#psycholody

[clancarruthers]

ELAYNA R. CARUTHERS - CLAN CARRUTHERS CCIS

ELAYNA R. CARUTHERS – CLAN CARRUTHERS CCIS

ELAYNA R. CARUTHERS      Elayna Rue Caruthers of Granger passed away peacefully surrounded by her family Saturday, August 13, 2022, at the Kavanagh House Hospice. She was 53 years old. Elayna was born January 9, 1969 in Des Moines, the daughter of Larry and Janice (Bristle) Nelson. She grew up in Woodward, Iowa where she graduated from Woodward-Granger High School in 1987. Elayna went on to Iowa…

[royalsmoon]

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[intrawductions]

F.F. - Alone vs. Loneliness

Alone and loneliness – two completely different things yet it feels interchangeable at times. Alone time: such a poignant topic especially during the last few months of quarantine. Living and being with myself allowed me to cultivate my authentic self, express, and stew in my thoughts – whatever may come up. As hard as it was, I forced myself to welcome my inner wounded child, my antsy self, my stream of anxious thoughts, sitting with the unknown, entertaining my own looming limbo, controlling my impulsive self, and making sense with the uncomfortability. A lot to sit with, and a lot easier to run away from, avoid, and did I say avoid?

But where can I run away if I was forced to sit with my thoughts? Nowhere. Here – in the same four walls I have been looking at these couple of months. Don’t get me wrong, I love my alone time to unwind, realign, unfold my thoughts, feed my curiosity, expand my crafts, converse with myself,  and understand my feelings. Too much alone time? Now that is a different topic.

I feel like I very much mastered the quarantine all my life - growing up in a conservative household, and being so foreign in the American life. I found ways to entertain myself. Surrounding myself with the creatives – arts, music, baking, and I guess, writing – feeling as if I am nurturing my soul, feeding my curiosity, developing skills and gain self-sufficiency. Sure you can say that I am very much of a learner and curious of things, allowing myself to be immersed in many forms of creativity. I like dedicating my time and energy to the creatives since I get so lost in it that I felt found and accepted – a sense of purpose. As I realized, this can also be an escape to face my thoughts, insecurities, fears, and feelings. Dissimulation, that is: to fill in the void, to run away from my thoughts, to cover what is really going on underneath me.

Loneliness: now that is a fucker. You know what is even more fucked up? Feeling lonely even when surrounded with people – idea of not feeling seen, connected, understood, or enriched. I remembered being in this place of “I feel so lonely when I am around certain people’s company, so I will just force myself to be ok being alone and push people away…but fuck, when I do that, I feel even more lonely and insecure, so I’ll try to make friends but I fear that I will not be accepted, so fuck that…”- my own tiring paradox. It is a matter of accepting and surrendering to the idea that I will not completely connect to every individual you encounter, and I will not always have the similar outlook, perspective, or vibe with everyone that I meet. It is okay to not click with everybody and express my authentic self for I know who I am as an individual, what I bring and offer in this world. I am learning to be okay with me being me, with all my flaws, and whatever comes with it.

I continue to challenge my thoughts and sit with these questions: what will it take for me to be okay with myself? What will it take for me to feel comfortable with my own company and not needing to “fill the void”? Do I always need to be surrounded by people – like or not like-minded individuals, immerse in activities just to “busy” myself? What does it look like to embrace alone time and be okay sitting and stewing with my own thoughts? Invite and face those demons that I continue to push away in the abyss of my mind, sit, and really dive into it. Fighting the urge to constantly hit someone up just so I don’t feel as lonely – because there is also sadness and loneliness with that- having the need to constantly have someone or something going on due to the fear that one cannot handle or be comfortable being alone with themselves. That shit is scary.

2/3 - Alone vs. Loneliness

[leighlim]

Can a scene make you want to dance but yet have you at the edge of your seat?

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(Hopefully by this point you’ve finished all episodes of Season 1, the kind of person who isn’t bothered by spoilers, or are just deciding if you still want to keep watching.)

