#queerplatonic buddie

[neptune-scythe]

[cptnswanbarnes]

does anyone else think it feels more true to eddie’s character in the terms of the romance department for him to be aromantic?

listen, i started the show years ago for buddie, i would die if it became canon, but i genuinely think that aromantic eddie and queerplatonic buddie would be an even more rewarding storyline than romantic buddie. but just because eddie wouldn’t love buck romantically, in this scenario, doesn’t mean it’s not just as deep and powerful. and buck could also be with tommy (and mayyyybe also eddie and tommy eventually), or someone else. i know they’d never do that though :(((

[queerfables]

Actually wait I'm putting my aro Eddie agenda aside for a moment let's talk about aro Buck, who is so so desperate to keep people that it doesn't even occur to him to ask himself if he loves them. He wants so hard. He wants a partner, someone who will put him first, someone who knows him and understands him and chooses him, chooses him with all that he is. Maybe if he's being really selfish and honest about it, he wants more than one person like that. A family. But the only framework he has for getting that in a way he trusts he'll get to keep is through a romantic relationship, and for some reason no matter how carefully he does the relationship steps, he keeps fucking it up by wanting them too hard but in a way they don't really understand or connect with.

At least outside of romance, he's built a network of people he can count on. He has people who have each other's backs, who love each other and who he's slowly, slowly, slowly learning to trust aren't going away. But in some ways, he feels like he's holding himself back with them. Is it weird that he sometimes thinks about what it would be like if they all just lived at the fire house full time? The thing he likes most about his loft is the way the open concept reminds him of the fire house, and the times he likes it most are when it's filled with his people.

So he's getting by, with the friends he's allowed to love the way he wants and the romances he's allowed to love as much as he wants, but then there's Eddie. Eddie, who's somehow both friend and romance and neither all at once. Someone he's not expected to do the relationship steps with but who puts him first anyway. Someone he can love as hard as he wants without trying to fit it into some easily understandable shape. And he's still holding back with Eddie because he's spent his whole life learning he has to, that he's too much and friends don't love each other this way. But all Eddie ever does is quietly arrange his life to make more space for Buck to fill. And maybe friends can love each other this way. Maybe Buck doesn't have to hold back.

[leashybebes]

a life full of love, t, 9k words

oh look who accidentally finished the queerplatonic buddie fic!! sneaking this in under the wire before i go away for nye

When Eddie steps into his therapist's office, the furniture has already been rearranged. The small couch has been pushed to the wall, and another soft chair, the twin of the one he usually sits in, has materialized. They're angled towards each other, while Dr Lopez, dressed in her customary all black outfit with an oversized acrylic necklace (it's the interlinking chain of glittery purple hexagons this week, and Eddie wonders if she knows it's his favorite) is seated further back than usual, forming the tip of a loose triangle. The little coffee table is in the middle, holding a box of tissues, a few bottles of water, and a single daffodil in a little glass vase.

"Hi, Eddie," she says, once he's seated.

"Hey, Doc."

"How are you feeling?"

"Uh. Nervous," Eddie admits. "But okay. I want him to know. Well, about me, anyway. And I know the context is important, but part of me is worried he's going to think I'm crazy, or weird, or - "

It's still not easy for Eddie to actually feel how he's feeling, never mind talk about it, but he knows it's helping, for real this time, and he looks at her a little desperately.

"Or?"

"Or that I'm wrong."

They sit with that for a moment and then she says, "From what you know of Buck, do you think that's likely?"

"No." It's an immediate, instinctive response. Buck never would have made him feel bad about this, but Buck now? Buck out and flourishing and so obviously falling in love with a man? This Buck has thrown himself into speedrunning queerness just like he does everything else, soaking up information and history and meaning like a sponge. Eddie is so fucking glad Tommy stole that helicopter.

[read the rest on ao3]

[spectres-fulcrum]

"I don't have to want to sleep with everyone I have feelings for" (OR: Tommy is wrong about the nature but Buck does have feelings for Eddie AKA Queerplatonic!Buddie)

Please don't kill me. This post is largely coming from a place of extremely personal place that I can't believe it took me so long to connect to where Buck is right now.

Obviously, we *know* Tommy was wrong to some degree. Buck doesn't have romantic feelings for Eddie. He's still pining for Tommy. Still is in love with Tommy. Only slept in his new place once Tommy was next to him, making the house a home. It's Tommy for him.

