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ostensiblyarticulate · 4 years ago

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Edit August 2023

Today on stuff I keep meaning to do, an updated writing post to pin, now with added Actually Everything. My intent is just to edit this for updates instead of making new posts; we’ll see how that goes.

Things I Have Written:

She-Ra (my beloved)

Catradora & Best Friends Squad hijinks, front to finish. Including 100+k words of post-canon stories focusing on the Best Friends Squad as they have space adventures (The Squad Goes Intergalactic), the super short one about predestination (Remade all the time), the also super short one where catradora doesn’t get married (Only Constant), the much longer one I wrote with @fuhadeza where catradora gets married a lot (The Thing About Forever), the self-indulgent one about fiber art (Twist; talk to me about spinning!), and the one where they’re Arthurian Knights that’s secretly an ode to the whole thing Tristram/Lamorak have going on (I will do you gentleness).

Riverdale (Rest In Chaos)

Join me in the descent from Jughead’s impenetrably pretentious s5 polyam-subtext-but-textually-bughead-because-Jughead’s-unreliable introspection that you should skip unless you’re up for an endurance challenge (Another Love Song for Betty Cooper) to Betty’s much more succinct and readable adventures in being aromantic but cool to make out with him (An Antonym for Serenade) to wait actually I think I’m going all in on the Betty/Archie/Veronica/Jughead polyamory (alternative solutions for gordian knots) to cool they have superpowers but only Betty/Veronica/Archie get to quite literally come (In then out, and other ways to breathe) to POP THE CHAMPAGNE THE OT4 IS CANON let’s get Jughead back in there, yeah he’s confused about it too (In which Reggie Mantle is not invited to the polycule). Somewhere in there I also wrote a completely canon compliant character study of the Biblical Angel Raphael (Shall the water not remember).

Star Wars (is a fun time)

Weird little philosophical things about Count Dooku’s Qui-Gon Jinn guilt (this thing of darkness), Ezra Bridger & Leia Organa almost hooking up as reckless teens in the least sexy encounter ever and never talking about it ever again (Requiem for a Misspent Youth), Hera Syndulla & Luke Skywalker talking because I think they should talk (They talk about Jedi), and the uncomfortable generational angst that just kind of lives between Luke Skywalker & Ahsoka Tano (Chiasmus).

Stranger Things (is also here)

Gets its own section because I have two more I’ll be super sad if I never finish. Currently two Steve fics (the king is dead, Steve Harrington is Having a Crisis Today) and one Robin fic (Party Plan) in which everyone assumes everyone else is straight, everyone is wrong, and it leads to silliness with a side of feelings. Very, very robust drafts of the Nancy and Eddie fic very much continue to exist in my drafts and oh boy would I love to ffs finish them.

Other

Midsummer Night’s Dream ot4 shenanigans (four bosoms and one troth), a non-linear Arcane fic about CaitVi (Pins & String), a more important Arcane fic about spotlights ([that one saying about a nail]), the one about the fairy tale you’re more likely to know (about 12 Princesses, Dancing), the one about the fairy tale you’re less likely to know (Jorinde & Joringel; Fraxinella), concerning changelings (original work), concerning dragons (Game of Thrones/Harry Potter xover), concerning witches (The Squire’s Tales by Gerald Morris; the company of witches), concerning punching god(s) in the face (RWBY; if it had to perish twice), Harry Potter house sorting meta (Out of Sorts), a very silly Destiel fix-it fic (how soon unaccountable), an even sillier Teen Wolf fic ft. none of the characters anyone cares about (Brett Talbot’s Last Week in Beacon Hills), a character study of Mulan from the Once Upon A Time TV show (Tactical Advantage), gay shit about the Enchanted sequel for some reason (Some Enchanted Evening), and now there’s a HSMTMTS one about the inherent homoeroticism of being romantic rivals in two different sequential love triangles ([line from I Don’t Dance here])

And of course all of it is on ao3 here.

