#prolly wont do that again for a while tho
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Summary: Emmet and Ingo go to the hospital.
That's the story! Thanks for coming along the ride! Also, it's a double update
#submas#subway boss emmet#subway boss ingo#im so glad i decided to do twice weekly updates#it was fun!#prolly wont do that again for a while tho#i always forget how much fun weekly updates are until im posting a long fic again#anyways!#hope you enjoy!#forgotten beneath the subway seats
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woke up feeling ruffff but took my meds and went back to bed for a while n I feel a bit better
#only slept 4 hrs yesterday so was rly hoping to get a solid nights sleep today bc i probably won't tonight....#but i didnt sigh. but my options are either to plough thru w today and make myself do this even tho i dont rly feel like it#or cancel plans and stay in and mope which will inevitably turn into self harm so rly the latter is a non option lmao#its all okay ill get into the swing of things n have a good time once im thereee#and i always knew i was gonna feel a bit like this like its an open wound for me i just need to be careful not to touch it#bc how i feel isnt based in reality its just insecurity n vulnerability n ik it can take months to fully recover from a previous episode#and part of the recovery process needs to involve facing potentially triggering situations instead of avoiding them#bc otherwise ill get increasingly worse bc its not possible to always avoid and ill be defenceless again when it does happen again etc#like its part of rebuilding my sense of self n confidence n hopefully i can eventually start to trust other ppl again n lower my guard#bc it sucks being contorted into this defensive pose all the time and i would like to allow myself to feel genuine connection w others !!#and to stop instinctively flinching and waiting for the hit im tired of my mind telling me ppl r lying + trying to hurt me when theyre not#im being a bit dramatic like i am doing a LOT better than i was a few weeks ago. n i def can handle this one#and the risk of triggering myself is much much lower anyway in this specific situation. so long as theyre not hiding shit from me again#i can think of several ways that risk could skyrocket n unexpectedly spiral out of my control n it makes it hard to breathe just imagining#but i need to believe that it wont. so if-no WHEN it doesnt then next time ill have proof that i can navigate it n i wont feel so anxious#it makes me laugh how stupid this is from an outside perspective. my brain causes me so much weird n 100% unnecessary distress#but its the only brain ive got n will always have so i need to work with it!!#anyway all that aside i genuinely am rly looking forward to this afternoon!! ive rly wanted to start doing more nice things for myself#n the fact it coincides w missing smth that could incite my rsd is kind of for the best even if it is making me anxious#i cant let my life revolve around anticipating how ppl might upset me n basing my decisions off minimising that damage#n while it would be nice to have company.. well ik its just as fun going alone bc ive done it before! n i need a reminder of that#ah im gonna turn myself in circles if i think much more. i dont need to justify anything#i hope they have a nice time and i hope i have a nice time and i hope that eventually someday we can have a nice time together instead#of separately. and i hope that someday ill feel included and wanted by other ppl and wont be posting on tumblr every time this happens LOL#this comes across like im saying i need to learn how to enjoy my own company or whatever but i prommy i already do..#what i actually need to learn is how to trust n enjoy the company of ppl i care abt without constantly being scared theyll hurt me....#but thats not happening today cuz i got other plans woooo OKAYY im gonna stop ruminating and get some chores done sjdkfh#.vent#<- well not rly a vent bc its not like im channelling feelings here im just rambling bc i have a lot on my mind. but still#this is prolly incoherent i keep putting my phone down and doing other things and then adding another thought LOL
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Slashers with s/o that is spooked by loud noises/sudden movements
Jason Voorhees
aww babi pls dont be spooked! *worried* he will protect!!
He will try his best!! his rather calm and notvery chaotic so he wont cause any problems!!!
But if you are one of the campers and one of them is clearly tiggering you/making you uncomfy he will make sure this person is first to go bai bai B)
Our boi is in the nonverbal gang so you guys are a match ig
Also Jason is probably spooked of fireworks so you both can cuddle in bed while the loud spook is happening
Micheal Myers
Just like Jason, he is nonverbal, and he rather act slowly(exept the whole killing part yknow)
He will kinda understand? Like he spent 20years in asylum with old white balding man, i think he knows what hes dealing with!
He wont get out of his way for most part, but if somone is bothering you he will whoop them
Corry Cunningham
lad's mad, he might do some scary stuff just for funisies (omg guys hes sooooo sillly :/)
But he also protect! He will beat anyone up, no like litteraly anyone, they dont even need to do anything to you, he will beat them up
He will try to calm you down by huggies or taking you to cool places!
Billy Lenz
well erm this this would be difficult
He is loud, fast and chaotic bean, it would take a while to get used to it
I can imagine yall thinking "b-but he is a stealth killer, he littteraly was sneaky sneaky whole movie exept the telephone part" YALL YALL He obviously would be more loud/chaotic when he accualy doenst have to hide around cuz somone might call police on him :O
Look he will try, mostly by just staying at your sight so he wont accidently spook you by suddenly walking from some weird angle, or he will try to talk quieter, but yknow its difficult :(((
Asa Emory <3
Mans smart, he really gets it okay
Alright he kinda finds it cute how you flinch/wimper BUT LIKE he wont spook you on purpose (most of time, and hes good at pretending that he didn't mean it :[ )
But this enjoyment is reserved to him and only him! Noone dares to spook you on purpose! This kind of people dont even deserve to be in his colection B) (to the box they go)
Also he probably dealt with people with similar problems to yours at past, bug guy has huge collection of people im sure that at least 2of them had something like that
Brahms Heelshire
Another smart one, he gets it! Also he assumes that you have some sort of trauma
Even tho he gets it, its difficult for him to sympathize with you
He is not very empathetic person alr
Also house is very empty and quiet and theres no neighbours so theres noone you can worry about! Exept Brahms himself
I feel like Billy and Brahms have similar problem, but Billy at least is trying? Brahms is such a bebi he wont change (for most part) unless you have like very strong reactions to it :(
The man (guy from the hush)
Hes sneaky so he prolly wont cause any problems
His voice is rather calm too so again, no problems
Also his dream life is to live in middle of nowhere so like?? Again no problem???
