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lies · 20 hours ago

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Sometimes when I'm birdwatching

#sometimes when i’m birdwatching #things that aren’t birds #sea lion #no link #because while I was opportunistically birding #on our way back from the pelagic trip #i was in fact lazy enough not to be keeping a list #and the trip organizers were likewise lazy #there were wegr #and wegu #and brpe #and some heeg #probably a few more I'm forgetting #sorry #no link for you #but I can offer you these judgmental pinnipeds #which on balance #is a pretty good deal #i think

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prettypinkeel · 8 days ago

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baby JB being the first oplita supporter in series and prowl being a little jealous hater is really funny to me

well and the bonus pic

the sketches I do in paint before opening ibis are something else

#transformers earthspark #oplita #transformers fanart #tf prowl #tf jawbreaker #transformers #elita one #optimus prime #optimus x elita #prettypinkeel #i wanted to rest today but i had to draw something quick because this was on my mind for more than a MONTH #i wonder if jawbreaker is the first oplita fan in the show cuz who else hyped up oplita on screen but maybe i just forget.....#prowl is that guy who's like FUCK romance FUCK couples I'm married to my job! until papatron hugs him #i also wanted to give jawbreaker a shirt with “oplita fan” but i gave up....#he'd probably rip it in first few seconds he's all covered in spikes 😭😭😭

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deoidesign · 2 months ago

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Thinking about vampires, death, life, and the space they occupy in between

#to be or not to be. that is the question #ty adam for being my model for dramatic vampire moment #musings on the thinkings about:#when to live you are required to hurt others. you must repeatedly ask yourself what the value of your life is #To sleep... perchance to dream...#ah. THERES THE RUB.#ok I actually couldnt come up with too many thoughts. I had a lot more while I was drawing this but I guess I put them in the painting LOL #reading that soliloquy and being like damn this is just like vampires #the reality of course is that the soliloquy is a debate over suicide and ultimately making the choice to live #even if just out of fear of the unknown #and vampires are about dying and then in undeath choosing to continue to live #despite the fear of eternity and loneliness and hurting others #theyre not the same. but like let me thiiink come onnnn I'm allowed to thiiink and have incomplete thoughts #I would have to write like a proper essay about this to organize my thoughts. this is the tags on a tumblr post.#anyways finished episode 79 #working on patreon stickers for this month (and next month soon)#and working on book 4. taking a pause from episodes cause I've got 3 weeks of buffer now... UGH #I'm so mad that they changed it. it would have been 5 weeks before but it's fine it's whatever #anyways yeah taking a break from episodes to make my book now!#its good stuff.#and this painting is good stuff #banger after banger from me tbh #this was a little relaxing giving myself a couple hours to muse #it's necessary for my health and I always forget that til I do a painting...#I loved doing the little landscape in the background too I should do that more! I love how plants are just like whatever shape you want #like you can make up any plant you want and not only does that plant PROBABLY exist somewhere #a weirder plant exists somewhere too. so. literally whatever you want #ok bye again for a few days while I get back to work

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thedreadvampy · 6 months ago

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sometimes I forget that my experience has been. um. not 'your experiences are not universal' vibes but more like 'your experiences are EXTREMELY atypical'

