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My favorite accepted fanon in the locked tomb fandom is that Gideon's sunglasses were originally Pyrrha's. I don't think we actually have any proof of this - Pyrrha only steals them so she can pretend to be Gideon Prime and I'm not sure how we think they ended up on the Ninth? But I do so love the idea because it builds on a post that I can't make bc it makes me too insane which is that Pyrrha Dve is actually way more Gideon-Nav's-Parent-coded than either Wake or John. Everywhere that you look in the narrative that Gideon's parents should be hiding it's Pyrrha, over and over. Everywhere that the shadow of motherhood crosses Gideon's story it's Pyrrha, over and over. And through it all, Gideon, in Pyrrha's sunglasses. If we don't get Pyrrha trying to return the sunglasses in Alecto as some kind of attempt at. Something. Im gonna eat my hat.
#pyrrha dve#the locked tomb#tlt#tlt spoilers#MOIRA QUIRK. I AM ON HANDS AND KNEES. PLEASE GIVE PYRRHA BACK THE VOICE SHE HAD IN ACT FIVE OF HTN#I DONT KNOW WHY YOU MADE HER FRENCH FOR NONA BUT ITS NOT TOO LATE TO CHANGE YOUR MIND#PYRRHA SOUNDED SO MUCH LIKE GIDEON IT MADE ME INSANE. MOIRA. YOU CAN DO IT. YOU CAN MAKE ME LOSE IT FOREVER.
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guy who's unaware he's gonna spend the next 3-5 hours reworking the lyrics of dream sweet in sea major: haha maybe i'll write a silly little narrative for my hmself, wouldn't that be fun? :)
#chemi chats#ALONE ON THE EDGE OF PERIPHERY COMES THE WRONG TUNE (OR MISREMEMBERING WHAT YOU KNOW)#the ideal way for this to work is to make a mashup of Dream Sweet/Isle Unto Thyself/Intro to the Snow and sing to it#which sounds cool in theory and in my head but i cant make that hfgjh i wish i knew music but i only know how to sing :')#their current names are Petal for Heart | Synapse for Mind | Soli for Soul :0 all are names for parts of a larger sum/whole#there's a vague storyline that i think is very interesting but parts of it might need to be scraped. hmmm alas. still very cool tho!!#''Petal (pedantic) / Synaptic (sycophantic) / A blade before the brow / A seam so it seems I *screamed*''#in theory the timeloop would be contained to just this song. And you can make them loop by sticking the song on repeat :]#Soli has a sword!! because what else would be in character for me lmao. He's music coded (a Soli is a solo done by more than one person!)#The conductor and the baton! Petal has flower imagery (instead of a blindfold he has a flower in his left eye)#I'm not sure what to do for Synapse exactly because synapses arent actually very aesthetically pleasing lmao#maybe star coding. because that's my other aesthetic? ough idk!! dont know about this guy hkjgh#im not very good at making characters hkjhg this is why im a fanartist hkjg#i am decent at writing lyrics and im very good at storytelling though so let's see what we can make~!!#but. not right now. bc i am soooo sleepy jhkjdhg
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feels like the isolation is a gushing wound and going to the centre is just a small bandage. i think perhaps i am not really ever going to feel okay unless something miraculous happens. i am retaining some semblance of sanity now that I'm leaving the house and socializing with non-family more than once a week, but i am still hurting more than I can really tolerate and I don't know what to do about it. there doesn't seem to be a fix for this that I can enact.
