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Dalton Academy - Consuming Rage

Jaime was in a modest kitchen, a strong wind was blowing outside, lashing the walls, but he knew he was safe inside, smelling the familiar smell of sugar and cinnamon that reminded him of someone, someone he knew, someone who was important to him. Someone who he hadn't seen for a long time. And so he knew he could only be dreaming.

"Hola mijo..."

"¿Abuela? ¿Donde estamos? ¿Qué está pasando?"

"No tenemos mucho tiempo Jaime cariño. Siempre fuiste mi pequeño rayo de sol, tan brillante, capaz de iluminar el mundo entero...

...todavía...

.... este lugar en el que estás no es para ti...

...él cambia a todos....

...sal de ahí Jaime...

...este lugar te chupará la luz... te apagará...

...este es un lugar de depredadores...

...y en él sólo hay lugar para ellos...

...sal de ahí Jaime...

...antes de que tu luz se apague...

....antes de que te quedes atrapado en la oscuridad....

...con ellos....

...como ellos..."

The scene changed, he was no longer in his childhood home, but in front of the entrance to a cave where that same wind was blowing, stirring his clothes and hair. He was standing still, unable to move. Next to him were a bunch of puppies, three of them playing and a fourth sleeping by his leg. The mouth of the cave was dark and impenetrable and he couldn't stop staring at it. Until a figure slowly emerged from it, a creature, huge, covered in fur, eyes with a predatory gleam and fangs in a long snout, fangs that seemed almost to smile. The wolf stopped at the entrance to the cave and lay down, staring at him and the cubs with those bright eyes. Until one of them defiantly approached the cave and its occupant.

Jaime wanted to yell at him to stop so he wouldn't go. But he went. Before going back to where he had come from the wolf looked back towards Jaime and the other puppies, who were no longer playing.

Everything was silent for a moment, even the wind seemed to stop... until the yelps started.

The cubs scattered in all directions, and the same instinct to flee took hold of him, but he was still paralyzed, incapable of any movement and remained so until the yelps were drowned out by a howl, loud and aggressive that made his blood run cold. But not as much as what came next, the pup's yelps slowly becoming a howl of their own, just as loud and aggressive as the other, until both combined in unison with the rising wind noise. So loud that he didn't even realize that his own screams had joined that sinister melody.

….

"Michael, no, Michael..."

"Sanchez wake up... Sanchez!"

"Ngh... agh..."

"Sanchez! Jaime! Wake up man!"

Jaime opened his eyes, it was the middle of the night, he was lying on his bed, with the sheets turned over and his body drenched in sweat.

"Are you okay, man?"

Asked Jacob Miller, his roommate.

"I… yeah… it was just a nightmare."

"It must have been a bad one...so who is Michael?"

"Michael?"

"Yeah, you kept mentioning that name."

"I…I don't know…a friend…maybe?"

But Jaime didn't have any friends by that name. Not that he remembered.

But then why did thinking about that name bring him a strange feeling of emptiness, he thought as he listened to the rumble of his colleague's breathing in the bed next to him.

….

"Did you hear that Sanchez wet his bed yesterday?"

"Why would I care about that, Mike?"

"Because from what you told me he..."

"Not here, let's have this conversation at the club later."

It was the end of PE class and Chad and Mike were in the locker room getting changed for next period. Surrounded by classmates and the gossip that had spread through the school like fire through dry straw.

"Besides, people are making too much of what happened, as far as I know he just had a bad dream."

Chad continued as he took off his sweat-soaked training shirt.

"But what if this is a sign or ..."

"Michael!"

"Sorry, we'll leave it for later, you're right."

"And when I'm not correct?"

"Asshole"

"What happened to the King of Cleverness, Big Mike?"

"He befriended a fucking asshole."

Mike responded laughing at the inside joke and being accompanied by Chad.

"Like I said, let's talk about this later, when we're alone. Until then, we have other matters to deal with. Are you prepared to do what I instructed you to do?"

"Yes, but I don't understand how that can be possible."

"I already told you, wait and see... trust me."

"Well, I don't think I have any other choice, do I?"

"Not if you want to expand our little brotherhood with the right men."

"Edward Chang is not exactly my definition of a man, right or wrong."

Answered Mike looking at the thin young man sitting on a bench, looking extremely out of place in that environment and probably waiting for everyone to leave to change.

"What you need to understand is that he doesn't need to fit your or my definition of right, not now, aniway. Right now what our colleague needs is someone to help him fit that definition. And no one better than we to do that"

"I still don't understand how that could be possible."

"Don't make me repeat myself, Mike, you'll soon understand. Edward Chang is about to receive an upgrade and you'll be the one to deliver it."

….

To say that Edward's life in Dalton was bad would be a giant understatement. The naturally shy boy had by no means managed to find his place at school. Though every now and then he got the feeling that things should be different. But then he would shake his head and think why would they be different? All his life he had difficulty making connections due to his shyness, or as his father was fond of reminding him, his cowardice. His father could hardly believe it when Chadwick Hartfield Sr. informed him that there was a vacancy for Edward at Dalton. And this one in turn was forced to abandon the few friends he had at the old school to live with Chadwick son and his minion Michael Jones.

To be fair, none of them pestered him even once, in fact it was as if he didn't exist to them, until that morning at least. As people tended to ignore Edward's presence, sometimes even forgetting that the boy was present, he went through many situations unnoticed, which allowed him to see much more about others than others about him. And while he was waiting for the school locker room to empty so he could change without exposing himself, he couldn't help noticing that Chadwick and Michael's gazes were directed more often than usual in his direction, accompanied by that arrogant smile that both shared and that made a shiver ran down Edward's spine. He suspected that nothing good could come of it. He just didn't know he was about to find out how much.

….

"Is this seat vacant?"

Asked a bass voice, sending a shiver down Edward’s spine, who at that moment was sitting at his desk and looked up to stare at the imposing figure of Michael Jones.

What does he want with me??? It was the first thought to run through Edward's mind. He had already suffered his fair share of bullying and assaults and he knew that someone like Michael was a risk. But at the same time, looking closely for the first time into the other boy's brown eyes he felt a sense of familiarity, as if for some reason he could trust Michael, which of course was utterly absurd and...

"Dude, is everything okay? Can I sit here or not?"

"Ahn, y-yeas, there's nobody sitting there."

"Great, I believe we haven't been introduced yet, I'm Michael Jones, but everyone calls me Big Mike."

Said Michael sitting next to Edward who remained silent, not knowing what to say.

"Usually at that point the other person introduces himself."

Michael continued.

"Ahn, ahhh...yes...I'm Edward...Edward Chang."

"Edward Chang? Son of Emett Chang's ? Owner of Red Panda?"

"Y-yes...but how do you know that?"

"Well it's one of the biggest oriental fast food chains in the country, anyone with an interest in finance would know that. You must be very proud of that, no?"

Once again not knowing what to say, Edward chose to remain silent. Which this time seemed to bother Michael.

"Is there something wrong with me, Eddie? Maybe I'm not good enough for a millionaire's son to spare his attention?"

He spoke with an air of someone who thinks he's good enough for anything.

"I... no... it's not that... it's just..."

"Hey Chang, is this idiot bothering you?"

Interrupted a thin boy with black hair sitting at a desk a few seats away.

"Who are you calling an idiot, Roberts?"

Asked Mike getting up and turning towards his colleague, looking like a giant standing in the middle of the room before concluding

"Mind your own business Roberts it's all right between Eddie and me. And if you call me an idiot again I'll come over there and rip your skinny ass."

For Edward that was a frightening scene, never in his life would he have the ability to stand up and make threats like that, of course he wasn't a behemoth like Michael...

"I'm not talking to you Jones. Is this idiot bothering you, Edward?”

Repeated Jonathan Roberts, Edward’s roomate, in a display of defiance and courage that Edward knew he himself would never be capable of. It was easy to be aggressive and confident when you were the size of Michael Jones, but Jonathan was the same size as Edward and he still managed to hold his own. Edward knew what his father would say about that and it made him deeply saddened.

"You little shit, I'm going to finish you off!"

Michael said making mention of complying with the commitment.

"No, no need... I'm fine, I'm fine."

"Are you sure? You can sit here next to me Chang, you don't have to put up with that one."

Edward felt an urge to do just that. Something told him to do this. He disliked Michael and feared him, the other boy was too reminiscent of some of the former classmates who had hounded and humiliated him over the years. And precisely because of that, and because he was the avoidant of confrontation that he was, Edward decided not to follow his intuition and stay where he was.

"Yes, I'm fine, really."

"Well, it's up to you, but..."

“Stop being a pain in the ass Roberts, pick someone else to be your social project this time, Chang already said that everything is fine."

Mike said, sitting down again.

"Asshole, just because he's a senator's son, he thinks he might be some kind of social justice beacon. He came after me the first few days of school, thinking I might be some little project of his, but he was wrong. I know what I'm getting at and it won't be through his charity. Which brings us back to our conversation. It seemed to me for a moment that you didn't want to talk to me Chang. But now you've chosen to side with me. If the problem isn't me then what is ?"

Well, he was part of the problem, since Edward really didn't like him and felt scared in his presence, but precisely because of that he wouldn't do anything to displease his colleague. So he decided to be honest and say what in fact had always been his biggest problem.

