#ppl responded like oh. interesting. i mean if you think you want that then you can

[unproduciblesmackdown]

another day another "applying the concept 'disposability' to 'someone withdraws from a personal relationship, & that wasn't signed off on by the other'" kill me

[osaemu]

GOJO SATORU: GUILTY CONSCIENCE

✩ ‧ ˚. serial killer!au: ever since that first night, you can't get him off your mind—and even though you handed him over to law enforcement, it looks like he still wants you too. PART 1 | NSFW

contents: fem!reader. porn with plot, dubcon, semi-public sex (in a bathroom), oral (m. receiving), fingering (f. receiving), pet names (detective, princess, smart girl, pretty girl, etc.), gojo cums in your mouth. non-sexual threatening. non-sexual usage of knives/guns. more plot than porn. this is not good for you btw !!! 4K words.

author's note: pls appreciate your smut writers bc this shit is hard !!!! the sk!series might be over after this one bc i'm not feeling it anymore, but nothing's set in stone yet. posting this for the ppl who wanted a part two, but personally i would've just left it as a standalone.. oh well, i didn't want 4K words to go to waste, so enjoy 🤍

“satoru gojo, what are we going to do with you?” your subordinate asks, resting his hands on the table dividing the dim interrogation room in two. you and your coworker sit on one side, facing the serial killer on the other side—who also happens to be the man you fucked in an alley two weeks ago.

ever since that first encounter, you haven’t been able to get his face out of your mind. at work, his ice blue eyes haunted your every move. at home, he was all you could picture as your mind strayed back to your time beneath him. and now, as you and your boss interrogate him, all you can think about is how good satoru’s hands felt roaming over your skin when you cornered him—or, more accurately, when he cornered you.

“i dunno,” satoru replies, leaning back in his chair and resting his hands behind his head. he grins shamelessly, looking you up and down with interest. “so, pretty girl, how’ve you been since we last met?”

you slip your hands into your pockets to stop yourself from doing something you’ll regret and ignore the curious look your coworker gives you. “this meeting isn’t about me. this is about the people you killed and the punishment you’re about to get,” you answer through gritted teeth.

satoru laughs, eyes locking with yours and seeing right through you. “that’s funny. so, who’s this shrimpy guy next to you? your boyfriend?” he jeers, grinning unnervingly at your coworker. you shoot your subordinate an apologetic look, which he responds to with a nod.

“i’m her boss, actually,” he clarifies, running a hand through his blonde hair and narrowing his eyes. “kento nanami. and i’ve been referred to as a lot of things, but shrimpy is a first.” satoru makes a face and laughs, as if he’s amused by the whole scene. 

“really? i’m surprised,” satoru replies easily. “i mean, whatever. i’ve seen better looking officers… like the one next to you.” he looks back at you, a careless smile still dancing on his lips. kento frowns and looks back and forth from you to satoru, and you force yourself to maintain a poker face in order to detract any suspicion.

“do you two know each other?” kento asks, crossing his arms. satoru starts laughing again, to which you roll your eyes. even if satoru were to tell kento what you hadn’t—that you two had fucked when you were supposed to be arresting him—you doubted that kento would believe him. after all, what’s the word of an obnoxious criminal compared to yours?

you shake your head and ignore satoru. “i’m the one who’s been leading the investigation on him for the past couple months,” you answer. kento meets your eyes and cocks an eyebrow, so you continue, “we met two weeks ago. i cornered him, but he escaped—”

“she let me,” satoru interjects, clearly enjoying the death glare you shoot at him a second later.

“you held a gun to my forehead,” you remind him pointedly, tapping the spot on your head where you vividly remember the cold metal resting against. 

“yeah, but i kissed it aft—”

“we’re getting off-topic,” kento interrupts, shooting you a warning glance. “detective, i’ll handle the interrogation from here.”

you hesitate, not liking how smug satoru’s expression is—but, seeing as you don’t have a choice, you dip your head in assent and exit the room. 

now that satoru’s been caught and is now in the grasp of the law, you don’t really have anything to do for the rest of the day. he was your case, and now, it looks like it’s closed, especially if your boss is the one interrogating him.

kento nanami has a reputation among law enforcement—he’s known as the stoic, serious man with a perfect record. there hasn’t been a single criminal he’s interrogated that hasn’t cracked, although the knot in your stomach tells you that this might be the first.

a sharp knock sounds on your office door, summoning you back from your train of thought. “it’s open,” you call, holding a piping hot coffee with both hands. kento opens the door and steps inside, eyebrows unusually tensed. his hands are balled into fists, too, in stark contrast to his characteristically calm demeanor. 

“something wrong?” you ask tentatively, studying your boss’s troubled eyes.

kento takes a seat in the leather chair in the corner of your office and rests his elbow on the armrest, rubbing his temples. “detective, be honest with me. what happened the night you were supposed to arrest satoru gojo?”

for the first time since satoru pinned you to the wall of a darkened alley, your heart drops. kento’s knowing eyes watch your every move, from the subtle twitch in your eye to the way your fingers tense around the cup of coffee. “what do you mean?” you ask carefully, surprised at how steady your own voice is.

“detective, don’t play games with me,” kento asserts calmly, hand casually drifting towards the side of his waist. you know him well enough to know what he’s reaching for—the same instrument that another man pressed against your forehead just two weeks ago.

despite your mind being clouded with fear and uncertainty, you manage to rationalize your way through the situation. what proof could your boss possibly have besides the word of a criminal? 

it’s your word against his—and you both know whose word kento’ll believe.

“that night, he threatened to kill me,” you start, repeating the story you told the authorities when they came ten minutes too late to catch satoru. “and he must’ve drugged me or knocked me unconscious because next thing i knew, he was gone.” your confidence grows with every word, and you start nodding as if you believe your own lies.

kento’s eyes narrow, and you force yourself to hold your poker face as he scrutinizes you and your words. three long, painful seconds of silence pass before his hand moves away from the holster strapped to his waist, and you internally sigh in relief. he stands without a word and makes to exit the room, but before he does, you risk it all. “why do you ask, sir?”

your boss pauses and turns back to you, eyebrows lifting in mild interest. he doesn’t answer immediately, and you tentatively ask, “...what did he tell you?”

kento exhales a soft huff of air, a look of dread in his brown eyes. “detective, for your own peace of mind, i assure you that you don’t want to know.”

well, fuck.

“i trust your judgement, then,” you reply, feeling your poker face start to slip away. you lift your now-cold cup of coffee to your lips and take a sip, attempting to hide the grimace that threatens to make an appearance. “have a good night, boss.”

“you too, detective. stay safe.”

“i’ll do my best.”

kento nods and heads out, and through your open window you watch him tell another one of your coworkers about how he’s planning on heading out early to make bread for his family, a gentle smile on his lips. eventually, he waves bye and exits the building.

you finish off your coffee and stand up, fishing out your key card from your pocket. you figure that you should head to the bathroom before you go home, just in case. a couple of your coworkers congratulate you when you come out of your office, praising you on the capture of your suspect. you take their compliments with a smile, ultimately wishing them a good night and escaping to the bathroom.

the door clicks shut behind you, and the comfortable quiet eases you at once. but before you can even appreciate the silence of the confined room, a sultry, familiar voice interrupts your thoughts. “aw, you weren’t gonna say bye before you left?”

you turn and your mouth drops open—standing before you, in the flesh, is the criminal you swore you last saw handcuffed to a chair.

“what the fu—”

satoru reaches out and grabs your wrist before you can scurry away or grab your phone. he pulls you into his chest, and you can feel his heartbeat against your back—at least, that’s what you notice before he clamps his hand over your mouth to stifle your yells.

“shut it,” satoru hisses, breath hot against the side of your face. he turns you towards the mirror of the bathroom so you can see how he’s holding you—one hand over your mouth, and one wrapped around your waist. “don’t try anything clever, sweetheart. i wouldn’t wanna have to hurt that pretty face of yours.”

you turn your head and glare at him furiously, cussing like a sailor against his hand. you eventually try to bite it, but your meager attack is essentially useless against his iron grip. satoru raises his eyebrows sternly and hushes you again, ice-blue eyes boring into your own. 

“i’ll answer your questions, honey, but be careful,” he pauses and nods at his pocket, where the handle of what appears to be a knife—how the fuck did he get his hands on a knife?—pokes out of the cloth. “okay, i’m gonna take my hand off your mouth now,” he murmurs, purposefully lowering his voice.

true to his word, satoru removes his hand from your mouth. you take a long breath and hesitate—again, there’s not much you can do in this situation but play along. if he’s telling the truth, you can ask questions and he can answer them, so you try your hand at getting some information and biding time. someone would have to walk in the bathroom eventually, right?

“by the way,” satoru starts, a grin curving the corners of his lips upward. “nobody’s gonna come save you, princess. the door’s locked from the inside.” he also removes his hand from your waist, letting you take a step back.

“how?” you ask suspiciously, unsure if he’s telling the truth or not.

satoru laughs—his hair falls into his eyes, and immediately shakes it away with a huff of breath. “i’m good with my hands. but you already know that, don’t ya?”

you back away towards the other side of the bathroom, where sinks line the quartz countertop. “why aren’t you still in the interrogation room?”

