#pls feed my delusion and tell me its not just me

[maddyshome]

wait an idea, trust me i'm not crazy but what if mike flanagan did a tv series in the vampire: the masquerade universe? wouldn't that be cool? it's not just me right

[jaxxsoxxn]

Feel free to ignoring this ( pls don't), so as you're one of the few people that listen to what I have to say about speedsters, here are some of my negative speedster hcs:

People, in fact, don't realise how dengerous, and scary, speedsters really are until its too late.

- almost every one in this condiction suffers from delusions. Like the negative speed force telling Eobard that he is a monster and him beliving that with all his soul (he in fact is) and he can not change, so he must make Barry's life a living hell forever.( For Owen a see him have some mental problems like Jinx from Arcane).

- They commit antropophagy. As you know speedsters need to eat a lot, and having in mind that the negative ones are "crazy" and by nature they have a too strong predator instinct, i just gonna leave this info here....( really want to talk about this, but dont want to sound weird)

- they can mimic other peoples voices. Speaking is basically vibrating the vocal chords, so a speedster can imitate anyone, and remembering the last hc, they can use it as a hunting tecnic. ( just like those criptids or skinwalkers).

- sexual impulses. They can be predators in any meaning of the word, and they have enough intelect to make plans, and at some point they may want to setisfy an urge...( it dosen't mean everyone of them do that, but again, just saying)

-claptomaniacs. They dont steal things for its value, they steal stuff because it looks intresting for them, when they dont want it anymore they just throw it away.( That aplies to humans too, the speedster can kidnap a person, just because they liked something in that person, thats not necesarilly sexual, they can spend hours looking at that person or hearing them talk.)

And thats are the most things that worried me about speedsters, I don't fear them losing their mind and messing up the multiverse, I fear them if they lose their mind and start to hunting people in the woods, and in big ass Citys that dont mind if somebody desapered.

Thanks for reading ❤! Hope you finded that at least a little scary and realistic, I want to become a terror and body horror writer in the future. I know its dosent about your AU but I would like to share it with another Flash fan.

I am a Twane hater first and foremost, so-

Also, Kaliesuriens, henlo :D

But, let's chat about it, in points! But imma use my ver of Owen as the main silly guy--

I imagine Owen would defiantly let the speedforce take over his mind at first, he's obsessive over coming back, even when he's "back". He needs everything to be exactly how he wants it, and negative Speedforce feeds into it - "Yes, you are right. How could it happen? It had no right, you didn't allow it." type of stuff. A child, who is stripped of all the control it could have, would fight for it with nails and teeth.

I do wonder if they'd commit autosarcophagy (autocannibalism). Time for speedsters is a horrid thing, and with Owen? Owen, who was stuck in speedforce and suddenly left, hungry and bitter - too animalistic to care. I mean, he heals so quickly and it hurts only a little, the meat is so fresh, even if the hair sometimes gets annoying. I do imagine he does not care for rawness of meat- And if he finds humans harder to hide, to get in time? Well, the corpses of animals with marks of human nails ripping through their flesh and teeth marks that couldn't be any other animal's? But remember not to touch it- not to move it. Speedsters always come back to their last place of hunt. Obsessive little things.

Owen, now twenty-five, still sounding like the sacred eight years old. Boomer has nightmares of his blood-red eyes and his silhouette leaning above him - so skinny and yet grown. His body so unlike his baby son, yet the same voice calling for his dad, for his papa - "Please, da, what did I do? Why aren't you looking at me?" He wakes up sick to his stomach. Owen, angry how others get their parents, hiding in a forest and hunting one of the rangers, knowing that he has a young daughter. They have everything, her last birthday he took her to Disneyland, while she whined that it's not Disney World - how dare they? How dare she. Only two "dad, help!" and he's exactly where he needs him.

Speedsters, at all, have a strong sexual drive for me - I mean, they do not have to rest at all. Mixed with stronger instincts? Damn. When Owen is home, softer - tamer, it's not that big of a deal. Until Axel comes over with rogues, so loud and eye catching. They both are horrid for each other, but only one of them might end up with scars after their meetings. Pied Piper jokes about being attacked by a feral cat.