He might have slight anger issues and sometimes yell but its like very rare?
Guy is an angel (exept the whole hunting humans for sport thingy <3 )
#slasher x reader#billy lenz x reader#billy lenz x you#billy lenz#slasher headcanons#jason vorhees x reader#jason vorhees headcanon#jason voorhees#friday 13th#hush movie#The man#brahms x you#brahms the boy#brahms x reader#brahms heelsire x reader#micheal myers x reader#micheal myers headcanons#cory cunningham#asa emory x reader#asa emory#the collector x reader#the collector#the boy 2016
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Pinkerton appreciation
HELLO CHATTERS!!!
Today i did what i do on almost a weekly basis, which is to listen to pinkerton. i was in a good mood listening to this very awesome album... UNTIL! i noticed something that somewhat upset me not really but its really interesting.
you see back in the 90s pinkerton wasn't loved as much as blue album because it's messy dark and emo and not silly fun power pop like blue. it wasn't till many years later that pinkerton the the love and appreciation it deserved. Although it isn't nearly as popular as blue, green, or even make believe (really only because of Beverly hills), it is still very loved by weezer fans now.
Today while looking through the deluxe version i realized that "I just through out the love of my dreams" is more popular than any of the songs on the normal non deluxe album. Now don't get me wrong its a really good song (although this cover of the song is kinda better imo :3) and i do really enjoy it, i do feel like its a repeat in history.
now if you don't know what i mean by this repeat in history, i will shift the attention for a short moment to another band, PAVEMENT!!!
one side note i think is funny is that back when weezer started, people called them cheesy pavement rip-offs... just something i remembered!
pavement is an awesome band and they will get another post out of me at some point of me writing on this tumblr blog, but in the mean time... Pavement has always been relatively popular in indie rock circles, but nothing exceeds the popularity they got when harness your hopes blew up like crazy on tiktok, making it their most popular song on streaming services by a very large margin. AND Just like i just threw out the love of my dreams, harness your hopes is also a B-side that randomly got popular from social media.
Don't get me wrong I'm not upset at all, to be honest i don't care that much like it really isn't that deep, i just think its interesting how common this is, where a song from an older band gets big thanks to social media, more specifically tiktok.
The only thing i do wish is that people listened to more of the bands music rather than just listen to the one song they know, but then again i just realized not everyone is as obsessed with music as i am lol.
Back to pinkerton
i LOVE pinkerton, i def like it more than blue album, which isn't much of a hot take since the weezer fandom has been split on which album is better for prolly 2 decades at this point. For me the album is just more up with the kinda music i listen to, while being very different at the same time. the way the album starts with the synth, and you automatically hear the raw and underproduced sound this album has.
aside from the sound, i just personally kinda relate to some of the songs, maybe not the weird parts... but def many of the bit more normal ones.
With tired of sex, I have definitely grown tired of having relationships with people where there's no actual relationship or connection at all. for a long time i really didn't know who i am (weezer reference).
getchoo is hard for me to analyze or related it to anything so i will skip that one (good song tho)
no other one hit pretty hard home for me. i've been in pretty shitty relationships with people who treat me like shit, hence the shittiness, and for some reason i didn't leave because i didn't think i could do any better and that nobody knows me like her, that we're all we got and we don't wanna be alone (weezer reference).
why bother? is me when I'm scared to make relationships and friendships with basically anyone because of my fear that whoever i talk to will eventually not like me and abandon me, to where in my head i will think "why bother? its gonna hurt me. it's gonna kill when they desert me. It's already happened to me twice before. it wont happen to me anymore." (weezer reference)
i only semi relate to across the sea because i've e-dated as a young child on discord.... next song (still a good song)
the good life is me too because i used to be really cool and leave my house a lot and play shows and have lots of friends and just do things that aren't me sitting at home doing nothing being a pig and a dog (weezer reference). it is def time i got back to the good life (weezer reference) But to be fair i don't really want to go back to that time i just wanna be a normal person again.
i don't really relate to el scorcho much but its still an awesome song.
pink triangle is me because I've dated girls who turned out to be a lesbian but trust me i didn't turn them, they were already lesbian before we started dating i don't know why they started dating me maybe because I'm not very masculine so they thought it would be fine. (note that i didn't know they were lesbian till after we would break up)
i put falling for you in a mixtape i made my ex. whenever i would hear that song i would think of her because its how i felt about her. i was afraid of falling for her, but in the end i just wanted to settle down with her (weezer reference)
I don't relate to butterfly either but it is a really really good song
as you can see i really like pinkerton and relate to it very much. it is prolly one of my favorite albums of all time no doubt
this is the end of the post
we love pinkerton
pinkerton is our everything
here's a song rec from the album pinkerton by weezer
thanks for reading my weezer rant! idk what i will post about next but we will see!
Goodbye!!!! :3
#weezer#power pop#noise pop#pavement#say it aint so#blue album#pinkerton#i just threw out the love of my dreams#tired of sex#nerdcore#losercore#Spotify#rivers cuomo
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One such example of the difference between "Good" and genuinely bad form vivziepop/Hazbin Hotel Fans that drive everyone to hatred, is that are those of us who are absolutely avoiding the leaks and want fuck all to do with that shit and will block you if you so much as mention it to us, and can afford to do such a thing as a fully matured adult audience with lives and interests outside of just constant cartoon consumption....
And then there's genuinely off putting pigfucker bitches like petitprinces1 who are so sloppy they can't be bothered to find a header that isn't a moving gif with the freaking "AMAZON" logo still attached and they're just like:
"Erm....Yusss.....x3 I seen da leaks.....x3 Nope wont spoil anythin' even tho im answering asks abt it right the fuck now n' addressing Viv herself like shes in da room w me rn anyway KUDDOS Viv i did NAWT see dat 1 cumming!!!! x3 If da rest of u who put the dumb in fandumb literally want lil' ol' meh, ur reigning princess of stupidity, to send u the leaks so u can potentially spread them moar bein an idiot like i am plz DM meh cuz u kno ill delete u if ur dumb enough to actually ask in a reply id rather if u ask me to spread the leaks 4 u in meh DMs if ur gonna ask 4 leaks cuz im not a regular fandumb mom im a 20% COOLER fandumb mom!!! x3 Im so cool that if u ask me for leaks in my replies I GUESS....... ill prolly just delete ur comment instead of just blocking u like everyone else would bc im different and *i* have no boundaries and *i* dont know *HOW* to block ppl!!! x3 i also apparently wrote DISNEY JUNIOR FANFICTION at one point when i was in my late late teens/early early 20s which would imply i went directly from *THAT* to HAZBIN which explains a lot about me dont it? x3 ANYWAY HMU VIA DM IF U WANT ALL DA SEASON 2 LEAKS!!! x3"
Like gurl ...
