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GUESS WHO'S BACK!

That's right! It's me, Fan!!! And as many of you may be wondering, where have I been!? Well, my absence may or may not have been caused by dying due to bad decision-making, but the important thing is that I'm back to greet all my loyal fans!! Thank goodness for MePhone4's MeLife- am I right, folks?

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[drkmgs]

Muse

Jenna Ortega x Fem! Reader

Warning: angst, break-up, exes working with each other

Story type: One shot

According to the poll, I made 50.5% of 311 voters want this one. I don't know. Should I have posted a little summary? hehe. The end was so hard to write. I hope it came out fine...

You released a heavy sigh as you looked around your blackroom. She was everywhere. There is it again, the certain squeeze in your chest. You swallowed the clump in your throat.

She was your muse.

Sadly, that has changed now.

At first, she was a stranger, then an acquaintance, turned into a friend, that developed to lovers, and now back to a stranger again. Stranger is a strong word because you don't work with strangers. What do you call two exes that sometimes work together?

You should have listened to your friends – never mingle with someone who is famous.

It will only destroy you, and it did.

Well, not you completely, but mostly your heart and it shows – in your writings, pictures, songs you listen to, and hell even in your outfits. She drastically changed you. No, scratch that. It wasn't her who changed you. It was the pain, anger, and heartache. Where do these feelings come from? Is it from the unanswered questions, like why did she leave me? Probably.

How do people cope with heartbreaks without knowing the reason as to why the person you love the most left you? This breakup did something to you. It brought a lot of people back into your life and opened up opportunities. Next month, you'll be showing chasing some of your work at the Met Gala. The main reason why you're in the middle of developing some of your films.

After your break up with Jenna, you threw yourself onto work. Most of the pieces you have sold, were painful and hurtful, but these ones that you're developing are quite the opposite. These pictures were taken before the pain, where everything was happy and in love. You weren't even halfway developing all the roll films you have, and yet your blackroom is already filled with her.

Smiling, dancing, singing, baking, walking, and even sleeping. She was certainly your muse. There is one picture that stands out, and it is your favorite. She was in a grass field with daisies. Her smiling face wasn't towards the camera but to you. It shows how happy she was with you in that moment. You wonder what changed? What changed that made her run away from you?

Your thoughts were interrupted when your phone vibrated beside you. You immediately answered and squeezed it between your ear and shoulder, both of your hands were busy hanging the developed film.

"Y/N Callaway speaking." You hear hectic shoutings in the background and commands from the person who rang you.

"Darling, Callaway! It's Gladys! I know you're busy with your work for the Met Gala, but is there a chance that you could do me a favor?" You can hear that she's biting her nails as her voice wasn't as confident as it always has been.

"Depends on what favor, Glads." You have known this woman since you started your photography career, and she has been setting you up with clients, but now that you have bigger projects, she would only set you up if it was necessary.

"I need you for a shoot. In like 30 min. The one I hired got into an accident and we need a photographer asap." You look at your watch. The pieces you want to use for the Met were already drying, but new ones wouldn't hurt.

"Okay. Send me the address." You ended the call, stood up from the stool, got your leather jacket from the hook, and stepped out of your blackroom. When you got there, everyone was already waiting, and Gladys was frantically pacing back and fort.

"Oh may god! Darling! You're an angel sent from above!" She greeted you as she spotted you when she faced towards you. "I tried to come as fast as I could." You gently placed your equipment on the ground and greeted her back.

"That's okay! I'm so glad you are here! So, our model just got her make-up done, and she already has her outfit on. We need a picture of her walking here, somewhere she's sitting and then one with a car. The car is that one. You can meet our model, she is in that van." She pointed at the blacked parked mini van, not far where you were standing. You nodded at her, and she walked away to do some phone calls.

You knocked on the van door and stepped back a bit, gaze on the ground. "Oh-Hi, Y/N." A familiar voice rang through your ear, which made you snap your head up. "Enrique. Nice to see you again." You gave him a genuine smile. Your gaze shifted to the woman behind him. You saw her shock face, but it immediately changed into a stoic expression.

"Miss Ortega. Congratulations to Wednesday. It turned out great." After the break up, you started calling her by her last name. You thought, a professional approach would be better than people asking how you two got into the first-name basis. The relationship you two had was only known by close friends and family, obviously Enrique counted as a close friend.

"You watched Wednesday?" There was a hint of curiosity in her voice, but her face stayed uninterested. "Yeah, I watched it with my daughter." You smiled lightly. "Sorry, did you say daughter?" Her uninterested face turned into a furrowed eyebrows.

"Goddaughter." You don't know why you had the urge to correct yourself, but when she unforrowed her eyebrows, it made you exhale. You were used to people knowing that Penelope – your Goddaughter – you referring to her as your daughter.

Aside from diving into work while healing yourself, you spent mostly your time at your best friends's house, and when they announced they're adopting, you were over the moon. They didn't just help you get back on your feet but also gave you a different reason to be happy, and that's being a Godparent to Penelope.

There is a hint of confusion and anger within you as to why she reacted like that? She left you. You mean nothing to her. So, why did she look so relieved when you corrected yourself? You shook your head to get out of that state of mind.

"I think we should get this shooting started." You didn't wait for her to reply. You just walked away and got your equipment ready. While you're busy with your stuff, there's a pair of eyes watching you. Never taking them away from you.

"Take a picture. It will last longer." Enrique chimed behind the woman. "I don't understand you. You keep saying you don't love her anymore and that you moved on, but here you are having heart eyes." Enrique made a hand gesture indicating the situation he just saw.

"I don't have heart eyes." She scoffed and rollled her eyes and went back, scrolling through her phone. "Girl. Don't. I know what I saw, and I believe in what I saw. You are still in love with her." Enrique sassied. "Okay, so what if I still love her?! It doesn't matter! Let's say she still loves me. Why? Why would she be? All I did was leave and break her heart." From a far, it looks like Jenna is about to have a mental breakdown.

Sure, she has seen you a couple of times after the breakup, but right now, something is different. The shine in your eyes talking about your goddaughter–is the way you looked at her in the past. Full of adoration and love. Jenna wanted to get lost in those eyes, but it changed as soon as you laid your eyes on hers.

From where you were standing, you could see how frustrated she was and her eyes. You know it's screaming sadness and regrets, but also pain and anger. Anger not towards you, but to herself. She tried so hard to stop the tears. Seeing her like that, something heavy pulls down on your chest. Enrique tried to consult her, but she refused and excused herself.

You watch her walk away the set and turn to look at Enrique. He shrugged and signed you to follow her. You excused yourself from the other staff saying you are going to the powder room, but you actually followed Jenna. Around the corner, you see her, phasing back and forth, shaking her hands–trying to calm down.

You couldn't keep watching, so as soon as Jenna turned around, you engulfed her into a hug. She didn't push you away. She inhaled and relaxed into you, grabbing onto your jacket. "I'm sorry." She mumbled through her sobbing. You didn't say anything. You just stood there patting her back. When she calmed down, she stepped back and wiped her tears. You were about to leave when she stopped you.

"I mean it. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for leaving. I'm sorry for not telling you about how I feel and what was bothering me. Please forgive." Jenna's voice cracked at the end. You shook your head. "I don't know what to say to you, Jenna. I thought when this moment came, I was ready to face any of your reasons, but I am not. What you did is still so fresh in my memory as if it happened yesterday, but I know I still have the heart to forgive you." You say trying to get out of her grip. "Then let me make it up to you. I promise I'll be better. I'll fix everything." She desperately says. "Jenna. Don't make promises you can't fulfill, and if you break a glass and try to fix it, it will never be the same before you broke it." After hearing that, Jenna finally loosened her grip on you.

"I'll head back to the set. I'll tell them you'll need a minute." You excused yourself. This time around, Jenna watched you leave, and she'll never know when you'll be back in her arms.

[acourtofthought]

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“So I was thinking on Lucien’s buildup and how it will eventually relate to Elucien, when I noticed something. Now I borrowed the books from a friend and wasn’t able to reread or quote much, but I remember noticing how Feyre is constantly hinting as Lucien’s inferiority. Like, not in a bad way, but when she talks about Lucien winnowing in ACOMAF she says “Lucien couldn’t winnow as far as Tamlin or Rhys, but he was fast” or something along those lines. But she’s saying he’s not as powerful as these other High Lords. And later on in ACOWAR she was totally planning to leave Lucien behind despite knowing he was desperate to meet his mate and she should have been able to sympathize, since she was missing her own mate quite strongly. My slight issue with Feyre and Lucien’s friendship aside, Feyre doesn’t see Lucien as very powerful until he’s able to break free of his chains, and even that is kind of dismissed as a freak accident. But to me this draws a parallel of how she also sees Elain. Elain was always portrayed as weaker compared to Feyre and Nesta. And then she’s Made by the Cauldron and comes out a powerful Seer. Interestingly enough, her mate, her soul bonded equal, discovers or is unknowingly able to tap into a wealth of spell breaking powers that break through Hybern’s chains and it turns out his daddy is actually very powerful, knowledgeable, charismatic Helion and he’s a High Lord’s heir. Now again sadly I don’t have the books at hand right now but hadn’t Lucien compared his power to his brothers (or at least Eris) before? And been found lacking? Do I need to point out that with most of his potential somehow locked away his power was still plentiful enough it was clear he was a powerful High Lord’s son (just, you know, not that one). And we have already seen hints of Elain being stronger and more powerful than people give her credit, I mean, stabbing the King of Hybern, talking back to Nesta, being willing to scry for the Dead Trove, need I go on? I hope in Elucien’s book we’ll be able to see their true potential bloom, and the IC’s reactions to the polite pair’s scary powers will be fun 😂”

My response to the above (for some reason it didn’t give me the option of “Answering” this, only “editing”.  I didn’t change anything from your original submission though, I’m just adding here at the bottom.

For only having read through the series on borrowed books, I’m really impressed!  I don’t think I picked up on anything my first or second reads, I was just sitting there thinking that SJM told me all I needed to know not realizing she was putting clues throughout. 

I know Lucien mentioned that he wasn’t particularly wanted or needed in Autumn and no one paid much attention to him which gave him the opportunity to train as long as he liked.  But that even with that, no one worried he’d bother killing his way up the long list of heirs.  And I know he previously acknowledged that Tamlin’s powers were much greater than anything he could do (since he’s still in the dark as to being Helion’s heir and doesn’t seem to realize it would be possible for him to display the markers of being a High Lord).  

But yeah, there are many examples of Feyre and the others thinking Lucien could never measure up to the IC.  That he may have trained but the IC would wipe Lucien off the face of the earth in a single blow.  She seems surprised that he doesn’t back down from Rhys or the Illyrians staring him down.  Questions whether he’d sell them out.  Az thinking he’s not good enough.  Nesta having problems with him for awhile. 

And the exact same thing can be said of Elain’s character.  Anytime she does anything, people are shocked.  She helped save Briar, helped save Az, saved Nesta and Cassian by stabbing the King yet they still think she needs protected and handled with kid gloves.  

I think it’s pretty purposeful on SJMs part though.  That the entire narrative surrounding Lucien and Elain is the people around them doubt them as capable, that they’ll always be secondary to the “real” warriors.  I think that makes them perfectly suited as Mates because it’s a struggle they can both understand.  And just because they aren’t as outspoken or fighters in the traditional sense doesn’t mean they can’t play a role that’s just as important to anything the IC has done and doesn’t mean they aren’t just as powerful.  

[locustheologicus]

Read Pope Francis’ response to the dubia presented to him by 5 cardinals

The issue presented here is with regards to five fairly traditional (in some case, notoriously so) Cardinals over question that they feel Pope Francis’ papacy is leaving unclear or possibly changing. The questions regarding openess to the issue of homosexuality, marriage, priestly celibacy and women’s role in the Church.

The unfortunate truth is that the way these questions are offered and their expected response is based on the traditional fallacy of the false dilemma. They are carefully crafted questions loaded with terms that if you answer with either yes or no will lead to a suggestion that his policies go again may the traditional policy of the Church. My guess is that they are looking to catch him with these questions and identify him as a progressive pontiff who is breaking with tradition. They are attempting to create a pharisaic scandal. The type of legal maneuver that the Pharisees presented Christ in an attempt to get him, but instead Christ would respond with a parable.

But in reading Pope Francis' response he is not delivering parables (what I consider case studies) but he is clarifying and presenting the complexity of the Church's pastoral role and reminding them of the contribution of process theology which has been part of the Church's tradition (in one form or the other) and allowed the Church to adapt to social questions and issues from the beginning. Think of how the Church responded to St. Paul's concern regarding the gentiles. Our ability to engage culture and adapt to it can even be considered a mark of the Church, certainly the pastoral Church.

In responding to the questions, Pope Francis reminded his critics that the Church has recognized the two forms of divine revelation that have always been part of the Church's source for doctrinal interpretation.

the magisterium is not superior to the word of God, but it is also true that both the texts of Scripture and the testimonies of tradition need an interpretation that allows us to distinguish their perennial substance from cultural conditioning.

This obviously will not satisfy his detractors who are using the logical fallacy to pigeonhole the pontiff.

Our tradition had always recognized the two book of revelation. Scripture and nature. Nature expresses the divine intelligence and we Catholics are called to reflect on the wisdom of God in these pages and how they consistenly reflect the wisdom found in Sacred Scripture. Experience, tradition, and reason, these offer divine wisdom that allows us the interpret the Divine Law. As St. Augustine tells us:

Some people, in order to discover God, read books. But there is a great book: the very appearance of created things. Look above you! Look below you! Note it. Read it. God, whom you want to discover, never wrote that book with ink. Instead He set before your eyes the things that He had made. Can you ask for a louder voice than that? -St. Augustine, “City of God” Book XVI

Dialogue on issues are an important aspect of our doctrinal development. Sadly our Vatican I approach attempted to give an image of the Church that is doctrinally perfect and unbending and this is the lens that helps us understand the approach that some of our more traditional clergy seem to understand. They still see the tradition of the Church from the lens of Vatican I. Vatican II brought us back to the original format which is a Church that dialogues, explores and adapts with the changing social situation. That is why Pope Francis tells us that we are no ready for Vatican III, because we are still adjusting to the contributions of Vatican II.

We will get there, but in the meantime let us remember the life giving tradition that is very much part of our doctrinal development.

Of course, the main question that was posed to the Holy Father was about his opinion on same-sex marriage. You can read his response, but spoiler alert, he supports the Church's traditional sacramental position.

But, he does challenge his critics and the traditionalists out there that pastoral charity is the Christian teaching that they fail to recognize.

In dealing with people, however, we must not lose the pastoral charity that must permeate all our decisions and attitudes. The defense of objective truth is not the only expression of this charity, which is also made up of kindness, patience, understanding, tenderness, and encouragement. Therefore, we cannot become judges who only deny, reject, exclude.

Through the lens of pastoral charity, Pope Francis is open to the idea that blessings may be offered for same-sex unions. But he does explain this distinction (blessings versus sacrament). I recommend that everyone read his actual responses within the spirit of Christian charity.

[bewitchingfanfiction]

Persona 5 (2021/12/06)

“Huh…” Sophia let out a rather obvious sigh from Akira’s phone, gaining the boy’s attention away from the curry he was making in Leblanc.

Overtime, Akira had learned that Sophia often sighed whenever she wanted to talk, but she didn’t know how to start. It was her way of asking for somebody to take notice of her distress.

Akira’s told her before that she never has to do that, she can just ask him to talk to her, but she’s struggled to break the habit.

“Something on your mine, Sophia?” Akira questioned kindly, glancing down at his phone which rested on the counter by Morgana.

Sophia hummed a little, looking off to the side. “According to the web, Mother’s Day is right around the corner.”

“Oh yeah. That is coming up.” Morgana mused, looking at Akira. “Are you sending anything to your mom?”

Akira frowned in thought.

It’s not that Akira’s relationship with his parents was bad, it just wasn’t as warm and fuzzy as others. Things were still a bit rough between the two from back when she sent Akira to Shibuya in the first place, without any regard to whether he would be okay.

But times had changed. Akira and his mom spoke a bit more over the phone and were working to slowly rebuild their relationship.

Maybe getting her a gift wouldn’t be the worst idea in the world.

“I might send her something I cook.” Akira spoke finally. “Or some flowers.”

Morgana smiled. “That sounds nice. Anyways, what was your point, Sophia?”

Sophia sighed. “It’s just…Ichinose is coming back on that weekend. I wish I could get her something to celebrate.”

“Huh, well I guess Ichinose is your creator.” Morgana commented.

“Exactly. However, I fail to come up with something that can express how I feel towards Ichinose.” Sophia explained to them sadly.

Akira frowned. “Well, what does Ichinose like?”

“Actually, Ichinose is still struggling to fully figure out what she likes and dislikes. Part of her journey is learning about different things. She has no clear interests beyond technology.” Sophia told them.

Morgana shook his head. “Alright, forget about that. Why don’t you go traditional? Flowers or sweets?”

“I see. A cake would be nice I suppose, but it feels impersonal since I can’t make it myself.” Sophia looked down.

Akira hummed. “Why don’t we ask Ann what she plans to do?”

Sophia smiled. “Ah, getting new perspectives would be very beneficial. Calling Takamaki Ann.” She announced.

The phone rang, and soon enough Ann picked up on face time.

“Oh, hey Akira! What’s up?” She asked cheerfully.

Morgana pouted. “Lady Ann…I’m here too…”

Ann’s eyes widened. “Oh, sorry Morgana, I didn’t see you there! So, why’d you call?” She smiled.

“I’m trying to come up with something to get Ichinose for Mother’s Day, and was curious what you were getting your own mother.” Sophia explained.

Ann nodded. “Ahhh, that makes sense. Well, I’m getting my mom this really pretty necklace. She loves jewelry and it seemed perfect for her.” She explained.

“Huh, jewelry?” Sophia frowned. “Interesting. I’m not sure Ichinose has a preference when it comes to jewelry.” She admitted.

Ann giggled. “Well keep thinking Sophia, I’m sure you’ll come up with something awesome! Hey, why not ask Ryuji?”

“That’s a good idea.” Morgana smiled. “Thank you, Lady Ann. Talk to you later!”

“Bye guys, good luck Sophia!” Ann hung up.

Sophia hummed. “Ryuji may have an idea, let’s call him next.”

Akira nodded. “On it.” He dialed.

And soon enough, Ryuji answered. “Yo, Akira, how’s it hanging?”

This brought a smile to Akira’s face. “We’re trying to help Sophia pick something to give to Ichinose, any ideas?”

“Ooooh man, Mother’s Day is really soon!” Ryuji gasped in horror. “Shit shit shit!”

Morgana deadpanned. “You forgot.”

“Ahhh, as for ideas, I mean, man I don’t know, just- Give her something that shows how you feel!” Ryuji hung up.

Akira sighed. “Not very helpful…”

“No, it was.” Sophia insisted with a smile. “It’s comforting to know I’m not the only one fretting over the day. Perhaps I’m just overthinking it.”

“That’s possible.” Morgana nodded in agreement. “I can’t say much on the matter, since I’ve never had parents, but it’s essentially a day to celebrate the one taking care of you, isn’t it? So maybe just ask yourself…what does Ichinose mean to you?”

Sophia went quiet at this, deep in thought.

For a moment, Akira was worried she froze or something, but then she let out a gasp of excitement.

