#pls let me die

[garden-0f-ed3n]

its 3 am, and ive never felt more alone in my entire life. all i want to do is sleep, but the idea of being alone makes me physically ill.

[garbage-b4by]

[scaryanneee]

i’m moving out of my apartment in 12 hours and we aren’t done packing yet AND I had 6 work meetings today (on saturday!! the weekend!!!) AND i don’t even have the keys to the new place yet so i guess we’re just going to sleep in the uhaul tomorrow or something and anyway i am going to die. thanks.

[nvrth1nk]

i feel so frustated

okay, uhmm, i just need to vent, write, to do anything like that so i can feel that i am actually doing something besides being a shame.

i am 4 days clean, maybe 5, i don't know tbh but i feel that i won't make it, i know it. I KNOW it's an addiction and it's normal that i feel this urge and this is how it works in my brain, and not every day gonna be perfect nor good and we all feel this way. but the obvious thing here is: i want to hurt myself. not only cvtt, yk? im not upset with nothing right now, i am not raging, i just don't know how i feel and this is the worst.

i hate being angry, and wanting to break things and be mean to everyone, i hate it, i shouldn't be like that, i wasn't like that, i don't wanna be like that, but i am. sometimes feeling empty is better than being angry ALL the time, because people can't and they won't understand why "are you mad at nothing." sometimes is better to feel nothing, to be nothing. but even when i am not angry, i'm can't feel better, in any way.

for me, being empty or zoning out is always different. most of the days i won't even get out of bed and lock myself in my room and don't eat nor drink water, doing nothing. and i will just stay there like an body just existing and i won't even answer anybody texts or calls. and i like it. i always loved being besides hating feeling lonely, but i like my messy room in the dark, and be alone without a single thought in my head, and not even hearing people calling me out of my room because the music in my headphones gonna be too loud to me even realize that somebody is missing me at the dinner table. i hate how it makes people worried, but i understand them, even if when i want attention and they won't give it to me, when i isolate myself they will always want my attention and crave how worried they are before saying that i am having an attitude and being a child.

i hate it. i hate my brain, the fway it makes me feel and act. i hate feeling that i am all by myself even though i really am, i hate the sadness and the angry, even the love. i hate all of it and i would feel way better if i couldn't feel anything. sometimes i will feel nothing but most of them, i feel all, and this sucks so much. i don't want to feel anything at all, i want to die, to feel nothing, to be nothing.

[hinamie]

make it vicious, take a stab

[selfluvr]

,,,

[anti-mf]

Bruv, it's the stress that won't release me

“You must learn to let go. Release the stress. You were never in control anyway.”

— Steve Maraboli

[imabitofa]

Can't believe this is my life lmao

[sivychan-creep]

LET ME BE YOUR MOMMY EMI😭😭😭😭💖💖💖💖💖

I couldn't forget to do emi too,she's the real angel!!

[garden-0f-ed3n]

im sorry that i cant be the perfect little doll… i guess im just too broken! its alright, i wouldn’t wanna fix me either.

[sunlit-mess]

yea

[ghost-bxrd]

Prompt:

Jason drinks alcohol for the first time ever post resurrection and makes some questionable choices in the form of plastered phone calls and worrisome messages/voicemails.

He wakes up the next morning to at least ten missed calls and dozens of panicked text messages.

[gunstellations]

itll be alright

[amorhedera6]

ted drives his loser brother and his loser friends around sometimes, and he’s sure that every time since the seventh grade that he’s seen richie lipschitz he’s has a different hair color. ted genuinely doesn’t know how once achieves that, he’s sees him at least once every two weeks or so. it boggles his mind.

[sky-is-the-limit]

Apparently, Misha broke the news to Brazil that Cas and Dean ended up as a couple in the end and that it wasn't an 'I love you' like a brother but as a lover.

It's almost 2025. We're not going anywhere. It's gonna be the same in 2050. Maybe 2090 as well. Via Ouija Board.

[thedaintiestdoll]

Please Lord, make me the prettiest girl he's ever seen let me be his angel so serene