I could totally end the post here, in which case it would be reasonably sized, very informative, and in no way make any promises I cannot keep. But where’s the fun in that, so...

...Things In My Drafts Folder (She-Ra, unless indicated otherwise):

I have a lot of drafts, and I’m writing them very slowly. Turns out, it takes longer to write things when you are (a) busy and (b) hopping between ten drafts at the whim of your brain instead of focusing on just one. The good news is that, historically speaking, when I stick with a hobby for a full year it tends to mean it’s not going anywhere. So while I can’t promise I’ll end up finishing all of these, the highest chance is that I’ll finish a bunch. Just...slowly.

(Edit 4/16/22: just...SO slowly. And I’m gonna run ttrpg again now so like...the slowest. But the drafts all DO still exist.)(Edit to add 8/31/23: I still really do want to finish these bc I am extremely proud of them but like idk who knows when. Ttrpg is going great tho so like hmu to talk about arthurian roleplay I guess)

Most of these fics have titles already, but I’m vaguely and nonsensically superstitious about announcing them so formally so early. So I...won’t.

The one where Catra & Glimmer have a space adventure ft. all of Catra’s shitty bosses. (I started this draft last summer, forgot about it for most of the year, and then proceeded to write a ton for it two nights ago. So: case in point about this stuff getting written just slowly.)

Adora And Her Spaceship.

The highkey catradora romance amnesia fic where I name the chapters after poems because sometimes I get to be pretentious, as a treat.

The catradora au that’s mostly about dragons and a little about a bad pun.

The star trek voyager au. Yes, also catradora, it’s all catradora.

Possibly a seamista fic??

An arranged marriage au that’s so deeply and totally backburnered that I’m not even bolding it but which I want to mention here on the off chance that if I ever get around to finishing it I can look back from a decade in the future and tell my past self I told you so.

(not She-Ra) Another Supernatural fic - aka the one where I rewrite plots for a bunch of female characters, because that’s what I did while I binged that show but also dear goodness it needs so much editing

(not She-Ra) The one where Anakin Skywalker is a shitty teen force ghost.

(not She-Ra) I would like to finish the Stranger Things drafts a lot yeah. Same with a bunch of Arcane stuff.

In conclusion: sorry for the long post. Extra sorry if you are someone who follows me for non-writing/non-She-Ra reasons. If it helps, it’ll probably be a long time until I make another one. In the meantime, my writing tag continues to be #forsythiarising, and if I remember to I may make a series of posts about the titles of my existing fics bc I have a lot of meta and love titles a lot. As with most of all this: we shall see.

#spop #she-ra #catradora #she-ra fanfic #forsythiarising

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maxbernini · 3 years ago

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I do honestly believe Yara was meant to be a LI for somebody before jünglinge was out of the show. It just makes sense to me. In my opinion, watching the clues the show gave us, I think jünglinge's plan was either a) give a season to each girl of the cash queens and Isi was a character that would become important for Ava's bullying plot or b) Nora/Fatou/Ava and then Isi (after a proper redemption arc. So to me Yara was the LI for either Ava, Mailin or Isi but got thrown out by the new team.

i agree with all of this!!! i’ve always thought it’d be 3/4 cashqueens + isi too; i feel like the new gen mains were going to address things the original gen had been criticised for not handling well or even at all (matteo’s mental illness with nora; mia’s bisexuality & the lack of wlwoc with kieutou; trans narratives explored through a cis main’s LI > a trans character as the main) and that ava wasn’t intended as a sam/chris copy (and she def isn’t anyways) but like…sam was who the fandom wanted s5’s main to be, she was the girl squad member with the least amount of narrative focus etc, so ava as a main would put a black girl at the centre again. i feel like mailin would’ve had an ace coming out arc (that fan survey that mentioned asexuality), but not as a main; i can see it happening maybe in the bg of isi’s season? mailin going to that queer youth group with her? both of them learning to be better people & friends?? idk idk but huge agree on everything, especially yara!!

