#physically ill which i can never fully process despite being sick all the time lol
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My heads a little odd it's like it was filled w water and it had a marble or something and everything I disturbe the water with sound or movement the marble thing goes crazy
#im thinking of a word but can't remember it lol#might have to skip sleep so i can shower before everybody wakes up and ask to be taken#somewhere?#like a clinic or anywhere for a checkup?#like i dont wanna go to er they're gonna make me wait hours bc im breathing and not bleeding lol#but maybe a simi clinic#disoriented is the word#i feel like an astronaut it's funny when not alarming it's like#when im very motion sick without the nausea? im just glad im not nauseous lol my stomachs been so nice the last week or so#we're all sick tho im thinking of asking if i could get a covid or influenza test done bc we're /all/ sick my dad almost kicked it last#weekend and my mom's taking a day off for the first time like ever#I've been feeling emotionally devastated for some reason (btw the baby saved all their classes!!!!) and i keep thinking it's bc im#physically ill which i can never fully process despite being sick all the time lol#but i got a /normal/ fever twice or thrice in a week and it scared me so bad lmao they usually make me feel like#i was throw into a furnace but i felt the bone deep cold n all that relatively normal shit but it felt so foreign i was scared#naproxen and a 13h nap (lol) took care of it yesterday tho#im v scared of antibiotical restriction or whatever it's called I'm not very bilingual rn#so i never take them without them being prescribed by someone reputable lol#but I've been feeling like I've got a mild ear infection for what seems like forever which im aware can be super dangerous#but i was too focused on getting them to take me to the dentist first that I wasn't even thinking about that#(and they were going to! but then my dad got his phone stolen and he needs it for his job lol)#anyways my mom said that im either juuust entering a fever or coming out of it or whatevers the right term#which is why im so chatty rn lol my mom says i talk even thru my elbows (thanks gboard for the translation) but she#can tell when i have a fever bc i get squirmy bc of the heat + super chatty it's so funny#hopefully it all goes well and the simi doctor magically puts me a step closer to finding out what's Wrongā¢ w me#(magically a.k.a. medicine)#ive also wanted to talk w a doctor about how many antibiotics i was given as a kid without the#stomach pro something thing. for like thr flora so it doesn't die w the illness#and how it could be v closely tied to my chronic stomach issues (even tho i was like born w them but like it could have made that worse)#personal
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{ cisgender woman, she/her } ā Thank god women learned to whisper / though I crave a megaphone. ā huh, whoās CAITRIONA BALFE? no, youāre mistaken, thatās actually ASTORIA MALFOY (NEĆ GREENGRASS). she is a 47 year old PUREBLOOD witch who is CHIEF WARLOCK OF THE WIZENGAMOT. she is known for being JUDGEMENTAL, DISHONEST, COLD, RIGID, and CALLOUS but also PRACTICAL, DRIVEN, INNOVATIVE, STEADFAST and DISCIPLINED, so that must be why she always reminds me of the song TOMORROW - MINER and BLACK LEATHER BRIEFCASES, THE CLICK OF HIGH HEELS ON TILE FLOORS, THE LINGERING TASTE OF FAIRY FLOSS, BURGUNDY NAIL POLISH, AND PEARL HAIR PINS. i hear she is aligned with NO ONE so be sure to keep an eye on her.Ā
BIO
Cursed with a blood malediction that left her and her parents preoccupied with maintaining her health throughout early childhood, Astoria grew up without direction, without passion, and without much to do or think about other than staying alive. She did what she was told and completed what was asked of her by her parents: mostly swallowing thick potions that made her head spin and remaining in bed when all she wanted to do was tumble through the lush gardens of the Greengrass estate and scrape her knees like other children. As she grew older and defied Healersā expectations ā making it past 5, then 10, then 15 ā Astoria grew weary of the half-life sheād been prescribed. At Hogwarts, she followed her sister Daphne into Slytherin because she didnāt know where else to go.Ā
It took Astoria almost a year at Hogwarts before she would speak up in class or acknowledge anyone with more than a handful of words ā and each time she did her heartbeat would quicken, her face would flush. If she was called on by a professor and ā Merlin forbid ā got the answer wrong, her eyes would fill with tears, her gaze would shift to the floor, and she wouldnāt be able to breathe. One day, outside her second-year Transfiguration class, an annoying boy named Colin saw her heavy breathing and told her about panic attacks ā Astoriaās irrational fear of social situations and new people now made sense.