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I’m not sure if it’s my volume levels during the start (or maybe the whole?) of this episode while I was first listening to it. Because I had no idea that ‘Papa Was A Rolling Stone’ was the one playing....

It’s a very difficult sequence to describe. If this were a Romantic Comedy, you might call this a montage...but then it is (for Ziggy and Chloe enjoying their sleepover activities with Madeline and Ed)

Of course...I could see this playing in a heist sequence (something that has a bit of a light touch similar to the Mission Impossible film franchise).

As I start flicking through the scenes in the episode...I find one that I’d probably use as a defining scene for the season (or maybe even the show)....just like Daniel’s chat with Avery during the final season of Rectify

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HIGHLIGHT:

INT. THERAPY ROOM - DAY

CELESTE is looking at the objects on DR. REISMAN'S Shelf: A decorative mask, various psycholody books...an image of two kids playing. Searching for the words to say.

CELESTE He's been very, um...affectionate.

CELESTE meets the eye of DR. REISMAN. The words are coming faster now.

CELESTE Very clingy. Which usually means he's feeling insecure, or...

DR. REISMAN Or what?

CELESTE Or it means I have the power. Sometimes he has it. Sometimes I have it. It's like a seesaw.

A heavy pause.

DR. REISMAN When do you get the power?

CELESTE studies the floor.

DR. REISMAN After he hits you?

CELESTE nods.

CELESTE Yeah, when he hurts me, I get the upper hand. The more he hurts me, the higher I go, the longer I say. Until...

She shifts in her chair. Wanting to find the silver lining in all this...lost again in their fairy tale life that is not real.

CELESTE He's been, um...very loving the last few days.

A smile appears. Hope, right?

DR. REISMAN isn't sold.

DR. REISMAN But at some point he gets the power back.

CELESTE Mmm.

She tugs at her sweater, hiding bruses that may or may not be there.

CELESTE Usually when my bruises fade, and he doesn't feel as guilty. He feels insecure, and then it all happens again.

DR. REISMAN Where is he now?

CELESTE He is in Phoenix. He left this morning.

DR. REISMAN When are you going to leave him, Celeste?

CELESTE scoffs. Me? Leave? You must be joking. A smile appears

DR. REISMAN When he hurts you badly enough?

The smile leaves.

DR. REISMAN When he hurts the children?

CELESTE He will never hurt the children.

DR. REISMAN You need to rent an appartment.

CELESTE shakes her head.

DR. REISMAN Locally, if you don't wanna disrupt the boys' school.

Anxiety forms on CELESTE's face. She shifts on the couch.

CELESTE Whoa, whoa, whoa. We're getting way ahead of ourselves here. No, I don't think so.

DR. REISMAN Stock the refrigerator, make sure the utilities are paid for, have the beds set up for the kids. Get it all ready, so we can at least remove: 'Where on God's Earth would I go?' from the equation. You'll have a place, a mind-set, another life standing by should you need it, which we both know you will.

CELESTE I don't think a therapist should be this, um...

She shakes her head and shifts on her spot.

CELESTE I don't think you should be behaving like this.

DR. REISMAN I'll get you the number of the Better Business Bureau, you can report me. In the meantime, start documenting the abuse.

CELESTE's jaw drops. Is she even getting through this therapist?

DR. REISMAN Write everything down, photograph your injuries, keep doctor reports. That could be important in a custody battle...

CELESTE starts to say something...but the intense therapist doesn't give an inch.

DR. REISMAN ...and men like your husband typically do go for custody.

CELESTE's eyes glaze over. She's somewhere else.

DR. REISMAN He has the resources, the money, the contacts, most importantly...

A pause is needed to drive this through this strong-willed patient.

DR. REISMAN ...he has the ego to see this through.

CELESTE has her arms crossed. The floor once again holding her interest.

CELESTE I don't understand why you're being such an alarmist right now. Nothing's---

DR. REISMAN Because I'm alarmed.

