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reader doing the âheâs the best big brother everâ trend on bf!rafe <3 warnings none/rafe being salty in readerâs comments
Rafeâs gaze hovered over your figure, admiring as you shuffled around to adjust the phone positioned on the counter. You set the timer, stealing a glance in Rafeâs direction, who stood and observed like a lost puppy; unaware of what to do with himself. âIâll start recording on three, please donât say or do anything weird, okay? My account is done for if another post of mine gets flagged.â
âAlright baby, start it.â He assured, his statement not convincing whatsoever. You simply rolled your eyes, doing as he ordered, hurrying to press the record button. You straightened up, taking Rafeâs side as you fixed up your hair, instantly flashing the camera a smile when the blue line appeared on the screen.Â
Rafe crossed his arms, brows knitting into a frown upon hearing your next words. âIf you wanna get to him,â you started, suppressing your giggles as you addressed Rafe with your thumb, then back at your chest. âYouâll have to go through me first.âÂ
âWhat are you saying?â Rafe scoffed, slightly taken aback when you turned around, your arms filling the majority of the view. You reached for his face, cupping his cheeks in your hold as you forced his head down, until his eyes leveled with yours.Â
Rafe instantly melted when you sweeped him in a kiss, arms naturally finding the curve of your waist, in an attempt to deepen the kiss. A groan of complaint bubbled out of his throat when you moved away, not giving him the satisfaction of getting what he wants, and instead turning back to the camera, with his hand loosely hugging your side.Â
âHeâs the best big brother ever!â You uttered between chuckles, sensing the way Rafe stiffened from your side.Â
âWhat the fuck?!â His eyes widened with shock, flashing you a look of disbelief, watching as you erupted into a fit of laughter, unable to maintain character at your boyfriendâs reaction. âBest what now? Delete that shit!âÂ
âOh myââ you continue to giggle, amused by the hint of annoyance washing over Rafeâs expression. âYouâre the best, I can't ask for a better brother figureââÂ
âEnough with your bullshit, man!â He interrupted before you could further speak, aiming for the phone. âYou and your stupid TikTok challenges.âÂ
âWait, Rafe!â You snatched your phone from his hold, knowing the latter; he was probably going to delete it. âIâm posting it, your reaction is funny.âÂ
âYouâre not posting that!â He argued, groaning when he strived to take your phone, merely for you to dodge his hold. âCâmon baby, what if they actually think Iâm your brother? You already have so many thirsty men in your comments.âÂ
âRelax, baby.â You rolled your eyes, embracing the boy in a hug, too engrossed by the video on your phone to spare him a glance. âItâs a trend, besides, who in their right mind kisses their brother?âÂ
Yeah, maybe you shouldâve listened to your boyfriend.Â
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andy6928h Let daddy take you out on a date
rafecameron Hop off her dick
alibabefaen Check your Dms for A surprise đ
rafecameron This is not funny.
user6292936 Get rid of that twig hun đč I will treat you so much better
rafecameron She is completely fine and content with me, therefore, she will NOT be needing you, thanks.
rafecameron Actually yk what f*ck you đđŒ
rafecameron Stop hitting on MY girl please and thanks. She is MINE.