"It's... that... I... it's... very difficult for me... to interact with others. Not after I know the person... but to start conversations... to impose my presence. I ... I just can't take the initial step. My dad thinks... he thinks I'm a wimp and a... a coward. That's it, it's not you but me... that... I just I am unable!"

"Well, it seems that with the right stimulus you can, after all you just did it. What you lack is a little... aggressiveness."

"I... I could never be aggressive... I'm a pacifist by nature."

"Come on man, all that genetic heritage, you're not going to tell me you've never tried some Kung Fu moves or something like that."

Completed Mike making a stereotypical move. Which for some reason triggered a flash of anger in Edward, a previously unknown feeling in him.

"Hey, not cool, man. I hate those kind of stereotypes, what would you say if I looked at you and started talking about Rap Music or basketball?"

He snapped in a firmer voice than he'd ever had before.

"Whoa, calm down brother. Apparently there's a spark of aggression in you after all."

Mike replied with that characteristic arrogant smile.

"And about your outraged statement. I don't care one bit if you think I like basketball just by looking at me, after all I might be a pro one day. And while I really appreciate the work the brothers of rap do, lately I've been trying to... refine my tastes."

"I…sorry…I've never acted like this before…I don't know what came over me."

"You don't have to apologize for everything Eddie, let alone expressing your opinion, I bet there's a lot of stuff stuck in there wanting to get out, a lot of pent up anger and aggression just begging to be tapped out and I think it's time for you to let it go.”

Once again all Edward did was stare at his colleague while analyzing his own emotions, that outburst was totally uncharacteristic, but he had to admit that at the same time it was... liberating. And digging inside himself he found exactly what his colleague had told him, not an amount, but a small knot of anger, indignation and aggression that he could have sworn had not been there before. But then again it should have been, just intentionally ignored by him, just as the others ignored him. And just thinking about it made that little knot expand.

"And there you go again, talk to me man."

"Will you shut up for a second?"

Edward exploded with irritation and a flash of red anger filling his vision. But instead of being offended Mike just widened the smile and returned:

"That's right, bro. Let it all out, but maybe this isn't the best place. Everyone's looking at you."

Which was true, Edward looked around and saw that he was being stared at by everyone, including the teacher who had just entered the room.

"Is there a problem Mister Chang?"

He asked, causing Edward to blush a shade of red as intense as his rage had been.

"No sir, I'm sorry"

He replied in a firm voice.

"I suggest you save your aggression for the courts or the mats, Mr. Chang."

"Yes sir."

Edward replied, while wondering what the fuck the professor was talking about. To then hear Mike whisper next to him:

"He's right, Eddie. It's time to put that aggression to work and I know the best way for you to do it."

"Yeah, in what way Jones?"

"Meet me at the gym after lunch."

Edward had never even set foot in a weight training gym, but he now really felt the need to blow off some steam, something that had also never happened before. Apparently today was a day of firsts for him.

"Fine."

He answered simply.

"That's my man! Eat a nice meal, loads of clean carbs and a nice steak, you'll need it."

"I'm a vegetarian!"

"Ha, the King of Char Siu Pork son a vegetarian? What a joke!"

"If you have a problem with that keep it to yourself, Jones."

He replied raising his voice.

"Calm down Eddie, we'll figure it out in the afternoon. I bet you'll find we have a lot more in common than you might think."

Concludes Mike with the brightest smile he's displayed so far.

….

At the end of classes Edward went to the school cafeteria with the biggest hunger he had ever felt in his life. As he was away from Michael for the rest of the morning the waves of anger stopped and he felt more like himself again, but the question he asked himself throughout the rest of the morning was whether he was really comfortable with being "himself," voiceless, without initiative, put down by others, including his own father... just thinking about it made him feel that pulsing energy again, coming from that unknown piece of himself that occupied a dark corner of his mind and seemed ready to expand if he gave the slightest opportunity. And as he avoided looking in that direction, he found himself invaded by another sensation, right in the middle of his belly, a hole, giant, growing bigger and bigger, a hunger that seemed want to consume him from the inside. In such a way that he was forced to act again against his habits and run to feed. He was one of the first to get in line to help himself. Dalton had an excellent team of nutritionists and cooks, capable of providing everything needed by the developing young men who attended the school. Edward had always been frugal in his eating, selecting a varied and moderate diet of vegetables, fruits and grains. But not that day. His plate was a smorgasbord of all of these in proportions that could feed three of him in an average day. But he was so hungry at that moment that he didn't mind, just as he didn't mind sitting isolated at a table as he usually did, sitting in the first empty place he found and starting to eat in large quantities the slop that formed on his plate at least until he was interrupted.

"My God Chang, I've seen pigs eat without doing so much damage."

Said a blond portly boy with a southern accent, sitting a few seats away.

"What?"

Edward asked in between mouthfuls"

"A pig, a fucking animal, like the ones my father slaughters."

"Mind your own business, Miller."

"Eating like a pig and now picking a fight with someone who might crush you. Not what I expected from you Chang."

Gregory Miller replied, taking a large piece of steak to his mouth.

Hearing and seeing that Edward found himself invaded by two unheard of desires for him, the one to punch his colleague in the face and the one to steal that piece of meat for him. But he was prevented from doing both by the arrival of a third student at the table.

"Okay, what's going on with you Chang? First that scene in class with the prince of jerks Michael Jones and now this?"

"What's happening is that it seems everyone has decided that today is the day to meddle in Edward Chang's life."

He replied, with the anger rising inside him and being directed towards Jonathan Roberts who will sit right in front of him.

"Come on Edward, you're not like that!"

"And how would you know that? We've only been studying together for two weeks, we're not friends, you ignored me for two weeks! All you know about me is nothing!"

"I... I... you're right of course, but can't you see, Michael Jones is trouble, even more so for someone like you!"

Hearing that made the anger inside Edward boil and boil over.

"Fuck off, Roberts. I can decide for myself what's a problem for me and what's not. And I'm getting out of here before I become a problem for you!"

He said getting up from the table, without looking back, leaving the two colleagues looking at each other with dumbfounded looks.

Edward walked through the cafeteria with firm steps seeing only a big red blur in front of him, and ready to go after the first one who dared to address him. With every step he took his uniform seemed to shrink, the tie around his neck was suffocating him, the sleeves of his jacket constricting his movements, his pants seemed glued to his thighs and his shoes seemed to be at least two sizes too small. He felt like an animal, trapped, tied up, huddled, ready to attack...

"Hey Eddie!"

A deep bass voice echoed through the room causing Edward to immediately turn, ready to attack.

"What?"

"Calm down man I just wanted to know if you want to sit with us."

Asked a smiling Mike Jones accompanied by a also smiling Chad Hartfield, who Edward would have judged as nice if he didn't know what an arrogant asshole he actually was. But Mike had been nice in his own way to Edward that day, so...

"Fine."

Edward replied, sitting down in front of the two of them and the biggest mountains of food he had ever seen, making the plate that he had made look small, a fact that was reinforced by the huge growl that his stomach released at that moment.

"Dude, I said you need to eat if you want to train seriously with me today."

"I ate more than I ever did in my life."

"Your belly seems to disagree..."

"If you'll excuse me a comment, a man needs meat to grow properly."

Chad interjected, popping a chunky piece of steak into his mouth.

"Apparently today really is the day for people to allow themselves to comment on my life decisions."

Claimed Edward, but with his eyes locked on his colleague's chewing. Something that both Chad and Michael did not fail to notice.

"Here, keep my plate, I'll pour myself another one."

Mike said getting up, taking off his jacket and pushing his plate towards Edward, who salivated at the sight of the miscellany of potatoes, rice, vegetables and meat, lots of delicious meat. Still he controlled himself and didn't pick up the fork.

"I was surprised when Mike told me that you decided to train with him today, in our meetings over the years I never thought you would like gym training, Edward. I would have asked you to train with me if I knew we shared that common interest."

"It's because we don't share, to be honest I don't even know why I accepted his invitation..."

"Really? I could swear you already have some training experience, the way your uniform is tight, it looks like you're wearing your little brother's clothes."

"They must have shrunk or something."

Edward replied, knowing that was not possible, as the uniform had been made from his exact measurements and had fitted perfectly in the morning.

"I didn't poison the food, you know? And I can guarantee you I don’t have a contagious disease neither."

Mike said with indignation in his voice, as he sat down at the table again with an even fuller plate than the previous one. Edward simply stared at him without answering, as was his custom, but this time the look he cast in his colleague's direction wasn't his typical shy and embarrassed look, but one of challenge.

"Okay, here, take this one."

Said Michael exchanging the new and untouched plate for his old plate. And taking a mouthful of that delicious looking food to his mouth, making Edward look away so he wasn't staring, which unfortunately made him face the new pile of food in front of him, looking just as delicious.

"What's the matter now?"

Mike asked with his mouth still half full.

"Manners, Michael. I think what Edward means by the silence and the defiant look is that he won't eat."

"Come on bro, if you don't eat it you won't grow."

"And who said I want to grow?”

"If you don't then why did you agree to go to the gym with me?"

"I don't know... to blow of steam I... I guess."

"And what steam will you have if you don't eat, dude? Eat!"

"I already ate!"

"Do you think a handful of vegetables will get you this?"

Mike teased, crossing his arms making his muscles bulge.

"You need meat, the more meat on your stomach, the more meat on your bones! Come on, you know you want it!"