#red said #recent events have reminded me that my life has involved like. a LOT of other people's psychosis #like not in a way where i have been Beset By Terrifying Crazies bc that's not like. a thing.#but a lot of people in my life have had a lot of really severe psychotic episodes #and i FORGET sometimes. that actually that is an Unusual Amount Of Experience With Psychosis for someone who's not #for somebody who has not really personally ever had psychotic episodes (unless severe PTSD flashbacks count)#actually i tell a lie i have maybe had One psychotic episode but because it was very situational and i knew what was happening #i was able to ride it out. because i am literally only psychotic Inside Hospitals and so that's all fine #as long as i LITERALLY NEVER HAVE TO HAVE INPATIENT CARE. Very important to me to never ever ever require surgery i think.#i can handle the amount of psychosis i get from a 1-4 hour stopoff in hospital #as long as i know I'm leaving soon then i can just Cope with the fact that the walls are moving and reality is thin #ANYWAY that's not the point the point is i forget! that most ppl i know have experience of at most a handful of severe psychotic episodes #some people i know have experienced more for sure. especially if the episodes were mostly theirs.#but people really seem to expect me to be more freaked out by their symptoms of psychosis than i am #bc i don't think i really register it as frightening unless they're in actual danger or Currently Aggressing Actually At Me #like i WORRY about them bc it can super suck but it's not SHOCKING or WEIRD #there have definitely been times ive been frightened. one time i woke up in the night and my friend was standing over me with a knife #but also like he was still HIM he was just having a moment. and as soon as i got the knife off him he just came back and broke down.#and we were fine and he was safe and i learnt the valuable lesson that even when people seem like they wanna kill you they probably don't #tbf now I'm thinking about it it's honestly a tossup whether he was there to threaten or because he felt a need to guard us #like to be clear probably don't try and take a knife off someone having a psychotic break. i was 17 and it was 3am and i knew him very well #i probably did not make the smartest call but nobody got hurt is the point #anyway you know there's that kind of psychotic episode and my granny got very violently angry a few times. buuuut you know there's also #been plenty of other times I've been with somebody having an episode and it's been chill as hell.#my ex saw and heard monsters so much that eventually she just got sick of being scared. we used to watch TV with them #i would sometimes have to sit on a bit of sofa that wasn't haunted and we might not be able to watch certain things bc they didn't like it #most of the time she was hallucinating there was absolutely nothing to worry about we just had a few extra variables #honestly of everyone i know who's had psychotic episodes or schizophrenia the amount of times it's been a material risk #is like. low single figures? maybe low double if you include self harm but idk what the cause and effect is there.#idk why you would need to be frightened like 99.99% of the time it truly is usually just Oh No That Seems Distressing For You I'm Sorry

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realchemistry · 5 months ago

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Buddie fic teaser

I was listening to "Down Bad" and the idea for this fic came to me. My brain works in funny ways so it doesn't really match the song (at least for now), since it's basically a different take on accident-induced-amnesia.

Anyways, this is just a teaser, I literally thought about it today so it's not done and it might never get finished. Maybe posting it here will help move it along...

No name fic, rated T thus far since the starting point is the shooting.

When Eddie went down, Buck felt a part of himself died with him. It was like an out-of-body experience: he could see himself paralyzed, completely frozen, unable to function because his best friend in the whole world had just been shot. Eddie’s body gave out, hit the pavement, and Buck was pushed to the floor. Eddie was bleeding out right in front of him, and Buck felt himself dying along, but there was no bullet hole to blame. It was all pain, the worst of aches he’d ever known, it was like his heart was ripped apart as Eddie’s body was torn. Eddie seemed to be reaching out, and Buck’s brain went back online. He thought about Chris, about their love for each other and his love for them. Buck had to make it right, so he gathered his strength and wits, and got into action. After dragging his best friend’s body, after placing him in the truck, after tending to his wound, after dropping him off at the hospital, Buck still didn’t feel completely alive. There was a lot of waiting involved, a lot of uncertainty, a lot of crying. When he was told that Eddie was going to be okay, that was when his heart started beating again. Buck ran to the hospital, he needed to see Eddie alive and well for himself. The only reason he hadn’t been right next to his bed was because he knew Chris needed him and, if he was honest with himself, he needed the kid just as much to get through it all. Once he got to Eddie’s floor, Ana was waiting outside the door. She didn’t look as happy as Buck was expecting, all things considered. He wanted to greet her quickly and move on to the room but she stopped him. “Hey, Evan, just, you need to know something before you go in.” “What is it?” Buck was feeling dizzy all of a sudden. “When Eddie woke up, he didn’t… he didn’t remember some things. The doctor said maybe he hit his head or the trauma—” Ana sounded defeated. “What does he remember?” Buck asked, dreading her answer.

