#probably because of my sensitive taurus nose lol

[limi-strology]

Quick astrology question

Drop your sun, venus and rising signs and your favorite 3-5 perfumes (if not specific perfumes, what kind of scents do you gravitate towards?), I'm curious about it.

I'll start: Taurus sun, Aries venus and Leo rising

My favorite perfumes are:

Prada Candy

Gucci Bloom

Angel Nova

YSL Black Opium Extreme

Victoria Secret Noir Tease

If we're generally talking about scents, I love the smell of books, candles with a woody or musky base, paint and food being cooked (okay, these are just my Taurus sun talking 😅)

[tarotphlow]

Astro Observations 8

🌻Saturn in the 3H natives tend to have difficulties with phones or cars, whether that be always having a broken phone, or their car literally just not wanting to work for whatever reason

🌻Looking at what sign is located on your 12H could give you insight on to what life was like while you were in the womb. Ex: my 12H is in sag, before I was born my mother would pray constantly for her to have another chance at being a mother, she ended up having a kid with a man from a completely different state. (♐️ rules travel and religion).

🌻Have a big secret you need to get off your chest? Tell a Scorpio Mercury, they will never tell a single soul. I’m friends with a lot of Scorpio Merc’s and it’s amazing how well they can hold they’re water. (Hm, on second thought this might just be for scorp placements in general 🧐)

🌻7H placements how do you do it? Being so desirable to the point that people say they want to marry you without knowing anything about you at all? I just know y’all just smile 😀politely with so many confusing thoughts in y’all’s heads 😭

🌻I’ve noticed cap Venus will always gravitate to dating someone out of their age range.

🌻unlikely duo that actually goes super well with each other is Gemini and Scorpio. I think this has to do with how intelligent both of them are, this combo reminds me of detectives in a way.

🌻with NN going into Aries soon, Libra placements are gonna see a lot of stuff they buried in the distant past come back(like past life stuff 🕰️), probably gonna be a time of relearning some of those old old lessons or just seeing how well you developed since your last life!

🌻Moon in the 3H with a harmonious aspect with Uranus= extremely talented at vidya games 🎮

🌻If you have Gemini in the 6H you should try your hand at an online job, not as a profession but just as a job.

🌻Neptune aspecting your sun could indicate having trouble figuring out what you want to do in life.

🌻Uranus aspecting midheaven seems like you could be either really popular, really really weird or something of the two, but hey at least your smart😭😭

🌻Taurus Is definitely a foodie we know that, but surprisingly Capricorn is also kinda a glutton too lol, I have know idea why but I’ve noticed a lot of caps in my life really live for a good meal lots of savory things and also really really big on desserts as well. They also have sensitive noses, I mean scent is responsible for 80% of our taste so I guess that makes sense.

🌻our brains stop developing at age 25 and become a fully fledged functioning adult with no more growth which is really interesting because the profection year for age 25 is in Taurus which is the sign of stability.

🌻I really feel for Saturn dominants, they really just get the hardest trials out of everyone and expected to just be okay with that, Yk a lot of people say Saturn is gonna reward them and blah blah, but like I feel sometimes they’re trials are kind of unnecessary? Other planet ruled people (besides Scorpios) learn those exact same lessons but less harsher and the reward they get is quite possibly equivalent to Saturns soo idk… I feel like Saturn is just a bit much. (Let’s discuss this I’m curious to know what people have to say 🤓)

End of observations! I hope you all enjoy these as much as I did!

(Likes and reposts are appreciated! 💛)

[cadlrs]

[   jordan fisher, cis male, he/him   ] ⁠— * oh, here comes CALVIN ADLER ! the twenty-one year old scorpio is often referred to as the recluse. people say they have a tendency to be overwrought and meticulous, but from what i’ve seen, they can be insightful and quixotic too. when they walk by, you’ll probably hear it’s only natural by crowded house playing out of their headphones, but they’re also associated with ink stained hands, glasses that always seem to slip down your nose, and sound of cracking the spine of a new journal. i hear they’re studying graphic design & english and want to become a graphic novelist when they’re older, but who knows what will become of ‘em ! 

hi !! i’m sam and i’m so unbelievably excited to be here !! i’ve been eyeing this group for far too long...i had originally intended to apply for the recluse before the first round of acceptances, but didn’t end up getting to it so when i saw the skeleton was still open...i had to apply ! anyway, i’m a cap sun, taurus moon, aqua rising...we stressed in this home. i live in the wondrous state of california that the group takes place in, i love it dearly, and i am just so so excited to finally get to play my bb calvin ! if you wanna plot (and i’m hoping to plot with all of y’all) you can hmu on discord @ capricorn dad#1278

FULL NAME : calvin jones adler

NICKNAME : cal, cj, he’ll take anything. nicknames are endearing to him. 

BIRTHDAY : tuesday / november 3, 1970 / 4:41 pm

ZODIAC : scorpio sun, capricorn moon, taurus rising 

NATIONALITY : american

RELIGION : christian 

SEXUAL & ROMANTIC ORIENTATION : pansexual, panromantic 

HOMETOWN : san francisco, california 

ACCENT : standard californian 

LANGUAGES SPOKEN : english

MAJOR : graphic design & english

MINOR(S) : fiction writing 

HOBBIES : drawing comics, writing in his journal, 

PETS : a twelve year old tabby cat named pickles

CHARACTER PARALLELS : charlie kelmeckis (perks of being a wallflower), cameron frye (ferrie beuller’s day off)

background/about

born and raised in san francisco. calvin is an only child. his father (robert adler) is a loan officer at a bank and his mother (diane hawke) a professor of english at san francisco state. they were your average, middle class family 

his parents had him pretty late in their lives — they were both already in their 40s. they didn’t meet until they were in their early-mid 30s, got married in their late 30s, and enjoyed a few years of marital life without children before actually trying for a child. not that they had to try hard — calvin was conceived within a short few months of their decision to try for a baby

growing up, calvin had always been a pretty sensitive kid. he was quiet and shy, even around his own family. the one person he could talk and talk to for hours was his maternal grandmother. she had been an english teacher too, like his mother, but she taught high school. she had this one specific rocking chair, and many of his childhood memories are sitting right there curled up in her lap while she read a book to him or told him stories. she had a really vivid imagination, and everyone says that’s where he gets it from. 

Didn’t have very many friends in elementary school. maybe one or two (wc?) friends/neighbors that he walked home with, or ate lunch with in the schoolyard, but he certainly didn’t have a best friend. he always felt like he was missing out on that, but didn’t really know how to take matters into his own hands. his mother would always say, “just march right on up to those kids and say you want to play with them!” but cal didn’t have that sort of mentality or charisma or bravery. 

He wasn’t tormented, but he was bullied by his peers. He spent recess drawing comics, which was looked at as weird. If he wasn’t drawing comics, he was reading them. One boy, Gage London, had been somehow so offended by Calvin reading his comic at lunch that he’d stormed over and ripped it in half, and then in fourths, and had walked away laughing, leaving Cal in tears because...he cried a lot. And his comics were special to him. (bonus wc: your muse gave Gage a piece of their mind? stood up for Calvin?thank u)

He didn’t join the group until he was a freshman in high school, though he may have known your muses prior to that, depending. He tended to blend into the background, so if they had no idea who he was, that would make perfect sense too. The group were the first people to ever take him to a party, where he surely avoided alcohol like the plague because he was nervous, and stood on the sides, watching everyone else, only speaking when spoken to. 

