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Karushuu Dialogue Prompt
Based on THIS
Gakushuu : Sometimes I think that maybe you're not as terrible as I make you out to be. And then you always go to extraordinary lenghts to confirm that you are, in fact, worse.
Karma : God you're insufferable. One little triple homicide and it's all "whine whine whine". Grow up.
Gakushuu : On of the bodies is my father's.
Karma : And you should thank me for that !
Gakushuu : Whatever. Let's grab a shovel, we have to hide them now.
*later, at a coffee*
Gakushuu : Thanks for getting rid of my father. But still, I don't think the two other were necessary.
Karma *drinking a mlikshake* : Twas a personal treat.
Gakushuu *skeptical* : For what ?
Karma : Just felt like it !
#dunno i just wrote what was on my mind#probably doesn't make sense at all lmao#karushuu#writing prompt#dialogue prompt#my writing#mini fic#assclass#ansatsu kyoushitsu#karma akabane#gakushuu asano#assassination classroom#spilled ink#writing#incorrect quotes
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I think this is one of my favorite lines from the Wraith route because of (imo) how much the meaning changes depending on if you got there via Spectre or Nightmare. For Spectre, it honestly strikes me as a genuine question. Why are you doing this to her? If you're on the Spectre route, you presumably already know the Narrator can't really be trusted, since you had to reject his reward to get here. What are you hoping to gain from continuing to hurt her? For Nightmare, it honestly just makes me sad. As the Shifting Mound describes her, "She desires only companionship, but the only thing she knows is how to hurt." This line feels like a plea from someone who genuinely doesn't understand why you keep rejecting her. She wants to be with you, but she just can't understand how to do that in a way which doesn't hurt you.
#at the risk of getting put on a list there is something tragic & relatable in nightmare#someone who desperately wants to make connections but just can't understand how#anyway wraith is one of my favorite princesses for stuff like this (and bc tragedy aside her route is a riot)#also im sorry if she doesn't say that line if you got there via nightmare#that's how i got her and i could've sworn she did? But i only found footage of her saying it in spectre#slay the princess#stp#stp wraith#the wraith#stp spectre#stp nightmare#side note archetypal/heart#(slash so i don't accidentally tag them)#pointed out on another post of mine that you get wraith via nightmare by killing her and via spectre by leaving her in the basement#in both cases its a rejection of her (rejection being one of wraith's main themes)#which makes me speculate on spectre's ch 3 (which i think we currently have very little info on?)#Trying to run from Nightmare should technically be a 'rejection' as well#but you get MOC from that (and from choosing to stay with her)#imo bc you're just repeating the same inaction which got you into this situation in the first place#you don't want to slay her. you don't want to set her free. So you just leave her there (again)#and so you get MOC where things have only gotten worse and you have no choice left. Because you chose *not* to take action again#So I wonder if spectre 3 will be a similar 'repeating your past mistakes' type of deal#i was skeptical about it coming from stabbing yourself while she possesses you or trying to crush her bones#but it does make sense with that in mind#im curious if it'll parallel MOC#except instead of having no choice but to free the princess you have no choice but to obey the narrator again#maybe you both end up stuck in the cabin forever again?#idk#sorry i probably should've put all of that tag in the post lmao
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loop and mirabelle. That's it that's the ask
DAY 84: enrolled in the gossip wars
#codacheetah#isat#loop isat#mirabelle isat#isat spoilers#vaguely. mostly for the tags#i think it'd be sooo funny if like. loop and mirabelle postcanon.#loop has rejoined the party somewhat recently and they are not at all adapting. to be honest. reunion probably happened too soon#bc they are a siffrin which means they are disgustingly sentimental. their ass is not taking the time to discover themself as a new person.#do you really think loop is gonna take their own advice.lol.#lmao even#Ok so anyways i think the party and loop would have a weird thing going on#like theyre all extremely grateful to loop. and they trust loop through the general basis of theyre apparently very dear to siffrin#but fucking nobody knows what to make of this bitch. odile knows they are hiding Something but she has no certain evidence to pin it down.