A little process on this beast. A total of eight-ish hours went into this with half of it being done last night in a moment of possession by the art demons
anyways a lot of the base details get hidden by rendering so enjoy what sits under.....98 layers of work :)
I am plagued by theatrical productions i'll never see... it's not like a book i can pick up at any point and return to with new insights as an omniscient reader. No one experiences a play the same but the momentality of it makes you more aware of your role, be it on stage or the audience, the story flows because of your presence at this exact moment. And there are countless plays at this very moment everywhere in the world, there is so much i will never know or experience? It will just be lost to time, to others' perception and memory?
Currently on Day 4, 2.4 pounds down for this round.
Walk/run with the dogs yesterday, about 1.5 miles. Needed the sunshine and figured the dogs could use the fresh air too.
But storytime--- afternoon:
I took 2 giant mugs of tea to my niece's cross country meet. I am trying to make sure I support her school functions too- not just the boys football. Just because our society deems women less valuable doesn't mean I should. *I* want her to grow up to know she is loved and valued beyond, so that when she comes of age and gets into relationships, she knows better than to settle for the stupid shit I have settled for. 2 apparent narcs. 1 great gf, but celibacy.
Anyway, I arrive just in time to see her cross the finish line like a freaking stud cupcake!!! Great timing. I visit with her and her momma a little bit and we prepare to leave.
My 2nd mug of tea is still too warm to drink so I left the lid off trying to get it to cool off a bit. I have a great idea and add some of the sf smores coffee syrup to it & hop into my vehicle.
I decide to drive to the bathrooms because I parked goofy and am having trouble getting out the other way. I start driving in this parking lot and SPILL THE MUG OF TEA ALL OVER MY LAP.
Fuck!! It burns!
I catch it, set it upright, look to find a parking spot and SPILL IT AGAIN.
Dammit.
I wanted that tea!!!
But also- it is HOT and now all over my lap AND my car. Shit shit shit and I have no towels or anything to wipe it up with.
The walk of shame to the bathrooms as I appear to have pissed myself. 😤 I checked for burns and was ok... but now discombobulated and very sticky. Now my car smells like a s'more.
The night got a little weird from there. I am in a weird headspace. I go to TJ Maxx because traffic is awful, and I wanted to pick up more ginseng.
I did a quick shop and got back to the car because I have to get back to work when I get home.
But! I forgot to take my Nomorbidity, which I normally take in the early afternoon, so I am hungrier than normal.
I had a burger salad with my meal prepped turkey and pork mix, and went back for more meat because I was still... hungry, hankering? Unsatisfied? Something.
I also had 2 hard candies, sf lemon from dollar tree, and 2 sf popsicles while mom and I watched unfrosted. And an orange, which is allowed.
So... while the day threw me for a loop, I did ok. And boom, today is my lightest weigh in.
I am working on keeping going, I am so close to my ultimate goals. Keep going keep going keep going!! 💪
seeing online guides to beat Radiance is so fucking funny because every single one of them recommends the exact opposite of what i did. i used exclusively nail hits. i healed often. i didnt even have longnail or mark of pride me and my little baby boy were out here getting up close and personal with the moth god 100 times in a row and no i don't know how to use ddark i play keyboard and thats too many button inputs for me