#911 ABC #911 #Buddie #Buck and Eddie #Eddie Diaz #Evan Buckley #FanFiction #realchemistry #Ana's here #because she was there basically #I wrote a little more than this but this felt like a fun place to stop for now #if this ever sees the light of day it'll probably change some #anyway #all mistakes are mine #the funny thing is that I started writing something else a few days ago #and then this happened and now we're here #I'm so rusty but IDC #I keep getting ideas but then I forget to write them and forget them altogether

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moonchild-in-blue · 6 months ago

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Oh.

#according to facebook memories (why do i even have that still??) 12 years ago today i saw Linkin Park for the first time 🥺#in a few days it'll be 10 years since the last time i saw them #and. hm. there's a lot that surfaced this days since clancy dropped and i'm a bit more emotional / sensitive than usual #and this is. well. making me extremely sad.#12 years ago. i remember as if it was yesterday. i cling to that day so much and i'm scared of forgetting about it #i wonder how 14 yo me would've reacted if she knew.#they were my first gig ever! i remember the 2nd song was given up and the people around us started moshing pretty hard.#so much that my shoe came off and my dad had to shield me while i crawled and looked for it hahaha #it was so fun! i didn't really know that was a thing #that day was the first time they played Lies Greed Misery - it had been released just the day before #my videos are SO blurry but i still have them all saved 🥹#idk i've been in some typa mood these past days. not necessarily bad at all but.#me and a couple friends had a very important conversation 2 nights ago which was GOOD but. the bad thing about letting everything bottle up #is that once you spill it's hard to deal with. and yeah this is. idk. i'm just venting here like. ignore me.#it's just really hard for me. i miss him terribly and i'm really scared for myself because i *know* i'm back in the loop #and it feels so hopeless sometimes. maybe this is super silly but i'm so thankful that Clancy came out now because OH BOY i need it #maybe it's not the best strategy to put so much faith? importance? in like. music and other people but #man. i genuinely don't know if i'd be here if not for certain songs/artists etc #idk I'm rambling lol. i might delete this later #probably. maybe. i try not to talk too much about this here because i tend to deal alone but. sometimes it's nice to send things to the void #anyways. support your favs. talk to your friends - even if you much rather not. don't be like me and let things rot inside.#🤍#darya talks to herself

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my-thoughts-and-junk · 3 months ago

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thinking about superheroes unfortunately

#random thoughts #let me daydream about batman in peace #love the dynamic between spiderman and deadpool #it's that kind of dynamic i love where two people have power over each other in different ways #like spiderman is a well-loved public figure and deadpool's idol while deadpool is a dangerous mercenary with regeneration powers #physically deadpool probably outmatches spiderman through sheer dogged perseverance #while in the public eye spiderman is more well-liked AND deadpool is feverishly obsessed with him #i'm gonna keep forgetting the hyphen between spider and man btw fuck the world #loving the idea of a spiderman who KNOWS deadpool can do better and believes in him while deadpool gives him a space where HE can be himsel #like spiderman has so many masks he has to put on around other people #i think deadpool should be one of the few people he can truly let himself loose around #yknow before he can get to a point where he can reveal he's peter parker #also i think peter parker in his ideal state suffers from severe identity and self confidence issues #like he thinks spiderman is a seperate persona he puts on which is superior to himself in every way #(okay seperate thought: DID spiderman. the spider bite being so traumatic it led to him creating a split personality to cope.)#(or separate. whatever.)#also age difference. peter should be in his mid-twenties while deadpool should be in his thirties. need more power imbalance #also they're both sa survivors and their personalities could be interpreted as them handling it in vastly different ways #with deadpool being hypersexual and spiderman being flirtatious yet distant and peter parker being borderline celibate #though honestly i could leave spiderman being an sa survivor given it was a whole 'gay people are all predators' psa #also i think spiderman should have been held back in high school. due to struggles relating to being spiderman #so he graduated late and now he's going to community college #peter parker has the luxury of going incognito. wade wilson will always be stared at no matter what he's wearing #deadpool who every superhero hates. spiderman who every superhero organization is trying to recruit desperately #also i think peter should admire wade. physically. built like a brick shithouse that one #also the third act low point CAN'T be about spiderman feeling guilty because deadpool kills people #okay? it's overdone. we've seen it. it's lame #i prefer when their opposing views on murder are treated in a more 'death penalty or no' way rather than assuming deadpool is always wrong #because spiderman's idyllic 'people can change' beliefs can be just as wrong as deadpool's 'assholes deserve to die' beliefs #and spiderman has definitely killed people are you kidding me. both accidentally and on purpose