#part of me wonders if going to the centre is helping or hurting more#but i think it's definitely helping more. however it is definitely also hurting/making some things worse#i just wish I could be operating at the same level as most of society#and i feel so egotistical when I talk abt this#but like. why am i always so fucking aware of every single thing going on#and everyone else is just painfully oblivious#I AM USING HYPERBOLE. ITS NOT EVERYONE. i know im not the only person ever lmao#when i got my autism diagnosis i thought oh good okay so THIS is why im such a freak#and now I've met so many other autistic ppl irl and um. no. no thats definitely not it still.#yes its probably part of it but im also just. so fucking traumatized i guess idk. i hate this so much#i just want to be the same and fit in and not be analyzing everything and be able to actually speak my mind#and not be so kind and polite and respectful all the time and be able to say shitty stupid things without thinking anything of it#im so tired of being the only one who seems to care so much about everyone else's comfort and feelings#but also at the same time i would hate if i acted like everyone else bc i know how shitty it makes people feel#and people are always so happy to see me because I am useful and make them feel good and comfortable and heard#and that matters. that means a lot to people i think. but also I am not a person. i am a tool.#and I'd really like to be a person#i somehow feel like im operating at a higher level/awareness than almost everyone irl and also way below everyone at the same time#like im so hyperaware of everyone else more than most ppl but im also so socially inept sometimes. and just... idk how to be a person.#i dont know i just want to not be like this. its so lonely and tiring and i want to matter to people#i want them to like me for more than just what I'm able to do for them. I want to be liked for Me i guess. but Me isnt likeable maybe#Me is uncomfortable for people. Me is a trembling cornered prey animal with a longing to tell stories but is too afraid to do anything#and so Me just exists in a hollow shell made out of people-pleasing and fawning and mirroring everyone around them#and then i get lonelier and more isolated and nothing really changes. but every time i try to crack open the shell a little it goes badly#like i genuinely dont think its my paranoia. i think it is not Safe for Me to exist properly.#i am too sensitive probably! but it does very much feel like a raw wound that peope jab aggressively at when i open up a little!#boy howdy i sound like such a wuss. i mean i probably am one fjfkdl#i just feel like I keep trying to fix things and improve and try new things and nothing ever really works well#my counsellors have always commented on how impressed they are at my willingness to try things#and its like ?? yeah ! ofc i am going to try things! maybe that will be smth that finally helps!
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requestioning my entire sexuality save me
#no bc this has been on my mind for months now#am i even attracted to men 😐#this is horrible and all because there’s no way on earth i’d even be able to think about dating a woman 😔 let alone marrying one#(no matter how much i want to) and so i cling onto the bi label to convince myself but#idek anymore#intimacy w men sounds 😐 they have just never been appealing in that WAY#women on the other hand 😭😭 please save me#i don’t know#i don’t know i Aorhrsjdhke#also while we’re at it fuck gender actually
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not to be a c-u-n-t on main, but i am really sick and tired of people inquiring about something i'm selling and when i immediately respond i never hear back at all.
#i have had ten or so people asking about this washer and literally no one got back to me except one guy and we made plans for him to pick#it up but it's getting late and i really don't think he's fucking coming#and i hate when people respond with an extra number of periods#“this evening...”#how am i supposed to interpret that? you sound unsure#and it's like if you change your mind that's a okay but seriously just tell me#i really feel like i either don't deserve to know or i'm expected to figure it out and i literally can't do that#it happened one other time as well and again we made plans and the guy never came#i am literally trying to pay my bills this month#please stop wasting my time#delete later
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┊ ⋆˚ about this blog !
— first and foremost, this is a male reader blog !!! i only write male reader inserts, the usage of she/her pronouns will never, ever be applied to any of my works that involve an insertion of yourself into the scenario. that being said, i don't really think i can/will enforce that those that read my work are only those that use he/him prns. so let's say, if those who use she/her pronouns decide to read my work, i won't purge them off of this page (i don't think i spend that much time on here to even do that) and burn them at the stake. all i very POLITELY ask is that: you don't interact malignantly with me or my posts. i don't tag my work "x fem reader", only "x male reader" and "x reader" so there shouldn't be any worries of my work "cluttering" (<- lmmmffaaoooooo) your tags of "x female reader"
— of course this ^ can be subject to change and become stricter if i start gaining negative attention from fem-alligned readers. so NOT SAYING IT'S SET IN STONE because that how i feel about this just right now.
— i plan on using this blog to just broaden the reach of one of my fanfics (keep safe) with the occasional posting of a smau/modern!au post every now and then.
— every now and then i might post a yandere drabble, oneshot, headcanon, etc just wanted to put that here since i know that it's not everyone cup of tea and wanted to disclaim this. some of the yandere headcanons already exist on here, but i think (i hope) i tagged it all appropiately....(i hope)
alright, that's all thank you for reading <3 jaime
#if this post sounds too idealistic i wouldve even know because i dont know the “culture” on tumblr regarding who interacts with what#im just going to assume that people with half a mind to think about what their preferences are and what they like know what to interact wit#and what not to interact with#anyway hopefully this actually makes sense and isnt just a bunch of word vomit to u guys#i look forward to publishing more on tumblr!!! i hope it can be a fun experience for all of us#<3#hopefully i can write for more animes instead of JUST one piece#i think i remember enough about jjk to do something for them as well#SHOUTOUTT#oh and if someone wants to educate me on the tagging system here i am welcome to any tips / tricks#because i think im using them correctly (ihopeihopeihope)#but if im not — PLEASE LMK
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My mom bought the ugliest ass little freak of a 3D printed alien, just because. It's supposed to be like, one of those phone holder thingies.
