#rage anon

[my-castles-crumbling]

hi Cas how are you doing?

I’m honestly not sure if this is gonna be a rant or asking for advice until I get to the end so sorry if this is a bit long

I wanna start this off by saying I’m trying so hard to work on my self image. I’ve tried so hard for so long to love myself and my body and it’s not working. Every time it starts working something else sets off this feeling in me that I’m just not good enough and I don’t know why or how to stop it.

it’s not like I have an ED or anything so don’t worry I suppose it’s just the normal amount of ‘I’m a teenage girl who hates my body’ but it really fucking sucks. I used to be a really skinny kid and I suppose I never really realised how different everything is when your not as skinny, I’m not even plus size I’m literally a size 8 but now with the ozempi-demic and the resurgence heroin chic apparently that’s still not skinny enough for whatever fuck ass trend is going on (looking at you head-phone waist - because what the fuck was that even - and the fact that every pinterest girl ever has a thigh gap - which please do not read as hate to them because I am not a skinny shamer and it’s not their fault but I wish I could actually see something else for once too that remotely resembles me. Put it this way - you know social media has gotten bad when you come across more body type representation in TV shows than Instagram/tiktok…

and I’m so full of rage about it all too because it feels like all this self hate isn’t even my fault and how am I supposed to feel happy in a world categorically designed to make me feel insecure in order to sell me things?

i used to be a really confident kid too and I don’t even want to be skinnier I know there isn’t anything wrong with my body I just want my confidence back. I feel terrible all the time now, I feel terrible so I compare myself to others (my friends) and then I feel terrible because I feel like a bad friend because good friends don’t compare themselves to their friends and then I stress eat because I just do and then I feel terrible and then I find myself googling a million and one weight loss tips and making lists of surgeries I want to get when I’m older and then I feel terrible because I wasted another day doing nothing but feel sorry for myself. I guess I’m just wondering if you have any advice on breaking the cycle and like learning to be confident again?

I want myself back and I don’t want to be this type of person forever. I’m becoming toxic because all I ever do is compare myself and it’s seeping through the cracks and ruining everything in my life and I don’t want to be like this. I want to be a good person and a good friend and I want to be confident and I don’t know how because it feels like it’s eating me up inside all the goddamn time

I’m sorry if this read as aggressive I’ve had a really weird, long day and I just didn’t know who else to talk to honestly.

also I really wanna say quickly at the end of this just a massive thank you. I don’t have anything massive going on, not like a lot of people on tumblr that really struggle with important issues, but this blog has still been a life saver for me. You’ve created this amazing safe space for all types of people with all types of problems and you honestly deserve way more credit than you’re probably ever going to get but I swear I’m never gonna forget you.

Hi!

What you're feeling is (unfortunately) so universal, especially amongst teenage girls, and it's HORRIBLE. I've been there, and I do want you to know that it does get easier as you get older.

However, you asked for ways to break the cycle, so:

Try thinking of your body differently. Instead of thinking of it as something merely to be attractive to others (ew, fuck other people) think of it as something that is helping you live. When you get down on (for example, I'm not saying this is bad or something you have) your thicker thighs, instead of thinking "damn I wish I had thinner thighs, all the girls on pinterest have thigh gaps" focus on what your thighs do for you. "My thighs help me get from place to place. I can run with them, stretch with them, do amazing physical exercise with them to stay healthy" if you get down on your stomach, don't think about the fact that it might not be concave (which is unhealthy), think "this is my stomach. it helps me digest food, which helps me live. it's awesome that it helps me in that way."

When you start thinking of your body as a thing that helps you live, rather than something other people have any opinion on, it helps reframe it into something to be excited over. Bodies are cool, and we can be proud that they've helped us through our whole lives!

Naming you rage anon (not that I actually think you were raging lol)

[notebookmusical]

It's me rage anon and 2017 tonys wins for me for all the reasons you mentioned in your separate post PLUS (I like Avenue Q better than DEH?) BUT I think that DEH and Hello Dolly would've won the way they did anyway, even if any of the other shows played the Tony games the way Avenue Q did in 2004. Obsessed with the poll luv uuuu

omg welcome back rage anon i'm obsessed with you calling yourself that!! fun fact: i have actually never seen avenue q! admittedly i do not have a whole lot of knowledge about the 2004 tonys (would love to hear about the tony games + avenue q, if you have time)! if you haven't yet, i'd encourage you to look in the tags of the poll; i've been having a good laugh at the outrage + people's thoughts!