a/n old trend ik... but this was too cute not to do :'(
#rafe cameron#rafe cameron x reader#rafe cameron drabble#rafe cameron blurb#rafe cameron x you#rafe cameron x y/n#rafe cameron imagine#rafe cameron fluff#rafe cameron smut#rafe obx#outer banks#drew starkey
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âFurryDad8+: You cruising through the holidays?!â
âSnakePit24: Something like that. Nice profile. You wanna use my snake spit to lube your great 8?â
âFurryDad8+: Your boyfriend know youâre online, posting pics, lookin for loads?â
âSnakePit24: Donât have a boyfriend.â
âFurryDad8+: Dylanâs gonna be surprised to hear that!â
âSnakePit24: Who the hell is this?! How do you know my boyfriend?!?â
âFurryDad8+: Iâm your furry Daddy!â
âSnakePit24: Stop fucking around. Who the hell are you?!â
âFurryDad8+: Itâs me, Jake! Your Dad!â
âSnakePit24: What?!â
âFurryDad8+: Your Dad! The same guy who found the neon green dildo stuck to your shower wall last year.â
âSnakePit24: What the fuck is wrong with you?! What the hell are you doing on this site?! Why do I now know that youâre 8+ ?!â
âFurryDad8+: Watch your mouth, young man! Your motherâs right here reading this. Jake, you have a boyfriend!â
âSnakePit24: Jesus Christ, Iâm not talking to you about this.â
âFurryDad8+: You said you deleted this app! That you owed Dylan that much and that you wanted to be held accountable.â
âSnakePit24: Iâm sorry! Please donât tell him!â
âFurryDad8+: Letâs keep this between us the four of us - you, me, my belt, and your mother - sheâs still reading this.â
âSnakePit24: Jesus, Dad!â
âFurryDad8+: Look, you havenât hooked up with anyone yet, so thereâs nothing to tell Dylan. Weâll see you for Christmas Eve and you can take what youâve got coming then- give yourself a fresh start!â
âSnakePit24: I guess youâre rightâŠâ
âFurryDad8+: Your mother says this wonât seem as complicated after you rub one out! Sheâs right you know!â
SnakePit24: Jesus! What is wrong with you two?!â
âFurryDad8+: Happy Holidays, son! See you soon!â
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'Time to sparkle' ~ the last! :( Santareen adventcalender DAY 24 10 couple poses and 5 single poses with a sparkler for your new years celebration â„ DOWNLOADÂ (SFS) DOWNLOADÂ (Patreon)Â (always free!) You need the sparkler here (this is an override to stigmata accessory, if you have the original, delete them temporarily to let this one show up in game)
â„~â„ Clipping sadly is inevitable due to sim bodies/faces being different, or the clothing they wear, but I try my best to fit most of them. Be free to tag me at tumblr, insta or bluesky if you use my poses (@simmireen) You can find an overview of all my posepacks at Pinterest Want to commission me? > Ko-Fi page Terms of use Donât claim as yours or put behind a paywall Donât re-edit (adjusting hands is always allowed, just donât change up my pose) Donât reupload anywhere Please let me know if something doesnât work!
@ts4-poses @sssvitlanz @alwaysfreecc
Thank you, so very much for all your support this last year and ofcourse this december <3 it's not how much we give, but how much love we put into giving...
I want to wish you happy holidays if you are celebrating, with your partner, family, pet or maybe even alone with your pixel babies, hopefully I could spark a little extra light for you this year with my adventcalender <3 I'll ofcourse come back to you soon with a overview with all the links and I will be back with a little extra pack this sunday, but first I'm going to have a small christmas break <3 Thank you so immense much! (Is that even english? hahaha)
#posepack#simmireen#thesims4#ts4cc#ts4poses#ts4#ts4-poses#posemaker#sims4poses#sims4#sims 4#the sims 4#ts4 poses#simmireengoessantareen#alwaysfreecc#adventcalender
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Oh the Guilt
Sam Carpenter x Reader
One-shot
Summary: no
Warning(s): major character death and mourning/grief
Notes: Based off of this request: hey! i saw your requests are open (i am indeed busting). i was wondering if youâd do some angst with either sam or tara? maybe sam/tara spending the holidays alone because they falsely accused reader of being gf and pushed them away/broke up w them. but it only ended up putting r in danger and leading to their death? love me some good ol angst if youâre up for it! have a great holiday season :)
The Christmas lights blur through her tears as Sam clutches your photo to her chest, fingers trembling against the worn edges. Her apartment feels too quiet, too empty, the silence broken only by the distant sound of people celebrating that makes everything worse. It wasn't supposed to be like this.
Sam stares at your sweater draped over her couch - the soft blue one you always wore when it got cold, the one that still holds traces of your perfume. She doesn't deserve its comfort, but she pulls it on anyway, drowning in fabric and guilt and memory.
"Weâre specimens to you, arenât we?" Sam's voice had cracked like breaking glass, fear masquerading as anger. "Iâm not letting Tara get hurt again!"
You'd reached for her, confusion and hurt painting your features. "Sam, please. You know me. I would never-"
"I thought I knew Richie too," she'd snarled, backing away from your touch. "Get out. Get out!â
The door had slammed with such finality. She'd thought she was protecting herself, protecting everyone. Instead, she'd handed you to them gift-wrapped - alone, vulnerable, perfect prey.
By the time Sam realized her mistake, she was cradling your broken body in the rain, red seeping into puddles around you both. Your fingers had weakly brushed her cheek, still trying to comfort her even then.
