#please tolerate me rn it wont stop

[citrine-elephant]

hngh... evil chris, maybe....

he's surprised to see leon cower away when he approaches. genuinely, he's not sure why leon is so spooked at the sight of the syringe in his hand.

"you know i won't hurt you, right?"

chris is able to get him to relax enough, and seeing the way he turns away with that look on his face. it hurts chris.

he holds leon's hand as he draws his blood. leon relaxes a little, and a little more at the touch of chris' hand on his back.

and when he wraps his arm, and holds leon close into himself, it's like everything is normal again.

[salaciousslut]

Done! Also do you have a favorite tequilla brand? Just curious! 🫣

Technically i have freckles all over my face but i only really count the ones that are darker and in a line under my eyes and over my nose, the other ones aren't prominent enough to call them freckles imo. And i'd feel more than lucky if you did worship me, sweetheart<3

I would love to take you to the gym with me, it honestly helped me with my depression as well! And of course i'd watch over you sweetheart<3 i wont lie, i love to go after dark bc theres less people. And i had the same problem but now i catch myself and try to stand straighter. I mostly lift weights when i work out so I know my posture improved due to needing to have a straight back to lift. Plus its super fun imo!! I miss the gym so bad but i hate going alone. I also miss feeling sore, im a bit of a masochist so i love feeling sore the day after working out🤭

Dont apologize for giving me info<3 organization's overrated anyway. Ive found that girls with glasses tend to be my type🫣 you literally sound so pretty sweetheart<3 i knew i wasnt wrong calling you a pretty princess<3 im kissing the tip of your nose and your forehead rn🥰 you are literally so cute, puppy coded too🥺 ive never had crawfish it seems yummy but im not sure if i should try it! Shrimp ceviche used to be my favorite but then i developed a shrimp allergy to uncooked shrimp and around 17 i had to call it quits bc it stopped being worth it to risk it. Im still pissed but at least i can still eat shrimp its just gotta be thoroughly cooked, not just get cooked through the acidity of lime juice like its sucks so bad i just miss ceviche so bad. Ohh just a butch latina and a pretty asian girl what ever will they do hehe<3 and i knew but not cause you told me 🫣 your dni made it obvious, like yeah im just now saying hey but ive been aware of you for a little bit now🫣 also please lemme be ur body pillow one day<3 savory is good!!! Whats your favorite kind of snack?

Also thats adorable, youre just a cute little puppy that has to get off once a day to function her best<3 i mean if i were stressed from school i'd probably need the same thing🤭

tbh im not too picky about my brands, as long as it gets me drunk, then im happy!! also tequila makes me take my clothes off oopsies i think i should warn u about that!! but if im buying for myself, i typically will get espolon bc i feel like its yummy and reasonably priced!

yes i love feeling sore after a workout!! i am also a bit of a masochist (omg who knew)!! but ive never lifted weights before. all the dude bros scare me and i feel like im always being judged but if we went together i know u would take care of me!! i like aerobics and like calisthenics (i had to google how to spell that word) and love yoga sm!! the burn of stretching feels amazing!!

hehe i am very puppy coded! i used to think i was more kitten coded but now ive grown and realized puppies are sooo fun!! so much energy and just wanna be cherished and loved!! which is everything i want!!

nooooo thats so sad that ur allergic to ur fav food :(( i love ceviche but at least u can still tolerate the cooked version. i know its not the same but its still something!!

ohhh i forgot that i put that in my dni, people are so weird about race here smh i just gotta cover all my bases so i can have fun on this website!! but aww we would look soooo cute together

im a sucker for chips. u know how they say all bi girls do is lie and eat hot chip? yeah all i do is eat hot chip hehehe. not so much lying but hot chip very much so. i also loveee chips and salsa and chicken wings and yeah all the fun savory stuff i guess!!!

hehe cumming is like a lil treat!! a reward for myself for being sooo good you know? but it would be a million times better if someone else was making me cum rather than myself 😳🫣

[captainaikus]

hello love!

its not any fun if you push yourself to exhaustion, so don't worry about it! although, i wont stop you from making a 5th edition. just be careful if you do, okay? we dont want you overworking yourself!

back to convo: MY IN LAWS ARE OBSESSED WITH ME YESSSS <33 WHAT IS UP WITH LIKE ISEKAI AND REINCARNATION? LIKE ITS FUNNY BUT ITS INTERESTING EVEN THOUGH YOU KNOW WHAT'S GOING DOWN? Oh. its the hot men. oops. well even though its predictable, theyre still fun to read even though theyre cliche.