He was 16 the first time he got drunk, obviously with the rest of the group or at least with some of them. It was...a whirlwind of a night. He was drunk on a mixture of wine and cheap vodka, and for a good hour, he felt on top of the world. You would have thought it was a different Calvin. Flash forward an hour later...he had his head in the toilet and was moaning about how he would never drink again. He now knows not to mix drinks like that, thanks very much

He is to this day not much of a talker. He’s a quiet observer but that means he notices the little things. He’s very intuitive and picks up on group dynamics more than the average person might (so if any of y’all were secretly dating...eye emoji...he probably found out LOL)

He feels A LOT. Any emotion he feels, he’ll feel it tenfold. So whether it’s good or bad, happy or sad, he tends to find it draining and overwhelming. He will feel everything very deeply, so as much as he might appreciate constructive criticism, he’ll probably start crying while hearing it. He cries a lot.

So, in regards to feeling things deeply, he falls in love...a lot. Maybe it’s not love and he’s confusing it with infatuation, but it feels like love. He’s probably been in love with half the group for at least one point in his life. He definitely never came clean about any of his feelings for anyone, sooo...

Speaking of that! He’s not quite positive about his sexuality. He knows he’s not attracted to just one gender, because he’s felt a deep love for both. but he also doesn’t know how to put a label on it. he doesn’t feel straight or gay or bi, but he’s figuring it out. 

Senior year, Calvin received his acceptance letter plus a scholarship to attend New York University. He was ecstatic about it. New York was his dream. But he didn’t tell anyone in the group. It wasn’t that he didn’t want them to know, it was that he didn’t want to say goodbye. They were the closest thing he had to feeling like a true family...they were his found family!! And he didn’t know how to leave. But he knew (or thought) when he went to New York, he wouldn’t come back. So he kept his acceptance a secret until the night before he left for school, and when he told them, he had shown up at each of their doors to say goodbye. 

He went to New York, and like he had expected, he didn’t return. His family didn’t have the money to fly him back for all the breaks, so he stayed out there during the winter breaks, and for the summer holidays he found internships which required him to stay in the city. He kept in touch with most (if not all) of the group via letters and the occasional phone call, but even those became sparse as the years went on. 

It’s been 3 school years since he has been back in San Francisco, but he has just returned after finishing his junior year at NYU. He’s back in San Francisco after receiving an internship at the San Francisco Chronicle. 

He’s come out of his shell a little bit more since moving to New York. After all, it is the city. He’s still fairly quiet though, still quite sensitive, and still feels things very deeply. Basically, he’s the same old Calvin, but he can actually start a conversation now. 

[dizzyspellbook]

answer from aries to 12th house. all of them. please.

oh my god ahahhhaaha WELL OKAY.

aries: what are you passionate about?

I am passionate about making art, connecting with people, and helping others the best that I can. when I can help teach someone something important or help them access their own tools, that’s such an amazing feeling!

taurus: name 3 of your favorite books.

Carry On by Rainbow Rowell, The Book of Lost Things by John Connolly, Circe by Madeline Miller, Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen. all ABSOLUTE bangers. also fuck u I work at a literature company I can put a fourth book if I want.

gemini: what was the last text you sent?

“i shifted how i was sitting and was like ‘oh stabby, cool’” my friends will know what this is about

cancer: if you could choose your child’s zodiac sign, what would it be?

n/a (don’t want kids)

leo: name something you love about yourself.

I LOVE. how creative I am. I mean I constantly bounce between like five different hobbies and I just love looking at the things I’ve created and feeling proud of myself and remembering how much fun I had making the thing! plus, my art has helped me connect with so many people and has helped so many people and that’s just. ahh. so rad!!

virgo: what’s your #1 pet peeve?

I HAVE TO NAME JUST ONE? LMAO. honestly i think i’ll have to say when people are not aware of their surroundings—whether that’s people walking too slowly in front of me or someone just standing like a dummy in the middle of the aisle/sidewalk like buddy come on people have to Go Here.

libra: describe your dream partner.

my dream partner is patient, funny, handsome, supportive, excited, and understanding! he also has been dating me for over five years. :^)

scorpio: do you trust easily?

this is an interesting one. I... don’t think so? and that’s not because I expect people to hurt me, I just have a lot of walls and a front I tend to put up until I’m close with someone. and scorpio is my dominant sign so hey that’s fitting. I can’t always rationally tell whether or not I’m vibing with someone, but if I notice myself struggling to be myself or behave like I normally would because of my protective walls, I know they’re not a good fit for me. (also this isn’t because I’m not friendly or outgoing, it just takes a minute for people to get to know me a bit deeper. asndgntdn i’m overexplaining lol)

sagittarius: if you could travel to any place in the world, where would it be?

bro uh. you know i see why people romanticize traveling a lot, it’s supposed to be this really revealing experience—and I did get to study abroad in college, and it was a powerful and introspective experience—but now that I’m older and have a job and medications and illnesses and disabilities I just don’t know how feasible traveling would be for me. THAT BEING SAID: it’s on my bucket list to spend a few nights to a week in a cabin with paints and books and just fucking chill.

capricorn: what’s your dream job?

currently my goal is to become an adolescent therapist, but if that doesn’t flesh out, something else in the realm of social work or accessibility. and obviously I want enough time and energy to keep making art!

aquarius: do you believe in aliens?

scientifically, yeah! there has got to be intelligent life out there. spiritually, yes! I tend to think of deities as higher-vibrational creatures that can interact with us—similar to spirits and ghosts.

pisces: describe someone you love.

my mom is nerdy and gets excited about small things, from glitter to videogames. she has almost as many tattoos as me, and almost all of them are geeky references. she and i are both traumatized and chronically ill in similar ways, which I think has strengthened our relationship in my adulthood. though, I was always close with her—she always made sure to support whoever we were as children and teens and give us the resources we needed to succeed. :’)

sun: describe yourself in 3 words.

kind, balanced, sensitive

moon: what’s your favorite song?

Such Great Heights by The Postal Service!!!! it’s been my fav song for like, fifteen years

rising/asc: how would you describe your style?

lazy nonbinary wearing nothing but sweaters as they wait for surgery lol

mars: are you easily angered?

no—and in fact, it took me some time and a fair amount of therapy to be able to access my own anger after leaving an abuser. (though I DO get annoyed easily, see the question about pet peeves lolol)

venus: what’s your aesthetic?

i..... what the fuck is my aesthetic outside of my style. what does this mean. raw art, forests, sunsets, rain, i guess???

mercury: what color do you talk in?

green. sometimes, orange! other times, deep sea blue. but usually green.

jupiter: what moral do you live by?

be the best version of you that you can be, listen to the messages the universe sends you, and enjoy your life. be kind to others.

saturn: what’s your biggest fear?

living a dull, unhappy life and not making the most out of the life I have. making decisions out of fear and not going anywhere.

uranus: are you rebellious?

ok so not needlessly so, but whenever it comes to rules I think are dumb as shit, yes. yes. I was the kid in high school who got straight A’s but talked back to the subs when they were being unreasonable lol. I just tend to think “well I’ll do this my own way” when I don’t like something.

neptune: share one of your dreams.

I want to live in a brick house. I think they are so cute. I want a window nook seat, and a tower/fun shaped attic where a library can be—I want a yard for my doggy and a space for me to paint.

pluto: what’s the biggest thing you’ve learned by far in your life?

people are healing.

lilith: do you have any guilty pleasures?

sure! I like to imbibe in some drink or smoke and zone into a dumb videogame every once in a while.

chiron: have you ever broken a bone?

i broke my nose as a child!

ceres: are you a momfriend?

