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omg spacie jumpscare(s) !!! i'm being bombarded !!! don't make me use my special attack (the rabbit)
you didnt even know.but i remembered tem. i remembered them starbs. i remer so well. see it so clear in my minds eye. jesus christ. mental illness. me. me mental illness my disorders
#spacie splains#hey man#something is happenign to me. \#i could have kept going#theres a lot#like. a lot#i tried going thru all your art tag but i assume its a new one b/c not all of your art was there#anybeans#GET LOVED MORON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#DIE DIEDIEIDEIDEIDEIDIEIDE EXPLODES YOUR NOTIFS EXPLODE EXPLODE EXPLODE BOOM BOOM BOOM BLOW UP TO SMITHEREENS#WAHAHAHAHHAA SEEING THE SPIKE IN MY OWN NOTIFS WAS SO FUNNY AWAHHAHAHA#yeads.....everybody come look at PEAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#christ. sickness has overcome me#physcial symptom#disorders stop activating. please.....#i have the ability to be so. annoying#i will do it again#shoutout 2 tumbler user and my best friend madam mongoose you are . aweosme sauce#i said this in a discord server im in but you ever love a character so much u want 2 cry#thats me. at your springtrap. (and springtrap in general but-)#i think ive been insane enought for today#maybe i should log off (doesnt do that)#coughs up blood#keels over and dies
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sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:
thing that I already do
thing I have tried 10 times
thing I already do
thing that I don't have the money to do
thing I already do
thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail
thing that is impossible given my situation
thing that doesn't apply to me
thing that I already do
thing I have already tried
hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently
thing I have already done
#I think maybe productivity tips help less if the reason you're unproductive is partially like.. physcial health and other extenral things#out of your control. rather than just like having trouble paying attention or spending too much time on tiktok or whatever#all the strategic to do lists in the world are not going to somehow prevent me from waking up with a debilitating migraine or whatever#or having external stressors or lacking resources and connections or other Productivity Essentials etc.#especially many tips involve stuff like 'cut off from social media' since thats the modern day time waster for so many poeple#and it's like.. lol.. i can hardly even maintain a blog even thuogh i actively WANT TO DO SO. 'shut off your smart phone!' already#done babey i fucking hate smart phones i shall never use an app unless i am forced to. 'delete tiktok' yep. already covered. tiktok and#all of those thinsg are my enemies. 'save money by cancelling some of your services' cool. already ahead of you.#who the fuck is out here paying for like 10 different subscription services. pirated videos uploaded to google drive and youtube to mp3#my beloved. etc. etc. and so on. 'socialize less' .........LOL.. if only you knew.. mr.writer of the article. i can barely muster#talking to friends more than once a month and even less if I'm actively sick (often occurence) etc. etc. ... hewoo#I think maybe instead of generic productivity tips I need more like.. how to refocus and be productive anyway even if you have a headache#or are nauseous or etc. Not that those are always things to ignore. and of course you should let your body rest and etc. But plenty of peop#e have mild physical symptoms and just work through them. Ithink something about the way my body/mind is SOO hyper attuned to all#sensory information just makes it like... constantly 'GRR well I cant focus on WRITING right now because my lef#t ear feels weird and my socks are too itchy and my back has a strange pressure and I'm vaguely warm and my eye feels some ssort of#way it doesnt normally feel and I'm hyperaware of my breathing and also nauseous for no reason' and like half of those things I#think '''normal''' people wouldnt even notice or at least would be able to just live through. but for me it's like.. nealry impossible to i#gnore and soooo distracting always. like 'wahh.. nooo we can't draw or get anything done.. my legs feel slightly heavy or something!!'#like............. ok......... who cares. thats not even a PAIN sensation it's just something weird. but it's just like.. NO. constant#mental alerts about the 'heaviness' of your legs be upon ye. Though Imean like.. yes.. 70% of the time I am in genuine pain#or having some sort of actual ailment with trackable physical symptoms. but sometimes it's just like... we could totally be working right#now and ignoring this silly thing but my brain is fixated on it for no reason uncontrollably. etc. etc. I guess it's the same way that like#most people can go to a grocery store without the whole experience being so overwhelming and so much stuff going on at once#that they have to rest afterwards but like.. in my own HOME doing NOTHING i feel like I should be able to not get overwhelmed lol. ANYWAY#Rolling my bastard little rock up a dumbass hill and so on and so forth