“you think you’re the only girl i can convince to let me go?” satoru tuts, clicking his tongue disapprovingly. he reaches into his pocket—not the one with the knife—and extracts a badge of some sort. satoru flicks it at you, and you catch it in midair. to your surprise, it’s the badge of one of your superiors who was supposed to be keeping an eye on satoru. the coy smile on satoru’s face confirms what you’re thinking, and his nod seals it the next second. 

“okay,” you say carefully, drawing out the word for a couple seconds. “how long have you been waiting here?”

“long enough,” satoru answers vaguely, not bothering to elaborate.

“thanks a lot,” you deadpan.

“nice to see that you’re still feisty—”

“and what the hell did you tell my boss?” you interrupt, suddenly remembering the dread-filled way kento had looked at you. the way your voice rises is unexpected enough to force satoru to involuntarily take a step back. it’s not much, but the step you take forward a second later to assert your position brings you a small feeling of satisfaction. after all, he’s only human—and all humans get surprised by loud noises.

satoru holds up his hands in mock surrender and eyes you skeptically. “you’re really worried about your boss’s approval, aren’t you?” he asks dryly, white hair falling into his eyes again. “heh, desperate much?”

you roll your eyes and curl your hands into fists—unfortunately, your action only seems to amuse satoru, but you ignore the little “aw” he coos and continue glaring at him. “answer the fucking question, satoru.”

“language,” he snorts. a second later, satoru cocks his head and thinks for a moment, and when his eyes land on you again he asks, “so, you’re still callin’ me satoru? cute.”

your face involuntarily heats up, and even though you’re sure satoru can tell, you pretend not to notice—again. “answer the question or i’ll scream.”

“you wouldn’t dare.”

“wouldn’t i?”

you don’t get the chance to fufill your threat, because satoru sees that you’re serious a second too early—everything’s a blur as he grabs your wrists and bunches them into one hand, firmly securing your hands behind your back. his chest rests on top of your back as he folds you over the bathroom counter, and his reflection leers at you from the mirror. “nice try, baby. but remember, you’re dealin’ with a world-class serial killer.”

“world-class? how humble of you,” you snap irritably, craning your neck to glare at satoru out of the corner of your eye. “you asshole, get off me or i’ll—”

satoru interrupts you by prodding at your lips with two of his fingers, forcing your mouth open and slipping them inside. you instantly attempt to bite him, but his fingers are so long that they trigger your gag reflex instead. “missed me, detective?” satoru coos, curling his fingers downwards and pressing on your tongue. a little whine involuntarily slips out of your lips, and satoru takes that as a yes. “yeah, i can tell,” he continues, studying your heated face in the reflection of the mirror. “i bet you couldn’t stop thinkin’ about me since that night, yeah?”

he doesn’t bother waiting for a response before he extracts his fingers and leaves you gasping for breath. you watch as satoru lifts his now-soaked fingers to his lips and runs his tongue over them, ice-blue eyes boring into your own. it’s disgusting, filthy even, but that doesn’t stop your thighs from clenching together in a futile attempt to hide your arousal from him.

“y’know, i think you’re wearing too many clothes,” satoru sighs, resting his chin on top of your head and smiling coyly. “wanna fix that for me?”

“do i have a choice?”

“no.” satoru pushes himself off of you and gives you enough space to start removing your clothes without his smothering presence. the idea of running away or screaming crosses your mind, but the serial killer’s smile makes you certain that you’d regret it—and that’s even disregarding the knife that’s still shining at you from his pocket. 

seeing as you don’t really have any other option, you slowly shrug off your coat and let it slide down your body and onto the floor. your collared shirt comes off next, followed by your pants, until there’s hardly anything shielding you from satoru’s hungry eyes. the feeling stirring in the pit of your stomach is hard to describe—it’s something like a mix between longing and fear, two emotions you hadn’t felt since that night.

and maybe, even though every instinct you have insists that this is the last thing you should be finding pleasure in, you want to feel that way again.

“you really coulda been anything in the world with that body,” satoru sighs, leaning back against a wall and taking his sweet time looking you up and down. his eyes narrow slyly as he watches you shrink away from him instinctually, and the next thing you know, he’s on you again, hands tracing over your skin and lips unbearably close to yours. “although, i guess it’s a good thing you’re a detective, ‘cause i wouldn’t have met you if you weren’t.”

you shouldn’t be agreeing with him, and as he lifts you up onto the counter, you also know that you shouldn’t be letting him do this. it goes against everything you swore to protect when you joined law enforcement, and if this ever got out—no, when it got out, you’d be the pariah of the city.

but even after thinking it through, one, two, maybe even three times, you can’t find it in your heart to care about much else than the hands pushing apart your thighs and slipping inside your shamelessly wet cunt.

“heh, how long has it been since we last did this?” satoru coos, eyes glazing over with a mixture of lust and adoration. his face is redder than you’ve ever seen it—the blush spreads all the way up to the tips of his ears, and it’s even more prominent underneath the overhead lights as he eyes you. “two weeks, right? feels like it’s been twenty.”

“do you ever shut up?” you mutter sourly, averting your eyes from satoru’s. he responds by curling up the two fingers he has inside your cunt, a mean little smile on his lips. 

“careful with that mouth of yours,” satoru warns, pushing his fingers in farther until he’s practically knuckle-deep inside of you. his thumb rests firmly against your clit, toying with the sensitive skin. “it’ll get you in trouble one day, pretty girl…” satoru withdraws his fingers in one swift motion with a soft, wet pop. he lifts his hand to his lips and licks off your slick, swiping his tongue over his fingers a couple times with a smile. “y’know what? i’ll let you go if you can do one thing for me, ‘kay?”

he waits for your response, raising an eyebrow patiently for you to catch your breath. it almost feels like deja vu, or some cheesy movie from the 90’s: the pretty little detective getting fucked by the big bad serial killer, and you know how these films always ended—not pretty.

“what?” you ask halfheartedly, expecting him to ask you to do something like erase him from the police records or sabotage the investigation. satoru cups your face with both hands, leaning in close enough for his lips to brush against yours, and his smile is almost mocking when he replies.

“suck my dick.”

part of you wants to ask “that’s it?”, but the glimmer in satoru’s knowing eyes makes you certain that he won’t make this easy for you. 

“what if i say no?” you ask tentatively. it’s a stupid question—now you’re just playing russian roulette with his rationality, and either way, you already know your decision.

the past two weeks have been torture. every waking moment of yours was spent thinking about the man you fucked, and every time you thought of his carefree smile and feather-light touch, you just felt guilty for wanting more. after all, when you first became a detective, you swore to prioritize your job and not make any personal relationships with your subjects. and yet, here you were, almost too eager to get on your knees for the serial killer who you swore to incapacitate. 

satoru shrugs nonchalantly in response to your question and not-so-subtly shoots a furtive glance at his pocket, where the handle of his knife still pokes out. “you’re a smart girl. i think you can guess, yeah?”

and that’s how you ended up with your lips wrapped around satoru’s dick for the seventh time (if you include every fantasy you’ve had about giving him head). it’s almost funny how he switches up the second you run your tongue over his blushing pink tip—his face goes red, all the way up to his ears, and the little breathy moans that slip out of his lips would be adorable in any other context but this.

“f-fuck, wasn’t expecting you to be this good,” he manages to mutter through gritted teeth, eyes fluttering open and shut. “where’d you learn to suck dick like this, heh—”

it’s been.. a while since satoru first helped you get on your knees in front of him and unzipped his pants, and even though it could’ve just been a couple minutes, it feels like this is all you’ve ever known. satoru’s ice blue eyes have barely moved from you since you started, and it looks like it’ll stay like that until you finish—or, more accurately, until he finishes.

satoru’s foot bounces on the floor as you lick a long stripe from the tip of his dick to the top of it, and the way his nails dig into his palm makes you absolutely certain that he’s close to cumming down your throat. “shit, don’t— don’t stop,” he chokes out, threading his fingers through your hair and involuntarily pushing down your head. “fuck—”

when satoru finally cums, it’s pitifully obvious—actually, it’s almost embarrassing. last time, you were the one in shambles when he was done with you, but now, it looks like it’s the other way around. his eyes flicker as they almost roll back from the sheer pleasure of you sucking him dry, and when satoru’s cum shoots out of his painfully hard dick, it’s a hot mess that leaks out of your mouth and down your chin. 

“y-yeah, good girl,” he murmurs shakily, reaching down and swiping his thumb over your cum-soaked, swollen lips. you lick off the thick, viscous liquid from his fingers instinctually, a dazed little smile on your face as you watch satoru tilt his head back towards the ceiling.

it’s interesting, seeing the city’s infamous serial killer like this. he’s leaning back against the white tile of the bathroom walls, chest heaving from his orgasm, and in that moment, you realize that his attention is on everything else but you. 

so, naturally, you stab him in the back.

not literally—that’d be a pain for your office’s custodian to clean up, but you extract the knife from satoru’s discarded pants and, before he can register the sharp object in your shaky hand, you press it to his blush-red throat. 

satoru’s hazy eyes widen in disbelief as he realizes what’s going on before they narrow in what looks almost like a mix between anger and shock. it’s stupid, foolish, and almost naive, but somewhere in your chest, it feels like a dagger pokes at your softened heart when you categorize the look in his eyes as betrayal. which is, by all accounts, entirely unreasonable—did he seriously think you wouldn’t take advantage of him like this?

at the end of the day, no matter how good the dick was, you weren’t about to sacrifice your well-paying job for a man on the run from the law.

