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Hi it's just to let you know that the official romanization of Revaan's name is Raverne ! Also they have romanized Baul's name to Baur !
Twst coming back at us again with the least expected romanization! thank you everybody (oh god my inbox) (no it's great, I literally asked for this and the reactions have been INCREDIBLE, thank you all!)
I do like Raverne though, I think it's got a nice fancy sound to it! (I had kinda suspected it was going to be an R instead of an L, so the fact that it's SO close to Laverne except for that is hilarious to me personally.) and Dragoneye Duke is honestly probably the best translation for his title, I wasn't envying the localizers that one. :') Baur instead of Baul I was NOT expecting, but in retrospect I think his name's supposed to be a reference to the Bauru crocodile, so that actually makes way more sense!
someone else also said Meleanor has become Maleanor, which is the REALLY weird one to me, because I was so surprised it was written as Mel instead of Mal in the first place?! oh god no I can't decide which one I like better. 😭 (I wonder if they might change it to Mal...they have made romanization changes before) (like I remember House of Distraction being corrected to House of Destruction in Playful Land) (I did check and she's still Mel for now, but I dunno, they might Mal her up and some point and save me from having to make a decision about which one to use) (HECK I CAN'T DECIDE)
uhhhh thank you for letting me ramble about anime names, let's just say MONOGRAMMED SWEATERS FOR EVERYONE
#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 4 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 4 spoilers#mel is so cute but mal fits with the rest of the draconias better#eng version no you were supposed to save me not make things MORE confusing#anyway raverne huh#that uh. that sure feels like it's supposed to evoke raven doesn't it.#what does it mean WHAT DOES IT MEAN#hold on i'm going to flail around embarrassingly about anime character theories now#(okay first a disclaimer: i do think we need to sit down as a fandom at some point)#(and have a discussion about exactly what is actual canon versus meta speculation versus jokes)#(because i think there has been. some confusion. over that re:crowley and raverne specifically)#(but i do feel justified in being like THEY ARE PROBABLY CONNECTED SOMEHOW RIGHT?! right now)#like i really don't think it's as simple as crowley being raverne but with memory loss or something#(and if they pull that on us i'm going to need an EXTREMELY good explanation to go with it to justify that)#they've gone out of their way several times now to make a point about them acting and sounding different and it feels very intentional to m#(and once again: i super 100% absolutely do not believe that lilia wouldn't recognize him with the top half of his face covered)#i just think the contradictions are a lot stronger than the connections right now but there ARE some connections and i'm 👀ing at them#to be fair the connections are mostly meta like crowley being diablo/raverne being evocative of raven#also the general 'raverne mysteriously disappeared and apparently had distinctive eyes' thing#versus 'crowley's past is unknown and he never shows his eyes'#(i will argue that crowley DOES seem to have some kind of canon connection to briar valley)#(since he is clearly some sort of fae and the masks are a briar valley thing)#and that is kinda it right now isn't it#okay hold on i had to delete some tags because i used too many (thanks tumblr for letting me know and not just vanishing them OH WAIT)#so tl;dr: i'm in the 'crowley is connected to raverne somehow but it's more complicated than just him being in disguise' camp personally#but that will probably change as we get more info and also don't take this as an anti-speculation thing because i love theories HOORAY
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listen. listen, there's a kind of intimacy in having a dedicated rivalry, okay. who else is going to know you like this!!! also it's funny
Ascanio Maria Sforza: la parabola politica di un cardinale-principe del Rinascimento, Marco Pellegrini
Julius II: The Warrior Pope, Christine Shaw
and on della rovere’s soldier comment:
Popes, Cardinals and War: The Military Church in Renaissance and Early Modern Europe, D.S. Chambers
and finally! regarding the delightful Mess of political-family relationships, including the marriage comment (altho the montefeltro family that giovanni married into did have sforza family ties, since giovanna's mother was battista sforza, but this is about the more immediate alliance based relationship and della rovere's hand in the rejection of a milanese match for his brother. and. this is not even remotely a serious comic, but now I am once again thinking about insular all these families are. the fucking medicis are here too, if you go half a step to the left on della rovere's family tree)
Julius II: The Warrior Pope, Christine Shaw
Giulio II, Il papa del Rinascimento, Giulio Busi (Bianca Maria Visconti is Ascanio's mom. btw)
panel inserts of the cards they're playing with are all from the Visconti-Sforza tarot deck! (I used public domain scans/photos for the comic itself)
ko-fi!⭐ bsky ⭐ pixiv ⭐ pillowfort ⭐ cohost ⭐ cara.app
