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I've just opened my asks for the first time since I'm on Tumblr (it hasn't been that long either). Because I wanna try.
I obviously don't want any hate here, otherwise I just simply won't answer, because I'm not here to fight people. I just want to enjoy Destiel and characters I love from a show that I love as well.
#destiel#deancas#dean winchester#castiel#cockles#jenmish#supernatural#spn#ask box#send asks#but only if it's not hate#nor troll#i want to give it a try#because why not#if i don't like it i might stop though#because i just want to enjoy things here#plus i'm shy#my personal experience with destiel#my personal experience with cockles#my personal experience with spn
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Okay I really felt like exploding mentally not in a good way so putted it out in random little written scenes (bullshitting with canon and fanon because canon is fanon). Prowl and Jazz as main acting characters yesss because apparently I love these boys
_________Intercity training competition_________
The whole audition was so loud with noises despite everyone trying to whisper as quiet as possible. First time in all intercity training competition history, where chosen young mechs from everywhere in Cybertron gather together to find better rising generation of sparks, the bot won all his sparring partners in a row without losing once. Gunrunner with satisfied smile wrote down statistics about this battle. “Mistakes took place, but you give big perspectives with your agility and unpredictability.” Gunrunner already had plans on this rookie once ops group starts running.
Jazz, visibly grasping at air with ventilation at full speed, was smiling in such bright manner, showing his sparking optics behind protective glass. His smile, his reflections from black coating, his figure, still going up and down after all the battles he had – everything in him was so irresistibly refreshing and attractive. This young bot made the audience start whispering again, but on absolutely different topic this time. He still was standing over his opponent, other one was looking at him from bottom to top breathing as deep as other one, leaning on the elbow folds. Young mechs had no hard feelings against each other, everything around them was steaming with happiness over a good battle. Jazz offered his hand and helped him stand up.
“Ya’r very brave to challenge me last but ya fought good, brotha’. Your name?” They shacked hands as a sigh of a friendly and fair battle. “Guzzle. Better to fight and lose than to never fight at all” “Oh, we’r so gonna have a drink at the end of the event!” Jazz squeezed his hand so tightly and laughed so sincerely happy. They walked out of ring shoulder to shoulder. The white and black mech with pointy red chevron, the only thing showing him off the crowd so vividly, was observing all the battles from the balcony. He still couldn’t calm down his spark after what he saw, it was such an incredible and new way of martial arts for him: wild, unpredictable, dexterous, fast and oppressive. Absolute opposite of the clear and refined, gentle manner of his hometown. He couldn't hold back his smile throughout all 10 sparring sessions, periodically jerking his shoulders in surprise, sometimes looking as if into space, trying to calculate something in his head. His brother, clearly shorter than him, tapped at his hand. Only this was able to get older brother out of entrancement he was in. “Brother, calculation simulations will begin soon” ‘Right,’ he answered with only kind look of his eyes. ‘Now my turn.’
______My priority of orders starts from J_______
“Prowl, you are not allowed to go out! You stay here! It’s an order!” Prowl’s door wings rose up in in a threatening and irritated manner. He quickly turned his head, narrowing his optics. Sharp, cold blue, freezing. Yet his lips were treacherously clanging. “You are not my commander to give me commands” “Oh, no! I have an order to keep you safe! Order from Optimus Prime itself! Do you not understand how worthy your skills are? You are not allowed to get out of here until it becomes safe, why do you even try to get out of here?” The blue light was getting darker and closer to the security bot who happened to be so unlucky to be the closest to Prowl to get this order. Red chevron towered over this hesitant mech, his knees bent under the pressure of this unbending figure. It was the first time in all his time working here, when he was truly afraid of the tactician. “I was working hand to hand with “Optimus itself” when he was just an officer,” Prowl pressed his finger into the center of the bumper with enough strength to make bot step back. “and I dare you have no right to stand on my way nor Optimus’ orders. Contact him and say that I’ve lost touch with ops, you won’t be dismissed with this explan-“ The loud crash of a broken door was heard behind interrupting him mid-sentence, Prowl stood up and lowered his wings to cover trembling mech in front of him. “Prowl, jump on, I caught signal of Jazz’s location”, there was Silverbolt straight to the help and old Orion’s group protecting main operating station alongside with other autobots. Prowl gave him a pleased smirk, his optics immediately softened (to the relief of security bot), not even thinking much he ran and jumped on top of the aerial, “long time no see, old timer. All unnecessary chatting on our way.”