“what the fuck?” satoru snaps, hand twitching in a movement to throw you off of him, but thankfully, the sudden shift in atmosphere heightened your instincts to a point where nothing could possibly catch you off-guard. you dig in the knife a millimeter deeper into his throat, avoiding eye contact with the man you just made cum with your mouth. “are you—”

“yeah, i am,” you assert, biding time. as much as you’d like to pretend that you’re completely in control of the situation, there’s only so long that you can hold up this stalemate. satoru’s stronger than you physically, and the second he figures out a way to handle the knife pressed to his neck, he’d get his revenge.

satoru comes to this conclusion about as fast as you did, and his lips curve upwards in a jeering smile. the look in his eyes is borderline insane when he snarls, “nobody’s gonna rescue you from me, princess. just you wait—”

and, with perfect comedic timing, the bathroom door opens, and one of your female co-workers steps in. you’ve never talked to her much, but thankfully, her instincts are even faster than yours.

what happens next goes by in a haze. your co-worker holds a gun to the side satoru’s head, and calls for backup. then, a handful of sleepy-eyed police officers haul away a cursing and fighting satoru to who-knows-where.

but just before he’s out of sight, satoru shoots you an unsettlingly calm look. and as if that wasn’t concerning enough, the last words he mouths to you are “this isn’t over.”

[catboybiologist]

Hi! I’m CatboyBiologist.

Formerly a femboy, now a trans woman just starting HRT, and a PhD student in molecular biology. I started using this online persona as a fun, shitposty way to explore gender a few years ago. I post selfies (generally sfw, but somewhat sexy, so minors and ppl who don’t like that have been warned), rambles about science, tutorials and advice from the stuff I’ve learned by being a femboy in the past, nature pictures, stuff about the ocean, my adorable grumpy little tortoise, and unsolicited opinions on random nerdy topics. Any pronouns are fine. I don’t plan to socially transition for a while, and still present as a man most of the time, so I’m used to whatever you wanna use for me (for now, I’ll update this if that changes). Please send me pictures of your pets or other cute animals in your life!

As a scientist, I’m also documenting my transition! This google sheet will be updated at least monthly. I also have additional metrics I’m keeping to myself, and pictures that go with this, but I’m not sharing them publicly yet. Keep in mind that this is just one person’s experience with HRT, and may not represent universal trends!

Adding a little something here, bc I think it was an interesting bit a writing: if you want to see me respond to a transphobe about what "biologically female" means, here's a thing I wrote about it. CW for transphobia and discussion, obviously.

Also, if any of my measurements look weird, its entirely possible I fucked up. Let me know if anything looks off!

Here’s some of my favorite pre-HRT pictures:

If you want to see more of my pre-HRT selfies, browse the “femboy” tag on my blog!

And as of this writing, I’m only 2 days after the start of HRT, so here’s a picture with my tortoise that’s technically post-HRT (but with 0 time for actual changes):

If you want to see my future post-HRT selfies, browse the “trans selfie” tag on my blog!

Also here's another really cute picture and fanart of my tortoise by @whalesharkcat:

I have affectionately given my tortoise the title of The Grumpus.

I also wrote a couple of tutorials and general vibes about being a femboy before I started HRT:

Sometimes I make shitposts of myself, I don’t take myself too seriously:

This includes the way I came out on tumblr:

And here’s an overly serious, long ramble about trans thoughts and things that I wrote shortly afterwards:

Later addition: Someone asked how I take selfies, so I wrote a quick and dirty guide with some tips on how I do so in response to their ask:

Oh yeah and apparently I was a 196 microcelebrity? I never to thought I was popular enough for that but apparently some people do 🤷‍♀️. So uh, hi 196 tags, I'm abusing you for my pinned post LOL

As for terminology, I personally do think of myself as a “man who is becoming a woman” as opposed to having always been a woman. If that doesn’t resonate with your experience, I totally get that! But that’s why I freely call pre-HRT me a femboy, while still calling post-HRT me a trans woman. I’m also keeping the blog name as CatboyBiologist for the forseeable future, because at this point, Catboy just seems like a gender neutral term to me.

I’m also trying to put together a script for a podcast regarding how studying biology influenced my perspective on sex and gender- lmk if there’s any interest in that! It’s probably gonna be way too long and indulgent but oh well.

So uh. Yeah. I don’t end these types of things well. Byeeeeee

[amphitriteswife]

Jay Jo dating hc’s

🚲 Just like with Shelly, Jay will seem uninterested and unimpressed at first. Often being either blunt or not responding. He would rather stay in his studies or ride his bike.

🚲 Unlike vinny, he is not a romantic. He would be straight and matter of factly. He doesn’t see a point in beating around the bush. If he likes you he will say it straight up, but not without contemplating and badly slept nights as well as a lot of advice from Dom and Minu. Maybe even Vinny to keep him down to earth.

🚲 If you are dating Jay you need a lot of patience. His parents are strict and would not approve of a relationship, especially his mother who thinks it will be a distraction and that Jay should focus on studies instead. This would cause things to be like a mood swing.

🚲 If Jay would once again have a fight with his mom or his mom telling him to not come back home for the night he would probably go to your place. He wouldn’t want to talk about it. He’d rather spent his doing something else than talk about his problems.

🚲 ‘babe i fell down the stairs today. It was really funny.’ ‘How’s that funny.’ ‘My friend asked me why i started lying down. Some ppl saw me fall.’ ‘Oh.’ ‘Babe you’re being dry again. Dryer than the desert. You need water.’ ‘Don’t pour water on me again please.’

🚲 he’s more of a listener. So if you yap a lot he wouldn’t mind. He listens and remembers very well. He is pretty dry with responses to he’ll let you do most of the talking, but if you give him a chance to also talk about his things he’ll get a little but flustered because he’ll feel like he’ll be put on the spot

🚲 He would let you ride his bike if you can ride one, if you can’t he’ll teach you. He’s a very stoic teacher, but he’ll make sure you don’t fall, he would hate to see you get hurt. He will let you ride his bike if you asks very nicely.

🚲 Sometimes he’ll cycle you home if he doesn’t have any tournaments or races. You can hop on behind and if you have school bag he’ll carry it for you. If you’re scared to go on the bike he doesn’t mind walking you home either. He’ll just walk with the bike in his hands.

🚲 He would probably like study dates a lot, it means he can spend time with you and do his studies. Maybe the two of you can help each other in different subjects and getting to know each other’s interests along with it.

🚲 ‘what would you do if you caught me eating bugs?’ ‘Why would you eat bugs?’ ‘I don’t know, but if i did. Would you break up with me?’ ‘Probably. I will not be with a bug muncher.’

🚲 If he’s staying over at your place, expect that he assumes its just a sleep over. It’s quite literally too. He’ll be in bed on time and sleeping. Even if he wants to be ‘rebellious’ it’s in his mind and soul that he sleeps on time and gets enough rest.

🚲 If he reads any good books he’ll recommend them to you so that he has someone to discuss the book with, especially if he has to read the book for school. That way he can prepare for the test and bond with you.

🚲 He would want you to get along with his friends. Minu and Dom aren’t super difficult to get along with and would probably tease Jay for having a girlfriend since he was so ‘uninterested’ in girls. Vinny wouldn’t really care and Yuna and Mia would get along with you very well , perhaps even make you their trio

🚲 if you’re a foreigner he’ll guide you trough some basic Korean things like the food, clothes, manners, language. Anything you want. In return he would like to know about your home country and culture as well. He likes the fact that the two of you are so different yet can like each for that same reason at the same time

🚲 Jay actually doesn’t talk a lot in general, so it also means he doesn’t talk much about himself. This means that most of the things he likes or dislikes can be noticed by his expression or body language. If you for example pick up that he’s uncomfortable and help him in the situation it will make him smile a bit out of graduate for you. He isn’t used to others picking up on his demeanor, especially since he’s considered a cold person

🚲 ‘jay! Are you available today?’ ‘Only until 7. Then i have to be home and study.’ ‘Didn’t you leave your mom’s house again?’ ‘Yes.’ ‘Where will you stay.’ ‘With you.’ ‘Oh? Well we can invite Dom and Minu too! Maybe even Vinny. Do you think he’ll come?’ ‘If you have food then probably yes.’

That’s all yall (I’m still not finished reading)

[danikamariewrites]

Hello helloooo! Got a request for you if it piques your interest! Thinking of some kind of fic or HCs with Cassian x reader where reader is the type who cries when they’re talked to sternly or yelled at and generally when they’re told “no”. Like they try their hardest to hold back tears but they can’t stop the fattest tear drops from falling and whenever Cassian sees them he just melts and feels terrible. It can be totally unserious where Cassian is like “baby we have ice cream at home why do you need to get some from this store right now?” or you could go the serious route with Cassian getting frustrated and yelling. 🥹

When he says no headcanon

Cassian x reader

Warnings: none

You’ve always been in tune with your emotions

You cry a lot! And there’s nothing wrong with that

Happy tears when something good happens for one of your friends or your book has a happy ending

Sad tears when you get bad news or Cassian is upset because you just want him to be ok

The tears you always try to hold back are when Cassian tells you no or uses his general voice

It can be something so unserious too

“Cass can we stop and get snacks?” “Can we have junk food all day?” “Can we have dessert then dinner?” “Do we have to go, or can we skip the event?” “Can you just stay home with me all day?”

