#partly because you can't buy anything with less than that these days

[thegayestofagendas]

People are so fucking heartless and disrespectful when it comes to people panhandling. 2 dudes, can't be much older than me, were asking for a bit of cash in front of the dollar store in my town. A couple walks by, they ask if he's got a bit of change to spare. The man of the couple kinda gleefully says he doesn't, his wife fucking tells him "you don't have to answer them" loud enough that I, and likely the 2 dudes, heard her.

The fuck you don't? Dudes are just dudes asking for some help. Like fuck the glee when telling a guy you can't spare a bit of change, but also fuck the idea that you shouldn't talk to a guy asking for a bit of help. It cost nothing to say "sorry I don't". They are people with likely no better options. Be fucking nice.

[wannaeatramyeon]

Lookism Boys (+ Taehoon + Wangguk) being ill + YOU looking after them hc

Gun Park, Goo Kim, Samuel Seo, Jake Kim, Vin Jin, Johan Seong, Seong Taehoon, Han Wangguk

Gun Park

He is self-sufficient to the core.

Does not need any looking after.

You offer to run out and buy medicine? No need, he is stocked better than a pharmacy.

Reminders to hydrate? He's had 2 litres already and it's not even midday.

You don't need to tell him to rest, his body is his temple and he takes the utmost care.

Some homemade food though? Oh. Well. You can't buy homemade.

Him lying all fever brained on your lap as you watch TV or whatever? That's not so bad neither.

You running a bath for him? Thanks. That's thoughtful.

Huh, he thinks maybe it's not so bad relying on someone other than himself.

Goo Kim

Clingy and fussy-

But you knew that already, being his partner.

Treats you as his hot water bottle one moment, the next will kick you away saying he's too warm.

He expects to be babied, and he expects your full attention. So please drop everything and tend to him now.

If you could also run your fingers through his hair and let him lie on you for the next few hours, that would also be great.

And if you can put his favourite show on that would also be appreciated.

You trying to watch something else once he's sleeping? No chance. He is wide awake and pouting at you.

At least he will give you the same treatment when you're ill.

Samuel Seo

Samuel is not ill.

How dare you imply he is in anything but peak physical condition

That's not a cough, that's not a sniffle, and he is not flushed.

There's something wrong with the thermometer, he is fine.

Nothing is wrong with his voice (as he slowly loses it through the day...)

Will take a lot of persuading and convincing to rest up

"Yes, there will be other people to pick up your work. And no, it's not a personal slight to say that you are sick."

You have to pry his laptop and tablet and phone from his fingers.

Of course, that's easy. His strength is waning in his current state.

"Shhh Sammy, go to bed." Tuck him in. lay next to him, pet his hair.

He'll soon be napping next to you, holding you tight.

Jake Kim

Also complete denial at first.

He is the head of Big Deal, he cannot be sick.

That SINU! sneeze is not a front. That is actually how he sneezes.

Phelgm and snot everywhere. It's pretty repulsive to be honest.

After one too many sneezes, and everyone flinching the hell away from him, Jerry carries him home to you.

Wants to be babied, wants to be fussed, wants your complete attention.

Goes about it in a slightly less obnoxious way, but he's so adorable, even trying to give you a wink in his current state so you can't say no.

Pads around the home following you, blanket wrapped around him, tissue shoved up his nose.

Might as well give up whatever you're doing and tend to your boyfriend.

But Jake would absolutely do the same for you.

Vin Jin

This fucking guy-

Demanding and a little shit.

If you let him, he would take absolute full advantage.

Would run you in circles doing things for him.

"Y/N I want some water, Y/N where's my medicine, Y/N I need some chocolate, Y/N I need a burger." "What?? Shouldn't you eat something.. healthier?" "No babe, the body wants what it wants."

Will flop all over you, lying on your lap, your chest. Partly because he finds you comforting, partly because he's a little asshole.

"Sing me a lullaby" "Uh... ok." You sing. "Actually, no shut up babe you sound like shit."

Once he falls asleep, his breath laboured and cheeks flushed, you can't help but think ok, he's pretty cute. Only when unconscious though.

Will still keep his sunglasses on the whole time. "Just in case someone ambushes me." "WHO?!"

Johan Seong

Way too ill and low in energy to put up any of his usual defenses. Will revert back to a little meow meow.

You are absolutely not allowed out of sight.

In fact, you are not allowed out of arm's reach.

Will cling to you like a koala, that is a fact.

Actually, you might as well all stay in bed, Eden and Miro included because you are guaranteed to not get anything done.

Even cooking is only a possibility. Hopefully you have all medicine stocked, and some decent, cheap, healthy take-outs nearby.

Because if Johan wakes up from his nap and you're not there, he will be sulking for a year straight.

The only excuse?

"Johan, I need to walk Eden and Miro." grumble grumble "Ok... but be back quick?"

Seong Taehoon

The grumpiest babygirl you have ever seen.

It's a goddamn good job you love him because my god, this guy!

Equal parts bad-tempered and clingy

A bit like how he usually is, to be honest, but turned up to the MAX.

Go away, you're crowding him one second, he's all up in your face wanting cuddles the next.

And the fact that he's not allowed to train?

Good lord, don't anger it further. It's not like he's in any fit state to train anyway but he will still be fuming about it.

No Taekwondo, no arcade. He might as well just DIE.

At least he's still got his other favourite thing - you. This placates him a little.

Han Wangguk

Wangguk does not get sick, Wangguk is the caretaker.

Other people get ill and he looks after them.

"No, seriously, Wangguk. You're burning up. Go back to bed!"

Needs a lot of goading to actually rest. Even then, he doesn't fully rest.

He keeps a watchful eye over you, just in case you need him.

After he gets used to it? Absolutely loves it.

You making some food for him, grabbing him medicine, gentle cuddles, forehead smooches, even taking care of Gyeoul?!

He really could get used to this.

Is a puddle, constantly leaning on you and wanting to be close.

After this, he always enjoys being ill. Only a tad. It's a way for him to be spoilt guilt-free by you.

[devilfic]

Could you write some fluffy headcanons about Edward Nashton when he was still in the orphanage? I just want little choir boy Eddie to get some affection

❝young!edward nashton headcanons❞

pairing: edward nashton x gn!reader. cw: none! words: 1.2k.

a/n: ngl, this one is a little difficult because almost all of edward's life in the orphanage was awful asfkaskfj but I'll try! this is more edward centric than x reader bc I wasn't sure if that's what you wanted. these headcanons jump around from childhood to when eddie is a teenager.

I like to think edward always had really severe bedhead which he would not take care of at all

the exception being if it was for mass, but this used to get him in trouble with the wardens a lot

until one year he just buzzed it all off bc he was sick of getting yelled at about it all the time.... except all the wardens were DEVASTATED

"your hair fit you so well :(((" "why would you do that? it looked really nice when you combed it"

the wardens were rarely ever nice to him so he was very taken aback by this

so he eventually let it grow out again and started. kinda taking pride in his hair?

there wasn't a lot he could do with what little the orphanage had to go around, but sometimes with the money he'd get from his delivery job, he'd buy some nice hair gel and do his hair really neat before leaving for the day. eventually he would get compliments about how nice and soft it was and sometimes pretty people at school would ask to touch it which used to send his little heart into OVERDRIVE

tried growing it down to his shoulders ONE time but he eventually had to invest in hair ties and that was just way too much work

I can't remember if his hobbies are ever mentioned in the before the batman novel but since paul dano is a movie buff in real life, I think it would be cute if eddie was too

when he would get some money, he'd cut class to go to matinee showings and have the time of his life

it was nice bc it was somewhere he could be alone for a few hours and he could always afford a little escapism

the nights where his mind was still fresh with a movie he'd seen earlier in the day were some of the easier ones

sometimes he'd lay up in bed replaying them over and over in his head until he conked out for the night

and sometimes, when the really young kids couldn't fall asleep at night, he'd recite the plot of the movies he saw as bedtime stories

the older kids are awful to him but the younger kids? they love his bedtime stories

(he also might've gotten reported to the wardens about cutting class to see movies but his grades are so good that if they call about him skipping out on a class every now and then, some of the teachers will just straight up lie for him)