They meet each other's eyes. We can see the pain in the therapist's eyes. The pain that her patient should be having...but doesn't.

DR. REISMAN Have you told anybody else about the abuse?

CELESTE shakes her head.

CELESTE No.

CELESTE lowers her eyes.

DR. REISMAN Why not?

CELESTE I don't know.

DR. REISMAN If you were to guess...

CELESTE looks everywhere but where DR. REISMAN is. Tears threatening to pour out. They're at bay for now...and instead she scoffs.

CELESTE Perhaps my self-worth is made up of how other people see me.

DR. REISMAN chuckles.

DR. REISMAN I'm sorry. I'm just amazed by patients who can harhor such profound self-awareness underneath the hard shell of denial. Find a friend to confide in. Do it today.

CELESTE takes a deep breath and sighs. Still resisting.

CELESTE Because...?

DR. REISMAN Because if there is a custody battle, you know what Perry's lawyer will be asking. "Did you ever tell anybody, Mrs. Wright?"

CELESTE shifts. But her face is showing slight acceptance. She knows DR. REISMAN has brought up something very important. Even more important that her and her bruises: Josh and Max.

DR. REISMAN "Really? You told nobody at all? Is that because it never really happened? And you're just making all thise up to win custody?"

A small nod. Message received.

DR. REISMAN "In fact, you've repeatedly maintained what a wonderful husband and father Perry is. Haven't you, Mrs. Wright? Nobody's ever witnessed this alledged abuse, ever. Isn't that true, Mrs. Wright?"

CELESTE's 'lawyer persona' is slowly helping its host see what she needs to.

DR. REISMAN "We only have your word. You said he was wonderful, now you say he's a monster."

CELESTE hangs her head.

DR. REISMAN "Were you lying then, or are you lying now?"

They lock eyes. CELESTE hugs herself.

DR. REISMAN You're a lawyer. You know how important it is to have a witness.

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My verdict of the episode: 9/10 (I think every one would get either a 6 or a 7...but somehow...this one...has less MA moments....and the whole execution of the episode is off the charts)

Link to the timestamp commentary: None (I wasn’t expecting to watch the whole thing....which I ended up doing)

[birdy-lady]

21 and 35

21. age and birthday?i’m 22 and my birthday is december 2nd (same day as britney spears 😎) 

35. favourite subjectin high school my favourite subject used to be history and english but now in university (i’m a psychology major) my favourite subject is everything that has to do with psycholody during the teenage years

[swagdinner]

Do it l8r rhen indomy have control over my dodt and we are ralking about socionics and psycholody n i am trying to prive yhat everything about psycholody is a spectrum. Autism. Gender. Mbti. Ita all a spectrum

Im drink as fkc man

[jijinigeria]

10 Reasons Of Making Acquaintance In Cafe - #JiJi #JiJiBlog - New Lifehack on JiJi.ng Blog

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[tenzys10-blog]

Only in #biological #psycholody do I doodle that badly #lectures #bored #doodle #manga

[epiccsocialwork]

"When Liz Dunn got her first job, suddenly she found myself making “real adult money.” She began to ponder the question: “What can I do with this money to be happier?”  As a psychology professor, she first went to the research literature for an answer, but didn’t find much on this topic.  So, she began a series of studies with Lara Aknin and Michael Norton."

What kind of spending makes you happy? This study finders answers that might surprise you. For all of us entering the world of employment soon, this is a great article to check out!

[lukewheezer]

My friend and I did an AP Psych project together. It was a parody of the Stanford Prison Experiment. We tried to make it like an Apple Commercial. How'd we do?

[jijinigeria]

How To Follow Your Destiny? Part 1 - #JiJi #JiJiBlog - New Lifehack on JiJi.ng Blog

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How To Follow Your Destiny? Part 1

Daily World Wide Web gets more than six thousand of the purpose of destiny. But what is the destination and why some people are looking for it, while others do not.  You’ve probably noticed that when a person clearly shows some quality, his entourage hurry to hang him on a particular ...

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