#phase 2 progress

[rainyfestivalsweets]

9/6/24

Still on phase 2 of hcg diet.

Not perfect, but progressing nonetheless.

Currently on Day 4, 2.4 pounds down for this round.

Walk/run with the dogs yesterday, about 1.5 miles. Needed the sunshine and figured the dogs could use the fresh air too.

But storytime--- afternoon:

I took 2 giant mugs of tea to my niece's cross country meet. I am trying to make sure I support her school functions too- not just the boys football. Just because our society deems women less valuable doesn't mean I should. *I* want her to grow up to know she is loved and valued beyond, so that when she comes of age and gets into relationships, she knows better than to settle for the stupid shit I have settled for. 2 apparent narcs. 1 great gf, but celibacy.

Anyway, I arrive just in time to see her cross the finish line like a freaking stud cupcake!!! Great timing. I visit with her and her momma a little bit and we prepare to leave.

My 2nd mug of tea is still too warm to drink so I left the lid off trying to get it to cool off a bit. I have a great idea and add some of the sf smores coffee syrup to it & hop into my vehicle.

I decide to drive to the bathrooms because I parked goofy and am having trouble getting out the other way. I start driving in this parking lot and SPILL THE MUG OF TEA ALL OVER MY LAP.

Fuck!! It burns!

I catch it, set it upright, look to find a parking spot and SPILL IT AGAIN.

Dammit.

I wanted that tea!!!

But also- it is HOT and now all over my lap AND my car. Shit shit shit and I have no towels or anything to wipe it up with.

The walk of shame to the bathrooms as I appear to have pissed myself. 😤 I checked for burns and was ok... but now discombobulated and very sticky. Now my car smells like a s'more.

The night got a little weird from there. I am in a weird headspace. I go to TJ Maxx because traffic is awful, and I wanted to pick up more ginseng.

I did a quick shop and got back to the car because I have to get back to work when I get home.

But! I forgot to take my Nomorbidity, which I normally take in the early afternoon, so I am hungrier than normal.

I had a burger salad with my meal prepped turkey and pork mix, and went back for more meat because I was still... hungry, hankering? Unsatisfied? Something.

I also had 2 hard candies, sf lemon from dollar tree, and 2 sf popsicles while mom and I watched unfrosted. And an orange, which is allowed.

So... while the day threw me for a loop, I did ok. And boom, today is my lightest weigh in.

I am working on keeping going, I am so close to my ultimate goals. Keep going keep going keep going!! 💪

[kaleidoscope-2]

Da twinz

[shironezuninja]

I think going to the movies would feel less stressful than going to Cons. I’m not loading up on cash and schedule crunches to get autographs.

[warlockcctv]

Viktor's Complicated Color Progression to The Machine Herald and his strugles with Black Mana

Viktor is a very complicated character with a myriad of tragedies. To me I think based on his story, his place in the world, his relationship to the color pie pushes Viktor firmly as Yore-Tiller. It is the combo of Artifice. Of innovation, progress, evolution.

Viktor is a scientist at heart, a man of discovery and creation. As a child he tinkers and builds and as an adult he invents and evolves. This is why Viktor's core color is obviously Blue Mana.

Inherently curious about the world.

As he meets Singed he gains structure, a mentor, he sees a purpose in science. Not just finding fun or making toys but cultivation and growth. Even if he doesn’t understand it yet this is the foundation of his connection to White Mana.

Viktor gains a sense of morality, ambition is not worth anything. Not worth harming those you claim to help. Suffering is never justified

“There is always a choice.”

This Azorius state is where I believe Viktor spends most of his life. A scientist with an ethic working under constraints in a very ordered society. Piltover is an Azorius state. One more heavily influenced by Blue than White but Azorius nonetheless. Viktor gives himself completely to Piltover until he meets Jayce.

And then the sickness starts. The Desperation. As Viktor rots so do some of those morals, those boundaries. He steps over his line in the sand. But only he does, he won’t sacrifice anyone else for his ambition or his salvation. He gains a tempered connection to Black Mana.

This is a connection that is wavering, he is desperate and grasping. He is not ambitious enough to truly harness black, he can’t bring himself to harm another for his own gain. He only carves himself apart to gain a future. But then he goes too far, Skye gets killed and he pulls out completely.