#weeping. ascanio's dialogue covers up della rovere's sleeve collar. i spent all that time drawing details on it and FOR WHAT#(it was fun)#there was another deleted bit where ascanio has some petty line like 'i bet arguing makes you hard' but then i realized#that's something that lucullus would probably say to crassus and also i need to set that line up for ascanio#we gotta. we gotta character build (lays down face in the ground) we have to provide the character set up for it#it's really more of a line for cesare to drop at some point over how much rodrigo and ascanio argued#shout out to the time rodrigo threatened to throw ascanio into the tiber river or that time ascanio like. decided to physically get into#a fight with juan borgia#and they were still gambling partners after that????? damn okay. sometimes the vice chancellor can be (checks note) im not finishing#that statement#komiks tag#italian renaissance tag#ascanio sforza#giuliano della rovere#i WILL get a relationship dynamic tag for them once i can figure out something punchy and fun. anyway!#ehgh. I NEED. to go to milan. and go thru the archives. let me in. LET ME INNNNNNNNN
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fanart for This Is Not The End by @kings-highway
potentially my favourite fic ever!! <3
#my art#uh i am so sorry but i'm gonna tag you in a few more posts also because#i keep getting inspired to draw stuff by your writings#this took SO long but i finished it!!!!!!!!!!!!!! at last!!!!!!!!!!!!#those fence posts are my mortal enemies but at least they're done now#really glad i actually stuck with this#i started it three weeks ago!!#hm anyway i'm really really in love with this fic like seriously - if it was a published book i would buy it so so fast#everytime a new chapter drops i just go !!!!!!!!!!!!!! and then message my friend to yell about it <3#haikyuu#haikyuu fanart#haikyu!!#haikyu!! fanart#this is not the end#right so; in order:#azumane asahi#iwaizumi hajime#oikawa tooru#tsukishima kei#yamaguchi tadashi#kageyama tobio#hinata shoyo#sawamura daichi#sugawara koushi#kuroo tetsurou#takeda ittetsu#ukai keishin#ushijima wakatoshi#i put too many tags before and it deleted them nooooo i forgot what i said- oh! it was about starting this when only 3 chapters were out#and now there's so many characters which i haven't drawn here but i want to draw at some point so probably will okay loveyou bye <3
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Trump is in a decent position to win as of 11:25 EST and so many of the races he's winning are by such miniscule numbers. 5,000, 2,000 statewide and I'm sorry if you abstained and are just cool with it, fine. but this election will make some difficult choices for me and many like me and it just really sucks that so many people care more about an abstract point than the everyday rights of women in particular
like I know no one who abstained wants to hear from people it genuinely might affect, but I have a Peruvian in law who is legal (not a citizen) but who is very at risk of being sent back it Trump even pursues half of the things regarding immigrants he's promised. He has a wife who is American and relatives who have just come here legally with the hope to pursue citizenship which under project 2025 might not be possible for them
Also I'm sure out of everyone the last person you want to hear from is a middle class white bitch but I have wanted to be a mom my whole life and I've held off until I think I can give a baby the best life I possibly can. And I live in a state that might make the decision to kill me if I have complications that would result in an abortion and I legitimately am so scared of that I might temporarily move back to my home blue state, women have died in my state already because of this. Pregnancy is extremely daunting under the best of circumstances but our country's mortality rate for both babies and mothers continues to be under other developed nations and I know other people have it so much worse than me. But in the richest nation in the world it just really sucks that I have to decide between moving away from my house and husband if I get pregnant or staying in a state where I could die for VERY preventable reasons because the doctors were too afraid to give the care I needed.
Anyway I'm not trying to guilt people necessarily like I fucking get it but this does have immediate consequences for more people than just my family. And it just sucks.
#I'll probably delete this bc i will feel guilty but truly a Trump presidency has so many immediate effects on so many normal ass people#i get wanting to make a point and maybe everyone who is is doing so with the knowledge there could be tangible fallout for themselves or#people they know#but regardless if he gets it this is going to make so many people's every day lives so much hard and i can't help but hold some resentment#since it affects me directly in many ways#streams of consciousness#politics
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you know when you're going through a high stress situation that is prolonged and agonizing but you've put on a brave face and you think you've got this! 💪 and then a week into it you accidentally burn your quinoa and there's smoke and all of a sudden your skin is sloughing off and you feel like alice about to be swept away in a tide of her own tears? mmnnmm yeag.
