#probably doesn't make sense at all lmao

[le-panda-chocovore]

Karushuu Dialogue Prompt

Based on THIS

Gakushuu : Sometimes I think that maybe you're not as terrible as I make you out to be. And then you always go to extraordinary lenghts to confirm that you are, in fact, worse.

Karma : God you're insufferable. One little triple homicide and it's all "whine whine whine". Grow up.

Gakushuu : On of the bodies is my father's.

Karma : And you should thank me for that !

Gakushuu : Whatever. Let's grab a shovel, we have to hide them now.

*later, at a coffee*

Gakushuu : Thanks for getting rid of my father. But still, I don't think the two other were necessary.

Karma *drinking a mlikshake* : Twas a personal treat.

Gakushuu *skeptical* : For what ?

Karma : Just felt like it !

[knockknockitsnickels]

I think this is one of my favorite lines from the Wraith route because of (imo) how much the meaning changes depending on if you got there via Spectre or Nightmare. For Spectre, it honestly strikes me as a genuine question. Why are you doing this to her? If you're on the Spectre route, you presumably already know the Narrator can't really be trusted, since you had to reject his reward to get here. What are you hoping to gain from continuing to hurt her? For Nightmare, it honestly just makes me sad. As the Shifting Mound describes her, "She desires only companionship, but the only thing she knows is how to hurt." This line feels like a plea from someone who genuinely doesn't understand why you keep rejecting her. She wants to be with you, but she just can't understand how to do that in a way which doesn't hurt you.

[ineed-to-sleep]

I forgot about how killing eve's writing just starts getting progressively worse the more season 3 goes on. Like girl what happened to my show.......... my characters......... what did they DO to villanelle...................... and where is EVE

[claera-mal]

Insane Ramblings about Jayce Talis

I don't usually post things online. I'm a huge lurker at heart, but I MAN, Jayce Talis Arcane is just driving me crazy whenever I think about his character for too long. So I just need to throw this out there and if someone wants to go crazy with me, be my guest.

Like, he's the character who's dead from the beginning. He was never meant to live. The narrative wants him dead; if he died in that blizzard there would've been no Hextech, if he died in that lab explosion there would've been no Hextech, if Viktor hadn't interrupted him there would've been no Hextech. If Jayce Talis had achieved his dreams the world would've ended. The one world shown to us that is anywhere near peaceful or happy is one where Hextech doesn't exist because Jayce is most likely dead, if not in Stillwater, then on that ledge where no one saved him.

He was meant to die at the beginning, and so he dies at the end.

[momowoah]

The hardest part of reading the wot books is trying to keep track of who knows what, especially considering I know a lot of things I wasn't supposed to know this early on and there's a lot of information that only a few characters know and the rest don't. I keep having to try to remember whether or not a particular character has been made aware of a certain information or whether they only suspect it or whether they have no idea at all and it's getting to the point I'm considering making a list of who knows what lmao.

[lylahammar]

I've been rewatching the first two seasons of The Bear so I can watch the third season that just came out and man the character writing in this show makes me froth at the mouth it's like some of the best arcs I've ever seen in a TV series

[greennoobartist]

So, Lily isn't your real name? Or isn't any flower your real name? Intrestinggg. So I have a few questions regarding this if you don't mind. I personally am named Lily, and I think it's a really cool name. (Not biased whatsoeverrrrr)

Do you not use your real name for online safety?

How did your nickname end up being Lily/something flower-related? (If you don't mind me asking)

Do you refer to yourself as Lily in your head bc I've seen on posts you will refer to yourself as "Lily", is that just online, or do you find yourself calling yourself Lily when you're by yourself?