#*sits down*#Maybe I try out my hand this way to see if I'm really up to writing#At least I really needed more juicies paragraphs and dialogues than in the latest ones. No idea if I'm satisfied but in my brain it lays#better#...Also learning about characters while writing something when searching for info seems more effective....#ANYWAY pfffht I feel so much better after writing these two sillies out#how do I even..?...#writing#?...#cockroachwriting#?.. yeah this is closer since I'm not sure I will use ao3 for writing gah#transformers#maccadam#jazz#prowl#and a few others side characters like Guzzle Bluestreack Gunrunner Silverbolt pfffft#.... *shy coughing*#Jazzprowl#I just love to make more stable way of characters getting each other and jazz and Prowl have such a great opportunity to start their way#from very early days#much earlier than what I saw#Plus earlier years before revolution on Cybertron might have been peaceful enough to make events where they gather sometimes#I'm a sucker for it
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Late to the game as I’ve kinda been kinda non-here for a minute but I scrolled through the Dot and Bubble tag, and thought I wanted to write this post into existence.
There's this part in Doctor Who Unleashed where RTD says this:
“What we can’t tell is how many people will have worked that out before the ending. Because they’ve seen white person after white person after white person, and television these days is very diverse. I wonder, will you be ten minutes into it, will you be fifteen, will you be twenty, before you start to think, everyone in this community is white. And if you don’t think that — why didn’t you? So, that’s gonna be interesting. I hope it’s one of those pieces of television you see, and always remember.”
And I'm like. Yeah. But the reason this works even as well as it does is largely thanks to the work of the previous showrunner with the previous creative team, which was notably the first era to have any writers of color (amongst other firsts in terms of inclusivity in directors, composer, actors). While Chibnall fumbled whenever he tried to write about race himself, he did have the self-awareness to have Black and South Asian writers writing the episodes where race is the focus (and a female writer for the episode where sexism is a focus; my point is, he seemed to know his shortcomings).
I wonder what the current creative team looks like? (not really, but I wasn't 100% sure for all of them)
To quote RTD:
“...before you start to think, everyone in this community is white.”
This is pretty non-self-aware, right? It's pretty “It is said, and I understand this, there was a history of racism with the original Toymaker, the Celestial Toymaker, who had ‘celestial,’ and I did not know this, but ‘celestial’ can mean of Chinese origin, but in a derogatory way,” right? (from The Giggle Unleashed) It's pretty “and I had problems with that, and a lot of us on the production team had problems with that: associating disability with evil,” right? (from Destination Skaro Unleashed)
—none of which are issues that should be overlooked, but think how much exponentially better they might’ve been addressed if he’d consulted with Chinese writers and wheelchair-using writers before going straight to giving the Toymaker weird fake accents and making Davros walk?
How many Black or non-white people do we think saw the Dot and Bubble script before it landed in Ncuti’s hands?
And this just keeps happening.
And like, from some of the shocked responses I've seen from white viewers to the ending of Dot and Bubble, maybe the episode's unsubtlety was needed? From the way RTD talks about it in Unleashed, the episode was written with a white audience in mind, Baby's First Microaggressions (where of course the microaggressions come from people who are pretty self-admittedly white supremacists). Ricky September, a more seemingly normal depiction of someone in the racist bubble of Finetime, seemed like an interesting element, up until the way he died.
The ending worked for me, because I do think the Doctor's reaction is true to how the Doctor would react. I just keep thinking of how much better the core themes could've been handled by someone with actual lived experience on the subject matter.
