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heartbreaking! the worst people you know refer to each other with affectionate pet names!
#pretty sure there weren't any between vox and val. tho there was that weird hand-holdy bit in poison which almost counts#i love when bad guys are nice to eachother ^_^#willow whispers#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel spoilers
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AI and Tumblr
In the event of any kind of AI Art API is to be trained on this platform I do not give permission for my art to be sampled or used to train AI without financial compensation, artists hold the copyright to our art and any intentional mimicry or sampling of my art by an artificial intelligence is infringing on an artist's rights to their creations.
We as artists will not take this grim proposal between Tumblr and Midjourney laying down, this was the last safe heaven for a lot of us and you are now holding knives to us entirely to solve your financial woes instead of offering meaningful solutions. You are going to bleed your community of all trust and all revenue you still eek out of us. Your ways have changed from one of a community built around passion for fandom and the creative mind to one of greed and exclusion. You have been showing true colors and they are ugly, they are sickening, and they will kill your platform. If this deal goes through, may your platform die slow and painfully, may you watch your most loyal of whales walk away and leave you drying out in the hot pavement that is bankruptcy.
#batty babbles#negative#recent events#artists on tumblr#im sorry this is so harsh and wordy but i have been passionately against AI art for years#and now the place i think im safe from it is risking throwing all trust a way for money.#recent whisperings have been going around#stay updated; glaze and poison your posts; they will not win; they will not steal from us
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You love me,
So you say
You wish me,
The loveliest of days
You kiss me,
And tell me it’s okay
Yet I can feel your love,
Fading away
#artists on tumblr#dark academia#poeticstories#poets#classic literature#coquette#poetic#poeticstateofmind#dark and beautiful#fear of change#fear of abandonment#fear of rejection#fear of failure#lit#poets of tumblr#artists of tumblr#sad poem#sad poetry#dark and twisted whisper#dark and gloomy#dark romanticism#dark poem#poets on love#love poesia#poetry about love#love quotes#love quote#love is like a poison#fading away#fading love
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Hnnngh. I haven’t been talking to my sister for like four years. She’s in an abusive relationship and I was trying to support her, but she radicalized as a result of her shitty husband. She tried to hide it until I confronted her and she ended up telling me she didn’t think trans people deserve rights. So I cut contact.
But it sucks. I still have dreams where she apologizes and turns back into the sister I looked up to. And I hate that her abusive husband has very successfully cut her off from any support networks.
She messaged me today out of the blue talking about His Dark Materials and she’s not allowed on social media so I know it was just a funny universe coincidence. But I started texting back.
We had a short talk about books and she said she was glad I responded because she misses me. I don’t want to start shit but I don’t want her in my life more than this small chat because it’s not like she’s stopped being hateful, but I do miss the sister I grew up with.
#ramblies#she’s always been selfish but she now thinks gay people go to hell and therapy is for wackos and that it’s okay to hit your kids#I know it takes time and patience to deradicalize people but I just don’t have the spoons#bedsides which her abusive husband will still br whispering poison in her ears all the time
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Pjo episode 4 but every time Percy says the stinger was poisonous Annabeth or Grover corrects him and says its venomous
#He's dying of the poison and one of them whispers “venomous not poisonous”#percy jackon and the olympians#percy jackson#annabeth chase#grover underwood#pjo spoilers
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ngl clodius cld be a beautiful eunuch in a chinese dynasty
