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thekittyokat · 8 months ago

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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again #the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys #saw #well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand #know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows #your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn #thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down #something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness #the transformation of a man into a monster #and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption #sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this #do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore #it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating #fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn #i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him #until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else #well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God #where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium #anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus #maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man #i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed #if only he hadn't been weaponized first #god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already #but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there #rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts #ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly #cat chat

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im-not-buying-it-ether · 6 months ago

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Oh hey what about a groundhogs day event where the hero has to relive their traumatic “One Bad Day”-esque backstory but it’s another hero they either know really well and the only way to break the loop is letting that horrible event happen

Bc I’m basic my first thought was “Oh, this would absolutely tear up anyone having to walk down crime alley knowing way too well what’s about to happen”

But I’m also obsessed with my blorbo so my other thought was “Omg lol, imagine if one of the adult heroes ended up in Billy’s body just before his parents left to go die on their dig and think maybe they can save their co-worker the tragedy he faced so young only for every attempt they succeed at getting them to stay keep the loop going and they realize they have to let them go and doom this kid all over again. Haha, extra points if the loop actually lasts from that point to them actually dying so they wake up the next day thinking they failed again only for it to be tomorrow and suddenly Uncle E gets the call that his brother and sister in law are dead and then whoever is in Billy’s body is getting thrown out with a suitcase realizing maybe the nightmare is going to last longer.”

And I just had to laugh bc goddamn my brain cant stop with angst

#‘DC stop making Billy miserable’ I say into the mic #‘I can make it worse’ says my brain ready to swing at the orphan with a sledge hammer #Groundhog Day but body swap basically #even funnier if they DONT know their fellow hero but still realizes the warning flags and tries to save them only to keep waking up #that tragedy of knowing what’s going to happen to someone you care about but the only way to escape is to let it happen #also just the jarring shift back to childhood for a lot of these heroes #other ideas being stuff like one Robin dealing with Dicks One Bad Day doing all they can to save his parents #someone dealing with the day Clark lost his parents/Pa specifically as his Bad Day bc he was too baby for the whole Krypton thing #maybe even a villain/antagonist trying to stop their hero from existing but just ending up sympathetic #then when the day is over they are through a whole character arc and don’t even want to fight anymore bc ‘I am so sorry for your loss’#vice versa too since villains have their Bad Days too #if this has been done for DC please tell me so I can go feral over this idea #dc #billy batson #shazam #batman #fanfic inspo #fanfic ideas #groundhog day #dc comics

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shadowofahope · 10 months ago

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Does anyone else re-read their WIPs or fics you haven’t worked on in forever and go: ‘ damn this is really good someone should finish this!’ But then remember ‘SHIT I NEED TO FINISH IT’

Cause that’s me right now 😅

#someone save me from my wips #can someone read my brain and finish them for me #I swear I know what I want to write down but actually writing it down is a whole other story #anyone with telepathy? please volunteer as I am past the point of broke rn

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simcardiac-arrested · 2 years ago

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once again sorry to everyone for bringing this to your dashboards. but some of you are like, genuinely delirious. not even in a funny way. & i hope you die. i hope we both die. hand in unlovable hand etc etc