"Not your fault," you'd whispered, but those words haunt her worse than any ghostface ever could.
Now Tara brings food she doesn't eat, Kirby tries to coax her out, but Sam remains suspended in amber, preserved in the moment she lost you. Your clothes hang in her closet like ghosts. She wears your sweaters to sleep, buries her face in the fabric and pretends she can still feel your warmth.
The Christmas tree in the corner - the one you'd insisted on buying together - stands half-decorated, just as you'd left it. Tinsel dangles like broken promises. The star you'd picked out remains in its box, because finishing it without you feels like accepting you're gone.
Sam traces the words of your last text message: "I love you. We'll talk soon." Her phone screen has cracked from how many times she's dropped it, hands shaking too hard to hold on.
She knows she should let others in. Knows you'd want her to live, to heal, to forgive herself. But every time Tara hugs her or Kirby offers support, it feels like betraying your memory. Like she doesn't deserve comfort after what she did to you.
Sometimes, in the depths of night when the walls feel like they're closing in, Sam swears she can feel you. A whisper of movement in her peripheral vision, the ghost of your touch against her shoulder, the way the air shifts as if accommodating your presence.
"I see you everywhere," she whispers into the darkness, clutching your sweater like a lifeline. "The coffee mug you chipped is still in the cabinet. Your stupid action movies are still in my queue. I can't⊠I can't delete them."
The apartment creaks, settling into winter's grip, and Sam lets out a broken laugh. "Remember how you used to say these old buildings had character? God, you'd make up stories about the noises - ghosts having dance parties, you said." Her voice catches. "Is that what you're doing now? Dancing without me?"
Sam reaches out, fingers trembling in the empty air where she imagines you might be. "I fucked up. I fucked up so bad. I was so scared of losing everyone that I pushed away the one person whoâŠ" She chokes on the words. "The one person who never gave me a reason to doubt them."
The Christmas lights flicker, and for a moment, Sam's heart stops. She's learned to find meaning in these small disturbances, these tiny rebellions against reality. "I know what you'd say. That I need to forgive myself. That I need to let people in." Tears track down her cheeks. "But how can I? How can I when every time I close my eyes, I see you bleeding out in my arms?"
Something shifts in the room - maybe the heating kicking in, maybe something more. The tinsel on the half-decorated tree sways gently. Sam watches it, transfixed. "If you're here⊠I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry. I should have trusted you. Should have protected you. Should have been there whenâŠ"
The star for the tree - your star - sits in its box on the coffee table. As Sam watches through tears, a draft from somewhere catches the lid, lifting it slightly. Her breath hitches.
"You want me to finish it, don't you? The tree?" Her laugh is wet, broken. "Always so stubborn about traditions." She reaches for the star with shaking hands. "I don't know if I can. It feels like accepting you're reallyâŠ"
The room grows impossibly still, as if the very air is holding its breath. Sam could swear she feels the phantom pressure of your hand over hers, guiding her toward the tree. The sensation is so vivid she gasps.
"Okay," she whispers, standing on unsteady legs. "Okay, baby. For you." She clutches the star to her chest, your sweater hanging loose on her frame. "But I'm not ready to let you go. Not yet. Maybe not ever."
As she reaches up to place the star, the Christmas lights seem to glow a little brighter, and for just a moment, Sam swears she can feel your arms around her waist, your chin on her shoulder, just like before. Just like always.
"Stay with me?" she asks the empty room, knowing the answer, dreading the silence. "Even if I don't deserve it?"
The lights flicker once, twice - like a heartbeat, like a promise - and Sam breaks down sobbing, sliding to the floor beneath your half-finished tree, beneath your star, beneath the weight of a love that even death couldn't quite end.
âââ
A/N: first request filled, ob-la-di (sorry if this sucks, Iâm half-asleep)
#ob-la-da#sam carpenter x you#sam carpenter x reader#sam carpenter x gn!reader#sam carpenter x y/n#melissa barrera x you#melissa barrera x reader#melissa barrera#sam carpenter
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Hello! Sending it here again:
I play an mmo game which recently had a big character model update, it's still not perfect but we're getting there! They're sharing behind the scenes work on curly hairstyles, for example, which just... weren't there for the longest time. Oh the beauty of scandinavian white-centering... (sarcasm)
anyway, I'm from eastern-central Europe, I play on eastern Europe servers. Seeing someone with a character that's not white is... pretty rare, honestly. So rare that when I do see someone using a character that's clearly meant to be a POC, they're very often roleplaying. Recently I saw a player whom I know for a fact is white, as I know them irl (we're not friends, don't even talk much but I know what they look like) and their character used to be white too before the big update.