(and I mean, he gets really good grades. as long as he passes his classes and isn't getting into anything bad, they couldn't care less)

ironically, his time as a choir boy made him want to join a rock band as a kid

edward probably had a cheap little cd player he kept close to his heart and a secret stash of cds hidden in one of the ceiling tiles in the boys' bathroom that he'd pull out when he was alone and just lose himself in the music

I also like to think he's a fan of math rock and midwest emo because why wouldn't he be

once he got too old to be a choir boy, he started taking lessons from the organist just so he could do something with his hands

but you know what he'd really love to play if he could? the bass

if he'd had the money (and the assurance no one would destroy it), he would've loved to get a bass and just shred on it all hours of the night

(I'd like to think older eddie puts some of that accountant money toward one and it's one of his prized possessions. he may not be the best at it, but he can play his favorite songs and that's much better than nearer my god to thee)

(he definitely sings under his breath too while he plays, partly because his neighbors would complain if he sang any louder and partly because he hasn't really gotten used to losing that choir boy voice)

(this is definitely inspired by the fact that paul is in a band btw)

very eloquent writer!! he used to write poems and songs as a kid that he'd run by his english teacher after class to get advice on

he's written a few secret admirer love letters to crushes over the years with that skill. he never had the guts to reveal he was the one behind them, but he preferred the reveals in his head where they at least could never go wrong

truth was, he'd slip in some riddles from time to time and it almost surely gave him away, but none of his crushes ever outed him on it and that was a small victory

used to take naps in church when he could get away with it but his snore would always give him away

(can you imagine that being why no one liked him. no edward, the orphanage kids didn't hate you because you liked riddles, they hated you because you snore too loud)

near insatiable sweet tooth which he carries into adulthood

teachers would sneak him bags of candy on his birthday that he'd guard with his LIFE so the other kids wouldn't steal any

the wardens would also have to save money on birthday cakes so sometimes all the kids born in a month would all share one cake, but sometimes one of the wardens would save him an extra slice without the other kids knowing if he helped her with her crossword puzzles or filing her taxes

if this takes place in the first snow universe, I'd also like to think that tween-age eddie would sneak out at night to come see you at your place

you'd wait for the tell-tale sign he was there—a small pebble at your window, followed by two more just to be clear, and then you'd rush downstairs to let him slip in through the backdoor

you'd share the leftovers from dinner in your room, laughing under the sheets as you shoot "would you rather"s at each other for as long as you have breath in your giggling little lungs

(you'd almost been caught a few times, and as eddie got older and as he eventually started climbing through your window when his legs got long enough, the rush of hiding under your bed while your father asked what all the noise was about would get him a little lightheaded)

sometimes you two would even lay in bed with the bedroom door locked (when you were old enough to get away with doing that), sharing your fears and worries and ambitions for the future

and you'd always fall asleep first

and he would just lay there, content, facing you, watching your smushed face in the pillow and your hand still half gripping at his wrist over something funny he'd said ten minutes earlier

he'd always tuck you back in tight and sneak out the back door bc he didn't want to leave the window open in the winter, and he surely didn't want to wake you to close it

your mother sometimes saw, but she never said a thing about it to you, and you and edward were both too confidently stupid and young to think you'd been caught

and if you noticed that she always made just a little too much extra at dinner these days... well, nothing really needed to be said about that

taglist: @yikes-buddy @alexxavicry @theclassicvinyldragon @marina-and-the-memes @angxlictexrs

[moo-rin]

Pajama party! Mori & Satoru & Suguru

✮⋆˙ What do you need after a long day? These three definitely want to goof off together.

✮⋆˙ Buying completely ridiculous pajamas, junk food, and a stupid show. Satoru tries to imitate some stupid tricks, Mori grunts, laughing at him, and Suguru records it all on his phone.

✮⋆˙ Mori doesn't need to be able to speak normally for them to know that she's just laughing hysterically.

✮⋆˙ Suguru can't stop laughing when Mori starts playing along with Satoru. And then the two of them end up doing something incredibly stupid.

✮⋆˙ Going to get ice cream in the middle of the night in these stupid pajamas because Satoru and Mori are too lazy to change their clothes.

✮⋆˙ Running back to the dorm when one of them really needs to go to the bathroom while Suguru grumbles.

✮⋆˙ Sometimes it feels like babysitting two naughty kids. Suguru tries to talk Satoru and Mori out of their mischief. But the two are already dragging him to get on Nanami and Haibara's nerves.

✮⋆˙ The three of them run after each other, it's partly like training, when each uses their own damn technique to catch up with the other. It's all so pointless, but they just don't want to sleep, much less strain their thoughts to do anything more.

✮⋆˙ Upon returning to Satoru's room, all three are exhausted from sleepiness. They finish all the fast food they had.

✮⋆˙ They watch some random movie that Satoru found (it seems they started watching it more than once), but fall asleep after ten minutes, stretched out on the futon that they bought especially for sleepovers.

[paullovescomics]

I'm partial to the "return to physical media" sentiment, partly because the problems with streaming and digital-only have become glaring, and also out of general cantankerousness. A few recent pieces have pointed out how unsustainable streaming appears to be, and the real problems it has caused for people who work in the entertainment industry (talking here about production crews, writers, and the 90-odd percent of actors who aren't top-billers). One of the arguments in this discussion that goes "now streaming costs as much as cable used to". It's very easy to just subscribe to one or two, watch what you want to watch, then cancel the subscription and try a different one. There may be a small number of people who feel compelled to buy lots of streaming services so they can keep up with everything, but presumably they would also feel the same about all the extra cable channels, so they'd be paying for the highest level cable tier and HBO, Cinemax, and so on.

But I went to my local cable monopoly's website to see what it costs now. Maybe they've cut prices since so many folks have cut the cord. Nope. The lowest-priced tier was $65. Even if you only bought the higher-priced streaming services, you could get four easy and have some change left over, and each one of those would have literally thousands of hours of stuff to watch. Plus, with cable you either have to watch it on their schedule, or pay for a DVR (or I guess it's a digital equivalent now) and hope that it actually catches the shows it's supposed to. And of course it's going to come with a lot of channels I'd never watch, and chances are good all of them include F-- News, which I do not want to support in any way.

So I think I'll stick with streaming for the foreseeable future. Between YouTube, Twitch, and Tubi, there's more than enough "free with ads" streaming. And I'm cool with only subbing to Paramount when there's new Lower Decks or Strange New Worlds, or Disney when there's a new Star Wars show (though I admit i'm mad about Acolyte not getting renewed, so I might be less eager to go back to that one). If AEW goes to HBO Max, even if it streams a week after the cable broadcast, I'll jump on that.

Not to mention that I don't have a real tv these days. After my last one died (only lasted a couple of years), I just stuck with my lap top. I really don't like modern TVs. The sound is awful, they look boring, and you can't do shit without the remote. Also, and I know I'm in the minority here, and my age is a big factor here since i grew up with TV looking a certain way, but the super HD picture looks fake to me. Watching a show where everything is perfectly lit, hardly even any shadows anywhere, everyone's make-up immaculate, sets where everything is perfectly in its place and there's not a mote of dust on anything makes it all feel very artificial. And I'm not the type to demand immersiveness (often when people talk about being immersed, or especially ads that promote a thing as immersive, I'm not sure I even know what they're talking about). I'm very aware that people on the screen are playing make believe and Im' being told a story by other people. That's a good thing, because I appreciate the storytelling skills of all these people, and the whole reason I seek out stories is to be told a good story. But these ultra high def things just look so fake. The fact that I've worn glasses since elementary school might play into it, too. There are few moments when the world I see doesn't have some fuzziness in it, at least at the edges.

[zumer-feygele]

I think this is partly true and partly that tumblr skews queer poor and introverted which makes them waaaaaaay less likely to engage in the traditional teenage risktaking behaviors

I think its a combo of 

more surveillance of teens via social media, security cameras, and family surveillance (phone locations, home security cameras, etc etc) 

Authorities really cracking down on teen delinquency by really enforcing anti-truancy measures and imposing anti-teen policies

Stranger danger fear messaging hugely restricting the independence children and teens are culturally allowed. 

Kids these days are under immense pressure even in high school because the job market and colleges are so competitive and surveillance so easy. You can't get a job with out a college degree, and you can't get into college unless you did perfect in high school, and if you did anything your boss or college or client doesn't like on social media they can dig it up and deny/fire you over it.