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im so incredibly fucked bc i cant transfer until i can retroactively drop all the classes i failed in the last year which my advisor said would be easy since i apparently have a valid medical reason but i have to write a letter to the appeal committee first. and the issue is that i need medical documentation so "im incredibly depressed and fatigued and brain fogged every day all of the time and idk why" wont cut it. and all i have in terms of that are my disastrous antidepressant withdrawl episode, which only excuses a bit of the fall semester and none of the spring semester, and a couple GPs and psychiatrists shrugging at my symptoms and passing me onto specialists who havent had an open availaibility in years. so where do we go from here
#im trying to set up an appointment with the sleep clinic but im terrified theres actually nothing physcially wrong with me#and needing to sleep 15 hours a day is just ANOTHER fucking symptom of depression#angel.txt
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AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH *SKIN BURNING OFF AND MELTING* AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
#I HAVENT FELT LIKE THIS ABOUT THE ANCESTORS SINCE I WAS A FUCKINH LITTKE FUCKIGN KID AND ID GO TO CHURCH AND JUST THINK ABOUT SIGNLESS INSTE#INSTEAD OF JESUS#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#see this is why i was psychotic as a child because im so autistic about my special interests i start like getting actual physcial fucking#symptoms when i get excited to the point of like crying and gettin sick and shaking and elated and manic. BECAUSE I THOUGHT ABOUT PSIIONIC#TOO HARD#like literally physically fucking giddy over a fictional character in a way nothing else makes me feel and then i have my grandma and mom#telling me reincarnation is real 100% and that ive never been human and that im an earth angel or an indigo child LIKE#TO ME I WAS LIKE ITS NOT THAT BIG OF A STRETCH IF I WAS JUST. PSIIONIC . AND TUMBLR SAYS THATS REAL
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ENTRY #171 pt2
synopsis ✎ iida x reader. tenya visits you in the infirmary.
tws/tags ✎ hospital, illness and pininggg
a/n ✎ part one. for @ladycoleigh & @mirophobic
ENTRY #171
note #2 → after the fight with todoroki, (l/n) fainted. they are now awake but still suffering from dizziness, dehydration and fatigue from what i can tell. it's unclear if these symptoms are to due physcial over-exertion, quirk overuse, todoroki's powers or something else.
pausing for a moment, midoriya looks up at you, laying in the bed with tenya standing by your side, who is telling you about all the news anchors that were waiting to speak to you.
midoriya interupts by asking, "(l/n), have you ever experienced these symptoms after using your quirk before?"
by the eloquent phrasing and the fact izuku had a tight grip on his pencil, ready to start writing at any second, iida could tell that his question was an untimely attempt at information gathering. with a sharp huff of his nostrils, iida rebuked him by saying, "now is not an appropriate time for that. our dear classmate could be seriously injured and you're worried about the intricacies of their quirk? so inconsiderate."
"i'm not seriously injured. i'm fine." you correct politely, placing a hand on iida's arm, causing him to stiffen at your touch.
"oh, i'm sorry if you're not feeling well enough to answer my questions, (l/n). i'll stop bothering you." midoriya respectfully bows his head to you, then turns to tenya, "but i don't think i'm being inconsiderate. especially since i was the one that brought them flowers."
he motions to the bouquet, that had been placed into a vase on your bedside table. iida looked at it with scorn, 'why didn't i think to bring flowers?' he mentally reprimanded himself, then faced midoriya again. just as he was about to open his mouth to reply, you all here a quiet knock at the door.
"come in!" you call. the door creaks open and todoroki steps into the room, gently closing it behind him.
"it's good to see you awake, (l/n). how are you?" he asks in his usual monotone voice.
you offer a weak smile and respond, "thank you, todoroki. i'm feeling much better."
"good." todoroki nods once, then creeps closer towards your bed, "would it be okay if i asked you a question?"
"of course."
"are we long lost half-siblings?"
you choked on your own spit as soon as he uttered that. even tenya's jaw dropped and midoriya started to frantically scribble stuff down in his notebook. once the inital shock and amusement wore off, you were about to reply until iida started hasilty chopping the air, "right! that's enough questions. if the two of you can't behave normally, please leave!"
todoroki and midoriya exchanged a glance, before exiting the room, but not without flash you a sympathetic smile first. however, they didn't go because they had nothing else to say to you, but rather due to the fact that they could tell iida wanted to be alone with you.
once they had left, iida lets out a hefty sigh of relief. you giggle at this, poking his leg with your finger, "you're so strict with them."
iida's cheeks dusted pink — if you listened closely, you could even hear his engines splutter —and he choked, "i just think they should wait until you are out of the infirmary before they start bombarding you with their inquiries. it's the polite thing to do."
you smiled up at him, but he didn't notice as he stared at the bouquet, unable to meet your sweet gaze. "yeah. but i understand their curiousity. i did hide my quirk for a while." you giggled.
