song version of "without your past you could never have arrived so wondrously and brutally by design or some violent, exquisite happenstance here." from her Why She Disappeared poem. It's also the turning/decision point that yes, what her and Joe have is worth fighting for and she does want to stay (even if it is in that Lavender Haze). I do wonder/find it interesting how much of this was her convincing herself though considering that while I do 100% believe Bejeweled is purely about Calvin, it's clear that Taylor was feeling cast out at that point with Joe. Like the latter two songs almost feel like a reminder to/convincing herself that Joe is not Calvin and this is different.

Sweet Nothing: This song is not only the embodiment of the good parts of Joe and Taylor's relationship but also living proof of what they can achieve when they work together considering he cowrote for it. I know a lot of people say that they believe in the double meaning (that he didn't need anything from her professionally but also wanted someone less famous/more dependent on him) and I can definitely see that, but I would say that this song goes back to Lavender Haze in the way that it's a "well I don't like fame and would rather be home with him anyway", which again, makes him different from Calvin (at least in the moment, ultimately it sounds like it wasn't), who, we later find out in High Infidelity, Taylor felt suffocated by when put in the same position. The contrast to Calvin/2016 in general also makes it make sense why her mind would flow from Labyrinth to Karma rather than having the two Scooter songs together.

Mastermind: The counter song to YOYOK. This is the "Hell yeah I worked my ass off and played the game and look where it got us. I got to have love and fame". Very classic Taylor to finish on a high note that encompasses the main themes (her need to be loved + understood, fate vs her own actions, why this love/pain hits different [pun intended] for her etc).

3am tracks/Hits Different + other thoughts: Like I said, I don't have much to say about the non standard tracks because outside of the pairing of High Infidelity + Glitch and Dear Reader being last, I don't really think there was much of a narrative purpose for the order. If anything, all I could really add is that it makes sense that WCS (and BTTWS if it's about her growing up too fast like some think it is) makes sense to be on the deluxe because while it does fit the theme of going back and considering what went wrong with your exes, there's no direct tie in what happened with John and fame or how it led her to Joe like there is with the standard songs. Likewise the rest of them just don't really sonically/narratively fit in with the standard in my opinion, so she made the right choice having them be seperate.

What I do want to mention is that I think Aaron recently mentioning that some of his songs being written when they were at the 2021 grammys (so months before the standard tracks with Jack) is extremely interesting and may lend some insight into how long Taylor felt cast aside for as well as how this album came to be. Like I don't think it's a coincidence that the John and Calvin songs came on not only a night where she had to see John (which she has noted that she actively avoids where possible because it upsets her that much), but on a night where she once again was receiving the top award for her field without her partner being present (call back to what she said on Miss Americana about winning the 2016 AOTY grammy). Also just in general, I'd argue that out of her exes John and Calvin are more alike to each other than they are to any of the others. And before anyone says it, yes, while it's possible Joe didn't show due to Covid restrictions, given how many other things he's missed over the years and that seemingly being a main if not the reason they ultimately broke up, I'm not so sure of that anymore. Like I don't want to speculate, but I imagine the mix of those things alongside the potential issues with her and Joe's then current relationship made his absence all the more noticeable.

Likewise, I don't think it's a coincidence that the songs about Jake, Harry and fame came at a time where not only was Taylor releasing her rerecorded album from 2012, but where Joe was once again not available, this time definitely due to his own fame/career. Like it sounds harsh, but the tie between the standard and deluxe tracks seems to be Joe reminding her of her exes by not showing up.

Anyway, it's almost 2am here so hopefully this makes sense and please feel free to send more asks if it doesn't, but yeah, like this album and it's tracklist order just make a lot more sense and flows better to me since realising that it's the equivalent of calling your exes to ask where things went wrong to try and figure out what's going wrong in your current relationship in album form.

