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Your fic commentary is something I look forward to oml you have no idea, I love seeing how you explain aspects of your writing process and the decisions you’ve made. Often if I’m intimidated by the tags of a new release of yours(as I am admittedly a bit of a weenie about things I haven’t experienced or am not well versed in) the commentary posts help ease me in and encourage me to read the fic(and even sometimes research specific things from it to have a better understanding if the mood so strikes me). Which is great bc I can enjoy more of your wonderful writing!!
Omg tysm! I write a lot of like. Heavy Fetish Stuff™ bc I'm a Freak® and I have never heard of moderation before so I absolutely understand being intimidated or turned off by it shshdhhdh
I love to ramble about my writing! If you kor anyone else!) wanna yap w me or ask questions please feel free to reach out! I Have Many Thoughts about my writing these days and I'm just Bursting to share it all
The commentary posts are so much fun to do tbh. I love rereading my own stuff and it's fun to share my reference and extrapolate world building and explain little details and just. AAAHHH!!!
#once again eternally grateful that im able to write again#not to be dramatique™ but i do genuinely feel blessed to be able to write again#asks
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#oh my fucking god#MOX'S HANDS ARE SO BIG COMAPRED TO YUTA'S FACE#and yuta's little hands wrapped around mox's wrists......#mox's THUMB is nearly in yuta's MOUTH im SO NORMAL#hands.#arms.#yuta's wrist....#wheeler yuta#flower growing through the cracks
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More fic commentary! This time it's for Spend the Night Living in Denial!
General:
I had an idea kicking around for a completely different fic that featured chastity piercings on trans Mox but I never ended up writing it so I got this instead
There’s so much about this fic that I didn’t mean to add and just kinda Happened. The fisting. The wound fingering. The felching. So much…
This will eventually be a series! It wasn’t supposed to be but I started talking and planning with Ranger and. Well. Things Spiraled. The next installment will be Claudio marking Mox with a hog slapper
Mox is 24 in this fic (so 2008/9 czw era) and Claudio is current 44 year old Claudio. What can I say, I love an age gap, and while current Mox w piercings is very good, I think the aesthetic fits czw Mox better
I’m quite the body mod enthusiast! I’ve had a total of 13 piercings since I was 11 (I currently have only 7 in rip) and plan on getting Many More (for example: I have nine (9) more piercings planned. For my mouth alone. I have a problem).
Mox was originally going to have a split tongue, but alas, I Forgor. There’s a theme here.
Little terminology note: Piercings are described by either gauge (size of the needle, higher number means lower thickness; yes I know) or millimeters (gauge is primarily used only in the US whereas most other places use millimeters). “12g” would be pronounced/read as “12 gauge”
Note: A LOT of the piercing links in this are nsfw; general ones are not (like nose or lips ones, obvi) but anything that seems like it could be genital related (ampallang, frenum, guiche, dydoes, etc) are nsfw as hell
The Piercings:
Mox: 3mm nipple; triple tongue; snake bites; bridge; 00g septum; 20mm stretched ears; floating navel; center eyebrow; double nose; mantis; angel fangs; collarbone dermals; labia (ten piercings, five on either side); ampallang (transmasc equivalent)—all done by Claudio
Claudio: nipple; back dermals; hip dermals; frenum ladder (4 piercings); guiche; genital ribbing; dydoes (2, on the “left” and “right” of his head)—all hidden by his clothing, as are all his (elaborate) tattoos
Specific:
“’Would you like to come? It’ll be your last chance for a while,’” I love that Claudio says this and Mox comes like three times in this fic lmao
“Idly, Claudio thinks about how he would look with a corset piercing up the front of his throat…” Corset piercings look so fucking cool and I think Mox would look SO GOOD with some…
“Mox is well practiced at taking Claudio’s fist…” Mox is a size queen through and through, and while he can get fucked in the ass however he wants, Claudio is too big (at least 8.5-9 inches) to safely be able to fuck his full length into Mox’s cunt, so fisting is a good way to satisfy him