#isabeau can't catch loop alone for more than 5 seconds. has the distinct sense they're avoiding him and he does not know why#bonnie....well tbh i think they'd vibe with loop. bonnie win.#mirabelle. i think she wouldn't really like loop? not at first anyways#do you remember in sasasap mirabelle telling siffrin(loop) that for a long time she thought they were a callous sort of person#bc they never took anything seriously at all. like the whole journey didnt mean anything. until they took an eye for bonnie#i think mirabelle would catch a similar vibe towards loop(lol.) bc like#like loop's main presence in the group is negging siffrin and being weird and dodgy around everyone else#i don't even think they'd be mean to the others but they would do everything in their power to throw the party zero bones#so all mirabelle has to go on for loop is that they're kind of a dickhead to her friend and that they're not receptive to normal group#social activities. i think being on the receiving end of mirabelle's kindness would make loop kind of sad and she'd pick up on it#but like. loop is inexplicably important to siffrin. she doesn't know the details bc neither of them want to talk at all about the loops#and i think siffrin would be especially dodgy abt talking about loop in the interrim between them rejoining and them being Presumed Dead#so mirabelle tries a new strategy to bridge the gap between her and loop. the power of Mutual Haterism#more specifically i think mirabelle would get the impression of loop as being much more of a bitch than they actually are#due to the aforementioned siffrin negging#so like. maybe that's just how they socialize maybe they'd be down to talk about hot takes and gossip a bit
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I've been rewatching the first two seasons of The Bear so I can watch the third season that just came out and man the character writing in this show makes me froth at the mouth it's like some of the best arcs I've ever seen in a TV series
#little infodump in the tags bc no one I know is watching this show so I need to spill all my thoughts somewhere LOL#Richie is my favorite he makes me go ballistic especially in the episode Forks#just rewatched that episode and it always makes me cry when he has his moment where he finally Gets it#he's such a shit stain of a guy I would probably hate him if I knew him in real life lmfao but as a character he is so fantastically writte#I also really love Marcus but he hasn't had as big of a development as Richie has#Sydney is awesome but she's. so much like me in the way where I cringe at her sometimes LMAO#when she's acting super sarcastic and holier than thou I can't look directly at it it's too much like me when I'm at my worst DHF;LKDFH#god I hope Marcus and Sydney get together they are so cute#unusually good chemistry for a straight ship LOL /hj#I also love Tina but my only complaint with her is that I kinda wish her arc in the first season took a little more time#bc she started off as a real asshole just like all the characters did but she had a much more sudden switch#but I guess it makes sense for her now that I think about it bc she's shown to be a very sweet and compassionate person#it's just that she doesn't trust Sydney at first so once she gets over that then she's sweet with her too#excited to learn more about Ebra he reminds me a lot of an old coworker#also obvs no spoilers for season 3 please I haven't got there yet#lyla's talking again
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I started writing a t4t4c Sol/Jackie/Axl fic today (~1500 words). Haven't gotten to the Axl part yet, so it's just t4t right now still. They're at an amusement park and Jack-O' brought nefarious supplies
#textpost#suggestive cw#She put a plug in that beast#I love t4t Sol/Jackie#I feel bad always having Jack-O' initiate the scenes in these so I tried to get Sol to make a move for once in this fic lmao#It's so difficult though!!! I just can't imagine him being like#'hey jack-o' let's bang ok'#because he's such a 'speaks through actions' type of character rofl#But it's way harder initiating a sex scene with a character like that#Also his libido's probably fucked from the grief he spent like... 170 years chewing on#and Jack-O's got much more of this like 'new to the world and wants to explore all it offers' energy#So it makes more sense -- to me -- that Jack-O' is probably more frequently interested in sex than Sol#Who likely just doesn't really think about it until someone else brings it up (not that he's opposed to it though)#Ok I'm going to make curry now. Thanks for coming to my TED Talk
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screaming to the crowd. zero escapers i need to know your thoughts/hcs on 1904!phi and her partner.... im thinking a lot about phis insane ass backstory. need to Know.....
