#post tornado life

[jynxeddraca]

New roof today! They started at a little after 6:30 this morning, just a few minutes after I woke up. I wish I had realized how early they would start.

My dog is not happy, so he got to take his anti-anxiety meds this morning. He's being a champ but he's so stressed out. Cats as well, poor babies. But the roof should be done today, the drywallers are going to be getting the fans and dehumidifiers out today as well so that will cut down on noise around the house and when that's done by the end of the week then we'll have a bit of time where the house will be quiet and free of random people.

Until the siding people start in. But there's no ETA on that just yet.

[barometric]

7/8/20 tornado near Ashby, MN

[user-without-a-cool-acronym]

Sensei Wu, flying in a spinjitzu tornado, while looking kinda depressed

[tacagen]

one of the things that fascinate me about thawne: yes, he CAN be normal with kids! surprisingly normal!

((not at all times, though. his mental illness still spills through and as usual he, in trying to manipulate or hurt others, spits out at them the exact stuff that would hurt him (or have in his childhood/barry's rejection interpretation) the most in the first place lmao))

but at the same time. his like second instinct when doing his bullshit is FUCK THEM (as) KIDS

(and, well. whatever this classifies as)

[tornadoeffect]

Thinking about how similar yet how different Max and Rachel are...

Rachel is obviously destructive and impulsive in some ways, whether it's intentional or not, but so is Max! She does fix things a lot in the game, or at least tries to, but there are various occasions where she can act upon destructive desires mainly thanks to her newfound powers. For example, she immediately decides to blow up the doorknob to the principal's office when she can't find a key with Chloe and the latter can't pick the lock open. She can also spill Frank's beans onto the ground unprovoked. These are minor examples, but the greatest one of course is the Bae>Bay ending where she quite literally lets a tornado swallow up her entire childhood town to keep her best friend (girlfriend?) from dying. Her very powers are associated with the chaos theory. She says herself in her dream: "You're a goddam hypocrite. You've left a trail of death and suffering behind you.". She also says later in the game: "I can't keep fixing everything, if all I'm gonna do is just break it, over and over again!" Sure, this is her low self esteem and slight self loathing talking (as well as her having a normal reaction to the awful situation she's been put into), but the words have some merit if you look into them. Her powers, seemingly designed to fix things, seem to just make everything worse or break something else instead.

More under cut.

Meanwhile, Rachel turns a small, controlled burning of a picture into a forest fire. She spikes Victoria's drink on one occasion to keep her role in a play. She throws a bottle near Chloe in a junkyard in anger. She develops a self destructive drug usage habit. I'd argue her relationship with dangerous, older men is self destructive. Her difficulty with communication adds a chaotic element to her and Chloe's relationship (even though she's by far not the only guilty party involved). She breaks a table when her pent up anger towards her father escapes containment. She's associated with fire and the storm. There's obviously nuance to her actions, which is why I mentioned them being intentional or not at the start, but it doesn't erase their destructive or impulsive nature.

Now, I use the terms "destructive" and "impulsive" loosely here. And obviously, most of the examples I provided for Rachel are a lot more extreme than the ones I provided for Max, but I still think I got my point across. They both cause chaos, destruction, and disharmony around them, mostly guided by their feelings and what they consider to be "right" or "wrong", "deserved", "necessary", etc. And if the theory about Rachel being the one to grant Max her powers is true, then destruction links them together even more.

Furthermore, they're both young women onto whom destiny shoves great burdens and seems to play painfully ironic games with: Rachel must maintain her perfect appearance despite her unstable and crumbling sense of identity and freedom and the sudden revelation of her family's past, and she ends up an aspiring model dying horribly in a dark room; Max unlocks super powers out of the blue one day and tried to do good with them, but as she figures them out she ties them (and by consequence, herself) to a deadly approaching tornado without mentioning the extremely traumatic events she goes through in a matter of a week, and ends up having to decide whether to sacrifice an entire town or her closest friend.

