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hunterrrs · 1 year ago
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man spends day off his sport watching another sport
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kandybarre · 2 months ago
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she's in the building and she's feeling herself
Feelin' Myself - Mac Dre IRonald Dregan)
Any Time of Season - Pandora (Changes)
The Black Emperor - Paul Robeson (Song of Freedom)
Delicate - Taylor Swift (reputation)
Rat - Wise Blood (Id)
I Like - Skeeta Ranx (I Like / Oh Shit)
Money in My Pocket - Dennis Brown (Words of Wisdom)
London Calling - The Clash (London Calling)
The Bad Touch - Bloodhound Gang (Hooray for Boobies)
Sweat Forever - Lily Konigsberg (Lily We Need To Talk Now)
Bigger Than The Whole Sky - Taylor Swift (Midnights)
Money First - Mega Banton (Mafia & Fluxy Presents)
2 Night - Mac Dre (Ronald Dregan)
Air Force Ones - Nelly, Murphy Lee, Ali, Kyjuan (Nellyville)
She Never Seen - Mac Dre (The Genie of the Lamp)
The Great War - Taylor Swift (Midnights)
Light up Ya Light - Michael Franti & Spearhead (Yell Fire!)
Tony Adams - Joe Strummer & The Mescaleros (Rcok Art and the X-Ray Style
American Music - Violent Femmes (Why Do Birds Sing?)
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onthehighwaytomel · 1 year ago
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No Doubt is absolutely killing their Coachella set right now.
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freebooter4ever · 2 years ago
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#OH BOY#so i finally called grandma and told her i lost my job#i have been putting this off bc of the shame and once you tell one member of my italian side the entIRE FAMILY knows#But she managed to hit me back with even worse news#A family member has bone cancer and it sounds bad#Like my grandma callyerdogs off started refusing food at the very end of the cancer#And it sounds like he's starting to do that#Everybody is spending entire days in the hospital it sounds very much like with what was happening with grandpa#i dont want to go into details#Anyway on top of this my childhood bff is getting married in atlanta at the end of august#So i was going to visit grandma at the same time#And now she's being like no no no theres no need to come and im like GRANDMA PLEASE lol ;_;#And by lol i mean just for once could my family not be so fucking stubbornly self reliant im crying and begging over here#The tentative plan is to fly to pittsburgh after atlanta instead and stay with my dance buddy#and then i can be like look grandma im already here its a four hour drive i will see you in four hours#and stay for as long as they let me and then fly back from the burgh#But needless to say this is all a mess and i need to make actual plans SOON#:(#Im looking up flights the cheapest way would be to book a round trip ticket LA to atlanta and then a round trip atlanta to the burgh#Is this a bad idea? Does anyone else have experience doing this? Like for an extra 500$ i could do a three city ticket but that seems silly#I guess the problem would be if a flight got canceled or delayed but if i get travelers insurance for the flights#thats probably still less than the 500+ extra it would cost to do a three city trip#The other option is driving from georgia to the burgh which ive done once when going to florida with chezzy and family#So i know its a 13ish? Hour drive but i also know i can do it lol#I think the gas + car rental would cost more than the flight tbh#But i also love road trips
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malkin-mind-meld · 2 years ago
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Love that they’re just leaning into the Sidney Crosby Hometown Tour on national television
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muirneach · 5 months ago
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such a crazy game for me because as i’ve said many times the wild are one of my childhood favourite teams. but i also grew up in hockeyworld during the 00s-10s and theres no one who experienced that who could really be a penguins hater. and now look at this.
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mappingthemoon · 2 years ago
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One of my earliest childhood memories is of standing on our front porch in Carrick, watching distant hot-air balloons float through the sky. It’s one of those hazy memories, where a relatively "normal" (albeit rare) occurrence is made surreal simply due to my child’s-eye view: everything in the adult world being huge, incomprehensible, and novel to my young self. The only details I’ve ever been able to recall about that event was that it was a warm evening, pre-dusk, I think; most of the balloons were the usual ovular shape, but some were shaped like other objects, and in particular I’ve always remembered one that was shaped like a sneaker, which at that age I probably thought was very fun and silly. Every now and then I’ve googled things like “hot air balloon race pittsburgh shoe” – just trying to prove to myself that the memory really happened – but I’ve never turned anything up… until now!! Thanks to Reddit user PeanutHakeem, who rescued Wally & Barb’s photo album from an estate sale (!!!), I now finally know that this was the WPXI-TV/Snyder of Berlin Hot Air Balloon Classic, which was held August 1-4, 1991, during the 3 Rivers Regatta! We didn’t actually go to the Regatta (at least not that I can remember), but pretty neat that we could see part of the balloon race all the way at our house, which faced south away from the rivers.
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goodnightoilcountry · 1 year ago
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jo's nhl fic rec list !
hi - welcome to my attempt at being a fic writer again. i have a wip list in the works but first things first: my fic rec list of all the works i've found and adored.
if you don't know yet, you will know soon that i am such a sucker for angst. i hope you find something new to love from the list below !
how to navigate
i update this list weekly (try to) and place all the new fic recs at the top under NEW.
when searching for a specific player, they will always be listed under their current team.
* updated saturday 15 march 2025 *
weekly note: the last few weeks i got to really find out how lethal the flu can be! probably for the best bc this fic rec was both an update on the recent fics i've found and loved and a shuffle for players to their new homes. enjoy!!
all summaries outlined have been written by their respective writers. if you do not wish to be featured on this list, please don't hesitate to let me know! this is just an outlet for me to share all my favourite works 🫰🏼
like my selection of fic recs? have a player who's not been featured? let me know and i'll go on a deep dive for you!
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the world never ended (jack hughes) by @leaderwonim summary: y/n and Jack Hughes have been inseparable since childhood, spending every summer at his family’s lake house—until his hockey career takes off and leaves her behind. As Jack’s life moves forward and Y/N tries to do the same, the distance between them grows in ways neither of them expected. But when their paths cross again at a breaking point, they’re forced to confront everything they never said and the feelings that never really went away. word count: 3.8k
the puck-cident (clayton keller) by @captain-huggy-bear summary: You are the unfortunate soul that takes a puck to the face during one of Utah's games, Clayton sees whole thing and demands to be let off the ice. word count: 5.5k
i just had sex with my ex in a new york apartment (nathan mackinnon) by @mattyanonwrites summary: the biggest trade in hockey in years has you texting your ex, something you swore you would never do. but you thought it would be harmless. word count: 7.1k
it ain't me babe part 1 + part 2 (sidney crosby) by @angelsuecult summary: you feel out of place at a wedding with Sidney, left wondering where your relationship is going. word count: 13.3k total
you gotta kiss somebody (sometimes) (matthew tkachuk) by @antoineroussel-archiveword count: 1.8k
double or nothing (quinn hughes) by @sweethischier summary: Falling for a hockey player was risky, but falling for a hockey player your dad coached was an entirely different gamble. word count: 7.4k
so damn needy (quinn hughes) by @sweetestdesire summary: in which Quinn Hughes is a surprisingly needy boyfriend. word count: 1.3k
five chances and one kiss (quinn hughes) by @777bae summary: Five times Quinn has the chance to kiss you, and one time he takes that chance. word count: 5.8k
FIC REC MASTERLIST
total number of fics: 208
anaheim ducks fic rec list players: trevor zegras
boston bruins fic rec list players: jeremy swayman
carolina canes fic rec list players: andrei svechnikov - pyotr kotchekov - sebastian aho - seth jarvis - tyson jost
colorado avs fic rec list players: cale makar - erik johnson - jack drury - nathan mackinnon
dallas stars fic rec list players: wyatt johnston
detroit red wings fic rec list players: jt compher
florida panthers fic rec list players: matthew tkachuk
montreal canadiens players: juraj slafkovsky
nashville preds fic rec list players: brady skjei - michael bunting
new jersey devils fic rec list players: jack hughes - luke hughes - nico hischier
new york islanders fic rec list players: mat barzal - matt martin
philadelphia flyers fic rec list players: jamie drysdale
pittsburgh penguins fic rec list players: sidney crosby
toronto maple leafs fic rec list players: auston matthews - matthew knies - mitch marner - william nylander
utah hc fic rec list players: clayton keller
vancouver canucks fic rec list players: arturs silovs - brock boeser - quinn hughes
washington capitals fic rec list players: anthony beauvillier
ALL OUR WONDERFUL WRITERS
thank you to all the incredible fic writers on this godforsaken app ! i am always so in awe of how creative people are and am constantly inspired by your minds ! i can't wait to find more of you on here 🤍
@43-hugs @adoristsposts @austonwithan-o @babydollmarauders @bagopucks @bedsyandco @behoright @bitchinbarzal @blueskrugs @bqstqnbruin @cellythefloshie @chewingcyanide @comphersjost @comphy-and-cozy @doc-pickles @eyesthatroll @fallinallincurls @happer08 @hischierdevils @hischierhoney @hockeyboistrash @hockeywhy @hockey-fics @hockey-hoe-24-7 @holy-pucks @hookingminor @huggybug @hugshughes @idontgiveaflyinggrayson69 @islesnucks @itsjusthockey @ladylooch @letsgetrowdy43 @marnerparty @matthewtkachuk @mattyanonwrites @matwith1t @mendeshoney @misshoneyimhome @mrsensitive @nhlclover @ohmyeyesmyeyes @pennylanefics @prettytoxicrevolver @pucksnsticksnhockeyboys @silovsmenot @starry-hughes @senditcolton @silverstonesainz-archive @stormsplurge @sunkissed-zegras @sunnyskiesscareme @sydnikov @thatintrovertedwriter @theemporium @thewintersoldierdisaster @undertaurus @unluckyhoneybee @withwritersblock @yelenasdog @youunravelme
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puck-luck · 6 months ago
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one bed trope by design | 4.6K | dm builds (& breaks) a bed in hopes of getting into fem!reader's pants
two beds again | 1K | part two of one bed trope by design
the adventurous one | 2K | dm & fem!reader take a hike
instigation investigation | 1.1K | fem!reader relieves dm's frustrations after the april 3rd, 2024 devils & rangers game (and fight)
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the art of loving you | 2.2K | jm & fem!reader celebrate their anniversary, a little belatedly.
moving along | 2.5K | jm is traded from pittsburgh to new jersey & has to prove to fem!reader that the move isn't such a bad thing.
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the open secret | 2.5K | sj gives fem!reader something to suck on.
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gamer guy | 0.9K | ms looks hot, even when ignoring fem!reader to play his little video game.
co-eds | 10.5K | fem!reader and ms explore polyamory with jq.
all roads | 4.8K | ms puts fem!reader through the ringer during the most confusing situationship of her life.
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co-eds | 10.5K | fem!reader and ms explore polyamory with jq.
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play house with me | 2.9K | al & fem!reader fulfill a childhood pact.
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closer than close | 3.9K | fem!reader knows that she'll be able to solve all rumors about she and mb being "more than friends" after they kiss once– when they feel nothing, then that'll be the end of it.
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senditcolton · 4 months ago
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youthfully felt
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I need to be youthfully felt 'cause god I've never felt young
summary: Sidney Crosby is simply… tired. Of everything. That's how he found himself at a seedy dive bar, drinking his misery away. Then enters Jade Watkins. She offers an escape from the scrutiny, the pressure, the fear, and soon Sidney finds himself falling for the girl who saved him just in time. But does he truly love her? Or does he just love the way she makes him feel? song inspo: Jackie and Wilson by Hozier word count: 11.2k warnings: hinted intimacy (non-explicit), language, resolved angst, and pregnancy at the very end
When people ask which places Sidney Crosby frequents in the large city of Pittsburgh, the answer is not a seedy little downtown bar. That was not the kind of place anyone would expect to find the Penguins captain. It was not a place for someone like him.
But there he was, sitting in a cracked leather booth on a warm May night. What was he doing here? Well… it was the perfect place to disappear. And that’s what Sidney wanted to do, at least for a little while.
Last season had been rough, on everyone. The injuries, the conflicts, the losses, and the constant scrutiny. Despite all of that, the team managed to fight their way up the standings, the race to the playoffs the closest it had been in years. Sid thought that maybe that turn-around, that fight, would be enough for the hungry fans that wanted nothing more than to see success. But he should have known that unless the season ended with a silver trophy, it would never be enough. And unfortunately, the Penguins lost their playoff spot by the barest of margins. And the fans were left with a bitter taste in their mouths instead of a satisfying ending.
Usually, Sidney would’ve shared their hunger and wouldn’t have felt satiated until his arms felt the weight of that 30-pound chalice. But now… he just felt tired.
Tired of living up to that impossible expectation that others held him to. Tired of the eyes that constantly turned to him and analyzed him whenever something went wrong. Tired of the whispers, the criticism that he never seemed to be able to escape.