Edward's instinct was to deny it, but the smell of the roast beef, the juiciness of the meat, next to the mashed potatoes felt like a calling. And the size of Mike's flexed arm was also, of another kind, but it was. He felt hunger, hunger for the food in front of him and a different kind of hunger he'd never felt before, something awakening inside him, a companion to the rage that expanded inside him and had grown claws that dug in his very being. But this was different, it was a well, dark and deep, it was hunger and thirst, it was desire. Desire to grow, desire to be a giant like Mike and Chad, and that desire shot through his body like lightning, strangely erotic, until it hit his cock, which instantly became erect.

"Eat, man"

Edward looked back at Mike, who had an encouraging smile and Chad who again seemed to drop his usual superior air, and shared a knowing smile with him. And he felt it all together, the excitement, the desire, the erection and the rage, the hot, searing rage, enveloping everything. He wanted to scream, he wanted to punch the colleagues who encouraged him to betray his principles, he wanted to go to his house and have a fight with his father, demonstrate to the old man that he wasn't a bloody coward. But he didn't do any of that, what he did was take a mouthful full of food to his mouth and chew. And he chewed, initially letting the taste of meat he hadn't consumed in years overwhelm his senses. The pleasure that the food gave him was added to the pleasure that deep well of desire brought him which almost made him cumm in his underwear right there, in the middle of the cafeteria, surrounded by his classmates. But nobody noticed. And he, who a few minutes ago would have been mortified by what happened, barely paid attention. Because a second mouthful followed the first and then many others, fast, full of food, in a frenzy, turning the plate of food in front of him into a kind of sickly porridge. Which Edward looked at with a startled look as he finally set his fork down beside his plate. Had he done that? Eaten all that? What the fuck was going on!?

"Here, drink it, it'll help all that food go down."

Chad said in a much friendlier tone than Edward remembered hearing from him as he handed him a box of milk, which he unthinkingly picked up and downed in one gulp, with milk dripping down his chin, mixing with the food remains that were there and falling on his uniform.

"Who knew you were such a pig, Chang!"

Mike commented with a cheerful mocking tone.

"Fuck off, Jones"

Edward replied, while he began to feel a strange bubbling sensation in his stomach that rose through his chest until...

Burrrp

"Such a pig, Chang! But I expected more from the Pork King's son. Something more like ….

Buuurrrp

"You guys are disgusting."

Chad commented, but with an appreciative smile.

"I'm sorry your majesty if the nouveau riche and the children of workers don't share your elegance."

"Shut up, Michael. I can't believe I'm going to do this..."

Said Chad, taking a second box of milk, emptying it under the watchful eyes of his two colleagues, without spilling a single drop of the contents on his impeccable uniform, returning it to the table and...

Buuurrrrrrrp

"That's how it's done, you assholes. Eddie may be the Pork Prince. But here at this table, I'm the king...."

Buuuuuurrrrrrrrrrp

Edward let out the biggest burp up to that moment, interrupting Chadwick's speech and making the two colleagues look in his direction and burst out laughing, in which he accompanied them for several seconds.

He didn't know why he did all that, none of it was natural, he had avoided meat for years and he was lactose intolerant!!! Although that explained the belching! A thought that renewed his laughter.

As that scene unfolded the colleagues at other tables watched, some with looks of disgust, others admired, others like Jonathan Roberts truly confused with no idea what was really going on there. And neither does Edward. The erotic feeling was gone, the rage was pulsing slowly, appeased and the well of desire was placid, sated by the hour. So was his belly, which was straining the buttons on his shirt and jacket. As he laughed, he felt a feeling he'd rarely felt before, a sense of belonging even though he knew he wasn't like Mike and Chad, that he didn't have their size, their strength, their courage... it made the waters in the well inside him stir as he realized that he really wanted this for himself, wanted to train with Mike and even wanted the company of Chad, which he had avoided for so many years.

"Damn, I really look like a pig."

He said as he wiped the laugh tears from his face.

"And definitely that uniform has shrunk, it looks like I'm all wrapped up."

"Let's do this, first we go to your dorm so you can change in your training clothes and then to ours so I can lend you spare uniforms. They'll be big on you, but that's good, it means you can grow in them."

Mike said, still smiling

"Thanks bro."

Edward replied, which further widened the other's smile.

"That's nothing, bro. Are you coming too?"

He concludes by looking at Chad.

"Go ahead, I'll meet you later at the gym, I won't miss this.”

………

Changing clothes was a bizarre experience. While taking off his shoes he didn't find the small, delicate feet he remembered but two big, smelly ones. Edward didn't have an explanation for that, although a little voice in the back of his head told him it was wrong. Strangely, with his rage asleep he didn't seem to be able to care. The same happened with his uniform, which even ripped when removed, exposing a defined physique. Which made Mike comment admired:

"Wow, man! I had no idea you were hiding the game. You'll have a much better starting point than I expected."

The truth is that Edward wasn't expecting that either, and looked at himself in the mirror.

As he admired himself that voice in the back of his head returned: that's not right you're not like that! Which in turn send a red flash inside his head, causing the rage to take over again.

"Why the astonished tone Mike? You thought I was some wimp, is that it?"

"No man, I'm just glad you have a good foundation to work on."

Edward accepted his colleague's explanation, as he looked for a pair of shorts, all concern with the changes in his body forgotten. His boxers were tight, but he would never take them off in front of another man. Before looking for a T-shirt he took another look at himself in the mirror. Damn, how had he never noticed he was hot?

Edward ended up opting for a tank top that his father had forced him to bring and that he thought he would never wear. But then came the biggest problem, none of his shoes seemed capable of supporting the size of his feet, what the hell was he going to do? That's when he saw Jonathan's closet and with a sly smile grabbed a pair of his roommate's sneakers. Under Mike's watchful eye and equally mischievous smile.

"I didn't think you'd be capable of something like this, Chang."

"I'll buy him a new pair, I'll have to buy new ones to myself anyway."

Edward replied as he slipped on his roomate size 11 sneakers which he thought would be a little big but in reality were a perfect fit. People tended to think that small feet were a feature of all Asians, well that wasn't the case for him, after all at 6 feet tall his base of support should be good.

"I wonder what that crybaby Roberts will say... probably something like: it's the principle of the thing that matters and not the material value!"

"I'll deal with Roberts later, I'm looking forward to getting back to training and I want to see if you're going to be a good training partner or if you are full of bulshit."

"Do you have the nerve to say that to someone my size, scrawny boy?"

"In a fight, size isn't everything, Big Mike."

"I thought you didn't fight... that it was a stereotype and blah blah blah..."

"You think I'm obligated to know how to fight Kung Fu is a stereotype. Which doesn't mean that I don't know how to fight and that what I fight is Kung Fu."

"And what is it then?"

"Soon you will find out."

Edward replied, as memories of hours and hours of training took up a permanent place in his mind where an annoying little voice once dwelt.

….

While the two kept their things in the locker room at the academy, Edwar voiced a question he had been dying to ask

"So what's it like sharing a dorm with Chad Hartfield?"

"I don't know man... He's cool, he asked me to join the Crows and everything. But you've known him all your life, not me."

"We haven't met that often...in fact before today I...well...I kind of avoided him, but now… Like you said, he's cool. I never imagined he was capable of doing what he did at lunch today, You know? Chill Out and just be one of the guys. He always gave me an air of arrogance and superiority...

"Perhaps if you had given yourself the opportunity to get to know him better... and besides, why would he be your superior? Your father is much richer than his."

"That's not how it works, Mike. My father may have more money, but the Hartfields are Old Money, they have a name, status."

"I know that, and you think Chad himself doesn't suffer from it? Do you think he can be the way he was with us today with anyone else? With everyone around him ready to judge him for stepping outside of what's expected? What did he do in front of you today, exposing himself like that he won't do with anyone else he doesn't consider a true friend and you can bet that at the tables next to us there were people in his circle judging him for doing what he did did and he will probably have to pay for it. But I'm actually glad we gave him the chance to be exactly what you said, one of the guys.

"I... I never thought there was more to him than... well... than the arrogant asshole who seems to have the world at his feet."

"Ah, but he really is an arrogant asshole who has the world at his feet."

Mike said bursting out laughing before continuing.

" And that's exactly what I admire about him, he's relentless, ambitious and knows his place in the world, but he's loyal to his friends. The kind of man I admire and want to be. In fact, today I saw some traces of that in you brother, I think you should explore them more."

Traces of that in him? Never! Edward thought, but at the same time he had stood up to Gregory and Jonathan and shared a laugh with Chad and Mike who were exactly that kind of people and there was still that anger boiling inside him... maybe he wasn't so different from Chad after all. ...

"So are we going to wait for him or what?"

"Nah, he catches up with us later, plus I want to see you demonstrate the crane move or whatever you call it."

Edward braced himself for another wave of rage, but this one didn't come, because to his complete astonishment, he ended up laughing.

"Dick."

That's what he managed to say between laughs to his new friend. As he felt his perception of the other change he realized that this is what Mike had become, a friend. A kind of friend he didn't think he could enjoy having so much. Mike didn't care much if he was going to offend someone or not, he said what he thought and if someone got offended… they will have to deal with it. And Edward...Eddie...realized he liked that, that freedom to say whatever he wants to say. There was no need to be offended, it was a silly joke, made in camaraderie.

"What? Want a taste of it?"