#personal supporter of old woman yuri. thats what they are to me#to me they are like. very much not a normal family by the time they take in phi and foster her the Other phi would be 104......#assuming she is also just kind of weird with age like delta is i guess LMAO. but yeah#phis autistic tgirl swag carries over to 1904 phi too . to me#though there is also something to be said about how they specifically Fostered her like she said and didnt . adopt her. delta was adopted#she was not#unless 1904 phi was but like. fostering and adoption arent the same thing! far from it#like it kind of implies they didn't intend to keep 2008 phi around permanently? if that makes sense#plus the way phi talks about her foster parents (barely at all and she says that she doesn’t have a mother or a father)#makes it sound like she doesn't really consider them true parents. and how she talks abt the brooch and everything in vlr makes it seem lik#the mystery of what happened to her birth parents was probably on her mind a lot considering that brooch was the reason she studied latin a#all. she says she kept its message close to her like a prayer. its interesting. is there some kind of strain between her and her foster#parents? are they just busy a lot with their research work?#is it a matter of the idea of being wanted? wanting closure on what happened to her birth parents?#idk! lots on the mind i think its conceptually rly interesting bc of All That combined with the fact that she essentially raised herself#i like pondering how she ticks. yknow#zero escape#ztd spoilers#phi vlr#zero escape phi#zero time dilemma#ztd#trevor.txt#phiposting
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a lot of people seem to use Entry #61 as 'proof' for the crux of the "Brian didn't care about Tim, he was Taking Advantage of Tim's conditions and Forcing him to work as part of totheark" thing, but honestly when you think about it there's no possible way Brian could have possibly orchestrated that series of events, like you almost have to interpret that as a baffling group of coincidences
#N posts stuff#mh lb#it's not like Brian has loads of mutual friends that he could ask to call Tim out one night; Tim's departure right as Brian showed up#just has to be a coincidence ; second yes. Brian does steal Tim's meds & that's a dick move but it's almost safe to assume#that Tim and Brian had been sharing prescriptions back in S1 - that's why the pills were at Brian's house that time Jay broke in#even if Tim no longer remembers that agreement it's not like Brian is brimming with other options so i can see the throughline of it#but there's NO way that Brian knew that 1) Tim was going to immediately turn around and come back home OR#2) be in the throes of an attack when he did so ; there's no Possible way he planned for that -- even if you Could assume that like. what#Brian 'knows' the operator is following him & Somehow orchestrated an encounter 1) no that doesn't make any sense and#2) that Still doesn't make any sense bc Tim has been Plenty Close to the Operator before w/ almost no negative effects (like in#Entry 17 when it's Right behind him) so there's no possible way Brian could have predicted that would unfold this way#sure it's weird he sets up the camera in the closet before Tim comes back but that Could Have been something unrelated#after all sometimes Brian DOES deliberately put himself on camera so someone knows he's responsible for something#or maybe he even planned to leave the camera there for later but it doesn't make Sense to interpret that as him Knowing what would happen#like don't get me wrong i'm not trying to say Brian is a pinnacle of ethics and moral behavior lmfao but also it's like#a kind of incomprehensible argument to make that he was Responsible for Triggering Tim's seizure that night when for all the#information Brian had on hand when he broke in he'd think Tim probably wouldn't be back home until much later#(''but the Creators Clearly intended'' yeah sure but since the creators also failed to establish a coherent series of events that SHOW#it then like. the intent doesn't matter anymore; sure they scripted the events in close succession but that doesn't mean they#scripted Intent & if they meant to then they did a bad job portraying it to the point the supposed intent is meaningless sorry lmao)#and EVEN IF you get this far and you're Still like 'but tim went after Jay and Brian would've Known he'd do that' like. no he wouldn't#because in Entry 18 when we see Tim have a seizure the first thing he does when jay approaches him after it is Run Away#so Again there's no consistent throughline of behaviors that Brian could have Possibly known about to orchestrate jack shit
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It's been well over a week now (maybe two??) but I'm still plugging away (ever-so-slowly) at this vignette about Zara and Rook. Zara's POV is a lot of fun to write, now that I have a better sense of her character. Writing this has really solidified in my mind the kind of person she is and how she acted when she was Rook's captain and mentor. She's very calm and collected in comparison to Rook, even when under a lot of stress.