But I see where that jealousy came from. I have always felt like Buck does have feelings for Eddie. Perhaps it started as a crush, but then it definitely turned queerplatonic or alterous or another form of attraction that is neither romantic or platonic(I personally feel they feel like queerplatonic but the guy I've experienced this kind of attraction with, it was an alterous attraction so just listing). So I feel like that's where the root of it is and they need to discuss the place between the lines and stuff that isn't romantic nor platonic. And I feel like both attractions can coexist they just need to discuss it.

(Personal connections and more analysis under the cut)

My experience was a guy I worked with left and we texted casually afterwards(As friends) and he transferred back after ~9 months and not only was he suddenly a manager(He was so busy, and I definitely questioned if I lost a friend to power dynamics but also everytime I heard a complaint about him I wanted to scream because they! didn't! know! I spent nights last summer terrified for him!) but I was struggling because my feelings for him were stronger than friendship but they weren't romantic and I settled on a label(Alterous attraction, a need for emotional closeness, trust is *the foundation of our friendship), then he decided to go on medical leave for mental health stuff and it left a huge gaping hole in my chest, the idea of losing him in my life again.

I knew it was for the best but the thought of losing him sucked and I felt so selfish and everything felt out of my control. Sound familiar?

The difference is when I let myself be honest and said hey, I don't wanna lose you, he met me halfway. I let him pull me out of my comfort zone(Or rather, my comfort zone was by his side) and we did indoor lunches. We're still extremely close. And I felt so odd talking to people about it because surely everyone at work who knew I was dying over losing him assumed I was in love with him but I wasn't. Trying to force my feelings into the red romance box pissed me off so badly.

I just wanted to stay emotionally close. And I think to some degree, whatever label feels right to Buck, that's how he wants to preserve his bond with Eddie.

ANYWHO I'm shocked it took me so long to realize that I was seeing the "I know it's for the best but what about our bond?" in Buck and Eddie? I thought my Buddie side was reawakening but it was the niggling queerplatonic Buddie reminding me of... us.

So I think when Buck said he didn't have to want to sleep with everyone he had feelings for I think he was honest. I had feelings for my friend. I just didn't want to kiss him or date him. I just wanted to tell him everything and be close to him(And vice versa). I supported him and his boyfriend until his boyfriend started relapsing on drugs over and over and cheating while he was on drugs and then accusing my friend of cheating. (I fucking Hate that guy)

IDK I think Tommy's wrong about the nature of Buck's feelings BUT I think that the feelings are there to some degree and they need to be discussed but network television is never going to do something as between the lines as a queerplatonic crush so.

idk this is long and I feel like I'm not making my point I just. Am realizing I know exactly what Buck is going through and if I had people insisting that it was romantic I would've struggled to breathe even more.

[aspecbuddie]

Tell Me There’s A Reason That You’re Here (2.8k)

a part 2 to Please Stay With Me Until I Close My Eyes (could probably be read as a standalone)

“Chris went down a rabbit hole on the way here.” Buck perks up immediately, the soft energy of before immediately transformed into excitement. “Ooooh nice! What was it this time?” “He… uh…” Eddie fumbles, as if it hasn’t been the only thing on his mind since Chris told him. “One of his friends came out as… something. I can’t remember what exactly, but Chris has been researching loads of LGBT stuff that I’ve never heard of before and telling me about it.” “Makes sense,” Buck says. “I bet his friend will be happy about that.” Eddie smiles. “Yeah, that’s true.” “But…?” Buck prompts. “It sounds stupid, but a couple of the things he was telling me about… they just… I don’t know.” “Something clicked?” Buck suggests gently. Eddie just nods. - Eddie learns more about the queer community - and himself

(on ao3, just in time for aro week!)

[wannabanauthor]

Other 9-1-1 Ships I'm partial to

For fanfic purposes only or abstract thoughts from my brain:

Disclaimer: I am a BuckTommy shipper. These are just my extra thoughts when I let my brain play around with fun ideas.

Queerplatonic Eddie and Buck because they are family and friends and have a deep emotionally intimate connection. I don't want to say they're co-dependent because I firmly believe in it takes a village, but maybe they're a little co-dependent, but I can't fault them for that. I have a baby niece that's not related to me through blood or marriage. She's my neighbor's niece's baby, and I am a fully involved aunt. Not that Chris is the main focus of their relationship, but them raising Chris together makes their relationship make sense in addition to all the trauma they've faced before they met. I just really like how they care for each other in a platonic way but also in a family but not familial way.