I used to be, now I think of myself more as a mentor and friend than the mom friend. being the mom is exhausting.

pallas: do you have a good relationship with your parents?

my mom, yes!

juno: do you believe in soul mates?

of course! not just romantic soul mates—there are many different kinds.

1st house: are you confident?

yes! most of the time, lol. until i am outside and constantly looking over my shoulder because ptsd has eaten my brain

2nd house: if you could only keep one of your personal items, what would you choose?

probably my laptop because of all the stuff on it, art programs, etc.

3rd house: do you like to read?

yesss!! see above with my book suggestions. I’m working on Dune right now.

4th house: what does your bedroom look like?

cozy! half messy, half not. we still have boxes we need to unpack at the foot of our bed, but I’ve decorated my dresser with a lot of memorable items—my necklace tree, photos, instax, we have a couple plants, oh and my altar is in here too!

5th house: name your favorite movie or show.

Avatar: The Last Airbender for surreeee

6th house: do you participate in community service?

not currently—while I like the idea of it, I feel like I don’t have the time or battery level with commissions and art and working full time and working out and taking care of a dog.

7th house: if you could choose, what zodiac sign would you like your dream partner to be?

man I don’t like this one, every zodiac sign has its ups and downs and further, combinations of zodiac signs are what make people truly unique—not to mention peoples’ life experiences!

8th house: do you believe in reincarnation?

yes, absolutely!

9th house: what’s your favorite quote?

not to be boring but I don’t think I have one, and I don’t really want to pull one out of my ass for the sake of answering this question. :(

10th house: are you good at public speaking?

surprisingly yes! I’ve got a good blend of professional and cracking the occasional joke.

11th house: what sign(s) is your best friend/squad?

LET’S SEE. we’ve got a cap, a gem, a gem/cancer cusp, a cancer, a libra, and a pisces.

12th house: do you like to be alone?

lmao tonight i hung out with my partner and her date and after a movie i was like “i’m gonna be a party pooper and go to bed and by go to bed I mean get on my bed and draw while listening to music” so yes, I sure do like being alone.

[kissthevoidlings]

I was tagged to do this 90 + 2 opinions thingy by @pxl-s, sorry it took me forever to post something Zen :^)

LAST

Drink: Arizona tea (the little ones not the big boys)

Phone Call: it’s always my mom there’s no point in answering this repeatedly. it’s always my mom

Text Message: my friend + carpool buddy, Michael

Song you listened to: Blister in the Sun by Violent Femmes

Time you cried: probably yesterday? I’m a daily crier

HAVE YOU EVER

Dated Someone Twice: no

Been cheated on: no

Kissed someone and regretted it: I mean like there have been a few times where I’ve kissed my boyfriend after he’s had like McDonald’s french fries and that was a Big Regret

Lost someone special: uh. I don’t think so?

Been Depressed: ok so I’m just leaving Zen’s original answer because it’s perfect: im on this website and i play league so ya

Been Drunk and Thrown Up: not like at the same time

IN THE PAST HAVE YOU

Made a new friend: yes? I hope people have made One Single New Friend in their life by the time they’re old enough to be on this website?

Fallen out of Love: oh hell yea

Laughed until you cried: most definitely. once I laughed so hard that dr. pepper came out of my nose and that was both painful and disgusting

Met someone who changed you: oh yeah definitely

Found out who your true friends are: ohohohohohohohohohoho - trust no one. not even yourself. 

GENERAL

How many people on Tumblr do you know in real life?: if you mean I’ve actually seen/touched them irl, probably like 10 people. If you mean I know where they live/what they look like/their real names, probably like 20. 

Do you have any pets?: I have an ancient Chesapeake Bay Retriever (dog) named Java, she’s a gift, and I also have a giant fat baby asshole ferret named Ace. 

Do you want to change your name?: absolutely not. my name is lit. 

What time did you wake up today: 6:42 I was 3 minutes late for work :^)

What were you doing last night: procrastinating writing this paper that I still haven’t written

Name Something you can’t wait for: for my boyfriend to start his new job so we can actually have money lmao. also for my new glasses to get shipped to my house.

Have you ever talked to someone named Tom: yes I have an uncle Tom and there was this legendary kid at my high school who was also named Tom. During an assembly one of our annoying choir groups was singing some song and he deadass went onto the gym floor and started bustin’ moves and the choir teacher like cancelled the performance it was awesome

What’s getting on your nerves right now: the fact that I can’t motivate myself to write this paper and it’s definitely gonna fuck me over

Blood type: O, I can’t remember if it’s + or - but I think -

Nickname: Ok so acceptable nicknames: starlight (my bf’s nonbinary s/o word for me), “barista jasiah” when I’m being a bitch, bluejay (an old nickname, also from my bf), Crazy J (a coworker’s name for me), Jerksiah (also work), and that’s about it

Unacceptable nicknames that motherfuckers still use: Jas, Jazz, Jazzy, Jazzy J, Jay, and any other “””nickname””” that just shows you’re lazy as fuck and don’t want to put the effort into learning my name 

Relationship Status: in a closed monogamous relationship

Zodiac Sign: taurus (omg Zen ur a gemini)

Pronouns: they/them but I don’t get pissy about she/her

Favorite Show: sense8 or daredevil

College: yes?

Hair Color: green

Do you have a crush on someone: lol financial stability (and my boyfriend)

What do you think of yourself: I’m not on mobile right now: sunglasses emoji, tongue emoji, ok hand emoji, explosion emoji, peach emoji, smiling devil emoji

FIRST

First Surgery: uh not yet

First Piercing: my earlobes

First sport you joined: soccer in like 1st grade or something

First Vacation: oh shit idk - technically I went to SeaWorld when I was like 2 and there was still one in Ohio

First pair of sneakers: ??? why would I remember this

RIGHT NOW

Eating: I just had some goat brie and salami. Not like deli salami, the small cured stick of salami 

Drinking: An Arizona tea, a water, and a coldbrew toddy with chocolate and peppermint and like a splash of soy

I’m about to: hopefully write this fucking essay but probably shower and go to bed

Listening to: Take it all Back 2.0 by Judah & the Lion

Want kids: bruh i’m 19

Get married: bruh................i’m 19. 

Career: I’m a fuckin’ indie barista who tutors in their spare time. dying is my career

WHICH IS BETTER

Lips or eyes: I refuse to choose

Hugs or kisses: hugs

Shorter or taller: pxl-s is right, why not both

Older or younger: ???????? what is the context???? i will say that old people usually make me really uncomfortable

Romantic Or Spontaneous: both bitch

Sensitive Or Loud: yes

Hook up Or relationship: I’ve never really hooked up so I can’t give unbiased info

Trouble or hesitant: trouble. if you’re hesitant you’re gonna be in trouble either way. 

HAVE YOU EVER

Kissed A Stranger: no

Drank hard liquor: ya

Lost contacts or Glasses: I don’t actually think I have, they’ve always gotten broken or I just got new ones bc it was time

Sex on the first date: i don’t think so

Broken someone’s heart: haha yes but it’s not my fault that boys romanticize you before they know who you are

Been Arrested: nope

Turned someone down: yes

Fallen for a friend: I’m dating one of my best friends ever! So yes!

DO YOU BELIEVE

In yourself: sure

Uhh if you want to do this and want an excuse, say I tagged you. Bada bing.