Answered his friend, holding his pouch and bursting into a laughter so genuinely that Eddie followed him again without a flash of anger. It seemed Mike and his ways appealed to that new corner of Eddie's personality in such a way that it would take more than a few jokes to rouse the abrasive waves of anger he was now familiar with. And Edward was fine with that, because if he could be honest with himself he was scared of what he was becoming. However, before that thought could gain strength, it was interrupted by Mike

"That's enough, otherwise we'll never train, I thought we'd lift some weights and then you show me some of your moves, no jokes this time, I really want to see what you're capable of, bro."

Said the other boy with his usual smile.

Eddie could have sworn he'd lifted weights before, he had the memories to prove it, didn't he? But as Mike guided him through the different machines and stations it felt like the first time. He would have given up if he didn't hate the idea of being seen as a weakling by his colleague. So every time that cowardly urge to stop took hold of him he gladly embraced the wave of red rage his brain sent throughout his body giving him the necessary strength to continue. Mike's encouragement helped too, ranging from jokes that eased Eddie's tension, teasing that fueled his anger, and praise that softened his ego.

They had opted for a full body workout. Starting with the work on the arms. But when he saw the weight of the dumbbells that his friend handed him, Eddie faltered.

"What? Those weights are supposed to warm you up brother! I thought you knew how to train..."

"Shut up Jones..."

He said taking the dumbbells and starting the exercise. And indeed, with each curl he did the weights felt lighter. So much so that at the end of the series Mike placed dumbbells in front of him with twice the weight, without saying anything, just staring at his friend with a challenging look. Edward in turn responded by picking up the weights and nearly dropping them. Which sent his anger shooting up, giving him the strength he needed to reposition himself and try again.

"Come on brother! I want at least 10 reps, no excuses."

He urged while positioning himself next to Eddie.

"... seven... let's go."

"Talking is easy..."

"...so don't talk man, do it!"

"... nine and ten! Two more let's go!"

"But you said ten..."

"And I thought you weren't a wimp."

Anger exploded inside Eddie.

"I will kill you!"

He said, while doing another curl

"You can try, but first make one more! And... twelve! Hell Yeah! Who's the man, you're the man!"

Mike spoke, as Eddie's anger dissipated, for the joy of having achieved it and for what seemed to be genuine joy in his friend's voice.

"Look at those arms man, you're exercising your constitutional right to own guns!"

And Eddie looked, he didn't remember his arms being that big, it must have been the pump,... although arms that big didn't grow overnight and... whatever... he flexed both arms, that it was so badass!

"Look at this!"

"Yeah, man! Come on, two more times and then triceps!"

After the triceps it was the turn of the shoulders, and the chest. Again Eddie was amazed at the weights that his friend put on him, only to him overcome them with ease and see them being doubled.

"...come on man, even my sister can bench press more than that."

"Shut...up...you piece of shit!"

"...ten, Man Up, dude! Eleven and... twelve! Well done Chang! Now legs! Let's turn those little chicken legs into something respectable!"

"I'll show you what those little chicken legs can do, dickhead"

"I really hope so, because at the moment I'm not impressed. Let's go there, barbell squats and deadlifts and then you can try to fulfill all your empty threats."

"....and twelve! Well done brother! Look at those quads and those calves! They belong to a real man and not a wimp!"

"Who are you calling a wimp, Jones??"

"Certainly not you, Chang!"

Said Mike extending his hand to a High Five that Eddie was delighted to reciprocate. Yeah, he was a real man, more than that, he was a god among lesser men, he thought as he admired himself in the middle of the gym.

"If you're done admiring yourself pretty boy, I think it's time for you to put yourself to the test on the mat."

"Are you sure about that, Big Mike? I'm not going to feel sorry for rubbing your face in the ground just for the pleasure of getting your annoying smile off."

"You might be surprised, Chang."

"Unless you train in some kind of martial art and haven't told me it's unlikely."

"Basketball has always been my sport, bro. I never trained in martial arts and kept off the streets. Still, I want to see you try take all this down."

Said Mike taking off his tank top and showing muscles definitely much bigger than Eddie's.

"I've told you before Mike, size isn't everything in a fight and besides I'm not that much smaller than you."

"In your dreams, scrawny boy!"

Mike retorted, leading his colleague to the mat in one of the multiple training rooms of the giant Dalton sports complex, taking off his sports shoes and socks and putting himself in a waiting position, while he waited for Eddie to do the same.

"Come on, show me all you've got... wimp."

Even though Eddie was no longer irritated by his friend's teasing, he let the anger overwhelm him, this was a fight after all and he didn't lie when he said he wanted to rip off his friend's arrogant smile. He then went all out on him, aiming a punch at the other's face. Who deflected it with one hand as he slapped Eddie lightly across the ear, as if he wasn't even worthy of receiving a real blow, which made his anger boil with indignation.

"That's all you've got, Chang? It’s pathetic!"

"You'll see who's pathetic, Jones."

Eddie replied, the red wave of anger involving everything around him as he applied a kick, once again deflected by his friend, who even took the opportunity to knock him to the ground.

"Like I said, pathetic Chang. I thought you knew how to fight."

"I know!"

Eddie responded by standing up and ripping his tank top off.

"Empty words, Chang. Maybe I was wrong, maybe you have nothing in common with me and Chad, maybe you're just a weakling."

Said Mike while dodging another punch given by Eddie knocking him to the ground.

"I'm not a weakling."

Eddie replied, repositioning himself.

"Then prove, prove that you don't belong there, on the ground, crawling around like a worm!"

"Ahhh...."

Eddie yelled, delivering a new blow only to see him dodged again.

"It seems you are nothing but a coward and a weakling."

Said Mike turning his back and giving the impression that he was going to leave the mat, his face and voice mixing with those of Eddie's father in the red mist of his conscience.

In the middle of it all Eddie launched himself on Mike, trapping his friend's neck in a powerful rear naked choke and then taking him to the ground and repositioning himself on top of him in a mount.

"Who's the weakling now? Huh? Who, Big Mike?"

Eddie asked, full of rage.

"Never turn your back on the enemy, bro. Who's the weakling?"

He repeated, seeming to grow in size, muscles pulsing and swelling. Holding tighter and tighter as his friend tried to free himself from that deadly grip.

"Don't even try to let go, I'm a black belt in Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu, you were right, the ground is where I belong. But I'm not crawling, I'm not a worm. No worm is my size."

And he was right of course, he was big by any standard of comparison, giant arms, powerful legs ending in huge feet and a chest bigger than a barrel, and contrary to every stereotype a huge dick and a couple of big balls. Which even motivated his next provocation.

"Hey Big Mike, tell me, how does it feel to have a real man's dick rubbed in your face?"

"Ungh..."

"I didn't understand, sorry, I don't speak weakling language"

"I give up, man I give up."

"Who is the king of the mat?"

"You you!"

"Great, next time save your opinions for the basketball court where it belongs, I'm in charge here!"

Eddie said, finally getting off his friend and letting him recover.

"Wow man, if I had known that I would never have accepted your invitation to train. You fooled me so well."

"I didn't fool anyone, you fooled yourself and I wonder how it ever crossed your mind you could win to all of this!"

Said Eddie showing off his powerful and huge physique to his friend.

"Come on brother, we're almost the same size, but I’m still bigger than you."

"I know, but I'm tired of telling you that size isn't everything in a fight. Even if I were a twig I could still take you out. Ask Chad, he's been following my fights since I started training."

"I know, I know. He told me that, I knew what I was getting myself into, but I still couldn't resist, a mistake I won't repeat. Man, I stink, I need to take a shower before next class."

"Me too...shit, now I'm really going to have to buy Roberts a new sneaker."

Eddie replied showing a torn tennis shoe to his friend, who once again burst out laughing.

"But what was the idea of getting such a small sneaker? How much do you wear anyway?"

"I wear a size 13 but I don't know what happened to my stuff, I think the staff sent my brother's clothes by mistake... so it was either Roberts sneakers or going barefoot but I could have sworn they fit right ."

"Well, now you're going to have to go barefoot anyway, dummy. I could have lent you a pair of mine, but I wear a size 15. Or you could have told Chad, he wears the same size as you ."

"I don't know man, I didn't mean to bother him."

"What are you talking about? You've known each other your whole life, you've been friends since childhood, of course he wouldn't mind! Why you would think that?!"

"Well, so far he hasn't asked me to join the Crows and... don't take this the wrong way, you're a cool and you're his roommate, but given our history I thought I'd be the first to be called."

"Assholes, both of you! Chad was worried because you hadn't asked him in yet, he thought you knew you were in without him needing to call."

"Fuck! I thought..."

"Clearly thinking is not your best asset, Chang"

"Want another demonstration of my best asset, Jones?"

"I'm good man, I'm good."

Mike responded by raising one hand in peace as he called someone with his cell phone in his other hand.

"Hey, dumbass. I thought you were going to come train with your best bros. Ah, an important matter came up...more important than us? We'll show you who matters most. Eddie and I will be waiting for you in the locker room, bring a pair of your shoes because the idiot forgot his. Oh, and bring along a formal letter inviting him to the Crows, because apparently for you rich kids if things are not done formally it has no validity."

"Asshole."

Eddie said, apparently at the same time Chad was saying the same thing to Mike on the phone.

"Oun, how beautiful is the harmony of childhood friends. A tear came to flow here."

He said pointing to his own dick. Though only Eddie could see it and burst out laughing once more.

"See you later Chad. We'll be waiting for you in the locker room, don't forget the shoes for Chang."