Cassian hates saying no to you, he truly gets no joy from it

If anything it breaks his heart. You’re his mate, you should have whatever your heart desires

His many responses include, “no, baby not right now.” “Not today baby, I’m sorry.” “No baby.”

The saddest frown pulls at your lip, your lip wobbles even though you try to stop it, and silver lines your eyes as you sadly respond, “oh…ok Cass.”

You can’t help that your tears fall, you have to let your emotions out because you hate bottling things up

Before you can start sobbing Cassian holds your face wiping the tears away

“Ohh sweet pea don’t cry. We can do whatever you want in a little bit, yeah.” You nod and give him a big hug to let him know you’re ok

When he’s serious and uses his general voice Cassian is very firm

It kind of scares you (in other situations it turns you on tho)

He doesn’t use a nickname either Cass uses your actual name

“No y/n. I said no, we will talk about it later.”

You immediately start sobbing and don’t give him the chance to comfort you

You run off to your bedroom and shut the door in his face

Cass takes some time to cool off and give you your space before he comes to apologize for being too mean

When he does come to apologize he has your favorite treat as a peace offering

He snuggles you in bed, rubbing up and down your spine in comforting strokes while he apologizes

“I didn’t mean to snap at you sweet pea. I shouldn’t have done that, I’m so sorry. Can you forgive me?”

You can never stay mad at him long (that makes you even more upset, hating staying mad at ppl)

On days like that Cassian drops everything to stay with you to make sure you’re ok

[transgenderpolls]

‘Trans younger’ ‘transitioned more recently’ are these really the conversations we’re having now?what do those terms mean exactly? Transitioned more recently. You mean socially transitioned? Medically transition? Surgically transitioned? Or just realised they were trans? Accepted they were trans but didn’t/couldn’t come out? Because I thought we were against judging people because they are trans in ‘the wrong way’?? Are we genuinely trying to play the ‘who’s more trans’ game or something? Jesus Christ. There’s few enough of us already can we just date the people who we find attractive and share interests with like everyone else in the world?

on this blog, unless otherwise specified, "transitioned" generally refers to the mental transition of realizing you're trans and changing your identity. that particular poll does also literally include options about specifying that other aspects of someone's experience as their gender are what would matter irt being in a relationship with them. and like all my polls, it has the 'it's complicated/other' option.

i'm honestly not sure how you saw the objective descriptor "transitioned more recently" and took away from it that anyone was being judged as "less trans." or that anyone was even being judged for the option that they picked. it's a poll, dude. it's a question about personal comfort. it's presenting options and trying to see how most people feel about it. what about that post implies judgment? or that anyone believes that you can't "date the people you find attractive"? when someone in real life asks you "do you have issues with any food textures" do you respond "oh my GOD can i not just eat whatever foods i want??"

and hey, for that matter, i chose the option "yes, i would be uncomfortable" on that poll. which, albeit one of the least commonly picked options, i think is a completely rational personal boundary, and not just an arbitrary "judgment." most people like to date people who they can relate to and who have similar amounts of life experience to them, don't they? i would have very little in common with a guy who's spent a significantly less amount of time knowing that he was a man and having lived as a man. that would feel similar, to me, to dating someone much younger in general.

if that bothers you, it literally doesn't matter because we'll never meet and because the majority answer is people having absolutely no issue with dating ppl who transitioned more recently. so, like literally who gives a shit.

[andromeddog]

Hi! Thank you for responding to my previous ask about helmets during wwi. I was also just wondering if u have any tips for drawing hair? this is for working on art in general and not a project. i have tried to use references and sketches a bunch, have practiced a ton, but it is still difficult. i was just wondering if u have any tips for drawing hair, esp male hair? thank you!!

oh wow anon hi again, coming in hot w an interesting question bc i genuinely don’t think ive ever consciously considered or examined the way to draw hair/the way i draw hair…. (apologies in advance this got really long)

ig first of all when u mention “male hair” u mean short hair? given the men i draw r p much all historical military dudes they tend to have short short hair so im going to assume u mean that (bc i know men w very luscious locks.) drawing it is something that took me a while to get used to…… when i was into golden kamuy my fave had a buzzcut and i was struggling to find someway to showcase that without it looking like a helmet (i started to figure it out towards the end) i think the big balance there is trying to manage level of detail. w some styles u rly dont need much (buzzcut is mostly about hairline and shape of the head, i break up the smooth silhouette by adding a few lines to suggest that it’s fuzzy or spikey) and others require way more attention (wavy/curly hair comes in a variety of shapes so figuring out the specific curl pattern ur going for is crucial, fine line between showing that accurately and just making a bunch of visual noise)

(also also this is just a fact of the media im into and to b completely honest w myself and you - we’re talking mostly white dudes here in this specific post, this is not a catch all for any hair type but esp more curly/coiled hair textures. i would recommend seeking out artists of color who have more experience w that bc i do b drawing a lot of white guys! and they are not the only type of guy!)

genuinely hair can feel like more of an obstacle for me, slowing down the process for what i would rather be drawing (uniforms) so im always stoked when i can just draw a helmet (sometimes, as previously established helmets r also my mortal enemy). often times ill start with the face but skip everything above the forehead until the very end of the line art, which leaves behind a very silly looking half decapitated soldier (there’s no tip here, just a weird quirk in how i go through a piece lolll) hair on its own is usually delicate and ive never once in my life been able to render something delicately, so thank god for gross war dudes who’s hair is messy enough for my style to finally make sense

IN GENERAL…..watch out when doing the lines, you don’t need to include EVERY single hair or EVERY single lock, blank space can imply they’re there and trying to capture every single centimeter of hair can be too much in the finished product. this is something i suffer from and have talked a bit about BUT it especially rears its head (lol) when drawing hair. i just get too lost in details and then i zoom out and have an insanely dense area of detail right on top of the head that distracts from everything else below it (aka basically all the stuff i WANT to showcase). the eye will automatically b drawn to that spot and no matter how nice the rest of the drawing is ppl will b more focused on whatever the fuck i did w the hair… being frivolous w lines in general can look good when zoomed in but when zoomed out can just make the whole piece…… busy

idk if i have “tips��� so much as kind of a reference for how i would go about drawing hair…. here r some examples of hair i’ve drawn that i think dont suck complete ass with a wee bit of analysis. u can tell my absolute fav thing to do is put a lot of detail right where the hair meets the forehead- idk why i just think it makes that intersection more visually appealing.

when im beginning to draw hair i start w the head shape and where approximately the hairline is. then i kind of block off the general shape of the hair on top of that- getting an accurate idea of the boundaries and being able to fill in the details within that space. i try to identify the big “chunks” of hair, the major shapes/flow within the entire shape itself. longer/thicker lines segment those, and then i can fill in that space w shorter/lighter lines to show more detail (if im using a brush w line weight, if im doing mono line i feel my style skews more simple to make up for the lack of line weight)

the next step is a slightly more cleaned up version, getting a better idea of the silhouette and general hair direction. then its lines! and i spend 3 million years destroying my wrist and trying to make sense of earlier sketches…. esp w curly hair oh my god. truthfully i’m still trying to find a balance between “too much” and “not enough” when it comes to curls. again, i have a tendency to go overboard with detail!

also this is a personal plea, but if that hairline is receding, PLEASE for the love of god make sure to include that hairline receding. the hairline is one of those little things that can really help capture likeness; getting it wrong will result in a certain “off-ness” that can make u confused or frustrated as to why this guy doesn’t look quite right. u can also get one of those weird style conflicts where ppl who usually draw younger “””attractive””” men try to draw an older one and it’s very clear they r unwilling to do anything to make the older man look another other than like, 25. (or, from their perspective, unattractive) (i could get up on my soapbox about ppl’s unwillingness to even consider drawing features that aren’t like iphone face hot but that’s my hot take and no one asked) one thing i personally strive for in my work is an accurate depiction, or as close as i can manage w my skills being where they are, so i push that hairline back and i do it will all the love in my heart

ALL OF THIS TO SAY…… idk. this is just my general process, what i’ve been doing and what works for me. maybe it doesn’t make sense or won’t work for you. i will b the first to admit hair is not my strongest skill! i will also b the first to admit my work in general is far from perfect, i have a lot to learn in p much any and all conceivable ways!! but i hope this small novel helped even a little???? anyway have a great day anon mwah mwah mwah 💕✨🦆

[celestie0]

ok. wow. i just spent all day throughout my free time binging your kickoff fic, and the way you truly brought the story and characters to life AMAZES ME. i'm not going to lie, I've found some great fics in the past before, but within 3 chapters I noticed they use chatgpt with how the description/dialogue/and pointless paragraphs are written. it was SUPER refreshing to notice ZERO AI in your story, and it truly kept me engaged, and I loved reading your writing and how your brain picked through the plot.

in all honesty, i haven't read many gojo x reader fics in YEARS. like, probably since early 2023. I am so glad I gave your amazing fic a chance because this story is one of the stories I will always think of and won't leave my mind, truly. the way you have put in the character conflict IS GENIUS. most x reader authors want to throw 2 characters in a relationship and make it all happy-go-lucky but what is a relationship, especially a STORY without conflict---especially between characters that have feelings for each other. it is not interesting if there are no problems to work through!!!!!!!!!!!!, which, you captured perfectly.