Like, gurl...
Fake arse fan here to stress real people out just like like all the shitty clickbait bros here only you're a little Candace Owens about it it...
Speaking of Candace...
Uh, once again, my name is NOT "Hearts" and yes the fuck I did Ashface Snitchdale, again, it's free internetz, it's my hot blog and I do what I want, and yo' mama's been blocked for over 4+ years even before she tried and failed to troll me via block evading on anon... I just use an incognito now sometimes when I wanna roll my eyes because my block and stayfree options get broken and I'm forced to perceive she exists and re-block her anyway, keep scrollin'!
Oh and again, it's not "a real double edged sword" or whatever the fuck fandumb centrist bullshit that petitprincess1 is spouting as she's helping spread the leaks to people and let us be very fucking black and white about this okay? Okay. READY? I DON'T CARE! :D
If you indulge the leaks or help spread them, in public or in DMs... You are not a true fan... You are a fake fan... And you need to delete and leave the fandom!
If you: "Feel bad for being happy or excited over something that was so devastating for the crew and feel guilty for finding joy or even 'relief' in those leaks 'because of the results' of the US election.." or whatever the fuck bullshit excuse you made up to help you feel better or whatever... I'm paraphrasing because I don't fucking care what made you do it ... You SHOULD feel bad, you SHOULD feel guilty... You are not a true fan, you're a fake fan.... You not only need to delete and leave the fandom, BUT, you should feel even WORSE for confiding all of your bullshit to the tumblr fandumbs biggest bullshitter, Leeanne, (petitprincess1) someone who should've deleted her online presence years ago for presenting and behaving with all the tackiness and immaturity a of young/republican Trump Supporter anyway... THERE I SAID IT, and I'm probably not the only one too! I mean Viv herself is like... The cutest lil' Scene Kitten/Drunk Girlie at the party who actually thought Coconut Charli XCX Lady would win while raving to that Practical Magic Margarita Song all night long while making Actual Margaritas ...Those of you of you who've actually indulged the leaks and spoiled yourselves for ANY reason are selfish and entitled (as I always knew some of you were) and should be ashamed for doing that to her! You are not true fans. You are not one of us. Leave the fandom.
To think I once called out petitprincess1 for stealing my friends shit and running them off the internet and block evading to further harass me and now I'm calling her out for being complacent and helping spread leaks of the second season of Medrano's entire show! I was going to make a sort of Deep Cut TMI (for some of you people, not for me..) joke about how me and Leeanne ("apparently") shared "the same" Blorbo in the "Lion King" fandom albeit in two entirely Different Eras of Fandom ( mine being the superior one) but I think all of the obvious caveats and quotation would imply how I don't even so much as acknowledge disney junior shit as canon and because I don't watch shows meant for toddlers and therefore it's not the same fandom and not even the same "blorbo" at all and then I got angry and went on the other, more important, vent session because, yeah... It really did all just come down to one big, full circle of bullshit with her this time, didn't it? I'm truly done!
Like, bye bitch I'm never tipping your lolcow again.
Speaking of tipping... She's probably never actually paid an artist in this fandom or brought any actual art in like a while has she? No.
I peek at her blog to see if she posted her playbill if she even paid for one and I find something so much worse.
Oof.
#Hazbin Hotel#hazbin hypocritical#petitprincess1#big name fan bullshit#bnf bullshit#undescribed#So tired I don't know what to tag ...#Like I know randomly going: “Haha! Let's see LEEANNE'S hazbin playbill! :) (If she even haz one ...;] )”#is giving a little AMERICAN PSYCHO... But .....#Seeing that bitch causally chatting about/posting “joking” about handing out leaks .... Really makes me wish I had an axe to chop these#bitches up like DON'T EVEN BE COY ABOUT LEAKING SHIT!!!!! :o OR SEEING IT!!!! :O YOU'RE UGLY!!!!! :o YOU CAN"T SIT WITH US!!!!!!!! :0
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darkicedragon supernatural dogsitting/delivery au oh no muzaka pawing at the door and m just like 'do you need the toilet or a run?' bc muzaka wants to go meet up w frankenstein azure yesss and to Muzaka's horror he gets both a harness/leash and a muzzle not bc M thinks he'll bite someone bc he knows he'll eat something darkicedragon but also unsure abt taking muzaka out for a walk bc muzaka might take HIM for a walk instead XD azure "If you don't behave, we are not going anywhere' =^= Muzaka is like >^>""" "and you are also getting a bath" o^o!!"" darkicedragon m ends up wetter than muzaka XDD and spends the rest of the night drying up the bathroom
darkicedragon taos amused bc m is Prepping to dogsit 'youd think he was your dog w how much youre buying' 'im being paid a lot for this and he goes thru EVERYTHING so i may as well buy some extra stuff' azure ahahahaha thankfully he knows the butcher (they're a very nice minotaur) so he gets a lot of bones for free darkicedragon m finding the scars across muzakas body and wondering if hes a rescue fighting dog azure "Well that explains your behaviour," M muttering as he brushes his coat darkicedragon oh god m starts talking abt muzaka doesnt mention hes a dog the other supernaturals know muzakas a ww neither of them realise the other has a different mental picture of muzaka hahaha azure OH MY GOD XDD ahahhahah "Uh, he got his head stuck in a jar. Again." and the other supernatural is like 😱 bc u mean lord Muzaka???? also bonus points if Muzaka is MASSIVE an absolute UNIT of a doggo standing almost up to M's chest but M's like "Yeah, he's on the bigger side. Prolly a cross breed with a wolf." darkicedragon 'when hes on my lap, he wont fucking move' and supernaturals are like >-> 'is lord muzaka also with this human as well?' and m talking abt spending hrs brushing out muzakas hair darkicedragon frankenstein hears abt the misunderstanding and gets it immediately, but also plays along muzaka also adds to it wo realising how it sounds 'oh yeh, i spent the entire night w m last night' tho i guess some would realise it was bc muzaka transformed, but even then, thats a Big Trust, even if muzaka is the lord also, muzaka howling and m just |-ó seeing the bunch of wws outside 'why are they acting like youre in heat??' darkicedragon m keeps going w his life until hes talking w someone and then theyre just like o/ 'lord muzaka!' o/ 'yo' 'huh, i know a dog w the same name as u. ........hes got similar scars as u too....?' 