He ended it by hanging up the phone and looking at Eddie.

"Problems solved. Frankly, I don't know what you rich guys would do without me. Just don't expect me to wash your gorilla backs, Chang."

“Are you kidding Jones? I bet you'd love the chance to admire a real man."

"You better save your bets for my games or your fights, man. I know that you have a lot of money to spend, but it's better not to waste it on things that will never happen. Also, when I want to see a real man I just need to look in a mirror."

…..

"I thought you'd stick around to help me with Chang's transition."

"I went to make sure everything was going well with Sanchez."

"And?"

"Apparently that sort of thing is to be expected."

"Fine, not pretending I totally understand, but fine."

"Even I don't fully understand Mike. I've prepared my whole life for this and yet I've had surprises. That... clowning... at lunch today, I'm pretty sure I've never done anything like that in my life and yet it came naturally to me."

"I thought it was awesome, I used to have burping competitions all the time with my friends at my old school."

"Disgusting, Michael."

"You didn't seem to think so while you were doing it."

"Yes, and that's what's weirdest, I really enjoyed myself in an unexpected way. But that kind of thing can't happen anymore.”

"Man, letting go a little from time to time will not destroy our plans, on the contrary, I believe that was precisely the moment that secured Chang for us."

"Maybe... then how well did you do?"

"Soon you'll see, but I admit it was... strange, you saw the beginning, but then things accelerated and I... just went with the flow... as if the right words to get the result I wanted pop out of nowhere in my head and... it was bizarre... it was like turning him inside out... you should have seen it to understand."

"I believe I understand Mike."

"No man, there's no way you can understand, not without seeing it. There's no way to fully describe the transformation from a wizened boy to a mean muscle mountain."

"You'll have to trust me on that one. What about the rest?"

"Like I said, it was like he turned inside out, we might have issues with his aggression at some point, but to be honest I liked this new him, liked a lot. He's the type of guy I'd like to have by my side, a bit crude but really fun. And he seems to think of you as a dear childhood friend."

"Great, so now we just need to formalize the thing."

Well, there won't be a better time than now. He's just getting out of the shower.”

"You took your time Chang, I thought maybe you drowned or something."

Commented Chad with the giant totally naked in front of him.

"You should know how long it takes a man my size to wash up, Hartfield. And Jones hasn't even had a bath yet. What was it that the two of you had so important to talk about?"

"About you actually."

"Oh, and may I know what you had to say about me?"

"How my childhood friend could be so stupid as to think I wouldn't invite him to join my club."

"Well, you took your time too Chad."

"Only because I thought it was obvious that I wanted you there, Eddie."

"So I'm in, simple as that?"

"Simple as that brother, what won't be so simple is the task I have to give you, but I bet you'll still enjoy every moment of it."

#male tf #mind change #reality change #jockification #corruption #fratification

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TEETH

primera parte.

¿se sellará la indescriptible atracción que sentías hacia Park Sunghoon con el pinchazo de un colmillo?

pair: vampire! park sunghoon x f!reader (no hay descripciones específicas de cómo luce físicamente, así que puedes imaginarla como quieras <3)

summary: sólo te diré que está inspirado en la canción teeth de enhypen, vampire academy y hierarchy ;)

warnings of part 1: menciones de mordiscos, sangre y ataques de pánico (si hay alguno más no dudes en decírmelo¡!). also, la academia se llama bram stoker en referencia al escritor de Drácula

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¿Qué tenía Park Sunghoon que siempre conseguía dejarte sin respiración? Podía ser su característica belleza principesca, casi digna del llanto de una voz poética romántica inglesa que la llamaba desde la desesperación de sólo ver fealdad. Podía ser su caminar, simple ante los ojos de los principales catadores de modelos que deben crear ellas mismas con cada paso la pasarela, pero demasiado elegante como para ser tan simple. O simplemente era el hecho de que era el ex de tu mejor amiga.

Él cortaba tu respiración desde la incertidumbre. Una chispa de interés provocaba que tu mirada quedase atrapada en su belleza, en su caminar, en su identidad. O, la identidad que él debe tener sin ningún juicio último que lo destinase así salvo la existencia de tu mejor amiga, la cual lo hacía en un ex y, por tanto, alguien que jamás debe traspasar las líneas de lo desconocido. Pues no debes saber quién es Park Sunghoon verdaderamente, no debes sentir interés ante él ni definirlo de una manera que no se resuma en tres catadoras palabras: frío, egoísta y narcisista.

Así debía ser Park Sunghoon en tu perspectiva, dentro de tu propio juicio crítico. Una sombra de fealdad y no de la belleza que tus ojos tan inocente e involuntariamente percibieron. Una imagen despectiva, para nada atractiva ya que, ¿por qué querrías a alguien frío, egoísta y narcisista en tu vida?

Pero aquella fijación silenciosa e indeterminada que tu persona padecía sufrir ante el imponente Park Sunghoon no coincidía con los asentimientos de cabeza que siempre le regalabas a Aerin, tu mejor amiga, cada vez que mencionaba a este "ser sin corazón", como ella lo definía. ¿Estaba bien juzgar a una persona sin conocerla? ¿Dejarse llevar por rumores emitidos por una clara e indiscutible subjetividad? No, claro que no lo estaba y tus padres, especialmente tu madre, te lo había inculcado, repitiéndote la misma reflexión cargada de tolerancia millones de veces, demasiadas este último verano, antes de ingresar en la prestigiosa academia Bram Stoker. Lugar en el que conociste a tu nueva y aclamada mejor amiga y lugar dónde tu secreta fijación tan vergonzosa ha nacido con el nombre de Park Sunghoon.

Jamás te habías sentido de esta forma hacia alguien en tu corta vida de veinte años. Era una constante consciencia que, si vuestros ojos se encontraban, se volvía similar al encierre que una historia produce sobre ti, llevándote consigo a lo más profundo de sus páginas, una absorción plácida que en ningún momento te hace considerar tu necesidad de libertad individual. Podía sonar demasiado particular e intenso esta comparación, pero de verdad lo sentías de esa forma: tan irreal. Más razones que hacían que tu curiosidad creciera hasta lo superlativo, quemara hasta tu propio sentido común.

Y es que cuando hacías contacto visual con Park Sunghoon, un indescriptible nacía. Una pregunta sin respuesta, una negación sin argumento. Pero, sobre todo, una atracción con, lo que parecía, una imaginaria justificación. Porque, a ver, sí, eras reservada y observadora. Una Luna que debe sentirse atraída a un Sol y no a otra Luna. En cambio, eso no sucedía así contigo. Sunghoon, otra Luna era el centro de tu capacidad de sentir atracción por alguien. Y no eras muy fanática de los romances entre personas similares, más atraída hacia los polos opuestos.

Esta ferviente situación comenzó a principio de curso, la primera vez que su persona, junto con la de su famoso grupo de amigos, entró en tu campo de visión. Con tu uniforme negro con corbata azul, te sentaste en lo que los alumnos denominaban Comedor -cafetería en tu antiguo instituto- y, jugando con la tirita de un corte en tu pulgar que el libro que te encontrabas leyendo la noche anterior causó, Park Sunghoon apareció.

No hubo una primera impresión. No hubo una reacción. No pensaste nada. Las acciones del protagonista de la novela que leías hicieron que, ante hombres reales, no hubiese estándar alcanzable. Sí, la belleza de Sunghoon era arrebatadora, digna de ser observada por más de cinco segundos o un minuto, pero no sentiste esa necesidad. Fue como ver una obra de arte que no resonaba contigo, aunque fuese la obra más destacada y más bella de todo un siglo de artistas galardonados.

No sentiste nada, pero al mirar de nuevo hacia tu mano para seguir observando la tirita, tu piel se encontraba lo más erizada que jamás la habías visto. Una piel de gallina casi enfermiza, con las puntas de las uñas de tus manos temblando. La confusión reinó por completo tu mente, expresándose en un ceño frunciéndose. Te acariciaste la piel cuestionándote su estado, y tus yemas de los dedos casi no la sentían. Te incorporaste un poco en la silla, colocando tus manos en tu regazo, intentando calentarlas un poco, mientras decidías no darle mucha importancia y pensar en otra cosa. Y, a la vez que decidías olvidarte de ello, tus ojos parecieron tener otra opinión distinta a la de tu mente, pues se dirigieron directamente a lo que habían visto antes de centrarse en la tirita. Tus párpados los cubrieron casi buscando detenerlos pero ya era demasiado tarde.

Unos ojos negros, profundos como el carbón, ocultos entre una piel extremadamente pálida, casi sin vida, asomándose entre dos líneas de oscuridad dada por pestañas, unos ojos brillantes ante la luz del comedor pero aun así tremendamente opacos, capturaron todo tu ser, aunque solo deberían haber capturado tu mirada. Ahora sí, la piel de gallina fue sentida. Ahora sí, los rápidos latidos de tu corazón dejaron de ser ignorados por tu cerebro. Ahora sí, tu lengua empezó a quejarse de su sequedad. Ahora sí, habías notado aquel indescriptible.

Desafíamelo con biología o con física, pero sentiste como si Park Sunghoon te hubiera activado, encendido, creado. Por aquella milésima de segundo que aquel contacto visual duró, Park Sunghoon pareció autodenominarse como dueño de tu cuerpo, controlando tus acciones con una simple mirada, manipulándote a su semejanza. Pero esto no era posible y, buscando ignorar la grandiosidad de las nuevas emociones que acababas de descubrir en ti misma, tras ver como él, sin inmutarse, rompía aquella conexión, miraste hacia otro lado.