ANOTHER thing to note is, it is oddly hard for me to get engaged enough in a longer story to feel giddy. THE AMOUNT OF TIMES I CAUGHT MYSELF GIGGLING TO MYSELF AND KICKING MY FEET WAS INSANE LMAOOOOOO especially the most recent chapter where gojo stripped in the field, you are an absolute mastermind. AND THE FACT YOU MADE THINGS FINALLY OFFICIAL WITH THAT OH MY GOD. never getting over this. i truly felt like I was there. AND TO ADD ON THAT LOL I really appreciate the fact you haven't rushed their "first time" with each other, because SO many authors do that and its just like bro there goes your story and the entire plot u rushed it so baddddddd!!! THANK U FOR MAKING US WAIT LOL

don't mind my rant and just know I truly love and appreciate this work of art you have created. i cannot wait to read more of your work!!! <3

hi darling i'm so sorry i took forever to respond to this!! but thank you so much for your sweet words it means so much to me :''0 i am just rereading this right now as i took a writing break n i was feeling kind of down about how writing has been going for me recently but your ask put a smile on my face and gave me courage!! so thank you so much

oh that's interesting that you run into lots of AI fics? i don't really read fics anymore, but i don't think i noticed AI much unless i'm like kinda naive n clueless xd but yea i mean i use chatgpt too but only to find synonyms for certain words lol i think it's better than google's thesaurus

i'm so happy to know that you enjoy kickoff and that it aligns with your reading interests! and the fact that it makes you giddy HAHAH i feel that way when i read my fave romance novelsss n it's an honor to make other readers feel similarly LOL. and awh i mean whatever works for other authors is fine haha, i don't necessarily think my fics are much "better" than other authors' but i do cater to a specific audience i think :'') mostly ppl that like torturous slow burn LOL

you're so sweet!! so much love from me <3 you have a wonderful rest of your dayyy!

[tojiscrack]

HAPPY NEW YEAR SUMAYAAAAA

i've made my return to your inbox once more

'never sending asks to entitled mfs ever again 🫨'

dude yeah. anytime i send an ask to someone ab like nonrequest stuff, and they dont respond, i never send an ask again 💀💀💀💀

'bUT I’M NOT UNCULTURED I SWEAR 😭'

right... enjoy your beans and toast....

'i’m literally gonna hijack a plane going to canada, i swear 😕'

LMAOOO I SUPPORT IT

'i was younger, and now i’m older, but i mean irl. like yuji’s birth year (alongside his friends) is around 2002-2003.'

OHHHHHH OKAY THAT MAKES MORE SENSE! i was scared u were like 13 or something.............

i was also born a few years after yuji but considering that we're in the same grade equivalent that makes sense LMAO

'i’m literally gonna go out into society as an emo one day just for the feels 😭'

I WANT TO DO THIS SO BAD BUT NO ONE WANTS TO DO IT WITH MEEEE

'WHAT OTHER ABNORMAL CREATURE IN JJK HAS FOUR ARMS? HE’S SO GREEDY, LIKE WTH DO YOU NEED TWO OF EVERYTHING FOR? 🤨👎🏽'

LMAOOO JESUS CHRIST....

one of my friends is a huge sukuna fucker and everytime i send her an edit of him she goes feral- it's hilarious

'oh i’ve got smth all right 😭'

i'm so excited

'i still can’t get this one scene out of my head and i’m not even gonna tell you what it is ‘cause you probably wouldn’t know it'

unfortunately i think i know what ur referencing.... just cause i didnt finish the movie doesn't mean i dont know what happens in it....

'wait i’m not aware of how the us gpa system works. isn’t 91 still good???'

okay so. let me explain this. my school is weird bc we're a private college prep school so pretty much every other school uses a 4.0 scale and we use a percent scale but you can very easily have a 91 gpa while having 2 c's. it's rlly weird but it's true. and unfortunately that is my scenario.

'why would she touch a homeless-looking-m*le like you? the standard he had of himself is way too high 😀'

LMAO THATS CRAZYYYY

'STOP I LOVE INSTANT NOODLES 😟 I LITERALLY BOUGHT TWO LARGE PACKS OF THE BULDAK HABANERO LIME RAMEN ONES RIGHT AFTER THE M*N INCIDENT'

OMG THATS MY FAV BULDAK FLAVOR! I GET IT EVERYTIME I GO TO HMART W MY FRIENDS!

'lmk what you get for ur secret santa tho 😋'

I GOT 12 PACKETS OF SHIN RAMEN 💪💪💪💪💪

'no bc figurines shouldn’t be that expensive'

EXACTLY BRUH

'my catoru gojo plushie was like £15, and it’s not even that big so?? 😭'

inflation these days, man. i rmbr i bought my haikyuu plushies in 2020 (the oikawa one and a kuroo one) and they were so much cheaper than they are now.....

'they need to bring all these prices down bc rich ppl don’t even enjoy the same shit broke ppl do 🤨'

YEAH BRUHHH

now time for my life update!

within the first 30 minutes of 2025, i spent it reading through my old texts w my old situationship

and ive come to realize that when he breaks up with his gf, i will be first in line

AND ITS SAD

bc yes he treated me rlly well during our situationship BUT HE WAS ALSO TALKING TO HIS EX GF DURING OUR SITUATIONSHIP

but lowk i think he was just looking for whoever showed him interest first and i never blatantly told him i liked him (we would be dating by now if i had bruh)

BUT WHATEVERRRRR

how is your new years so far queen

i'm realizing how long my asks are LMAOOO

OH IM JUST NOW READING THE HASHTAGS!

'how did you come up with it?'

literally its the least deep username ever LMAO

i needed a username for ao3 bc my old one was too long and i planned on publishing so i was trying to think of somthing and i think i was drinking soup at the time so i wanted it to be soups but that was taken so it became seoups!

I ALSO LOVE GIFTS! thats why i have big birthday parties LMAOOO

HAPPY NEW YEARRRR ML 🫶🏽🫨

i love seeing you in my inbox, it’s soo 😋💞

and you’re just like me. now that ik tumblr does indeed have that feature, i’m not sending another ask to these celebrities 🤨

‘right… enjoy your beans on toast…’ — okay first and foremost, DON’T KNOCK IT TILL YOU TRY IT 😭 one thing about white english ppl is that their full english breakfast is so good 😔 they genuinely ate when making that

but i love cultural food ofc 😫 like asian spices over anything tyvm 😋 it has to be enough to keep me on the toilet at 3am regretting my life choices but knowing i’d do it again

‘i was scared you were like 13 or something…’ — omg no 😟 we’re the same age 😋 i turned 18 in october 🤧 i wanna be 17 forever, sigh

‘I WANT TO DO THIS SO BAD BUT NO ONE WANTS TO DO IT WITH MEEE’ — just do it on ur own atp 🥴 i changed my makeup style slightly so it’s more of a darker look. taking it step by step before i randomly turn into an emo and go into the streets of london, waiting to be hate crimed 💀

also ur friend being a sukuna truther is just pure betrayal by association 😀 i’m literally that (and worse) for gojo 🤞🏽😔

and the american education system will never not confuse me, and i feel like that has to be a trigger warning for LL, ‘cause i’m gonna have to mention their major exams at several points in the story 😭 just expect a note at the top going ‘yeah i’m still so lost with the US grading system, don’t expect accuracy, enjoy!’

‘OMG THAT’S MY FAV BULDAK FLAVOUR’ — literally same. i’ve seen so many ppl say it tastes like soap and i’m just so lost? like the lime flavour is so nice 😫 i pair it with cold cucumbers and it’s so refreshing

‘I GOT 12 PACKETS OF SHIN RAMEN’ — WOOHOO 🥳 but unpopular opinion, i don’t really like shin ramen ☹️ i have a buldak obsession instead :/

‘now for my life update!’ — 😋😋😋

‘within the first 30 minutes of 2025, i spent it reading through my old texts with my old situationship’ — ooh… 😧

‘and i’ve come to realise that when he breaks up with his gf, i will be first in line’ — girl stop, i’ve seen this movie before 😭

and i didn’t like the ending 😐 (is this ur taylor swift moment? 🥴)

‘be yes he treated me really well during our situationship, BUT HE WAS ALSO TALKING TO HIS EX GF DURING OUR SITUATIONSHIP’ — okay, so listen carefully, ‘cause us girls as a community can not, will not, and will NEVER lose another girly to the ugly m*le gender again… doesn’t matter how well he treated you in that moment, if he spoke to his ex during ur situationship, he never treated you well. he was treating himself instead 🤨 and i mean that in the nicest way possible!