#i cant fucking do this not at all actually im very scared and i have no idea what im gonna ddo for money and yeah i am. so scared#money isn't even scary if i can just find a job! but i need an apartment but i can't find an apartment unless i can pay for the rent#and i have to contact The Dude at some point but uh. hes mad. im scared.#augh delete later probably. im sitting on the stairs outside and smoking a cigarette which i really shouldn't do#did I tell you i was scared. i have these cruel nightmares of roaming the streets looking for nala and not finding her#and i wake up in a cold sweat in a panic not knowing where i am. everything is so unfamiliar !!!!#if things ever work out for me if i can find the money for deposit or get my investments back somehow i swear i will spend a month in compl#ete silence staring at the cieling just processing this#right now everything feels so GO GO GO and i am scared it might break me. i do not have the time for chronic ilness right now yk.#tummy ache. chewing on my cheek.#nothing to do than try to stay positive but man. this really fucking sucks and is really unfair#who knew being a people pleaser with 0 boundaries would come back to bite me in the ass.#/groan/
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PSA No one gives a fuck if you don't like byler anymore. You want to come into the tag and talk about how boring they are to you now? Okay, then why are you in the tag? No one HERE cares to see your opinion unless they are just as boring as you. You want to talk about how you "checked out of the fandom" and "see all the flaws in the show now" or how "it's all been done before"? Okay congratualtions, do you want a cookie? If so here you go 🍪.
SO many stories have "cliche" elements, have been "done before", or have taken inspiration from OTHER stories. That doesn't suddenly make it bad or make you unique and different for thinking otherwise. YOU needing EVERYTHING you do in life to SOMEHOW be related to or have a political/ethical reasoning in order for you to un-like or dislike something is NOT my problem. YOU needing the internet to tell you what to think is NOT my problem. YOU not being able to separate Will's story and character from Noah Schnapp is NOT my problem. You thinking that leaving the fandom makes you a better person and therefore better than others who still choose to be in it because of your inability to separate fiction from reality and look beyond surface level is NOT my problem. Don't rain on my parade because of YOUR personal issues that you need to talk out with yourself. I'm glad some of you at least saw yourself out the door but stop being miserable about it and pretending it's a brag in the tag.
#and im not saying ppl CAN'T dislike something for political or ethical reasons#it's just the fact that certain things must be seen as problematic or get canceled by the internet#before THOSE ppl change their stance#probably going to delete at some point because I KNOW some ppl are going to be putting words in my mouth#because they are mad that the shoe fits#byler
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you don’t understand the absolute rage i get when i open the comments to one of the dror cast’s tiktoks and all i see is little bitches saying “i miss the og cast!!” “og is better!!” “you’re replacing the og cast!!” SHUT UP AND GROW THE EVERLIVING UPPP
like i get it. i like the old cast too, i think they did absolutely amazing, BUT STOP COMPLAINING ABOUT IT TO THE DROR CAST?? IT IS NOT THAT HARD TO NOT WATCH THE FUCKING MOVIE.
and i again get it, it may not be the same without cameron or the old cast, that’s perfectly fine to admit, but i like to think that’s the entire point. it’s for the next generation, it’s meant to be NEW and FRESH and DIFFERENT. they’re not gonna keep repeating the same three movies over and over again just cause you wanna bitch about it.
it is quite literally meant to be the way it is. and i’ve seen people try and use cameron as an excuse to be whiny babies?? do NOT use cameron’s passing as an excuse to whine and bitch and moan about things that may not be meant for YOU. if you don’t like it, then it is not about YOU. leave him out of it, stop thinking it’s okay to use his passing as an excuse, and let him rest in PEACE.
i think it’s perfectly fine to dislike the movie, i personally can see why you would, but come up with a different fucking excuse instead of sounding like hypocrites and thinking it’s meant for you and only you because you watched the first three movies. as someone who grew up on descendants and absolutely adored it, i’m extremely glad that they did rise of red. i don’t see a problem with it especially since they honored cameron, which i highly expected them to do and i was pleased.
my only problem is that you keep bitching about it to the YOUNG cast members. it is not their fault they decided to make a fourth movie. go bitch about it to the disney tiktok account, just leave the dror cast OUT OF IT.
i’m not saying you have to like it. i’m not saying you can’t dislike it. all i’m saying is you need to pick a fucking lane. either you spend the rest of your life bothering (mostly) minors for no reason since you have nothing else to do with your life, OR, the better option, you can grow up, not watch the movie, and live out the rest of your days being happy and watching the old movies to your liking.
i really don’t care which you pick, my main point is that the dror cast have NOTHING to apologize for and if you think it’s okay to make them feel that way, you’re in desperate need of a lobotomy and shock therapy.