Was Sidney Crosby losing his touch? Will one too many injuries end this once great hockey player’s career? Should he hang up his skates and let the club move onto to brighter futures? How much time does Sidney Crosby have left?
Those statements and worse had been floating around him for the past few years but he never let them break in. Instead, he used them as fuel to prove the nay-sayers wrong. But this year, the scrutiny felt worse than it ever had before and instead of the words motivating him, they crumbled the walls that he had built. They broke him down and that made him angry.
He gave everything to hockey. He gave up so much of his childhood, his adolescence, his youth, his life, to this sport, this city, to those fans. How much more did he need to prove himself? How much more would people demand of him? How much more would he be forced to give?
Doubtful, resentful, tired Sidney Crosby. The once great player of the National Hockey League.
That was how he felt and part of him didn’t want to pretend to be anything else tonight. And he assumes that’s how he found himself here.
He couldn’t remember the name of the bar where he currently sat. All he knew was this was the last place people would come looking for him. This was not a place to sight a celebrity. This was a place for drifters, rejects, people who had given up on their lives or didn’t care enough to try.  It felt like a place that was stuck in the past; the smell of old beer and cigarette smoke, the dim lighting courtesy of dust accumulated through years of indifference.  
Sidney sits in a booth in the back corner, the cracked leather digging into the back of his thighs. His hand casually wraps around the beer bottle in front of him, gently spinning it, feeling it resist as the glass clings to the stickiness of spilled alcohol lingering on the wood.
This place is not bright, it’s not shiny. It’s a place where this beaten, broken down version of himself could simply exist, baseball cap pulled low because even though this was the exact opposite of where he should be, that didn’t stop some patron’s eyes from lingering on him a little too long. But no one approached him. Maybe they could read it, feel his energy, understand that he did not want to be bothered. And for that, he was thankful. He couldn’t pretend to be the person everyone expected him to be, even from people who may have expected nothing.
He brings the bottle up to his lips, letting the lukewarm amber liquid fall into his mouth, trickling down his throat. He doesn’t let it drop until the last of the beer vanishes and he places the empty glass back with a resounding thud, pushing it so it clinks against the two other bottles abandoned on the table. He flags the bartender down, silently requesting another. He knows he shouldn’t but the fact that he shouldn’t is the very reason why he does. He’s making a choice that feels good for him, in this very moment. Damn the consequences.
A few moments and another clink echoes around him as the bartender delivers the next bottle and Sid hands them another bill, elegantly folded between his outstretched fingers, a token of discretion for both him and the worker, if they think of running their mouth. The bartender takes the money from him and moves back to their spot behind the bar-top and the seemingly pointless job of wiping down the counter.
Sid quickly peeks at his watch, checking the time. 11:52. Almost midnight. He resigns himself to this, his last drink, and he slowly sips from the bottle’s lips. The walk back to his car still parked outside PPG will give him time to sober up. The night is still warm and this way, he won’t have to worry about hustling an Uber, another potential leak that might gab about a Crosby that seemingly sunk so low. He’s about to take the last swig and leave until the creak of the front door alerts him to someone else entering the bar.
He doesn’t really intend to look. But there is some inexplicable force that calls him to. And that’s when he sees her.
She walks in, the breeze following her from outside, ruffling her long black hair and lightly fluttering the edge of the red plaid shirt adorning her body. Sidney watches as her eyes scan over the dimly lit bar and he subconsciously feels himself lift up, as if he wanted to catch her attention. He quickly deflates when those eyes simply pass over him, as if he was just another patron.
He watches as she waltzes to the bar, leaning forward and places her elbows on the wood. He hears a few muttered words to the bartender and based on her hushed conversation and body language, he realizes that this bar was a place she frequented. She was not a girl who got lost after a night out with her friends, who just happened to wander into the closest bar. No, she was familiar with this place. It perplexed him. One look at her and Sid knew that she didn’t belong here.
But not in the same way as him.
Sidney Crosby in a bar like this the equivalent of a shiny new penny that catches your eye when you see it at the bottom of a dingy fountain and wonder how it even came to be there. But her…
He couldn’t quite describe it. There was something about her; her energy, the way she carried herself. It was as if she was a creature who willingly walked into the darkest part of the forest and yet showed no fear. As if she knew she didn’t belong here, but didn’t care. Because it wasn’t that her that needed to figure out how to exist in this place. It was this place that needed to learn how to handle her.
Sidney was captivated.
And yet, when she spins on the bar stool, an Old Fashioned in hand, those eyes moving to once again gaze over the patrons of the bar, Sidney finds himself looking away, his own eyes jumping back to memorize the ridges on the mouth of his beer bottle. He didn’t know what made him look away, what made him shrink down, especially when he was vying for her attention when she first walked in. But whatever the reason, he was content to stay that way until he knew she was gone.
The last thing he expected was the crackle of dried leather shifting underneath someone else’s weight, sitting down across from him. And her green eyes staring back at him when he looked up.
“Never expected to run into a celebrity here,” she muses out loud, those eyes shamelessly looking him up and down. Sidney’s eyes tear away, ducking back down, hoping his baseball cap hid the way his cheeks turned pink.
The laughter that escapes her lips is intoxicating and Sidney feels his cheeks warm even more when he realizes she was laughing at him.
“Don’t worry, superstar,” she says, eyes moving to peruse the nearly empty bar once more. “I won’t tell anyone that you were here. I know the look of someone who wants to hide.”
Sidney’s eyes jump back up to her at her words and he can tell that she was willfully ignoring his puzzling gaze.
“You don’t look like someone who hides anything,” Sidney says, the words falling from his mouth before he can think them through and he feels himself blush again as she laughs.
“Is that your go-to line? If so, it needs some work.”
“I didn’t mean it like that. It’s just that… I mean, you – “Sidney stumbles over his words and she giggles again at his attempts to rectify his words.
“You know,” she says, gently interrupting him, “I expected you to be more articulate, y’know, being an NHL captain and all. But then again,” she continues as she notices his jaw clench at her words, “you’re here. So maybe there’s more to you than what everyone thinks.”
Sidney’s mouth drops open, shocked at how easily she was able to read him. How she managed to see him, truly see him. He watches as she turns back towards him and suppresses the shudder that wants to run through him as her knees knock against his underneath the table.
“So, tell me superstar,” she says, the teasing lilt in her voice clear, “why are you here?”
“You’re really beautiful,” Sidney says, the words once again being spoken before he thinks them over and her laughter falls over him in a gentle wave. He feels heat threatening to rise to his cheeks once more but he also feels his lips pull into a smile, a gentle chuckle rumbling through him as well.
“That was a much better pick-up line than before. Glad to see improvement.”
“And who says I was trying to pick you up?” Sidney replies and her eyebrows shoot up as she glances at him. He shoots a gentle smile back and it takes a moment before she realizes he is teasing her as much as she was him. She smirks back at him, slightly shrugging her shoulders.
“Fair enough.”
Sidney watches as she lifts her glass to her lips, eyes dancing away from him. As her gaze falls from him, Sidney is struck with the thought that he would do anything to get her eyes on him again. And as if she can hear his thoughts, she looks back to him. 
“Let’s make a deal then,” she says, a bright glint in her eyes. “No more assumptions. At least, for the rest of the night. Deal?” She reaches out to him and he can’t help but look at the offered hand, decked out in rings and chipped nail polish.
“Deal,” he says and he reaches out his own hand to gently clasp hers, the callouses on his palms and fingers built up after years and years, sliding against her smooth skin. He shakes her hand before pulling away. What he didn’t expect was the feeling of disappointment that ran through him when his hand fell from hers.
“Well, now that we got that out of the way,” she starts, breaking the silence that lay heavily between the two, “you still didn’t answer my original question. What are you doing here, superstar?”
“I’m not sure,” Sidney answers, shrugging his shoulders.
“Bullshit.”
“I thought we agreed no assumptions?” he shoots back and she can’t stop the smile that appears.
“I don’t think that’s an assumption. There must be some reason, something that brought you here. I mean, this isn’t really a place for anyone, let alone someone like you.”
“Then what are you doing here?”
“Not happening, superstar. I’m not showing you mine until you show me yours.”
“Well, that seems a little like extortion,” Sidney replies, laughing at her smirk and the way she rolls her eyes at him.
“That would be coercion, not extortion. I would have to demand money from you for it to be extortion. So, unless you’re willing to pay money to learn my life story, then you’ll just have to keep wondering.”
“Oh, so now you are extorting me.” She laughs, gently shaking her head and Sidney watches and wishes there was a way he could hear that laughter forever.
“I suppose I am,” she sighs, twiddling the rings on your fingers. The silence falls as she takes another sip of her drink before she speaks again. “I’m here because I used to know the owner.”
“Used to know?”
“Yeah. Used to. He’s not around anymore. Left me with only this bar to remember him by,” she explains. Her explanation was vague enough to not reveal the entire story was but the way her voice quieted, the way that her eyes went unfocused, makes Sidney realize that was all there was to say. She sighs, blinking a couple of times before focusing back onto him.
“Alright superstar. There’s my reason. Why are you here?”
“I wanted to be in a place where no one would recognize me,” he says and he slightly chuckles when he sees the smile appear on her face. “I guess I didn’t do very well.”
“No, you really didn’t. But I suppose there isn’t a lot of places where the great Sidney Crosby can hide.”
“You have no idea,” he sighs, tearing his eyes away. It is a moment before he looks back at her and he is shocked to see a glimmer of understanding sadness in her expression.
Suppose they both were trying and failing to get away from the things that haunted them. And so, they sit, simply existing in this place where neither of them should be.
“Well,” she speaks, breaking the silence once more, “I suppose I’m not really helping you disappear. Guess I’ll see you around superstar.”
She kicks her legs out from underneath the table, scooting across the cracked leather, hand wrapped around the glass as she starts to leave. But before she can lift herself up from the booth, Sidney reaches out to her, his strong calloused hand wrapping around her wrist.
“Um,” is the first syllable out of Sidney’s mouth and his cheeks heat again as he sees the smile that pulls at her lips. “You don’t have to leave. I mean, it’s kind of nice talking to you. And besides,” he says, a crooked smirk appearing, “you haven’t successfully extorted me yet.”
“It’s not really extortion if you agree to it, you know.”
“Then just call it a date,” Sidney replies and he can see that she is slightly taken aback at his casual words.
“What exactly are you offering me, superstar? Are you gonna pick me up in a nice tux and take me to a fancy romantic restaurant, with roses and wine and then drive me home and leave me with a polite kiss on the cheek?”
“I thought we agreed no assumptions?” he says but he knows that she can see the light pink tinge on his cheeks and can easily guess that that was exactly what he was thinking.
“It wasn’t an assumption. It was a… prediction,” she shoots back, settling back down in the booth, fingers dancing over the glass of her Old Fashioned. “But hey, if I’m wrong, tell me now.”
Sidney sits there in silence, his hand wrapping around his bottle as he takes another swig of beer. He couldn’t respond to her challenge because it was true. And he hated that she could see right through him so easily. Or maybe he loved that within a few short moments of meeting him, she managed to laugh her way to the truth of him, break through all the people that he pretended to be.
He wasn’t quite sure which feeling was real. All he knew for certain is that he wanted more.
“Well,” he clears his throat, his eyes jumping back to hers. “What were you thinking of?”
Her fingers continue to circle the rim of her glass, her head tilting and gaze drifting away from him as she thinks. Then her eyes reattach to his and – with what Sidney could only describe as one of the most wicked smiles that he had seen – she plucks the cherry garnish from her drink. Sidney can’t take his eyes off of her as she drops the entire fruit into her mouth. He watches as she sits there for a moment, the red juice lingering on her lips and he would give anything to kiss the sour-sweet off. Her lips part and she plucks the cherry stem from in between her teeth, tossing it over the table. Sidney glances down and notices the perfect knot in the center. His eyes jump back up to her, that fucking grin still on her face.
“What do you say we just get out of here?”
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­­­The soft morning sunlight filters through the windows, dancing across Sidney’s face. And when his eyelids finally fluttered open, the first sight he was met with was a cluttered nightstand. His gaze dances over the candles, plants, and rings that littered the wood – the opposite of the clean and sleek table that sits beside his own bed. But then again, he wasn’t in his bed.
Sidney glances down and sees Jade curled up in his arms, her back against his chest, breaths falling softly. She had whispered her name to him last night, on the way to her apartment where he currently resided.
Last night was… he didn’t think he could describe it.
When she made her bold offer, there was a part of Sidney that wasn’t sure if he should agree. But there was something about her, something so unfathomable that Sidney couldn’t stop the pull of her gravity. And in that moment, he silenced the critical voice in his head and said yes.