And of course the rising cost of everything combined with stagnant wages.

Gen X and Millenials didnt have better transportation or more walkable cities, it was just cheaper and easier to buy a car and groups of teens were allowed to hang out places.

I think the reason it seems like that is that nowadays the suburbs and not the city are the cheap place to live, and its waaaaaaaay harder to be poor and/or carless in the suburbs than the city. 

Also, years of education about the risks of drunk driving has made gen z way less willing to all pile into their one friend's car when they have all been drinking.

Maybe this is the wrong platform to pose this question given the average tumblr user but

Is it just me or did our generation (those of is who are currently 20-30 ish) just not get the opportunity to be young in the 'standard' sense?

Like, everyone I talk to who's over 40 has all their wild stories about their teens and 20s, being young and dumb, and then I talk to my friends and coworkers and classmates, and we just... dont.

[ineedthesons]

NSFW Ron Tully

I've also written one for my more reformed!Tully, apparently, that I haven't quite finished. This might be closer to a canon interpretation. Thanks for the inspiration, @a-lawless-son-among-hate!

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex): Tully's a cuddler and won't even deny it. If his partner isn't into it, well. They might learn to enjoy it because he's not letting them go until he's good and ready.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s): Tully's an ass man when it comes to partners. Himself? His hands and his voice, and what they can do to a person to make them bend to his will.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically): He enjoys marking his partner with it, whether that's on the inside or on the outside. Tully won't be cum on or in himself, though he's tasted it before and is really not a fan of that.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)*: Tully is in no way submissive but he loves the idea of getting his cock locked up in a chastity belt. Also despite claiming to be strictly Kinsey 6, he's probably closer to a 4. Women can do it for him, they just don't, most of the time.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?): He's a whore. Tully can have anyone he wants in prison, and takes advantage of that privilege.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying): Most of the time Tully does it doggy-style, just like his Great Great Granddaddy, though it's more for the power rush than it is the anonymity. When he's feeling particularly lazy or indulgent, he likes cowboy. No kissing though.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? Etc.): Depends on his partner and the circumstances. A punk he's comfortable with, and comfortable with him? He's silly, teases them in all the ways. Indulges what they like too. Surprisingly relaxed. But one he's not used to, is conducting a “business transaction” with for one reason or another? He's more serious.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? Etc.): As much as he can, anyway, he keeps himself trimmed. Partly for sex, and partly because swamp-ass in a California prison is a real, painful danger. But he has to pay big bucks to be allowed a razor for as long as he needs, so he goes as long without as he can stand it.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect): Less romantic, because you can't be romantic in prison. But he's kind of sweet, not as mean as people really expect him to be even with a punk. At the end of the day its about his pleasure first, which informs how he acts around his partner. But he never lies about it; his sexual partners will always know its about him first.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon): If he doesn't have a partner (rare) and he's not busy (rarer) he'll jack off at night for relief and to kill some time before sleep. Only at night, though; its weird and rude to do it during the day where other inmates can see.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks): Likes to be called Daddy or a variation thereof. Power exchange in general is his thing. Surprisingly he's not into race play in the slightest. It just brings too much of work into the bedroom. He also has a thing for taking virginities, though honestly he wishes he could do it more often with willing partners. But business is business. Tully does try to make it good for them.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do): Private conjugal room, when he can buy one. Otherwise its wherever he can get some privacy for a while.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going): Not quite as horny as a teen anymore, it does take him a minute to get going. Which is good, because he's surrounded by half-naked men most of the day and it wouldn't do anything for his image to walk around with a hard-on all the time. He loves to dirty talk, though, and that gets him hard real fast.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs): Submitting, bottoming, whatever you want to call it is a hard limit. Not that he hasn't tried, but on the inside you're considered weak if you take it up the ass. Other hard limits include

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.) : Knows how to give, but will only receive. Really likes it sitting up with his partner on their knees between his legs. Like he's some kind of royalty. Admittedly in the prison hierarchy he kind of is, but it's about the look more than anything.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? Etc.): Usually fast and rough by necessity, but Tully much prefers it slow and sensual. Its a lucky punk who gets that, because it means that he's got time and he likes them.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.): Again, his usual couplings are quickies by necessity. Does actually enjoy them, especially when he can bend over his partner and whisper dirty things in their ear while he's rushing toward climax.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? Etc.): Sex in prison is highly risky in and of itself. He doesn't like it, though, so he takes all precautions not to be bothered during the act. On the outside he's still pretty cautious though he does loosen up a bit. Acts that are new to him, as long as he's safe one way or another and doesn't cross his hard limits, he's usually willing to try.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?): Average. Not a one-pump chump nor can he last forever. Usually has two or three rounds in him if his partner's willing.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?): Not in prison, though he does occasionally improvise with things such as pillowcases as arm binders. On the outside, well. He's a very big fan of them; using them on his partner and on himself both and has a variety for a variety of purposes. He's got a big ol' toy chest waiting for him when he gets out of Stockton.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease): Not big on being teased much, though a little from a willing partner is fine. He loves to tease when he can though, to heighten sensation for both himself and a partner. Just hardly any ability for it in Stockton so he doesn't do it often. Mindfucks are for work-related reasons only. Again lying to his punks seem wrong, and head games are a kind of lying, to him.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.): Quiet. Not silent, just low in volume. Grunts, moans, and his filthy mouth are there, just not loud enough for everyone else to hear. Again, its rude and kind of weird.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)*: Despite being gay, he's been married and it wasn't even a beard situation. Tully really did love her; it just didn't work out. They don't talk except through lawyers, on the rare occasion they need to.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes): Grower, not a shower. He has some nice girth to him; lube is a must for both parties.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?): Tully's sex drive has lowered as he's aged, but still has needs. Once a day/night is about where he's most comfortable.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards): Cuddly but usually can't fall asleep after when someone is there. At least on the inside, its too dangerous for Tully to drop those metaphorical walls. He doesn't mind if a partner does or doesn't fall asleep though, but if they do that's when he tries to go back to his own cell. On the outside, if he trusts you, he'll sleep properly after a good solid session of naked cuddling.

*Additional/Alternative: One is possibly triggering, so it is beneath a cut:

Wild Card: Unlike Granddaddy Chris, he's out and proud about his homosexuality. How it jives with the neo-Nazi thing, he hasn't really figured out how to explain it to himself, much less anyone else. Just jokes that he knows he'll be first against the wall when white power finally makes their move to take back the country, and changes the subject.

Dirty Secret: Tully had a physical relationship with his twin brother until their late teens. Wonders now if he could ever have one again, or if he's lost that forever.

[gaymershigh]

hi! can i request riddle, ace, epel, deuce, and floyd finding out their male s/o is an age regressor to cope with stress? pls make it fluffy!! (also it's ok if you can't do my request !! /genuine)

Despite this being so long in my inbox for so long, I'm actually pretty excited to do this one, anonnie! However, this is a shorter since I don't fully know about age regressing, sorry about that! ಥ_ಥ

Triggers: none

Riddle, Ace, Epel, Deuce and Floyd discovering their male s/o is an age regressor

He was always the one who gets stressed out from his dorm members so you're probably the one that needs to comfort him if anything but it doesn't mean he doesn't know how to comfort you as well.

But that doesn't mean he automatically knows what to do when he's finds this information about you, though. He has learned several things throughout his garbage childhood but age regression is not one of it.

When Trey said it's been days since you looked drained and tired from what he presumely was because of you studying for the final exam and just prefect duties in general. This got him worried because you're his lover and obviously he doesn't want to see you worried.

When he did check up with you, he was loss for words. There were coloring books everywhere and then there's you connecting dots to finish the drawing of the book.

This is probably the times you are really stressed and of course he wants to help at all cost but he really doesn't know what to do. Of course, with your little explanation, everything gets a little bit easier to handle.

He didn't really have a good parent role models and the only thing that his mother did to him was celebrating his birthdays and sometimes act nice. He's not gonna act like that of course but he might accidentally project what his mother has done to you and if he did, he will be on his knees and apologize.

He'll do research's about things he should do with children/toddler/infant around your age. He wants you to feel fully comfortable on age regressing around him, this could also help him with parenting if you two would ever consider adopting or so.

Dating Ace won't save you from all the chaos and disasters from this school and he DEFINITELY won't stop from causing any trouble and stressing you out unintentionally.