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doedipus · 7 months ago

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a large amount of time I've been spending on -untitled undefined scope original fiction project- since the last time I posted about it has been trying to develop the protagonist concept I came up with last summer or whatever into like, a character that would feel real and era appropriate.

it's fun research to do. naturally a lot of the details I assigned to her are things that I already think are cool, so it's been a lot of fun trying to trace her traits back through the relatively recent past, getting reminded of how much things have changed, or where the gaps in my intuition are, and then doing a flurry of reading to get a sense for exactly how someone like her and the people around her could have happened and what her life was probably like leading up to her present day. hopefully this results in some good good verisimilitude.

#I wrote a short story from her perspective over the holidays and then didn't know how to continue it #and then I got distracted by real life stuff for a few months #I forget if I posted about that #and then I've been picking through archive dot org for the last few weeks looking at this stuff #the last big rabbit hole was trying to get a better feel for era appropriate ts/tv subculture #the current one I'm looking at is how she would've gotten into language learning and how that would've worked #nettle has been prodding me about the setting thing lately so I've been thinking about that more too #probably the biggest hurdle by far is figuring out how I want to play that #and how I want the thing to be divided up #since the original coc scenario I'm developing this out of is centered on a flight from LA to honolulu #and the airport dungeon was definitely meant to be a hook for a larger campaign #some amount of it is going to cover protag lady's failed life in LA and some of it is going to be worse things happening in hawaii #but it's like. how much do I want to balance it one way or the other #and realistically how much does the aesthetics of 20th century air travel add to the story #besides me personally thinking it's compelling ofc #a lot of what I find compelling about hawaii is that it's an east/west cultural crossroads and realistically that's also true of socal #and I can wax poetic about socal as much as I want without worrying all that much about mishandling something #and there's also a lot of socal specific history along similar parallels to pull from that I'm more familiar with #I guess it comes down to whether curiosity re: 'doing it right' is enough of a motivator to do the increased amount of research #which I guess it has so far with the above character details. so hopefully that will continue #but it also feels like using machine translation a bit yknow. it's hard to know how effectively I'll be able to sanity check #although depending on where this goes I might be able to get other people involved to sensitivity read down the line #with most of the creative things I do I just have a tendency to always rely really heavily on figuring things out myself #I also want protag lady to have a Cool Car and idk how to get that from point a to point b narratively #this is like an entire second or third post's worth of tags but I don't feel like unfucking this so whatever. suffer. I guess.

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snowtimeisbesttime · 2 years ago

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all classpect interpretations are equally canon- and this is why:

sburb/sgrub/sname is many things, but the first of those things we see is a computer game. said game's source code can be found in carvings in the frog temple, which comes from a Reckoning meteor; so each sthing version's code comes specifically from itself!

and considering every session we've seen has had an unique frog temple (beta kids: 4 land spires; beta trolls: two separate temples with 6 land spires each; alpha kids: 8 land spires, alpha trolls: at least one temple (with 12 land spires??), possibly located on beforus' moon), there's no reason to assume each and every temple's carvings are exactly the same…

therefore, two swhatever instances can have drastically different classpect definitions because they're running different versions of the game! for example, my own mirrorbent's sgame was compiled in a way where i won't have to go into too many specifics from their own, separate, 12 land spires temple (as opposed to being widely distributed like the beta kids' sburb), and classwise features active knights and passive pages, to pick an example that was recentlyish polled about.

of course, this mini theory thingy would be most applicable to fanventures, while most classpecting theory revolves about homestuck proper for obvious reasons. luckily, i've got some Key Insights about the canon classpects, just beyond this readmore:

get mutie'd lmao!!!!