#me blabbering#there's a whole plottwist in this story because she got mad when i said it was ugly and took it away#then i was like. wait i can maybe do something with it's ugliness and I kinda need a phone holder thingy for my fucked up wrists#so I named him Ricky Montgomery because... i actually don't know.#anyway#a few days later my mum told me she had sold it to someone else and took my Ricky Montgomery awayyy#she said “Dw i'll get you the same one again” and i was like “Actually. like. please don't. i hate this bitch”#a few days later i find him still in the house because somehow one of his feet broke and she couldn't sell it like that.#My mom says Ricky Montgomery really wanted to stay with me because he loves me#i am cursed#I glued his nasty feet on again and gave him make up. He watches me work sitting on my desk and I try not to mind him#I have always hated 3D printed stuff don't ask me why.#I am still trying to think what could I do to make him less ugly. but also. if i paint him he's not going to match my little speaker#irrelevant but my bluetooth speaker is named “little loo” which sounds just like little lu and I am lu so it's like my son#she's playing a song right now. isn't she just the best little loo ever like i don't know what i'd do without her
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Katekyō Hitman Reborn! + Ep. #180 ~ Yamamoto & Tsuna {YamaTsuna} / 8027 + Moments & Interactions + Important Dialogues {Anime Ver.} + Character Development Parallels - Tsuna's Character Development{s}
"I put unnecessary 'Pressure' on you without realizing it..." - Tsuna, Initially
{"...I want you to stop."} - Tsuna, Later
Happy belated Birthday, Yamamoto! {Apr. 24th}
{Gifs by Me} {Do Not Re-post} {Do Not Re-produce Without My Permission} (Please ASK to Use)
#koushirouizumi khr#koushirouizumi khr cap#koushirouizumi tsuna#koushirouizumi 80x27#8027#yamatsuna#c: tsunayoshi#c: takeshi#c: hayato#khr: primo guardians arc#khr spoilers#(Just 80x27 Things)#({oK BUT} Lead in to Later Moments in Full)#(HI THESE CONCEPTS WERE G O O D)#(HI I NEED MORE ACKNOWLEDGEMENT + SELF A W A R E N E S S LIKE THIS IN S H O N E N SERIES *IN GENERAL*)#(Tsuna makes up for it later by c LARIFYING Too)#(Im honestly almost m AD this concept between them ISNT 'main' c ANON BC IT S H O U L D B E hHHHH)#(MORE ON THAT LATER T h o)#(Hi was it REALLY n ECESSARY to make {Takeshi} sound B r o k e n Voice'd while Watery e YES MULTIPLE TIMES BETWEEN BOTH This Sequence)#({Hayato} ofc gets pissed and is like 'k NOCK IT OFF I KNOW YOURE BETTER THAN THIS WHATS *WITH* YOU')#(&NEGL when I first watched like *2k10!!!* I had wondered if theyd Go There with Ch05 referring to BUT Yeah I Was Let Down in that regard)#(They Sure Did Get The Feeling of Ch05 {Takeshi} Down Here Though It Felt Like)#(Also {Takeshi} With The D r a m a t i c w INDOW SeatTM View)#(Tsuna WAS VERY GOOD STILL THOUGH in these eps and to this day I Long For More Like This From S h o n e n)#(Because this was TSUNA Trying to Give {TAKESHI} AN ***O U T***)#(TSUNA WANTED TO GENUINELY LET {TAKESHI} KNOW THAT TAKESHI COULD S T O P W V O N G O L A IF *TAKESHI WANTED*)#(*AND TAKESHI DECIDES TO CONTINUE f OLLOWING + P R O T E C T TSUNA a NYWAY* ALL BECAUSE OF SUCH MOMENTS BETWEEN THEM)#(LIKE YES ITS S H O N E N THATS THE GIST BUT ITS A GREAT DYNAMIC ID LIKE MORE OF IN SOME FORM SOMEDAY THANKYOU)#(HI THIS SET NOW RBABLE BUT PLEASE KEEP IN MIND I Have Blogrules That Should Be Followed I AM NEW TO K.H.R TAGS p OSTING PLS R E G A R D)#(I AM NOT New to K.H.R as a whole and actively followed m a n g a while it released in J.P.N until End but PLS BE KIND ON THIS THANKYOU)
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th,,,thinking about Miguel blushing and,,,,
#*sounds of an dog fight coming from my mind but it’s just me*#Even if I’m not posting here please know that I am thinking about him at all times#spider man: across the spider verse#miguel o’hara#not tickling#But oh wouldn’t it be wonderful if it was
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"boooooored" ok me too
#bloodletting#mischief and lila are awful with boredom#i believe it is mischief but she agrees nonetheless#idling is also making us..#well. sorry my dear my love i cannot help#that sounds far too dismissive#i have been very around and it is likely partially defensive however i prefer to not think of myself as a symptom#she is sad she needs a sister i can do nothing#mmmh...#schism.txt#'miss mayas' oh please I know i do not know what i can do though i am so sorry#'talk shelbys' well no she has not agreed to that my dear. and i do not either#it is. well. it is like arguing with a toddler. and it is. so i suppose i should not be surprised.#do not mind the tags... i am exhausted all of a sudden. everyone is odd.