"i can see why you did that." he muses, idly cupping the petals of one of the flowers in his hand. "although, your quirk the potential to be very powerful. i hope you realise that."
now it was your turn to experience butterflies. "thank you, iida."
he must find it easier to talk to you with his gaze averted, because when he looked to meet your eyes, he almost had the wind knocked out of him from how angelic you were. it astounded him how even in your most dishevelled and weak state, you were still so stunning. filled with an authentic brightness and lustre he couldn't quite comprehend.
though he wanted to tell you how gorgeous you were — it felt like the right time — he couldn't muster the courage to do so. instead, he opted for, "you're an excellent classmate, (l/n). i'm honoured to have met you."
#iida x reader#iida x y/n#iida x you#iida tenya#my hero academia#tenya iida#tenya x reader#tenya x y/n#tenya iida x reader#👾fluff
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hey, not to make this your problem, but my adhd is kicking my ass. what systems do you use that work for you?
here are some of the things i use to help myself. everyone's different though, so see what works for you. @ anyone else, feel free to chime in with what you do.
study/work:
do NOT have your phone in the vicinity, and also put it on do not disturb.
dedicate a clear space to work in, don't do other things in that space.
set a timer for 25 min and study til it runs out. take a 5 min break. repeat 3 times. then take a 40 min break. (pomodoro technique) plan ahead of time what will happen in each of those time slots.
it's fine to fidget or doodle, but do a periodic check that that's not becoming your main focus. i use a grip strengthener because i don't have to look at it to use it.
if you listen to music, either set a playlist or accept whatever music comes on. if a song you dont like comes on, simply accept it and let it pass. DON'T PICK UP YOUR PHONE TO CHANGE IT.
if you find your mind drifting while you're studying/working, don't stay in the same place, get up. get a glass of water, stretch, get a snack, whatever. come back once you feel you can focus better.
memory:
a lot of people will tell you to set up a morning/nightime routine. instead of putting in steps like 1. brush teeth 2. take meds, etc., my routine is to force myself to walk along a predetermined path in my house. it's much easier to remember to do things when i SEE them
if you have something you misplace often, like you wallet or keys, give it a home. i have a little box on a table by my door.
if you have to remember to bring something with you (like a backpack, gym bag, or gift for a friend), place it directly in front of the door. you cannot leave without looking at that thing.
also, you can get carabiners and clip things together. i used to always forget my water bottle. well now i physcially cannot do that because i clipped my car keys to it.
write things down! "nahh i'll just remember it" <- no you will not. bring a notepad and pen.
in that same vein, don't put anything off when it takes two seconds. pay for something with your card? immediately afterwards put the card back in your wallet, lest you drop it in your pocket and then forget it there when you wear different clothes the next day.
i have a huge whiteboard in my living room that has my calendar and my to-do list.
on my calendar, i put not only the event, not only the TIME of the event, but also i include the time i need to leave in order to arrive on time, and list anything i need to bring with me.
the to-do list has completion times and priority level next to it. i will NOT start a low priority 40 min project when i have high priority 5 min project. even if the 5 min one sucks.
general tips:
everyone with adhd knows routine is important, but if you find part of a routine difficult, find the root issue and adjust it. problem: i take too long to get dressed in the morning. cause: too tired to make a decision, uncoordinated because of sleepiness. solution: lay your clothes out and loop your belt through belt loops *before bed* so you don't have to do it half asleep
don't mix stimulants. caffeine or adderall alone: cool. caffeine and adderall mixed: twitchy sociopath behaviors and shaky hands.
don't worry about maintaining "normalcy", if something works for you, do it.
limit phone use, especially short form media like reels. it has been proven to both induce and worsen adhd-like symptoms.
i know this is cringe but maintain your physical health. exercise, sleep well, drink water, eat balanced meals.
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Your take on postmodernism got me to thinking about things that had bothered me and I was unable to properly verbalize.
The thought that everything is a social construct (while true up to a certain) can be damaging and prevents us from seeing the issues at large and how they affect us and others. It supports a type of individualism that is not sustainable nor healthy, especially as we are usually a part of bigger, varied communities.
I also appreciated how you included your experience with autism in one of the follow up posts. It had me thinking about ableism and how I’ve been thinking about myself,and others who may be disabled, and how it is encouraged to look down upon others for not doing as much as someone else or needing assistance. I loathe to admit that I’ve been guilty of that mindset. Was this something you had to unlearn? If so, what helped?
Thank you for this message.
I know it's been in my inbox for a long time, and I apologize for not being in the right headspace to answer it. I wanted to talk about the ableism part specifically, because this is something I've struggled with both with autism and more recently, with a rare medical condition I discovered I had.
