#plasma vents

[lovenpeace-pkmn]

I sort of envy the people who can keep it a secret that they used to be in evil teams. Who don't have it written all over their names and homes.

...I don't want to leave now. But sometimes I wish I'd left ten years ago.

[machineryexpertsolutions]

Achat-vente, fabrication et d'entretien de machines et outils industriels.

[umbrabelly]

I can’t fucking stand plasma centers I just got kicked out for like the 8th fucking time for some bullshit reason I just want money so I can treat myself and every time they fucking turn me away because of tattoos that I have proof are clean or because I’ve had anal sex or am on spiro. I can’t fucking stand it or take it, just let me donate plasma I have records that I have ZERO STD’s

[iliterallydecepticanteven]

Family will be like "why aren't you doing anything fun like trips or going out drinking or getting tattoos like I was at your age" then tell you that they're taking you off their insurance effective immediately and they're gonna stop paying for your part of the phone bill so you now owe them $95 a month because surprise you're actually in a super expensive contract they never told you about

[mayday505]

This may be controversial but I Genuinely wish people would stop being all arrogant and patronising Abt organ donation.

Like people talking abt organ donation to me is the equivalent of those virtue signalling posts on tiktok that’s like “if you don’t do this you’re a shit human being and don’t deserve genuine love or care” cuz yeah organ donation is important but so is respecting people’s wishes who don’t feel comfortable doing it. For example if your religion doesn’t allow it. Me personally I’m not opposed to organ donation but I don’t want to sign up (I live in a country where I’m automatically assumed an organ donor unless I opt out anyways) because I have such bad anxiety if I think about it I will have a panic attack. And I struggle rlly bad w intrusive thoughts and one occurring one is Abt having my organs removed so I just hate thinking about it bc it’s genuinely really distressing for me. Like the thought of having my organs taken is just so panic inducing and awful for me to think about because it reminds me of how I’m going to die one day and I’m actually terrified of that so xxxxx and whenever I try to explain this to people when I say I’m not an organ donor (haven’t got a card that u get when u sign up) it’s like “WHY NOT??!?!?!?” “YOULL BE DEAD YOU WONT NEED THEM!!!” “WHY ARE YOU SUCH A SHIT PERSON DO YOU NOT CARE ABOUT OTHERS IN NEED????” Like no. Just let me explain for two secs and stop being an asshole !!! I just think that it’s stupid cuz I think that even if it’s not for religious reasons we should still respect the wishes of the dead. If I say I don’t want to donate I don’t want to and I have a valid reason and that should be respected. I get that organ donation is struggling bc of aging population but you don’t have to make me feel guilty about my genuine fears and anxieties because you want to make yourself look better. Cuz these people don’t care they just wanna make themselves seem better than you most of the time. And they just scream at you and it’s really upsetting.

[maddilynmuse]

Another round in the ring for a fight that doesn’t stop. The crowd’s near-empty, no matter how I try. Maybe that’s better.

Life beats me down again. Blows coming one after another with barely a second to breathe. Our gloves have long gone missing, all I can do is bite and scratch. Seize it with my teeth, our blood in my mouth as another tooth goes flying.

A hook to the chest. I fall down again.

What little crowd remains tells me to stop getting my hopes up. Stay down. It’s not worth it. I’m exhausting myself for nothing. Getting hurt for nothing.

Hah. As if Life were so nice as to stop fighting just because I do.

Hope whispers in my ear. Get up. Block. Endure. Throw another punch. It hurts, it hurts, and that means that I’m alive. I’m convinced it won’t stop hurting until I roll over and die.

And usually I’d say an eye for an eye makes the whole world go blind.

But if it keeps hitting me anyways, don’t I at least have to try?

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If you want to help me keep swinging, maybe buy me a Kofi?

[ursidaez]

keep getting this hanging noose over my head of oh i need to make x amount i need to get x amount and i keep finding loopholes & such & to nite i was finally like. well okay i only need 150 by rent day and i have a job so i should be fine ^.^ payday is the day of rent and my first paycheck (which was supposed 2 be today) hasnt even deposited......... evil world

[one-winged-dreams]

Once again my neuroticism gets in the way of me having a good time

[vampirecatprince]

I'm still unpacking a lot of the really toxic experiences from ST twt and there's one thats just standing out to me and making me so... Indignant?

Like - I made the decision to actually start applying to studios for work. And I'm trying to be realistic about it as I go along. I don't expect to instantly get hired and I fully expect it to take upwards of a year to get in somewhere. I know I have gaps and I'm actively working to fill in those gaps and be a more rounded artist.