“I know just the thing!”

~~~

“Hello? Is anyone here?” Ichinose called as she entered Leblanc.

Sojiro smiled at her from behind the counter. “Ichinose, welcome. Let me get you a coffee, on the house.”

“Oh, thank you.” Ichinose nodded, sitting down. “Where’s Akira? He’s supposed to transfer Sophia over to my phone for the weekend.”

“I think he’s upstairs. Akira, Ichinose is here!” He called. “Here you go.” He slid the mug of coffee over to her.

Ichinose smiled softly. “How kind of you.” She took a sip. “It’s good.”

“Well, thank you, sadly Akira makes it better these days.” Sojiro chuckled rather fondly.

Akira came down the stairs with Morgana in tow and his phone in hand. “Ichinose.” He greeted.

“Ah, Akira.” Ichinose smiled. “It’s good to see you two again. Is um…Is Sophia there?” She noticed the blank screen.

“Yeah, but she wanted to make an entrance.” Akira chuckled. “It being Mother’s Day and all.”

“Huh?” Ichinose’s eyes widened.

The screen lit up, showing a transfer was beginning. Ichinose took out her phone, and watched as Sophia appeared on it, smiling brightly.

In her hands was a pretty bouquet of flowers, and a Mother’s Day banner was in the background.

Sophia gave an eye closed smiled.

“Happy Mother’s Day, mom!”

Ichinose let out a gasp, eyes wide in shock. “M-Mom?”

“I spent time trying to figure out what to give you, but no item could describe how I was feeling.” Sophia smiled. “And that’s when I realized what Mother’s Day is really about. It’s about my mom! Let this be the day I officially begin calling you that!” She explained cheerfully.

“I…I don’t know what to say…” Ichinose admitted softly, still a bit in shock. Tears began to well up in her eyes and slide down her cheeks, startling her. “What…What’s happening to me?”

Morgana smiled. “I believe those are happy tears.”

“Mom, please don’t cry.” Sophia told her.

Ichinose laughed wetly, wiping at her eyes. “F-Forgive me…I just…thank you, Sophia. This is…a wonderful gift.” She sniffed.

Akira, Sojiro and Morgana shared a grin as Sophia and Ichinose continued to talk. It was from that point on that Sophia referred to Ichinose as mom, and every time she did Ichinose’s eyes seemed to get a little misty.

And just like that, Mother’s Day became Ichinose’s favorite day.

[messers-moony]

One in the Same | R.B

Paring: Regulus Black X Wife!Reader

Summary: Reader notices Draco going through the same pain as her ex lover and desperately wants fix her faults.

“Mr.Malfoy, can you stay after class, please?” 

“‘Course, Professor Black.”

An average day in second year. Professor Black - Y/n - taught History of Magic after Professor Binns decided his time was up. Too long of teaching sleeping students who could care less about his lessons. However, once Y/n took over the position, kid's grades improved and people were no longer sleeping. She made things fun and inventive.

After class time was up, everyone filed out of the classroom aside from the blond Slytherin boy. Draco has always been on the good side of Professor Black. She was always extremely kind to him despite his rather sour attitude at times. But Draco was always hesitant to initiate a conversation to really speak his feelings to her. But this was the first time she had him stay after class. 

Y/n pulled out the chair in front of her desk as he sat down. His white-blond hair and gleaming blue eyes. His young face, not yet defined. Y/n with her h/c hair and curious glinted e/c eyes. 

“Draco, I want to start this by saying I don’t know what your home life is like.” Y/n began, “I went to Hogwarts with your parents, though, and he wasn’t always kind. Your mother was cordial with me, though.”

“If you don’t find me intruding, what’s your home life like?” 

“I- Um- It’s good.” Stammered Draco, “Father and Mother are always kind.”

Y/n’s eyes glinted with curiosity, “Lucius tolerated me.”

“Tolerated you?”

“I married one of his best friends.” Y/n chuckled, “He didn’t have a choice.”

Draco tilted his head, “Sirius?”

“Oh heavens no!” Y/n exclaimed, “Regulus. Sirius Black's brother.” 

“My- My dead cousin?” He queried. 

She nodded, “Yes. I married Regulus right after graduation. His parents weren’t thrilled, but he loved me so, here we are.”

“May I ask a question?”

“Shoot.”

“What were his parents like?”

“Horrible. The worst.” Y/n spat, “Sirius got the worst of it, but Regulus did occasionally too.”

“Walburga and Orion were awful. Using the crucio curse is not a great punishment for kids.” Draco’s eyes widened, “Both of them had scars from the curse. Sirius ran away at sixteen, and Regulus was used as their puppet. So used that at the age of eighteen, he felt like he had to prove himself. Which inevitably got him killed.”

“How did you deal with it?”

“Well, would you like my honest answer or my Professor answer?”

“Honest, please.”

“Between you and I, I still haven’t gotten over it.” Y/n shrugged, “I see something that reminds me of him, and I’m back at the start all over again. It takes time, and it’s taken plenty of time, but here I am, doing what I love. Teaching kids.”

“Anyways.” Y/n smiled, “You’re dismissed. I’m sorry I took up your time. However, if you ever feel the need to speak with me, let me know. Okay?”

“Yes, ma’am.”

Draco picked up his bag, rustling as he stood up. The blond boy was still digesting all the information he gained. He couldn’t believe that his cousins got the crucio curse for a punishment. He thought his parents were bad. Theirs was way worse. Draco was about to walk out of the classroom but turned last minute to look at his Professor. 

“Professor?” 

“Yes, Draco?”

“There’s-“ He swallowed, “There’s a Quidditch match this Saturday. Slytherin versus Ravenclaw. If you have the time, I’d like you to come.”

“Of course. I’ll be there.” Y/n smiled. 

He walked out of the room without a second stop. He felt better about himself now. He had someone who genuinely seemed to care about him. Draco didn’t trust her just yet, but he wouldn’t be opposed to speaking with her as he had just now in the future. Professor Black had always been open and honest with her students. Perhaps that’s why kids liked her so much. 

Saturday arrived quicker than Y/n would’ve hoped for one reason. She, herself, didn’t own any Slytherin-colored merchandise anymore. But there was a box in her quarters that she brought with her to Hogwarts every year. Regulus’s old clothes meaning all his scarfs, ties, button-ups, pants, hats, etc. Y/n couldn’t seem to get rid of them. Frankly, she didn’t want to get rid of them either. 

Carefully she pulled the cardboard box from the top of her closet. Taking a pair of scissors and breaking the tape seal she had put on it multiple years ago. Inside laid many pieces of the evergreen and silver cloth. Y/n’s hands gravitated to the green and silver scarf. Bringing it to her nose, she was shocked. It still smelt like him. Godric, this was going to be more challenging than she initially thought. 

Nonetheless, she put it around her neck along with her button-up and tight-fit pants. Y/n put on the green gloves, much too big for her but had fit Regulus perfectly, the tie, and the scarf. It brought her a sense of nostalgia. It made Y/n feel like she was a fifth-year going out with Regulus on a date to Hogsmeade. But she wasn’t fifteen or in fifth year. Y/n was a Professor and a full-grown adult. And Regulus was dead. 

The game was going well for Slytherin at the beginning. But like most Quidditch games, things can change rather quickly. Ravenclaw was studious. That was for sure. They played skillfully. Y/n sat in the Professor stands with the rest of her colleagues. She sat between McGonagall and Flitwick. But white-blond hair caught her attention in front of her. Lucius Malfoy was here spectating his son. 

McGonagall nudged her, “Where’d you get the Slytherin gear?”

“Regulus.”

“How have you been, dear?” McGonagall questioned softly, “It’s been a whirlwind, but nothing I can do will bring him back, so ‘m still here for him. It’s what he would’ve wanted.” Y/n replied. 

Minerva placed a hand on the girl's knee, “If you need anything, let me know.”

“‘Course, Professor.”

The game ended tragically. Slytherin had just tied the game when Cho Chang had caught sight of the snitch. Sadly, she was able to grasp it before Draco. Leaving Slytherin with two-hundred and thirty points while Ravenclaw ended with three-hundred and eighty points. Lucius seemed furious with this conclusion and stormed off the stands. Y/n knew something was up, so she followed him. 

She came up in a deserted hallway in Hogwarts. Draco stood - now changed into the usual Hogwarts robes - and his father stood before him. From the view she had, Draco’s back was to her, and his father was towering over the boy. 

Lucius had a cold and icy voice, “You are insufferable!”

“You had one job, Draco! One! Catch the damn snitch.” He scolded, “Perhaps you were too daft to figure that out?”

“‘M sorry, father. I didn’t mean to. Honest.” Draco was pleading and begging for mercy; it made Y/n’s heartache at the familiar words. 

“Mum, Dad, I seriously didn’t mean to!” Regulus had cried after breaking a vase, “Excuses, excuses, they won’t get you anywhere in life, boy!” Orion shouted. 

Tears collected in his silver eyes, “‘M sorry! ‘M so sorry!”

Walburga pointed her wand at him, “Crucio.”

Lucius scoffed, “Malfoy’s don’t cry, wipe those tears.”

“Should‘ve sent you to Durmstrang. You come to Hogwarts and forget everything I’ve ever taught you.”

“Father, I really didn’t mean to! She just got there faster than me.” Draco begged. 

Y/n saw it before Draco did. Lucius raised his palm slowly, and Draco flinched. Y/n saw the pale hand rise into the air, and without a second thought, she ran in front of the young boy, taking the blow that was meant for Lucius’ son. Draco heard the sound but never felt the impact. Carefully he opened his eyes to see Professor Black standing in front of him, a hand on her cheek. 

“How dare you get in the way!” Lucius yelled, “How dare I? How dare you for trying to leave a hand on your son!” Y/n retorted her bright cheek red from impact. 

Draco was appalled, “Draco is your son! Not a toy or a puppet, and I will not stand for this!”

“You don’t have to, half breed.” Lucius seethed, “As you said, he’s my son. Not yours.”

“I could give less fucks!” Y/n exclaimed, “Draco is my student. I will not be having you lay your hands on my students.”

Lucius scoffed, “Where’s your child, mm?”

“Right, you don’t have one.” Lucius answered, “Because your blood-traitor of a husband decided to get himself killed!”

“Regulus was not a blood-traitor for trying to right his wrongs!”

“Regulus and Sirius were no different from each other.”

“Leave them out of this!”

“Oh, so it’s still a soft spot for you?”

“So help me, I’ll-“

“Petrificus Totalus.” Draco stated while holding his wand, causing his father to fall to the ground, paralyzed. 

Y/n stared at the body in shock, “Draco.”

She didn’t even have time to reprimand him before he burst into tears. Y/n turned quickly and embraced him into a much-needed hug while the boy sobbed on her shoulder. Y/n’s hands went through Draco’s white-blond hair gently while he let every emotion out. She pulled away and wiped the tears on his cheeks. 

“You’re going to be okay, I promise.” Y/n informed, and Draco nodded, “Th- Thank you, Professor.”

Y/n smiled and sent him off to the Slytherin common room, leaving her to deal with Lucius. The Professor dragged him to Madam Pomfrey to deal with. Later that night, in her quarters, while brushing her teeth, she noticed the considerable bruise covering her left cheek: Blue and purple hues mixed to create a dark blue-violet looking color, almost grey. 

Sixth year was now here. Y/n’s fourth year of teaching at Hogwarts, and she couldn’t have asked for a better job. On September 1st, she went through the floo-network to arrive in her teacher's quarters. Looking at the time, it seemed that students were just about reaching onto the grounds when a knock sounded at her door. 

“Come in!”

A blond boy, much taller, defined face, and grey eyes had just walked into her teacher's quarters, “Good evening, Professor.”

“Good evening, Draco.” Y/n greeted smiling brightly, “What's on your mind, sweetheart?”

Draco didn’t know where to begin as water collected on his lower lash line, and gently he pulled up his left sleeve. Godric, it felt like deva Vu all over again. 

“Y- Y/n.” Regulus called through his tears, “What’s wrong, baby?” Y/n asked, sitting beside him on the four-poster bed. 

Regulus couldn’t help the tears that helplessly fell down his cheeks. His eyes were silver and blurred. Cheeks flushed and hair knotted. This past summer had been a shit show for him with Sirius running away and just everything that had gone on. Regulus had never felt this hopeless before. 

“I- I need your help.”

“Of course, anything, baby.”

He swallowed, “Just know that I’ll love you forever. Okay?”

“‘Course.”

Gently, he released a breath of air and pulled up his left sleeve. The combined snake and skull only meaning one thing. Regulus was now a death eater to the Dark Lord. Tears sprung in Y/n’s eyes but not because of disappointment but because of worry. She didn’t know what she would do if Regulus were to be gone. 

“They forced me!” Regulus pleaded, “Please, please don’t leave me.” 

Regulus was weeping, and Y/n took him into her arms, “Shh, shh, I’m not disappointed. I’m just worried about you.”

“I don’t wanna- I don’t wanna do this.” Regulus whimpered, “Please help me.”

“I’m gonna help you ‘m love. Don’t worry.” 

“What happened this summer?” Y/n asked as Draco pulled back down his sleeve.

“Auntie Bella.”

Draco was trying so hard to swallow his tears as his Professor was now face to face with him, “Draco.”

How was her voice so sweet and calm, almost like she had done this before, “It’s okay to show emotion. It’s being human. Let it go, darling.”

Just like that, the dam broke, and Draco was a sobbing mess again. How was it that Professor Black had always managed to feel more like home than his actual parents? What had his mum done for him while Bellatrix was giving him the mark? She had just stood there watching pain contort on his face. Y/n felt more like a mother to him, more like family to him. 

“Shh. Shh. You’re safe here, Draco.”

“They- They want me-“ He was choking on his words, and Y/n placed her hands on his shoulders, “Take deep breaths and then explain. Okay?”

He began to inhale and exhale air at a slow pace, “They want me to-“ Draco swallowed, “They want me to kill Dumbledore.”

“Okay.” Y/n stated, letting out a breath of air, “You and I will get through this.” 

“You- You promise?” 

“I promise.”

Perhaps it was instinct now for Draco to stay after in her classroom. After every lesson, Draco would visit her in her classroom just to be in her company or to talk. What was it about Y/n that drew these people close to her? Ones with broken souls who believed that couldn’t be helped. Was it her kindness? Perhaps it was her caring nature—too many variables to pinpoint. 

The moment Y/n heard crying in Moaning Myrtle's bathroom, she knew something was wrong. Approaching cautiously, she saw Harry Potter doing the same behind Draco, who stood facing the basin, dried tears on his cheeks. Everything happened too fast for Y/n to understand. But when Harry spoke an incantation that left Draco bleeding out on the floor, everything changed. 

She was jumping into action hastily, falling to her knees beside the blond-haired boy while Harry was almost in tears at his mistake. Y/n took her wand out and began muttering spells to heal the boy's chest. Harry was now in a heap on the floor, tears filling his glorious emerald eyes while the Professor took care of his harm. It took ten minutes before the bleeding stopped, and Y/n turned to face Harry. 

“Harry.” 

“‘M sorry. I- I didn’t know…”

“It’s okay. I’m just glad I was here.” Y/n replied, and Harry looked like a mess, “I need you to go to the Gryffindor tower and not speak of this to anyone, okay?”

He nodded and stood up sluggishly. Harry left the bathroom, leaving Y/n with an unconscious Draco. Sighing heavily, she picked up the boy and lugged him to the hospital wing, where he was taken care of. The following day an owl was pecking at Y/n’s window, leading her to wake up and take the note from the owl’s foot. 

“Draco won’t stop calling for you.”

Y/n freshened up, brushing her teeth, hair, and a change of clothes before making her way to the Hospital Wing. It was quite a ways away from. Her section of the school, but if Draco needed her, she needed to be there even if it was six o’clock in the morning. Her shoes made a light tap along with the wood as she walked and hesitantly opened the big door to the infirmary. 

“Oh, thank Merlin!” Madam Pomfrey said with her hand over her heart, “Draco has been asking for you, my dear.”

She gave a tiny smile as Pomfrey pointed to where Draco was lying. Carefully she stripped back some of the white curtain and pulled a chair beside his bed. Y/n took his hand in his. It was cold and pale. If she closed her eyes, she could imagine holding Regulus’ hand in the same exact way after a horrible Bludger accident. 

An hour later, Draco finally woke up, “Mornin’ sweetheart.”

“Professor, you- you came.”

She smiled, “You called for me, of course, I’d come.”

Draco pushed himself up into a sitting position, his grey eyes locked on her warm e/c ones, “Sorry, I just, didn’t expect you to come.”

“How are you feeling?” 

“I feel okay. Little sore but nothing I haven’t been through.” 

Y/n smiled sadly, “I knew a boy just like you, you know?”

“You did?” Draco asked, and she nodded, “I did.”

“Could you tell me about him?”

“Well, he was strong, smart, and closed off. His home life wasn’t too great either and was forced into being what his parents were too.” Draco looked eager for more, “Eventually, he realized that this wasn’t the life he wanted. He no longer cared about his parent's approval. He just wanted to be him, but by then, it was too late.”

“Too late?”

She nodded, “He was already in too late, so he did the only thing he thought of. Betraying his parents, his family. He was so caught up in what he was doing he didn’t realize what he was doing, and now, because of that, he’s no longer with us.”

“But you aren’t too late, Draco.” Y/n stressed, tightening her grip on his hand, “Let me save you. Let me help you.”

Tears ebbed at the corners of his eyes, “Please.”

Y/n took him in her arms and rubbed his back soothingly, “You aren’t alone. I’m here for you.”

It took months, but everything was over. It felt like time had stopped. Y/n could remember the terror standing outside of Hogwarts as the death eaters stood on the other side. Narcissa was calling for him - the boy who had no choice - and Draco was panicking as Lucius began calling his name. 

Draco swallowed and shook his head. 

It was the feeling of relief that brought Y/n solace. Draco took the step that Regulus took, and she would make sure he didn’t pay for it. The relief felt like a breath of fresh air now that the war was over. Y/n had stepped into the Great Hall panicking, hoping, praying that he was okay. At that moment she saw it. 

He was crouched in the corner. People were glaring at him all around. Draco saw. He saw the Weasleys crying over Fred. He saw Harry look empty, staring at Remus Lupin and Nymphadora. The way Lavender Brown’s parents sobbed over her dead body. He saw the way Dennis Creevey was yelling and screaming in pain at seeing his deceased older brother. Draco could remember how close they were. 

Nonetheless, he stood up and ran into her arms: his solace, home, and safe place. Draco couldn’t remember what it felt like to be held this tight. He dug his nose into her neck and just remembered to breathe. She pulled away to see a small smile playing on his lips. Y/n cupped his cheeks gently. 

“I’m so, so proud of you.” Y/n smiled, “I can't explain how proud I am of you. You did it.”

Draco smiled and leaned into her hands, “Thanks, mum.”

[bwbatta]

viper

Abstract: Derek doesn’t like it when other guys think they can take his girl.

Pairing: Derek Morgan x reader (fem)

Warnings: nonee

Word count: 1176

A/N: I’ve been rewatching CM so thought I’d write a lil something for my absolute sweetheart Derek!

The snort that escaped your lips was loud enough to make Emily chuckle beside you as you watched the trainwreck which was Viper’s class on how to get girls.

He was deluded, really, that could be the only explaination that would cover this because there couldn’t be someone this far up their own ass, right?!

“Is this guy for real?!” Emily muttered in disbelief

“Yep in a stupid hat nonetheless” you snickered as Derek sent you a grin.

“Because if you’re smarter and more interesting, then you will be a better predator. This is the jungle my friends and your prey wants to be caught.”

The four of you stood watching his little act listening to his words he was performing to the group sat before him.

“You hear that language? He’s training serial killers” Derek muttered

The four of you exchanged a look as the session finally wrapped up and the man, more commonly known as ‘Viper’ walked up before you.

Hotch explained that in the investigation they were looking for someone who may have taken his class but all the man could focus on Emily and you.

“If you could just give us your attendance lists, it might help us find him” Emily told him

Standing up straighter his mouth quirked with a slight smirk as he looked her up and down.

“No”

Emily blanched

“No?” She asked, an eyebrow raised

“My clients expect a certain amount of confidentiality, I won’t compromise that” he told you as his eyes flickered from your friend to you

“We can come back with a warrant” you told him

“Be my guest” he said

Eyes roamed over you from your feet to your face making you cringe inside.

“But the money I make doesn’t just go towards my fabulous lifestyle, it also keeps some very expensive lawyers on retainer”

With a roll of your eyes you asked him what club he went to last night, but instead of an answer, he just shot you a smirk,

Derek didn’t like the way he was staring at you, almost like he was undressing you with his eyes.

It had been about 6 months since the two of you had started seeing each other, and as it went, the two of you were more in love than ever.

Despite being friends for years beforehand, one drunken night of dancing and confessions had to led to the two of you fiercely making out in the bathroom.

It had been smooth sailing since then.

The man before you now, thinking he was getting to you, very suggestively pinned you with a smug look which didn’t sit right with your boyfriend at your side.

“It’s a legitimate question” Derek narrowed his eyes “you seem to know a lot about our investigation”

Viper didn’t like the look your boyfriend was shooting him so in a huff he turned to face him.

“Two things to know about me, I outwit alpha males like you for fun and sometimes for profit, now how often do you have to rely on your badge to score, baldy” he snapped before turning to you

“Second, I was at club aqua and I have a stack of tax reductable drink receipts to back up my story”

Hotch and Emily shared a look as they watched how the two of you both reacted to how Viper had snapped at the other.

“Now you might not want to believe my style works, and here in this harsh light you have the advantage... but meet me on my turf” he laughed as if imagining it and you felt a slight nausea settle in your stomach at his grin, “oh the things I could make you do”

You could tell Derek was silently brimming with anger as Viper stepped closer to you, causing Derek to step forward, almost in front of you.

The look your boyfriend gave the man made you shiver slightly, you had never seen him look so fiercely towards someone.

The step forward was enough for Viper to clock Derek was protective over you and enough for the man to question the relationship between the two of you.

Hotch seemed to know when to step in and held out a business card to the salesman.

“If you have any questions, give us a call”

With that, he and Emily turned around to leave, muttering to each other on the way out. You had a good idea you knew it was about the man in the stupid coat before you.

Viper’s eyes flicked between you and Derek as you both shot him harsh glares.

Taking it upon yourself to make the move to go, you placed a hand on your boyfriend’s arm as you turned to leave.

Shooting one last look at Viper, Derek turned, placing a gentle hand on the small of your back as you both walked out of the building,

“I don’t like him” your boyfriend practically growled out “and the way he was looking at you Y/N... I could’ve hit him there and then”

“But you didn’t” you grabbed his arm and pulled him round to face you “and it’s okay, there are always going to be slimy guys like him, the world sadly isn’t rid of them”

Derek didn’t say anything but you could still tell he was brimming with anger as he wrapped an arm around you, pulling you close whilst you walked out to join Hotch and Emily.

The two agents watched you both walk out, wary of how each of you would be with the other after such an interaction.

“Tell me were looking into that guy” you asked the two as you joined them causing Emily to chuckle

“Exactly what I said”

“We’ll get Garcia to dig into him, but for now we need to head back to the station” Hotch nodded to you before heading towards the car.

Emily followed behind him as you were about to, but Derek held fast and pulled you closer to him, wrapping his arms around you; one around your shoulder with his hand buried in your hair and the other around your waist, almost tattooing your hips onto his.

Reciprocating the action, your arms went around his waist as you dug your face into his chest.

“I don’t like the way he spoke to you” you muttered into his shirt

He laughed, anger lessening slightly as he pressed a kiss to your forehead.

“You don’t like the way he spoke to me?! That was nothing, baby,” he sighed into your hair “it was the way he thought he had a grasp over you, the way he talked to you”

“I know” you hugged him closer “I’m yours, you know it, besides do you ever think I’d go for a guy like him?! I’m offended”