“...if anything, that shivery pain just makes it better for Mox.” This verse is entirely based on Mox being a painslut and Claudio being a vicious sadist who happens to specialize in genital piercings, tattooing, and needleplay
“Claudio pays him no mind and focuses on not going too deep; he doesn’t want to cause any serious damage.” Let’s be real, Mox would get off on Claudio perforating his cervix with his cock lmao
“...Claudio feels the head of his cock bump up against Mox’s cervix.” Mox has had a hysto, but it was partial; he kept his cervix specifically bc he likes it when Claudio fucks up against it bc it’s another way for Claudio to hurt him
“Well, it’ll take four months for the longest of these to heal, minimum…” This is actually the healing time for a VCH or triangle, which was what Mox was originally going to get, but I decided on piercing his actual clit instead of his clitoral hood (note: don’t do this! There’s serious risk of permanent nerve damage and loss of sensation!) so it’d likely take even longer since there’s more tissue being pierced. Add onto that the fact that he’s getting eleven piercings at once and his healing time is gonna be brutal
“’So I’d say the better part of a year, at least.’” Claudio is playing it up here; Mox isn’t going to be held closed that whole time bc that’d be a nightmare on healing piercings and it’d be impractical as hell re: going to the bathroom etc. However, he is effectively going to be in chastity bc he won’t be having vaginal sex while everything is healing, and then for however long afterwards Claudio decides to actually pierce him fully closed.
“12g, hollow, no cannula…” This is my preferred needle set up; I’ve been pierced with a cannula needle exactly once and it sucked bc it stretches the piercing a little oddly and it made the transfer harder since it’s less stable than the end of a hollow needle, which is what my usual piercer uses.
“In his shop…” Claudio has a tattoo/piercing shop he co-owns with Bryan; Claudio does piercings mostly (he specializes in genital and fetish piercings) and occasionally tattoos, whereas Bryan does blackout tattoo work and handpoking, as well as traditional methods of handpoking like tebori etc (and I think he does medical tattooing too). They have very different ideologies when it comes to body modification (Claudio thinks it’s a celebration of the human body and sexuality, Bryan thinks it’s a sacred way to connect with your body, spirit, and the universe)
“’00g. That’s, what, 10 mil?’” Fun fact: this is the size I’m up to with my ears atm! I plan on going up to 7/8th inch, but I’m spending some extra time at 00g bc I have a really cute pair of hangers that I wanna wear for a while
“When Mox nods, Claudio reaches down, pulls back his finger, and flicks the needle hard.” I think it goes without saying, but don’t do this! Causing extra trauma to a fresh piercing (by yanking on it, for example) delays the healing process significantly (ask how I know this—aka I have two middle eyebrow piercings that ook over a year to heal💀)
“A simple 12g niobium barbell, nothing too fancy…” I personally haven’t used niobium jewelry yet (I prefer titanium as I know my body can handle that and I sometimes respond weirdly to even hypoallergenic metals) but it is a newer option for biocompatible hypoallergenic jewelry!
“’It’s not like you can get me pregnant,’” This line is so funny when you consider the fact that half the reason I had Mox get a hysto was bc he absolutely has a breeding kink and wants Claudio to come in him with no risk
“Well, he insisted on Claudio waxing him, which Claudio was more than happy to do.” Normally, I’m a proponent for full bush, but there being better visibility was more important here (hair removal is not necessary for genital piercings, fun fact). Also Claudio has a grooming kink and no one can convince me otherwise.
“...Mox may be stubborn, but Claudio is disciplined.” There aren’t really any standout favorite lines in this fic like there are in my other ones, but I do like this one a lot
“He’s opted for surface bars, at least initially.” I don’t think you could actually do this with surface bars (I don’t think the vertical part is long enough) but the visual of doing this with half dome/flat disk surface bars is. Whew.
“...once they’re healed, he plans on stretching the piercings so he can fit tunnels and padlocks through…” This is what the basic structure looks like rn, but the full five padlocks is also just. So fucking good.