‘but lowk i think he was just looking for whoever showed him interest first and i never blatantly told him i liked him (we would be dating by now if i had bruh)’ — YOU DODGED A BULLET THO 😭 LIKE THIS SHOWED YOU HIS TRUE COLOURS, LIKE IF THAT’S HOW HE BEHAVES IN ANY SCENARIO, HE’S NOT WORTH ANY GIRL’S (WITH SELF RESPECT) TIME 😟

yes indeed. whateverrr, leave him it in 2024 😋

‘how is your new years so far queen’ — so bland. i mean i entered tt and saw everyone going back to the 2020 anime pfps and ofc i had to join innnn 😫 but deep down ik that going back will never be possible. i’ve reached legal adulthood and back in 2020, i was just a teenage girl reading a shit ton of fanfics at 3am under the stars in my loft ☹️ i’m feeling homesick for 2020, and any time i check the date and it says we’re FIVE years past that, i wanna throw up 🤧

rant over 😟 sorry! 😭😭

‘i'm realising how long my asks are’ — and that is literally NOT A PROBLEM AT ALL. in fact, i encourage it, and i look forward to it 😇🫶🏽

I’VE ALSO SEEN SO MANY TUMBLR USERS EXPLAINING THEIR USERS THE SAME WAY YOU DID HAHAA

today i got a late christmas present from my friend’s mum (fuzzy socks and a set of makeup brushes)! but honestly, as much as i love gifts, i don’t mind getting a shit ton of food delivered to myself and calling that a gift instead 😋

or an iced latte sidjeijdiejdjehdhwh

[mithliya]

In regards to ppl jumping down your throat about that post (TM). 1) you're right. But 2) Like... I can see how discussing participating in sex acts with a trans woman is no different from having them with any other male is something that has merit.... But thats not RADICAL FEMINIST content. Like, is it gender critical content? Probably? Thats where it fits better. It would be more appropriate to tag it as such. But radical feminism isnt JUST gender criticality!!! Like, being gender critical is a part of radical feminism but They! Are! Not! The! Same! Thing!

And yeah, people instantly assuming that you asking "how is talking about giving a male person oral sex so explicitly (and in a way that would immediately alienate a lesbian reader... who the post is supposedly for????) is in any way relevant to radical feminism?" Meant that you were saying "female heterosexuality is unsightly and i dont want to see it and also het women need to shut up forever".

(And also the comparison of lesbians being like... I dont want posts about sucking dick to abound in the radfem tag is in ANY WAY AT ALL similar to homophobic people not wanting to see women kiss.... Like???? Thanks for being so bald-faced about your homophobia. Its not the same actually but its interesting to see that you think a minority asking an innocuous question is the same as oppression)

Dear. God. Some people on this site just fucking love to assume the worst from you and needlessly attack you about it. They bring all their lesbophobic assumptions into ANY discussion that you happen to have.

I'll tell you what a rational response could have been to the question you posed. "I think this is relevant based on gender critical beliefs that radfems hold and i wanted to share my experience with that audience"

That doesnt mean that anyone has to agree about whether or not it was a relevant post for a FEMINIST TAG based on FEMINIST CONTENT. But the way ppl responded to you was ABSOLUTELY DERANGED. Words in your mouth. Baseless assumptions. Critique based on things you didnt say. Like..... ????? HUH???

If ppl were normal the convo could have ended with you saying "actually i dont think this is relevant to radical feminist analysis. I think you should have used a different tag for this". Instead you had to have paragraphs long responses where you had to pick apart the lesbophobic rhetoric that is being tossed your way and defend yourself FOR LICHERALLY JUST ASKING A QUESTION.

You didnt even ask an inflammatory question! You didnt even ask it with intent to attack the original OP.

Not only is gender critical and radfem tumblr just.... Fucking radioactive with lesbophobia, but people *specifically* attack you with SO MUCH hostility and treat everything you say with so much bad faith. Like???? Its fucking exhausting to just read, i cannot imagine how fucking irritating it must be to experience it constantly. I wonder if perhaps... Hmmm.. there might be a specific form of oppression you face that might make you more likely to face these attacks.... Hmmm... i think it starts with "race" and ends with "ism". I have not seen white lesbians with similar politics to you facing the same backlash on EVERYTHING they say.

And accusing you of faking anons???????? HUH????? Yeah no, you -- a blog with thousands of followers who regularly gets anons -- MUST OBVIOUSLY have to send urself messages to show ppl agree with you and your opinions 🙄 maddening.

u said it all perfectly anon 😭 and yeah funnily enough it’s very clear people treat me differently, like even if ppl want to argue i’m an obnoxious drama queen or whatever, women who are that & worse still don’t get treated the same way. but if i point out maybe there’s some sort of prejudice underlying ppl treating me differently then i get mocked and belittled further 🤭 oh well. that whole interaction was just insane bc she straight up just lashed out at me & put a bunch of words in my mouth simply bc she saw that i’m a lesbian. funnily enough these things happen even when i word things in the mildest least confrontational way possible so i don’t even know what to do to to get ppl to chill out

[tea-and-finalfantasy]

some more thoughts abt characters in nsfw imagines being "ooc" and why we shouldn't worry about it BUT ALSO how to branch out/what tips to use to do so if you'd like, especially if you run an ask blog and are writing for other ppl's hcs or desires and not just your own

also discussed some in-relationship characterizations of bi-han, shang tsung, and raiden as examples! and we're operating under the assumption that these are "healthier" instances of self-insert asks (meaning i mention providing aftercare here for example which might not be important to an ask/scenario where the relationship is supposed to be fucked up)

long post/tldr at end although of course i recommend reading the whole thing ^^;

on one hand, ppl shouldn't be so concerned w writing characters "in-character" for imagines or fics bc ppl are writing them to achieve an end

ppl want to showcase emotions we don't see in canon (so they seem "ooc" bc we don't see the characters going through those things often or at all)

ppl want to see their faves doing things they're into (so when an ask is sent, it's not with the intention of asking if a character would do it or not, it's asking for content of the character in fact doing that)

plus nsfw content isn't like? an "is it in character or not" deal bc it's kink. we shouldn't have a standard for who "looks like they'd be into this" or not bc it's not about appearances or how ppl usually act--it's abt trying out different roles and having fun and getting needs met and so on

and in a fictional setting where ppl want their faves to be into what they're into, why would you not write that happening? you don't have to jump through hoops to "prove" a character would act the way you want them to and you don't have to put up with other ppl saying a character wouldn't do something just bc it's not their personal hc

but on the other hand, i think ppl should also consider, if they want, what would get a character to a certain point

quoted from another post of mine:

it’s not the act that’s “ooc” bc that’s how you get “x person is a bottom and x person is a top and i just know–” rather than like. you cannot and should not look at someone and assume something about them physically, how they act, etc. is indicative of their sexual preferences

yeah i know it’s just in fiction here and not irl but god it’s so fucking grating to hear “oh this character wouldn’t bottom” (like not even sub! someone is stating they will not get fucked in the ass bc they’re “too tough”) bc you’ve created this binary of who does what act all the time, who’s allowed to do what–

as opposed to living a little? having fun with fiction? imagining what a tough and gruff character would be like in a vulnerable state and how they got there? what they’re like giving into desires they probably feel they’re not supposed to have?

SO USING BI-HAN, SHANG TSUNG, AND RAIDEN

regardless of how gruff and cold bi-han is, i don't think he'd waste time putting up with someone he didn't enjoy spending time with. sometimes he's civil, sometimes he's not, so tempers would flare but overall, i don't think he'd hate someone's devotion and kindness and/or refusal to let him put them down

same thing with shang tsung where he'd surely enjoy someone interested in his work but he also be interested in someone who takes no shit from him

i don't see it "ooc" to have a self-insert show kindness or disagreement and for either to be a deal breaker based on personality alone

i think they're characters that both need some form of kindness and care (just bc they range from... misguided or power hungry to cruel doesn't mean that cruelty is expected in turn as a form of love UNLESS? it's havik in some iterations at least LOL)

so to assume it's not appreciated would be incorrect--

the point is to discuss their reactions to it, how they'd respond "in character" and you could go so many routes too! the fun part is to experiment!

you could write them both somewhat flustered by such appreciation, unsure how to return it as the feeling is genuine but it's been a long time since they've felt something like that. felt cared for or felt genuine love for someone else that wasn't based on what they could get in return

you could write them learning to express delicate emotions and vulnerability, learning to care for someone else experiencing hardship or grief or yearning and desire. yes it's tinged by their personalities

like if someone got hurt, bi-han would be like -barely masked anger- don't worry they will be dealt with/shang tsung would be like haha i will dissolve their living flesh in acid and you can watch if you like :)

but if their s/o doesn't benefit from that kind of violent response, it's about exploring how they learn to do what works in the relationship (while also being like ok i can kill them but how do i make dinner for my lover so they feel better. how do you fucking cook)

in terms of sex and kink, it's fine if it's not your personal hc for them to engage in x/y/z thing but if you're answering a request and don't have like. an obvious disclaimer abt what you do well or like to write/what you don't write, it can feel strange to just ??? not do it properly LOL???