KRJDJSB YOUR LEAST FAVORITES LMAOOO 😭 THEYRE EGOISTS BUT THEYRE HOT? THE ONLY EXCUSE TBH. but your last two, tbh theyre not that hot in my opinion... i totally get it 😭 nothing like being a camera/women whore to make us angry.

YES PINK <3 I SAY ITS THE BEST COLOR OUT THERE! i myself am more of a reddish-pink but like- really light yknow? pastel, but its really cute! painted my room a piglet pink for that :) the other pastels are cute too! even orange, which is the worst color. guys can hate on me but i hate orange. if you like orange youre WRONG 🤬 (ofc guys im just joking please dont get offended 😰)

THATS SO CUTE? EXCUSE ME? A LITTLE SAFE HAVEN MANSION PLEASE AND LIKE BEAUTY AND THE BEAST? GOALS? <33

about me, huh? umm its a little long sorry

my favorite songs are bug, fragile, & airhead(vocaloid). my aesthetics are softcore, cottagecore, kawaii, & japanese school aesthetics! basically anything pastel, pink, beige, plant, or japanese! i looked up softcore to confirm my suspicions and um... i got p*rn. uh guys make sure when youre searching up softcore that you search up 'softcore aesthetic' instead because.. i mean unless you wanna get p*rn. that's fine ig?

my top favorites animes/manga are toilet bound hanako kun, bungo stray dogs, hunter x hunter, & blue lock :) mainly because they contain my favorite characters: aoi akane, ranpo, killua, & nagi :)

i love sweet food, as well as asian food (especially basic beef pho)! i cant handle spicy, but im fine with the burn. its the pain that comes with it. ouch. BUT IM ASSUMING YOU HAVE HIGHER TOLERANCE 👀 like jalapeños? you can eat them without dying, right? please tell me some good spicy foods for beginners! i can handle like... pepperoni and like... spicy barbecue sauce, and hot doritos? 😭

AND THE PANTIES DISCUSSION? THERES MORE. INTIMATE THINGS? NO. GET READY FOR:

loincloth

undies

underpants

underclothes/clothing

long johns

underthings (did u already list this? 😭)

skivvies

I KNOW THAT SOME ARE FOR GUYS BUT I CANT IMAGINE WRITING A SMUT FIC AND PUTTING: "take off your long johns babe, because it's gonna be a long night." LIKE PLEASE? WHAT? 😭😭 I CANT???

also im sorry im not calling you belle! im used to calling people love or lovely! if youd like me to instead call you belle just tell me! its ok if you dont like the nickname :)

DESPITE ALL OF THAT i hope today's a great day/night for you as well! byebye lovely! <3

- 🌸 anon

ty for understanding doll 🥹 so yeah there would be a 5th edition but I'm taking my time with it Don't even get me started on the hot men in webtoons (got a woman in there too) - I’ve read a lot of Manhwas too (some BL)

i started reading one today - the boxer (still on chapter 3 - but so far it’s going good) my moods in two panels

one of the comments really said “albino Bakugou” 🥹😭

they certainly are hot v.v adam disappointed me. There was so much potential in there the beard n aura but no. oliver is kinda a whore my whore pink is also said to have a calming effect compared to other colors. imo- yellow is the worst color out there, but I've gotten used to it haha yeah the Budapest hotel is my mansion :) ooh vocaloids! i listen to them as well (esp the wowaka's album) n deco! (i listen to a lot of genres tbh, phonk, classical n all - you name it but i think my writing gives lana del rey vibes cause it is tragic n ambiguous at times?) oh yeah there have been times when i have seen nsfw things on tumblr when just scrolling through for some blog aesthetics 0v0 i have one too many fav animes but here we go :

• jojo's bizarre adventure

• kamisama hajimemashita

• Hanayori no dango (its boys over flowers - the original one)

• tokyo ghoul (it was one of the first anime series i watched but after season 2 i wasn't a fan of it)

• death note

• devilman crybaby

• black butler

• slam dunk n knb

• haikyuu

• maid sama! (one of my personal favs)

• ouran high school host club (i watched it a few months ago n it was good)

• free!