[melodramastud-e]

questions tag

thank you so much for tagging me @lattes-at-midnight!!! i love you LAST: 1. drink: water, but before that 2 cups of black tea lol 2. phone call: my dad! he didn’t answer tho woof 3.text message: my boyfriend  4. song you listened to: liability by lorde (im in love with this album you guys!! help!) 5. time you cried: hmm, actually not in a while which is actually a huge shocker  HAVE YOU: 6. dated someone twice: nah 7. kissed someone & regretted it: OOO BOY YEs (yikes!) 8. been cheated on: nope 9. lost someone special: yep 10: been depressed: no 11. gotten drunk & thrown up: nah LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS 12. maroon 13. medium spring green 14.  amethyst  IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. made new friends: yeah!! 16. fallen out of love: yes 17. laughed until you cried: yeah 18. found out someone was talking about you: always 19. met someone who changed you: yes!! 20. found out who your friends are: still figuring it out slowly 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: yup GENERAL: 22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them im pretty sure 23. do you have any pets: a kitty and a pupper 24. do you want to change your name: yeah, sometimes i highkey disassociate but it’s gotten better 25. what did you do for your last birthday: took a nap and went to color guard practice oops 26. what time did you wake up: 8?? something 27. what were you doing a midnight last night: sleeeping yum 28. name something you can’t wait for: my birthday ! 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: oh woof, my birthmom? maybe 2 years ago? my guardian mom, this morning 30. what is one thing you wish you could change in your life: my lack of motivation 31. what are you listening to right now: lorde!!!!! also chance the rapper 32. have you have talked to a person named tom: at some point i must have 33. something that is getting on your nerves: so many bitter people around me that won’t just be honest! im tired of it! either talk about it or stop bothering me!! 34. most visited websites: tumblr & my school website LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME: 35. mole(s): i have one below where my jaw meets near my ear but i always called it a beauty mark 36. mark(s): i have a bunch of little like freckles? but like not really, i probably have like 7 and i have a couple scars because im pretty accident prone 37. childhood dream: TO FLY but not actually, just really really huge jumps 38. hair colour: reddish brown? 39. long or short hair: short, slightly out grown pixie cut 40. do you have a crush on someone: my boyfriend if that counts haha 41. what do you like about yourself: my spiritualness, my independence, my singing voice  42. piercings: i have a nose stud (i want to change it to a ring but im afraid it’ll rip out at guard) my ears are pierced but i rarely wear earrings because they irritate my ears 43. blood type: honestly, i have no clue, i should figure that out 44. nickname: rissa? only get called that on few occasions 45. relationship status: taken!  46. zodiac: sun libra, moon taurus 47. pronouns: she/her 48. favourite tv show: jane the virgin or himym 49. tattoos: not yet but i want so many! 50. right or left handed: right 51. surgery: lazy eye surgery when i was lots younger 52. hair dyed different colour: yes! i’ve dyed mine 5 times, right now it’s just a shade lighter than my natural with red tones 53. sport: color guard 54. no question? 55. vacation: im going to spain in the summer!  56. pair of trainers: converse !!! MORE GENERAL: 57. eating: granola bar 58. drinking: waterrrr 59. i’m about to: do my ap music theory homework yikes 60. waiting for: my boyfriend to get home 61. want: to be left out of the drama 62. get married: not before im 24 hopefully 63. career: I THINK I WANT TO BE A KINDERGARTEN TEACHER !  i couldn’t figure out what i wanted to do forever and now i know and im so excited 64. hugs or kisses: kisses? hugs? BOTH 66. shorter or taller: i prefer taller 67. older or younger: older 68. nice arms or nice stomach: prefer nice stomach 69. sensitive or loud: im both, i like both  70. hook up or relationship: relationship for sure 71. troublemaker or hesitant: mostly hesitant, wish i was a little bit more of a troublemaker HAVE YOU EVER: 72. kissed a stranger: no 73. drank hard liquor: no 74. lost glasses/contact lenses: nah 75. turned someone down: yupppp 76. sex on first date: no 77. broken someone’s heart: no 78. had your heart broken: yep 79. been arrested: haha no but i was in the back of a police car 80. cried when someone died: yeah for sure 81. fallen for a friend: you bet DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 82. yourself: most of the time 83. miracles: yeah 84. love at first sight: no 85. santa claus: no 86. kiss on first date: sure go for it OTHER: 87. current best friend name: Grace! Mallori! Leah! love them all 88. eye colour: grayish blue 89. favourite movie: at the moment: i barely watch movies, 10 Things I Hate About You i’m tagging @effxvescience @scriville @sianthesiansian do it if you want! also anyone i didn’t tag and wants to do it you are officially tagged by me

[drunkenvigors]

These are kinda therapeutic for me (I’m going to skip some of them cause there’s a lot though!) sorry if you somehow know me irl and see this

1: How tall or short do you wish you were? I would love to be at least 5’6

2: What’s your dream pet? (Real or not) I already have my dream pets and I love them with my entire being

3: Do you have a favorite clothing style? No I switch between so many I never look the same lmao

4: What was your favorite video game growing up? Don’t make me answer this it’s too hard to think of, nextttt.

5: What three things/people do you think of most each day: 8:30pm (my fave time of day), mashed potatoes, and the rest of my brain goes into oblivion idk

6: If you had a warning label, what would yours say? I care too much or not at all there’s no inbetween beware I could scare u off or piss u off take ur pick

9: Are you ticklish? Everywhere on me is ticklish unfortunately but you can get a free pass to tickle me for 1min if I think you’re cute, otherwise take ya hands off the merchandise stupid bitch.

10: Are you allergic to anything? Being social

11: What’s your sexuality? I am pansexual but due to being bullied about it I tell everyone I’m Bi.

12: Do you prefer tea, coffee, or cocoa? This is a choice nobody should have to make.

13: Are you a cat or dog person? I am a regular person that loves them both

14: Would you rather be a vampire, elf, or merperson? Short enough to pass as an elf so why not 🧝‍♀️

15: Do you have a favorite Youtuber? David Dobrik, hes entertainment for when I’m eating snacks

16: How tall are you? Mind ya business.. 5feet...

17: If you had to change your name, what would you change it to? Tee, that’s what I go by anyways so considered it changed

19: Do you believe in ghosts/spirits? Yes and no.

20: Do you like space or the ocean more? How about neither because they’re big cluster fucks of the unknown and that in itself is terrifying

22: Pet peeves? Letting me get attached and talking to me then leaving me hanging without any fucking explanation like um lmao you suck

23: Would you rather be nocturnal or diurnal [opposite of nocturnal]? I’m nocturnal for sure

24: Favorite constellation? Dis pussy

25: Favorite star? Ur moms pussy

26: Do you like ball-jointed dolls? This sounds sexual

27: Any phobias or fears? Too many dots/holes in the same area, I’ll actually vomit.

28: Do you think global warming is real? OBVIOUSLY

29: Do you believe in reincarnation? Eeeehhhh I guess. I believe in a lot of different theories that I’ve thought of myself, I don’t care what other people think about these things because I’d like to stay true to my own thoughts.