like…keeping her insta locked but still active is so suspicious?? she posts stories from parties and things and the other characters repost them to their own stories to remind us that yara’s active on insta. but why, if it’s locked?? it feels like a deliberate “keeping smth from the audience and a character” thing. in jen’s isra manifesto she talks about possibly both of them being muslim (and isra thus responding to s4 criticism), so maybe yara’s ig would’ve revealed that?? and/or something indicating she isn’t straight??

i would kill to know what jünglinge’s whole plan was 😑 ava and _huelk, yara, mailin, the instas (her & everyone breaking into the school + posting about it online a season after a plot about privilege involving breaking rules + posting it online lmao), zoefinn’s polyam plot…ugh

#ask #anon #german posting

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dylanobrienisbatman · 3 years ago

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For the ship thing #15 and #18 (I'm SUPER curious about 15)

Ohhhh okay... okay... lets see lol

15. Fave Poly Ship

Augh i feel like I have so many, but my fave lately was probably the Polyam Belter Fam from The Expanse!!! Not only is it a canon polycule, but is a canon polycule of SPACE PIRATES!!!! I loved that the show was completely unapologetic about their relationship, and that the show runners were clear about the type of dynamic they had. They emphasised that these people don't just work together, they live together, on these ships, and they are a family in every sense of the word. They just also happen to be a polycule of super hot space pirates to boot. I also really loved that they were allowed to have conflict between them by the end of s5, and that it didn't revolve around jealousy or anything to do with their actual relationship. The fact that they sort of split into two parts at the end of the season was so sad, but it was sad and not annoying because it was an earned conflict, and it didn't negate the love these people had for each other. In fact, you felt the love even more when they decided to leave, because you could feel it breaking all of their hearts. Super excited for what comes next for them!

18. Guilty Pleasure Ship

I'm not really sure about this one tbh. I don't have a ton of ships that are like, gross or 'bad' or anything. I don't really ship 'dark' ships, it's not really my thing, and I don't really feel 'bad' about any of the stuff I ship, so the only thing i can really think of is that I LOVE the chemistry between Lu and Valerio on Elite, and I like... half ship it and hate myself for it. They are half siblings, so it's absolutely incest, and its very very gross, but god if Jorge and Danna don't have the most insane, fire chemistry I've ever seen. I also liked the fact that, even though it was totally gross and they should definitely NOT be doing it, it was framed as a way for them to feel loved in their childhood when they were both totally alone and given no support or love from their family. I also really loved that even after Valerio exposed their relationship and ended things with her, she still stood up for him and basically gave up her future and her family to protect him, because in their own little weird fucked up way he was the only person who had ever actually loved Lu and been there for her. So it's a weird mix of like, loving their chemistry, understanding the way they came to be in the totally fucked up relationship they're in and feeling a lot of sympathy for them, loving the support and care and love they have for each other, and also being completely grossed out with myself for kind of shipping an incest ship. This is my great shame, y'all.

#the expanse #polyam belter fam #elite #lu x valerio

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mrs-nate-humphrey · 4 years ago

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F, M, & V for the fic asks?

F: Share a snippet from one of your favorite dialogue scenes you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it.

so here’s a thing from “turning saints into the sea” :

“Well, I never figured I’d be thoroughly kissed by Nate Archibald,” Dan points out. He takes another overly generous gulp of the alcohol, misses where his mouth is, spills a fair amount on his shirt.

Serena, in her defence, doesn’t ogle him, she just gives him a look and grins. “Do you want me to get you an extra shirt? I definitely have a few men’s shirts. I might even have yours.”

“Why do you…” Dan begins, and then falters, wondering if he really wants to know the answer to that.

“You know me,” Serena says lightly. “I break men’s hearts, I steal men’s shirts.”

Dan laughs, and Serena beams back.