#Just so fucking bizarre to me how people can be Like This. there has to be something so wrong with your brain on a fundamental level #i can’t even laugh about this or anything because i genuinely feel pity for these people. it’s so sad to me how you’re gonna be like 20 #and then go in a niche tumblr community and create drama over Nothing. over Thin Fucking Air #like do you not have a life? do you not have college? or a job? doesn’t it get tiring? don’t you ever feel ashamed about all this #and the fact that they go and complain about the shipping and the ‘fandombrained’ people as well…. oh my god #how are you going to be TWENTY. and DO THAT. are you seriously sick. ? do you need help #just say you are homophobic and that you hate kids and go. it’ll save everyone a bunch of time for sure #anyways. as someone who has been a rain world fan since 2018. i love you embracing canon. i love you changing canon. i love you disregarding #canon entirely. i love you ships that make sense in canon & that make absolutely zero sense at all. i love you fancharacters that don’t #follow canon rules. i love you ‘cringe’ fancharacters and self inserts. i love you self shipping. i love you oc x canon shipping.#and i love you taking inspiration from designs. i love you community & i love you artists & i love you art #i love you borrowing elements and being inspired and referencing something because you liked it.#are fandoms perfect? GOOD GOD no. is every Fan perfect? no. am i also sometimes annoyed or irrationally pissed off over a ship that #i think is stupid and is illogical. Yes! i’m only human! but i can still love and appreciate the whole CREATIVITY of it all. and the whole #Fun that people are having. i love you having fun. if i don’t like it or if anyone else doesn’t like it they can just Cope #instead of hateposting about it on main and indirectly bullying people who are most likely children. or lgbt. or both #anyways. please continue doing whatever you want. The world is your oyster and you only live on earth once #everyone else can fuck off

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koishua · 7 months ago

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you either die a hero (deactivate) or live long enough to see yourself become the villain (me watching the k-tumblrina kids fighting and laughing maniacally on top of a tall building)

#tp #.... back in MY TIME ‼️#enhablr was drier than the desert no fics existed yet ppl were still pissed at the rankings g-t era was just about to end #the ppl were STARVING. enhablr rode off the back of nctblr #ahahahah i always have so much fun acting like an ancient tumblrina 😞😞#watched this castle rise from the GROUND up #brick by brick #being here at 15 y/o messed with my brain pls save yourselves #seeing 13 y/os with a whole layout makes me tremble in fear FOR them #please please please dont engage with others on this site if you're that young i beg you #im so serious guys #hide and run for your life until you're conscious enough as a human being to roam the dark webs (this hellsite i mean fhfhf)#ik my rules state that you can interact with me but pls don't interact with anyone #for your own sake #i dont mind it but i will sure as heck be biting my nails in anxiety FOR you and hoping you'll only meet the good kinds of people #also pls dont come into my private messages if you're under like 16-17 #asks and just casual interactions are TOOOTALLY fine and we can totally talk through private asks #as in i reply to your asks in private but #messages are a bit iffy it just feels weird for me

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nebulouscoffee · 10 months ago

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Not my insomnia coming back to haunt me like Q posing on the bridge of the Enterprise.... *crosses out sign that says "nine days since" to "zero" and facepalms like Picard*

#I want to turn my brain off soooo bad #apparently not getting enough sleep for 20+ days means you start strongly feeling like everyone hates you & nobody would care if you died.#I would very much enjoy Not going back to feeling that way please :)#(coincidently wasn't this a whole TNG plot? aliens prevent the crew from hitting rem sleep until Deanna manages to reach them lol)#((save me Deanna))#((Deanna save me))#anyway. sorry once more for complaining on the internet #if you read this thank you please accept this digital donut 🍩

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mydr3aminvi0let · 8 months ago

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i wear a lot of skirts and pink and whatnot as my style has developed with me & my personality but when one of those age regression girlies latch onto me....i do not like that