And most importantly of all: they are both trapped by or in Arcadia Bay, albeit in differing ways. Rachel's case is more obvious: she's literally, physically trapped due to her family's unwillingness to move and her inability to leave alone, which is especially suffocating for her free spirit, and she's also metaphorically trapped by heavy expectations from everyone around her, feeling like she has no room to define herself.... herself. She's buried in the town's junkyard after years of dreaming of freedom. Max physically leaves/"escapes" Arcadia Bay as a child with her move (though she didn't especially want to), and does go back voluntarily, but is almost immediately chained to the very fate of the place and its people out of nowhere. I'd also argue that her past with Chloe and the guilt she feels because of it also traps a part of her in Arcadia for a long time. And after the ending, no matter what she chooses, Arcadia Bay will never let her go for the rest of her life.

[after-the-end-times]

Javi and Kate's trauma manifest so differently that it's no wonder Javi gets angry after their failed tornado scan

After their last tornado, Kate squashed everything down and ran away to somewhere "safe". A different career path in a city with an almost zero chance of a tornados

She never really confronted or dealt with any of her ptsd and thought she had everything under control. That is, until she went back to the south and confronted a tornado again

And, of course, she ended up freezing and having a panic attack. With a tornado right there and the wind and dirt blowing up everywhere she, once again, ran away. This time taking Javi with her

And, while Kate had spent years running away from the past and pushing it all down and becoming a shell of herself,

Javi spent those years changing himself entirely. He went into the military and created a tech that would help study tornados. That way he'd never again experience feeling completely useless and helpless standing miles away while his friends all died

He transformed himself from the sleepy stoner guy who hung back collecting data in the van to the one taking the lead and driving straight in front of every tornado he sees

So, of course, when one trauma response (confront the thing that hurt you) was confronted head on with the other's (run away from the thing that hurt you) Javi got angry and Kate closed off

It's a natural, human reaction that Javi would feel like Kate's letting him down and that Kate feels like she's let him down

Sadly, neither's emotional reaction is right or wrong. They both just have so much unresolved trauma

And yes, it's from the same situation, but they experienced it so differently they don't see where the other's not understanding the problem now

They just don't know how to communicate and connect with each other anymore post trauma, so they're at an impasse for moving forward

[professordickbag]

i'm having another fit of a violent life is strange obsession, why oh why have the gods not blessed us with proper max and chloe follow up? woe is me,

woe is me

[black-salt-cage]

Crowfeather (Warriors) stimboard ☽ - ✰ - ☾ ☽ - ✰ - ☾ ☽ - ✰ - ☾

[lilakennedy]

The past month or so has been a HILARIOUS trainwreck - My new job essentially went bankrupt after my FIRST day, I accidentally grew Datura on my balcony, I have an elusive MRI appointment that keeps getting pushed around, tried to get the limited Hozier vinyl but they only got a payment method I don't have, my friend nearly got snuck up on by a TORNADO cause we were busy playing Fortnite, and I STILL need to fix some of my ReShade presets -

[milimeters-morales]

Miles trying to sneak out of the house completely unnoticed not because he's going out somewhere he shouldn't at a time he shouldn't but because he's wearing an amalgamation of his mom and dad's clothes and knows if they catch him they'll make him change and ruin the style he's going for

[jynxeddraca]

My poor room. But small blessing the water in the wall didn't extend to the point of having to gut the closet.

[creepycrawler33]

I had a dream a few hours ago that I was in an episode of American Dad and that a tornado was coming towards Steve, Stan, my brother, and my cousin, but we had to use a computer from the 2000s before we could run away. It was some complicated ass shit I had to log into my cousin's old high school account (she's 26), and then I had to put in the number of the website,,,, but like.... the numbers were in the quadrillions. Weird shit!!! Also Stan was Professor X???? But the one from the prequel series. Shits weird! I fucking hate my dreams!

[seventh-district]

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[oflgtfol]

like logically i know wildfires happen anyway like theyre a natural thing but isnt there something apocalyptic about wildfires becoming SO common and SO destructive to where the past few years ive regularly experienced wildfire smoke here on long island, a place that doesnt naturally experience many wildfires, and the only reason we’re being hit with this smoke is because it has traveled hundreds of miles from across the country. And every year theres record heat waves and people dying. And every year theres record strong storms and hurricanes. And every year tornadoes are suddenly becoming more common outside tornado alley. just what is going on anymore man i just feel this vague sense of dread and doom all the time

[revvnant]

grungle.

[majorbitchwillgraham]

I kissed a girl for the 1st time today 🌸🌸💜💜🥰

May 27, 2023