[the-muppet-joker]

First you start fucking a stuffed animal then you start pissing on it then when that stuffed animal is burned you claim that it's Spirit has gone into a plastic figure and now you want to eat the figure

Excellent summary!

[ha1leysblog]

[ky-landfill]

There is a disturbing lack of Dick Grayson on your page (please please please please please please please🙏🥹)

[ahappydnp]

Do you think dnp knew AI would be praised in that article for Adobe? Ngl I hate that they are associated with that.

i'm gonna be honest that entire article is so poorly structured and sketchy it seems like it was written by AI. also someone on twitter DMed the author and apparently all of dnp's quotes were from a secondary source (x)

i genuinely don't believe dnp would promote software that promotes AI knowing the detrimental impacts and overall negative impact of it, and if this was a brand partnership then there would be some sort of...actual ad content from them directly. so the whole thing seems weird

[princessbrunette]

girl i think i speak for everyone when i say we NEED more boxer rafe ,love you princess 💋

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“shitshit, be careful baby— fuck.” rafe pants, toned stomach tensing beneath you. he was still battered and bruised from his fight, but he’d come home and you’d been on him immediately, practically in tears over how badly you needed him. you were around six months pregnant with your first ever child together, globed stomach straining against the thin mesh of your night gown. he’d been reluctant at first, as much as his dick had been throbbing from lack of usual action — simply because he was worried about knocking around your sweet baby, a daughter he already knew he’d die for. once you begged him to let you get on top, he couldn’t argue.

his cock slides out by mistake and you whine, shakily as you drop some of your weight on him. “s’all good”. he chuckles as he grabs his shaft in his fist, sliding it back inside your hole making you preen against his touch. it’s true what they said, pregnant pussy was wetter — all of his older peers had joked about it in the locker room at his training days, which he stayed out of — too irritated by their obnoxiousness to partake. “keep that shit so fuckin’ wet for me, don’t you baby?” he praises and you whine, nodding.

“jus’ need you, needed you to fill me up all day.” you cry and he rubs at the back of your head, pulling you back into the crook of your neck.

“well you got me now, pretty girl. keep riding that, yeah. let’s give you what you want.”

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[post-it-notes7]

'for someone who can sense other star warriors' is this a trait that Star Warriors have in that they can sense one another, or is this a Falspar-exclusive trait? And if the latter, does it extend to Mir Falspar as well?

Star warriors have ended up with a mixed bag of traits over the centuries, and Falspar's one of the lucky few to have a dominant one like this! Makes him pretty useful when hunting down new recruits.

As for Mir Falspar (and the other reflections by extension) none of them seem to register as star warriors, aside from a one-time fluke. Mir Falspar has a distaste for the title, and the continued use of "star" in the alliance's name, despite this fact.

[sadiegirl2021]

[spiritually-a-deer]

plss ask me stuff it's been a whileee ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪

[fawnsky]

so i just took an everything shower and i accidentally ate shampoo... wtf do i do ??? i'm scared

i heard if you eat strawberry scented shampoo you'll turn into a strawberry. good luck friend

[thealexchen]

What do you think will happen in Tape 2? I think, based on the trailer and the reminiscing flashbacks, we're gonna do something to Corey's bike, by keying it, or choosing to do something worse, and then he'll burn the hideout as payback and cause a forest fire. I feel like we might get a choice that determines what happens to Corey. Like, do we save him, or let him die in the fire? Also, I'm curious what could be in the box. If it turns out to be a head, I am gonna scream.

I don't think it's a head!! 😂 It's the size of a shoebox and you can hear something small rattling around inside if you turn the box around. If anything, it might be Swann's VHS tapes of that summer or her old camcorder. I don't do a lot of theory crafting, so just bear with me here.

From the reveal trailer, we definitely know Fawn's Rest/Curse will sadly burn down at some point. The group in 2022 speaks about it in the past tense in a way that implies it's not there anymore, and Swann also implies she "lost" a lot of her sentimental items before she moved like they were destroyed instead of simply misplaced, and a lot of those items were in the cabin.

Given DN's track record (like Nathan and Victoria), Corey and Dylan are likely red herrings. This game might not have a main antagonist at all, with its pacing and smaller cast of characters. More likely, the fire could've been an accident, since there's a prominent fireplace in the cabin, and it spread into the forest.

Alternatively, Kat could start a fire at the ranch out of anger at her family-- maybe her beloved fawn Gertie was killed, or the Abyss is affecting her mental state. All the girls' eyes glow purple the day after they see and throw something into the Abyss, and it seems to be strengthened by anger and hate, given how the purple glow shows up on Corey's face and he seems to become physically hurt and feel threatened by them enough to leave the scene.