The chuckle that escaped his mouth was enough for the two of you to break away from each other with smiles.

He cupped your face and pressed his forehead against your own.

“I love you”

“I know” you smiled “I love you too”

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Hey babies and dear Anons 👋🏼🤗. Welcome to a new ‘Q&A’ post. I finally answered all (37) asks in my inbox. Many of them are old and for this, I apologize because it took me a long time for the AMA's 2018 post as you know. But now here we are, and I hope you can forgive me for the delay. Enjoy 🙃.

And you believe them just like that? Where's the proof of that? My dear Anon, a piece of advice from my heart? Don't believe anything until you see it, and when you do see it, always personally check that information for authenticity. This also applies to the things that all those people, the fake insiders, out there say.

As for your question, I've already answered it a lot of times. And like the many previous times, I'll copy and paste for you the same answer I gave to an Anon some time ago: “And to answer the rest of your questions, dear, I’ll sum it all up by telling you that when they’re not together, or they’re on a break, they have a different way of acting than when they’re together. And I speak in general. It shows in the way they behave in general. Now it’s much harder to see since they’re no longer in the group and you could clearly see when it happened, and it’s also hard since the pandemic, but there are patterns. I’ve spent so much time analyzing them that they’re quite predictable in my eyes 🤣”.

I'll also copy this other part of the same answer to another Anon: “As Lauren herself tweeted, pay attention. That’s all I’m gonna say, dear. See this mine not giving you more details than these as my way to protect them.”

I'm sorry, dear Anon, it's not for you. Maybe you're new to my blog, but I hope this is the last time I have to copy the same answer because my answer won't change anyway.

You sent me this ask the same night as Colors was released, so I think you now know that the reason was because Laur's independent, dear Anon. It was up to her to advertise it.

Songs: Curious (penultimate ask) and Bad Kind of Butterflies. And posts: fourth question, first four questions, sixth question, and second, third, and fifth questions.

It’s okay. Don't worry, dear Anon 😄.

1) Her contract with Sony isn’t over, dear Anon. Even AWAL is owned by Sony Music Entertainment.

2) The rules haven't changed.

3) Nope, as you may have noticed (regarding yogurt majesty). They'll continue to alternate as they always have.

My answer would've been yes even before the good news, dear Anon.

Already done 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳

Who told you they don't travel or go to each other's house or other things like that, dear Anon? I agree on the difficulty of not being able to have any public interaction, but not on the rest. We only see 5/10% of their life, and of that 5/10%, we only see what they want to show us. And yes, that includes stunts and paparazzi pics.

I also agree when you say that it's hard to maintain a relationship in that way, and believe me, told by someone who's in a long-distance relationship and therefore worse than theirs, I can assure you that it is. But it's worth it, and it's up to the two people in the couple to stay strong until a better solution/situation 💪🏼.

We think the same way, dear Anon 😏. And yes, we all love Thunder content ���, but don't forget Eugene and Leo. I know Thunder is her favorite, but every time she leaves the newest comer (Eugene, not Tarzan who, sadly, was adopted more for PR than anything else) and the oldest (Leo) out, I feel sorry for them 🥺.

It will depend on how things are going to be in the future, dear Anon. If they can do everything in the right way, then yes. But the point is, we don't even know if they'll want to do it 🤷🏻‍♀️. I'll copy a piece of an old answer (penultimate question) I gave to an Anon about Mila's coming out to make you understand better what I mean and how I think about it:

“Not to mention that her coming out would confirm Camren even more, even if she doesn’t confirm it herself. It’s automatic. Let’s leave for a moment out us CS who know this and focus on the general public. After years and years of speculation from fans and the press, even the GP would automatically associate them. The fact in itself that both sides are queer, would automatically make the GP think, so to people who know little or nothing about them, that they were actually real and were just trying to hide it. And that, as fine as it might be for us, wouldn’t be fine for them.

If they don’t want to come out as a couple, if they don’t even want to admit that they were in the past, then that wouldn’t be fine for them at all. It would be even more difficult to hide and deny it. They would be harassed even more by fans, by the media, and not only their music would take a back seat, but even themselves. The couple, Camren, would be in the foreground. They would no longer be two individual persons, but one entity. Have you ever thought about it? Because as much as I myself want both of them free, as much as I myself want them free and free to be together, I know that if they want to have a career, then this won’t happen for SEVERAL years. Fifteen years could go by, and if they ever really admit it, they might not even be together by then.

I’m sorry to ruin you guys’ fantasies, but I’m just trying to be objective and realistic here. This is not a fanfiction. This is their life. Their careers are at stake here. And as much as I love them, I’d rather see Camila out of the closet, but not associated with Lauren and vice versa if it means dooming their careers. As much as I love them, I’d rather see them both free from their contracts, free to do what they love without pressure, and to know that they’re together and happy in PRIVATE”.

1) She could use it even before if she wanted to, dear Anon. The fact that she's independent now has absolutely nothing to do with it. And yeah, that excuse was bullshit, but the reason she stopped using it, both of them actually, is because everyone knew what their account names were. They signed up when they weren't famous yet, but even after that, it was a ‘private’ place (outside of being famous) for them in which to be themselves and express their feelings through re-blogs. It was no longer private by then and therefore they simply stopped using it.

2) Maybe she created another account that year, but I honestly doubt it because she just doesn't use it (both of them). And no, they don't check CS blogs. When they have to check something, if they still do it, they do it on Twitter, IG, and now that's the new trend, TikTok. Tumblr is basically non-existent for that purpose if not the last place on the list, and for years now.

3) I miss them too, but they won't do that because they know we’re waiting for nothing else.

Hello, dear Anon 👋🏼😄. Neither. They were very confused because that year more than ever, they had a very constant on-again, off-again. They were together in hops through time. Like, they broke up even just for a few days 😅. Not to mention they didn't communicate at all, and Tumblr, was one of their indirect ways of doing it.

Have a great day too, dear 😊.

Hi to you too, baby CS Anon 👋🏼. Welcome 😄. And yes, they are, dear.

👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼 all for you, dear Anon.

🎤📢🎶 Boy, nothing real can be threatened 🎶 True love breathes salvation back into me 🎶 With every tear came redemption 🎶 And my torturer became my remedy 🎶

I love Beyoncé 🤩. Hi to you, my dear 👋🏼😄. And yes, same because, among all the lyrics of the songs in Lemonade, they tweeted oh so coincidentally the same ones 🤣 *shaking my head*

Hi, dear Anon 👋🏼😄 Suppp to u, bud 🤜🏼🤛🏼. They were still together and here, bud, I already answered here (tenth question). [This is the Anon link for those who want to see]

Hi to you, dear Anon 👋🏼😄. Here, dear. I talked about it here, and here.

And, my dear? Even though Laur's independent now, it doesn't mean she has the freedom to do whatever she wants on every front. She’s not PRs-free, and she certainly doesn't have the freedom to say those relationships were fake. It would affect the people involved, the teams, the whole music industry as a big picture, and herself because she’d lose credibility on everything she said and continues to say (her narratives on everything including the songs). That would mean having to look for new justifications that would even involve Camila, and that, is something that absolutely cannot happen. Not to mention that she signed contracts involving NDAs which she is and will continue to be required to comply with.

Hi to you, dear Anon 👋🏼😄. The pandemic changed 80% of the plans, dear. It shouldn't have been like that. Unfortunately, we'll never have confirmation, and honestly, I don't even care because the important thing is that it's over 🥳.

Hello, dear Anon 👋🏼😄. I could be better 😅, but I hope you're well 😊.

For both questions: it depends on the time concerned, dear. They both did both, so, it really does depend. Like, for example, Mila was the one who broke up with Laur in mid-December 2016, and it was still Mila who started the reconciliation in February 2017.

Hey hey to you, dear Anon 👋🏼😄. English isn’t my first language either, dear, so don't worry 😊.

I agree with you that every now and then she checks what happens, but there are more the times when she doesn't.  It actually always happens when it's a good period for her mentally speaking, but she then regrets it because of all the hatred she receives for even the stupidest things. As for the “Don't Go Yet” Official Lyrics & Meaning with Genius, I genuinely think she was following the script and she messed up the narrative just because it's all bullshit and she doesn't always remember everything perfectly 🤣. It happened several times and this time, she even had to improvise a lot to try to fix it, but she only made things worse 🤭🤣. Poor baby 🙈. That's Camila being Camila 🤩 and I was honestly happy to see several glimpses of her old self and that she talked about Laur in an obviously subtle and implied way.

Hello to you too, dear Anon 👋🏼😄.

1) They're still planting the seeds; I highly doubt it's Mila.

2) Yep.

3) Because even though Laur's free on certain aspects of her career, Mila is not, and there are rules to follow. Plans to follow.

Don't we all love Mila the ‘stalker’? 🤣. No, but jokes aside. This will be put aside as soon as they can finally unarchive their hidden follow 🥳.

It's frustrating at times, yeah 🤷🏻‍♀️🤣.

👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼 they did were actually together, dear Anon. I'm really glad you noticed it, but out of curiosity, did you understand it only because they disappeared from the radars and for the latergrams, or even for something else that you don't wanna say to protect them as I do? I don't need to know what, I'm just curious to know if you did it or not.

As for the fans who don't understand, it's unfortunately because they're too blinded to see the truth through the narratives that are set. Many don't even care about the truth because it doesn't validate what they believe.

Their coming out as a couple I think is a hope for all of us 😍, but it's a little too early for that. It'll be a while before they can do this in a friendly way, so let alone as a couple.

Oh and, I agree on their privacy 🙃.

Hi to you, dear Anon 👋🏼😄.

1) If you mean with Shrunken, it's already over as you well know 🥳 / If you mean as a couple, then you have to wait for a veeery long time.

2) I don't think she's signed a new contract at all, dear.

3) 2022.

I think now you know because it's been a while since your ask and because Prelude came out and now you have the lyrics, dear Anon. But in any case, I'm telling you the same because one never knows. The ones you wrote, are incorrect lyrics. The right ones are these: “as you drag your hand to my waist down my back”. It makes more sense now, doesn't it? 🙃

Hi to you too, dear Anon 👋🏼😄. I could be better actually 😅. What about you? I hope you're well 🤗.

Super recap: the mystery girl was basically the one with whom Mila was together before taking Laur back by becoming official in April 2014. You can check out all the links I wrote in response to that other Anon before in the third ask to see also other answers I gave on the subject 🙃.

Don't thank me, dear, it's always a pleasure for me to help as I can 😊.

Hi to you too, dear Anon 👋🏼😄. The mystery girl didn't help her forget Lauren because as soon as Laur finally got her head out of her ass (🤣), Mila broke up with the mystery girl and took Lo back. Mila tried to move on when Laur still couldn't give her what she wanted (a relationship), but she didn't succeed 🤷🏻‍♀️. *I'm sorry for the girl, but 🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼* And yeah, in a way, the mystery girl appeared at just the right moment for Mila.

Hi to you too, dear Anon 👋🏼😄. I don't know if she expressly asked her to be her girlfriend, I mean, I wasn't there 🤣. I just know that the Like Friends Do situation was no longer okay for her, and as a result of that, as you said too, Lauren felt pressured at the idea. Our Lolo wasn't ready yet.

And that's okay. That's your opinion. You'd already explained it and I explained to you that it's not like that for me because for me, the song is based on the sex and the friendship with benefits they've had.

Hi to you again, dear Anon 👋🏼😄. He didn't have a big impact on her life afterwards, in her life in general, for sure, but he did have it when it happened. We know Laur is an empath, so if she said she was devastated after the breakup because she couldn't even eat and sleep, I really believe it. Especially because she was that young and it was her first breakup. I believe it even more because I know what it means to face the first real breakup at that young age.

But as I also said to the previous Anon, it's okay if you think differently. We're all different in the world and we perceive things in a different way. That’s also the beauty of it 😊. Not so good but I hope you’re doing well instead, dear, and have a nice day 🙃.

Hi to you too, dear Anon 👋🏼😄. And yes, you’re absolutely right. When I wrote the Prelude's answers, Prelude wasn't out yet and I'd only watched the live performance, so I didn't know all the lyrics perfectly yet. Now I think we all know them, but thank you very much for taking some of your time to point that out by sending me the ask, my dear 🤗.

Hi to you too, baby CS Anon 👋🏼😄. I will, dear. I will clarify everything once and for all by making a separate post for your ask exactly as I did with the AMA's one because people in our fandom and not, still believe that the leaked things were true. Exactly as with the AMA’s post, I ask you and all you babies who are reading this, to respect my decision on not wanting my stuff outside of Tumblr and if you really have the need to publish it elsewhere, then please ASK ME before doing so (including even just the proofs). Please and thanks in advance 🙏🏼. Having said that, you'll have it soon, dear 😉.

Hi to you too, dear Anon 👋🏼😄! Sorry, dear, I'm genuinely confused here 😅. Why would you want me to analyze a song she didn't write? It's like you're asking me to give you my interpretation of Diane's point of view/life. Unlike Mila who acted as a ghostwriter after giving Anyone to Justin, Laur didn't write a single word of Not Prepared For You unlike other previous collaborations she did. She just interpreted it. I mean, you said it yourself, and both Lo and Diane said it during that interview. So, I'm genuinely confused for real. Although it could fit the girls, and I'm sure it was that and the fact that THE Diane Warren wrote it the main reasons why Lo agreed to sing it, what would be the point of analyzing the song if it's not her words, dear?

HI to you too, dear Anon 👋🏼😄. Yeah, I noticed what you did there, dear, and thank you 😁. I really appreciate it 🤗. I prefer to think that those who don't greet before the question, do so because they're new to my blog and therefore don't know that I get a little disappointed when they don't. Besides being a matter of manners, it's also a matter of respect. People tend to ignore this and take it for granted, but you never know what the other person is going through behind the screen. You can't even know what their mood is at that moment, and if it's bad, I assure you that some asks at that moment tend to even seem demands. It’s kinda like those people who walk into a coffee shop or a restaurant and say what they want without even greeting the workers and sometimes even banging the money on the counter/table, you know what I mean? I hate those kinds of people 😒.

So, yeah, as I believe you know, I'm a person who always tries to treat everyone with respect and kindness, and that's why I expect the same in return. You can also notice the difference in my answers by comparing them to who greets and who doesn't because, again, it's a matter of mutual manners and respect. And if it happens that I haven't been that nice to someone, then it's because they weren't to me in the first place. People tend to, I don't know, perhaps forget that on the other side of the screen there's an actual human being like them, and they should wake up for a moment and be aware of it because this is something I've been seeing all over the internet for years. But anyway. Be nice, guys, and be aware of what you type and how you address others, please. Being nice costs you nothing, and something like that, can make a difference in someone’s life who's going through a bad period 🙏🏼.

Now about your questions, my dear, it's totally okay for me to answer 🙃. Even in the future, if you have any other personal questions, or you want advice, or you want to vent, or anything else, I'm here. I'm available to answer without any problem 😊.

1) Fluently, Italian of course because it's my mother tongue, and English. I also studied Spanish and French in high school. I understand almost everything when I listen to Spanish and I can also read it. Write it, I'd say meh, and speak it, well, let's say I can manage. When I went to Barcelona (twice) I did quite well, and with my love, I speak it every now and then (a few words or phrases). With French instead, much less in everything. I remember the basics, but besides those? Nah. The last time I was in France (because I've been there several times in different cities) it was a mix of French and English 🤭.

2) We text a lot every day. We send each other audios, videos, pics, and when we can, we video call each other and we spend hours and hours talking. Sometimes if we each have something to do, we do it anyway by staying on video call because it's as if we're together in the same room. With distance, communication is basically all we have, so that's what we do. We talk. About anything. From what we've done during the day and therefore everyday life, to more stupid things, deeper things, our fears, our feelings, our passions, etc., etc. Really about anything. There are no secrets between us.

It's really hard not to be able to see her, not gonna lie. There are days when it's really unbearable not to be able to have her with me, but I resist. We both do and stay strong. And, actually, we're counting the days because we'll see each other 😍. If everything goes well, we’ll see each other next year, and I can't fucking wait 🥳.

3) It will depend on their schedules, but I believe they'll be able to see each other.

4) Mila in 2022 for sure, while Laur, even though she said it will be in 2022, I never blindly trust the dates she says given her past with them 🤣. I hope it will be in 2022 for real as she said, otherwise it will be in 2023.

Not super healthy at the moment but okay. I'm glad you liked it, and thank you so much for the kind words 🙈; that was really very nice of you 🥺🥺🥺🥰🥰🥰. You're the awesome one 😉! And please, don't thank me because it's really a pleasure for me to help in any way I can 😊. I hope you're healthy and have a good day too, my dear Anon, and I love you too 😘. Oh and, about that babe? Run 🤣🤣🤣.

Hi to you too, dear Anon 👋🏼😄.

1) Yes, I do. I don't know why you have doubts about it, dear, but it's an injustice because, as a bisexual girl myself, we're always questioned about it. When a person says they're bisexual, then they're actually a selfish person, a liar, indecisive because they'll have to choose a side in the end, easy, and even greedy because they're attracted to both genders. They're not a ‘good dating material’ because they're ‘scared of commitment’, and they're just confused and looking for attention. If a guy says he's bi, then he's actually gay, and if a girl says she's bisexual, then either she's actually a lesbian but declares herself bi because she's not ready to admit it, or she's actually straight and hers is just a phase and that therefore will end up with a guy anyway. Like.. no. That's not how it works. My sexuality doesn't change based on who I'm with, I'm monogamous, not polygamous, and I don't choose who to be attracted to because unlike actions, it's not something you can control, and it's totally natural and normal.

There are people who are attracted both emotionally and sexually to both genders. There are those who are sexually bi but who are romantically straight, that is that they would sleep with both girls and guys because they're sexually attracted to both of them, but that would have a romantic relationship only with the opposite gender. There are those who are sexually pan but romantically gay, that is that they would sleep with someone no matter what gender they are as long as they're sexually attracted to them, but that would have a romantic relationship only with the same gender. There are billions of examples I could give you because sexuality is very fluid and can change over the course of life. I mean, it's such a wide spectrum 🤷🏻‍♀️. There are people who already know their sexuality right away. There are those who know it, but who have never acted on it because there hasn't yet been an opportunity and others perhaps out of fear. There are those confused who still don't know, etc., etc., and that's okay.

Lauren went through various stages in her life. From denial and internalized homophobia, to welcoming and acceptance of herself. Bisexuality, and then for some years now, a bit of confusion between bisexuality and pansexuality because she didn't know what the latter was before. And that's totally fine and that's normal because as I said before, sexuality in general is very fluid and can change over the course of life. There's no need to put all this pressure on having a defined label at all costs. So, dear Anon, back to your question, yes, I do. I truly believe that.

2) Nope. Luckily, not everything in her life is (🤣).

3) Yeeeep.

Yeah, we have confirmation of that, dear Anon. But no, don't put Mila in the middle of this because their careers and choices are different. Laur didn't need Mila's connections or money to create Attunement Records.

A small standard independent record label like hers, can easily be started with little, anywhere between $20.000 and $50.000. This type of label is like a micro-company with which she can manage the money flow and the rights administration. By creating it, she opened a company in her name and transferred the master rights to that record label, which is herself. The AWAL Recordings America, Inc. [AWAL: Artists Without A Label], is a music distribution company owned by Sony Music Entertainment, which offers indeed, distribution and other services to independent artists and labels. Thanks to signing with them, Laur also owns the publication. This means that she owns her masters and her publishing, that she has more profits on distribution and publishing, and that she can also handle the functions of the actual label since, I mean, it's hers. Physical and digital distribution are AWAL's duties, but everything else like for example the money investment, advertising, marketing, promotional, legal costs, video production, tour support, etc., belong to her. [If you're interested in understanding more of what I'm talking about and what the girls went through, I wrote a post on How the music world works]

I understand the fantasy of the two of them fighting those people and creating their own empire on a rainbow, but despite being a beautiful image, it's not the reality. By that, I mean that I don't believe and that I very much doubt that Mila will become independent. They both have different visions for their careers. Different plans and different goals. Not to mention that they both have income for different things and both have a lot of connections, which yes, very linked to one another because, at the end of the day, that's the music industry. But they're both businesswomen. They can help each other if they want, but they don't need it. I don't know if I explained myself with this.

And don't get me wrong, of course their plans are intertwined. Besides being connected forever by their past with the group, they are in the present as a couple, and they'll surely have plans for the future (like all couples). This, however, doesn't mean that they'll face the same path. Think of it as a couple of doctors. They both work in the same hospital, but they don't carry out the same tasks because they're both specialize in two different things, and at the end of the day, they return to the same house anyway to enjoy their life together.

So according to this person, Lauren's not creative, she doesn't go with the flow, she's not intuitive, she's not a nurturing person, she's not a healer, she doesn't listen, she’s not an open-minded and flexible person, she's not gentle, she's not wise, she's not patient, she's not a people pleaser, she's not empathetic, and she doesn't express her feelings, right? Yeah, no, sure, because, this little list I just gave you? Represents the traits of the divine feminine energy 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️.