“...Mox may not have a prostate to stimulate, but it still gets him off like crazy.” Mox just. Absolutely LOVES getting his ass played with, no matter what anatomy he has. He’s just a whore <3
“...the knowledge of the pain he’s causing Mox is more than enough to make up for it.” Severe sadist Claudio who can get off purely on hurting someone is so good because it’s basically canon and it’s something unexpected since he seems so gentle in personality. He and Mox really are a match made in heaven
“...the scalpel held between Claudio’s slightly shaking fingers…” The knifeplay and wound fingering was entirely spur of the moment; it just Came To Me and I couldn’t resist. Playing with severe painslut Mox is just too much fun
“’What would you have me do to make you come?’” I love how Claudio earlier says Mox comes from getting fucked in the ass or not at all and as soon as Mox begs, Claudio folds like a house of cards. He’s such a pushover <3
“There will undoubtedly be scars left, but at least they’ll be neat—not that Mox particularly cares.” Mox prefers messy, uneven scars bc he loves looking kinda fucked up, but like hell is Claudio going to let him heal in any way less than perfect
“...Claudio is willing to bend his rules.” Of course he is; Mox has Claudio wrapped around his little finger
“’I’ve got apples, cheese cubes, and prosciutto.’” Claudio preparing little artisan snacks for Mox after scenes is so cute to me
“’At about eleven.’” Eleven AM; this scene is happening in like. The middle of the night
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👷♀️now entering hardhat area👷♀️
⚠️WATCH OUT!!!!!⚠️
🚨🚨🚨falling nick zone🚨🚨🚨
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just got a text reminding me to go to my next dentist appointment. i'm very sorry but i'm afraid that won't be possible because last time i was there i was laying back with the dentists fingers in my mouth when i looked over at their computer and almost choked to death because the photo that was attached to my dentistry records was this:

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to those whom it may concern that sword of damocles hangs
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I know who you are and you know who you are.
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FINALLY i'm posting the commentary for I Gasp and Hold My Breath!! This fic was a lot of fun to work on but I just. Never got around to doing the comm post until now lmao. Oops.
General:
As previously mentioned, this was inspired by this watt’s the safeword video. I watched it out of curiosity and then Could Not Stop Thinking About It
When editing I got my draft to be 13,666 words exactly. My document still has this word count, so I have no clue why the fic on ao3 has an extra word
I can’t believe I forgot to specify this in the fic itself, but this is not a direct chronological sequel like the other fics! There’s a timeskip between this fic and the petplay one, probably of at least a few months, so there have been scenes and hangouts between everyone in the intervening time
Specific:
“They’re at Yuta’s studio for once…” Yuta rents studio space at a local artists’ space where he can work on his sculptures since there really isn’t room in his cramped apartment for it (and bc he doesn’t trust danny and zay to not fuck with stuff)
“Mox can be incredibly vague at times…” Every Mox I write is autistic (bc it’s canon!!!) and this one is no different! I frequently also make Mox a secret schizo but idk if that’s the case in this verse
“He reminds Yuta of a wolf sometimes, of a starving beast just waiting to rip into the tender flesh of Yuta’s underbelly to gorge himself.” This is my favorite line!
“’Jon is in rare form tonight. He rarely gets to dom like this, so he’s taking full advantage of it.’” Mox is mostly the sub in this relationship (Bryan doesn’t sub—ever—and Claudio tends to hold a more casually submissive role in the dynamic rather than formally submitting in scenes for Mox, so Yuta is really the only one Mox is going to get to play with on a semi-regular basis)
“Immediately, he’s met with a sight that makes his knees weak.” I can’t even remember making the conscious decision to make this a leather fic. I just Could Not Stop Thinking About It and suddenly I was researching chaps
“He can see sturdy brown boots…” I was stuck between either the boots in the fic or these riding boots for So Long. I’m still Obsessed with the visual of Mox in tall black riding boots, and they feel more fetishy, but because of the chaps and jeans they wouldn’t be visible enough. Maybe in another fic.