“Come on,” she says, taking Dan’s hand, pulling him up the narrow stairs attached to the kitchen. “And don’t think you’ve gotten off easy. Talk to me.”

honestly? i am very proud of ALL the dialogue in this one. i was going to copy paste the dan/nate conversation but that has a pretty major spoiler for this fic, and this fic has like... One plot point? so i didn’t want to spoil it, haha. i like this one because i love dan and serena, and anyone who’s followed me for like, even fifteen minutes knows how badly i just wanted them to be good friends/ exes who get along! this is the sort of dynamic i wanted them to have in the long run, like, joking about each other’s current partners or crushes or experiences with no bitterness, and basically just. being able to talk to each other about stuff.

M: Got any premises on the back burner that you’d care to share?

uhh, i’m actively working on a jenny/blair fic that’s all abt character growth and redemption stuff, so like.. what a healthy relationship for the two of them would entail! it’s post series but also pre-finale, it takes place during a period of time when dan and serena are engaged but not married, and blair and chuck are, and explores stuff like nate’s canon ending (which i of course save him from, i don’t want him to be alone, he’s baby) and chuck being abusive and derena being weddingly incompatible. idk if it’s back burnery stuff because it’s very much a priority, but also, due to the nature of themes im trying to explore, it’s not a fic i can sit down and focus on and write at one go - i need to take breaks from it and work on it only when im in a specific headspace. blah.

uh, i also want to work on this canon compliant/ dan is not gossip girl fic. like, an entirely canon compliant fic in which he’s not gossip girl. “but ivy,” you may ask. “he said he was gossip girl in canon, why did he do that and what for?” the short answer is ‘he lied’. the long answer and the explanation will be the fic. i have a whole thing planned out for serena here!

oh and then there’s this. it started out as a joke, but i am so going to write it, eventually. i mean. just look at those tags.

one of these days i will actually write some deep character study / meta that focuses around nate, because i think the world needs that and i think nate deserves it. something that works how ‘for blue skies’ by andsmile explored serena as a character through the plot and her decisions and conflicts - that’s all i know about the direction it will take. i have no idea where it’ll go or how i will navigate it, or who i will write him with. im hoping all that will fall into place later.

speaking of nate! i have a beautiful enemies to lovers au planned for dan and nate. it’s very, uh. i don’t know how to describe it, but the premise is that in like, 8th grade, they’re assigned to work together as partners on some assignment, and they totally get off on the wrong foot. and they both resent each other. and then working through the fact that both of them thinks the other’s life is perfect / that the other has the thing that they really want, and them eventually learning more about each other and realising that their misconceptions ARE, in fact misconceptions. idk. i just want to write nate being a mean little man.

V: If you could write the sequel (or prequel) to any fic out there not written by yourself, which would you choose?

honestly? i have no idea, this question is one of the few that i was just like... *blinks*. but im thinking probably be my heater, be my lover by margottenenbaum, mostly because it’s incomplete and it hurt me, how it ends! if i actually got a chance to finish this i don’t know what exactly i’d do; given everything that’s happened in this fic so far, a healthy nate/dan/serena polyam relationship doesn’t feel particularly possible, towards the end. i think the happiest ending would be serena sorting herself out, possibly going on the run with carter baizen and then later on having this moment of clarity where she goes “oh, i hurt them both really badly.” or something. (the serena characterisation in this fic felt really similar to s5 serena characterisation, and i have always felt like there’s a lot that can be fleshed out over there? serena’s not as easily prone to jealousy as blair, i feel. but as someone else was saying on LJ, she’s had so few people who were truly hers, she can be possessive without realising it. i think that’s part of why she’s so against dan/blair at the beginning - like, they are her people. they aren’t supposed to belong with each other. i dunno.)

i am physically incapable of keeping things brief, it would appear. uh.... whoops?