30: Favorite movie? Spirited Away

31: Do you get scared easily? Not really

32: How many pets have you own in your lifetime? Too much math brb

34: What is a color that calms you? Red yay

35: Where would you like to travel and/or live? ... don’t make me say it because I won’t

36: Where were you born? In a Jesus piece praise

37: What is your eye color? Poop

38: Introvert or extrovert? Both depending on the day

39: Do you believe in horoscopes and zodiacs? Yea & if you don’t we probably won’t get along very well

40: Hugs or kisses? I’m definitely a hugger

41: Who is someone you would like to see/visit right now? There’s a very kind soul I’m dying to meet

42: Who is someone you love deeply? Tiger (my cat)

43: Any piercings you want? My bridge

44: Do you like tattoos and piercings? This is hilarious if you’ve never seen me before

45: Do you smoke or have you eiver done so? No smh are u kidding me that shits for the birds ya’heard weed will kill ya ;’(

46: Talk about your crush, if you have one! Godddd fucking DAMN he is so nice to me. Better than the stupid fuck people I tried to take care of around my area. These circumstances really suck.

47: What is a sound you really hate? There’s a couple people in mind that when they talk I would love to just shove a sock down their throat

48: A sound you really love? A skateboard on the pavement

49: Can you do a backflip? Fuk off maybe I’ll try to after doing this post

50: Can you do the splits? Used to

51: Favorite actor and/or actress? Myself when I need to get out of certain situations due to excessive anxiety but not wanting to show my real emotions, you feel?

53: How are you feeling right now? Would be better if I wasn’t here rn

54: What color would you like your hair to be right now? Exactly how it is

55: When did you feel happiest? When I get attention from the person I want it from, stupid romantic bullshit that doesn’t even matter

56: Something that calms you down? Probably my sister because we can laugh anything off together and I mean ANYTHING

57: Have any mental disorders? I can’t count them all on one hand

58: What does your URL mean? It’s from a hopsin song and Bioshock infinite. Good luck figuring it out

59: What three words describe you the most? Confusing, loud, quiet, and I’ll add one more, contradiction

60: Do you believe in evolution? Well.. how do you think we’re humans rn, we came from monkeys or whatever

61: What makes you unfollow a blog? If they post stupid ads or things that’ll try to pursue you into doing something

62: What makes you follow a blog? If it fits my aesthetic

63: Favorite kind of person: funny

64: Favorite animal(s): 🐨

66: Favorite emoticon: 🖤

67: Favorite meme: disgusteng

69: What is your star sign? TAURUS BAAAABYYYY 😍

70: Can your dog roll over on command, if you have a dog? No but I can so wassup dâddÿ

71: What outfit out of all your clothes do you like to wear the most? I have too many to pick

72: Post a selfie or two? How about no because I’m ugly lmao tf

73: Do you have platform shoes? NO I SHOULD GET SOME TBH

74: What is one random but interesting fact about yourself? I’ve pissed myself while drunk too many times to count, do as you wish with this information because I find it hilarious & I’m glad I don’t have an alcohol problem anymore lol

75: Can you do a front flip? Actually, yes, yes I can

76: Do you like birds? Don’t hate me for this but no I really don’t

77: Do you like to swim? Yessss

78: Is swimming or ice skating more fun to you? Ice skating

79: Something you wish didn’t exist: trump

80: Some thing you wish did exist: a green sky and a purple moon

81: Piercings you have? Lip, nose, ears, nipple (yes only one of them lmao)

82: Something you really enjoy doing: sucking my own dick for attention

83: Favorite person to talk to: myself in the mirror

84: What was your first impression of Tumblr? Idk I was so young when I made this blog I can’t recall

85: How many followers do you have? Idk does it even matter

86: Can you run a mile within ten minutes? I smoke far too many cigarettes for that

87: Do your socks always match? Never

88: Can you touch your toes and keep your legs straight completely? No wtf you thought I was fit? Nexxxttt

89: What are your birthstones? Emerald

90: If you were an animal, which one would you be? Koala

91: If a flower could aesthetically represent you, what kind would it be? Lillies, sunflowers, or buttercup flowers

92: A store you hate? Aerocrombie or however you fuckin spell it

93: How many cups of coffee can you drink in one day? 6 or 7

94: Would you rather be able to fly or read minds? Read minds but I would probably end up killing myself knowing all the bad things people think of me

95: Do you like to wear camo? Sometimes

96: Winter or summer? Summer

97: How long can you hold your breath for? 326183621

98: Least favorite person? Andrew lol fuck you.

99: Someone you look up to: my homies that have passed away, I look up to them every day

100: A store you love? I like to order things

101: Favorite type of shoes? VANS

102: Where do you live? Doesn’t matter smh

103: Are you a vegetarian or vegan? If so, why? Nnnooo

104: What is your favorite mineral or gem? Shiet

105: Do you drink milk? Milk drinks me glug glug bitch

106: Do you like bugs? NAH

107: Do you like spiders? NEGATIVE

108: Something you get paranoid about? Crack

109: Can you draw: if I try

110: Nosiest question you have ever been asked? Mannnnn idk

111: A question you hate being asked? Anything about my dead homies makes me at least a little uncomfortable

112: Ever been bitten by a spider? No

113: Do you like the sound of waves at the beach? Obviously

114: Do you prefer cloudy or sunny days? Sunny but not burning hot sunny u feel me

115: Someone you’d like to kiss or cuddle right now: who told u this information

THIS IS LONG

120: Fruits or vegetables? Fruit salad perhaps

121: Something you want to do right now: Get tf out of here

122: Is the ocean or sky prettier? Sky for sure

123: Sweet or sour foods? I eat sweets to confuse the demons inhabiting this body

124: Bright or dim lights? Dimmadomedim

125: Do you believe in a certain magical creature? Bitch u really thought dragons aren’t real

126: Something you hate about Tumblr: everyone is so sensitive bro then y’all gang up and bully someone for something so small & meaningless as if you have nothing better to do with yourselves

127: Something you love about Tumblr: nobody really knows me here & if you do then hey hi wassup I trust you 🖤

128: What do you think about the least? Sheesh I have adhd next question please

129: What would you want written on your tombstone? She was a bitch but she was a lit bitch

130: Who would you like to punch in the face right now? Fuck violence

131: What is something you love but also hate about yourself? My mind

132: Do you smile with your teeth showing for pictures? Ehhhhh on occasion

133: Computer or TV? Tv

134: Do you like roller coasters? Naaah son

135: Do you get motion sickness or seasickness? No

136: Are your ears lobed or attached? Lobed thank god

137: Do you believe in karma? HAH YES, she been slacking though💀👀

138: On a scale of 1-10, how attractive would you say you are? 3 tbh

139: What nicknames do you have/have had? People used to call me gauges and I am so glad that stage is over

140: Did you have any pretend or imaginary friends? Oh, you mean schizophrenia because yes

141: Have you ever seen a therapist/shrink? For years, then I dipped out because I know I can’t be cured from mental instability

142: Would you say you are a good or bad influence to others? Bad bad baaaad yikes

143: Do you prefer giving or receiving gifts/help? Giving

144: What makes you angry? When people play with me or attention seeking people, I really hate some of y’all cry baby asses fr

145: How many languages do you speak fluently? one sadly

146: Do you prefer boys, girls, and/or non-binaries? All of the above

147: Are you androgynous? Have you seen me because lmao

148: Favorite physical thing about yourself: I can’t even pick one because I genuinely hate myself and how I look

149: Favorite thing about your personality: my what now 💀

150: Name three people you would like to talk to right now in person: Jeremy McKinnon I want to tell him thank you. That’s it I guess

151: If you could go back into time and live in one era, which would you choose? Um probably none

152: Do you like BuzzFeed? Oooooofff I used to years ago but shit I’m over it now

153: How did you meet your spouse/girlfriend/boyfriend/partner? [If you have one.] my what

154: Do you like to kiss others’ foreheads or hands for platonic reasons? NO I AM NOT THE MOM FRIEND

155: Do you like to play with others’ hair? Not unless you’re my actual partner and even then I don’t really like to

156: What embarrasses you? Being outside

157: Something that makes you nervous/anxious: speaking/existing

158: Biggest lie you have ever told: I love you

159: How many people are you following? Idk prob a lot

160: How many posts do you have on your blog(s)? I’ve had this since I was 12 or something I really don’t know

161: How many drafts do you have on your blog(s)? IDFKKK

162: How many likes do you have on your blog(s)? WHAT

[sunflower-live]

92 Truths

I was “tagged” ;) by @liamsgoldenjacket 

Rules: Once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. at the end, choose 25 people to tag!