Lado en el que se encontraba Aerin y el resto es historia.

Ahora que te encontrabas observándola durante largos periodos de tiempo, buscando que no se enterase de las miradas furtivas que le estabas lanzando a Park Sunghoon inconsciente de las mismas y el cual se encontraba bajando las barrocas escaleras de la entrada principal de la Academia, notaste la gran diferencia entre él y Aerin.

—Entiende que, por mucho que ya hayan pasado dos meses desde mi ruptura con el ser desgraciado...— Hizo una mueca con los dientes que los dejó pintados de su llamativo pintalabios rosa. Rápidamente gesticulé el mensaje y, sin vergüenza alguna, pues Sim Aerin nunca sentía vergüenza de ella misma desde el ser desgraciado; y tras una sonrisa que, como siempre, nunca le llegaba realmente a los ojos, continuó. —Lo que equivale a tres meses en el curso y por tanto, el final del semestre, he decidido dar un evento—.

Sonrió triunfalmente. No era la primera vez que Aerin hacía este tipo de "eventos", término con el que realmente definía una fiesta privada dónde lo ilegal se volvía legal por el dinero en la cartera de papá, el director de Bram Stoker, tataranieto del verdadero Bram Stoker. Nunca habías asistido a aquellas fiestas encubiertas porque eran para los alumnos SSR, es decir, los hijos de los principales dirigentes, tanto económica como políticamente, de la alta sociedad del país. Estos alumnos se diferenciaban del resto con una corbata carmesí y, aunque no pareciese real, no había un clasismo encubierto. No existía a diario una gran diferencia entre ellos y el resto de alumnos. De esta forma, que Aerin se hiciese mejor amiga de una de las estudiantes nuevas becadas de tercer año, tú, no le sorprendía a nadie.

Ni siquiera existía un trato especial para con estos alumnos por parte de los profesores. Es como si ellos hubiesen con su personalidad y acciones, hecho olvidar al resto de su verdadera posición social. Gesto que se observa en cómo no existía un grupo de populares diferenciados intocables. Salvo el grupo de Park Sunghoon, alumno obviamente SSR que junto a sus amigos Heeseung, Jay, Jake, Sunoo, Jungwon y Niki; se mantenían como el único grupo en todo Barm Stoker conformado por sólo alumnos SSR de distintos cursos.

Aerin y tú érais del mismo curso que Sunoo y, pese a lo anterior mencionado, Sunoo había mantenido plenas conversaciones amigables contigo e incluso él te consideraba una amiga. Pero no del grupo que, desde tu punto de vista, parecía una fraternidad llena de secretos.

Podía ser que era por malas experiencias del pasado, pero una parte de ti siempre esperaba lo peor de Aerin, o lo peor de Sunoo. Todos ellos compartían esa sonrisa que jamás llegaba a sus ojos, un gesto que, bajo tu juicio, resonaba a una amistad llena de un vacío que jamás se podría cubrir. Aunque también podía ser simples suposiciones, pues Aerin no había sido mas que amable y Sunoo, más de lo mismo.

Cierto era que habías notado una ausencia de envidia o celos de los alumnos de tu rango hacia ellos. Ni una queja, ni ningún mal deseo. Ni una revolución. Es más, parecía que estaban deseosos de tener la atención de los SSR, especialmente de Sunghoon, la cara de la Academia. Un deseo que no compartías y que, siempre que escuchabas conversaciones en el baño de las chicas o tus compañeros de clase te comentaban algo entre as líneas de "ojalá poder estar con ellos", la extrañez era sembrada en tu interior. No te habías acercado primero ni a Aerin ni a Sunoo y no creías que hubieras tenido esa necesidad si ellos no lo hubieran hecho. Y, con respecto a Sunghoon, mientras sus ojos no se encontrasen con los tuyos, escapar era todavía posible.

—¡Qué buena idea!— Dijiste sin saber muy bien qué responder ante la noticia de otro evento al que, por normas establecidas desde un criterio un tanto desconocido para ti, alumnos de tu rango no estaban invitados. Aerin frunció el ceño rápidamente y sentiste un miedo irracional a haber dicho algo equivocado o a que hubiese notado tus miradas furtivas hacia Park Sunghoon. —¿Por qué el desinterés?— Su comentario, como tantos otros que desde su ruptura con Sunghoon te había dirigido, volvió a descuadrarte por un instante. Pero, y similar a lo que siempre sucedía, como si se hubiese acordado de algo tremendamente importante, ignoraba su propio comentario, en este caso una pregunta, para continuar con su monólogo, volviendo a sonreír de esa forma tan... SSR.

Aquel cambio en la actitud de Aerin hacia ti en instantes como éste fue paralelo a su desastrosa ruptura con Sunghoon. Dos semanas tardó Aerin en darse cuenta de que verdaderamente Sunghoon iba en serio en aquella conversación que, sin querer, habías escuchado un sábado lluvioso de noche, volviendo de la biblioteca de la Academia, dirigiéndote a los dormitorios que te correspondían, los de los alumnos no SSR, los azules. Además del lujo, la única diferencia con los otros era que se encontraban en un edificio separado de la Academia, al aire libre.

El libro de Literatura Universal era bastante pesado y ocupaba incómodamente gran parte la circunferencia deforme que tus brazos doblados y unidos realizaban para poder agarrarlo. Tus bailarinas negras sin tacón conseguían no hacer ruido al entrar en contacto con el suelo de baldosa a cada paso, siendo sólo posible escuchar el ruido de la lluvia. Hasta que, justo cuando ibas a girar la esquina para seguir con tu recorrido, la voz de Aerin te hizo pararte en seco justo cuando te ibas a adentrar en el pasillo en el que ella estaba.

—¿Cómo que quieres romper conmigo? ¿Tú sabes con quién estás hablando ahora mismo?— Su voz sonaba con un toque de ferocidad que jamás habías escuchado en ella al sólo conocerla desde hace un mes en este momento. El silencio le respondió. —No sólo asientas con la cabeza, Sunghoon. Eso siempre me ha sacado de quicio— Recordaste cada vez que asentiste como respuesta a una pregunta de Aerin y fue ahí donde empezaste a notar esa sonrisa SSR y, así, el modelo de sonrisa SSR.

Escuchar el nombre del mencionado te cortó la respiración del susto. ¿Por qué del susto? ¿Qué es lo que pasaba? Seguías confundida por cómo te estabas sintiendo mientras tratabas de pegarte a la pared, escondiéndote. Apretaste más el libro contra ti.

Entonces escuchaste la voz que llamaba al latido de tu corazón a revolucionarse, como si fuese dueña de ellos, de él. Pero no de manera romántica, sino de una forma primitiva, casi depredadora. Sonaba grave, aterciopelada y un poco nasal. A tus oídos, estúpidamente un Beethoven. ¿Cómo era posible que una voz fuese catalogada de esta manera por cómo tu cuerpo se sentía al escucharla? No sabías.

—Cállate. Me tienes harto, Aerin— Frío.

—Nunca quise esto y sólo acepté por mi padre y lo sabes— Egoísta.

—Ah, espera... No me digas... ¿Te has enamorado de mi?— Narcisista.

Podías hasta casi oír la sonrisa ladina burlesca con la que había pronunciado aquellas palabras.

Fue tal y como Aerin en dos semanas te describiría a Park Sunghoon.

Sus palabras tan duras envueltas en el sonido tentador que su voz era te aterrorizó por completo porque, en vez de cesar todo aquel juego que considerabas individual del observar el efecto que Park Sunghoon tenía sobre ti, no cabía en tu cuerpo la necesidad de volver a jugar. Así, te fuiste de aquel pasillo sin escuchar más.

Dos semanas después te "enteraste" de lo sucedido y, a partir de ese encuentro, notaste el cambio en Aerin y el esquema, además del espejismo, en el que todos los SSR parecían estar dentro.

—Bueno, olvida eso. Lo importante es que, esta vez, estás invitada— Dijo Aerin cambiando de actitud mientras daba saltitos y te abrazaba efímeramente. No te dio tiempo a corresponder el abrazo. —¿Cómo? Pero, ¿eso es posible? ¿No va contra las normas?— Aerin te miró como si tuvieras tres ojos y no dos durante un momento, para después ignorar tu negación. —Todo está permitido y es legal, creo que ya sabes quién soy— Se rio y la mención de su identidad te produjo un escalofrío.

La principal razón por la que existía una aparente igualdad entre los alumnos era porque nadie hablaba de quienes eran en realidad. Todos lo sabían, pero ellos jamás habían forzado ese conocimiento en el resto. ¿La razón? Desconocida. Así, te reíste nerviosamente, haciendo como si no hubieses escuchado sus palabras. Los ojos de Aerin brillaron. Respuesta correcta.

—No acepto un no por respuesta. El impresentable va a estar allí y necesito a mi mejor amiga para que me apoye— Su brazo rodeó tus hombros mientras os girabais para ir a clase, apareciendo Park Sunghoon en tu campo de visión, el cual estaba hablando con Heeseung y Jake cerca de la escalera por la cual le habías visto bajar inicialmente.