#hes whispering terrible terrible things to both the emperor and empress. separately. he'll make them hate each other#an dehai clodius? serving [hm] cixi? poisons [hm] guangxu?#wait was it an dehai. im chinesefail historyforgetter sorry guys#also. eunuch clodius. bottom surgery clodius etc#publius clodius pulcher#the romans were chinese
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au where scar is the royal guard assigned to keep prince grian safe as he travels to a neighbouring kingdom for a peace treaty but they get ambushed and have to survive in nature until they can get to civilization <3
#and scar teaches grian how to sword fight to protect himself and maybe he lets grian win a couple times because grian is so beautiful when#he’s happy and scar teaches him how to shoot an arrow so they can hunt for food and grian literally cannot focus because scars arms are#wrapped around him and he’s whispering in grian’s ear and grian reboots when after he lets go of the arrow.. scar drops his hands to grian’#waist…. and grian teaches scar which plants are poisonous vs safe to eat and he loses his train of thought a million times because scar#keeps just looking at his lips and grian just can’t stand it anymore when scar licks his lips… so he interrupts himself and places a kiss#on the corner of scars mouth and scar just kinda pauses and grian thinks maybe he read the situation wrong until scar cups grains face and#brings him back in and it’s so perfect and everything they’ve ever wanted and and and#sorry i’m thinking about them#okay i’ll shut up now <3#actually no i won’t because this is my post. they have to dress each others wounds and they do it far more gently than they need to <3#scarian#desert duo#hermitshipping#grian#gtws#hermitcraft#trafficshipping#au concept#royalty au
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me watching the new episode FINALLYYYYY THEY ACKOWLEDGE KCCCCC
alsO KINDA UPSETTTING
#'it should be yellow or green' me whispering oh no#'what does red mean' WHISPERS OH NOO#moon so confident that kc wouldve been either tho....#it hurts me so but gdi#i duunno how to feel about them setting their sights on bloodmoon#he DID cause problems yeah but also like. ruin manipulated some of that#LEGITIMATELY SENT BLOODMOON AFTER KC#bm may have been mad at kc but like...#*think about bloodmoons very real problem of freedom and need for a family outside themself*#i know this is gonna justify something somehow but we know.... bm meant most of it yeah but like alsO LITERALLY KINDA#RUIN REALLY PUT EMPHASIS ON SOMETHINGS#plus we dont know what exactly ruin wanted bloodmoon for#thats still a possibility#also solar (niceeclipse) kinda.... exists#we do have to wonder about whether he'd be chill about them being hunted down#also like fdisdk 'isnt his father-' 'killcode or eclipse pick ur poison'#the fact they brought that up and im LIKE HMNNN#anyway saw the fnaf movie so brain whirring#sun and moon show spoilers
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making some good project progress so far this year!!!
it feels so good to have more than halved what I've got in my project tracker over last year and this month (and these ones are from this month alone!)
info (+ skins) under the cut!
Decay (it/its) (skin: Hellwell Snaps by Cayleth) : It's a minor god of mutation and survival in my lore
Kyrma (any pronouns) (skin: Gustgather Guise by brightmyth) : depending on what part of the Forest someone is in, they'll hear two different things for them. One, is that they're the spirit of the wind. The other, the god of freedom
Tarpit (it/its) : hoping to find a fitting accent eventually. It's an incredibly ancient spirit of the Forest, dragging unsuspecting victims into the sludge of its namesake so their souls can be claimed by the forest.
Koba (he/him) : Suspected to be a guardian spirit himself, he can often be found with or near the guardian Arahael; it's believed that his mere presence wards off malevolent spirits.
Crabsquid (any pronouns) : Subnautica fandragon of my favorite creature from the game <3
Savir (she/her) (skin: The Desert Calls by Verdes) : When she died, her soul went unclaimed by the Forest, leaving her to wander her place of death aimlessly. She began to grow angry and violent in her loneliness... At least, until she was discovered by Apsular.
Apsular (she/it) (skin: Bodies Wash Ashore by Tymbs) : A benevolent creature residing in a large swamp, she guides travelers lost in her home back to safety. She discovered the spirit Savir near the edge of its swamp, and helped to tame her anger; the two now work together to help those who are lost.