'yeh, thats me' ^--^ 'thanks for lookin after me' '................uh' and ms just panicking, bc shit. hes just been talking shit abt muzaka this entire time azure OH MY GOOOOD XDDD and M is absolutely deadpan like "yeah, that makes a lot of sense" darkicedragon '....frankenstein just said it was dogsitting?' 'well. i was a wolf at the time, yeh?' and m just internally >/////< over all the belly rubs and grooming he did w muzaka and putting on the bandana and making muzaka wearing the harness and- '.......lord?' 'yeh, im the lord of all the wws' hes going to fucking DIE azure AHAHAHHAA XDDD M's like ಠ_ಠ 'and you need dogsitting?" darkicedragon next time m gets a request for dogsitting, its actually just a dinner w frankenstein and humanoid muzaka, as a thank you/apology for not being completely clear 'yeh! im still instinctual durinf the full moon and frankensteins busy to keep an eye on me' azure M like =^= while eating the food bc hey, free food "hard to find ppl to look after you and well, you kinda dealt with lots of supernaturals. figured you'd handle it. darkicedragon 'and you wouldnt take advantage of the situation' 'take advantage that hes a dog???' m still doesnt know abt frankenstein XD azure what did Franken dooo XDDD darkicedragon the whole mad scientist stuff aha so they trusted m wouldnt go poking for research, bc he doesnt even know it exists or that its imp azure ah, fair XD
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Freeze flashing less than lively strawberries!
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Tbh I messed up big time forgetting to put these in the fridge while I was at work. So they stayed in my car in a plastic bag for like 4 hours and only a few are left in somewhat edible condition lol.
I'm not terribly sad or disappointed tho, as I mainly got these to experiment with more smoothie recipes and flavors. Strawberries arent a favorite fruit of mine but I do like the taste sometimes. I got these from the market and figured I can learn how to store these in the freezer if I find no use for them soon, which is likely. I tried to salvage the better pickings by cutting off a few mushy parts that werent too mushy, iykwim. Hopefully that wont prove fatal to my plans lol.
I plan to make another drink tomorrow, perhaps putting a strawberry or two in there. But first i'm "flash freezing" this batch I have. I rinsed them, then washed them in a vinegar solution (3:1 parts water and white vinegar) and rinsed them off again. As I type this I'm realizing I forgot to dry the poor things so hopefully that doesnt fuck with anything lol.
But as I said (and as I had to reconcile lol), this is a learning experience for me. I looked up several articles for some guidance on how to best prepare and store the fruit. I'll def take advantage of freezing, but since this was for smoothies later, I'll prolly get through them in time until buying more next week!
I saw many farmers selling sprouts and seeds at the market and I bought one to try my hand at growing. So one day I'll be brave enough and purchase a strawberry plant to grow my own for more smoothies and other recipes!
Lets hope the berries will make it through the night!
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some FA au chats w/ a fren time (paraphrasing a bit)
Me: thinking about this FA concept again. Sol just not bothering to even rip out the link themself and just purposefully sending them on a suicide mission (after fucking em up subtly to make sure that they wont survive. prolly by making their own link kill them slowly if it doesnt get removed. but well removing a link makes it more likely for the individual to die so-)
Me: fresh isnt stupid, and once cy passes out from pain and just sorta goes limp, he prolly can see the movement of the link's tendrils working underneath the skin in some places- does end up ripping a good part of it out, but ppl prolly gotta go fishing around in the wounds to pull out the remaining tendrils of the link (his pawbs too damn big for all of this delicate work) Fren: ohohoho thats even more manipulative, Sol does this as to keep up the appearance of benevolent or whatever. they simply sent cy out and cy just wasnt strong enough
Fren: and poor fresh over here is cleaning up the mess in the form of trying to save this weird little angel he found (help him)
Fren: Poor Cy and Fresh tho. Cy is definetly trying to fight Fresh while he tries to help
Me: yep, sol just essentially sent cy on a suicide mission (bc fresh will not hesitate to kill something that attacks him, esp if its not pink, bc i like the concept of their being some sort of conflict going on between pure n corrupted) and even if they survived, sol would prolly kill them themself, either that or just eat them. if they're that stubborn in coming back to them, might as well make use of it-
Me: and yeah absolutely, cy is just trying to fight back and is def in a lot of pain, eventually theyll just... pass out from pain and fresh can work more freely.
Fren: Damn, messed up on Sol's end. as if they weren't messed up before asdfgb. Good on fresh still trying to help tho
Me: honestly fresh only let cy live bc they were too in pain to really fight him, it took a while for cy to get to him so their link killing them from the inside slowly became a lot more obvious and weakened them a LOT- they were obv not healthy when they finally got to him. absolutely pathetic starving wet cat vibes
Me: i mean either that or cy just took one step towards him and just collapsed
Fren: Cy said theyre going to kill fresh then promptly collapsed on the ground, out cold
Me: dfgfdgfdgdfg cy: I am going to kill you- [collapses into a pile out cold as well as twitching n whimpering in agony instinctively] fresh: wtf
Fren: asdfghjmk I like to imagine fresh had just been relaxing and this all happens within the span of like 10 seconds and they have no idea how to react
Me: he absolutely does not-
Me: he does the equivalent of poking cy with a stick and just winces bc the link prolly has tendrils that are like... moving underneath cys skin and they reacted to the poking
Fren: That is terrifying, I would wince at the sight to. Fresh is really just sitting there like "well what do i do now??"
