#probably more fyolai

[hoshiumiumi]

goodbye just realized i hv 1k ppl in this acc now so thanks !!!!!¡!!! what do the people want

[nyxi-pixie]

kafka asagiri has a real talent for writing pairs of rivals that are very normal about each other. simple pure mutual dislike and not an ounce of homoeroticism. very impressive🙏

[musicalmoritz]

Most people’s “how can anyone hate this?” ships are like super fluffy pairings that can do no wrong but unfortunately mine are always massively toxic to where I understand WHY they aren’t for everyone but I simply cannot imagine passing up that much conflict

[trains-boy]

a lot of bsd ships fit with the "Me and the bad bitch i pulled by being autistic" meme and i love that for them

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

I’m a bit surprised that the whole “Fyodor has a god complex” thing is so widespread. Asides from the fact that him seeing himself as a follower of god’s will is, well, canon, and in turn makes his use and control of others and eagerness to speak to Dazai, an “equal mind”, a neat juxtaposition, it also makes the whole Fyodor-Mykola dynamic so much more interesting.

If Fyodor sees himself as god, then his fascination with Mykola becomes the fascination one might have with a trapped, fluttering bug; Mykola’s fondness for Fyodor becomes devotion. But that’s not the dynamic they have at all.

Fyodor is an actor of god’s will. He does what is necessary, in his view, to create the order and perfection he thinks is inherent to God. “In opposition to God, you are fighting to lose sight of yourself” - is what he says to Mykola. “Splendid.” It is still said with the expectation he will fail, I believe. But it’s not said from some high vantage, just a certain interest at the futility of it all, but also an appreciation for, ironically enough, the clarity with which Mykola sees things. That freedom runs in opposition to Fyodor’s quest for perfection, but both goals lie in the capacity they share to see what lies beneath the surface of society like few else. And so Fyodor… just lets Mykola do what he wants, mostly. Mykola is a wild card; he helps the decay just as much as he acts independently. Fyodor is very direct with his control most of the time, but Mykola is not ensnared in Fyodor’s web, but in the web of God himself. Fyodor finds him intriguing. He indulges his quest for freedom. He indulges his silliness too.

And Mykola, who would commit acts of evil, acts he acknowledges as evil, just to break free of earthly bonds; to become someone un-beholden to society or morality or human attachment; he feels seen. He calls Fyodor his friend. He engages him, on friendly terms, in a way no one else does; with games, and no fear of contact. He feels understood, for once (look how quickly he throws his act up again when Atsushi cannot understand his fascination with birds) - and therein lies the problem. He is fighting to lose himself. Instead, Fyodor saw through him. ‘Found’ him, in a sense. And now Mykola has exactly what he was trying so hard to break free from - attachment to another; not the attachment of worship to a deity but the bond that comes from seeing and being seen. As screwed up as they both are, it’s just a friendship, plain and simple. But Mykola cannot lose sight of himself for as long as he is seen. So he has to die. Fyodor has to die because Mykola must do cruel, evil things if he is ever to be free of bonds, and expectation, and love, and the reflection that comes with someone knowing the depths of whatever remains of your soul.

And all the while, no matter how Fyodor wields his righteous hand and intellect and Mykola cuts and hacks at the strands of his still-beating heart in an attempt to grow wings, they both play by, in Fyodor’s eyes, the rules of God’s intent. Ultimately, they walk the same ground as the other.

[dazais-guardian-angel]

I'm finding it difficult to reconcile the fact that what I've always wanted and envisioned for Nikolai and his relationship with Fyodor based on fanworks and the very very little canon information we've had to go off of so far, will very likely be very different from what we actually get.

While I understand the appeal of Fyodor taking over Nikolai's body via his blood ability, and the inherent, romantic, ironic tragedy of that — for Nikolai, the person who yearned for freedom, to meet an end by having his soul eternally trapped in the body of the person he loved the most, while Fyodor lives on in his body, never truly knowing how much he was adored by him — I would just hate the idea of that happening now? It just feels far, far too soon for Nikolai to be dead, for his character to no longer have a role or a purpose; his mind and behavior is so utterly fascinating in all its bizarre contradictions, there's so much more to explore and discover with him, he's one of BSD's most complex characters, or at least he's set up to be, and I really hope Asagiri wouldn't throw him away this soon without doing anything more with him.