The truth is, initially I felt tempted to look down on other people with my condition, because I have been "better" at handling it than many people. Even doctors have told me this. The way I maintained my physical health with my condition took a lot of effort, and makes me somewhat of an anomaly. Most of it boils down to the fact that I apparently have been living with a condition that causes rapid weight gain (along with a massive list of other physcial/mental health impacts) and yet I lost weight while having it. This aspect of the disease (and other symptoms like being weirdly hairy etc.) are very stigmatizing so naturally I loved the praise I got for the weight loss and felt myself slipping into that mindset.
But to answer the question of how I learned not to judge people with the same conditions with me, it's empathy. While I know it is possible to succeed with everything working against you, I also know how hard it is. I know what it feels like to live with this disease, and how even getting up in the morning feels impossible sometimes. I can't judge people for not responding to it the same way I did. I've always been the kind of person who hates asking for help and feeling like I need another person. But I recognize this is a toxic trait. Why judge someone else for asking for help when I know in my heart I should have done the same? I put myself through more than I needed to. However, I don't feel the need to act like everyone should have to struggle just because I did. No; I like the idea of the people who come after me not having to struggle as hard, and I like the idea of them having access to resources I didn't have. That is what the world healing looks like. When I see someone taking more time, asking for help, using assistive resources, etc., I see a person being kind to themself. And I stopped looking down on that, because I realized that I should take the time to be kind to myself too, as should every disabled person.
Even if you aren't disabled, you shouldn't feel ashamed of needing help. It's human. We are a communal species, and the reason evolution favored us is because our ancestors took care of each other. Don't judge someone for needing help because you never know when it will be your turn.
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[ID: 1: List of the differences and similiarities between Classic OCD and Tourettic OCD. In the lower righthand corner of the image it reads, "Touretteic's unite" in all caps purple text. The list is:
The rituals in Classic OCD and Tourettic OCD can look identical and can include counting, tapping, opening anc closing doors, dressing tirtuals, toilet rituals, eating rtiuals and more. The rituals can last hours and mean that you have no free time.
Handwashing in classic OCD is usually due to anxiety and fear of germs but in Tourettic OCD it's due to a sensation being stuck on your hands.
Tourettic OCD rituals can sometimes be suppressed however this should [all caps] NEVER [end caps] be encouraged as it's uncomfortable, physically intolerable, distressing and causes dangerous rebounds of tics, rage attacks and other symptoms later on.
Out of body sensations (phantom tics) can precede a Tourettic OCD ritual.
Classic OCD usually responds more to anti-depressant medication and Tourettic OCD usually responds more to anti-psychotic medication.
Both Toureettic OCD and Clas ic OCD can cuase severe physcial disability and etoional distress.
2: Two separate light blue-green boxes. The first box is titled Classic OCD. The second box is titled Tourettic OCD. All text on this page is in all caps. At the bottom middle of the graphic is "Tourette's unite" in all caps bright purple text. The boxes read:
CLASSIC OCD
Intrusive thoughts are present and can precede a compulsion
May feel that something bad would happen is the ritual isn't completed correctly
CBT can be effective
Intrusive thoughts, obsessions and compulsions/rituals OR Pure-O (just intrusive thoughts)
More common
TOURETTIC OCD:
Rituals are preceded by a physical premonitory sensation and not an intrusive thought
Nothing bad would happen if the ritual isn't completed but it would be uncomfortable as it's involuntary
CBT usually isn't effective
Pure rituals + compulsions
Rarer
/end ID]


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i don't know your situation or understand what you're going through, but i hope you're okay xx
Hello there! Thanks for reaching out!
It has been so tough again in the last hours. Invasive actions of psychiatrists who never had to do with my complex case.
It actually was as banal as. I was given a separate room by my psychiatrist who understands me so far that she knows how to handle me and my case and my words. But she was gone for not even an entire day, and a doc - more arrogant snob - 'diagnosed me' with the most superficial nonsense. I am just causing drama to get attention. Same fiddle every time.
They spun a network of ignorant misdiagnoses hindering every opportunity to receive real help!!
They not even checked blood values or anything ever since.
These hurtful misdiagnoses are not true!!! Therapists who really work on my case always tell me the same. Superficiality and ignorance HARM!
I asked for vitamine supplies. He said "Just eat"... but I EAT, BUT HERE is so few food with the nutrition I need!!!
I just need damn nutrition.
Later they cause so much harm to me and a person who they put in my room - I was flashed, not because I did not like her or anything close to that - it was INVASIVE!
They never spoke about it, they never warned. Then they opened all curtains and I got so awful double vision and delirium by that. And the instant rush of the violation of principles that ensure an autist's mere function... i had a meltdown.
The nurse was so abusive. Said "no one can get hurt my light' you are not a vampire! You just google shit! You have all symptoms but you can't have them! You make them up to get attention and tyrranize everyone.
And none of that was ever true.