Anyways, have a little snippet that I'm proud of from today, featuring the origins of the coin trick!
Pacing back and forth across her cabin floor, she rolled the coin back and forth over her knuckles again and again. The motion was easy, almost mindless, more muscle memory than real intent. The coin trick had been her favorite way to soothe her nerves for years now. She’d picked it up out of idle curiosity after watching a street performer dining in a tavern in Bon Largo, who had chatted with her for over an hour as she fretted about something mundane, never once dropping the coin from their fingers. The same performer had later tried to steal her coin purse and ended up with nothing but a new scar for their trouble, but Zara had learned two important things from the encounter: Not to trust a warm smile and a pretty face, and that keeping her hands moving kept her mind from dwelling too much on worrisome things.
one-time tagging @space-writes because they commented on my tags about Rook learning the coin trick from Zara in one of my other snippets from this piece.
#morrigan.text#my writing#dnd#dnd writing#oc: Zara#<- I guess she gets a tag now#dnd vignettes#morrigan plays dnd#ngl this vignette is the first thing that I've written in MONTHS that wasn't the product of a single session of manic typing.#so I'm very very proud of myself for that.#it's currently 4001 words long which is a decent chunk!! And there's parts at the beginning that I skipped over at the time but want to go#back and add to at some point.#plus I'm still not at the end of it yet.#there's more I want to get to.#but anyways: I wrote 231 words tonight and I would have written more if not for the DM of Rook's game finally replying to my messages.#who know maybe I'll still write some more before I go to bed. though I probably shouldn't.#the street performer annecdote was probably 20+ years ago now... probably close to the same time she got her tattoo.#(yes Zara has a tattoo. It was an impulse decision when she was young and she regrets it now. Her crew doesn't even know it exists.#it's of a mermaid sitting in a clamshell and it's on her thigh. Very much a stereotypical silly sailor thing that she got without thinking.#She definitely regrets it and wishes it were gone. But thanks to magic ink that never fades it still looks brand new. So... RIP.)#don't ask me why I know so much about Zara. The funny thing is that I don't even know her backstory. The DM is keeping it from me until we#get to the town where she is. That she somehow became the mayor of????? All I know is that she has some kind of history with Wolf.#from well before Rook ever joined her crew. And that Wolf took Rook to get back at her for it. Whatever it is.#and I have no idea how the fuck a former pirate captain became mayor of a port town lmao. In some ways it makes sense in others it doesn't.#I guess I'll just have to wait and find out.#ugh I don't wanna wait though. I've been waiting to meet Zara ever since I made Rook's character over a year and a half ago.#patience Morri. Patience.
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so it's not entirely clear how many of focalors' memories furina actually retained once she was separated from her divine self, and there are two pieces of evidence to suggest that she has very few, if any at all — firstly, that when neuvillette quizzes her about egeria and the stone slates at the start of act 5, she genuinely seems to know nothing about egeria or the nature of the sin that she committed against celestia ( she had no reason to really lie to neuvillette at that point, especially as this is in the aftermath of poisson and the final straw for him to put her on trial to get some answers ), where we in fact know that focalors was one of egeria's oceanid familiars, wanted to be human herself and was her successor after egeria perished during the cataclysm, and second, that focalors specifically describes to neuvillette that when she separated her divine and human selves, she "left behind only a self that was as naive and bewildered as my past self on her first day as a human being."