#flight rising#dragon share#whispering forest lore#fr snapper#fr skydancer#fr veilspun#fr aberration#fr mirror#fr ridgeback#fr bogsneak#striation gene#poison gene#toxin gene#capsule gene#animal bones#dragon: decay#dragon: kyrma#dragon: tarpit#dragon: koba#dragon: savir#dragon: apsular
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Tag drop: Dorian Pavus
#dorian pavus. [ he says we're alike. too much pride. once i would have been overjoyed to hear him say that. now I'm not certain. ]#dorian pavus: ic. [ you find joy in it not shame. it shows. / why be ashamed? power should be respected. not swept under the carpet. ]#dorian pavus: inquiries. [ stop talking like you're waiting for applause. / what? there's no applause? ]#dorian pavus: countenance. [ i'm here to set things right. also? to look dashing. that part's less difficult. ]#dorian pavus: introspection. [ selfish i suppose. not to want to spend my entire life screaming on the inside. ]#dorian pavus: meta. [ you inspired me with your marvelous antics. you’re shaping the world. how could i aspire to do any less? ]#dorian pavus: little notes. [ living a lie. it festers inside you like poison. you have to fight for what’s in your heart. ]#dorian pavus: etc. [ you can't call me pampered. nobody's peeled a grape for me in weeks. ]#dorian pavus: magic. [ don't your spells whisper things to you? what is and could be? music in the mind of strange faraway places? ]#dorian pavus: inquisition. [ we're going to get lost and starve to death. aren't we? a glorious end for the inquisition. ]#dorian pavus: tevinter. [ despite appearances. we care deeply. about everything. we have no reserve. not in war and not in love. ]#dorian pavus: felix. [ even in illness he was the best of us. with him around you knew things could be better. ]#dorian pavus: gereon. [ we used to talk about how we could make real change in the imperium. then he gave up. he stopped trying. ]#dorian pavus: halward. [ i only wanted what was best for you. / no. you wanted the best for you. your fucking legacy. ]#dorian pavus: aquinea. [ her blame was cold and smothering. never spoken but always present. he couldn't face that. not yet. ]#dorian pavus: inquisitor. [ you have too many people asking you for everything under the sun. i won't be one of them. ]#dorian pavus: solas. [ you startled me. you're always so... nondescript. / please speak up. i cannot hear you over your outfit. ]#dorian pavus: varric. [ what do you think sparkler? ten royals says the next thing we run into farts fire. / taken i win either way. ]#dorian pavus: cullen. [ gloat all you like. i have this one. / are you sassing me commander? i didn't know you had it in you. ]#dorian pavus: cassandra. [ blue scarf? why would i be wearing such a thing? / It's a painting. work with me. it'll be fantastic. ]#dorian pavus: cole. [ you say you're handsome all the time. am i? i can't tell. / you're all right. might want to rethink the hats. ]#dorian pavus: vivienne. [ i received a letter the other day dorian. / truly? it's nice to know you have friends. ]#dorian pavus: blackwall. [ point is. you should let yourself off the hook. i know bad men and you're not one. ]#dorian pavus: sera. [ you magic me: i'll put three arrows in your eye. / now we can live together in peace and harmony. ]#dorian pavus: bull. [ no qunari would accept a tevinter mage unless it was a ruse. when should i expect a knife in the back? ]#dorian pavus: corypheus. [ one of yours? / one of mine? like a pet? a giant darkspawn hamster with aspirations of godhood? ]
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i need invincible season 3 right neow
#we're still like 2 months out till a teaser i would assume..... (nycc)................................#augh. ouch. pokemon poison damage sound effect#willow whispers#invincible
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Hello tumblr, this is my mantra
#first post#hi hello#hello everybody#hello everyone#fleabag#whisper memes#batman#poison ivy#narnia#tomie manga#junji ito#i support womens rights and womens wrongs#i support womens wrongs#whisper#a promising young woman#gorgeous women#woman icons#scarlet red#scarlet witch
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I wanna be nastyyyyy, can I horny post or is it not the hour
#[whispers.༉‧₊˚🕯️ ]#might have monsterfucking on my mind#and big brother choso <3#ugh pick your poison
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The fandom has gotten really dark since you left.. certain shippers are really aggressive about their ships to the point of bullying. I kno you’ve dealt with stuff like that in the past and you handled it all so well I remember reading some anon asks.. any tips n’tricks?
OOF, WHELP -- not sure I'll be much help given that I have no idea what state the fandom is in. All I can really say is that you're going to find aggressive shippers no matter what fandom you're in. My method to dealing with people like that was to just block them and add them to my blacklist. The only times I ever engaged with them was if they came at me directly (which rarely happened -- the more aggressive they are, the more cowardly they were when it came to confrontation) or if they put a callout post about me directly in the main fandom tag. I always clapped back at those people just because like lol if you've got a problem with my fics or my decision to delete them all, okay cool, I don't care, but doing stuff like putting a long-winded complaint post in the main tag is so childish and stupid.