So my question is, does that count as digital blackface, and what even is the consensus on digital blackface as a whole? I used to be in a facebook group about unlearning racism (used to because it got deleted after some admin drama, I think? If anyone knows a similar group, let me know please) and there, most Black members agreed that if someone is white, they shouldn't be using Black emojis for example (the topic of mmos never came up, I think). I don't remember the exact reasoning but I think it was the same explanation as actual blackface. But then there were some Black people saying it's going too far and we should be focusing on "actual issues" instead. I know that's to be expected, I'm trans and I know all too well that a community is not a monolith. But seeing the player reminded me that I don't actually know that much about it, and I've seen you educate people before. I hope it's okay that I'm asking you, I'd love to do some further research as well though (I love learning things, I just also don't yet trust myself to find actually good sources).
I hope this ask makes sense, english is not my first language and all. So if I wrote something wrong, please assume I meant well, as I still don't know how to word things properly in english sometimes.
Thank you for doing what you do, btw. I really appreciate having someone compile everything like you do here, it's one of my favorite creative blogs on here.
Okay so I sat on this one for a minute to make sure my answer wouldn't change.
1) there is no one consensus. White people don't agree on everything, neither do we đ
. This would just be my opinion.
2) I definitely don't think you should be using Black emojis if you're a white person, no. That's overt Blackfacing. DEFINITELY don't pretend to be Black if you aren't!!
3) for me, I think designing your characters as Black for online play can be okay in theory, as long as you're coming at it respectfully. Like, I'd have to trust that you actually wanted to learn how to play as someone that didn't look like you, that you actually cared about Black character features and presence in games as a whole. Especially on a game where you get to design the character, versus when you're forced to play as a Black person. It's hard to trust the intentions of white people online, especially when far more often than not the good intent is just... Not there đ
. So for me, if someone asks you why you designed your character, be ready to answer, answer truthfully and answer well! If you're playing as a Black character design because "big tough guy" or "big dommy mommy" yeah you're just digital Blackfacing amongst other racist issues. But if you actually have good intent, and are willing to learn, then you'll be able to stand on that when confronted.
And again- that's just my opinion! I would listen to other voices on it as well.
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I just wanted to open the ask box for fun, in case you want to know something about them
đ„șđđ (I just realized I have 11 main OCs!!)
(I'm still not sure about Sabby)
(Please ask, request, or let me draw anything with them! I want to have fun!)
And....(Don't mind them, I just want to show that I still remember them a little bit.)
I might delete it later (I'm not too sure, it's quite embarrassing..)
I promise I will answer every question!><; (If I understand the question..)
#my art#kindergarten 2#kindergarten game#kindergarten fanart#kindergarten oc#my oc#kindergarten anastasia#kindergarten yuu#kindergarten mall#kindergarten Chris#kindergarten tina#kindergarten tiny#kindergarten pilly#kindergarten adonis#kindergarten Venus#kindergarten maya#kindergarten sabby#kindergarten John#kindergarten cj#kindergarten hughley
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love that it's called nerdy PRUDES must die but everyone that died was unashamedly horny
Edit: Please read the tags
#please read the tags#rambles from the ether#npmd#nerdy prudes must die#nerdy prudes spoilers#npmd spoilers#nerdy prudes must die spoilers#richie lipschitz#max jagerman#ruth fleming#idk I just love it when titles lie to you#also#if somebody already posted this Iâm sorry#Iâm new here#just watched it today#misleading title#edit: fyi this post is just a joke about the title being ironic. it's not like a jab at people for wanting to have sex or something#just wanted to clarify#(also if this post is offensive I will delete it! I shitpost a lot but I never want to actually be legitimately insulting/offensive)#just let me know if I should and I will
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Girl help I wish to travel to different dimensions just to watch a movie/show I really like a little to the left