#like oh....you think im one of them...bestie no im freshly 23 and im happy i made it this far i dont wanna go back #sometimes i hate being 5'2 with a small frame you have to be very careful and kinda vet everyone you interact with #idk there's a complex discussion to be had. i am someone who has went through what they fetishize and i know a lot of girls in that #community have too. so i worry a lot if if my behaviors and preferences accidentally align with that community in ways i don't realize #bc trauma will always reveal itself. idfk. when i was 20 i got in a relationship with a man who was 30 because i misheard him and thought #he was 24. i thought he was okay until we were at this giftshop and he wanted to get me something but as giftshops are super expensive #i mentioned i could fit in childrens clothes and it saves me a lot of money ($60 shoes are $30 for kids) and tbh fit my frame better #so he was “prove it” so i did and mf said “THATS HOT” ??????????? BITCH #my style wasn't even feminine in the slightest at the time 😑 it feels like a curse to have this kind of trauma then never outgrow this body #believe me ik how trauma changes your brain but how #as a woman #can you ever be apart of that community? why do you allow this to continue and not persecute these men for existing?#you're inherently enabling it and saying its okay this happened to you and its okay that other adults can hurt other kids #when my rapist got put in prison i screamed i yelled i sang i danced my friends set off FIREWORKS for me #when he got out i cried more than i ever have. i moved STATES (not the sole rzn but nonetheless) not that i was in the one he was in prison #in anyways but i was so fucking petrified he'd find me again. its embarrassing but i started sleeping with a chastity belt again.#i made more phone calls i ever have in my life to people who have and will get their hands dirty #i understand the self hatred those girls have. i understand the girls who sleep with everyone to take some of their power back.#i even understand the girls who want to get raped if they got assaulted but it never felt like enough for the pain they're experiencing #but please stay the fuck away from me. as someone who has tried to heal and wants every man like that erased from earth.#do not give them an ounce of attention. ostracize them like they're meant to be. leave it to god for their karma they will be dealt with #reckon with your pain and make sure it never happens to anyone else. only the harmed can make the greatest teachers #tbh bro i am disgusted with myself at all that those are the kinda vibes i put out.#what are you supposed to do as a woman when feminity is equalized with infantilism? i think its tone deaf and misguided whem girls are like #i dress this way to contradict societies views!!! babes its a whole cultural issue that requires reviewing and reforming #you are not doing anything revolutionary by wearing frilly skirts and saying im not like them bc they see you and ur automatically boxed in #i dress how i want and say what i want but i know as a individual im not the beacon of a groundbreaking movement #singularily flipping society on its head. dress how you want but be aware of the connotations. you're living in this society here and now #there's consequences that may not be in your favor and youll be assumed to have values that dont align with you and it may break your heart

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lovecommajaime · 11 months ago

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i’ve been too unormal lately

#im so tallsettos #crazy times on pluto #i need to stop #somewhere that’s green reprise i will cry #what even is little shop #rehearsals stop please #i’m not even truly off book i just listen to text to speech of my lines while i’m sleeping #it’s working kinda #weirdest thing of tags i’ve posted i think #no one in this science building knows i’m listening to little shop #little shop kills and saves me #both our audreys are gone this whole week #school is not real i swear to god #also heart shaped sunglasses fav always #i don’t know what i’m doing in tags rn #talked to my drama teacher about harmony #which ended up with me finding out he went to highschool with someone who was in smash and hes prolly gonna invest in the new bway producti #i love movies i’m a self proclaimed film bro #i hate rain #is this a brain dump rn

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michi-chelle · 1 year ago

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anyway brain empty just link click

#please for the love of all that is good and holy and sacred tell me there’s gonna be a season 3 #season 2 was amazing it kept me on my toes the whole time and it was super action-packed and psychological and i loved it #the fight scenes were so satisfying lmao #season 1 has my whole heart tho it’s like…..cozy? idk it’s an emotional rollercoaster for sure but #it was focused more on our beloved trio and their little adventures idk #i liked how each ep was about a different client and a different story but it was all cohesive and tied together into a greater plotline #tho i didn’t understand liu min at all like i don’t get what his deal with emma was i didn’t get his motivations at all #and i didn’t understand the lil pink hair boy either (i forgot his name) like why would he agree to kill all those people #like how did he know qian jin had the means to change the past like did he know of cheng xiaoshi…?#and i still don’t get how lu guang knew about the boat #oh shit unless he knew about it because he went that far back in time to save cheng xiaoshi?? now my brain hurts #whatever i just need season 3 😫 this show is so good omg #i’m glad i randomly saw the thumbnail of a video youtube recommended me about the show and the art style captivated me #and then boom i was hooked lmao #michi yaps

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crossbackpoke-check · 2 years ago

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I have to ask about good dog bad dream <3

