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mar-im-o · 2 years ago
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Gentle | Wilbur Soot QSMP fic
Hurt/comfort. Wilbur Soot is in denial about needing a cane. Philza helps him out
(this isn’t projecting what no stfu)
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warnings: explicit internalized ableism. brief mention of disordered eating
Frankly, he’s too young for this.
That’s always his response to the pain. It’s all in his head, it has to be, because he’s too young to be having these problems. Old men need canes. Actually disabled people who have earned the title need canes. He, a perfectly spry twenty-something, does not need a cane.
Wilbur repeats these mantras to himself as he has time and time again, slumped against a tree about two chunks from his and Tallulah’s home. He keeps rechecking the map to be sure the marker is correct, because it doesn’t seem right. There’s no way he only made it a chunk before it got this bad. Before he had to sit down.
But, alas, he could only grit his teeth and bear the pain so long before it made him want to cry. How pathetic is that? He can’t even make it from Quackity’s base to his own without having to sit down.
He’s lazy, is what it is. He’s not injured, he’s not hurt, he’s not old, so he has to be lazy. This is the fault of overreliance on Warpstones. If he had been walking more like everyone else…
But walking hurts. He has to admit it, as much as he wants to insist that it doesn’t. The soles of his feet and his ankles and gods, his shins and his calves have been acting up now! He feels like he’s falling apart, and there’s no reason for it. Everyone else can do this. Everyone else can make these distances. Everyone’s legs get tired when they walk. He’s nothing special.
He’s lazy, is what he is. Just lazy.
Wilbur sighs as he eyes the horizon. The sky’s become red with a setting sun, and he’s not at all eager for Tallulah to be home alone during the night. So, with gritted teeth, he pulls himself back to standing (no matter the protesting in his knees). He’s fine. He can make it the rest of the way.
He appreciates the density of the woods as he goes along, using the passing trees to keep his balance. He doesn’t have to go far between leaning against one trunk or another, a sad stumble between trees as he heads towards home, eyes cautiously watching the sun as it sets.
Wilbur’s eyes are watching through the canopy when he starts, stumbling in his walk at the sight of two yellow eyes staring down at him.
Philza cocks his head in a way that makes Wilbur huff, having half a mind to throw something at him. “Don’t do that. Scared the shit outta me.”
Phil laughs, hopping down from the tree with the aid of his wings before landing in the grass beside Wilbur, who doesn’t stop to greet him. Wilbur keeps on forward, though without the aid of the trees in a way that makes his legs scream at him.
Phil follows behind him, arms crossed behind his back. “Really surprised you didn’t notice sooner.”
Sooner. Wilbur tries not to show the flush in his cheeks at the thought of Phil watching him be so dramatic while walking. (Dramatic, is exactly what it is. Why is he so dramatic about all of this?) 
“I’m not exactly looking for old men in my trees, Phil.”
“Should be. Freaky shit on this server.”
“Don’t you have a kid to be watching?”
Phil chuckles a bit, shrugging as he follows alongside Wilbur. He keeps his eyes upwards, scanning the sky much like Wilbur had been, as he sighs. “School day. Sort of enjoying a few hours to myself. Not sure what to do without that fiend keeping my hands full, though.”
“So you come bother me?” Wilbur asks, though it’s less of a question and more of an tease. 
Phil shrugs. “I can go.”
But Wilbur doesn’t want him to.
It’s silly, really, and Wilbur hates the way he almost begs Phil not to leave. Really, he’s in pain, and tired, and doesn’t want to have to walk anymore, and all he wants is the company of his father. Gods, it’s childish. Childish and dramatic and lazy and–
“How’ve you been?”
Wilbur blinks away the swirling thoughts, grounding himself to focus on Phil. His eyes have fallen, watching the ground they walk on instead. Wilbur tracks Phil’s attention to his own feet, and it makes him suddenly conscious of the fact that he’s limping a bit. Favoring one leg over the other.
He clears his throat, trying to force himself to center his gravity, but it doesn’t come naturally. “Good. Busy with your granddaughter, mostly.”
Phil catches Wilbur with a gaze that clearly reads: that isn’t what I meant. But Wilbur ignores it.
He tries to focus on Phil more so than he does himself. It’s easier to ignore the pain when there’s a distraction. Or, at the least, it makes the destination seem closer.
But Phil, of all people, is anything but a distraction. Wilbur’s paranoid at this point, waiting for Phil to point out the obvious, to chide him.