#years of dreaming on it#OR WHEN A SHOW IS CANCELLED LIKE FUCK YOU#give me me ending even if i have to rip it out if the multiverse hands#but sometimes i just wanna see more of characters interacting together just give me uncut 50 hours version of them#rn it's#deadpool and wolverine#and i wanna know#final space#ending already#and a better#supernatural#ending. and my cancelled gems like#infinity train#inside job#the midnight gospel#lego monkie kid#BUT FRAME MY FRAME FLYING BARK I MISS YOU SO MUCH BBY PLEASE COME HOME wb did a good job but my obsessed ass want eye candy lego animation#our flag means death#I WOULD GIVE MY BLOOD FOR THAT SEASON 3 THEY WERE SO STUPID AND UNFAIR TO CHANCEL IT#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#BELOVED BELOVED BELOVED come backkk mm and you can coexist#oh and let's not forget. what the world would look like if the trollhunters movie didn't SUCK ASS horrible movie -7383/10 DELETE#i can go on all day i have been done wrong by many cancelled showsđ#neh what's up with everyone doing multiverseđ don't they know i was making these stuff up since ehh before spiderverse came out forsuređđ#/j#but I really didnit was like my go to plot for falling asleep i hade self insert lore and universal police and empty space and cool shit
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LeoandAmminappingunderatreethatisoutofsightbecauseIcouldn'tmakeone.png aka I tried something new aka I've never done effects like these aka please be kind to me im still learning <3
@sha-biest posted the lineart, every single credit goes to her for both the original lines and the little nugget called Ammi that is napping under Leo's chin. I uh- I just slapped some colors and a Shitty Ass Fuck background okay bye.
#tmnt#rottmnt#if you don't want me to post it please let me know and i'll delete i wanted to surprise you :(((
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slimeriana yuri if you even careâŠ
reblogs appreciated!!
boobs under the cut because idk if thatâs something i need to warn people about,,, itâs suggestive??? aaah fem!qmariana is wearing an open button up shirt đ
#đš my art#slimeriana#fliporiana#hope you like this slimeriana fans <33 this oneâs for you AIJDHIFJOAJ#please forgive me for my cringe TT#my friend is soo silly /pos about the last drawing so i thought iâd share it lol⊠iâm sure theyâll see this actually#they give me positive reinforcement and im like âwow maybe people do like my artâ and i get too confident and want to share it online KMAIH#/lh itâs fine iâm just shy and worry too much for no reason#that being said im irrationally worried about the last drawing TT if it crosses some line please let me know so i can delete it
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I don't like the way you guys talk about Palestinians asking for donations. I don't like it.
I had to see someone make MULTIPLE posts bitching and moaning about how people need to stop sending them asks asking for them to reblog their donation posts, that they'd just be blocking them from now on, and that they didn't care if they were vetted because they still found the act of sending asks to get reblogs on their donation links suspicious, even if they were in a dire situation. They even went as far as to say that they got an ask, deleted it, and then they got another ask from the same person, and accused the person of sending another ask to purposefully "get under their skin"
I don't know man, have you considered that being a victim of ongoing genocide will make you ask for help in whatever way you can? And sometimes that involves sending random blogs asks to see if they can donate or at the very least share your donation links? A Palestinian reaches out to you multiple times because they need help and your response is to whine about getting donation links in your inbox? I wish I had your problems
Also the thing about "getting the exact same ask from the exact same blog multiple times"... uh, duh? First of all, they're probably reaching out to dozens of blogs daily, do you think they're gonna type up a new paragraph for each blog they reach out to? Second of all, maybe they reached out to you multiple times because a. They really really really need the help and b. What, do you think they're gonna see your URL/blog and be like "oh! I already reached out to this blog, I'm not gonna send them another ask"? Or do you think they'll be like "this person has been reblogging other people's donation posts, maybe they'll reblog mine too"?
Like I understand being suspicious about getting sent donation links to your inbox, but literally all you have to do is check if the blog's been vetted by other bloggers? It's as easy as searching for their URL on tumblr sometimes, it literally takes less than a minute or two. And that's what bothers you? That's what you're complaining about? Find a real problem!!!