“Atop it sits a sleek, large wooden box…” This box is a humidor! They’re storage boxes for cigars that keep them temperature and humidity controlled
“...Red Rock, maybe, if Yuta knows Mox as well as he thinks he does.” This decision to have Red Rock be the scene on top of Mox’s humidor is a fascinating one now that I’ve fleshed out the details of the universe more bc that’s where Mox and Bryan had their rock climbing accident so. Hm. Maybe this is older than that trip lmao
“There are two golden devices on the top lid…” These are hygrometers, or devices that measure humidity
“...each one nearly an inch thick and five inches long.” I knew going into this that I wanted Mox to have a large cigar bc. Well. Phallic imagery etc. Researching cigar sizes and shapes was Frustrating bc people categorize them differently, but in the end I went with a robusto
“...and in his left, he holds a circular device made of metal with wooden accents.” So I uh. Specifically chose a cigar cutter that could fit a dick inside it (theoretically). I kept imagining Yuta imagining sticking his dick in it before seeing that it has blades and then still thinking about it so. Yeah.
“’I’m going to show you how to properly cut and light a cigar.’” I did my best to research how cigars are prepared and lit and smoked but I have—obviously—never handled a cigar before so idk if it’s accurate enough but oh well!
“...the metal slides open into two wings and reveals the hole.” Describing the mechanism of the cutter was really hard bc a) I’ve never actually seen it in motion (or even open; thanks, seller) and I didn’t want to describe it as having blades until the cigar is cut bc of Yuta’s train of thought re: fucking it
“If he tries hard enough, he can identify something sweet and fruity about it, but overall, most of what he tastes is tobacco.” I spent So Long looking for a cigar that would fit. So many of the reviews I read made No Fucking Sense in terms of tasting notes bc I don’t know shit about cigars! Finally I found this review and it was both understandable and seemed like it would actually be a pleasant enough experience bc it didn’t have fucking. Manure as a tasting note.
“’I’ve smoked weed a few times, but I’ve never really smoked cigarettes. Vaped a little when I was younger, though.’” I like to think Yuta is basically your average college student when it comes to smoking, or that he’s similar to myself in some ways. He gets high when he can, but he prefers edibles to smoking. He’s probably tried a cigarette or two and didn’t really like it. He vaped in high school and early days of his college (in this verse Yuta is only 22; yes I know, I’m being predictable) but he gave up the habit his freshman year when he started really focusing on school
“He reminds Yuta of a dragon as smoke billows from his nose…” This imagery is based off a gifset of Mox (I think from czw? That time period at least) laughing while smoking and blowing it out his nose. I’ve been obsessed w that clip since I first saw it like over 6 years ago bc it’s very attractive to me
‘”My old dom was a snotty fucker…’” Regal was very old guard in how he approached kink, and he mixed that in with his more lavish/rich lifestyle (he is a lord after all) so Mox and Bryan got a lot of education about really rich shit lmao
“He’s got his piercing in this time…” So I actually originally planned for Mox to have a PA in this verse and fucking. Forgot to add it into literally every other fic in this series despite the fact that ITS BEEN PLANNED FROM THE BEGINNING so I just added it here lmao. He has a 6g ring. I thought about Claudio maybe having one while writing the petplay fic bc he’d love adding another layer of permanency to his chastity but having Both of them have PAs that Yuta had never seen before seemed too far fetched
“The hard ring presses against the roof of Yuta’s mouth…” I forgot which side of the head a PA exits and accidentally described it as if it was a reverse PA a few times oops (for reference, a PA exits the underside of the dick, whereas a reverse PA exits the top and goes through more tissue)
“Mox leans down and spits a thick wad of saliva onto the center of Yuta’s tongue.” Not only is this really hot, it’s also a safety measure! It keeps the ash from getting too hot and burning by cooling it with the spit and by creating a barrier! Theoretically this is also the protocol for burning with a cigar/cigarette but that’s still going to leave a burn/scar regardless
“The rough fuck of Mox’s cock in and out of Yuta’s throat had churned up a lot of thick saliva and throat slime…” I love being able to describe bodily fluids/mucus as “slime” it’s just so fun to me
“...the texture is powdery and smooth, with none of the grit Yuta was expecting.” Apparently cigar ash is really smooth to swallow and not gritty in the slightest. Idk why I thought it would be, but that was kinda surprising to learn
“’Maybe next time I’ll piss down your throat to wash it down,’” This line struck me like a bolt of divine inspiration at like three in the morning when I was trying to sleep and I literally got out of bed and ran to my office to write it down lmao. I do actually have a watersports idea for this verse so 👀
“’Did you get your nipples pierced again?’” This was added pretty much at this point in the writing process (I write in chronological order from start to finish) bc I just. Couldn’t stop thinking about Mox with nipple piercings (are you sensing a pattern with how I write lmao)
“’Are you going to—all of it?’” So I also may have a fisting idea for this verse oops.