• beastars

• jujutsu kaisen

• promised neverland - the first season was good the second.. we know happened to that

• bsd was one of my favs too! i have one too many favs from there

• yuri on ice (contemplating to watch it again)

• blue lock (manga wise - anime i don't keep up with the eps)

• vinland saga (yet to catch up on season 2)

• the ways of a househusband i was watching the time i got reincarnated as a slime (good watch imo), baki (v interesting too-) yeah there are a lot of animes to name

hentai too jalapeños... yeah i eat those. not spicy for me tbh, apart from that the real spicy stuff is the samyang noodles confused crying how do people even eat ghost peppers 🥹 i like enough spice in food to trigger my palette n brain but not spicy enough to burn my stomach or intestines i'm not the best person to ask spicy food for beginners cause some people can't handle spicy food well - depends on the kind of food you grew up eating n the kinda diet you have as it could trigger your body ; but i added chilli powder to bland foods - including Szechuan sauce or sriracha n now that's my go to for spicy food or making fried rice i feel like if uncle roger saw this he's gonna make sure my cooking career goes up in flames loincloth 💀 underthings? 💀 long johns 💀 how... where do you even get these words - i don't even want to know how do they invented these i read that sentence in the most victorian woman voice ever.

actually same here, i tend to call ppl doll, angel, pretty, lovely at times- cause it makes a person smile (i say girlie pop too, honey, gem, sweetness) but at times i hesitate cause idk if the person is comfortable with me calling them that and please! feel free to call me love or lovely! idm it at all 0^^0 i hope you have a great morning / afternoon / evening too doll ! <3

[arlecchno]

YES HELLO IM VERY HAPPY TO BE GETTING BACK TO SENDING ASKS MORE OFTEN HEHE - tbh for some reason im fairly good at manifesting dreams because ive noticed for me personally if im thinking about something a bunch before falling asleep theres a pretty big chance that , if i have a dream that night , itd be about the thing i think about , and surprise surprise .. i think about genshin a lot so ive had my fair share if genshin or genshin related dreams , in order of appearance , ive seen: xiao , thoma , childe & scaramouche , albedo & kaeya & diluc & jean , and ofc haitham and kaveh ! sometimes i think about how alhaitham would act towards me as well and , dude , i do NOT think he would tolerate my bullshit whatsoever HAHAH like maybe hed tolerate me in the beginning but once i get comfy its the end of that whole relationship because im incredibly annoying and loud .

im passionate for so many of these silly funky little shits in genshin man , all my friends know me for being a kazuha lover too 😭😭 THE FIRST TIME I WORE A RING TO SCHOOL THEY ALL JOKED ABOUT ME “finally marrying kazuha” LMFAO —

HELL YEAH VALIDATION FOR MY STUPID PORTRAYAL ‼️‼️ there was actually a part where haitham had to explain the joke to kaveh here imma type it out —

k: who are you calling a fool you scoundrel ?? also its so not true that he could beat me in a fight

and then the note from the kaveh rper: “bros DENYING it but we all know alhaitham solos”

a: once again , kaveh , denial is a river in the desert .

k: seriously i dont understand you sometimes alhaitham whatever youre trying to explain doesnt make any sense -

a: its a kind of word play , kaveh — see this is why i call you a fool — you do know what the nile river is , correct ? i wouldnt be that surprised if you didnt though .

k: i obviously know what the nile river is - I just dont understand the word play your implying [crosses his arms in "I won't stop posing like this til I get an answer”] (exact words from the kaveh LMFAO)

a: “the nile” and the word “denial” sound similar .

i was hanging on by a T H R E A D when i made haitham make that jokes because on one hand it is SO not a thing he would say but on the other … its funny . and since it was practically a crack taken serious rp i was like fuck it why not . hopefully i managed to stay in character LOL .

holding my hands out rn please diluc …. literally trading my hutao for any dilucs i can get rn HAHAH

asters name isnt even their original one lmfao , they adopted it when they settled into mond because well , cant have anyone knowing you were an ancient khaenriahn soldier yaknow . their original name (now their legal last name) is stigandr which means wanderer in old norse , and before you say anything about it , i made aster way before scara was announced playable so it is merely coincidence . the name aster was chosen for them for actually a multitude of reasons , them being that it means “star” , the fact that its a flower in mondstadt , and that i actually also used to go by that name as well !