The best advice I think I can give for this is to just not care LOL I sure as hell never did and still don't. Never will! Shipping is supposed to be fun and the people who actively try and take that fun away from others are struggling with issues outside of fandom, but shipping is their outlet so that's where their aggression manifests. Happy people don't care about drama over fictional characters, so go be a happy person! Utilize that block option and live your best life!
#anon#for real you will find this in every fandom#I've been too involved in my own stuff to get involved with any other fandoms after this one#but if you'd like an example of a fandom that went absolutely feral in terms of bullying#lookup what happened to the Voltron fandom#I wasn't even active in it and I heard so much stuff about it#sending voice actors death threats#sending food laced with nails and poisons#lying about trauma to get people to donate to a gofundme#stealing thousands and thousands of dollars for zines#the bloodshed between Shiro/Keith and Keith/Lance#it was all so incredibly stupid#for the love of god be a happy person#indulge yourself in what you enjoy#ignore everything else#even if you try to be nice to everyone like I did you will still experience haters#it happens and no biggie#do your best and learn your lessons then move on#HOPE THIS HELPS#sorry for all the tags#I forgot how much I enjoyed just whispering gently down here
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#— Whispers Against The Void ••#i'm so tired actually#exhausted. so exhausted.#no but why does the thought of engaging in tumblr again so dreadful rn#writing has become more of a poison for me these past few weeks#i dont mind the silence and the less and lessening activity of my blog. pretty sure i can garner lots of shit again if i post something#but what if i wanna be the requester rn. what if i have ideas i cannot execute but i know others can?#what if i wanna entrust my ideas to someone else rn#gods its- what happened? where did my spirits and eagerness go? how and when did tumblr and writing become so poisonous for me#my priorities are all over the place and im not even on the list myself#if wanderer was here rn looking at me- hes be shitting his pants at first with pity then have this hidden heartbreak with the sight of me#im actually scared of shitposting again like before#or posting anything at all#haah fuck#'happy' new year people 🥰
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Amira, Witch-Queen of Kolchis
headcanon time!! ok so this has the chance to get loooong so imma spare us aLL and bulletpoint this one, but everyone and esp @forgottenedmund as both admin and the other person currently playing a calainon, lmk what you think bc this might just be ~too insane and idk what you have planned etc alskdjflkjsdfjkdf
KOLCHIS & INTRO
house calainon does not exist or, it perhaps once did, but if it ever truly did, the ages have turned its true history to legend and myth
nonetheless, amira and her brothers make claim to that descent through one tenuous proof: witchcraft
while, given her husband's acute hatred of all seers, this might seem a great shock, this is also the truth, and it is (part of) why amira so tenaciously clings to the memory of her grandmother's gift
so real talk, im using kolchis as the place-holder name for the place amira's from (yes i ~did lift that from greek myth and just partially changed the spelling and no i will ~not apologize ;D), but im picturing an ancient athens meets mythological colchis meets constantinople/the byzantine empire w/ just a dash of ptolemaic alexandria sdlkafjskljdfjkdsf gotta grab all my greek-rooted mega cultures ig laksdjfkjlsdf (and yeah im sure the soldiers there def dip into sparta shhhh) so yeahhhh when you picture amira growing up, its that
CALAINON
in ages past, it is written, there once lived a young and ambitious warlord, called calainon, who is said to have conquered the known world (think alexander the great meets achilles meets hercules meets oedipus meets pelops meets atreus etc etc)
many legends speak of this ambitious fellow, holding often that he was the son of a god and a mortal woman, that he was possessed of superhuman strength and skill and daring, and that no mere mortal could stand before him
while there is no certainty, in truth, that this person ever did exist, it is said that he was the founder of the great city of kolchis, which he made the center of his great empire and that he built the still unfinished, storm-struck tower which was, for many eons, the highest building in all the world and called the stair of calainon (as according to legend he had built it as an attempt to reach the heavens and tear the gods from their holy temples in the skies)
there are two versions of the tales of calainon -- one in which he is cast as a tragic hero, and another in which he apears as a twisted villain
known to history both as calainon the deathless (for it is said that he groans still, buried deep in the bowels of the earth, half unable to die as his father was a god and half unable to live as his mother was a mortal) or, more popularly, cursed calainon the balsphemer
it will probs not surprise you to learn that calainon has always been a great hero of roderick's and thus that, tying his own burgeoning legend to the great calainon's, was a very appealing prospect to roderick
many hero-kings, horrific monsters, celebrated seers, cruel despots, and tragic martyrs of myth and legend are said to have descended from the house of calainon, and it is said that the line of calainon will endure until the end of all time for, cursed though they may be, half-gods they once were also
yet, if any of them ever did exist, it is ages past since any of them were known, save one source: local legend of kolchis speaks of the high priestesses of kolchis...