That same annoying boy became her close friend not long after. It was a month into study sessions by the Black Lake that Astoria Greengrass learned that her Colin, the boy who kept a camera slung around his neck at all times and was so nice to her, was Colin Creevey, yes, that Colin Creevey, who was petrified by a Basilisk a year prior for being MUGGLEBORN. Astoria found that didnāt bother her very much. Sure, she never advertised that they were friends and didnāt freely associate with Colin in public places, but he understood her position or in the very least, didnāt protest it. She even got him to join Herbology club ā though she insisted that they enter and exit the greenhouse at different times and never spoke directly, his presence was a comforting balm.
Colin tried to get her to join up with the student resistance that was brewing in her third year ā but Astoria knew she wasnāt the type to stir up such trouble. She couldnāt stand with the muggleborns and blood traitors no matter how right they were; she couldnāt risk losing her family. Unlike those in Dumbledoreās Army, Astoria didnāt see this conflict in terms of black and white, good vs. evil ā there were plenty of others like her, struggling to find themselves in the midst of conflict, battling tradition and family expectations. She kept out of Umbridgeās way during that time. Kept out of her fatherās way during that time ā while he had no Dark Mark to speak of, his entrepreneurial hands passed cursed objects and ingredients for poisons to any Dark Lord-aligned wix who wanted them.
Through her friendship with Colin and her time in Herbology Club, Astoria learned she was a talented witch in her own right. Formed an identity outside of being the sick girl everyone doted on. Quietly realized that her muggleborn classmates Ā ā despite what her pureblood indoctrination taught her ā were fully-fledged human beings. To someone who didnāt grow up feeling trapped in the (sometimes socially constructed) confines of a blood illness, perhaps her time in Herbology Club wouldnāt seem so transformative. But for Astoria, it was everything.
Nowadays, Astoria is still defying life expectancy estimations and is perhaps best known for her robust political career. She joined the Ministry as a pupil/intern in its Wizengamot Instruction in Magical Law Program (W.I.M.P.), and in the span of twenty-five years has climbed the ranks to barristerās assistant, barrister, then Wizengamot member, and finally, the youngest Chief Warlock of the Wizengamot in the last hundred years. She is extremely opinionated about the runnings of the legislature and judiciary, and her past two years as Chief Warlock have been marked by her love for procedure, due process, and fairness -- essentially meaning trials are very thorough and very focused on making sure the Ministry doesnāt overstep its bounds.Ā
BLOOD MALEDICTION
iām truly on my bullshit and this needs its own section..........,,,,, iām sorry
I originally started writing Astoria out of pure spite ā it enraged and continues to enrage me that all weāre given about this woman is a few lines about her and an off-page (or off-stage, I guess, but Cursed Child is its own beast) death. It makes me mad that she is only defined by her role as a mother and wife to Scorpius and Draco, that she doesnāt get her own ambitions and a life of her own. The racist and sexist underpinnings of the blood malediction/Maledictus concept are par the course for JK but still, bad!
And while I canāt choose for Astoria to have this particular chronic illness and completely divorce it from those origins, I can at least eschew parts of it I donāt like and give a Astoria a rich and fulfilling life with a chronic/potentially terminal illness ā not in spite of the blood curse, but because those of us with illnesses and disabilities are people with rich and fulfilling lives, wants, desires, and ambitions.
AN IMPORTANT NOTE: Ā I try to be really careful about ableist language when I describe this blood malediction and its effects on Astoriaās life ā I think that there is so much to explore regarding chronic illness and what, exactly, we constitute as ļæ½ļæ½ļæ½healthā ā but I know that I can fall into the traps of my own internalized ableism. If there are terms or concepts here that make players uncomfortable and/or have harmful effects, let me know! Iām happy to make changes.
So anyway!
ā origins of the blood malediction
I donāt have this fully worked out, but I think the Greengrass blood malediction stretches back a good ten generations to a very vindictive-in-her-righteous-cause-Muggleborn-witch cursing the family for their refusal to let her marry their son. Itās not limited to just the girls in the family, because I hate that, but it does affect at least one child per generation, so long as the family continues to marry exclusively purebloods ā which they have continued to do, not knowing that their bigotry (though in some cases, real love!) is the reason for the curseās spread. Astoriaās parents mistakenly believed that since the last few cases of the curse had cropped up in different branches of the Greengrass family ā distant cousins living on the Continent ā that their children would be spared.