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seventeen years and still my dad asks if it's my chemical romance every time i put a fall out boy song on the car 😭
#dad please i know i used to have a CD in the car that was mcr and fob mixed together but cmon#today's offender was a song out of pax am and im losing my mind they don't sound anything alike. least of all in that lp
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Maybe I'm petty but the guy that I basically turned down a month back... Is still kinda messaging me half heartedly and I just... Im over him lmao
#miranda talking shit#I saw him in an probably not intentional but bad light when he went from being#Super talkative and wanting to speak and such every day to... Silence in minutes after i said i wasnt#Intrested in him that way... Its probably bc its so against how my brain works but i just thinks its stupid#Everyone works differently and i know he doesnt control it but i feel... Not used but like... Like i only was worth#His time if he thought he could date me/get in my pants :). He seemed like an nice enough guy and such but#The complete turn around just... I havent answered his last messages bc i just feel /:#I hate people who just seek their prefered sex/gender people as partners. Like... Fr.. If you cant like mr as a friend first i dont want to#Date you. I need to have that established connection to even consider deeper feelings... Nah#I probably sound like a bitch but yeah no i dont like it at all. I feel like girls value friendships more#Ive been on dates with girls im now great friends with but not a single guy bc they ghost#It just feels so shallow in my mind. Like they dont care about me unless they think they can 'get' more from me#Im so glad im ugly so i dont have to deal with this regularly but when it happens its still so shit like /:#Do i have to disclose this during third conversation with every guy i talk with or what?#Im ranting but im frustrated. He had potential to be a cool friend and he blew it. Not by making an unwanted move. I can deal with that#But how he acted afterwards. Dont want to get to know me as a friend first? Please go along bc i am so friendship focused its bad
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u know what. The sleep thing is legit bothering me (I woke up at 3 AM after Not Enough Sleep so my nerves are Shot) I think I’m gonna keep a sleep tracker to see how much I sleep and when to try and confirm if there’s actually a Problem or What 🥲
#like there is a sleep clinic in town surprisingly it’s right next to my stomach drs office so I’ve seen it!#I imagine it’s expensive tho#so we r going to try self treating it I am gonna look into melatonin or something for real this time and not quit taking them after 2 days#🫣 I have a bad habit abt that but I’m gonna get BETTER abt it ok#sanchoyorambles#the closest thing I could find abt sleep problems that sound like it is a circadian disorder called non 24 sleep wake disorder and I’m like#that sounds exactly like what it is but that is scary and I don’t want it to be the case so I am now doubting my own judgment and Brain#like what if I’m Wrong like I’m not a doctor surely it’s just a result of insomnia….never mind the fact of how consistently bad my schedule#has always been even when I had alarms and jobs for months and it kept happening 😭 those are irrelevant right#I don’t waaaant another diagnosis I have enough thank uuuu#been avoiding looking into my very irregular cycles and mood swings for the same reason tbqh I don’t want to know anymore I know Enough!!!#I have problems!! no more please!!!#I mean it’s gonna be a problem whether it’s labeled or not but u guys know what I mean I think#plus the insurance thing which I am not thinking abt bc it’s awful and bad . doesn’t exist if I don’t see it etc
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The greatest act of hypocrisy I've seen lately is adults telling their children to ask for help whenever needed, "you need to use your words if you want help/I can't help you if you don't speak to me" and "don't be afraid to ask" yet they themselves have the audacity to stand and stare at retail workers, expecting them to read their minds and immediately run over to them without prompting instead of asking with words for assistance
#its v tiring being treated as a servant first and human never#i cannot read your mind and appear beside you immediately to serve u#im not a dog that needs sound cues to come over#and as someone with an anxiety disorder that got so severe i couldn't leave my room for a whole year (am now medicated) retail workers dont#mind when you ask them for help#i know standing awkwardly and hoping someone will notice is a method but im telling you that retail workers appreciate it when you actually#ask for help instead of expecting it#all the customers i serve who ask me for help? i listen to them i give them extra discounts if i can i do whatever i can for them#those who dont? i do the bare minimum and complain about you to my coworkers#and like im not saying we need a friendly conversation with a heart to heart we don't even need a big conversation#just#ask for my help with words please#when im busy doing a task i will be in my own zone focusing and sometimes wont notice you
