#pros and cons of my adhd

[ciderjacks]

We should rename adhd to “horrible fuckshit hell disorder” HFHD for short. Who’s with me.

[spacedace]

So. I wasn't able to sleep AT ALL last night, to the point that I gave up and went out to the living room so I wouldn't wake up my partner with all my tossing and turning.

And, this has happened before. I figured it was the fun one two combo of insomnia and chronic pain, since my nerves were way worse than usual last night. But no.

NO.

I literally just now realized as i was looking at my pill caddy to take my ADHD meds this exhausting morning that, uh oh. They're not there! You know what is there??

MY CHRONIC PAIN MEDS

I SPENT THE WHOLE NIGHT IN PAIN AND UNABLE TO SLEEP BECAUSE I WAS A DOOFUS AND TOOK THE WRONG MEDS LAST NIGHT

[greencloakedfae]

Its the final few weeks of uni and i have a fuck ton to do and im already sick of it. I just wanna write nellfia fanfic and sew my stupid cosplay shit.

[ssruis]

To be honest I love the vibe you bring around. You're like the "well actually" but like positive. You know the one classmate who argues with the teacher about the solution for half an hour and then ends up being right. And it's like both educational and a wild ride to follow along even as someone who is simultaneously in love with canon and also rejects it entirely depending on where the coin lands in the morning. Every class should have one of those people. For common good.

What I mean to say is you're lovely and I don't think anyone should get on your case for being a bit of a snob (/pos). It's a fandom and we all enjoy the source material in different ways and yours is a lot of fun. The amount of effort you clearly put into your blog is immaculate and frankly makes me starry-eyed. Congrats on the -tism tho

- Jay

Aww thank uuu… I am a well actually person OTL learning new information is fun! Sharing information is fun! Being corrected allows you to learn new things and debating things can help you see new angles or find new evidence to support your own point! That last thing isn’t really a common viewpoint though which is why I have zero desire to like… directly argue with people. This is why tumblr > twitter (I can bitch about things in my own little corner of the internet and nobody has to know what post/person I’m disagreeing with & I don’t have to agonize over whether or not my manner of speaking comes off as aggressive)

Nobody’s really gotten on my case (yet) but I enjoy lamp shading my own obnoxiousness/humbling myself. It’s healthy to acknowledge that you’re not infallible/special. Built in mechanism that prevents me from becoming the tsukasa tenma of character analysis. Every time I start getting a big head about something I remind myself that I am also capable of great stupidity and my ego evens out.

[nuvomica]

SHOULD I work out or SHOULD I go to sleep or SHOULD I eat an egg oh my god the choices are overwhelming me

[ne0nlightzz]

I love being more southern then the rest of my family sometimes. Like One minute I sound what I assume is normal and then the next my mind goes 'oh shit the accent switch isn't on' and then I'm talking in a way no one understands and sound like ya just pulled me from the westbank.

[isdalinarhot]

I think theoretically if I drink crazy fast and do not stop I could finish the bottle tonight before I go to bed but what satisfaction would that bring? The fact that I’m tolerance enough that I can have 25 shots of 60 proof without dying? (That’s equivalent to 18-19 shots of normal unflavored vodka but that doesn’t. Hmm. That doesn’t sound better or more reasonable.) anyway whatever this is not the lowest point of my whole entire life but it’s pretty damn low. But it still beats being actively suicidal at night. Like I often was when drinking wasn’t an option. Quite a conundrum

[wanderingmind867]

I don't know how to feel about having this account. I can make a list of pros and cons. But for me, the core message would be: I should be able to browse anonymously the same way I do with an account. But as for pros and cons of having this account... Let's see:

Pros: Having this account (plus being back in school, having therapy and having taken many social skills classes) probably helped me become more social. Oh, don't get me wrong: I still have no friends irl besides my dad. But I am capable of occasionally responding to people now. So that feels like more than I'd ever done before this account. The one other pro of having an account is that it's much easier to share my ideas and thoughts. Which can be nice, especially since I only have my dad in real life to share things with.

Cons: one big con is tied to the pros. My social interactions may have improved marginally, but I've also learned to get really upset if I don't get engagement with my posts (or if I don't post enough, generally). So that's probably bad. Another thing that's bad is my feelings of being sedentary online. And I feel like I could definitely argue that is all tied back to having this account. It might not actually be tied back to that, but my brain could argue it is. so there's a lot of cons, but there's probably also some decent pros.

[dumbbullet]

Moving ahead to the final interview phase of a real Adult job that could pay real adult money but is also big scary different HURK im gonna hurl.

[kai-atlantis]

THERE'S A NAME FOR THIS?! BRUH I DO THIS WITH LITERALLY EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE ?!?!???! THIS IS THE WHOLE REASON I DO STUFF LIKE TAKE THESE PICS AND WEIGH MY OPTIONS?!

[gonegrove]

sometimes..... you go insane about an au that’s just for you and 1 other person....

[hedge-bones]

I’m getting back on a regular T schedule after being inconsistent for a while, and I fucking love testosterone.

Like, there are effects that I could live without (namely, the acne and how it wreaks havoc on my temperature regulation),

But mostly it’s just awesome, T is fucking amazing

[juniperhillpatient]

ugh I don’t really want to read anything that’s not about toxic codependent lesbians right now

[burningcomputerpersona]

ADHD question of the day: should i take off the doors on all my cabinets

[passionpluto]

reasons why some ppl think ppl with adhd ask for a certain drug: to sell it on the black market or for some other nefarious purpose

the reason why i'm currently asking my psychiatrist to change my meds: i've gained a lot of weight over the last couple of years and my gp was just like "yeah, vyvanse tends to help a lot more than concerta if your impulse control issues are related to food" and why the fuck didn't you tell me my shitty eating habits might be linked to my adhd before???

[anteroom-of-death]

I'm embracing my nerdy likes and my hyperfixations in real life, not just online or in the private of my own home these days.