To be honest, you're a whole different breed of alien if you don't get stressed out at the slightest by your boyfriend and friend's shenanigans. Not only do you have to deal with daily disarray but you also have prefect duties to be doing thanks to that deatbead of a principal.

You always run up to the dorm as soon as you had finish your tasks from headmaster. At the first few times you did it he didn't really give one. You probably want to sleep since it's just tiring but as more day passes by, Ace gets more pissed. You have been lessening your time with him and barely even check your phone.

He gets it, you're tired and all but he's a selfish bastard and wants your love 24/7. So when you kept ending your calls with him very early and he HAD it. So when he barged in to your room, my man went stiff. You were just in the middle of playing with some toys until he interrupted your little session.

"Uh, what are you doing?"

Just by telling him you're age regressing, he already knows what's up and what to do for some reason. He be sprinting to Sam's shop, not caring the weird looks he's getting from buying all these children/toddler type stuff. Does he care? HELL NO! You're his top priority at the current moment and this might be some way to spend time, no?

He'll dote and spoil you to bits. You're so cute, there's no way he could ever say no to your little self! Cuddles? Of course! New toys? Definitely! Headpats? Say no more! He'll love you and treat you like the lovely prince.

He sometimes accidentally forget that you can change to your big self and you'll have to remind him. He once treated you like a baby when you're in your bedroom, thinking you are still in your little self. It was awkward and he wished and beg for you to not speak about it ever again.

He was probably forced to take care of a baby in his hometown back then. Though, this doesn't mean he's automatically good at taking care of kids. If anything, he's horrible at it. He hadn't learned much from that babysitting experience.

Now, when he discovered that you age regress, those terrible memories of the baby crying up a storm comes back but this is potentially a time for him to enhance his babysitting skills, maybe? He freaking hopes so, he doesn't want to be a lost cause.

He's the one that always gets stressed and always in the lowest from the VDC practice. The burden that Vil keeps throwing on him makes him so worked up, he doesn't even see you getting also a tiny bit stressed from both manager duties and just watching others getting pressured in general.

You've been holding it back for awhile to turn to your little self in worries of getting caught. He finally notices when Ace asked if you're ok because you seemed like you're struggling with something. He got super suspicious when you kept brushing him off.

He thinks that you're just uncomfortable to talk about in public or it's something so private that even talking about it to your friends is a no-no. So when you're in your bedroom, he'll pester about you to spill the beans.

So when you did and explained to him what age regressing, he just let out a simple "oh". He doesn't know what to do other than asking questions on what you like to do. Please be straightforward with your answer because he's garbage at reading hearts and also just looks tragic when taking care of people younger than him.

He forces you that you're going to be little but in little and have to lock the door if you do because you need to let the stress go. He will also ask you if you're little subtly if your signs of being little is not as obvious.

He will learn how to take care of you and buy the things you like by looking at the things you already have or have a lot of quantity. He's not the best at taking care but he's getting better so give him a clap for that.

No little kid in their right mind would approach him when he's in his middle school days, meaning that he has have not a single interaction with a kid that could be remembered. If anything, they'll run the second he tries to even approach them. Sure, he now has experience with talking to kids but it's so painfully awkward it hurts your soul.

He knows what little space is but only the meaning of it and nothing else. He thought that people only do this because they want to literally go back to old memories which is partly true but that's not enough. You must educate this fool.

Just like Ace, you're not safe from the disasters of the school and your own boyfriend's idiocy. Him being less smart than Ace doesn't help it either. You're the god of patience if you can handle all of the messes both you, your friends and boyfriend have caused. Also again, you're something else if you can handle all the prefect duties from Crowley because he sucks.

You usually have study sessions with him so you can help him get better at history and other subject he sucks at and this could also help you memorise and learn new things as well. Though, you're have been either showing up late or keep coming up with excuses when you just don't attend at all. He's getting really impatient but doesn't want to sound like an asshole so he just deals with it.

You got caught for being little while in call without realizing. He swear he thought he can speak baby/toddler language when he spoke to you when you're still immersed in your little toys.

He ran to your room in Usain Bolt pace to your place, worried sick for you. You were finally back to your original state and explain the situation to avoid any stupid conclusions that he possibly can come up with. He was shocked when he found out this is a way to cope with stress. He asked will it help him too and if he should do it, are you against it or are you all up for it? Your choice.

He googled about how to deal with you when you're little and it miraculously help! Kinda. I mean, he knows what things to but for you and how to kinda get along with your activities. How to dote and actually treat you like your younger self? Eh...not so much but just like Epel, he's learning but not as fast as the purple haired boy. Still, praise him for putting this much effort!

It's known that he's spectacular with kids. Despite his intimidating height, he knows exactly what do without even making a single kid quiver in fear. He's way more experienced than anyone here and knows how to deal with age regressing people without himself even knowing it.

He does know what age regressing fully is just like Ace. Just say the word and he's lock and loaded with bunch of children activities that you two could do. He makes sure he brings the "fun" ones only according to his taste.

Being the manager for the VDC competition is such a burden, you knew it will be stressful but NOT this bad. From listening to others' worries to knowing the fact that there's nothing you can do at all about Vil's strictness. Watching others being in dilemmas while you're forced to sit back, watching your friends and peers at the lowest shatters your heart.

You feel absolutely useless and you hate it and telling your boyfriend about your problems won't help that much either. If anything, you don't want to annoy Floyd by seeing you in such a downer state so what's the best option? Don't spend too much time to the point of showing your problems until VDC is over! Definitely a good horrendous idea.

You didn't really think this through when he gets annoyed that you're being non-commital and looks like you really want to get out of here. He'll let it slide for a bit, thinking you're not in the mood like him sometimes but when it keeps happening consistently, he's had enough. He wants answers asap.

You should've expected him questioning and being unable to hide things from him. Since you know it's technically useless to hide things from him at this point. Might as well tell the whole thing, in a private place of course. There's no way you can let anyone else hear your little secret.

The only thing he asked is to confirm that you're age regressing. Once you say yes, he immediately goes down to business. You want that dino toy? Purchased. You don't know which playdough set you want? Out of stock. You want a kids meal type of food? All ready and served. He's really doing all this for you and wants to spoil you rotten. In exchange for cuddles and some praises of course!

Like I said before, he doesn't want your activities while being little to be quitet and dull. So he bought every single game that suitable at your little self's age and very fun for him. Get ready, because you're going to have a bomb of a time with him!

You could potentially be taller than him but he's going to pick you up and doing little circles like you're an actual baby. He'll coo you and everything, he makes the experience like you're actually back in childhood which is an amazing job.

Since there's people in your dorm thanks to the boot camp and he really wants you to be fully and all, he's going to let you be in his room so you can be his little self. Ain't no way some dumb boot camp will stop you from having a fun time with Floyd!

Can you tell that I got a sudden energy boost when writing Floyd's part? Lol~

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Three Days ~82

~*~Emma~*~

I awoke to see Sebastian laying on his side, leaning onto his elbow, with his head propped up on his hand. Diffuse sunlight filled the room and clearly showed me his face. He didn’t look sleepy. His face was relaxed with the slightest smile. Who knows how long he'd been watching me sleep. That thought made me smile.

He jerked his head up a little, "Tell me what you're thinking."

"I like seeing you when I wake up and knowing you'll be the last person I see before I fall asleep. And I'm excited about everything in between."

"The Louvre, dinner on the Seine, cabaret. Fun day."

I shook my head with a frown, "No, not what we're doing. I'm excited to spend the day with you." Sebastian closed his eyes, smiled a little wider, and took a few breaths. I knew what he was doing. He was taking in my words, feeling them, believing them. Before he opened his eyes, I moved closer to kiss him. "Je t'aime."

"I know that one." His fingers ran through my hair, smoothing the morning disarray. "In how many languages can you tell me you love me?"

I gasped and held my mouth open, "Just three, but now I have a goal."

"Crazy girlfriend."

I rolled on top of him, "Just about you." I did exactly what you’re supposed to do when you're naked in bed laying on top of a naked man.

I tickled him.

Our tickle fight lasted until we were laughing so hard it was hard to breathe. That and when Sebastian pinned my hands to the bed. "Je veux te faire l 'amour." He kissed me and pressed his erection closer between my legs. "I have a good memory too."