they arent exactly besties with kaeya , infact their permanent residence is actually dawn winery so .. i imagine you know where this is going HAHAH - based off of my own personal relationship with kaeya , aster absolutely DESPISED him at first , not in any serious way but like “this bitch is annoying as hell” and its totally a slowburn friendship . when they both eventually became good enough friends , aster helped the ragbros reconcile . i like to think aster also has a sibling like relationship with diluc (hear me out , the fucking angst possibilities with this that i wont elaborate on rn , maybe later if youre interested) and is like debating on marrying kaeya platonically so that they can be legal siblings LOL

COTTON CANDY IS GREAT YESS my school sells different flavors other then the red and blue and my gods the mint and hot chocolate flavors are delicious -

we can be weird together h , because ME TOO ive been obsessed with him ever since i saw him . like at first it was gender envy and then i saw his personality and just fell immediately . heizou please marry me -

oh thats cool ! i think its nice that you finished the stuff bc now you can kinda relax in that aspect of your life right ? :D good luck with your future studies though lmfao -

OMG YOURE GONNA SAY GOODBYE TO BRICK WALL WINDOW ? congratulations !! i also have that problem with my stuff , so much of my shit has a lot of sentimental meaning and i refuse to throw them out hahah

LMAO the one inch away from going insane is so me . oof though , driving …. shivers …… i dont think id be ready to drive ever lmao ive driven , like , a go kart before (it kinda felt like a real car man .. it had doors and everything) and that was like borderline terrifying .

i meaaan .. i never said you couldnt be biased but yeah understandable ! kazuha would be a wonderful roomie . hes also one of my top candidates for if i had to room w a genshin character . the other 2 on the top 3 podium are thoma and heizou hahah - mostly heizou though , i love him and would love his opinion on my multitude of theories regarding various media , and i would totally try to get him to obsess over things with me hehe , we also have similar taste in food based off his lines lmao . anyways before i go off and write an essay on 100 reasons me and heizou are compatible together im going to cut myself off LMFAO - i do agree that even some of our favs would be absolutely insufferable to room w , i too would avoid rooming w scara unless he signed a contract not to yell or be too mean to me because like . i WOULD cry . unless we were friends beforehand i guess . same with alhaitham - like im kinda into his personality and how he wouldnt sugarcoat anything but id rather not start sobbing infront of him yknow lolol

my exploration progress is .. well not very much honestly ! ive only maxxed out one subsection of mondstadt because im just too lazy to do exploration , and no reward can get me to walk around for an extended period of time , especially because im practically blind id be walking around in circles for like 5 minutes looking for a fucking oculi that was underground and/or above me 😭😭 (this literally happened to me so many times) my story progress is decent i guess ? im slightly behind on my archon quests but thats because i want to drag my friend into commentating on it with me because its funny - im on the second act of the sumeru quests rn , the one where were psychologically abusing setaria /j my main genshin team is kaeya , albedo , xiao , and kazuha ! its not as elementally balanced as id like , but they are my sillies and dont have the heart to replace any of them yet

i hope youre day has been well too ! (even though im like pretty sure you usually respond to my asks at like 6am) id have sent my last response earlier if academics werent fucking me over so much (semi exaggeration) LMFAO

questions questions ! whats your favorite kind / flavor of chocolate ? or pastry if you dont like / cant have chocolate ? (can you tell im planning something lol .)

— jellyfish

HELLO HELLO YOU!!! i've finally got to answer your ask i'm terribly sorry that it's been a while 😢😢😢😢

i think if i had your abilities to dream about the things i think about a lot i'd be having the time of my life bro... my dreams are so random like did you know last night i dreamt about having two of my teeth fall out and how they were absolutely GINORMOUS for no reason? i woke up thinking they actually fell out and had to check myself and look around my bed to see if there were any teeth there,, truly a weird new experience/fear i will literally cry if i lose a single tooth

not the married to kazuha allegations!!!! whenever someone mentions about my kazuha obsession i'd humbly take it as both a proud moment and an embarrassment for me because yes! i love kazuha will all my heart! but am i that lonely that i resort to the comfort of a pixel character...? maybe that's why i'm a writer now /j (I'M JUST KIDDING this is how i usually view myself as a kazuha enjoyer LMAO/)