It wasn’t supposed to mean anything. He was supposed to chalk it up as a little too much to drink, a lapse in judgement. But then she kissed him.
And Sidney realized that he never wanted to kiss any other lips but hers again.
Last night, he felt alive. Jade had kissed him without pretense, without presumption. Her lips danced across his skin, counting every scar, leaving no inch untouched. She breathed life into the hollows of his neck, the ridges of his ribs and he was caught in the thrill of someone who willingly brought him to his knees. She surprised him, challenged him. He hadn’t felt that way in a long time.
But then again, he never met someone like her before.
A heavy sigh sounds from her and Sidney is startled out of his daydream, back to the present moment. Jade nestles deeper into the rumpled sheets, another sigh escaping her. Sidney’s arms impulsively tighten around her frame, pulling her closer, loving the way her skin felt against his. What he wouldn’t give to stay in this bed, forgetting about the world waiting for him outside.
But one glance at the alarm clock perched on the nightstand told him that he couldn’t.
The great Sidney Crosby had things to do.
With a defeated breath, Sidney presses a small kiss into her ruffled hair before carefully untangling himself from her grasp. He crawls out of the bed, picking up his clothes scattered on the floor where they fell the night before. As he gets redressed, Sidney lets his eyes jump around the room, as he tried to discern Jade’s story from the pictures on the walls, the books on the shelves, the knick-knacks decorating every free space. He wasn’t prying; that would be considered rude. But he wanted to know more about the woman that he shared a bed with. Wanted to see if he could understand the power she held over him.
He's leaning in close to a picture hung on the wall at the foot of the bed, his hand clasped behind him when he hears a small laugh echo around the room. He quickly spins around, a blush instantly rising to his cheeks. His eyes land on Jade, propped up on her elbows, the sheets clinging to her body.
“Are you spying on me superstar?” she asks and Sidney is relieved to hear the teasing lilt in the question. He can’t help but respond with a small smile of his own.
“Wasn’t my intention,” he replies, walking back towards her.
“Oh really? And what exactly was your intention?” she laughs as Sidney settles himself on the edge of the bed, the mattress slightly sinking underneath his weight.
“Just trying to figure out a mystery.”
“What mystery is that?”
“You,” he says softly, his gentle eyes dancing over her face, smiling as he watches her own smile tugging at the corners of her lips.
Jade lifts herself off the mattress, sitting up completely and leaning in closer to him. Her chin comes to find a perch on his shoulder and she leans her cheek against him, breathing in the lingering cologne from his t-shirt. Sidney lets her rest there for a moment, choosing not to move away and instead watch as the rising sun paints the apartment golden.
“Keep wondering,” she whispers into the morning air. She turns her head to look up at him, a smirk painted onto her face as his eyes connect to hers. The sunlight catches her irises, setting the green alight. He watches as her gaze jumps from his eyes to his lips and back again but he doesn’t call her out on it because he knows his eyes are doing the exact same thing.
Sidney is the one to break first, leaning in to capture her lips in a gentle kiss. He can hear her breath catch in her throat and part of him hopes she can understand the emotion behind his actions. How he is worshipping her without words. Her hands find their way up into his hair, fingers tangling into the peppered grey at his temples. Jade falls back down against the sheets, dragging Sidney down with her. He groans into the kiss, his arms caging her to the bed. But she didn’t seem to mind.
He breaks apart, leaving her to chase after his lips as his body retreats. A small chuckle rumbles from Sidney’s chest and Jade playfully glares up at him.
“I have to go,” he says, breaking the silence, a part of him aching as he watches her expression falter. He steels himself as he rises off the bed, moving towards the door, his hand wrapping around the door handle. But before he turns it, he looks back towards Jade, feeling her eyes still attached his frame.  
“Am I going to see you again?”
“Only if you want to,” she teases and Sidney can’t stop the crooked smile from appearing on his face, eyes ducking down at her gentle prodding.
“I do,” he says, biting his lip and glancing back up at you. “Could I get your number? Or do you want mine?”
“Don’t worry about it,” Jade laughs, Sidney’s expression shifting to one of confusion. She smiles back at him before continuing. “I’m sure it’ll be easy to find you in this city.”
Sidney laughs, happily falling back into the verbal tennis match that made him so drawn to her. He turns back towards the door, opening it gently and stepping over the threshold.
“Well then, I guess I’ll see you around,” he says, not hiding the hopeful rise in his voice.
“Catch you later, superstar.”
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Days passed and Sidney still hadn’t heard from Jade. Or even seen her.
Every time he walked down the Pittsburgh streets, he hoped that he’d run into her; maybe coming out of the bustling farmers market or even on the street outside of PPG Arena. He had even entertained the thought of going back to the bar where they met in the hopes that she’d be there. But he never did.
She said that she would find him but every day that went by without a trace of her, Sidney’s hopes dimmed. And as time ticked by, an insidious thought entered Sidney’s mind; maybe she did this on purpose.
Maybe this was the way she operated, part of how she moved through life. Blew in out of nowhere, entered his world and turned it upside down, and then disappeared as quickly as she came.
Sidney didn’t want to believe it. He didn’t want to believe that he would never see her again. There was something about her; he felt it from the moment she walked into that bar. Something that he wanted to continue to explore. Jade was fascinating and wild and free. She made Sidney feel young again, even in that one night. And that wasn’t something he had felt in a very long time.
Sidney has had eyes on him since he was a child. He was taught how to behave, how to act, how to be that good guy, on the ice but especially off the ice because his image was so closely tied with his success. People can hate you as much as they want for how you play, but if their only complaint is your skills and not your character, there is nothing they can take away from you.
It wasn’t that he hated it. He was thankful for everything that hockey brought him; family, friendship, and more prosperity than he knew what to do with. But part of him never felt like he got to be a kid.
He knew he could never go back and re-live that part of his life. But Jade… she made him feel youthful. And God, what he wouldn’t give to feel like that again.
These were the thoughts that were rattling around in his head as he walks down the Pittsburgh streets, the sun warming his back. He wasn’t sure of his destination or if he even had a destination. All he knew was that he needed the space, needed to take a moment to breathe. He keeps his head down, eyes focused on the concrete sidewalk, letting the cars speed past him. He doesn’t take note of anything around him which means he doesn’t notice the car that pulls up behind him.
“Hey there, stranger!” a voice calls out to him. He turns and there she is – Jade, sitting behind the wheel of a beautiful vintage convertible.
Her sunglasses are perched on the end of her nose, those green eyes playfully looking over the edge at him and he can’t help the smile that appears on his lips at the sight of her.
“Hey,” he says casually, turning towards her and walking over. He reaches the passenger door and leans against the side. “I thought you disappeared.”
“Oh, so you’ve been thinking about me?”
“Only every day,” Sidney coolly replies and she laughs at his words. And the way her laughter rings through the late noon has Sidney’s heart ringing with it.
“You know, your pick-up lines are improving every time we talk.”
“You’re a good influence on me, I suppose.”
“Ugh, there you go again Sidney Crosby,” she says, dramatically throwing her hand on her chest. “You know the way right to a girl’s heart!”
A warm chuckle rumbles through Sidney, his head slightly shaking at her antics. Her smile never leaves her face and he returns the grin as she takes him in; his warm skin, the bright sun lighting up his hair, his body calm and relaxed against her car.
“So,” Sidney starts, “what have you been up to?”
“Not much. Just looking for you,” Jade replies, shooting him that dazzling smile before kicking off the parking brake, shifting the car to drive. “Hop in.”
Sidney takes a step back, a little shocked by her sudden request. She shoots a glance back towards him and he knows that she has seen the shift in his demeanor. The smooth and relaxed guy that was there a second ago had disappeared. In his place was the closed-off Sidney Crosby that people were used to.
“Um” Sidney hesitates, his uncertainty the only thing he could speak.
“Come on, you know I’m not some crazy stalker,” she laughs. Her words don’t work as Sidney stays in his place. Jade sighs, shifting the car and placing the parking brake back on.
“What’s up?”
“I’m just not sure this is the best idea.”
“Was it a good idea for you to get drunk in a downtown bar a week ago?” she shoots back at him. Sidney knows she has him with those words because it wasn’t. But that’s exactly where she found him.
“C’mon superstar,” Jade says, her voice softening but still holding that teasing energy that drew him to her in the first place. “Don’t think about what anyone else would think. Do what your heart tells you to do. And if that’s walking away right now, then I’ll respect that. But I have a feeling that’s not the case.”
Sidney looks back at her, leaning back in the driver’s seat, that smile on her lips. How she was able to see through him so easily, after spending a single night with him, he’ll never know. But he knew for certain that he didn’t want to lose it. He didn’t want to how he felt when he was with her.
And before he could talk himself out of it, before he could let those voices in his head decide for him, he was tugging on the door handle and sliding himself onto the warm leather of the passenger’s seat.
Jade’s only reply to his actions is a bright smirk shot in his direction before she once again shifts the car to drive and pulls away from the curb and onto the Pittsburgh streets.
Sidney looks out, watching as the buildings and other cars pass by. Sometimes, when stopped at a traffic light, he thinks he notices people on the sidewalks or in the neighboring cars do a double take in his direction. He instinctively ducks or turns his head away, never wanting to draw attention to himself. But it doesn’t fully work.
A car speeds pass, horn honking and Jade and Sidney look up as a few boys lean out of the window.
“Hell yeah Sidney!!!” their shouts echo as they drive away and Sidney gives them a polite wave. Jade’s head turns towards him and an involuntary giggle falling from her lips at his chagrined expression.
“That’s got to be annoying,” she says, turning her attention back towards the road.
“I don’t mind it,” Sidney replies, his somewhat practiced words falling from his lips.
“Bullshit.”
Sidney’s eyes jump to Jade, her serious yet relaxed face turned towards the road. She releases a sigh as she senses his eyes on her. Without looking at him, she continues.
“C’mon superstar. Part of you must want to live your life without all the eyes of Pittsburgh on you.”
Sidney doesn’t reply, instead choosing to turn his head back to look at the passing scenery. He didn’t want to admit it but she was right. There were moments in his life that he wondered what it would be like if he was not Pittsburgh Penguin Captain #87, the great Sidney Crosby, one of the best NHL players and he was simply… Sidney.
There she was, once again reading him like the well-worn pages of old book.
The silence weighs heavily, a stark contrast to the spring breeze that rustled through the air. Jade shoots a quick glance in Sidney’s direction and find him still turned away.
“Look, I’m sorry. That was presumptuous on my part,” she says, eyes returning to the road stretched out ahead. Sidney’s face turns back to look at her, watches as her hands tighten around the steering wheel, reading the anxiety that coiled in her body.
“I thought we agreed no assumptions?” he jokes, echoing the words from the first night they met. Jade laughs, the noise immediately lifting the fog from between them.
“Yes. Yes, we did.”
She continues to turn down the busy streets and Sidney lets himself relax back into the present moment. He watches as Jade glances up at the traffic signs before a smirk appears on her face. It stays on her lips as she turns to connect her eyes with Sidney.
“Do you want to get out of this town?”
Even though her eyes are obscured by her tinted sunglasses, Sidney knows that bright mischievous energy is sure to be sparkling in those green eyes, the look that pulled him to her that very first night. Without thinking, he nods in agreement. Her grin widens as she turns onto the highway that leads out of the heart of Pittsburgh.
They zip down the interstate, the wind ruffling Jade’s hair as they drive further out of the city. She glances back at Sidney and smiles as she sees him relaxed against the passenger seat, his energy seemingly calmer, his chest rising and falling, breathing in the fresh air, the smile never leaving his face.
Eventually, Sidney turns his eyes back to Jade and watches her in the same way.
Part of him felt like he was running away; running from his problems and his worries. However, he knew that if he ever did decide to run away from his troubles, that also meant running away from the things that meant the most; friends, his career, his success. But right now, he couldn’t find it in himself to care. Because deep down he knew he would run from anything if it meant running with her.
He watches as Jade reaches down to turn on the radio, scanning until she lands on a station playing some old classic rock and leans back, letting the music dance through the light breeze. Her lips start to move, quietly mouthing along to the lyrics as the world races by. Over the noise of the breeze, traffic, and music, it takes her a minute to register a different voice accompanying the radio. Jade peeks over to see Sidney singing along to the music, his hands tapping a rhythm onto the passenger side door. With a smile, she reaches again and turns the music up, looking back at Sidney with a grin.
“Oh, the movie never ends, it goes on and on and on and on,” she joins in, the grin never leaving her as her eyes goad Sidney on. Sidney reads her challenge and continues singing, his volume increasing.
“Strangers waitin’ up and down the boulevard their shadows searchin’ in the night.”
“Streetlights, people. Livin’ just to find emotion.”