#lemme know if i should’ve worded this better#i did this impulsively cause i just came across kylie’s tiktok#and all her comments were talking about the old cast except like two people#it just bothers me how people can freely go into their comments#and bitch and moan like whiny babies#you’re completely entitled to your own opinion#just give a fucking reason instead of saying ‘’oh they’re replacing the ogs!’’#NO THEYRE FUCKING NOT??#they’re children. some of them aren’t even 20 yet.#GO BOTHER THE PRODUCERS#THE PEOPLE WHO MADE IT HAPPEN#INSTEAD OF THE CAST#i’m probably gonna delete this in like an hour😭#i just had so say something because it’s so stupid???#i hope i got my point across. i probably didn’t😭#descendants#descendants rise of red#rise of red
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#dreamworks trolls#branch#broppy#trolls band together#queen poppy#poppy#trolls 3#I can’t stop drawing them#but I will probably be more sketchy going forward#this one kind of killed me because at one point I accidentally deleted some of the line art layers 😭#void-wyrm-art
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Can you make a tutorial on how you world build and make ocs? I can't seem to make any people in my brain, but then when I try to come up with environments jobs, beliefs and little details to slowly come up with someone, I think: well I don't really know how people have influenced the world- it's a weird loop
To be honest, I don't think I can! Writing is an extremely personal process. The way I write is directly related to how I process things, what I find important in stories, years of my own analysis of my and other's writing, etc... The way you write will be unique to you, as well. But I can explain how I personally think of it.
The short answer:
Write. Write anything and everything, it's a tool to explore your ideas. Analyze your own writing, and write more. Then, as you discover which ideas you want to develop, write more to explore them more. You won't know what you want otherwise!
The long answer:
I think this kind of loop is common. It's easy to feel like everything needs to be done "at once," because our job as writers is to make elements logically fit with each other for our readers. But as you've discovered, developing multiple elements simultaneously isn't really possible, or at least is extremely difficult.
Personally, when I think of writing, I break it into three major elements; characters, world, and plot. As much as possible every scene explores one or more of these, and as much as possible these three things tie back into what I personally consider most important: theme.
Everything I do is in service of the themes I want to present. Without them my events feel aimless. It can take a while to discover them, but they're the core of my work. You will have to discover what you feel is the core of yours. Analyzing other media helps with this too.
Concepts in your brain exist in a state of infinite potential. But when you start writing you have to start making choices, which removes potential as you move forward... But you have to move forward anyways. If there's ideas you want to explore later, you can always explore them later.
What this ends up meaning, to answer your question, is that I don't think of my characters as "people in my brain" or my worlds as something people have influenced... Not at their core, at least. They are tools that I use to represent specific ideas. Obviously they're also my blorbos, but mostly they're serving a specific narrative purpose.
So above all else... Write. Write, and discover what you're writing about, and then start over and write with that in mind. Keep doing this. But you have to write!