also THAT BIT OF YOUR RP TOOK ME OUT 😭😭😭😭 me and kaveh twins fr we would be SO clueless when it comes to jokes about wordplay,, even if this was a rp i think this would be canon in a modern au because i can actually see haitham as someone who can joke when he feels like it and when he does,, it's just him making this 😐 face while he explains the joke and kaveh being like 😠🤨 at first and then 😧 when he finally gets it. and then haitham is just there waiting for kaveh's foul comments and retorts.... okay i've clearly gotten ahead of myself with this LOL

please trade with your hu tao. i've been trying to pull for her but she's not even bothered to come home to me smh this is the third lantern rite yet i still don't have her 😔

and WOW!!! the depth to aster's name is honestly fascinating :0 it's nice to see that you've given them a solid background while still stringing them with the genshin lore that's just so incredible!! also them being a permanent residence of dawn winery. i can imagine the pure chaos it is getting along with ragnvindr brothers (or attempt to, at least) but their development with aster sounds great!!!! i definitely see aster being someone they'd lean to eventually. would love to see how they all first met though LMAO aster and kaeya would have so many awfully idiotic banters and diluc's just.... there watching them argue like teenagers

yes!!! finals have always been a pain for me because they're the most important part of your grade so i'm definitely relieved it's now over,, though my results weren't what i had expected i could care less at this point,, and yes unfortunately i am gonna say goodbye to my brick wall view 😔 i no longer get to enjoy the blissful view from my window, staring into the beautiful void of my neighbour's wall </3 driving is gonna be such a terrifying experience for me . let's hope i don't crash into a tree like my cousin did a few years back.... haha.....

glad we're on the same page with the roommate thing!!! i'm quite embarrassed to say that i had forgotten about thoma because.... he's literally the perfect roommate. bro's a housekeeper, he knows EVERYTHING about household stuff... and bro's a total malewife too i can't believe i didn't consider him at the time

oh i HATE when oculis are underground and you're just above thinking that it was there... sumeru is very pretty but the underground areas are such a hassle to explore smh!!!

albedo.... man i'm so upset that i still don't have him 😭 had to skip his last rerun because i have already milked all of my primos for cyno (and his weapon but,,, unfortunately elegy came home instead . two. fucking. times.) and i thought about rolling for him since there were many speculations of him having a possible rerun next patch.

i seriously believed it because khoi (albedo's eng va) was hosting the 3.5 livestream but then shenhe and ayaka suddenly appeared for the upcoming batch...???? (not to mention cyno too?!?! this dude had his banner 5 months ago!) my life literally flashed before my eyes . guess i've got to wait for the next winter patch or something for him 💔

don't worry about your team not being elementally balanced.... haha.... you should see my friendship team. i really just slap on whatever character i haven't maxxed out their friendship lvl yet and call it a day

don't worry about not sending me asks on time!!! it's important to focus on irl stuff so it's fine to do whatever. i, too, have quite been neglecting this blog this month due to personal stuff 😢😢😢 take all the time you need!

to answer your question... i don't exactly enjoy chocolate. I MEAN i like it but not for a long period of time eating it,, i'd get all queasy and shit 😭 i do enjoy milk chocolate and white chocolate though, they're the least that could make me sick

as for pastries,,, this is seriously hard considering how insanely obsessed i am with pastry goods 😔 every time i pass by a cafe or a bakery i always fight the urge to head in and buy every single pastry there is because THEY'RE ALWAYS SO GOOD!!! if i had to choose...... donuts. you can never go wrong with them . also cinnamon rolls definitely secures in second place. overall i'm just a really dedicated puff pastry enjoyer i hope i can learn how to bake one day (i tried cooking an egg and almost burnt the kitchen down)

i hope my replies this time aren't too long for you to read 😢😔 i'm making up for the times i've gone missing so if you read until here then that's nice of you,, i'm a real rambler if given the opportunity.

question!!!! what's your current favourite song :0

hope you're having a wonderful day today, don't forget to rest well 😙🪐🤍

[kimmkitsuragi]

hm

[the-best-bagel]

I am so very sleepy and want to sleep very bad. And Yet

[elytra404]

hello! im currently extremely irritated so tumblr is getting a list!