“Hidin’ somewhere in the night!” Sidney leans his head back, hitting that high note, causing another bought of laughter to fall from Jade’s lips. He looks back to her, the smile dancing across his lips as he watches; her head throw back, her child-like laughter cascading through the air. And that feeling hit him again; that feeling of youth and freedom.
Sidney didn’t have to pretend to be anyone with her. He could simply be.
They continue down the road, singing and laughing as the world passes by. After what seems like hours, Jade turns off the highway, taking an exit that Sidney didn’t recognize.
“Where are we going?” he questions, looking back as the crowded turnpike disappears behind him.
“No place special.”
Sidney doesn’t feel like prying so he remains silent and lets Jade move along the small desolate roads. Throughout the drive, he constantly looks back at her, watching as she confidently turns down side streets, as if she had followed this path a hundred times. Another part of the mystery of her.
Jade drives onto a dirt road, passing a worn wooden sign that Sidney can barely read and follows the path up a small hill until she parks at the edge of a lookout. He watches as she hops out and walks to the front of the car, leaning against the hood. It takes a few seconds until Sidney is following, finding his place in the empty space next to her. He looks out onto the scenery and it taken aback.
Jade had brought him to a lake, the trees crowding the edges, the water gently sloshing against the shore. The sun shined down on the scene, making the water below sparkle. His eyes couldn’t stay still as he took in everything around him: the sugar-spun clouds, the towering oak trees, the groups of dandelions that line the edge of the hill. He stays silent as he sits next to Jade, letting the only noise be the rustling of the leaves around him and the quiet birdsong.
A few moments pass before Sidney looks back at her and feels his heart leap. She is staring out over the scenery, the wind ruffling the edges of her shirt, the pale blue sky reflected in her eyes. There is nothing special about how she looked and he loved that. She wasn’t performing for him or for anyone. She simply existed.
Sidney watches as she lifts herself up off the car and wanders to the edge of the lookout, the sunlight tracing her frame. Crouching down, she plucks some of the dandelions from the grass, lifting them up and letting the bright yellow flowers wiggle in her grasp.
“Do you like dandelions?” she asks, her eyes never departing from the task at hand.
“I never thought about it,” Sidney answers truthfully.
“I think they’re lovely,” she softly says, her fingertips tracing the golden petals.
“But they’re just weeds, right?”
A breathy laugh falls from her lips as she straightens herself up, the flowers still held in her grasp. She wanders over to Sidney, slotting herself between his parted thighs. Sidney can feel his breath catch in his throat as she leans towards him, pulling a dandelion from the small bouquet.
“And who says weeds aren’t lovely?” she whispers to him, gently placing the flower behind his ear and he can’t suppress the shiver that runs through him at the feeling of the petals against his skin and her fingers tracing down the back of his neck.
“So beautiful and so stubbornly alive.”
Her gentle words are enough for Sidney to lean in, capturing her lips in a tender kiss. She sighs against his lips, her arms absentmindedly wrapping around his shoulders as his hands find their place on her hips, pulling her closer. The kiss deepens as Sidney is pulls her down, her body draped over him as his back rests against the warm metal of the hood. Jade finally breaks away, departing breathless above Sidney. Sidney looks up at her, his hazel eyes warm as he lifts his hand, coming to cradle her cheek, his thumb gently tracing over the smooth skin.
“I think I’m falling in love with you,” he murmurs.
Jade pauses and Sidney swears the world stops as his confession lingers in the late May air. Sidney keeps his breathing strong and steady underneath Jade as he waits for her response. The glimmering hope in his eyes falter as a laugh from her lips instead of the words he hopes to hear.
“So rational, Sidney. Falling for a woman you just met,” she says, voice light and dismissive. Sidney’s eyebrows furrow at the shift in her energy, watching as she lifts herself up, pushing her body away from him and off the car. She returns to her spot next to him on the edge of the hood, eyes returning to overlook the scenery in front of her.
“You barely know me.”
Sidney knows that she can feel his eyes on her but she doesn’t turn around. He reaches his arm out towards her and can feel the shiver that runs through her as his fingers graze over her hips.
“I want to.”
Those gentle words are what causes her to finally turn back to him, her eyes connecting to his. The look on his face is so truthful, so earnest. A small smile appears on her lips and Sidney lets out a breath of relief that he didn’t know he was holding.
“Is that your best pick-up line?” she quips.
“As long as it works,” Sidney teases back, wanting to keep the light-hearted energy between the two of them flowing. She laughs that brilliant beautiful laugh that captured him that first night and lifts herself up off the car. She extends a hand out to him which he gladly takes, lifting himself up before moving closer to her, his arms wrapping around her waist once more.
This time it is Jade who makes the first move, lifting herself up to connect her lips to his. They stand there, entangled in each other’s arms, the sunlight warming their bodies. And Sidney feels instantly lighter when she finally breaks away.
“Come on, superstar,” she says, peeling away from him. “Let’s get you home.”
She hops back in the car, Sidney following close behind, before retracing the path back to the bright lights of the now dark Pittsburgh streets. And when Jade pulls her car up outside Sidney’s house in his affluent neighborhood, it takes everything in him not to invite her inside.
But Sidney still has a smile on his face as he opens the front door and turns to watch her car disappear around the corner. Because in his pocket is a dandelion along with an old receipt, with her phone number hastily scrawled on the back.
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The months that Sidney shares with Jade pass in a blur. It wasn’t bad, it wasn’t rushed. It was just how it felt; a swift stumble into a romance that felt as soft as summer and as gentle as the setting sun. It felt like something out of a movie: a romance filled with honey and lemons – bright and sweet and wild.
Sidney was in constant awe of Jade; how she moved through the world, how fearless and unapologetic she was. He had never met anyone like her.
He had been everywhere, all over the country, all over the world. He had played in front of thousands of people, each one of them cheering his name. And he would trade it all, every experience, if he could be promised that he’d never have to live without hearing her soft voice whispering secrets in the golden-filled hours under white covers, eyelids heavy and the scent of magnolias drifting through the open windows.
There were moments when Sidney didn’t think she was real. That she was an apparition that he conjured up from one of his wildest dreams. But she was real and every moment he spent with her, he became more certain that she was made for him.
These were the thoughts where dancing through his head as he watches her move throughout his living room, her body lightly dancing to the tune she was humming underneath her breath. He sits on the couch, just watching her, his t-shirt hanging from her frame, the early afternoon sun dancing on her skin. She turns, a smile on her lips that Sidney shares. That bright laugh falls from Jade as she waltzes over him, her body coming to a stop between his outstretched thighs. Her hand reaches out, gently running through his hair, following a path down to his cheek, her touch bouncing between every freckle. She giggles as his lips kisses her fingertips each time they get too close to his lips.
Jade turns away from him and starts to exit the living room. But she stops in her tracks at the sound of Sidney’s voice.
“I love you.”
The world seems to stop when those words fall from his lips. He said it before, that day in May overlooking the lake. But it was a question back then, a hesitation. “I think I’m falling in love with you,” he said that day. And that one word, that uncertainty, held him back from the truth he knew. But now…
Jade turns around to see Sidney sitting there on the couch and when her eyes dance over his face, Sidney knows that she can see the honesty painted there. He was sure of his words and wanted her to believe him when he said it. He was in love with her; that much was certain. So, there he sat, still looking at her, silently praying that she would say the words in return.
Instead, it is a laugh that echoes around the room.
“That’s sweet superstar. Do you tell that to every wide-eyed girl you know?” she quips. Sidney’s eyebrows furrow as the confused replaces the certainty that used to be on his face.
“What are you saying?” he asked, his bewildered tone clear.
“What are you saying, Sidney? You love me?”
“Yes,” he replies without hesitation. “Yes, I do.”
“No, you don’t.”
“What do you mean ‘I don’t’?” Sidney questions as he lifts himself off the couch cushions, taking a small step towards her. He hears the light-hearted sigh she lets out as she turns away before his voice stops her again.
“Please, look at me.”
Jade turns back towards him, looking him in the eye.
“You don’t love me, Sidney. You don’t.”
“What does that mean?”
She scoffs, and the lack of explanation frustrates him, causing him to continue.
“No, tell me why you don’t think I love you. What have we been doing for the past few months? Just having fun?”
“Yes,” she snaps, “yes, Sidney that is exactly what we’ve been doing. That’s what this is; you looking for a distraction and me being the one to give you that.”
“Is that how you see us? Is that how you see me? That I’m just using you for… my own gain? How could you think that?”
“Because that’s what you’re doing Sidney,” she says with a venom in her voice that Sidney was entirely unaware existed. “Maybe you don’t realize it but that’s exactly what you’re doing.”
“I don’t understand what you’re saying. I don’t understand why you would think that. When I met you that night in that bar, there was something. Something pulled me to you, I don’t know what it was, but there was something, you can’t deny that. And you found me. I don’t care if that sounds stupid or cliché but you found me at the right time and… and you saved me. I was drowning and you saved me.”
She scoffs again at his words and Sidney still can’t understand her reaction.
“You did,” he continues, his voice raising, taking on a pleading edge that he should’ve been ashamed of but he didn’t care. He wanted Jade to talk to him. “I felt like shit, I was angry and spiteful and tired. God, I was so fucking tired. And then you came along and you changed that. With everything you do; the way you laugh, your smile, your attitude. It was refreshing and freeing. You made me feel young and in love and I never felt like that before. And I do love you because of it.”
“My God, Sidney,” she yells, the damn finally breaking. “Do you even hear yourself? This – that – that’s exactly what I’m talking about.” She starts to pace around the room, the frustrated energy radiating off her in waves. “I’m not here to complete you or make you feel young or save you. That’s not my fucking job.”
As soon as those words escape her, Sidney realizes how he fucked up. He starts to open his mouth in an attempt to back-track, to tell her that he didn’t mean it that way. But before he can utter a single syllable, Jade cuts him off again.
“And that’s what I mean when I say that you are using me. I’m this girl who showed up at the right time and everything about me is fun and unique and wild and carefree. That’s who you want me to be, so I can fit into that pretty little narrative you created in your head.  You don’t love me, Sidney. You love that woman, that idealized version that you made. But I’m not her. I’m not that girl.”
She sighs, energy spent as she collapse onto the armchair in the corner, eyes downcast.
“You look at me Sidney. But you don’t see me.”
Sidney shifts in place before moving over towards her. However, even though she could clearly hear his approach, Jade doesn’t lift her head as he kneels down, his warm palms coming to rest on her thighs.
“I do see you. I promise I do. There’s so many things about you that I love and –”
“Name one,” she says, those piercing green eyes locking with his. Sidney flinches when he sees the distance shining within her irises. “Name one thing you love about me that doesn’t benefit you.”
Her challenge hangs heavy in the air as Sidney open his mouth, leaving it gaping for a moment before closing it once more. And he can’t stop the small wince that pangs through him at the humorless laugh falls from her lips.
“That’s what I thought,” she sighs. “I’ve been there before. I’ve been with people like that before. I know you think you love me but you don’t. As soon as I show any vulnerability, anything that you can’t slap a pretty little filter over, anything that doesn’t fit into your daydream, you’ll wake up… and then you’ll leave. You’re going to tell me that you won’t, that you’re not like all the rest but…”
Her words trail off and Sidney wants to know why. He wants to know what he could say to her to prove that he was different. That he did love her, that he did want to be with her. That he would stay forever by her side. 
He wanted to know why her heart was battered, beaten. How it had become like a scared animal backed into a corner, timid and mistrustful.
“I promised myself that I would never go through that again. I can’t,” she finishes, pushing his hands off of her as she lifts herself off the armchair. Sidney watches as she grabs her keys, walking to his front door, placing her hand on the handle, ready to walk out of Sidney’s life. But before she does, she looks back towards him, still kneeling on the ground, his hazel eyes locked on her frame.
“I’m sorry,” she says and Sidney isn’t quite sure what she is apologizing for. But those words feel as definitive as a goodbye. And those are the words she leaves him with as she walks out of his house.
Sidney stays there, watching as the door closes, the resounding click of the latch falling into place echoing through his home and only one thought similarly reverberating through his mind:
Where did he go wrong?
He thought she felt the same. No, he was certain that she felt the same way about him. Sidney was and could be many things but reckless with his emotions was never one of them. His head spun with the moments that he had shared with her throughout the months.
At first, he couldn’t think of any instance that he could confidently say that was the sign, the indication that she didn’t feel the same. But as he continued to think, as he pushed away that love-struck haze that covered those memories, he realized that there had been some moments; moments where she pulled away from him. She hid it well, with her laughter and jokes concealing a deeper meaning, a hurt that he never bothered to investigate more of.
Perhaps she was right. Perhaps he got too caught up in how she made him feel that he didn’t put in the effort to uncover who she really was.