#mun rambles#mun + fren rambles#yeah tbh? i like this concept a lot#RIP FA au cy#im making them go through the horrors:tm:#fresh is confused#and a little creeped out#prolly dosent help that this isnt the first time he's had to deal with FAs#tbh he killed and or ate the rest bc they just attacked him on sight#Cy over here is confusing him bc they just fuckin... collapsed after threatening him#help him#semi-long post?
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I’m gonna respond to the first post you made recently basically imma rip the bandage and respond to the upset post. Which btw. This post prolly won’t be long bcuz truthfully anything I say wont directly help unfortunately although I wish I could. Also. I feel like that post was more for yourself. Kind of like how I tell you if anything even if we don’t post for each other. It’s a good way to rant. So! Here. We. Go!
To summarize a little. Once again.. his issues are not listening to you / thinking your not listening. But it sounds like your trying to listen to him but. He’s short tempered and doesn’t like repeating himself even tho he should be happy that you care enough you want to understand his side. But meanwhile doesn’t take the time to understand you! Or even ask the questions you do
And your right. Like. Every conversation is “pointless” bcuz that’s the beauty and tragedy of life. Life and death. Good and bad. Yin and Yang. There’s balance. In all. So like. Does anything matter? No? But. That’s also liberating. We can! Do anything bcuz truthfully nothing matters. It’s like. Respect others. Treat others good. And enjoy life!
So also.. that’s. Fucking frustrating. Like anytime I talk and interrupt I’m always like. I’m sorry! Cuz I dont want the person talking to stop. I want to hear and listen! But to not be given that same decency is wild. My mom for example. Love her. But. She’ll legit as me a question and then talk over my answer and I’m just like.. can I .. can I answer???
That’s also upsetting. How can’t they tell your feelings. Humans aren’t that confusing. I’m sure even if your trying to act normal for him to cause less problems and arguments. Still! Like. When you were upset. I knew. For the most part. People talk lower. Speak less. Act different. Etc. Like. Come on! How doesn’t he pay attention to that or want to try and fix. Hmph. I hope he figures it out soon! You don’t deserve the garbage treatment!
Truly baby. I hope he gets it together. Before he loses someone as awesome as you! Take it from me! I didnt change and here we are! Not really I’m sure the move and life change wasn’t directly bcuz of me. But also. Striving to be better is attractive and I was to slow. I’m still going at a slow pace but also. Being apart will probably help us be better. Like of course your with someone but also like. Your away from family which was another big downer on you a lot. I know you’re down and the things you say are how you feel. And while I want you happy. Don’t fake it! You deserve. Real! Happiness. I hope it comes to you princess. It will. It will!! I love you princess
I don’t want you feeling dead. Or like a shell but also. That’s how you feel. Listen to your feelings!
Look. Of course I want you happy now! But! Remember! I’ll always listen! Whether we agree on things or not! You will always be heard! Mwah! A kiss of luck to bring you better days ahead. Better partner caring. And hobbies and things that’ll bring you joy.
That’s it for this post!! Feel free to say more or etc. I’ll always get to it but for now! Be well! I’ll keep popping in with silly posts of course! But tmar I’ll prolly respond to your sweet cute love 🥺🥹 I. Hear you. I like you. You are special and everyone deserves happiness! Especially my sweet princess! Now. More cuddles 😈❤️🔥
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AFTER THAT HE WENT WITH "haha your friend is funny" AND THEN I THOUGHT I MISSED IT ALL
BUT THEN I ASKED SUM STUFF (used all my extrovertness for this i swear my infp ass CANT—) AND THINGS WENT WELL AND HE SEEMED LIKE HE WANTED TO TALK TO ME IN PERSON?????!!!!!!!! (For context: we were in the same course for work but i was too shy to talk to him cuz he is My Type tm)
I said that his height intimidated me sm (i literally reach his shoulder and he was bending a lil so hes TALL tall) and he said he was a good boy (IDK HOW TO FEEL ABT THIS) and that i couldve spoken to him
Now i ~flirted~ a lil and said i thought he was cute from the brief interaction we had BUT ITS 11PM SO HES PROLLY ASLEEP AND IMMA GET THE ANSWER TMRRW HOPEFULLY FKWHEJQHDIWBSJHWOW
(I thought this year i would have to become a alpha female that goes "i love the gym bcuz my muscles wont leave me like men do" but things r going well and fine i will update u again tmrrw)
ooooooooooo that sounds good tho!!!! now back off for a bit, with men you gotta do the all pull and push for a while to keep them on their toes (?) that's my advice but then again i've been single for almost 4 years now so don't take me too seriously sdkjfhds
so yeah please keep me updated im now invested in this <333
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man. i wish i had more money to travel bc like,,, i just wish i could see my family out here more. i love my friends and family back at home obviously but my family out here is just one big tightly knit group which is unheard of for my dad's side
#the fact that my cousin gets to see his brothers like?? multiple times a week when he's not in college?? even tho they're all adults???#the fact that my aunt and uncle see eachother almost daily??#the fact that everyone here regularly meets up with each other for casual company when its NOT someone's funeral or a major holiday??????#my dad's side is so distant. i love them but i rarely get to see them even though we almost all live within like 20 minutes of eachother#just. being here makes me so happy. i haven't been in a home that felt this alive and happy since i was a little kid.#this week has gone by so fast and i almost dont wanna leave#just. my house is gonna feel so so empty. its just gonna be me and my little sister and our two cats as always.#mom will probably go to work and our dad is so flaky that he prolly wont show up till next week.#my brother is busy with jobs and college and my older sister has her family to focus on#my cousins are off doing who knows what and my aunt is gonna be busy working#its just gonna be my sister and i in a big dead house. it'll be silent and dusty and it'll feel so so wrong#idk. im gonna miss how lively this place is.#on the bright side im gonna be happy to see my cats. im prolly gonna spend at least one day curled up on the couch with them lol#but beyond that im just. not sure what to do now.#i have a friend and we love going to the mall to see late night movies and all that so i might ask her if she wants to do that again soon#also sleepovers. lots of sleepovers.#sigh. its 12:30 and i gotta be up by like 6:00 so we can drive out and catch our flight at 10:00#but i dont wanna go to bed. im just chilling with my sister and our cousin in a comfortable silence while our family talks in the backyard#i don't wanna leave that behind y'know? we don't get to visit cali all that often bc its expensive#i heard we might try and plan a vacation somewhere else though where we'd all meet up for one big vacation#that would be nice lol. this has been so fun and im gonna miss being around so much family#anyways. i need to shut up.