It’s hard to imagine Philza Minecraft, of all people, chiding Wilbur on something like his physical health. Mental, sure (Phil hasn’t let that go unmonitored since the whole L’Manburg incident), but physical is hardly any of Phil’s concern. He’s never really cared what Wilbur did so long as he was alive and undamaged.
But here he is, damaged from something as simple as walking.
He knows the shit Phil could blame it on. He could call Wilbur out for being too lazy, claiming that this wouldn’t happen if he exercised more regularly. Or maybe he can point out the elephant in the room a la weight gain. He’s put on a few pounds since getting off the Dream SMP, mostly due to the stress which had left him with an unrecognized eating disorder. Has Philza noticed? Would he point out that the pain was correlated with putting on the weight?
Or would he insist that it’s all in Wilbur’s head? Maybe everyone feels this sort of pain. He’s just the only one weak enough to complain.
Regardless, there’s a lump in Wilbur’s throat that makes him scared to speak at all, as if Philza can sense his pain and insecurities and will bring it up.
Maybe he can.
Or maybe he had just seen how Wilbur was walking before.
Regardless, Philza takes his hat off to scratch the back of his head, avoiding Wilbur’s gaze entirely as he says, “Your feet been hurting you?”
Wilbur stumbles at the question, laughing as if he could cover up the panic that’s rising. “I mean, I guess. It’s nothing new. Not bad, though.”
Phil chuckles, stopping entirely to look Wilbur head-on. Wilbur wants to keep walking, to beeline straight to home and be able to close a locked-door on Phil’s face and say they can talk tomorrow. But something about Philza’s gaze catches him, and he pauses with him.
Phil throws a glance down to Wilbur’s feet, then up at him. “I don’t know. Just–bigger server than we’re used to. Not everything’s in one place. Been wondering if that’s hurting you?”
Wilbur swallows. Yes. Yes of course it has! He doesn’t have wings like Phil does. He can’t just fly around the server whenever he pleases. Bad invites him over and he has to walk, and every step makes him want to choke on his own breath and collapse on the ground and swear that he’s never going to walk again.
It’s fucking killing him doing this every single day. There’s so much he wants to do, so much he wants to see, but it’s all so far and he has to walk and there aren’t convenient Warpstones set up everywhere and–
And he says none of that. He just stares at Philza, focusing on his features, the familiar concern painted across them. He shrugs. “Like I said. Nothing new.”
“Wil–”
Wilbur doesn’t care to hear it. He turns to begin the walk back to his house, teeth gritted at the way his body protests. 
Phil lags behind. “Wilbur. C’mon.”
“I’m fine, Phil.”
“Mate–”
He grabs Wilbur’s arm and Wilbur rips it away, turning back to face Phil with a heat rising in his chest. He won’t explode he won’t breakdown he won’t he won’t he won’t–
There’s something in Phil’s hand.
It takes Wilbur a moment to register it, vision blurred by the tears threatening to slip down his cheeks. But once they clear, he looks at the cane in his father’s hand with some fascination. It’s black all over, wooden, with the handle weathered in a way that makes it look vintage. Wilbur’s eyes trace the red-stained carvings moving down it, and only after focusing on them does he realize they’re words. 
No, not just words. 
Lyrics. This is his band’s song. The Fall. Every word carved into the length of this cane and stained a deep red.
Wilbur reaches out to touch it, feeling the texture of the words on his fingertips as he looks up at Philza, baffled. “What’s this?”
Philza seems truly surprised by the question, laughing like it’s stupid. “It’s a fucking cane mate. How have you never seen a cane before?”
“No, I know what–” Wilbur shakes his head. “Why? What’s it for?”
“You.”
“Me?” Wilbur retracts his hand like it’s burnt him, glaring down at the cane then up at Phil. “I don’t need that.”
“Mate–” “I told you. I’m fine Phil. I’m–I’m managing.”
Philza laughs again, and fuck Wilbur hates that laugh right now. It feels inappropriate. Rude. Like there’s some joke to all of this that Wilbur isn’t getting. “Mate, you aren’t. You’re fucking miserable. I can see the look on your face when I invite you anywhere. I can tell your legs have been bothering you.”
Again, Wilbur swallows at that lump in his throat, but there’s some anger to it this time. He doesn’t need this. He doesn’t. He’s fucking–he’s young and there’s nothing wrong with him, he’s just attention-seeking, why would he need a cane?