ā astoriaās symptoms and treatment
Since itās a blood curse, I figure Astoriaās symptoms manifest as issues both with her blood and with her cardiovascular system at large. Iād compare it to haemophilia. Her blood itself is thin and cannot clot without healing spells and thickening potions, meaning that nosebleeds are frequent, bruising is easy, and bad cuts can be fatal. Sheās at high risk for internal bleeding in her joints, and Ā a big ā though often unvoiced fear ā of hers is a brain aneurysm that ruptures into a haemorrhage.
(miscarriage tw) These symptoms have waxed and waned her entire life, with particular incidents that have brought her close to death; an accident falling from the garden wall at five, a wayward spell hitting her across the face in second-year DADA, trying for a child. She doesnāt regret that last one ā not at all ā though it was five weeks after her miscarriage before she was able to stand unassisted, and her Healerās face when she said āI strongly advise you to not have any more childrenā haunts her to this day. Scorpiusās birth, possible due to a wonderful surrogate, was alternatively the happiest day of her life. (end miscarriage tw)
Then there come the potions ā a barrage of them, to be taken at specific times of day, with extras if sheās bleeding externally or feeling pain in particular areas ā that come with side effects like exhaustion, headaches, and nausea. She visits St. Mungoās once every three months to ensure that the potions are working as intended and has learned to accept her Healers chastising her for the times she skips parts of the regimen or pushes herself too far physically.
PERSONALITY
astoria!!! my love. clearly i have a lot of thoughts and Feelings about her lol,,,,,,,
there isnāt any world or timeline in which astoria would be rushing to join the death eaters -- lol, iāve always envisioned her being extremely inquisitive and Critical of other people, their motivations, their methods -- this makes her extremely Good at Lawyering and Suspicious of Bullshit. i also have always thought that it was important for her to make a muggleborn friend or two just to really hammer the point home that pureblood nonsense is just that.
still, again, sheās not really motivated by niceness, she doesnāt have a bleeding-heart-sense-of-empathy, sheās kind of snarky and mean. her friends describe her as an acquired taste.Ā
has a massive sweet tooth. her family is regularly concerned she does not eat enough vegetables.
adores her son. just, absolutely thinks he can do no wrong. she and draco agree that most parents think their child is the most perfect and amazing child in the world, but scorpius actually is the most perfect and amazing child in the world, so.Ā
a note on astoria and draco: iĀ think draco doesnāt treat her with pity or kid gloves, and has never underestimated her capacity to get shit done in light of her blood curse. and they have an honesty and rapport with each other that astoria hasnāt been able to cultivate with anyone else. they may not be very great people but theyāre great partners and great parents. i luv them ok bye
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GENERAL
name.Ā astoria cĆ©line malfoy (nĆ©e greengrass)
nickname.Ā aster (reserved for use by her sister only!)
birthdate. 1 january 1982
place of birth. greengrass residence via midwifery
family. daphne greengrass (sister), draco malfoy (husband), scorpius malfoy (son)
residence. malfoy manor, wiltshire
occupation. chief warlock of the wizengamot
gender identity. woman
romantic orientation. biromantic
sexuality. bisexual
blood status. pureblood
relationship status. married
pets. a scottish terrier named hades
HOGWARTS / MAGIC
house. slytherin
extracurriculars/leadership. herbology club
allegiance. neutral/no one
n.e.w.t. gradesĀ charms (o), transfiguration (o), herbology (o), d.a.d.a (a), potions (a), arithmancy, astronomy (o), history of magic (a), ancient runes (e).
wand. willow, nine inches, unicorn hair core
boggart. tbd
patronus. also tbd! my brain hurtsĀ
magical strengths. nonverbal casting, herbology, transfiguration, ancient runes
magical weaknesses. flying, defensive spells, domestic spells
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hmmmāst....Another group of replies since Iām trying to keep up with my inbox better this year !! (I know #3 is missing, I accidentally mislabeled them and skipped straight to 4 and donāt feel like re-editing the photos lol )Ā
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1. āWhat would you recommend doing with a 1x1 ft square of tapestry-eqsue fabric ?ā (question typed out in a shortened way/some words left out)
Hmm, Iām not really sure!Ā I always have problems with tiny squares of fabrics since I often like.. am in love with the colors or texture or pattern or etc, but at the same time itās too small to actually serve as a really substantial part of the outfit lol, so I usually just use them in small ways for accents? Squares are really good for making collars out of, since you can just cut a hole in the middle and put your head through it and itās done lol, but you can also tuck them into shirt collars or belts so they hang out a little and just serve as a pop of color or something. If you donāt mind cutting it, you could also turn it into little strips or change the shape, make it into a small pocket/bag, wrap pieces around the arm or tie it around boots as decor, tie the cut up buts together to make it into a longer piece of fabric then use that as a belt or sash or headband, etc. Idk, I have trouble with small fabric bits as well, but maybe some of these ideas help!!