[colormints-art]

help i cant sleep my mind is making up random sport anime plots again

ive had random guy who manages the girls basketball team at his school because he cant do sports himself anymore after being in a car crash for 10 minutes and if anything were to happen to him--

3am brain called this show 'rubber sound melody' after putting 0 thought into what an anime about a girl who starts playing for her school's basketball team (her sister convinced her to just try out sports for once) after her music club gets shut down unexpectedly be called

[livcosmos]

2022 Wrap Up Stories

How is this year almost over? How did this happen? I absolutely can’t believe it, it’s crazy! So much happened, so many life-changing things…and not just this year also since the last time I wrote to you my life has been turned upside down, and not just because "Midnights" by the queen herself came out, but more about that in a minute. I almost finished my first semester at uni, how crazy is that?! I never ever would have believed anyone who would have told me back in July/August that I was going to make it this far, that it was going to go well, and that I was going to enjoy it but here we are! I’m studying English and History but I’m also taking a seminar in Film so I have so much to talk about, let’s get started!

All right first things first, before we get into the books and movies we have to start with music because WOW! So I teased it already in the opening but Midnights?!!! OMG it’s just absolute perfection, it is pretty much the only thing I have been listening to since it came out. It is probably my favorite Taylor album, the vibes, the music, the lyrics it just sooo good!!! I loved Taylor before and I never thought I could love her even more but it turns out I can! Ahhh I love this album so so much!!! I can’t even say which song I love most because they are all so good in their own way and I love them each for so many different reasons but I’m going to name a few of, the ones that really really got to me. The order in which I will name them is random because I can’t rank them, it would hurt too much! Ok so, definitely "Maroon" and "Lavender Haze", and of course "Vigilante Shit" omg I love "Vigilante Shit"! "Sweet Nothing" of course and "You’re on your Own, Kid" and from the 3am version "The Great War", "Paris", "Bigger than the Whole Sky", "Wouldhav’ve, Could’ve, Should’ve" and lately I have been really really loving "Glitch". Oh and of course "Bejewled' and "Anti-Hero", it's obvious that those are on my list too. Yeah so I pretty much named half the album, I’m sorry but it’s so so good!!! I love how it is a mix of everything, I feel like there is a song in there out of each era and I love that!!! Excellent Taylor has outdone herself again and I’m all here for it!

And because everyone has been talking about it, we of course have to talk about the Spotify wrap-up, and I’m going to share mine even though it won’t be a surprise to anyone, I’m basic through and through but I’m proud of it so there you go:

You know what else won’t come as a surprise to anyone? Exactly… the fact that I miss summer! I miss the sun and the warm weather and watching "The summer I turned pretty", by the way, I bet that "Snow on the Beach" will be in season two it has to be and if it truly does, please remember that I said it here first!

I think we are going to move to the books because there are only three, sad I know! First, we have "Hamlet", please don’t come for me but I didn't really enjoy it, I mean yeah it was good but "Macbeth" is sooo much better it has so much more action. I don’t know there was something about "Hamlet" that I didn’t quite like but I can’t say what it is for sure.

Next, we have the "Underground Railroad", I had a huge problem with the writing style in this book it freaked me out, there were so many characters that came out of nowhere all of the sudden with no explanation and all those time jumps and no… but for some reason even though I wouldn’t say it was a book that swapped me of my feet, I keep thinking about it from time to time. I don’t know why but apparently, I can’t let it go just yet. It’s interesting because I didn’t enjoy reading it but somehow it made an impact on me nevertheless.

Now let’s end the book section with something very hyped, something I’m sure you all have heard of and probably also read. I’m delighted to announce to you that I finally read "It ends with us", now I finally know what you all were talking about! My oh my this book was literally a rollercoaster, I have to admit that I got spoilered so I knew that Ryle was going to be a brick but before he misstepped the first time I was so rooting for him, I really really liked him and I thought that for sure he will be good in the end but ohhhhhh the first time he hit her in the kitchen…that was it for me... from that moment on I was disgusted…from that moment on he was dead to me! My God, I felt so sorry for Lily!!!! And Atlas ahhhh I love him obviously, he is her soulmate! I don’t know what to say about the sequel though, I know I always say, that I won’t read the sequels because I’m afraid it will ruin things and then I read them anyway but…I mean the story kind of had a good ending and I don’t want all to get messed up again so…I don’t know what to do! I'm curious of course but …we will see I will defiantly keep you updated! Oh and also did this book fire up my already high trust issues? Yes, it most certainly did!

