#rambling and yapping

[maruumite]

꩜ .ᐟ ᯓ ★ account intro!!1!

ʚ・who is maruumite? (aka. mara!!)

hii!! i'm maruumite, however i also go by multiple aliases mara, marnie, or mags online!! i'm currently an art student (aspiring game dev who knows little to nothing) who just wants to rant, analyze, and share random thoughts with the things around me!!

ʚ・interests?

my interests vary a lot!! in terms of general media, i like watching animated films, zombie movies, and musicals!! as for music, i listen to a lot of will wood, gorillaz, and other similar things!

i draw a lot as well, with some occasional coding and gaming!! (i am a visual novel itch.io nerd, it's gonna be a hella visible interest here)

ʚ・what to expect from this blog?

a lot of nonsensical rambling!! sometimes it'll make sense, sometimes it wont. sometimes it's about a personal interest or piece of media, and sometimes it's just a part of my personal life. it's going to be very messy but that's exactly what this tumblr blog is for (LMAO)

・any boundaries to follow?

regular DNI stuff are applied (absolutely no racism, pedophiliic stuff, proshipping (for character related interests) or hateful things with an intention to harm or oppress, etc.)

anyway, hope u enjoy my messy ass blog!!

[fist-of-vengeance]

this is stupid but why are they wearing the same outfit. like that's the exact same outfit right? down to the elbow patches. how did this happen. did fiddleford take half his wardrobe in the divorce

[emilbh]

There are certain mitski songs and lyrics that everyone who likes her music seem to relate to and I do too but these ones?? me. em coded:

“You say you love me. I believe you do. But I walk down and up and down this street. ‘Cause you just don’t like me. Not like you used to” — That’s Our Lamp

“And if I break, could I go on break? Be back in my room, writin’ speeches in my head. Listenin’ to the thousand hands clapping me in the dark” — When Memories Snow

Literally ALL of I’m Your Man (I think this is the most relatable song of hers to me - rn at least)

Literally all of Why Didn’t You Stop Me

“‘Cause I need somebody to remember my name. After all that I can do for them is done. I need someone to remember me. I need something bigger than the sky. Hold it in my arms and know it’s mine. Just how many stars will I need to hang around me. To finally call it heaven?” — Remember My Name

“Just don’t leave me alone. Wondering where you are. I’m stronger than you give me credit for” — I Don’t Smoke

[puppyeared]

learned something about myself lately

[sapphiregem01]

CR cast has never fumbled a photoshoot and my bi ass is THANKFUL

[lovelyscourge]

Wearing pretty lingerie is self care btw

[everytimewetouch-dot-mp3]

christ more dragon god sy yapping:

all those b-points he got from finishing that first quest? gone. my mans got like 100 every time he blessed a new generation of peak lords, plus the 500 he got from finishing that first main quest {From the Ground Up}, plus whatever he got from fighting off all those beasties who tried to kill his little cultivators way back when.

but when he unlocks his human form, he does not unlock clothes, and he has to buy them from the system store! truly unfair! he looks pretty similar to how he looked in his first life, just a little less sickly. he also has to buy a sword from the system, which is frankly bullshit. but lanrui is a lovely sword—an almost pearlescent sheen to the blade, with peach blossoms inlaid in the hilt and a dragon scale sheath that…it’s almost certainly made from his scales, actually. weird. after buying everything he needs from the bullshit system’s scam shop, he’s left with about 150 B-points.

after his magical girl transformation from gigantic dragon god to gangly human wrapped in way too many layers of sumptuous green and blue silks, shen yuan is sent off the mountain on a couple of missions from the system. pop into the demon realm to slay this evil, fend off these fierce corpses attacking this little town—tutorial shit. it’s weird having such a small body again after six (or seven hundred???? he’s not thinking about the enormity of time right now) years as a gigantic dragon. his steps feel a thousand times lighter, and the first time he tries to pick a fruit from a tree, he kind of explodes it with spiritual energy. the tutorial is, unfortunately, necessary.