#if you recognize the person i'm specifically talking about in this post please don't harass them but i got SO angry when i saw their posts#last night they made a post saying that a scammer reached out to them so i looked up the 'scammer's' url and they were vetted by more than#one blogger so i commented on their post to let them know that#and today i remembered that and was wondering if they saw my comment so i went to their blog and found they deleted the post and instead#made like four posts about what i just described. what the actual fuck is wrong with some of you people. get a real problem oh my god!!!#i'm not mad about them deleting their original post btw i'm mad about the other shit they posted#if they had. idk. been nice in their posts i mayyybe would've let it slide but no they were FUMING they were so mad. that's what really#upset me. like genuinely how dare you#it's really not that hard to check if the blog that reached out to you is a scam or not. like literally palestinian bloggers on this site#have been working day and night to let us know which blogs are real and which aren't. donate to the fundraisers share them and get a real#problem or shut the fuck up about donations for the rest of your life#palestine#free palestine#cat rambles#i said this on discord but decided i wanted to talk about it here too so i reworded a bit of what i said on discord but it's mostly the same
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would you like a box? no? too bad *chucks a box at your face*
*very gracefully catches it*
jokes on you because I actually do want a box, so thank you so very much for this gift :D
#hall of fame curatorâs bullshit#thatâs my new tag#or#hellsite hall of fame curatorâs bullshit#idk which please let me know if oneâs better lol#or if anyone has a better suggestion#oh but#if yâall donât want to see non-hall of fame related posts please oh please block the tag#iâm begging you#and iâm not tagging completely random asks as âhellsite hall of fameâ anymore#and deleted the tag from ones like that#bc yeah#I saw a thing and havenât recovered#so now iâm re-doing my tagging system ig#anyways yeah#the hellsite answers#ask#shitpost
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i hate gift giving season sm
i could've bought myself that thing i wanted before it sold out but you told me not to (wink wink nudge nudge) so i didn't and then it sold out and i missed out on the thing (again)
i buy shit for you guys so much earlier in the year for these exact reasons and the energy is never matched
#i'm so mad#and it sounds so ungrateful but like.. gift giving is like a sport to me#just let me get you things and you get me nothing and let me enjoy being a great gift-giver#i don't want to tell you exactly what to get me for my bday/holiday/whatever via a wishlist or pinterest board;#i want you to KNOW ME and get me something i'd like BECAUSE you know me so well#you've been my parents for almost 30 years#you've been married to me for almost 10 years#PLEASE#delete later
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do you guys um. mods asleep anyone on the dash want to read 1.5k of roman history (tatd) fic i would be christening (haha) the tag for. and also help brainstorm with me to make it more than a scene but not an entire Plot đ
#not hockey but. i was possessed. that word count doesnât even include the bullets points of me just screeching#i may have started to those about to die yesterday#and i may have immediately gone âohhhh fuck okayâ about scorpus/tenax#to delete#liv in the replies#I am not about to post this on the archive because i would have to write godâs most unhinged authorâs note to even explain in what way it#exists and ties into the existing show but like. ohhh i wanna do it. let me break a bottle on this one PLEASE iâm frothing at the mouth.#yes i need to rewatch the episodes also because i need to take detailed notes about the one (1) scene where they showed the steps up to the#platform of the circus maximus yes my search history looks mildly unhinged right now with just. me trying to find blueprints and googling#âroman praetor short sword nameâ âroman broach or pin cloth clasp nameâ âcircus maximus blueprint hall name cavernâ âroman floor material#itâs not that unhinged itâs just that it requires me to write like a 30k epic backstory in order to get to this climatic scene.#which i donât want to do. but also I donât think it makes sense without it you know? and considering I donât know what the backstory would#be to even do a short-form summary of it do you see what the issue is đ«Ą
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Everything Steve Grant Rogers knew about love was heartbreak and loss.
First it was Molly from second grade, Susan from his english class in seventh grade followed her, after that it was Michael and Jonathan from his figure drawing class.
Of course not all of them were of romantic love.
When he was told of his fathers death, that broke him a little too, It was more manageable because it happened before he was born.
And then⊠his mother took her last breath alone in an hospital bed, and that was the worst pain he could endure in his life, or that was he thought at the time anyway.
No.
The worst pain of his life was losing Bucky and keep losing him every damn time, no matter what he did and no matter the circumstances.
First it was losing him in the arms of pretty dames with soft voices and softer lips, then to the war when he was finally drafted.
When he knew of his status as missing, of course he got to him without a second thought of doing stupid things like wasting time for backup or approval.
It was imperative the speed of his rescue mission, Buckys life was on the line and Steve wouldnât sacrifice him for stupid and unnecessary rules.
Without Bucky there is no Steve Rogers after all, not a sane one anyway.
The train incident made him break completely at last and he couldnât take it anymore.
They didnât even let him go looking for Bucky.
How dare they?
At least that way he couldâve gotten a little bit of closure, but no.