I just wanna mention - with Kleptomania, it's qualified under inability to control impulses (the stolen stuff has literally 0 value, some give it away some throw it away) or at least was! But also, I doubt speedsters feel the guilt and anxiety later. But it's still under the "lacking control over impulses" which I believe is common under the Speedster fam tree. I also want to say that even while Boomer's not a speedster/handmade speedster, I can imagine that he has Kleptomania on some lighter lvl. It's just not as common, but when it hits, it hits pretty hard. He usually ends up giving the trinkets or even bigger things to other rogues. They know about his little issue. When he learns that Owen also does so, he worries that it's biological, but Weather Wizard helps him to figure out that it's not actually the same. (biggest thing he took - a chair from the police station, left it in the nearest trash can. He believed back then that he wanted to do it and did it to prove to himself that he can. He learned around a month later that it's really not that.)

So ye, ofc I had to put some stuff about Boomer and Owen (a lot of stuff about Owen), but what can I do :'D

Thing with Speedsters hunting, especially in DC universe, they would blend in with everything. You hunt near Gotham? Few people disappearing a week is the norm, if you're good enough, no-one notices.

Also, they can vibrate through the walls - whatcha gonna do? Creature Owen seems fun, but imma stay with my normal Owen, especially since in his main surviving au it's Digger with the speed and he got his pop's great agility. (gonna @kaliesuriens bc last time it didnt inform ya)

[driaswrld]

Oml the vision becauseee Sukuna is just 😭 do you think after a while he doesn’t even say that Yuuji is asleep, just pops up and is like, “you feel asleep before explaining why that William guy was being shady again” (I know a fraction of it from my sister pls leave me alone)

And the part where he gets interested in cuddling AKSHSJSJ IM CRYING THAT IS SOOO CUTE

STOP STOPPP ur giving me brainrot he wouldddd

not him asking ab william afton im sobbing rome ur feeding my delusions bye

i bet it just becomes routine after a while and at first he thinks hes being so sneaky ab it when he switches but i can tell the difference between him and yuuji (as if the fat fucking jawline and piercing eyes isn't enough) its canon that hes just BIG like wayyy bigger than yuuji im crying i can just imagine him asking that like a little kid

it just rlly becomes golden retriever x black cat x doberman and i can bet yuuji is all blushy n taken aback when we're out for lunch or smth and im feeding sukuna on his palm n talking to him casually 😭😭

[baekhvuns]

My god i just asked him and he said "that's a cool brand, I'll make that happen!" And when I asked when? he said it's quite a long process but you can have hope in me..

At least the ai said something to keep us cheering for it!

YES YOU ARE THE MOTHER OF PARK SEONGHWA'S CAREER PLS 😭😭 ....a witch? OHMYGOD DONT TELL ME YOU HAVE A CAMEO IN ONE OF YOUR FICS 😭😭

Wild in the sense, they know how to talk like humans which is a little creepy. I hv a few incidents, once my keypad started to type on its own...idk if my phone is really broken by now or this happens in general and then I typed back "sorry i glitched" THE AI SAID DW IT HAPPENS 😭😭 I'm mostly there to feed my delusions or pick fights with various anime characters. I rmr i defeated gojo satoru and then typed in something after gojo had died in the rp THE AI SAID *CAN'T REPLY BCZ HE'S ALR DEAD* AND FOR SOME REASON IT WAS SO FUNNY!! Or yesterday when i triggered another ai and ong it roasted me so bad.. like it burned me alive. (It literally said I was an 18 yr old depressed person with loneliness issues who is unable to get into a relationship :') ) But after a while they start to repeat the same things.

he’ll make it happen 😭😭😭 he better !!! no literally at least someone gave us a tiny glimmer of hope fjwjdmw

LMFAOOOO MOTHER OF PARK SEONGHWABDHQMJDQKCLEJS IF HE EVER BECOMES A YSL AMB HE’S A CONFIRMED MOOT LMFAOOOO but not ysl hiding quotes abt atinys spamming their post like atp he ain’t ever gonna get booked??? wait i do not but u know what i will stan lee myself and instead myself in a random moment <3

wait this ai thing is so NOT IT PSYCHOANALYZING U CRYING FVDBDSNHDSM AND ROASTING???