THE LAST… 1. Drink: iced latte from a super super cool french bakery (la panier) in pike place - anyone that lives in seattle or visits seattle needs to go here!!!! 2. Phone call: my friend asking me for directions somewhere  3. Text message: group chat with my sister and mom (mom asking if we drove into the city or took the bus)  4. Song you listened to: shazamed a song that was playing in forever 21 which was a zayn song i didn’t know about (cruel - snakehips feat. zayn)  5. Time you cried: my horse trainer and her horse fell 20 ft into a ravine and she was stuck for over 4 hours and had to be airlifted to the hospital and she broke her neck and pelvis and i watched the news story and it was horrifying 

HAVE YOU EVER…

6. Dated someone twice: no 7. Been cheated on: no 8. Kissed someone and regretted it: i off and on have regretted kisses 9. Lost someone special: no 10. Been depressed: hecka from 7-10 grade  11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: lol nothing makes me throw up

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

- emerald green - maroon - navy blue 

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU… 15. Made new friends: probably 16. Fallen out of love: no 17. Laughed until you cried: all the time 18. Found out someone was talking about you: no 19. Met someone who changed you: i don’t think so?  20. Found out who your true friends are: lol what friends 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: no

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: almost all of them 23. Do you have any pets: boy do i - 3 horses, 2 dogs, 2 cats, and some chickens but who cares about those (only the horses and dogs are actually mine - the rest are the families)  24. Do you want to change your name: no. i don’t even know if i’ll want to change my last name if i get married

25. What did you do for your last birthday: i went into the city with my parents and sister and went to some expensive ass restaurant and the waiter was fucking hilarious and v flamboyant and he brought me a tiny plastic tiara and ring pop with the bill. i didn’t even like the food but i would legit go back just to see him 26. What time did you wake up: 8:00am 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: reading fanfic (rip me)

28. Name something you cannot wait for: the harry concerts i’m going to that are A YEAR AWAY. 

29. When was the last time you saw your mother: like 15min ago  30. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: sometimes  wish i never got into riding horses because then i would probably play lacrosse or something and i would’ve gotten good grades (because i wouldn’t have just skipped school to ride and show) and i’d have gone to college and i’d literally have a normal life - so i wish i could have a normal college student life 31. What are you listening to right now: nothing 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i’m sure i have

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: my mother and my sister  34. Most visited website: tumblr 35. Elementary: ? i went to elementary school up the road from my house. not a great experience but tbh i remember very little of my childhood 36. High School: ? i went to regular high school but took classes at the alternative school as well. i graduated in 2015 37. College/university: tbd. i’ve taken the community college entrance exams but that’s about it. i would like to go but it’s just not on my radar atm with all of the horse stuff i’m doing. 38. Hair color: very blonde 39. Long or short hair: i guess it would be considered long - mid back 40. Do you have a crush on someone: yes and i can’t fucking help it and it’s been over 5 years 41. What do you like about yourself: i’m really good at riding and training horses? 42. Piercings: first holes on both ears and then i did my own second on one ear and two cartilages on one ear + my nose 43. Blood type: i don’t have a clue 44. Nickname: izzy, iz, bella 45. Relationship status: single for the rest of eternity  46. Zodiac sign: taurus 47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favorite tv show: i have so many. top five would have to be: it’s always sunny, how i met your mother, doctor who, ink master, and the challenge 49. Tattoos: black and white sunflowers on my ribs (the artist did not do them how she sketched them but they’re not bad - just not my style), russian doll on my upper arm, and a swedish flower design on my upper arm (that my mom also got so she picked it out) - i LOVE the doll and flowers. i’ve been seriously considering getting a horse shoe in the same style but i’m broke af right now and my artist is moving back to sweden :( 50. Right or left hand: right

FIRST…

51. Surgery: tonsils and ear tubes when i was really little  52. Piercing: my ears when i was in first or second grade 54. Sport: horses when i was 5 (plus multi sport summer camps and tball but those don’t count) 55. Vacation: i used to go to the hamptons a lot when i was little because my aunt was dating a super nice rich guy that lived there.  56. Pair of trainers: fuck i don’t know

57. Eating: is this still firsts because i don’t have a clue (if not firsts, nothing) 58. Drinking: lol milk? (if not firsts, nothing)  59. I’m about to: eat dessert 

60. Listening to: nothing

61. Waiting for: nothing 62. Want: more money because i’m broke as shit 63. Get married: i really hope so 64. Career: hopefully a horse trainer but my dad might be getting me a job as his office assistant that could then lead to me working in one of their hotels 

YOUR TYPE…

65. Hugs or kisses: not a fan of either but i’ve only kissed two guys so maybe i’m just missing out 66. Lips or eyes: eyes 67. Shorter or taller: taller 68. Older or younger: doesn’t really matter but in a relationship i’d rather go for older. 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: arms? i don’t really care though 71. Sensitive or loud: both but not too much of either 72. Hook up or relationship: anything is better than the nothing i’m getting (but i’d say relationship) 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker as long as it’s nothing against the law 

HAVE YOU EVER… 74. Kissed a stranger?: yes ( tbt to my first kiss as an innocent 12 year old ) 75. Drank hard liquor?: yes  76. Lost glasses contact/lenses: all the time

77. Turned someone down: i was hanging out with a guy once and he said we should go get dinner sometime and i told him that i don’t eat. but also anytime i like a guy and they start showing interest i’m out because i have fucked up commitment issues thanks to my parents 78. Sex on first date: never had the chance but i’m sure i would if the guy was hot enough 79. Broken someone’s heart: doubt it 80. Had your heart broken: nay 81. Been arrested: nah but i got in trouble for shoplifting once 82. Cried when someone died: literally anytime someone dies  83. Fallen for a friend: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN… 84. Yourself: usually 85. Miracles: sure 86. Love at first sight: don’t think so 87. Santa Claus: no 88. Kiss on the first date: sure? 89. Angels: eh, maybe

OTHER… 90. Current best friend’s name: my sister tessa is my #1 my #2 is my friend samantha, but she’s away at school most of the year :( 91. Eye color: green 92. Favorite movie: pans labyrinth or according to greta (just the ones that come to my mind) 

Oh lord 25 is so many people to tag but - 

@hazzardstyles @theroyalharry @2-ghosts @harryalmitey @matilda-breeze @onabedofhomemademash @niallsfish @larry-feels-like-home @harrysass @harryslittlepumpkin @runawayhaz @louiskingg @hazzaverse @larry-nomatterwhat @smallstyles @niamhyfr @fromtomlinson @1989rosesxx @donckasters @favoriteirishmember @obey-the-tommo-sass @littlemonstrosities @tomlintercourse @harryqstyles @infinitelyinlovewithfiveboys

And also anyone else that wants to do this, you can say I tagged you!

