#queue / reality is a bitter taste but fantasy can be so deceiving

[evanave]

Oh, that explained why he still felt so tired. He usually wasn't awake before noon, given his work shift usually starting at 6 pm. However, he could guess what possibly had disturbed his sleep. "Ah, okay." The blond wiped at his eyes before ruffling through his blond hair.

"Yeah, I am," he assured, although he wasn't totally certain about it.

"still early yet, barely daybreak," Elend answered. he himself had only been awake for a small amount of time, careful to stay quiet enough as to not disturb the other.

"you okay?"

[evanave]

"I know..." That was precisley the reason his brain had began to overthink. After all their whole involvement had been based on Evan's desperate need to get over Eric, to overwrite any traces left on him for good. His intoxicated mind hadn't much problem with it to use the other like that at first, but ever since Evan had began to drink less often, was more present when he spent time with Nate and genuinely appreciated the male for being the shoulder he could lean on. The blond was worried he mistook the gratefulness for love as what he was feeling for Nate differed from what he had been feeling for Eric.

Almost two years now since their breakup and he still couldn't stop comparing. He felt guilty about that too. Nate was his own person, had nothing similar to the hybrid. Possibly why he wanted to do right by him. Didn't want to headlessly jump into anything. Wanted to be certain, much like Nate had told him to be before he ever said those three words. But in that moment the words had come of his lips, it had felt right. So why was he doubting himself like that?

He cared about Nate. More than he ever thought he would, more than he thought he could. Maybe this wasn't something that was going to work out, but he was allowed to be happy for a little, no?

"I meant it. In that moment and...I don't want to take it back."

so… about what happened back there. + it sort of… slipped out. / to nate (seperation au, obvisouly)

I ACCIDENTALLY TOLD YOU I LOVED YOU AND NOW WE’RE FINALLY TALKING ABOUT IT” PROMPTS

a hand lifts to scratch at his head. he wasn't here to push evan. knew when they got involved that the other was still heavily hung up on his ex but now they are here and nate obviously feels something more than just a hookup situation with him. he just treaded carefully with it. "so you didn't mean it?" he asks lightly, not angry or accusing, just trying to assess where the other's head was at. "i told you before, evan, you don't need to say it to me cause you feel like you need to tell me. i just want you to actually feel it if it ever happens."

[evanave]

"I don't." So much he knew. If anything the sun burnt his skin and he rather didn't want to go up in flames. Reason why he spent daytime inside and only dared to step outside after sunset. "I mean, I can be." Although the two were rivals, if he remembered correctly, he still liked the idea, after all Dylan seemed like a cool guy. "But try not to imprint on my sperm."

❝ i don’t know, my only knowledge of vampires is twilight, and i’m pretty sure you don’t sparkle. ❞ or maybe he did. it wasn’t like he spent time with him in the sun. ❝ wait, does this make you the edward to my jacob? because i’m still trying to figure out the whole werewolf thing, and i only turn on a full moon. ❞