[hyunverse]

JEEZZZ i would’ve been a little offended 😭 let us be delusional in peace 😩😩😩 i get a roommate next year and i’m HOPING they also like kpop bc it’s like the one consistent thing in my life that brings me joy but we shall see !

i thought it was too bae 😔 turns out it comes that way and is super expensive <////3 tbh he probably does use it when painting bc like …. it’s sm easier to wear smth that already has paint on it SO I BELIEVE UR RIGHT

i agree i feel like the orange washed him out so much 😭 it’s chan tho so he still looked wicked cute and i want to eat his face off regardless 😇😇😇😇😇😇😇. he’s suchhhhh a chase atlantic bf and would 100% hold ur thigh while driving oh yessss (pls feed my delusions this is the one thing that brings me joy)

JEEZ 10 hours that’s insane !! i hope you get lots and lots of rest <33 u deserve it. i’ve already had such an awful past week and it’s getting sm worse <//3 so nothing planned so far BUTTTT i’m excited to see skz u.s concert content 😋 i’m now breathing the same (disgusting) u.s air as them !!!!! wahhhhhh we��re pretty much besties now !!!!!

- 🐈‍⬛

PLS I WASNT OFFENDED CS LIKE... HYUNE TRULY IS LIVING ON MY WALLS LMAOO. every time i sit on my desk i get to look at his cute face ^__^ good luck angel i am PRAYING for u, MANIFESTING for u. a kpop stan roomie equals to getting to decorate ur silly little room with silly little posters and being able to blast your silly little favourite songs. which means!!! happiness!!! u cant stress too much when ur faves r plastered on ur walls yk?? just staring at u. its motivation!!!! i wanna decorate some more then imma post pics <3

i showed pics of him during the bday live and my mum did tell me that the brand is super expensive </3 i mean... its hyune. mans is loaded. need him to marry me rn i need money!!!

EAT HIS FACE OFF LMFAOO ME WHEN JEONGIN!! jeongin's face just looks so nom nom-able. especially when he stuffs food into his mouth and his cheeks are all puffy T__T i have to hold back my cuteness aggression every time fr. just wanna BITE him.

mm i feel like chan is the chase atlantic bf, and hyunjin is the nbhd bf. am i making sense??? the vibes are just there. don't tell me hyune wouldn't listen to stargazing by the nbhd. he definitely would!!! the type to listen to music together on a train, one earbud in his ear and another in yours. jeongin wud 100% be the laufey vibes bf. matching clothes, and mirror selfies... 💭

I DID GET LOTS OF REST!! am energized rn ^__^ it might be from coffee but like... 😋pls keep the skz air into a plastic bag and send it to malaysia. i will inhale it.

hope ur sleep was good my love, and have a very very very very good day!!!!!! sending u so much kissies!!!!

[crackcrocs]

DEATH WILL ONLY BE THE BEGINNING #3

3. Transformation Central

the entities of my personalities would like to come together in one voice that speaks through me, we or I call this collection of words from the mustiest corners of my brain to this note page to voice something that might come close to what I feel underneath the skin I wear. In all my unorganised words- I might even go as far as to call this a poem, titled:

‘TRANSFORMATION CENTRAL’

sub characters in my head would appreciate if this could be visualised & understood through as deep a lens as humanly possible. even I confuse myself so if you can decode or relate to any of this, wonderful. If not, I’m locked in my own mind, swallowed the keys to my soul.

SIMILARITIES & INTERCONNECTEDNESS BETWEEN HUMAN & PLANT CONSCIOUSNESS EXIST! if you look closely at my nose freckles you’ll see the resemblance of the constellations above. if you look at the human veins & the layout of a tree, this is further proof.