In the very beginning of the game, the girls are running for their lives from a person in a wolf mask. I think that's most likely Corey. If he's a red herring, either it's a prank gone wrong, or the Abyss is affecting him.

Some other theories I've seen mostly on Reddit:

You as Swann have to make some big choices during the fire, and her appearance in 2022 could be choice-determinant (a possible reason why all her 2022 scenes are in first-person. Like, maybe she has burn scars depending on your choices).

Kat is trapped in the Abyss and possibly still 16 years old. Either she jumped in herself, or the girls made some insane trade to keep her alive and healthy.

Kat is in the Abyss and that's why the group can't remember the summer of 1995 clearly

Swann got affected by the Abyss somehow and it altered her appearance or memories

Time travel/shadows theory: The freeze-frame shadows of various characters (discovered to be Swann, Corey, and Kat) are their characters across time. The person who says "Bloody Mary" back to Swann sounds a lot like... adult Swann. Could that be her stuck in a time loop or briefly sent back to 1995? Another example is in the last scene of Tape 1, when Swann, Nora, and Autumn in 2022 briefly see their teenage selves in the parking lot of The Blue Spruce the night of the concert. Swann looks down at the box, back up, and they're gone again. Stylistic choice, or did they actually see their past selves?

The fifth girl theory: Some Redditors have speculated that the Abyss affected the girls' memories to the extent that they forgot an entire additional person. The box says "I WAS THERE" and "REMEMBER 1995" and the game has a few odd moments where the camera is no longer behind Swann's shoulder but from the POV of someone else. Fake cameraman, or secret fifth girl? I don't think it's as likely for DN to introduce a whole new character at the end of the game when they put so much effort into characterizing the quartet, but it's fun to think about.

Kat sent the package across time

Or, Kat sent the package in the present day and is secretly alive

Dylan sent the package

Pam and Gus sent the package

Pam and Gus are the secret villains or they're involved with the supernatural happenings in Velvet Cove

The possible "fifth friend" sent the package

Nora isn't actually married anymore and she's putting on a front for how happy she seems (okay I know this one is much more lighthearted but I wanna see endgame canon sapphic middle-aged relationships! Please!!)

The game will not have a happy ending (it's Dontnod, but the game also opens with Swann either agreeing or not with her mom's take about happy endings at her book club)

Call me crazy but... I think the girls might be queer. But I'm not sure yet. /j

Thank you for asking!

[allastoredeer]

Beauty and The Beast radioapple au where The Beast is literally The Devil and Belle is... also the beast in his own way 😁

Radioapple Beauty and the Beast AU where, instead of Alastor going "I can fix him," he goes, "I can make him worse."

[shapelytimber]

anakin is not a faggot... george lucas said he fucks his wife with his dick regularly I know mentally ill people on this website live in delusion but fucking die mad about it

You're right anon oh I am soooo mad rn, so mad that hetorooo Anakin gets pegged on the reg by his beautiful wife Padme Amidala- How will I ever recover from this ? I am *shattered*, never to be complete again now that George's simp forbade me from being a pédale on tumblr dot com

[whattraintracks]

I kinda feel we didn’t much of raph and splinter’s relationship in 03 thoughts?

Hmm, I suppose that's fair. I've heard it said that 03 isn't a very character-driven story, and I agree we don't see as many character dynamics or arcs explored as we could have.

Below the cut are the pieces of Raph and Splinter's relationship I've pieced together for myself.

Splinter's bio on Raph in Tales from the Sewer presents this interesting duality in Splinter's perception of him. He's a difficult child but just a kid. He trains the most but he's a difficult student. He makes poor decisions but Splinter has the utmost faith in his abilities. As both father and teacher, Splinter sometimes struggles to approach his sons and their needs in the appropriate role, especially when it comes to Raph.

For example, his hands-off approach to Raph's rage, or what I usually think of as emotional dysregulation (either as a product of neurodivergence or his young age). When Raph nearly maims Mikey during a rage attack/dissociative episode (see S1E4 "Meet Casey Jones") Splinter doesn't try to stop Raph or separate him and Mikey, although he very well could have. He doesn't step in until after Leo and Donny have broken up the fight. Despite addressing Raph parentally, he comes at the issue like a teacher offering those ninja master-esque nuggets of wisdom about rage being a monster and a true warrior is balanced in all things. I think he wants to come across sympathetically (gentle voice, physical contact, calling Raph "my son") but there is a sense of disappointment and unmet expectations in what he says.