Estabas tan centrada en Aerin que pensaste que Park Sunghoon sólo había bajado las escaleras para después desaparecer, pero parece que había estado ahí todo el tiempo tras encontrarse con sus amigos. Fue inevitable no mirarlo mientras se te secaba la garganta y decías un "Claro Aerin" al no poder dejar jamás que ella te pirase mirándole. Aerin casi paró en seco tras darse cuenta de la presencia de Park Sunghoon. Tras titubear un momento, retomó el paso a una gran velocidad que te sorprendió. Así, con tu mente sumergida en la sorpresa, tus ojos aprovecharon para dirigirse hacia él y tu corazón latió con fuerza. Como siempre, Park Sunghoon parecía inmune a hacer contacto visual contigo. Te miraba como si estuviera mirando al vacío, haciendo un contacto similar al que haces al confundirte y sonreírle a una persona que en verdad, estaba mirando a otra parte.

Así habías llegado a la conclusión de que, en verdad, debía de estar siempre mirando en otra dirección. No provocabas en él lo que el provocaba en ti. Además, no sentías que el mismísimo Park Sunghoon mirase en tu dirección las mismas veces que tú le mirabas.

Tu interior quería su atención, la necesitaba de una forma que nunca conseguía dejar de sorprenderte. Pero él seguramente miraba a Aerin, arrepintiéndose estos dos últimos meses de su decisión de abandonarla, de ser ese Park Sunghoon frío, egoísta y narcisista, de no ser él. La conexión tan individual que sentías hacia él te hacía pensar de esta manera, apenas sin conocerlo. Unos dirán idealización, otros dirán una búsqueda de entendimiento de tus propios gustos. Yo digo una satisfacción de los deseos de tu yo más profundo que parecía que sólo él podía brindarte...

Pero él estaba por Aerin. Estabas convencida.

Pero oh, cómo te equivocabas.

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Tras llegar al comedor casi escapando de su ex, Aerin te sentó en uno de los bancos, justo al lado de Sunoo. La miraste con duda, temiendo su reacción ante el encuentro con Park Sunghoon. Pero, para tu sorpresa, y en contradicción con sus apretados puños casi blancos por sus puntiagudas uñas, estableció. —El evento es este sábado, siento que te avisara tan tarde pero me estaba asegurando de que pudieras venir con seguridad y déjame decirte que... qué segura estoy— Pronunció esto último mirando hacia el horizonte, gesto que te descuadró un poco. Miraste a Sunoo, el cual te la devolvió con una sonrisa ladina. —¡Hay que prepararse!— Le sonreíste de vuelta mientras un sentimiento asfixiante se asentaba en tu pecho. Lo llamaste hambre pero y tras comer, el hambre no puede durar... ¿verdad?

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Park Sunghoon no estaba mirando a Aerin precisamente. Desde que te vio por primera vez, todas sus convicciones de haber estado vivo temblaron -y mira que ha estado vivo por mucho tiempo-, ya que fue observándote (y después de hacerlo) cuando fue totalmente consciente de que no estaba ciego, de que sus ojos observaban una realidad cuyos colores sólo podía conocer a través de ellos, que realmente observar es una acción impersonal en la que el objeto que ha conseguido toda su atención, se vuelve lo más importante para él, aunque sólo sea por un segundo, una milésima, un simple pestañeo.

Cuando Park Sunghoon te observaba, no podía centrarse en nada más. Pero esta esclavitud de su concentración no estaba producida por resultar cautivado ante tu presencia, no. Era porque, por muy irracional que sonase, Park Sunghoon se sentía responsable de cada movimiento que hacías, cada respiración, cada paso. Era totalmente exasperante. Poco a poco, su sanidad se veía intoxicada por ti y, cuando eran tus ojos los responsables de su gran carga, Park Sunghoon quería más de ti. ¿El qué exactamente? No tenía ni la remota idea. O de eso se intentaba convencer.

Tampoco, según él, tuviste ninguna influencia en su decisión de terminar su trato, su engaño con Aerin. Y, tras ahora abandonar el hall con su ex, tampoco sintió las inmensas ganas de que te dieras la vuelta, volviéndole a brindar toda tu atención.

—Parece que Aerin te sigue odiando, Sunghoon— Sim Jake mencionó mientras que, con los brazos cruzados en el pecho, hacía una mueca de cansancio hacia donde Aerin antes se encontraba contigo. Eran primos lejanos y, tantos años juntos (demasiados), habían creado una atmósfera un tanto extraña. Su pelo rubio se movió también, al nunca estar tan controlado por Jake como le gustaría. Esto lo distrajo por un momento y no se fijó en como Sunghoon siguió mirando hacia aquella salida, contemplativo. Gesto que no paso de largo por Lee Heeseung.

—Ah, ya.— Fue simplemente lo que Sunghoon le respondió. A esto, Jake gesticuló con cierta energía.

—¿Esa es tu reacción? ¿No estuvisteis saliendo juntos durante todo el verano?—Sunghoon miró a Jake con cierto aburrimiento.

—Nunca fue seriamente— Jake miró con shock a Heeseung mientras cerraba la boca.

Heeseung, tras mirar un segundo a Sunghoon, hizo contacto con Jake y tras ver su sorpresa, rompió su silencio. —¿Qué? ¿No lo sabías?— Jake negó con la cabeza un poco, todavía sorprendido. Heeseung rio mientras le daba un suave golpe en el brazo. —Eso te pasa por siempre irte a Australia en verano— Jake lo empujó y comenzó a caminar hacia el comedor, negando con la cabeza.

—No es mi culpa que mi familia sea de allí— Refunfuñando, fue seguido por Heeseung. Sunghoon, un tanto sonriente ante las reacciones de su amigo, les siguió también, unos pasos por detrás.

Jake, que iba unos pasos más por delante, se giró y, tras dirigirle una mirada de disculpa, se colocó junto a Sunghoon. —No pasa nada, Jake— Rio este último mientras Heeseung esperaba a que llegasen a su altura, aprovechando para seguir observando la actitud de Sunghoon. —¡Perfecto entonces! Porque me acabo de acordar de la gran noticia. Aerin hará otro de sus eventos este fin de semana—.

Llegaron a la altura de Heeseung y Sunghoon simplemente resopló. —Vamos Sunghoon, el rol de vegetariano no te va muy bien—

Heeseung miró a Jake de soslayo, esperando que no siguese por ese camino. Sunghoon se tensó al momento. —No soy un asesino—.

Su tono frío le recordó a Jake por qué era un tema sensible pero, buscando reconfortar a su amigo, continuó.

—Tranquilo Sunghoon, es sólo pasarlo bien. Nunca ha muerto nadie así que no deberías— Heeseung interrumpió. —Mejor cambiamos de tema, ¿vale?—

Siendo el mayor de los tres, tanto Jake como Sunghoon dejaron de mirarse para asentir y continuar caminando. —Ahora que lo pienso no se si suena tan bien... Aerin va a llevar a su amiga, así que será su protegida— Jake lo mencionó con toda la buena intención del mundo, pero a Sunghoon no le gustó ni un pelo el tono decepcionante que usó Jake ni la mirada compasiva que Heeseung le dirigió.

Una necesidad casi primaria de prohibir a todo aquel que no sea él de mencionarte en los términos a los que Jake se refería perforó sus instintos y casi llegó a hablar para expresar tu súbito estatus como suya. Claro que Sunghoon fue el primero que se paró a sí mismo, extrañado ante sus sentimientos y negando absolutamente una posibilidad de necesitar protegerte o, peor aún, de morderte.

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Llegó el sábado sin anormalidad ninguna. Tampoco era como si estuvieses esperando algún cambio en la monótona vida académica que llevabas, o eso te repetías continuamente. El final del semestre se había dado el día después de que Aerin te invitara a aquel evento y de que te lo anunciara. Así pasaste el miércoles, jueves y viernes sin clases en tu dormitorio sólo compartido por ti y tu soledad. Aunque no sólo estuviste pudriéndote en tu cama con un buen libro, sino que también quedaste con Aerin y Sunoo en una especie de bosques interiores que existían en la Academia.

Un diseño arquitectónico que jamás habías visto, pues toda la academia se encontraba cubierta de patios interiores con la única excepción de la salida a los dormitorios de los alumnos azules.

Acostumbrada a las ventanas y, especialmente, a estar en contacto con el Sol, la estructura de las aulas y de la academia entera en general te resultó al principio un tanto agobiante. Techos infinitos que formaban triángulos afilados apoyados en altas paredes que sólo se encontraban agujereadas por ventanas en lo más alto. Escuchar por primera vez las campanadas de lo que parecía Notre Dame te había sorprendido. Antes de trasladarte, sabías de la apariencia tétrica de la academia, pero cada techo formaba un escondijo perfecto para el mismísimo Fantasma de la Ópera.

Pero nadie más que tú parecía extrañada, así que la normalidad fue sencillamente fácil de alcanzar.

La tela roja que conformaba tu vestido imitaba a tu propia piel al abrazarse con gracia y elegancia a la silueta de tu cuerpo. Sunoo te había convencido para elegir aquel vestido, haciendo hincapié en su gusto exquisito, cualidad que la misma Aerin no compartía pese a ser también una alumna SSR. Ella vestía bien, pero Sunoo más. La mirada indescifrable que Aerin te había regalado tras verte con aquel vestido a la salida de la academia (el evento se celebraba en una de las tantas casas sofisticadas de propiedad del director de la academia, es decir, del padre de Aerin), provocó una cierta inseguridad en tu apariencia. Fue Sunoo que, tras encargarse de tu pelo, asesinó cualquier sentimiento de duda.