“The cigar is about halfway gone by now, but Yuta has no idea what that means in terms of how long this has been going on…” According to my research, it takes about fifty minutes to smoke a robusto, so it’s probably been about a half hour at this point
“...the ring presses against the spot almost immediately.” This doesn’t make sense with a normal PA and not a reverse one but I always forget which side of the body the prostate is on so. Whoops.
“Mox is holding a respirator in his hands.” I knew I wanted a full face, shielded respirator but finding one took a lot of work bc I could not remember that they’re called respirators and gas mask wasn’t getting me many results bc that’s a military specific term and all the ones I was finding that worked were isreali and I’m Not Doing That
“The internal piece designed to fit over his nose and mouth look modified, if the slightly open vents are any indication.” I really wanted the visual of the main body of the mask filling up with smoke and That’s Not How Respirators Work so it had to be modified to allow that
“Claustrophobia tickles the sides of his brain…” I imagine Yuta is both claustrophobic and a claustrophiliac bc that’s fun to play with. If vaccubeds didn’t kinda freak me out, I might write him in one
“...even though it’s technically cleaner.” Cigar smoke is cleaner than cigarette smoke; cigars are pure cured tobacco, whereas cigarettes have A Lot Of Chemicals In Them. Cigar smoke is considered harder/more irritating to breathe, however, because it’s a lot thicker/heavier
“The nicotine buzz that builds under Yuta’s skin…” So the nicotine in cigars is actually ingested through the smoke touching your mucus membranes (and it actually absorbs much quicker and more powerfully than a cigarette; a single cigar has as much nicotine as a pack of cigarettes) but idk if it would actually still give you a buzz if it’s technically secondhand like this? For a former med student, I really can’t remember how the body works sometimes lmao. ALSO I’ve never had a nicotine buzz so idk if I described it well; I tried vaping Exactly Once when I was dealing w my addiction issues in 2023 but it immediately gave me a headache. Womp womp (probably a good thing; I didn’t need Another addiction)
“’God, I didn’t even have to threaten to burn you,’” As much as I wanted to add burnplay, I recognized it wouldn’t be a good idea to have something so permanent this soon into their relationship
“...he doesn’t know why he gets shy after scenes sometimes…” SHY YUTA MY BELOVED!!!
“With strong curls of his tongue, Mox licks his own come out of Yuta’s asshole…” idk why I’ve written so much felching lately bc I didn’t really think it was something I was into but oh well. The author’s barely disguised kink they don’t know they have etc etc
“...he’s saved from having to speak when his phone starts ringing in the other room.” I love the idea of Mox just. Answering Yuta’s phone like this. And I love the idea of Bryan calling Yuta to check in with Mox specifically bc he knows Mox will absolutely not answer his phone bc he likely doesn’t even have it in the same room as him
“It seems like Bryan is trying to coach Mox through aftercare…” Mox gets really absent and distracted after scenes—regardless of if he’s domming or subbing—so Bryan takes it upon himself to remind Mox how to take care of everyone afterwards. Claudio would do the same but he’s somehow less of a control freak about it, whereas Bryan has no compunctions about literally setting an alarm to make sure to check in with Mox
“In his hands is a tub of cookie dough ice cream…” Mox subscribes to the “eat whatever makes you happy” method of aftercare whereas Bryan follows the “eat a well balanced, nutritious snack or meal to properly refuel” school of thought. Yes, there have been fights about this.