#long post #fanfic ask meme #personal #wow this is one hell of an essay ! hahaha #mezzoklutz

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myrmidryad · 4 years ago

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Tagged by @lorraineblack90! Thank you! 😘

Three ships in any order: Well right now Michael and Alex from Roswell New Mexico are my primary OTP. It’s uhhhh kind of all-consuming, but I love them, and I love their messy history and I’m always down to clown for a soulmate story.

Enjolras/Grantaire from Les Mis are the ultimate opposites attract. It’s about the symbolism. It’s about the iconic lines that sum them up - no one loves the light like the blind man, the toad who loves to watch the eagle fly, all of that. It’s about the constant battle between belief and cynicism. They die holding hands! It doesn’t get much more tragic and romantic than that!!!

And I was going to finish off with Arthur/Merlin but actually I’m gonna go for Alex/Michael/Maria, also from RNM, because they’re who I’m writing fic for atm and I’m enjoying it a whole bunch! I just want everyone involved to be happy! And I love a polyam ship, and I love all the characters involved, and it just makes me happy.

Last song: Helpless from Hamilton. I just woke up with Satisfied in my head this morning and couldn’t quite remember how Helpless went, so I needed to remind myself.

Last movie: Midsommar. So glad I finally got round to watching it, and almost on Midsummer itself, which is neat. I love Florence Pugh, and I loved how pretty the film was. I’ve never been so keen for a boyfriend to die. But WOW that is a terrifying and fucked up cult this poor woman’s just been dragged into, holy shit.

Currently reading: The Old Ways by Robert Macfarlane. I love a non-fiction nature book.

Currently watching: I’m on S5 of Leverage, nearly done! I’m also watching the latest season of Queer Eye, I need to keep going with Hollywood at some point, and I’m watching the latest seasons of Ambulance and Celebrity Gogglebox as the episodes are released. I also need to keep going with Dark, and get back to Black Sails at some point.

Currently consuming: Just had spaghetti carbonara for lunch, I’m drinking a lot of water because it’s asscrack hot atm, and tea throughout the day too.

Food I’m craving right now: More of the green Thai soup my housemate made for last night’s dinner. I’ll have the leftovers of that for dinner tonight, and I can’t wait because it’s fucking delicious.

I’m not gonna tag anyone but if you want to do this, do it! It’s fun!

#tag meme

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qevillous · 1 year ago

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someone get them down from there

#coroika #s5 #polyam s5 #poly s5 #army #rider #aloha #skull #mask #splatoon #redraw #og png ss from daydrian on yt #wink #i hope they dont See This that would be embarrasing

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pinkletterday · 6 years ago

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Writer's Year In Review

This year has been a revelation. I went from deeply, irrevocably believing I can't write fiction at all to knowing that I'm actually pretty good at it!

It's given me the confidence to find work as a freelance writer and editor in real life, after years of unemployment and anxious paralysis resulting from chronic illness and trauma. A lot of other factors also helped but the fic writing played a huge role in getting my shit together.

General Fic Stats:

Word Count on AO3: 92284

Fics posted to AO3: 23

Favourite Fic:

Kiss It Better (Westallen).This fic is my baby. I love little Iris and little Barry in it so much, the hurt and confusion in each other they attempted to heal, how that healing carried into their adult love and family. It will always and always be my favourite thing I have ever written. Wee!stallen is my jam, and the reason I ship them so damn hard.

Do Not Go Gentle (Westallen). Ngl, I love this for the sheer amount of truly gratifying comments. Every single one of them have been emotional and flaily. It all makes me feel like I may have finally levelled up. Hallelujah. xD

Funniest Fic:

The Care and Feeding (Queenwestallen). This is my ultimate OT3. This fic, written as a list and discussion is 95% humour and contains some of my best banter and (I feel) characterization. An element I'm really proud of is how I managed to center and include all their important non-romantic relationships in their conversations. Iris's boisterous female friends, Oliver's friends, Cisco and Caitlin's snarky commentary all shoehorned themselves into the list with hilarious and wholesome results.