(other answers under read more so it doesnāt get long)
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(note: sorry to everyone who's questions I had to shorten when re-typing them here, I hope I abbreviated them okay and didn't leave out anything you saw as very important! The full message is still shown in the images above and I just wanted to save myself a little time on the typing aaa!)Ā
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2. āSorry this is random,Ā but you seem like a very nice and thoughtful person. Hope you have a happy new yearā
Thank you!! I always try to include one or two of these nice ones in here just to continue to show appreciation for people who send me kind things! Even if I donāt respond to all of them (since I feel really awkward just like.. publicly responding to a ton of compliments lol), still know that I really appreciate it! I hope you also have a great year, anon!Ā
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3. accidental mislabeling error means free space for cat image
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4. āwill you do more videos? vlogs, tutorials, explaining your art, games, podcast, anything? sorry if it's weird to say, but I just really enjoy listening to you speak!ā (question typed in a shortened way/not fully quoted)Ā
Possibly? I just canāt think of many things to make that would work well for me?
vlogs:Ā I donāt like to do vlogs anymore because of my mental illness and becoming more anxious about showing my face or daily life in public. Though I do enjoy aspects of theĀ ālifestyle bloggingā sort of content, like I think it would be cool to be able to make easy videos where all I do is sit down and talk about my hair or something for 20 minutes lol, or etc., but I guess as I get less comfortable with showing myself, I tend to stray away from stuff like that?
(this is also why Iāve been shifting more towards like... costumes, art, world-building, making games, etc. as opposed to outfits/personal style/personal life type content, since I feel much more comfortable being framed as more of aĀ ādetached and faceless creator that shows some personality but is still mostly obscuredā thanĀ āopen personality that posts selfies and talks about their life extensivelyā or etc. Obviously I still post personal stuff like questions and thoughts/opinions and cat images and etc., but less so.. like I donāt even remember the last time I posted an actual selfie where my face wasnāt obscured by costume makeup or something lol..)Ā
I would absolutely still do stuff likeĀ āroom tourā orĀ āwhatās in my bagā videos, or like a single video showing my usual daily routine or something,,Ā if those were ever requested of me/interest was shown in them..Ā Iām okay with small one timeĀ ālifestyleā genre sort of content. But anything too invasive or long term (daily/frequent vlogging, or likeĀ āstory timeā videos) I think I would get uncomfortable with lol.Ā
tutorials: Iām not really sure what I would do tutorials on? If you want me to make a tutorial about something, feel free to let me know something in specific! My main problem is that I donāt feel like thereās anything unique that I do that there arenātĀ already 100 other tutorials for, so Iām never sure what I should make those about. I get occasional asks with people sayingĀ ādo a makeup tutorialā or ādo a sculpting tutorialā or something, but they donāt ever say WHAT SPECIFIC makeup or what SPECIFIC thing theyād like to see me explain, so then Iām still left alone with vagueness and unsure what to do lol!Ā
art explanation: Same kind of goes for theĀ āexplaining your artā thing like, what art? Explaining what specifically about it? You mean worldbuilding? Or sculptures? etc.??Ā Iām actually always happy to make videos for anything people want to see (since I enjoy the process of making them, usually), but I just am never sure exactly what to do. But if I had specific prompts I would be glad to explain something though! Videos are fun, I just never know what to make them about lol
games: I would absolutely love to do letās plays/game videos or something (I assume this is what you meant by just saying āgamesā??)Ā since I enjoy games, and my whole thing about not being able to relax (I feel guilty about playing games (or any other leisure activity) unless itās working towards something, I have to have a way to justify the activity being productive, which is why I rarely ever play games despite liking them a lot lol..but if I made videos or etc. it would feel slightly more worth the time/effort).. But seeing as Iām fairly lower income I really donāt have much money to buy games, and I donāt have a very good computer situation lol. I would need to have money to fix my current computer, and a few other things, etc. etc.Ā
Ā Idk, itās something I think about occasionally and that would be extremely convenientĀ for me and my current situation (in terms of having something simultaneously low effort/relaxing/ suitable to my needs/mental illness/physical issues, but also that feels productive at the same time), but itās also a very weird genre of stuff (idk if Iād feel comfortable being anywhere near the broaderĀ āgamesā community ghggb), and I would need a little money first lol..Ā