but again, it's not that a kink is "ooc," it's just that maybe the set-up seems iffy? obv its from personal standpoints and it doesn't really matter but i'm assuming that's the hang up ppl have sometimes? that they don't have the hc but then slip it under the guise of "oh i don't think it's in character" which lapses into the "this is what i think a top looks like/this is what a bottom looks like" which gets problematic

with bi-han, someone could write him in desperate need of a break and easily taking on a submissive role with someone he trusts bc it's what he needs. he's exhausted and stressed and expected to be strong and tough all the time and needs the help

on the other hand, someone could write that with the expectations of being tough, of being the perfect grandmaster, he feels he's not allowed to be vulnerable or submissive or humiliated and enjoy it. he's not allowed to be anything but in control all of the time and he struggles greatly in learning to lean into the pleasure he wants

with shang tsung, i personally think he'd see life as for one's own pleasure and who is he to deny himself playing around with roles and control? experimentation is in his nature after all

but i can see him acting the same as bi-han--feeling so much pressure to appear always-in-control that he doesn't know how to let go even though he wants to

and the hang up would never be distrust of a partner either unless you're going for that dynamic. wanting to try out things and simultaneously being anxious over it isn't something they'd take out on a partner as it's their hang ups, not the offer of something new by someone they trust

sometimes some things get a pass--like sex toys might be mutually used, they might seem as commonplace as condoms and lube--while other things--D/s dynamics and not just being on bottom/moaning a bit louder than usual, anything more involved in terms of set-up or equipment, etc.--might take a lot of work getting used to

it definitely isn't easy. even with both parties trying their best, there are long breaks and tense emotions, extensive aftercare and days of subdrop despite everyone's best intentions

some sessions go well and others don't. they get anxious and nervous again, sometimes when it's something entirely new and sometimes when it's something they'd done before, just because they don't feel up to it that night

with anything, it's a process that involves up and downs and dialogue that seems "ooc" just because it's not what we hear in canon (whether that's due to it being sexual in nature OR bc it's vulnerability from characters we merely see as powerful and controlling or vulnerable in terms of anger) and writing that, exploring that, being "there" for a character in a fictional setting is what makes things fun and interesting!

in a less emotionally charged setting, if we take raiden for example, i don't think it's right or possible to assign in-character or out-of-character to kinks but we might do so depending on if how they act in-scene or post-scene doesn't feel "accurate"

so the "ic"/"ooc" assignment isn't (or shouldn't be) based on if you think raiden should or shouldn't be a dom top but if you think how he's acting in regards to it feels "accurate--" especially when the acting part of the scene is over!

in my opinion, raiden seems generally fair and level headed so if he were to punish someone, it wouldn't be with bi-han's kind of fury. maybe he'd have his moments of over-zealousness, getting overexcited (which isn't a bad thing by any means) and getting mouthier, aiming more for humiliation or chastization than calm firmness, but whatever route you go, i think it's in the post-scene/aftercare that's where you find your "in character" characterization

he'd dote and be concerned, even if his partner says they're fine, he keeps a list of things they might need or want to do afterwards, he's shy about discussing sex outside the realm of a scene, even if he's having it nightly, and talks quietly, does a lot of cuddling, asks if he did well

if a piece/answer doesn't have aftercare listed, which is understandable and it's just written/no one is expected to write anything/if you're going for an unhealthy dynamic you could understandably have certain characters straight up not providing it, but if it's intended but not written, it just might feel ooc when the scene cuts off bc we only see the play-acting

i also think some ooc-ness can come from the opposite end of the spectrum where, considering aftercare for example, our knowledge of what's important to provide to real life ppl contrasts with what we think the characters would do--either out of inexperience, sexually or with scene heavy content, or due to their everyday personalities

but again, the important thing is not to shoot down ideas but to explore how would a character deal with this unfamiliar thing?

shang tsung has enough (actually legit) remedies at this point to make physically healing easy but he's unsure how to comfort someone who's crying even if he knows he can't leave them like that

bi-han's not good with words and either needs to learn some scripts or rely on what he's best at if it works for his partner. he can soothe bruises well and can literally cool things off but he might gravitate most towards just holding his partner as hard as he can and then refusing to be distant from them even by inches (always managing to hold their hand while using his other hand to do whatever else) until he's sure they're okay

raiden worries he's researched it too hard and that he asks too many questions but wants to make sure he's not overlooking something especially out of a lack of experience. he probably lapses into topdrop and doesn't even know it's a thing, doesn't know he's allowed to need the same comfort

so in general/as tips/a tldr

there's no such thing as a sex act or kink being "in character" or "out of character" bc it's an action, not inherent in the personality

so many of these are personal hcs but this is about finding what your hc is--not abt assuming there's something "ooc" about a kink just bc it's not yours or yours associated with that character

the in character/out of character debate probably (hopefully?) comes more from forgetting that sex/kink can be like a game/can involve acting and pretend--that it's not a stand in for someone's actual personality

and when there's vulnerability that's real that seems "ooc," it's probably because obvious we're not getting characters engaging in kink scenes in canon. even if they experience vulnerability, some characters do while others don't. it's narrative based, it's main characters (getting introspection) vs side characters (not having time or desire for it). exploring something not shown in text isn't inaccurate

if you have asks open, you can write as you please BUT ppl aren't sending stuff bc they think you're gonna say it's "ooc." they're asking bc they like your style and want to see what you've got based on their ideas. it's fine to not write things for w/e reason but don't pretend it's bc u have the "correct" hc and they don't

if you want to explore it, this is about discussing what would get a character to a point where they'd act a certain way? what happens when they experience something new or unfamiliar or something that affects them in a difficult or overwhelming way? the "ooc" aspect isn't the "what," it's the "how"

but it also doesn't matter what's "ic"/what's "ooc" bc we all have our own intricate interpretations anyways AND are often writing these kink things bc it's what we wanna see. of course the characters are gonna act how we like or in ways that we need

[tadpolesonalgae]

im sooooo curious and excited to see how this will affect mor and feyre's relationship, bc their friendship in canon is smth i adore and seeing it be tested? and seeing them fight/argue is going to be so interesting 🤭🤭🤭 like one of my fav moments in the series is literally when they had a fight during the war bc feyre ran off alone to catch a suriel.. smth abt seeing two ppl who clearly care and love each other having their bond get tested is very interesting to me

also, from what we saw of the cbmthy reader so far in the past chapters, i don't think she'd have a dramatic falling out with ppl in the ic?? she's pretty much very passive but still stubborn in her own way, so i imagine that even if mor comes to her senses eventually and apologizes or tries to make amends with reader, she'd just respond like "oh it's okay, i already forgot about it!" even if she's probably eternally haunted by what mor said and i can see her being cordial and polite to mor bc she doesn't want to put feyre in an awkward situation but never opening her heart to her again or at least not for a veryyy long time 😭

‘smth abt seeing two ppl who clearly care and love each other having their bond get tested is very interesting to me’

I know what you mean? (I think) And sometimes I wonder if it’s problematic thinking on my part but honestly I think it’s a case that on a foundational level there’s something soothing to an unreachable part of one’s mind that glories over seeing two people struggle and have their bond be tested but survive? To see them have difficulties but return to one another so they aren’t left alone.

(In my opinion, obviously)

‘also, from what we saw of the cbmthy reader so far in the past chapters, i don't think she'd have a dramatic falling out with ppl in the ic??’

I honestly agree, but I don’t think that would prevent her from having a negative bond with someone? While it might not be outright aggressive, I think because of the kind of person reader is (someone who readily accepts bad things that happen to her without fight, whether they’re real or whether they’re things she’s told herself) it might make her pretty good at handling that kind of coldness? The worst thing Mor can do (and arguably has done) is confirm reader’s doubts—and reader’s already been putting herself through that hurt.

(At least, up until she tried to kill herself)

‘so i imagine that even if mor comes to her senses eventually and apologizes or tries to make amends with reader, she'd just respond like "oh it's okay, i already forgot about it!"’

Especially since that’s what happened with Az 🤦 I suppose we’ll just have to see how their relationship evolves 😳👀

‘but never opening her heart to her again or at least not for a veryyy long time 😭’

It will be kind of interesting to see whether reader allows that interaction with Mor to define all her future ones too? It was one of the few moments in cbmthy where reader’s the one actively doing something about her situation and it ended pretty badly, so it’ll be fun to see if reader will be able to move past that and do it again, even if it might hurt her :)

[first-mistake-forever-more]

how do u get out of a hole if u have no inspiration¿ u may hav answered this before nd i justdidnt see it idk

hey gringly sorry i didnt respond to this earlier I wrote out a response like two Weeks ago & shut down my laptop without posting it this post mit b a tiny bit controversial but I;ll talk from personal experience i think having no inspiration normally actually means either being distracted(which is fine)or you not wanting to deal with the Pain that comes with creation(most of us are vry pain averse) i say this because both happen to me sometimes A lot of times I dont want 2 draw or whtvr because I dread the process of plugging everything in and starting the software just for the ideas that come in to suck a lil and just really end up not feeling very good about my abilities or creativity(this is pain) But usually the only time that actual creative ideas can flow freely is when youre actually there trying to channel them

at the moments in which ur in tune with this creative part of your mind, ideas will always come and go even when you're not creating(rfor example taking a shower is one of these moments for most ppl ), but if you don't get to these points often then you have to put in the effort to get your brain to the point in which it is thinking about these artistic solutions and concepts, and you get there by creating.. & yr first idea will probably suck so Bad Lol but then you'll be free to start channeling other ideas it's possible that no good ideas come & this can be for a lot of reasons but probbaly bc youre still finding your own specific voice & dont completely know what u want to be creating or just bc yr tired So what I'm trying to say is that you should probably try making music or art even when you're not inspired because,first of all you will most likely always learn Something, and because you'll most likely get inspired while creating also You NEED to deal with your ideas bc letting ideas fester & marinate in your mind blocks new ideas from coming in, and then you lose those original ideas because you didn't put them out anywhere, so you just feel really bad, So it's important that you try to work even when "not inspired" Art can be painful and u have to learn to deal w this pain instead of constantly escaping it I think if we constantly try to avoid this pain this can actually be detrimental to us in th long run. (tw opinion)i observeThere's a big culture of self care in this regard that I don't completely vibe with(at least not as a professional, I'm sure it has helped a lot of other people). I think it makes people weaker against struggles of the real creative process oh & I'd like to state that this is just how I deal with art personally as a professional. it might not be what's best for you if you dont actually Need to b creating art to survive(sorry) but it is good i think if yr an artist to experience this constant need to put something out into the world even if ur not interested in Like turning art into your paycheck haha ty for the ask