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i think i should be allowed to skip tomorrow’s swimming exam. just because
#god of all days it really had to be tomorrow huh#weather says it'll be raining around the time im supposed to take it and i am sincerely hoping for another storm like one earlier today#all i wanted was to be able to talk to my friends and play games and yet!!!#grrrrrrrrr#plus i have to redo my presentation on thursday and friday someone just knock me out with a stick please#duck rants about something#not even asking for much. i dont mind being alone tomorrow i dont mind just breaking out a bag of chips and maybe treat myself for once#maybe it sounds a bit depressing but you know what!!! its not like some sort of miracle is gonna happen just bc its another year im alive#being able to chat w my friends or maybe go and get ice cream and chill on the field near here is all i need#but of course. just had to be during exam season
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What do you like about Mouri Ran? I love her conceptually and some of the fandom's version of her, she has moments where I like her a lot (being cool and kind, a very sweet teen girl with a crush in a hard situation) and moments where I dislike her (her response to Shinichi's interests sometimes and her excessive use of karate, at least in how much force she applies that the situation doesn't warrant). I think I mainly just don't agree with Gosho's writing of her. Is she a damsel or an unbeatable fighter who shouldn't use her martial arts to threaten her loved ones? If she loves Shinichi enough to wait for him I wish she'd treat him better when he's actually there with her. Maybe I'm being unfair to their relationship as a lot of their phone calls and history is off-screen/page or maybe I'm biased against her as she's routinely gaslighted about the canon circumstances whereas the audience knows a lot about Shinichi's situation so have unrealistic expectations of her.
I want to clarify that I like Shinichi, but I probably sound like a hater. ¡But I'll answer you anyway!
I like Ran and she's amazing!
I really like the chapters where we can see her genius and she uses her Karate skills to stop the culprits, I also love her kindness and good heart, and I agree so much with most of the things you say, probably the only thing I don't like about her is her terrible taste in men (Yes, I'm talking about Shinichi) and how attached she is to her parents' relationship.
I don't know, I just think that maybe she would be more interested in Shinichi's things if he also showed interest in hers. I still remember her confession in London and it makes me sick, I felt so bad for her the whole time.
Overall, I'm not really convinced by the author's writing about them as a relationship, but I respect it because I think that maybe stretching out the manga was what made their relationship like that, or so I want to believe, I have my own thoughts on Gosho's writing.
About the excessive use of Karate, I actually think she needs to use it, I think she should have thrown Shinichi off the London Bridge after that horrible confession.
And no! Whoever says she forced him is wrong! She was frustrated! From her perspective everything is so ugly! It's like Shinichi just shows up, gets her hopes up and leaves, I really wish Ran wasn't so good and beat him up.
I like the fans' ShinRan, I think it's cute.
Gosho's ShinRan seems judgeable to me, although it has its good moments, I guess, I like them more as separate characters, but they are the canon ship, partly the story is about them and if that's what the author wants there's not much we can do.
Who are we to judge?
ShinRan is that ship that I like to see, but not touch. There are better people to talk about them than me.
#Please don't put these two together without Sonoko#I sound like a rabid dog talking about Shinichi#I love you so much Shinichi#but you're an idiot.#ask#I still remember the person who asked me for ShinRan headcanons#I said no because most of them would probably have been#Ran gives Shinichi what he deserves#wins the gold and is a millionaire#and lives happily ever after#I think people should receive nice comments about their ship#that's why I call myself physically incapable.#You don't know the peace of mind it would give me if Ran hit Shinichi#and then they made up#at this point I find it therapeutic and a necessity.#In conclusion#please#I beg you#do not ask me about them#I am not good at that.
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