podcast: I would never start my own podcast because I have no idea what I would even have a podcast about, and I also donāt have any friends who do that sort of thing (podcasts usually have multiple people, right??). I would do one with someone else or something like if a close friend asked me I guess, but idk... I couldnāt ever see that being something I start by myself?? Especially since I donāt know anything about them or what equipment or programs are required to edit together the audio, Iāve only listened to a few of them every once in a while, etc. am not really tech savvy in the field of like. how podcasts work ggh. So thatās probably the most unlikely one out of everything you listed, sorry!!Ā
As for other stuff, Iāve thought of answering questions in audio form instead (so rather than writing them out here, Iād just make a video (though not with visuals, since I donāt like filming myself talking..maybe I could put footage of cats over the audio though lol) of me going through my inbox and answering things, since I feel like typing takes me so much longer than speaking, and sometimes itād be more convenient).Ā
Iāve also thought about just like.. talking about world-building stuff, like.. rather than writing out a post, I can just ramble about things or something,, but Iām afraid Iād get too disorganized, so itād probably only be good for answering questions about specific things (which I donāt really get questions about worldbuilding stuff that I could have enough to sit down and answer in a video lol.. I think Iāve gotten two so far?? which I already answered in text posts).
So idk, maybe those could also be ways to hear more of me talking? If I used audio more often to answer things or discuss things (like answering asks that way) rather than typing.. which would save me time anyway lol.. But I just feel unsure about it since it seems.. weird.. like.. some people might just want a quick answer to their ask and not have to skip to a certain time stamp of a video and hear me talk about it for 5 minutes lol..Ā
But anyway, yeah, feel free to offer specific suggestions or support towards anything mentioned if itās really something you want to see! I really appreciate that you even watched the silly little vocabulary video and especially that you actually enjoy my rambling lol (I sometimes feel annoying when I speak), and I hope I can make something sometime!! I just have trouble deciding on what content I should be making or etc., but maybe Iāll try to find a few more things I can do where Iām actually talking!Ā
(also thanks for hoping I feel okay! I am a little bit better, but still sick lol)
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5. āHope you feel better (emoji heart that I can't type on a computer)ā
Thank you!! Itās been really stink to be sick the entire first month of the year lol, but hopefully Iāll be better like.. by mid February at least!!! With how goal focused I am, itās been like... utterly evil to not be able to start the year off well and get all of my to-do list stuff done.. Iām finally at a point where Iām finishing a few things again (like this post, and a few of the worldbuilding things from a week ago or etc), but I still canāt stop myself being.... deeply annoyed, by my loss of time and how much I feel like I should have gotten done already aaaAAA.
Especially I REALLY WANT TO DO another costume soon!!!! I have some laid out in my closet that I hope to do, but I keep waiting until Iām feeling better, since Iām afraid of having some random sickness related health problem in the middle of getting dressed and then having to like.. show up to the doctor while I have elf ears on and half a horn on my head or something ghghggh...Ā
But anyway, I canāt do anything to change it now, so the best I can manage is just to kind of.. ignore my losses and move forward and try to be as productive as possible from now on! I really hope I can still get some of my main goals (like the game, costumes, music, worldbulding stuff) finished in reasonable time, even if I basically lost the entire month of January into a void lol. Sometimes you just lose an entire month of time... life is just Like That and you have to move on and make the most out of it I guess!Ā
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6. Would you ever like consider selling your outfits???? I have an extended non violent larping thing coming up and i really love your outfits!
I might actually! I mentioned it before I think like, months ago, but i have a LOT of clothes I really want to get rid of, itās just that itās SO daunting. Iāve sold clothes before and it took hours and hours of effort, and you have to constantly keep up with it and track sales, and on top of that I really underestimated shipping prices (especially making the mistake of shipping internationally on one of them I think), and I ended up making no profit and actually losing $70 just from paying peopleās shipping that I didnāt charge them for (which for me and my financial situation is.. A LOT.. like.. I do NOT have that kind of spare money ghghh).