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How does your OC react to affectionate gestures? (For all 3!!)
!!! thank u for asking !! and im sorry this took so long to answer ;-;
Asher -hand holding is his shit he loves it! - Ruggies hand is a lot smaller than his so he likes to curl his fingers over the top of Ruggies n point out how small they r -affectionate gestures just make him smile. f Ruggie walks by n carless his arm he turns to him just to smile -his ears will stand straight up on his head because u have his full attention -he v lax about pda n doesnt mind it at all -he gets v affectionate back -his tail would wag f he didnt have better control over it sjsjjssjsj
Azar - he immediately starts teasing asking f u needed to hold on to him for some reason -his ears will lay lax a little bit but just a little it can b hard to notice ;-; -f he is n one of his competitive moods he would prolly just shrug it off n carry on with what hes doing -f u carry on passed the teasing hes gonna get touchy feely with u -in public he is gonna act like he doesnt care but f its behind close doors get ready to get groomed its his way of saying he cares -(Leona says he hates getting groomed but he really likes when Azar does it dont tell Azar tho)
Rusty -not a pda person at all -depends on what u do tbh f its just hand holding hes fine but f u want to scratch his ears or sumthing hes gonna pull back n look at u weird -f its n private tho expect tail wags -even n private however he still will pull away it takes a lot to get him to cuddle -he can get super focused into his studies so f u try while hes doing that he wont even notice u
again sorry this took so long ;-; sjjssjsjjjsjsj
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Hello again and I hope your 2022 is happy and healthy!❤️ I am in self-shipping hell (Tank and Edward are playing tug of war and I’m stuck in the middle of it help) Could you please write Ultimis Tank and Primis Richtofen mushy headcanons of their s/o cheering them up on a bad day?
AAAA SORRY FOR THE LATE REPLY I DELETED TUMBLR FOR A LIL WHILE BC I HAD NO SPACE ON MY PHONE-- I HOPE THESE R OKAY!!
warnings: uhhh depression nd slight suggestiveness. Also i did not proofread bc fuck that
Ultimis Dempsey:
- Okay honestly I think he's such a bitch whenever he's having a bad day. His sarcasm and overall assholery is amped up to 10. Probably gets into a lot of arguments with the crew too.
- Luckily for everyone else, you're Dempsey's pride and joy whether he's angry or not and he literally cannot help but smile at you whenever you try to cheer him up.
- He'll try to keep that gruff, tough dude persona when you start cracking jokes or being extremely sweet to him but the facade will just break after a few minutes.
- Tank totally does that thing where he cracks a smile and gets mad about it so he looks away from you.
- Literally say some stupid shit and he'll lose his fucking mind and then his mood is back to normal. You could just do some absolutely god awful impression of somebody and he'll straight up bust out laughing, it'll be cute. Do a horrible impression of one of your teammates and he'll join in. Needless to say, you both will throw SO MUCH SHADE.
- I think he would appreciate being distracted rather than directly comforted when he's having a bad day, yknow? But that isn't to say he won't appreciate a good hug or two. Just...not too many, okay? He's got a reputation to uphold.
- I personally think he's a little awkward with comforting people but he will definitely try to return the favor, to show his appreciation because we all know for a fact this motherfucker will be caught DEAD before he says "thank you for cheering me up" out loud.
- Also also,, there's another way to cheer him up if you're up for it 😳
Primis Richtofen:
- okay but when is he not having a bad day fr fr
- I imagine he's a lot more somber than Tank, but that isn't to say he ISN'T snappy. You know how bo4 Primis Richtofen is just a dick to everyone? He's prolly like that (cant blame him tho. imagine finding out everything u've been working so hard for is worthless nd ur crew wont care abt u even if u sacrifice urself to save their musty asses)
- He canonically has meltdowns (would they be called panic attacks? I've never had one b4 so I wouldn't know--) so I imagine he'd probably try to hide how he's feeling from you for the longest time bc he has to keep up that facade of he knows everything and has to do everything.
- You'd probably find out when looking for him around the grounds and you find him huddled in a corner sobbing and hyperventilating.
- Surprisingly, he'll let you hug him then. But get ready to be nearly crushed bc he's clinging to you and wont let go until he has no tears left to cry.
- Cheering him up is a difficult task bc he'll never truly feel better, but indulging him in his scientific ramblings, joking around with him, or offering to lighten his workload will make him feel better.
- But I think he'd catch onto what you're doing real quick, especially if you start asking abt wonder weapons to him so he can ramble his little heart out.