As I think you've understood, I strongly disagree, dear Anon. And not because I think Laur is divine feminine energy, but because she's both! Whoever wrote that, must have forgotten (or doesn't know it at all) that we all have a mix of both, and that the divine masculine and feminine energies are connected to each other. One cannot exist without the other. The yin and the yang? Same thing. Nothing can be completely yin or completely yang. We also have many other opposites that coexist with each other, such as for example life and death, good and evil, summer and winter, heat and cold, day and night, light and darkness. The latter reminded me of one of my favorite quotes from Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix, Sirius Black: “The world isn't split into good people and Death Eaters. We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That's who we really are”. Sorry, but I had to 🤭.

If that’s why, it's the same thing we can find in the hemispheres of our brain:

Left side/hemisphere: the technical, more logical, and analytical one. For example, when we do a mathematical calculation, we read, write, or simply speak. This side's associated with verbal communication and reasoning, and in the divine energies, it's associated with the masculine one.

Right side/hemisphere: the visual, more artistic, and spiritual one. For example, when we draw, sing, dance, or anyway unleash creativity and artistic skills. This side's associated with emotional (and non-verbal) communications and emotionality, and in the divine energies, it’s associated with the feminine one.

What does that mean? That one part of the brain shuts down or goes on vacation while the other's working 🤣? No. They always work in sync. For instance. I can sing while listening to music (right hemisphere) and, at the same time, write, and think and reason (left hemisphere) about what I'm writing. You can dance (right hemisphere) and talk (left hemisphere) at the same time. Just as one day you can be undecided (feminine energy trait) about what to eat and let someone else decide, but at the same time, you're a bit controlling (masculine energy trait) with them because you want that what they've decided is being cooked in a certain way. Then the next day, you not only have it very clear (masculine energy trait) what you want, but you're also quite creative (feminine energy trait) in preparing something for the both of you.

So, as you've seen, the divine masculine and feminine energies are complementary. You may have more traits of one than the other or it may depend on your mood or the day you're having, but they're interconnected. And we all have them. You can even think of a scale and how the traits of the two divine energies are on the two pans of it. Sometimes the weight is more on one pan than on the other. And when the weight is completely unbalanced, therefore the divine energies are out of balance, people like Laur who are very spiritual, try to fix it even with external aids like healing crystals, meditation, and being in nature. Three types of alternative therapy. Doesn't that ring a bell?

Besides, “Lauren is the Divine Masculine confirmed”. Confirmed? Pfft, confirmed by whom? Confirmed by themselves who apparently don't even know the traits of the divine energies? Ah, okay then 🤷🏻‍♀️ *I'm sorry if I looked a little bit mean here, but I don't understand the point of talking just to talk without knowing. Plus, I'm very protective of the girls as I think is noticeable*

“She’s the runner, she’s the track star and that’s exactly why This Love was born.”

Aaand I disagree on this as well. Lauren was the runner. She was the runner at the beginning. When they were just fuckbuddies and she wasn't ready to accept herself yet. Camila was also the runner. They've both been during their relationship at different times and for different reasons. This Love was absolutely not born for that. It doesn't even talk about that. I'll copy two parts of my interpretation (last ask):

““In your opinion, what inspired it?”. Well, in my opinion, their toxic, co-dependent relationship. Many of their songs are about this, and This Love is no less. This Love talks about the instability that their relationship had and the repetition of their actions that led them more and more to fall into that toxicity. They were addicted to each other, and therefore couldn’t let each other go. In one way or another, their unhealthy way of acting led them to always be stuck in the same limbo (until they finally got out of it).” + “In addition to what I’ve already explained to you at the beginning and during my interpretation, I’d like to add that This Love is a manifestation of the frustration that Mila went through. A scream to say “enough, I can’t take it anymore”, and at the same time, the surrender on falling back into the same cycle because she couldn’t lose her. In a nutshell, with this, we witnessed the contrast, the struggle, and the contradiction of her own behavior.”

Yeah, I can, dear Anon. No problem 😄.

So. As I explained in a very old post from which I’ll copy and paste pieces, “Consequences was initially written by Emily Weisband, Amy Wadge, and Nicolle Galyon. Emily already knew both of them, while Amy and Nicolle met that same day during the session that took place in December 2016. The idea of Consequences was born because of what had happened to Emily the day before. It was her experience that brought the song to life.” As you can see in this video.

“Amy and Ed Sheeran had been friends for years and had already worked together in the past. It was indeed Ed who introduced Amy and Camila. After getting permission from Emily and Nicolle, Amy took the song to Camila (on January 5 or 6). Camila then, as she always did with EVERY SONG, rewrote part of the lyrics, by also working on it with Frank himself and Bart Schoudel, and on January 8, 2017, they finished recording it.” Mila herself explained everything briefly at 33:18 here. And this; the screenshot of the video she posted on the 8th:

Consequences was Mila's breaking point (it happened in the period before making the final decision to break up with Laur). That cycle and toxic relationship with Laur was hitting her too hard, and along with all the other things she was going through in that period (last months of 2016) [which I'll explain in the interpretation], Mila realized she couldn't take it anymore. All those consequences had a too powerful impact that even affected her mental and physical health.

In the musical timeline, Consequences comes before Let Me Know and Something’s Gotta Give. In Consequences, Mila realized she couldn't take it anymore. In Let Me Know, Laur, who was also tired of the cycle going on for years, asked Mila to let her know if she wanted to fix their problems and have a healthier relationship. And in Something’s Gotta Give (song not only centered on Lauren), Mila made the decision to leave everything behind; so let's say the answer to Let Me Know. Oh and, the effects of the Consequences lasted even after Something’s Gotta Give, therefore even after they broke up.

Let's move on to the interpretation now 🙃.

Verse 1:

“Dirty tissues, trust issues

Glasses on the sink, they didn't fix you”

The way I see it, Mila wasn't talking about herself in the first verse as everyone thought, but she was describing what she saw and felt. I'll use an example to explain. I want you to imagine a scenario. In this case, the same one that Expectations talks about because to me, they're actually the same song (Consequences & Expectations). In the sense that they're the different points of view of the girls based on the same situation.

Mila returned to their hotel room after being out well beyond the time she'd told Laur, who had been up in bed, all alone, waiting there all night for her. The first thing Mila saw upon entering, were the dirty tissues on the bedside table next to the bed (where Laur was) and the glasses on the sink in the bathroom. Why's that? Because I don't know if you've ever noticed this, but most hotels have bathrooms located near the entrance door (for a matter of separation of spaces and pipes which are all connected to each other in the hotel, and in cities affected by earthquakes, also for a matter of survival because it's the best place to hide), so from the entrance, you can see both the bathroom, either on the left or on the right (but usually on the left), and the bed (and the view).

The dirty tissues are obviously an indication of crying, and the glasses on the sink, of alcohol. Why alcohol? Because she said “they didn't fix you”, and she certainly wasn't talking about water. People drink in a fun situation like a party, in happy hours and brunches, lunches and dinners, sometimes just to relax after a long day, and sometimes, when they're going through a difficult time in their life. But alcohol doesn't help to forget. It doesn't make the pain go away. And it certainly doesn't solve life's problems. This is what Mila meant by fix. Drinking could be an escape and a distraction, but it couldn't fix Laur and their toxic, non-communicative situation.

The dirty tissues and the glasses on the sink were even behavioral elements of the trust issues that Laur had and that Mila added. Laur's trust issues were caused by several things: her emotional fatigue, her emotional distance, her anxiety, her depression, their communication problems, conflict dynamics (and not just those with Mila), hostile environments and people (sharks and fake people), and much more. All those years in which, as she also said in the 8th episode of her Attunements (dark diary), she felt nothing and everything at the same time.

Oh and, if that wasn't enough, Trust Issue is also the title of an unreleased song by Laur.

“Lonely pillows in a stranger's bed

Little voices in my head”

Mila continued to describe what was happening and what she was feeling.

“Lonely pillows” because Laur was alone in that big bed, and the second pillow wasn't occupied by her. “in a stranger's bed” because obviously by traveling, they were in hotels most of the time.

By “Little voices in my head” she was referring to the intrusive thoughts of her OCD. Have you ever noticed that when we read, when we write, and when we think, it's our own voice the one we hear in our head? Well, it's the same thing that happens with OCD, and Mila was listening to intrusive thoughts whispering to her, or talking to her, or even screaming to her in her mental voice just as it would happen to all of us with any other thought.

We know how strong her OCD was in the last months of 2016 (Sep to Dec 2016/early Jan 2017 to be more precise). Stress and emotional suffering are two reasons that trigger intrusive thoughts, and in that case, returning to that hotel room and seeing Laur in that way, caused her both stress and suffering which consequently triggered the intrusive thoughts.

But intrusive thoughts about what? On other of the many things that were causing her stress, anguish, and anxiety in that period:

“Secret keeping, stop the bleeding

Lost a little weight because I wasn't eating

All the souls that I can't listen to, to tell the truth”

“Secret keeping, stop the bleeding” and “All the souls that I can't listen to, to tell the truth” go together.

Secret keeping: her sexuality, their relationship, Laur's PR with Luggage, her eventual exit from the group, and all the different hidden truths that she can't tell yet.

stop the bleeding: bleeding has several metaphors, but for this case, we're interested in two. We have 1) feeling emotional pain, and we have 2) reveal/unveil. Both are fine because 1) stop the pain, and 2) reveal/unveil the truth, in this case, the hidden truths.

Imagine those hidden truths like a cut on your arm. A small open wound. The more time goes by and those truths remain hidden, the more the wound grows and bleeds. Everyone can see that bloodstain now because, even though it's covered by the clothes, the wound is too big and has stained the sleeve. Especially at that time, she needed to stop it. She needed to stop the pain and make sure she didn't show it. Hiding it as another hidden truth with a large band-aid so that the clothes wouldn’t stain and that blood wouldn’t be shown. That way, no one could see it but it was still down there anyway.

All the souls that I can't listen to: people who loved/love her, who wanted/want her free. Friends, family, and yes, even us fans. All the people she couldn't/can't listen to, to tell the truth: the connection with what I said before, that is, the different hidden truths that she still can't tell.

Lost a little weight because I wasn't eating: OCD, depression, and severe anxiety cause a loss of appetite or an increase in appetite because the body tries to help deal with the pressure. Mila's experienced both. In the past it was the loss of it, from 2018 instead, the increase of it. C: “I have this pattern of eating a lot when I’m anxious or uncomfortable. It’s a comfort thing for me. I’ll just kind of become unconscious and zombie-eat a lot, and then I’ll feel sick.”

Chorus:

“Loving you was young, and wild, and free

Loving you was cool, and hot, and sweet

Loving you was sunshine, safe and sound

A steady place to let down my defenses”

This describes the initial honeymoon phase perfectly. Wild, cool, hot, sweet, young because they really were, free, safe and sound, a steady place to let down my defenses. A beautiful list of things Laur made her feel. Plus the link with sunshine. If you've read my ‘Inauguration’ post some time ago, then you know Laur is the sun in their story.

“But loving you had consequences”

But loving her also had consequences. I'll elaborate on this more at the end of the song.

Oh and, here there is the reference that we also find in Must Be Love: “I guess everything has a consequence”.

Verse 2:

“Hesitation, awkward conversation

Running on low expectation”

If they weren't arguing, if they weren't ignoring each other, and if they weren't having sex, then they were trying to have a ‘normal’ conversation. But given their communication problems, which we know how big they were, there was that awkwardness and that hesitation in doing so. There was insecurity. Because in one way or another, they were afraid to even talk to each other. Afraid of saying something wrong when they did. Something that would've made their situation even worse, and that, plus other factors, automatically led to low expectations.

Oh and, by the way, say hi to the reference with that last lil word:

“Every siren that I was ignoring

I'm payin' for it”

The siren is a warning. She used that slightly different way of saying that she ignored those sirens, those alarms, those signs, out of love. Toxic love that brought consequences for which she had to pay for a long time (both of them did). The present continuous also lets us understand how she continued to pay for them even after it was over (at the time) between them.

  Then we have the chorus again, and to follow, the bridge where even here, as I explained in my This Love interpretation (last ask), she didn't use the no's as words to keep the rhythm, but as a way to express denial.

Different chorus:

“Loving you was dumb, dark, and cheap”

As in the original chorus, here too we have a list, but careful. She wasn't talking about how Laur the person made her feel, but how that toxic situation she was in with Laur made her feel.

“Loving you will still take shots at me”

As with the present continuous as before, even the still from here lets us understand how she continued to pay the consequences even after it was over (at the time).

“Found loving you was sunshine, but then it poured”

Because, again, the situation had changed. It was toxic. It was no longer the initial honeymoon phase. This was the end.

“And I lost so much more than my senses”

When you think about the senses, you think mostly about the 5 most important ones, right? But sight, hearing, smell, touch, and taste are not the only ones we have. We have the sense of thermoception with which we're able to perceive hot and cold temperatures. We have the sense of pressure with which we're able to perceive pressure on a specific area of the body. We have the one of proprioception with which we're able to perceive the movement of the limbs and of our body. We have the sense of balance. We have the sense of tension (muscles tension and contraction). We have the sense of pain. We have the sense of time. We have the one of itching, the one of hunger, the one of thirst, and I mean, you get it, right?

And what if we lose more than one or all of them? We'd be completely lost. But is this what Mila meant by I lost so much more than my senses? Yes and no. Let's focus on the meanings of losing senses now. We have: 1) fainting, 2) losing one's mind, 3) unable to be found or recovered, 4) unable to find one’s way or ascertain one’s whereabouts, 5) confused, bewildered, or helpless, 5) morally fallen, and 6) destroyed physically.

So yeah. Mila meant that she was completely lost, but it was also more than that, as you could see from the various meanings. Her anxiety, her depression, her OCD, the eventual exit from the group, the sharks, the toxicity of the relationship with Laur, all the secrets, the pressure, the subterfuges, and everything she was going through at that time in 2016, led her to a point of total bewilderment and break. And I lost so much more than my senses: she’d lost herself and her mental and physical health.

“’Cause loving you had consequences

+ Outro:

Yeah, loving you”

Consequences are the results or unpleasant outcomes of an action; of something being done. Despite this, however, the song isn't just about that. It doesn't just talk about the bad and the ugly. It doesn't just talk about the consequences. It also talks of the good and the beautiful that was before, and this, is an indication that there was no repentance or regret. The toxicity of their story at the time was part of those consequences that Mila suffered, for sure, but at the same time, she didn't feel regret about how things had gone. Mila herself said it in the Zach Sang Show interview:

Zach: “When you love so deep and you love so hard, whoever may be, a friend, or a relative, a significant other, there are consequences. There's baggage that comes along with that”.

Camila: “Mm-hmm *agreement*. But I love how in that song, there’s no regret in it”.

Zach: “Yes”.

Mila: “You know? It’s kind of just like acknowledging ‘yeah, now I’m dealing with the aftermath, but it’s not like I should’ve never—’. It was kind of like ‘this was so intense and crazy and now it sucks but, it was still- it was still worth it’”.

And that's it, dear Anon 😊. In life, most things aren't all good or all bad. It's up to us to decide whether the good ones outweigh the bad ones or vice versa, and for Mila, even though being with Laur had also brought bad consequences, the love and the rest of the good things have always prevailed.

As I said in my Always Love interpretation (penultimate ask): “Mila used to say “I know I’d do it again if I could” every time she introduced Never Be the Same in the beginning (mostly in 2017), and Laur here is basically saying that having hurt each other more than once, in a way and in quotes, ‘it was fine’. ‘It was fine’ because, despite the pain in everything they’ve been through, theirs was love with a capital L. Without that pain, they wouldn’t have learned from their mistakes, and they wouldn’t have grown into themselves by helping each other and eventually meeting halfway to make their relationship work better. Everything, EVERYTHING, was worth it”.

Have a nice day too, dear 🤗.

For my favorite Romance song along with This Love? Of course 😄. With pleasure, dear Anon 😊.

Let's start with clarifying for those who don't know when Shameless was made. It wasn't made in June after Señorita (not even Señorita was made in June if that's why). Shameless was made on May 15, 2019. The stupid narrative is just that, stupid, and full of holes. I think you guys have realized by now that you never have to trust it, especially if Shitto was the one spreading it since he was the main protagonist of that PR.

Let's move on to the facts:

Camila was with Matchbox from May 7 to 11, 2019, for the trip to Italy. From Los Angeles, California, to Venice, Italy, it takes 13/14 hours of flight, but it can also be 20/23 flight hours because it depends on how many stopovers there are. So she left on the 7th. The 8th:

and part of the 9th she was in Venice, and she went to Rome (from Venice to Rome it's only about an hour's flight) on the same day. She spent the whole day of the 10th in Rome, and the same evening or the next morning, she took the plane to Los Angeles by arriving on the 11th:

On May 13, 2019, was the last time they were photographed together (goodbye, Matryoshka 👋🏼):

On May 14, 2019, Mila was back in the studio, and that was the day she created Liar. When she finished Liar, and only 30 minutes before leaving the studio, she did the melody for the chorus of Shameless. The next day, which was May 15, 2019, she completed it. The date was further confirmed thanks to the behind of scenes of the song she posted on September 17, 2019, which showed that Mila was wearing the same clothes as the Insta-story posted on May 15:

One of the versions that Mila gave (you can see here min 0:55), was that Liar and Shameless were written on the same day just before the rehearsal of the Señorita music video, but she was lying through her teeth. You can tell from her body language. How she changed after saying left. “And I left”, she looked at the camera normally, “'cause I had to go to rehearsal”, she moved her gaze and raised her eyebrows; ergo, big lie. You can use the 0.25 playback speed to notice it even more. And as if that wasn't enough, we have the dates. The narrative says that Señorita was made fast in June and that the music video was shot even faster that same month, but that's absolutely not true. Rehearsals took place on May 21 and 22, 2019, and the video was shot on May 23 and 24, 2019. On the last day of shooting (the 24th), Camila even posted an Insta-story by showing Sara Bivens (Mila’s friend and choreographer) while dancing in the clothes that corresponded to the last day of the behind-the-scene shooting:

Moving on, on September 5, 2019, which is the same day Liar and Shameless came out, Mila did that Insta-live in which she explained that she wrote both songs a week before shooting the Señorita music video. Here (min 1:05), she wasn't lying. She asked Sinu for help initially because she didn't want to mess up. I mean, you can see the panic all over her face 🤣. Sinu went with the narrative version by saying “after rehearsal”. Mila: “Umm. They were written right before—” ; Sinu by trying to correct her: “Right after” ; Mila by messing up anyway: “Right after- Right before, umm. Like a week before we filmed the Señorita video”. 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣. The smile she made after telling the truth was priceless 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣.

As you've seen already before, Camila actually finished recording Shameless on May 15th, and a week later precisely, on May 22nd, it was the day the rehearsal for the Señorita video ended, and the shooting started the next day. So it was the truth that time. The lie wasn't on that date, but in saying they recorded Señorita in June for the narrative.

Before starting with my interpretation, I’d like to point something else out. The song was about Shallow for the narrative. They even put a guy from behind in the music video that was supposed to represent him. And what else did they do to confirm that even more? On the same day of the release, Shaky first posted the Insta-story of the song:

And then the pic below thanks to which obviously the shitmila shippers went to make the comparison with the music video:

Well, we know it's bullshit regardless, but the phrase ‘My kisses are history, they go back a long time’ confirms it even more. I mean, as I said before, the first bullshit Mila said was that she wrote Shameless before the rehearsal of the Señorita music video in June, but nothing had happened between them yet until July 4th, 2019, according to their own narrative! Soooo, what kisses that were history are we talking about exactly? 🤷🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🥱(🤭🤣). But anyway. This is not what I wanted to point out. That was just the obvious 🤣.

Camila wanted us to believe that the song was about her inner battle between, first hiding and denying her feelings, and then being cheeky and shameless about it. Still according to the narrative, this was supposed to be the ‘I want him, then I don't want him’ friendzone crap we've heard even up until recently, you know? But let's put aside Shrimp who doesn't have a shit to do with it, and let's think about the real muse behind the song. By still keeping in mind what I said at the beginning (Camila wanted us to believe that the song was about her inner battle between, first hiding and denying her feelings, and then being cheeky and shameless about it), the first verse, at least at first impact, suggests that Mila was talking to herself about her feelings for Laur at the beginning of their story. But with the second verse, I realized that it wasn't like that. I mean, it can be a way of interpreting the song. That Mila first talked about the past in the first verse and then about the present (that is the period on which the song is based: 2017) in the second verse as she did with Liar (although the order is more of a mix there), but with the hidden connections she created and the information on the facts, at least in my opinion, is not like that.

Let's start with the interpretation, but it’s gonna be slightly different from what I usually do, okay? Let's go 🙌🏼.

These are the two verses as we know them:

Verse 1:

“Don't speak, no, don't try

It's been a secret for the longest time

Don't run (oh), no, don't hide

Been running from it for the longest time”

Verse 2:

“So we're there, now it's real

Now that you have me, do you want me still?

My kisses are history, they go back a long time, uh

And I'm tired of loving somebody that's not mine, no”