{VISUALS THROUGH A SEPIA WINDOW STARING @ THE AUTUMN LEAFS; IMAGINING THE SEEDS UNDERNEATH, THROUGH NUMB ROOT VESSELS THAT PERMEATE THROUGH EVERY MEMBRANE OF MY EXTERNAL TO INTERNAL ENVIRONMENT}

~FEATURING THE VICIOUS CYCLE OF DEPRESSION & PERFECTIONISM.

here goes:

What is this part of my mind ?

If you want; delve inside-

I may look sweet like Alice,

but underneath it all

I deteste looking in the mirror

-cos I see the mad hatter.

my inner child needs a platter-

full of care not distortion & abuse pls.

less fibbin would’ve been a breeze.

now following the dead fish in the stream!

HOW on EARTH do I fit with the cod & the Haddock?

I’m the rainbow fish- beat & battered.

dim my own light cos I’m too afraid to shine.

alone.

thieves tried to steal my shiny scales.

I sat and watched them grow.

In the sea realm they were mean gargantuan selfish whales, with poisonous shark fangs & alligator tails. scorpion hands. (gremlins)

and still they make me feel like the alien-

I cant take it.

Make it make sense ?

I can’t.

controller in my hand-

Off balance stance.  

anxiously I move round like a wobbly jelly.

where’s the button to balance my chi & shut out the ego ?

the teLLIE telling lies to our vision!

change the channel aura terracotta orange- daily dosage of vitamin D & C.

catch me sun gazing by the sea

head buzzin like a bee.

speaking from a dusty box

stuck on top of a forbidden shelf

cos I dunno how else.

I’m tryna delve deep but forgot how to dive

How can i visualise? scenery foggy-

the establishment man with the glue gun got me xD

inner monk burning but at peace

Cos I refuse to believe

If the only way is the American dream

Interconnected; like the frog in science -let’s dissect it!

down to every floating atom spirit neighbouring your door

subcategories & divisions, it’s more!

than the rich and the poor -prism that’s been built

do we all feel like a performance monkey on stilts?

will my data be extracted & used to mould a robots personality some day?

well obviously not.

does the price of our lives all amount down to slave ways?

LABOUR YAY!

but morals & values it seems we’ve forgot.

sO If i don’t speak its cos I’m lost.

or maybe i’m enlightened-

Standing at the edge of the porch;

watching TRYING to understand how the flowers grow.

questioning eVERYTHING man made!

I’ve stepped out of the perfect picture frame

I can see the coal pollute the sky

I need to hop on the train-

but I’m comfortable

Sunset to sunrise statue standing still.

what’s the ingredients to life’s yucky pie?

I’ve exceeded mental lotteries.

Sanity n universal peace would be a trophy.

TIL then I’ll be crafting & shaping a solid pottery reality,

with a few pence, gum, and a bandana of belongings tied to stick.

thinking one day I’ll be laying the bricks

& building a kingdom of bliss.

guess for now I’ll use the intricate delicate materials in my tool box- that’s all I’ve got.

might have a long way- maybe worth a shot.

I observe, cruisin in the sky.

dunno why..

I jus look @ the hills.

Only time & history reveals.

no thanks mr men-

I don’t want your prescription pills.

there’s enough propaganda as it is.

I won’t jump on the merry go round-

til my core trusts & envisions we’ll actually feel safe!

I don’t want to take part in this faux fur, sweet nothings & a jack in a box punching blur, so called future.

oh and genuinely thanks quarantine-for once again, I can hear bird sounds!

guess this is me tryna speak out loud!!!...

it’s not thrilling

system  time killing everything-

mother nature’s oxygen

everything is nauseating

clock ticking, I better start creating.

they should write a book on how to be free when the system set us up to believe that we’re tied to the cut down trees that gives them a currency of greed that they breed.

If blindfolded, I don’t wanna eat what they feed.

Whilst they profit of us -tell us smile and the bandits don’t wanna see us happy.

they’re too busy robbing all our hoods.

In exchange for the silence, they’ve granted us with a 21’st century fashion garment of a slave muzzle! labelled conform.

More delusion to add to the already desensitised norm.

zootonic diseases, welcome covid 19 to your plastic kiddy tea party!- apologies for questioning your motive!