#dot and bubble#fifteenth doctor#rtd critical#anti rtd#ricky september#lindy pepper bean#dw negativity#racism#antiblackness#words by seaweed#not to be anti rtd. im just very critical. Anti RTD is just a tag which people use or block#every showrunner has their flaws but RTD is the only one self-righteously virtu signling over NOTHING. which is why im more critical.#plus the on-set sxual hrassment and what happened with Chris Eccleston etc. it vindicates me. idk. not tryna be a hater#ALSO dot and bubble is leaps and bounds better than any racism commentary I expected from Russell T Davies. so theres that.#can you tell I'm shy abt making long posts that someone is likely gonna be not happy about-#I usually search tumblr for posts to rb and talk in tags. but I couldnt find any posts about this this morning! tho I think ppl have since#etc its fine to critically appreciate imperfect media etc I do it all the time (as a Black fan) (who also thinks Rosa has Flaws) etc#I did see someone on twitter pointing out the hypocrisy of all white writers but twitter does not have space to talk about things#also love that The Church on Ruby Road has Mark Tonderai who became the first black director w The Ghost Monument. I love his directing#but that's the Christmas special. it is not part of this season. and honestly fr it's not close to enough#love the inclusivity in front of the camera. lets get some of that in the writing team NOW. it's hurting for it.#bring back Charlene James. can you hear me? was the best episode of Season 12.#the ep felt like a commentary on the “RIP Doctor Who” ppl under every official Doctor Who post? hence social media?#it does work best that way!! it just felt a little off of that way in rtd talking#idk im rambling. I did enjoy it tho. I just wish. but well.
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ngl being on nintwt makes me realize how inactive ninblr Actually is...
like, for comparision (from what I can tell), the amount of posts that are posted like every single hour on a daily basis are the amount of posts ninblr posts when a trailer (yknow what, maybe even season) drops
#btw I'm not saying I've been more active on twt lol I'm just inactive these days on both apps bc I have barely any motivation to post ngl#trying to focus more on irl stuff and all that 👍 maybe even considering taking a short break bc I think being off the 'net these days has#-Really helped w/ my insecurity ngl#plus I have been collecting ocs to draw and attacking ppl on artfight lol#but anyway back to the topic- looking at twitter and then at tumblr is just like. Yeah I can easily tell which one is more active 😭#tumblr is hob 3omry and rooh 'alby and everything like#especially with how I'm too shy to interact/post on nintwt sometimes lmao. like I can literally post the Craziest shit over here#but I gotta say that nintwt–especially if you're in the right corner of the fandom– is kinda fun#excluding the homophobes and idiots ofc lmfao#levi's ted talks
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I don't know how to talk with people in real life
#at least im tryimh#but i feel like i don't have any progress#my dad has the same problem but muuuuuuch worse#he can't even talk with his own subordinates because he's super shy plus exhausted#he just prefers to never interact#and mom worries that he has this problem for years because of which people misunderstand him and start to dislike him#and she said I'm just like him#*cries with tears*#i don't want to be like thiiiiiiiiis
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I know I been mia with unhinged Sukuna, life was doing life things and I been super stressed for it. I'm probably 50% done with the second fic, and hoping to have it out in the next week or so!