In the aforementioned bio, Splinter notes that of all the turtles, Raph trains the longest and hardest. He likely equates length of training with dedication to ninjutsu and assumes that because Raph exhibits these things he should be something he isn't: more disciplined less angry. Perhaps he compares Raph to Leo who apparently trains less but fits Splinter's prototype of a good ninja. Speaking of Leo, later in the same episode we see Splinter chastise Mikey and Donny for interrupting Leo's practice and tell Leo to keep practicing his split kick without offering any advice on how to get it right.

We see this idea directed to Raph in Splinter's comment about a true warrior finding balance in all things. It's not particularly informative. This is his version of telling Raph to keep practicing but it's not what Raph needs at this moment, hot off such an overwhelming experience. So instead of reading this as the patient, parental advice I think Splinter intends it to be, Raph's body language screams chastised. He doesn't meet Splinter's eyes and he runs away. Raph (like all of the brothers) wants Splinter's approval and he's devastated to have fallen short in this instance. Then Splinter doesn't let Mikey follow after Raph. And yeah, Raph likely needed that space but it's this hands-off approach, again. Another example comes from the one of Raph's diary entries in the Raphael: Collector Book. He talks about Splinter assigning him more meditation exercises to help him control his emotions and temper. Perhaps training, space, meditation, and nuggets of wisdom are effective tools for Splinter to self-regulate his emotions, but Splinter is also an adult. Raph needs more guidance and practical advice at this point in his life that Splinter isn't providing. The tools aren't enough, he needs to be taught how to use them.

So. Raph responds in a couple ways to Splinter's hands-off, more-teacher-than-father approach. The first is to train harder, and longer, and learn everything he can about ninjutsu. If Master Splinter says becoming a true warrior will help him find emotional balance then he's going to try his hardest to become one. When he meets Casey, he shares with him verbatim the true warrior line but confesses to Casey he's not sure how hot-heads like them are supposed to do that. He still takes the advice to heart even if it's not helpful or he doesn't understand it because he wants to please and obey his father. The collector's book shows us that Raph has taken the time to learn aspects of ninjutsu that are confusing, uninteresting, and even inaccessible to him. This book contains a lot of technical information about ninjutsu techniques and teachings. It presents Raph as even more of ninja nerd than Leo! Some of this stuff appeals to his interests, for sure; the different punching techniques for instance. Some of it, he seems to have only learned to gain Splinter's approval. He has a detailed spread on hand signs that he explicitly finds too mystical and confusing, claims it took forever to learn, and he can't even use it as a three-fingered being, but he hopes Splinter will be impressed with him.

Second, he goes behind Splinter's back. If there's something he wants or needs and he thinks Splinter won't approve of it, he'll take it for himself. Such as going to the surface when he needs space or bringing his brothers to the surface when he thinks there's something important they need to do. This feels, to me, like access thievery, which is the concept (typically applied to disabled/neurodivergent folks) of taking what one needs (time, space, resources) without asking for permission or waiting to be offered it (because you likely won't be). Again in the collector's book, Raph exhibits an awareness of his faults and a self-compassionate recognition that he's just a teen. Splinter know this too but has shown that he can't always offer what Raph needs or won't give him it in some cases (forbids them from going to the surface). So Raph has developed a willingness to take what he needs for himself and sneak around Splinter to avoid the disapproval he fears.

All that aside, I think they're very similar in their fierce love and devotion to family and the ways it can drive them to anger, fear, hatred, and vengeance. There are traits Raph inherited from Splinter they bond over, too. They're both competitive. The Battle Nexus Tournament isn't their thing but we see them playing pokey in "Dragons Rising." I love the idea that they play a lot of games together! They have a similar sense of humility. They know they're skilled but they're more likely hang back and play support while their other family members take the spotlight than boast. Unless it's really personal, then they'll take over, like how Splinter's quest for vengeance guides them in Exodus and Raph's desire to help Casey leads the brothers to sneak out with him in "Meet Casey Jones." I think, they have a similar sense of humor, too. Raph has this silly line in the collector's book about Splinter being proud he used his head, that is, like a battering ram, and you cannot tell me Splinter wouldn't chuckle at that.

[hiraethwrote]

It is CANON geto has NO tattoos and NO piercings and he NEVER will. It’s SHOWN in the manga and anime.

OMG NOOO WHAT WILL I DO NOW 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