This time I want to be careful about it and also Iāll have to charge a lot more (which of course, I feel guilty about since I have Bigg Money Anxiety and wish everything was free for everyone all the time gghb), and also itās hard for me to find the time and energy to take literally hundreds of photos of hundreds of items and then list them somewhere and etc. etc. etc.Ā
BUT to cut down on that workload Iāve thought about actually just grouping them into outfits or like, groups of clothing that all match each other or etc. and selling them all together (so that I donāt have to photograph and list every individual item), and additionally that way I can maybe just do one batch at a time like.. maybe sell two of them a week or something, instead of all at once.Ā
Maybe just buying a certain size of box/envelope thing and stuffing whatever I can into it and selling them all for a set price like $40 a piece or something. Which to me sounds extremely expensive I guess since Iām someone who would never have $40 to just spend on clothing lol, but I really kind of canāt go much lower than that if I want to allot for shipping and not make the same mistakes again as last time (and definitely not allow people to buy internationally unless they pay me like.. $50 extra or something, which would be ridiculous lol).Ā
But anyway, especially since I have a few things I could really use money for (paying my guardians back for recent medical copays, and for my catās vet visit a few months ago, and also I have to fix the battery on my computer or buy a new one, etc.), Iāve thought about trying to do that soon!Ā Maybe sometime in the next month I can start listing some themed clothing groups/outfits/etc. and sell them at a slower better pace for me (like one group a week or so). Iāll definitely post about it if I do!
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7. (this one will have to be shortened a lot since it's so long, but I'll try to just type the main parts I'm replying to)Ā āAre you making/would you consider making a story with your fantasy worlds? Like a book or a zine or youtube videos where you roleplay as the characters and make them talk to the viewer or each other? If you don't want to create plot, you could just do characters seeking to educate humans bout their cultures or something.Ā I used to scroll past your posts since I'm more visual when it comes to fantasy, before realizing how interesting they are and I feel like your ideas need more playing out and exposure. ALSO, how do you feel about collaborating with other people on creating art? Or just being art pals and sharing ideas/plans/etc.? I just read your FAQ about collaborations so I understand the terms and my offer to be art friends still stands!āĀ
-- About whether Iāll make more things with my world:Ā Ā
Thanks so much for the very nice message!! Worldbuilding stuff is one of the most fun creative activities for me to do, so I always appreciate it when people discuss it with me and etc. (not that I donāt also appreciate compliments on sculptures and costumes and etc., those are great too! But I guess because world stuff is something Iām so much more personally invested in yet also never get to talk about lol, anytime anyone sends me anything related to characters or worlds or etc my brain is instantly like !!!!!!!!!!!!! O v O !!!!!!!!!!!Ā ghgh).Ā
I am actually making a game like I may have mentioned a few times, which though itās more character focused and doesnāt really have a plot/broader story (itās basically like a dating sim except without romance/dating, but it has similar mechanics in the sense that the main goal is to get to know characters in the world and do tasks for them and etc.), it will include a good bit of things that have do with my world, seeing as it like... takes place there.Ā
And since each of the characters have their own backgrounds and etc., theyāll of course speak about various world-related topics. Like for example, one of the shop-owners you can work for is an elf from outside of the elven alliance, and another shop the player can work at is owned by a set of twins who were formerly part of a royal family within the alliance, so those characters (when getting to know them and doing quests for them and etc) will of course have different perspectives on the world and talk about some of the stuff thatās been brought up in my worldbuilding posts, just obviously in a more personal/casual way, since itās dialogue rather than me writing exposition infodump posts.Ā
Like for example, the fact that alliance elves and non-alliance elves often have very different takes on the main elven religion, meaning if it comes up in conversation, both shopkeepers would give different dialogue relating to it, etc. Which since every character has their own unique situation and heritage and etc. (the game is set on a popular market street in a large global city, so here it actually makes sense for a bunch of different species to all be in the same place and etc.), I think could maybe expose players to a lot of the central worldbuilding concepts, depending on which shopkeeper they go with.Ā
Obviously characters arenāt going to just be doing unnatural exposition dumps about the extensive background of the world or something lol, but even just naturally and playing through a character with neutral favor (meaning not unlocking any special positive/negative dialogue options/etc), youād still be able to get at least a few tidbits about the world. (especially since some characterās conflicts stem from cultural/worldbuilding factors, so itās not unnatural for them to bring it up if thatās like.. something that seriously impacts their life lol.). It probably wont expose people to Advanced Lore like the time gaps or obscure types of magic or etc (well.. depending on which shopkeepers you talk to hbhbb), but it could help with some of what youāre talking about.. In the sense of it being a more accessible visual medium that, while not the MAIN focus of the game, does end up covering some of the world background information through natural dialogue.Ā
(always feel free to send an ask or something if you have any questions about the game, I never talk about it but every time I start to my brain unlocks and I have to stop myself from like.. saying literally every single thing about it ghgbhj)
Other than that though, Iām not currently working on anything that actually involves my world. I totally get what you mean though, and Iāve often tried thinking of ways to make it more accessible and etc (shorter posts, more clear topics, more visual elements, etc.), but it can be hard for me to work within those constraints when it already takes so much time for me to put those things together. Itās like I have so much planned out in my head, I kind of just want to get it out there however I can, since if I spend too much time deliberating about it or etc. it will become an endless task lol..