I never really thought that Nikolai would be the one to end Fyodor for good, way down the line (that can only ever be Dazai's job, to me, since he's his foil), but I always imagined he'd at least have some kind of role in attempting to kill him, since that's his ultimate wish. I imagined that it would be ugly, frenzied, unhinged, desperate, Nikolai finally being forced to acknowledge the horrible truth that's always been buried within his subconscious but he's never wanted to accept: that going against all human reason and killing someone he cares so deeply for will not, in fact, simply make those feelings go away, and will instead make them unable to ignore in his despair. The realization that he'll always be chained to human emotions, to love, no matter how much he thinks he can be free of them. And then, the ensuing breakdown from that. Yes, it's extremely fanficky lmao, but that kind of drama makes sense to me for him and them. It's interesting.

There was also the angst angle of Fyodor being immortal, and Nikolai's agenda perhaps stemming from wanting to save him from that, and being able to finally free him from it in the same way he himself wants to be freed. Killing being the ultimate expression of love, not too dissimilar to Mushitarou killing Yokomizo, both putting on an act of being hateful/vengeful/hostile towards the other in order to cope with the fact that deep down they can't bear the thought of them being gone.

But then we got Fyodor's "death" here, and Nikolai's reaction to it was so unbelievably underwhelming and calm that it made me question everything I thought I knew about Asagiri's writing skills him, and what the story is going for with him. And combined with this revelation now that Fyodor is (unsurprisingly!) immortal, but specifically in the way that he can be killed but supposedly resurrects endlessly (which I really like in of itself, don't get me wrong)... it makes me question what exactly Nikolai knows, or will know, and it somewhat destroys the potential angst we could get with them in the end, or at least drastically changes it.

If Nikolai already knows Fyodor can't be killed, that means we'll never get a moment where he tries to kill him and then has to face the fact that he did the deed and it didn't make him feel freed, and he instantly regrets it. It also means we'd never get a moment where he tries to kill him and then discovers he can't truly die, and the ensuing insanity that would occur from that. It also makes me even question the legitimacy of his reaction to Fyodor's "death" here... was it so damn apathetic and lukewarm because he already knows it wasn't permanent? I mean, I'd like an explanation for it feeling so ooc, it would make me feel better about that, but I can't deny that it would be disappointing to have yet another part of this arc that was just an act and not genuine feelings....

Now, that isn't to say that it's impossible to do anything interesting with Nikolai already knowing the truth. He could be wishing to try to attain free will through the illogical pursuit of an impossible task: in this case, killing Fyodor. There's a beautiful, tragic paradox in him wishing to attempt something to gain his freedom that he and we know is impossible, especially if subconsciously he takes solace in the fact that he'd be able to kill Fyodor without actually losing him for good. If Nikolai doesn't already know, assuming he's not dead he's likely going to find out the truth soon when he next sees Fyodor alive and kicking — I can't imagine a way he wouldn't find out. In that case, we wouldn't get the aforementioned scenario where he tries to kill him and discovers it's futile, which is the most juicy to me I won't lie, but I am still fascinated by the idea of how Nikolai will respond just seeing him suddenly alive again and having to process this after having just mourned him. It's interesting to imagine how he might respond to and treat Fyodor after at last knowing how it truly felt to lose him, and realizing how much he didn't want that, and then suddenly having him back. It might cause him to finally understand that his desire for freedom is unobtainable, and cause him to spiral, and fundamentally change their relationship going forward. An eventual tragic end for him such as Fyodor taking over his body would not feel out of place to me in that case, perhaps, but still not until we've had more time to see Nikolai reflect and see his possible change in perspectives.