I don't know how it gets better than this. Waking up in Paris, with a gorgeous man watching me sleep, making love, then sitting on the terrace in big fluffy robes having coffee and croissants.

The guide at The Louvre was knowledgeable but a little stuffy. We spent much of the tour hanging back with another couple laughing inappropriately. The museum was incredible and we stayed around after the tour to revisit areas and check out some places not included. Sebastian liked items where I was mesmerized by the vibrant colors of the paintings. Lunch today would become our go-to. Pick up something near to and find a spot to sit in the park. Food and people watching was always a good time.

We headed back to the hotel to fool around before dressing for dinner. On the boat, we were seated by the window. We headed to the upper deck with a glass of wine for sunset. Last night's sunset view was unforgettable for many reasons. Tonight's was more beautiful with the lights of the city and bridges. It was romantic in a more refined way. Last night was casual clothes sneaking kisses in the dark. Tonight was dressed up, high heels, and elegant stemware. Kisses weren't as sneaky in the wide open space. The food was delicious. We started with duck foie gras and Scottish salmon. My main was scallops with sweet potato risotto and seaweed cream. Sebastian promised to save me from the seaweed if it triggered me. He went for a filet of beef, pea pudding, and veal gravy. The aroma from the fresh bread with the cheese course was mouth watering. Sebastian enjoyed my excitement and took more pictures of me eating cheese than anything else except drinking wine. For dessert, we decided one decadent and one fresh. A white chocolate raspberry lychee sphere and lemon basil tart. I nearly had to stab Sebastian with a fork for hogging all the sphere. The return trip was dark. Only the lights of the city and running lights illuminated to boat.

The night included a visit to a cabaret. That the Moulin Rouge was more touristy led us to the Crazy Horse. Still famous, but not the most sought after. We'd been told the Moulin Rouge was over the top and Crazy Horse more subtle. That may be true, but one important detail was left out. The dancers at the Crazy Horse were often naked. Sexy dance numbers, visual effects, and vibrant light shows. At times the lights were the only clothes. Darkness was used strategically as was glow in the dark body paint. What I noticed was all the women were in Louboutin, which lead me to believe the lingerie was expensive as well. There was a part with a very good looking man stripping. It was more funny than sexy. The combination of erotic dance and risqué humor kept both of us entertained

We talked about our favorite parts on the ride back to the hotel. Sebastian opened the door, letting me walk by into the hotel, "Is it wrong that I asked where the lingerie was from?"

"I wondered, but didn't think to ask. I loved the black bodysuit with all the straps."

"So did I."

Imagine my shocked face. You'd have to imagine because I wasn’t making that face. I waited until we were in the room to ask, "Did you find out where this shop is?"

He pulled his phone out and went to maps. A slow smile formed, "About two blocks. Across from Dior."

I folded my legs under me and sat on the couch. "Fun."

He sat next to me. He was fiddling with the bottom hem of his shirt. He was nervous. "Are you running up a crazy credit card bill to amuse me?"

What a sweety. My recent shopping habits didn’t match my teacher salary. I guess we were going to have this conversation. "My grandfather has it set up where his stock dividends are split between the grandchildren. It's paid out quarterly and there's no way to know how much, so I've never factored it into my budget. It goes into a savings account. I have a rule that it's only for fun. I took Angie and Eli with me to Hawaii. After a horrible start to the year, Malory and I went to Key West." I grimaced, "I don't remember much of that trip. And if I want to go shopping I can. I do appreciate your concern." I leaned over and kissed him. "There is a trust fund, but I can't touch that until I'm thirty. That's partly why it was important to go off on my own. I grew up with money, so when Jimmy said I couldn't take care of myself I needed to prove it to myself, even though I know it wasn’t completely on my own."

Sebastian interrupted, "Don't diminish what you’ve done. You started over in a new place where you knew no one or even where to grocery shop. You've got a Master's and accepted into a Doctoral program. Anyone who thinks you can't take care of yourself is wrong."

This fierce defense was very attractive. Money can be embarrassing. I realize I'm privileged, and I try not to behave like a trust fund baby. I would never go shopping as I had with anyone but Angie. I know it was a splurge.

“I just wanted to check.” I wanted to ask what if I had been, but he kept going, and I didn’t feel the need to stop him. “Back to the fun stuff. Is it bad form to buy you a gift that's really for me?"

"For my birthday or Christmas, yes. Otherwise, no. I'm not sure that sexy lingerie that gets you hard isn't as much a benefit to me as it is you."

"You realize you in sweatpants and a t-shirt gets me hard. You in a bathrobe. You in a potato sack."

"I wonder who that says more about?" We laughed and I laid across him, counting on him to support me. "It does make us both lucky."

"Oh, don't I know it."

We spent the next day touring Versailles Palace. We jumped off the tour to explore as soon as we hit the outskirts of the city. When we were out of interesting places we jumped on the metro until we saw something new to explore. Dinner was at this Ping Pong cafe. The food was delicious and fortified us for the play to come. I am just as competitive playing ping pong with my boyfriend as I am on a volleyball court. There was a lot of trash talking. What made it more fun was how truly awful we both were. Neither was sure of the rules so we argued over and made them up as we went. In the end, I lost due to a combination of unsuccessful attempts at cheating and Sebastian being slightly less awful than me. Our overly dramatic antics did amuse nearby patrons and when Sebastian was recognized he was gracious in conversation and signing autographs. We made it to the Pont Alexandre III bridge just as the sun set. It was ornate and a beautiful end to the day.

Next up was a day of museums and checking out wherever in between. We met up with a guide in the afternoon for a walking tour of Art Nouveauarchitecture. On our way back to the hotel we passed by the lingerie shop. A quick discussion later we decided not to go in. It would ruin some of the fun if the other knew what we bought. I also decided I needed to find some sexy underwear for him. I checked; he'd wear them. Dinner was my responsibility tonight. I found a rooftop restaurant with a great wine list and an even better view.

Tuesday, the day before the fashion shows, was the day I was looking most forward to. It was an early start and long trip to Mont Saint Michel. Claire had hired us a car and we napped most of the trip. The town is a tidal island and when the tide comes in it covers the causeway, only cutting off access for about an hour, but still. We parked at the tourism office and took off our shoes for the half mile walk over the mudflats. It didn’t look like a dangerous trek, but apparently, quicksand was real here.

We weren't far into our walk when Sebastian asked, "Is this Hogwarts?"

Our guide laughed, "No, but yes. The movie was not filmed here but as you will see much of the architecture is similar and the street does resemble Diagon Alley."

Sebastian looked at me, "Did you know?"

I shook my head, "I love gothic architecture and castles. Versailles was incredible, but this is a hundred times better. Stonework, stained glass, the high pointed arches." I grabbed onto his arm, bouncing on my toes. "I'm so excited. This is surreal." I held my hand out toward the Abbey. "Look at this, I mean, look at this."

He was smiling at me, "Should take you home to Romania. Lots of castles."

"Don't tease me." I let go of him and walk to stand in a small puddle. The water was cool and the sand squished between my toes. I felt like I was in the bubble from my favorite guided meditation. I put my arms out with my shoes dangling off my fingers and twirled. I stopped facing Sebastian. He had his phone out, pointed at me. "What are you taking pictures of?"

"You." He laughed, "With a castle island thingy in the background."

I heard the guide say, "Your mademoiselle is much more beautiful than the background."

Sebastian nodded, "That she is."

I walked back to them and reached for his hand. He handed his phone to our guide to take a couple of pictures before we headed on.

I was in absolute heaven. Even more so when I saw Sebastian as in awe as I was with the narrow cobblestone streets and stairways that appeared out of nowhere. Our guide had stories and let us lead, only giving direction if we were missing something. He took the lead when we approached the Abbey and guided us through spaces as tiny as closets and large as cathedrals. The arches along the walkway did look like a scene off the bridge in Hogwarts.

Our guide left us at the end of the Abbey tour and after lunch, we walked the ramparts and worked our way around looking at everything and nothing. Talking and laughing.

It wasn’t long into the ride back that I realized my thighs were aching. "What is it with Paris and stairs?"

"There's a fuck ton of them." Sebastian smirked and leaned in to kiss the side of my neck. "I will be happy to massage your thighs when we get back."

"Stretch them out?"

"Definitely."