Oooh you're asking deep questions, buddy :DDD I DEFINITELY don't mind!! Just a late reply bcuz life is getting busy my bad

But yeah, Lily isn't my real name and my real name actually doesn't trace back to any kind of flower :) Now to answer your questions:

Yep! Mainly for online safety ^^ It's also bcus my real name isn't that common and known worldwide and im a bit insecure and think that ppl would mispronounce it often so I went with smth simple and more known :)

The origin of my nickname, how it ended up being Lily, is thanks to my one and only OC, named Lily lmao. Basically I use her as my avatar or i think ppl also call that a sona. I first created her before deciding on using her as a sona and taking her name as well XD Why is it flower related is bcuz i love flowers and bcuz of her little long plot i definitely should explain one day cuz its LONG:) :)) :

Hooo boy, referring to myself. Ok, so uhhh... This is kinda smth a definitely crazy person would be doing, it's a bit complicated and a long story if you don't mind. And again, warning, i don't mind if you call me insane or crazy or whatever after this XD Why I refer to myself as Lily on posts is for several reasons, mostly just for online privacy purposes. Now, how do I refer to myself when im talking to myself IS actually Lily, and the reason is definitely nuts but it also explains why i refer to myself as Lily online as well XD Uhh, okay, so like.... Mmghhh... English isn't my native, yk? It's my first fluent language, BUT, here's the thing: i got so attached to it that i actually use it MORE than my native, like WAAY MORE, and i use it so often that ppl often don't believe me when I say it's not my native and I also have better grades than all of my classmates who were born in America lmao XD So like, i got attached to English like a whole lot that: I think on English, speak to myself on English, often use English phrases and sayings in regular days (both out loud and to myself), when making notes they're on English, cartoons always watched on English, books are more oftenly read on English, better at English grammar and punctuation on English, wider vocabulary on English than my native, and alst but not the least, even hecking writing on English a very long fanfiction that, maybe a bit strange, i never wrote a story in my native and yet im writing one on English. So, to wrap or up, English is like my second native to describe it as accurately as I can XD Since I got attached to it this much, the English name "Lily" was way easier to use when talking to myself. But, im sorry, there's another reason. The third reason is bcuz of the demon that possessed me lately and is making me look like a DID idiot (TSoTT Shadow) Basically now thanks to that guy, when im talking to myself i literally imagine him talk to me, like an Imaginary friend or a hallucination or smth. So when I refer to myself as Lily, in my mind he's saying it and ofc sometimes when he's talking to me he'll call me out by my name :)

This turned out way longer than I initially thought XD Im not sure if this makes any sense but that's it actually :)

TLDR: Ye, for online safety. It's flower related cuz I love flowers. Lily is bcuz of my OC. I do refer to myself as Lily in my head but that was originally just for online. After this demon possessed me, now it's outside of online as well :)

Thank you for asking this was fun to answer since it's a reeeeaallly long story XD ❣️

[erotomox]

i had a Day™ today so im talking about hebephrenic mox

(for reference hebephrenia is a subtype of schizophrenia characterized by little psychosis and highly disorganized thinking/movement)

So: thought disorders To me, Mox has uh. several. thought disorders lmao his speaking can be Very disorganized at times. the ones I notice most are: -Circumstantiality/tangeltiality: he rambles. a lot. and only some of it is on topic lmao. sometimes he returns to his point, sometimes he doesn't. -Distractible speech: it's easy to get him off topic! he's distracted easily! -Alogia (specifically poverty of content of speech): Sometimes He Says A Whole Lot About Nothing At All -Loss of goal: He loses track of what he says. like a lot. mood. -Pressured speech: my guy talks fast. and once he gets started it is Hard to interrupt him or get him to Stop (honorable mention for thought blocking: i've never seen evidence of this but he has the vibe of someone who just. stops talking. in the middle of a sentence sometimes) Related to this is missing social cues and applying the wrong emotions to situations, leading to things like being agitated when everyone else is calm. social withdrawal and isolation are also common.