These fucking symptoms are sadly all primarily due to one fucking thing: severe nutrition deficiency. And the "CURE" is all fucking simple!!! But they refuse the PLAINEST of help!!!
This nurse is like those most neurotypical cruel fake shallow monsters. She projects her intolerant narrow view on myself. She invalidates, denies, dismisses. Refuses to understand me debunking her nonsense and trying to create clarity.
And the ignorance is so painful. I said she can't judge it. She said she's not judging, it's her opion (which is in fact an evaluation of an impression of her own interpretation - so it IS judging!)
She does understand NOTHING. Really no word I tell her lands in her brain. It's like she is so dogmatic in her wrong belief. Or does not even know one basic single word in German language.
Today I witnessed Dunning-Krüger everywhere!!! And it fucking kills!!!
It hurt to see my (shortly present) room neighbour crying, because of this shit I could not control, the meltdown, which was INDUCED by their sheer incompetence, ignorance, cruelty.
It made me so furious. Invalidating. Every time. I told that nurse that she can't judge what she does not understand. That she should educate herself on how autism impacts everyday life, perception, health, behavior, communication. Sadly all her brain cells seem to be tied to manipulation and how to be the most awful ignorant possible.
I am so sorry it all sounds so aggressive. But they HURT!!! They cause harm on so many here, not just me!!! This needs to be stopped!!! It needs to be investigated how many people they killed with such procedures.
They refuse to give me help!!
I neglected all these symptoms for far too long, exactly because of that. But they got so bad...
This nurse told me 'you can go whenever you want'. And I asked her I can't i physcially can't survive. Then she proceeded 'but you came here and it was bright'... and not even one of these statements is true. I was shoven from a terrible place by the ambulance into this torture chamber, during evening/night.
They literally refuse to SEE the meanwhile already OBVIOUS, which is the unfortunate REALITY now!
And they keep kicking and killing your last part that survives: Your psychological resilience.
And I am shaking. The insuline resistance is unbearable. But they would not even do anything if cetoacidosis would intoxicate me. Even if I vomitted due to that they would refuse the help I have the right to have: in this case: It is bound to direct survival!!!
It is a nightmare. And it sounds too lunatic that anyone could ever believe.
My psychiatrist came few hours ago, after my room neighbour and I calmed down.
I went to the dark bathroom to recharge. She later returned to our room after being absent for a short time, and she reacted in a way that made be feel embraced, compassionate, grateful, but als so so sorry and guilty.
She had a surgery of a brain tumor. And it felt so devastating she is treated so so so bad here. That they put her in such an awful situation with me and my problems being 100% dismissed.
I was a scapegoat. And the hurt I felt when recognizing her reaction was torture. It was psychological torture for both of us.
I am beyond my limit and I can't be confronted in such a way with people who are hurt so much themselves. It hurt me twice, thousandfold.
If they had told me in advance and found a solution for the light/illumination problem, it would have been far less devastating for both of us. It was so invasive. The reaction of the nurse 'it's just light and why should it be so bad that someone is here now? ' - neurotyi pical intolerance, ignorance and unfortunately this resulted in more and more verbal abuse.
Half an our later I sat in the bathroom. And she approached me and asked if she could enter the bathroom. I said yes and apologized. She was humble and somewhat had compassion. I then proceeded to built a tiny fort/cave between my bad and heater. This is where I have been since. It calms me.
She calmed down as well. But then the chaos continued. She was put in another room. I suppose it was because my (original) psychiatrist came, and knew this was fatal, as she knows of the importance of that. Despite the difficulties here in the clinic, she demands such a high priority for the single room. She is the only reason why I am not dead already here.
She fights for me as she understands. And she tries to protect me from the harm by many people working here. But when she is gone it is all devastating.
Next time I refuse to talk with these ignorant docs, and only correspond with my original psychiatrist. Most others are so awful. I do not know who to trust. They don't understand what is real and what is bullshit.
So many new nurses everyday, so many fake behaviors. So many ones who are abusive. Some who you believe are trustworthy. I can't trust. It all shatters. This place is traumatizing in every means for a neurodivergent/autistic person.
It is so sad...
There is no help. Even askeing them to transfer me to somewhere I may receive help... no way. Excuses. I say I NEED help. They say they give help. But NO!!! It is the OPPOSITE of help actually!!! I never damnit wanted to be a statistic anomaly. They simplifiy this extremely complex case to such a degree, it is the opposite of reality.
As if they do neither understand what I say nor any of my behavior.
Even when having hypoglycaemia, they refuse to help. If you ask them for juice, they refuse. They say absent-mindendly "Yeah... i knowji know... 'and leave. Only after half an hour a random nurse from another part of the clinic sees me and asks me what I need, I say sugar, have low blood glucose. And then I receive it finally. But this in concerning. Hypoglycaemia can trigger much of symptoms I have now as well. You can even get unsconscious, and if too long waited, you die. Considering their amount of concern or care, I could have been dead for more than two hours.