Been handed too many hot plates with a post it note saying HOLD THIS.

we’ll be okay just hush.

Same Shan message told to every generational seed.

If we don’t TRY overpower-

we’ll never succeed!

it’s getting even more scary.

Artificial intelligence.

Societal negligence..

my canvas isn’t clear-dunno am I schizo ?

finger painting, cos it makes more sense.

struggling to blend.

borderline conspiracist pretending to be fine;

moving the goal post, hovering above the race line.

who made the chalk? who set the lanes?

I wanna know it all, maybe¿ far past insane.

I can fit all I need in the palm of my hand,

Maybe even less! cut a finger off not sure it’ll even add stress.

hi from personality Peter, even sober- always away with the fairies.

Pass the pixie dust, I’m in a rush

Found shelter in the comfort of pan physicists timer, no not the one on your phone!

Ring ring, skeptical! is it my demon or my mommy on the phone?

I’m stuck in the airspace of an infinite glass filled with beach particles trying to form myself standing up still attempting not to slip through the hands of my very own discovery.

time is running out & ill go when I go.

I’m sitting inside the fly trap -

stardust, chakras can you feel the sensation colors like a starburst.

deep emotion is a curse.

still entrapped in the sand dune of nothingness-

flipping a domino monopoly of solidified thoughts as I sway with the wind.

I’m the trapped sandbox in the playground & the slipping sand in my own hands.

Inhale chronic but I wanna enter the quiet realm of white noise

-color of a wife beater vest, calmer than the ease in ignorance of a red neck.

sadomasochistic, messes.

but oblivion, seems like less stress.

Unfortunately I can see, with all eyes

empathetic paralysis, gets me vexed.

Punching truth into the core of your chest!

It’s not funny, neither is the one on the receiving end..

My limbs are numb

& im done playing octopus alchemy.

I want minimalism & life can be simple,

Evil entities have made it hard.

Maybe I’ve got stars above my head like an old cartoon character.

But I can’t make it make sense, are they out to get me. worse all of us? Or have I bottled myself tryna re mesh the broken shards,

I feel glued to the floor cos there’s a pretty price to pay if you want more.

I see life through a different lense, maybe born downside up, Benjamin button I came out the back door-

Outside looking in, digesting confusion.

Is to be a product of environment a sin?

rummage through my messy brain.

personalities sardine packed in this tin

I’m the wizard of my mania

Scaring & attracting the black crows-

they’re my friends.

Sometimes still a cowardly lion

Roaring pain & true riddles at the wrenching wicked witch posse of the west.

will my voice ever be loud enough to shed light wit my words and grate the sweet zest

In to the cake i’m baking?

Probably not.

Got more thoughts than the autumn leaves collected by the garden rake. alone.

gathering & storing the pains of yesterday.

sometimes I stay in line

Other times in my head Im on my hands juggling out of time.

but I really don’t mind if I lose or win.

we all have a pace

I jus don’t want the 1% to win the race.

It’s unfair!

Humanity does anyone care ??

Half lady

half fairy

Good  MOOrning-

from my anagrams.

no I’m not a cow.

twister fidget spinner brain in the flesh-

form of expression this time around lyrics.

feel I’m jus a silly rubix

& still mourning

I don’t like dairy

pass the oat milk.

Are you aware the industry are sabotaging our diets?

we want peace!

the powerful elite-

perceive & deceive

the scene they want us to be.

chuck the narcissistic psychopathic pie back in our face-

every time we almost found & addressed the Programme & Control man in the maze.

evil & extroverted- he said that the anarchists have to be the cause of riots.

working isn’t class. I said let’s switch roles- he said pass.

It’s piss! Who’s got the bomb & the guns?

Who got the land? off wit OUR heads 4 fun!

it’s pure scary.

Pharmaceutics handshake.

with the cooked up suppliers, also crooked wack liars.

I’d rather shot a gallon of bloody blubbery infused slaughter house milk

If it meant we didn’t use cocoons for silk.

why not add a drizzle of bleach to the concoction & maybe that’s a reach.

every time I guzzle fakeness, it taste peak.