Now I'm gonna put them in a single sentence in a different way from the real order, and then I'm gonna give you the interpretation. I advise you to try to read without singing the words in your head because you might get confused otherwise 🤣: Don't speak, no, don't try. Don't run, no, don't hide. Been running from it for the longest time. It's been a secret for the longest time. So we're there, now it's real. Now that you have me, do you want me still? My kisses are history, they go back a long time. And I'm tired of loving somebody that's not mine.

“Don't speak, no, don't try”

Because this is the time to listen.

It was time for Laur to listen to her and not use distractions, facades (one of the things she talks about in In the Dark, reference to ‘So why can't you show me? Who are you in the dark?’), or excuses to avoid the subject, or run away (this is connected with the next two sentences).

“Don't run (oh), no, don't hide

Been running from it for the longest time”

Okay, very short timeline summary with just the things we need to know in this case. Mila broke up with Laur in mid-December 2016. She unexpectedly met her on February 6, 2017, and all of her feelings resurfaced. Bam, All These Years (interpretation here, last ask). She saw her again on February 12, 2017, at the Grammys' after-party, and bam, In the Dark (interpretation here, last ask).

This whole piece (Don't run (oh), no, don't hide. Been running from it for the longest time) is connected with “You’re runnin’, runnin’, runnin’, runnin’ (oh) - Runnin’, runnin’ away from it (away)” by In the Dark. There's the reference and the connection with exactly what Mila explained happened that night. (In the Dark) Runnin’, runnin’ away from it = Been running from it (Shameless). You’ve been running from it for the longest time. Now, why for the longest time? Well, because in In the Dark, Mila promised her that she would've stayed and that she was ready. That was the first step. It's a connection that we also find with Find U Again and later with Havana because Mila was ready even back then. She told her face-to-face that she was ready the first time in In the Dark, but she was ready even before that. If that's why, Mila was ready since All These Years already. So you have to keep in mind the time passed before getting to Shameless (which was the last step before they got back together), and for our exaggerated queen especially in songs, that was the longest time 🤣.

No, I'm just kidding no, I'm not 🤣. She used the longest time even as a reference to the past of the beginning of their story. Same reference and connection as we find in the next sentence:

“It's been a secret for the longest time”

I mean, hello???? 🎶 The greatest love story that's never been told 🎶 Duh!

“So we're there, now it's real

Now that you have me, do you want me still?”

Mila was basically saying: ‘After everything we've been through, we're here now. I'm standing here in front of you, and this, us, is more real than ever (and I think the real part was also an indirect made on purpose for the fans, for us). I'm here to tell you fearlessly and shamelessly (because the chorus had already happened since this is the second verse) that you have me. I promised you I'm here to stay (reference with ‘I promise that I won't run’ by In the Dark). I'm yours. I'm ready and I wanna try again (reference with ‘But if you say try again, I'd be ready. I'm ready’ by Find U Again). But now the question is, do you want to? Do you still want me? Now that you know, now that you have me, do you still want me?’.

“My kisses are history, they go back a long time, uh

And I'm tired of loving somebody that's not mine, no”

My kisses are history, they go back a long time. Again as before, duh 😉🤭. They date back to the times of the X-Factor elevator (although that one was more a playful one and not as serious as the New Year's one). That phrase was a way like if to say ‘we've known each other for a long time’ which connects to And I'm tired of loving somebody that's not mine. Mila explained what this actually means:

Therefore, with these two sentences, she's saying: ‘ we've known each other for a long time. We've been through this before and I'm tired of loving you from afar without being able to act on it. I'm tired of loving you without being able to be with you for real’. Not to mention the fact that she's never been able to do it properly. She's never been able to be with her in a free way since they're two queer female celebrities, and I can't imagine how exhausting THAT can be.

 So. After analyzing the first two verses in this way, we get: Don't speak, no, don't try. It’s time for you to listen to me, and don't run, no, don't hide. You've been running from it for the longest time (from the All These Years' meeting). This, ours, it's been a secret for the longest time. So we're there, now it's real. I'm standing here in front of you, and it's more real than ever. Now that you have me, do you want me still? My kisses are history, they go back a long time (we've known each other for a long time) and I'm tired of loving somebody that's not mine (I'm tired of loving you from afar without being able to act on it. I'm tired of loving you without being able to be with you for real).

Now it's clearer why I don't think that Mila first talked about the past in the first verse and then about the present in the second one, but that she always talked about the present (at the time 2017)? I hope it was, and I hope this part of the interpretation wasn't too messed up 😅. I'll continue with the usual way now.

Pre-Chorus:

“So many mornings I woke up confused

In my dreams, I do anything I want to you

My emotions are naked, they're taking me out of my mind”

🤤🤤🤤🥵🥵🥵 Ahem-ahem. *throat clearing*

So basically, she was able to be with Laur during her sleep (In my dreams, I do anything I want to you), in every sense (😏), but every time she woke up the next morning, she was confused (So many mornings I woke up confused). The more it happened, the more the confusion turned into frustration and impatience because what was happening in her dreams wasn't happening in the reality. And the more that happened, the more unbearable it became for her to repress and control her emotions that were driving her crazy (they're taking me out of my mind). Until she then exploded, and finally told her everything by expressing those emotions (My emotions are naked), which were by then also evident without the need to express them (but she did anyway).

Chorus:

“Right now, I'm shameless”

The rasp here......... The. Rasp. Here. 🔥!!!!! By hearing that part, I was like: 🎶 Right now I'm deeeaad 🎶 I'm just saying 💁🏻‍♀️🤣.

“Screamin' my lungs out for ya

Not afraid to face it

I need you more than I want to

Need you more than I want to”

Aaand these were the emotions I was talking about earlier. Mila who told her fearlessly and shamelessly how much she wanted her. She told her how much she needed her (I need you more than I want to) and that she wasn't afraid to face it; the opposite of what Laur was doing ‘Been running from it’ that we find in the first verse. She felt neither ashamed nor afraid to admit all her feelings to such an extent that she would've been willing to even metaphorically scream it out (screamin' my lungs out for ya).

“Show me you're shameless”

Here she asked her to be as shameless as she was. Not to be afraid to admit her feelings like she was doing, and basically jump together; give themselves another chance.

“Write it on my neck, why don't ya?

And I won't erase it”

This is another powerful way to tell her she was hers. She was like: ‘you can even write on my neck who I belong to. Mark me’ (even with, you know, the mark of a bite or a hickey 😉). Another metaphor that lets us understand how like, almost desperate Mila was. How completely at her mercy she was.

Oh and, let's not forget the promo clip for the song. I mean, there's the front part of the neck, there are the side ones, but no. What did she choose? The back of it.

Aaand the new entry:

☝🏼 And that's the devil talking!! 🤣🤣🤣 Sorry guys, but that was just a joke since the one in the GIF is the actor who plays Lucifer in Supernatural 🙃.

“I need you more than I want to

Need you more than I want to”

And the repetition of how much she needed her. How much she wanted her.

Post-Chorus:

“No-oh, uh-uh, don't wanna do this now

No-oh, uh-uh, don't wanna do this now

No-oh, uh-uh, don't wanna do this now

No-oh, uh-uh, don't wanna do this now”

And this brings us back to what I explained earlier. How tired Mila was and how unbearable it was for her to repress and control her emotions. She didn't want to do it. She didn't want to repress anything anymore, and indeed, she didn't. She was shameless about it.

Bridge:

“Distance, inches in between us

I want you to give in, I want you to give in, oh

Weakness, tension in between us

I just wanna give in

And I don't care if I'm forgiven”

This part is much more physical and connects with the dreams one she was having. Only that this was the reality and not a dream of hers. The sexual tension was all there. As usual by the way, because that's something that has never changed between them. She wanted Laur to give in the same way she was giving in, and at that moment, the desire was so strong and powerful that she didn't even care if Laur forgave her. They would've thought about forgiveness and talked about everything after... If you know what I mean 😏.

And that's it, dear Anon 😊. This underrated masterpiece is precisely about, indeed, being shameless. Shameless is about taking action on repressed emotions. It's about being bold and shooting your shot. And as Mila herself said, it's about “loving with your heart open and not being afraid of it”.

 🤸🏻‍♀‍🤸🏻‍♀‍🤸🏻‍♀‍🤸🏻‍♀‍🤸🏻‍♀‍🤸🏻‍♀‍🤸🏻‍♀‍🤸🏻‍♀‍🤸🏻‍♀‍🤸🏻‍♀‍🤸🏻‍♀‍🤸🏻‍♀‍

Aaand I'm done 😜. Thank you all for your asks and I hope I've been helpful this time too 🙃. As usual, I'm always available for those who have questions, so ask away 😄.

Remember to be nice. Always. Both with others and with yourselves. Be a good example. Be patient. Be safe and take care of yourselves. Don't let our ship sink. Keep shipping them, but please respectfully 🙏🏼. Sending you virtual love and hugs 🤗🤗🤗. I love you, babies. Always with love, F ❤️.

[marvelsbetch]

Peter Parker’s teddy bear

"Come on Pete, go to sleep for me." Tony almost begged the crying baby in his arms.

His only response was the continuation of his sons loud cries. Tony continued to rock the 3 month old in an attempt to get him to sleep. After 20 minutes and the beginning of the sun rise Tony has given up all hope of sleep himself, not uncommon.

"Pete please, I now colds aren't fun but you've gotta work with me here." Tony tried to reason getting a response of a second of silence before the crying commenced again.

Suddenly, an idea popped into Tony's head and he found himself walking back into his room. After a minute or two of looking he finally found what he was looking for.

"Here Pete. This is my good buddy Captain America. He's a hero like me, I'm better though, and he's gonna protect you. He's gonna protect you from all the monsters and cold out there. Only thing is, you've gotta keep his secret identity. Can you do that for him Pete?" Tony rhetorically asker before placing the Captain America plushie in the babies grasp. In return Baby Peter held the plushie as tight as he could and finally closed his eyes for sleep.

After a minute Tony deemed it safe to place the baby back into his crib holding the plushie right to his chest. Tony took one last look at his son before smiling like the Cheshire Cat and retreating back to his own room.

-3 years later-

A young Peter Stark ran around the main seating area of Stark Tower when he hit something hard. He looked up and saw his uncle Steve and his dad stood  of him.

"Cap'ain 'merica!" Peter squealed and hugged the mans legs.

"Hey Pete. Did you have fun while we were gone?" Steve asked the small child before picking him up to hug him closer.

"Yeah! Me 'n' mommy played abvengers ! Den we ate ice cream and watched a movie." Peter told him excitedly.

"Hey Petey, can I get some live to?" Tony asked reaching out for his son.

"DADDY!" The small boy yelled before leaping out of His uncles arms and into that of his fathers.

"I think it's your nap time now." Tony spoke running his hands through Peter's untameable hair.

"I don't." Peter spoke back earning a small laugh from Steve.

"Well, it is. Wanna say goodbye to uncle Steve while you sleep?" Tony coaxed.

"I lost my 'eddy. Can't sleep with out Cap'ain 'merica." The boy spoke sadly burying his head in his fathers neck.

"Where did you have it last? We may be able to find it." Steve asked trying to comfort the clearly upset child.

"In bed." The child answered.

Tony and Steve set off for Peter's bedroom in hopes to find the Captain America plushie before it was too late. The last time it was lost nobody, not even the real Captain America, put get Peter to sleep until the plushie was in his arms.

Once the trio arrived at Peter's room Tony placed him on the bed before he and Steve begin the search for the toy. After 30 minutes of searching they couldn't find it. They looked on the bed, under the bed, in the toy box, on the book shelf, in the en-suite and behind the book shelf. Anywhere The you could've been, it wasn't.

Tony looked at the child on the bed and saw tears forming in his eyes. Oh no.

"F.R.I.D.A.Y activate Code red, white and blue." Tony instructed his A.I before picking Peter up again.

"Pete, is there anywhere it could be? Were you playing with it when you played with Mommy?" Steve gently asked the upset child who was clinging onto his fathers blazer lapels.

All he received was a slight shake of the head before the child burst into tears.

Soon all the avengers, who weren't on missions, arrived at Peter's room after hearing the code F.R.I.D.A.Y sent out. The code was created after the last time the plushie was lost and the entire building was swept in an attempt to find it.

"Come on Buddy, we'll find him for you. You want the real Captain America to hold you while you sleep. Then, by the time you've woken up we'll have found him." Tony informed the toddler who only shook his head in return. He was almost at full meltdown.

"Right, battle plan. Tony, you stay in here and continue looking or try and get him to sleep. Me and Sam will search the main living space. Natasha and Clint will search the kitchen. Pepper and Wanda will search outside on the balconies. Bruce and Bucky will search all laundry areas and piles. Got it?" Steve strategised.

"Got it." Everyone responded almost simultaneously.

For the next three hours every Avenger was on the most important missions of their lives: Find Peter Stark's lost Captain America Plushie. Tony had spent the entire time trying to get the exhausted toddler to sleep, he even tried using and Iron Man plushie as a replacement but to no avail. No one, not even his own father, could replace the value of the plushie to little Peter.

The entire tower was searching, including all labs and employee break areas. After five hours of searching the avengers reached the conclusion that the plushie had simply disappeared into thin air. The only question now was, who was going to tell the heart broken and far beyond tired child. After a tournament of rock, paper, scissors the duty landed on Steve. How ironic.

Slowly the super soldier made his way to the source of the cries and screams that haunted the avengers over the past few hours. He entered the room where Peter immediately peeled up in hopes that someone found his precious plushie. His eyes lit up even more when he saw it was Steve but after a few seconds dulled again once he realised the plushie was not in his arms yet. Uncle Steve didn't have it.

"Hey Pete, I'm sorry but we can't find the teddy. We looked everywhere but none of us found it. I'm so sorry buddy." Steve tried to comfort but was only met with wails, screams and cries from the inconsolable child.

"PETER! WE FOUND IT!" They heard a voice yell and was soon met with an out on breath Sam Wilson running into the room with the old Captain America Plushie in his arms.

"Cap'ain 'merica!" Peter yelled with delight as Sam handed the plushie over to the child who fell asleep almost instantly.

"Thank you Sam. His cries were beginning to become unbearable. Where was it?" Tony whispered while slowly placing his child in his bed and tucking him in.

"It was in one of the big pots in the kitchen. Apparently he was playing hide and Seek with Pepper and must've forgot he put it in there." Sam explained in the same hushed voice as the trio left the room and silently shut the door.

It was safe to say that from that day on Peter's new favourite Uncle was Sam. The one who reunited his with his precious Captain America.

[sarcasticallybee]

Hit

Scott x sister! Reader

You and your brother used to be so close until he got some new friends. Stiles had even started to ignore you. So in a desperate attempt for something to do you stayed after school one day. On this fateful day your ride ditched and you were left stranded at the school. You are injured and Scott makes a promise.

You and your brother had always been close, so to say it hurt when he had started going out and leaving you all alone was an understatement. Even Stiles had stopped hanging out with you.

On top of that you didn't have many friends, your mom was never home, and Mr. Stilinski was always at work.

You had no one. You only had school. You decided to stay after school today to help the librarian and put away books.

You stayed for a few hours before gasping at the dark curtain that had draped over the sky. It was later then you had thought and you lived pretty far from the school.

You had hitched a ride from your mother this morning but she was probably still at work. Lydia and Allison were probably busy so that left you with Stiles or Scott.

Pulling out your phone you hit the phone icon. Scrolling through the contacts you found Stiles. Calling him first seemed like the safer option seeing as he was probably easier to hitch a ride with and would be less annoyed.

Bzzzz! Bzzzz! The person you are try- you hung up.

Obviously he'd send you to voicemail. Scott it is.

Bzzzz! Bzzzz! "Hello?"

"Scott! Hey. Can you come pick me up? I'm at the school but-"

"Really y/n? You called for a ride? I'm a little busy at the moment. I don't have time for this. So no. I can't." Beep!

He hung up. You looked at the phone in shock. You knew your big brother was getting annoyed with even having you on his contact list but you didn't think he'd abandon you like this. Quickly gathering yourself, you shoved your phone in your pocket.

"Walking it is." You felt your voice break slightly.

Walking out of the parking lot you started the journey of walking home. Sadly though, as though your day couldn't get any worse, it had started to rain.

You tripped as your sneakers slipped on the road but you kept walking. You just wanted to get home. Your soaked clothes made you shiver and you tugged your hoodie closer suddenly wishing you listened to your mom about bringing an umbrella. Little did you or anyone else know that was the least of your worries.

The rain wasn't letting up and neither were your tears. You were soaked and cold and just wanted to be home. To lie in your bed and cry yourself to sleep. As you continued walking through the sheet of rain you heard horns blaring and then you saw a pair of bright headlights.

Before you could register anything else you felt pain, and heard your ribs crack. You tasted the blood after that and soon you smelled smoke. It was all so terrible, but the pain was the worst.

You heard someone yell to you and call to you, but you couldn't answer. Your throat felt raw and tight. All you wanted to do was scream, and so you finally did.

The ambulance came quickly and picked you up, rushing you to the hospital. The driver was looked over but was deemed fine. The police would talk to them later.

For now though they were panicking over your body doing all that could to keep you awake. You felt sleepy and were in extreme pain.

"Where's Scott? I want my brother! Scott! Scott! Please I just want my brother!" You cried.

All you wanted was Scott. He always kissed your injuries better. He always made you feel better. Where was he? He promised he'd always be there!

"Scooott!" You screamed until you throat was sore.

"We need to sedate her!" One of the peramedics called over your sobs.

"We can't! She may have a concussion!" A woman yelled.

The original male peramedic growled but understood.

"Listen miss. What's your name? Maybe we can get ahold of this Scott." He threw you a fake and annoyed smile.

"Y/n McCall! My brother is Scott McCall and my mom is Melissa McCall!" You answered.

"Great! Now let's get you taken care of babe. You're okay with me calling you babe right?" A woman asked as she took care of getting the blood off of your head and and arms.

"Y- yea! I just wanna go home." You winced and screamed as the other paramedic set your leg back into place. The leg you didn't even know you broke.

"Emergency! Young teenage girl in car accident. Broken leg, possible concussion as well as a few possible broken ribs, cuts on arms and a gash on her forehead!" The woman yelled as the doctors and nurses took you away.

"Y/n! Oh my God! What happened!?" Melissa gasped as she followed you to the emergency room.

"M-mom? Oh my God mom! I don't know what happened all I was doing was walking home. I was so cold and wet. I tried calling Scott but he got mad. Like really mad. I wanted to call you but you were working. Now I'm here. Surprise?" You winced after explaining as best you could but your focus was not exactly spot on.

"Oh sweetheart let's get you taken care of." You were then taken away and put into your own room. You fell asleep, but not before checking your phone which had surprisingly survived and looking at the wall paper. A picture of you and Scott. Smiling.

Ring! Ring! Ring! "Hello?" Scott picked up the phone.

Stiles was obviously concerned. Not only had it been a few hours since y/n called but she wasn't answering his texts and it was pouring. Sure it was a pack meeting, but he worried for y/n.

"Mom!? What? Y/n? Yea she called earlier?" Scott's eyebrows furrowed.

Then his face turned to one of shock.

"Stiles. Get the car. Now!" He quickly got up and hung up on his mother running out the door and down the front stairs, but not before grabbing his jacket and running to Stiles' Jeep. Stiles followed quickly not knowing where he was going.

"The hospital!" Scott pressed as Stiles drove to the hospital.

Scott was still processing what his mother had told him. Y/n had been in an accident. She hadn't specified but she told him to get his ass there.

They pulled into the parking lot quickly and ran into the hospital asking for y/n McCall's room. Once they found out they ran up the stairs not bothering with the elevator.

"Mom!? What happened!?" Scott whisper yelled. 

Miss McCall did not look happy.

"Y/n came in. She was soaked and cold. Possible hypothermia at this point. That isn't the worst part though. She came in on an ambulance. An ambulance Scott! And what are those used for?" She questioned.

"Major emergencies? I don't know. What does that have to do with anything?" He asked.

"Y/n was hit by a damn car Scott! She almost died. She had cuts and bruises all over. She has three broken ribs, a broken leg, a concussion, need I go on? Your little sister almost died! She called for a ride that would've taken what, 15 minutes? All you had to do was get over yourself and think about her for once. You ignore her calls, and barely answer her anymore. You two used to be so close and you are pushing her away Scott. And now she is in a hospital bed! And do you know what she was yelling when they were on their way here!? No she wasn't yelling for me! Not Stiles! She was yelling for you Scott!" Melissa ranted.

"Now get your ass in there and take care of her and apologise!" She finished, walking away.

Scott felt terrible. He hadn't meant for this to happen. It was true though. He was pushing you away, but only because he didn't want you to get hurt. That's the only reason he answered. To make sure you weren't in danger.

He hadn't thought about the weather.

He hadn't thought of a damn car hitting you.

He hadn't thought walking home would be dangerous.

His last words to you had been so harsh. Now he had almost lost you, and the fact you were now in a hospital bed because of it? It was stupid.

He and Stiles walked into the dark hospital room. You were sleeping soundly. Your h/l h/c hair was wet and sprawled on your pillow.

"Oh y/n!" Scott rushed to your side and kissed your forehead.

Stiles silently cried as he saw your broken form. You looked so small and broken. Fragile. He and Scott felt terrible. Stiles had sent you to voicemail because he was told to, and then Scott hung up on you. Now you're in a hospital bed broken and beat up. All for what? Nothing. All they knew is they weren't ever leaving your side or ignoring you ever again. Scott made a promise to himself to be a better big brother. To be there for you no matter what. All he knew is he couldn't lose you. You were the only little sister he had. He wasn't going to let some stupid pack meeting keep him away from you. He wasn't going to lose you. Ever.

A/n

I hope you enjoyed! Thats it for this one my unsupervised critters! 🐾💞

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Our Song (Alyssa Naeher x Reader)

Request: alyssa naehex reader thats set during quarantine w/ “Shy” by Alexander Stewart. I just kind of think it’s cute since she’s an introvert and that it would be fitting

Author’s Note: Speical Thanks To @literaryhedgehog​

Alyssa knew she should just say it, that admitting it out loud would finally put an end to this madness. She ran a soothing hand through your hair when you sniffled loudly into her chest. 

God, she should just tell you how she felt. But, she also didn’t want to overstep. That would make being roommates really awkward. Especially since neither of you were supposed to leave the apartment right now except for essential purchases. And she didn’t want to lose her best friend. That would really suck. 