“I just thought it could help.”
Wilbur grimaces at that. “Don’t see you using one.”
“I’ve got fucking wings mate. I’m not on my feet as much as you are.”
Again, Wilbur just scowls. “I don’t need that. I don’t–”
“Don’t what?”
“I don’t deserve it,” Wilbur hisses. He can feel tears prickling in his eyes and, fuck, it’s too much for him to bear at this point. He lets himself lean back against a tree before slowly sliding to the ground, trying to count his breaths so he doesn’t fucking cry over this.
His legs hurt in a way that makes him despise them. Dysfunctional pieces of shit. That’s all he is. Dysfunctional and over dramatic and–
Philza crouches down in front of Wilbur, discarding the cane in the grass. Wilbur looks up at him with a shaky breath, trying to steady himself, to find the words to eloquently express why he doesn’t need something like that.
“I’m fine,” Wilbur manages after a moment. “I’m fine, Phil. It’s my own fault for not, I dunno, stretching more as a kid. For not working out more. I don’t deserve something like that.”
Phil places his hands on Wilbur’s shoulder, head tilted in a softer form of concern. “Is that what you think? Mate, you don’t have to deserve being disabled. That’s not something you earn through suffering or whatever.”
Disabled. Wilbur laughs a bit harshly at that word.
He has nothing against it, really. He knows he’s disabled. He’s got a hefty list of mental disorders that have earned him that status. 
But he’s not physically disabled. “There are people who actually need shit like that.”
Another laugh from Phil. “There’s not, like, a limited number of them, mate. If you need it you need it.”
“But I don’t need it. I shouldn’t need it. I should be fine.”
“But you aren’t.”
“Goddammit, Phil, I know that.”
Wilbur chokes on a sob, pulling his knees up to his chest so he can duck his head against them. Count your breaths, calm down–
But fuck he’s in so much pain right now, and they still have a chunk to go until they hit his base, and he doesn’t want to do it he doesn’t want to fucking walk.
“I can’t keep doing this. I can’t keep walking. I’m miserable, and I fucking hate being miserable, because no one else is. Everyone else is fine with all of this. I’m the one being dramatic.”
“Dramatic–?”
“In-turned fucking arches Phil. That’s all this is. Inserts and good sneakers should work but nope. And what am I supposed to fucking do? Curl up inside? Not walk?”
“Wil…”
“There are people in this goddamn Universe with real fucking problems. This isn’t real. I’m just being over-dramatic and it isn’t fucking f–”
Wilbur loses his words as arms curl around him. He hadn’t even noticed Phil change positions to be beside him, but his arms curl around him protectively, wings finding their places in a familiar sort of hug.
There’s a part of him that wants to escape. He doesn’t deserve this comfort. This sympathy isn’t earned.
But a larger part can’t help but feel relief.
No disappointment. No pity. Just love. Love from his father.
Wilbur leans into the hug, eyes screwed shut as he counts his breathing.
One. Two. Three.
“It’s real, mate.”
Four. Five. Six.
“I promise.”
Seven. Eight. Nine.
“You don’t have to earn that. You don’t have to earn being gentle to your body.”
Ten.
Wilbur releases an exhale as he blinks his eyes open. The sun has set by now, night fallen over the forest, but they’re bathed in the warm glow of Phil’s lantern. He feels safe here. He feels…
Gentle…
Wilbur sits in the hug for a few moments before, at last, unraveling himself from Philza’s embrace. Phil doesn’t stop Wil, just gently pulls his limbs away as Wilbur reaches across the grass.
His fingers wrap around the carved length of a cane, and he pulls it towards him.
“Just try it,” Phil says after a moment. “See if it helps. If it doesn’t, we’ll figure something else out. But you don’t have to be in pain, Wil. You deserve to be helped.”
Wilbur smiles as the warm glow of his home cuts through the trees, a welcoming spot of light through the darkness. Philza opens the gate for him, and Wilbur tries not to feel embarrassed as he makes his way through.
He sees Tallulah watching from the window of his room and waves at her with his free hand. At once she disappears, and Wilbur knows she’s coming to greet them.
So he waits. He lets the cane in his hand hold his weight, and lets out a steady exhale.
He can be gentle.
He deserves that.