It's not a popular OT3 but I feel like it's a good first attempt to drag this ship to water. xD

Cutest Fic:

Dancing Queen (Olivarry). Even after a year this contiues to be the fic with the highest kudos ratio (except for the more recent one) and the second most bookmarked. I love getting comments on this because they are all some variation of "my teeth hurt. I have diabetes!" xD Well, I did build it around a rainbow sprinkle icing sugar donut, but there is a significant dollop of angst there in the middle. A flangst donut.

Your Vigil In My Keeping (Westallen). This fic has less than 200 hits but has the highest kudos ratio of all. I guess kid fic isn't everyone's cup of tea, but Wee!stallen is cute af yo. I headcanon the origins of Barry and Iris's steadfast partnership in this story, where her faith and belief in him is as strong as his protectiveness of her, all tied up in the language and innocence of children.

Kinkiest Fic:

WA Smut and Kink Collection. I literally just posted this yesterday lol. So far it's just a face-sitting short, but I have quite a few hard and soft kinks lined up. Westallen needs more hard smut tbh, and they have such a unique powerfully loving dynamic that every kink I'm writing has required me to come at it a little bit sideways with a whole lot of emotional focus.

Saddest Fic:

Three fics I can't choose from.

Do Not Go Gentle (Westallen). This is basically Iris's grief and fear in a raging tempest, and it's strongly implied that the future Nora has warned them of will come to pass regardless of what they do. The fact is that there already is and will be a timeline where Iris loses Barry, just as there must be one where she won't, because that is the nature of potentiality.

The Paradigm of Uncertainty (Westallen). This was a drabble almost, that ruminates on the probability that speedsters do not erase timelines but abandon them, along those versions of their loved ones. It's as @rkwago's brilliant comment says: "Iris hurts in so many weird, cosmic ways that her life is almost an eldritch horror house," which is the most perfect description ever of what it means to be a time traveller's wife.

The Universal Constant (Gen, background WA). A lot of people find the way Barry goes off on Joe cathartic in this fic, and so do I. But it's not so simple. I don't think Joe was wrong to form the views he did, or that anyone was in the wrong really. As @sophiainspace pointed out, it's a mediation of grief and love, their parallels and continuations between parents and children and lovers. The fact that it takes Henry's death for Barry to find the adult language to articulate to Joe why he will always believe in his father's innocence is a tragedy that cuts three ways.

(This fic is also the reason I have a folder in my drive marked "how to get away with murder" and probably a likely reason to get me arrested one day. xD)

Most Popular Fic:

Strangers In The Cold (Coldflash). The Coldflash fandom is a joy to feed. This was my first smut fic which was preceded by an entire chapter of banter about nothing in particular (except it ended up establishing a background that gave birth to the Coldflash vs Olivarry polyam series) And holy wow, for a newbie writer, the response has been amazing. Looking back, I wince at a lot of writing mistakes and its undeniably rough, but it really bolstered my confidence.

(I feel a little guilty that all my other CF stories are still in my WiP folder while I update the polyam series at snail's pace.)

The Shape of Us (Westallen). I wrote this on tumblr half-asleep one night, half as a rambly headcanon...and woke up to literally one hundred freaking notes. What the hell. Now at over 260, it's the most popular fic I've ever posted on tumblr.

I never consciously intended it to be a body-positivity fic but apparently women really relate to the insecurities of growing older and watching our bodies change with marriage, children and the sheer hectic pace of life. Even my non-fandom friends reblogged it simply for its representation of "real women". Barry's response is my own wish fulfillment fantasy; the sort of total acceptance and validation that we wish we could hear it the times we can't find it in ourselves. In light of the virulent body-shaming Candice Patton has been subjected to ever since she was revealed to have gained a fuller figure in S5, I'm very glad to have written it.

Least Popular Fic:

Carry On (Gen) This character study of Oliver Queen only has 135 hits a year after posting, which is par for the course with gen. But has a solid 12% kudos ratio, which means it's probably as good as I think it is. It's one of my favourite and easiest fics I have ever written.