I don't know, I'm just rambling at this point lmao. I know very well that so much of my expectations and desires for Nikolai and Fyolai are built up from fan content over the years just because there's been nothing else to work with, and that it's unfair to judge what Asagiri decides to do with him/them based on preconceived notions. Whatever he does could still be interesting in the end, even if it's not what I initially wanted or expected, and being open to being surprised is always a good thing. At the end of the day we still know barely anything about Nikolai, so it's not completely fair for me to judge something as ooc for a character we still know so little about.

But... it's because we know so little about him and have gotten so little of him, that at the very least, I'm gonna be really upset if he does die here from being possessed by Fyodor like people are worrying about. I really don't think he will, because I'm pretty confident the helicopter pilot is the one Fyodor swapped with/resurrected in the body of as per soup's theory, and again I'm not saying it wouldn't be fitting eventually... but I really don't want it to happen now. :/ I just think Nikolai still has so much potential as a character and so much more we need to see of him before his likely inevitable and tragic demise (however it happens), so whatever Asagiri decides to do with him I just really, really hope we don't lose him so prematurely; it would honestly be such a tremendous waste imo.

[noa-ciharu]

Omg i love those hcs! Please share the nsfw ones too 🛐🛐🛐

Thanks 💕 and here come nsfw Nikolai hcs (with bits of fyolai):

- he prefers being active in bed. He can't keep still, he must be doing something be it with hands or mouth or hips. For those reasons Nikolai prefers topping, but he doesn't mind bottoming either, as long as he can stay active somehow (aka rides: top notch power bottom material)

- but on other hand he loves overwhelming and even restraining at times

- he loves to bite, a lot. Be it jaw, collar, neck or thighs if he's caressing and kissing that region he can't resist biting and leaving his mark

- also can't keep tongue to himself so it's either sloppy making out, excessive licking or going down, be it from front or back. Man loves to lick, someone get him tongue piercing

- he's big

- thus preparation is a must, not an if. But there are some silver lining to that cuz he loves fingering and teasing his partner to point of begging. If fyolai then Nikolai would absolutely do everything in his power to crack Fyodor's dignity and get him to whimper and plead for more even before entering him

- he can last quite some time and if first round was amazing enough then he'd sure would be up for more. Generally he can go as long as his interest is held

- strong af and doesn't shy away from exhibiting it

- likes hair tugs a lot

- has quite some endurance but can snap if provoked in a right way (again, Fyodor would know how to push Nikolai's buttons)

- is a daredevil thus loves doing it in risky places. Wouldn't even flinch at being caught pants down

- would edge a lot. Trust jester to tease. In same manner he'd be into body worship if his partner gets impatient and fussy as result

- (again fyolai) Nikolai generally wouldn't have a praise kink, but Fyodor is an exception. He pets his hair after mission, absentmindedly murmurs how he did a great job and Nikolai is already dying to slam him against the wall

[sweetrice820]

why‘s this song kinda Nikolai coded…

[chuuyasheaven]

❤️ Rei's Kinktober ❤️

Notes !! Firstly, this is my first kinktober, and I’m literally so excited??? I didn’t know what it was until like two years back but I was always late to it, well not this year!! Besides, this will be different like any other you guys will see so just sit back, relax, and enjoy reading this nasty stuff !!!! Rules !! 01. For each weekday will be drabbles written for, except for sundays, those will probably be a short fic or whatever.

02. If you didn’t notice, the names were listed down in alphabetical order, because it’s fun. But also, for each week (or category) will be the characters written for which I think fit in the week. It might occur that some will be there more than once, but my list isn’t that long tbh. .

03. THIS IS AN NSFW EVENT, in case you didn’t know. But we don’t judge here, meaning if I make any grammar errors or take longer to post, I do NOT want to hear anything about it. Thank you !!!!

Week one : “I LIKE ‘EM NASTY !!” — Rough Sex.

01.10 — “Tamin’ bad girls !!” with Akutagawa Ryunosuke !!

02.10 — “Goin’ feral !!” with Atsushi Nakajima !!

05.10 — “Disobedient wife !!” with Fyodor Dostoevsky !!

07.10 — “Endless denial” with Jouno Saigiku !!

08.10 — “Keepin’ you in place !!” with Nikolai Gogol !!