413 zillion kitys attack!!!!

#no jumpscares or anything below the readmore- just two gifs #homestuck #homestuck413 #classpect #classpecting #fanventures #homestuck fanventure #fwiw my own classpect interpretations would be something like. retro plus #as in i developed most of them All The Way Back When but ofc ive absorbed New and Cool things that have been popping up #and of course same goes for Mirrored Bench my most of blorbos. like especially so.#so like (active/passive) witch/heir (manipulate) maid/sylph (create) knight/page (exploit) mage/seer (understand)#but no 'mages get screwed over forever by their aspect' as Actual Class Definition And Requisite #and ofc no gendered classes #But Also yes inversion theory (arc flavor) because im already going to have to rewrite Enough Shit without jettisoning an entire act orz #and also a few custom aspect palettes (earlier tealer fanon mind; richer less gray life; void with. more than like 3 shades)#also also Every godtier has super deep and convenient pockets. All of them. Pockets for Days.#And more things i'm probably forgetting.

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ontargetmadders · 7 months ago

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I don't know a massive amount about cartoons but top 5 cartoons?

AAHHHH!! Well firstly thank you so much for sending this! I'm a bit of a cartoon fanatic. I guess i just never really grew out of them?? and when I'm feeling sad they just make me feel so much happier so I tend to just recycle and re-watch them over an over again. The nostalgia I get from them is just unreal! So I'm just gonna answer these with gifs and talk about why i love them so much! :D

1. Pokemon

Pokemon has to be the 1st one for me! Just love everything about it! (Although nowadays watching it can be a little tiresome as it's the same plot every episode lol) But it was such a big part of my childhood growing up. The XY series is particular is the best and actually has a good story to it and isn't just team rocket tryna steal Pikachu all the time lol (and my beautiful otp came from it too so I'll love it forever).

2. American Dragon

What's not to love about American Dragon? A kid who can turn into a dragon is pretty awesome tbh. (I even wrote story at uni based on it) And i love how it educates you on Chinese culture. There's not many cartoons or tv shows in general that do. Plus i love the forbidden romance between jake and rose. It's so deliciously painful haha (Cartoons in general do romance better than most Hollywood films lol)

3. Kim Possible

Who didn't watch this growing up?! It was just too iconic! And let's acknowledge just how rare it was/still kinda is to have a female lead in a cartoon too - let alone a redhead as well! (Redheads really don't get much love in media do they) And don't get me started on Kim and Ron. Probably the best friends to lovers relationship to ever exist (I shipped them before I even knew what shipping meant lol). Plus Drakken is the funniest villain ever lol

4. Teen Titans

Teen Titans is literally the only DC thing I like lol. I'm not majorly into superhero things in general but this show is just so brilliantly done and not afraid to go to some dark places. Honestly love cartoons that feel like they're not just for kids and this is definitely one of them. And one of my favourite things about is how each series focuses on them and their own personal villains. (Plus I got the idea for my main WIP from watching this)

5. Ben 10

I'm a big sci-fi lover so a dude that can turn into aliens is right up my street! It's also kinda superhero themed and I love that Ben and his friends are basically defenders of the galaxy too (plumbers as they call it in the show) which is really cool. Also it's one of the very few cartoons that actually let the charcters age and you see the main characters grow up with you which I really like. (One thing I hate about Pokemon - Why did they have to keep Ash 10 lol). But yeah this one was a big part of my childhood too and one I always will come back to

#i really wanted jackie chan adventures to be in this too but these just edge it for me #also sonic x is an honourable mention #and i absolutely love the big hero 6 series too #that one was not my generation tho so it's not nostalgic like these ones #there's probably a few more i'm forgetting too but these 5 are top notch #pokemon #american dragon #kim possible #teen titans #ben 10 #no but really thanks for the ask!#i found this really enjoyable 😁