the system is almost helpful when it shares his stats and all his cool dragon skills. his official name here is lord canglong, but honestly it would be so hard to explore this world if people were falling all over themselves when they heard his names. did dragon gods get personal names before courtesy too? fighting with the system gets him a corny, half-assed compromise.

he still gets to be shen yuan, but while his first life’s yuan was 垣 yuán (wall), in his second life it’s 愿 yuàn (desire, hope), and the shen he has is… very transparently 神, shén (god, deity). he’s got stupid amounts of spiritual energy, he doesn’t need to eat or drink, and sometimes plants bloom around him since he’s the also kind of the god of springtime?

right when he gets excited thinking about how he’s a god!! (the dragon god in PIDW!! that bastardization of qinglong that airplane wrote who never did shit to defend the realms until his mountain was being destroyed by binghe merging them!!) the system butts in to remind him that there are limitations. he can’t kill humans except in certain circumstances or else he’ll be punished, which—fine, he didn’t plan to go around murdering people anyway? his dragon form will be locked whenever he’s not on canglong peak (bullshit!! what kind of half assed nerfing—) and there’s a permanent penalty on his account, [Dragon Ex Machina], that threatens to penalize him if he uses his dragon god powers to bully the plot into going his way.

so what’s the point of being a dragon god, then!?!??!?!

he spends days bickering debating with the system while he learns to use his sword and qi without exploding whatever he touches, but the system refuses to budge. if he tries to bully the plot too much, he’ll be punished. it’s bullshit, but so is this whole novel he’s found himself in, so…

shen yuan is ready to spend a few more days acclimating before he gets a game plan together but that flies out the window when something starts burning at the back of his mind, screaming that something’s wrong, something is in danger, part of his territory is threatened. he hasn’t felt that since the last demon invasion, and before he can stop himself, he’s mounted lanrui and darted off toward that feeling that something is wrong, wrong, wrong.

he ends up having blown in a wall of qing jing’s discipline hall, the tail of shen qingqiu’s whip caught in his fist (and fuck, that hurt to catch!!! his hand is definitely bleeding) as he stares down the man who was really just about to start whipping a child. a couple of disciples have gone white; a couple others have fallen over. the only ones in the room unaffected are shen yuan, luo binghe whose eyes are wide as he gazes up at him, and fucking scum villain extraordinaire, shen qingqiu. and the scum villain’s first words to him, lord canglong, dragon god of qing jing peak???

“move, or i’ll beat you too.”

[gojoest]

from crown prince gojo satoru who used to follow you around like a puppy when you were kids, insisting that you should only play with him and nobody else and threw tantrums when you didn’t listen, to emperor gojo satoru who personally tortures and executes any man that asks for your hand . . . be it for a dance during a ball or marriage

[lobotomyworm]

RE4 LEON THIS, RE4 LEON THAT.

CAN WE PLEASE TALK MORE ABOUT INFINITE DARKNESS AND DEATH ISLAND LEON!?!?!

I AM INSANE ABOUT THIS MAN.

HE CONSUMES MY EVERY THOUGHT.

[pankielovesfan]

How would Fan react when learning about the reveal? Read my fun long ramble!

I need to put this down somewhere. Here is my fun not so structured analysis!!!! this is something i think a lot about. of course I do.

I doodled a small little graph of reactions I think he would go through that I will elaborate on further in the paragraphs below. I'm not sure about the order but it'd be something like these stages when processing it - most likely.

This is analyzed from the idea that Fan did not previously predict this in any way or expect it, but I do also suspect he might know! (Which, I'll explain later for his reaction to that.)