CALAINON THE VILLAIN
often held up as an example of hubris, calainon dared so much that the gods, themselves, stepped in
a great war took place and, it is oft said in kolchis that calainon committed the heresy of not merely daring to lock away the gods -- a heroic act -- but of attempting to steal their power
all of this he attempted w the erstwhile help of the guardian of kolchis known as the kolchian dragon
some myths hold that the great poisonous drake aided him only in sealing away the gods, and he forced the guardian's hand in attempting to steal the power of the gods
but others hold the guardian wished to aid him in both quests
tales disagree as well on how much calainon achieved: did he manage to seize for himself the power of the gods, or did he fail?
all sources agree on one thing however: there was a titanic battle fought amongst the clouds. the earth shook, lightning broke the fortress below, tidal waves sweeping the broken battlements away, and whole islands were drowned in the uproarious fury of the gods
but ultimately, though sealed away, the gods prevailed and cast down the heretic calainon in his hubris, imprisoning him forever beneath the earth
in his defeat, they cursed him, blinded him, and buried him alive, hurled from the heavens into the abyss of the earth (think: fall of lucifer sort of imagery)
in some variants, the gods also cursed his bloodline forever after, but this is another point upon which there are several variants
CALAINON THE HERO & THE HIGH PRIESTESS OF KOLCHIS
one of the many myths of calainon relates to an unending fire and a dragon, and it is in this version of the story (which happens to be roderick's favorite), that calainon appears not as a villain, but as a hero
in this legend, calainon's war with the gods is a fight for freedom, suppressing the deities with the help of kolchis' legendary guardian, known most often as the kolchian dragon
in the tragedy of the great calainon, he fights the gods only to be cast down in their vengeance, but not before sealing them away forever
in this version it is said that his warrior's spirit shall someday be reborn in a new form to lead the world once again (i invite you to guess how roderick might think he could potentially tie into this myth ;DDD)
according to a local legend in the great city of kolchis, before launching his campaign against the gods, calainon as god-king of kolchis appointed his eldest daughter, arsinoe, as high-priestess
she was a great seeress, famed for her wisdom and power, whose responsibility it was to tend the sacred eternal flame at the shrine of the kolchian dragon
hers was a fiery offering to keep the dragon-guardian strong against the fearsome gods, where her female descendants (for in kolchis it is held that a true seer must be a woman) shall forever after continue her great work, tending the eternal flame to assure that it may never go out or the kolchian dragon, the great guardian, will fade to nothing and die and, it is said, upon that day the gods will be unleashed and bring apocalypse upon the mortals who dared give them chains
this flame was a great bonfire at the center of the shrine, so vast that in ancient days, it was said that it could be seen in every part of the old city, a beacon that never went out
according to this legend, it is the divine blood of calainon which gives a seer her powers and, thus, it is believed -- according to this obscure kolchian legend -- that every single kolchian witch may trace her descent back to mighty calainon
A THOUSAND THOUSAND YEARS PASS...