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comfymoth · 9 months ago
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mcyt physically disabled week day two: sign language | deafness/HoH
i did say i’d try to do at least a few days of this week! i guess this kinda counts for both prompts, since tallulah is canonically HoH? i think of her as a bimodal bilingual, or someone who speaks vocally and gesturally, so here’s a small drawing of two sign language greetings, in LSM and BSL! i just couldn’t decide which one to go with haha
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mintierose · 11 months ago
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Thinking about how HUGE it really is that a disabled, queer, Latina woman won content creator of the year IRONMOUSE YOU ARE AMAZING
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lumaberrycream · 1 month ago
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i love you disability rep in mcyt fanworks. i love you carefully considering how a creator's real life disability would work in universe. i love you treating tech issues or other problems in the game itself as a disability. i love you taking injuries that would be disabling in a different setting and making them actually disabling in story. i love-
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royalarchivist · 11 months ago
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["Otherside" plays on repeat while Fit and Ramon are working on the gym]
Fit: [Ejects the disc] Sorry Ramon, I- I like your music, but- [stammers] I just- I got sensitive ears. No, that's a lie. The truth is I can barely hear at all from so many TNT explosions over the last like, 10 years, you understand. Actually, 13 years technically, but...
Ramon: [Places a sign]
Fit: Oh no, oh no, is he gonna roast my ass? What's gonna happen? [Reading chat] Tinnitus? Yeah, no no no. No, there's no white noise here, so no escape from the tinnitus.
Ramon: [Places down two signs that say "understandable _sad noises_ you just take music form a child"]
Fit: [Briefly puts his head in his hand] Uh, well... Here, you know- you still have the music, see? You still have it. It's just, uh, I just briefly turned it off, that's all.
Ramon: [Stares hard at Fit then shakes his head in disappointment.]
Fit: You want me to put it back on, don't you? Do you want me to put it back on, Ramon?
Ramon: [Throws him a Dorime disc]
Fit: What the- Oh?
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magicalmanhattanproject · 1 year ago
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etoiles: bad where are you?
etoiles: /w bad don't answer
guard: why were you typing?
etoiles: because i am diabetic and i was typing on my insulin pump to give me insulin so i don't die
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jahanmp4 · 10 months ago
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There's something so powerful and beautiful about q!Etoiles, the most fearless warrior of the island, having a chronic disease. cc!Etoiles joking about being diabetic all the time kind of became apart of his cubito as well and I just... I don't know I just love it so much.
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zeinkblotpot · 1 year ago
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Behold
The Crow Monster
For atmosphere: Song (Regal Ancestor Spirit - Elden Ring)
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OG prompt by @cloudster-the-clown
Please consider reblogging, likes don't do anything on tumblr and reblogging is the only way to keep traction on a post <3
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lionheartedmusings · 10 months ago
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THE QSMP IS ABOUT LOVE. NOT EVEN JUST THE FUCKING PLOT. THIS SERVER IS A LABOR OF LOVE. LOVE IN CONNECTION, LOVE IN COMMUNITY, LOVE IN INCLUSIVITY, LOVE IN EFFORT. JUST LOVE. THESE SIGNS? LOVE. THE ADMIN TEAM'S ENDLESS WORK? LOVE. MAN. FUCK.
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corvidco · 5 months ago
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BIG UPDATE!!
MY MOMS BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP!
keep reading so i can get her a cool gift :)
My mom has given EVERYTHING for me. She moved out of her ex-husband/my dad's house when I was 15, after she has been a stay at home mom for 20 years and struggled to find a job in the post-covid economy.
We've lived just the two of us for most of that time and she CONSTANTLY sacrifices for me! She gets me sweet treats when I feel ill, she helps my queer friends in bad situations get away and establish themself as adults safely and with a support system (more than once.)
She's a disabled bisexual BADDIE who deserves more than this world has given her.
I'm too crippled to work right now, I have debilitating anxiety and cardiovascular related fatigue. I want to give her a fraction of what she's given me, she's my best friend.
Her birthday is one month from now, she hasn't had a working air conditioning unit in her car in TWO YEARS. The quote to fix it is around $1200.