And someone who I thought was a friend swings in with a yeah- I tried that and gave up. it's just not worth it bro. and I just? What?

You DO NOT tell someone who is admitting that they are getting over massive amounts of self worth issue involving their work that "it's just not worth it". You DO NOT encourage someone to give up, because that's what you did.

That just makes you an asshole.

[roleplayersoul]

send me "💡" and i’ll tell you a something about my muse that I had considered, but ended up not using for their story - For N!

Less so "consider" and moreso "I've swapped back and forth like....4 times", but the default version I have for N constantly changes. He was depicted with Reshiram a lot more frequently for a while, but I always felt like his goals aligned more closely with "ideals", which is Black version, so I guess I've landed on that again? But really, I think it just made me realize that I guess I can't bother to care about that anymore.

There was some small part of me that really, REALLY wanted to ignore Black and White 2 entirely or write out some alternative in between, or at least cop-out Nate/Rosa. I've grown out of this, but I'm still very, VERY salty over a lot of simpler plot directions Black and White 2 took after Black and White blew me out of the water. I get it. I want to be over it. But honestly, I still can't find the will to bring myself to play it over at any consistent rate again.

[vimoftheforest]

discovered a mammary tumor (I'm assuming) on my rat Binki . Her lower right side by her leg where I think a mammary gland is. It's like.... Decently sized. Maybe like my thumb pad? It could be benign. Idk how I fucking missed this for it to get to that point. It's very hard to even see it because her belly is multicolored black with a white splatter. A random spark of neurons told me to check her body out on Thursday night since I was being my usual paranoid self and I did. That's when I noticed it.

Why the absolute fuck didn't I notice this sooner? My most handled rat of All??? The one who DOESNT know personal space???? The rat I worry the most about and SOMEHOW I still let this slip right under me?????????? ......

Everybody got a body exam after that and it's just her at least.....

I already have a spiraling OCD about death and losing everyone/ everything I know (especially my RATS with a short lifespan)...... So everyday Id look at her and cry in my soul that I was gonna lose her one day. Especially her bc she's my heart rat..... 💔

And then finding this just cemented it in a way. Like I am going to lose her at some point and this is now a physical manifestation of that ..... It's not just in my head anymore

i really need to get a vet visit in order to see what I need to do and where to go moving forward. but money has been so fucking rough ..... Still owe our mechanic money but at least the car can run to even make it to the vet....sobs. and I'm nothing. My art has shriveled into nothing, I don't have any platform or anybody willing to get art, I'm not good enough for commissions anyway. And I'm a useless job seeker. idk how I'll be able to make any money ATP.

literally other than this mass she seems fine. Eating , drinking, running around , taking treats like nothing! Being a criminal! It does feel like she's a little tired lately though.... :((((( she's the reason I even get up in the morning. From what I've read, rats can vibe with these issues sometimes (if it's not malignant and doesn't spread or burst). Idk if she could really do surgery. I don't even know how old she exactly is because she's a petshart rat....

This is the only hope I have she'll have a good long life.... 💔 But I will sell my kidneys if it means giving her more time with me....

End vent

[lovenpeace-pkmn]

It is not really a surprise that people do not know we exist, but it still hurts a little when Ghetsis' anons refer to his terrible parenting as if N was the only one there....

I am glad N's pain can be acknowledged, but...we suffered through many of the same things he did. Does that not matter too...?

[deepfriedseagullfeet]

went to my cousins apt tonight and when i said i didnt have money for food she gave me fruit, mini frozen corndogs, and 2 garbage bags of cans to bring back to the grocery store 😭😭😭 love her so much

[torchiiko]

howww do i talk abt feeling useless that i cant contribute to my family financially while we are running out of savings & nobody has a job without accidentally making things sound worse than they probably are

like i dont think were at risk of losing the house anytime soon or anything but pretty soon things are gonna be real tight & i hate myself for having Something wrong with me that i cant just do what everyone else does & go get a job

like what do i do. i barely make pocket change with my art if im lucky, i cant cover any bills or groceries. i dont have art ppl want enough to pay for it. i wonder if i should semi permanently lower all my prices so maybe i can like. take some of the burden off my parents by buying my own sandwich ingredients to live off of

if i can at least buy my own food on a semi regular basis maybe thatll help. i just wanna do something thats actually possible for me

[dalishthunder]

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[shesahershey]

I honestly just want to stab my stomach over and over again until I collapse and bleed out on the floor I fucking hate being alive there's NO POINT