#pain. agony. suffering even

[cqcandchill]

off to see sunset rubdown and this is the third establishment i’ve been to in a week that doesn’t have moscow mules. i’m devastated. what does a bitch have to DO around here to get a good fuckin ginger beer cocktail

[rigels-nigels]

whadda fuck

we're licherally neighbours

[vvindication]

somehow lost my container of tylenol and had to go looking for the few I'd spilled earlier like a scavenging animal. fml

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

[lynxxfield]

the worms in my brain demand friday night funkin art

[furutetalks]

this freaking dude man

[stormyoceans]

okay so who's gonna write the fic where phum comes down with a really high fever and ends up having nightmares about being left alone and all peem can do is holding him tight and stroking his hair and shushing him gently and repeating 'im here' over and over again

[jedimemery]

“If I ever were to lose you…

…I’d surely lose myself.”

[strawbsonmars]

[eksentrismi]

A bunch of pixel arts, though this time it's Sharikov here yet again <3 I've been rotating him in my mind for the last few days tbh, lmao. I really really need to finally finish reading the book someday + rewatch the movie....

Also imagine if there was a video game-adaptation with graphics like this.......

[babygirlbenpaul]

[cqcandchill]

2 am craving dumplings and roasted duck congee so bad… one thing i miss about living in vancouver is the 24 hour chinese restaurants

[bumblingbabooshka]

Let's put the angst back into pon farr - the deeply rooted shame

[merverelli]

"im a magician, i just dont bang on about it"

missing marvin the magnificent hours </3

[gxlden-angels]

My therapist and I have determined I have what I'm gonna call James Brain

It's basically a moral OCD subsection where it feels like every "bad" action is just as bad as any other "bad" action. Something like snapping when you're hangry feels like it's the same as robbing that person at gunpoint. It's based on the verse that's usually interpreted as all sins being equal:

"For whoever keeps the whole law and yet stumbles at just one point is guilty of breaking all of it." James 2:10

[avidenthusiastoftomfoolery]

Strawberry Blond by mitski but it’s:

A king singing about his hand and how they’re perpetually on the cusp of spring but never quite being able to just lie in the grass side by side and watch the clouds go by. It’s about how the hand’s once snow blond hair is now stained with the king’s blood. It’s about how instead of cutting it off and waiting for it to grow back the hand decided to embrace the changed color. He wears it as a reminder of spring. It’s about how the king watches as he loses him over and over and over again. It’s about a king that will forever lie in a moment of agony, seconds before spring, forever frozen in the snow.