But she wasn’t afraid to say what no one else would- you had a terrible taste when it came to partners. You chose people who didn’t value you, and you always ended up hurt. 

This time was no different, well, it was slightly different considering you couldn’t leave your shared apartment to cope like you normally would. Alyssa didn’t know if that was better or worse, considering that you had adapted your breakup routine to just be endless cuddles with her and your favorite stuffed animal.  

She had already spent the last hour making comforting noises. You had stopped shedding tears 15 minutes ago, so Alyssa decided it was time to go for some humor. “Hey, so now you and Taylor Swift have something in common!”

“Hmm” You hummed in acknowledgment, your eyes never leaving where Supergirl was playing on screen. 

“Well, she was broken up with over text. You were broken up with over text. I think this is the perfect opportunity to listen to her re-recording of Fearless, and really channel those emotions!”

“No, Joe broke up with her in a 27-second phone call,” You lifted your head up off of her very comfortable chest to raise your eyebrow at the woman. 

Alyssa was a great keeper, and amazing at crosswords, but she always needed your help when it came to Taylor trivia. 

“Then Joe showed more consideration as an 18-year-old child than your 32 year old wanna be soccer star. It doesn’t change the fact that I think listening to Mr Perfectly Fine would be cathartic.” 

“It’s kinda funny that she wrote Forever and Always, Mr. Perfectly fine, Better than Revenge and Holy Ground all about the same guy, they’re all so different from each other,” You mumbled, settling back down on her chest. At least she didn’t say that you had as many breakups as she did. That was a rude joke. (One Alyssa wouldn’t dare make. She was more cultured than the media asshats that chased your team around). 

“Woman’s efficient,” Alyssa shrugged. “No reason why you can't recycle the same emotion into a different song genre.” 

“At least she could make millions off her pain. All I seem to be able to do is kick the ball harder,” You grumbled. Your landlord complained about you practicing in the street because of how hard you sent the ball careening into his precious brick wall. It wasn’t your fault Alyssa was too slow to stop the PK. 

“Darling, considering you’re one of the strongest kickers on the east coast, I’d say that pain is going to a worthwhile cause. But you do kind of have the worst taste in relationships.” 

“Hey! Savannah wasn’t a bad choice, just bad timing,” You huffed indignantly. 

“So that would be one out of…. How many bad relationships?” 

“At least one for every Taylor Swift album,” 

“Okay, here’s a fun idea, choose an ex for each album,” Alyssa said brightly. Thinking about music would definitely cheer you up. “Wannabe soccer star is obviously your Joe, so represents the Fearless album. Which relationship is your… Drew?”

“You already know the answer to that question,” you said, already picking up your phone to add Teardrops on my Guitar to the music queue. You then quickly added Forever and Always and started scrolling through Speak Now for the next song inspiration. 

Alyssa nodded. It was a well-known fact that you had a massive crush on one Hope Solo growing up, and you had been absolutely enamored with her the second you set foot into camp. But Alyssa also knew that Hope was very faithful to a certain veteran. 

The veteran keeper had tried to let you down easy, and Kelley was still one of your best friends, but it had hurt in the moment.

“Kristie was my Haunted,” you said, smiling slightly. Dating her felt like a whirlwind, one that took your breath until you never thought it would end. She made butterflies flutter in your stomach, and you were so desperate to say the right thing, to be the perfect partner, that you always felt like you were walking a tightrope. Floating on air, but desperate to keep your balance. “At least she had the decency to wait until we were in the same city to end it.” 

“Aren’t the two of you friends now?” Alyssa looked down at you, watching as you scrolled through songs from your comfortable place on her chest. 

You nodded with a small smile. “Hmm, we are much better off that way anyway.” 

“I bet you I can guess who your We are Never Ever Getting Back Together person is,” Alyssa trilled, reaching down to take the phone. 

You playfully snatched it away from her. “Who’s to say I wasn’t going to choose I knew you were trouble?” You raised your eyebrow at the woman, who simply smirked in response. 

“I can tell you who that is too if you like,” Alyssa reached for her own phone and took over control of the speakers, adding both songs to the music queue. 

“Alright, I’ll bite. Who?” 

“You definitely knew Sam Kerr was trouble, and I think it took you 4 breakups with Leah to finally call it quits,” 

“I was going to say Leah for 1989, it took me forever to realize how fucked up our relationship was after we finally broke up,” 

“I’m sure the distance didn’t help.” With her in London and you in Chicago things just kind of fell apart. 

“Maybe,” you hummed, noncommittally. 

“Okay, so for Reputation. I’m thinking Don’t Blame Me,” 

“You did go a bit crazy for Jane…” Alyssa said with a roll of her eyes. You had almost moved to Houston for that girl, thank god you didn’t. You sunburned like nobody's business. 

“Oh come on. You just didn’t like the idea of me moving. And considering how long we had been dating at that point it did make sense!” You argued. 

“It was 3 months Y/n,” She deadpanned. 

“I was in a wlw relationship. That’s like practically three years, it’s not like I brought a u-haul to our first date.” 

Alyssa quirked an eyebrow up at you. “Didn’t you have one of those the first time we met?” 

“Yeah, because I wasn’t moving into my college apartment without any furniture!”

“Whatever you say, babe. Who's your Folklore?” She rolled her eyes goodnaturedly. 

“I think you skipped an album,” you said. This was weird because Lover was one of Alyssa’s favorite albums. “But, since you asked. I think Kelley is The 1.” 

“Ah, our favorite squirrel,” Alyssa’s lips ticked up. You and Kelley had dated in college (something that should have made her jealous), but Kelley was the one pushing her to admit her feelings now. 

“We were just too young and dumb,” you said, smiling. “We had a great time together, and it would have been fun if it worked out. But at some point we just realized, we were friends, but there wasn’t anything romantic there.”

“I’m sorry it didn’t work out,” Alyssa said, like a liar. 

“I’m not. Her and Emily are like made for each other,” You snorted with the shake of your head. “And at least she wasn’t afraid of the world knowing we were together,” 

“Well, yeah,” Alyssa smiled. She had loved seeing the way being publicly out with Kelley had brought out the best of you. “ Okay moving on! Next, we need to narrow down your No body, No Crime.” 

“I take offense. Alex is still alive, so that doesn’t count,” You huffed. 

“I’m kidding! I’m kidding. I know you didn’t kill any of your significant others,” Alyssa said, laughing. “Though if you listened to the song you would know that’s my job… ”

“Alex was my Champagne Problems,” You mumbled sadly. That relationship had been the hardest for you, as had the breakup. She was terrified of the world even suspecting she wasn’t straight. 

You had everything, except the freedom to be yourself, and In the end, you couldn’t take the hiding anymore. 

“You did your best, love. But people come out at their own pace. And it was before Obergfell v. Hodges was decided. Being queer was still more likely to be presented as a scandal in the media then.”

“She cheated on me with Serv. She doesn’t get a pass,” You grumbled, crossing your arms. 

“I’m pretty sure you were on a break dear,” Alyssa said, though she was inclined to agree with you. Being on a ‘break’ but not officially breaking up didn’t seem like a reason to start dating other people. Still getting over some of the semantics might theoretically help you move on. “BUT maybe we should move on. Who is your Lover?”

Your eyes squinted thoughtfully, a light pink shading your cheeks. “The only person who hasn’t ever left me is you. You let me leave the Christmas lights up until May and dance around the kitchen when you cook.” 

Alyssa looked away, not able to meet your eyes. ”I mean, the lights can change color, so they can be thematic all year. And you’re the one who chooses the music to listen to while I cook. I can’t help it if they’re all great for dancing.”

“You can dance to anything. I’m pretty sure you turned a Hosier song into a salsa dance last week.” You giggled. 

“The only person I dance with is you, Y/n,” Alyssa said, finally meeting your eyes. She could feel her body start shaking slightly, as the adrenaline kicked in. She was going to do it. She was going to tell you. “I don’t want to dance if I’m not dancing with you.” 

“I’d dance with you in a storm in my best dress,” 

“I have tried so hard to be supportive about your last several relationships. But seeing you dancing to your favorite song with anyone else… I’ve loved you for three years now and I couldn’t bear it.” 

The air was suddenly charged between you, and you realized your faces were just inches apart. It was hard to breathe. You never dreamed your best friend would return your feelings (maybe that’s why you had so many bad relationships). 

“Kiss me,” you breathed, slowly moving around so your heads were at the same level. 

“That’s not a Taylor swift Lyric,” Alyssa said. In her brain, there was a loading sign currently whirring in little circles, as she attempted to process what you just said. Did you mean what she thought you said?

“Baby just say yes,” You said, feeling so happy that tears were coming to your eyes. You leaned forward getting inches from her face, so close you could feel her breath hitch. “Please kiss me.”

“Yes,” was all Alyssa had time to say before she closed the distance and kissed you. 

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Ask Answers: May 15th Part 2

And here’s the next part of the long answer set of the day!

When will OL: N&F take place? Beginnings and Always took place during summer breaks, will now and forever take place during a fall break or will the characters be going to school at the time of the events we play through? 

It takes place over all of the fall season, so school will be happening in OL2. Some events do take place in school, though many times events only start after school is already out for the day, haha.

Hey!! I have kind of a weird question?? I’m sorry if it’s been answered before and I just haven’t seen it but is OL 2 taking place during the same years as OL 1? I’m just curious, thank you for such amazing games!!! 

It’s a similar time frame, but not 100% exactly same.

Do you have any idea when the demo for now and forever will be available? 

Hopefully this fall! But that’s not a guarantee.

Okay the crime show in Step 2: Growing up. Long blonde hair, police station, crime series? Was it The Closer? Because I’m the same age as MC and Cove and my mom was constantly watching that when I was 13. 😂 

Haha, yeah! The Closer and, to a lesser degree, Medium were the kind of shows I was referencing there. My mom also used to watch those back in the day.

Hey um this might be an odd question but if the setting of OL: N&F is  fall/autumn, what country or city will it take because my mind tells me it is either Poland or Canada. Also I can't wait for the game I am hyped 

It’s set in the USA again. We’d like to be able to have cameos and that’s easiest to do if the OL games take place in the same country.

Is it possible for the PC of OL to have non-seriously dated other people in the in between years even if they’ve had a consistent crush on Cove? 

You can causally date Baxter in Step 3 if you get his DLC and then ultimately choose Cove in Step 4. If you mean off-screen people, it doesn’t really come up, but you can certainly headcanon that. The game never says Cove is the only partner you’ve ever had.

Is there going to be a Kickstarter for Now and Forever as well? For like voiced names and stuff again? Didn’t find B&A until after it was released and I’d really love the opportunity to hear my name in the game 🥺 

Yeah, we are gonna have a Kickstarter with getting a voiced name as a reward! Though, it will be more expensive than it was for OL1. I feel bad to raise the price but we realized too late the first time around that it was being super undersold for the amount of work it took, aha.

Do you know how much the remaining DLC for OL will cost? (Step 4, Derek, Baxter) 

Step 4: Free

Wedding DLC: $2.99USD

Derek DLC: $4.99USD

 Baxter DLC: $4.99USD

Has an artist for the new position been picked yet?! I'm super excited for the new game! 

We did fill that spot. Thank you so much for taking the time to apply!

hmmm what would it take to get each of the XOXO jerk squad to feel the need to hug you? 

They’d have to first like you a fair amount, otherwise the most you’d get is maybe a pat on the shoulder. If they were attached, they might hug you if you broke down crying or if you gave them super good news.

Unless it’s Shiloh, of course. If you want a hug you only have to ask!

May i ask how the Derek DLC will work? I believe that there aren’t any memories in step 4 and doesnt derek’s dlc take place during that step? So will the dlc add memories? Thank you! 

Derek’s DLC will add five Moments to Step 2 (a new page will appear on that screen if you get the DLC). Then in Step 4 you’ll have to choose between playing the default epilogue or going through the Derek romance story.

Is the pc version on itch,io different from the steam version? Like an offline one or something? 

Steam has achievements, but that’s about it. Both can be played offline, if you prefer.

I've been wondering this for awhile, what determines if cove winds up with a ponytail in step 3? I've done multiple runs with different MCs with varying hairstyles. Or does it have to do with a particular moment in step 2? 

I’m afraid I can’t say exact choices that determine things. But generally it’s preference based options in the Step before that decide those things.

Any Floret Bond updates? 

No, the artist had to leave the project and it’s been on-hold. I’m not sure if I want to try working just with what we have or replacing it all entirely. The design is a bit too specific for us to easily find someone who could mimic it. Hopefully we’ll work things out later, though.

In step 3 is Cove's plan always to stay in sunset bird? 

Yeah. He is never ready at 18-years-old to make a big life change.

I love your content! If it's alright to ask, you answered in a previous ask about how Jeremy was too particular with what he likes his types to be romanceable with just any MC and it's sort of got me wondering.. What /are/ his types and/or preferences and such? Sorry if it's a lot! 

Jeremy likes stubborn jerks and will not date someone who’s sweet or even generally a decent person, haha.

uh, excuse me if you said this somewhere before, but how will step 4 be actually? Will it he like an actual step and have moments and dlc and all? Or will it be more like a long epilogue of some sort?

Will the step 4, the wedding and extra routes dlcs be paid too? Im just confused, sorry if im asking too much

Step 4 is only an epilogue, so it’s just a long series of scenes one after the other rather than a collection of Moments you can choose from.

The Step 4 epilogue is free, the wedding DLC, Derek DLC, and Baxter DLC cost money.

i’m not sure how much of the wedding dlc you have planned already, or if this would be to spoilery, but what kind of wedding traditions will be included? i keep thinking about how flustered cove would get over a garter toss & was wondering if we’d see a scene like that haha. obviously no worries if it’s not included, i’ll enjoy literally anything cove related 

I don’t know for sure yet, haha. Right now we’re focused on the parts before the big day. We’ll see how many scene alterations we can include for the wedding itself later on.

Hello! Firstly, thank you for creating such an amazing game like OL, and I couldn’t be more excited for OL2! Out of curiosity, are you looking for any writers to come on for OL2 or are you all pretty much set in that department? Just thought I’d shoot my shot haha but I’m still excited regardless ^^! 

We will be hiring writers for OL2 later this year! Thank you for the interest.

Will we be blessed with a spin-off Yandere Cove, like XOXO Blood Droplets? 

Sadly, no. It’s a shame but there’s not enough time to keep making OL1 bonus/spin-off content.

How is Q pronounced?

I’m afraid Q’s full name hasn’t been publicly announced yet so I can’t answer here (Q and T are the first letters of the names for the new LIs in Our Life: Now & Forever).

Question; is the steam version getting a Mac update?  I purchased the dlc there thinking it had Mac support without realizing it and just wondered if I’d need to refund it to purchase on itch.io 😭 

I’m really sorry, you will need to get a refund from Steam. We do hope to have it there for Steam eventually, but have no idea of when it’ll happen. Apple requires special notarization to be an officially accepted app for their devices. We don’t have that. Steam requires having that, Itch will let you release it as an non-notarized third party app. That’s why Itch is the only place that has the Mac version right now.

would you mind posting outfit sheets for Cove in every step? it would make things a lot easier for us artists. it would save a lot of time spent looking for references 

I think we did do the earlier steps when they were finished way back in 2019 (this game took a long time to make, aha), but we can probably repost them sometime!

In our life n&f, will we be able to get into qprs/will there be more options in regards to having deep platonic relationships with the love interests? Because as an aroace individual, it would be great if there could also be emphasis on platonic love so that it's more aspec inclusive. 

It’s a little hard to say at this point. There may not be things like a wedding DLC for OL2 and so the relationship for platonic and romantic feelings might not go as far as it did in the first game. We’ll kind of have to see how much we can do based on timeframe/budget constraints that will only be set near the end of the year. But we will be keeping things like that in mind at least.

hi! i really really like your game and im absolutely in love with it! i cant wait to try your other games like xoxo droplet and future OL NF :))

during the step 3 erands moment i got curious, which fudge flavor is his favorite? it seems like he likes all of them, but which 4 do you think he would like best?

also i noticed that in some playthroughs cove would let me give him a piggy back ride, and in some he wouldn't, how come?

how does your choices affect cove's interests or looks? i replayed the game without changing any choices but i got cove to look different, is it just random?

thank you!

Cove’s favorite flavors are ones with nuts and that are fruity! But he appreciates them all. Whether or not you can give him a piggyback ride depends on if your MC is fit/large enough to hold a muscular 6-foot-tall beach boy, haha.

Cove’s appearance does depend on choices and it’s generally tied to choices that are preference based rather than emotion/action based, such as which key chain you pick in Step 1.

Is it possible for cove to reject MC's proposal at the end of step 3? 

Nope. He’ll always accept.

hi! i was wondering how heavily the side characters will be featured in the our life wedding dlc? obviously it'll be cove & mc focused, but i was thinking it'd be sweet if we could take lizzie dress / suit shopping or dance with cliff at the wedding or something. 

The side characters are there about as often as they are in normal events. So, it’s clearly focused on Cove but he’s not the only person you have any meaningful moments with.

When will responses be sent out to applicants? 

I’m afraid we don’t send responses out to all applications, only ones we’re interested in offering the position to. Not everyone likes rejection emails and the amount of applications is too high to contact them all to say we’re not hiring them. We post updates on the job page when a position has news. Right now we’ve filled every role that was open.

Is there also going to be the option to keep your relationships with the love interests platonic in Our Life: Now and Forever? That's something I really appreciate in Our Life: Beginnings and Always

Yeah! OL will never force you to end up in a romantic relationship with someone.

I was wondering, in the Step 3 Happiness moment, what are the different fishes Cove can compare MC to? I got "you'd be a paradise fish, because being with you is paradise," but my friend got "you'd be an angelfish." Are there more variations? 

He says paradise fish if you’re a couple, angelfish if he’s just crushing, and then a royal dottyback/queenfish/emperor tetra (based on your gender) if he likes the MC platonicly.

Hello! So, in one of the Step 3 DLCs, Cove's arm was gone. I think it was to show him putting his arm behind his back. But if that wasn't the case, did it get yeeted? 

Thanks for letting us know. That was an error we tried to fix a little while back. When did you make the save file you were playing? If it was older that might be why it happened. Or maybe the error wasn’t fully fixed after all.

Asking for your opinion, but do you think Cove would at all be into ABBA? Because all I could imagine during the car trip in step 3 was him and the MC belting to Mamma Mia. 

Haha, yeah, there’d definitely be some ABBA songs he was into.

So throughout the game, Cove can develop different interests depending on the player’s choices; does this mean that he can have different careers in Step 4? Or his is line of work in adulthood never mentioned at all? 

He can have different career paths in Step 4!

Hi!! I'm so so sorry if this has been asked before but I just acquired knowledge about the so famous nsfw dlc for OL and nearly chocked on my bubblegum 💀💀💀 So, my real inquiry is if that specific moment will have any kind of impact at some point of the fourth step OR if it will just be treated as a side-story-ish “what if” scenario.Also, is there any chance there'll be something similar for Step 4? Haha jk,,, unless 😳Questions apart let me thank you profoundly for making the best visual novel I've ever played 😭 Really really looking forward the epilogue and OL2 💕 Have a nice day 

It’s just a bonus side story that’s fully separate from the main game.

It would be nice to have one for Step 4 too, but I sadly don’t see us having time to actually do it. I don’t know, if people are still asking for more OL1 content several months from now it might be doable and worth doing.

I'd just like to ask, when is Baxter's birthday :0 -- I'm really curious esp with their zodiac signs so ;w; 

I don’t know, haha. Maybe I’ll come up with one someday.

Please help!! I bought the Step 3 DLC but I still have no idea how to get to where you can propose to Cove - any tips? 

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How do I get the option to propose to Cove at the end of the game?

You can click HERE for a discussion on that.

I love that Miranda and Terry are getting together! I'm curious if you have canon sexualities for them? Also just wanted to say how much I love OL and how much joy it brings me everytime I play it <3 

Terry likes ladies and Miranda likes dudes!

ngl Step 4 Terry's design reads like y'all see trans guys as their assigned gender more than you see them as men to me (a trans guy)... like maybe if he isn't heavily dysphoric, I could see it, but everything you've said about him doesn't line up with that. Even then, immediate warning bells go off in my head looking at him. I wouldn't have touched the game if I saw him ahead of time.

I’m sorry you aren’t comfortable with the way the design looks. The situation with Terry is that he’s now open about who he is, but the body he was born with is still physically the same. He only came out recently as an adult and hasn’t gone through any treatments/procedures yet (his chest is flatter because he wears a binder). However, even though his body hasn’t transitioned at the point Step 4 happens, no one treats him as anything other than the guy he is. Having a trans character who’s identity is supported/respected from the start is what we’re going for in this case. But what we’re doing with Terry isn’t the only trans content we’ve ever had/ever will have in the future.

how would baxter react to bae pyoun and vice versa? and can you please detailly explain both love interests personalities from our life 2: now and forever? i was just curious, sorry for dumb question!! 

I imagine it’d be pretty opposite experiences, haha. Bae would initially think Baxter is pushy and thoughtless, but would quickly realize, oh, he’s instead a soft, considerate boy. Very cute. Baxter would first be struck with the impression that Bae is charming and gentlemanly, but then would realize that, no, he’s a sarcastic asshole. And I’m afraid we can’t reveal the personalities for the next game yet.

Sorry if you've already answered this, but I have a question about the patreon exclusive moment you're working on. I was wondering if it's mainly going to be CGs or if it's mostly character sprites + backgrounds with some CGs.

Either way, thank you for doing the Lord's work and not only making Cove, but making this bonus moment as well 😌😌😌

It’s mostly sprites/backgrounds with two CGs!

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Someone submitted something in my inbox and they wanted to remain anonymous. Since this is an extremely long essay, I will put it under the cut. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK, YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!