Ghhbh I actually have an extensive background in acting out characters, Iāve pretty much walked around talking to myself in different voices and etc. for my whole life and am used to like acting multiple characters at once and improvisational storytelling things (this is still what I spend a lot of my time doing lol.. I just.. walk around my house having conversations out loud pretending to be random people.. Especially when doing chores, like washing dishes or etc. is more fun if you pretend youāre a group of travelers working in a weird little elven restaurant bickering with each other the whole time hgh), but idk if that would be something I would do for videos. I feel weird about being on camera personally, even if I were in costume. But it is a really good suggestion since that is something which would be much much easier to produce than like, doing a full animation or writing a book or something lol.Ā
I have thought of reading my worldbuilding posts aloud/ doing audio versions of them, so that people could just listen to them instead of reading them (there would be no visuals like.. just black screen or something with audio of me reading it), but the way I write is like.. hard to read back? I love to read out loud (one of my favorite activities to entertain myself is to actually find random text Iāve never seen before and see how well I can sightread it. Especially random medical articles with a lot of words I donāt know in them lol, itās fun to just try to go through a new text fast in a convincing narrator voice or something, scrambling to mess up as little as possible), but I find that I have to modify my writing in order to read it that way (Iāve attempted to make a worldbuilding audio thing before, this is how I know this lol), so itās almost like Iām writing a whole second version of the post, which makes it take longer?
I could modify my writing style (less having things in parentheses and etc., side sentences that occur in the middle of main sentences and break reading flow, etc.. Like this one lol), and have thought about writing in a way that would be easier for me to read back, but itās just a whole thing Iād have to plan. Iāve definitely considered it though, and could pursue that idea further if people were interested or something!Ā
Iāve also thought of writing dialogue out between characters as a method of worldbuilding (not a story, but more like a script) since I think thatās a good natural way to convey things or give snapshots of moments in history or etc... but like.. That would just be more text so it wouldnāt really solve the problem lol. I could do audio reading them I guess, but since Iām more used to improv stuff, idk how I would do trying to read actual already written lines, even if I was the one who wrote them, it would definitely be something Iāve never done before lol!Ā Ā
I also just think doing smaller things could help, and anything interactive. Like shorter posts, especially with more visuals in them, typically get seen more, and then stuff like me making a game or other condensed things.. Iāve thought of making like.. a character selection screen, not an actual game but kind of like a dress up game where you get to choose your background from the different species in my world and then dress them up a little or etc. but that would be a LOT more work than it seems probably lol.