in roderick's day, the most recent high priestess (sometimes called the 'fire-keeper' or 'witch-queen' of kolchis) was none other than the seeress who was amira's grandmother, with amira seemingly destined to be the next high priestess after her
while once the high priestesses of kolchis were revered, regarded almost like oracle of delphi meets melisandre of asshai-type figures, and each was regarded as the chief and best mystical advisor to the so-called god-kings of kolchis (so called bc it was calainon half-god who had established kingship in kolchis)
these priestesses were known as a powerhouses in their own right, the last known vestiages of calainon himself, ruling the hearts of the people of kolchis, and running a powerful temple overflowing with priestesses and acolytes, almost a small religious city within the greater city, itself, leading to them being known to outsiders as the 'witch-queen of kolchis'
yet by the time of amira's birth, the position had centuries since lost any luster, becoming a ruin of its former self
as the old religion faded into only memory anywhere but astaira, the high priestesses came to be despised, an embarrassing reminder of an age of backwater supersticion compared to the cosmopolitan center kolchis had became and wished to be
without the temple economy still running strong, kolchis' stratification intensified, till it was said that in kolchis, the rich fed not on fruits but on the poor
still worse for the temple, itself, nearly a thousand years ago, a war of religion broke out and the temple was sacked, much of it pulled down and the rest -- though marble -- burned (fun fact: marble ~will burn if the fire is hot enough) till all that was left of the erstwhile 'jewel of kolchis' was a crumbling, burned out shell of its former self. still, the high priestesses endured in the slums, and still the eternal flame burned on
the old city, where the ruined temple was located, was now located in the slums and grime of kolchis amongst its most dangerous dark corners
there, only the lost or the most daring would venture: the ruinous temple of the dragon and its keepers were seen as a supersticious and untrustworthy lot who lurked in the shadows, preying upon unsuspecting tourists
pick-pockets, liars, and harlots who played at mysticism and fortune telling to make off with valuables and steal souls, so the supersticion ran, for their dark, twisted magic
THE LIFE & TIMES OF AMIRA CALAINON
it is with this reputation and in this situation that amira and godfrey grew up, doing their utmost to protect little tristan from the sad truth of the world around them
their father had disappeared when tristan was a babe at the breast, likely murdered in the dangerous streets where they lived, while fleeing with what few valuables the family had left
their mother, the high priestess's only child, died of the pox while her children were still quiet small
thus, though blind and decrepit, it fell to their grandmother to raise her grandchildren
not thinking much of men in general, and regarding the sight as the realm of women anyway, as the kolchian culture long had held, the grandmother relied largely upon amira, training her in what arts she could with the expectation that, someday, amira's magic would show itself
a true believer, her grandmother was sure that, as the last female calainon, amira must be a witch or else the line of high priestesses would die with the grandmother, herself, unless amira were to produce a seer for a daughter
not wishing to surrender her only utility to an unborn daughter who may never even arrive, amira did her best to play along as a witch
a thing which exulted her in her grandmother's eyes who, though she loved her grandchildren fiercely, regarded only other seers as her equals
amira learned to read bones and fires and stars for potential futures (or at least to guess at them)
she learned to read people and 'see' in their futures what they wanted
she learned trickery and slight of hand and, perhaps most of all, she learned about poisons
such things were sacred to the kolchian dragon, known for poisonous fangs and breath and fire hot enough to melt the bones even of beings divine and cold as winter
meanwhile, living in extreme poverty, godfrey and amira learned to lie, to steal, to spy, and to cheat simply in order to subsist
RODERICK
by the time roderick invaded, things were desperate indeed
the star of the cosmopolitan center of kolchis, even, was well into its decline
kolchis had become so corrupt and top heavy that the rich knew little at all of what their ppl suffered -- and cared even less -- living in sublime luxury while everything they sat upon rotted beneath them
still, the god-king was eager to keep what little was left of his so-called empire, now reduced only to a single city
it was soon quite clear that kolchis was roderick's target
the god-king sent many troops to die in vain upon the teeth of roderick's armies, but nothing he did would hold the young would-be conqueror back
at last, with roderick upon him, the god-king ordered the impregnable gates of kolchis closed and laid in wait for a siege
the people in the streets began to starve -- and soon enough amira's own grandmother succumbed
but watching their grandmother slowly die, amira and godfrey had already long since sprung into action, lying and deceiving their way into the palace as servants
there they watched and listened and plotted, aligning themselves with a growing restless movement amongst the poor who meant to tear their god-king down w them
so it was that the common ppl stormed the god-king's castle, killing his guards and his ministers and hanging their bodies from the high walls and trees of of kolchis (yes this is a golden fleece reference)
ultimately, guided by amira and godfrey who knew the freedom fighters of kolchis could not possibly overpower roderick, the god-king's head was delivered to roderick as a gift, and the gates opened to him, inviting him inside as their celebrated and longed-for emperor, with amira as the chief intermediary sent to treat with him given her status as high priestess of kolchis
seeing an opportunity, amira immediately set about seducing the emperor, cleopatra and anne boleyn-style
while also taking full advantage of the local legend she'd heard from her grandmother, and introducing herself as amira calainon, supposedly acknowledged descendant of calainon, the first god-king of kolchis
she was willing to bet, afterall, that roderick probably admired and wished to associated with himself. she wasn't wrong.