We both retreated into our phones for a while. Neither had paid attention to them since we got here. The return trip was good for nudging each other to show a picture we took. I texted my chosen family and sent pictures. Sebastian was doing the same thing. He showed me responses on his group chat.

Charles ~ You took her to Paris? Chace ~ You can't take a woman to Paris for a first vacation Will ~ Go big or go home Toby ~ That's it. I need to meet her. Charles ~ Find a date and take the last bedroom in the villa. Toby ~ Chace, wanna go to an island with me? Chace ~ Do I have to put out? Toby ~ What do you think? Will ~ Who has the lube? Chace ~ I bet there's some in Paris.

I'd lowered my phone while I read his. Sebastian pointed to my screen, "What is that?"

"It's that app we made the list on the train."

"You need to send me the list."

"I can do better than that. Can I have your phone?" He handed it over and I went into the app store, installed, and signed into the app under my user name. "Now you can see, edit, add." I kept typing while he looked around. There was more than a sexual to do list. I was currently adding to a notebook called "Moments".

"Can I add to this?" Sebastian was in the same notebook.

"Sure." I bit my lip, "I had a thought. You can say it's stupid or you don't want to."

He put his hand on my leg, "What?"

"I was thinking since we're going to be apart for a while, we could write to each other. Not like texts talking about our day. I'd write things I want you to remember or know. When I'm missing you, I could write a couple of sentences to you or go read what you've written to me. Not any expectation of how often. Just a place for sweet things, sexy things."

I'd gotten the idea while thinking about distance and time zones and insecurity. Perusing old texts is good, but a one-stop place for just love notes is better.

"I love it." He brought me to him and met me for a kiss. "Is this for me or you?"

I had no problem with him knowing I was planning for our time apart. "You saw my love notes from high school. I love them. Texts get lost in a hundred other texts. We can even copy texts over. Pictures. You keep a gratitude journal. This is similar."

"Did you make that up?"

I shrugged, "I doubt it." I showed him how to navigate and create new notebooks. Our first notebook was "Sex To Do" We'd done that together. The one I’d been in, "Moments”, was short form memories. "Holding hands for nine hours with food and conversation.", "Waking in Paris to see you watching me sleep”, "Me showing you architecture", "You showing me artifacts".

Sebastian immediately knew something he wanted to add, I showed him how to create space between limes so he could insert his words. He was going to write in burgundy and me in navy blue. He created a notebook for longer things. He liked to write and wanted a place for more words.

I waited until he’d gotten down a thought before showing him what I'd been most excited for. "Things for Sebastian." I’d already started.

· Te iubesc, Sebasti-an

· I was so lucky to find a lost boy in a grocery store

· You always make me feel cherished and safe

"This one is for battling insecurities. You can read my words and know what you mean to me. You've said you struggle with distance, insecurity, feeling emotionally cut off. I thought this might help keep a connection."

"You've made a security journal."

I thought a moment, "I guess. We've hit a couple of bumps and worked through them. I hoped this may help keep it away over distance."

I watched him switch notebooks and read what I'd written. "Anything I write shows up for you?"

"Yes, once the app refreshes.”

Sebastian looked over with the softest smile I'd ever seen on him. "I love you." The softest kiss followed. "I tell you I'm looking for the perfect moment to kiss you and you create it. I tell you I have confidence issues and you tell me everyone hears that voice. I have a panic attack and you push me to take care of myself. I lay out my anxieties, overthinking, insecurity, and history of shutting women out and you don’t even blink. Now you come up with this way to stay connected with old-fashioned love notes." He bobbed his head back and forth. "More or less." He kissed me. "You want me to feel safe and loved."

I took a deep breath, "Partly." I was telling him my plan to battle his stuff so it was only fair I let him in on mine.

He looked at me questioningly.

"I've never been away from some I love for six weeks. I'm going to miss you and it's going to be hard. This is for me too." I am not going to cry.

His hand went under my hair to my neck, "Are you about to cry?"

"I'm trying not to, but the chance of tears Friday about noon is one hundred percent."

I let him pull me close enough to kiss, "I better get busy." He retreated to his side of the seat, stretching out a leg over my lap, and turning where I couldn't see what he was typing on his phone.

"You realize the whole point is I can see what you write."

"Don't refresh yet. I don't think we should tell each other when we add stuff."

I nodded my agreement.

He stuck his tongue out the corner of his mouth like he was thinking. He typed a bit then looked over, "If I miss you in the middle of the night, I can write you and it will be there when you wake up. I don’t know which I’m looking more forward to. Writing or reading.”

I didn’t either.

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My first thought after was "i have never experienced anything like this. And i dont think i ever will again". Now that was partly because the previews are of course done up a lot more than the day to day operations (the spooky actors come to mind) and crowds were smaller and very respectful, but it was mostely the attraction itself that sollicited that response.

Its hard to describe the experience even if you can spoil it, but ill try to avoid spoilers anyway.

The vibe when you enter the area is immaculate, very closed of and you really feel immersed in the theme, though this effect may be less when the fences are removed and max&moritz is more visible (and audible lol).

The building is even more imposing as you're standing next to it, and there's a lot more set dressing around to keep you immersed. The Kabinet der Vermisden and Broeder Gijs are great touches. I was particularly relieved to hear that the wailing of Gijs, which in other areas of the parc can admittedly be a bit annoying, was voiced in a way that suited the creepy vibe, so that didn't undermine the vibe at all.

The queuing area was nice, although i think my experience was vastly improved by there being very little wait time. This has all been public knowledge for a while now so I feel comfortable sharing, but if you wish you can skip this part, just skip to the line.

The Kruysgang, which is the first area, i can see being a little boring, as it's just a simple switchback queue with very little theming. The Kruydentuin, which is the next area, holds fewer people, is a much more interesting place to wait.

They make you wait in the Kruydentuin, as there is a gate between it and the graveyard. They allow the same number of people that fit into one show into the graveyard at the time. I personally was worried that Danse Macabre wouldn't have a preshow, as the building didn't seem to have a dedicated space for it, but the preshow is actually in the graveyard, although it is just a simple audio explanation, which might make the experience a little worse for international guest, who wont be able to get most of the lore. After this you enter the last outdoor part of the queue, after which you will be grouped. You get send through one or six corridors, corresponding with the six choir benches. The last area where you wait is very dark and spooky, and they play a lot of familiar audio clips, including the laughing of the Indische Geest and the wailing of the Jammerende man, which was a cool easter egg.

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I won't describe the ride itself, but i will say this: I was really nervous the new ride system would be uncomfortable or that it would be nauseating, but it wasn't at all. To be honest, I forgot about the ride system a few times while i was on it. Apparently people have been complaining about the noise the ride system itself makes, saying it can be heard over the music, but that might have been a technical error that was fixed by the time i was there, because i didn't notice that at all. It was very smooth, not nauseating at all. I felt like i was flying. It was awesome. It was thrilling, but not too much. The movements weren't too sudden. The show programming was great. There was a lot happening, but with the way we moved, I felt like I was able to see most of it (though I definitely need to go back, as it sounds like the show programming might change still, and there was a certain element that i won't mention here that wasn't operational the day i went).

Oh my god. The animatronics. You didn't want spoilers, so i won't say much but. They are SMOOTH.

The LIGHTING.

THE AMBIENCE.

THE MUSIC.

Last but not least, the gift shop was nice too. I wasn't able to look around much as it was very busy, but that which I did see was very cool, and the selection of merchandise was good too, a stuff people would actually want to buy. I stuck with the necessities myself, just the shirt and the pins, of course.

Another thing I can't leave out is the personnel. Of very used to Efteling personnel being happy and jovial, but in Danse Macabre they're a bit in character, as they're all very serious and somber. Instead of "have fun", they say "sterkte", lol. They were all going along with it, the troopers. Shoutout to them, it really added to the experience.

TLDR: amazing ride, amazing experience, still needs a little tweaking, but that's expected, 10/10 recommend, but boy, am I glad that I was in before the crowds.