But the more he thought about it, he realizes that he didn’t just sweep those moments under the rug, didn’t ignore them. He pushed as much as he thought he could, never wanting to overstep the boundaries that she had set. Sometimes he felt as if he got close but every time he felt that way, a wall he didn’t even notice separated him from her. It wasn’t easy. But Sidney knew that he would wait forever for Jade to tell him those stories that she kept under lock and key.
Yes, there were moments where things weren’t perfect, where he made mistakes, where communication fell flat. But part of him knew that those beautiful moments he shared with her, where he did truly see her, were enough to chase after her. Because there was no way that the past few months weren’t real.
The speed that Sidney grabs his coat and car keys is hectic to say the least but he knows that he can’t waste anymore seconds. There is a very real possibility that Jade would be lost to him forever, gone as fast as a midnight cigarette. He jumps into his car, making his way down the winding Pittsburgh streets to her apartment building. He is ready to scramble out and hit the buzzer of her apartment until she responds. That is, until he takes a quick look around the small parking lot and doesn’t see Jade’s vintage convertible anywhere.
A frustrated sigh escapes his chest as he takes out his phone, dialing Jade’s number but only getting her voicemail. His body slumps against the driver’s seat, a wave of defeat washing over him, a feeling that he didn’t want to accept. He closes his eyes as his brain desperately flips through his memories, trying to find something that could tell him where she might be.
Suddenly, a crystal-clear image pops into his mind; sunglasses perched on her nose, the wind whipping around her convertible, that wicked smile dancing on her lips, her voice light;
“Do you want to get out of this town?”
His eyes fly open as he kicks his car into reverse, driving back onto the streets. After a few minutes, Sidney is on the highway leaving downtown and bringing him closer to rural Pennsylvania and hopefully, closer to her.
Part of him worries that he’ll make a wrong turn somewhere, delaying him and potentially costing him his last opportunity to reach Jade. He didn’t have the exact map in his mind. She had only brought him there once, that day in May and he hadn’t taken the time to memorize the specific route. All he had to go on was the bare bones of his memory and the landscape and signs around him.
But it seemed the universe was on his side; the setting sun is guiding his path. He recognizes enough small landmarks, telling him that he was headed the right way and it wasn’t long until he found himself pulling up to that old wooden sign.
He turns onto the dirt road, following the path up that small hill, that outlook where Jade took him those months ago. There is a whisper of fear within him, scared that he would make it to the top and it would be empty. That she would be gone completely from his life and he would never be able to find her again. But then he turns that final corner.
And there her vintage convertible sits, parked on the top of the hill.
And there she sits, leaning against the hood, looking out at the sunset.
Sidney parks his car behind hers, letting the engine die and plunging the lakeside back into the almost silence of nature; the wind in the trees being the only sound.
Hopping out of the car, Sidney moves towards Jade, partially expecting her to turn back or acknowledge him in any way. She must have heard him, must have heard the car door and his feet crunching the gravel beneath him. But she doesn’t react; her eyes stay locked on the horizon. Even when Sidney reaches her, leaning the hood next to her. The silence hangs heavy until Sidney finally speaks.
“You hate the ends of garlic bread,” he says, his voice soft. Out of the corner of his eye, he notices Jade’s head whip towards him, his words clearly not the ones that she was expecting. He doesn’t look in her direction though, instead choosing to stare into the same sunset that she was moments ago.
“You hum any song when you’re cooking or doing chores,” he continues, his voice sure and steady. “You will use anything as a bookmark. You always catch the spiders your apartment and release them instead of killing them. You put cinnamon sticks in your coffee. You always point out cows when you drive. You move around in your apartment just to make sure you’re always sitting in sunlight. You love gardening and want to have a yard so you can grow flowers and fruits and vegetables and herbs.”  
He continues to list these things about her. And it’s not just the beautiful things; it’s the ugly, scared, vulnerable things he’s noticed too. He’s describing these moments, these little things that he doesn’t even know the meaning behind. But he notices them nevertheless. And finally, finally, he turns to look into Jade’s eyes. And he notices the way her breath catches when she sees the look of pure love shining in his.
“You were right. I did love the idea of you. I loved the way you made me feel. And I should’ve known – I should’ve known not to do that. Because that’s all everyone has ever done with me.”
He lets his confession hang in the air, letting his words sink in for a moment before he speaks again.
“Almost all my life, people had their ideas about who I should be. And I got so used to it, that I started believing that’s who I was. I made these masks that I could wear and change in order to always be the exact person that people expected. Then you came along. You didn’t expect me to be anyone but myself. You saw through all those feeble facades that I wore and you loved me for exactly who I was. And,” he pauses, closing his eyes and taking a deep breath, as if to gather himself one final time, “I don’t want to go back to pretending for whoever comes next. Because I don’t want there to be anyone else. I only want you. The beautiful part and the ugly parts. Because that’s who I love. You.”
Sidney finishes his speech and lets the silence fall, lets his words drift away into the late summer breeze. His eyes stay locked onto hers, looking into those beautiful green eyes, watching the changing emotions flicker behind them as she takes in his confession. She finally breaks the connection, turning to look back at the sunset.
“I can’t be the one to make sure you stay that way, Sidney,” she says, reiterating that fear that kept him at arms-length throughout those months that they shared.
“You were never the one that made me become myself. You gave me permission to make that choice in a moment when I thought I didn’t have that option anymore.”
It’s another moment of stillness, another moment of simply existing in the same space. Until Jade finally moves, her hand reaching over the hood of the car towards Sidney. There is a second of hesitancy where her hand rests in the empty in the space between them.
Until finally, Sidney extends his own hand. And when his hand meets hers, fingers intertwining, the sigh falling from her lips, he knows that she can feel the warmth of his love. And along with it, the certainty that she was safe to fall.
Because he would always be there to catch her.
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Three Years Later
The click of the lock is a welcome sound, Sidney pushing the front door open to his new home. Or more accurately, their new home. The one he and Jade chose a year ago, shortly after their wedding. A place that would be uniquely theirs, a place where they could set down roots and build a home and a life after his retirement from hockey.
Sidney had announced his retirement at the beginning of this season, stating that it would be his last. There was a large amount of fanfare and an expectedly large amount of media attention throughout the regular season. When the Penguins hadn’t made it to the playoffs, he was upset. The narrative of his club winning one last Stanley Cup for him was a compelling one. But he didn’t let the loss sting him too much. He had three already, along with so many other awards and achievements and memories. Those were the things that he could hold onto.
He was confident that he would be able to let the game of hockey go. Because he had Jade.
Sidney walks deeper into the house, calling her name, his voice echoing off the walls. A silence greets him until he finally makes his way into the kitchen. And sees the open screen door leading to the backyard, the mellow sounds of R&B music floating into the house. After putting his things down on the kitchen island, he steps out onto the porch, his hazel eyes scanning over the yard.
The first thing Sidney notices is their dog Wilson laying in the middle of the yard, his chest rising and falling as he soaks in the April sunlight. Sidney’s eyes finally find Jade, sitting on her knees, crouched over one of the many flowerbeds he made for her. He watches as her hands pull out the creeping weeds, preparing for the coming spring. A few plastic pots of black irises sit next to her, their stalks gently swaying in the breeze as they patiently wait for her to nestle them in the dark soil.
Sidney makes his way across the yard, stopping to greet Wilson who is so content that he barely lifts his head in acknowledgement. He eventually reaches Jade, his body lowering to join her on the earth. The approach would’ve been silent, if it weren’t for the groan that rumbles from his chest as his knees protested.
“I’m getting too old for this,” he laughs, finally relaxing into kneeling position. Jade’s laugh dances on the breeze, her attention turning to him, the Pittsburgh Penguins baseball cap perched on her head, protecting her face from the sun.
“What’s the matter superstar? Retirement taking the wind from your sails?” she teases, sitting back on her heels as she wipes the dirt off her hands onto her worn out t-shirt. Sidney can’t help but smile when he notices the rings hanging from her necklace, the ones that he had chosen for her almost two years prior.
“I’ve only technically been retired for a week now,” he playfully shoots back, the false offense painting his words. Jade just laughs again, her attention still focused on him. “I suppose my body just needs to learn how to slow down.”
“Well, hopefully it’s not too broken down to pass me that bucket of fresh soil.”
Her teasing request is one that he gladly obliges, reaching for the green bucket sitting a few inches away from him. He pulls it close to his body, ready to pass it over to her when a flash of white catches his eyes. Sidney’s eyes refocus, staring into the bucket as his brain registers the item perched on top of the loose soil.
A pregnancy test.
He tentatively reaches it, grasping the test and lifting it out of the pail. He has to use his hand to block the sunlight to be able to fully read the screen. And his jaw drops when he finally makes out the word ‘pregnant’ staring back at him. Sidney’s eyes flash up to Jade whose gaze is still locked on his body, a soft smile on her face.
“Are you serious?” he asks, the disbelief clear in his tone.
Jade doesn’t give a verbal response, just a small nod as her smile grows wider. Sidney doesn’t hesitate to reach out to her, pulling her into a crushing hug. Her bright cheerful laugh rings out through the air as he holds her close, muttering words of joy and thanks to her and to the universe for bringing these blessings to his life. Sidney can’t stop pressing kisses into her sun-warmed skin as she continues to giggle before she grabs his face and draws him into a passionate kiss.
They finally break away from each other, smiles still splitting their faces and Sidney’s hands fall to rest on her still flat stomach.
“What should we name her?” he asks, his thumbs lifting Jade’s shirt to brush against her bare skin.
“Easy there, superstar. We don’t even know if it’s a girl yet.”
“Trust me, it’s a girl.”
“Oh, and why are you so certain about that? Did the sudden knowledge that you’re going to be a father give you some sort of parental superpower?”
“I just know it,” he replies, that crooked smile tugging at his lips. Jade just returns his smile, his quiet certainty making her softly chuckle.
“I’ve always liked the name Jacqueline. Jackie for short,” she says, the suggestion floating on the breeze.
“Then Jackie it is.”
The two of them stay there, staring at each other as the sunlight beats down on them. This was it for him. It was him and Jade and Wilson and their unborn child. A contented sigh falls from his lips; this was all he ever wanted in his life, all he had ever hoped for. And just like she always did, Jade seemed to know exactly what he was feeling, that beautiful soft smile painting her features.
It isn’t clear who moved first, but at the same time it didn’t matter. Because when Sidney’s lips met Jade’s, he felt the certainty of their love thrumming through him. They break apart, his forehead resting against Jade’s, their breaths mingling in the warm summer light.
“I love you.”
“I love you too.”
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a/n: This fic was originally written as a reader insert for the Winter Fic Exchange two years ago. But I thought the story would work as an OC fic. The original is still on my blog so you can pick your own adventure so to speak. Not much has changed plot-wise but I think I might love this one more. Feel free to read this one and the original and see how you feel!
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filmsmakkari · 7 months ago
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LA Girl Magic
warren rojas x fem!reader
Summary: Warren Rojas always dreamed of Los Angeles. The clubs, the music, and the ridiculously beautiful women.
CW: Sexual-ish content but no actual smut, a little angsty at the end. As always my (Y/N) is assumed to be black and sometimes such is implied but definitely not enough that others can't read.
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June 1979
Everyone always dreamed of Los Angeles. The warmth of the Californian sun, the waves crashing against the Venice shore, the palm trees lining the streets. LA was the land of opportunity. And when you wished on Los Angeles stars, it felt like they would always come true. LA was the dream. Endless sunny days, ridiculously beautiful girls, and freedom to do and be whatever you wanted.
Los Angeles was everything for a band from Pittsburgh, where the only options were the mill or the army. So when Billy Dunne asked Warren Rojas about the possibility, Warren immediately went out and bought a van so the band would be ready to make the drive. It more or less cost him everything he had. It was crazy, but he somehow trusted it.
And boy, he couldn't have been more right.
It didn't come immediately. Weeks of phone calls that lead to nowhere. Finally meeting Teddy Price, and then being put through the wringer by him for months, a canceled tour, and being so dirt poor that he had to steal toast from restaurants. Enter Daisy Jones. Look At Us Now comes out. Sold out shows, gold records, and more drugs and women tearing at his pants than he could have ever dreamed of when he was just some skinny, curly-haired kid in Pennsylvania. The Six were living the California dream. He always said Daisy had "LA girl magic." He even tried to get Billy to write a song about it. 
It was July 1st, 1979, the LA date of the Aurora tour. For Daisy, it was the hometown show, but she had always said she didn't have anyone in LA, no parents or extended family in the whole city. So everyone in the band was surprised when she said she'd have a childhood friend coming for the show. The shock became even greater when Daisy walked into the green room laughing and smiling with (Y/N) (L/N). 
