#queue up the press

[jurassiccraft]

So… 8 years, huh?

[front-facing-pokemon]

[spotaus]

Thinking about Orchid and her connection to my take on Gender (because this was meant to be about her and the Crew but it just devolved into a character analysis kinda??? More trauma-dumping maybe???) This is very much an oc/personal rant so feel free to ignore it 🫡

So, Orchid started off as a character I didn't really think much of (hear me out this is going to be relevant) because I wanted to add a 'girl' character but didn't know what to *do* with her, y'know? She was always going to be the strongest one there, she had the odds stacked in her favor with her parents. She was always going to be the gloomy side-character to match Reset's energy. But I think she's gone through every stage of Generic Woman I could possibly find.

At first she was angry and abrasive (think Fell!Sans) where every other word was a curse and she was likely to throw the first punch then laugh as she kicks her enemy while they're down. This was when Reset was a cartoonishly self-centered villain whose goal was simply to prove others wrong. Then Orchid became a sort of sisterly figure. This was short-lived, but she was the one comforting people who Reset would torment, but would ultimately follow his orders, because at this point he was actually a danger and sadistic. And then there was the phase where the story mellowed out and she became the token Goth Girl who, yes she was strong, but was heavy on the 'whatever' energy. Then there was her Era of deep self-loathing and anxiety about her worth that held her back and made her a much more timid and meek character who would only lash out on occasion.

Now, Orchid is the best of those iterations I've written yet. She's calm, level-headed, and a natural leader. Her father raised those traits into her. But she's very reactive, and can be silly, and when she's comfortable it's likely that air of importance transforms into something more comfortable and familiar. She laughs loudly and grins wide, she likes loud video-games but loves to read in the quiet. She's extremely disciplined, and normally no one can get through her tough exterior besides her best friend, Reset. She does what she does for her own enjoyment, sure, but she's thought of every angle and makes her choice to help Reset and control the others with her whole chest. She still worries she won't live up to her invisible expectations, and that and her loyalty are her two driving forces.

I know that Orchid is important to me because she's the longest-running female oc I've had. I have a rough relationship with womanhood/girlhood and I know looking back that Orchid recieved every ounce of my distaste for being a woman that I could shovel into her. That never made her less of a character, she was actually always one of my favorites, and rarely was she a 'punching bag oc'. I just... projected onto her a lot. And she's a good sign of how I've learned who I am. I've decided that my own femininity is something I could live without. I'd rather not associate myself with it, and I'd like to leave it in my past, focusing on a future where I'm not tied down with any gender roles or expectations. That won't happen, but I've come to terms with it myself. Orchid though? I figured out through her that I don't have to hate women characters. My own distaste for my circumstances doesn't mean I have to push it onto my characters (on God I've never expressed anything rude to actual people, that'd be rude as hell and uncalled for, but I have a bad habit of disliking fictional women in media). So, Orchid is a well-roubded character finally. She has motivations abd goals and a *lot* more depth than I ever expected her to. She's happy with being a woman, she's content. She's not treated differently for it in unfair ways by those she cares about, so she doesn't mind it. She likes to wear pretty outfits and lets Reset add bows to her ribbons. She doesn't let being a woman hold her back in the slightest.

So, yeah. Orchid is one of my babies. If I ever leave this Fandom behind for good, she's one that's coming with (Ichor, Orchid, and Pretender all have human designs I can use elsewhere lol-) but in the meantime I'll just rotate her around in my brain for a while longer.

If I'm right, she's been with me for nearly 5-6 years and I went through a *lot* with her as an outlet. So, she's kinda just like an old stuffed animal. A lil ripped, matted fur, maybe a stain or two, but there's a story there and that makes it important beyond belief.

[aeolianblues]

the real fiction in a lot of band AU fics is the amount of time bands seem to have on the evening of a show!

[silvertsundere]

It tastes twice as good when you eat on someone else's money | セレビィ量産型 ※Permission to upload was granted by the artist. Make sure to like/retweet the original work!

[lostlegendaerie]

Let the birds out to play in the yard while I did chores yesterday and Funfetti turned into a Whole New Class Of Animal

[bunnyb34r]

I hate having to navigate phone menu things when you call a doctors office or something like fuck if I know what dept I need?? YOU told me to call you! 😩

Drs was like heyyyy your insurance is coming up inactive... call us? And upload the pics while you're at it

👉👈

Like bite me asshole, my insurance was put in correctly when I went to see the one dr in your office, it's not my fault that when I had to go back a week later your system swapped back to my old insurance. Which I corrected by the way. 😒

[papa-evershed]

[serendipitous-mage]

why do fire alarm batteries

ONLY

ever need replacing when you are dead fucking asleep

did i enrage god? does she hate me now as i too hate this creation of ours? when will she replace MY batteries

[empquipress]

hey so i finally made a blog to consolidate all of my art from my far too numerous sideblogs. this is that blog. prepare for a lot of reblogs of my art from misc. blogs.

[exhaustedwerewolf]

fourth in the queue on tbe phone to the gp get in ‼️

[curejiraiya]

ask me about my Hiro Hayami hyper fixation

[tatteredxsails]

I cleared my inbox!

[hexfloog]

Untitled (2017) - Ink

Part of a group of color studies for my undergrad thesis.

[axonomi]

Absolutely love reading the tags/replies of anyone who reblogs my art here! ❤😁

I don't really know how to reply to tags on tumblr, JUST KNOW I APPRECIATE YOU

[talimagpiesfictrove]

Not me waking up in the middle of the night and my illness-addled brain being like "MDZS BOTW au with LWJ as Link and WWX as Zelda"