WITHOUT SPOILING ANYTHING AT ALL

what's danse macabre like?

and please be as vague about it as possible, I want to hype myself up but also go in completely blind so don't tell me anything specific, preferably something like "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I'M GONNA PLASTER MYSELF BEHIND WALLPAPER" whether that's positive or negative

i just really want to hear y'alls first impressions because i cant wait another week but unfortunately scheduling is forcing me to

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I'm at work and not signed in but I'm thinking of moving to AZ and was wondering if you knew if the Tempe office was still looking for people? I've got a BA and I'm partly through an MA program but I don't know if I want to continue my MA and am looking for a decent job while I set up residency in AZ. I can't drive, and thanks to my ADHD I don't think working in a call center would be good for me either. I never thought I'd go into insurance but then I started thinking about it and I'm 1/?

actually intrigued, after reading all your posts. Also what made you go into insurance, and what was it like, at the beginning? 2/2

So first, message me when you are logged in and we can talk Tempe positions. My company in general, is doing a LOT of entry level hiring. They are mostly in call center positions, but not all of the call centers are alike.  And almost none at entry level are outbound or outbound sales.

So a few things I want to unpack:

1. Call Centers and ADHDThese are not mutually exclusive. I started in one, and I have a phone phobia alongside ADHD. The nice thing about my work is that it’s often WEEKS until you take your first call, and you do a lot of shadowing beforehand. I hated my call center position, but I THRIVED in it. I was able to hear better on a headset than anything else, and the work is not routine, each call is different, and that can be a bonus for someone with ADHD. A good call center will give you a foundation of material, ease you into taking calls, and support you when you have problems.2: Tempe office is right by ASU. I do not know specifics of their transit system, but I would imagine you would have some options RE not driving. (man, I wish I didn’t have to drive)

My personal story:

I got into insurance because I was a special ed paraprofessional making 15k a year, my husband was a student, and a 23k Call Center position was worth swallowing my fear (these same positions pay significantly more, now.) I came into this call center in 2008, and promptly the entire company was on a hiring freeze. I went into insurance because it was the best thing around.

I had about 8 weeks of training. I learned product content ,  procedures, and how to navigate our systems and the knowledge system. We role-played scenarios, listened to calls, learned a few strategies for deescalation. When we started to take calls, we were paired with a mentor, who was listening and helping us.

According to my husband, it was pretty similar in his claims call center a year ago.I worked in the call center for a little less than 2 years. Generally, you have an incumbency period that you have to meet before you can move about the company. Generally 12-24 months.

Call centers teach you how to immediately react to crisis, because you are often reporting problems and have to mitigate them as they happen, while systems tries to fix things.

After that, I moved into a claims-support department that determined the replacement value of contents from a loss. The department is now defunct, but this was my real introduction to insurance. Technically, this was still a call center, but with much less volume and not a primary job function.

This is when I googled for a living. This is when I shopped all day, and determined the value of Picasso’s, comic books, and beanie babies, and learned how to help people in the aftermath of their worst nightmares. I LOVED this job. It fascinated me and kept me busy. I learned the claims process, I learned the value of working fast and accurate, and even some accounting procedures.That department mostly closed (very stressful, I will add), and that’s when I snagged a promotion to Fire Underwriter. I started in Homeowners and then learned other product lines, and when the department decided to segment people to specific lines, I got the red-headed stepchildren products and it’s great. I know so much random shit now.

Basically, a lot of underwriting these days is automated. I think something along the lines of 70-80% of all applications are automated, leaving the rest for more manual review. Mine are all manual review, no automation at all. I decided to be a lot more proactive about putting myself out there, took insurance education classes and designations, etc, and it’s meant higher reviews, salary, and responsibility.

I grew to like insurance. I can’t help it, to deal with my ADHD, one of my tricks is to look for the interesting bits of what I am doing so I don’t get bored. And I grew a real love for personal lines. I’m creating a safety net --one of the most profound experiences I had was helping a woman get her TV replacement after a fire. She was under stress, Best Buy was being stupid, and I didn’t give up and got it to her. She got a little bit of normal back and someone that listened to her.

That’s the insurance industry for me, and that’s why I love it. We’re here for the worst moments of someones life.

[rosetyler42]

And many artists do that. They said they were also a teacher as well. (A famously difficult and yet underpaid and undervalued job as well.) But there are also many who do make money off art as jobs. Fashion designers like the ones who designed the jeans in your logo, writers, animators, photographers, illustrators, architects, filmmakers, toy designers, singers, making things to sell, videogame devs, even marketing design...some to supplement their income, some it's their full-time job. A number of these things make things we need possible, and others help bring joy. Why is that less meaningful than other forms of labor? And how is that any different than desk jobs aside from the fact you see them as being fun hobbies? Desk jobs are often mostly mental work too. Why are tech people and companies pouring so much into AI art if art is worthless?

(Putting the rest under a read more cuz this got long.)

Plus, not everyone is in your situation. You're most likely lucky enough to be able to find a job you can do (and keep it) that pays enough to live, even if you sell photos for extra income. Unfortunately, not everyone is able to do that, even if they have a job like the people in the pic. Even without considering disability and other factors, cost of living keeps rising while wages stay mostly the same. Places claim "No one wants to work" after people literally died or got too disabled to do their jobs anymore and make people jump through ridiculous hoops to even be CONSIDERED for a job. Alot of these hoops are designed to weed out people who are poor, disabled, minorities, etc. Even having a FAMILY is sometimes considered a liability. (Or the possibility of a family, part of the reason women sometimes have problems getting hired.) People see you as being less reliable because what if the family obligations get in the way of work? Not to mention being older and not as able to keep up with younger folks AND more likely to be disabled. (My father worked himself to DEATH of a heart attack partly because of this.) Let alone being fat, queer, or anything else. Being a woman, disabled, or being am ethnic minority SOMETIMES has workarounds, but even the fact we need THOSE speaks to how discriminatory the hiring process is. And ALOT of the queer community is disabled in some way. Whatever their other demographics. Particularly Neurodivergency, which the hiring and work culture we have now is PARTICULARLY hostile to.

And if you GET the job, there are some forms of labor disabled people can't do. Take me for instance. I have a heart condition and athsma. While I'm able to do alot, this can make heavy lifting and strenuous exercise difficult. There are certain aerosol chemicals I can't be near without protective gear like a mask, and my stamina is somewhat lower than a typical person. I have allergies and a tendency to get whatever respiratory ick is going around. I have GERD, IBS and chronic constipation, which can cause pain, discomfort and fatigue on bad days. Particularly when stressed. I also have ADHD, which can affect MANY things but most notably involves sensory issues, ability to maintain attention, multi-task, start tasks, switch tasks, motivation, emotional regulation, memory issues, etc. I can't drive. Possibly may never learn how to drive. Any number of these could make getting or holding down a job difficult. Ontop of this, we have costs and demands an abled person doesn't: I take ALOT of meds, both prescription and otc. I have medical equipment I use daily and see multiple doctors on a regular basis. Including specialists. I have to walk everywhere or take the bus, which takes time, money, and energy. I can't remember if I bought things sometimes, so I buy them again. Doing tasks can be difficult for me, even if I have to or even WANT to do them. While I did VERY well in school, I have not been able to go to college or find work for various reasons, including having taken care of family members who needed 24/7 help. And on some occasions I need to have surgery or invasive diagnostics, which both terrify the bleep out of me and take long recovery periods. And while I'm able to do many things myself, I'm on disability (which, incidentally, limits the income you can have) and have had to ask others for help sometimes.

And that's just myself, a young white cis disabled aroace, as an example. I have no idea what challenges those in the picture have, and neither do you. And as tough as things are, I'm lucky I have and have had what resources that I DO. Just like you are.

And not only does it make it difficult to WORK or LIVE, but to also do other things too, including advocate or donate to make things better. It's difficult to look out for other people when you're struggling yourself.

You ARE right, in that we shouldn't be taken care of just because we're artists. Or because we're queer or disabled or anything else. We should be taken care of because we're human and alive. We deserve to be fed and cared for because that's what humans DO for each other. What is the decent thing to do if one has the means. Looking out for each other and caring for each other is how we've managed to survive as a species. Why do you think social justice movements like Pride, socialism, feminism, and anti-ableism start in the first place? Or even support structures like family or friends? Because it's not healthy for ANYONE to have to work themselves to death just to survive, OR stress about where their next meal or rent is coming from when they can't for whatever reason. Or to try and tackle every problem in life on your own. Not to mention, but for the grace of God (or whatever higher power you believe in,) that could very easily be you.