A lot of social media is just a combination of luck/the right connections, quantity, and consistency especially. Iām sure if I could do a short post a day or a drawing of a character every other day or something and reblog them a lot, then more people would see the other things I do as well and etc., but itās just... very difficult for me to operate that way since itās so inherently antithetical to my personality and how I work lol (I tend to be more of a.. .. āstay isolated working on things and barely post anything for 3 months then post 10 things at once out of nowhere before going inactive againā type of person ghbh.. which is like.. horrible from a Social Media Strategy standpoint).Ā
(Oh also, I still have no idea what a zine is even though I've seen them around and looked at a few and even looked up the definition of one to try to understand them hhghgg.. Iām still not exactly sure like.. what qualifies as one or how I would make a world-related one lol.. so this is why I didnāt really go into much detail on that specific suggestion of yours since.. Iām Uneducated Fool )Ā Ā
But anyway, Idk if I could do acting videos, but I could do audio reading of posts or other things, and I am at least in the middle of working on a game which heavily involves elements of the world, so maybe that counts for what youāre talking about!Ā
Though personally it really doesnāt matter much to me if many people see my world stuff or etc., since really all the fun is just that I sincerely enjoy coming up with ideas and creating worlds and etc., even if Iām not doing anything major with it ( making a book series or comics or etc. I donāt feel like worldbuilding has to be working toward another project, and like that it can just be done for itās own sake as a hobby), I still truly appreciate the sentiment and that you enjoy the world enough to give suggestions and etc. for stuff like that!! Iām going to keep at it however I can just because I love doing it so much, no matter if anyone really pays attention, but it is always unexpected and very meaningful when people like you engage with the content, so thank you for that! Iāll continue trying to make things and be productive and maybe use a few new ideas here and there just so itās easier for people like you who tend to be more visual with things. I want to avoid leaving people out, and try to make a variety of things that can cater to more visual people as well or etc.!Ā
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Well you said you read the collaboration FAQ, so Iām under the impression that I no longer need to answer that part of your question lol, thus Iāll just continue on with an answer assuming you know all of that information!Ā
Iām always up for it I guess! Iām not sure about collaborating since I know nothing about you, and also donāt know where you live (remember I mention that itād be much easier to collaborate with people I live closer to so we donāt have to like.. skype or some other weird digital method of communication in order to talk about ideas. Just since that sort of thing can get so lengthy, especially if itās an actual project being taken seriously, Iād rather speak to someone in person and be able to work on it alongside each other better). If I got to know you for a few months and thought I could trust you/know we have a similar vision/donāt clash creatively or personality wise,Ā AND we also lived close enough to meet at least occasionally, then yeah! project collaborations could work. If otherwise, then unfortunately it might not work in that regard. : U
(OH also if weāre a similar age?? I forget that people on the internet can be way younger than me.. I have nothing against younger people (very against the weird overly-simplified generational stereotyping ggh), but I would just feel kind of weird being an adult (early 20s) working with a minor whoās like 13 years old or something. I would be happy to talk about things from time to time and help with ideas or something, but actual like.. long term collaborative projects like writing a book together or creating and selling a game or something may be strange just due to us being at such totally different stages in our lives and etc. So, to collaborate on projects or even just communicate frequently about them or etc. I would also prefer weāre a similar age range (youāre somewhere from like 19 - 28 yrs old or close to that) ghhbh)Ā
As for just talking about art though, that could work fine probably! Since it would just be casual discussion and less serious than full on project collabs or etc., you wouldnāt need to live near me or etc. Though of course I would still need to know about you first (especially politics and stuff like.. I donāt want to get 50 long conversations in with someone only to find out they hate trans people or are a huge racist or etc. I always like to establish that ahead of time or at least have some idea of a personās leanings.), and understand your personality a little.
Ā I am pretty socially anxious and due to health problems and stuff can sometimes be bad at replying ( I know some people expect instant responses, whereas I usually reply in a day or two ( depending on how long the message is)), but I also donāt currently have any friends to talk about world-building stuff with really or who care much about that sort of thing, so Iām always open to having conversations about stuff like that!Ā
Especially if itās a low-pressure causal sort of thing in the sense of likeĀ āhey letās just see if we get along well conversationally and if we donāt then no hard feelingsā, etc. One of the main reasons Iām often afraid to talk to strangers is that if we end up NOT getting along and I decide that I want to stop talking or etc., Iām afraid theyāll get mad at me or lash out at me or something. I prefer it when the expectation is set ahead of time likeĀ āwe can both walk away at any time and should feel free to openly communicate how we feel about this conversation at any time. if we wouldnāt make good art friends or have trouble communicating then thatās fine and we just respectfully stop talkingā.Ā Which sounds like.. very common sense but.. I've talked to a few people in the past who struggled with communication and would be passive aggressively mean to you about it or something like that instead of just being open about them not feeling like talking anymore or etc., which is always a confusing situation to be in and Iād like to avoid it!Ā
Anyway though! I canāt promise anything since I donāt know you and am cautious about new people (I donāt want to be likeĀ āOH sure weāll be best friends!!ā before I even know you and set up false expectations), but Iām definitely at least open to talking,Ā especially about world-building stuff, if weāre compatible and respectful to each other and etc. And am also open to collaborations, under the right circumstances like what Iāve mentioned. Thank youĀ again for the very nice set of asks!!!! I hope you have a great day, anon~Ā
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And thatās all for the reply post. Thanks to everyone who sent in asks about stuff!!
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