Things like these happen far too often.
If I do not care for myself who is unable to move, to care for himself, to live, then I die. And that is what my alter ego does. But he can't anymore. The biological spaceship is too damaged. Even the 'most skilled pilot' will not succeed.
The pain is unbearable.
And the pain of being stuck here.
I just wish someone would just dump me 300km+ far away where I receive REAL help!
I am physcially stuck in a network of abusive environments.
Even the person of the amulance told me I need to leave this city asap. She was concerned all she could do is either throw me into the torture chamber 'rathole clinic', or leave me in the abusive home with the tyrants of my abusers, my father and myjsister.
It was a decision between torture and torture.
This has been my reality ever since.
Please I would even consider living in care for a while, IF treated accordingly to what I really have and need, far away from this abuse city.
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I have another question if thats okay nova? You both share the same body soim guessing that you both have ti deal with any physcial ailments (bless your souls for having to go through yhat) but what about mental ones?
Do you ever regress when you're fronting? I also want to ask if you share ashs feelings of dysphoria and the like but don't want to press because im noy sure how comfortable you are talking about that sort of sfuff.
Again please ignore or delete if im asking too many questions or rude ones.
your questions are fine! i'm not sure if i have any mental illnesses. i'm a protector alter and i'm also not a complete and comprehensive person to the extent that ash is. i definitely know all of the trauma in a way that he doesn't, and it sucks, but it's not particularly distressing to me to think about like it is for him. i kind of AM a symptom a mental illness, so i guess i don't really know how to answer this super well. the main thing i think i'd say is that, while i have a sense of identity and am certainly fragmented, i am not a full person and i do not have the same mental/emotional experience as ash does or as any other person does.
as for the gender thing, while ash has very strong feelings of gender dysphoria and euphoria, i am completely indifferent to gender. they/them pronouns feel the most fitting for me and such, but gendered terms and the like don't bother me at all!
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First post....I’ve never done this
I’m generally not a woman of many words let alone public ones. But boy have I had a journey lately. This lead me think that to move past this difficult time I needed to talk. I needed to work things through out loud. Perhaps in doing so I could connect with others for support and understanding.
On December 31st I was exposed to someone with COVID. A friend came to help my boyfriend and I move. We wore our masks with the exception of eating. The next day our friend called to let us know one of his family was positive for COVID. So, he had gone to get tested and was also positive. He wasn’t having symptoms at the time.
I was officially diagnosed on January 13th. By the 15th I was in the hospital. I was hospitalized 2 weeks and diagnosed with COVID pneumonia. I fought so hard to not get intubated. It was tough physcially, mentally, and emotionally. I know I’m lucky. I made it. I got to go home. But the road ahead is long and steep. I realized real quick I can’t even say I can take it day by day. It’s literally second by second.
With COVID, I went from a completely independent woman to a woman who needs assistance with things as simple as a shower or getting out of bed. I’m on a million meds, oxygen, a CPAP machine to sleep. Even typing now, its as if my body has had to relearn to walk, talk, eat, simply survive. I know this will be a process and all I have is time.
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Symptoms of Harran Virus
On the wall of Dr. Camden’s lab there are photos of infected where he documents the stages of the virus in infected people before they turn as well as other notes on the progression of the physcial changes.
Transcription of Camden’s notes:
Stage 1 - Fever and sweats
Stage 2 - Nausea and vomiting
Stage 3 - Hallucinations
Convulsions
Object begins to have difficulty breathing
10:12:17 after infection - aggressive behavior *
Bloody bruise on the face - open, oozing wounds
Open, oozing rany - muscle necrosis **
12:30:38 Skin lesions
14:20:10 Open wounds
Bloodshot whites of the eyes; change of the color of the iris; likely extension of the visual spectrum - thermal perception
* Time stamp was originally written as 10_12:17, but this is an assumed typo on the developers’ part and was corrected to 10:12:17
** EDIT 04/01/19: Big thanks to @negativvekraken who pointed out that “rany” means “wounds” in Polish and, Techland being a Polish company, was probably a translation error. (Really appreciate it!)
#dying light#dying light game#dr camden#allen camden#harran virus#zombie virus#canon lore#stills#mod post#mod speaks#edit#added explanation for 'rany'#negativvekraken
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Using benadryl for "recreational" purposes is mentally and physcially harmful, and could actually kill you.
I'm saying this as someone who has
a. Experimented with recreational highs from the drug, and
B. Someone who has attempted using benadryl.
Some of the more "heavy recreational" dosages are at the same levels of benadryl that can kill you.