The missions were more important of course.
Of courseâŠ.
When the opportunity of sinking the Valkyrie was presented to him on a silver platter, he just took it without hesitation.
At last, he could be reunited with Bucky and the endless cycle of heartbreak could end.
.
.
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Of course that wasnât what happened, of course that couldnât be his end.
#i cant write in this freaking app everything gets deleted#i dont have word on the ipad halp#I should be drawing or something but ugh stupid headcanons cant let me live#steve rogers#steve rogers headcanon#captain america headcanon#Peggy didnât make the cut in this headcanon because my Steve doesnât classify what he felt for her as love#he thought about his older crushes as love because they were a big part of his life at the time#and big horrible acts of rejection#of course Michael and Jonathan were in a relationship with him at some point#but they did cheat on him or talk shit about him with someone else#they didnât out him#there is that at least#Steve is so tired#please give him love#also in this headcanon Pietro DOESNT DIE#because I said so#that death was stupid asf#also in this headcanon Steve doesnt end up as old steve#he doesnât even care sbout shield and does what he wants#hes a little bit unhinged#he lost his Bucky and couldnât die#what do you want from him#stucky#stucky headcanon#I see Steve as bi with preference on men bc HE DOESNT KNOW HOW TO TALK TO THE LADIES
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keep thinking abt hoshina and mina GOD.. (spoilers for manga and kn8 bside)
given what hoshina said about his previous division treating him like a burden/parasite just because he canât handle firearms and specializes in his swords⊠how tiring must it have been to have to work with those people each mission despite having a common goal?
and how tiring must it have been to be constantly told off by his own father for wanting to continue his familyâs tradition, or to be told to give up on being part of the jakdf by his own teacher -
before mina, a high ranking commander personally reached out to him, to recruit him into her team?
the fact that she didnât see him during joint trainings and think: why bother with that? why bother with blades when bigger kaiju will appear? when she personally deals with bigger kaiju herself.
but she instead saw him and thought: he can help me, he can cover my weaknesses (mina not being able to handle a vegetable peeler is hilarious) and heâs someone i can trust
she sees potential in him, she sees how he can excel within her division, she saw hoshina and as captain - has probably heard everyone talk shit about him but she was still certain that heâd be one of her divisionâs greatest asset
(and even when platoon leader ebina refused to let hoshina help out, mina stood firm on her decision and her claim that hoshina would be useful. when she asked him if he could take down the big kaiju, and he could only promise saving the child within it - she believed him, took his word for it and waited until he carried out his promise.)
and now hoshina is the vice captain, putting faith in a new recruit whom most people wouldnât have believed in⊠full fucking cycle..
tldr: it makes me rly fucking emotional to think about how hoshina was given a reason to continue improving with his swords after being told to give up all this time⊠and how mina had never once thought his abilities were useless đ
also makes me crazy how protective he is of his position as vice captain, as the person who stands by captain ashiroâs sideâŠ
#egg boils#im crazyyyyyy#soshimina#thank you kn8 bside hoshina arc . II CANTTTTT#when we get to the next two episodes i will be seated and crying#the video rings in my head like 20 times i say âi wonât let you have my position next to captain ashiro okay do u want me to kmsâŠ?#long post#sorry.#/9446#kaiju no.8#i need to look at my brain rot#sorry#every time i post itâs just like NURSE theyâre saying the same thing again yes im saying this for the third time but i truly adore the bond#and mutual respect and her faith in him okay. hoshina makes me sad.#sometimes u just need the one (1) person to believe in u AND vouch for u no matter who decides to say shitâŠ#the way he looked at her the two times she asked#him to join her division ohhhhh im crazy . love at first sight babes#hoshimina#<- idk which tag to use bc hsmn makes the most sense given we hear hoshina be called that#but .#gweh#yeah hoshimina probably makes most sense iâll change my tags or just add what i deleted#also âïž theyâre js really fucking goofy together#i think itâd take a few years before mina warms up to him but u can see how close they are (physical touch - bonking him#leaning close to read smth sheâs showing him#taking a pic of him feeling down#etc etc please give me more interactions yall im starving#also btw on the flip side i think itâs a bit. You Know to have mina openly ask or recruit a new member who specifically for the sake of#Helping Her#for the sake of having someone she can rely on . like she relies on the entire division obviously but . BUT!!!!! listen listen [waves hands
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