[hishotandhaywireheart]

Survey from Esther~

1: 6 of the songs you listen to most? Janina Gavankar - Don't Look Down The Irrepressibles - Two Men In Love The Irrepressibles - The Arrow Flor - Warm Blood Shearwater - Animal Life Bastille - Laura Palmer 2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? I'm overwhelmed by this question and can't pick a single answer, sorry lol. This is like asking me what my favorite Pokémon is. 3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17. I'm in a dog boarding facility's kitchen at the moment, no books in sight, I'm afraid. But I am reading the first book of the Raven Cycle series in audio form, if that helps 4: What do you think about most? What a question. Art? Animals? 5: What does your latest text message from someone else say? It's my boyfriend saying he's going to sleep :3 6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on? *Gamagoori voice* I sleep in the nude 7: What’s your strangest talent? Even though I am not a smoker [unless you count a couple of hookahs per year], I can tell the brand of a cigarette by the smell of the smoke. The smell on someone's clothes, I know immediately what brand it is. Mixture of childhood exposure, sensory sensitivity, and the jobs I've worked lol. 8: Girls… (finish the sentence); Boys… (finish the sentence) Girls are powerful. Boys are powerful. 9: Ever had a poem or song written about you? I dunno. Maybe? 10: When is the last time you played the air guitar? Uhh. Not a thing that occurs to me to do, to be honest lol 11: Do you have any strange phobias? Big phobia of hypodermic needles, or generally anything like a splinter, tiny shard of glass or hook getting underneath my skin. Phobic of getting pregnant. I guess those are weird. 12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose? Uhhh probably? 13: What’s your religion? What a complicated question lol. Simple answer: I'm pagan. But there is literally nothing simple about my endless thoughts about spirituality 14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing? Taking a walk in the woods, or sitting by a stream or body of water [water sources are especially sacred parts of nature for me] 15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Both. But I love taking photos and nobody really takes any photos of me. So I guess behind. Especially when it's behind a Polaroid. 16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band? Shearwater. Honorable mention to the Irrepressibles. 17: What was the last lie you told? Fuck if I know 18: Do you believe in karma? Not really. But as always I believe in the awesome power of the brain. 19: What does your URL mean? It's my name with "Irrepressible" after it, in the style of Jamie Irrepressible, the vocalist of, well, you can probably guess which band. 20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength? Weakness - I'm extremely prone to gaslighting and self doubt about my own reality. Strength - I might not be a fan of abrupt change, but I am very adaptable, given time to adjust. 21: Who is your celebrity crush? None 22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping? No, sadly. Remember what I said about my irrational fear of stepping on hooks or sharp objects? Interferes with my sacred need to swim in every lake I see. 23: How do you vent your anger? Ideally, art. Drawing, writing, even recording myself ranting to my microphone about it. 24: Do you have a collection of anything? I collect retro Pokémon merchandise and certain old video games. :> this makes me sound like a massive genwunner but rest assured, it's just an Aesthetic™ 25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? Text, to be honest. Us auties generally do better communicating in text based media. Skype calls are useful at times but I've always found them too awkward with delays and such to use reliably. 26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become? Hmmm. Tentatively, yes? 27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love? Sound I hate: male voices shouting. Sound I love: music bouncing off walls and becoming ethereal and far away. 28: What’s your biggest “what if”? What if I don't understand what this question is asking me? 29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens? Ghosts, no. I talk about them a lot though because the idea of them is dear and important to me, but literally, no, I have no belief in some vaporized version of your personality that goes on after death. Aliens, I assume are a matter of inevitability. But I don't believe we will probably ever find or meet them in the foreseeable future. Humans think they are much more fascinating than they actually are. Aliens are not crawling all over themselves to build technology just to come fly over to our house and meet us. Sry 30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm. Air both times lol 31: Smell the air. What do you smell? The heat coming on at work because morning is here. Faint dog poop smell. Gonna have to tidy that up lol 32: What’s the worst place you have ever been to? Buttfuck nowhere, West Virginia 33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast? East Coast, if we're talking america 34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender? I don't have an opposite gender 35: To you, what is the meaning of life? To create something meaningful and beautiful, and to enjoy myself to the fullest while helping others whenever possible 36: Define Art. If it makes you think about whether or not it's art, then it's art. 37: Do you believe in luck? Uhh. Like as an actual outside force that decides whether good or bad stuff will happen to me, no. 38: What’s the weather like right now? Coldddd 39: What time is it? 6 am. Time to get off work! 40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed? Yes, I drive, don't love it but glad I am able. No, but I did run over a bin once 41: What was the last book you read? A book about the history of heterosexuality as a concept, fascinating read actually 42: Do you like the smell of gasoline? As a kid I liked it but it's kinda gross now 43: Do you have any nicknames? Many 44: What was the last film you saw? Can't remember a film rn but I am currently watching The Story Of Film which I CANNOT recommend enough, it is a documentary series about, well, the history of cinema and even if you don't care about movie making... It will absorb you completely and make you not only care but be totally fascinated. I adore it. 45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had? You know, I've been really lucky. Never broken bone or needed stitches or even like, been to the hospital, lol. I think I chipped my shin bone on a brick stair once. And a couple years ago I missed a stair going down and sprained my ankle, and my work refused to let me spend any time off my feet so I was crying from pain in front of customers lol. But it healed fast once I had a brace. No problem. 46: Have you ever caught a butterfly? I dunno. I was taught as a child that if you touch their wing dust even a little, they will lose their flight and die. So probably I haven't. Even though I now know this isn't quite true. 47: Do you have any obsessions right now? The Story of Film, some bands, getting sucked back deep into my lifelong love Pokémon again lol 48: What’s your sexual orientation? Pansexual, or: Why Are Gender And Genital Shape Our Main Social Indicator Of Romantic Or Sexual Preferences, Of All Things, That's Really Weird And I Can't Relate, Please Save Me From This Bizarro World 49: Ever had a rumour spread about you? Oh yes, plenty back in school 50: Do you believe in magic? Ahh. I believe in the power of will. I believe in the ability to make your own life full of magic via willpower. I believe in the harmless use of willpower to try and cause a change in your environment. I believe the force exercised by children known dismissively as "imagination" have incredible power to influence the mind and soul. I have no belief in a metaphysical force in the universe called "magic" that could describe basically anything and everything unknown to current science. If you ask me flat-out, I will say yes, I believe in magic. But this is more of what I mean. I don't believe in "magic", except that I do. Adamantly. 51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong? I do not tend to forget. Forgive is a matter of situation. But I don't forget. And I am quite the talented ice prince when it comes to freezing someone entirely out of my life. This includes immediate family. I only speak to my little sister out of my entire family. 52: What is your astrological sign? Taurus-Gemini cusp! 53: Do you save money or spend it? Spend :T 54: What’s the last thing you purchased? Bread, milk and a couple very cheap, very pink, very glittery nail polishes. My weakness. 55: Love or lust? Yes. 56: In a relationship? Yep 57: How many relationships have you had? Uhh... Many? Serious, deep romantic relationships, which I suspect is your real question: three. 58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue? Nope 59: Where were you yesterday? Home, and briefly out at the store. 60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you? My nails are pink and glittery. 61: Are you wearing socks right now? Yep. I wear two pairs to work because my super comfy work shoes are just the tiniest bit too big. 62: What’s your favourite animal? You asked the impossible question. Today, your answer is: praying mantis. Specifically praying mantis godmothers. Ask me again in two hours for an entirely different answer. 63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you? Sorry, too socially awkward for this prompt 64: Where is your best friend? In bed, it is very late and/or early. 65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr. Don't really have favorites? Just people and stuff I like. 66: What is your heritage? Whitey white. Scots Irish, English, a bit of German, and like everything else you can expect from a family that's been in America about as long as a white devil could possibly be. My mother is a hobbyist genealogist, so this isn't just typical white folks bullshit, I'm vaguely more educated on my roots. I am in fact a distant cousin of notable American politician of the 19th century, Henry Clay. 67: What were you doing last night at 12AM? Playing Pokémon Blue! Beating the game for literally the first time ever! 68: What do you think is Satan’s last name? Uh. Um. Oh god, I don't know lmao 69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off? Yes, everyone has, normalize it 70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend? Hmmm. Yes. 71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do? Lose my job bitches, and maybe hope to go viral and boost my chances of getting a new job for doing this thing lol 72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid? A-Maybe. At least a few people. B-Travel, make good art, write my will, get my affairs in order. C- Yes, for a while. 73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love. Trust obvs 74: What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it? Many. First one that comes to mind is Empire by Jukebox the Ghost 75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number? Nope 76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship? Being best friends and trying to understand one another and willing to be open and honest, no ego in the way 77: How can I win your heart? Buy me sushi. 78: Can insanity bring on more creativity? Yes. 79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far? To not have children. 80: What size shoes do you wear? American size seven in men's, nine in women's. Sometimes half a size up or down. 81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone? No idea. I should get thinking on that. 82: What is your favourite word? Don't really have one favorite tbh 83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart. Glowing lights, core imagery 84: What is a saying you say a lot? Hell yeah 85: What’s the last song you listened to? Maxiimo Park - Going Missing 86: Basic question; what’s your favourite colour/colours? Long story short: indigo. 87: What is your current desktop picture? Some Pokémon, I forget which. 88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be? A random white supremacist, maybe, but honestly, I probably wouldn't press it 89: What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on? No idea rn 90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do? I'd be quite disturbed because I cut my teeth on Ocarina of Time and was very creeped out by ReDeads 91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power? Shapeshifting. Always my answer. Covers being an animal, or being a child, or flying, or swimming. 92: You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again? First thought is a marching band performance from high school. Second thought is back in that car in the vast moonlit Utah desert. 93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? Bad math teachers. Gave me a complex about math and didn't improve me as a person in any way like most of the others did. 94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be? No interest 95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go? Japan motherfuckers 96: Do you have any relatives in jail? Not that I'm aware of but I couldn't care less tbh 97: Have you ever thrown up in the car? If I have, I must have been very small. 98: Ever been on a plane? Yep, just twice. 99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say? If they actually absorbed what I had to say? Love yourselves. Love each other. Endeavor to understand each other. Try to figure out what you were taught wrong about yourself and your fellow humans, and unlearn those things. Embrace humanity in all its diversity. Open up and be vulnerable.