In a perfect world, art would be free as something humans could just DO without HAVING to be paid for it. But unfortunately, that is not the world we currently live in. Like it or not, We DO live in a capitalist society that values productivity and greed over people's lives. That values "results" and "labor" over quality of life. Where art is seen as a commodity, luxury or skill to monetize if it's valued at all. And It's mentality like yours that perpetuates the very systems you claim to be fighting. The world would quickly become a dull, boring place if all artists followed your advice and stopped creating because of capitalism. And the poor disabled white (or any other ethnicity, for that matter) "e-hobo" queer artists are no less victims of the system than anyone else. Actually, they're normally MORE so since NONE of those things are valued by society aside from whiteness. And even THAT privilege only goes so far. Heck, you'd be surprised how easy it would be for YOU to end up in the same situation. Especially in today's day and age with Covid and AI photography. We don't make the movement look bad. WE'RE THE REASON THESE MOVEMENTS EXIST.

You want a world where art is free? Help us work for a work where no one HAS to sell their art to make a living. Where art is valued as art and not as a sellable commodity. You want disabled queers to work instead of asking for money online or complaining about how they can't? Help us work for a world where no queer or disabled person HAS to rely on donations to live. Where they can easy get and keep jobs they can do that will pay for their needs and not get passed over or fired because they're homeless, don't have money or access to education, have to take absences, etc. Or better yet where people can't be fired, kicked out, cut off or isolated for being disabled and/or queer.

In the meantime, either put your money where your mouth is and give these people money while brightening your own life, share the link so other people who are willing and able can find it, or shut up and let these people live their life in peace.

the look all the blue haired communist give you when they try their “i’m a non-abled intersex trans woman suffering from a plethora of diseases” excuse to get out of labour :

Why are these people, those who do no or refuse hard or meaningful labour, the face of these economic revolutionary parties?

[sweettsubaki]

Fun fact I just bought a blender for my grandma and me (OK mostly for me, she hates cooking, always have while I love it) 'cause like my joints hurt all the time even if it's a fairly low pain most of the time but it goes up easily when cooking.

But like I wanted a good one, because I already have an electric mincer for small stuff, and most of the power normal blenders have doesn't do much more (they're just bigger so more stuff done at once which, while useful, doesn't warrant the price). But really good ones often come at a high price.

So I started looking it up and... Yeah, too high a price for me (my budget it 80€ at best if I allow myself to get sick a bit by buying stuff I'm intolerant to in order to save money 'cause they're everywhere)... So I choose to chance it and go to the local shop that sells cheap kitchenware/beauty...ware? Whatever it's called. Usually good on the quality/price ratio aka it's not the greatest but it's not the kind of thing that breaks two days after you bought it. But sometimes, they've got amazing stuff that can't be sold in normal stores because the packaging is almost completely destroyed. So I thought, with any luck? Maybe.

And there it was. A blender that worked at 1300W and other great stuff. So I looked it up and it was sold between 300 and 500 € normally (depends on whether they're stores that cut the chain of production or not)... And at 100€ in this store which is generally not that high a price for a normally good blender though it does start to be a bit costly. But still out of my budget.

But there's only 1 of those blenders and it's perfect (almost, it's a Moulinex blender so you know it'll be noisy as hell). I am an impulsive mess too. Luckily I was raised by someone who grew up poor (like, couldn't eat at the end of the week poor) and was taught to at least stop and think before buying something. So I go around a few blocks, go to other stores (cheap and normal ones), I put my butt in the park to look some up online and nowhere can I see a blender with the minimum capacities I need for less than 180€. I've also obviously looked it up specifically to see the actual capacities of the machine, and it's good.

Now in the back of my mind there's the obvious running commentary that someone might have already bought it if they know a bit about blenders and saw that it was a steal.

There's still the issue of money. I had -100€ in my bank account and 50 on me.

However I do also carry what I call the Grandma-sitting purse. My grandma's money for groceries and general expenses for her. Which had a 100€ in it 'cause I was supposed to go grocery shopping afterwards.

I'd say I'm not proud of taking 50€ but I know I'll just pay her groceries at a different point and I've paying for her bread every day for 6 months (I can't eat it) and at 1,20 the Tradi I'm fairly sure I've already reimbursed her anyway. So... I'd prefer actually talking to her before I do anything like that but as said above, I'm fucking impulsive and only my education, my anxiety and my autistic traits have ever managed to temper it. In this case however my anxiety and the fact that as an autistic person I focus on specificities and cannot fucking let them go ended up highly encouraging my impulsiveness.

So I bought it. And only my education prevented me from buying the kitchenaid that came 50%off as the 2nd product and was normally at 50€ (in part bc I already took money from my grandma's purse but also bc there's just not the place for it.... Yet). It was hard though because it'd probably save me a lot of pain....

So I am now the proud owner of a noisy as hell (not joking, it's horrible even with noise cancelling earphones on, luckily my grandma's mostly deaf :D) amazing blender.

It's huge too (FYI the teapot next to it is 1.2L so it's not small)

Also I'm pretty sure it's gonna be partly reimbursed by the fact that I can make my own rice milk for next to nothing now.

PS don't mind the dishwasher I'm pretty sure it's been out of order for most of my life and isn't even connected to either water or electricity.

[wahlace-blog]

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[hikarinokusari]

I lost it all when she was litteraly jumping at 4 legs like a dog. The mindset of the character is not a problem per se, it's just ... her lines. Lame. I wasn't covinced by her acting though.

I enjoyed the episodes though. I just think some direction for the actresses, esp Leia's but at least she's a kid so well, wouls habe made things more enjoyable.

At the end of the day, even if I didn't like the characters or some of the actors' performances, partly because I think some scenes were too bland partly because ugh lines could have been way better and less useless ... you don't get a bad guy say " I AM A BAD GUY" esp before farmers like lol and it's not even in a mocking way. Even kidshow's bad guy ain't acting like that, you see what i mean ? Insecurities if any don't make an excuse nor exmplain the behavioir and the bad lines delivered. It's not even pitiful. It's the ridiculous as hell.

The show was still great to watch.

But.

It is clearly in the same shape of every other modern shows. Where the "show don't tell" in a VIDEO media has been turned into "tell don't syow". It's quite a shame and lessen the scenes. Esp for a villain.

I'll stand my ground though on No leia'q actress doesn't know how to run, she clearly doesn't look like a 10 yo and she isn't as dynamic as they SAY she is. Once again. Tell don't show, because what they are showing in speechless scene is a very slow girl. Who runs like Vanille in ff13. I just can't. But she's a kid so yeah. It's not that deep.

The jawas are wonderful. 10/10. Recommand. I love them more. Bad guys in town ? They don't give a fuck and ecen walks in the background toward their ship. They continue their business. Wonderful. They steal they client like the sly people they are. Wonderful.

Yet, even though I'm quite disappointed - as for now let's see giw it evolves as always - the balance is still positive. I just can't take the villain seriously because I don't see anything that can make it me buy her badness ( yet. I hope it will change. )

I saw a zabrak i think ? It was also cool.

The music was on top. It was great.

Obi has a weird camel. I love that creature and hope nothing bad will happen to this lovely camel.

I'm sad I haven't see Banta yet bc i thought you could have bren happy.

It's still a great thing to watch. Just the villain is worse than a cartoon villain. Yet. I'm expecting to see more than whatever this was. And not see that embarassing running scene ever again. It wasn't helping the character to be considered as nothing but ... well ... embarassing :/ this is more a problem of what the show showed this time still, speechless scene in a video media are very important and to my consumer eyes they are of the greatest matter. They show the characters/mood/thought process/narrative ... This was a failure of a scene. A character alterning between an edgy teenager, neo, ezio and a dog isn't ... buyable. But i guess it showed that she was doing A LOT of useless thing for style ~ which still brings something to the audience. Esp a lack of panache and consistency. I'm not sure the heavy rolling of eyes was something wanted though.

Despite that, I'll still watch with pleasure and enjoyment the remaining episodes.

It's been a while since I saw a villain that made me laugh and not laugh in a good way. I think i rolled my eyes at some point when she was jumping and doing some ezio useless moves. Like wtf girl. Useless moves. Stupid. Short temper. Lame. Bad lines that are meant to be punchlines but failed... Not pathetic enough to be actually good. "I am a villain" speech ... are you in a YA novel girl ? At some point I was sure she was going to say "meowth yes war war".