#sukunaaa#talky time wit dhoranbolt#sukuna x reader#shy reader / unhinged sukuna#I'm not dying so that's a plus lmaooo
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Guess who's getting ✨comfortable✨ with their artstyle agaaaain
#sham's art#shamsbabs#iliana#fable#izraedira#nudity tw#artistic nudity#however it's cropped because i am still very shy#also i don't want to get nuked for some practice doodles-#anywho!!! been experimenting a lot with anatomy as of late just cuz i want to make it look better#plus i'm tryna get comfortable with doing some bodily studies for a later part of my reference project#alas my muse is my girls as always but that's because i want to perfect her unconventional trans girl energies#otherwise! i just wanted to draw izraedira for funsies and i'm in the process of redesigning fable for the first time in about 5 years ish#making her more bird esque as well as trying to perfect her frame so she looks more fable#i've always puctured her as rectangular so that's what i'm aiming for-#hi i'm sham and i love women of all shapes ♥ i just need more women of various shapes in my roster#i've got tons to redesign so hopefully i can get even more good shapes as i go#later me problem tho i've rambled long enough-#digital doodles#kingdom hearts oc
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#brooo how do you join small fandoms that operate as established friend groups as a newcomer I've only been on the “establishing” end 😭#like toku//twt is so hostile save for certain mutual circles idk how to integrate myself anywhere#doesn't help that I've had no energy for drawing lately to maybe get ppl to interact first#maybe I should try do smth for the next gavv episode...#I would like to just talk to ppl directly but I've only watched 2 seasons and am shy. plus there's so many random rude ppl#that many accs limit replies anyway. fuck my stupid Baka life#I crave... human connection XO *dies of embarrassment*#I'll just try posting more w keywords for now#I don't wanna start too many new kr seasons if I can't discuss them w ppl while doing so cause the excitement is too much to be alone w#in the meantime I might pick up android kikaider after finishing w tho so I have smth to do#plus I've been meaning to get into showa era toku anyway that was like... the whole point originally#man this reminds me of how I need to interact w spg more too. I have so many cool spg moots I'm in a limbo between coexisting and wanting t#befriend#aauadhkf the mortifying ideal of being knownnn#psii.txt
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ジュンも日本語を勉強する?!?? :D
ミレイちゃん~ はい、そう。大学の日本語のクラスで勉強していたけど止まったね。私の大学には次のレベルがなかった。今、全て忘れている。それでも、続けたい。
#june's asks#jpnblr#milk-violet's input#i'm shy about it because i know so little#just first year japanese plus all the self-studying i did#god so much of this must be wrong ;_;#it's just very hard to learn a language without being able to speak with someone who's fluent!!!#kinda a losing battle man idk
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Between TF and my other fandoms like BG3 and TES, I keep finding myself making OCs that have some element of "battle hardened hero who is actually good and righteous, but so traumatized by the toll of war that even after the war ends they feel empty/wrecked and can't enjoy the fruits of victory" and I'm not sure if it's bc I gravitate to a certain type of media where such OCs fit in best, or bc I have a specific character archetype I like and gravitate towards media that contains those things.
#squiggposting#possibly a mix of both bc idk if i've gone into detail here but war stories are one of my favorite genre of stories#like for fun fictional reasons but also for real life political and moral and emotional implications#war stories are literally so fucking cool man i feel like they get a bad rap for just being propaganda tools#and obv a lot of them can be/are explicitly made to be but also like#(i feel like i'm stealing a quote from one such story) war stories are also a method for the soldiers of the war to tell their side#and usually the soldier's side of the story tells of the LESS glorious and propagandistic sides#maybe ive just had the pleasure of having really good teachers/professors but like#most of the war stories i've read are specifically ABOUT the bridge bt war propaganda and the actual experience of fighting in a war#and i think even the ones where the soldier in question supports the war (american sniper comes to mind)#it's very interesting and dare i say important to read it and understand when and why and how they came to support war#like idk i think it's one of those things where ppl shy away from war stories bc#'ew gross it's all pro war probably american imperialist propaganda written by oppressive killers trying to make us feel sorry for them'#without understanding... idk. the difference between an individual soldier's evil and the evil of an entire institution?#some sort of anti intellectualism regarding soldiers as being inherently evil ppl who aren't to be listened to or taken seriously?#it's not a matter of like. you don't need to like or sympathize with them per se. but i think part of understanding and criticizing#the institution of war is getting the ground level testimonies about it. and more of them are critical than some ppl believe#plus i mean FUCK usamerican imperialism it doesn't need to be about US wars! other countries lived thru other wars that are also important!#war stories may have their strongest association w american imperialism but that doesn't mean other war stories don't exist#idk sorry for rambling in the tags