Week two : “I WANT ‘EM SWEET !!” — Soft/Passionate Sex.

10.10 — “Cockwarmin’ cuddles !!” with Atsushi Nakajima !!

11.10 — "Mornin' ride" with Chuuya Nakahara !!

13.10 — “Takin’ a break !!” with Edgar Allen Poe !!

14.10 — “Reassurin’ his wife” with Odasaku Sakunosuke !!

15.10 — “Birthday present” with Ranpo Edogawa !!

Week three : “I LIKE ‘EM SUBMISSIVE !!” — sub! men.

16.10 — “Virgin killer” with Akutagawa Ryunosuke !! 17.10 — “Under the influence” with Chuuya Nakahara !! 20.10 — “Thigh lover” with Dazai Osamu !!

21.10 — “Stress relievin’” with Edgar Allen Poe !!

22.10 — “Special candy” with Ranpo Edogawa !!

Week four : “I WANT ‘EM TWICE !!” — threesomes.

24.10 — "Outsmartin' failed" with Fyozai !! 26.10 — “Seekin’ comfort” with Shin Soukoku !!

28.10 — “Competition” with Soukoku !!

29.10 — “Missin’ information” with Suegiku !!

Halloween :

31.10 — “Bittersweet torture” with Fyolai !!!

IM LITERALLY SO EXCITED ⁉️

[transmascaraa]

Reader has a secret hobby they do that they never told the sillies about, and the sillies find out

(example - reader being a singer, making songs, playing music, dancing, cosplaying, doing shows etc etc)

multiple characters headcannons!

they weren't supposed to know...

characters: lyney, gaming, xiao x gn!reader

author's note: nuh uh the draft didn't get saved where i was halfway through xiao smh enjoy this version where it's a bit shorter😭 i did cosplaying btw

✯ Lyney

-most surprisingly due to how fucking clingy he is, he would probably get to know but only after a couple of months.

-you would accidentally post your cosplay video on your PUBLIC acc and not your private one.

-he gets a notif almost immediately and he's already opening the app

-mouth wide open. pure shock in a good way.

-get ready for his teasing to get AT LEAST four times more often.

-he would probably ask you to cosplay him or lynette if you haven't already.

-he'll ask you to match cosplays but like huskerdust typa stuff(or fyolai whichever you prefer cuz he'll do anything for you)

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✧ Gaming

-it wouldn't take too long for him to find out tbh

-he would walk in on you while you were cosplaying him and his lion dance

-walking into the room and then his mouth being open in a second.

-in utter shock. /pos

-then the two of you would just basically awkwardly stare at eachother's blushing faces for a while

-until he breaks the awkwardness by saying something like "that. was. AMAZING."

-he'll praise you a lot, saying that you do the impression of him literally perfectly.

-he'll match with you if you want to definitely!

-and you'll get famous on social media because of him(i literally got "famous" because of him)

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☆ Xiao

-it would take a while for him to find out

-but he'll eventually walk in on you cosplaying hu tao/zhongli whoever you prefer

-he'll just stand there with his eyes wide open

-and you'll try not to be too awkward and tru to explain to him what "cosplay" is in the first place

-he literally won't get the point of it even if you explain it to him but okay

-he values your hard work and all so he'd probably call you a professional at one point

-WON'T match with you because he find it dumb(he literally will you just have to look at him)

-and he gets used to it after a while so yk even if he finds it weird af he would still support you

-loves it when you make him match with you

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yes

i like it

it's only a tiny bit shorter tbh but it's nice like this too

| @keeyisbored | @mariaace <3

[definetelynotavampire]

sometimes i wonder how a fyolai/ranpoe double date would go (and how they would even get in that situation to begin with) any thoughts

wait i love this idea actually

okay okay Nikolai would probably kidnap them with his ability bc he just wants a double date. Also Fyodor probably mentioned Ranpo before bc in my head he is at least intruieged by the stuff Ranpo does without an abilty. Nikolai could maybe pick a fancy café or something.

