#phase 2 progress

[rainyfestivalsweets]

9/6/24

Still on phase 2 of hcg diet.

Not perfect, but progressing nonetheless.

Currently on Day 4, 2.4 pounds down for this round.

Walk/run with the dogs yesterday, about 1.5 miles. Needed the sunshine and figured the dogs could use the fresh air too.

But storytime--- afternoon:

I took 2 giant mugs of tea to my niece's cross country meet. I am trying to make sure I support her school functions too- not just the boys football. Just because our society deems women less valuable doesn't mean I should. *I* want her to grow up to know she is loved and valued beyond, so that when she comes of age and gets into relationships, she knows better than to settle for the stupid shit I have settled for. 2 apparent narcs. 1 great gf, but celibacy.

Anyway, I arrive just in time to see her cross the finish line like a freaking stud cupcake!!! Great timing. I visit with her and her momma a little bit and we prepare to leave.

My 2nd mug of tea is still too warm to drink so I left the lid off trying to get it to cool off a bit. I have a great idea and add some of the sf smores coffee syrup to it & hop into my vehicle.

I decide to drive to the bathrooms because I parked goofy and am having trouble getting out the other way. I start driving in this parking lot and SPILL THE MUG OF TEA ALL OVER MY LAP.

Fuck!! It burns!

I catch it, set it upright, look to find a parking spot and SPILL IT AGAIN.

Dammit.

I wanted that tea!!!

But also- it is HOT and now all over my lap AND my car. Shit shit shit and I have no towels or anything to wipe it up with.

The walk of shame to the bathrooms as I appear to have pissed myself. 😤 I checked for burns and was ok... but now discombobulated and very sticky. Now my car smells like a s'more.

The night got a little weird from there. I am in a weird headspace. I go to TJ Maxx because traffic is awful, and I wanted to pick up more ginseng.

I did a quick shop and got back to the car because I have to get back to work when I get home.

But! I forgot to take my Nomorbidity, which I normally take in the early afternoon, so I am hungrier than normal.

I had a burger salad with my meal prepped turkey and pork mix, and went back for more meat because I was still... hungry, hankering? Unsatisfied? Something.

I also had 2 hard candies, sf lemon from dollar tree, and 2 sf popsicles while mom and I watched unfrosted. And an orange, which is allowed.

So... while the day threw me for a loop, I did ok. And boom, today is my lightest weigh in.

I am working on keeping going, I am so close to my ultimate goals. Keep going keep going keep going!! 💪

[kaleidoscope-2]

Da twinz

[shironezuninja]

I think going to the movies would feel less stressful than going to Cons. I’m not loading up on cash and schedule crunches to get autographs.

[warlockcctv]

Viktor's Complicated Color Progression to The Machine Herald and his strugles with Black Mana

Viktor is a very complicated character with a myriad of tragedies. To me I think based on his story, his place in the world, his relationship to the color pie pushes Viktor firmly as Yore-Tiller. It is the combo of Artifice. Of innovation, progress, evolution.

Viktor is a scientist at heart, a man of discovery and creation. As a child he tinkers and builds and as an adult he invents and evolves. This is why Viktor's core color is obviously Blue Mana.

Inherently curious about the world.

As he meets Singed he gains structure, a mentor, he sees a purpose in science. Not just finding fun or making toys but cultivation and growth. Even if he doesn’t understand it yet this is the foundation of his connection to White Mana.

Viktor gains a sense of morality, ambition is not worth anything. Not worth harming those you claim to help. Suffering is never justified

“There is always a choice.”

This Azorius state is where I believe Viktor spends most of his life. A scientist with an ethic working under constraints in a very ordered society. Piltover is an Azorius state. One more heavily influenced by Blue than White but Azorius nonetheless. Viktor gives himself completely to Piltover until he meets Jayce.

And then the sickness starts. The Desperation. As Viktor rots so do some of those morals, those boundaries. He steps over his line in the sand. But only he does, he won’t sacrifice anyone else for his ambition or his salvation. He gains a tempered connection to Black Mana.

This is a connection that is wavering, he is desperate and grasping. He is not ambitious enough to truly harness black, he can’t bring himself to harm another for his own gain. He only carves himself apart to gain a future. But then he goes too far, Skye gets killed and he pulls out completely.

When shown the cost Viktor won’t pay.

He lets go of the Hexcore, of Black.

And then he dies.

Here he sits, until his body is healed.

From the tomb he rises. Now he is empowered by the Hexcore, and at first I think he teeters on the edge of Black.

He is lost, aimless and emotionless.

And then the Rebirth, the Evolution. He saves the people he always wanted to help. He is renewed.

He touches Red Mana.

He is passionate about his dream, he is exploring new vistas and ignoring boundaries but not out of a desire to gain but to help. He puts himself in a vulnerable self sacrificing position for Warwick regardless of Skye’s knowledge of the systems limits

“He is worth the risk.”

He fosters a chaotic growth in his commune. A place of change and revolution and peace. A place where the Jeskai colors flourish. However there is no place for Green Mana here. At least not for Viktor. Viktor seeks to evolve and as he puts it,

“Evolution’s purpose is to supersede nature.”

Not a very Green ideology if you ask me.

This leads us to the Hammer of Damocles above Viktor.

Jayce.

Jayce for whatever reason (my theory on why is far too long to get into but basically Jayce is creating the future he saw by mistake, tragic consequences, three times the charm, etc.) decides that Viktor and what he has built needs to die. Regardless of if he was correct (I don’t believe he was for aforementioned reasons I won’t get into.) or not he has done damage. There is no going back.