Fan's an incredibly emotional and impulsive person, he would definitely have a strong outer reaction to the information. This may be biased coming from me since Fan is my favorite to analyze but aside from Suitcase he would probably be handling it the worst after being told about it, OR just having the most notable reaction! This is considering he was not made to be a contestant but to devote his love, identity, and purpose to the show, which makes him revolve around the show much more than anyone else - since it is a built-in interest in him that he's dedicated his entire existence to, even when he tried to build himself beyond it- he still surrounds himself with Inanimate Insanity even after his elimination. It is forever tied to his mind and interests contrary to many contestants who try to separate from the show and competition entirely.

Fan's most substantial development in Hatching The Plan was the fact that there were many possibilities out there for him to discover for himself (and that others were there for him through that change and discovery). While he recognizes this and states on Fan's Fantastic Features that he's trying to test his limit and push past his comfort zone (notably while in a safe controlled environment where this change can occur comfortably for him) he is still "stuck" in Inanimate Insanity whether he recognizes this or not. He is at Hotel OJ, surrounded by the contestants, and he is still on MePhone4's island, like any other contestant. While Fan has convinced himself that he is more than just a fan of the show and that he is improving as a person, this development is still slow (obvious, coming from a person such as Fan who struggles with it) and he is still heavily attached to the core of his personality - the core which he was built to be in the first place. His love for the show is so clearly his own dedication and passion, and it truly does feel like his own CHOICE to love the show as much as he does. Even if he was created for it, it is a part of him that he loves and puts confidence into.

I swear these earlier points play into this bear with me,

So once Fan is told he was created by MePhone4, after the initial shock dies down, he would be in denial of it, of course, as Fan would react to any new information he had not considered about the show. Some "It can't be"s and some "There is absolutely no way"s being said by him, especially if he had not foreseen this coming. An instinctive reaction coming from Fan (which would also apply to Test Tube) is immediately questioning it, wanting answers- most definitely from MePhone4 himself. I don't think he'd believe Cobs if he told him, maybe not even Suitcase or Test Tube, he'd need to find the evidence for it and piece together if this even made sense at all.

Once he starts to consider it and all the pieces fit together for him as he looks back on everything, he'll let go of that denial. That's when it first really hits him. One of his first reactions is positive. He'd find validation in the fact he was created specifically for the show, he'd be honored and glad he was an actual piece of the show- not just a viewer or contestant, he was actually part of the show he loved so much. Fan puts a lot of his confidence into being the number 1 fan of inanimate insanity, as everyone knows, and being questioned on this or having people challenge him always strongly shows his insecurity over it. But knowing that he quite literally is, without a doubt, the biggest fan of inanimate insanity- and that he actually had this purpose and that he was made for what he loved to do- that would validate him immensely. He would thrive on his notion for a while until the existential crisis started to leap in.

He'd try to be acceptant of it, and this time around he would be in denial of his own emotions. He'd try to show how well he was taking this and to pride himself in being the biggest ii fan ever, so he puts up a confident front which is obviously not normal to anyone who sees him. He'd try his best not to think about the other implications of his existence being made for reality TV. He would try his best to appear in control and unburdened to prove to both others and himself that he was taking it well. I don't think this stage in his realization will go on for long. I think this would fluctuate a LOT depending on his mood.

At one point he does start to question himself. He overthinks his existence and his emotions, and if they are genuine- what if what he feels is fake? Just generated love? What if he truly doesn't like Inanimate Insanity? What's a real feeling from him and what's a fake one?! A million thoughts that some may not even make sense but this is where the existentialism really gets to him. Every time he felt excitement or love for the show, was that even his own emotions? Was that just made by MePhone4 so he could get some appreciation for his show- and maybe he'd get mad that MePhone4 kept dismissing him. Maybe he'd wonder why he was made if he's not being recognized and rewarded for how much dedication- if it was even his own- that he put into appreciating MePhone4, a dedication that was going unnoticed or deemed annoying by him.