(Y/N L/N) was the "it girl" before that term was coined. A gorgeous Hollywood starlet. An Oscar winner at ten, a Vogue cover at 15,  a sold out world tour at 20, and a star on the Walk of Fame by 21. She was currently working on her sophomore album, and the world was waiting to see how she'd elevate herself further. But in the meantime, she was staying on the public's minds with her new Chanel film being aired on every TV in America, in which she played a songbird stuck in a cage next to a bottle of Coco Mademoiselle. (Y/N) had the talent that made her the critic's darling and the incredible beauty that made her desired and hated.
Warren's breath caught when he looked at her.  (Y/N)'s hair, dark like a raven's wing,  tumbled down her back in long curls. She wore a pale blue Halston jumpsuit that made her skin shimmer, and diamond jewelry added to the effect. And her eyes… oh God, those brown eyes. Warren would bet that she'd be able to finish him with just her eyes.
His cheeks slightly heated up at his thoughts as he watched her introduce herself to the band members. She approached him last, wrapping her arms around his neck, saying, "Hey, it's so nice to meet you! I'm (Y/N)."
Warren stuttered slightly, removing his hands from her waist and looking into her eyes. "I-I know."
(Y/N) chuckled. "And are you gonna tell me your name, drummer?"
"Warren!" he rushed out embarrassingly quickly. "I'm Warren Rojas."
(Y/N) smiled. "Well, it's a pleasure to meet you Warren." 
Warren loved the way his name sounded on her tongue. He wanted her to say it over and over again.  He wondered what it'd be like to hear her scream it. 
These thoughts remained on his mind as he played as hard as he could that night, knowing she was watching and wanting her to feel every beat. Warren knew that people usually didn't pay attention to the rhythm section during concerts, too interested in the lead guitar or frontman to notice the lonesome drummer in the back, but just knowing there was a chance that (Y/N) was watching him, Warren played that drumline like it was his last night on earth.
Teddy was waiting as they all walked backstage, giving the usual pats on the shoulder and congratulations. 
"Hey, Rojas," Teddy called as Warren cracked open a beer. That is the kind of performance I expect from the best drummer in rock' n roll!" Warren had never received such high praise from Teddy, and the compliment made him swell with pride.
"Hey, call it the LA girl magic," Warren said with a shrug and a smile.
Teddy furrowed his brow, "I have no idea what you're talking about, son, but if that's what made you play like that, I need you to use it every night." 
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The afterparties in the bus were always wild, but tonight was different. The Six had just played one of their best shows of the tour, so they decided to rent out some random bar on Sunset to celebrate specially. Beautiful bodies of men and women were swaying to the sensual rhythms and blues blaring from the boombox, and there were pills and powders sprawled across the tables that could only be found on the dirtiest streets of the City of Angels. This night was on fire. 
Now, on a normal night, Warren probably would have grabbed a blonde with nice tits and a brunette with nice legs and taken them anywhere with a working lock on the door, but on this particular night, even the tightest skirts wrapped around girls just begging him to lift them around their waists and bury his face in between their thighs weren't the slightest bit tempting to him. Instead, all his attention was on a certain LA girl with dark features and the voice of an angel. 
(Y/N) and Daisy were currently standing on a table, swaying their hips in a way that could only come naturally to girls who were stumbling out of clubs like these in tight dresses and runny makeup when they were 14. All of the men stared at them hungrily. All the girls tried to emulate their movements. But none could mimic the harmonies they sang over the random guitar melody playing. Their voices were enough to bring the roof down. 
Warren was in fucking awe.
He'd gotten used to Daisy's voice. The power in it, the way she sang from deep in her belly and sounded like her voice was traveling over rocks to produce the sound. Daisy's voice was the pure essence of rock n roll.
But (Y/N)? Her voice was hauntingly beautiful. And in the teal shimmery dress she's changed into for the after party, with slits on either side, she looked like she'd come from the depths of the sea to lure men in with her siren call. Her voice was alluring but dangerous. It pierced its way through Warren's heart, and in that moment, he would've done anything she asked him to. 
"Huh," he breathed out. "LA magic."
"What was that, love?" asked the red-haired girl who'd taken it upon herself to wrap her arms around his neck and move her body against his. 
"Excuse me," said Warren, shoving her off and walking towards (Y/N). A sailor drawn to a siren, he approached the table and called her name.
(Y/N)' s eyes widened happily when she saw him. "Warren!!" She climbed down from the table and wrapped him in a tight hug. "You did so well tonight, congratulations! The drumline in "Let Me Down Easy" made the entire number- no one could have played it better!" she yelled over the loud music.
Warren exhaled and smiled. "It's just nice to know someone's listening." 
(Y/N) let out a giggle, folding her lips before turning back to the table. "Daisy-jay!" she yelled at her friend. Daisy had already found another way to occupy herself, playing some sort of game involving vodka and a chocolate bunny. "Yeah, (Y/N/N)?"
"I'll be right back! Save me a shot!" (Y/N) yelled before grabbing Warren by the wrist and dragging him outside the club. 
The pair heard Daisy yell out ",Hey! Don't have too much fun you two!"
(Y/N) exhaled a deep breath, taking a few steps forward and staring up at the sky. "It's a full moon tonight, Warren."
Warren stood beside her. "Yeah, no stars though."
They looked back at each other, brown eyes meeting brown eyes in a warm dance. 
"There are never stars here," (Y/N) said with a smile. "Something called light pollution, I think. From all the city lights everywhere."
"I love the city lights. Seeing them reminds me that we made it. That we're really here." Warren closed his eyes for a moment. "But some nights I miss the stars. Back in Pitt, I could always see hundreds of stars from my window. Started chartin' em like I was part of Apollo 11 or something," he said shyly, letting out a dry chuckle.
"That's amazing, Warren." (Y/N) smiled at him so beautifully and kindly. He knew she meant it.
"I didn't know you were from Pittsburgh," she said.
"Mmhm. Been friends with all the guys since I was a kid. But I was actually born in Botogá. Shot over to the U.S. when I was three."
"Colombia?" 
Warren nodded with a smile.
(Y/N) hummed. "I guess now's a good time to mention that I've always had a thing for foreign men. Only guys I usually like more are drummers in rock bands," she said nonchalantly, looking back at the moon.
Meanwhile, Warren felt like his heart was in his fucking ass.
He swallowed nervously. "W-well I have a thing for Hollywood girls."
"Oh, really?" she said casually. 
"Yeah," Warren said, building up his confidence. "'S part of why I chose to move here. I knew that even if the music thing worked out, I'd still be able to find a girl from the city of angels to take me to heaven." Warren pushed a stray curl behind her ear, and for the first time in the whole night, (Y/N) was the nervous one.
Warren felt the change in dynamic immediately and decided to take a risk.  He leaned in,  searching (Y/N) 's eyes for any sign of rejection. When he saw none, he closed the gap between them, seizing her lips with his in a passionate kiss. She wrapped her arms around his neck, pulling the tall man downwards. He grabbed her by her waist, exposed by the slit in her dress, pulling her closer. (Y/N) let out a small moan at the feeling of his touch on her skin, and Warren took the opportunity to slip his tongue into her mouth, increasing the wetness accumulating between her legs.
The pair finally pulled away for air, staring deep into each other's eyes silently. 
"Do you want to see heaven, Rojas?" (Y/N) asked breathily. 
Warren's lips were swollen, and his pupils were dilated as he spoke, "I'll follow wherever you go, angel." 
(Y/N) caught his lips in a quick kiss before walking over to the phone booth and calling the taxi company. She'd never felt so much embarrassment as when she had to stifle her moans on the phone with the operator as Warren had followed her into the booth and began kissing and sucking up her arm to her shoulder and neck. Once he quickly figured out her weak spot was in between her jawline and her neck, he just continued on with the spot as if he was a starving man and her skin was his last meal. That, along with his large hands traveling up and down her body, almost caused (Y/N) to drop the phone, tear off her clothes, and sit on his lap on the dirty street corner. 
When the taxi finally arrived, (Y/N) 's embarrassment only grew as Warren pulled her to practically straddle him and stuck his tongue down her throat. She could feel the discomfort radiating from the driver. But when he started playing with her panties… well, then she said to hell with embarrassment.
It felt like they'd been in the taxi for an eternity when they finally arrived at the large house in Baldwin Hills. The lovers stumbled through the large door, fumbling with each other's clothes and sharing messy, maddening kisses as they fell on the couch. (Y/N) sat atop Warren, staring deep into his eyes. The feeling of his hands on her waist was making her feel crazy. 
"I want you inside me, Warren."
She didn't need to tell him twice.
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January 2000
"At some point that night, I had every part of me in that woman," Warren reminisced with a chuckle. "Shit felt like joining the swim team. Shit, sorry Jules." Warren Rojas had aged handsomely. His once sleek black curly hair had grayed, and he'd developed wrinkles around his eyes. His hands were now rough and calloused from years of being a successful rock drummer who achieved many accolades before being inducted into the Rock n Roll Hall of  Fame and retiring. He was the perfect picture of a had-been rockstar, a man now in his forties, tanned from days spent sitting out on his rusty old boat in the Marina. Some people might have pitied him, but he was content. 
"I forgot who I'm talking to. I'd appreciate it if you didn't keep that part in. I think Nina would die if she had to hear about her old man like that." 
Julia, now a woman grown and the spitting image of her mother with long, straight black hair and a camera at hand, was a far cry from the child Warren had known all those years ago. 
"Hard for me too, to tell you the truth," she said with a slightly awkward laugh. "So then what happened?"
"Well I think you know, kiddo. Love. War. Band called it quits." 
"With her, I mean."
Warren tensed up a bit. "Well, I loved her. Spent eight years with her, so I think he might've loved me too," he said with a smirk. "But we wanted different things, in the end. I wanted to slow down for a bit. Buy this boat, maybe have a few kids. I wanted success in the music world, but I wanted a wife and kids to share it with. She wanted to keep going. Being an "EGOT" at 24 wasn't enough, she wanted more. I've  always loved her for that. She has so much hunger for life. She wants to live. She nearly gave it all up to settle with me, but I loved her too much to block her dreams. And I loved her enough to let her go. Met Lisa back in '89, had Nina in '94. I'm happy with my life now. I feel like everyone thinks I'm this miserable, washed up drummer, but I'm happy with the life I built for myself."
"Do you still love (Y/N)?" asked Julia.
Warren smiled a sad smile and looked at his lap. "... I'll always love that girl. I see her in everything. I watch her life in pictures now. Hear her voice on the radio. You'll probably have to cut this out too… cause of Lisa, of course… but uh…"the man trailed off, and a haze fell over his eyes as if he was seeing flashes of the past.
"You know something? That night when I first met her, after… after we finished," he shot Julia a look, "I got up to get her a cup of water, and when I looked out of her kitchen window, I saw a shooting star. I'd barely seen two stars in my time spent in the city at that point. We'd just fuckin talked about it! But after that night with her? There one was, shooting across the sky."
Warren chuckled and shook his head. "Goddamn LA Girl Magic."
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jks1uv · 5 months ago
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𝑙𝑜𝑚𝑙 ; tommy riordan | one-shot |
summary: you’re visited by the love and loss of your life after he walked away a decade ago.
pairing: tommy riordan x vsangel!reader.
trope: estranged childhood best friends to lovers.
genre: fluff + angst + hurt / comfort + romance.
warnings‼️: a 3 year age gap (reader is 22 & tommy is 25) + crude language + a kiss scene + a suggestive line towards reader as a model (some guy says she’s fine) + a minor detail describing a small part of the daily routine of a marine which may be inaccurate.
word count: 3,650.
random disclaimerrr: me when tom hardy: 😍😍 happy reading! ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ ♡ © 2024 @jks1uv
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you and tommy were the best of friends. inseparable at the tender ages of 5 and 8.
you two were neighbors and your family consists of four; mom, dad, you, and your little sister.
tommy and brendan had a bigger age gap than you and your sister but whenever you girls would be out in the yard, tommy would feel the itch to go out and play in his little hands.
he knew y’all were younger than him but that didn’t discourage his curiosity.
“um, is… is it okay if i can play with you?” he asked hesitantly.
you and your little sister look towards the voice and find a boy older than the two of you standing by his front porch, looking bashful.
you nodded enthusiastically, so excited to make a new friend.
“yes!” you exclaimed as you grab his hand and drag him along your front yard.
ever since then, the two of you were joined at the hip.
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tommy would come over to your house often due to the close nature of your friendship.
you may have been 12 at the time but you were wise, and that made it easier for him to confide in you.
“he’s drunk. again.” he shook his head and chuckled bitterly.
your eyes were soft and sorry. you wish he wouldn’t think pitying him was a bad thing.
you lace your hands with his and insist on watching a movie while snacking on his favorite things.
“you can spend the night if you want.”
it was second nature to go above and beyond for him, but it was second nature for him to deny your kindness. you never understood why.