—Estás exquisita—Estableció tras hacer contacto visual a través del espejo que el chófer de Aerin siempre traía consigo. Tu ceño se frunció ligeramente ante el uso de aquel adjetivo entre los tantos similares que podría haber usado pero, centrándote en la Luna que se dejaba ver a través del cristal, sonreíste con gratitud.

Aerin con su vestido verde oliva también lucía absolutamente preciosa y, la forma en la que había mencionado a Sunghoon con tono de venganza, entre las líneas de "se arrepentirá de haberme dejado" tras Sunoo alabarla, sonaba más a una auto convicción que una promesa.

No decidiste prestar atención a cómo siguió la conversación porque... Sunghoon. Una adrenalina provocada por un estímulo que no sabías muy bien identificar se había asentado en tu vientre, haciendo casi temblar tus manos. Ahora el hambre era adrenalina.

Tu intuición te avisaba de que hoy no iba a ser como las otras veces, una presa que consigue escapar por la indiferencia de su depredador. Hoy, tu intuición te hacía asesina de tu propio juicio, o eso es el destino que ésta selló. ¿Iba a ser así? No tenias la prueba científica... ni siquiera sabías exactamente por qué te sentías así. Pero, cada vez que Park Sunghoon se hacía camino entre tus otros pensamientos hasta llegar al centro de tu mente consciente, la adrenalina se descontrolaba. Morirías de hambre a este paso.

Aunque tu juicio, todavía vivo, no quiso atender, ya que ¿por qué pasaría algo con Park Sunghoon justo hoy tras tres meses de simple atracción no correspondida?

De nuevo, erraste en el primer momento en el que estableciste que a Park Sunghoon le eras indiferente.

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El trayecto fue corto y simple, lleno de ilusión. No sabías que te esperaba y la cantidad de anécdotas que Aerin y Sunoo te contaban hicieron que tuvieses grandes expectativas. Tenías pensado pasarlo bien, intentando ignorar tus presentimientos, ya sean malos o buenos. Además de que todo iría bien, como muchas veces Aerin y Sunoo habían repetido porque ibas en calidad de su "protegida". Todavía no habías entendido muy bien qué significaba aquel término y las respuestas evasivas de Aerin no te aclaraban nada. Pero como estabas centrada en disfrutar del momento buscando cesar tu personalidad de naturaleza tan responsable que te ahogaba con el constante recordatorio de la existencia de consecuencias que tus actos podían llegar a producir, no insististe más.

Hasta que los viste. Varios pares, casi centenares, brillantes y puntiagudos, escondidos, casi tímidos en las distintas bocas por las que se asomaban. Colmillos.

Entrar en la fiesta que se estaba dando en la piscina no supuso ningún alteridad de tu intención inicial: pasarlo bien porque todo iría bien. Ni rastro de colmillos, nada. Simplemente te extrañaron dos cosas. La primera: ¿cómo una fiesta con tanta gente tenía tan poca iluminación, dependiendo solamente de la luz de la luna para ver? Aerin te habló de un apagón temporal. La segunda: ver la cantidad de parejas que se encontraban besándose en el cuello. Sunoo te dijo que eras demasiado inocente, hecho probablemente cierto.

Nada alarmante, nada alterante. Hasta que, tras estar bailando cinco canciones seguidas con Aerin y Sunoo (realmente te lo estabas pasando en grande), un pin pon con un borracho Jungwon y un descanso en la cocina con Jake y más conocidos; te excusaste para ir al baño.

Llevabas cerca de dos horas en aquella fiesta y sin una gota de alcohol en el estómago (sorprendentemente sólo había vino y Aerin no te lo recomendó al ser de mala calidad, pese a, después y desde la cocina, verla bebiéndolo), pensaste que buscar el baño no iba a suponer un gran reto. Pero te perdiste y caminando por el segundo piso sin rumbo alguno, la suerte preció estar de tu lado cuando lo encontraste.

Todo iba tan bien, tan perfectamente bien que mientras acercabas tu mano al pomo de la puerta entreabierta sonreíste para ti misma, sintiendo que habías juzgado todo demasiado meticulosamente, dándole la razón a tu madre. Hasta que lo escuchaste.

—Muérdeme, por favor— Una voz femenina y un sonido de piel desgarrándose rompieron el silencio de aquel blanco pasillo del segundo piso y, levantando la cabeza, viste a un Heeseung mordiéndole el cuello a una chica que no conocías haciéndolo sangrar.

Tus mofletes se calentaron y te apartaste rápidamente. Los gemidos de ella y los gruñidos de él anularon cualquier sonido que pudiste llegar a hacer mientras te alejabas, buscando volver a la piscina. Buscabas quitarte aquella imagen de la cabeza, aunque la sorpresa era indudable. Sabías que había gente a la que el dolor le producía placer y nunca te habías considerado una de esas hasta que viste aquella sangre corriéndole por su cuello. ¿Por qué tu cuello no paraba de palpitar?

Bajaste la escalera y echando una ojeada al primer piso para distraerte, volviste a encontrarte con la misma posición. En este caso, era Jake con una chica que tampoco conocías. Rápidamente seguiste bajando las escaleras, llegando al porche. Tu corazón latía demasiado fuerte y decidiste pese a lo que Aerin te había dicho, beber el vino servido. Necesitabas alcohol para quitarte aquella sensación.

Así te llevaste el vaso a la boca en la soledad de una desierta cocina. Todos estaban en la piscina bailando o besándose el cuello, pues la cantidad de parejas parecía haberse multiplicado desde el inicio de la fiesta. Verlas así te devolvió el recuerdo de lo que minutos antes habías visto y, ya sin dudas, te llevaste el vaso a la boca.

Un sabor metálico y un tanto caliente hizo contacto con tu lengua. Escupiste al momento. ¿Por qué aquel vino sabía a sangre? Abriste la nevera con la necesidad de quitarte aquel horrible sabor de la boca y las viste.

Más de veinte envases de plástico con etiquetas que ponían nombres de distintos animales en rojo te recibieron tras abrir la nevera. Era sangre de animal. El estómago te dio un vuelco y sentiste arcadas. Rápidamente fuiste al grifo y bebiste agua pese a nunca gustarte beber de él.

Mientras te limpiabas la boca notando que el gloss todavía resistía en tus labios, lo que habías visto anteriormente ya no te pareció una simple coincidencia. Así, con el ceño fruncido y una valentía calculadora, te acercaste a la piscina y observaste tus alrededores,¡. Destellos blancos similares a perlas parecían reflejar la luz de la Luna en aquellas parejas que ya no estaban unidas por un beso. Mirándolo mejor, era un mordisco.

Tu respiración se aceleró casi entrando en un ataque de pánico hasta que viste la figura de Aerin y Sunoo. Sintiéndote infinitamente aliviada, ibas a empezar a caminar para ir hacia ellos hasta que Sunoo abrió la boca tras acercarse al cuello de Aerin y viste con tus propios ojos como los dientes de Sunoo se transformaban en afilados colmillos que perforaron la piel de Aerin, haciéndola sangrar.

Las caricias de Aerin y sus ojos cerrados por placer fue la señal que necesitaste para darte cuenta de que había un consenso, de que esto era normal, de que esto era lo que pasaba en estos eventos.

Tu mente empezó a dar muchas vueltas, especialmente por el hecho de que no sabías muy bien qué tipo de culto de imitación vampírica se estaba llevando a cabo. Tu respiración se aceleró y entraste de nuevo en la casa, buscando escapar. Subiste la escalera hasta el primer piso sin darte cuenta de que Jake podría seguir allí (tampoco pensaste en ello del estado de shock en el que estabas entrando). Esta vez subiste hasta arriba de todo, no parando en el segundo piso. Necesitabas alejarte de fuese lo que fuese que estaba pasando abajo y, por alguna razón, ir arriba del todo. Necesitar ir arriba del todo.

Rápidamente, llegaste a la cima de las escaleras que consistía en una puerta ligeramente normal para el lujo del resto de la casa. Estaba entreabierta y la brisa nocturna salía de aquella. Justo lo que necesitabas en ese momento, lo que más anhelabas en ese momento estaba detrás de esa puerta. Así, cumpliste esa necesidad abriéndola y penetrándola.

Con las manos en los bolsillos y sus dos mechones de flequillo moviéndose en un dócil aleteo que la brisa nocturna provocaba, la figura esbelta e imponente de Park Sunghoon te recibió y sus profundos y mortales ojos se clavaron en tu persona sin titubeo ni expresión, pero con la intensidad de un contacto anhelado en sueños.

"Él es lo que necesito, mi sueño cumplido"

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notes 1: la segunda parte está en camino y esta semana estará terminada... no tengo pensado hacer más así que esto sería un one shot de dos partes (?). aunque si se me ocurre algún drabble pues quién sabe juju. espero verte en la segunda parte ilysm <3

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notes 2: omg!! el primer fic en español que escribo por aquí... veremos. si te ha gustado puedes dar un like y rebloguear y, si te sientes amable, un comentario me haría super happy. no he visto muchos blogs escribir en español de enhypen e intimida un poco 🙂‍↔️ solo espero que te lo hayas pasado bien leyéndolo como yo escribiéndolo jusjus. i love you <3

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