Ok, now we can get to the most fun part, the movies! I will start with my favourite out of all the ones I will discuss with you today and that is "The School for Good and Evil”, I went in there knowing nothing and I had the absolute best time watching it! I really really loved the story it’s exactly the kind of story I love, with fantasy elements and all ahhh I loved it! You already know I love Sofia Wylie but oh my I also loved her costar, the girl who played Sophie, ahhhh speaking of Sophie she was my favourite character, and the "you should see me in a crown" scene is perfection, I watched it so many times it’s soooo good!!! I won't read the books but I would love them to make sequels to the movie, I would love to see how the story goes on!

I also finally watched (I know shame on me for watching it so late in my life) "Pride and Prejudice", I liked it of course but can you please tell me where Mr. Darcy wasn't the pure evil he is always portrayed to be? I get that in the book he is way worse (again shame on me for watching the movie before reading the book) and I’m not saying that he was a saint in the movie but I imagined him to be way worse!

And because we are already speaking of it, I also watched "Persuasion" the new one with Dakota Johnson, I love Dakota she is amazing! And I liked "Persuasion" more than "Pride and Prejudice" but this might probably be because of the modern turn they took on it, so I don’t know… you are all probably screaming at be because I also haven't read "Persuasion" and you think that the movie is a joke but that's just my opinion, I will get back to you about this when I read both books and I'm more qualified to judge!

Ok moving on to "Enola Holmes 2", the only three things I have to say about this movie are 1. I liked the first movie better, 2. there was too little Twekesbury in it, 3. I can’t say it enough how much I love that time period and maybe a bonus nr.4 and 5 I loved that it was inspired by true events and I missed Sam Claflin.

All right "Do revenge” I love Camila Mendes, I love Maya from Stranger Things and I love Sophie Turner. It was a funny movie and I always love a funny movie, I also loved the soundtrack especially that they put Tate and Rosalia in it!

I wouldn't be me if I wouldn’t have watched the 10 years Violetta reunion, Violetta was such a huge part of my childhood and it’s so crazy that it has been 10 years since it came out! I cried the whole time while I was watching it. It was so emotional and I still know every word of every song! The only negative thing I have to say about it is that it was way too short!

Oh and I watched "Witches" on Halloween and it was ok, my favourite Halloween movie still is and will always be "Hocus Pocus"!

As I mentioned in the beginning, I’m taking a seminar on Film, every week we watch a movie and then we discuss it. It is so much fun to be able to talk to people who share the same interests as you! And I have to be honest it made me look at movies in a whole other way, I always watch them mindlessly just for the experience and the plot but there is a whole other level. to them I have been neglecting, the technical one. It always you to analyze the movie in so much more detail and it’s so interesting! Oh and I love that the seminar make me watch movies that I wouldn’t normally watch, for example, we watched a Western "High Noon”, yes it was boring but it was a whole experience to watch it and I never watched a Western before! And that song is still stuck in my head! I love that my knowledge of movies is expanding and that I’m learning so many new things! The first movie we watched was "500 days of summer" and it was again the typical case of: I wasn’t blown away by it but I kept thinking about it for so long that it grew on me!  The next movie we watched was "Her", again very wired and not my cup of tea but the discussion we had about it was very interesting! Oh and we watched the first Spiderman, the one with Tobi and I can’t believe I’m saying this but I realized that I had never watched that movie from start to end before so that was nice! After that, we watched "Spiderman into the Spiderverse" and before watching it I thought I was going to have a problem with the animation but in the end, I ended up liking it! Then we watched "Juno", again a movie I have never watched from start to finish which I really liked, I especially liked that we watched it to contrast it to "The Florida Project", a very disturbing but interesting movie! I really love this seminar because I love learning all those new things about something that is so important to me!

And just like that, we have come to the end, thank you so much for reading, and I wish you all a happy Christmas and a happy New Year! I hope to see you in the new year with even more movies, books, and music discussions!

[arkhamasyl-m]

Joker Folie à Deux Prediction:

So I had this random thought at like 3AM, and wanted to write it down because it would be funny if I got it right or close to right but anyways.