[dichromaticdyke]

🗣 - CAI STEALS FANFICS??? WHAT??? I thought it was just some dumb little tool 🥲, I liked asking it questions and seeing what it responded with 😔 BUT WHAT! ALSO YES, GIMMIE THAT SWEET SWEET MULTI-CHAPTER FIC PLEASE! (Sorry about the mama thing, its definitely out of affection, but I'll stop if it makes you uncomfy. 💕)

Also, what does Dr. Rockso look like in the HM!Toki universe, because I've been racking my brain about him for a while but nothing is coming out.

oh yeah i mean, just like how generative AI for images is trained off stolen art, CAI is trained off both the original source material and off fanfiction. my fanfics have almost certainly already been automatically scrubbed for training purposes. i obviously can't control what people do/if they use AI at all, but AI character bots do make me uncomfortable for that reason. i won't tell you to stop if you're having fun, that's just my opinion as a stranger on the internet who is also a fic writer.

BUT YES i'm working on it heheh. i have the first two and a half chapters completed, i'll start publishing when i have more chapters written bc i wanna try to update it consistently so ppl don't lose interest.

ohhhhhh my god. fuck. so i think rockzo's actually exactly the same. there's always some cishet men who just want to be lesbians' best friends as like vindication. best examples i can think of is that one curb your enthusiasm episode where larry david is bragging about how the lesbian community loves him (i need a source on that slkdfhsdf) or literally like. my friend's ex-boyfriend with me lol. so i think he's still like exactly the same, still a horrible manipulative, toxic friend to toki who still, underneath it all, does care in some fucked up way (fuck i was gonna give an example of that but it's a spoiler LKSDFHLSKDFH you'll understand later). there's just now the added layer of him wanting a lesbian's approval specifically because he's fuckin weird about it lol.

[neonstatic]

my given name and i have an interesting relationship. well, first off, i don't like. i dislike it, even. there's no doubt abt that. i've disliked it long before i understood i was nonbinary. it's just not a good name to me. i don't like the way it feels and tastes in my mouth. i don't like how it sounds out of people's mouths. no one has ever managed to say it in a way that makes it sound appealing. it's not a name you can sigh dreamily nor moan erotically. i mean, you can try, but however good you might sound, I'll be too distracted by the name itself. (i think i've learned to speak so delicately bc i've subconsciously wanted to sell my name as best as possible. yes, that is my name, it does kinda suck, but don't i say it so nicely?)

compare this to my sisters' names. they have sweet, feminine names that end in the letter a, and if you put all their names next to each other, you notice a certain motif. they just fit like a bouquet.

i feel like you can tell from my name alone that i'm the last child; they were running out of fkg ideas to follow the motif, so much so that they entirely dropped it! they couldn't even make my name end in an a!

i've never liked my name, always felt a little ashamed when meeting ppl bc i knew i'd have to introduce myself and see the split-second look in their eyes when they process and register (with difficulty) my painfully geriatric yet forgettable name. and it sounds so, so much worse in english.

egg or chicken? i think my name might've made me trans -- no, pls, let me elaborate: my name sounds like a typical old name, but spelled differently and thus pronounced differently, with none of the elegance and not even an a at the end. "oh, ray, why are you so obsessed w the a at the end?" bc i grew up surrounded by girls with pretty names that ends in a! and i was a little "girl" w an unpretty name that did not end in a! i legit had a complex abt that jabfjab everyone is aisha and christina and sarah and mona and then you got this mf whose name reminds you of a four-eyed mole in a tutu.

(in middle school, we had to write a story, and i named my protagonist, a 12yo girl, wayne. "that's not a girl's name," my teacher told me. "yes, it is." i said. and that was that.)

(i named that little girl after my favourite rapper at the time... y'all figure it out ✌🏾)

i've wanted to change my name long before i understood my gender. i had the spare thought that one day, maybe, i'd grow into it. i didn't like having and showing tits until literally two years ago. i think the chest tat helped. (frankly, most days i still don't. moving boobily is humiliating esp when you're a fast walker.) i've yet to grow into my given name. don't think i ever will. i rly dislike it. i'm no longer used to it either. i've changed my name at work and made so many new friends who know me as ray, and even my closest friends call me ray most of the time (or juno if they feel a lil frisky). and now i feel good introducing myself.

not only that, but i also experience ppl having fun w my name! nothing big, rly, but i do not have enough fingers to count the amount of ppl who make analogies abt the sun, the stars, or light in general. it's mostly silliness, i know, but i can't help feeling like others see that my name makes sense for me too. ray is a name that fits me. and i love it! yes, everyone does the "ray of sunshine" thing but it never gets old! never, do you hear me?! it's the best thing in the world to me!!!

(still, there are two things i like abt my given name... first, it's a callback to my parents' names. my dad also has a very interesting name but i'd rather have his than mine. another name better exprienced in french. second, my mom and i share a nickname. i found out when i was a teen and a relative called out my family nickname (or, well, one of two), only for my mom to respond. i love love love nicknames, bc that is what made me discover my chosen name. and i love that my mom and i share a nickname. it feels sentimental to me. idk how to explain it. i esp love when we use it for each other in casual. it's fun and lovely.)

[clemencetaught]

get to know the author!

name : ferre

pronouns :  they/them

preference of communication : discord, but i can do tumblr ims. honestly, i’m slow on both but i’m a tad quicker to get back to ppl on discord….although again, these days i prefer to keep my discord to solely those whom i feel ooc wise comfortable around!

most active muse :  this guy ( patrick ) clawed his way into single muse blog status with the number of times he gave me brainrot on my multimuse so i’d say it’s probably patrick :’D

experience / how many years :  like about on-and-off for about 8 years? i did do a little bit back in 2013 in quizilla ims which was my introduction to rp before i started formally on tumblr in 2015….that being said i was on-and-off for about the first three years until in 2018 when i made calum- he was the first muse of mine that actually like, stuck :’D that being said, i did also take like a year hiatus in 2020 before coming back in 2021 so uh….eight years might not be the most accurate number jfksdljfkl

best experience : this attempt so far?? Has been so wonderful and i wouldn’t change any of what has happened for the world- my mutuals and writing partners are so skilled and friendly and patient and LITERALLY some of their muses have managed to elicit responses and character development from my muses that i would have NEVER imagined :’D but if we have to go specific….maybe it’s the hunger games au verse i dragged some ppl into?? the plotting and characters they have come up with is PHENOMENAL and wow, i’m gonna stuck to them all like super glue for 5ever &lt;3

rp pet peeves : so many! my biggest ones, however, are self-centered and inconsiderate partners: those who disregard my rules, those who talk only about their own muses in every thread and plotting interaction, those who only seem to take interest in my blog(s) when it involves receiving writing from me. That and blogs that follow first but never make a move/any indication of interest, not even a like on my posts….no offense, but i’m not chasing after you. Other pet peeves include facechasing, trauma dumping ( ooc and ic ), and drama. oh, and partners who just don’t?? Respond to my attempts at some kind of ooc interaction- it can even be in tags, but if you’re not saying anything then that kills my enthusiasm very quickly.

fluff, angst, or smut : see, i want character development and exploration in my threads so i don’t think it’s fair to split up threads into these categories bc if done with intention, you can learn something new about your muse and your partner’s muse in any thread ( and yes, that includes the crack threads- DON’T UNDERESTIMATE ME :D ) i will say though, smut is highly unlikely here just bc patrick is demisexual + it’s gonna take like 2839402384098 years for him and hyuk to look at and act on each other in that manner :’D

plots or memes : plotting <3 but memes are good for starting off plotted dynamics tho!! most times, however, i’m not a fan of first meetings either. I like to have some kind of dynamic/backstory to go off of and would rather not overstep any boundaries so you’re not really a plotter… we might not be a good match. 

long or short replies : see, patrick is a literature professor. for someone softspoken and reserved, he has a TON of thoughts and opinions so whenever i do try to keep things short and sweet, he bucks against it and will give me at least three paragraphs….over 1000 words too. we’re very ( not ) sorry :’D

time to write : depends on what’s happening at work and what my mood is. I do try to do my writing in the afternoon/morning though as most days i feel like i haven’t done anything productive/meaningful until i’ve written at least something.

are you like your muses : hahahaha, nah. I mean, we do have similar interests ( ie. literature and working in higher ed ), but personality-wise he’s much more stiff and erudite than me :’D i will say i think all characters we write do have pieces of ourselves in them, otherwise they’d never be able to grow, but for the most part, no i don’t think i’m really like patrick <3 at the very least, i'm not nearly as repressed as him fjskdlfjsl

tagged by: @wynterlanding ( thank you so much ♡ )

tagging: take it if you would like!! i'm would be curious to see how you describe your own rp style :3