Love Me Like You Do (Olivarry) Lordy, if my first Coldflash smut filled me with confidence, my first Olivarry smutfic all but ruined it. I struggled with it for a long time, unlike SitC, which I suppose shows in the over-descriptions. I got carried away with the quipping and I guess Barry topping at all is really not popular with slash fans?

Still, I'm honestly toying with the idea of deleting and rewriting it. At least it was a learning experience - don't write smut unless it makes you feel horny yourself.

Most Challenging Fic:

Do Not Go Gentle (Westallen). I think the reason stories you knock off in two hours are instantly popular while the ones you slaved over for weeks barely get any attention is because the process is reflected in the ease of reading. But this one is an exception. It was an absolute monster, taking three weeks and several revisions to wrestle into submission - and it paid off in spades! Going by the response, I seem to have achieved the wow factor I was going for.

My only regret is that I posted it on tumblr before the last revision that finally made it work, so that too many readers saw the lacklustre version rather than the polished one.

Honorable Mention:

A Stitch In Time (Olivarry for now, eventual Queenwestallen) Baby's first multi-chapter! Admittedly chapters 3 and 4 have been languishing in my drive for a few months now and this thing has 100% more deleted scenes and outtakes posted to my tumblr than the actual story on AO3. But I'm so proud of it! I learned to write action scenes because of it, how to write climaxes, dream sequences, news articles and tell a story in several different formats. It made me rediscover my empathy for Felicity and write her as a PoV character, think deeply on Laurel Lance's losses and give voice to her struggles, and explore how a real friendship and understanding could evolve between Oliver and Iris out of their mutual love for Barry. (Centering female characters within manpain narratives, ftw! Otoh, I centered Iris so much it veered off the Olivarry rails into Queenwestallen territory on its own)

There is so much meaty conflict and delicious looming disaster in this story that I'm determined going to keep at it, even if slow and steady. If only to bring the light of Barry/Iris/Oliver into the world. xD

Holding On (Olivarry). This real-world disability AU deals with chronic and mental illness and the precariousness and personal demons of that reality. I tore out the rawest parts of my life for this fic and put them on display so that I couldn't bear to show it to anyone for a year after it was written.

I'm very glad I did finally brush it off and put it up because it has struck a chord with so many people, especially other Spoonies. The low number of hits on a fic that deals in hurt/comfort rather stings, as I can't help but think the disinterest is because of the "disability" and "neurodivergence" tags. But I still think it's one of the best things I've written and one I'll always be proudest of.

General Reflections:

Things I've learned over the past year of writing:

- Self-deprecation is not my friend. I need to be honest enough with myself to acknowledge when my writing is good, because either I self-validate and build confidence or I become a black hole of insecurity where validation goes to die. And if I think I'm a bit better than I actually am, it's not just okay but necessary to believe it.

- What I call writer's block is perfectionism, anxiety and physical and mental fatigue. If I don't eat, sleep, hydrate and acheive a relaxed mental state, I won't be able to write.

- Momentum is more my friend than any amount of inspiration and motivation. Sitting my ass down and make it a habit to churn out X number of words a day, even bad writing, will do more to help me than polishing an idea to a high shine.

- If I don't forgive myself for the stories I can't write I'll never write anything. I am doing this for free, to share the love and joy and therefore obligated to no one.

- I'm capable of writing things I don't have the first idea how to write. My fingers on a keyboard can paint the picture my brain can't visualize.

I don't believe in New Year's resolutions, but I am going to make it a personal goal to write at least 15k words per month, learn to stick to a posting schedule where possible. and end next year with an additional 150k words posted.

To everyone who follows this blog, commented, reblogged and liked my posts - I see and remember and appreciate every one of you. You're the reason I feel seen and valued and why I am motivated to keep writing through all the difficulties life throws at me. <3<3<3

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