#I wish there were a cleaner answer to this kind of thing#and I also wish that there were a way to answer that didnt feel like 'just do it lol'#but... genuinely you kind of just have to do it!#I find it helps to reframe writing as trying to figure out which ideas I don't like#then if I write anything that feels bad to me#it's not about being a bad writer or anything like that. it's just something I dont want in my story and I delete it.#like if you find yourself naturally coming up with worldbuilding elements. its okay to just start there!#you can start like 'I really want giant mushrooms' and then start thinking about how cool that would be#and like oooh what if there were really cool caves full of mushrooms and all glowy yeaaah#then you start building people from that. colonies of fungal people or something. this is still worldbuilding#then you might think now. whats a plot that could go with this and show off my cool mushrooms.#maybe the mushrooms are all connected and the main one is dying and no one knows why. it's a classic plot.#if you still dont feel like you can find a character in that. keep going! why is it dying? how can it be saved? can it? if not then why?#etc etc etc. when I am writing I actually ltierally write out 101 questions like this as I'm going and then I answer them#and if I cant answer them. then I figure out a different situation that doesnt bring that question up LMFAO#eventually you can decide you want a hero who idfk will replace the big mushroom or something. a sacrifice and immortality simultaneously#then you can be like yeah so my themes are probably about sacrifice. connection to others. love for your community. stuff like that#and then you can go back to your world and say. yeah I think that people should have telepathic communication on some level!#I'm just making all this up right now but I just want to illustrate somehow how this kind of cyclical process can actually be a tool#because it's not about getting it all right at once. its about leaning into the cycle and how it guides you through developing these#anyways idk if this makes any sense. if this doesnt feel like it works for you then it probably literally doesnt#but writing more and analyzing writing more is ALWAYS good#it will never make your writing worse to do those things.#unfortunately (said with all the love in the world) writing is an endless process of learning more about who you are and what you care abou#its wonderful but it's hard and theres no way to skip that process#good luck!#asks#anon#writing stuff#oh also if at any point you go hm. that big thing isnt working for me I think...
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#at some point i just need to accept my brother has essentially taken my dog#and maybe if i accept it ill get over it#im clinging to that dog with my fingernails and as per usual i have to be the eldest daughter#and just let my things be taken#im just. this isn’t worded well. im just. very tired of this.#i do EVERYTHING for that dog—feed him take him to the vet groom him bathe him#and just.#sigh.#ignore me.#delete later#i just still remember the time my dad told me i shouldn’t allow him into my room#so he’d be encouraged to go into my brother’s room#bc my brother was really depressed and refusing to take his antidepressants (which he STILL doesn’t take#THIS MAN IS 33 FUCKING YEARS OLD)#and i wish i had just said something like ‘do you realize how unfair that is to me?’#but ofc he wouldn’t bc im the eldest daughter. and no matter how many times i point out how unfair that is to my parents#nothing changes. it just. im expected to just deal with it.#with shit like my dog—MY. FUCKING. DOG.—becoming my brother’s#as if my mental health doesn’t matter#and listen im on antidepressants and they make a helluva difference#but that dog is mine. my one thing. and now he’s not.#sorry im also probably gonna start my period any day now so im hella fucking emotional#i just miss my dog.
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World's most frustrating feeling: having multiple ideas and character designs but despite working on the thing for nearly 5 YEARS still being nowhere close to having a coherent plot 💀
#yeah ok this is UBER specific lmaoooo but u get me#idk man i think im really proud of my character designs (finally) especially the prsonas ive been designing lately#and i have a character i adore so much and i KNOW many things about him#but apparently cant come up with a decent plotline. like alirght#cool cool brain#sorry to be bitching ill probably delete this in the morning#but i was thinking about this as i was playing royal and thinking about how he would react to the situations#even thinking out dialogues and how id change small lil things now that hes there#but i cant realy go in depth if i dont have a plot to introduce him huh#yeah basically back to the drawing board again. for the like. 7th time idk i lost count#realistically these things take time i know but at some point i have GOT to resist the urge to just scrap all the stuff ive done#and start over going this time itll be different!#look in the grand scheme of things this really doesnt matter i just wanted to get this off my mind LMAOOOO#sorry friends <3 hope you dont mind me losing my mind over a fictional au i created for FUN again 💀#i will now be going to sleep because lets face it thats whats really wrong with me
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do you guys ever have like. a ship that you didn't necessarily think about much and didn't have any problems with before but then you saw how mean people were being about it so now you're like. that's going to be a no from me
#delete later.#small text to indicate i am whispering#the thing about me is i will never hate on your ship if you like it (as long as its like .. not objectively horrific yk)#there are some things i don't personally vibe with but i will never try and stop you as long as you let me keep my opinion#however. theres a certain fandom that i won't name where people have like .. not had a good response to those who have different opinions#and at this point i'm just not even going to entertain the idea of that ship because of how mean some people have been about it#obviously it doesn't reflect the entire fandom but you know .. the negativity can sometimes overpower everything else#not naming names but its uhh probably.. not hard to figure out
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man. I've been reworking a lot of content involving Act II of Home Is Where You Are and like. ugh. it'd work so freaking well in novel form but I just Do Not have the dedication or the drive to start from scratch and rewrite everything that happens.