- I swear if he didn't love you before then, he would fall head over heels now. You're...going out of your way to cheer him up? When you have your own issues to deal with? Brb he's planning a impromptu wedding rn
- He won't ever forget it, and though he may be a little awkward himself, he'll definitely try to be there whenever you're having a bad day too <3
#cod zombies#tank dempsey#edward richtofen#richtofen x reader#dempsey x reader#tank dempsey x reader#edward richtofen x reader#*vomits words onto a text document and calls it writing <3*
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GUESS WHO BEAT PEE3 TODAY (fes, the journey at least)
(lengthy) final thoughts:
ryoji is kind of. um. "that was my name for a while. i didnt mind it." hes kind of trans. is the thing. also bro 100% drew the shortest stick in this game lmao
obviously ryo/mina isnt quite the same as some of the other insane peesona gay people (2,5. 4 is gay but not rlly insane) bc like. in that form at least we only know him for like...two months?or so? but. u know what. they r t4t and both (kind of) dead. good for them.?
jumpscared by "the arcana is the means by which all is revealed." ive been seeing that shit in like. youtube comments since the day i was born. insane
nyx was like. pathetically easy. to the point where i felt kinda bad about it lol. at least its funny. this is what happens when u have level 99 protag + black viper lucifer (+ messiah for salvation for ailment healing. i could just use me patra gems but its more stylish this way). nobody ever got below half health and most phases (minus last bc of the halved non-almighty damage + gown) were a 1/2/3 hit kill. guys who overlevel because they just love the velvet room so so much (and im prolly not gonna do ng+, especially with portable port on its way (femc!). so trying to experience most that i can)
i did cheese the reaper a while back. used thunder reign strat. was actually harder bc new moon rebalance nerfed the shock rate so its not 100% lol. but took advantage of its ai to get it stuck in a break skill loop (akihiko dekunda sweep) the money was nice, and i spent soooo much time in monad levelling personas. wont be able to do liz fight bc not doing ng+. (slightly related: ive played pee5 so many times and ive never actually tried the twins/lvnza/jose fights. vanilla 1 time, royal 1 time, royal again for a friends playthrough but its not ng+, ng+ for 100% royal but only up to exams...royal for another friend's playthru. lol)
yuka/mitsu is real. to me. theyre even the colors of the lesbian flag
i maxed most social links besides magician (bc hes annoying. surt wouldve been nice tho), mitsuru (got up to like 8 then ran out of time), fuuka (trapped at rank 1. dont like her enough, not enough time. sorry. i played with english voices u know how it is), yuko (accidentally reversed her), justice (i know. who would have thought. started her wayyy too late.), keisuke (hes soooo cute like. i wanna look like that tbh. but fortune isnt useful enough and i ran out of time)
speaking of social links i literally hate how they work in this game so so so so much. i dont want to date all these girls! let me hang out with other girls please... this is the biggest example of romance making all these games so much worse. like. what the hell. (aigis is like. the only good female social link (that i finished) (maybe bc she isnt very much a girl))
another mechanic i hate: NOT BEING ABLE TO PICK INHERITED SKILLS. is every ps2 era megaten game like this? i love love love 'sona/demon fusion but it is so much harder to make stupid crazy builds when u have to reroll over and over again. literally just a timewaster. what could have been...i cant believe my lucifer is still weak to ice. WHO USES PEESONAS WITH WEAKNESSES. IN THIS DAY AND AGE????
the extremely strange continuity with 1&2 is fucked up to like. nickelodean sitcom cinematic universe levels. u know.
im still fixated on 5.i make that very obvious. and i do like 5's overall story better (royal being a very big portion of that). but GOD i love love love the theming of this game.
those strega guys r definitely fucking. i literally do not care about them but thats kind of just a fact.
the concept of artificial personas (that kill you) (that u have to take meds for which eventually kill you) REALLYYYY fucks me up what a BANGER CONCEPT. JESUS! JESUS. gg kirijo group.
chidori...(wretched)
akinari... (very wretched)
i dont think i have a favorite. tbh. like i like mitsuru because i like women and shes hot but character wise shes not actually super my type. i like ken because hes the most fucked up ten year old in the world (justice bias). aigis is crazycrazy theres stuff to be said abt her (characters who give metatron bias). yukari is a mean girl and i like that about her (lovers bias). ryoji doesnt have that much screentime for obv reasons but thematically hes cool (guys who beg u to kill them bias). i like the protag a lot (protag bias). yeah
OBVIOUSLY i knew we were gonna die. and when. and where. and how. but :( head in aigis's lap, brushing away her robo-tears... didnt cry but wow this game.
joshua peefee christ figure moment
kimi no kioku is the best 'sona song. period. nyx (avatar)&nyx (nyx) songs go hard too. but man!!!! kimi no kioku!! LOVE how its kind of a motif in so many other parts of the soundtrack, especially near the end...a unifying melody, an overarching theme.
forever from now ill prolly watch the movies just so i can make an amv. this game needs an amv. and unlike pee5 the animovies should cover most of what id want to say in one!
after the answer, ill finally be able to finish eternalpun. im so sorry ive neglected you guys, my friends...my pee2s....
kimi wo i will never leave you <3
#bobtalk#good game#if i missed a censor and u see this in the tags. sorry. lol#at least its so long nobody will ever read this. except me. because i know
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life's hecticness has finally kinda caught up to me and im just feeling super worn down and im seeking comfort in the old guard and because your blog always sparks joy ive come to you. on the subject of comfort do you have any thoughts on coping mechanisms/ways to comfort themselves the members of the old guard have? and similarly, ways they help comfort the others too? i would love to hear any and all thoughts you might have on the matter <3 - 2ta
in terms of comforting others:
nicky: words. i think its kind of interesting, but every time in the movie we see as character in emotional distress nicky speaks up (its okay nile, tell us, sono qui, everything happens for a reason boss) the only time he breaks this habit is when booker talks about grief in the lab.
booker: we dont rlly see booker explicitly comfort people much but he does seem to tend towards expressions of solidarity or subtle check-ins/expressions of concern (for the former he tells nile about his family, he tells nile big wounds take longer to heal, he reminds andy that ‘this is what you wanted’ and for the latter he asks andy post-stab if shes alright, he tells andy he wont see her again, etc)
hes also quick to (rightfully lmao) accept blame (after the kill floor, when he wont get up when the squad escapes, and the scene where he and andy get captured)
joe: he doesnt do a whole lot of comforting to the non-nicky’s out there interestingly enough. he encourages andy like the others do just after the baklava scene (i know you needed a break but its been over a year boss) he also tends to make little light hearted jokes/comments to lighten the mood sometimes (this plus 'faster than the elevator', etc)
and i suppose one could say him answering nile’s questions during the dinner scene are a type of comfort in itself, tho .. .... his answers arent exactly reassuring lmao
nile: So are you good guys or bad guys?