Whether because of Singed or as I hope his own desperation, ambition, and need to evolve will push Viktor to his final state. This is when he will finally grasp Black Mana.

He will touch the Void, let go of his humanity and seek only progress. He gains the ambition and the stomach for violent action. Viktor was not born with power, he wasn’t handed power, no, as Silco once described Viktor must now take power by any means necessary.

To herald a new age, a new world.

To bring about the Grand Evolution.

[transmechanicus]

MESSMER DOWN ON THE FIRST TRY THROUGH THE SECOND PHASE LETS GOOOOO🎉🎉

[tallaroo]

sketch -> lineart + background -> base colors -> shading w/o effects

A little process on this beast. A total of eight-ish hours went into this with half of it being done last night in a moment of possession by the art demons

anyways a lot of the base details get hidden by rendering so enjoy what sits under.....98 layers of work :)

[mihai-florescu]

I am plagued by theatrical productions i'll never see... it's not like a book i can pick up at any point and return to with new insights as an omniscient reader. No one experiences a play the same but the momentality of it makes you more aware of your role, be it on stage or the audience, the story flows because of your presence at this exact moment. And there are countless plays at this very moment everywhere in the world, there is so much i will never know or experience? It will just be lost to time, to others' perception and memory?

[musubiki]

The beautiful face is how he presents himself. The fucked up magic rot is when his health meter hits halfway.

oh GOD!!!!! YOUR BRAIN OH GOD!!!!!!! PHASE 2!!!!!!!

[genderfluidneurodivergent]

Phases of the Moon Pt. 2

Remus had spent much of the last week in a makeshift window seat on the second floor. Although the cement he was sitting on was uncomfortable, it was better than running into Sirius, or interacting with anyone, really. He was able to get through a novel he’d been putting off reading, and he barely thought of Sirius. Barely. 

He watched through the window as Sirius and James chased each other on their brooms. They flew swiftly through the air, ducking and dodging each other, narrowly avoiding the walls of Hogwarts and the trees that seemed to be leaning away from them, more than the wind would allow.

They had made a few laps around the castle before Sirius came to a halt, in front of the window Moony was crouched in. 

“Hi,” he mouthed, his joy fading quickly, a sad smile replacing it. 

Remus wanted to reply, to fix things, but he also wanted to never see Sirius again, so he turned away, crawling out of the window and making his way back to his dorm. 

He staggered up the stairs, but they were always reluctant to let him up, instead leading him into the boys' dorms. This had always given Remus quite a bit of euphoria, but right now, he had somewhere to be. He willed the stairs to cooperate, making his way inside the dorm just before Sirius showed up. 

“You should really go talk to him,” Lily persuaded.

“You should go talk to him!” Remus shot back, standing at the counter.

“Why would that help anything?” Lily gave him a confused glare, continuing, “This is an issue you boys need to sort out on your own.” 

It’s times like these that Remus truly questioned whether Lily was actually twenty years older than the rest of them. 

Somehow, Sirius had once again reached the door to their dorm. Even Remus had to do some heavy bargaining with the stairs, and none of his excuses would work for Sirius.

“Let me in! Lils, I’m sober this time!” Moony raised an eyebrow in Lily’s direction as she reached for the door.

“You have to settle this, you can’t live the rest of your life wondering what could have happened.” Lily’s words struck a chord; as much as he really didn’t want to talk to Sirius, he’d thought about what he would have said or done differently quite a lot lately. 

The door swung open, Lily waved Sirius in, then retreated to her room. She mouthed “You got this” to Moony before closing her door. 

“Hello, Black,” Remus said, sitting in an armchair, leaving Sirius to take the couch, which was far too big for one person.

“Hello, Lupin,” he replied, looking from Moony’s platform boots, to their jeans, to one of their old jumpers, finally looking up at their face. They held an emotionless expression, moving their eyes to look slightly beyond Sirius.

“Moons, I really shouldn’t have said those things. I know that you wouldn’t cheat on me. And I would never think that you’d be shagging a Slytherin.”

“What, ‘cause you don’t think they’re dying to get their hands on me?” he fired back, and with a quick change in demeanour, he continued, “Why are you even here, Black? It’s not like you’re ever going to accept me as your boyfriend!”

“Well, I know damn well the Slytherins are dreaming of snogging you, and even more of them will want you when you show them who you really are,” Remus seemed shocked by this response, his eyes darting from Sirius to the floor.

He continued, “And I think maybe you’ll want one of them more than you want me,” he whispered, almost too quietly.

“I could never want anyone more than I want you,” Remus whispered back.

They sat in silence for a while, until Moony moved next to Sirius on the couch. He rested his head on Sirius’ shoulder, grinning.

[lesbianslovemorgott]

I forgot um. That second phases are a thing

[rainyfestivalsweets]

9/7/24

184.2

I stand corrected from yesterday- *this* is my lightest weigh in

184.2

Wow 👌

[ever-go-on]

i might be starting emdr soon

[steelthroat]

My artist grandpa approves of my transformers art and my sculptures and says I've gotten a lot better and is very happy...

So I guess I can die at peace with myself now :D

[gay-victorian-astronomer]

looking at this overleaf document is making me take morale damage

[mejomonster]

It just hit me how steamy Silent Reading I'd again. I gotta finish the novel

[thisloveforyourmom]

seeing online guides to beat Radiance is so fucking funny because every single one of them recommends the exact opposite of what i did. i used exclusively nail hits. i healed often. i didnt even have longnail or mark of pride me and my little baby boy were out here getting up close and personal with the moth god 100 times in a row and no i don't know how to use ddark i play keyboard and thats too many button inputs for me