If you take Bennys, as it's called, to get high: expect to be itchy, sweaty, sleepy but you cant sleep. Your head will feel like it's going to roll off your shoulders. When you look at anything for longer than 3 seconds it will appear to breathe. You'll feel hot and cold flashes, and be shaking, your mouth and your mind will feel on different paces.
The most common type of hallucinations with this drug are auditory, and can cause a spike in paranoia because one of the most known symptoms of psychosis is hearing voices.
Dont take pharmaceutical "hallucinogens"
Benadryl
Morning glory seeds
DXM (cough syrup)
They are more harmful than useful and you wont get a good high anyways.
Benadryl, when taken in high volume, causes hallucinations so vivid they are indistinguishable from reality. - weird, interesting & funny facts
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Sick Bros Forever
#be more chill#bmc#boyf riends#this week in: prom forgot how to write#god guys I'm sorry that you waited so long for this awful shit#fanfic
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300+ TOP FIRST AID Objective Questions and Answers
FIRST AID Multiple Choice Questions :-
1. How many compressions and breaths should you do for each cycle of CPR? A. 15 compressions, 2 breaths B. 30 compressions, 5 breaths C. 30 compressions, 2 breaths D. 15 compressions, 5 breaths E. 30 compressions, 15 breaths Ans: C 2. What causes Anaphylactic shock? A. Choking B. Insect sting or spider bites C. 3rd degree burns D. Heart attack E. Stroke Ans: B 3. What are the symptoms of third degree burn? A. Charred skin, no pain B. Charred skin, pain C. Blisters and pain D. Red and pain E. Grey and pain Ans: A 4. What is the first thing you should do for severe bleeding? A. Put the victim in the recovery position B. Direct pressure with clean cloth or hand C. cover with clean cloth D. Give oxygen E. Give him water if conscious Explanation Stop the bleeding as soon as possible Ans: B 5. Witch of the first aid duties below has the highest priority for you as a Cabin attendant? A. Re-assure the passenger B. Arange medical attention C. Be aware of danger Ans: C 6. What is the main purpose of the "Route"emergency transportation technique when providing treatment to a passenger? A. To relocate (move) the passenger B. To administer rescue breathing C. To remove a blockage in the victims airway D. To remove a blockage in the victims airway E. To treat the absence of a victims breathing Ans: A 7. What is your FIRST action when examining the condition of a patient? A. Check for breathing B. Check for insurance C. Speak to the victim and shake his shoulders D. Check for external injuries, Ans: C 8. What is the main purpose of the "Heimlich" procedure A. To remove a blockage in the victims airway B. To treat the absence of a victims breathing C. To treat an insufficient breathing Ans: A 9. What's happens with the carbonic acid dioxide (CO2) produced by the human body? A. It remains in the body cells B. It is transferred to the heart muscle C. It is exhausted via the blood and breathing system Ans: C 10. What can you do to avoid that a person experiences a short period of uncousciousness "Fainting" A. Speak to the victim and administer a pain stroke B. Let the victim remain in its chair C. Apply fresh air, let the victim lay-down and reassure the victim Ans: C
FIRST AID MCQs 11. What applies to a victim with a reduced counsciousness? A. The victim is still capable to speak B. The victim is in shock C. The victim does not react to speaking and shacking D. The victim is still alert Ans: A 12. How can you recognize a vein bleeding? A. Blood flows equally out of the wound B. Blood flows with pulses out of the wound C. Blood flows slowly out of the wound Ans: A 13. Where do you position the knot in the end of the bandages of a emercengy bandage? A. Always on top of the bandage B. Crossed over the wound C. Clearly away from the wound Ans: C 14. Witch of the items mentioned below can cause a shock? A. a short periode of unconsciousness "Fainting" B. a heart attack C. a feeling of nausea Ans: B 15. What should yo do for shock? A. Give the passenger something to drink B. Let the passenger sleep C. Give nothing to drink, re-assure the passenger and seek medical assistance Ans: C 16. What do you do for small cut. A. Wash with soap and water, cover with a sterile bandage B. Only cover with a sterile bandage C. Clean the wound with cotton wool Ans: A 17. What is included in the CPR procedure? A. Rescue breathings only B. Compression of the chest only C. Rescue breathing and chest compressions Ans: C 18. What can cause the blood circulation stop? A. a heart attack B. a bleeding in the smaller veins C. a head wound Ans: A 19. What do you do if someone suddenly begins to bleed severely? A. Tell them to lick out the blood B. Apply pressure to the wound C. Scream and run D. Remove foreign object Ans: B 20. What are the symptoms of Hypothermia? A. Warm and sweaty B. Cold and sweaty C. Cold, tired, shivering