🥰🥰 oh i was HOPING for this one. ok so y’all may actually know a little bit already because it exists in the tags as tyler borzoituzzi but! good dog bad dream is the working document title/notes compilation for a fic that started with the premise of “well you see that’s actually not a dog that’s my blorbo from my hrpf shifter wolf au—”

and, because i have never formally addressed it or put it anywhere other than the tags, three important details about this fic:

this IS a semi-au fic about the detroit red wings, set vaguely in the 2018-19 season, because the wings sucked that year (but not as bad as 2019-20)

this is ALSO a fic that is mainly about tyler bertuzzi and dylan larkin, with some other wings thrown in because i've never met an ensemble i couldn't shove into a love story

this 100% exists because of mickey redmond calling tyler a junkyard dog every chance he gets and me every time going "okay but what if literally though" -> 🐺

#me 🤝 the detroit red wings hippo campus hive mind #liv in the replies #the way that this fic exists fully formed in my brain & i just need it!!! to come out as a narrative!!!#where is the brainworm to print fic button. where is it #also the way in which i’m just like ‘yeah the fic is tyler borzoituzzi’ ok but can we have a title please. like a real one.#because somehow out of 20 pages of bertuzzi-thesis-dog-related quotes i have not found a title. ???? help. i also have a whole titles note #for just collecting phrases to use as titles (sometimes with specific ideas sometimes just vibes sometimes like oh i like that phrase)#not to mention the fact that my quote doc for the bertuzzi thesis has a more embarrassing title but like it’s fine!!#UPDATE THE DOC HAS ACTUAL WRITING IN IT 🚨🚨 I REPEAT WE HAVE REAL NARRATIVE NOT TAG NOT!FIC #WE ARE AT A SOLID ALMOST 1K!!! THIS IS THANKS TO Y’ALL!!! don’t ask how long the document with notes is tho. also how many scenes are done 🙃#anyway i have had this reply written for like two days but keep not posting it because i wanted to be able to have something written to give #but also there’s another ask about good dog bad dream so this one will be info (boring) (sorry) and i will post a snippet in the next ask <3 #me vs not wanting to spoil things vs literally the entire plot of this already written out in the tags: fight #tyler borzoituzzi #WAIT MY TAGS DIDN’T SAVE 😭😭😭#you’re missing the one of me going ‘🥺🥰☺️😭💕‼️🥹 thank you for the ask’#lmaooo tumblr out here like ‘bro you can’t do that every time someone sends an ask’ ok well watch me. what if i DO cherish every interaction #wip ask game

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danidoesathing · 4 days ago

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Cursed crack idea: Sburb sessions for the Piltover/Zaun Champions. Specifically, the League Versions.

It's a raging disaster. Everything's on fire. Jayce and Viktor's Cosmic Soulmate-turned-Kismesissitude (and them being opposite Aspects of Hope and Rage) almost dooms the session. The only reason they manage to win with no casualties is because Ekko (the Time player) God-tiers and comes in clutch.)

i had to look up what sburb is and sorry to say anon but i have literally no knowledge on homestuck or what any of this stuff on the wiki means or the terminology. however jayce and viktor inadvertently almost ruining literally everything just by existing near each other and ekko coming in clutch and somehow pulling off a miracle is pretty accurate to canon ngl

#i dont know enough about homestuck or sburb to build on this sorry #however do not let that discourage you for sending me more asks like this please i want to chat about arcane/zaun and piltover so so bad #i have many ideas many aus floating around in my brain rn. a few crossovers esp have had a death grip on me #ask #dani speaks #asks #cant speak for league lore super well (i did a wiki deep dive forever ago so i do have SOME knowledge. mostly about the zaun champions)#(i have favorites <3 viktor and zeri being among them. i did write a whole shitty fic about them in arcane)#but tbh this just sounds like season two episode nine. ie jayvik literally almost ending the world and ekko saving the day thank u ekko ily #/hj

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wisteryuu · 2 months ago

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vent in tags don't mind me