idk how else to share the updated version of that part of the story with y'all tho, considering that Khalan's journal is insanely outdated now and isn't entirely canon anymore, so I'll probably just have to accept that I likely won't ever be able to update the story for y'all in the way I wish I could. >n<;;
#spectre says#text post#delete later probably#tbh i'm so tired of being tired#i've had like. no energy to write or draw#even tho. the ideas are there. i've got so many concepts going through my head that i could work on and turn into some kind of tangible art#i tried writing out a new outline for act ii but i got overwhelmed with all the changes and plot holes that still need working out#so idk if i'll even continue with that#even tho it's just bullet points#fhgdjkfg#anyway#the idea of writing everything in novel form just sounds like. SO perfect for the story as it is now#i'd love. to establish both khalan and antony as main characters and focus on what happens to both of them while in Atria#eventually having their stories collide when antony's side of things merges with what's going on with khalan and aya#it'd feel less jarring than how it worked out in the journal#because this part of the story is just as much antony's story as it is khalan and aya's#and he's ultimately the one who fixes things and has 'main character energy' by the end of that act#so establishing him as one of the tertiary main characters early on makes sense i think#but yeah. there's just a lot i'd need to do and i know i wouldn't be able to keep up with it if i did try to start writing.#IM JUST RAMBLING NOW IM SORYO#it's just been on the brain i guess
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*minding my own business feeling fine*
*suddenly remembers one time I lost patience with somebody online*
*guilt*
#I mean I was going through some stuff at the time but that’s no excuse#they were being really incessant on a fic of mine#like they just kept commenting they would’ve written it differently and they wished I had made the characters more mean to each other#(which was LITERALLY against the entire point of the fic)#they probably left like three or four of them to that effect#but I finally got fed up with it and told them to knock it off but immediately felt bad#and now o can’t look at the comments of that fic without feeling guilty aaaaaugaauahauagh#rambles from the floor#delete later
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with the leaks to the 2nd to last chapter out can I just ask that we hold off on criticism of whoever until the last chapter is officially out? I know it's asking a lot
#its one more week y'all#AND#this isnt even the official translation#its not even the fan translation?#its 2 leakers giving a brief and very biased summary of whats happening in some badly scanned pictures#i just feel like everyone is seeing the 2nd to last chapter play out#and dooming themselves to be disappointed no matter what happens in the finale#its not the end yet??#theres one more week??#after that its totally fair if you want to hate the way things were handled or criticize whoever#not all of the plot points are going to be addressed unfortunately and some people are going to be disappointed regardless#i might be disappointed i dont know yet#but im holding my opinion until august 4 when the official last chapter is released#being disappointed in a chapter is fair!#but feeling as tho this chapter was the end and theres nothing that can be added to the final chapter to make it better is a little extreme#idk#i need to get off twitter bc its all doom and gloom there#bnha#bnha leaks#mha#bnha 429#mha 429#ill probably delete this later#in other news#that full color page with aizawa smiling is so so good like chicken soup for the soul#those are HIS kids#and hes proud of them#hopefully he can take a break soon and get some real sleep#okay im done
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I want to delete my account.... disappear for a bit........ but I WON'T I WON'T I WON'T I PROMISE
#💭 — ⌗nervo rambles . ★#I'm my worst enemy atp HAHA#Idk a fresh start does SOUND nice#but this user is like. mine#it's ME#my identity if you will#and I also have a lot of memories here and while it is a messy account (which bugs me..... I wanna clean it out so bad but it's HARD)#and I'm going to see family on Thursday and we're coming home Sunday I believe#which is rlly cool bc I don't see those family members a lot#but my mental exhaustion..... It's tiring to interact irl#and online interaction is a lot easier for me personally#aaaand ik I'll probably get irritated a lot get frustrated lock myself away bc of that all#you get the point#my thoughts also say that if I were to disappear here it'd take a bit for ppl to notice/they wouldn't care that I'm not on the platform any#BUT IK IT'S NOT TRUE#I seek validation too much I'm gonna be completely honest#I want to know ppl would miss me I want to know I make a difference here but yk#my account always dies for a bit when I'm on some kind of break 💔💔#I was abt to get wayyy too deep there HELP#yeah probably gonna delete this list in a few hrs I always cringe at them later on bc of the stuff I say in tags#I'm too much of a yapper and share too much online#but nobody sees anyways#and me saying that stuff makes me call myself an attention seeker istg 💀💀#sorry guys 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏#I'm trying to make this humorous and not too serious 😞😞
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