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face-breaker · 5 days ago

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the best thing this hell site ever implemented was post auto saving —

#✘ — [ ooc ]#tbd #as someone who's house is prone to constant brownouts #it is very much appreciated.#because if i lost my progress on the thread i'm currently working on i would cut off my own limbs actually —#y'all remember the days of writing replies in google docs for this purpose only #i also still have like #12 text recovery extensions on my chrome #i should probably delete those —#BUT ANYWAY #i...didn't get as much done around here as i was hoping to lmao #between the bf's surgery and my birthday yesterday i was busier than i was expecting myself to be.#and also maddie's got me in a chokehold rn so i'm just like #hella distracted #BUT i've got a few more hours before i gotta get ready for work tonight and then i #have tomorrow off i think...but then i work 3 days in a row —#so tonight and tomorrow will be crunch time to fill the queue in prep for that.#but i hope y'all are having a good day today !!#drink some water ! don't forget to eat & take your meds ! i'm doing the same !!#my power just went out again i'm gonna be sick —

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jils-things · 1 month ago

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me when i stop caring too hard

#-about something that's still bothered me for i think 3 months #i don't care. i want to write this somewhere #and after connecting a few dots with a few situations - im glad this is where it is now #in fact. this just made me realize a few things that i didn't notice back then #and I'm glad that i don't have to deal with it so much anymore #they were so willing to let go of me anyway. its pointless trying to go back and care again when im certain its going to happen again #the only thing im worried with is how it'll affect others #and im sure it will. to some capacity.#things like these are really like an injection #it will sting so hard when it happens. especially for the first time (me). but when you look back on it you realize it's not that bad-#-and it's probably actually for the better #now when i try to recall the past events. i don't feel like crying or getting emotional. i feel neutral - maybe a little puzzled #but nothing of strong emotions #maybe I will think about it from time to time but #consider it like a reflection #does it mean i moved on? maybe not. because it just comes to me whether unprompted or not #anyway. im going home #i guess the only thing that did to me now in the present is just. made me more wary of what i come across #actually. ill never forget what they described me. the absolute gall to say that is really appalling #i am sorry if this will upset someone. but i want to say what i want to say

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yuriyuruandyuraart · 1 year ago

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ueueueu how are ya today!! surviving well, buddy!! <:D

waghgh thank you guys for asking! i'm...a bit tired today xD

not just physically but i know that my weeks will only get busier and busier and i'm just really not looking forward to prioritizing boring time consuming and stressful tasks over reading and drawing silly characters/ checking social media like. it's such a draining routine :')

it's just the beginning tho so i'm still gonna try to be active while i can! but i know i won't be able to keep up the pace once exams start piling up at my doorstep sadly so that's what's been weighting on me lately :'D </3

#ask #nothing bad so far but that's what i'm dreading yknow? just waiting for the deadlines to start becoming increasingly short and overwhelming #hate hate hate whenever i have to actively work against every instincts that beg me to start doodling away and do assignments instead #aughgh it PAINS me to have so many kross headcanons and not be able to illustrate even ONE #as long as you guys don't mind me posting more doodles instead of polished art i can probably squeeze in a few sketches once a month but wa #i don't wanna promise anything >:'D rambling aside thank you two so much for passing by!!!!#muah muah have an amazing day and don't forget you're super duper awesome<33333

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jankwritten · 2 years ago

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hey. hey.

what if i posted the first chapter of hockey au today

#jasico #pjo #hoo #omgcp #hockey au #spotlight #i'm not super happy with it but i think that's because i've reread it 70 times #so.....the potential to release it but still edit it is very ideal to me #like i can still tinker with it while alos having people read it and give feedback yknow #there probably won't be any more MAJOR changes. at least not to the first few chapters #it'll also be one of those fics that gets the tags updated with every update because I Forget What Happens sometimes #but also like. massive spoilers if i tag some stuff that happens in the second half of the story lmao #hrngh.

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vargaslovinghours · 1 year ago

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