Something I mentioned earlier, about Fan learning to embrace new opportunities for himself and about how he was still trapped in the show. He realizes he is forever tied to the show, and all his attempts at making changes for himself and being more than just a fan suddenly feel... meaningless to him. All he was ever made for from the start was to be a fanboy of the show, and he had tried to build himself around that. But those efforts were for nothing if this is all he ever was- just a fan. That was his entire identity, he was never anything other than that. This is all that could ever come out of him. So what was the point in trying? His shell might've been the only place he'd ever felt safe in anyways- and once he remembers it, his old coping mechanisms seem incredibly tempting. Fan would retreat back into his shell. Things just seemed so much simpler if he did, he wouldn't have to deal with all this overthinking if he just stuck to what he was made for, something he already had found so much comfort and significance in. He uses his shell to cope once again, regressing, turning back to his purpose. This would be how he copes with this new information, by embracing what it taught him that he was. He'd be in this state for a while, he'd probably try to pretend he never even learned anything and creating a false reality of his own security. Being a fan is still important to him, and something he feels so deeply about that he's urged into fully embracing it again. early season 2 fan is back babyyyy!

Not sure how long it would go on for, or even how long it would take for him to go through these stages, but this is somewhat of the process I believe he'd have! I think Suitcase and Fan should have a talk about dealing with all of this. possibly. I feel like it will boil down to "if it feels true to you, that's all that matters." for Fan dealing with this. I could definitely see Suitcase saying something similar to him.

As for him reacting to it after already having theorized this would happen or at the very least suspect it, I think it would go similar to that one drawing I made. He'd be proud at first, and it wouldn't sink in as fast because his pride comes first! But to have it actually confirmed to him would then send him into that same realization as stage 3 of processing it. Something something, it goes the same after this.

Anyways i love fannnn i could talk about him for hours boy i love you i wonder if we'll even get everyone's reactions to the reveal or if they'll even tell anyone else but if we do Fan would definitely have a prominent reaction to it <- guy who loves fan saying this. look at this bias

[serenbriar]

Give me Astarion who slowly gets more comfortable babbling away about his thoughts and feelings as he falls in love with you.

He goes from the constant "I'm fine" when you ask him how he is to "actually you know darling, I don't think the blood from that awful hook horror I bit in battle yesterday agreed with me, it was quite sour, eugh. I can't decide what was worse, that or Gale."

He is a yapper at heart after all.

[helluvapodcast]

me when my boyfriend tries to kill himself

[milkamel]

A small headcanon related to Cross: he looks quite intimidating and cold to strangers even though he doesn't mean it but when he's with people he's comfortable with he's loud and can't hide his emotions at all- he's easily excited, he can't keep that serious royal guard persona

Though now that I think about it even when he's trying to look intimidating he's adorable I'm SORRY I CAN'T TAKE HIM SERIOUSLY I LOVE HIM A LOT

Btw I literally drew this as quickly as I could so it's messy but I had to convey my vision before heading off to bed

Killer belongs to rahafwabas Cross belongs to jakei Nightmare belongs to jokublog

[elitisim]

. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁ ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ 12 DAYS OF CHRISTMAS, DAY 10: 10 LORDS A LEAPING!⊹ . ݁ ⟡ ݁ . ⊹ ₊

The boys are back in town!

Day 10 of [ELITISIM’S 12 DAYS OF CHRISTMAS ADVENT EXTRAVAGANZA!]] is Much, MUCH needed love to the fine gentlemen of TS3. So funny story, this was this primarily supposed to be a cold weather menswear pack that I was supposed to post back in like late-September/EARLY October, it was literally called the equinox collection... but then the fall equinox passed, and I didn't know what the rename it, and I didn't feel like remaking the graphics...so now it's Christmas gifts!

Information:

None of this is my original work! All mesh and texture credit goes to, @gorillax3, @darte77, @lazyeyelids, @amelylinaa @ooboosoo, @atomiclight-cc, @xion!