but furina does have the knowledge of the prophecy before focalors explains it to her more fully in the mirror, saying that it's in her head but she doesn't know why. so, in trying to reconcile all of this, i lean towards the idea that focalors left behind certain vague memories, the two key ones being that of the prophecy and an understanding that she needed to bring the hydro sovereign to the court of fontaine, but without any context in order to preserve the idea that, for the most part, furina was operating completely in the dark in terms of focalors' plan
so furina enters into her position as hydro archon with considerable gaps in her memory ( and, due to being a human with an unnaturally elongated life span rather than being a species or divine creature who is naturally long lived, has memory issues later down the line, but that's a separate meta ), and, as a result, she does an incredible amount of research into the archons, celestia and her role in teyvat. i don't think it was a coincidence or just a fun joke that, in her demo, furina imitates all of the other archons we'd met up until that point — she confesses to the traveler before her trial that at one point she had agents all over teyvat and i think some of this was intelligence gathering concerning how archons governed in other nations. furina became archon in the immediate aftermath of the cataclysm and the death of fontaine's previous archon without any memories of focalors' life as egeria's confidante and familiar, so was already at a huge disadvantage in those early years of her rule
#* / character study ( furina. )#like the biggest plot hole to me about all of this is how furina would /know/ to summon neuvillette#when focalors didn't tell her about him in their initial conversation#and you could say that focalors could influence things via the oratrice (like she did by sentencing childe to the fortress#and going against neuvillette's verdict) but i don't think there's a lot she could influence outside of the courtroom#it's not clear from neuvillette's stories whether it was focalors or furina who sent him that note (probably because he also doesn't know#+ for the longest time he thought they were the same person)#but it makes the most sense to me that /furina/ would have had to put in the leg work and actually track him down lmao#so this is me waving my lil magic wand like this girl's mind is a mess. it's the only explanation fdgjkdfg#this is what happens when a god makes you their puppet actress for five hundred years without an instruction manual
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rip Magnus Carter you would have loved causing problems for the general public and also not having mad cow syndrome
#i heart that funky bisexual boy#fun fact he's a spiderman oc that got into some complications with cannibalism and morbius. those two things are unrelated i just wanted to#clarify. hes not a good guy lmao#imagine if spiderman wasn't really spiderman but he was some random ginger teenager living in the sewers 'communicating to the spiders' who#he feeds by dragging helpless strangers into the sewers and letting the spiders eat them ! so basically spiderman already kind of exists#in his universe but he's like. a weird freaky villain guy varient of them somehow? I couldn't think of any weird spide rvillain names so he#is just kind of known as The Spider or The Spider King but I'm also a big nerd for greek myths so I kinda wanna make him be known as Arachn#anyways the way that he's technically kind of like spiderman is because he was bit by these weird carnivorous sentient spiders that were#experimented on by some big company probably oscorp and they tried to eat him but when they bit him he got the silly powers and so they wer#like 'ooooh! he is the one we follow! please feed us human flesh little human boy!' and so he listened to them because the poison that gave#him the powers in the first place was already incredibly corrosive so it very much made him a lot more physically ill than he already was#but the spiders were like 'noooo what we have no idea whats going on just take some more of our acidic blood so you can be all powerful !'#even though that was killing him anyways eventually skipping over a lot of stuff i dont have time to yap about he figured out that he could#control the spiders kind of in a way? idk i made this when I was an emo middle schooler ignore this if it's cringe but anyways spiderman#kind of started realizing what was going on so he ended up kinda having to fight that guy and he ended up killing his Gwen Stacy and since#this spiderman doesn't have a no kill rule he kinda killed him :p theres more lore for him but that's just his universe's magnus#carter lore anyways sorry for infodumping I got excited and silly cause I haven't gotten to yap about him in so long#I really like it when villains are genuinely horror novel level disturbing if that makes sense for why he's so fucked up and weird#oh also the morbius thing is for a different version of him ! I may yap about that version of him at a future date
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It's all fun and games until it isn't
#dumb doodles#master m au#1) i think it'd be neat if he tagged along with the other minions sometimes not to help but to follow around the hero(s) to make them laugh#the princess and the green guy are doing this hero thing all WRONG#they should be happy and smile because that's what heros are supposed to DO#the turtle gets it; he seems thrilled as heck during all this#plus....there's just something extra annoying about greenie not enjoying being the main hero and being so /miserable/ looking....#2) ....does. anyone else think mario might... subconsciously internalize his image as a hero?#like; don't get me wrong; he loves helping others and is by default; a happy lil guy#but...it probably is a lot of pressure to be that constant rock and source of comfort#he's probably mostly okay with it and it probably doesn't cross his mind to be resentful or bitter about always being the hero#there's just this small small; easily ignorable part of him that's tired of it#that the mister m persona brings to the forfont in a kinda ugly way if you crack that mask hard enough#in other words; if he drops the smile; then i think his more bitter thoughts and feelings he hides both as mario and master m#are a bit more...obvious if that makes sense#ANYWAYS THOSE BOYS ARE GONNA NEED SOME THERAPY AFTER THIS#3) i. honestly forgot if the mimi fight was before or after the first mr. l one lmao#i just wanted to do some silly puns before the sucker punch#anyways; it's an au; luigi probably isn't collecting hearts in the proper order chaotic lil man he is#super mario#mario#luigi
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I’m so powerful for making Roxy trans in a way that no one else is doing. I give her so much gender I’m not even entirely sure where she falls on the trans scale if not slipping off the scale directly into ‘genderqueer’ territory.