xxx submitted: hey, i was the one who ask what do you think of Misha and Jensen's current relationship First off all thank you for your answear it means much to me cause im easy to be convice and this person who keep telling me that they are no longer friends can be so convicing, so I'm actully trying to forget what she said 😅 so I'm just writing a few. she said that since they no longer work together, they will forget about each other, and do their common things like the gay jokes, face touches ect. With other people, and neglect each other, don't talk to each other, and then meet new people who will replace the other. And and she talked about the gish thing, she said she sure they didn't talk since the end of the series, because Jensen didn't know where Misha was and Misha didn't know about the Radio Company vol 2 (but i saw people say that, they were just pretending, because Misha liked something about Radio Company Vol 2, before the gish live, so in theory he already knew then or something like that) and She said Misha wrote a poem about Darius not Jensen and now I will write down what she sent me : I saw a post about Jensen's current activities on social media, and I've come to the conclusion the only person he doesn't interact with is mish. Sadly this makes my break up theory even stronger. I feel like this is a goodbye to one of the biggest parts of my life. They've moved on from "uk what I haven't told you today? That i love u"+ from "miss my only jensen" from "i love u misha i mean it from the bottom of my heart" from "jensen has no flaws" from "misha is the funniest thing ever happened to me" from all that love and affection from everything they developed together and now they're apart leaving their lives like nothing happened and call me a dramatic but they both have the same energy now as someone has after a big break up. and Jensen comments on almost every of his friend’s post except Misha’s"+ Jenmish is genuinely the best thing that has ever happened in my entire life. I owe them literally everything. They're the reason i hold on. Unfortunately on this essay i have to start using past tense verbs for them, and i have to continue on that. I don't know for how long y'all been in spn fandom. But even if u joined one year before the show ended you'd know how close and intimate jensen and misha were. Everything about them was unmatched.+ The chemistry and how they just fit eachother. They had always been all over eachother. Like they were holding on eachother for dear life. They completed eachother and were like world's most powerful thing. They were the definition of soulmatism. No matter where, they ALWAYS kept interacting with eachother. Each possible tweet or insta post. On cons that the other wasn't there, the other one would bring up the othere's name for no absolute reason. +The looks and repeated love confessions. How invested they were both into eachother. The family they had built together cuz we know how close dee and mish are (look all the charity work they've been doing together recently). There are youtube videos to proof everything I've said so far.When i say break up, my real intention is that they've grown apart. Everything started in the the third or forth month of pandemic. Before than jensen used to interact +(comment mostly) on almost all of misha's posts. But after a while everything just stopped. At first personally didn't care that much. Bcuz I believed too much in them that I thought not even the gods above could separate them. I told myself maybe they spend long hours chatting or video calling and that's why online public interactions are gone. But as it passed it almost diminished to zero. Except some likes from jackles and eventual ones from misha there weren't anything else.+ We got absolutely no content and the show went off too. We were helpless and were sticking to everything we had Dee had a big social media shot down, so as jensen. Misha was busy with the election. We got some interviews for it with all of them. But we didn't get much.except remember both of them pulling a bff

move. and texted eachother during an online con where everyone else were dead-serious about politics? That flickered something in me. That showed me that+ they can't ever possibly let eachother go. And the times everyone else were talking and these too would just talk random things together (the one jackels had a white hat on with stacy abraham).And then Misha posted that for jensen's bday We really overlooked it. That shit was too intimate. To close. Fav march baby? U just don't go around and called ur bestie baby and when u mean it deeply. Especially not when ur friend is jensen ackles the "I suffered form internalized homophobia my whole life+ but fuck my wife's an angel and i have an angel bf too and another angel which is his wife but I'd rather die than come out cuz my asshole dad pulled a John winchester on me". It doesn't work like that. But uk how mish is. Carefree and open. I believe they got into a fight bcuz of this. He didn't even like the post. AND that was when the tiny bit of interactions we had was gone too. For a while jensen didn't even liked his posts. After a month it started again.What made me finally believe in that they had grown too+ far: I still remember the night misha posted that he and jensen were going to have a con for gish together. I remember how hard I cried. Lile the whole world was given to me. But deep down in my heart I knew that something would definitely happen. It didn't sit right with me and unfortunately my senses never lie to me. Jensen showed up at the wrong time bcuz of misunderstanding the time zones (this was HILARIOUS). That's not even my point.+ I've seen that interview 3 times so far. It always reminds me of when i saw my ex at a party and we were both so thrilled to see eachother and we still loved the other dearly, but we just couldn't work it out. Jensen and Misha's expressions were EXACTLY the same. The genuine smiles and longs pauses were they just stared at eachother. I'm so happy that it was online cuz if they actually gave that looks to eachother standing right next to the other one I would've collapsed. Misha didn't know that jensen's album+ was out. And he got so embarrassed when he found it out. He didn't know that jensen was on set and hadn't been home for 8weeks. Jensen had no idea where misha was. And this means that they hadn't talked in a long long time.When you're that close with someone for more than a decade, i mean THAT close, even if u're separated from eachother you'd at least check on the once a week, or at least once in two weeks. But it was vividly clear that they hadn't. I hate how this world works. They would always be in my heart.+ I would be thankful from them for everything. It hurts, and it won't stop and im so sure I'd be carrying this pain for a long time. They mean too much to a lot of us. Sometimes I think to myself that god i love them so much. Remember in 2019 when we used to get SO many jenmishdee interactions? That was LIT. It was THEE year for us. I hope they're doing good. I really do. I hope we don't get more proofs and I won't have to update this thread. Cuz my heart won't be taking it very+ well.Something i gotta add U may say that Jensen's busy and that's why he doesn't comment. But he comments on a lot of jared and his new costar's posts. So that's no excuse. So yeah that's it. I don't know what am I supposed to think. english isn't my native language, so sorry for the mistakes

Here is my response:

I don't know who this person who has been talking to is but I have to say they seem to be project their previous relationship experience on cockles.

I believe Jensen and Misha are okay and are together. Social media likes and comments don't mean anything. I mean it's not like Jensen or Misha used to comment on each other's posts before. Jensen didn't even wish Dee Happy Mother's Day this year, does that mean they are not together anymore? Nope. He has other best friends he has known for over 20 years like Jason Manns, Steve Carlson etc that he doesn't wish happy birthday, does that mean they are not friends anymore.

Please let's not put value on social media likes. I don't even follow my own family on sm and I don't always like or comment on my bf's or bff's posts on sm. So it doesn't mean anything.

As for the Gish Panel, I have talked about it before, the time Jensen was slotted to attend the panel, he was meant to answer fan questions. I honestly believe they decided to not do it at that time because they knew the questions would be about Destiel and not their new projects. If you watched that panel, Misha knew that Jensen's album was out as I pointed out. He was just trying to promote the album and soldier boy. He knew Jensen had also buffed out. It was all to promote Jensen. Anything else you hear is trolls and antis just being loud. Also don't forget Jensen called him "babe".

If Jensen and Misha weren't okay, he wouldn't have attended or participated all those panels Misha organized especially for Gish. Danneel also posts a lot about RA and likes Misha's posts. I am 100% Misha visited the Ackles when he went to Colorado last month.

Stop listening to trolls and/or antis or just people who are projecting and look at facts.

[orenjikaraka]

I’m Truly Sorry, please Forgive Me…

Rengoku Kyojuro x reader angst

Warnings: slight manga warning aka mainly akaza just slightly though, cursing, concerned for weight, angst

word count: 4279

AU: modern

(Y/N) woke up to an empty side of the bed, She wondered if he’s at work again, she sighed, she got up, she actually kind of disappointed that he's not here , ‘Kyojuro…’ she thought, she still felt tired, but kind of relieved in the same time, because she was on break, it was only for a week, but she’s glad that she doesn’t have to go to work today, ‘I should make dinner for him, because he usually comes back late at night’, when she got up, the floor was cold, ‘well crap now I’m awake’, she got dressed and went to the kitchen, she made Kyojuro’s dinner and made her breakfast, she put his plate in the fridge, and ate her breakfast alone while watching some shows.

After she finished her food, she was wondering if she should call him, to see if he was alright. But before she could even try, Genya was calling her, ‘weird timing’, and she answered “hi Genya, what’s up?” “O- oh hi (Y/N), I was wondering if Rengoku-San is doing ok, because he’s been working on a lot of paperwork, he usually be finish with it, and head to your home, but- but he been like this yesterday morning and I don’t- don’t think he left school?” ‘Now that you think about it, Kyojuro left early yesterday in the morning, I thought it would be like a meeting, but who takes meetings that early in the DAMN morning’ “maybe he just has extra work, he needs to do Genya”, “ trueee, but he looks exhausted, so I wondering if you could check on him?”

‘Awwww, Genya, still acting like a little brother, it’s no wonder he’ll be worried, heck I'm worried too, but usually when these things happen like this, he comes the next day, sleeping soundly on our bed…’ “Genya, sweetheart, don’t worry about it, he’ll be back probably late at night, and be sound asleep in my bed, so don’t worry” “but- but (Y/N)” ‘this boy…’ “Genya I’ll tell you what, if he doesn’t come this midnight, and if morning happens and he’s still not there, can you ask Sanemi to go check on him, because I’ll be busy tomorrow, and you know, some errands for the house and grocery stopping, also I chose Sanemi, because you’ll be busy with school you know” “i- I know, and o- ok” … “OH, (Y/N), I’m celebrating my birthday today. Would you like to come, Tanjiro and his sister will be there, and Sanemi of course, “oh I would love to, I don’t really have anything to do today anyway so sure!” “YES- wait I mean thank you… for… coming…” ‘hehe poor boy, probably made his classmates scared’ “your welcome Genya, also happy birthday!” “Thank you, (Y/N), bye” “bye”.

‘Oh, before I do anything I should go buy him a gift’ so (Y/N) put on some casual clothes, instead of just wearing Pajamas, and went to the mail.

—-

All the classes has ended, and Rengoku just finished a big batch of paperwork, he yawn, and checked if he was finished, he looked on his schedule and saw more paperwork has been placed with a big sticky note that says ‘Teacher of history class: Rengoku Kyojuro; must be finished by tomorrow!’ “Fuck…” he just wanted to go home and sleep with his beautiful wife, on that soft bed, “guess this will be my 4th coffee for the day…” he got up and yawn again, and stretched, his back pop, but not in the good way, “ow, ow, ow, never doing that again…”, he walked over, and picked his stack of paper he had to do, he sat it in his desk, and walked to the teachers lounge’s door, and opened it to the hallway, before he stepped out, he saw Genya with Sanemi, most likely walking home, he guessed, but he heard Genya saying before they left, “(Y/N), is coming over, for the party, I’m so glad she’s free today!” And as they left, Kyojuro felt frustrated, ‘why didn't she tell me anything…’ he yawned again, “God, these yawns are getting on my nerves, I need my coffee…”

When he made it to the teachers lunch room, he started to make his coffee, when it finished, he drinks it, unusually fast, but unsatisfied, by the results, ‘ima have another’ so he made another, and drink it the exact speed as the last one, satisfied by the 2nd coffee, he was gonna go back to the teachers lounge, but saw a small box that had some sweet rolls, on the box it said, ‘you may only take one’, but Kyojuro had a craving to eat the whole damn box, all those coffees are really messing up his appetite, ‘who’s gonna notice these anyway, I eat most of the stuff here, so who gives a damn’ ‘but then again… I’ll gain some weight…’ he put one hand on his side, and felt some fat, it’s not noticeable, but it’s still pudge, ‘maybe I regret being a teacher, all this damn paperwork, and exhaustion, and drinking all this coffee really affecting my body…’ when he was thinking about all this stuff and he was about to ditch it and left,  but hunger was just raging in his stomach so ‘ok, ok, maybe some won’t hurt’ and took the whole damn box and left for the teachers lounge.

—-

(Y/N) was at Sanemi’s house celebrating Genya’s birthday, everything was going great and to (Y/N), she was surprised that Sanemi was having a great time too. It was kind of sad that Kyojuro wasn’t there, he would be giving Genya tons of gifts, but sadly he’s still at work, it made (Y/N) a bit disappointed again, but she wanted to just hope, he’s doing ok, “(Y/N), what’s wrong?” “Oh, Sanemi, I’m just worried for my husband is all…” “don’t worry about it, like you said to Genya, if he doesn’t show up to your house tomorrow morning, I’ll go check on him, just relax and don’t worry about it” “ok…” “quick (Y/N), I’m blow the heck out of the candles!!” Genya said, (Y/N) laughed, “ok!!, come on Sanemi, get off that couch of yours, and stop being lazy” Sanemi smirk “ohhhh really, I’ll prove to you, that I’m not” he gets up, “I like to see you try!!” Sanemi and (Y/N) laughed after that, and went over to the kitchen to celebrate Sanemi’s little bro's birthday.

—-

After Genya’s birthday celebration was over, (Y/N) went straight home, to relax and just vibe at home, when she took her shower and other little chores and pajamas on, she was about to fell on her bed, but she heard a knock on her door, she immediately turned around and hope it was Kyojuro, when she opened it, her excitement immediately stopped, she saw akaza, “sorry to bother you Mrs. Rengoku, but I’m just here to drop some stuff off”, “who stuff is it?” “Just Rengoku-sans” “oh ok, thanks akaza, oh also is he still at work?” Akaza sighed “yeah… I kind of feel bad for the guy, been working his ass off over some stupid extra paperwork…”, ‘I’ll remind Sanemi tomorrow to go check on him’, “akaza, before you leave, thanks again I appreciate it”, “your welcome, and have a great night!” Akaza waved goodbye and walked away, ‘akaza, I hope that boy relationship is better then mine, because he needs it, he’s such a sweet boy…’ (Y/N) closed the door, and looked in the box, it had finished paperwork inside it.

‘Ren… you really need to take a break…’

—-

The next evening is even more tiring than before, Kyojuro looks more warned out; he looks like he's gonna faint any minute, but that coffee stops him from doing so. ‘Fuck me… my eyes hurt so much…’ Kyojuro yawned again. The teacher's office door opened, Kyojuro didn’t give a damn who it was, because he felt like passing out. “Rengoku”, … “Kyojuro”, … “HEY, I know you can hear me, don’t play du-“ “how about you shut your mouth Sanemi” “tch, hey I’m only here because your wife sent me here to check up on you, not for you to be a asshole to me” that annoyed Kyojuro “why the hell are you with my (Y/N)” “Ren, she’s like a sister to me, even though we’re not related, I still see her as family, so why the fuck you think, I be behind your back with that” Kyojuro sighed and stood from his chair “where is she” “she’s out doing errands, she wanted to come over here and check on you, but house chores and grocery shopping” Kyojuro sat back down and trying to finish what he was left off “ok, leave, I have work to do, so buzz off”.

“Are you listening to yourself right now, your just gonna go back on your work instead of paying attention to (Y/N)” “no, I need to finish it, for my job, someone needs to pay the bills in the house” Sanemi got pissed off by that, then he chuckled “tch, no wonder (Y/N) comes to my house, when she’s all tearing up, because someone needs to give her attention and that someone is not you” Kyojuro stood up and put his hands by Sanemi’s shirt, Sanemi can see that flame in his eyes, the rage… “Sanemi if you lay a finger on-“ “maybe I should, I can treat her better than you…” Kyojuro was about to punch him, but the door opened again, and Genya was there, poor boy was shocked, “let go, Rengoku” Sanemi made Kyojuro let go, Sanemi walked over to Genya, and reassured him, Kyojuro just stared back and a overflowing guilt fell on him, Sanemi looked back with rage and discuss in his eyes, “Ren, you need to get your act together, if you can’t do that, she’s gonna move on, and divorce you…” then slammed the door. 

Sanemi walked out with Genya and head home, but before he touched the door knob, his phone rings, he got his phone out of his pocket and saw (Y/N) on the screen, he answers, “hey what’s up” “hey can I come spend the night at your house” Sanemi was surprised, “oh… why-“ “Genya texted me, that the talk you had with Ren, didn’t go so well…” ‘she sounds depressed’ “hey… is everything ok…” ‘wait, why would I ask such a dumb question’ “kinda… I'm just sick of being alone at home…” “yeah, want me to come pick you up” “yes…” “ok, I’ll come pick you up in 10 minutes from now” “thanks Sem Sem, I appreciate it” Sanemi chuckled, “your welcome, (Y/N)…” 

—-

It was late at night again, and Kyojuro was still at work doing paperwork, he felt like knocking out, his eyes were drooping and his back hurts, ‘me, an jerk, fuck off Sanemi…’ ‘maybe I should call her…’ Kyojuro stop doing his work and picked up his phone off the desk and started to call her, it rings and rings and rings, until a voicemail happens, “hi this is (Y/N), I might be busy with my husband, so please understand, leave a message after the beep”, *bee-* He canceled it before it even tried to go to voicemail, ‘why should I even try again, it’s midnight’ he put his phone down and he wanted to rest his eyes ‘maybe, I am a jerk’ then he denied it ‘no, I need to finish this work…’ yawned again, ‘actually maybe a small nap won’t hurt, right?’ He laid on his arms, and wondered ‘am I really a bad husband, mom if you were here, what would you say about this…’ Kyojuro slowly fell asleep on his desk.

—-

It was midnight and (Y/N) didn’t want to call back Kyojuro, she saw the missed call from him, but she was shocked to think he would call her, she sighed and tried to go to sleep but couldn’t, maybe she’s overreacting about Kyojuro, she knows his job can be overwhelming, but… but… she’s tearing up, she’s sobbing, she’s quivering, she lift herself up, and put her arms around her legs. 

Sanemi was fast asleep in the living room couch, Genya couldn’t really sleep because what happened in the teachers lounge, what Sanemi said and what Rengoku said, he felt guilt swelling up in his heart, then he hear (Y/N) sobbing in Sanemi’s master bedroom, he sit up, and opened his door, and quietly walked to his brother’s room, slowly opened the door, and saw (Y/N), he felt horrible, he closed the door behind him, and slowly touched her back and slowly rubs her back, “hey, (Y/N)… everything will be ok…” (Y/N) let go of her arms and slowly hugged Genya, she was sobbing on his shoulder, he hugged her back, and give light rubs on her back, and whispered “everything is going to be fine”, it slowly calmed her down, and she looked up at Genya, her puffy eyes made him felt terrible, “I’m sorry I woke you up Genya, it’s just so much is happening…” “no, no, no, it’s fine, your stressed out because what’s all happening and I completely understand that'', “thanks Genya…” “do you need anything else, (Y/N)” she paused and still looked gloomy, “can you sleep with me, It’s hard for me to sleep”, Genya spaced out and it was a little out of the blue for him, “sur- sure, if it- it helps you sleep- I com- completely understand” his cheeks were slightly pink, (Y/N) laughed because he looks so cute, when’s he’s blushy, “thanks Genya'' she made a small smile, that made Genya stop blushing, he smiled back, he stood up, and started to fix his side of the bed, and he walked out and walked back in for his phone, (Y/N) layed down on her side of the bed, and Genya rested on the left side, “thanks again Gen Gen…” “your welcome (Y/N)…” and they both fell asleep. 

—-

Sanemi woke up first, because he needs to get Genya ready for school and everything, like make his breakfast and stuff, he left his main clothes in the living room because he didn’t want to wake up (Y/N), he got dressed and he head to Genya’s room, to wake him up, when he got there and opened the door, he wasn’t there, ‘where you go?’ Then he look at his room, and slowly walked to his room and opened it, and saw Genya sleeping on the left side and (Y/N) on the right, ‘she must’ve had a hard time sleeping, so she asked Genya…’ he still felt frustrated from yesterday, ‘maybe I should call for a day off today, because of (Y/N)’ so he slowly closed the door and called his boss, he said Genya’s not feeling well and that Genya has to stay home, and he had to stay home and take care of him, he ended the call and started to make breakfast for the both of them, he made there plates first, then he made his, his room door opened and Sanemi’s head looked at the direction, and saw Genya walked out then (Y/N), they both yawn, “I smelled pancakes, so I woke up first” (Y/N) said, Genya just shook up, “wait!, ima be late for school!”, then Sanemi quickly said “you dork, I told them we have a day off!, so calm down…``''oh…”, (Y/N) laughed on the two brothers, “why did you call a day off Sanemi?” “Because of you, I saw Genya slept on the other side of the bed, so I thought, you had a hard time sleeping” “I did and Genya helped, isn’t that little dude” “HEY, I’m not around the same age, but I am like twice your size!”, (Y/N) laughed, it made the brothers smile, because it’s better to see their friend happy instead of so sorrowful, “hey, Sanemi… later from today, can you drop me at the school, I need to talk to Rengoku'' Sanemi was a bit surprised to hear her say his last name, “sure, I can, but if anything happens I’ll be in the hallway, and if anyone ask why I’m there, I’ll just say, I’m waiting on someone” “thanks Sanemi” she smiled softly “your welcome (Y/N), if anything happens I’ll rush in there” 

“Thanks and I appreciate it”

—-

It was the afternoon and Kyojuro woke up from his nap, he felt all horrible, his back still hurts, his eyes has deep bags under them, and his body has a trill to drink more coffee, he tried stretching again, but the aches on his back felt like needles piercing through his skin “well that just fucking hurts” he touched his sides and his back, because they were hurting like hell, ‘hope this day, won’t get any worse as it is’, the teacher’s lounge door opened and right when he looked up, he saw his beautiful (Y/N), she looked dreadful, “hi…” she spoke, he felt guilt in his heart because how sad she sounds, “hi…” “can we talk, Rengoku…”, Kyojuro felt even more guilt, why is she calling me that, like we’re strangers all over again he thought, “baby, why are you not calling me by my-“ “Ren, why aren’t you coming home” that guilt slowly turns into frustration, “because I have a job, and I need to pay the bills for us to survive…” “yes, but doesn’t mean you stay up and at your job for three days straight”, “so-“, now (Y/N) slightly raising her voice “what do you mean so!, look at yourself, you been sitting in your desk, drinking coffee, have horrible bags under your eyes, you look like your gonna knock out, Rengo-“ “STOP CALLING ME BY MY LAST NAME” that terrified her, but she still stood her ground, “why should I!! I have been ignored for the past three days! You don’t even give me a text that ‘I’ll be still at work!’ Or at least something comforting!” “Oh (Y/N)!, why don’t you stop being a sensitive little bitch!, and just grow up!” 

Kyojuro eyes went wide, shocked to why he even said that, (Y/N) was trembling, her tears were streaming down her cheeks, Kyojuro wanted to help her calm down, but when he tried to reach for her, she backed up, Kyojuro felt horrible, he felt like he wanted to get punched, his voice was shaky, “(Y/N)…” he tried to touch her shoulder again, but she back up again, “don’t touch me…” his heart shattered when he heard her and how scared she is, “(Y/N), I’m sorry…”, it was silent, until she said “Kyojuro…, no wonder your just like your father…”, and she ran out just like that, Kyojuro was speechless, he wanted to run after her, but couldn’t, because she was right, Kyojuro started tearing up and quavering.

“Am I really…”

——