Poe is probably just a little bit put off by whatever Nikolai has going on but i think they would get along after a while bc they're both a bit crazy. I think Poe would probably be terrified by Fyodor but they'd make good conversation bc they're both polite. Fyodor would wanna talk to Ranpo but he's just there for the cakes. Meanwhile Nikolai convinces Poe to write him a book where he's a bird or something and then Poe realises he basically agreed to a second meeting. Nikolai is the only one who knows its a double date bc he never told anyone but everyone else is probably smart enough to figure it out.

In the end Poe offers to pay but he doesnt get to bc it turns out Foydor owns the whole place. Nikolai drops them all off ofc but is a bit mad bc Fyodor somehow tricked him into choosing this café...

I fear i will have many more thoughts of them TT

[etrevil]

I need to talk about how well Bones did the skk apology/confession scene.

Like, oh my gosh, the lightning. Red and blue contrast? Yes. The focus solely being skk, and no unnecessary still frame of other characters (mourning the Fyolai scene rn)? YES, AMAZING, PERFECT.

They captured Dazai's expression so well. He looked miserable, he looked so deep in thought, like he was saying goodbye to that one, good, beautiful aspect of his life (Chuuyaaaa 😭).

His eyes were closed, he was taking a walk down memory lane, he was thinking back to when they were fifteen, he remembered when they held hands to defeat Rimbaud, when No Longer Human took affect and-

The cut using Dazai's ability made me need a moment. And then we have the close-up to his face, followed by Dazai finally opening his eyes after about half a minute of flashbacks. Of memories where he and Chuuya connected.

And then we have his close-eyed smile, so we don't see what he's actually feeling, where he's practically baring his teeth. He's back to his cheerful, devil-may-care persona while leaving his partner, a person others have described he shares a soul with and mimics perfection together (cough, Adam, cough), to drown.

I was offended on Chuuya's behalf, and I felt like tearing out the smiling menace's hair follicle by follicle when ONLY Chuuya's hat came into frame.

It was like I was experiencing chapter 101 all over again when it came out. And that, I think, is when I realized Bones did well on this. Amazing, even.

Because one thing I genuinely feared was the anime-only fans missing out on the emotions the manga brought out. What if the anime leaves out important bits about their relationship?

But this episode made me relive the night Dazai drowned Chuuya and there wasn't a next chapter to settle to fears. It made me feel so much injustice that I couldn't even cry.

I was absolutely scandalized by Dazai's "See you later, alligator!" (in one translation, cause the official uses the same, simple "goodbye!" as in the manga) and that makes me love it even more- because of course that little shit would bid Chuuya farewell like that.

Because of course, it's soukoku, and this is what they do best: secret codes, phrases only they can understand, soulmatism… And I like to think that see you later can either pertain to Chuuya coming back, or Dazai joining him, if you will.

tl;dr is that Bones did what we wanted and served the same emotional damage to the anime-only fans.

Alright so maybe this was all over the place but I think I finally got my thoughts down. I'm still not fine after this episode lol, and I probably never will be considering we might get chapter 109 animated at this rate and pace.

If that happens, I'm gone. Just, disintegrated. Nothing more.

What a year to be alive 😭

[chtooda]

fem fyolai sketch!! i don't think their outfits would have changed too much, especially Fyodor's (but maybe Nikolai's would, probably something more open :D)

[chaoticlesbeanfrog]

about me

I’ve seen other people do this and I’ll probably be posting more so….

Hi peoples, you can call me Kat. Any pronouns, just don’t refer to me as a boy. I like writing and musicals, my current hyper fixation is Bungo Stray Dogs, specifically Soukoku/Double Black.

Currently writing a Soukoku Epic the Musical AU. Might post a Soukoku Harry Potter AU, with a bit of Fyolai sprinkled in.

[star-dot-net]

Why have only one gay people when you could have them all? It’s healthy I promise. Bolds are my main/comfort ships

Skk

Sskk

Atsulucy

Kousano

Ranpoe

Kunikidazai

Fyolai

Siglai

Fyolaigma

Higugin

Odango

Mushimizo

Mushiango

Suegiku

Moncott

there are probably more but these are off the top of my head

[uzi-x33]

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