#listen all you guys suddenly being roxy fans#I've been here from the START I can do WHATEVER I want :D#and what I want is for Foxy and Roxy to be separate entities with their own funky genders#like trans masc foxy from I dunno a glam Mangle or something#is it supported by the game? no.#is it canon roxy is probably a trans femme foxy? potentially! it's a possiblity!!#that could still be the case in some of my iterations for her to an extent!!#i give her so much gender she COULD be trans femme Foxy but not in the same way everyone else is doing#BECAUSE of the fun gender!!#it's a very versatile gender!!!#lmao it's fun she gets to be all the genders and none and a secret third thing at the same time#pfft could start calling it 'gendermess' because it's like a conspiracy board of red string and photos#it doesn't NEED to make sense to anyone else#she knows who she is#who's gonna stop her from being her? god?? I think the fuck not!#.......... I genuinely don't know what comes under the trans umbrella though so...#like....#genuinely don't know where she falls in terms of labels and communities but she's there somewhere!!!#I promise!!!
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one thing about me is that i'll freeze to death when angry. like i'm shaking and not from anger, it's just that i get so cold
#johnny's silly rambles#surely this is normal right?#or is it the lonely having a grip on me and making this all dramatic like “there's not warmth in my life *faints dramatically*”#but i mean am i wrong???#lmao why use a tma ref but i've been thinking about this a lot recently but ANYWAYS#i hate being angry :(#i'm meant to be pet..#he's not answering now too. ofc. he probably doesn't even know what he did wrong...#fuck off dude. i was angry at him before for pressuring me to do things i don't want (like using tinder or sth which... wouldn't make-#-much sense to me... if you were listening to me??? maybe??????? but he never listens.) but now it's just- argh i want to punch him#yeah another#vent#sorryyyy but i can't let this out anywhere else#if you're reading all this ily <33#and dw i'm gonna be fine#just so frustrating to deal with all of them nowadays
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#that disappointing game post is so fun and interesting to me good god#people will mention a game i like and it makes me go >:0#but also idk i'm very up for criticism of the things i like. like all the mass effect games? you're so right lmao#i love mass effect but every one of those games is flawed#i will defend mea but also. it IS super flawed#the only ones i find truly annoying are when people are like 'ur baby brained if u can enjoy this' like ??#idk i 100% agree bg3 is flawed and there are a lot of frustrating and disappointing aspects#also i like it 😇#a lot of the writing is good. a lot of the characters are good. that doesn't mean im like. sacrificing my son to it and saying it's perfect#but also i said this before but it's just neat to see how different people's experiences are#like whiskey-trio it makes 100% sense that you were disappointed by ztd#i'm way newer to the series and wasnt anticipating and waiting for a third game#also tbh 🫣 vlr didnt really hit for me the way it seems to have for most ze fans 🫣 so i was already in a place of like#yeah these games are fun but 999 will probably be untouched#so. all that and all this to just say. i think it's neat how different people can be for no real reason other than. we have our own tastes#my siblings + i can be raised in the same environment by the same parental figures and come out of it so absurdly different#and why???? what makes people have the tastes + preferences they do??????? idk!!!#like vlr wasnt a knockout for me but i will slam my fists on the table and howl about aitsf. aitsf my beloved!!!! there's nobody like you!!#anywayssss pardon me#i think. thinking about things and talking about things is fun#tagged: ignore me
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whenever i'm with large groups of people i have at least one moment of Oh God. People Think I'm Either A Man Or A Woman. it's like getting shocked every time lmao party meme but it's they don't know i'm nonbinary