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Tag

Another old one that @welovechoiyoungjae tagged me in! Thank you :D

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you’re supposed to answer the thruths about yourself and tag as many people as you want

MOST RECENT:

1. Drink: water

2. Phone Call:  My dad

3. Text: My dad

4. Song you listened to: If with GOT7

5. Time you cried: probably last night.... yea, last night. you guys can probably guess why..... top

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice: Nope

7. Been cheated on: No

8. Kissed someone and regretted it: yes

9. Been depressed: …….. I meannnnnnn. Yea lol

10. Lost someone special: Not because they died but yea

11. Been drunk and thrown up: hahaaaaaa. yea

LIST THREE FAVOURITE COLOURS:

12. Black

13. blue

14. Red

In The Last Year Have You:

15. Made any new friends: yea

16. Fallen out of love: No

17. Laughed until you cried: omg yes

18. Met someone who changed you: hah. yea...

19: Found out who your true friends are: Yup

20: Found out someone was talking about you: No? Not that I remember so I guess not. UNLESS you count this ONE cunt but I already knew she was talking shit so what ever. (yes I’m bitter)

21: Kissed anyone on your fb list: No

Extras:

22. How many ppl from your fb list do you know irl: Idek who I’m friends with on fb, I never use it.

23. Do you have any pets: I have a smol aka huge dog c: and I wish I had a cat omg...

24. Do you want to change your name: I want to but I don’t know what I’d rather be named. Something cool like Kim or Sam. Not that it’d suit me but what ever haha.

25. What did you do for you last birthday?: I got HELLA drunk with @kpop-dead and @kanilanipani haha

26. What time did you wake up today?: around 10am

27. What were you doing last night at midnight: I was most likely watching Goblin. Or some weird youtube videos.

28. Name something you can’t wait for: Being happy. Moving out. Getting a god dAMN CAT. Aaaaaah, you guysssss. I really want a cat.

29. Last time you saw your mum: Last night

30. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I wish I didn’t have social phobia.

31. What are you listening to rn: nothing for once haha

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: I don’t think so

33. What is getting on your nerves rn: Life a lot of things

34. Blood type: I have no idea but I always wanted to know

35. Nickname: none

36. Relationship status: Single as fucK. hahaaa I just made myself laugh by thinking Married to the music... I’m trash

37. Zodiac sign: Taurus

38. Pronouns: She/her

39. Favorite tv shows: too. many. But right now The Legend of The Blue Sea, Hannibal, Roommate season 2, Goblin

40. High school: according to sweden I’m done with high school but I never understood other countries school systems lol. Lets just say I’m done with the basics and have now chosen something i’m majoring in

41. College: and I am majoring in baking... yay :))

42. Long or short hair: long 

43. Height: 176cm

44. Do you have a crush on someone: nah i don’t think it’s a crush

45. What do you like about yourself: that I’m open minded

46. Right handed or left: right

47. First surgery: I broke my arm once so I had “surgery” for that.

48. Piercings: My ears were pierced once but something happened lol 

50. First best friend: she was my neighbor back in kindergarten. I think we hated each other but we were always playing. One time I poked her in the eye so her eye was blue for a week HAHA

51. First vacation: I went to Spain with my grandma when I was 7

RIGHT NOW:

52. Eating: Nothing

53. Drinking: Water. Could’ve been vodka but I didn’t feel like leaving my house

54. I’m about to: Finish this and watch Goblin or Roommate

55. Listening to: Didn’t I answer this already? o.o

Want:

56. Kids: Sometimes. I want to adopt tho. 

57. Get married: i guess. But only because I want a nice wedding dress. And a pretty ring. YES I AM A HOE FOR PRETTY THINGS leave me alone hahah

58. Career: Anything but the one I’ll get probably. okay no but something artistic.

Which is better:

59. Lips or eyes: ....... ah..... I love both. but.... eyes?

60. Hugs or kisses: hugs.... I think

61: Taller or shorter: TALLER.

62. Older or younger: olderrrrrrrrrrrr

63. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous I think? idk haha

64. Nose, stomach or nice arms?: I like arms. 

65. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive

66. Troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker probably

Have you ever:

67.Kissed a stranger: No

68. Drank liquor: haha yea

69. Lost glasses/contacts: No

70. Had sex on the first date: nope 

71. Broke someone’s heart: Maybe

72. Turned someone down: yea

73. Cried when someone died: No

74. Fallen for a friend: yea

Do you believe in:

75. Yourself: Never heard of her?

76. Miracles: Nope

77. Love at first sight: Yea

78. Heaven: No 

79. Kissing on a first date: Yes

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