#please hurt me

[pommedepersephone]

Oh sweet gods of queer agony, I have purchased a ticket to go see Queer at the London Film Festival and am prepared to be flayed open.

[slutty-puppy-thing]

i absolutely love being hurt

slap me, pull my hair, bite me, choke me

please just do anything you want with me

[snugglemuffin]

Jumping back and forth from hyper sexual to sex repulsed has been messing with my mind.

One moment I feel like I need to scratch the skin off of my body.

The next second

I want to be completely taken advantage of. Have someone treat me like a fucktoy and use me until I’m gone.

[bl00dycocainee]

can u cut me while u fuck me ?

[mimiluvsblog89]

TW

MENTIONS: $H

gang how tf do i tell people i do anything to physically or mentally hurt myself bc i enjoy it? it turned into me having an attendance of 25% in school. so now i have actual child welfare people coming into my house thinking i have bad social anxiety, even tho im just destroying myself????

BC NOOO GIRLYYY your giving me the wrong helpp !

istg coming to my house wont help me and get my attandance better at all. it will only make me feel valid enough to believe i have problems, then ill keep doing worse stuff so i can get even worse problems!!!

your basically harming me more! but heyho keep doing it PLEASE, i like ittt!!!

if anyone relates pls tell me, i wanna know if this is a problem itself if youknow what i mean?

anyways last night i relapsed badly on my arms and what if the woman tomorrow asks to see bc they know i used to $h?? (i pretend im like 8 months clean, when in reality im barely a day clean loll)

[pete-dunnes-thighs]

Don't trust me with editing software.

Because all you'll get is thirst traps.

@letsgivethisonemoreshot thought you would like this. ;D

[fxckmechxkemeuseme]

i just need someone to push me facefirst against the closest surface and force themselves inside me

[darkest-doe]

Yes, a sub under the weight of their superior begging not to be cut as he slides his knife over their skin while they shake in fear is very hot..

But.

What about a sub who is so starved for attention that they bring the knife to their master of their own volition, kneel at his feet and beg for marks. To be shown brief attention in such a permanent manner because they are dying to be used or loved or acknowledged, even for the shortest moment.

[agayworthfightingfor]

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[theend-isnear]

I think tonight may be a good night to end it.

I’ve been balancing for a while trying not to fall,

Tonight I’m somewhere that I feel invisible,

And I’m a 5 minute walk from the train tracks.

And I have my notes with me.

Yeah, I think tonight is a good night to end it.

[theend-game]

Depression + being completely alone =

Very high possibility of hurting myself.

[puppiestbaby]

really craving to have my ass hurt. i want to be bent over a desk, over the bed, up against the wall, and have a dom spank me and tell me whatever slips out their mouth, every thought. just. slap after slap, not stopping except every now and then when i'm choking on my tears so they let me gasp for air for a couple of seconds and then continue. telling me beforehand they won't stop unless i say my safeword, so they just keep going. and when their hand is tired and sore, i get a small breather while i hear them taking off their belt and mere seconds later, the sound comes before i can process it and when i do, the tears fall faster.

and only after i cum from being abused so nicely will i whimper out my safeword. i wanna be held as i cry, overwhelmed from the pain, the degrading things they told me, cumming from it all, and gently be brought down for that high, all the opposite of what i was begging for minutes ago.

[mimiluvsblog89]

TWWW!!!

e@ting issues + $h

its been getting worse, and i cant turn it off this time.

its ALL my fault. one day in beginning of january i wanted to be sad, so i started "$h" got addicted. everything whent dowhill. my social anxiety got worse, im now afriad of every fucking thing. i dont feel bad enough, i feel like i cant even say i have low mood, i dont and will never feel valid enough. its gotten so bad my goal was to purposfully give myself an "3d" and guess what its started to work. my mums worried about me eating. im constantly feeling sick. my mum brought it up to my therapist. i cant look at food without wondering how much kcals is in it. i reset a timer every time i eat, i usually have ATLEAST 10 hour fast inbetween every meal/snack. once i start eating i cant stop, im fucked up.

all bc i craved to be a little sad.

oh and dont even get me started on "$h" im fucking COVERED in scars. ugh.

crazy thing is, i LOVE every thing about this because my dumbass finds pleasure from it all.

i dont want to and will never stop.

oh and fucking hell dont even think of all the stupid thoughts and prayers ive done, the things ive wished to happen to me is INSANE.

whats wrong with me?

[tired-xie]

I’ve been thinking for a while and I was wondering, would anyone be interested in seeing raw obsession posts. Like I don’t even think about what I’m saying I just do it.

My bad if you don’t know who I am and you randomly come across this shit 💀

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

[bad-at-magik]

I want vulpes to tie me up and beat me up before leaving me to figure it out