#he looked scared! like i might think badly of him or treat him differently!#i have many gay friends!#i did? kind of come out? to my coworker?#but i mean she already knew i'm gay lmao it's so obvious when you assume i'm a man that i'm not straight 😭😭#i did have to make a split second decision to say either bi or gay and i said gay 😭 i do use both interchangeably personally#bc i use gay as like an umbrella term for not straight#but i know people tend to think of only homosexual and heterosexual lol bisexual people don't exist <3#but really i didn't feel like doing a lesson on what bisexuality is if it was needed so 😭😭#my coworker was cool with it i was like i mean you probably know already but i'm gay lol and she said yeah i knew but it's your business#but um she was kinda outing our ex coworker? and i know she told me bc i'm obviously gay myself but.......#it's not cool to tell me when he only mentioned his bf to her and she said he looked scared that she might judge him.... like it's not cool#to tell period but especially since it was clearly said bc he trust *her* with the info#if they're openly out and the person already knows well ofc whatever you can talk about it but it wasn't like that so#but the thing IS....... that i only really realised she was outing him afterwards? my bad truly. i was uncomfortable in the moment#but for some reason it didn't click why til later#bc like at first i thought it was bc she said something like 😭😭 girl. how should he know you'd be cool with it. we live in This Society.#so i was uncomfy like uhhh. and i said well i mean you probably know already but i'm gay too and even if there's a p high chance that peopl#will be okay with it in this day & age (i didn't say but. bit different for trans ppl. i'm not out as trans) we can never know#so it makes sense to be scared to say it!#and she was like yes! but i am okay with it and he looked so scared! i truly know so many and i love them even more than others!#😭😭😭😭😭 she means well but seriously HOW SHOULD HE KNOW ALL THAT 😭😭😭😭 it doesn't work like that girl.....#i mean ? *i* never told her i'm gay 😭😭 and i've known her for 2 years and a half almost. this guy worked with us for like a few months#anyway i wish i was quicker to realise bc i would've told her out on it like...... really not your thing to tell other people 😵💫😵💫#still. i am glad i said it. even when it's obvious and wouldn't need telling#it's NOT easy to like. know that everyone knows. not for me at least. especially with the added layer of being trans (AND nonbinary)#bc i don't think ppl i haven't told know that. i think cis ppl are quite bad at like.. knowing transmasc ppl exist lol#so i go by he/him only in italian (no other options lol) and i'm. not really completely masc and don't “pass” super well but when#i present myself as nico and talk abt myself w masculine words ppl just either ignore that and go she! :) or think alright. (cis) gay man#and at work it's the latter after i've worked there for over 2 years. like i'm not out as trans so ppl draw those conclusions#i don't think it'd shock ppl if i said i'm trans but simply put cis ppl at least cis italian ppl dont know shit abt trans men and transmasc
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I want to draw human Paracelsus and upload it here but
The horrors (my intrusive thoughts) :(
#like. for reasons I don't wanna disclose I get pretty antsy about the idea of people seeing my art esp of his human version n acting in ways#I don't want them to w MY art of him#Ik this is pretty rich coming from the girl w the a.ba icon LMAO the comedy isn't lost on me dw#I'm trying to rationalize it. intrusive thoughts aren't rational and yet.. I don't want to warn ppl in my art posts it'd sound weird n#preachy. and like. controlling how ppl interact w my art is a shitty concept#I tell myself I cannot control it either w key para and yet I upload stuff of him (yet no solo I think cause of this) and.. yet.#my thoughts say 'well! more people are into human paracelsus so the possibility of them acting in ways I find iffy towards my art of him#will rise ! and again it's especifically w MY art of him. this brain sucks#he's my special guy n I wanna share stuff w him :/#advice if anyone has it would be cool but not an obligation at all#this probably doesn't make much sense I'm just typing my thoughts as they come. I'll prob delete this later
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