and acting abnormally D. Just very sweaty Ans: C 21. What is the best treatment of second degree burn? A. Put Aloe vera lotion on it B. Water C. Put ice on the burn Ans: B 22. How do you check for breathing? A. Listen B. Look for rising chest C. Feel with the cheek D. Look, Listen an Feel Ans: D 23. A nosebleed can be stopped by: A. Waiting B. Pinching briefly the nostrils C. Give something cold to drink D. Put some cotton wool into the nose Ans: B 24. Wich of the first aid duties below has the highest priority for you as a Cabin Attendant? A. Be aware of danger B. Re-assure the passenger C. Arrange medical attention Ans: A 25. What is your FIRST action when examining the condition of a patient? A. Check for breathing B. Check for external injuries C. Speak to the victim and shake his shoulders Ans: C 26. What is the correct procedure when treating with the AED? A. Remove clothing, dry the passengers skin (when necessary) attach electrodes and turn on the AED B. Call for assistance, turn on the AED and follow the instructions provided by the AED. C. Dry the passengers skin (when necessary), attach electrodes, start rescue breathing, call for assistance and tun on the AED Ans: B 27. What are the requirements for a cover bandage? A. It may not absorb any fluids B. It may not be older than 1 year C. It must be sterile Ans: C 28. What do you have to do when a passenger has no breathing? A. Start CPR immediately B. Put the victim in the recovery position C. Continue with the breathing check D. Count pulsations Ans: A 29. What is the purpose of the "Heimlich" procedure? A. To treat the absence of a victims breathing B. To remove a blockage in the victims airway C. To treat an insufficient breathing D. To re-locate (move) the person Ans: B 30. How can you recognize a arterial bleeding A. Blood flows equally out of the wound B. Blood flows slowly out of the wound C. Blood flow with pulses out of the wound Ans: C FIRST AID Objective type Questions with Answers 31. List what FAST stand for: A. Face, Arms, Speech an Time B. Fracture, Arm, Speech and Time C. Face, Abdomen, Sleep and Time D. Face, Arms, Speech and Treatment Ans: A 32. How many compressions and breathings should you do for each cycle of CPR? (adult) A. 15 compressions and 2 breaths B. 15 compressions and 1 breaths C. 30 compressions and 2 breaths D. 30 compressions and 1 breaths E. 5 compressions and 2 breaths Ans: C 33. A passenger has been stung by a honey bee. The stinger is still under the skin and needs to be removed to prevent anaphylactic shock. What do you do next? A. Remove the stinger using a pair of sterile tweezers B. Remove the stinger using a credit card or a butter knife to scrape it out Ans: A 34. A person is alergic for peanut butter an is going into anaphylactic shock. What do you do next? A. Have them sit with their head between her knees and have them breathe deeply B. Give them some water to cool the throat C. Arrange medical attention D. Give them some sweet drinks E. Give them some aspirin immediately Ans: C,E 35. What does ABC stand for? (more answers) A. Airway B. Back C. Breathing D. C-Spine E. Circulation Ans: A,C,E 36. When performing chest compressions on an adult we press the chest: A. 2 - 3 cm B. 2,5 - 3,5 cm C. 4 - 5 cm D. 1- 2 cm E. 5 - 6 cm Ans: C 37. When dealing with an unconscious casualty, you should check up to ?? seconds for normal breathing. A. maximum 2 seconds for normal breathing B. maximum 5 seconds for normal breathing C. maximum 10 seconds for normal breathing D. maximum 30 seconds for normal breathing E. maximum 60 seconds for normal breathing Ans: C 38. Having a ..................pulse is a sign of medical shock. A. slow B. rapid Ans: B 39. What is a scold? A. A burn by liquid or gas B. A burn by fire C. A break in your leg D. Being beaten with a stick Ans: A 40. What do you do when someone breaks an arm? A. Scream and run B. Put a plaster on it C. Use an antisceptic wipe D. Put the arm in a sling Ans: D 42. Choose all of the factors in the list below that contribute to date rape: A. Incompatible verbal and body language B. Gender stereotypes C. Hanging out with friends D. 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i don't know about y'all but a symptom of my anexity is literally wretching. Its awful. And for quite a while, while this was happening I didn't know what anexity is. And then for an even longer time i thought i was just sick in a weird way and wouldn't go to school (which suprise made me stop doing it for the day).
Its not a commonly mentioned symptom but anexity can will try to make appear physcially ill in attempt to make you call out :/
Who’s having some realizations about their early childhood right now 🙋♀️🙋♀️🙋♀️
#I'm honestly kind of irritatwd with my mom because she also has anexity and she never mentioned it or tried to help cope with it#but that's just my mom for you#guess cause i wasnt doing it her way that it wasn't valid or something
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