Disorganized movement: The main two points here would be lack of impulse control (no elaboration needed lmao) and movement that's bizarre or lacks purpose. a lot of his movements are stereotypies in some way: he chews on things, he rocks on his feet, he rubs his collarbone, he sticks his tongue out, etc. a lot of this is physical stimming, but that's what a lot of disorganized behavior looks like lmao. disorganized movement can also be excess movement (pacing, for example, or bouncing in place)

Inappropriate affect: look. the guy smiles and laughs at violence and people getting hurt and causing people pain. i know this is wrestling so that's not like. Super Uncommon™ BUT it is technically the kind of thing that gets classified as mood incongruence/inappropriate affect. he also sometimes has a flattened affect! there are times where his face is just. 😐. lack of eye contact is another example, as well as Too Much Eye Contact

not related to symptomology but just some things I find interesting: a) a lot of these were more common in his indie days (especially re: disorganized thoughts/speech) and b) drug use is related to higher chances of schizophrenia in general but SPECIFICALLY hebephrenia; use of stimulants like coke or meth have a higher link w hebephrenia whereas hallucinogens and weed have a higher incidence with other subtypes such as paranoid schizophrenia

(also technical note: the schizophrenia subtypes are no longer used diagnostically but they are Very Important in understanding the different manifestations and presentations of the disorder and should not have been retired imvho)

anyway this has been a post that makes no sense and holds no interest to anyone but myself lmao

please come talk to me about schizo mox I Have Much To Say On The Topic

[meowsticmarvels]

screaming to the crowd. zero escapers i need to know your thoughts/hcs on 1904!phi and her partner.... im thinking a lot about phis insane ass backstory. need to Know.....

[kdranime]

.

[immobiliter]

so it's not entirely clear how many of focalors' memories furina actually retained once she was separated from her divine self, and there are two pieces of evidence to suggest that she has very few, if any at all — firstly, that when neuvillette quizzes her about egeria and the stone slates at the start of act 5, she genuinely seems to know nothing about egeria or the nature of the sin that she committed against celestia ( she had no reason to really lie to neuvillette at that point, especially as this is in the aftermath of poisson and the final straw for him to put her on trial to get some answers ), where we in fact know that focalors was one of egeria's oceanid familiars, wanted to be human herself and was her successor after egeria perished during the cataclysm, and second, that focalors specifically describes to neuvillette that when she separated her divine and human selves, she "left behind only a self that was as naive and bewildered as my past self on her first day as a human being."

but furina does have the knowledge of the prophecy before focalors explains it to her more fully in the mirror, saying that it's in her head but she doesn't know why. so, in trying to reconcile all of this, i lean towards the idea that focalors left behind certain vague memories, the two key ones being that of the prophecy and an understanding that she needed to bring the hydro sovereign to the court of fontaine, but without any context in order to preserve the idea that, for the most part, furina was operating completely in the dark in terms of focalors' plan

so furina enters into her position as hydro archon with considerable gaps in her memory ( and, due to being a human with an unnaturally elongated life span rather than being a species or divine creature who is naturally long lived, has memory issues later down the line, but that's a separate meta ), and, as a result, she does an incredible amount of research into the archons, celestia and her role in teyvat. i don't think it was a coincidence or just a fun joke that, in her demo, furina imitates all of the other archons we'd met up until that point — she confesses to the traveler before her trial that at one point she had agents all over teyvat and i think some of this was intelligence gathering concerning how archons governed in other nations. furina became archon in the immediate aftermath of the cataclysm and the death of fontaine's previous archon without any memories of focalors' life as egeria's confidante and familiar, so was already at a huge disadvantage in those early years of her rule

[ilovettrpgs]

rip Magnus Carter you would have loved causing problems for the general public and also not having mad cow syndrome

[irritablepoe]

one thing about me is that i'll freeze to death when angry. like i'm shaking and not from anger, it's just that i get so cold

[dandelioncasey]

@listen-to-the-inner-walrus back again with the peer-review-worthy tags

it does still make me insane specifically how many queer people lovingly embrace astrology. I went to a poetry workshop yesterday that was genuinely quite good but also included an option to disclose astrology designations during introductions and so many people broke out some variation of "I'm a [x] sum but I have a [y] placement and it SHOWS" girl no it doesn't. that's meaningless correlation you completely invented the causation

[aspectpriority]

very occasionally. we will remember something we were working on previously. and Once in a Blue Moon, it'll turn out that that thing actually kinda fucked? and maybe i'll try to finish it.