Eddie x Tommy: More of an OOC FWB type thing. But legit friends with benefits. Not the romance kind where they fall in love. More of a "we're good friends, we're both attractive, we both have needs, why not have some fun and keep it simple". You know damn well Tommy would rock Eddie's world in the bedroom. It would give Eddie the space to figure himself out and what he actually wants when it comes romance and if he wants it. And Tommy is looking for love, but not from Eddie. Eddie's a great friend to him, and they just so happen to like to smash on occasion. Then Tommy meets Buck or someone else, and they remain friends and everything is all good.

Tommy x Sal: I like this one the most because it has potential for yearning and angst but in a delicious way. They worked together under Gerrard with Tommy being closeted. I didn't watch that episode fully because the drama gives me anxiety (it's a weird thing, I love the characters but the drama part of the show is not something I can handle), but I'd love to see Tommy navigate a crush on his friend while being in the closet. I'd also like to see how Sal would react and why he'd be interested in Tommy (like I said, I didn't watch the episode so I don't 100% know his behavior and temperament).

Buck x Sal: This one I just thought of literally seconds ago, and I think it has the potential to be very spicy and passionate but volatile. Imagine S1 Buck with Sal, and oh, the delicious drama I could wring from them. I feel like Buck would come on strong, and Sal would be posturing as if he's above all that, but secretly he would pin Buck against a bathroom stall and makeout with him hard then jerk him off. They would have explosive sex, and as they mature and grow, they start thinking about more than just sex, and it becomes very scary for the both of them because feelings are infinitely more scary than orgasms. It would be a slow burn for the romance portion. Sal discovering the little things about Buck that make him smile. Buck realizing that Sal wants the same thing as him, to be loved. Oh, the potential for these two are off the charts. I could write an epic love story, but that would require me to watch all the uncomfortable parts of the show, and I'm not there yet.

I think I'll stop there for now because I can't think of anything else at the moment. I swear there was one more in my brain, but I think I probably dismissed it because I didn't actually like it.

[murdockbuckley]

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just the basic piercing in each ear ):

i have so many tattoos planned but i 1) have no money and 2) don't know any good artists near me

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📝 last thing you wrote

And then there was Buck. He was a handsome man, that much was obvious to Eddie. He was gorgeous and stunning and had such a kind soul. They started off on the wrong foot but it only took a couple of hours for them to become fast friends. Eddie felt like he should have been attracted to him. His friends made him feel like they should have something more than friendship. And they do. What they have, the bond between them, goes so far beyond best friends. Just not as far as everyone thought. There was a song Eddie came across once, “domestic pressures” by Jóhann Jóhannsson, the music itself was beautiful. But the title is what really got to him. Being with Shannon, raising a baby together, getting married? He loves her, and Chris and he would never go back and change what happened; But all of it felt like a chore to him. It was forced upon him with the expectation of a domesticity pertaining to romantic love. An expectation he could never live up to, for a reason he could never admit to - for fear of being known, of being shamed, of being different.

[gaydinosaurrr]

If buddie doesn't become canon I want them to platonically love each other in a way that straight people would find disturbing

[zsbrainrot]

Rei finally being able to feel safe while he’s sleeping is very important to me.

[do-you-ship-it-polls]

Asexual lovin'

Don't need to vote for best romantic ship, just your favourite pairing, qpr or friendship (some characters are aromantic/arospec). Some of these are also headcanons.

Extra info under the cut

Ishii Shinobu/Miya (Is Love The Answer?) Great friends who got married for convenience (visiting eachother in the hospital), say there's a very low chance they will fall in love. Shinobu is aroace, Miya I don't know.

Vinny/Liv (Emmerdale) Liv is asexual.

Tsukasa/Anzu (Romantic Killer) Tsukasa is afraid of romantic relationships, Anzu prefers her cat's company. But they have a good friendship and enjoy living together.

Rei Suwa/Kazuki Kurusu (Buddy Daddies) Friends that are raising a daughter together. Qpr is a common interpretation.

Sakuko Kodama/Satoru Takahashi (Koisenu Futari) Two aroace people who start living together. Enjoyed as a qpr by fans.

Yuriko/Gakurouta (I want to be a wall) Aroace woman and her gay husband, living together platonically.

Aziraphale/Crowley (Good Omens) Often seen as asexual.

10th Doctor/Rose (Doctor Who) 10th Doctor is implied to be asexual. (Don't quote me on that).