“nah, i gotta get back to my mom.” and you smiled at that.
one thing about tommy? he’s a great son to his mother.
they say it gets worse before it gets better and that was certainly the case for tommy. he and his mother had been pushed to their limits. they both packed their bags and never looked back at pittsburgh ever again.
you were devastated, heartbroken. you couldn’t believe your best friend just up and left without even saying goodbye.
you figured it was because of his father, paddy, but you never knew he’d push your best friend away from you.
you harbored a secret animosity towards him whenever tommy would spill his guts out but in this moment? you resented him.
paddy was the sole reason your other half, your soulmate was gone.
you never even got to tell tommy how you really felt about him.
tommy told you his secrets and you shared yours. you were never this close to a person, ever.
your little sister is an exception but of course she’s gonna know you better than you know yourself. she’s your blood, but tommy isn’t. he’s someone who’s seen what the inside of your heart looks like and he hadn’t judged you one bit for it.
tommy is your first love, but he was also the loss of your life.
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10 years later, present-day:
“standby y/n.”
you're nervous as fuck and rightfully so. in addition to this being the first time you open a victoria’s secret fashion show, you're wearing your first fantasy bra to do it.
that’s a lot more firsts a girl can hope for!
you’re just a couple of minutes away from so many things happening tonight. tripping and twisting your ankle, falling on your face and the internet never letting you live it down, or worse: never getting another chance to model for victoria's secret ever again.
well, there goes your career! over before it even started all because of some heels or the floor or the lights or some other, valid yet non-excusable reason.
you take a deep breath in and exhale through your lips forming an ‘o’ shape. you close your eyes and join your hands together to pray silently with the few seconds you have left.
please, please, please don’t let me fuck this up. please.
you hear ariana grande belt out the few lines before the chrous of “dangerous woman” out front. you make a mental note to ask for a photo and autograph when you see her later.
“go, y/n!”
showtime.
it’s muscle memory for your hands to place themselves on your hips as you make your way down the large, well-lit, glittery floor.
perfect timing to make your appearance as the chorus of the song plays on.
cheers and screams erupt from the seats as you stand tall and concentrate on moving your ankles in front of the other.
you’re at the middle of the runway when you tug on a strap and large, black, feathery wings make their appearance. more encore from the venue & you can’t help but feel like that bitch.
when you make it to the end of the runway, you turn your chin down a bit and let your eyes do the talking. they’re outlined with black eyeliner and highlighted with silver and black eyeshadow, blended so nicely together.
the theme for your fantasy bra is “black swan” and it’s perfect for you as that’s the energy you’re known to give off. dark feminine, mysterious and unpredictable.
you pause for a few seconds to pose and let your side profile hang in the camera angle for a bit before you turn to the side. you make a full 360. you eye the camera on the side, offering one last glimpse before you’re on your way backstage.
you let the crowd fuel you as you depart and hope you looked your very best.
you know only angels get to wear wings and you know it’s a privilege to get to do both; be an angel and wear wings.
you were signed as a victoria’s secret model at 18 and worked very hard for 3 years to earn your title as an ‘angel’. at 21, you were gifted an opportunity so many girls only dream of.
the rest of the girls backstage practically flood the room with excited shrieks, warm hugs and elated faces.
you were the youngest of the batch and had so much yet to learn but they all treated you as their baby.
“you killed it out there!”
“so beyond proud of you, babe.”
“there she is! the highlight of tonight.”
“our black swan did so beautiful!” and there were so many more words of encouragement that made you spill so many tears but you did it! the hard part was over.
now you can change into other lingerie and wings and just be content with the fact that you did it.
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after the show was successfully complete (and ariana grande came asking for a photo), a celebration in the form of drinks were obviously in order.
you’re out with your sister and you deem it’s baddie baddie shot o’clock.
“girl, save some for your birthday.” your sister laughed.
you just sent her a toothy grin and shrugged. “we’ll just drink some more when it gets here.”
your 23rd birthday is still some time away but you weren’t thinking about that tonight.
“HOLY SHIT, IS THAT TOMMY?!”
yup. that’s what you were thinking about. the boy who left pittsburgh and took a piece of your heart with him.
your neck snaps up at the name and you see him for the first time in forever.
he’s here. in the flesh, and not on television breaking some guy's jaw. he's about 10 ppl away from you.
your heart stops. your breathing stops.
time stops and all of a sudden, you’re a little kid again forming a memorable friendship with the neighbors youngest son.
he’s wearing a white tank top under a baggy, black zip-up jacket with a pair of black sweatpants.
his baby blues are darting from one person to the next, an unnoticeable smile on his face as people come up to him and say nice things with proud smiles on their faces.
you think he looks good. a bit uncomfortable and edgy, but he looks like he’s been taking good care of himself.
you begrudgingly look away from him and blink rapidly to keep your tears from falling.
your sister puts a comforting hand on your shoulder, begging you to go up to him and rekindle what may be lost but you silently plead with her to just let you have this.
you don’t have it in you to go up to him and make small talk, act like the last 10 years didn’t happen.
at least not tonight.
she indulges you and the two of you quietly leave the bar. unaware of the stunned pair of eyes that want so desperately for you to turn around to see what’s slipping away.
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you wake up with a headache but it's not from a hangover. it's from crying yourself to sleep.
you couldn't believe yourself. how did you miss the one chance you've been so desperately praying for? how did you walk out and away from him?
like he did you.
you sigh and drink some water from your nightstand before getting ready.
you shower and eat and think about going to just drive around town as you haven't been back in 3 years.
should you also go see him? maybe he's still here?
or maybe he left. again.
you shake your head away from those thoughts, no matter how possible they may be. you're gonna go out there and find him and... well, you'll figure out the rest of the plan when you see him.
the sound of the doorbell ringing catches your attention. your sister left for work and said she won't be back until 6.
you grab your keys and purse and make your way to the door, hoping it's a girl scout with cookies or something.
but of course, the universe says “nuh uh!” and behold! it's the very thing you ran away from. this time, just a couple of steps away from touching you.
“tommy?” you breathe out in disbelief.
he blinks slowly and your stomach feels funny. like all the adrenaline in you is swarming in your intestines, daring you to move your body. without thinking, you accept the challenge.
you jump out at him and crush him in the biggest hug you've ever given and the vigor of it knocks his balance off a bit. you hear him grunt in surprise and your arms are wrapped around his neck in a vice grip. like if you loosen them even a little, he'll disappear again.
hot tears brim along your eyes. you close them tightly and let them slide down your cheeks anyway, feeling them trail a path down your face.
his hands slowly rise towards your figure and he's unsure where to put them. he's never hugged or been hugged like this.
even when he made up with brendan, it was different. but why is this different? it it because it's you and not his no-longer-estranged older brother?
he hugs you back. one hand is across your hip and the other is your shoulder blade in his palm. he slides his face into the crevice of your neck and noses your collarbone in a silent apology.
you sniffle as you accept it.
“i'm sorry.” he croaks out.
you shake your head, to tell him he doesn't have to be but he insists.
“i shoulda came to see you but-” he sighs and moves his face back, prompting you to do the same.
you look at him with watery eyes and his eyes dart around your face. like he's memorizing it.
his eyebrows come together and form lines on his forehead. you know he does that when he's thinking really hard about something.
“the truth is,”
you let go of his neck and his cradles your face in his hands.
“i knew i wouldn't be able to leave if i saw you.” and when he drops that bomb on you, you can't help but stitch your wobbly lips together in a smile.
it doesn't reach your eyes though, and that's how he knows you missed him just as much as he missed you.
“but i woulda understood why.”
and he knows that, of course he knows.
he also knows that the second he would've seen those tears in your eyes, he would've broken his resolve. and how could he not? you break his heart when you cry.
he wipes your tears with his thumbs.
“i know.” he murmurs.
he pulls you into him once more with a hand on your neck and you cry softly, unbeknownst to you that he's forcing himself to brave through his teary eyes.
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“oh my god, you're so old.” you giggle.
“and you're so young.” he bites with no heat.
you invited tommy in and changed, finding your mission successful. the current conversation is about how different life has been for the both of you.
“so i guess we're both kinda like celebrities, huh.” you tap your nails against the sofa arm.
“more you than me.” his lips split open in a toothy grin.
you smile back and think how great this all is. there's no sign of forced conversation, he's as relaxed as he can be and you are happy.
tommy stares at you and finds himself seeing all the things he's missed. he finds all the years he's missed in your face, all the places you've been in your eyes and all the joy you've experienced in your lips.
the truth is, he saw you on tv every time you were in a show. even back when you just modeled for any show before you were officially signed on as an angel.
his unit members would tease him but he didn't care. you were on national television and to him? you were amazing.
if anyone said anything about any woman in a suggestive tone, he'd say something anyway but he never played about you.
“damn, she's fine.”
if looks can kill, you wouldn't wanna be that guy. tommy could kill with his bare hands just as well.
alas, that was the only warning that poor chap got before it was lights out. all because he couldn't keep his thoughts in his head. he just had to air it out to everyone.
tommy slept good that night, too.
“whatcha thinkin’ ‘bout?” you pull him away from his memories.
he deeply exhales and looks away from you, fiddling with his chain around his neck.
“i watched all your shows.” he mumbles.
you still heard it though and you show it by the way your face is beaming.
“really?”
you’re elated because you were on his mind just as much as he was on yours.
he nods, still refusing eye contact but it’s okay.
you scoot a bit closer to him and your knees are folded under you, touching his thigh.
he stops fiddling with his chain and eyes your hands on your knees. slowly but surely, his eyes lock onto yours and he sees how happy you are.
“i didn’t know they allowed people to watch tv over there.” you can’t help your grin.
your head tilts to the side a little as he explains how everyone shares one tv and there’s a daily time limit to how much tv they can watch.
“wait, so, you even watched the shows i did before i was exclusive to victoria’s secret?”
“every single one.”
that made your heart swoon. your crush on him never left but this amplified it.
you had guys try to hit on you and say a line or two to get your number (or something else) but they weren’t tommy.
he haunted your life.
“why didn’t you ever call?”
you didn’t want to ruin the mood but this has been sitting on your mind the second you let him in. you don’t know if he feels it, too.
“why’d you leave the bar?”
you quirk up an eyebrow at his quick yet witty retort.
touché.
this has been weighing on him for quite some time, too.
“i didn’t know how to face you… i guess i was overwhelmed.” you answer, ashamed.
he nods like he was satisfied in your answer. “same.”
you look at him, unsatisfied with his lack of explanation.
“i never called because i thought you might’ve hated me.” he admits.
you’re offended and you don’t hide it.
did he really think his friendship meant that little to you? so little, that you wouldn’t understand?
he sees the look on your face and shakes head, as if he was answering your questions.
“no. wait, it’s not like that-”
“i could never hate you.”
there’s a softness in your voice as you say the words he’s been longing for. it soothes the wave of self-loathing washing over the shore of his heart.
all he’s wanted to hear, to know; is that you don’t hate him.
your knees slide out from under you and you cross your legs together, facing him.
“i honestly thought you forgot about me-”
“never.” he says so instantly, like that idea is so absurd and bizarre.
to him? it is.
“i could never, ever forget about you.”
now it was his turn to be offended.
how could you assume he’d ever forget about you? the same you that never let him down? the same you that always had a place for him in your mind and heart? that you?
you sigh softly and look down at your hands. you’re unsure where to go now.
“okay.” you nod.
“okay.” he asserted.
you huff out a laugh from your scrunched up nose and your smile threatens your unbothered demeanor.
tommy smiles back, a tight-lipped one but a smile nonetheless.
he gazes into your eyes and they drift to your lips on their own accord. like a magnet, they’re drawn to your mouth and your eyes are drawn to his.
he hesitantly leans in a bit, giving you time and space to back off if you’d like but you’re frozen.
you gulp and meet his eyes and he whispers, “i’ve liked you for the longest time.”.
that makes your heart leap out of your chest. all these years you’ve been crushing on this big, tough guy, not knowing he’s liked you back?
“since when?” you’re so starstruck.
he smiles bashfully, a faint red blush painting his cheeks. as uncharacteristic as this looks, you weren’t about to let this phenomenon go to waste by looking away.
“since that day i asked if i could play.”
your eyes widen and your jaw goes slack. this endearing motherfucker.
“i… i’ve been crushin’ on you, too.” you admit.
you can’t look at him. you don’t know why you feel this way. maybe it’s because you’ve never been this vulnerable with a man before.