so she brought him a head and a crown of laurel leaves and slowly made herself a queen
amira crowned roderick king of kolchis (roderick abolishing all use of the term 'god-king'), herself, in her role as high priestess of kolchis, in the sight of all the kolchians, at the ancient temple of the dragon which roderick had had esp restored for the event
before her marriage, she appointed an acting high priestess to keep the eternal flame burning
which roderick permits as a cultural tradition relating to the cultural hero, calainon, his own relative by marriage
a connection sealed with the birth of their son, edmund
VENGEANCE -- OR FEAR
to be clear, amira is not in love with roderick (they have some weird twisted thing that i could write its own novella on probs but that's for another time), he is the means to an end. for one thing, with one move she had gone from desperately clinging to survival in the slums to one of the richest and most powerful women in the known world, but this was not her only goal in wedding roderick.
amira wants money, she wants power, and she wants revenge. she wants vengeance on roderick, as she blames him (as well as the god-king of kolchis, but she's already wreaked her vengeance upon ~him) for the death of her grandmother, the only person besides godfrey who ever really looked out for amira, and certainly the only one who ever saw smth superior to all others in her.
she also wants revenge against all those -- and even the symbols of those -- who held her head underwater so long so that they, themsleves, could breathe
amira enjoys, endorses, and encourages all of roderick's worst traits bc his zest for conquest is a weapon she wields against the rest of the world. now ~she's the the one holding ~their heads underwater. bitch.
but most of all she wants revenge upon the world for allowing any of it to happen
she means to wait a long time to avenge herself on roderick, himself. when she is ready, he will die, as will all of his children save her own, and edmund will reign at last, and they will finally, finally be untouchable.
in the end, however, even amira's quest for vengeance is rooted in the deep horror she cannot face, the fear that she, too, will be conquered, defeated, helpless, and left to starve to death w the only ppl she truly loves in the fetid streets, just like the only woman who ever loved her.
however, she seeks always to project strength (even to herself!), as it is an armor, her last line of defense, to prevent this from happening, so she will stop at nothing, doing literally whatever it takes, to see her goals met bc then and only then will she be truly safe, or at least as safe as anyone in this world can ever be, with edmund as emperor
as a result, she is always quick to remind herself that it is vengeance and not safety she truly seeks -- but is that really true?
#ooc#about#edmund varmont#godfrey calainon#tristan calainon#roderick varmont#all this also made me think abt an au where she gives into roderick and becomes his official mistress instead of his queen#in that au edmund is his fav kid who he holds over the heads of his other children threatening to legitimize and disinherit them#in that au amira ultimately does poison the empress (so that roderick can marry ~her) but it takes far longer bc she has much less access#so she finally gets her at a big event where as a result dozens of other ppl are always poisoned#to this day roderick still believes ~he was the real target#amira does successfully persuade him to take her as his second wife but then there's strife at court as to whether edmund was legitimized#when they married or if only children born after their marriage can be seen so and ofc roderick won't way in#amira starts poisoning his legit kids as a result only for her to learn that he has now taken marian as his mistress#convinced that marian will kill amira the way amira killed the first empress she poisons her as well#but now her children suspect foul play and factions at court start whispering abt the fate of roderick's first empress#so w all these pressures amira decides to have another child and thus she gives her own son a rival for his future throne#idk where it all goes from there but yeah my brain really went wild on that one huh lakjsdflkjsdjf#ANYWAYYYYY#have her bg ig
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