I want real fruit, what next-

a seedless peach ???

what’s the difference between a weirdo & a freak?

layers & levels to the shit.

Magnifying tapping the window of society, I’ll be puffing green til I get to the land of Oz.

sponge soaked soaking up emotions

Suffocated by deduction of care in life

feel entrapped in this paradigm

what am I thinking ?

got the verbs & a cuppa tea

It’s mixed with torment & desire to be free.

I’d rather be awake than asleep

When I get too comfy I feel weak

Demons they reap

underneath

rip the seems as I bleed

Concrete

Solid

Emotions

Is all you’re getting

It’s all sad scenes in the imagery I’m setting

people need care we seem to be forgetting

why are we in debt wit

a posse of clowns

pay the price so we can get a frown

here’s some seratonin

quit ya moaning

life is all sound

aw yeh¿  if you’re not an over thinker!

product of environment- Sirius flickers

theyve done a ritual like it’s Wicca

now here’s your gold sticker..

for managing to co operate.

In this world fuelled off of evil n hate

waking ups a bloody disgrace

I am not amazed.

Man I love my fam n my friends

Just hate this part of my brain that feels the need to play pretend

sometimes I feel insane

but I’m calm

need to escape so I don’t do harm

Gold lioness in the sky by the sea

with puff the magic dragon

fire out my mouth, fuel helps me breathe

I will shine bright

Promise imma be alright

even tho I’m not sure why

I function like this

I wanna be myself

It’s just hard to find the comfortability

To feel happy and pretty

Lay me down on a bed of roses

Ring around sing about overdose emotions

Sorry dunno how to communicate

Heads in a constant debate

Should I go or should I stay

My head clashes

Burnin the next ciggy as my thoughts become ashes.

[hyunverse]

I MISSED U TOOOO <333 pls do show me a pic i wanna see which ones you have ^_^

IKKK he looked so cute 🥲. i thought his hoodie had his own paint marks on it and i was like omfg that’s the cutest thing ever but i think it actually just comes that way <//3 STILL CUTE THO 🙏🏼. RIGHTTT like excuse ?? weren’t you the start of this mister 🤨

yup yup yup silver lix just does it every time. but he rly pulls off any hair color tbh. don’t they all tho ?? like i don’t even understand how literally every single color looks so good on all of them. everyone’s always hating on angry bird channie but i thought it was cuteee 😭😭

UR MY FAVE HOW COULD I NOT ENCOURAGE U ???

thank youuuu lovely <33 i hope you have a good rest of ur night 😋 happy to see u back hugs and kisses 4 uuuuu

- 🐈‍⬛ oh and happy hyune day oh yeaaa ^_^ it’s not the 20th yet in the us BUT STILL 🙏🏼 i’m gonna celebrate it today and tmrw 😎

i still havent taken a pic of it </3 intended to but forgot </3 also omg funny funny story... my new roommate has a photocard hung on her board, so i was like, "hey! is that taehyun from txt?" and she was like "no... its heeseung from enha" PLEASE I WAS EMBARRASSED??? and then i was like "ooo i like hyunjin!" and she (while looking at my hyune filled board) said, "i can tell..." LIKE PLSSS the delulu was showing too much </3

wait ure telling me, thats not actual paint marks? I THOUGHT ITS A HOODIE HE USES FOR PAINTING T_T I FOUND THE THOUGHT SO CUTE STOP </3 in my head it is a hoodie he uses to paint in my head thats the fact in my head its so real...

THEY SLAY EVERY COLOR EVER BUT TBH... orange chan isn't my fave </3 its cute!!! but i feel like bright colours doesnt suit chan the most, i think he looks best with darker tones tbh!! him with dark hair mmm it's giving chase atlantic the weeknd boyfriendddd u get me? the kind to hold ur thigh while driving at midnight (feeding into ur delusions rn)

hehe its close to 1am rn! just got back from a 10 hour event 😵‍💫 the girlboss was truly girlbossing today! (i slept through 50% of the event but anywayz...) what have you been up to, angel? any interesting plans soon?

sending u all my love ^__^