[neptune-scythe]

[hollis-art]

to celebrate pride month, here are a few of my favorite queer star trek couples!!!!

i had a lot more in the sketch stage, but they didn't fit well on the page together, so i am very sorry to spock+kirk, garak+bashir, Q+picard and kim+paris people because i did not draw those silly little guys <3 <3

[queerfables]

Honestly the montage I really want is the Buck-and-Eddie-finding-themselves-together montage where, like, Eddie is embarking on this journey of self love and forgiveness at the same time Buck is trying to get over his Second First Love and throwing himself into any distraction he can find. So they're doing all these finding yourself activities together, like rock climbing and paint-and-sip workshops and modern dance classes and slam poetry open nights. They're white water rafting together. They're making pasta from scratch. They're watching a black and white arthouse film to practice their French. And the entire time they look like this:

[leashybebes]

tease tidbit tuesday

tagged by @bidisasterevankinard 😘

so this is from a semi-almost-nearly complete eddie-centric fic i've been working on for a while. it's still bucktommy but the focus is queerplatonic buddie and although i have some anxiety about it because this fandom can be uhhhh a lot, i'm kinda proud of what i have so far so i'm trying to nudge myself into finishing it

context: eddie asks buck to attend a therapy session with him because he has some important things to tell him

For a moment, Eddie just sits, not sure where to start. He wishes he'd persisted a little more with Dr Lopez's suggestion to write it out first, like a letter, but it had just made him feel so stupid, his brain going faster than his hand could keep up, the words on the page ending up misspelled and clumsy. He'd gone with bullet points in the end, but maybe that was too brutal, too simplified because he can't - how can he possibly - 

He takes a breath.

"So, I guess the main thing is like, to tell you how, um. How unhappy I was. Not like - like, we could have a good shift, or hang out and I'd have a good time, and it wasn't a lie, but unhappy was just like - the core, you know? Like I'd been unhappy so long it was just - in my bones."

"Eddie. I'm so sorry."

"You don't have to be. You were a bright spot, man. You always are." Eddie pretends he doesn't see Buck's lip wobble, presses on. "And I guess - one of the things I've been…working on? Is that I don't, um. I'm not always good at understanding, or, or feeling my, uh. My feelings. So like I just knew that I felt bad. And I've been - " 

Eddie has to stop for a second. He didn't expect this part to be quite so difficult. Therapy is really helping this time around, but he still doesn't talk about it. The idea of telling someone - anyone other than Buck and Christopher, really - that he's working on himself and thinking about his feelings still makes him cringe, despite the blood, sweat and tears he's put into actually doing the work. Buck doesn't say anything, just keeps looking at Eddie - it's the same kind of look he gives Eddie on a scene that's hitting him hard, like Buck's this well of strength that Eddie can tap into whenever he wants. He takes another breath. Carries on.

"But what I really was, I'm realizing, was ashamed. Since the - the baseball bat, since Shannon died, since she left, since I left, since - since I was a kid, really. Just…awful and ashamed of everything about myself."

no pressure tags for @screamlet, @rcmclachlan, @sugdenlovesdingle, @peapodbond

[aspecbuddie]

Hiiiii I want to hear about your aroace Eddie and the qpr fics!

Hi Artemis!!!

Have a snippet from the big aroace eddie/romantic buddie fic, that follows directly on from this snippet in my previous ask

“That doesn’t mean it is,” she says. “Honestly it’s more my fault.” He raises his eyebrow in question. He can’t figure out how this could possibly be Maddie’s fault. “He came to me, and I told him that you felt the same, that it was clear to me and he just couldn’t see because he was too close to it. I shouldn’t have, I didn’t have any actual evidence that you felt that way, I just… I saw the way you two are and I made an assumption. A bad one, apparently.” She studies him. “You really don’t love him?” “I don’t… I don’t know.” It’s the most honest he’s been with anyone in weeks.

For QPR fic pt 3, I was going to explain the premise, but I think the snippet does it quite well so here xD

“Oh,” Eddie says as he realises. “Is this about… do you want a kid?” Buck is tense under his arm as he answers. “I mean… yeah.” It’s not like this should be a surprise to Eddie, but somehow it is. They’ve been living together for three years now, officially in a queerplatonic relationship for one. He thought they talk about everything, but apparently he’s mistaken. “Buck, I—” “Look can we talk about this at home,” Buck interrupts. “Please?”

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