Set contains 31 CAS items for YA-A Males: 22 Tops, and 9 Bottoms

All clothing options are disabled for random, have all LODS, and Morphs.

credits, preview pictures, links to originals, poly counts and individual download links for every single item is under the cut.

WARNING:Polycounts are EXTREMELY HIGH for MOST of this stuff. Sorry! Please reference the list under the cut before downloading!

**WARNING 2: the bones on the Bottom2632 w/ Spiked Belt are ASS. I didn't want to upload them because I'm not really proud of them, but a friend asked about them specifically, so they're in here.

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[PICK AND CHOOSE]

@ooobsooo: KKBasic 06 cargo pants // 7.8k poly // 4 channels//[DOWNLOAD] @oobsooo: KKBasicsSet 15 Jeans // 7.8k Poly // 4 Channels // [DOWNLOAD] @ooobsooo: Kwang Gong Suit // 7.2.k poly // 4 channels// [DOWNLOAD]

@ooobsooo:Layer shirt 3// 7.4k polys// 4 channels// [DOWNLOAD] @ooobsooo:March Denim Jacket + // 10.2k poly // 4 channels// [DOWNLOAD] @amelylina: Benjamin Sweater// 6.5k poly// 4 channels// [DOWNLOAD]

@darte77 Belted Jeans 102 // 8.9k polys// 4 channels// [DOWNLOAD] **@darte77 Bottom2632 w/ Spiked Belt//9.5k polyys// 4 channels// ** bones are not great on this download at your own risk** [DOWNLOAD] @darte77: Long coat // 11.3K polys// 4 channels/ [DOWNLOAD]

@darte77 Parka w/Layered Shirt // 7.2k polys// 4 channels// [DOWNLOAD] @darte77 RAF Bomber Jacket// 9.3k poly// 4 channels// [Download] @darte77 Ripped Knit Sweater//9.1k//2 channels//[DOWNLOAD]

@darte77 Moto Jacket // 10k polys// 4 channels// [DOWNLOAD] @darte77 Leather Overcoat// 11.9k poly// 4 channels// [Download] @darte77 Wool Overcoat//11.1k//4 channels//[DOWNLOAD]

@darte77 Parka w/ Turtleneck // 10.1k polys// 4 channels// [DOWNLOAD] @gorillax3-cc: basic cardigan 2// 9k poly// 4 channels// [Download] @gorillax3-cc: Basic Sweater// 9k poly// 4 channels// [Download]

@gorillax3-cc: Cardigan and Shirt 3// 7.9k poly// 4 channels// [Download] @gorillax3-cc: Chino Pants// 6.3k poly// 4 channels// [Download] @gorillax3-cc: Coord Pants//4.2k// 4 channels// [Download]

@gorillax3-cc: Down Jacket 3// 9.2k poly// 4 channels// [Download] @gorillax3-cc: Down Vest// 7.9k poly// 4 channels// [Download] @gorillax3-cc: Mandarin Collar Shirt//8.2k// 4 channels// [Download]

@gorillax3-cc: Pajama Shirt // 8.2k poly// 4 channels// [Download] @gorillax3-cc: Pants 15 w/ Gucci Belt// 2.6k poly// 4 channels// [Download] @gorillax3-cc: Scarf String Hoodie//8.1k// 4 channels// [Download]

@xionsims: Cool Kid Jeans // 6.2k poly// 4 channels// [Download] @xionsims: Ripped Jeans // 6.8k poly// 4 channels// [Download] @Darte77 // Layered Shirts// 10.2k // 2 channels + 4 swatches// [Download] @lazyeyelids: Chesterfeild Coat// 7.1k Polys// 4 channels// [DOWNLOAD]

[sapphiregem01]

There is something so special to me about how everyone else in this picture is striking a fancy pose n shit and then there’s Tal and Travis dead in the middle both just kinda. standing there. (Menacingly, one might say)

[b4ookie]

chat im gonna have to shift tonight. like

i need to.