When shown the cost Viktor won’t pay.

He lets go of the Hexcore, of Black.

And then he dies.

Here he sits, until his body is healed.

From the tomb he rises. Now he is empowered by the Hexcore, and at first I think he teeters on the edge of Black.

He is lost, aimless and emotionless.

And then the Rebirth, the Evolution. He saves the people he always wanted to help. He is renewed.

He touches Red Mana.

He is passionate about his dream, he is exploring new vistas and ignoring boundaries but not out of a desire to gain but to help. He puts himself in a vulnerable self sacrificing position for Warwick regardless of Skye’s knowledge of the systems limits

“He is worth the risk.”

He fosters a chaotic growth in his commune. A place of change and revolution and peace. A place where the Jeskai colors flourish. However there is no place for Green Mana here. At least not for Viktor. Viktor seeks to evolve and as he puts it,

“Evolution’s purpose is to supersede nature.”

Not a very Green ideology if you ask me.

This leads us to the Hammer of Damocles above Viktor.

Jayce.

Jayce for whatever reason (my theory on why is far too long to get into but basically Jayce is creating the future he saw by mistake, tragic consequences, three times the charm, etc.) decides that Viktor and what he has built needs to die. Regardless of if he was correct (I don’t believe he was for aforementioned reasons I won’t get into.) or not he has done damage. There is no going back.

Whether because of Singed or as I hope his own desperation, ambition, and need to evolve will push Viktor to his final state. This is when he will finally grasp Black Mana.

He will touch the Void, let go of his humanity and seek only progress. He gains the ambition and the stomach for violent action. Viktor was not born with power, he wasn’t handed power, no, as Silco once described Viktor must now take power by any means necessary.

To herald a new age, a new world.

To bring about the Grand Evolution.

[transmechanicus]

MESSMER DOWN ON THE FIRST TRY THROUGH THE SECOND PHASE LETS GOOOOO🎉🎉

[tallaroo]

sketch -> lineart + background -> base colors -> shading w/o effects

A little process on this beast. A total of eight-ish hours went into this with half of it being done last night in a moment of possession by the art demons

anyways a lot of the base details get hidden by rendering so enjoy what sits under.....98 layers of work :)

[mihai-florescu]

I am plagued by theatrical productions i'll never see... it's not like a book i can pick up at any point and return to with new insights as an omniscient reader. No one experiences a play the same but the momentality of it makes you more aware of your role, be it on stage or the audience, the story flows because of your presence at this exact moment. And there are countless plays at this very moment everywhere in the world, there is so much i will never know or experience? It will just be lost to time, to others' perception and memory?

[musubiki]

The beautiful face is how he presents himself. The fucked up magic rot is when his health meter hits halfway.

oh GOD!!!!! YOUR BRAIN OH GOD!!!!!!! PHASE 2!!!!!!!

[ever-go-on]

i might be starting emdr soon

[steelthroat]

My artist grandpa approves of my transformers art and my sculptures and says I've gotten a lot better and is very happy...

So I guess I can die at peace with myself now :D

[rainyfestivalsweets]

9/7/24

184.2

I stand corrected from yesterday- *this* is my lightest weigh in

184.2

Wow 👌

[gay-victorian-astronomer]

looking at this overleaf document is making me take morale damage

[thisloveforyourmom]

seeing online guides to beat Radiance is so fucking funny because every single one of them recommends the exact opposite of what i did. i used exclusively nail hits. i healed often. i didnt even have longnail or mark of pride me and my little baby boy were out here getting up close and personal with the moth god 100 times in a row and no i don't know how to use ddark i play keyboard and thats too many button inputs for me

[dravidious]

You're more amazing than love

Finished up Trauma Team, and I gotta say, the difficulty was consistently way lower than Under the Knife. Even the final Twisted Rosalia operation was easy. But wait, beating the game unlocks hard mode! I'm so sorry, I wasn't being fair, I was judging the difficulty by the first playthrough, I should really try out the hard mode to see if-

I beat hard-mode Twisted Rosalia on the first try.

So yeah, no idea what to expect for UtK2's difficulty

[cephalofrog]

yeah I can't beat promised consort radahn

[mailperson]

Vile nun defeated at last