Basically I think the whole film it will be focused on Harleen and her descent into becoming Harley Quinn, which seems obvious enough, however I think the majority of the film will be from her perspective as she drags Arthur along for the ride all while he’s still struggling with how two persona’s. Her growing relationship with him and her getting a similar alter ego to him would start making him go crazy again before eventually he becomes the Joker and she becomes Harley.

However I think there will be a plot twist, similar to the first film. I believe the film will be from Harley’s perspective and the musical numbers will be from her twisted mind as she slowly descends, with it being framed as if everything happening is from Harley’s point of view as she is now the unreliable narrator, and the audience will be led on to believe that she is manipulating Arthur into becoming the Joker again, implying her fall to madness is bringing him down with her BUT the twist is it’s all actually Arthur’s delusions.

The entire film was implied to be Harley’s unreliable version of events but in actuality it was his and the musical numbers and implications that Harley manipulated him was all actually his hallucinations.

If you want to go a step further, I had an idea that perhaps EVERYTHING is a delusion and the reality is that Arthur is still in the Asylum and started fantasising about a romantic relationship with his psychiatrist (Harleen) but as a nihilist and a mentally disturbed man, his romantic fantasies turn dark and he portrays the girl as the villain and himself as the victim. This would parallel his relationship (or lack there of) with Sophie Dumond, as he had one nice interaction with her and imagined a whole relationship with her. He now has a nice psychiatrist and imagines a whole life with her. His delusions being darker than they were in the first film would also make sense since he is a bad guy by the end of it, so him making himself out to be an innocent victim whilst the woman he’s enamoured with is portrayed as a villain would indeed fit I think.

Though I do think the entire thing being fake is kinda dumb, so that entire last part can be ignored it’s just something I thought of.

TL;DR: In Joker 2, the film will be framed as it Harleen is the unreliable protagonist, and all the odd events are from her perspective however it will be revealed at the end that it’s actually Arthur imagining these events and making himself out to be the victim whilst portraying Harleen as the bad guy.

[kidsomo-blog]

"🎶Pretty brown brown driving me wild...🎶"

Tumblr Tiny Desk Concert.

I gasped when I heard Juvenile perform his song "Rodeo" on NPR tiny desk concert. It was a different side of him that I haven't seen before. I mostly known him for his ratchet music and loud rapping voice on his records. I'm used to seeing him on stage with the flashy lights and girls twerking. This time it was different. He performed his song "Rodeo" beautifully. It was the most intimate, elegant, & rachet thing I've ever seen lol. Only on NPR tiny desk concert is where you would get to see this side of him. A side he's commonly not known for— which sparked me to reopen tumblr.

So yeah, I’m kinda overwhelmed with life right now (mostly personal stuff), and taking a break from social media at the moment. This is actually the first time I ever felt burnt out before.

Residency. School. Friends. Family. Personal goals = it can get pretty heavy when you're working nights. lol

I remember one particular night:

After leaving the coffee shop on a late night, I was driving home exhausted at 3am. I drove past a church where there were people standing outside of it. And I thought to myself, "Wait a minute?! Its three o'clock in the morning!" As I drove further down the road, the trees turned into monsters and stoplights looked like they were dancing; I was hallucinating some crazy strange stuff.

(Okay... that didn't happen lol--but you get the picture that I was really burnt out. )

I stumbled upon watching Juvenile Tiny Desk Concert performance. It's still the most intimate, elegant, & most ratchet thing I've ever seen lol. Before the viral culture of social media took up the world by storm, I started with tumblr creating reflection blogs about random stuff. Side note: amongst my friends, I’m known to be a nerdy outgoing adrenaline junkie with a goofy sense of humor. Blogging on tumblr gave a different side of me to come out. A side people aren't used to seeing. I enjoy being a deeply intimate person as much as I enjoy being a deeply positive person.

Juvenile's tiny desk concert inspired me to blog again -- in an intimate tiny desk fashion. I hardly post my deep thoughts in my past blogs. This time I decided to give a try and share some of my deep thoughts. (No judging! lol!) I'm just blogging because I enjoy it, and it comes from me. So far, writing in tumblr helped with me feel not so overwhelmed. Hopefully my blog voice can make em' gasp like juvenile with something elegant and ratchet lol.

Cause girl you look good won't you back that thang up,

❤️Kidsomo