Things not to say to Disabled People:

"Your don't look disabled" not everyone who is disabled will actively look disabled, most wont actually.

"You have to tell me when i mess up, im not ableist" no. it is not disabled peoples job to tell you when you fuck up. i do tell people, cause im a fucking pushover who cant say no when they ask me too! just, dont.

"'referring to a mobility aid' your too young for that/your taking it away from somebody who needs it" no. nobody is too young they have it for a reason. if they have it they are not taking it away from people who need it they are one of the people who need it.

"I bet i would be fine if i had that, no offense" yes i have heard this genuinely. offense taken, do not pretend you could handle a disability that you have no clue what its like. I dont care if you have a high pain tolerance, you have yet to experience a 24/7 horrible pain. fuck your stupid pain tolerance.

I am very upset rn, if you cant tell. Please just stop doing this shit. its getting harder and harder each day to pretend someone close to me isnt repetitively being ableist and blaming it on joking or mental health issues.

[erbis-artist]

Ok. So this post thread is basically me venting and ranting about social media. If u are uncomfortable or dont care about this u can scroll pass it.

What I wanted to say is: I had enough. Every time I get msgs from my friends that somekind haters shit on my page and accuses me of shit for what I havent done. They repost my art without my permission, rip my comments out of context and this is already for a month or 2.

I got only 1 question: why? Why are u doing this? What do u want to do with spreading crap about me? U want to take me down? U want to make people hate me? Well I will tell u 1 thing - I dont care anymore. Do whatever the f*ck u want, if u got nothing better to do than shit on a person who minds their own buisness.

I had enough of those toxic shitters shitting on my ship (kruelee) that its toxic, while they ship 2 enemies who hate each other (kruecent) together. I had enough of people reposting my art and saying I draw something wrong just because of my artstyle. I had enough of this shit and I dont care anymore.

PS: if u are a kruecent shipper, I dont hate u as long as u dont hate on kruelee and spread shit about it. I respect all shippers until it gets shitty like this and people share their hateful opinions about a fictional ship, which causes innocent shippers getting into trouble because of haters/people who cant hold their mouth full of shit shut.

But at same time, I cant be quiet. I have to speak up and show people I aint the bad guy, because silence usually proofs u are at fault. All I want to do is reach equality. I had enough that shippers like me get blocked for their ship and get hateful comments on their posts, even tho they dont send it to anyone in private and just mind their own buisness creating. I had enough and I stand up for them and am ready to be their shield.

U think u do something good by hating on someone for shipping 2 fictional characters who are both adults? And then u scream someone of these shippers puts their opinions on your hateful opinions??? Lmao then u arent any better. U arent a god to be pure or perfect, u arent god to judge others for what they like. And if u think our opinions arent valid - your arent either.

I speak for all my friends and my favourite artists whom I support in what they do, and seeing hateful comments on their works I wont tolerate. Ok me, I dont care anymore. But others - its too much. U did enough by harrasing us for a somekind artstyle/fictional ship which isnt changable/isnt even real. U broke so many souls, who didnt deserve that.

I had enough watching how my close friends suffer from u all, who harrass us for nothing. Who accuse me, personally, in "sexualisation" "fetish" "toxicity in shipping" even tho they themselves create NSFW content and participate in NSFW rps while being a horny minor.

I had enough of this f*cked up hypocrisy. I had enough of someone thinking they are a king/god to control us. I am speaking up to stop all of this shit.

Now, if u are THAT person reading this and planning to post another hate post. Just stop doing that. U think u are helping? U think u are doing something good? All u do is showing u got nothing better to do, nor do u show you are better. In fact u behave like a immature kid, thinking u are doing SUUUUCH A BIG THING shitting on someone.

Instead of forgetting about us, not giving a shit about our existence, working hard and becoming better in what u like to do - u waste your time.

U wont take me down. I aint the type of person who will fall in front of your hypocritical feet and obey. I wont apologize for what I havent done. I wont give up. I wont accept the fact u are still here screaming shit about me and my friends. I will prove everyone that u are wrong, a hypocrite who likes j**king off on p*rn and posting crap.

