#rambles about my autistic mind
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pinkglittergelpenink · 8 months ago
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i don’t really like prison/post-prison spencer…
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im sorry😭 i just find nerdy losers (affectionate) more attractive
also i saw on tiktok that another autistic person didn’t like prison/post prison spencer because it felt like they wrote out his autistic traits once they realised he was “the attractive one” (cause god forbid a character is disabled AND attractive).
i’ve always headcanonned him as autistic totally not projecting and it’s basically cannon anyway and found a lot of comfort in him so when i got to season 12 (literally haven’t watched past it) i just couldn’t connect with him the same way and it kinda felt boring, which i hate to say cause genuinely love the show a lot😭
we fuckin with autistic spencer reid?
anyway hopes this makes sense 🫶🫶
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m-o-o-n-f-i-r-e · 8 months ago
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help i’ve fallen for another ship comprised of two insane autistic queers that want each other dead despite also being willing to do literally anything for the other even at risk to themselves
#nygmobblepot#i literally never gave a shit about the penguin and the riddler#but the moment my brother makes me watch a show where they are portrayed by theatre nerds who care about the characters#i become obsessed instantly#i would watch the show out of the corner of my eye while my brother and dad were watching it and see oswald and id just think#that little weirdo is the only thing that makes me like this show its so fun when hes on screen#then ed starts showing up more and i start to love his autistic ramblings and general energy#then ed kills a guy and i think fuck i love this show so much#then i see them interact and find out that they are semi canon???#like oswald is canonically in love with ed but the show seems to want you to think that ed just doesn’t reciprocate#but he obviously does and just doesn’t realize at the beginning because he thinks hes straight#but by the end that man is NOT hiding how much he loves oswald#like what the fuck was that hallucination scene if not his concince trying to make him realize how much he loves oswald#and there scene in the last episode in the car???#like that man has finally accepted that hes in love and is finally ready to act on it#anyways rant over they are just like hannigram and danbert and i will never change my mind#also their actors fucking killed in their rolls i love them#and fun fact: edward was cory michal smith’s first role outside of theatre and it fucking shows in the best ways#him being a mostly theatre person just adds so much to edward and makes him just so enjoyable to watch#now the rant is actually over#gotham#gotham tv
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lionacuty · 4 months ago
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I AM NOT NORMAL AGAIN I AM OVERHEATING
I HAVE AN MLP AU IDEA AND I BLAME @gracebeth3604 CUZ OF ITS AWESOME MLP AU THAT MOTIVATED ME TO MAKE AN MLP AU HOLY SHIT
Imagine Twilight and her friends had to dismantle 5 different cults while trying to help 5 siblings with their familial issues and what if Twilight and her friends had to help a pony make peace with his Heart, Mind and Soul but it takes a turn to the worse or something
what do you mean I'm combining MLP with COTL and CCCC
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jazzy-dreamer · 10 days ago
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Is it just me or do psychiatrists (or I guess whoever is in charge of diagnosing?) never like to be straight forward with their answers. They never say “I can confirm, you have X” or “You’re X”
They always seem to say something like “You definitely display traits of X” or “You have symptoms of X”
I’ve looked this question up and apparently this is on purpose because they want the patients(?) to be able to decide for themselves what they want to do, and to not let a diagnosis completely dictate their mindset or actions or something along those lines. Which is like- understandable!!! But!!!!!! This doesn’t help with my imposter syndrome???????????
When tryna get diagnosed with ADHD a couple months ago, I was told that tho I definitely had traits and stuff, it would be difficult to explicitly say if I had ADHD or not because I’m autistic and have anxiety, which can cause many overlaps in symptoms and whatnot which makes everything a billion times more confusing. But despite that, they still prescribed me ADHD medication (YIPPEE :D) but I’m so confused fjdgkfhfj
CAN I say I have ADHD then?? Or just “traits”? It’s when I got diagnosed with OCD all over again fjdgkfhfj. DO I REALLY HAVE OCD???? LIKE YEAH I HAVE ALL THE SYMPTOMS OF OCD AND IT NEGATIVELY IMPACTS MY LIFE EVERY SINGLE DAY ALL DAY BUT WHAT IF I DON’T ACTUALLY HAVE IT???
Fun fact, one common thing with OCD is self doubt, the need for constant reassurance and ironically enough imposter syndrome fjdgkfhfj
Kay but like what if I don’t actually have ADHD or OCD- What if I’m just looking for reasons so I don’t feel lazy or delusional- What if I just want an excuse for why I’m extremely anxious and overwhelmed by everything all the time-
I keep wanting to ask my parents the same question “Are you sure I was properly diagnosed and I’m okay to say I have X?” even tho I WAS THE ONE THAT DID ALL THE RESEARCH AND WAS THE ONE TO EVEN ASK ABOUT LOOKING INTO A DIAGNOSIS ANYWAY. Every single time I say “I have OCD” or “I have ADHD” I feel like a frickin liar for some reason
I love my scrambled eggs of a brain and it’s disorganised and imbalance of funky hormones and funky chemicals <3
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fandomkicks · 2 months ago
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And to Spencelle, they simply didn’t understand you like I did.
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moe-broey · 4 months ago
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HELP maybe this is influenced by how I'm writing this, or maybe it was supposed to be gleaned from canon and I just. Haven't fully thought about it til now. Haven't Deeply analyzed it beyond the blaring alarm bells that go off when reading this. But. Alfonse's,
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Straight into.