If you want a selfless angel of a woman to get some kindness back; reblog. Tag a friend. Better yet? Check out the link below; the link will give you 50% off any of my commissions, or use code LoveYouMom at checkout. Or if you're feeling ESPECIALLY generous. Leave a $5 tip. :)
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sarcastictissy · 10 months ago
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Bad being so excited to show everyone the new sign designs 😭😭😭🥺🥺💕💕💕 he's so amazing!! Thank you bad! As someone who's disabled (not visually) I'm so grateful to see accommodations not only be made, but excitedly, quickly and just so enthusiastically!! Richas and Pomme admins being genuinely determined to make the server accessible for fans makes my heart so warm!! The three of them stayed up late after stream to work on these (and Richas drew them) to make it more accessible ASAP and to get feedback ASAP also. Thank you Bad. So so much <3
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qtubbo · 11 months ago
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being both a tubbo and bagi main is hell on earth i have yet to go one day without seeing the most ableist, misogynistic, and homophobic takes with “q!” and “/rp” half-hazardly slapped on the end 😭
I feel like Im getting tied to a rocket whenever I see non viewers make comments about either of them, it’s always the most misogynistic homophobic, and ableist stuff on the planet. Like people are really out here arguing that Phil’s better about the 4th wall because he doesn’t have … neurodivergent traits… and that Bagi is a bad family member to Cellbit… because she doesn’t center her life on him. I genuinely see people be like oh Bagi should just take the abuse from Cellbit because the prison messed him up, and she didn’t save him??? Like ermm no???
And the god foresaken /rp at the end, people will literally list out tubbo’s ND traits and end it with this is why qTubbo acts like a toddler who never respects anyone else. This is why qTubbo has no empathy because he has ND traits…
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comfymoth · 9 months ago
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mcyt physically disabled week day four: invisible disability | flare up
i just wanted to draw something related to chronic pain for my own sake, and i figured if i was gonna draw the thing i have i might as well be self indulgent about it!! you know i’ll take any excuse
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shikai-the-storyteller · 9 months ago
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Chapter 2 update!
[ Read on Ao3 ]
Where Fit came from, prosthetics meant the wearer was adaptable, intelligent, and above all else: damn hard to kill. It was a symbol of seniority, something emphasized every time new players tried to get the jump on Fit thinking his arm was a hindrance rather than an unpredictable threat.
In the wasteland, prosthetics were a great excuse to add custom weapons to your repertoire. He'd seen people add sharp metal claws to the tips of their prosthetic fingers, knives hidden in slots on the back of prosthetic legs, replacement teeth sharpened into needle-like points, and one time Fit even saw someone who managed to turn their prosthetic arm into a chainsaw. By comparison, Fit's prosthetic was pretty utilitarian. He still wanted to be able to use the damn thing on a day-to-day basis, after all.
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It wasn't articulated enough for Fit to confidently wield a sword or dagger, but it was sturdy enough to hold a shield. (He was lucky he’d always been a quick learner — it only took him a month to re-learn how to wield a sword with his non-dominant hand). Finesse wasn't a necessity to survival, so Fit didn't bother trying to make his prosthetic perfect. (With the limited resources he had access to, he couldn't have done that even if he wanted to.) As is, having an arm made of metal added a good amount of power to his punches, and he could use that arm to deflect blades when he was in a pinch.
Against newbies who expected his prosthetic to break after the first hit, his arm was something that could catch people off-guard. But against veterans?
It was a liability.
[ Read the rest on Ao3 ]
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denzartriste · 10 months ago
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Myct physically disabled week day one-Assisted speach!
Ramón!!! I've never actually designed him, or any eggs, and there are still things i would change if i were to draw him again like adding some details and such, but this was good :) Also fun to nail down a way for him to communicate because i headcanon him as mute but i feel like he wouldn't talk through signs or books (Him telling tubbo that he hates having things written down because it makes it very permenent) I imagine he it that himself :)
@mcytphysicaldisabilityweek
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royalarchivist · 8 months ago
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Phil: I know from my sister, she has chronic pain. But I don't see it as that severe, if that makes sense? Like, my sister has fibromyalgia, right, so I know all about chronic pain and like, how it can like, vary and how bad it can be, how it's like completely like, dishabilitating, you can't fckin' move some days, and if you go outside and do anything sort of just like, "normal" you can be out of commission for like, weeks.
Phil: So I don't really consider it as that bad, I'm trying to equate it more towards like, "Oh, I really hurt myself, and now it hurts a bit, and it's going to get better," kind of, you know. That's why I didn't want to make that kind of direct comparison. But... yeah, I can see why you would think it would be just like that though, yeah. But it's not that severe– in my head, anyways, I don't consider it as severe as actual chronic pain.
Phil explains why he doesn't consider q!Phil having chronic pain, despite the damage the Ender King did to his wings.
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