“don’t go all shy on me now.” he teases.
he moves his head to catch your gaze.
you smack your teeth and halfheartedly hit his shoulder with your knuckles.
he brings his head towards you once more and aligns his forehead with yours. you close your eyes at the contact and he asks, “can i kiss you?”.
you nod faintly, your hands coming up to rest on his shoulders.
his palms rest on the curve of your waist and he kisses you like he’s making up for all lost time.
he’s gentle, letting you set the pace, letting you take control.
but there’s something else you need to know.
your head tilts back a bit and he chases you, dazed and not a single thought behind his eyes other than kissing you forever if you’d let him.
“easy, tiger.” an airy chuckle leaves your lips and you set a hand on his chest.
he lazily smiles and places his hand over yours. he kisses your forehead.
it makes you smile, tommy being so affectionate. a stark contrast to his demeanor in the public but you think he’s one of those “tough guy with a soft heart” kind of guy.
“i want you to stay.”
he pauses his actions and slowly backs up to meet your eyes.
“you stayin’ here?” he asks curiously.
“for the time being.” you interlock your fingers with his.
he nods and says, “what you really mean is; you want me to come with you.”.
you purse your lips sheepishly. tommy thinks about it for a moment.
“new york city?”
“mhm.”
you’re nervous. was that an impulsive move? or is that question a result of your fear; him leaving just as fast as he showed up?
he deeply inhales and blows a raspberry, simulating a worried persona.
“okay.” he decides a beat later.
you blink and shake your head, getting whiplash from his behavior. “wait, what?!”
“i was gonna come visit you anyway but this sounds better.” he nods like he’s made up his mind.
tommy says things like this like it’s the most obvious thing in the world and to him, they are.
but for you, this is a commitment. a promise. something you can’t turn back from and you convey that to him.
“tommy,” you begin. “this is a very big and important adjustment. we’re moving in together.”
“what else would i be doin’? where else would i be?”
“for starters, your family is here. i know you’ve made up with brendan so i figured…”
you trail off and hope tommy can fill in the rest.
a lopsided smirk is drawn to his handsome, smug face and he holds your hands.
“that’s sweet and you’re right. but he chose when and where to make his family and i’m tellin’ you; there’s no place i’d rather be.”
he says is so intrinsically that your heart wills no choice but to believe him. there’s a silent promise in his words, one that he hopes you hear him make.
i’m not leaving you again.
“…okay.” you muse.
“okay.” he settles with a quick kiss to your lips.
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fatehbaz · 1 year ago
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Organizing more notes. Some recent-ish books on German colonialism and imperial imaginaries of space/place, especially in Africa:
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German Colonialism in Africa and its Legacies: Architecture, Art, Urbanism, and Visual Culture (Edited by Itohan Osayimwese, Bloomsbury Publishing, 2023)
An Imperial Homeland: Forging German Identity in Southwest Africa (Adam A. Blackler, Penn State University Press, 2023)
Coconut Colonialism: Workers and the Globalization of Samoa (Holger Droessler, Harvard University Press, 2022)
Colonial Geography: Race and Space in German East Africa, 1884-1905 (Matthew Unangst, University of Toronto Press, 2022)
The Play World: Toys, Texts, and the Transatlantic German Childhood (Patricia Anne Simpson, 2020)
Learning Empire: Globalization and the German Quest for World Status, 1875-1919 (Erik Grimmer-Solem, Cambridge University Press, 2019)
Violence as Usual: Policing and the Colonial State in German Southwest Africa (Marie A. Muschalek, 2019)
Revenants of the German Empire: Colonial Germans, the League of Nations, and Imperialism (Sean Andrew Wempe, 2019)
Rethinking Black German Studies: Approaches, Interventions and Histories (Edited by Tiffany Florvil and Vanessa Plumly, 2018)
German Colonial Wars and the Context of Military Violence (Susanne Kuss, translated by Andrew Smith, Harvard University Press, 2017)
Colonialism and Modern Architecture in Germany (Itohan Osayimwese, University of Pittsburgh Press, 2017)
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German Colonialism in a Global Age (Edited by Bradley Naranch and Geoff Eley, 2014) Including:
"Empire by Land or Sea? Germany's Imperial Imaginary, 1840-1945" (Geoff Eley)
"Science and Civilizing Missions: Germans and the Transnational Community of Tropical Medicine" (Deborah J. Neill)
"Ruling Africa: Science as Sovereignty in the German Colonial Empire and Its Aftermath" (Andrew Zimmerman)
"Mass-Marketing the Empire: Colonial Fantasies and Advertising Visions" (David Ciarlo)
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German Colonialism and National Identity (Edited by Michael Perraudin and Jurgen Zimmerer, 2017). Including:
"Between Amnesia and Denial: Colonialism and German National Identity" (Perraudin and Zimmerer)
"Exotic Education: Writing Empire for German Boys and Girls, 1884-1914" (Jeffrey Bowersox)
"Beyond Empire: German Women in Africa, 1919-1933" (Britta Schilling)
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Advertising Empire: Race and Visual Culture in Imperial Germany (David Ciarlo, Harvard University Press, 2011)
The German Forest: Nature, Identity, and the Contestation of a National Symbol, 1871-1914 (Jeffrey K. Wilson, University of Toronto Press, 2012)
The Devil's Handwriting: Precoloniality and the German Colonial State in Qingdao, Samoa, and Southwest Africa (George Steinmetz, 2007)
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mydaddywiki · 5 months ago
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David McCullough
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Physique: Average Build Height: 5' 11"
David Gaub McCullough (July 7, 1933 – August 7, 2022; aged 89) was an American popular historian. He was a two-time winner of both the Pulitzer Prize and the National Book Award. In 2006, he was given the Presidential Medal of Freedom, the United States' highest civilian award. McCullough's two Pulitzer Prize–winning books—Truman and John Adams—were adapted by HBO into a TV film and a miniseries, respectively.
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Beyond his books, the handsome, white-haired McCullough may have had the most recognizable presence of any historian, his fatherly baritone known to fans of PBS’s The American Experience and Ken Burns’ epic Civil War documentary. Making me wanting to blow him all night long… although you probably didn't need to know that last bit. Just pretend you didn't read that. Anyway
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Born and raised in Pittsburgh, McCullough earned a degree in English literature from Yale University in 1955. After working for twelve years in editing and writing, including a position at American Heritage, McCullough wrote in his spare time for three years. The Johnstown Flood was published in 1968 to high praise by critics. Despite rough financial times, he decided to become a full-time writer, encouraged by his wife Rosalee. He wrote nine more on such topics as Harry S. Truman, John Adams, Theodore Roosevelt, the Brooklyn Bridge, the Panama Canal, and the Wright brothers.
McCullough also narrated numerous documentaries as well as the 2003 film Seabiscuit, and he hosted the PBS television documentary series American Experience for twelve years.
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Personally, all I know about him is that he was married to his childhood sweet heart, Rosalee Barnes (aww). They had five children, which goes to my "loves to fuck" theory. While at Yale, he became a member of Skull and Bones. And his interests included sports, history, and visual art, including watercolor and portrait painting. And he had a face that would've looked great on my cock. Again… pretend you didn't read that.
After a period of failing health, McCullough died at his home in Hingham on August 7, 2022, at age 89. Less than two months after his beloved wife, Rosalee. He was survived by his five children; 19 grandchildren; and two great-grandchildren.
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Works The Johnstown Flood: The Incredible Story Behind One of the Most Devastating Disasters America Has Ever Known (1968) The Great Bridge: The Epic Story of the Building of the Brooklyn Bridge (1972) The Path Between the Seas: The Creation of the Panama Canal, 1870–1914 (1977) Mornings on Horseback (1981) Brave Companions: Portraits in History (1991) Truman (1992) John Adams. (2001) 1776 (2005) In the Dark Streets Shineth: A 1941 Christmas Eve Story (2010) The Greater Journey: Americans in Paris (2011) The Wright Brothers (2015) The American Spirit: Who We Are and What We Stand For (2017) The Pioneers: The Heroic Story of the Settlers Who Brought the American Ideal West ( 2019)
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freebooter4ever · 2 months ago
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holy shit i could move to denver? my step grandparents are there, my uncle who is a doctor, other extended family on the non blood related step side, my one other childhood best friend who i have known since age 7 who is married to someone with chronic illness so who understands this stuff, its got mountains its beautiful, probably cold most of the year (?), civilized enough to have air conditioning....why hadnt i considered denver????
this might strike ohio from the list...i love grandma and i miss her but while i can see myself surviving in ohio and enjoying being near her i don't think i could have a full life there. and too many of my friends have already left pittsburgh to make that a serious option (also lack of air conditioning there lol)
the one downside is denver doesn't rain like seattle and i really miss rain which probably sounds insane to most people but if you have lived in socal for longer than 9 months you probably understand. (but honestly thanks to climate change even seattle no longer rains like my childhood seattle)
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dreaminginthedeepsouth · 9 days ago
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This WILL affect you.
"CDC was massacred. Entire divisions and topic areas completely wiped out. The future of public health is grim. These are some of the programs that were terminated:
IOD (Immediate Office of the Director) * OHE (Office of Health Equity) * OEEO (Office of Equal Employment Opportunity) * OC (Office of Communications)/ DMR (Division of Media Relations)/Broadcast and Multimedia Branch; Digital; Broadcast
OCOO (Office of Chief Operating Officer)/ * Much of OHR (Human Resources) * OFR (Office of Financial Resources) * OAS (Office of Acquisition Services) - only OD remains * FOIA (Freedom of Information Act) - entire office
NCCDPHP (National Center for Chronic Disease Prevention and Health Promotion) * OD/ OIIRM (Office of Informatics & Information Resources Management), OPHP (Office of Public Health Practice) * DOH (Division of Oral Health) * DRH (Division of Reproductive Health)/FSB (Field Services Branch), WHFB (Women's Health and Fertility Branch) * DPH (Division of Population Health)/ Prevention Research and Translation Branch (PRTB), ESB (Epidemiology and Surveillance Branch), HAB (Health Aging Branch) * OSH (Office on Smoking and Health)
NCHHSTP (National Center for HIV, Viral Hep, STD, TB) * Director reassigned to Indian Health Service * DTBE (Division of TB Elimination)/ CEBSB (Communication, Education, and Behavioral Studies Branch) * DHP (Division of HIV Prevention) / BCSB (Behavioral and Clinical Surv Branch); PCB (Prevention Communication Branch); HPCDB (HIV Prevention Capacity Development Branch); HRB (HIV Research Branch); QSB (Qualitative Sciences Branch) * DSTDP (Division of STD Prevention)/ SLRRB (STD Lab Reference and Research Branch); DIRB (Disease Intervention and Response Branch) * DVH (Division of Viral Hepatitis)/Lab Branch GHC (Global Health Center) * Director reassigned to Indian Health Service * DGHT (Division of Global HIV and TB)/ PBEMB (Program Budget Extramural Management Branch); MCHB (Maternal and Child Health Branch); EHSRB (Economics and Health Services Research Branch); HIDMSB (Health informatics, Data management, and Statistics Branch); SPIN (Special Initiatives Branch) - SPICE (Strategy, Policy, and Communications Branch); SIB (Scientific Integrity Branch)
NCIPC (National Center for Injury Prevention and Control) * DVP (Division of Violence Prevention) * DIP (Division of Injury Prevention) * Office of Informatics
NCEH (National Center for Environmental Health) * DEHSP (Division of Environmental Health Science & Practice) * Asthma and Air Quality Branch * Childhood Lead Poisoning Prevention
NCIRD (National Center for Immunization and Respiratory Diseases) * ISD (Immunization Services Division)/PHEB (Partnership and Health Equity Branch)
NCBDDD (National Center on Birth Defects and Developmental Disabilities) * OD (Office of the Director) * DHDD (Division of Human Development and Disability)/DHB (Disability and Health Promotion Branch) * DBDPHG (Division of Blood Disorders and Public Health Genomics)/Blood Disorders Surveillance and Epidemiology Branch; Hemostasis Lab Branch
NCEZID (National Center for Emerging and Zoonotic Infectious Diseases) * Deputy Director reassigned to IHS
ORR (Office of Readiness and Response) * CFA (Center for Forecasting and Outbreak Analytics)/Technology Branch; Director to IHS
NIOSH (National Institute for Occupational Safety and Health) - All except World Trade Center and DCAS * OD (Office of the Director) * HELD (Health Effects Lab Division) * RHD (Respiratory Health Division) * DSI (Division of Science Integration) * Office of Mine Safety and Health Research * NPPTL (National Personal Protective Technology Laboratory) * Pittsburgh Mining Research Division * Spokane Mining Research Division * Office of Extramural coordination * Office of DDMOCP * Human Capital Management Office * Facilities Management office * IT * Policy Planning and Evaluation * Division of Science Integration * Education and information division * Information resources branch * Science application branch * Social science and translation * Training research and evaluation * Risk evaluation branch * Emerging technologies branch"
(Thanks Lenore Thompson)
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