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This isn't him doubling down. This is him BACKTRACKING. This is him going, "oh fuck I think maybe I came on a little too strong maybe I was a bit too vulnerable and that's really scary. How do I fix this" and he's running through all the dialogue options in his head like Okay. Play it Cool. Keep it Casual. Proclaim your undying loyalty and devotion to your Trusted Partner (person he just told in the beginning of this conversation that he didn't intend to become friends with) by making yourself a blade and shield for them. NAILED IT 👍
#fire emblem#feh#ALFONSE. PLEASE. COME ON MAN#HUUUUUGE FUCKING EPIPHANY FOR ME THOUGH as i'm writing/drawing bc that last line i've been struggling w the most#but this. add some moe lore. I HAVE HUGE IDEAS ABOUT THE MOE LORE IN TANDEM W THE CANON IMPLICATIONS.#in short/minimal spoilers if i forget to expand on it later BUT IT'S SO HUGE TO ME. SO HUGE#but i think alfonse has Noticed. things about moe. similarities to himself. but it either#doesn't know it or refuses to acknowledge it. he isn't sure which yet. so when he says 'i hope you feel the same'#he's reaching out ala pre-skip dimitri fbs. asking moe to Consider This. AND. AND. IN TANDEM.#w the canon implications. that he doesn't think highly of himself and doesn't dare wait for an answer#AND. AND. HELP THERE'S A MOMENT THAT'S SO FUCKING FUNNY. he just commits a Blunder#that even moe's autistic ass catches him on. it all happens So quickly. in a fucking instant.#WHICH. WHICH. LED TO ME REALIZING THIS. he is trying TO CATCH HIMSELF HERE.#AND THE. ADDITION. of moe lore/the blunder why he tries to move on So quickly. please do NOT ask me questions i WILL throw up.#ALSO LIKE book 3 alfonse fresh in my mind. i did take a break after The Incident (gustav).#but like. goes so insane actually. this is really all he knows how to be. constantly in service to others. made to be a tool.#it's so fucked up bc you can see he is genuinely wired like that too. he WANTS to help. he wants to do good#but man................... i def don't have the words for it rn it's just so tragic. but i think about it All The Fucking Time.#GOD SORRY I'M HAVING ANOTHER ALEAR FB MOMENT. ALFONSE. ALFONSE.#cut off that tangent just to make a whole other post about it.#fe alfonse#moe tag#TAGGING IT. bc i rambled about it in the tags and it's MY OC I MAKE THE RULES 😤😤😤😤😤
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autisticlee · 12 days ago
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it's ridiculous how many people recommend mindfulness to me
I don't think I need to practice mindfulness when i'm acutely aware of every drop of water that hits my skin in the shower and every sound that exists within hearing distance all at once with the inability to ever turn that awareness off (without it resulting in a severely dissociated state)
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frothingatthemaw · 23 days ago
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also. my grandma mentioned us staying here ANOTHER night. god. i think vess and i will place daggers in each other’s hearts if we don’t go home today. we are so fucking tired. and apparently we’re going to see a friend of my mom and grandma’s today and i can’t do more social things!!!! i get left out all the time anyways because i’m still viewed as a kid no matter what or i guess i’m not interesting enough? i dunno. i don’t wanna go and see someone and for me to be there in silence 98% of the time. it’s so fucking!!!! i feel like we would actually die if we stayed here tonight again. we need proper rest and last night was fucking horrible. ugh vess has been promised time and time again it would get to talk to his fp today and that we would be able to rest. and! that’s not happening very well! and it’s making me upset! just :( i dunno, we need to take care of ourselves but we seem like an asshole if we say that. we’re trying to be better at boundaries but :/ it feels like such an asshole thing to do sometimes.
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starlit-warren · 4 months ago
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loosely related to the previous two posts but i do think it's funny how like, with most of my fandom interests they're on my one sideblog, but then i made an entirely separate other sideblog for ffxiv, so that i wouldn't flood people with Just ffxiv stuff
then g'raha tia jumped onto my screen and my brain decided "yep this one" and he's been my special interest for over a year and over half of my posts on that blog is just reblogs of other people's fanart of him AND he has lived in my head rent-free and is the first and last thing i think of each day. and i haven't reblogged other fandom stuff to the other blog because it's just been "oops, all g'raha tia".
oops.
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unnamed-proxy · 5 months ago
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I love kidscove so much I just wish it wasn’t popularized by TSAMS where it’s the most boring and forced version of their dynamic ever conceived
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snivel1 · 2 years ago
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MAJOR IDIA AUTISM EVENT‼️‼️
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verathena14 · 6 months ago
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oh he just like me fr
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cherub014 · 2 years ago
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“How can you listen to your friends talk about something you know nothing about doesn’t that make you feel so left out of the conversati-” MY FRIENDS LET ME RAMBLE FOR 2 HOURS ABOUT MY OWN UNIVERSE ONLY I KNOW ABOUT ONCE I LOVE LEARNING ABOUT MY FRIENDS INTERESTS EVEN IF I MYSELF DON’T KNOW ABOUT THEM OR ARE NOT AS INVESTED AS THEY ARE IN THEM!!
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goblinbugthing · 1 year ago
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the neverending story is the best movie of all time btw
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oldirontender · 2 years ago
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good evening train fans
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tackledkey · 2 years ago
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The terfs don't like my pearl post. Good
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