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can i get some random asks? positivity, art suggestions, questions (personal or surface level idc) just anything i want more interaction with you guys
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Some outfits for @oflostinfound 's Starlight Ball event! I probably won't have much time to write tomorrow, but I had some time to draw today. :)
#eath's starlight ball#(I'm also just kind of too slow/shy to do much for this kind of event sdflkdhsg)#(I'll try to poke my nose in at least a bit though! 'tis fun. :D plus it's good for me to write in ways I'm less used to now and again pff)#(...and yes. Phosa is absolutely taking advantage of the chance not to have to make facial expressions xD )#art#my art#art: Linast#art: Phosa#Linast#Phosa
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Idk how some of y'all found me but just wanted to say thank you for 200 in between 2 blogs?? I hope you like whenever I actually post art cuz i almost never share anything personal about myself except through tags 😅
#I'm shy I'm sawrryyyyy! i'll try to talk a bit more here#i came back from IG and not seeing all my stats in my face is like a breath of fresh air#like STFU I DON'T CARE IF MY POST GOT THE HIGHEST REACH THAT WEEK#but y'all are so sweet though 🥺#and leave pretty nice things on my work#plus i love the moots i made y'all are so cool 😭#sweet donuts talks
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@shadowpeachlover13 replied to your post “getting caught without your glamors and wukong is...”:
IM ALL HEAR 👂
#impy chat#lmk talk#text post#i have like so much i want to talk about but idk where to start aaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh plus i'm kinda shy lol
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yk sometimes i think abt the "Midnight" episode of dw and like. honestly i love that episode beyond words. literally everything from the location to the mob mentality and peer pressure and the tension of being in that bus with no help and an impossible threat inside, and the acting??? the ACTING???? david had me sobbing when i was nine and he had me sobbing when i was 25, the fucking terror and panic and helplessness and just. AND THEN THE HOSTESS SACRIFICES HERSELF AND EVERYONE IS COMING TO TERMS WITH WHAT THEY ALMOST DID AND WERE VERY PREPARED TO DO AND THEN TEN'S LIKE "what was her name?" AND THE SHAME?? THE GUILT AND REGRET AND SHAME??? truly mindblowing episode.
#( OUT OF SOULS. )#( hope ur dragging me into a pit and i can't even watch the damn show )#( but yeah i'm thinking a lot abt this )#( particularly because it wasn't actually a theme that was relevant at the time )#( it was more of a warning in general )#( like don't be like the assistant who was too shy to speak up when the doctor needed help )#( or like colin mor.gan who let his dad scare him into silence )#( plus the use of an enemy that literally stole people's voices? in an episode where speaking up was impossible for the people on the bus?#( delicious stuff lads truly )
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Beginner artists are so endearing. They are either really shy about posting their art or they are really proud and I just love encouraging both. We all started out at one point and I would love to be supporting person for them.
I know a few people that have encouraged me on deviantart back when I just started out and I'm still chatting with most of them. They were also a huge source of inspiration for me and I probably wouldn't be like I am today without them.
One reason why I rarely dislike my art is because I know that if my old self came across my recent art, I would be a huge inspiration for myself. And I don't mean it in a narcissistic way, it's just because my art progressed a lot from back then. If I hadn't received encouragement from other artists back then, then who knows if I would still be drawing
#you'd think that with how shy I am irl that I was the shy type of beginner artist#but no I was quite proud of showing off my art in 7th grade#i was just 13 and now I will turn 20 this year#time passes so quickly it's crazy#i still have my old account where all my old art is (it's like an archive by now)#one of my first drawings were art of nici (though she looked a bit different back then compared to now)#i'm honestly very thankful I got into art because I met so many amazing mutuals through it#plus it became my biggest passion#i just love that nowdays I can just draw anything I want without needing a machine or another artist#ceces talk
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