Now, to my dearest fans and friends: I love u all and care for u a lot, I am sorry about everything u had to go through, I am sorry u saw so many bad things about me, I am sorry u had to deal with hate also. I am at fault I couldnt protect u nor could I control my rage because of which I f*cked up.

Please, if u are seeing this, care to share the truth, I dont want anyone more suffering, I want to stop all of this harrasment once and for all. Also DONT INTERACT WITH THEM, THEY ARE EXTREMELY MANIPULATIVE!!!

Now, I will post all the proofs they are the hypocrites and not me. Also the proofs contain lewds, NSFW, and other triggering things, 1st I will post innocent things, then the whole NSFW they created.

[mrjarviss]

Watching Onision’s weird videos so you don’t have to [as of 13.12.2019]

so this is totally not the content i post on my blog normally, but like, the situation is really entertaining in a certain way. it’s just the biggest, most obnoxious cringefest ever, most videos have the same premise, and why even give him the views. so like, lets summarize the videos oops

shaky cam™

complains about his videos being disliked

cries about people “harassing” him [yes, apparently disliking a video equals harassment]

rips down his green screen while screaming and shirtless

starts crying and pretends to gag [that’s a reoccurring theme]

Quote: *destroys his entire setup* “YOU LOOK AT THIS, YOU LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID!”

ok ok

man’s sitting in that chair like your mom when she found out you failed a class

tries to be arthur fleck way too much

“haha guys my last video was just a joke lmao im totally mentally stable”

anyways, ppl comment “okay groomer” and he is triggered

[ain’t sure if he’s being sarcastic since i’m bad at detecting that, but] he interprets ‘groomer’ as someone who is clean

smears shit in his face

screams

cries

almost pukes

cries more

Quote: “please stop calling me a groomer” *nasty sobs and face covered in shit* “EUGH THEY WONT GIVE ME MY PATREON BACK” *literally has a little seizure*

plees

talked to his therapist

wants to ask ppl nicely to delete all the videos made about him

wants a fresh start

“pity me” basically

screaming and laughing again

wants ppl to tolerate his temper tantrums

TL;DR remove your videos about onision and give him a second chance

pretends to cough up blood

Quote: [after literally screaming about how little ppl tolerate him] “I’m supposed to do this calmly though.”

now

"hey guys my therapist told me to say sorry”

begging on his knees to get his patreon back

crying

takes off his shirt for no reason

loses it, runs to another room and pours soda on himself

screaming

Quote: “When you deleted my patreon my soul died! My soul DIED INSIDE MY BODY! I FELT IT LIKE A LITTLE INFANT BABY GROWING INSIDE MY BELLY, IT DIED!!”

bye

nobody understands him

no therapist for onion boi this time

another apology

wants to work at McDonalds

got the wrong application

jump cut: he takes his shirt off again

cringy employee practice round

screams suddenly and his clothing rack falls on him

Quote: “Just let me live in peace and let me have my McDonalds job.”

left

presumably kai kicked him out

packs his shit, cries and gags

“shut up, stop laughing”

cries in car, drool all over his chin

Quote: “I’ll see you in court.”

help

lives in the woods now

protests against patreon by being homeless (???)

literally doesn’t understand what he did wrong

doesn’t want to be called the “joker of youtube” anymore

y’all he’s the victim, this is so sad :’((

pours kombucha on his body while doing caveman noises and (?)laughing(?)

screams bc he wasted 7 dollar kombucha

Quote: “people will say you did something wrong, even though you didn’t. like, you literally didn’t do anything intentionally wrong ever.”

dissoultion

kai wants a dissolution

he took the fucking kids, yo

the thing he’s prob most mad about is that they misgendered his not-so-significant other

little seizure N° 2 + pterodactyl screeching

more gagging and crying

Quote: “i’m fine :). this is fine, this will work out. you know, we-we uh, we had 7 years together” [...] *screaming*

im done

some person let him sleep in a box outside their house

brought a whole huge af container with apple juice so he can drink it whenever he gags

apple juice gets in his eyes

crying

joker laughing

the guy who let him sleep outside his house must be regretting it rn

Quote: “sorry i brought some apple juice... to drink... whenever i start - gagging. i got this from one of the *swallows* uhhhhh free food shelters trump’s trying to shut down.”