joe: Depends on the century
(j o s e p h you could have given her a more reassuring answer than that!! altho depending on the person, straight honesty can be very comforting in of itself, and joe prolly knew that andy would dance around nile’s questions and be generally unhelpful)
but additionally joe is a pretty strong protector and worrier about his friends’ well-being. he advocates for finding nile in the train scene and tells the others to ‘cover andy’ when they find out shes mortal
(plus the little touch he does to andy’s back!)
andy: andy’s mileage varies when it comes to comforting (primarily nile of course bc shes the Distressed One in the movie) but a lot of the time she tends towards offering stability and loyalty (me and those three men in there will keep you safe, you’re one of us now we would do the same for you, [to nicky] this changes nothing) which of course makes sense for her. stability and loyalty obviously probably mean so much to andy and as Team Leader shes probably very used to offering those things
nile: nile is more the comfortee than the comforter in the movie for all the obvious reasons, tho i think its interesting that at the end she tells andy ‘youre gonna [spend the time you have left] with us, andy’ not only bc shes delivering that stability/loyalty right back at andy but also bc shes also a leader (in the marines) so she might have a similar situation as andy with offering stability & loyalty as a Leader
being comforted:
nicky: the most notable instance of nicky being upset and getting comforted is obviously the van speech, tho like ive said i doubt joe’s go-to method of comforting nicky is a Speech. tho also (obviously & as ive talked abt a lot) i think he takes a lot of comfort from the idea of destiny/fate and the idea that he and The Lads were all destined to be together. he lomves his friends and hes happy when theyre happy
booker: alcohol.
honestly im not even sure how booker would really like to be comforted/comfort himself besides his given Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms. i think he does take a lot of comfort in his Solidarity with andy tho. considering his ‘that way madness lies’ comment about the immortality and his comment in the comic about ‘whats the purpose of an uncertain immortality?’ and his tendency towards tech, i think he’s the kind of person who likes when things are explainable and logical (and u could say thats a way he foils with nicky i suppose)
joe: him touchy
ive been meaning to make a gifset thats just Joe + Reassurance Through Touch but i keep forgetting about it. hes a very tactile boyo. in the comic while theyre having the nile nightmare joe reaches out and physically grabs nicky’s arm/shoulder in his sleep, like hes subconsciously checking hes still there. he worries So Much about the others (nicky in the armored van, nile in the train scene, andy post-mortality) and their well-being that i think he takes a lot of comfort in knowing all the lads are okay and safe (esp nicky)
andy: like i mentioned i think she likes loyalty and stability, which is obvs something shes had a serious lacking of throughout her life. ik u arent super into the comics but the recent tales through time story about andy went over how she takes comfort in the idea that her axe belonged to her mother once, even if her modern-day axe has had all its parts and pieces replaced so many times its not the axe her mother gave her 7000 yrs ago anymore. however andy still clings to this idea of her axe being her mother’s axe (‘this is the labyrs she held in her hands’). the memory of her family/mother and the stability of having the same axe with her through her history obvs comforts her a lot.
nile: again similarly to andy i feel like loyalty/family comforts nile a lot. she followed her father’s footsteps into the marines and worries about her loyalties to them through the first half of the movie, and tries to go home & thinks about her mom and brother through the whole thing.
(plus, music obvs means a lot to her)
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I just realized that I'm a sleepy drinker. ○.○ Venti would so bored if he expected an epic night of drinking and songs. I'd be completely K.O'd @.@ not sure why but alcohol makes me drowsy and relaxed. 👉👈 I would like to see a drunken Venti and Himmel together. That sounds like a show, yeah? ♡.♡
Venti’s that kind of person who’s always loud and giggly when drunk >.> i think himmel would be the clingy and touchy type?
Himmel’s weak against alcohol that’s why he gets drunk so fast. Maybe 2 glasses he’s all sobered up then if he takes another, he’s drunk. I imagine himmel tends to avoid drinking a lot since he doesnt want to embarrass himself or ruin anyone’s day if he’s drunk. Kind of like chongyun’s “transgression” or when he eats spicy/hot stuffs and he went all crazy lmao
Tho it was just a mere lie venti told to his brother. Himmel didnt really caused a commotion in the party and he just wanna make fun of him. As ive said before himmel’s prolly just touch-starved type so expect that he wont let go of you until he’s passed out.
“Where’s [name]...?” Himmel asked as he looks around the area, all lights flashing various colors.
“Here,” you patted his shoulder, and immediately he nuzzled his face on your cheek with his arms encircled around your waist.
“Hm~ [name], you’re so soft~” he uttered. Your face scrunched up that he reeks alcohol and you’re already regretting for bringing him along in this event. More like venti had to force the two of you to come.
You sighed and took out your phone to call the other twin. And out of nowhere, your phone has been snatched and you snapped your head to follow whose hand belongs to.
You groaned to yourself that the older twin is acting like a child, scrolling through your phone before he shuts it off and puts it inside his pocket.
“Himmel, can i have my phone back?” You softly asked whilst he hides his face on your shoulder. The tips of his dark hair brushed against your skin when he shakes his head, giving off a tingling sensation and you have to pry him off of you to look for the younger brother.
“No.”
“Please?” You begged and caressed his hair.
“Nu-uh, i want [name] to be with me only.”
Ah, this is going to be harder than you expected. You cant just leave him all alone here while you look for venti. And who knows how he’ll act if you leave him with lumine and aether. Will they even be able to handle him without trouble?
“Himmel please, venti will do something so reckless again if he’s drunk. Just one quick call i promise!”
He raised his head and looked at you with half-lidded eyes. “Promise?”
“Promise!”
He then took out the device and gave it to you. As a thanks you kissed his cheek and called venti. Much to your dismay, he didn’t pick up.
You turned off your phone and put it back in your pocket. Just great, venti’s probably drunk already. You hope one of your friends brings him to you so you dont have to trouble yourself anymore in looking for him in and out of the university.
Your eyes shifted to himmel who was still holding you tightly and starts to draw small circles on the back of your hand.
“Kiss...” he muttered under his breath
“Kiss...?”
“Give me another kiss please.”
You sighed once again and pinched his round cheeks. “You really are so clingy when drunk, huh?”
“‘m not drunk...”
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