“...max protein Ensure, chocolate flavored.” I’ve drank a lot of different types of Ensure over the years, both for pleasure (I like the consistency and how it tastes) and out of necessity, and I think Mox and Bryan are the kinds of people who sometimes need a liquid meal if they’re having Bad Days
“Mox tells him about the several hundred bags of mulch he’s been lugging around and laying out for some rich lady in the suburbs.” This is based on my life (not the rich part); every spring, my mom used to lay out ~250+ bags of mulch in our yard as a project once it started warming up after winter. She hurt her back in a car accident in 2018 (and her neck in another in ~2020) so she hasn’t done it in years and she Hates It
“Bryan and Claudio make an odd pair…” Claudio always dresses up, and Mox always dresses down, so if Yuta wants a good idea of where any combination of them have been, he looks to Bryan’s outfit as a cue. I imagine they went to some casual restaurant where Claudio stuck out like a sore thumb in his nice suit
“Mox is closest to the door, just like always…” Their sleeping order is Mox-Bryan-Claudio with Mox closest to the door and Claudio closest to the windows. If Yuta is there, then he’s always on either side of Bryan in the middle
“...pulling Yuta’s arm over his waist as he spoons up against his front.” Little spoon Bryan you are so special to me. He’s secretly a cuddle monster, but he’ll deny it til the end of time
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“you know what’s kinda funny? they’re gonna call it an upset.”
#once again i had to troll my mox tag to find reference for my fet verse. and once again it took like a half hour. i post abt him too much.#flower growing through the cracks
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“omg you’re so creative. how do you get your ideas” i hallucinate a single scene in the taco bell drive thru and then spend 13 months trying to write it
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@erotomox !! a little yutamox blurb (re: the 'yuta stepping on mox's dick' tag) for you before i'm done with this fic!!
@ everyone else: this is nsfw for psychosexual reasons so proceed with caution (18+)
Another tug at the belt tightens it even further, and Yuta can feel Jon’s resolve weakening, his body slowing without enough oxygen reaching his brain. With another shove of his foot, Yuta releases the belt, and Jon falls forward onto his hands, coughing and spluttering as he attempts to gulp down air.
“You know how long it takes to pass out from strangulation? About 15 seconds of squeezing the carotid arteries before you black out.” He tugs on the belt again as he makes his point. “D’you want to know who taught me that? Bryan.”
He unloops the belt from Jon’s neck and cracks the leather across his clothed back once, twice, three times before Jon finally collapses onto his stomach.
Yuta roughly kicks his ribs, and Jon groans before rolling onto his back, limbs splayed like a starfish.
And…oh. Jon is…why is he hard?
Fucking figures that he’d get his rocks off to this shit.
“What’s wrong, Jon?” Yuta sneers. “Can’t fight a kid a decade younger than you?”
He brings the belt down across Jon’s chest.
“C’mon! Get the fuck up!” He’s yelling now, uncaring of who hears or who might investigate.
Jon stays down, still breathing heavily as he stares up at Yuta.
“Who the fuck are you to judge anyone when getting whipped in the face does this?” Yuta presses his sneaker against the tent in Jon’s pants, pulling a raw sound from him—something between a groan of pain and pleasure. He frowns, raises a brow that Jon can’t see, and presses down just a bit harder. Jon groans again and bucks up against his foot, earning a contemptuous smile from Yuta.
“You are a miserable, pathetic man. Can’t even take what you dish out. I guess that would make me stronger than you, wouldn’t it?”
The hatred in Jon’s eyes fills Yuta with glee.
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HELLLOOO . CAN ANYONE HEAR ME . PLEASE . PLEEAAASEEEEE
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