i want custody

upgrade from box to shitty hotel

still salty about his patreon

also still salty about kai kicking him out

also also still salty about being called ‘the joker’

boutta sue his ex

wants his dog back

screaming and gagging

crying in the shower

Quote: (passive-aggressive) “To the person who said my videos are bad, how about you unsubscribe?” *proceeds to joker laugh*

oh no

local man pretends to shit himself and cries about it

in the first few seconds his crying sounds like a race car

literally looks like he just poured coffee on his white shirt

shows random scratches on his leg and whines in pain while not even touching them

begs patreon to give him his account back

Quote: (referring to the shit on his shirt) “my lover used to clean this :(”

baby carrot

ppl saying he has a small dick

“guys my dick isn’t small”

screaming about his dick while showering in the hotel room

crying in the shower

threatens to post a pick of his dick

return of the caveman sounds

Quote: “this is not okay, the way you guys are bullying me and i don’t care if most of you are still in - fricking school. you can’t treat a human being like this.”

broke

begged for money on the street

another apology, like the third or fourth so far

-SIKE, it’s not an apology

calls himself the sirius black of youtube

gagging is apparently a condition

realizes that youtube isn’t working out

screams at camera

spits

he’s the victim, he gets bullied so much :(((

he watched the joker one too many times

Quote: (r/im14andthisisdeep) “they say the world is cold and cruel, as if it’s a complaint - yeah the people saying that are the people making it cold and cruel.” *fake laughing*

that is all the videos uploaded so far, let’s see how much onion boi can push it with those edgy vlogs of his

[lycanwitch]

i’m just gonna rant and vent my feelings rn sorry but posting on here is my equivalent of screaming into the void

I started smoking cigarettes when I was 13. Why? Because I was young, curious, and stupid. Curiousity got the best of me and now 5 years later, I have to live with the addiction. I’ve tried to quit many times in the past but never followed through. You never know how bad addiction is until you deal with it first hand. I had no idea my choices back then would lead to these consequences because I was young and naive. “I wont get addicted” I would tell myself. Well, look where that got me lol.

I’ve been trying to take better care of myself and I know I shouldn’t be smoking. But god is it a hard thing stop. I always end up impulse buying cigarettes since I’m 18 and they’re readily available to me at any time. I dont want to waste my money on it but I keep doing it anyway. Every time I smoke a cigarette now I don’t enjoy it. I always get filled with dread whenever I light one up. But its the physical and mental addiction that keeps me doing it.

Lung cancer runs in my dad’s side of the family. My dad and his dad don’t have it, so ever since I found that out I’ve been paranoid that I’ll be the one that gets it, and I’m probably propelling it the more I smoke. A relative on my mom’s side was diagnosed with cancer and she had been smoking her whole life, which prompted my mom to give me the “i’m worried about you” talk. And yknow I understand why shes worried and she cares about my health but at the time it really upset me. She’s never known the extent of my addiction because I never talked to her about it. The only way she found out was that one time last summer when I went to the hospital because I was deeply suicidal. I wanted to scream at her, “you think i actually enjoy smoking? you dont know what I’m dealing with, you dont know how hard it is to quit” etc. and its hard when my only friends are heavy smokers too. Being around them makes me crave it more because they smoke so frequently during the day.

I dont know where I’m going with this but I want to stop so bad. I keep subconciously putting myself down which doesnt help and I cant control it when I do. I have depression, putting myself down is just something I do, something my brain naturally does. I’ve been trying so so hard to get my mind on the right track but. I feel like I always give in. Life fucking sucks right now and I wake up every morning wanting to kill myself and I’m so numb at this point substance abuse is the only thing keeping me stable. I hate cigarettes and I hate booze but when you develop a physical addiction to them both its a hard habit to kick. and even with weed, yknow I love weed and I genuinely believe its something good that can be used to help people but my mind does this thing where it just wants to be high all the time. I smoke 4+ bowls a day, jack up my tolerance, buy more weed, rinse and repeat. I’m blowing through $30-$50 worth of weed every few days. I’m going to really force myself to take a break though, and I really want to discipline myself into smoking no more than 2 a day. And since you can’t get physically addicted to weed it’s been easier, somewhat, but still strains me mentally. If theres anything you take away from this: please dont start smoking cigarettes. dont start drinking. you’re risking your health by doing it and it should never be an emotional crutch, but I guess I’m too stupid to figure that out and apply it to myself.