(Y/N) was running away from the school, the students that were leaving school saw her with sad looks on there faces, Sanemi was behind yelling her name, She just wanted to go far, far, far away from this horrible school, Sanemi chack up, and grabbed her by the arm, “LET GO!!” And Sanemi turned her around, “hey, it’s me, it's me…”, she hugged Sanemi and he hugged back, he picked her up, “it’s going to be ok… shhh.. everything going to be ok… I’ll take you back to my house…”

When they got there, Genya looked worried for (Y/N), she was crying silently, Sanemi wanted to put her down, but she didn’t let go, “(Y/N)?”, “can- can, you and Genya, stay up with me…, be- because I don’t think I can sleep…” Sanemi felt horrible, he should’ve just stepped in, but he wanted to give them space and respect their personal conversation, “sure, (Y/N), anything to make you positive and not stressed, I can do that” ‘hearing that from Sanemi was strange, because usually he’s always stern or blatantly aggressive, but he always would hide his anger on me’ “tha- thanks, Sem Sem…” Sanemi made a small pleasant smile that also made her smile, “hey, (Y/N), how about we watch a movie for the night?” 

“Sure, I would love that…”

——

When Kyojuro got home, he was not surprised that she wasn’t here, his fist clenched, and he slammed the door behind him, he was starving, because he felt like if he ate, he’ll just throw up, but he had to eat something, so he walked over to the kitchen and opened the fridge, and saw some dinner, wrapped in foil, and a sticky note on top, he picked up the note, and it read, ‘hi, love, I’m glad your home, finished this amazing dinner I made, I worked really hard on it, so I hope you like it!’ Also ps. When you finish come cuddle with me! <3’, a teardrop fell on the note, and his hand was shaking, it started to become hard to read, because the tears kept flowing, he closed the fridge, and decided to not eat it, the note was now on the floor but he didn’t care, he just wanted to go to sleep, and just hope this is all a nightmare…

After he took his shower and got ready for bed, he wanted to call her again, so he did, but right when he clicked the call button, it went straight to voicemail, he hung up, before her cute voice can say anything, he tossed his phone on her side of the bed, and sat down on his side of the bed, his quivering got worriedly worst, his breathing was uneven, “(Y/N)… please come… back… I’m… nothing like my father…” 

“Please… I’m sorry… please come back…”

—-

The following morning, Sanemi woke up first, he got up quietly, stretched his back and popped his joints. He was gonna start breakfast for everyone, but he heard a knock on the door, “who the hell can that be?”, he opened the door and saw Kyojuro, he looked exhausted as usual, but he was well dressed, his hair looks kind of messy, “can I see her, I need to talk to her…” his voice sounds raspy, “no, also please leave, she doesn’t want company at the moment” Sanemi was about to close the door but Kyojuro put his foot on the side, so it won’t close, “please… I must talk to her…” Sanemi hated being in the middle of this, but he can’t just do nothing, (Y/N) was upset about and to see her not happy, makes him wants to punch the hell out of whoever made her unhappy, “listen Rengoku, I don’t want to beat the living pulp out of you, so if you mind, just fucking leave” “I’m not leaving until I talk to her!” He can see those flames in his eyes again. “Why you-“

“Sanemi, who is that?”, (Y/N) woke up, then Genya woke up after, Sanemi turned around with a sad look, “it’s no one” “that’s a lie, (Y/N) please… come out and open the door so we can talk… please…” (Y/N) was shocked to hear Kyojuro at the other side of the door, Sanemi turn back “dude, I told you-“ “Sanemi, let me go talk to him” she stood and walked over to the door, Sanemi turned back, with sternness, but he couldn’t say no, so he opened the door fully and walked to his room and told Genya to follow, but before the two boys went to Sanemi’s room, Sanemi said this, “if you hurt her, your dead you hear”, and both the both the boys were out of sight, it was just (Y/N) and Kyojuro.

“What is it, Rengoku…”

“Look I know you hate me, but please hear me out…” he stepped in and got a little closer.

(Y/N) sighed and nodded in response.

“(Y/N), I’m sorry, that I ignored your text, your calls, and most of all, I’m sorry that I ignored you, it breaks my heart to see you so sad and stressed out, to see you so scared and frightened of me, I don’t want you to see me as my father, I'm truly sorry, please forgive me… I’ll never treat you like this ever again…” his voice was cracking while he talked, but it truly hurt to see him like this, “I’ll prov- prove to you that I’m a worthy husband to you…” he was quivering, “I- I- love you- you, (Y/N)… please don’t leave me… I’m sorry…” “please… I’ll do better-“ 

(Y/N) hugged him back she was sobbing, but at least she didn’t walk away from him, he hugged her back, and kept saying sweet sorrys, in her ears, giving her kisses, and making her feel loved…

“I’m sorry… my love…”

“Kyojuro… I forgive you…”

“You do!” he sounded like a lost puppy and that make her laughed

“Yes, Koy” she smiled 

Kyojuro had the brightest smile, and it made her even more happy.

She hugged him again and he hugged back, “hey koy~”

Hm~”

“Love the new you~” she hugged around his waist.

He blushed, “(Y/N)…” he said shyly he covered his face on her shoulder.

She giggled, “I love you, koy~”

“I love you too, sweetheart~”

[therealvinelle]

Hi! I was reading through your meta (which is reeeeally interesting) and noticed you said you don't like Eleazar? I was wondering why that was?

Tumblr ate this ask when I had almost finished it and I hate everything. Also, thanks for the compliment, I’m really glad you like my things.

Now to try and remember what I wrote about Eleazar…

I think Eleazar is a disagreeable person whose gift wasn’t useful enough to warrant a place in the Volturi guard, and Aro jumped on the Carmen-shaped excuse to give him an honorable discharge.

To start with the gift, we see him use it twice and neither time is particularly impressive.

Siobhan Siobhan has the power of reality manipulation. Her gift is noticeable enough that Carlisle is certain she has it, so when he gets Eleazar and Siobhan in a room together he pulls Eleazar over to see if he was right. Eleazar squints at Siobhan. And he squints. Finally he says, «I’ve got nothing.» Now, gifts are an iffy, complicated matter everyone has their own theories about, but I think that at the end of the day we can all agree it’s a binary, you’re gifted or you’re not. Some gifts may be weak, but those are still gifts. And maybe someone will touch the gray zone of «is it a gift or is Johnny the vampire just really good at juggling?», but Siobhan has the power to manipulate reality, and she must do it a lot for Carlisle to have come to suspect it in the first place. She has a definitive and powerful gift. And even if I’m wrong about gifts being binary, if Eleazar wants to be useful to Aro he should still be able to say: Yes, this person has a gift, or no, this person does not have a gift. Sadly, he is not. When brought before Siobhan he says «She could have a gift, she could also not have a gift.» This means he hasn’t detected her gift, which is bad enough by itself. Being able to tell if someone has a gift or not should be a dealbreaker. The way he answers, though, that she could very well have a gift he doesn’t know about, makes it clear that people having gifts he couldn’t detect has happened enough for him to be open to the possibility that the gift there, and he can’t see it. In other words, Eleazar isn’t reliable for detecting gifts and will give Aro false negatives.

Bella This is an aside but as it’ll inevitably come up later in my blog I’ll just drop here that I think Bella’s gift is something more complex than a shield. She has prophetic dreams, hallucination!Edward, and there’s a weird inconsistency as to who is blocked by her and who isn’t. I think her gift is self-preservation, and the shield is one of its manifestations. Anyway, onto discrediting Eleazar. (I’ll be pretty closely paraphrasing what happens in chapter 31 of Breaking Dawn, but since the interaction goes on for several pages I’m not going to clutter this post by pasting all of it.) To his credit, he does notice Bella right away, and he identifies her as a shield based on the fact that he gets this sense of nothingness from her. This is all he can do, however, and I can’t stress that enough. He assumes that she can block Edward, but he’s shocked to learn that she can block Aro. He’s just as surprised that she can block Jane and Alec. He has to interview her to deduce exactly what her gift does, which again has nothing to do with his gift. Anyone could ask questions, in fact Aro found all this out two books ago, without the help of Eleazar. Eleazar then starts musing aloud about who-would-win in a Renata vs. Bella showdown (more on that later), which is as tactless as it is revealing. The guy genuinely doesn’t know, and it’s because he doesn’t understand their gifts well enough. Eleazar’s power means he can tell Bella that she has a gift, and he knows roughly what it is. He muses that usually he can’t even tell that much, which again is quite damning. He can’t tell her exactly what she does without a game of 20 questions first. She gives him more information than he gives her, which he then regurgitates back to her with slightly different wording, and everybody claps. «My god, Eleazar, you’ve done it again!» (No, really, this is pretty much what happens. Eleazar brought no new information to the table, yet he blew Bella and Edward’s minds.) It’s all fun and games to do this for Bella and Edward, as they for various reasons genuinely didn’t realize she had a gift. For Aro, who figured this one out on his own, one begins to wonder what Eleazar was bringing to the table.

Carlisle Bonus bullet point! I’ll make this one brief. I believe Carlisle in canon has a gift he’s unaware of (Yes, I have a post planned, but it will get ugly long so god knows when it’ll come), which makes him another one of Eleazar’s gift detection fails. In short, I think he’s extremely charismatic, able to win over anybody. To list a few examples - he has an extremely diverse set of friends who in Breaking Dawn are willing to lay down their lives for him, Jacob muses how his instinctive hostility around vampires doesn’t apply to Carlisle, and vampires are terrifying to humans (don’t be fooled by the movies, people) yet Carlisle is able to work as a successful doctor, meaning his patients don’t mind being exposed to a killing machine even when they’re at their most vulnerable. He’s able to keep his family of sociopaths in line. There’s not a single person in the Twilight ‘verse that dislikes him. (Billy and Caius excepted, but Billy has no direct exposure to him until late Eclipse, and Caius is responding to a coven that’s potentially threatening the Volturi) People are free to disagree with me on this one, but if I’m right (and I have a lot of book quotes as well as a theory on what gifts even are to back me up on this one. I’m right, damnit!) then Carlisle is another gifted vampire Eleazar failed to detect.

So. We’ve established that Eleazar’s gift will yield false negatives, and that he can’t tell you much about the gifts he does detect.

I think his power is to point out the obvious.

Which means that Aro’s eyelid was twitching slightly, but alright, Eleazar could still be useful.

Unfortunately, there is the matter of weighing up your pros with your cons.

The Volturi are, at the end of the day, a group of people who live in a commune together. Coven, guard, evil minions, call them what we like but they’re exposed to each other and some sense of agreeability is required. And Chelsea is not omnipotent.

More, I imagine that in a coven as large and old as the Volturi, they’ve developed a culture of their own. This means that newcomers will need social awareness and a willingness to fit in.

Eleazar, from what we see of him in Breaking Dawn, appears to lack both.

It’s in the way he speaks of the people he used to work with. It’s utterly impersonal. He tells us how their gifts work, no more and no less. When he speaks of Aro, he speaks only of actions Aro took and orders he gave, nothing about the man’s personality. Now, considering the context, he was speaking in a context where Jane’s thoughts and feelings were far from relevant, but it’s still notable.

Also notable is the fact that he has no issue contemplating a Renata vs. Bella scenario, even though this would mean the deaths of two people he worked with for years. Perhaps it’s a thought exercise, but it’s not a thought exercise I would have gotten into when it was days away from becoming reality. If Renata can’t deflect Bella’s power, she and Aro die.

I’ll put it this way - I don’t think he’d do a «who would win» like this involving Carmen.

At no point in the book does Eleazar show any concern for the eventuality that members of a guard he used to be a part of may get killed.

It seems he didn’t form personal relationships with the rest of the guard. I suspect he considered himself... if not quite above them, then still someone who could evaluate them. Their gifts is what he looked at in them. I also think it’s likely he asked Aro not to use Chelsea on him, which in turn would have made him stick out even more as there’s nothing making him and Volturi Guard Member X just click in the way I imagine Chelsea can be very helpful with. Which in turn means that the other guard members will feel close to one another in a way they’re not close to Eleazar.

Also… he’s just a douche. I’m sorry, but I don’t make the rules and the whole guy radiates douche. I can’t even point to a specific quote in the book, it’s just is.

I don’t think this guy never really fit into the Volturi guard, and his gift wasn’t useful enough to keep him. Aro was thrilled to have him at first, but as time went on and Eleazar proved to just not be all that, he eventually realized he had to get rid of him.

Because as others have pointed out before me, the Carmen excuse makes no sense. There would be no problem in one more vampire in the castle, yet Aro wouldn’t let her in and Eleazar had to choose.

It was a solution that sent Eleazar on his way with his ego intact, and no hard feelings towards the Volturi. More, Aro is on record doing this with it’s-not-you thing with at least one other vampire. Laurent wanted to join the Volturi, had nothing to bring to the table, and Aro used past association with the Romanians as an excuse for why Laurent couldn’t join rather than tell him to his face that he was useless. With Marcus, Aro, and Chelsea around, the Romanian connection isn’t a problem, meaning Aro was bullshitting.

TL;DR: Aro is the kind of person who’d lie and say his grandma died if he doesn’t want to go to your party, and Eleazar is the kind of person who’d say «My condolences».

[bts-reveries]

young one | 22

(images in between and at the end!)

JUNGKOOK’S POV

It was one in the afternoon. You have just woken up and you just wanted to close your eyes for the day to go by faster. At one point you know you’d wake up and your girl and your son would be coming back home. At that point you’d get up.

Your phone rang beside you and you opened up one eye. Reaching out to the empty side of the bed for your phone. 

It was your friend.

Sungjae specifically. 

But you weren’t feeling it today so you let it go to voicemail. 

After the call ended, you saw several text messages from all of your friends. From both group chats. Unfortunately, none of them were from Yn. Your friends sent their good morning texts and daily pictures of their kids. It was your guys’ thing to do that. You all just loved each other’s kids so much. Yoongi hyung seem to still be upset over the fact that Hana is starting to attract boys at school. I mean, who can blame her? Just like your other nieces, they were beautiful and definitely will be heartbreakers in the future. Your other friends on the other hand were bringing you food. You don’t like saying no, because you think this is their way of keeping you company and distracted during this sad time... but you just weren’t feeling like it today. 

▼ the text messages you woke up to ▼

-

“What are you up to?” Taehyung called you unexpectedly, but of course, you couldn’t just let his facetime go on a missed call. Taehyung’s different.

“Cleaning,” you answered.

“Cleaning? There’s only one of you, how messy could the apartment be?” he replies. You scratch your head, laughing sheepishly. 

“Well…” you switch the camera to the back camera and show your hyung the mess you’ve made along with your friends.

“JUNGKOOKAH!” Taehyung yells in surprise. “What the heck! What do you do?”

“Uhh… my friends are quite messy..”

“You have your friends over? I never get an invite anymore,” Taehyung says with a pout.

“Well,” you say, biting your lip, “I don’t really invite anyone over, my friends come unannounced most of the time.”

“Do you like them over?”

“Y-yeah.. I guess so. I don’t mind I guess,” you say. “Plus, it would be rude for me to kick them out. They come over and bring me food and I don’t know, they know Yn and I don’t live together right now so I guess they just want to keep me company.”

Taehyung quirks up an eyebrow at you, then squints his eyes. 

“I see… well, if they’re going to come over, unannounced, they should at least help clean up? You know, making a mess in someone else's house is more rude than kicking them out. It’s your place, if you don’t like it, you have the right to tell them not to come next time.”

“It’s okay hyung, don’t worry. I don’t mind. Cleaning up relaxes me anyways-”

“What’s wrong? Why do you need to relax, are you feeling okay?” Taehyung interrupts, feeling a bit worried as he senses something wrong.

“Yeah, I don’t know. I just feel a little off today. But I’ll be okay! Don’t worry about me, I’m sure I’ll feel better after I clean up everything… here,” you answer, sighing over the mess you had in front of you. 

“Okay, well I’ll leave you to it then,” Taehyung says.

“Okay hyung, I’ll see you,” you say, waving at the camera. 

“Okay, well I’ll stop by tonight. I’m letting you know before going like a polite person,” Taehyung says, mockingly. “Bye Jungkookiee~”

“Bye hyung, I’ll see you later then,” you say, ending the call. You put down your phone and sigh. “Okay let’s get started.”

-

After picking up all the mess, the old pizza boxes, the empty cans, and going down to take them to the trash and recycling bins, you were finally done. 

But you didn’t want to stop there. So you went to your room to clean up there as well.

Unsurprisingly, it was pretty clean. It’s mostly empty. It’s pretty empty. Well, the only time you’re ever in there now is to sleep. 

So a U-turn has been made and you went your way to Sian’s room instead. 

Again.

Empty. 

And suddenly, you felt pretty empty as well. 

You dropped the vacuum you were holding onto and walked inside the quiet room. You shivered as you felt a cold breeze. 

You missed the sound of Sian’s laugh and, surprisingly, stepping on his legos whenever you entered. You don’t know how long the two will be gone. You’re hoping not forever. You know it won’t be forever. But you know, you never know what may happen in Busan that might make Yn and Sian stay. But you’re hoping everything goes well there so they can come back home and the three of you would be a happy family again. 

It looked like Sian packed most of his toys and brought them to Busan with him, so the room really felt empty. 

You scan your eyes around the room and scrunch your brows as you see something poking out from underneath Sian’s bed. You walk over, bending down to pull the fuzzy thing poking out from underneath.

It was Sian’s bunny. You frowned at the thought of Sian forgetting his favorite bunny back home. 

This was the first toy the two of you had ever gotten him.

~ flash back ~

“What about this?” You say, turning to Yn, showing her a small stuffed bear. She scrunches her nose, holding her hand on her belly. 

“We call him little bunny… Kookie. Don’t you think a bunny would make sense?” she laughs as you scrunch your nose. She knew the little baby in her belly was going to be just like his daddy. 

“Nevermind then,” You say, putting down the stuffed bear. “I can’t find a bunny though…” Yn walks over to you and pinches your cheek because she thought you just looked too cute when you pout. 

“I hope our Sianie bunny looks just like you,” she tells you.

“Because I’m cuter?” you joke. She glares at you as you say this, making you laugh. 

“Whatever Jeon, let’s find a bunny so we can go home,” she pouts, “we’re hungry..”

“Well let’s get some food then!” Jungkook says, grabbing hold of your hand and, basically, dragging you out of the store.

“Wait!” she says, stopping you from speed walking out.

“What is it, are you okay?” you ask her, putting your hand on her stomach. 

“Yeah we’re fine, but look!” she points. You turn your head to the direction she’s pointing at. And of course, there it was.

A big, white bunny. Perfect for your little one.

-

fast forward months and months and months later ▸▸

-

“Jungkook, can you watch Sian while I take a shower?” Yn asks you. She looked exhausted and you can hear your baby crying on the bed behind her.

“Of course, take your time,” you tell her. She’s been working hard, I mean, you’d like to think you both are. Being new parents and all. Yn finished the school year when she was pregnant with Sian, and she’s going to be taking a break as of now to be a full time mommy. She says she’ll finish whenever she’s ready. But you, you’re done. So as the father of your new, little family, you think of yourself as the breadwinner. 

You didn’t have a super stable job… yet… but what you have right now is good enough. 

You walk up to Sian, who’s still on the bed, pouting. Something Yn says he got from you. You knew exactly what would make him happy.

“Sianie! Look!” you yell, taking out his bunny stuffed toy. Immediately your son’s face lit up, reaching out for the bunny. 

“You love him right! Mommy and daddy got this for you before you even came out,” you explain, poking his little belly, making him laugh. “Mommy says I look like a bunny and she says you hopped in her belly whenever I’d talk to you so she said you’d come out just like me.” You couldn’t help but lean down to pepper kisses all over your baby as he chews on the bunny’s ears. You sigh. 

“Aigoo..Please never get bigger, you look so cute like this,” you pout, pressing a finger to his cheek. 

-

fast forward even more months and a year later ▸▸

-

“Where’s Sian?” Yn asked you from the kitchen, holding Sian’s lunch. You look at her with wide eyes, knowing darn well that Sian was on the living room floor in front of you eating candy that you weren’t supposed to give him. 

“No idea,” you lied. Yn put Sian’s food down on the table and walked straight to you and you tried to snatch the candy away from your son. But even at a young age, he knew what you were doing and pulled away before you could reach it. 

“What is that?” Yn says as she comes closer, seeing her son sucking on something red. “Jungkook!” she yells, giving you a look as she takes the candy from Sian. He cries immediately and she picks him up from the ground to take him to the kitchen table. “He’s not going to want to eat now, why would you do that.” She’s pouting now because she’s upset with you. 

“Yes he will,” you say, reassuring her. You grab Sian’s bunny off the ground and bring it towards the two.

“Sian look, bunny is going to eat all your food if you don’t eat it,” you say, pulling the tray in front of you. You bent the bunny closer to the food and made “eating” noises to pretend he was eating all of Sian’s food. 

“No! No!” Sian yells, lips quivering as he reaches for the food. “That mine…” he says sadly. Yn looks up at you and smiles. You mouth an “I told you so” at her and she playfully rolls her eyes at you. You slid the tray back to you and Sian and he doesn’t hesitate with his little spoon, digging in. 

“Thank you,” she mouths back at you.

-

fast forward to Sian getting ready for his first day of school ▸▸

-

“Where’s bunny?” Sian says, as the two of you were packing his school supplies. You quirk an eyebrow up at him.

“You’re taking bunny to school?” you ask. He looked at you as if you just asked the STUPIDEST question in the world.

“Daddy he has to go with me. If you can’t come, who else would be my friend,” he pouts, searching under his blankets for his favorite stuffed toy. You smile at your little boy. Who suddenly… didn’t feel so little anymore. Your heart ached at the thought. 

“You’ll make lots of new friends,” you say. “You’re charming, just like daddy,” you say with a little smirk and an eyebrow lift. “Who could say no to you?”

“I still need bunny to make me feel safe daddy… please help me find him,” Sian says, ignoring everything you had just said.

“Okay okay,” you give in, “I think mommy washed him, he should be in the dryer.” Sian turned to you in horror.

“OH NO!” he yelled, “the dryer is dangerous for a bunny!” He tells you with wide eyes, before running out of the room.

“D-don’t blame me! Mommy did it!”

~ end of flashbacks ~

You bring the bunny to your heart as you just got a wave of memories of Sian’s past. You wondered how he’s surviving without his bunny right now. Usually he can’t sleep without it. How did he get through the other nights without him? Better yet, without you?

Yn would usually call you at night to talk to Sian before he slept, maybe that helps. But without his bunny??

Maybe you’re going to have to visit them. You know, just to drop the bunny off. 

Thinking about seeing them in person and even getting to hug them makes you happy, but you know it isn’t right. 

You’re on a break for a reason, you want to give them some space. It’s for the best. 

Anyways, you take his bunny to your room, putting him on your night stand.

Right next to the little box that held your future with Yn.

And your debt to Yoongi hyung.

young one

♛ part twenty-two: bunny ♛

pairings: photographer, dad!jungkook x hostess, mom!reader

a/n: this was different from what i usually do, but i hope you like it!

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